#self love is a bit hard

[lifeismarvelous]

imagine a world where I wasn’t an artist and these were made by someone else

if you were to tell me these were all made by the same person I wouldn’t believe you

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Learning to celebrate the little wins!

[spliceyblues]

Sketch dumping these WOMEN 😩💖💖💖

we need more art of these two so I hope I did them justice, I’ve been practicing how to draw them in my style and here are the results

[madbard]

I can’t stop thinking about Siffrin and Loop as the knife’s edge between self-love and self-hatred.

To realize that there is a part of you that no one will ever recognize. That you can be so violent towards yourself and so compassionate, that there is a world where you destroyed everything you ever loved and a world where you were saved. To look at yourself and see that you have changed, are changing, every moment of every day, but some things remain the same. To know that you can try to kill the person you once were, but they won’t ever go away. Not really.

To find happiness and solace while knowing that there is still a part of you, somewhere, that is broken and lonely and unreachable, that may not ever know that kind of peace. At the same time, to feel like the people around you love some other version of yourself, someone brighter and better, someone you will always feel disconnected from. In both cases, to resent that broken part of you, that better version of yourself.

To discover, too late, that you can’t do this alone. You need people, certainly. You need people who care about you, who will look for you when you are lost, who will reach out to you in darkness. But even more so, you need the ability to call for help, to guide your people towards you. You need the will to save yourself.

And calling for help is an act of love. And regretting your mistakes is an act of love. And despising the things that have caused you pain is an act of love. It is looking out at the world, eyes narrowed, hands balled into fists, and believing, deep down, that you don’t deserve to suffer. And love is fierce, violent, and destructive. And love begets violence. And there is such a thin boundary between love and hate.

Loop loved Siffrin, and hated him. Siffrin loved Loop, and hated them. As they both loved and hated themselves. As they loved and hated themself.

And looking at your own reflection, at the wrong you have done, and offering forgiveness? Refusing, in the end, to continue to harm yourself? Acknowledging the role you played in your own suffering, and understanding that this does not invalidate the pain you felt back then? The pain you will always feel?

That is an act of love.

That is an act of love.

[owlheartt]

Something I really like about timebomb is that Ekko actually knows what he's getting into.

I'm not really seeing it get talked about but in season 1 they mention that Ekko and the firelights help people addicted to shimmer get off it and lead more fulfilling lives within the community. I should probably rewatch the scene for the exact wording (might be misremembering tbh) but that comment implies A LOT.

First: Ekko's mission is helping people where he can, he would probably try and help Jinx even if he wasn't in love with her

Second: He has experience dealing with severe mental illness as that often goes hand in hand with drug abuse, namely depression/suicidal ideation like what Jinx was exhibiting

Third: He's probably mapped out best course of action FOR dealing with this and has already figured out his own limits/boundaries. Meaning he knew what he was getting into trying to talk Jinx out of suicide, and was thus more equipped to deal with the aftermath

Fourth: He's probably helped ex members of Silco's gang. The firelights seem to have a theme of healing and repairing and recovering, so they've probably also learned to forgive. If they're mission is to rebuild the lanes into a safe space, they can't exclude people they don't like, they have to make room for them. I think they fought Silco out of necessity, and I doubt Jinx would be the first person they help who's killed one of them.

These all might be a bit of a stretch but I think it really fits. Beyond that, it shows that Ekko can ACTUALLY help Jinx. As much as unconditional love can do, Ekko has the tools for Jinx's recovery and a path ready for her. He also probably knows that her "healthy" will look different from AU Powder's "healthy." On top of that, I expect he knows how to respect her even in the middle of psychotic breaks and won't agitate her already frail mental state

[affluent-havoc]

Inspired by this comment

From this post of mine!

[cybertron-smash-or-pass]

TFA Cyclonus

[tekkenenjoyerblue]

Living off the land

[borealing]

i was going a little off about how well the squid game 2 narrative is put together as an act 2 of your classic act 1: establish, act 2: deconstruct, act 3: destroy (either the system or the players) dystopia narrative (in this case the act is a season but e.g. in the hunger games it was books) but unfortunately i was with my parents and cheering when thanos got chin stabbed and to defend (?) myself i said "i promise im not enjoying this as much as it seems like i am. im actually enjoying it more"

[banyanas]

hey wait listen to me. Consider Grime not knowing Sasha was an Actual Child until after she'd already earned her steel (and done so noticeably younger than your average toadlet did) and thus by toadish traditions was considered ready for adult combat and responsibilities

[phanrenaissance]

tell me what the video Basically, I’m Gay means to you?

daniel howell why did you send this ask to every phannie tumblr account you could find .

[aroanthy]

kiryuu sibling stasis post-32 is so interesting to me. nanami tries to leave and is (temporarily but also, crucially, violently) prevented from doing so by touga and akio. after this experience she puts distance between herself and them: she leaves touga’s phone in the car, she resigns from the student council (though she dons her old uniform still), she repeatedly dismisses and undermines the authority of the rose code, of end of the world, of akio, of touga. but she’s still in ohtori, isn’t she? uncomfortable with the idea of leaving, uncertain if it’s really possible. she tried before, and it hurt her. deeply. it’s so interesting to me, nanami’s agency and how she limits her exertion of it after 32, when she realises it for what it is. contrast that with touga, who accepts this weird stalemate between them, who is, really, uninterested in having any relationship of any kind with nanami if he can’t gain something from her. he’s very passive with her after 32, compared to the passivity he’d always feigned towards her before in order to stoke reactions from her and then exploit them. i was thinking about how touga has always been able to sever his relationship with nanami, but chosen not to; first out of a sense of obligation (‘we should live to help each other’) then a realisation of how that could be exploited. i was thinking about how nanami has never realised her ability to leave, in part because it is limited by touga and the harm he does her. i was thinking about the desperation and confusion akio calls out to anthy with as she leaves. i was thinking about how different that is to the kiryuus’ strange semi-breakdown; touga doesn’t want or need nanami, and nanami might love her brother but she cannot trust him or feel safe around him, doesn’t want to see him anymore; she’s itching to leave, and just a little scared (you know, because last time she tried that her brother assaulted her), and he’s not doing anything because ignoring her means he doesn’t have to deal with the emotions of her leaving or staying. something something gendered power dynamics something something tragic siblings

[madamescarlette]

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[gingeredmink]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBRIS!! I still can and will cry while dropping an essay analyzing Tatsuki cause this game hit so many points for me. Spoilers for game theories + alt versions without overlay under cut

Really playing with the concept of Tats just drowning in their fantasies and their only friend that truly seemed to understand them being a product of their imagination because in reality they were alone and who they were deep down was dying from all their problems ;-;.

[yourhealingjournal]

we have suffered enough; we’re allowed to be happy

[coconut530]

AND THEY WERE ROOMMATES