#sad sapphic

[dotdotdottiedot]

I’m bored

[your-whimsical-jesterr]

i’m really glad chappell roan is able to spread her influence so far. i’m glad every midwest princess can know it’s okay to be queer.

i go to a christian school, and i am a lesbian. i am out to some people(mostly people i know will keep me closeted and/or other queer people), but for the most part, i try to act as straight as possible and under no circumstance, get outed. i have worked my ass off to get where i am. i have straight a’s, all(except one) of my teachers really like me, when there’s a group project or other group activity involving academics, my classmates want me in their group. i am finally in a place where, to the best of my knowledge, people are not constantly shit talking me behind my back because of my sexual identity and because i was a hopeless people pleaser who got into two relationships i didn’t want to be in.

that being said, this really hurts. it hurts having crushes on straight, mormon girls. it hurts to hear people mock lesbians and gay people. it really hurts when someone was ‘jokingly’(it wasn’t funny) walking around asking people, “are you a part of the lgbtqiabcdefg plus community?” and you have to grit your teeth and pretend you don’t want to cry and scream and vomit and say “no”. this sucks. i have so many thoughts and opinions on queer media and relationships and representation that i can’t voice because my opinions are from a queer person’s perspective, not a straight one.

one day i want to be able to crush on a girl without guilt. one day i want to be able to write essays on bad queer relationships representation versus queer representation of bad relationships, or the evolution of sapphic culture, or how misogyny affects everyone, especially in the lgbtq+ community. one day i want to have a girlfriend and hold her hand and not have ti worry if i’m going to lose what i fought for because i fell in love. i don’t want to be sorry for being in love.

[ziggystrdust]

i feel the harsh sunlight beating down on my face and i feel your soul. i see the red marks the rays left, and i am reminded of your filthy kisses. i touch the water in a great big fountain and i feel your long blonde hair. i look up into the stars and see your eyes staring into mine, daring me to get closer, to get a taste. i stand near the crashing waves of the ocean and i hear your giggle and your teasings. i sit in front of the fire and i feel your warmth.

finally i feel the satisfying twitch of pain from getting too close to the flames, and i am reminded of why you left.

[morticiasplayground]

i just wanna feel loved and appreciated and to know that i mean something, i want to feel like a priority, not an option.

[pealeii]

You know I’m not a lesbian but sad sapphic songs really rip open that wound in my chest so softly that no other music does

[sleeplessv0id]

what doesn't kill you makes you weird at intimacy

[gentlegiant-butch]

How is it possible to be so sad in such a special place? Solely because the one person you wish was experiencing it with you is scarce. In every aspect. It truly shows.

Hotel room feels barren because she should be in it with you. Getting ready with you and marveling at how beautiful the view is.

Food doesn’t taste the same because you don’t have her sitting across from you enjoying the delicacy. Reaching her fork across the table so you can taste hers. All that just for me to look up and realize there’s no one sitting in front of me.

Walking the streets lonely because your brain keeps replaying a phantom touch that you’ve never experienced. Her hand squeezing and wrapping around your bicep. Her nails scratching the back of your hand as she grips it tightly to not let you stray too far. We were never close.

Entering a bar, loving the atmosphere just for your brain to instantly say “this is very overstimulating, we can choose somewhere else” just to remember that she isn’t there. It’s only you. Alone.

I’m in such a beautiful place with such sad feelings. Solely because she lingers.

[minxinq]

blazamy band/idol au lalala

[red-moon-at-night]

okay the whole vase is great but something about Helen sitting on Aphrodite's lap as she wraps one arm around her shoulder and brushes her leg with her hand, staring into her eyes like that... as she is persuading Helen to go with Paris (while Peitho aka persuasion stands behind them) is so incredibly iconic.

and gay. toxic yuri, if you will.

[emotionalbisaster]

When you try to make a mashup drawning from your favourite sad sapphic stuff but it ends up being about your breakup with the bisexual flag.

[bikerbutchbait]

there are butches out there who need someone to take their sexual aggression out on! they need a dumb bitch to toy with and they don’t know i’m sitting here prettily waiting for them in my cute lingerie! they don’t know…

[morticiasplayground]

i miss when she was happy to be with me :( i was happy to be with her every step of the way

[geeheartsu]

yeah sex is cool but have you ever felt worthy and wanted and enough the way you are

[iatemyorgans]

i really hate when people ask me "so, what are you doing these days?" because i can't say, "oh, you know, rotting in bed, suicidal thoughts, lesbian loneliness, daydreaming & yearning." so instead i just say "eh, nothing important."

[nighttime-thoughts]

I sleep so that we can meet.

[dotdotdottiedot]

I WISH I HAD A GIRLFRIEND

I DONT EVER CARE IF THEY SMOKE WEED