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[ssaalexblake]

                             ~These legs definitely used to be longer~

[howlsofbloodhounds]

I was thinking about color and killer, and beats and kin, and the idea of codependency.

The big thing with Beats and Kin is that they’re both introverted, and Beats is extremely avoidant of people they don’t know and aren’t familiar with—deeply distrustful of people, to the point they’ll run and hide if approached or have panic attacks if they can’t.

Whereas Kin just seems to be highly independent and introverted, preferring to mostly be alone with just themself and Beats, Beats has something deeper going on as well as their introversion in general.

Forcing Beats to try making friends and talk to people when they don’t want to will be very bad for their mental health and will shatter their trust in the person forcing them to do so. Kin, acting as their big brother and sort of guardian figure, isn’t afraid to set and maintain boundaries regarding how people are allowed to talk to Beats, who is allowed to, how many are allowed to, and when they’re allowed to.

Kin can be very possessive, territorial, aggressive and protective—due to their dragon stuff I’m pretty sure. But they’re like this with all of their friends and teammates, such as getting protective and defensive of V when Kin felt the other V (girl, purple hair, werewolf V), was being disrespectful and rude to their companion.

Kin isn’t controlling, however. The control they do have regarding Beats and their boundaries seems to be things that Kin, Beats and possibly Maestro (Beats’ parent), have talked about and discussed in detail before.

Kin doesn’t prevent Beats from making friends or talking to people if they want to, which they rarely do anyway. Kin doesn’t stop Beats from talking to, spending time with, and maintaining their relationships with the other few people that Beats’ feels safe with—which is basically mostly just Kin, Maestro (Underbeats Gaster/Beats’ parent), Nico (Underbeats Papyrus/Beats’ younger brother), Uncle Grillby (Underbeats Grillby and Mae’s childhood friend), Underbeats Muffet, and potentially Blindy (Kin’s master/AU’s Gaster, who Beats calls their ‘other dad.’)

Beats also seems to be on okayish terms with Abyss Team members such as Abyss (who they see around often enough to be familiar with) and Mecha (gave him a flower to cheer him up), familiar with and trusting enough of them to approach them first; even if Beats doesn’t seem to yet consider the two friends.

There was also a brief drawing where Color and Beats were drawn by another creator talking and sharing some of Beats’ favorite drink together (milk), but Beats’ creator reblogged that post joking something along the lines of how Beats would immediately get scared and magically disappear. Something like that, suggesting that Beats wasn’t yet comfortable with Color at the time.

The two were described by their creators as something like eachother’s “comfort zones,” and neither really want to leave their bubble—but when one does on occasion, the other won’t try to stop them, and eventually the one who wandered off will come back to their “comfort zone.”

Even if the two can sometimes get jealous or insecure or sad when the other seems to be making more friends and connections, the other is also usually happy for them (happy that they’re happy), and doesn’t try to prevent it or make the other feel bad about it. And the one making new friends is also quick to reassure the other.

They don’t push each other out of their comfort zones, but they also don’t stop the other from trying to wander out and grow. They just prevent other people from forcing eachother to do anything they don’t want, aren’t comfortable with, can’t handle, or aren’t ready for.

On the other side of things, Killer is introverted and Color..is not. He’s extroverted. On top of that, Color has lasting trauma regarding being almost completely and forcibly alone for reasonably two decades, whereas Killer has trauma regarding people and never being left alone (and having his want to be left alone often ignored, sending the message over and over again that what he wants doesn’t matter) for assumingely a very long time.

Of course Killer wants to be alone with the very few things, seemingly the only things, that have never used or controlled or hurt him; animals and Color. His feelings towards most other people in general can range from extreme distrust to curiosity to contempt or apathy and disinterest, to fear and terror and potentially paranoia, depending on the Stage he’s in.

Meanwhile, feeling/being completely alone, isolated, not remembered, seen, heard, replaced and without anyone has deeply traumatized Color to the point he’d even join random groups of strangers just to feel less alone and forgettable.

I believe that, if it weren’t for not only the six souls but the friendships and connections Color has outside of Killer (Epic Sanses & Abyss Team), Color very likely wouldn’t have mentally and emotionally survived everything that took place between him and Nightmare, and him and the alternate versions of Killer that all replaced the other.

Color probably would’ve even tried to kill himself or been driven to desperate extremes in an attempt to fill the emotional void inside him and kill the loneliness, willing to tolerate or invite a lot of things if it meant someone remembered him, was seeing him, and he wasn’t alone. Which isn’t a good thing if he’s trying help a version of Killer that’s more violent or manipulative, or even a lot more cold and indifferent.

Hell, given the nature of the Multiverse and Nightmare replacing Killers with alternate versions, there isn’t anything preventing something like the scenario above from having already happened before; and Color and the souls having connections outside of Killer and eachother is what saved Color from that situation.

And then of course, when Color finally manages to successfully convince one Killer to save themselves and keep him alive, all these past experiences will color the relationship he has with this current Killer—in both nostalgic and potentially even traumatizing/stressful/upsetting ways, for both Color & the souls and Killer.

For example, Justice helping Color set firm boundaries with this current Killer regarding details and the nature of Color’s past relationships with other Killers; that Killer is not allowed to try and demand more from Color than he’s willing to share, and Killer’s not allowed to go digging through Color’s things to try and figure it out.

Not exactly because remembering and talking about them is too painful for Color (it is painful, but he’d never want to forget what he had with the others, whatever that might’ve been), but because 1. he is entitled to his privacy and he & the souls should be able to share when they’re good and ready, and 2. potentially, he knows how Killers can get; having dealt with extremely possessive and potentially controlling Killers before.

Not sharing or showing information until they’re ready talk about it on their own terms, to remember and invite in old pain and memories and open old wounds, until they’re certain this Killer can be trusted to handle this information without accusing Color of only wanting a replacement, or having ulterior motives, or getting dangerously possessive like some Killers might’ve in the past is for their own mental, emotional, psychological, and physical stability and safety.

I don’t know, I just like the idea that Color and the souls learn, grow, and develop throughout their relationships with different Killers—progressing and regressing—developing and defining their rules, moral codes, boundaries—what they will and won’t do, how they are and are not allowed to treat others, how others are and are not allowed to treat them—and that Integrity and Justice help Color build and reinforce this internal framework, with consequences both internally and externally if they aren’t followed or if a rule/boundary is broken.

[onyxsboxes]

After seeing @avonne-writes' post, I remembered the idea I had for a fic like this some time ago but never finished it (the werewolf!au started at the same time and the rest is history)

Here's a summary of how the fic began:

After the Schweinfurt-Regensburg mission, the Buckies and everyone else are very shaken up, so the brass send them to a country estate to take the pressure off.

The Buckies find a way to be alone and relax together. They spend most of their time in each other's arms, pouring out their love to each other (and not leaving their bedroom much 😏).

Fast forward to the Bremen mission (more or less 4 weeks later we'll say), Bucky goes to London alone (Buck can't leave their boys alone and still doesn't come) and Buck goes down without either of them knowing about the baby.

After arriving at the camp wounded, Buck is quickly thrown into POW camp life. It's only at Benny's insistence that he lets the doctor examine him after not being able to keep his food down too many times.

Buck panics when he learns of the baby's existence, he knows nothing about parenting (let alone what a good parenting looks like), he's a POW in a war and Bucky isn't there. This last point is both a relief and the worst thing of all. Still, he does his best to keep a straight face for everyone, they need their Major and so he's going to look after them.

Pregnancy hormones nearly take over on several occasions, especially as the days go by with no sign of Bucky, but he keeps a strong, stoic face for everyone.

When Bucky arrives at camp, wounded and beaten, it's Buck who takes care of him. He makes sure he's okay, stays with him all the time, makes sure Bucky has everything he needs to heal (even forgetting to rest). All the while, Bucky is plunged into fever dreams, crying for Buck or moaning in pain. It takes a while for Bucky to become coherent enough to understand what's going on around him, but Buck's presence always soothes him, even in his sickly state.

It takes Bucky a week to recover enough to be aware of the world around him, for him to feel Buck's presence near him, not only as the protective, caring presence of his dreams, but also to see behind the mask he wears. The one he put on to keep a straight face in front of everyone, when he was scared, lonely and desperate. All it takes is one look for Bucky to look past and Buck to start cracking, so much going on at once and so much fear, for Bucky, for their men, for their baby who isn't yet alive and is already doomed to suffer.

Here the first time Bucky's conscious and okayish in the camp.

Pausing in his words, Bucky turns his head to look at Buck, and what he discovers breaks his heart. He finds Buck's face completely devoid of emotion, his pupils almost entirely black, his gaze unfocused and unblinking. But worst of all are his tears, the river of tears falling down his face, he doesn't make a sound, just stares at the distance. John watches him shrinking on himself more and more, his breathing quickening and stopping irregularly, soundless. A quick glance shared with Benny gets his message across, and their understanding of the situation causes DeMarco to quickly lead the other occupants of the room towards the exit, away from the panicking Buck. After making sure they're alone, Bucky turns back to Buck. He finds him still completely motionless in his seat. Although they were only inches apart, they had never seemed so far apart. John had never seen Buck like this, never so absent, looking like a broken doll. He learned during their relationship that when Buck is sad or stressed, he becomes silent and motionless. He doesn't cry, he doesn't sniffle, he becomes a marble statue, motionless and indecipherable. Immobile and unreadable. The first time it freaked him out, now, even with more experience, he's still as heartbroken as the first time, if not more so. Because now he knows why Gale reacts the way he does, or rather, why he doesn't. He knows that he's silent to avoid being heard, that he stays still to not show weakness, that he's not present because staying in his head is better than feeling the arsh outside world. When this kind of episode happens, John has only one thing on his mind: find the people who did this to Buck and kill them, kill them so Gale can sleep at night without being afraid of them, kill them because he knows it's their fault that Gale reacts the way he does when things get too much to bear. Bucky gambles, drinks and fights when it's too much, while Buck shuts down completely. He's grateful, in a sick way, that he knows how to deal with it. He just hopes Buck hasn't gone too far and is still reachable. Physical contact is both the best way to get the young Major to come back to him and the worst possible way. In this state, Buck isn't aware of anything. If Bucky touches him without warning, he'll fall like a puppet with broken strings, and it will be very difficult to bring him back to the present. Bucky needs to have his attention and quickly, even on an unconscious level. Mindful of his healing wounds, he carefully climbs out of the bunk. As he places his feet on the cold floor, a chill runs up his bones and rattle his teeth uncomfortably. “Buck, hey buddy, I need you back here, baby," he says softly as he reaches for Gale's uniform sleeve, tugging gently on it. “I need you to get out of your pretty head, Buck. Do you think you can do that for me, honey?" Hearing the soft sigh, he continues. “Yes, just like that, breathe for me, darling, softly and gentle. You're doing a great job, sunshine.” Okay, well, Buck seems a little more present, that's good, that's really good. Second step, skin contact to anchor him further. “I'm going to touch your hand, doll, it's okay, it's just me,” he says, moving his hand from his sleeve to Buck's icy hand. “There you go, just like that, you're doing great Buck, you're doing great,” the small whisper he receives in response saddens him even more. Mindful of his injured leg, John rises from his place in the dingy bed to stand beside Gale. Smoothing his thumbs over the back of the younger man's hand, he gently pulls him upright. Taking Gale in his arms, John feels him relax against him, having anticipated the action, the taller had plant his feet on the floor to support their combined weight, light, too light. ....

After Bucky coaxes Buck out of his panic attack, they soak in each other presence while clinging as much as they can, convincing each other that the other is alive and well.

I have more about this if you're interest 😊

[kylesvariouslistsandstuff]

I'm looking at the forecast for JOKER: FOLIE A DEUX, and I also saw how low the attendance was at my cinema job yesterday, and... It got me thinking again about where big comic book/superhero movies are at in the post-COVID outbreak world...

And how JOKER 2 - along with films like QUANTUMANIA, SHAZAM 2, THE MARVELS, and THE FLASH - sorta fit a weird group of pictures that probably would've made boffo bucks in 2019 but not now. Backwash, you could say, from a bygone era that's only like five years ago...

Meanwhile, we saw the recent successes of GUARDIANS OF THE GALAXY VOL. 3 and ACROSS THE SPIDER-VERSE, superhero movies that were more than just your usual garden variety superhero movie. They had some kind of vision or passion or spunk behind them. DEADPOOL & WOLVERINE is, I feel, the anomaly to this, as I felt it to be a fairly vision-less movie. Just a big budget parade of your favorite characters and action bits and lots of cameos, but done well enough with a sense of fun that kept audiences coming back after it made over $211m on its domestic opening weekend. I certainly had a fun time with it, but I wouldn't say it's anything other than "here's some fan favorites and some bloody action."

And then smack-dab in the middle of all this is MADAME WEB, which by all accounts was hacked to pieces in post-production much like how MORBIUS was. A film that could've stood out amongst the superhero pack as a period piece (2003 as a period piece, that's frightening to me lol), but ended up being molded into your usual schlop with lots of noticeable ADR.

Then you have two other Sony Spider-Man-adjacent movies this year, out within two months of one another. VENOM: THE LAST DANCE, out in a few weeks from now, should do good business because of the campy buddy comedy appeal of these particular movies. KRAVEN THE HUNTER, which was delayed multiple times, I have no idea. That might get a little lost in the Christmas season feeding frenzy. I have no idea how much further these Sony movies will go, outside of the VENOM movies. Remember how they wanted to do an EL MUERTO movie and then it got canned?

It seems like it's all a slow, prolonged sea change in comic book movies. I think they'll still get made, but something will have to change... as even a sequel to JOKER - which prided itself on resembling a '70s/'80s New Hollywood Scorsese-esque project - isn't cutting it. The idea of the new one being like a classic musical and a courtroom drama sounds really cool on paper, but in 2024, it's just not enough. The first one seems to be of a specific time, and belongs only to that time, it could be argued. A Trump-era slog about a "misunderstood" lonely guy who eventually ends up killing people, that devolves into a cacophony of violence... Its most controversial aspects were outside of the movie itself. I remember all the pre-release worry about the film possibly being a rallying cry to shooters... It came out and nothing happened, but it got tons of people to flock to the movie. It just hit at the right time, the noise around it created an appeal of sorts. It being this R-rated gritty street level movie and not your usual comic book movie.

But in 2024, now it's just "Eh, a new JOKER movie?" Add in the extreme genre shift, and a chunk of the audience was alienated.

Next year... CAPTAIN AMERICA 4... Looks - to me - like the most anticipated movie of 2015, honestly. THUNDERBOLTS* also looks too little, too late and also kinda just... There... James Gunn's SUPERMAN could really go either way, it could pull a MAN OF STEEL, or it could really break out. Maybe a BATMAN BEGINS-esque performance is in the cards here, where it opens kinda okayish because of a general fatigue w/ constant superhero movies (not to mention Henry Cavill's Kal-El not being that far behind) but has great legs. FANTASTIC FOUR Again, maybe this new take does the same? Maybe it's just more MCU fluff that gets a handful of fans on opening weekend and just fades away afterwards. There's an untitled Sony Spider-Man adjacent movie set for summer 2025 as well, but I wouldn't be surprised if that gets nerfed from the schedule. By now I think we'd know what it is, unless it's some kind of surprise project. Still, you'd know about it because it'd be filming or wrapped up by now. Speaking of which, BLADE is definitely not out next year, I'm surprised Disney and Marvel haven't changed its release or removed it from the calendar. We'll have to see where it all goes...

Ya know what comic book movie sticks out among all these 2025 entries?

DOG MAN!

Which I expect to be a respectable success for DreamWorks, come this winter. Its animation and visuals were outsourced to Jellyfish, much in the same way CAPTAIN UNDERPANTS was to Mikros. Jellyfish got SPIRIT UNTAMED out for $30m, I'd imagine this didn't cost anything more than that. Plus it's well after SPIRIT's timeframe, which was when vaccines were still rolling out, and this new movie is based on the Dav Pilkey CAPTAIN UNDERPANTS universe so it should do pretty okay. But to me, this is probably the most distinct CBM of next year, in a sea of big budget spectacle. A little cartoon movie about half man/half dog from a comic book written by fictional children that plays out in the way a comic drawn up by a kid would.

Leave it to animation to save the day here, lol. We need something to hold us over in comic book movies until BEYOND THE SPIDER-VERSE, whenever they decide to release that.

2026 is home to what looks like the usual array of late 2010s CBM backwash... AVENGERS: DOOMSDAY with Robert Downey Jr. returning to the MCU, possibly a fourth Tom Holland Spider-Man movie, two other untitled MCU movies (BLADE will likely take one of those slots)

There's also Gunn/Safran-verse DC's SUPERGIRL, but we gotta see what SUPERMAN looks like, first, before I can say whether their new DC shared universe feels like it belongs in the past decade or not...

You also have another animated entry with the MUTANT MAYHEM sequel, the first one - from last year - being a great and fresh new spin on the TMNT property. And THE BATMAN - PART II, the first one got a very strong response back in 2022. I would say THE BATMAN and MUTANT MAYHEM are of this new post-ENDGAME superhero movie era, the first SPIDER-VERSE arguably kicked that off in late 2018 before ENDGAME was released.

Again, it's a real "we'll have to see". Tracking this stuff can be fascinating for me.

[mohabbaat]

i never denied she isn't one of the wrong thing she does and I'm not a swiftie and im not your beloved redacted either but I've been on your blog long enough to follow as an enthusiast and turn around bitter how pathetic you are with your instances and earning the ever loving didi badge. your asian kids write albums and are edited and probably cut down to their throat multiple times by their label and are just as commercial as you call taylor put up by a label and thrown on the face of the world to choreograph and dance because their life depends on it. I wonder your kids ever expressed themselves truly without taking every step panting because it might just ruin their professional image. Im not hating on bts but it's just hypocrite of you to support one artist because they're so uninvolved with their personal life upfront and hate on other because she choses to be transparent and write off each of her wrongdoings on paper. AND NO honey i do not want to fuck an elder woman than me who has no better job but to be pathetic about a celebrity on the other corner of internet but maybe you just seem eager to hate fuck anyone who comes to your ask box youre so down bad. maybe reflect how much hate filled you are by your own shortcomings because a person isn't falling into your oh so perfect artist category and btw not everyone who sends you anon is obsessed with your narcissist self it's also called putting an opinion that's why tumblr put the anonymous feature here

i have a few points:

your punctuation and grammar are a little off. i appreciate the long, entertaining ask but it's quite difficult to read properly. so work on that.

you are literally indian, why are you using asian as a derogatory term? 😭

i never did say bts are perfect. i barely talk about them on here. infact, i have repeatedly said that i am unhappy with their current behavior and their silence on palestine. you just weren't around to see those posts i guess?

i, somehwat, agree with your personal comment honestly. see, i don't know shit about bts' personal life so i can't comment on whether their music is about their own experiences or not (some of the songs clearly are. pls check out indigo by rm). but everyone knows about taylor's personal life. and when you listen to the songs knowing the context they just leave a bad taste in your mouth (for example, guilty as sin is an okayish song. but it's also about her cheating???? so ew). so, knowing about her personal life makes it worse not better.

[cartoon-yuri]

Finally, I have the courage to write this...! This one is a tricky post, I will admit it. It will be both about the weird german that was used in World Dai Star — the anime, since as far as I know there wasn't a lick of this language on the game — and about a little critic I have about the english translation. Please, bear with me.

Well then... we have this scene here:

Bist du gut in Japan angekommen?

Erzähl mir bitte wie deine Vorspielen war.

Ich verspreche mir sehr viel von dir.

This is what is written in the text that Kathrina's mom sent. There is only an english translation about the first two sentences:

Did you make it to Japan safely?

Tell me if you pass or fail your audition immediately.

Which is understandable, since the third sentence is the weird one — something that I discovered after trying to work on them with my very basic german knowledge. Yes, I am not a german speaker (yet) and my level of this language is barely scratching the A1; but I did start studying it before, so I do think I should comment about it. Anyone who has more knowledge about me in german can correct me on any error I made if they wish to do so!!

And why am I even talking about it...? 'Cause it misled me about the daughter and mother relationship that Kathrina and Theresa have. Or, being more specific, the translation misled me. After reading it, my first thought was that Kathrina had the typical relationship that rivals characters have with their mothers in anime: a very bad one. The first question seemed okayish, but the second one? It gave me the impression that Theresa was strict, unsupportive of her daughter's wishes and distant. It seemed that she only cared if Kathrina was good enough as an actress.

Of course, we know by now that this is not true. However I must admit I was pretty surprised when I found it out. When I saw that Theresa cared for her daughter? When I watched her being worried for Kathrina, being understanding and supportive? I couldn't understand why she was like that — and I blame my confusion on the translation of the text.

Look, I do know how hard it is to translate something. I am a language nerd, and translation is one of my favorite topics — still starting to study it seriously and all. That's why I will be critical over it, especially if it changes how I am supposed to interpret a character. [And that's why I said to bear with me...]

Thus, here is, more or less, my translations about the first two sentences. It is definitely not a great one, but it's more in character, that I assure.

Did you reach easily in Japan?

Relate me please how your audition went.

See, way less demanding...! I tried to translate the third one, but in german it simply doesn't make sense. It became something like “I promise me much much as long for you” — this is me translating german to portuguese to english, now. Can you hear me crying? No way I will try to translate it straight from german to english after finding results like this from translating machines when I first tried to.

Seeing as the last one was weird, I asked my friend if she could translate the text for me from japanese to portuguese. At first she thought there wasn't a japanese version of it, but she soon found it!

It became something like this — just a note I am, again, translating from portuguese to english:

Did you got safely in Japan?

Send me the audition result as soon possible.

I am awaiting with anticipation.

Very different, no? It also made me realize that the anime translations were, most definitely, also from the japanese version. Seeing as both of them have the second sentence mentioning Kathrina to tell her mother the results the fastest she can, it makes sense for it to be from the same language. Also, doesn't the third one make way more sense now?

Theresa also sounds more like a supportive and kind mom here than she did on the first translation. If I was introduced right at the start at this, I would definitely not be surprised when she shows up later. Being honest, I would expect something like she pulled off on the anime, hehe.

That's why I am criticizing the translation; it can help us to understand the character or it can drive us away — or, in my case, misled me from what the character actually is. And as also a literature nerd, this hurt me, since I will make all the wrong connections based on the little I know (the translated subtitles) and then, when I am proven wrong, I will not understand why since the first piece of information does not correlate with I am presented later. Which also makes me interpret things in a way it shouldn't. That's why I am a big supporter of having a variable of translations about the same source!!

Anyway, that wasn't supposed to get this big. I hope you enjoyed some part of this, since this is my first meta post, and that I made you think a little more about how complicated translation is...!

[commanderxay]

How I buy my webcams and how it ended...

Webcams, how not to buy them, but I'm stupid and learning

Because I have holiday now due to chrismas and I posted nothing in the last month, I decided to make a comment about how I chose my webcams - and it's not a guide or an advice. It's rather more a funny story. I wanted to see the birds on my feeder. So I decided to buy some webcams. Cheap, with network access.

Step 1: ESP32 webcam

I bought some webcams based on ESP32, which is able to connect to my WLAN. Sounds good, bought three of them. Installed an USB hub and 5m USB cables to support them with power. But there was a problem very soon. The connection from the webcams to my WLAN wasn't good, so I replaced it with three WLAN mesh routers (Huawei WIFI AX3). The network quality did not increase so much. Next step was to use external antennas with the ESP32 webcams. To do this, a little bridge is to solder on the PCB board. In 603 circuit format. I'm too old for this sh*t, so I messed up one of the ESP32 cams, it was broken. I configured one of my servers to record the stream via ffmpeg32. Works... okayish. But not really usable outdoors.

Step 2: more ESP32 webcam

There were some offers with ESP32 webcams and external antennas. But when I read the comments about these, they said "yes, antenna included, but not with the soldered bridge to use it, have to make it by myself". So no gain. Finally I found a guy on ebay who offers ESP32 with external antennas and soldered bridge. Doubled the price, but worth great. I bought four of them. Fairly good WLAN connection.

Step 3: The rats are coming... nightsight and better images

Now, there is the bird feeder, the webcams and recording the stream. But then, some new guests are showing up. Rats. From where are they coming? How often? I needed answers to take action against them, because I don't want to contribute to a rat problem in our neighborhood. The ESP32 webcams can only make shots at daytime (and not very good). I needed something to monitor the night. Next step was to buy some webcams with nightsight. I chose 2 x Denver WCT6000 WLAN (but it seems not to be an actual webcam anymore, now it's maybe the WCT8026W). Yeah, installed... but... they are running on batteries (change 8 x AA batteries every 3-4 days), the SD-card (32 GB) was enough to record about 2 days and - most important - the WLAN wasn't really a WLAN. You can connect an app to the webcam via instant-WLAN, but you can't connect the webcams WITH the WLAN. On the plus side: The wildlife camera has (aside nightsight) a pretty good image resolution, the stream has a higher framerate (>20 frames per second, the ESP32 had 6 frames per second) and I could it use outdoors. But nevertheless, I placed the cams at serveral locations and could track the rats and what they are doing when. So I could perform some optimizations with the placement of the birdfeeder, but there was no real solution. Even the city (or the neighbor where the rats are coming from) wouldn't do anything. After all, the wildlife camera was nice, but not a real solution.

Step 4: Reolink 510D webcam

On the road to perfection, the next step was to combine all my knowledge. I need nightsight, outdoor, high resolution, high fps rate and additionally I don't want this WLAN connection anymore. Too much disconnects, not stable. Wires are the way to go! I shifted to webcams from Reolink and I decided to take six of Reolink 510D. Great decision. I removed the USB-Hub with the USB-cables and replaced it with a POE switch, connected to my LAN. Now, I could remove the mesh WLAN routers. Finally, I build a camera pole on my terrace for the webcams and printed three connectors for the Reolink to attached the flat end to the round pole. I installed datarhei streamer on my webserver, so I could see the result via internet (and VLC connected directly).

Step 5: webcam Reolink RLC810wa

Just a few month later, I switched the webcams to 4 x Reolink RLC810wa. I would say, there is a real reason about it. It has increased nightsight (up to 15m instead of 2m), it has a higher resolution (which I don't need, I have to reduce the resolution because of the bandwith). Yeah. They are black. That was the reason. I'm some kind of happy at the moment.

webcam conclusion

The sequence of buying one thing after another may be some kind of logic. But the real step is, that you learn with every new iteration new problem, you have to solve, but you didn't thought about them. So I upgraded from cheap to a fairly high level of money, which left a lot of hardware behind me. I paid too much at the end - regarding the now outdated hardware. Most important, that nobody in my peer group could talk about this to me in detail. They had no knowledge about this, even if they have webcams for their bird feeder or other use cases. But one of my kinks is "privacy". There are too many webcams out in the world, which NEEDS a connection to the manufacturers server, look at "Ring" e.g. I had a Ring doorbell and I was yelling about the question "share your ring webcam with your neighbors". To this point, I was willing to set it up for my use, but thinking about THIS quesiton alone, I was healed from all f*cking company app bindings and so on. So I needed webcams. which can exists in my personally controlled realm and networks and have no dependencies on the outer world, escpecially companies. Nah... merry chrismas and a happy new year 2025. Read the full article

[herrscherofmagic]

Fr, the HI3rd writing has been kinda wonky.

It's great when it comes to characters and emotions, but the worldbuilding and logic is all over. This game really needs a story rework to re-organize some of that worldbuilding and fill in the various gaps T_T

That being said, I've still enjoyed the story and I think the post-Moon story content has been getting more coherent and well-thought-out. Plus I believe there's a very solid set of rules/logic underpinning the whole setting; the issue isn't the world's logic but rather the poor presentation of said logic.

I've been brainstorming ideas for my own HI3rd AU fanfic/story/art series, and a lot of this brainstorming has led me to ask questions about some pretty fundamental stuff like Stigmata, "Herrscher Personas", Imaginary Space, bubble worlds, consciousness mapping, and so on. As I've reviewed the story time and again and put in countless hours of thought into it across the last couple of years, I've noticed a lot of connections between these different ideas. There's definitely some excellent worldbuilding in this story but it does take a huge amount of work to uncover it, and that really should change.

It's also helped me to consider both Genshin and HSR as well. For instance, dreams, memory, & wishes seem to function fairly similarly in both Genshin and HI3rd, but Genshin has done a much better job of presenting those concepts. Understanding how those things work in Genshin made it easier to figure it out in HI3rd, basically. Even GGZ has helped me a bit but not to the same extent.

@hiraethsdesires, if you've got any big questions about the HI3rd & greater Hoyoverse setting, feel free to let me know!

I've spent way too much time thinking about this stuff so there's a good chance that I might be able to help you navigate some of the messy bits of the story and worldbuilding.

And since I plan on making my own HI3rd-centric fan stories, I've also put a lot of thought into how these ideas need to be presented and explained in order to make sense. I can't say I'm an absolute expert, but I think I've at least done an okayish job so far ^.^

As a side note, I followed the first link in your post (the reddit one) and I was so surprised to see my own comment there ahfjl;adfhd;ahadfklh it always throws me off when I find my months-old internet discussions >.<

side-side note: I'm sorry but that Gamerant article really doesn't do much of any proper explanation of the Imaginary Tree or Sea of Quanta. Maybe it would work for someone totally unfamiliar with these games but anyone with at least some basic understanding of any of these stories would probably need more than just that article to figure it out.

If I had to explain the Tree and SoQ to an HSR-only player, the simplest explanation I can come up with would be this:

The Imaginary Tree is the source of all worlds. Imaginary Energy flows through the Tree and forms "leaves" on the branches of this tree, each one an entire world of its own. However, the Sea of Quanta is an opposing force to the Tree. If a world "detaches" from the Imaginary Tree then it will sink into the Sea and slowly dissolve into nothingness unless it finds a sort of "anchor" to stabilize itself. These are so-called "bubble worlds". Thus the Imaginary Tree and Sea of Quanta exist as two opposing and all-encompassing forces, the former being a force of creation and the latter being a force of destruction.

There's obviously a lot more complexity, but that explanation should be enough to cover the basics for someone familiar with HSR but not with HI3rd. I think? Idk x-x

so,

based on the hi3 shit ive been researching in wikis, blogs and reddit for stellar chasm (my hi3 x hsr crossover story in the making)

hi3 writing is all over the place and that hyv writers prolly- partially gave up on some parts/arcs that leaves some hi3 players unsatisfied, is what i'm barely understanding

(discussion about hi3 x hsr crossover story im making, along with hi3 topics under cut)

i do however finally understand quite a lot though (except for the math and... numbers... shinanigans)

i'm just hoping my hsr following is aware of hi3 or even the basics of the imaginary tree + sea of quanta, cause ima be involving it a lot of hi3 things for the prologue,

just for Herrscher!Reader's arrival to make sense, establishing her personality for you readers to be aware of, her relationships with hi3 characters, and just an overall introduction

then again, stellar chasm is for avid hsr and hi3 enjoyers, but for the pure hsr readers... hmh, i wouldnt know how they'll react, but i can assume theyre aware of hyv's other games

i haven't reached the final chapters of hi3 plot in game and i also dont mind being spoiled from the information im researching—but what i can say is that i believe hi3 lore enjoyers feel robbed about the overall writing progression in the canon story, which is honestly really sucky and i feel quite bad about it

not to mention, we still have yet to know how our beloved welt yang of anti entropy ended up in the universe of honkai star rail, but honestly i can feel their love for hsr, so we might get that aspect explained in the future

nonetheless,

the frantic mess and unsatisfied feelings towards the hi3 writers who're in charge with the storyline in hi3 remind me that ill have to step up my game for this crossover story i'll be creating for you all, i want a good story because i am someone who craves a good universe that can scratch our brain's itch in the right places, so why not write instead? for myself and you all hi3 and hsr lovers.

anyhow, thank you for reading until the end, i would love to hear all of your thoughts within my inboxes or just overall interact with me about this (while i plan, edit and write the prologue of stellar chasm and the 2nd chapter of TMW)

for the ppl who wanna be informed;

hi3 arc summaries reddit disccusion link

imaginary tree + sea of quanta explained/disccusions reddit

[seeingteacupsindragons]

Hi! I saw some of your yuumori posts and if it's okay I got a few questions. So in 1 post you mentioned how even though the plan was successful, yet there is still the queen who is a ... negative simbol? What did you mean by that? And it seems to me that you're not really fond of Albert. May I ask why? Gotta admit that he is one of my favourites, so I'm a bit biased. But I admit that I don't really like Liam... and Sherliam to me is just okayish... Sorry for my english. Thank you!

You're going to have to link me to that one, because I don't remember saying this or why I would say it. But I've written a lot of things, so...there's a lot to go through. I don't talk about Queen Victoria that much, because I don't find her that interesting, but a couple people have asked a few times, so it might be from one of those things

I don't dislike Albert. I just, historically, haven't found him all that interesting compared to the others.

I was discussing this with a friend the other day, actually. Albert doesn't really have an arc in Part One. We learn a lot more about him after the time skip, and I thought that was all good and interesting, but...he doesn't change as a person. He doesn't grow. He's guilty and regretful the entire time, basically, and then he decides to atone with his brothers after like two seconds after someone else suggests it because he couldn't even come to that conclusion on his own. Apparently.

William, I'm a sucker for, because he's exactly the kind of character I like: awkward, introverted, geniuses who care wayyyy too much and have no idea how to handle it, and also angry traumatized characters who react poorly because trauma. He got both of the smashed into one, and I just. Love that. But I've written enough posts about why I love William. I've written enough posts about why I love Louis. Probably enough about why I love Sherlock.

And I think liking Liam is fine. He's the protagonist. I'm supposed to like him. I think most people who like the series like him.

I think Albert does a lot of interesting things for the plot. I think he does interesting things to show other characters in various lights. I think he's a good character, and he can be interesting in the story. I've written a lot about his mental illness because I find that fascinating and really well written.

But "Handsome jerk who never seems to flinch and never seems to lose," is just...not...really my type.

[sword-of-summer]

All of them answer every question fuck you

ahahaha no i respectfully deny your "fuck you" and i accept the ask and so-

i am 5'10", and i don't wish to be taller or shorter- i am the perfect height for hugs and messy hair, and yep, i like it here-

dream pet would be a mix of golden retriver and a husky called Holly and a chonky cat called Loki- yes ofcourse my future kids have names everyone should name their future pets-

ripped jeans/black pants with a Darth Vader tshirt or a Ethnic Fusion Kurta with black sneakers/artificial leather slip-ons, and if it's cold, a black jacket open obviously- and a black wristwatch i love my black wristwatch.

favourite video game was Clash of Clans and going even back, GTA Vice City and, the og- MARIIOOOO

three things/people are Oreos, Nutella and Pizza. The Holy Trinity-

"Beware me my fingers are smeared with chicken popcorn grease"

you didn't mention an opinion, @chunkybirb, so imma give my opinion on Vanilla ice cream and Nutella- ANYONE WHO HADN'T COMBINED THESE TWO COMBINE THESE TWO THEY ARE FUCKING AWESOME

im either phlegmatic or melancholic bruh idk maybe ik or maybe not

im v v v v ticklish

not an allergy, but an intense hatred for ketchup- i vomit if it gets too close to me fuck you ketchup

im heterosexual

any between tea and coffee but full milk coffee (ik, kill me), never had cocoa- but i love a chocolate or nutella milkshake

both. both is good. (cat and dog)

i would be an elf cause hell yeah, knowledge and wisdom

favourite youtuber is Samay Raina, a stand up comedian turned youtuber who is just awesome-

as i mentioned in 1., i am 5'10"

i would not change my name cause it's the coolest fucking name ever, i am Tanay, and Tanay in Hindi means Son, and my parents literally named their son Son, and hell yeah i like it

i forgot how much i weigh- last i checked it was 75 kilos, but ive gained weight since 2019 so yep, gotta walk in the mornings

yes i believe in metaphysicality cause one- it seems cool- second- me and @theclassyghost discussed a metaphysical life theory that i really really like and metaphysicality gives preservation of knowledge so i believe in spirits

SPACE. SPACE. SPACE.

im not that religious, no

pet peeves no well nah not really

nocturnal def nocturnal i sleep at 4.50 anyway hehehehe

fav constellation is Cassiopeia

fav star is Sirius tho

what the fuck are ball jointed dolls

i do have a fear of losing people that's just anxiety i guess

yep, global warming is real

never thought that much about reincarnation tbh but maybe, i do

fav movie is Spider Man : Into The SpiderVerse and Inception and The Dark Knight Rises and Revenge of The Sith and yes, for my indian gang, 3 Idiots and Gully Boy

yep i get scared v v v easily

i have had no pets but i plan to once i grow up

@chunkybirb 's blog is fucking cool awesome and *chef's kiss* a masterpiece

blue calms me. i love blue.

live in Norway cause pretty lights, snow, and less people than this overpopulated country i am in

born in Mumbai, India

v v v dark brown like it's almost black but no it's dark brown

introvert

horoscopes and zodiacs, i do read them, never believed that much tbh-

HUGS I LOVE HUGS

i really wanna visit my brother i haven't met him in a long time i really wanna play cricket w him just like old times

my sister- she's annoying but well i care for her

nah

tattoos idk bruh im okay idk may get one or may not get one

nope, smoking is ewwww *vomits*

ah my crush- she's cool [ if she exists

when the chalk doesn't write on the board but goes iiiiiieeee I HATE THAT

a sound i love is rain pitter pattering i just hhhhhh sends me into happiness

nope fatass here

nope fatass here

favourite actors have to be eddie redmayne, oscar issac and pedro pascal- and margot robbie and winona ryder in the actresses section also yes, elliot page

bruh already answered in 30.

im okayish!! spotify and tumblr, cool combo-

my hair are okay being black for me

yesterday, monday, from 6.40 to 6.50

music

uhhh naah not that i know of

well in Rick Riordan's Magnus Chase books, the sword of Frey aka Sumarbrander TALKS and demands to be called Jack, so here i am

bakwaas, music and comfy

yep, i believe in evolution

unfollow on hate and when they dm me sending nsfw pics ugh why are people like that

follow, well, i like people and they seem cool, so i follow them

fav kind of person is the one who'll sit with me for hours not even talking and just vibing to music

fav animals are beavers, doggos and cats

three fav blogs are @chunkybirb, @theclassyghost, @little-boats-on-a-lake, @aredhel-of-gondolin, @sue-me-imbadass, @alleenkaas, @my-ackerman, @brrrrrrrrrrzone

fav emoticon has to be ☹ this me seeing my stupidity outrank others

fav meme has to be Butternut is a master of psychological manipulation

INTP

Libraaa let's go

no dog, i have

black darth vader tshirt, black pants, black sneakers and black wrist watch

i have no selfies my phone has no cameras i live in eternal darkness

what the fuck are platform shoes

i, uhhh, i remember weird things like what i drew in class in 3rd while i was supposed to be doing english

lazy ass here, no front flips possible

i like birds they fly

nope i don't Iike swimming i like blankets

wrapped up in blankets reading books sounds better than both

ketchup

hyperspace travel

nope none

reading writing eating sleeping

my friend

tumblr seems cool

i have around 60-70 idk

yes i can run but why

yes they do but what's the fun in that

nope I'd fall over

sapphire let's go

koala bear or panda

sunflower or the one on a lemon tree

ketchup store

one cup of coffee is enough, tysm

read minds that sounds cool cool yeaaahh

nope never wore it a black clothes guy here BatMan

winter winter all year long

i don't know and i don't wanna try

i don't know and i don't wanna know

everyone cause they are better than me

bookstores cause bookstores any bookstores

sneakers, black onez

apparently some gas bitches mixed up to form a planet

non vegetarian but i partake meat just twice or thrice in two weeks

i don't know they don't seem like liking

naaaaaaaah

bugs ew

spiders ew

about the fact that i come off as arrogant and overconfident while in reality it's just that my communication skills suck

i can draw averagely whenever im in a mood

this thing im answering but i like answering it

uhhhhhhh brain freeze- idk bruh questions are good they give knowledge

yep, while sleeping

ahh yes calming, they are

cloudy days cause fucking cool vibes

hehehe wouldn't you like to know, weatherboy

CumuloNimbus i really like it's name yknow nimBUS

dark blue, dark blue always or black

naaaah no freckles

fav thing is when they laugh and it's just happy and we're both laughing like shitheads but who cares we're rebelling against depressing life and we laugh

both. both is good [ fruits and vegetables

sleep but i have to answer 170 questions cause @chunkybirb

sky sky sky it's my blog's header duh uh sKy

sweet and sour candy. SWEET AND SOUR CANDY.

dim lights it makes me feel cool

ahhh so here we go- Mooncalfs, Thunderbirds, Phoenixes, Sphinxes, Dragons that seem to be Space Nebulae, and more and more and more

i really feel like a boomer sometimes

i love everything about this site/app it makes me feel happy cause i like the people and the posts

uhhhhh i think too much about everything cause i just do. i like thinking

"He's dead, guys. For the sake of The Force, please watch Star Wars now he wanted to discuss it with you" actually no i would just say "A big shoutout to Garlic Bread he loved Garlic Bread"

myself cause i should be sleeping but sleep is for the weak and i am the weak and the strong i am a paradox-

that i obsess too much on things and try involving people it never works out

nope. had braces for 4 years, that beat out teeth showing smiles

i prefer computer-tv ahahahahaha

never tried them, so IDK

naaaaah not motion sickness- never travelled by sea so idk seasickness

lobed ears

yep i believe that deeds do count in life and beyond

idk bruh i don't believe in physical attraction too much- bodies are fake- mentally/metaphysically tho, im a 7

ahhhhh many many Stupid Genius, Tani, Tanu, Tanya

i still do-

i really want to talk to a therapist. converse. and discover.

im both, i am both.

10:1 is the ratio- giving 10, receiving 1

uhhh nothing just when i am right and people use the old "disrespect" argument

3, Hindi, Marathi, English

girls

uhh no i am not

my hair i love them everyone says things about my hair but i love them

knowledge vibes i give, someone tells me- and that's all i ever wanted

anyone i know tbh, my mutuals, my friends, my discord friends

ahhh no i wouldn't but i wish i was born 20 years earlier

bleh bloo, neither like nor dislike

i don't know if i have one

i don't know, haven't had physical contact in a long long long time in a galaxy far far away

the above point stands but i would like to ig

anything i write, 3 hours later, i instantly hate just idk why

anything i write

that i am normal no i am not and i am not okay hahahahaha

65-70 ish people

somewhere around-

many many many don't ask please but okay if you do ask

somewhat

uhhhhh idr exactly but i won't tell in public duh uh

mediummm hairrrr

last year lockdown i became harry potter

i don't know buddy i seriously don't know

yep i do cause knowledge i like knowledge

naaah never tried

no i definitely cannot stand on my hands or my head for more than 30 seconds

yep, im pretty sure i answered most of them correctly-

og link-

[almaasi]

reaction post typed while watching SPN 15x18 “Despair”

WOW TODAY SURE IS A DAY, HUH

-

04:40pm

Y’ALL

I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS

I KNOW WHAT’S COMING

BUT AM I PREPARED?

my post leading up to this: https://almaasi.tumblr.com/post/634003656411381760/i-have-seen-the-spn-spoilers-okay-okay-okay

i found a faster torrent and there are 7 minutes until it’s done I’M GONNA GO WANDER AROUND FOR A BIT BRB

-

04:51pm

window is blacked out

i am as ready as i can be, i think

-

04:52

HERE WE GO

-

omg so much has happened irl i fully forgot what happened at the end of the last ep so THANK U RECAP

-

BILLIE JUST

BOMBED THE EMPTY

WITH JACK

:0

-

05:00

just as i was thinking “aaah billie’s probably lying, jack’s capital D Dead” THERE’S JACK

-

JACK’S BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-

05:05pm

nice shot

-

05:07

CHARLIE’S PARTNER IS GORGEOUS AND THIS IS SO HAPPY

they better both make it to the end and out the other side or istg

-

OH NO WHERE DID BABE GO

-

babe is named stevie

BRIng STEVIE BACK

-

05:09

THIS PLACE IS CALLED KIM MANOR

-

we’re like 1/3 of the way into this episode?? damn

-

cas and jack hanging out on the hood of the impala like the brothers did all those years ago

good family talk spot

-

05:13

high quality face

-

05:15

cas: WE DON’T CARE ABOUT YOU BECAUSE YOU’RE USEFUL OR--

cas baby yesssssssssssssssssssssss

these are the words cas can say because he knows them for himself

-

05:19

THE DOTS ON SAM’S PHONE CHAT WITH EILEEN

DISAPPEARING

OH...................

-

05:26

DONNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

oh i wish we’d had more donna and jody :/

-

05:29

dean’s gonna lose cas and then it’s gonna be the sam+charlie+dean “i just lost my lover” club :c

-

05:34

just thinkin about the ending of the final episode

the only two endings i really want are:

everyone we love is somehow alive and they drive into the sunset

they all die but wake up in heaven and there’ll be peace when you are done

or some combination thereof

-

05:37

billie: i didn’t hurt your friends

yeah i thought not

-

bobby vanishes and my eyes flood with tears

that last look between him and sam........

-

wait when was donna from another universe??? or did she die at some point

WOW I’VE FORGOTTEN A LOT

-

05:42

dean: “what do we do, ca--- my heart”

.......

yep

i’m not ready for whatever’s about to happen

-

I’M SO !!!!!!!!!!

BECAUSE THE FACT THEY JUST WON’T DIE

AND THEY ALWAYS COME BACK

IS THE SEMI-BOSS FIGHT

I’M LOVING THIS

EVEN THOUGH I HATE IT

-

05:46

this sure is a screenshot huh

-

05:49

/mutes discord bc this needs all of my attention

-

05:51

cas’ eyes are starting to tear up and he’s smiling as he starts to talk and ohhhhhhhhh here it comes

-

05:53

there’s.

literally.

a wall.

between them.

talk about SYMBOLISM

-

jensen’s pupils are so wide right now holy shit

-

“you are the most caring man on earth”

dean looking at these words like it’s news to him

;~;

cas

thank you for saying these things we’ve all been yelling at the screen for years

-

05:58

DEAN HAS CAS’ BLOODY HANDPRINT ON HIS JACKET

........i can’t let myself believe that was it

THERE WILL BE MORE

SURELY

like

in no conceivable world do the writers get this far, give us THAT, and have it never be mentioned again or properly resolved

hello yes i’m waiting for the magic ritual where cas’ bloody handprint plays a part

-

06:02

yeah i mean

if they saved the whole world multiple times over

everyone’s gotta go

-

oh dean................. oh no

-

GOD

THAT REALLY WAS SOMETHING HUH

i feel like my full reaction is reserved 

because this was half a story. this was one-sided and it was just cas’ monologue. dean has things to say

THIS IS OBVIOUSLY NOT OVER

i know people (misha??) has said it’s a permadeath but i do not believe that, and i don’t believe anything anyone says about what’s coming tbh

i got an anon in my inbox a few weeks ago who correctly predicted this, saying they knew someone on set, but like......... the real ending would be top secret and anything that gets out would not end up in the inbox of some fic author along with a bad vibe. (i didn’t answer it, not wanting to stir up shit.)

that anon said cas isn’t in the last two episodes. except that can’t possibly be true because we, the audience, can see people in the empty, and cas still needs to yell at the empty, and death is in there too... and the empty just wants to sleep so we need to see that too, and cas would be there.

THERE’S MORE TO COME, KIDS

two episodes left

i’m wary of the next one because it’s the deadly duo writing, but they seem to be okayish these days so maybe it’ll be fine

but the finale..... fingers crossed <3

fingers also crossed for a blue georgia, north carolina, and pennsylvania <3

/goes back to cnn livestream because I WANNA WATCH WHEN GEORGIA FLIPS

also. back to spn for a sec. i’m a leeeeeeetle bit mad that the gay black woman disappears first. like i know everyone died but. haven’t we had enough of that??

10/10 even so BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN IT COULDN’T HAVE BEEN BETTER

eh. this show is what it is, and i just gotta accept that, BUT ALSO I THINK WE’RE GENUINELY GETTING SOMEWHERE WITH DEAN AND CAS HERE

but only so long as this actually has a conclusion

which it must do

because this is very much an emotional cliffhanger. cas just emotion-dumped and then fucked off so dEAN’S GOTTA PROCESS AND THEN CHASE HIM

OBVIOUSLY

BECAUSE THAT’S HOW LOVE STORIES WORK

we didn’t watch 15 years of this thing only to be given half of what we wanted in the closing moments, and then get left left high and dry. the writers/producers are clearly willing to give us canon love confessions, and they're not gonna get as far as this, with a finale as tense and dramatic as this, and be like lol dean's straight and only likes cas as a friend........... after he’s dead and died for the joy of their love........... that's beyond madness

and dean needs to SPEAK. there are so many things he’d never said. and he needs to say them to cas. he was basically silent in this conversation and you can’t just say that’s their ending. it’s not their ending.

AND LIKE

IF THIS SHOW AND THIS FINALE AND THIS SEASON HAS PROVED ANYTHING

IT’S THAT NOBODY STAYS DEAD

AND WHATEVER THE WRITER INTENDS, THE CHARACTERS HAVE THEIR OWN DESIRES AND DRIVES

AND FOR THAT REASON, GAY LOVE WILL PIERCE THROUGH THE VEIL OF DEATH AND SAVE THE DAY

[wonderlandco]

you asked me to come back, here I am! the anon asking for a buddy. Anyway, i understand you're not up for it! I think it would become competitive on my side too so i kinda need someone who's ok with that and yeah so. It's okay you don't want it! My ed has worsened lately after being okayish for a few years?? It sucks but at least now i'm on the right path again. Maybe not the healthiest, but a path. Keep being awesome honey i root for you!!! 💕💕

(Also im not sure this is coming on anon so if it isn't then please donr post it!) Love u bb!!! 💖

Yay you’re back!! Same, I’ve always struggled with weight and disordered eating but it transformed from disordered eating to an eating disorder at my lowest point in 2019, then I went full crazy during the beginning of COVID and lockdown and that’s when my eating disorder became a full blown eating disorder.

I’ve been okayish for a few months but yeah i guess I’m the same as you that I’m back on this path but trying to do it in a more “harm minimisation, risk management” way so I don’t go completely back to my worst point with my ED mostly bc people are starting to get suspicious so I gotta slow it down a bit lol - which I guess is the main reason I said no to being your buddy and why I think you shouldn’t find one, bc I really think that having a buddy can take you down a very dark path that will be hard to come back from, and you seem very nice and lovely and you don’t deserve to go down that path.

I hope you feel comfortable enough soon to come off anon! But still feel free to message me on anon if you like ❤️❤️❤️ keep safe lovely!

[artisticly-autistic]

April 5th: What was school like for you, or what is it currently like for you if you are still in school? Elementary, high school, post-secondary?

Primary school was fairly normal... It took me a while to get "neat enough" handwriting and I had to do extra practice, I remember being taken to see this Dr and an occupational therapist bc my parents had suspicions about me being autistic, I go taken out of class to pick up coins of a desk etc and practice motor skills but I actually had friends and played with other kids like??? I did get bullied a bit. Looking back I'm kinda astounded.. I feel like my autism got worse. I did pretty well though. I guess that's why I didn't get diagnosed at this point bc I seemed to be doing okay.

Secondary was worse. Most of the peoe I knew went to a different secondary. And 2 of the ones I knew in mine were on a different side if the year so we had no classes together and the 1 remaining in my side of the year ditched me for other ppl as well as apparently making fun of me behind my back. I got bullied more. Year 9 I started to make some friends and had a group to sit with sort of but I was kind of on the outskirts. I got my eating disorder in year 10 so kind of faded into the background because of symptoms and having to go o t and for treatment and eventually getting in patiented. I finally got diagnosed after this. Year 11 was okayish. I did pretty well all the way through.

A level was better, people had matured a bit. I ahd a few sort of friends. Spent most breaks and lunches in the art room. Got pretty good results 😊

I am currently at uni. Some of the people on the course are really nice but they are closer to each other and don't talk to me outside of class. So yeah. Not doing too bad grades wise tho... Hopefully I can get that 1st

[etraytin]

Quarantine, Days 208-209

October 5 and 6

I didn’t post anything yesterday because I was feeling completely lousy all day and went to bed at 9:30 to sleep for ten hours nearly straight through. Today I’m posting very late because kiddo felt lousy today and that meant no sleeping for him and no rest for me, alas! Getting sick these days is a hell of a trip, even if it’s not particularly COVID-seeming. I mean, if you look at the symptoms list for COVID, basically every possible symptom of every common illness is on there somewhere. I was tired, had nausea and diarrhea, muscle aches, and a chest hurting from reflux? Ta-da, they’re all symptoms, congratulations! I never ran a fever or had a cough and I feel much much better today, so I’m assuming it was a stomach bug. The kiddo has been feeling the same way today, except he’s running a very slight fever as well, and also has a canker sore that makes everything ten times worse. 

Feeling lousy would have been enough of a bummer for him for today, but he also got put in digital time-out this morning for playing Among Us during school, which he accepted but did not enjoy. He was still okayish until he realized that I wasn’t going to take him to Cub Scouts tonight for the first meeting since March, the last meeting for this dissolving troop. It was the first time he was going to see his buddies in person since March, and he couldn’t go because he was running a temperature. That kicked off a meltdown that went on with brief interruptions for most of the night. It’s hard to blame him, but goddamn am I tired. There’s just not much you can do against a disappointment like that in times like these. He’s able to communicate by text and Facetime with two of his scouting friends now, so that’s something at least, but it’s a very little something. I also told him that he didn’t have to do school tomorrow; if tonight is a sick night, tomorrow can be a sick day. It’s only fair. I just hope he wakes up feeling a lot better. 

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Digging through the archives 1: The ReBoot drama

Hello and welcome to one of the first “subsections” of posts I am going to make on this tumblr for the sake of an easier overview. This one is titlted “Digging through the archives”, because it will always relate to something I will find by literally looking for some of the oldest “opinion” or personal related stuff about Dobson that there is. So think of this here less as me tackling his comics and more of my own version of what the Hypocrisy of Andrew Dobson does.

With that explanation out of the way, lets just briefly talk about Dobson and his idea of fan entitlement; If you have followed Dobson throughout the last year or so, you know he has a very low opinion on fans of the original She-Ra and He-Man, 80s cartoons in general and Star Wars, to the point he thinks the people behind it are all potential alt righters (link red flag comic) or basically man children.

 To anyone who knows Dobson however, it would be no surprise now to learn that he has a tendency to be the same kind of way to other people and creators. Like when he whined to an actual writer on a Frozen related property about the necessity of giving Elsa a girlfriend, which even resulted in Aaron Sparrow being involved at one point, a professional animator and comic writer on the Boom Comics related Darkwing Duck issues. A prime example on how Dobson will literally make himself also unsympathetic to the people he wants to work for/with.

 But then there is what I found in relation to a little animated series by the name of ReBoot and that is really where both his entitlement and egotism kinda shine.

For those unaware: ReBoot was a computer animated adventure show produced by Mainframe Entertainment and ran from 1994 to 2001. It is actually listed as the first fully computer animated cartoon out there and is fondly remembered by a lot of people. Unfortunately, I myself have never watched it so I can’t give a “valid” opinion on it. All I have seen so far are clips on youtube but I will admit that what I have seen in them looks fun and intriguing, even if the animation at parts (especially in season 1 related content) has not aged that well. But hey, early computer animation, that is forgivable. And any media that manages to make an episode that is also in a way a huge tribute to Evil Dead of all things in a children cartoon is a big win for me.

Now, how is ReBoot connected to Dobson? Dobson has been a fan of ReBoot, a fact he made publicly known when in 2007 rumors of a continuation of ReBoot emerged. Something Dobson, again, the man who is pissed about the entitlement of She-Ra fans, has not been very happy about.

But Dobson, what is so wrong about being “different” from the past? After all, let the past die! The original show had terrible artwork! And not everything back in the day was good, right?

 Yeah, it is pretty obvious how his complaining and stands against “modern” fans ring pretty hollow when he himself acted as the entitled brat he thinks critics of new She-Ra and Thundercats Roar are, back in 2007 already. Also I honestly feel that at the very least the creators of that idea gave their fans still more “control” than Rian Johnson did. And we all know how much Star Wars suffered in terms of reputation because of it.

BTW, this webcomic continuation mentioned? It is actually not just a rumor that went nowhere, but one of the most fascinating aspects I found when reading up on ReBoot via Wikipedia. The idea was that of the five potential pitches (so again, there was variety given that even could have been expanded on) people could choose one that would be further adapted. Additionally the people behind the idea were looking for more active input by fans, giving people the chance to apply as artists working on it if they decided to submit samples people could vote on. Something Dobson jumped actually on. And tried to manipulate in his own favor

 The thing that catches my attention at first is how hyperbole Dobson is. Claiming the fate of the show is in their hands and treating voting on this thing like it’s a live or die situation, with pointlessly writing stuff in caps as if we are reading the headline of some trashy newspaper article. It just comes off less as someone who is a fan and more of a fanatic of the show. Second, I just find it hilarious that of all the plattforms online Dobson decided to post that “VERY IMPORTANT” information people should act immediately on, was deviantart. Did he genuinely expect people would flock to what he wrote in order to immediately do something about the vote? Deviantart even back then was mostly for posting fanart, few people read journals and even less people cared for ReBoot. I don’t know if the /co/ board of 4chan existed back in 2007 already, but he would have had more success posting on there and get the information out, than on dA.

 Lastly, the shameless self promotion. Stating he does not care which pitch wins, when only three day prior he whined how they all suck and he wishes the show would be done justice by someone. That someone obviously being him, the person who is so hardcore as a fan, because he already waited 8 years just to watch season 3. Damned be any other artists or pitches that may be better or more popular than him, HE is the true messiah and that is his chance to shine. So don’t be “neutral” and judge fairly based on actual competence, talent and effort, just vote for him blindly or else Trump wins the second term and your beautiful nation turns into the fourth rei- I mean,  Dobson will be a very sad guy who has come to terms with the fact he is not talented enough to work on a reboot/continuation of his favorite children show.

Well, it seemed to have had some impact though, as four day later he posted this

 And obviously Dobson is pissed his favorite pitch did not win and instead of being grateful for the good ratings some of his artwork got he focuses instead on the fact that his Enzo and Megabyte pic had the lowest rating. Which in my opinion it kinda deserved. I mean, look at those artpieces:

Enzo is okayish looking but the rest? That is not Megabyte and a genuine background, it is a cola light version of the entire Ripley disaster with the Samus Artwork commission. Also, Enzo’s hands just look weird. His fingers more alien than they need to be and the position of his legs not really adjusting to how the hip is supposed to move. The comic sample page that Dobson drew being okay overall, aside of the fact that Enzo in one panel HAS FOUR INSTEAD OF FIVE FINGERS ON ONE HAND DESPITE HAVING FIVE FINGERS IN A PREVIOUS PANEL. I am also not really a fan of how Dobson puts emphasize on the word “FAN” and “PAGES” in the post, indicating he thinks he is a better and bigger fan than any of the people who submitted their entries too, off handedly praising them but also making it obvious he thinks he is the most fit for the job, because he can also “copy any artstyle” and adjust to the needs of his superiors. Yeah, sure. That’s why you are nowadays and with even more time and effort put into your work so “good” at imitating Ladybug, your comics look exactly like in the show…

 Now considering that Dobson does not have ReBoot under his resume and likely tried his best to bury any enthusiasm for it, you can imagine how this chance at being an official artist ended up.

 Not even much of a follow up or introspective in why he may have not won. His enthusiasm died within two days.

And honestly, I am surprised that as a result he did not fake depression and rage quit doing comics for a month or so as he did here and there.

And that is pretty much the end of the ReBoot drama, at least as far as I know.

If you are interested what happened with the comic project, here is what I managed to gather:

The project did actually not die in development, but “ReBoot: Arrival” would be reimagined under the name “Code of Honour” and be published online in three “issues” over the course of the next few months. The comic’s status as “canon” continuation of the show is however very much in the air, as quite a lot of people think it is something of a fanfiction, others think it is a good enough continuation that unfortunately still does not deliver on an “ultimate” ending of the franchise. That said, with additional plans like a movie trilogy never been realized and the “reboot” known as “ReBoot: The Guardian Code” having been perceived as an insult by fans and a disappointment by most audiences (which Dobson was surprisingly silent about) this comic seems to be the best thing fans can still hope for and read.

Yeah, I am not even kidding. The comic is still up. Here, have two links to independent pages if you want to either read it for the first time or revisit it for the sake of nostalgia.

As for Dobson, if he reads this, I just have one thing to say to you: Don’t you ever again try to whine about how entitled fanboys are, if you felt entitled enough yourself you tried to manipulate a competition in your own favor in the hope to become a writer and then exploit ReBoot for your own agenda and benefit.

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raerns replied to your post: Does being in the presence of a Black Dragon make...

Like what does that say about the rest of the Black Dragonflight that she’s deemed amiable enough to be an ambassador?

the way I make her attitude work without having to change it or consider the dragon aspects are just damn stupid is that she convinced them she’s not insane/corrupt, but she never tries to convince them she’s not aggressive or resentful. instead she shows herself to be very much so, all the while laying the blame at them for what she is (because she’s a young dragon, young enough that she couldn’t have been actively a part of the black dragonflight’s betrayal of the others, but she suffered the consequences just like the rest of them, grew up being hunted by the other flights etc). 

in the end I think her presence there would heavily rely on alexstrasza allowing it more so than the others, and if she played alex’s guilt right (which accusing them of being guilty for how she had to be to survive would successfully achieve, because alexstrasza will never stop feeling guilty of what happened to the the black and blue dragonflights), alex would allow her to be there to allegedly recruit help for the obsidian dragonshrine, as long as she sincerely believed nalice wasn’t under old god influence.

so if she’s there because she needs help, isn’t one who took part in her flight’s betrayal, and doesn’t seem to be corrupted, she’d be allowed there, and if she’s shouting ‘alexstrasza is a hypocrite’ and ‘korialstrasz sucks’ and ‘lol y’all goddamn stupid to just leave me here because of honor or some shit like that’ they’ll still let her because she didn’t act like an active threat, and her hatred is kinda justified if they believe her to be as innocent as she claims, which I think they do. 

but yeah, the standard for black dragons is really low. if you’re willing to not kill everyone and interact with the other flights in an okayish way you’re it I guess