#sarc speaks a LOT

[jiraisupportgroup]

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Guide To Tone Tags ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

Tone tags are little indicators people put at the end of a sentence or message to clarify the intent or feelings of that message ^-^ you’ve probably seen them before. They’re really helpful especially online because it can be difficult to tell the tone of something online through text, especially if you don’t know the person and their usual speaking habits.

Just as a note: please don’t use these ironically. It defeats the purpose of tone tags and can be very confusing for some people! Just leave the tone tag out if you’re being sarcastic about it.

♡ General Tone ♡

• /j - Joking - this message isn’t serious, it’s a joke.

• /hj - Half Joking - they are joking about something but they are also likely to do it or believe what they are saying. It’s a joke and it’s not serious, but there is a little bit of truth in it. (Usually this is in the form of exaggeration i.e. “I hate twitter/hj” means they don’t really hate twitter, they do dislike some aspects of it though)

• /s or /sarc - Sarcastic - they’re saying something that is opposite of what they actually mean or feel. (Sarcasm online is also represented a lot by using long words and random capitalization i.e. “I nEvEr Would HaVe KnoOoooooOOOWnnN” they mean this sarcastically - they knew).

• /srs - Serious - they really mean what they are saying, or what they’re saying is very important to them.

• /nsrs - Not Serious - they do not mean what they are saying or what they’re saying isn’t a big deal.

• /lh - Lighthearted - they don’t mean this too seriously, it’s for fun or generally well intentioned.

• /g or /gen - Genuine - what they are saying or offering is for real, they mean what they are saying sincerely, or they are actually asking for responses for a question - it’s not rhetorical.

• /nf - Not Forced - they’re asking for something but they’re not trying to pressure you or force you into doing it.

• /m -Metaphorically - what they’re saying isn’t literal or didn’t literally happen, they’re using this as a metaphor for a different situation.

• /li - Literally - the thing they are talking about actually for real happened or they believe it fully.

• /rt or /rh - Rhetorical Question - a question they don’t necessarily want responses to, it’s a statement posed as a question to make you think about the topic as opposed to actually asking for an answer.

• /hyp - Hyperbole - what they’re saying is extremely exaggerated for comedic effect or to stress something.

• /ex - Exaggeration - what they’re saying is somewhat exaggerated for comedic effect or to stress something.

• /pos - Positive - they mean this in a good way.

• /neg - Negative - they mean this in a bad way.

• /neu - Neutral - they don’t really have strong feelings on this or don’t really have an opinion on it.

♡ Feelings of the Author ♡

• /nm - Not Mad - they’re not mad about what they’re talking about

• /lu - A Little Upset - they’re a bit disappointed or sad or angry about what they’re talking about, but not too much.

• /p - Platonic - they mean this in a friendly way, they view you as a friend.

• /r - Romantic - they mean this in a romantic way, they view you as a love interest, crush, or partner.

♡ Intent of Message ♡

• /t - Teasing - they’re kidding around and teasing you, it’s not too serious.

• /th - Threat - this is an actual threat that they intent on following through with (I mostly see this one used ironically which irks me bc it defeats the entire purpose of using a tone tag so just be aware of that).

• /sx or /x - Sexual Intent - they mean this in a flirtatious and sexual way.

• /nsx or /ns - Non-Sexual Intent - they do not mean this in a sexual way, it’s more so platonic, joking, or lighthearted.

• /nbr - Not Being Rude - they’re not trying to be rude by saying this (note that this does not automatically mean what they’re saying is not rude, you can still be rude even if it’s not your intention to be).

♡ Who is Being Talked To or About ♡

• /nbh - Nobody Here - they’re not talking about anyone here (usually used in group chats or small communities).

• /nsb - Not Subtweeting - they’re not saying this as a vague response to anything or anyone, they’re just genuinely talking about it.

• /nay - Not At You - they’re not aiming what they’re talking about at you specifically.

• /ay - At You - they are specifically targeting what they’re saying for you.

♡ Where is This From / Miscellaneous ♡

• /ij - Inside Joke - it’s a joke but might only be understood by a small group of people. Don’t stress if you don’t get it or don’t understand what they’re talking about. Inside jokes are usually hard to explain to others.

• /ref - Reference - this is a reference to something else, usually a meme or piece of media.

• /ot - Off Topic - this is unrelated to what was being talked about before.

• /cb - Clickbait - usually this means the message is exaggerated or falsely advertised to get your attention. Often used in a lighthearted / joking manner.

• /f - Fake - the thing they’re tagging is not real. This is usually used for fake headlines or photos.

• /l or /ly - Lyrics - they’re reciting the lyrics of a song.

• /c -Copypasta - this is a copypasta, they copied it from somewhere else.

[mewmewkitty6]

⨯ . ⁺ ✦ ⊹ ꙳ ⁺ ‧ ⨯. ⁺ ✦ ⊹ . * ꙳ ✦ ⊹

⨯ . ⁺ ✦ ⊹ ꙳ ⁺ ‧ ⨯. ⁺ ✦ ⊹ . * ꙳ ✦ ⊹

┈➤L! Sir Pentious HCs★

• Usually regresses involuntarily from ages 4-6 - this usually happens when he's tired or upset

•Doesn't have a proper cg and relies on the eggs to look after him

•Can NOT go anywhere without his egg boys as they are comforting for him no matter how stupid they are

•Has a biting habit so he has teethers for when he feels like he needs them

•Doesn't really mind regressing around others but usually forces himself to slip out of it when talking to cherri (PS: she doesn't really care)

•Loves loves LOVES compliments from literally anyone

•Insists he is big when regressed even though it is EXTREMELY obvious

•Speaks a lot but goes quiet when relaxed or distracted

•Thinks he's super powerful and tries to "fight" alastor by tugging on his coat (he's trying his best guys!! /sarc)

•loves to cuddle with all his egg boys and get all warm and cozy with them

•Wishes Cherri would be a cg for him but is afraid to ask

•Likes to keep organised - has a perfectly lined up row of pacis in rainbow order

•Is easily upset by small things

•He likes to feel certain textures when regressed e.g keekees fur (THAT ONE SCENE OH MY GOD /POS)

��｡° .ᘛ𓆩♡𓆪ᘚ. ° ｡༻

As you can clearly tell I LOVE GIVING LITTLESPACW HEADCANONS AND I LOVE SIR PENTIOUS 💔💔 HES SUCH A CUTIE PIE

[loseractivities]

do you have any stuilly headcanons

ya heres some

- billy os extremely insecure about his music taste and the only person who actually knows what he listens to is stu

- billy is also an extremely picky eater and stu is again the only person who rlly knows what foods he likes

- speaking of food stuff bakes billy stuff sometimes its always terrible and has some sort of writing in icing on it

- billy = cigarettes, stu = weed (billy only smokes weed for a reason besides being gay to be gay and stu only smokes cigarettes if billys already put his mouth on it) 🤮🤮🏳️‍🌈EW GAY!!!?

- billy sleeps terrible unless next to stu (he just says stus bed is comfortable)

- billy = cat, stu = dog (i will never shut up about this)

- both billy and stu have had braces. billy got them first so stu picked on him and brought it up all the time; "says the guy with braces" etc, till he got them and then decided they were awesome

- both billy and stu got piercings at some point.when idk maybe they gave em to each other dude idk be creative

- (enneagram) billy 6w7, stu 7w8

- (zodiac) BILLY IS CAPRICORN STU IS LEO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! do they have canon birthdays? idk

- stu = doesnt read because he doesnt have an attention span, billy = has a good attention span but doesnt read because hes dyslexic

- have been friends since very young like forever

- with that being said ever since they were super young stu has been extremely loyal (devastatingly so) and would pretty much just blindly trust anything billy said or did or told him to do (not to say he didnt wanna do the things billy would say to do, he just wants anything billy wants cus they matched each others 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴)

- rhey uh.. they uh match each others 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴 uhh

- billy has no other friends, stu has a lot of friends that he simply just does not care about one millionth as much

- both are (obviously) very rebellious, murder is not the only crime they commit, billy just keeps it more on the down low

- also i feel like billy would be really good at picking locks but stu would actually be so terrible

- billy rambles about horror movies endlessly...stu listens...stu may not be listening...but he loves billys voice(he wont remember anything he said)

- stu also rambles but more-so about random events in life

- stus faster than billy

- they are both privileged white boys but i think stu has more money than billy so he will tease him about that too

- billy = autism, stu = adhd (wow. so original i wonder if anyone has said fhat before /sarc) im jk i love this headcanon

- stu gives billy gifts and stuff way more often than billy gives gifts to him, however when they were younger it was the opposite billy would be leavin dead animals/bugs at his windowsill💀💀(if stu brings up that phase in any sense he gets beaten and gaslighted into believing billy never did fhat)

- bonus i think stu wears contacts and refuses glasses i lovr that headcanon

thank for coming to my ted talk

[localsunnet]

monn rach lore because i cannot keep it to myself anymore sobbing (pt 1)

You read the title, monn rach lore (pt 1) because two people said yes

ill try to make it make sense because my grammar kinda sucks ass and i dont know how to properly explain things (and i’ll split it into 2-3 parts because i don’t want the post to be too long 💔💔💔💔)

also if it’s historically inaccurate im so sorry ,,

presented by yours truly (warnjng: i suck at writing)

Monn was born into the religious Rach family in Leipzig on 13th of March 1784, and is the youngest one among his siblings, Meier and Martin.

Since his father was an officer in the Prussian army and wasn’t usually home, Monn’s mother cared for him and his brothers alone, and she usually brought them to church. (you guys will not like his father, trust me)

When Monn is 2 years old, his mother started noticing weird behaviours from him, like not being able to speak properly. At first she thought it was nothing and figured he’ll grow out of it, but those behaviours followed him to his 5th birthday, and since the family’s religious she reaallyy started to believe that he’s cursed in a way and started ignoring him, only feeding him but basically just gave him no attention in fear that he’ll attract a demon or smth (this will NOT cause problems later on /sarc). Luckily his brothers think that’s bullshit so they started to care for him instead and taught him life skills, though mother would always warn them to not interact with him. Monn during this time also started to have small cannibalistic thoughts, which will NOT spiral guys!! /j

So Monn was no longer given attention by his mom and pretty much started to distrust her, only daring to approach his brothers for help. During this time he found an interest in cats, black cats to be specific, and he started to dream of being a veterinarian when he grows up.

One day during mass at age 6, he met Father Silvio, a new chaplain in St. Thomas, and he immediately trusted him with every atom of his being due to him looking like a white cat and followed him around, even though Silvio kind of didn't like him and would push him away every time they’ll interact. (he will come back later in clutch so keep him in mind)

When he was 10, Monn met a scholar (who I didn’t name but feel free to suggest) who was willing to teach him sign language and help him read and write properly after school. Most of Monn’s happy childhood memories came from his time with the scholar and he feels like he owed him a lot for it. Sadly the scholar had to leave Leipzig 2 years later and he never crossed paths with him ever again. Before he left, he did gift Monn a grey wool scarf as a sign of appreciation.

His life after that wasn’t super interesting, his routine was just wake up, breakfast, go to school, come back, dinner, sleep. Maybe add going to mass on Sundays but thats really about it.

And I’ll end it here for this part because im gonna TWEAK after using my brain to write this for 2 nights (which is apparently when my brain usually goes “write now”) (yes i did get sleep because i got tired) im so sorry guys for not writing the entire thing guh…

hopefully you guys can understand this and LIKE MONN’S LORE!!! (Any suggestions and criticisms are VERY welcome, making situations is also VERY allowed!!)

monarchy out and until i return

[sweet-drmzzz]

wowowowow I’m finally doing a pinned post

Hiya!! My names are Z-Fey, and Faele (pronounced fey-elle)!! I am the host of a median collective, and this is my/our main blog. You can find our plural side blog here: @treehousearchive

I go by Fae/Zi/It/They pronouns, and idrc how the grammar around them works (so you could say “fae are a person with adhd” or “fae is a person with adhd.” Please use my neopronouns as much as, if not more than you use they/it

if you misgender me I’ll eat ur knees /hj

I am faekin and foxkin, and I’m absolutely amazing at it. Don’t try to disprove alterhuman shit. I won’t listen. Also keep any alterhuman discourse off this blog. All nonhumans are welcome here. Yes even physical ones. Yes even ones that truly believe they are an animal. Yes even mentally ill/delusional ones.

Collectively we are aspec and arospec. Afaik that goes for everyone in our collective but I could be wrong.

currently I don’t check my discord, if you need to reach me my asks and DMs on here are the fastest ways.

I use a lot of emoticons, abbreviations, and tone tags :3

tone tag key:

/lh- light hearted

/j- joking

/hj- half joking

/sarc- sarcasm

/nm- not mean

/nf- not forced

/gen- genuine

/aesth- aesthetic (used to describe aesthetic attraction. Ex. “He’s hot /aesth”

if I ever use one u don’t understand just ask! I’m more then willing to inform!

DNI:

Pedos. Like genuinely. Pedos maps etc fucking disgust me. Stay tf away from my blog

Zionist. Yeah nuhuh. If u support genocide I don’t want to talk to u.

Homophobes/Transphobes. I’m gay asf. I don’t think you want to be here.

Zoophiles. No. Just no.

Anti furry/Anti alterhuman. Once again. I’m a therian. Y would u want to be here???

Sexual/kink blogs. Nothing against you, have ur fun. Idrc. I’m just not comfy w that.

Anti-endos. I don’t want that negativity on my blog. All good vibes here.

If you demonize mental illnesses (like schizophrenia or npd) fuck off. If you use “delulu” or treat serious mental illnesses as silly little things fuck off.

Anti aro/aspec. This shouldn’t even be a thing? Just let people exist?

if I don’t like u I’ll block u.

With all due respect, which is none, leave me alone.

Tags!!

#Happy Fox Hours

Foxkin euphoria and just generally happy foxkin related stuff

#Happy Fae Hours

Second verse, same as the first but w fae stuff this time.

#Zi speak!!

text posts and me ranting

#Soda Spill

My writing. Includes poetry and short stories/snippets from bigger stories. (Please note that since originally making this I have stopped using the name Soda, as that has gone to one of my headmates. This tag may change soon.)

#Faele agrees

Rebolgs!! I might forget to tag my rebolgs. I’ll try my best but if I do my apologies.

#Sad bitch time

vents n stuff. Me being depressed.

Boundaries: mostly im fine with anything.

pls don’t tag me in angelic/religious stuff, or send it to me. Especially if it has eyes featured prominently.

uhh i feel like this shouldn’t need to be said but just in case: foxes are a game animal where I live. I already see my kind’s hides enough. Don’t show me pics of that.

just yk… if i ask u to quit do so please. There’s nothing rly big other than those two things that I can think of. Be nice.

My filter tag list is here. If you are intentionally rude and disrespectful about it you will be blocked.

I have a side blog for Will wood stuff called @willwooddaily

thank you for your time!!

(userbox by @/plural-userboxes)

[stardust-and-snails]

pinned post :3

hii !!! you can just call me bug !! i use dif names on dif blogs to make it harder for ppl who know me to find stuff that i dont want them seeing, so you might recognize me as someone else. if you recognize me from bloons tumblr, no you dont shh

im new to agere tumblr , but not to agere communities as a whole. my little age is usually 2-8 but sometimes higher or lower, & i'm 15 irl. im just getting back into agere after a long time of not rlly participating in it, i'm excited to make friends on here ^^

uuh. what else.

i like bluey (how original /sarc) and im kind of obsessed with the bloons games atm. i post about it sometimes, since ive been hyperfixated on it for so long. i also occasionally play roblox & animal jam!! i also like warrior cats

im a wolf therian & btd6 druid monkey fictionkin, which i probably wont post abt on here, since i already have a blog for that (dm if you want the url)

i also do agere moodboards sometimes! requests are currently open. i will do pretty much any fandom/source as long as it's sfw and i'm comfortable with it,,

just a warning, i curse. a lot. mute #swearing if thats a trigger for you

dni under the cut!

dni:

☆ anti agere, kinphobic, anti mspec lesbians/'contradictory' identities/xenogenders, js generally judgmental mean ppl :(

☆ proshippers, 'anti-anti', radqueers, pro ddlg, anyone who supports romanticizing & sexualizing messed up stuff

☆ endo 'systems'

☆ font users. excessive special characters, or text typed with special characters, make the internet hard to access with a screenreader, & blind people deserve access to the internet as much as anyone else.

☆ anyone with a blog you wouldnt show to a little kid (nsfw, sh/ed, stuff like that)

☆ people who appropriate the term "nonverbal", "semiverbal", or any verbal label. nonverbal means "unable to speak for several years or your entire life", it is not your term to use to describe you being too regressed to talk. i am so serious about this, STOP SPEAKING OVER HIGHER SUPPORT NEEDS PEOPLE. more info here

i have strong opinions on some discourse related stuff, but never engage in discourse. i only state my opinions here bc i dont want shitty ppl to think this is a safe space for them. please don't bring that onto my blog, just go away if you're here to argue.

[alfiely-art]

Ok so I was in the middle of sending an ask for the Miu rage rant polite request like two separate times already but the app kept crashing and doing the wacky to prevent me from speaking on the matter oh well hope they didnt get sent anyway😔😔.... I have NO idea what she does I'll be honest I was too busy only caring about Ouma and Kiibo petrol puddle yaoi and Momota slander material to remember anything about Miu Danganronpa

*SMACKS TABLE REALLY HARD* rant incoming.

Okay so. Miu is a character that COULD be really great. If they changed nearly everything about her

She's insecure and lonely, and that results in her acting loud and sexual 24/7. That's an interesting character! You can do a lot with that! But they do not. They just have her sexually harrass Kaede, Shuichi, and Kiibo (and others.) Oh and call Gonta slurs.

From the very second we meet her, she's being an asshole to Kaede and constantly talking about her boob size and making fun of her. Yk how Shinigami gets when Kurumi pops up on screen? Miu is like that but whenever anyone is on screen. Kaede (thankfully) argues back and doesn't just take it, but. That sadly does not last forever. And then suddenly in DRS they're besties!!! While Miu is still making snide comments on her body!!! And Kaede there is just "oh miu!! So silly!!!"

Her FTEs are just. Her sexually harassing Shuichi. He's easy to pick on because he's insecure and shy, and Miu just fuckin runs with it. However Shuichi is only allowed to hate Kokichi so he just goes "Oh miu!! So silly!!!" Even when Miu triggers Ryoma. Like. She deadass triggers him and Ryoma is clearly upset and Ryoma and Shuichi go off to help Ryoma feel better but they don't. Do anything about it. Nobody yells at her or ANYTHING. Kokichi breathes and he's screamed at yet Miu can do whatever she wants apparently

Then. The way she treats Kiibo. Ourgh. At rhe beginning they hate each other. Miu sees Kiibo as useless, as a hunk of junk. Kiibo sees Miu as a vulgar, rude, shitty person. Then, suddenly, in chapter 3, they're suddenly besties and we get rhe maintenance scene (which. Kiibo didn't consent to that at all and people treat it as such a romantic scene aren't they cute together as Kiibo tells her to stop???/sarc). Like I'm not even kidding. During the trial they're hating on each other and then the NEXT DAY Shuichi walks in on the maintenance scene. It comes out of nowhere. Yes I know characters can develop without the protag seeing it but it honestly just feels like they realized none of the characters like Miu, even if they let her harass others. So Kiibo, the guy who's bullied by everybody and clearly has some confidence issues, gets shoved to be a romantic interest for Miu, the girl who forces herself on everybody and insults anyone about anything. It doesn't even matter because Kiibo makes one comment about feeling sad after Miu dies and that's it. One. ONE. If Kiibo's dad was in DRS he would've started a killing game over how everybody treats his kid, especially Miu

The only time she's not making me scream is when she's bantering with Kokichi and Gonta, but even then there's limits. Like. Wow she called the guy who's already insecure about his intelligence despite being a SCIENTIST slurs about how he isn't smart. Thank God Kokichi doesn't take shit and gets insults thrown at her to shut her up.

DRS isn't cannon but the way she acts is just... worse?? But thankfully Ishimaru my beloved is there. She flashes the WOH (you know. The children who have extreme trauma. The group of children with Kotoko in it.) And Ishimaru goes off on her and she cries, and IM SO GLAD NOBODY GETS ON ISHIMARU'S CASE. THANK YOU. HES RIGHT. Ishimaru with the hot take that you shouldn't flash children regardless of whether they seem upset about it or not. In DRS she's not insecure at all, she's literally just a predator. People were worried Haiji would get in the game but they forgot Miu is a creep too

And what gets me is that I COULD like Miu. I COULD like her most popular ships (which are. With the people she sexually harrases and abuses the most.). I just can't because the fandom has decided to ignore any bad traits about her in order to make a wholesome cute ship out of these characters. I saw someone deadass say that disliking Miu is misogyny AND ableism, because Miu is autistic and disliking her means you hate all autistic people. They say her special interest is sex. No it's NOT you do not know what a special interest is!!!!!!!! I'm not even autistic and I know the way she acts is not due to sex being a special interest she's just a fucking creep who wants to prove to herself that everyone finds her hot and desireable!!!!

If Miu had gotten any sort of pushback or growth or anything I would've liked her way more. But she stays the same the entire game. All she does is aggressively insult/pursue characters, give an invention or two, and die. She's just... so infuriating. When Shinigami gets annoying about Yuma and other women, it gets on my nerves, but I still like her because she has more to her character than that. Miu has. Literally nothing. Her insecurity is just used as an excuse for what she does- she only acts insecure when it benefits her, like when someone yells at her for FLASHING CHILDREN I CANT FUCKING GET OVER THAT. "Kids love this kind of stuff" YOU ARE REFERRING TO THE CHILDREN WITH SOME OF THE CRUELEST BACKSTORIES EVER. ARENT YOU SUPPOSED TO BE. SMART. LITERALLY EVERYONE ELSE CAN TELL THAT THEYVE BEEN THROUGH SOMETHING EVEN IF THEY DONT KNOW THE NITTY GRITTY DETAILS. I just. How do you make a character that is JUST Sexual Pervert Creep and then somehow have her become popular. Hifumi has more character than her. Teruteru has more character than her. And they never cross the line as often or as far as she does. I just don't understand how the fandom can see her as an uwu quirky autism girl!!!! She's legitimately a bad person and is infinitely more interesting when you acknowledge that and do something with that. Heck. One of my favorite characters of all time is also a scientist with a weird, creepy relationship with a robot/doll. The difference is that the game AND the fandom acknowledge that he is a Bad Person, and let's him be complex and interesting without trying to water him or the relationship down. Can we PLEASE let women be bad people. Like can we do that. I'm tired of the Uwu Innocent Queen thing. I'm tired of the Girl boss thing. Let women be fuckin awful and treated accordingly!!!!!!!!!!

I still can't get over how they made Kiibo a doormat for her, too. I'm sorry. Kiibo would NOT tolerate her behavior he would yell at her and leave. My guy has been bullied and harassed enough to know when someone means it or is just ignorant/is joking. Miu was not joking when she insulted Kiibo she just wanted him to listen to her and praise her. Punching the floor.

I'm not gonna even go into the Love Suite that shit was. Jesus Christ.

Okay this was very long so TLDR: Miu is a creep and the game nor the fandom cares about it in favor of haha sex joke and aw aren't they wholesome (ignore the bullying and harassment)

[edalynn]

speaking of hl fankid names:

m0ringmark's hl kid's name is pandora (like the lady from greek mythology who fucked up big time by opening that box... totally no negative connotation there /sarc)

hunter calls her pancake as a nickname (basically indirectly nicknaming her after flapjack) which just. seems rly weird to me?? (and cringey for that matter)

her other nickname from one of her friends is panny (also cringe)... which has a lot of meanings according to urban dictionary, but the top definition is "a shorter word for pandemic" lol

tbh im willing to bet mark only named her pandora just for the sake of the stupid pancake nickname

Oh, 100% he named her that for the sake of the Pancake nickname (Which is in poor taste imo. I'd never name my kid after my dead cat or something). Also, I'm sorry, PANNY??? That sounds. So wrong. Somehow. Like, the name could've been unique if it weren't specifically to call her Pancake, but even then the name doesn't make sense lmao. Like if you're telling me that if Willow had a kid, she wouldn't name it after a flower or plant you'd be lying to me. But truly what could we ever expect from the King of Bad Tropes and Boring Designs.

[thegreenwallrabbit-blog]

Explaining one of VTMB paintings (pt 5)

Pierre Séguier, Chancelier de France (translated Pierre Séguier, Chancellor of France) oil on canvas  2nd quarter of the 17th century (1660 - 1661) by Charles Le Brun

Charles Le Brun (baptised 24 February 1619 – 12 February 1690) was a French painter, physiognomist, art theorist, and a director of several art schools of his time. As court painter to Louis XIV, who declared him "the greatest French artist of all time", he was a dominant figure in 17th-century French art and much influenced by Nicolas Poussin Le Brun primarily worked for King Louis XIV, for whom he executed large altarpieces and battle pieces. His most important paintings are at Versailles. Besides his gigantic labours at Versailles and the Louvre, the number of his works for religious corporations and private patrons is enormous. Le Brun was also a fine portraitist and an excellent draughtsman, but he was not fond of portrait or landscape painting, which he felt to be a mere exercise in developing technical prowess. What mattered was scholarly composition, whose ultimate goal was to nourish the spirit. The fundamental basis on which the director of the Academy-based his art was unquestionably to make his paintings speak, through a series of symbols, costumes and gestures that allowed him to select for his composition the narrative elements that gave his works a particular depth. For Le Brun, a painting represented a story one could read.[1]

Pierre Séguier (May 28, 1588,- Jan. 28, 1672) was the chancellor of France under kings Louis XIII and Louis XIV, in the critical period during which monarchical power was consolidated. In 1635 Séguier became chancellor of France, the supreme legal officer, with tenure of that dignity for life. His adherence to the powerful cardinals Richelieu and Mazarin kept him in uninterrupted exercise of his functions until 1650. He was sent in 1637 to Val-de-Grâce to examine the papers of the queen of France, Anne of Austria, who was suspected of secretly corresponding with Spain. Some historians say he saved her by warning her of the investigation. In 1639 he was sent to supervise the repression of a revolt in Normandy. He presided in 1642 over the trial of the Marquis de Cinq-Mars, who was condemned to death for conspiring against Richelieu.During the revolt of the Fronde, Séguier, like many others, vacillated, and in the last phase of the Fronde in Paris he was aligned with the rebel princes until August 1652. During those troubles, he was twice relieved of his functions (1650–51 and 1651–56). Early in the personal reign of Louis XIV, in December 1662, he was put in charge of the trial of the finance minister, Nicolas Fouquet, who had been accused of embezzlement, and he conducted it brutally enough to secure a verdict against Fouquet. From 1665 he presided over the new Council of Justice for the reform of the legal system.[2]

This painting hangs in LaCroix's office next to his entrance way meaning it is one of the painting he looks directly at, and hangs next to the painting of Louis XIV en Empereur Romain [Louis XIV depicted as Alexander the Great] (second half of 17th century)  by Unknown artist. First off for someone who “was an officer in Napoleons army” he sure has a lot of  Royalists paintings. It is also of note as the only other large paintings of this scale that he has in his office are three different painting of Cain slaying his brother Able by different artist yet it is the paintings of  King Louis XIV (whose reign of 72 years and 110 days is the longest of any sovereign in history whose date is verifiable.) and his chancellor of France, Pierre Séguier that he looks directly at from his desk in his Versailles style office. Indicating that these mere HUMAN men*[as far as I know nether were embraced in VTM canon but don’t quote me] are more significant role models to Lacroix then Cane father of all vampires. Though this is not so surprising after you see how he reacts to the Ankaran Sarcophagus. It also gives us a brief glimpse into how LaCroix sees himself in his role as the Camarilla Prince of Los Angles calling back to his quote of being the “judge, jury and executioner”. 

[1] “Charles Le Brun .” Wikipedia, Wikimedia Foundation, 11 Mar. 2023, https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charles_Le_Brun. 

[2] Britannica, The Editors of Encyclopaedia. "Pierre Séguier". Encyclopedia Britannica, 24 Jan. 2023, https://www.britannica.com/biography/Pierre-Seguier

[void-the-satanist]

𝗶𝗡𝗧𝗥𝗢 𝗣𝗢𝗦𝗧 !!!

( most of " about me " and " before you interact " sections will be deleted in the future , as the carrd i ' m making has more detailed sections ; idk if i ' ll do a lot of changes in this pinned )

✮ 𝗔𝗕𝗢𝗨𝗧 𝗠𝗘

hello y ' all ! i ' m void , and i ' m new about having a blog so i ' ll probably make a lot of mistakes , please be patient with me . / gen

i go by elu / ilu / ael & they / it / xhe & ellu / elli , in portuguese , english , and spanish respectively .

i ' m a monoconscious , median , cosmadawn + stressdawn , queer - heavy , subsystem . i ' m also the specusian / frontstuck host of space library .

i ' m an anarchist ( against any and all hierarchies ) , radinclus / critexclus , blankqueer / blankfreak & blankpunk collector / hoarder ( i ' m a radfreak / radqueer ) , paraphile ( i ' m a paraphilia collector / hoarder at this point ) , comshipper , transid user ( probably a collector / hoarder too ) , polyholder , and i fluctuate between theist / traditional satanism and atheist / laveyan satanism .

i speak native portuguese ( pt - br & pt - pt ? ) , fluent / superior english ( en - uk ? & en - us ) , novice / intermediate spanish ( es - mx ? & es - es ? ) , and i want to learn russian .

⇥ in case somebeing want to know something else my carrd can be found » here « . ( wip , cuz i love to procrastinate / sarc )

✮ 𝗔𝗕𝗢𝗨𝗧 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗕𝗟𝗢𝗚

even though this is my personal blog , i will be rebloging a lot of things , such as terms i identify with be it just for fun , spiteness , or trauma , probably discourse ( ? ) , and a lot of other random things , so there will be only some posts that are actually mine .

please have in mind that i may not agree with every being i reblog from !

i may coin some terms ( or maybe do a sideblog with my system ' s account so that we all can coin terms on that blog ) , but i don ' t know how to make flags and i ' m a perfeccionist so i have no patience to learn how to , so if you want to make a flag yourself , or ask someone else to make one , i ' ll be really happy to see it , so please mark me on the flag post .

⇥ system blog , other sisasystems blogs , and alters blogs can be found » here « . ( wip )

✮ 𝗕𝗘𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗘 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗶𝗡𝗧𝗘𝗥𝗔𝗖𝗧

i don ' t believe that having a dni* and dnf* work because somebeings will still interact they being on those lists or not , so i only have a byi* . i still respect it and don ' t interact if i ' m in somebeing dni list , though sometimes i accidentally interact .

*respectively : do not interact , do not follow , before you interact .

i ' m very much weird and i love that , so please be careful if you ' re triggered by words like the r word ( retarded ) as i may forgot to put a trigger warning ( i try my best to put them though ) ;

i do not care if your against something i identify with / support and interact with me if you aren ' t aggressive towards it , we can even be moots / friends ( yes , this can work , i ' v already been friends with someone that was against lgbtqia+ people because of being catholic ) ;

i ' m pro - consent and i ' m against anti - consent beings ( just to make it clear ) ;

i ' m taken by seven in - sys partners & one out - sys partner ( more lovers please , waiter ! )

✮ 𝗦𝗣𝗘𝗖𝗜𝗔𝗟 𝗨𝗦𝗘𝗥 𝗕𝗢𝗫𝗘𝗦

( user boxes by radqueeruserboxezzz )

⇥ under cut is my tag system .

✮ 𝗧𝗔𝗚 𝗦𝗬𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗠

#— 𝗰haos and peace co - exist in the void ⋆˚✮

any posts that can ' t be put under any other tag .

#— 𝘁he voices in the shadows ⋆˚✮

daily happenings inside and outside of system .

#— 𝗳eeding the void ⋆˚✮

interactions of any type with other blogs .

#— 𝗰reatures that only appear in the night ⋆˚✮

term coining , co - coining , and re - coining . ( may not use it )

⇥ the tag system may be actualized in the future .

[auzzzilly96]

Could I learn about your B and James interprets lore 🥺🥺🥺

Errrm well tbh I kinda already said most of the stuff abt my interps the last time I was asked but I guess there r a few more things I could talk abt :3 

Mk sooo more abt B’s whole being way older than he should be thing n more abt what his life was like b4 he got lost in the backrooms. So pretty much he was born in the year 1950 in America around the Texas-Louisiana border[silly goofy projection we will not see more of that later definitely not]. He was pretty poor for most of his life, especially in childhood, but they made it work. He might have had siblings idk, neither does he [boom vague Reagan reference where is my gold sticker/SILLY] He was very close with his mother bc his father wasn’t around a lot, mostly out working bc the whole living in poverty thingg. He actually learned 2 speak japanese b4 he learned english bc that was his mom’s native language so that’s pretty silly :3. Well everything was well and fine for about the next 20 years but then uh oh! B’s mom becomes terribly ill one day and ends up dying a few months later! [how sad] This event is pretty much the catalyst 4 every bad thing that happens in B’s life 4 the next like 50 years. Cuz a bit b4 this he’d found out how to no clip and did it a few times but he was just so distraught in the moment that he just kinda went 2 the backrooms and just walked around 4 so long until he passed out n when he woke up he couldn’t no clip back soo yeah that’s basically his epic backstory yay. On the lighter side this is something I meant 2 explain A WHILE ago but just kinda forgor abt it so sad ik but uhm this dude n his fuck ass jacket omg. Basically his like overcoat thing is like a backrooms artifact n its pockets r basically like tiny little openings 2 an empty pocket [pun not intended] dimensions that just stores stuff n that’s it. As long as something can fit around the opening it can be put in the pocket. That’s y blud was pulling out whole ass water bottles n flashlights from them in my fic [read my fic btw chapter 4 just came out last month] Also this blud is like ADDICTED 2 Almond Water actually………. Like. this guy can’t go 15 milliseconds without a lil sip. Smh this goofy ass guy😔😔[SILLY]…..

Ok now James’s epic backstory yippie 😁😁💥💥!!!!!!! oke so like I already talked abt his sad backstory where he lost his eyes n stuff but ig I'll talk abt what he was like b4 that :3. So basically growing up she was treated as like a child prodigy. Like. VERY good in school. Skipping a couple grades type beat. With her being so “gifted” n all she wasn’t really ever given a chance to be. like. a normal kid. Everything throughout her life up until the “accident” was always just focused on just “being the best at everything™” bc that was the mentality that was instilled upon them by their parents. And oh boy. The parental issue I gave this mf. Unreal. Someone needs 2 lock me up[JOKE]. Bro’s whole life he was constantly told over n over again “work work work study study study get into a good collage be successful be somebody important” nothing but that for like 15 years. Like bro had no friends until the age of 26. shitz crazy[silly]. So like time goes by n he’s successful in school n college n gets his job as a professional chemist. So fun n good she did what she was suppose 2 yippiiee nothing could go possibly wrong!! But then the whole explody eyes go bye bye thing happens [not as fun]. N so now this is the catalyst 4 their suffering yippie <3 [sarc] N it’s kinda ironic bc the reason he ended up being so careless in that moment was bc his upbringing made him so unreasonably confident in his abilities that he disregarded even the most basic of safety protocol. So anyways bro wakes up in the hospital blind, scared, confused and alone. Is told what happened. Is so mortified that she has a meltdown right then n there [things r not off 2 the best start]. Not just over the life long facial disfigurement but also over the fact that they failed. They failed to be the perfect scientific prodigy they were supposed 2 be. N in the process, didn’t just fall themself but failed everyone who ever believed in them[At least that’s what they thought at the time]. Like bro didn’t even get fired he CHOSE 2 resign bc he was so ashamed of himself n what he’d done. a lot of this built up trauma n self resentment is y she’s so attached B n Hashely bc they were rlly like 1st ppl in her life 2 show her any kind of unconditional support or affection. Bc after the accident when she was at her absolute lowest point her parents like just softcore cut her off. Like. she tried multiple times after the fact 2 try n contact them but nothing ever came back so they just stopped trying after a while :( Also kinda related is that I think their hair is like naturally curly but they straighten it bc it being curly reminds them of the past n they HATE being reminded of the past. 

Erm ok kinda ended in a doomer note but erm oh well :33

[nyaskitten]

i like want to speak about fugidove all day. <33 /srs

do give me a award for thinking about of fugidove all the time! /sarcs

what's your thing that you dislike or love about fugidove or any other character besides him.

Hm, I think I love how silly he is. He's like, he's not my FAVORITE ever, but he's definitely v funny silly goofy etc etc etc !!! theres a lot to love ab him imo.

[paperstorm]

Andie I have a very serious and important question for you. what the fuck are you putting in your fics???? It is currently 3:44am and I've been up since 8 but what am I doing? Crying as I read the end of Magnetic North that's what

The thing about me and sports fics is that I know absolutely nothing about sports except for 1 of them so usually they end up in my "Marked for later" for a while. But this is like the third time I've read a sports fic after putting it off to immediately questioning every decision I have ever made

I binged this fic like a fucking maniac but there was a logical part of me that was like "please...the assignment you've been procrastinating for 2 weeks is due tomorrow..." so I forced myself to put it down and go to sleep. That was yesterday. I brought my work with me from downstairs at 1am because "if I'm not gonna be able to sleep might as well finish this and then read Magnetic North the rest of the night" WELL I JUST FINISHED THE FIC AND I'M LITERALLY TRYING TO MAKE SENSE OF MY THOUGHTS AND IT IS NOT WORKING-

Coherency...I know how to do that yes. Starting and ending it with Marjan's article was SUCH a nice touch I loved the way she wrote about them!

Also everyone who has ever been mean to TK can line up in an abandoned parking lot...You don't hurt my boy <3 :) . HIS GROWTH??? THAT'S MY POOKIE I'M SO FUCKING PROUD OF HIM??? Picking him up and parting his head as we speak. No but seriously he's so awesome and he's been hurt so much but all he really wants is love 😭. NOW YOU GET TO HAVE SO MUCH OF IT BABY!!! Watching him slowly accept the love and care from others was beautiful. I fucking love fics where a character heals. HIM CHOOSING HIMSELF HELL YEAH YOU GOT THIS! Carlos saying how TK looked healthier and Marjan too!! YES MY BOY IS IN HIS LOVER ERA AND I'M SO SO HERE FOR IT! I am starting to sound like a broken record but he genuinely fills me with so much pride and he's not even real 😭. THE REHABILITATION CENTER!! and he named it after Gwen...I'm so okay about this...

Carlos...where do I even start. I need to hug him let's start there. It broke my heart so badly when he didn't even get the chance to come out on his own terms. That is such a real fear and I honestly saw a part of myself in it. The "questioning everything you do in case someone suspects" If I ever find out who that photographer was...Gabriel won't be the only one who will need an alibi 🩷 NO OF COURSE I'm not bringing knives now that would be absurd wouldn't it? /sarc. He deserves all the love and acceptance actually. I loved the scene where he goes to the ranch after he was outed it was so healing for both Carlos and I actually that's my projection guy ✌️💕. Jkjk. TK commenting how much happier and freer Carlos was...sobbing into my pillow oh my god I'm so proud of him. AND HE WON THAT BIG CHAMPIONSHIP WHATEVER I TOLD YOU IDK SPORTS!

These fuckers got engaged what the fuck is wrong with them I hate them so much no I'm not crying! /lh. The kiss at the parade oh my god I will literally never ever recover from this fic Andie you have broken me. I will never once again be a normal human. I still think about The Firehouse like 23 times a day now Magnetic North will join too

So I did actually end up watching some random hockey highlights so I would have some idea as to what's going on and also oh you used real team players that's cool!! Did not know those people existed in real life but good to know. Now I can say I've read fanfiction with NHL players /j. Okay but srsly the team was absolutely AMAZING!! The way they're all such a family! How supportive they were of Tarlos! Kissing them all on the head (the fictional ones idk about the real ones)!

Okay WOW this got long. There's a reason I typed this in my notes app first. Imma attach my real time reaction to the parking lot kiss here

I am in the car (love being a gay) and I just read the parking lot kiss and my anxiety SPIKED because I was like "no no no they're gonna get outed oh my god NOOOO" TEARS IN MY EYES READING NANCY CALLING THEM UP AND TELLING THEM TO CHECK TWITTER!!! I want that photographer to meet me in an abandoned lot...NO I'M NOT BRINGING KNIVES WHY WOULD YOU EVEN INSINUATE THAT- /sarc (last part)

I have a question! You must be really familiar with Hockey to write this fic. Do you play? /gen

Okay now I will sleep because I'm genuinely very tired. If this doesn't make sense blame it on the fact that I've been up for way too long. I loved this fic Andie, like and insane amount. It's all so beautiful and well rounded and I was so enthralled by it, it's crazy. Thank you for this fic, you're awesome!

All the tone tags I used: (I just have really bad anxiety and don't want anything to be misinterpreted so!)

/sarc: sarcasm

/lh: light-hearted

/j: joking

/gen: genuine

I am a little bit speechless about this 🥺🥺 thank you so so so much, I’m so happy you liked it!! Thank you for taking the time to send this to me, I’m swooning 🤩 and I played a lot of street hockey as a kid but never was on a team or anything, I just watch it a lot!

[ask-the-k-rising-members]

What is a K-rising.Org?

It's a cult/"religious organization" ran by a principal who works at Jerome Horwitz Elementary, also known as Benjamin Krupp who invented his own organization for business.

It's like a family but in reality, it's a secret mystery. A place where you can explore and work in a lab.

‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚⊹

ﾐ☁︎ ❝ 🔮 - [ Q&A ]

1. What inspired you to make this silly organization for this au?

A lot of things inspired me. Especially a few episodes from the show itself. (You have to guess them. season 1 to season 3 >:] )

2. Why do members/assistants have to wear purple ties?

The colors purple represents spirituality, royalty, power and creativity. However the reason why they have to wear only PURPLE tie is because it's supposed to represent the leader or it's part of the rules.

3. Is there a chance that there's an adult member in the organization that supervise the members/assistance?

Sadly no. Only the leader himself can supervise the young members. He is aware that some children are hyperactive and more active than any adults who do their work. So he prefers making the children be part of the organization.

4. How many members does the "cult/organization" have?

It depends on how many children the leader can spot and take them with him. Every new member who joins the organization by force has to wear a number tag on their uniform (with the purple tie) to make sure the member has their number.

For example: if Harold is number 4 means the new member will be number 5.

But formally the leader will only have four members/assistants unless he needs more and replaces the dead one with a new one.

5. What happens if we join the silly organization? Seems very silly.

Well, congratulations. You are one of them so be ready to be brutally murdered and tortured. /JK /sarc (sarcasm)

6. Are we allowed to ask or interact with the members?

Sure! You may as long you don't cross their boundaries. Remember the members are MINORS. We do NOT condone sexual or inappropriate questions.

7. Does any of them speak?

Well. Not sure. The only 2 assistants that can speak is Harold and Dante.

8. Can ocs (or "y/n") also interact?

Yes. Sure. Ocs are fine. Like I said as long you don't cross any boundaries we will be fine!

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Will be updated soon !!

Updated: Sep/4/2023

[just-some-random-blogger]

part 2 for meow love! 'so nada is dream’s first love' OH nice to learn abt her finally. 'dream we cant be together im sorry i was stupid pls let me go this is bad' cant really judge her. its probably scary to learn that smn youre connected with is... nothing normal and nothing you know about. and pity for dream... hope hell get some love. well this rock thing... is so desperate... feel so bad for her. and its kinds cute (bc oh <зhe doesnt care<з/sarc) but REALLY creepy of dream to still want her to be his queen when shed done THIS to get rid of him.. 'so they make love on top of the mountain' ok i have some questions for the author... well now you have all the right to only sympathise with him bc they said it doesnt matter hes been creepy. (dont take all my words seriously in the first meaning). 'THEN FUCKING BURNS NADA’S ENTIRE VILLAGE' 🤡🤡🤡 . idk whats going on. just remember that i dont know any of them and have no (0) feelings about the characters and the events. 'its cold hard reality the people have to suffer for their rulers’ mistakes' understand like nothing else... its kinda difficult to speak abt the other century bc i know what and why and morality was different but i want to say what i think now with me own experience but dont want to repeat that its only how i feel... they all are so fucked. 'CRYING FUCK then jumps of the cliff and dies' ghdjdd sorry but it sounds amusing to me. reasonable 100%. 'theyre dead youre dead just be with dream forgetting that guilt exists' yeah i thought about it too. like you can do nothing for them now? so what? so punish yourself for them? it has no meaning. BUT also dream? man chill down pls TT yeah she betrayed you, thats all, just hate her peacefully and have good fluffy dreams lol. 'of course i still love you BUT i stilll havent forgiven you' what sex on top of the mountain does to men.... as ever, i judge everyone. she couldve done better, he couldve done LOTS of different things. but ok. it is as it is. YEY FINALLY TALKING ABOUT JOSE RIZAL! this worldwife TT hdsddk actually reminded me of pushkin. good for them both. 'his work inspired the revolution and he did so with non violence so' sounds really cool. and hes so badass for his death. this cunning spain... wow its really good to learn about your history. and the KKK is pretty cool. i like this title. and this cute story about you being confused bc of the song TT such a pure feeling. wow its REALLY amazing to learn about his works. your retelling is delightful. thanks SO MUCH for your efforts, your time, your big brain vibes and everything you do to answer to me! youre SO educational! youre an amazing catmom! 'we love kdramas here in the ph and complain if there arent eng subs on their shows' fhdhsp cute. its soso intriguing to learn about the culture that in fact is a lot different from my own. so please continue! 'this is such a long love letter' i love it!! i cant answer to everything bc itd be even longer and im too gripped by all the information you give but i love long love letters! omg i.. i JUST UNDERSTOOD that i misplaced papak and flan FJSHFHJ. my inattentiveness will be the death of me im SORRY TT so ive already said you what is the thing similar to flan so what is similar to papak.. i meant the defenition, not the very word. theres a word 'кусочничать' (kusochnichat' ig) which is informal, actually, and literally means do smth with the pieces. in fact eating them... i already see how confused you were TT im sorry im silly. well majority of european languages derive from the proto-indo-european including english and spanish as well as slavic languages. and all the vagons come from proto-indo-european 'woghnos'. actually, our vagon came from the french. as far as i know, we didnt have much face to face contact with spain throughout the history. 'its normal to be anxious but you will overcome it' yeah i did! but i was so sleepy and dizzy and all bc of the things i was doing in the night... so ig part 3.... see you soon, love! have a nice.. time? yeah, enjoy your time. love you<з

HELLO <3

'so nada is dream’s first love' OH nice to learn abt her finally. 'dream we cant be together im sorry i was stupid pls let me go this is bad' cant really judge her. its probably scary to learn that smn youre connected with is... nothing normal and nothing you know about.

true T_T i dont blame nada at all she be a stupid mortal like the rest of us 😩 Icarus core flew too close to the sun

and pity for dream... hope hell get some love.

T_T yes and therapy

well this rock thing... is so desperate... feel so bad for her. and its kinds cute (bc oh <зhe doesnt care<з/sarc) but REALLY creepy of dream to still want her to be his queen when shed done THIS to get rid of him..

i mean HAHAHAH he's not human so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ what is morals to someone like him? what is injury or death to a flesh form to him ya feel. i get what you mean its kinda cut eHLSAHAHSF but he problematic af still HAHAHAH

'so they make love on top of the mountain' ok i have some questions for the author...

I MEAN THEY WERE ON TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN ALREADY COS SHE WAS RUNNING AWAY FROM HIM I THINK HAHHAHA I DONT REMEMBER HAHAAH

well now you have all the right to only sympathise with him bc they said it doesnt matter hes been creepy. (dont take all my words seriously in the first meaning).

AHAHHHAHHAHAH

'THEN FUCKING BURNS NADA’S ENTIRE VILLAGE' 🤡🤡🤡 . idk whats going on. just remember that i dont know any of them and have no (0) feelings about the characters and the events.

HAHHAHAHAHAHAH ITS FINE ITS JUST LIKE HAHAHAHAHAHAH ???? WHYYYYY>???????

'its cold hard reality the people have to suffer for their rulers’ mistakes' understand like nothing else... its kinda difficult to speak abt the other century bc i know what and why and morality was different but i want to say what i think now with me own experience but dont want to repeat that its only how i feel... they all are so fucked.

eat the rich and powerful

'CRYING FUCK then jumps of the cliff and dies' ghdjdd sorry but it sounds amusing to me. reasonable 100%.

NAH HAHAHH IT IS KIND OF FUNNY HAHAHAHAHAHA COS REAL HAHAHAHAH T_T

'theyre dead youre dead just be with dream forgetting that guilt exists' yeah i thought about it too. like you can do nothing for them now? so what? so punish yourself for them? it has no meaning.

see we be the same

BUT also dream? man chill down pls TT yeah she betrayed you, thats all, just hate her peacefully and have good fluffy dreams lol.

FACT but he be petty 😩

'of course i still love you BUT i stilll havent forgiven you' what sex on top of the mountain does to men.... as ever, i judge everyone. she couldve done better, he couldve done LOTS of different things. but ok. it is as it is.

HAHAHHAHAHHAHAAHHAAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA THIS IS SO FUNNY SEX ON TOP OF A MOUNTAIN DOES TO MEN AHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAH ur so right #justicefornada and yeah dream with that one braincell coming through HAHAHAHAHAHAH

YEY FINALLY TALKING ABOUT JOSE RIZAL! this worldwife TT hdsddk actually reminded me of pushkin. good for them both.

HAHAHA OMG YOU GOT A MR WORLDWIFE TOO HAHAHHHAH

'his work inspired the revolution and he did so with non violence so' sounds really cool. and hes so badass for his death.

yeah bang bang 😞😩✊

this cunning spain... wow its really good to learn about your history.

<3 im glad you think so i find it so funny that you keep saying cunning spain HAHHAH IDK ITS KINDA CUTE HAHAHHAAH

and the KKK is pretty cool. i like this title.

THEYRE THE REALEST AND THE COOLEST 😫😫😫😫

and this cute story about you being confused bc of the song TT such a pure feeling.

T_T i was so confused for real

wow its REALLY amazing to learn about his works. your retelling is delightful. thanks SO MUCH for your efforts, your time, your big brain vibes and everything you do to answer to me! youre SO educational! youre an amazing catmom!

💗💗 I LOVE THAT FOR ME thank you my kitty kat muning <3

'we love kdramas here in the ph and complain if there arent eng subs on their shows' fhdhsp cute. its soso intriguing to learn about the culture that in fact is a lot different from my own. so please continue!

i love kdramas 😩 and yeah were pretty culturally different huh, besides the kwoa thing HAHAH

'this is such a long love letter' i love it!! i cant answer to everything bc itd be even longer and im too gripped by all the information you give but i love long love letters!

<3 <3 im glad you think so <3 <3 <3 im worried i might be telling you things you dont care about so this is reassuring <3

omg i.. i JUST UNDERSTOOD that i misplaced papak and flan FJSHFHJ. my inattentiveness will be the death of me im SORRY TT so ive already said you what is the thing similar to flan so what is similar to papak.. i meant the defenition, not the very word. theres a word 'кусочничать' (kusochnichat' ig) which is informal, actually, and literally means do smth with the pieces. in fact eating them... i already see how confused you were TT im sorry im silly.

no i know you meant the definition! its ok mistakes happen stop apologizing /: its fine. its cool to know you have a similar word <3

well majority of european languages derive from the proto-indo-european including english and spanish as well as slavic languages. and all the vagons come from proto-indo-european 'woghnos'. actually, our vagon came from the french. as far as i know, we didnt have much face to face contact with spain throughout the history.

wow my blown mind mind blown wow oh my HAHAHAHHA DAMN i got schooled love that for me purr 💅 as you should queen

'its normal to be anxious but you will overcome it' yeah i did! but i was so sleepy and dizzy and all bc of the things i was doing in the night...

YAY GOOD FOR YOU MY LOVE <3

so ig part 3.... see you soon, love! have a nice.. time? yeah, enjoy your time. love you<з

omg p3 wow slaYYY

xxx

[nozomi-vents]

10/10/2024

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Guess who just dropped out of intensive outpatient therapy!! /sarc

Okay but in all seriousness though, i fucking HATE intensive outpatient, why the fuck did I even agree to go?

OH WAIT! Because I can't see my main therapist everyday and I wanted to get the help I needed to not only try and be a better person in general, but to also learn how to cope with certain situations because everything's so damn overwhelming and the coping mechanisms I did try made me feel worse.

But instead I just got a bunch of condescending assholes who have no mental health experience whatsoever.

So, in intensive outpatient, we get to do this thing called "processing time", which is basically where you vent about your trauma to the whole group and the therapist can give advice for how to deal with it (eg: tips for dealing with boundary issues), and patients are allowed to give their own advice that they believe can be helpful in that moment.

The problem? I didn't get to do process time at all. Instead this kid named Skyler just hogged up all the processing time by talking about their family issues and ignoring any and all advice given to them (fuck you skyler btw, nobody fucking cares about how your sister is a violent little asshole.)

Also, the staff were so fucking condescending and rude to everyone in the group I was in, especially that one psych ed teacher we had today. She was complaining nonstop about "oh, i'm so tired of this job, this is all stupid bullshit" all while she was reading out the lesson for today, AND THEN SHE DISMISSED US EARLY BECAUSE "I'm done with this shit".

Literally the whole time all I could think was "shut up you annoying ass bitch I'm going to stab you if you don't shut the fuck up." and I was even contemplating dumping my *freshly made* hot cocoa all over her because she wouldn't shut her mouth.

If you're so sick of your job, then why not just find another one??? You're a fucking psych ed teacher for a pretty high level therapy program and you probably get paid a lot to do this shit and therefore have the privilege of finding another job.

OH! did forgot to mention that there also a lot of ableist jokes against autism being thrown around in process time today and everyday it was really loud and overstimulating and I wasn't allowed to have my headphones at all the whole time despite them knowing I'm autistic and deal with overstimulation.

And also someone got the whole group to gang up on another patient over some drama that happened between them, and he couldn't even speak up about it because "oh, she was just processing! you're invalidating her!" (and fyi, this was during the transition period between psych ed and processing, so no she was not processing). Man do I feel so bad for him, because he did not deserve that..

And just in general I was being completely ignored by everyone, getting interrupted and being told to be quiet because "they need to process and you're interrupting them." BITCH FUCK YOU, YOU'RE THE ONE INTERRUPTING THEM WITH STUPID AND OFF-TOPIC CONVERSATIONS, WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME TO SHUT UP???

So yeah, I dropped out after all that shit happened.

I fucking hate therapy so much, I had literally tried EVERYTHING and yet nothing got better. If anything, I actually feel so much worse and I became more toxic to the people around me as the years went by.

What's the point in even trying anymore if I'm never gonna get better in the first place??

I'm contemplating just quitting therapy in general and sticking to just mindlessly scrolling on the internet for the rest of my life, I'm fucking worthless anyway.

Fuck this, fuck therapy, fuck mental health, fuck it all. These fucking bitch asses do not know ANYTHING.

Oh, unrelated, but it's tony crynight's birthday, but I'm not gonna celebrate this year because I'm still in a split with him.

God I hate being mentally ill...