#sanity is out of my existence
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BOOM SHAKALAKAAAAAA YESSSSSS GAWWWDDDDDDDD YESSSSS GAAWWDDDDDD OH MY GAAWD. The manspreading holy fuck me I mean no I mean yes pls holy molyyyyyyyyyyyy y'all seeing my glorious seat?huh😏💋 dw kids he will home soon
#mydeimos#hsr mydei#mydei#honkai star rail#omg omg omg#help my sanity#im not okay#the manspreading gawddamn#sanity is out of my existence#my seat is his lap#lawd have mercy#i can't be saved#the man you are#gawk gawk gawk#im sorry
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okay i admit i like that plush a little bit
#tbh if im choosing between (official) gab plush and houndy plush#i would choose gab#just because how much of a job well done their design went#i think he would give me sanity points just by existing on my desk#also i know that plush came out a long time ago i dragged the sketch for like 20 days and im dealing with it rn because of something else#ultrakill#ultrakill v1#ultrakill gabriel#gabv1el#i guess#my art
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Nick himself said that his knowledge is confined to the leaks prior to s4, the s4 scripts from his verified source (likely within a source) and basic knowledge most fans paying attention have been able to formulate about s5 based on what has been released officially/unofficially, trends from Netflix and common sense.
He is saying based on all that, he doesn’t think byler is happening.
And if we think back to what the Duffers themselves shared in the 4x09 script, it literally implies Mike’s monologue worked, and that it was entirely genuine. This tells me that the script the Duffers released for Emmy consideration, is not that far off from what Nick saw for himself.
I think it’s likely Nick got something that the average below the line worker might manage to get their hands on if they tried hard enough. A copy they know they have to water-down to prevent these very situations from happening.
Unfortunately for the Duffers, it just so happens that they didn’t scrub their watered down copy hard enough.
Unfortunately for Nick, he admitted that it’s possible and even likely that the production will release things that aren’t exactly accurate with the sole purpose to lead fans sleuthing astray, without realizing it may have ironically already happened to him.
#byler#stranger things#8flix#it would take an eternity to cover everything about scriptgate properly#there are just so many aspects of it that are unknown or are known but just not thoroughly understood bc 8flix has existed for some time#even prior to that fateful dry summer back in 2022#and including scripts beyond just st which made 8flix seen as a reputable source for scripts across the board#personally i've found myself back and forth on it#was nick sus for telling fans a script was dropping hour by hour and then going radio silent for days only to not release a script at all?#yes (and all while using the loophole argument that technically people donated to 8flix and got a complementary script with that donation)#were the st writers fishy for saying they'd release a script for a scene but would then need at least 2 business days to post each one?#also yes#are we really doubting that they have secrets in their scripts that they have to remove/shift a bit for the generic all-access version?#if so.. why?#I think very few people see the version of the script that the duffers have#shawn likely has it plus his own notes with it bc he also contributes ideas and runs it by the bros for his episodes and more bc he's an EP#maybe other key-players with that sort of control over the production could have more honest scripts i.e. the writers room#outside of that you have the main cast who MIGHT get those scripts + additional notes on their characters as discussed separately one on on#but beyond that scripts are meant to be vague#it's supposed to be 1 minute of screentime = 1 page of script#quite frankly multiple versions of the scripts exist and we're getting the barest of them all... minus a few slips here and there...#I could go on forever but i wont for my sanity bc the reality is we don't know for sure what happened and we probably never will#i'm more interested in seeing how this all pans out#nick has come out for vindication at least once this summer and last summer since 2022#i'm getting hefty slap on the wrist vibes here which if anything just makes this all so much more insane bc i mean... the implications?...#is it giving bad blood? is it giving enemies to lovers?#maybe nick will give us more vague hints when the next dry summer rolls around
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I'm so desperate I will pay 50+ bucks to whoever can whip up the most heart breakingly disgusting horrifying absolutely soul draining mentally insane psychological horror bone breaking brain rottingly visceral x reader fic of Yandere Weeping Clown plz plz I can't write story fics with 0 inspo sum one save me
Working on idv recs r fun but arrghh roofwroofoodododdododddfdodod gimme more
#nana talks#slight thanks giving crash out#oh happy thanksgiving guys#ill be giving my time of day and sanity to writing the stinkies#and im thankful for my readers and moots#for like the past 3-4 years of my vlog existing lol#anyways weepy luver out ✌️✌️
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wheeeee
#picture journal#are you experinced? are you?#at a tech conference again and my only goal is to hang out and maybe dance once#im also helping run demos at a friend’s space but otherwise i have no tasks#other than performing friday night#it feels really nice to be able to just wander and talk to friends#sanity regaining…… will to exist in the world increasing…..#everything is okay
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I would LOVE more of the little neuron eater man!
Also, a second question, why do you have a tail installed? It seems too big to pick things up. Though it looks very nice!!
Please don't encourage Nips. She can understand you.
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My tail? It's there to function as a counterweight, so that I can balance properly. If needed, it also functions as a close-ranged weapon.
... Occasionally it's even turned into a plaything.
#FAM asks#fortune amidst misfortune#iterator oc#nips recognizes the word neuron very well. speaking it summons her into existence#or alternatively. out of existence. if she is being scolded with her full name#thank u for the nice silly ask!#and yeah. that tail is HEAVY. if you get smacked with it you're out#i originally wanted a more mechanical design for it but decided not to for my own sanity#also btw. he acts like he hates it but. he moves it for nips to play with. and then gets angry when she bites him#like when you roughhouse with a cat with your hands and then scream when they scratch the hell out of you#(speaking from experience perhaps)#does a little hop skip and a jump#thats the inbox cleared! only took twice as long as i thought it would!#couldn't be because of the time i spend on each one. nahhh#i simply enjoy the process
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I DID IT! @kay1mi , IT IS FINALLY DONE!
MA BOI, the man, the myth, the legend. The one and only ✨️ Ste'eve ✨️
This took me way too long, but I am happy with the result. Ste'eve is my Tav from the co-op campaign with @something-something-sonnschein . He's a human bard soldier, and he is romancing my favorite wizard, Gale. I'm gonna add some backstory under the cut for anyone interested. I'm just incredibly happy I finally finished this drawing :D
Also, a big thanks to you, Kay, for even motivating me to draw again <3
So, for more lorrrreeeee:
This scene is before the events of BG3 back when Ste'eve and Asuka served in the military. The only reason Ste'eve even joined the military was because both his father and grandfather served, and so he was also expected to join. Originally, Ste'eve even was thrilled when he was sent to the military academy, but as he grew older, his views of the military changed, and he became more pacifistic which made him a bullying target among his peers. Instead of becoming the fighter his family expected him to be, he discovered his musical talent and became a bard instead, so he could still honor his parents wish to be in the military without having to do much killing and rather focusing on healing. Eventually, he joined the same battalion as Asuka, where they both met and became best friends almost immediately. They both have different views on certain things, but as a team, they work together perfectly. The battalion was actually more or less a dump for all unwanted soldiers, mostly due to racism because most of that battalion were either Drow or Tieflings. Eventually, a plot was set in motion to kill off the entire battalion by leading them to their own doom, which happened shortly after this drawing scene. Both Asuka and Ste'eve survived barely, but unfortunately, none of their other friends made it. They both then escaped to live a short life of music and travel before they got kidnapped by the mindflares at the beginning of BG3.
So technically speaking, Ste'eve is presumed dead.
Thanks for coming to my TED talk. If you want to hear more about Ste'eve, hit me up, I can supply for both before and after the events of BG3 (technically also during).
#this has been quite fun to draw#although in the beginning I lost my sanity quite a lot because of the pose#but somehow it turned out great#don't know what happened#it was a “trust the process” kind of drawing#I think if it hadn't been for you Kay this drawing would have never existed#so thank you again :D#bg3#bg3 tav#fanart#my oc#digital art
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Guys I just found out that poppy playtime was originally called toystory but evil... TOYSTORY BUT EVIL...
TOYSTORY BUT *slams desk* TOYSTORY BUT EVIL... ARE YOU SERIOUS.... ARE YOU FUCKING KIDIDNG ME... TOYSTORY BUT EVIL????

IS THIS REAL...
I SWEAR TO GOD IF ITS REAL IM GONNA CRY...
WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY "TOYSTORY BUT EVIL"???? 😭😭
WHAT
I'M CRYING.... TOYSTORY BUT FUCKING EVIL.... THIS IS CRAZIER THAN THAT TIME I FOUND OUT THAT THE ACTUAL VA OF THE INK DEMON AGREED TO VOICE THE INK DEMON IN A 5 MINUTE ASMR VIDEO OF "THE INK DEMON COMFORTS YOU"... okay actually it isn't crazier than that
BUT STILL
THIS BETTER NOT BE REAL OR I SWEAR...
#multifandom account#multifandom#multi fandom blog#multifandom blog#random#Poppy playtime#...#Toystory but evil...#TOYSTORY BUT EVIL...#WHAT WENT THROUGH THEIR DAMN HEADS...#“TOYSTORY BUT EVIL” IS THE MOST HILARIOUS YET WEIRD YET TERRIBLE NAME FOR A HORROR GAME I HAVE EVER HEARD#I AM GLAD THEY DIDN'T GO THROUGH WITH IT#WHY WOULD THEY???#I'M CRYING#I'M SOBBING ACTUALLY#also but the ink demon ASMR thing#It's real just search#The ink demon comforts you#Literally just search the ink demon comforts you and it's the first result#And oh boy The comments are wild#I'm starting to think that I was born with a missing piece of my brain that is preventing me from finding the ink demon attractive#....#TOYSTORY BUT EVIL... WHY#That's hilarious.... I'm losing my sanity...#I laughed so hard when I found out#This is what happens when you're born with terrible humor#By the time you turn 15 your humor is non-existent...
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I really need to read some novels featuring daemon Fulgrim, because I have no idea how changed his personality/thinking is. I have ideas, but I have no idea how accurate.
I can write Fulgrim before he fell to chaos pretty well, I think I imagine him quite accurate to lore, but daemon is real pain in the ass to me.
#Post#Fulgrim#Warhammer40k#Idk i wonder is fulgrim still of sane mind even or it's slaanesh 24/7 in that skull?#Like magnus hits me as someone who sold his soul and existance to tzeentch but still kept his mind to himself#Like man is still there despite being a deamon#Mortarion also hits me as such#Yeah worshipping nurge wasn't a choice he wanted to take but it's better than being tool for emperor#Angron? Eh probs 50/50#Sane but nails drive him to bouts of insanity driven by blind rage which feed khorne but angron does have hangovers then he's more sane#Lorgar is fully in lalaland in my opinion#Perturabo is just perturabo#But fulgrim?... Man that's tough one#I feel slaanesh worshippers would fully embrace her gifts and that daemonic bosom#So i feel Fulgrim should have yeeted his sanity out of the window at least most of the days#Probs guilt towards ferrus brings his sanity back so he could blame himself but another wiff from slanussy and he's tripping balls again
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Wait...what if they released asmos plushie on his bday??
#god pls that would be great#cause u know#omg its his bday#and his plush dropped#so coollll#it feels like the obvious thing to do#obey me asmodeus#trying to bring it into existence#but i wont hope too hard#if they announced it#then just ignore this#i dont follow the twitter and stuff#i like to be out of the loop for my sanity#obey me nightbringer
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the muse of art(Sensakizsensei) bestowed upon me a blessing(gavis bettel new outfit reveal) and I shall use it(absolut brainrot) wisely(only bettel fanart for the forseeable future)

#cereals can confirm I was absolutely dying#words cannot express the sheer sexiness this guy exudes#he went from pretty to so fucking hot I poofed out of existence#the leg window????#THE HANDS???#was wrothing at the mouth#brain couldn't compute everything and had to shut down#AND HAVE YOU SEEN PHANTOM?????#AND THE BETTELIONS?!?!#WE HAVE A FORM NOW#sensaki cooked so good we were eating all of it#sir your hands look heavy may I hold them for you?#my sanity evaporated too btw#holostars#holotempus#fanart#art#digital art#vtuber#gavis bettel#wip#godofart
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Man I just give up.
#dora daily#if only there was a way to just stop everything#idk if I want to die but I want everything to stop#like so many times I go out or smth and something bad happens#or I get triggered in public and I try so hard not to lose myself and start drama in public but I just can’t#every time I show any emotion people start laughing#I can’t even try to stop myself from bawling in the middle of the store without someone#just being so insensitive and rude and diminishing how I feel#you know I say I’m never mad and that is true bc I may seem mad a lot online but I’m not like this irl#but for the first time I actually got mad at someone irl and I was literally gonna beat him#I was genuinely seething so bad it’s not fair and things keep getting worse and worse#I was so close to just throwing this stupid phone and shattering it and ripping up those dumbass#birthday cards they sell in the store#and that stupid bitch of a sister I have is so fucking stupid#she sees someone anxious and incredibly upset and she acts like that ? fuck her#like bro idek how I have lived for this long and idek why I don’t go and just overdose on SOMETHING right now because#logically speaking I should just give up#but I don’t know why I can’t#like please my life is literal shit okay is replying on time so hard for you to fucking do so I don’t go even more insane fuck all of youuuu#UGHHHDJSOS#I SWEAR TO GOD I am so sick of this just you all wait#none of you deserve normal treatment all you deserve is something even worse than ghosting#just you wait let this stupid semester end and I’ll deactivate my socials go speak to the fucking wall you morons#you think I’m gonna wait around what are you paying me to be here ? if anything IM paying with my sanity#like if this was related to a spouse who was a billionaire but he was treating me as shittily as you guys treat me then I’ll say fine#at least I’m getting something out of this transaction who gives a fuck#but im not getting paid#im not receiving support#I’m getting laughed at and ignored#and used only at YOUR CONVENIENCE !!! what the FUCK ! I don’t exist for anyone and certainly not yall even if I did.
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printed-out private fanfic collections my beloved
#that's it. that's the post#do I sometimes feel guilty for having a bunch of fic printed out? yeah. idk if it's morally grey or wrong or ok these days#it started out as necessity because I didn't have a computer of my own and reading queer fic wasn't sth you could be too open about#(though I guess using up my dad's scrap paper piles that had math equations on one side may not have been the most inconspicuous)#anyway. sometimes I'll remember a story and I know I will be able to find it because my idiot teen self printed it out and filed it away#and sometimes it turns out you can't find that fic on ao3 because it's ffnet only. and worse sometimes it no longer exists online at all#and that makes me sad. but knowing someone deleted it and I still have a bootleg copy makes me feel guilty#so I guess I'm just stuck in this dual state#I think it beats the lingering sadness of wanting to reread a very specific story that's ingrained in your very being..#..and finding there is not a trace of it anywhere online#like. I KNOW that I read a Myka/Claudia story that had them holed up in a cabin somewhere hiding from some terrifying dude of sorts#(not that I remember the details) I just remember there being a lake and it being the story that got me into WH13#which.. was a fucking blessing. and I searched all of the place for that story years later#went through most of the Myka/Claudia fic and yet never found it again. and nobody I asked remembered it either#so maybe I dreamed it up? but I kinda doubt it. ANYWAY sometimes a fic filed away in an old folder is what saves your sanity
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seeing a super old toby fox quote thats basically him going "idk man im trying to be subtle with queer rep so the characters aren't literally coming out directly to the player, people can use their brains to put things together" which is super funny when you see dr ch 2 where he's basically screaming "KRIS USES THEY/THEM PRONOUNS I HATE ALL OF YOU" to the blind and deaf audience
#i think he needs to make every use of pronouns flash different colors#and also have the game electro shock transphobes#like it wont work but i can dream#maybe thats why the next update is taking a while lol#rantings rambles#isat flat out has the character pronouns in the menus#but also im pretty sure people were in denial that isa is trans lmaooooo#and that the game itself wasn't evidence enough for the wiki#despite the character basically screaming it to your face#so the creator had to tweet out 'evidence'????#my sanity decays with each moment of existence
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i love seeing your hockey postsssss i grew up near the big reds and their coach would sometimes drop in on our little league practices to give us tips. peace and love and going really fast and hitting with sticks
hehe im glad youve been enjoying them <333 ive kinda been a little desperate to talk abt hockey to ppl who arent completely clueless abt it. like my mom doesnt rly get it & my coworkers are all soccer fans. the only guy i can talk to is my freaking manager and he’s more of a football guy!! granted im still new to it myself but ive been working evenings a lot so its just been nothing but hockeyhockeyhockey in my brain since the end of february. whew. anyway ty!!! i WILL keep hockeyposting <3
#asks#ngl im in the phase where im hinging my sanity and existence on my interest so ive been feeling… pretty intensely abt it#like.. oh. i couldve had this my whole life? and i just didnt know. that i could love this so much. like im in disbelief @ myself.#that i just Missed out on hockey my whole childhood. on seeing pk subban and carey price together. hough…#but anyway. not feeling sad abt the fact that i couldve genuinely started playing hockey cosom as a kid but backed out bcos of um.#elementary school misogyny. my PE teacher encouraged me but the other boys scared me off and i just never got back in. man.#gosh. i should stop talking now.
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is it just me but i can't play in/see 2fort the same way after watching emesis blue
what could be an average 8 hours on 2fort suddenly feels eerie and weird. everytime i go to a certain area my mind just flashes to a scene tied to it, its insane
probably just brainrot taking over again
#emanons notes#the worldbuilding of emesis blue is amazing and superb#i've been thinking about it since yesterday actually#the fact that it builds off of existing tf2 lore without being too out there makes it so much more “real” to me#the respawn system... the concept of cheating death... the whole “its eternity in there!”#it feels. like they also incorporated gameplay elements into it#how you come back unscathed but your mind is never the same#how sometimes it just malfunctions and does... shit all to your body#i've felt the same way#when dying to same tryhard soldier and their medic gf 10x i can feel my sanity dwindling#i start seeing things. mostly red. but sometimes i just become so dejected that i just let it happen#and the fact that respawn time can also go until 15 seconds and up?#“Its eternity in there.”#not to mention the VISUALS man#every frame is a masterpiece#the lighting. the reoccuring theme of red and blue#the character coloring/designs#its just. its so good
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