#season 4 and 5 are literally driving me crazy

[friendzoned61]

I am currently on season 5 ep 10 of psych. I started Friday (lie, sunday)

[lover-of-mine]

Me putting my phone down every time i see an Eddie edit that shows the green phone case: HIS PHONE CASE WAS GREEN THE WHOLE SEASON WHY DID THEY GOT HIM A BLACK PHONE CASE SO HE COULD CALL MARISOL????? IT'S INSANE YOU CANT POSSIBLY EXPECT ME TO BELIEVE THAT WASN'T A CONSCIOUS CHOICE AND I WANT TO KNOW WHAT IT MEAAAAAAANS

[jupiter-letters]

Klaus Hargreeves NSFT Headcanons💓

Anon Requested: Clawing at the walls rn. Can you write nsfw Klaus hcs?

A/N: Need to get back into writing again to start the healing process after season 4. I'm seeing some other writers do that now which is really funny and comforting. I've been wanting to do this but I didn't have that drive to do so thanks for the push anon! I'm aware of Klaus' identity as a Genderfluid person, I will be using He/They pronouns for this set of headcanons. Fem! or GN! Reader as always

word count: 634

divider cred || palestine links

now playing: I Wanna Be Yours - Arctic Monkeys

Klaus is very open to most things when it comes to sex, very few things are off the table for him. Having the opportunity to experiment with a partner is a fun experience for the both of you. He teaches you some things and he does the same for you, kinks you never knew you had kind of bubble to the surface.

Wax Play! Klaus introduced you to it in the middle stages of your relationship, he made it known he wasn’t afraid to experiment with a little pain. As long as you weren’t sawing his limbs off to get your rocks off he was fine.The sensation of hot wax on his skin and the soft caress of your fingers brings Klaus such euphoria. He likes to have it dripped on his thighs and his chest. Not so much on his face, anything that involves a little pain he doesn’t want done to his face. 

Being bound in any way is very very hot for them as well. Handcuffs, ropes or clamps, whether it be you or them. He mostly has a preference for being the one tied up, if you’re riding him and his hands are tied to the bedpost, he’ll go crazy. When he's bottoming he'll love it if you tie his hands behind his back. If you use that to grip onto while you fuck him from behind, face pressed in the pillow, he’ll get really loud. 

He lovesss to get pegged, Klaus will alternate between being the biggest brat and being the softest big wet eyed baby in the world. It really depends on how he’s feeling that day whether he’s gonna mouth off to you or not. He just gets sassy to get a reaction out of you but a good way to eradicate that cocky attitude to edge him, Klaus hates when you make him wait to cum. He has such a love-hate relationship with it, it does make anticipation of cumming more exciting. If you do it to him, sometimes he will get revenge later on. He would rather not do it to you cause he loves to give you whatever you want but he is a tease above all. 

He’ll even bring it up while you’re having sex, “Remember that time I backtalked you a tiny bit and you didn’t let me cum for 5 whole minutes babe? Well guess what?” and then he just stops thrusting into you, Klaus will even keep you on the edge of an orgasm for 5 minutes and let you cum after time’s up. “That was torture wasn’t it? I guess it doesn’t feel as good when the shoe’s on the other foot.” 

They have an oral fixation like you wouldn't believe, certified throat goat/munch. Stick your fingers in their mouth and they'll look at you with the nastiest whorish eyes. Anything you wanna put in Klaus' mouth they'll accept it happily, except maybe a gun that might be too much. If you're the one recieving Klaus will have some part of you in their mouth, an earlobe, a nipple or your cheek. It doesn't matter, they want to get as close as possible.

When Klaus goes down on you he's literally kicking his feet while he does it, no joke. He's so excited to be the one that makes you feel good, sex is always filled with giggles and smiles.

Aftercare is usually very quiet and intimate after a night of fun, you just sit in silence in each other's arms. You're both wound up tight in each other's arms, skin still covered in sweat. Klaus will pull you with him into the bathroom eventually so you both can get clean. After a nice shower you both end up playing monopoly or cooking something in your kitchen.

Thanks for reading! Lemme know what you think. Please like or reblog if you like my stuff.

[aziraphales-library]

Lost Fic #200

1. Hi! Idk if you can help me but I trying to find this one specific fic. I think the plot was gabirel and sandalphon try to ruin aziraphale and crowley’s reputation by yelling that they’re gay in public but literally no one cares and they get chewed out for it by an elderly couple. I’m pretty sure that it’s either a one shot or like two/three chapters and that it’s pre season 2. Idk if this helps. Thanks! - anon

2. Lost a fic that I can't remember much about but it had multiple chapters, Aziraphale and Crowley through the years, and some female presenting. I remember there was a scene where they were on a boat and it flipped, due to Crowley leaning in for a kiss. There's also mentions of Aziraphale's diary and feelings for Crowley. Another scene was a picnic and almost kiss. Eventually they talked it out and realized they loved each other and Aziraphale asked Crowley if she intended for them to almost kiss on the boat. I think it's on Ao3? No idea. - @spaceypotato19

3. Hii, first of all thanks so much for all the work you do here!! I am looking for a fic and I can't find it in my bookmarks or using the tags of this blog. It was a cinderella au but with a a/b/o twist. Azi was the omega and to go to the dance anathema uses a potion or smth to make it look like hes an alpha and A and C meet and they fall in love and marry but eventualy C descovers the truth and there was a kidnapping or smth. I also remember C calling omegas in general very clingy and A taking offense and such. It was a long fic, probably 80k+ I belive Thanksss! - @just-here-doing-something

4. Hi! I'm hoping you can help me find a fic. It's a sequel (although i can't find part 1 either) where Crowley accidentally switches to female genitals. He freaks out because he didn't think Aziraphale will want him anymore, so he freezes time and runs away. The other moment I remember is that it turns out Crowley has not been killing plants. Rather he puts them on his balcony for "retirement." It has a happy ending. I how you can help, because it's driving me crazy! Thanks!! - anon

5. Hello :3 I am aware that you are all very busy but I thought I'd shoot my shot. A friend and I were talking about a specific plotline of a fic that we both remember, it being Aziraphale and Crowley's relationship with their own mothers being a representation of their relationship with God in the original work. We remember that Crowley was jealous of Aziraphale's unconditional and undying love for his mother even though he never knew her cause she died when he was really young and was raised by his grandfather, hence why he's so old fashioned, because his own mother was really crappy and threw him out of the house when he was young. This talk made me want to read it again, but neither of us can remember the title or the main plot apart from this one thing. If anyone has any idea what he could be, please let me know!! (And thank you in advance to anyone who can help) I feel like I should also mention, at some point Crowley goes into Aziraphale's room and sees pictures of him as a baby with his mother looking very happy on his bedside table and that's when he starts feeling jealous. There's also a bunch of other childhood pictures of Aziraphale on there but the most important one is the one with his mother. (also, it was a human au, if that helps) If you could help me find it, I would be ever so grateful. Thank you so much! - @sunlecitron

If you know any of these fics please include the number in your reply! Thank you :)

- Mod D

[mirixmoya]

hello friends welcome to GRADING TORTURED POET SOCIETY SONGS BASED ON HOW EASILY I COULD TURN THEM INTO A HAYFFIE FIC (PART ONE) i hope u enjoy.

(for those interested but also my own future reference when i eventual do turn them into hayffie fics hehe)

i. fortnight: 5/10. potential post-war effie reflecting on their pre-canon and during-canon situationship. the "i love you / it's ruining my life" vibe is very Them but i'd have to write my way around all the wife lines.

ii. the tortured poets department: 8/10. good early-to-mid-situationship hayffie. good moments for haymitch trauma angst stuff. "who's gonna hold you like me?" is them. the wedding ring line could be just them messing around while drunk one night during games season; it's when effie realizes it's Real.

iii. my boy only breaks his favourite toys: 9/10. excellent endish situationship hayffie vibes, 74th + 75th era. has good lines for effie as doll / toy / trinket (ha) imagery. also good imagery for effie and haymitch both being pieces in The Games. also "he runs because he loves me" and "he was my best friend" and "there was danger in the heat of my touch" ... need i go on?

iv. down bad: 7/10. good for their relationship between the end of the war and when effie actually moves to twelve. "how dare you think it's romantic / leaving me safe and stranded" literally them. also lots of good stuff for effie's post-war isolation in the capitol.

v. so long, london: 3/10. has the potential for a (book-verse) post-war angst fic where effie and haymitch try their absolute hardest but ultimately have too much trauma + damage to make it work. idk if i wanna do that tho.

vi. but daddy i love him: 9/10. excellent song for pre-canon hayffie all around. effie's relationship to her womanhood / escorting in the capitol? check. effie's inner conflict over her feelings for haymitch vs. her capitolborn beliefs? check. "dutiful daughter, all my plans were laid" but oh no haymitch ruined them! we cheered! joking that she's having haymitch's baby to her parents just to piss them off... very effie behaviour. excellent song for that Haymitch Is Unlike The Capitol Dandies Effie's Been Raised To Love theme that i like. "i know he's crazy but he's the one".

vii. fresh out the slammer: 7/10. good song for smack in the middle of their situationship. winter vs. summer parallels. effie's seasons without haymitch vs. games season. restriction with her capitol bfs vs. freedom with haymitch. "all those nights he kept me going". the end is good for a post-war hayffie happiness moment.

viii. florida!!!: 8/10. really good song for a Effie's Relationship With The Capitol fic. the isolation, the beauty covering ugliness, etc. "this city reeks of driving myself crazy". "at least the dolls are beautiful" that's literally about the escorts. "you home's really only the town you'll get arrested in" okayyy book-verse effie angst.

ix. guilty as sin?: 10/10. HORNY HAYFFIE ANTHEM. i need to get back in my writing proper smut era i fear. so so much material for haymitch worshiping at the altar of effie's hips and thighs. a song for people who believe that like a good 65% of their relationship is based on the fact that they're both incredibly hot and they both love having incredible sex. true love tbh.

x. who's afraid of little old me?: 9/10. excellent fic for the Effie's Relationship With Her Escort Career stuff that i love. "so tell me everything is not about me / but what if it is?" self centered queen! the general backstage horrors of escorting. "i was tame, i was gentle, till the circus life made me mean" ... "you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me" ... "i am what i am cause you trained me" .... yeah.

xi. i can fix him (no really i can): 4/10. potential for a very very early situationship hayffie. general haymitch being a traumatized mess and effie trying her very hardest to help vibes.

xii. loml: 6/10. the first half is excellent for post-war hayffie coming back together. "who's gonna stop us from waltzing back into rekindled flames" yeahhh. but the second half ... the "you're the loss of my life" vibe ... could fit into the (book-verse) No Matter How Hard They Try They're Too Traumatized To Make It Work narrative but idk.

xiii. i can do it with a broken heart: 10/10. THE PERFECT SONG for 75th era effie being the perfect escort despite the fact that the world is falling away beneath her feet. "I cry a lot but I am so productive! It's an art!" is sooooo her. "i'm so obsessed with him but he avoids me like a plague" is haymitch avoiding her in an attempt to save her from Rebel Stuff but effie knows their relationship is only becoming more serious. she's miserable! she's hitting her marks! eyes bright! chins up! smiles on! everyone she loves might die! it's fine!

xiv. the smallest man who ever lived: 1/10. not a hayffie song at all. BUT potential effie + seneca relationship study fic?? mayhaps???

xv. alchemy: 7/10. good song for book-verse post-war post-torture effie going to haymitch in twelve. she's ditching the capitol, she's going back to her man! who are they to fight the alchemy? how could they ever deny it? his heart is reserved for her. the soulmastism! (not that they would ever admit that lmao)

xvi. clara bow: 10/10. ANOTHER PERFECT EFFIE CHARACTER STUDY SONG! the rose imagery? snow's impact on her life. "this town is fake, but you're the real thing". effie's relationship with the capitol / escorting / womanhood / fame / youth / patriarchy / etc. "flesh and blood amongst war machines" literally the escorts amongst The Games. "hell on earth is to be heavenly" + "promise to be dazzling". sexualization has liberated effie (given her a career, money, freedom) but at what cost? it's also her gilded cage.

anyway. thank u for coming to my extensive ted talk.

[cloudyskiiees]

hi guys! i’m adding to the total drama community by sharing a list of Alenoah fanfics i’ve found that are top tier, both completed and ongoing. enjoy!!!!

1: “Slippery Slopes” by @courtney-deserved-better on Ao3

(Completed)

OKAY this is quite literally the best fanfiction i’ve ever read. Not only is it incredibly well written and very in character, but there’s a whole second book with different perspective for some of the story called “Hawaiian Style.” It’s a World Tour rewrite where team chris is really really really really hot doesn’t lose the London challenge, so Noah and Heather more or less switch roles. Highly HIGHLY recommended. (The slow burn will drive you to insanity.)

2: “A Bit More Time” by @/seas1de on Ao3

(Ongoing)

THIS ONE!!!!!!! Alejandro gets caught in a time loop right before the beginning of the London challenge. This one is SO CRAZY CREATIVE and takes so many twists and turns. Incredibly enjoyable, and still on going. I love how well the writer uses time loop tropes, as that’s one of my favorites ever. Goes a little into some darker themes as well, so please be aware of that! Overall a very good read with a lot of fun time loopy stuff going on with everyone.

3: “Amicus Curiae” by @courtney-deserved-better on Ao3

(Ongoing)

Written by the same author as my first recommendation, I only have high remarks for this fanfic so far!!! In this one, Alejandro and Courtney join the Ridonculous Race as the “Best Friends.” As well as it being alenoah, Courtney and Emma are also shipped together in this story! It’s written so well, and each chapter is a different characters perspective! If you enjoyed season seven of total drama, definitely read this one.

4: “Stakes” by @/deadmxnsparty on Ao3

(Ongoing)

Vampire Alejandro, vampire hunter Noah. How can it go wrong? It can’t, it’s amazing. This one definitely takes a darker turn than rest, and is one of the two recommendations where “total drama island” never happened in their world. I always enjoy a good vampire au, and getting the different perspectives from characters is written well. Definitely read this if you’re a fan of paranormal creatures and dark romance!

5: “Dig a Mace into His Chest and a Shotgun into Mine” by @writerquil

(Ongoing)

Hunger games au! Noah and Gwen are the two tributes from District 12, and Noah plans to get Gwen to the very end as the victor. Alejandro is obviously from District 1, and so far the whole story has me hooked. All this, PLUS it’s interactive! At the end of each chapter, readers get to vote on what choices Noah should make! It’s incredibly fun to be apart of the story, and is also written well! Highly recommended if you enjoy THG and interactive stories!

That’s all I have for full length fanfics right now!! I genuinely enjoyed/am enjoying all of these immensely! Go show love to the writers and enjoy reading some great alenoah content! <3

[hulkscannibal]

: ̗̀➛ the las vegas gp has come to an end, and im here to drop my analysis on the race!! ill leave it below the cut (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و

word count : 549

i don’t even know where to start. though the race seemed overall boring, i found it extremely interesting, hence why i stayed up till 2am hah! the first thing i want to point out was the mini fight between magnussen and lawson that went on around lap 5 (?). what an interesting little battle to see!! it was nice to see kevin put up a fight again after underperforming in his car for some time now. i believe there was some incidents that were noted, but turned out fine for the both of them. though i do believe that kevin isn’t performing well, these are his last three races and i think he’s just trying to enjoy what little time he actually has left in formula1 before his retirement. on the topic of haas, let’s talk about nico. he performed absolutely amazingly (well, at least compared to kevin). he started the race in 9th after a quote on quote heroic qualifying. in the first 15 laps of the race, he had climbed his way up to 3rd and then to fourth, before pitting and moving down to 15th. he managed to scrape his way all the back up to 8th and score some amazing points for haas, putting them 6th in the constructors championship again. that’s a few million dollars for them, meaning we can hope for some good things for the car for ollie. another thing that caught my eye was pierre’s car failure, where he had to retire from the race after qualifying third. personally, i felt really bad for pierre, even though i wasn’t particularly rooting for him. he left us with a very sad radio. (“aw man”). it’s crazy to say that he wasn’t the first person in this race to do so. well, maybe not in the race, but lance stroll faced the same issues in free practice, but returned for the race. on the topic of returning to the race.. was that the right call for franco colapinto? he had hit the barrier with 50g. that’s a lot. say he’s 70kg, then that’s 3500kg right on the side of his body. this is only 1g less than verstappens silver stone crash, which he complained about the pain from for days later. if you seen the aftermath of the crash, you can see how much franco moved the CONCRETE wall. i don’t know, but i think that williams is more worried about him driving then his health. i hope this is more looked into. seeing max win the championship was truly so life changing. he put in all the work and this season has been his best performance out of all the years he’s one the championship. he’s now apart of a club of only six drivers to win 4 or more championships as he did. finally, i want to talk about the ferrari dilemma. sainz had made the podium, leclerc not, even after spending a lot of the race in 2nd place behind russell. he seemed to be very upset with the team, claiming that everytime he tries to be nice, it never works out for him and backfires. ferrari told charles that sainz would not overtake while sainz was literally pressing and then overtaking. of course it wasn’t carlos’ fault, more the teams.

this concludes my rambling unless anyone wants me to elaborate on a specific part (question box is open!!) thanks for readingggg (• ε •)

[basicbatboys]

Request 32 Part 4

this took all my bones. i have no more bones. im boneless. i really hope you guys like this part because i really struggled with it. part 5 will come once my bones grow back. look forward to a heartwarming conversation and some fluff

Pt. 1

Pt. 2

Pt. 3

Stall. The only word on your mind was stall. 

The Joker once again pointed the crowbar at the ground and moved toward the cell doors to do god knows what to you. 

“Wait!” You yelled. “Wait.” You repeated, a little softer this time. And the crazy thing was- he did. He paused. 

“What?” He snapped, his hand hovering inches from the bars. 

“I-I just don’t understand. The Red Hood and I were never involved and even if we had been, it’s been a very long time since I was Havoc, why are you doing this now?” The questions were valid and he seemed to be listening to what you were saying instead of heading straight for the kill. The Joker liked to play with his toys, you knew that, and you were definitely exploiting it. 

His hand retreated and he began to pace again, tossing the crowbar from hand to hand and then just tapping it against his palm. “Well, it’s simple, really. Even Ralph over here could understand.” He gestured with the bar toward a random goon who seemed to get upset and look at his feet. 

“You see, as I said, you are hard to track down. When you left as Havoc, we couldn’t find you anywhere in the city. It’s like you never left your hideout.” 

You winced. Ouch. That was true. You even got your groceries delivered. You worked from home. You literally hadn’t left in three years. Except for… Oh, fuck.

“But one night, one night!” He started laughing as he spoke like he was telling a joke and couldn’t wait for the punchline. “One night…” He continued, gaining his composure, “You finally left. Now, it is of course my business when a pretty girl takes a long drive away from the city so one of my brilliant clowns had the idea to follow you. That’s when he saw you burning your suit. My, how poetic you can be. Tell me, was it cathartic? I have some pieces that are so last season that could use a good inferno!” He laughed again. 

You looked down at your feet as he did. How could you have been so stupid? This was all too much for you. You had caused your own death and it was mere feet, mere moments away. 

“And the Red Hood? How did you know about us?” Slowly, your eyes found the Joker again.

Again, a sick cackle raked across the walls of the jail. The Joker began to jump and clap. “Oh! Oh, boys, did you hear her!” He ran up to the cell bars and gripped them with both hands, the crowbar clanking against the metal of the bars. “You see, that was the final piece. Anyone could see the connection between the night Havoc died and the night Red Hood flew off the handle but I had nothing to prove it! Until now!” He backed away and laughed again, turning to his goons and pointing at you from behind him. “Did you hear? Did you hear what she said? She admitted it!” His goons nodded excitedly. “Oh…” He turned slowly and grinned. “You admitted it.”

His face darkened and the change of face was nothing short of startling. “Enough of playtime. Your jokes are funny, but this will be hilarious. It’s time.”

He swung open the bars of the cage and stood before you. A hand reached out and caressed your cheek with the bar and you winced at the touch. The cold metal backed away and came back down on you with a sickening crack. Your ears began to ring and you couldn’t hear anything. He swung again, this time hitting your shoulder. You felt something snap. Another blow to your head and your consciousness began to fade. 

You struggled to keep your eyes open and as you did you saw a familiar face.

“Dad?” You asked, more alert now. He was standing in front of you, holding a gun. 

You looked at it and you began to cry and scream and struggle, trying to fight out of your bondage. “Please! Not again, Dad, I can’t keep killing people. Please.” 

You realized you were somewhere else now. You were little again, around 8. You knew this because you were wearing your favorite pink dress, the one your mother had embroidered flowers into before she passed. 

Your father was there and a man was laying on the ground, crying and begging to be let go. 

“Go ahead.” Your dad said, pushing you forward. “Go ahead and kill him. If you kill him, we can go home and watch movies. I’ll let you pick, but you have to kill him first.”

You looked up at the man towering above you. You loved your dad so much. He was all you had left. You knew the drill. You had to kill this man or else he wouldn’t speak to you for another week. 

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You awoke in a dark room, darker wet pools of what is clearly your own blood covering the floor and shining in the dim moonlight. Your left eye was pretty well-caked shut, but your right could open wide enough to take in your surroundings. You were still in the cell the Joker threw you into. You were pretty sure you had a few broken ribs, and you were certain you had a sprained left shoulder. Groaning, you roll into a seated position, becoming instantly aware of how lightheaded you were.

Falling in and out of consciousness, faceless bodies flash into your vision. The echoing voice of your father boomed, "Kill him. Kill him, and we'll go eat dinner. Kill him, then we'll go to the park." Your head was spinning. Your father's voice deepens- "Havoc. Kill him, or you won't be leaving the house for the next week. You have to do your duty, Havoc. Peace cannot reign. Not until you're done doing its dirty work. Now, do as I say, and KILL HIM." 

The words crescendoed into a stabbing headache, and you opened your eyes, or, rather, the one that would open. You're not a child anymore, you reminded yourself. You weren’t there anymore. All of these memories had been tucked away for a long time, choosing the worst time to finally present themselves. This was no place for a revelation and yet you had one. 

Every memory you had of your childhood had become tainted in this cell. Your brain had picked and chosen what to allow you to remember, probably to preserve your own life. It all came into the light now- your violence had once been so senseless but you had grown up in it. When you are born in chaos, you cannot live unless you feel yourself dying like you used to. You killed because it was correlated with receiving love. Had you known that was the motive, you wouldn’t have traveled so far down this path. You would have told Jason. You would have begged for help. But you forgot it all. The mind plays funny tricks on time and its stories.  

Dear old Dad is long gone. Right now, you wish by your own hand. 

You brought yourself back to reality, back to the situation at hand. Adrenaline was pushing you forward, keeping you alive when you should surely just lay back down and die here. But nobody is coming to save you. No one knew where you were. No one even knew you were gone. It was all up to you. 

You remembered the days when you would swing off of rooftops and run like a racehorse. The days when you were Havoc, unpredictable, and badass. Even though you're a much softer and much more injured Havoc, perhaps muscle memory would be enough to escape. You'd be damned if you went through this entire bullshit life and all that pain just to die from the most cliche and repetitive villain in Gotham. No, you would live in peace and prove to your father that you were much more than who he made you into. 

Clearing your throat, you leaned forward, pressing your forehead against the bars of the cage. Clearing it again, you rasped, "Hey. Ralph. Care to help a pretty lady out?" You tried to smile but it came out as more of a bloody grimace. 

Ralph turned, taking a look at you. Up and down, up and down. "I ain't see no pretty lady." He sniffed, turning back around. In this short exchange, you zoned in on one missable, but vital piece of information; Ralph has finely manicured nails. 

You edged closer, shoulders to bars- and said, "Yeah, I'm not looking my best right now. But you sure are! I've got to see your cuticle routine!" 

Now, nobody could've prepared you for Ralph. He whipped around, fell to his knees, and exploded into excited tears. He fanned his nails at you through the bars, a slurry of words falling from his lips as he detailed whatever creams and tools got him through the week. Sadly, nobody could've prepared Ralph for you either.

You lashed out, quick as a whip, and grabbed his shoulders to slam his skull into the cage bars. He crumpled to his feet, and you whispered, "Sorry, Ralph. You really do have great hygiene, for a goon." 

The effort it took to take Ralph out was enough to make your head spin again. You were fading fast. You needed to get out of here and find anyone willing to take you to a hospital. You rifled around Ralph's pockets, hoping. Your hand grasped around something hard and plastic and you pulled it out. Lovely, a water gun. You set it aside and dug your hand back in. A rubber ducky. A very long handkerchief. This pocket was useless to you and the other one was inaccessible. 

You pulled out the handkerchief and as you did, something tumbled out. A key. 

The thrill of escape was enough to get you on your feet and you began to fiddle with the lock from the inside of the cell. It was too far to reach but you kept stretching until- 

Click. 

You were free. 

“I should put you back in that cell.” A voice called from down the hall. 

You squinted to focus on who it was. Lo and behold, the Red Hood. 

“Oh god,” You breathed, relief flooding your words. “Oh god.” You repeated as you noticed the gun trained on your chest. 

“I don’t want to fight. And even if I did, I couldn’t.” You clarified. Quickly, you realized this was no time for talking and that your knees were about to give out. “I need-”

You couldn’t finish speaking as you collapsed to the ground. You were breathing so shallow, you couldn’t pull in enough air to fill your lungs. 

As you fell, Jason ran toward you and knelt beside you. He looked around and froze, his eyes trained on something in the corner of the room. You craned your neck and saw what he was looking at- a bloody crowbar. 

Before you were left unconscious, you felt Jason lift you into his arms. 

It was a sight to see. The Red Hood carrying a half-dead Havoc through the streets of Gotham. He called for backup and soon the entire BatCrew was focused on saving your life. A warm rag from Nightwing, stitches from Red Robin, a sling from Batman, Robin stabilizing your neck, Batgirl calling Alfred to prepare the cave for your arrival. 

“You’re sure about this?” Nightwing asked Red Hood. 

“I’m sure.” He said, standing off to the side unable to look at what had happened to you. 

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Again, you came to life. You were tucked into a bed you didn’t recognize in a place you didn’t know. The events of that night came flooding back to you and gave you a pounding headache. All things considered, you felt pretty okay and you were proud of yourself for surviving. You sat up with a wince, feeling pain shoot through your abdomen and your arms. 

That’s when you remembered- you had seen Jason. 

As if he knew you were thinking about him, he walked into the room. 

“Oh.” He said, pausing in the doorway. “You’re up.”

You nodded, saying nothing. What could you have said? There was too much to think of. 

He walked into the room and sat in a chair across from you. “I’m glad.” He said, looking down at his hands. 

You nodded again and opened your mouth to speak. A million thoughts rushed to the front of your head and you scrambled to pick just one to say. 

“Thank you.” You chose. 

He shrugged. “You were dying. I thought you were going to.” 

You looked down at the floor.

“Jason, I-”

He shook his head. “Please don’t.” 

“No.” You said forcefully. “Listen to me for once! Jason, I realized something while the Joker was beating the shit out of me. I know why I did what I did, I know what’s wrong with me. It was my dad, I’ve been killing people since I was 8!” 

He looked up at you suddenly, a grimace spreading across his face. “What?” He asked. “How does that…?”

You shook your head. “Fucking listen.”

He did. You continued. 

“My dad used to make me kill people to get him to spend time with him. He used to make me do it because he knew no one would hurt a little girl. I think it deeply ruined the way I view love and the way I go about getting it. I’ve been trying to fix this and I don’t want you back I just want to be a person. I told you I was sick, I told you there was something wrong with me. Jesus Jason, it’s so fucking unfair. You get to kill people and I don’t? I’m evil when I do it but you’re somehow a good guy?”

Jason shook his head. “I don’t… Your dad?”

You stared at him open-mouthed. He was so useless. This was useless. 

“What don’t you understand? Yes. I must have blocked it all out. You don’t know how hard this is for me. I-”

Before you could finish, Jason stood and wrapped you in a gentle hug. You began to sob. “He would- He, he ruined me!”

Jason held you and let you cry and scream and let everything out. And you did. It was beautiful. You didn’t expect Jason to know what to say because how could anyone know what to say after what you’d just told him?

You imagined what you must look like right now, bruised and swollen and disgusting. How could he treat you with such compassion after everything you’d been through? You were so tired of it all. No one could heal the wounds you had. 

“Stay here for a while.” He whispered. “The family will be here for you. You can start to get back on your feet. We’ll talk later, okay?” 

You nodded. He stood to leave and rested a hand on your knee. “I’m glad you’re okay. I missed you.”

With a final glance, Jason left the room. You sat and stared, unsure of what was going to come of any of this. You were glad he left because you didn’t have any more energy to give him. He knew what happened. That was all that mattered right now.

[phoenixashvibes]

Mercury in Aries ♈️

TRANSITS (RX is 4/1)

March 9, 2024 at 11:03pm EST Mercury will transit to Aries starting to steadily approach its retrograde on APRIL FOOLS DAY on April 1st. These times will be marked with a transit from out of the creative, dreamy and watery Pisces into quick expression, highly enthusiastic, quick and decisive Aries. We will see people being more alert and assured of what is going on with themselves. It would be an ideal time to put some of those ideas you dreamed up in Pisces season to fiery action in a practical manner. This is a favorable energetic for kicking off literally anything new for you!

As Mercury gets comfortable in Aries it is go time because On Sunday The Moon is NEW MOON in PISCES at 5:00AM EST and then later the Moon will also join Mercury in Aries at 8:19PM EST Not to mention that the sextile with Mercury and Pluto in Aquarius at 6:20pm EST & Moon & Pluto Sextile at 10:38pm EST There are huge improvements in communication coming in with this astrological transit. Aries is the sign where the vibe is "it's all about me" and with Mercury the sign of (thinking/communication) this will initiate a period of time with bright and passionate sparks of creative endeavors taking off with lightning speed whether that be romantic (or platonic) outings, communication can get a bit spicy. There will be no filter on and offline!! Sarcasm will reign. Communication can easily lead to argument or conflict if we aren’t careful since it can be aggressively assertive in nature. People will be way more blunt and say what’s on their mind before it’s fully processed smh on a more positive side difficult conversations will be easier to have and it won’t be hard to speak up or put yourself or ideas out to others :)

People will also be driving fast on these roads. Be safe and buckle up. This is ideal for race car driving for those who are Aries Mercury it's a Need For Speed. Trust me I know. These people drive really fast and recklessly but they usually do not hit people they are normally the ones who get struck in traffic accident wrecks so be safe during these times because now EVERYONE will be on this.

When Aries is in Mercury people really don't have much patience for b/s and things can get violent super quick with speedy Mercury in this Martian territory. This will be a time to think before speaking, driving crazy, and/or doing anything too risky based off impulse. Know when to cut out or remove yourself from any hostile or chaotic situations with haste it would be good for you and all involved under this astrological transit w/ Mercury in Aries

Embody the evolved side of Aries where you are strategic about your next move. Well thought out planning while executing without much delay. Do what you feel most passionate about. Do not let any trivial matters and concerns overwhelm you. Be truthful about everything to yourself and others unapologetically but also as respectfully as you are able to be. Do not let anyone provoke you into any situation where it can undermine your position, success, self worth, etc. Do not be too selfish or a pushover during these times.

MARCH 18th PRE-RETROGRADE shadow begins MARCH 19th is the FIRST DAY OF SPRING it is also the same day the Sun goes into Aries later at 11:06PM EST. Earlier in the day, Mercury will go conjunct with the North Node in Aries spiraling us to adapt to embracing brand new perspectives and plans for elevating our lives for the near and far out future in the new zodiac year.

APRIL 1st Mercury goes RX at 6:15PM EST This will be a good time to start setting more alarms and alerts/ Practice more self exploration and introspection. stay loyal to your friends and spouses. Make efforts to do more positive self talk. Practice patience while communicating. Avoiding heavy traffic areas if at all possible while traveling unless you want to be around those who drive like it’s the Autobahn or NASCAR. Journal and meditate. Clear the headspace since Aries rules the head! Also, don’t be afraid to take the lead. Aries is all about leadership and doing being that it is a Cardinal fire sign. Take action to have your life run the way you want, you’re the main character 🥰

APRIL 11th- Mercury conjunction with the Sun at 5:06PM EST An ideal day for anything that requires a quick response. Social interactions will be at an all time high. Ironically the day is 4/11 which is also a number that stands for information, you know the 411 lol 😂 so there will be a lot of information being exchanged. Chatterbox city on and off line. You won’t be able to avoid communicating with yourself or others about new ideas and plans for what’s to come!

APRIL 25th 8:55AM EST Mercury goes Direct Everything comes to a culmination. Of course the shadow period will be for two more weeks but the hard part is out the way. Now is a time to reflect and directly apply everything you learned through this transit. There will be a lot of work to build a solid foundation for whatever it is you initiated under this Mercury in Aries transit. There may be some making up to do for those that let the fiesty, fiery side come out through arguments and conflict. It will be easier to start hard conversations in order to gain understanding from whatever got misunderstood when things got chaotic. You will have the courage to speak up regarding whatever it is you initiated and focused your attention on. Some will be playing catch up and others will be moving at faster rates. Results and progress can be made quicker now so use this wisely to push ahead 🫶🏽

May 13th Mercury’s Post Retrograde (RX) ends

On May 15th Mercury enters Taurus

HISTORICAL EVENTS DURING ARIES IN MERCURY Sinking of the Titanic - April 16, 1912

Battle(s) of Lexington & Concord- April 19, 1775 (start of American Revolutionary War)

American Pony Express First Run- April 3, 1860

Former US Pres. Donald Trump plead not guilty to NY court on 34 felony counts of falsifying documents related to 2016 "hush money" payments to a woman alleging they had an extramarital affair- April 4, 2023

Former Pres. Barack Obama endorses his former Vice P. Joe Biden for pres.- April 15, 2020

My Predictions for This Year in 2024:

More Coverage/Talks of Multiple Countries at War

Beef between Stans or Musicians

New Laws Being Proposed & Others Being Implemented into Law

Pre-Election Talk

Zodiac Signs Most Effected?

Aries, Gemini, Libra, Taurus

[darklinaforever]

"For Sylki is obvious: toxic, toxic and they're basically the same person"

Is it crazy how people can be so off base ? I don't know in what aspect Sylki, who actually bring out the best in each other is supposed to be toxic… ?!

This word is used so much today without people seeming to understand the definition, that's when same crazy…

Oh and the delusion of Sylki being the same person, is, I already explained, completely false.

The series and the creators have been very clear on this subject, yet people persist in saying the opposite which annoys me deeply.

Here is my post where I dismantle this idea of ​​Sylki being the same person :

In it there is even passages which roughly explains how Sylki is a good relationship :

Then I forgot to specify it in this post, but as much as Sylvie helps Loki to accept and love himself, the opposite is also true with Sylvie who opens up much more to the fact than her basic identity is that of a Loki when they are both facing death in episode 4 (while wondering what it really means to be a Loki). Essentially, she no longer internally denies this part of herself, without ceasing to be the person that she chose to be : Sylvie.

I would like to understand how this relationship is toxic ?! Once again, I'm tired of seeing people use this term loosely, simply because they don't like a fictional relationship. Is the Sylki relationship complicated ? Yes. Undeniably. But complicated doesn’t mean toxic.

It's like people who insist on saying that the Sylki romance is not the center / driving force of the plot… :

"I just wanna talk about the show without seeing 16379490405 posts about how “uwu he loves him/her so much, he/she is his new glorious purpose 🥹”. Like. That is SO NOT the point of the show, guys."

When it is in fact the case, the series shows it the contrary, and the creators confirm it.

Loki is in love with Sylvie and their romantic relationship is the fucking center / driving force of the plot, confirmed again by the creators themselves. The Sylki romance is the heart of the story, whether you like it or not. (Most of the interviews from season 1 and 2 will confirm this. Even if I am of the opinion that in season 2 they actually put this relationship aside, with the character of Sylvie... Probably because negative reviews about it in recent years)

Also... Sylvie was literally compared to Loki's new glorious purpose in season 1, in a fucking dialogue from episode 5, and yet the antis or the neutrals still make fun of the pro-Sylki for daring to say, that indeed, Sylvie was in some way Loki's new glorious purpose. As if films were being made when it was literally in a dialogue from season 1 ?!

I mean, Loki absolutely wants to return to the TVA, and we spectators know that it is to find Sylvie. (The last thing he did before ending up there, was literally trying to confess his feelings to Sylvie...) Much more than bringing down the Time-Keepers... Like he said later, he would go where she goes.

Even though the other Lokis don't know why our Loki want to return to the TVA so badly, when one of them asks if Loki wants to return in it because he left his glorious purpose there... and Loki replies that is something like that... What do you think that means ?!

Loki's glorious purpose in season 1 was simply Sylvie, whether you like it or not. Damn, once again it’s literally in the dialogue ! What ?! You think Loki just wants to return to the TVA to bring down the Time-Keepers and have his own time stream to control ? When Loki says that in truth he has no idea what he will do and that he and Sylvie could figure it out together ?!

This dialogue on Loki's glorious purpose is even essentially paralleled with the suggestion that Sylvie's only good memory is Loki... Personal questions that they are asked in the same episode to which they respond vaguely and to which only the viewer can understand the answer...

But no, I imagine that all these people who think they are more intelligent think that the only good memory of Sylvie is something off-screen never mentioned, and that Loki's glorious purpose is only to play the hero and become king...

Also, I don't see why I should moderate my comments and clarify that all of this is my interpretation to avoid offending people.

They do not hesitate to assert their opinion as the right one in a condescending and or downright rude manner.

I understand that everyone is free to have their opinion on a fictional story, but after a while, that doesn't mean that every opinion is really valid in the canon story, especially when there is nothing to support it. I'm tired of seeing antis and neutrals shaming people who really understand the story being told and its messages.

Because yes, once again whether you like it or not, Sylki is not the same person, incest / autocest / selfcest. Sylki is a romance, which is the very heart of the story of the series, and yes, in season 1, Sylvie was associated with Loki's glorious purpose. All this, I maintain, are facts, and not fucking interpretation.

And probably the thing that annoys me the most is everyone who dares to put their clearly denigrating opinions in the tag dedicated to Sylki, instead of the anti one. Honestly, don't you have anything else to do ?! Do you think you are mature ? Clever ? You are just pathetic.

[the-oracle-of-the-lost]

Re: your Disco S4 review:

but there was just a bit too much Therapy Talk for my liking. and to be clear, i don't mean too much Actual Therapy. i really respect the show for portraying therapy and trauma recovery in depth and just having cool main characters go to therapy because it's good and healthy is Very Cool. but i do think there are definitely scenes (particularly in the beginning of the show) that has dialogue fall into Therapy Talk where all the characters go around in a circle and coherently state their thoughts and emotions and then resolve their conflict.

I also have the same issue, I know the crew were heavily traumatized in season 1 and I love that we’re finally getting a Trek have Starfleet take mental health seriously.

But it’s how the writers execute the scene that’s the problem. I think you’re right on the money about them needing another pass at scenes like that.

I also think, most of the time the show literally stops the action for the characters to just talk. And I adore characters being in a room, just talking. But I think it’s because most of the time it’s because those scenes do two things at the same time. Or they usually have characters talk around it and be difficult.

In season 4, it seems the characters start their scene and they just over indulge too much, maybe a tighter edit would also work.

But also I think most modern shows have that problem where they use Therapy talk as a crutch for character development and relationships.

And again, I preface this that I do love having mental health taken seriously but I think there’s a way to do it where writer’s integrate it organically— one of the new shows I like from AppleTV— Shrinking, is literally all about it but it’s funny and heartbreaking and sweet. I think maybe it’s because the writers are also new to the concepts and think they have to fit everything to be relevant.

Hopefully, they worked out the kinks for season 5!

Yeah exactly. I love Disco but sometimes it feels like the writers just need to read their dialogue aloud to make some last revisions (and also put some nuance/unspoken things into the dialogue).

I also think, most of the time the show literally stops the action for the characters to just talk. And I adore characters being in a room, just talking. But I think it’s because most of the time it’s because those scenes do two things at the same time

This!!!! I know fiction is never meant to accurately reflect reality and that there are always going to be weirdly timed conversations for the sake of narrative but Discovery in particular has SO MANY "stop and talk" scenes during Big Action and it drives me crazy when the plot just establishes a strict time limit to do something and then we spend three minutes for characters to have a heart to heart instead of just. Doing The Thing. I know the 90s era "walk and talks" were annoying to film but those downbeats of characters chatting while going from point A to point B is a great place to add small bits of characterization (and movement!) instead of standing still and monologuing.

Thanks for the rec, I've never heard of Shrinking but will have to check it out!

(putting a big tangential ramble about Disco's portrayal of mental health/therapy under a cut because yeesh it got long)

As someone who has been in therapy, has a psychology degree, and has written fiction that uses therapy sessions as a setting/framing device, I can say with a decent amount of confidence that the way therapy/mental health is utilized in Disco is neither super realistic nor using its full narrative potential. Imo we skipped a very interesting part of everyone's healing journeys between s3 and s4 where characters are actually struggling to articulate their problems or denying their issues. Particularly with Detmer who went from having severe PTSD flashbacks in s3 to talking about her feelings with total clarity in s4 when actual trauma recovery is nowhere near as quick or linear and usually requires making major lifestyle changes to actually heal and maintain that healing.

And also I take issue with the fact that all of the characters are growing and facing similar issues at the same time and pace. It ends up making a lot of awkward and redundant conversations between characters who aren't in conflict and are self-actualized enough that they state everything they mean. And when there is meaningful conflict, the characters seem to very quickly overcome their flaws and make up. It's like the opposite problem that a lot of sitcoms and soap operas run into when characters are so driven to conflict and secret-keeping. It is refreshing to have a show where everyone is committed to being their best selves (which is quite similar to tng in that regard) but it doesn't easily mesh with the sort of drama that Discovery seems interested in telling stories about. All of this is also probably why Book's narrative (and his relationship with Michael) was one of the best parts of s4 because it felt like the writers actually committed to realistic season-long conflict born out of trauma and loss that wasn't written off. And as a result I think David Ajala's acting was some of the best of the show because he was given so much depth. I really just wish that the other characters had something similar but Disco's style of hyper-serialization, shorter season orders, and a large cast of recurring characters just doesn't lend to realistically telling stories about trauma and recovery because we almost only see the action and not the characters living their ordinary lives.

And while 90s Trek certainly wasn't The Best at portraying mental health (the therapy it shows in tng is just. Wrong. And so many characters like B'Elanna and Janeway have their issues with depression forgotten about after an episode or two), portrayals of PTSD with characters like Kira, Seven, Neelix, Picard, and Sisko tend to be more interesting to me because those characters' journeys through healing aren't linear. And as always, more episodes and episodic television in general makes it so emotional moments really hit (like Picard's breakdown in Family after Best of Both Worlds, seeing Kira's trauma around her father's death in Ties of Blood and Water, or whenever Neelix, the usual comedic relief and lighthearted character, has to confront how his family was killed in a brutal genocide) whereas with a show like Discovery – there's constant character drama and confrontations and big emotional moments so the catharsis of someone having a breakthrough in their treatment is a bit undercut. For something like that to be memorable, there have to be unmemorable moments too which just isn't Disco's style. It's not inherently a bad thing, but it's not really to my tastes.

Even the other new Treks tend to be a bit more grounded with character dialogue and addressing mental health. My enjoyment of Lower Decks shot way up in s4 because her admitting that Sito's death drove her away from wanting to be an officer was such a huge moment of catharsis when Mariner usually avoids talking about her feelings with a six foot poll. SNW has both La'an, M'Benga, and Chapel dealing with PTSD and their moments of vulnerability and pain are better because SNW tries to balance the silliness and seriousness of Trek. Picard is probably the most similar in content/tone to Discovery and even there despite the serialization and awkward characterization moments, the characters all have consistent issues with trauma that affect them at different times and affect them despite self-improvement. And I think Picard sometimes dips into heavy-handed emotional conversations but it's not quite as much as Disco because oh boy these characters are good at avoiding their feelings.

To be clear, I do love Discovery and people blow the awkward writing/Therapy Talk problem WAY out of proportion to cover for the bigoted reasons some people vocally hate the show. Like this problem does annoy me but it is just one aspect of the show and I hope one that will be fixed (or at least less noticeable) for season 5.

[castlebyersafterdark]

fucckkkkkkkk i just realised that it's been a year and a half more pining for both mike and will, this is sad af, theyre halfway through high school and they still havent gotten their act together! come on lads! he loves you! and HE loves YOU!

wahhhhhhh its soooo sad :((((

What does a time jump of 1.5 years mean for Mike and Will?!?!

Hahaha, it's so fascinating thinking about how they're gonna pull this off, exactly. That's a LONG TIME in the formative years of teenagerdom. We're missing the entirety of sophomore year. I've seen three schools of thought for this one.

IDEA 1: Episode 1 - Mike and El have a moment where they break up by the end of the episode, since I really am pretty sure this episode will entirely be pre-1987 jump. I feel like it's going to be a full episode instead of just a small portion. It's a big ask to go from the end of season 4 to Hawkins in 1987. Possibly, we establish by the end of this that Mike and El are separating as she needs space and she's going into hiding.

IDEA 2: Time jump, Mike and El were unclear/together at the end of episode 1, time jump, then we see that they have broken up or slipped away from each other like we saw with Lucas and Max in season 4. I'm not sure the show would repeat this twice, though we know that sometimes they do repeat lines - but with a switch up! So I'm not sure. A tell not show situation.

IDEA 3: Mike and El are technically together in concept only. El's in hiding, they don't see each other or talk much, going through the motions, but then we see them have a conversation about where they stand, their friendship, etc.

I'm sure there are more IDEA 4, 5, 6... I can come up with. What ideas and timeline possibilities do you guys think? My mind can spin about a dozen others but these are common ones I've landed on listing. It's so damn complicated it drives me crazy.

WILL THOUGH it's so much, it's so sad. A lot of people say that he's going to have taken the time to have moved on from Mike because he's lost all hope - that's so unrealistic, he's not going to move on from that boy. He's in love and that love is painful. I think he's definitely lost most hope, but that doesn't mean he's not going to drive himself crazy with pining and longing and hating himself for feeling the way he feels. It's just going to be worse than ever before, and Henry is going to capitalize on that to torment and torture the poor boy. All the while, the plot throwing Will into even more tension and confusion being with Mike all the time. I'm really starting to lean into him having lived at the Wheeler's for a significant amount of time.

They are so entwined. What life experiences have we missed from them? That's a lot of time. A lot of time to grieve, to rekindle friendships. Are the boys still playing DnD? Have they reunited as the Party? They've got lives to live - they can't have been just plotting vengeance and living on the edge all that time. We are missing 2 summers!! That's a lot of downtime away from school. The Mike and El factor is incredibly frustrating - in the way that there are sooooo many ways it can go and I honestly cannot settle on how I feel plot-wise. A YEAR AND A HALF is such a significant span of time for every element of the show.

AND HOW DOES THE PAINTING FIGURE IN TO ALL THIS?? HOW DID I FORGET ABOUT THE PAINTING?? Wow it's getting wild out here, I literally forgot about this very important aspect. Gotta move on. Continuously confused and insane.

[100ducksizedfolignos]

15 people 15 questions

thanks @girlfriendline @giveemgreef @tblueger <333

1. are you named after anyone?

i am not! my middle name was an homage to my mom's grandparents but i have since changed it and my parents are blessedly allergic to otherwise naming anything after anybody

2. when was the last time you cried?

few days before christmas

3. do you have kids?

no and i do not want to. i have one fur baby (that i co-parent with my parents lmao) though as you all well know (scout my baby boy <3)

4. what sports do you play/have you played?

played kids' baseball/softball until i was like 10/11 bc i was constantly in the outfield and nobody can pitch until you get to like. high school. so it was boring and i hated it so i quit. i was on dance team for a while until i had to drop it bc recital dates kept being on the same days as school band concerts. was in marching band throughout high school, which counts bc i was a percussionist and had to lug around those heavy drum harnesses

5. do you use sarcasm?

a ridiculous amount. if we also count like comedic lying in this i accidentally convinced a coworker that there were only three seasons of spongebob doing that whole pretending that only the good parts of a show exist. such a shame spongebob ended after season 3. there's no more of it! just too bad

6. what’s the first thing you notice about people?

hair probably

7. what’s your eye color?

brown! medium tending towards dark

8. scary movies or happy endings?

while i love gothicness and gothyness i am a Known Weenie and certain types of gore literally make me feel faint. like the finale of the terror s1 made me a little faint and gave me the sweats and i had to fully pause the episode and lay on the floor for a while. so i guess categorically happy endings based on that. if a scary movie isn't super gory though i'll go for it

9. any talents?

i’m very performing arts inclined! i play piano, sing, dance, and act (was a theatre major in college). i memorize things quickly if i set my mind to it, am great at navigating, have great pitch memory (like i can be exactly or near-exactly on pitch when singing something i’ve heard before even without backing accompaniment. this unfortunately drives me crazy when people post pitch-shifted versions of songs and i can tell they’re off. bearer of the curse), decent stage combatant, good crowd weaver, and somehow bear the ability to unintentionally come off as intimidating to basically everyone i’ve ever met

10. where were you born?

iowa, usa

11. what are your hobbies?

i'm something of a gamer in my spare time. basically only solo joints though i'm not like gamer nhlers that play like. league of legends or fortnite or counterstrike. i've recently joined a community band and a bar trivia team (with my old middle school choir teacher lmao. he's a homie), i write fic every once in a while, read, dance around the house, go for walks when it's not cold, snuggle my pup, and obviously watch hockey. i keep telling myself i'm going to learn how to sew but trying to find beginner projects for men types is fucking dire and i keep not going out to get fabric for the pirate blouse i keep wanting to make rip

12. do you have any pets?

ah there's a separate question for this. scout, my yellow lab baby boy whose breeder had a confederate flag up in his barn when we got him (we saved you buddy). have some pictures

13. how tall are you?

5'5". short king territory

14. favorite subject in school?

i was a band/choir bitch. probably followed by english (literature). i liked basically all of it but phys ed though fuck that class i hate distance running it gives me a stitch in my side and you have to run a mile at least twice a semester (fuck you presidential fitness test). on top of all the other running they make you do. loved when they just did games though. matball my beloved

15. dream job.

actor, either stage or voice. unfortunately i do not want to live where the big voice acting studios are located and regional stage acting is kind of limited unless you go all the way out to chicago, which i tried for a couple of months before multiple breakdowns told me i should probably be closer to home. i enjoy being a librarian though :)

tagging @get-hockeyed-idiot @amandaleveille @wildaboutmnhockey @girldewar @letkirillfight @yes-perwallstedt if you guys haven't done it yet and also anyone else who wants to

[lovestuckyhatemarvel]

Okay so, here we are with season 4 episode 1 of Stranger Things. But before I get into the episode, I need to explain something: I’ve never actually watched this season before. I have, however, watched Steddie compilations on YouTube. Regardless, I’m labeling this as a ‘rewatch’ because it’ll keep the series consistent. And parts of it technically are a rewatch. Anyway, these are also going to be way longer than usual because a lot more is just Brand New™️ to me. Although some I haven’t seen but do know because of fanfiction.

1.) I literally can’t remember what made the Texas shooting something that would be necessary to be mentioned at the beginning when America has shootings all the time.

Edit: I have been reminded of the actual case it’s referencing. But I think Texas shooting is going to become less and less of an obvious connection as time goes on, especially for people who aren’t in America. I am in America, and there’s just…too many shootings to keep track of, tbh.

2.) I don’t know why I’m watching this recap. I literally watched season 3 last week or whatever but they really cut out the Russian interrogation/secret base locating stuff entirely from their recap.

3.) season 4 really starts out by being like, “Remember Brenner? Remember that douchebag? Well, guess what. He’s actually super boring in everyday life.”

4.) 010 come on down to get your psychic powers tested and your ability to interpret Brenner’s bad drawings tested. Oh nvm at least now they’re trying to locate people only to witness both Six and Dr. Ellis’ death.

5.) Wait why did Brenner survive this? How did Brenner survive this? Ten is dead. Also, since when does Brenner care about the kids? It’s not like he’s treated them well.

6.) El looking really crazy covered in blood and basically hyperventilating.

7.) El’s got her own room. Also, we’ve gone 185 days since season 3 and now El is painting little figures. And is giving a recap via letter. Joyce is a telemarketer, Will is gay pining, Jonathan has a broken car and is a stoner. Argyle has a pizza van and takes them to school. The bullies in school are cliches.

8.) Nancy drives Mike to school and Karen Wheeler looks great. Also they want Mike home by 9 pm because of his 6:30 flight.

9.) Suzie is editing a D- to an A for Dustin.

10.) I love this conversation about crushes between Robin and Steve. Boobies. Although I don’t like Robin’s hair as much this season.

11.) Max rides the bus and missed a Thursday meeting so needs to go after lunch.

12.) oh there’s Chrissy. And here’s the marching band with Robin playing the TRUMPET. Looks like Vickie’s a clarinet player. Jason and Lucas on the basketball team while Dustin and Mike argue about girlfriends in the crowd.

13.) I know it’s way too early since Jason hasn’t done anything yet, but I already hate him. He just has a punchable face. “Think about all these dead people DID THEY DIE FOR US TO LOSE AT BASKETBALL?” I would have keyed his car in high school. Like oh my god.

14.) Mike and Dustin are nerds and freaks and proud of it. To be fair, Lucas always has been cooler than them. But also Lucas should have gone to Eddie himself.

15.) PACKAGE. FROM. RUSSIA. Man, do not ever send anything delicate to Joyce, she fucking demolishes packages. Oh, that’s an ugly doll. I’ve read about the doll but didn’t know it was that ugly.

16.) El/Jane has to go after a blonde girl talking about Helen Keller for her presentation about Hopper? That’s rough, buddy. Angela is a bitch and I hate her Ariana Grande looking ass. Will is trying and I love that him and El are siblings but yeah, no, that presentation went badly.

17.) Max is doing her loner thing but does get to see Chrissy being upset in the hall as she heads away from the counselor.

18.) C in English and C- in Spanish. It’s not normal for Max but babe, C’s get degrees. You’ll be okay. Max’s mom is drinking, working two jobs, and stepdad is gone. Max is still my favorite even if she is a liar. Lucas’ advice about finding something she cares about is technically good but poor wording and timing. Max isn’t really open for help.

19.) Stranger Things really loves shots of people in bathrooms holding the sides of the sink. Also we get to hear Chrissy vomiting.

20.) Chrissy’s hallucinating. She has issues with her mom being awful about her weight and honestly, mood.

21.) Oh hi, Eddie. You’re a goofy guy. And now Eddie walks across the table. Also honestly, so far the bullying in Hawkins is like, minimal. All that happened in that scene is Eddie got called a freak. Dustin and Mike do try to get the game postponed. I still think Lucas should have asked. Eddie’s got to pass Mrs. O’Donnell’s class and that’s it to pass the class. Eddie really does yank both those dweebs out of their seats with barely any effort.

22.) Murray has karate from 1-3 on Fridays? Good for him. Oh and the doll from Russia has nipples. Teeny tiny nipples. And now needs to be smashed.

23.) Everyone thinks it’s weird that Nancy and Jonathan aren’t spending spring break together. I still think Nancy’s a comphet case. I love that Mike asks Nancy and Dustin asks Steve. Max is sarcastic to Dustin’s request which is very funny. Literally everyone shoots them down. Dustin comes up with an idea nad sprints off faster than I knew was possible.

24.) Oh it’s the picnic table behind the school scene. And we hear and see a clock chiming as she waits for Eddie. I’ve never actually seen the build up to the meeting with Eddie. Did not know the clock breaks and spills spiders.

25.) Eddie is tempted to leave ‘cause Chrissy is acting crazy. Eddie is very dramatic and they were in a talent show together. Eddie used to have buzzed hair and now plays at the Hideout on Tuesdays. I would have loved for Chrissy to live and for these two to be another Steve and Robin. Chrissy asks for something stronger.

26.) El failed a math test, I think? And if that’s the test she failed, it’s extra sad because that’s what she called herself good at in the opening letter. And then Angela tripped her? And her stupid friends stomp on her project. I wanna kick Angela’s ass. El forgets that she doesn’t have powers and it’s so embarrassing. El doesn’t snitch but a teacher takes Angela away anyway.

27.) Will feels so bad and is trying so hard to help.

28.) I feel like it wouldn’t require a paint can from a tree to break a porcelain doll. Oh, Murray thinks it might have an explosive. AND IT’S FILLED WITH A NOTE SAYING HOP IS ALIVE AND IT’S WRITTEN IN CUT OUT LETTERS LIKE IT’S FROM A SERIAL KILLER. WHY DID THEY DO THAT??? LMAO

29.) And now it’s the championship. I feel like fanfics stretch episode 1 into like, 3 chapters. Steve came with his date to see Lucas. And here’s Tammy Thompson. And she’s…bad. this bad performance is worth it for Steve’s sassy expressions.

30.) Oh, hey Erica Sinclair. LMAO WAIT, IS SHE WEARING AN AMERICAN FLAG? GOD, YOU DWEEB. I will say that the rest of hellfire that just kind of chortles in response to everything is so far just background noise that I do not care about. I do love that Erica is way better at insults than Eddie and he kind of adores her.

31.) I still hate Jason.

32.) Technically if we’re going with the lore of we thought Vecna was killed by Kas then technically El/Jane is this show’s Kas.

33.) Okay going back and forth is too hard when they’re going back this fast between basketball and Hellfire so I’ll just summarize at the end. Lucas going in and the gameplay mirror each other very obviously. It’s an old trope but a good one. Eddie’s unhinged.

34.) “There is no shame in running. Don’t be heroes.”

35.) Dustin misses and so does Jason. But Lucas and Erica both win. This slow mo is kind of excessive. Eddie’s fucking thrilled that Erica did a critical success. Although did they actually need a natural 20 to win? That doesn’t really make sense if the guy only has 15 HP left. Presumably they haven’t been critting to attack this fucking thing this entire session. So really it’s a matter of going above his AC. And technically you don’t need a nat 20 to do that, especially if you have enough bonuses. Although they are playing a different version of D&D than I’ve ever played so maybe I’m taking out of my ass.

36.) Aw, Max listened to the game’s result on the radio. I thought she went. Her mom is passed out on the couch. Max takes food to a dog. Eddie lives like, directly across from her. For some reason, from fanfics, I thought they were like, directly next to each other. Still, Max saw Chrissy go into his trailer.

37.) Wayne works nights. Eddie does not know where his ketamine is. Should keep track of that. That is a very cool guitar he has though. Chrissy’s hallucinations are very bad now and she’s no longer responsive. And now the lights are flickering. Vecna’s ugly as hell. There are so many spiders in this vision. Eddie really is trying to wake her up but I’m not sure how he thought I DON’T LIKE THIS, CHRISSY, WAKE UP would help.

38.) did not know we see Vecna in episode 1. “It’s time for your suffering to end.” Don’t be weird, dude. And now Chrissy is floating. Her death is like, both weirdly graphic and also sanitized. Like it looks cartoonish. I didn’t realize how cartoonish it looks. Bones don’t break through the skin. There’s barely any blood. Her skin moves like putty.

[fandom-hoarder]

Hello, my covid shot made me forget days were passing and just last night I realized today is Friday and I still needed to finish my Christmas shopping (stocking stuffers, food, cat toys).

Lines were, of course, crazy long. Especially at Target -- where, I HAVE to gripe, NO CHRISTMAS SEASONAL STUFF WAS ON SALE. EVERYTHING FULL PRICE. DO YOU KNOW HOW EXPENSIVE TARGET IS??? My grandma gave me a Target giftcard, or I wouldn't have been there in the first place. But goddamn. Why am I paying full price for Christmas stockings 3 days before Christmas? Why did literally no other stores have a blue stocking with a not-gross texture?

I gave in and got McDonald's drive thru about 4 hours into my quest. They asked me to pull up to the third window to wait for my food. The third window is just a storage area now, so every fucking time they have me wait there istg they forget about me.

Ok, maybe they were thawing the quarter pounder patties or making new fries idk. It was raining and they were busy, so I was patient because I did not want to find a parking spot and go inside. At least 5 cars behind me were given their food immediately and drove off.

I waited 17 minutes. I told myself if it got to 15 minutes, I would try knocking on the window (NEVER works) and go inside. Around minute 14, a worker with a coat on, clearly heading to the back door, saw me sitting there and turned around. And finally I got my quarter pounder meal.

Was my food hot?? No. It was not. The burger was an edible amount of warm, but I would've liked it more, um, HOT. The cheese wasn't even melted. The fries were barely warm. I ate it anyway cuz ugh wtfever I have shit to do.

I was out from 2 - 10 🙃 I have to go back out there tomorrow.

[rains-inky-mind]

15 Questions But Make It Unhinged™️

Tagged by @sleepyowlwrites, Sleepy friend. Noticing that my unhinged, you actually meant we get to skip question number four. There's only 14 questions lol.

1. Are you named after anyone?

No, sadly. Would've been cool to be named after my dad, cause then I would've been "the third", but I'm a female so that was a no-go. Sadly.

Instead my name literally means "Laurel tree Ash tree Laurel field"...so that's...nature-y. (Also why I clung to the nickname my father gave me.)

2. When was the last time you cried?

This evening. My husband put on Up and before it even started I told him I was going cry. I lost it when Ellie was painting the nursery, then when she was in the doctors office, because who wouldn't?? I did laugh at the cloud babies though, because wth??

3. Do you have kids?

Serious for a second. I have two angel babies that I lost to miscarriage.

I also have a healthy, happy, overactive toddler. She's perfect, but in the way that she'll drive you crazy and you never get to sit down.

4. Sports?

I played Soccer as a child. I hated it and had horrid anxiety. My team literally nicknamed me "Bellyache". Like, that's what my team trophy said. Needless to say I quit after one season.

The only sport I'm into these days is seeing how late I can stay up before my eyes physically won't stay open.

5. What's the first thing you notice about people?

Vibes. It's all vibes. Especially being into weird stuff and weird aesthetics and being neurodivergent—if we don't vibe, we don't interact.

6. What's your eyecolor?

My eye colour depends on my mood, my outfit, the weather, etc. They're mostly blue, but can be grey or green as well. Depends on various factors.

Not my eyes, but a cool thing about my husband's eyes, they're the most awesome eyes I've ever seen. They are blue/green and have a yellow ring around the inner part of his eye. It's really cool and super pretty. His eyes also turn green when he lies, so that's dope.

7. Scary Movies or Happy Endings?

I love 80s Horror movies. They make the best comedies. I can't watch scary horror movies though. I enjoy them in the moment, but they give me severe anxiety that builds up and causes non-verbal panic attacks in the middle of the night. So that's not fun.

I also don't really care about happy endings. Yeah, they're nice and most of the time they tie everything up neatly with a bow—but I like endings that you don't see coming from a mile away. I like twist endings. I like when the guy doesn't get the girl. I like when the goal MC has been chasing for the whole movie isn't realized and there's heartbreak.

8. Any special talents?

None that really come to mind. Unless being clumsy is a talent? Falling up the stairs. Tripping over flat surfaces. Pushing doors that say "pull" and vice-versa.

No, wait, I do have one special talent. I'm too short to drive most cars comfortably. Most of my husband's trucks (he's owned three, I think, since we started dating until now) I haven't been able to drive. Even my own car, it's comfortable, I can reach the pedals, but the dash is kinda tall (there's a hump on the driver's side) that I sometimes struggle to see things too close infront of me.

9. Where were you born?

In the same hospital that my husband would be born in a month later. One of many, many hospitals in my large city.

10. What are your hobbies?

Writing, reading, crocheting, drawing, making graphics—we could be here all night. Pretty much whatever my special interest is at the moment defines what my hobbies are at a given time.

11. Do you have pets?

I do not.

I would love to have a cat. A soft little mew mew to creep around and claw up the furniture. I'd name it something like Poe or Cherrio or Midnight. But alas, I'm allergic.

I would also love to have a dog, but I'd want a specially trained one for my various health issues. It would also have to do well with kids. As much as I'd like one, I can't afford one and I think I'm allergic to dogs as well. I'm a woman of many allergies.

12. How tall are you?

Well this one depends on who you ask. Since I was twelve years old ever doctor that I go to tells me something different, but always within the range of 5'1"—5'2" with the outlier being the very strange doctor who informed me I was 5'3", which I know is wrong. I like to just go with 5'1". I'm short and I enjoy it. I wouldn't wish to be tall.

It does have its disadvantages though, especially around my husband's family. Their heights range from 6' to 6'6" and his grandfather was 7'. Plus he's one of seven brothers. My short self gets lost in the crowd of tall ass guys.

13. Favourite subject in school?

MATH. I freakin' loved math. Since I was a kid it's always been my favourite subject. One of my friends as an adult teased me, telling me that only autistic people favored math and numbers—the joke being that I found out I was autistic a few months later.

14. Dream job?

I would love be the the Old Lady Who Lived in the Shoe™️. Joking, joking. I would love to own my own bakery. To make fresh cakes and cookies and breads daily. If my body wasn't so run down at the old age of 23, I may shoot for it one day—But even as it stands now, to make one batch of cupcakes takes me most of the day and I can't move the next day. Tis life's cruel joke.

Tagging: @lyra-brie @another-white-hole @delilahsdaydream @epnona-the-wisp