#screaming out loud

[fay-run]

how lae’zel grew up thinking things like love and joy are at best meaningless and at worst a weakness but then she met sindyrdra and everything she knew and believed was challenged but she felt true joy with her in spite of it all and how sindyrdra is not only the source of her joy but also the source of her believing in joy at all!!!!!!!!!!!!

[untrisha]

Yo I might be drunk, but disenchanted is an amazing concept for a film because it's a brilliant allegory for the fact that if you ever forget what it felt like to be in your past, you're doomed to be a parent who continues the cycle. I'm only 45mins in, but I'm torn tf up over how well the dichotomy between Gisele and Harper has been displayed. Each of their actions can be boiled down to "I love and care for them so much and can't bear to hurt them so I will act out of survival." It's the epitome of the teen/parent relationship boiled down to it's bear essentials and so much more.

I'm literally over here crying because Gisele's character is working so hard to fight past the parenting instincts that are instilled in every parent ("girls can't be out alone!" "You don't know what you need!" "It's not safe out there") while trying to remember herself as a human being outside of imposed motherhood (the entire dichotomy surrounding how she might look at any given time, her grip on the reality of her spouse's life outside of her existence, how her friends may be perceived). One of the hardest parts of growing up in multiple households with a laundry list of parental figures was knowing that everything they did was in pure essence well meaning, but entirely misguided because they'd forgotten any semblance of existence before their "adult" lives. This movie is so beautiful for addressing that whether it was intentional or not. I feel extremely seen seeing an adult character who is as connected to their grown-self as they are to their child-self. It's something that so many of us lose, forget, or grow to resent. And THAT'S what perpetuates any cycles. It's hard to remember where you were when all that's left is how you felt and you're just trying to protect your loved ones from that same feeling. Only empathy can move us forward.

And then on Harper's end. She feels as though her own safe space has been invaded no matter how hard she tries to accept it (she's not a true daughter of andolasia, but recognizes that Gisele is doing everything she can think of to make Harper feel otherwise and therefore it would be a catastrophic disruption on Harper's end to bring up any untoward feelings on the matter). She continues to go with the flow until the flow is cut off and spat in her face ("your mother?!?!" Entirely unfair to place that statement, syntax, and vocab on her). And even so, she takes on the burden because she knows that everything that's done is out of love.

Living for this rn. Can't wait to see the resolution that ties it all together. If Gisele doesn't see that Harper needs looser reins and more recognition as her own daughter (self-proclaimed!!!) I'm gonna lose it. It's not the child's place to have grown up realizations here! Her brain ain't even fully formed yet! And she's taking on the weight of the happiness of this family! It's a team effort! Give that hoe a wand or whatever. She's true too!

[alonelybunn]

Another explanation you didn't ask for...

"The text conveys a deep sense of emotional turmoil and introspection. The speaker reveals their state of mind as scattered and restless, indicating a struggle with racing thoughts that prevent them from finding peace, even in the presence of calming factors like soft music and a fan. This suggests a longing for tranquility that remains elusive, highlighting an underlying anxiety.

The acknowledgment of a previous mood improvement creates a contrast that adds to the emotional weight. The speaker seems to be grappling with a sense of disappointment as they realize that the natural ebb and flow of emotions has once again led them into a darker place. The phrase "murky dark thoughts" conveys feelings of hopelessness and weariness, suggesting that these negative emotions are not only persistent but also draining.

There’s also an element of self-awareness, as the speaker reflects on their mental struggles and expresses concern about the impact on their friends. This awareness suggests a desire for connection and an understanding that their emotional state could be affecting those around them, which adds a layer of vulnerability to their narrative.

The metaphor of wishing to be a robot capable of running diagnostics highlights a frustration with human emotional complexity. The yearning to return to a state of innocence amplifies the sense of loss and nostalgia, evoking feelings of sadness and longing for simpler times, free from the burdens they currently carry.

Overall, the emotional landscape of the text is rich and layered, combining elements of nostalgia, weariness, and a poignant struggle with mental health, all underscored by a longing for clarity and relief from emotional pain."

[februarys-wednesday]

starkid fans when they see Normal Man and his Barista Crush onscreen for 0.5 seconds:

[dear-ao3]

today i found another pair of my absolute holy grail jeans that i had in high school approximately 6 years ago that i wore until i had ripped and patched the crotch and ass three times and literally could not get them on anymore in exactly one size bigger while i was thrifting.

reblog for good luck at your local thrift store

[pidgydraws]

⚙️ for a moment we had it all... ⚙️

[dearsheroozle]

CHUTNEY DFLKGFDLK

MINIATURE KOOL-AID MAN

[naomifj97]

I just... I'm sorry. I know I'm just screaming at the air here. It's just... All I want to do lately is cry and curl on bed and not going out, and I'm trying but I'm starting to lose the meaning of it. I want to yell and scream and break things but I can't because I'm supposed to be a civilized human being, even if I don't feel like one anymore. Just...done with everything.

[pinkypromisekissys]

"if ur hands get cold, i'll be happy to hold them"

[narliee]

can you promise to tell me if it ever gets that bad again? (x)

[geriatriccryptkeeper]

on the second watch of challengers and noticing when tashi asked if there was anything between the boys and patrick got quiet and waited for art to respond first so he knew what to say (or what not to say). like he looked like a dejected puppy waiting for art’s response and when he actually did respond, it clearly hurt him.

[egophiliac]

swipes everything else off of the table to yell about diasomnia flower bookmarks

(I gave Silver one too :D)

[sosoekov]

ITAFUSHI NATION, BRING OUT YOUR BEST WINES, TODAY WE CELEBRATE HARD!!!

THIS IS OUR ITAFUSHI KAISEN.

[galactichoneybee92]

Not to sound like a boomer on main, because I love my phone- I do. But I really miss the day when I could hang out in public without having to hear everyone else's phones. I don't care if there are babies crying (because babies cry sometimes) or if other people are having conversations (because that's what people come to cafes and such to do) but hearing tinny little phone sounds blasting out loud out of their speakers drives me insane. I'm only in my 30's, why are you making me complain about how things were "back in my day" like I'm 80? Public phone noise is prematurely aging me. Send help.

[lesbianmaxevans]

daniel molloy, my new bestie

[khaopybara]

How cute of you to think that you're Khaotung Thanawat's biggest fan when First Kanaphan exists.