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onlyrains · 2 years ago
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[7:15am]
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— t/w: none
sachio was awakened by a loud familiar voices and laughter. he's trying to open his eyes because he's sure enough that he just slept for no longer than 3 hours. the chaos downstairs is quite annoys him since he can't sleep in noisy circumstances.
he glances at the clock with his barely opened eyes. it is pasts 7. he hurriedly get up from his bed and head to the kitchen where the noises were heard.
he sees two people cooking as their back facing him. he knows one of them is yui but he doesn't sure about the other one. it's definitely not his mother. but it's clearly a familiar posture.
“babe?” he calls out doubtly.
you turn your head and smile to greet him. “good morning.”
his eyes almost fell to the ground when his guess turns out true. it's definitely you—his girlfriend.
“what are you doing here?” he asks with a wide smile yet still couldn't believe his eyes.
“she cooks for your breakfast.” yui replies.
“really?” he approaches you, still in his pajamas.
you nod twice. “go to the bathroom first, sachio. wash your face.” you say softly. but it invites yui to laugh when her brother immediately going to the bathroom.
“he must be so embarrassed now.” yui says still laughing. “i don't understand why he acts differently when he is with you. it's new to me to see this side of him.” she continue.
you can't hide your smile and look at yui. “what do you mean?”
“i always see him in his calm and mature demeanor, even when i was a kid. but the first time i saw him with you, he was so clumsy and often got distracted. it's so weird, you know, it's so new to me.” yui explains.
you smile as you stir the soup in the pot.
not too long after that, sachio comes back and can't hide his smile seeing the sight of you being so close with his sister. he withdraw his thoughts thinking that the noise was annoying a few minutes ago. this turns out warm his heart and he can't describe how happy he is now.
actually, he still couldn't process what is going on. you—his girlfriend, being in his house this early, in the kitchen to be precise, with his sister, and you both cooking together? you both are just dated for 3 months now and he introduced you to his family a week ago and now you're here without him knowing? how can he not be excited?
he clears his throat and try his best to look calm and not pull you to his embrace since his sister are there.
“can i help you with something?” he asks and standing beside you.
“no, thanks, we're good.” you answer. then he notices your hair is untied.
“or maybe not.” he moves to stand behind you to tie your hair into a messy bun with a hair tie that always on his wrist.
“ow, thank you.” you grinning. he smiles and pat your head twice.
“please aware that i'm still here and don't do anything in front of me or i'll call sawamura to come.” yui utters and not wanting to look at you and her brother.
“yui!” sachio respond quickly. he still not used to the fact that his sister is dating his best friend.
you and yui are laughing automatically seeing his reaction. his frown fades after seeing you two are so get along together. the fear that you can't be easily accepted into his family also dissipates in instant.
“okay, okay, relax.” you place the soup you made in a pretty bowl. “can you put this on the table, please?” you ask softly.
“as you asked, miss.” he nods and starts to arrange the plates and bowl that filled with his favorites breakfast menu along with the cutlery.
“c'mon, let's eat.” he says as he push back the chair next to him, inviting you to sit down. you take off your apron before sitting down.
yui sits across you two and showing her grumpy face. “he wasn't like this lately,” she looks at you. “he is not even want to breakfast with me!” she add.
you giggle because you clearly know why he is like that.
“itadakimasu.” sachio voiced before starts eating his soup.
“actually,” you begin. “he always take his breakfast
 with me.” you confess.
yui glares at her brother then shrugs. “he's head over heels.” she sneers.
“eat your food, yui.”
you chuckle at the siblings. you realize you didn't make a wrong decision to date him. and just now everything feels right and you're finally sure of your feelings.
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simpforchuchu · 1 year ago
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Dearest
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Prompts: DAY 21 - unresponsive @febuwhump Characters: Sachio x reader Fandom: High and Low Summary: Y/n’/ last letter
A/n for prompts: Hello guys! This is my first time trying a prompt challenge. I hope you like the short fics I wrote. I will finish them by writing some of the requests I have. I love you 💜
Sorry for the grammer or spelling mistakes.English is not my main language so...
Thank you and love you đŸ„°
Warnings: mention of character’s death
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Sachio finally gathered the courage to open the envelope in his hand. While he was watching the city from where the old temple was located, he clutched the letter written "To Sachio" in his hand.
He was afraid. It was very difficult for him to open and read this letter after she’s gone. But he knew, he had to do it.
He sat on the steps and carefully opened the envelope in his hand. His heart was already racing when he saw his girlfriend's handwriting.
“Dear Sachio,
I know you will be very angry with me when you read this letter. Maybe you will hate me. But I couldn't tell you the truth. You were smiling so beautifully next to me, I didn't want you to feel sorry for me.
I have been struggling with this illness for a long time. My body was unresponsive to treatment and I was getting closer to death every day. How can you say this to someone you love? I didn't know. I still don't know. That's why I couldn’t say it.
I am sorry. I'm really sorry. I loved you so much that I couldn't bear you being sad because of me.
I was happy every moment I spent with you. You always made me feel like I was the only girl in the world. I felt loved every moment I was with you. And I loved you very much every moment.
Thank you for always making me happy and making me feel loved in our short time. The warmth of your hands and your beautiful smile is something I will never forget. I hope we meet again in my next life and I hope I will remember the warmth of your hands.
Don't be mad at me, okay? I didn't want you to suffer with me. Maybe it was selfish, but I love you too much to hurt you.
Do not be angry with yourself too, okay ? It's not your fault. I guess I was good at lying. I apologize again for these.
Please don't be too upset. I can't say forget me, but at least continue to have someone in your life, okay? You deserve to be loved. And being loved by you is the most beautiful experience anyone can have.
Take care of yourself Sachio, I have always loved you and I will always love you.
-Y/n.”
The young boy wiped his watery eyes and folded the letter in his hand again. He looked at the sky and tried to smile. It hurt, but he felt at peace.
Y/n wouldn't suffer anymore and she would always be with him.
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airbendertendou · 2 years ago
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IN CHAOS NOW! synopsis : your brother and his friends make a small trip to get you from school, only to run into the local gang.
cw ; reader is gender neutral. no pronouns used. [name] in place of y/n. high&low characters implied to be your adopted brothers.
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toman + suzuran
“
does that make a little more sense?” The group of five stay silent before letting out a drawn out oh! in unison. You grin at their antics, shaking your head.
“Thanks again for doing this, [name].” Takemichi says. He rubs the back of his neck nervously, a sheepish smile on his face. “Hina gets upset with my grades, and I don’t want to bother her with re-teaching all of us this stuff.”
You ruffle his blond hair, “I don’t mind. I’m just glad I can help.”
“You help so much,” Atsushi speaks as he looks over his notes. Takuya nods enthusiastically, Yamagishi humming between them. “I don’t understand the teacher at all.”
The window leaks an orange haze as the sun begins to set ; a crow caws in the distance.
You tilt your head only to shake it after, hiding your unease with another smile. There’s no way. You look at the boys again, “need help with anything else?”
“Well—“
A loud bang echoes around the mostly empty school, an eerily familiar cackle hitting the walls soon after. With wide eyes, you and the group of five scramble outside of the classroom to see the commotion. A set of black and gold jackets are stood against
 another set of black and gold jackets.
You blink, finding who you’re looking for as you walk up to him quickly. “Why are you here? Where’s my brother?”
“Curfew.” Is all Mercy says as another bang hits the wall. He glances to you, “it’s past your curfew.”
“Is it?” You mumble before pulling out your phone. It was past time for you to be home — an hour past, actually. You suck in a breath through your teeth, sending a sheepish grin his way. “My bad
”
A loud cackle hits the area again, “you’re a fun guy!” Binzo steps out of a pile of desks, knuckles bloody and a bruise forming on his cheek. In front of him, a boy with orange hair grins as he rubs his fist against his open palm. Binzo’s eyes widen, “I can’t wait to get rid of you.”
You act quickly, grabbing the wild boy’s ear and pushing his attention onto you. You frown his way, “and why are you fighting in my school?”
“Oh, hey [name].”
“Hi, Binzo,” you deadpan before letting him go. Across the hallway, you can see a boy identical to the orange haired one doing the same as you — calming a fight. Yamaguchi appears out of nowhere, slinging an arm around your shoulders as he leads you away from the fights damage.
Your brother is face to face with a blond, glaring as they stare each other down. They seem equal height wise but your brother has a different air to him ; a monstrous rage hidden he only uses to protect his siblings.
Your small study group follows behind you meekly, Kamui and Mercy behind them. Takemichi lets out a squeak at the sight of your brother, “he’s huge!”
You snicker to yourself and unknowingly catch the attention of a different blond. Smiling to your small group, you place your hand on Rao’s back and step into his line of vision. “Sorry I stayed so late ; I didn’t realize what time it was.”
Rao looks you over, as if making sure you’re okay. You roll your eyes, “I’m just fine, brother.” You point your thumb backwards to the group of trembling boys — their eyes widen at the attention. “Was with my tutor group.”
Atsushi smiles, a small laugh escaping his lips as he waves. “Nice to meet you mister Suzuran, sir.”
“Mister Suzuran,” Mercy laughs to himself.
You send a glare his way before looking at the new faces in front of you — and their matching uniforms. “That’s not a school, is it?”
“Toman!” Takemichi pipes up. He rushes to stand beside you and almost shield you from the group’s view. “My friends. Who are here because
”
“To hang out.” His voice is deep as he speaks, that taller guy. You raise your eyebrows — like you’re impressed — and look to your brother again. The rest of the crows have wandered up and gathered around you by now, shoulder to shoulder as they stood with you. “Why is Suzuran here?”
“You’ll have to excuse my brother and his friends,” you grin sweetly. Your eyes close and the irritation seems to leak from you as you hold the fake smile. “They have no manners. I’ll go get my things.”
The middle school boys follow behind you quickly, like sheep being herded to safety. The Toman boys eye the Crows apprehensively, but stay silent otherwise. You pop back up, school bag in hand as you stand beside your brother once more.
“We’ll go first. See you next week, boys!” you excuse yourself, pushing Binzo out of the school. Rao stuffs his hands in his pockets as your eyes land on him once more. “Showing up at my school just to fight
 what nonsense.”
Takemichi is stopped by Mikey, a hand on his wrist as the leader stares at the spot you were just standing at. “Introduce me to your friend next time. ‘Kay, Mitchy?”
The blond can only agree helplessly as he watches a small light of intrigue fall into Mikey’s eyes.
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tenjiku + housen
“Housen
” a boy in a school uniform passes by them shakily. “Housen
 it was them
”
“Kakucho,” the white-haired male speaks up. He pauses in his step, glancing from the boy to where he came from. “What is Housen?”
“A nearby academy,” Mochi answers instead. He nods ahead with his chin, hands in his pockets as a schoolyard comes into view. “They call them the Killer Corps. Four lower ranks, below the head of the school ; the strongest.”
Shion tilts his head with a hum, “sounds like us, huh?”
“What are they doing in my district?” Izana purses his lips, lilac eyes narrowing at the school in front of them. A small group of five stands there, gray uniforms sticking out from the plaid ones other students wore. He watches as the group is avoided ; people passing by averting their eyes and hunching their shoulders. “Hey. Housen, was it?”
Their heads turn, stone-faced but curious of the red clad group. Shion tries to look as intimidating as he can ; the others just stand behind their king. A blond speaks up, “is there a problem?”
Before anyone can speak, an energetic voice calls through the air. “Oh, what’s this? A surprise visit?”
The next thing Izana knows, the guy with the undercut has another person attached to him. You jump on Kenzo’s back, grin full force and pulling at your lips. “What a nice surprise! Good to see you, brother!”
“So noisy
” Yuken glares your way, but it falls into a soft smile as he watches Kenzo pull you from his back. “How was school, [name]?”
You deadpan, no emotion in your voice as you sigh. “It was school. What do you expect?” You turn to Housen’s leader unexpectedly, melting into something more gentle and quiet. “Hi, Sachio. I didn’t expect you to be here.”
“We all came to get you,” Kenzo speaks up. You swat him away absentmindedly, eyes focused on Sachio. He clicks his tongue, “I’m your brother and you’re paying more attention to him? Hey, don’t get any ideas!”
You face your brother coyly, “ideas like what?”
Yuken snorts to himself, looking to the ground. It reminds him that there are outsiders watching this take place ; other guys wanting to size them up and fight them. His face smoothed out, “right. You guys. What did you need again?”
Izana’s mind is spiraling as he watches you and your brother joke around. You don’t look alike at all ; don’t share a smile or eye shape or laugh. Yet you greet each other joyfully and bask in each other’s company. It reminds him of earlier times ; simplier ones when maybe he would've called Mikey his brother.
Kakucho clears his throat and looks on awkwardly as his king stays frozen. "Just making sure there aren't any problems. Carry on."
Your grin and playful voice lingers on Izana's mind far longer than he thought it would.
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haitani's + fujio and kiyoshi's factions
You're walking out with a classmate — Rindou, he said to call him — when he lets out a small laugh. "Seems my brother is here."
"Oh, mine too!" Your brother has dragged Yasushi along with him — of course. The two are rarely separated. What surprised you, though, was the sight of a taller boy facing the two of them. He's smiling with his eyes closed, twirling one of the braids of his two-toned hair. "Looks like he's causing trouble already."
Rindou saunters up to the unknown guy, scrunching his nose at the sight of your brother and his best friend. It makes you giggle — they often received that reaction. A whistle is heard in the distance as Fujio and Tsukasa strut their way to you.
“[Name]!” Fujio grins your way. He holds out a plastic bag to you, shaking it enthusiastically. “Brought some snacks for you!”
“I didn’t realize you’d all be getting me today,” you grab the bag from him. Yasushi peers over your shoulder as you pillage through the snacks, humming at the selection. “Oh, this is my classmate
 and his brother, I think.”
The dual-toned boy raises his hand into a wave, his smile growing condescending and troublesome. “Didn’t realize the middle school was so close by.”
Your eyes widen as you see the four boys beside you twitch. Fujio’s smile has fallen ; Yasushi lets out a cackle as he cracks his knuckles. You exchange a look with Tsukasa and step in front of them before anything can start. “That wasn’t very nice, Pippi Longstocking! You should apologize before things get ugly, hm?”
His grin falls flat, mirth hitting his eyes as Rindou lets a snort out at your insult. You let out a sigh and rub your forehead. “Brother, let’s get our friends away from here before a fight breaks out.”
Kiyoshi groans but agrees anyways, slinging his arms around Yasushi and Fujio. The two are still frowning — but a lollipop from you is placed in their mouths in hopes of calming them down.
Looking back to the blond, you wave as Tsukasa waits on you. “See you Monday, Rindou!” You skip up to your group, looping your arm through Tsuakasa’s as you walk.
Ran lets out a laugh as he looks at Rindou’s complacent form. “Catching feelings, brother?”
Rindou shoves him with flushed cheeks and a frown. “You’re seeing things.”
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valhalla + senomon
Ryo often walked you home from school. As soon as your brother was in his car, the quiet boy was on his way to you — feeling as if he had some type of unspoken duty to do for you. You smile at the sight of him leaning against the school's wall, stark red uniform standing out against the white building.
A tap to your shoulder brings your attention to a boy wearing glasses. His longer hair is pulled back into a ponytail, a grimace on his face as he side-steps nervously. "[Name]... you don't mind looking over this for me, do you?"
He holds a mess of paper out to you — one you recognize as grammar homework. You glance at Ryo, smiling at him reasurringly as you take the paper. As you read over it, the boy in red takes your school bag and slings it over his own shoulder. "Just a few mistakes this time, Baji!"
"This one? I didn't think it was right," Baji frowns as he looks it over You walk between him and Ryo, messily and hurridly trying to explain everything Baji was confused about. "That one and— 'Tora?"
Outside of your building stands your brother and his following. Kohei's sneer is painting his face — as always — as two other boys face him. One is smoking, tattooes on his hands while the other has an intricate tattoo on his neck, his fiists clenched and eyes narrowed in. Ryo comes to a stop, "Kohei. You're here."
"Of course I'm here," he spits out. He makes his way to you, nose curling at the sight of Baji as he stands in front of you, blocking you from view. "Heard there were delinquents lingering about."
You grin, putting your chin on his shoulder. "And you decided to protect little ol' me? How sweet, brother!"
Kohei grimaces at you, "shut your mouth."
"No delinquents," Baji grins. He saunters over to the strangers, letting his hair down and taking his glasses off. "Just my friends!"
Scratching the back of your ear, you share a look with Ryo. "Well— same thing, really?"
The taller guy stomps his cigarette out, staring stonely at your brother. He breathes out a puff of smoke, "what're some rich kids doin' here? This is our part'a town."
"We don't want any problems." Ryo speaks before Kohei can. It's the best choice —your brother started and ended fights, never putting himself in the middle. He steps closer to you, "just walking this one home. That's all."
Golden eyes hit you, the jingle of his earring echoing at he tilts his head. You meet his gaze, looking away soon after and walking past your brother to Baji. You hand over another paper or two, "don't forget these. Let me know if you need anymore help — I'm still willing to help!"
"Thanks, [name]. See you tomorrow."
You pull your brother from the potential fight, letting him pout and whine as you ignore his words. Ryo smirks at your eye-rolls, nudging you and letting you tease Kohei freely. A golden gaze is still sinking into your skin as you peek over your shoulder, stealing another glance at the tiger boy. He's still staring.
"Tora," Baji speaks up. He narrows his eyes as Kazutora blinks rapidly, breaking his stare on you. "Be careful with that one. Don't want to make Senomon angry."
Kazutora smiles to himself, "wouldn't dream of it. Let's go."
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ahuublog · 2 years ago
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dating sachio ueda
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whoever would know that you’d start as fake enemies-to-lovers
why fake? cause obviously none of you truly hate each other
it’s
 complicated (it’s not according to housen boys)
you both just aggressively stare at each other whenever you meet
that kind of don’t-stare-at-me-so-you-won’t-know-i-look-at-you
well, it’s not complicated
you firstly meet sachio when he tries to take his sister home from school
and well he looks kinda scary with bruises and scrapes all over his face and arms
yu makes a crying puppy face
and you’re a young part-time teacher at school and you can’t allow your girls to be taken home by intimidating people
sachio says that he is her brother and “woman it’s not your business” and you don’t like being offended by little boys
(it turns out later that he’s older but it doesn’t matter)
you start arguing at the school gates until yu steps in
and guess what
sachio bumps into you two days later at grocery store
thanks to him your opened bottle of water is all over your dress
and you’re clearly not happy
sometime later you help yu carry her bags home (she’s broken her arm and you somehow turn to have a big soft spot for her)
so she gives you tea (you both actually more like good fellows rather then a teacher and a student)
then sachio appears
and well you escape
a day later you find a letter in your mail box
why you’re so smitten by the way
sachio writes that he doesn’t want you to be angry at him and maybe you can visit housen one day? with yu if you want? or he may meet you somewhere else?
you lie if you say that your heart doesn’t skip a beat at that time
you’re clearly confused and lost and blushing
who the hell writes letters these day? sachio does
you do visit housen one day
why? you meet some guys from other gang on your way home
they’re very pleased to see you and you’re clearly not
so you run to housen
it’s a funny picture actually
sachio looks at you, you look at him and these guys stare at you both
until sachio understands what’s going on
rip, guys
you FINALLY hug him for the first time when he comes back from the fight
he nearly faints, let’s be honest
when he pulls himself together, he just murmurs “i’m fine, you alright?”
you’re just happy he’s nearly untouched
he kisses your nose, cheeks, he kisses your hands when you heal him, pecks on your temple
sachio is all a reserved and calm and laid back guy until you’re here
cause if you’re in the same room it’s INTENSE
he just can’t stop looking at you
“stop staring at her lips” – odajima
“dude, you’re such a simp” – four kings of housen
it seems that you both just simply misunderstood each other at first
but well it doesn’t matter cause now it’s all fine
he just loves you
you love him back
you daily stop kenzo and odajima from picking up names for your children
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jaehyunsprincesspeach2 · 2 years ago
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can i plz request a headcanon of sachi taking care of his sick gf (thought it was appropriate bc we’re both deathly ill rn <3)
Stop this is so cute and so fitting omg
My bestie i love you i hope you feel better <3
Sachi is the cutest
Sachio Taking Care of his Sick S/O
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Oh. My. Goodness.
Don’t even bother trying to lift a finger, mans has everything prepared for you
Soup? Done. Tea? Made. if you’re like me and prefer coffee? There is a fresh pot ready to go
He just wants to take care of you
Honestly, even if its just a common cold, he would be so worried about you
There is nothing that he hates more than knowing that you are not okay, and that there really isn’t anything that he can do to help
Definitely the type to make sure you take all of your medicine
Writes down what time it was taken so that he knows when to give it to you again
If he can’t be there, he’ll send Yukon or Shidaken to make sure you take the meds
Honestly if he can’t be there, he’ll send them just to check up on you
But lets be real, mans is not leaving your side until you are better
He doesn’t care if he ends up getting sick too, he wont leave you alone
Cooks for you like he’s a professional chef
If you dont stop him, he’ll have a five course meal ready for you with all of your favorites
If he has even the slightest inclination that you have to go to the hospital, he’s the one to take you there
Intently listens to everything the doctor has to say, so that he can take care of you when the two of you go home
Picks up any prescriptions you might have
Honestly just does everything for you
I could see him walking inn with the brightest smile on his face
Like, “I’m back with your medicine my love!” All excited and smiley
Though nobody else will ever see that side of him, that only for you
Very gentle and cuddly anyways, but even more when you’re sick
Honestly doesn’t let many people come around, cause his heart just wants to cuddle and hold you all day, but hes not big on PDA
Brings you little snacks and gifts if he has to go out for some reason
Anything to make you smile
Honestly hes the best person to have take care of you when you’re sick
Love love love Sachi <3
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sollattes · 1 year ago
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Hnl boys as bf types
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Hanaoka fujio
-the type to taste the home made face masks you make for you skincare nights
-the type to kiss your hand to your neck then face then lips
-the type to get flustered when you kiss his knuckles
Tsukasa takajo
-the type to stare at you with so much adoration it makes everyone around him sick
-the type to interlock your fingers together in his pocket in a crowded place so you won't get separated
-the type to get flustered everytime you would flutter his face with kisses
Todoroki yosuke
-the type to ruffle your hair to brin gyou back to reality everytime you would get too focused in studying
-the type to subtlety intertwine your pinkie underneath the table
-the type to flustered when you take off his glasses for him before making out with him
Tsuji
-the type to always give you forehead kisses
-the type to always bring an extra jacket on him if ever forget your jacket
-the type to get flustered when grab his neck when kissing him
Shibaman
-the type to squish your cheeks while kissing your squashed face repeatedly
-the type to always have an arm around the back of the chair your sitting in
-the type to get flustered when you grab his chin to look at you
Sachio Ueda
-the type to back hug you and burry his head on your shoulders when your cooking
-the type to flaunt to you to anyone that flirts with him whether he is drunk or sober
-the type to get flustered when you put your hands inside his shirt and trace his abs
Yuken odajima
-the type always ALWAYS hype you up everytime you would try something new from your wardrobe
-the type to complain to the other guys at housen that he's missing you the whole freaking day(shidaken almost knocked him out because he won't stfu) even when he is gonna see you after
-the type to get flustered when you wear his sweaters
Shoji sawamura
-the type to wear very VERY obvious couple jewelleries with you and lowkey but obviously(?) Flaunt around the other housen boys
-the type to make plans for future dates with you while ON a date with you
-the type to get flustered when you help him take his jackets off
Shida Kenzo
-the type to be his no.1 priority would be to introduce you to his mom
-the type to prefer calls with you than texts
-the type to get flustered when you help him fix hair then give him forehead kisses
Shoji sameoka
-the type to draw circles pn your palm when your holding hands and your feeling anxious or uneasy
-the type to have small snacks that you like in his pocket for you
-the type get flustered when you softly stroke his cheeks and kiss his eyes
Reiji himuro
-the type to have a softer personality with you than the gang personality he has around his friends
-the type to spoil you, either with materialistic needs or being immediately there whenever you need or want him
-the type to get flustered when you shower him with words of affirmation
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strxwberrychocolate · 2 years ago
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˗ˏˋ realistic hi-lo the worst shitty dating canonsàżàŸ‚
notes: this is just for fun(fiction), plz don’t take is seriously. inspired by this post cuz me and my fellow delulu moots need to get it together, might do a pt 2 if I feel like it
warnings: some mention of nsfw, mentions of cheating, friends with benefits, mentions of choking, brief mention of kinks, toxic behaviour, periods, mentions of gaslighting and emotional manipulation, major delulu behaviour for the sachio one(I failed I’m sorry), I think I did Ryo and Kƍhei dirty in this one but who cares
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-ˏˋ fujio ˊˎ
He’s definitely a “where’s my hug at” kind of guy even after you both start dating
I’m just gonna say it right now, Tsukasa knows too much about your sex life
you got some weird kink?
called him “sir” by accident or like being choked or some shit like that?
Tsukasa knows (he doesn’t want to know but that’s beside the point)
He reminds me too much of my crush so this guy will definitely be flirting with everything and anything with a beating heart even if you’re dating him
Playboy fr
While you guys are in your lil talking stage he sends your picture to the gc for validation that he’s dating a pretty girl
They all want to warn you cuz you look nice but bro code comes first
Would definitely buy you menstrual products without batting an eye
His mom taught him better than to be grossed out
She’s a single mom which makes Fujio probably more respectful than the other guys around him
Does those cute couple tiktok trends with you
Talking to a bunch of girls while dating you
I don’t mean like cheating but he’s flirting too much with other ppl
Fujio doesn’t mean to flirt but he’s like super fucking friendly for no reason and is genuinely really nice so it comes off as flirting
Calls you baby, babe, princess anything really
Doesn’t look like he can keep his hands to himself
Spends time staring at you cuz you’re really pretty
Definitely the kind of guy that acts tough in front of his friends but is actually the little spoon
Unlike most the characters in this, he’s actually really sweet
But he enjoys his freedom
Is NOT the kind of guy that will let his friends make fun of you
He’s actually a pretty good listener
Will not help you with your homework cuz he didn't do it and wasn't paying attention
Has a very subtle couple picture of both of you as his lockscreen
Would 4.5/10 listen to his friends if they tell him to break up with you
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-ˏˋ tsukasa ˊˎ
Cold, like super cold brrrrr kinda cold
Also a playboy like Fujio
I mean come on, look at him
Everyone loves pretty guys that look like girls with deep voices
Pretty privilege and he uses the fuck out of it
Definitely not a cheater but kinda toxic
Lies when he doesn’t really need to
Unironically calls you “pretty girl” when you’re mad
Does he actually like you?
You’ll never know
Honestly he seems like the kind of guy that’s only ever had like 1 girlfriend and all the rest are his hoes
He gets away with so much just cuz he’s good looking
I feel like he’d have your location but you don’t have his
Probably only started dating him cuz he’s pretty and he only dated you cuz he’s bored
He gives you skin care tips
Pretty guys are usually pretty freaky if you know what I mean
Doesn’t look like he can keep his hands to himself just like Fujio
He’s very mysterious and that’s what attracts people to him
Probably gets bored pretty quick tbh
You’re not gonna see him often because “bros before hoes”
But he values his private life so if he does genuinely like you he will only later tell his friends about it
Unlike Fujio, no one will no about your sex life
I think he’d be more on the possessive side tbh
So he won’t keep you as his lockscreen or ever post you (cuz why tf does anyone need to know who you are?)
If he actually wants the relationship to be serious, that’s when he’ll drop his hoes
Spends time staring at you like Fujio cuz he thinks your pretty
Will 1/10 breakup with you if his friends told him too
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-ˏˋ todoroki ˊˎ
worst bf in existence (1/3) I’m (not) sorry
Probably hasn’t dated a lot but has a lot of hoes if you get what I mean
Tbh I’d be such a whore for Todoroki
He doesn’t think he’s all that good looking but girls seem to like him a lot and he takes advantage of it
Doesn’t really need his friends validation nor does he date because everyone else is and he doesn’t wanna be the one left out,, he doesn't give a fuck if he is
Mfer dates cuz he’s bored
if he actually likes you, no one will know who you are so forget the whole aspect of being shown off
you're basically his secret
You post him, he won't post you (lol tbh I wouldn't post my bf either,, maybe a pic of our hands but never his face)
Probably won't call you a pet name but maybe call you the nickname you're called at home if you have one or the same nickname your friends call you if they call you one
Definitely prioritizes fighting and the fucking Oya High leader ship more than you
You hate it but he's hot
does he actually like you?
You probably won't know
rarely actually pays attention to you
but when he does you have ALL his attention
tbh I see him dating someone low-maintenance where he doesn't have too put much effort in
not that toxic, just doesn't know how to fucking communicate
1/10 would breakup with you if his friends asked him too (doesn't need to validation)
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-ˏˋ sachio ˊˎ
definitely an actual good boyfriend
I get major husband vibes from him (maybe cuz I'm super delulu for sachio but that's not the point)
not a red flag or toxic at all but somethings can be questionable
NOT the type to talk shit about his exes because he's mature enough to know problems can come from both sides
Yes I am picking favourites, my babes satchi can do nothing wrong
definitely gave you flowers the first valentines day you two were together for
honestly though,, like Todoroki, I doubt this guy would show you off too
Satchi seems to paranoid for his own good so don't expect to be going out in public with him
He's got a sister and I'm assuming(from popular headcanons) his dad passed away so his mom is alone,, therefore he had to be the man of the house
So he doesn't really give a fuck about periods
very knowledgeable about them tbh
seems like the kind of boyfriend that will gladly drive you and your friends around because he genuinely wants to be a part of your life and he thinks all of you are shitty ass drivers
friends with your friends because he wants to be apart of your life
Also takes what your friends say about you with a grain of salt because he knows all of you are ride of die type of ppl and they'd gladly lie for you to him
family oriented fr
went to ikea with you
you both are basically married
I'm so delulu for this guy omg
I don't see him as flirty
Doesn't pick up the signs when another girl is flirting with him and sometimes you think he's playing dumb on purpose
clingy mfer
you have each other's locations on
his contact name for you is just "♡" cuz no one needs to know your name
I'm not even kidding none of his friends will know who you are until maybe a long long time later
possessive but on the lowkey cuz he knows you value your freedom
Tbh I'm not even being delulu here, Sachio just genuinely seems like a really good guy
(not saying the rest aren't they're just very questionable)
long story short, I am his whore and I couldn't write anything actually realistic for him
0/10 would breakup with you if his friends asked him to
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-ˏˋ yuken ˊˎ
I see him very similar to Fujio
Excpet Yuken knows he's being flirty
he flirts with other people on purpose cuz it's a bad habit now
also has major pretty privilege like Tsukasa
also uses the fuck out it
Jinkawa or maybe Shidaken or Sachio also know too much about your sex life
Like about that mole you got on your ass or some weird shit
they also unfortunately know about your kinks
It's like Fujio but in a different font
lets you do his hair and in return gets to do yours
doesn't know the definition of toxic masculinity so he will very gladly let you do his makeup
and sometimes his nails
Once again, not a cheater and actually not toxic
I already said he's like Fujio so this guy is gonna just be super flirty with everyone and everything with a beating heart
If compulsive flirting is a disorder then Yuken suffers from it
I wouldn't say he's a bad boyfriend but he flirts too much with other people and a lot of people consider that as cheating
Yuken seems like a pretty good listener
But he also likes talking a lot so be prepared to listen to his problems
lets you wear his glasses sometimes
When he's not busy he comes to your school to get you so you can go on dates
likes having all your attention
arcade dates are probably the most common
but he outshines out girls boyfriends ther by getting those girls stuffed animals and shit like that
I would say he's really a lot like Fujio
4/10 would breakup with you if his friends told him to
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-ˏˋ kƍhei ˊˎ
worst boyfriend in existence (2/3)
I doubt he even actually likes you
A complete asshole but you love that cuz you’re a lowkey masochist and red is your favourite colour
Randomly turns off his location and tells you “don’t worry about it” when you ask
Red flag (but in my culture we wear red at our weddings)
Doesn’t give you the time of day
is probably only dating you cuz you're hot and give him head or some shit
idk this guy is just really shitty
He's hot tho lol
gives me group leader kind of vibes
you never wanna date the leader of the group, they're always the shittest
his friends will never ever tell you the truth
I lowkey see him as a cheater tbh
and a gaslighter
"It was such a small thing and now look you've turned it into something huge when it doesn't even matter" type of guy
Just a fucking asshole
If you're with him I'm just gonna assume you're into pain or something
Or using him for his money (if yes then get that bag sis)
He also thinks you're with him for his money
If you actually aren't using him, it doesn't matter he just has major trust issues
good luck actually getting through to him
In the hypothetical situation where he actually likes you, prepared to be shown off
I see him as a very pda type of guy to show off how hot his girlfriend is to make others feel inferior
Probably won't give a fuck about what you're wearing if that is the case
he's also toxic asf idk if I mentioned that
Probably doesn't call you petname unless you're mad at him
7/10 would breakup with you if his friends told him to
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-ˏˋ ryo ˊˎ
worst boyfriend in existence (3/3)
i did him and kƍhei so dirty I'm not sorry
Loves Kƍhei more than you
As hot as he is, let's be fucking honest with ourselves because part of the reason Kƍhei thought he was so unbeatable was because of Ryo
Ryo let Kƍhei get away with so much shit
and this hot ass mfer jsut seems like the type to listen to his friends and constantly need their validation
as hot as he is, plz don't date a guy like this
But unlike Kƍhei, he's not a cheater
but he's pretty toxic
like he needs to know where you are all the damn time
crazy paranoid too
doesn't think you'll actually cheat but it's more his friends telling him you would
for him too be a good boyfriend he need to get new friends or like idk transfer schools
he definitely likes you, it's just he's so emotionally constipated that you can't tell if he actually does
only calls you petnames in private
I don't see him as the type to have hoes or flirt around
But that doesn't mean he'd be a good boyfriend
He lives for his friends validation
So if his friends make fun of you or talk shit, don't count on Ryo to defend you cuz he'll be laughing too
not a gaslighter but doesn't admit to the things he does and just tells you to leave it in the past
pisses you off but he's hot asf
tries to spend time with you but would leave your for his friends fr
102902/10 would breakup with you if Kƍhei his friends asked him too
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enhashoutout · 1 year ago
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Dating Childhood Friend Hanaoka Fujio
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˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚
Finals season isn't done yet but I need a new post to get me through the last week. I'm never not going to post about dating Hanaoka Fujio there are going to be so many parts I already know it 😂
Genre: it's all fluff up in here
___ is used in place of y/n
Warnings: Typical H&L violence, swearing
This post isn't proofread
I usually write the reader as female since that is easiest for me but if you identify as a different gender please feel free to change up those parts to whatever fits you! <3
˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚
Dating Hanaoka Fujio, childhood best friends edition
You grew up with Fujio, Madoka, Arata, Seiji, Shinya, and Masaya.
The 7 of you would spend most of your time together at Grandma Sada's store or at each other's places since you lived in the same housing space and your parents weren't home often.
You attend Seiho Girls High School with Madoka and are a part of the band with her
Growing up you were closest to Fujio. Making friends was hard because you didn't talk much but he saw you by yourself one day and decided he was going to make you a part of the friend group and the rest was history.
Fujio who always remembers to ask you what you think when the group talks, making sure you feel included.
Fujio who always saves a seat for you next to him.
Fujio who pouts if he hears you and Madoka talking about a boy you guys think is cute.
"____ -chan he's not as cute as me though right?!"
"ABSOLUTELY NOT HE IS MORE HANDSOME THAN YOU"
"MADOKA I WAS ASKING ___!"
And then there's you who just stares at them as they bicker 😂
Fujio who didn't truly realize his feelings for you until he moved away and didn't get to see you every day
Now he knows why he didn't like it whenever you and Madoka talked about boys
Fujio who is excited to move back because he's going to see his friends at Oya High and now he can see you every day again
Fujio who notices your physical changes when he sees you again after a while but is happy your personality is still the same
Fujio who is acting a little weird around you now and you can't understand why
Fujio who gets a little nervous while you're around
The rest of the friend group can clearly see that he likes you and is doing a shit job at hiding it while they can't tell if you like him the same or not
Madoka who decides to take one for the team and ask if you like Fujio as more than a friend.
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Madoka asks if you like Fujio as more than a friend, and you deny it at first but admit it just as fast because nobody gets past Madoka
Madoka who is on a mission to get the two of you together once she finds out you like him too but don't think he feels the same
Madoka's thoughts: "Are you dumb? Do you see the way he acts with you?!" *rolling her eyes and frustrated because she cannot deal with y'all*
You who has liked Fujio since you were kids but figured he didn't like you back because he's nice to everyone... so he was just being nice to you also
Madoka, Seiji, Shinya, and Masaya who are sick and tired of how you and Fujio look at each other with starry eyes when the other isn't looking.
JUST DATE EACH OTHER ALREADY YOU IDIOTS
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Fujio who is sulky and tells Tsukasa and Jamuo he doesn't know what to do with his crush on you
Jamuo suggests a big elaborate confession while Tsukasa says he should just man up and tell you how he feels, no big confession scheme needed this isn't a marriage proposal
The rest of the boys walk right into the conversation and being the nosy kids they are, now they want to know what their leader is talking about
This leads to Fujio telling all of Fujio faction about his girl problem
All his friends: đŸ‘ïžđŸ‘„đŸ‘ïž because what do you mean they're strong leader is being sulky over a girl?!
"Wait who is this girl again?" (Nakaoka)
"The quiet girl who we used to see at Grandma Sada's market remember?" (Nakagoshi)
"Ohhhh ___?" (Nakaoka)
"Yeah." (Nakagoshi)
"Better get a move on then Fujio! The girls tell Nakagoshi and I that a lot of boys in the surrounding schools like her. You might want to tell her before some preppy boy steals her away." (Nakaoka)
Fujio who tells his friends he would rather fight all of SWORD by himself than confess to you because feelings and rejection are scary. The thought of getting punched by every dude in SWORD sounds less scary than getting rejected by you and messing up your friendship.
Tsukasa who tells Fujio that it would be easiest to tell her how he feels because nobody wants to be on the receiving end of Fujio's fist if you start dating someone else.
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Fujio who tells your friends he is finally ready to tell you how he feels
The rest of the group let out a big sigh of relief at the same time because they're sick and tired of you guys looking at each other like love-sick puppies
Fujio who stands in front of Seiho waiting for you and Madoka after band practice.
Madoka and Yui lie and say they have somewhere to go together leaving you with Fujio.
Fujio who is being a little awkward because he isn't sure how to tell you how he feels.
"Fujio... why are you acting weird?"
oh god she caught me here I go "Ireallylikeyou___I'velikedyousincewewerekidspleasegooutwithmeandbemygirlfriend"
You: ❓
"Since when did you become a rapper Fujio? I didn't understand anything you just said. Say it again slower."
"I really like you ___. I've liked you since we were kids. Please go out with me and be my girlfriend. ONLY IF YOU WANT TO OF COURSE! IF NOT WE CAN STAY FRIENDS AND WE CAN PRETEND THIS NEVER HA-."
"Will you let me talk?"
Fujio goes quiet 😂
"Yes, I would love to be your girlfriend. I've liked you since we were kids too. I just thought you didn't feel the same because you are always nice to everyone so I thought you were just being nice to me."
"Being nice? BEING NICE?! I NEVER SHARE MY FOOD WITH ANYONE BUT YOU WHAT DO YOU MEAN BEING NICE?!"
"LEAVE ME ALONE! I THOUGHT YOU LIKED SOMEONE ELSE! ALL THE GIRLS AT SCHOOL SAY THAT SINCE YOU CAME BACK LOTS OF GIRLS HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT YOU SO I ASSUMED YOU LIKED SOMEONE ELSE AND YOU'VE BEEN ACTING WEIRD!"
"ME?! TELL THAT TO YOURSELF! NAKAGOSHI AND NAKAOKA SAID THAT SINCE I'VE BEEN GONE LOTS OF BOYS TALK ABOUT HOW THEY LIKE YOU. AND I'VE BEEN ACTING WEIRD BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO TELL YOU I LIKE YOU."
The two looked at each other after their shouting match and laughed at how ridiculous they were.
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The first time Fujio took you to Oya to meet his friends, let's say it was chaotic.
Fujio pulled you through the halls of Oya and up onto the rooftop.
All the shouting that was going on immediately went silent when the door opened and you two walked in.
"Hey guys! Meet my girlfriend ___. Don't stand to close to her or look at her too long I'll punch you."
The boys broke out into cheers because Fujio actually told you how he felt.
"Wooooow those other guys are gonna cry when they find out ___-san is dating Fujio senpai." (Nakagoshi)
"We have to tell the girls when we see them this weekend." (Nakaoka)
The boys all introduced themselves to you and you introduced yourself back.
The rest of the day was spent with them telling you how Fujio acts at school and you telling them how Fujio acted when you guys were little.
"Come on ___ you're supposed to make your boyfriend look good in front of his friends not embarrass me."
"I'm just telling them about how my boyfriend has always used his fists before his words. You were the one that punched that one boy when we were 9 for pulling on my hair and calling me names."
"Nobody calls my girlfriend names!"
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Bf!Fujio who gives you a heart attack when you see him after the Oya and Housen brawl and he's all scratched up
Bf!Fujio who won't sit still while you try to tend to his wounds because the products sting.
Bf!Fujio and Arata who give you an even bigger heart attack when they get back from the fight with Kidra
Your friends have to catch Arata up on what he missed and he's happy that you guys are together because he thought you guys liked each other when you were all kids also.
Bf!Fujio who backhugs you and uses you as a shield to hide from Madoka's wrath after she's done crying about Arata coming home.
Shinya and Masaya who are using both you and Fujio as a shield to hide from Madoka's wrath.
Seiji who looks at you guys and laughs.
Arata who looks at everyone and realizes just how much he actually missed all of you.
Bf!Fujio who is a little jealous because you went to Oya to check on everyone after the fight with Kidra.
"___ but what about meeeee?"
"Fujio I patched up your injuries yesterday."
"Okay? And? It's not my fault none of them have girlfriends to patch them up."
You quickly finish checking on everyone and sit with Fujio so he stops being jealous.
Fujio honestly has no room to speak though because whenever he stands in front of Seiho waiting for you and Madoka the girls look at him and make comments about how cute he is.
You walked out of school one time to a girl trying to give Fujio her number and he's awkwardly trying to reject her without being too mean. You had to swoop in and save your prince in distress.
It was a pretty often recurrence where you hear the girls at school talking about him and his friends but sucks to be them because he is forever yours! I don't think you would be able to get rid of him low key so I hope you're planning on marrying that boy lol
You would just ignore them and Madoka and Yui would tell you how you're the best person for Fujio anyways so you had no competition. The times when another girl is being mean to you though you best bet Madoka is gonna argue with her.
It was a often recurrence for Fujio to hear other guys talking about you also, the only difference is that he reacts to it. Probably hits them with a "___? Yeah I think she's pretty too because she's literally my girlfriend stop talking about her." Or actually physically hits them because WTF DID THAT NASTY DUDE JUST SAY ABOUT THE LOVE AND LIGHT OF HIS LIFE?! FUJIO WILL NOT STAND FOR IT.
Tsukasa has had to jump in multiple times to stop him.
That's a lie Tsukasa has stopped him 1 out of 10 times when he felt it wasn't important and not worth it but 9 times out of 10 Tsukasa usually jumps in to help Fujio actually because WTF DID THAT DUDE SAY ABOUT HIS SISTER?!
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I feel like dating Fujio would automatically make you everyone he's friends with sister figure/mom of the group.
Tsukasa needs someone to talk to that isn't one of the boys? Congratulations ___ suddenly you're a certified therapist.
Jamuo needs help on an assignment or studying? Fujio will ask for your notes.
ChunChun faction member is sick? No worries Fujio will call you and ask for advice. That member might even ask Fujio to ask you for a bowl of soup.
The boys with bleached hair need help maintaining the color? No worries, just call ___ she'll know how to help.
The boys have a date? Don't panic ___ will help them with the planning.
Sachio is having a hard time getting through to Yui? It's okay ___ will help talk to her.
Todoroki needs some peace and quiet? Don't worry, ___ will keep the kids occupied somewhere else so Todoroki can read.
Sawamura needs help shopping for a gift for his and Yui's anniversary? No problem ___ is on the way to help.
When Fujio eventually becomes friends with Rao faction, you best bet ___ is there to help also.
The rare occasion Magaroku ran out of gum? It's okay ___ carries extra in her bag
Kamui's mask strap broke? ___ has one he can use temporarily while she fixes his
Raoh needs help getting something for his siblings by a certain time but he doesn't have time because he's out on Suzuran business? No worries ___ is there to help.
(Good god I hope you're ready to take care of everyone😂)
Vice versa, I think your status as Fujio's girlfriend also means his friends are always willing to help and protect you. Let's be real even if you weren't dating and just stayed friends everyone would still love you.
Boy from another school is bothering you? The nearest guy from Oya or Housen or Suzuran is flying in to save you.
You need help moving your furniture? Good thing you have your boyfriend and all his strong friends to come over and help.
You would end up being friends with all his friends too so that's fun.
I feel like they would all take it upon themselves to teach you how to fight to protect yourself in the rare case someone can't jump in to save you.
I think they would all want you to stay away from the actual fighting so Fujio + someone else is checking up on you at all times.
Could you imagine one of the Senomon, Kama, or Ebara guys following you because they know you're dating Fujio and think that's the way to get Fujio to accept defeat?
Girl... Todoroki, Shiba, and Tsuji fuckin flew out of nowhere to protect you.
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You would think that with your boyfriend's lifestyle, you would get used to seeing him and his friends all bruised and battered up but I don't think you ever will.
They make you seriously consider a career in the medical field so that you can professionally patch them up but yell at them while you're doing it all at the same time.
Cue Tsukasa, Kiyoshi, Nakagoshi, and Shidaken giving you a heart attack when you see all of them in the hospital.
"Fujio... WTF HAPPENED TO EVERYONE?!" you whisper yell at him.
"Okay so the thing is, Senomon created an alliance with Kamasaka and Ebara to try and take down Oya. That's one of the reasons why they kept following you and that's why that one-time like two weeks ago Todoroki faction saved you because Amagai is a little bitch who can't actually fight anybody without also throwing in shady tricks. Saboten and some other guys beat up Shidaken for declining an alliance offer. Saboten also dropped a bunch of crates on Chun Chun faction. Nakagoshi pushed everyone out of the way and all that shit fell on him so he's here. Kiyoshi sacrificed himself so that the rest of YasuKiyo faction could get away. Then, Tsukasa, Jamuo, and I were in the tunnels and weren't paying attention so we got surrounded and we had to split up. Suzaki fought with Tsukasa and then Amagai beat him over the head with a pipe and took him hostage. While he was hostage Amagai tied him up and kept beating him. Then Amagai tied him up on a pole and cut the rope, dropping him from 20 ft in the air. We just got him back today when we stormed Senomon. I almost got stabbed by Amagai but then Suzaki intervened so I'm okay besides the bruises and scratches."
___ looks at Fujio in silence for a few seconds, and then smacks his arm.
"Owwww you're supposed to be comforting me ___ not adding to it."
"Is this why you've avoided my calls for the past two days?!"
"Maybe... but I did it because I didn't want you to worry."
"I will always be worried regardless! I'm literally dating the leader of Oya High which comes with built-in stress. You should've just answered my calls and told me."
"I promise I will next time ___. I love you."
"I love you too. Now let's go get you patched up."
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Fujio and ___'s relationship as a song...
Ditto by NewJeans
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rouzuchan · 2 years ago
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the lack of h&l content is killing me i want to be delusional with the housen guys plS
SACHIO looks at you as if you placed the stars in the sky. He’d listen to your daily rants or sit in silence (if that’s what you’re comfortable with). Either way, without warning, he’d grab your chin and bask in that soft, blissful look on your face whenever you’d stare at him. No matter how many times he does it, that warm feeling always stays deep in your soul. It won’t be long until one of you leans in for the sweet stuff 👀 (An Art Gallery Could Never Be as Unique As You by Mrld)
Whenever ODAJIMA catches a glimpse of you, it’s on sight. Is JINKAWA talking his ear off about something? One look at your pretty face and he’ll put on his most suave attitude like nobody’s business. So often to the point SACHIO needed to physically get his attention
 yeah. For your own good, don’t try playing hard to get, please. He’s a menace and he is not ashamed to admit it.
Being that MOJI will be leading Housen once the third-years graduate says a lot about his character. That being said: let this man court you and you’ll be subjected to royalty treatment 💅 No, seriously— he’ll pay for your meals, compliments your outfit, notices the slightest of changes, walk you home at the dead of night— the good shit 👍
Let’s say your HOUSEN’s personal (and underpaid) medic. Not only are you valued for the betterment of the school, but valuable to the leader’s hearts. (softies fr)
The seniors treat you well (romantic relation or sibling treatment, your choice), but they can be overbearing when it comes to your safety, but they mean well. Any faction tries anything with you and they’ll be like wolves baring their teeth. And we all know when Housen gets roused up
 enemies ->đŸȘŠ
This is all I got for now! I'm still getting to know the Worst cast since I've officially fallen in love with all of them /j alr, I'm gonna drown myself with "the worst x" content now 😚
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hayato-isomura-is-hot · 2 years ago
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Hear me out
Platonic overprotective Sachio x reader x Fujio 😍
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onlyrains · 8 months ago
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Halo!! Can I request a yuken x sachios's bestfriend? Where yuken really likes the reader and tries to make her notice but the reader is oblivious, so yuken had enough and confessed to her! Thank youu!! I love your works so much! ♡♡
a/n: hi!!! thank you for requesting! this was spontaneous and i hope you like it! and also thank you so much for loving my works, that means a lot!❀
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[11:23am]
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—t/w: kissing, harsh words
to have a complete, supportive, and rich family is a biggest blessing, you always thought. and that is not something you're blessed with.
luckily for you, god have sent sachio as your best friend as a redemption to it.
you met him in middle school as a classmate until one day you helped a little girl crying on the side of the road who turns out to be his sister, you two become a best friend.
you know from the deepest part of your heart, he's one of the people that you're going to keep forever. he's just too good to be true as a best friend—or even as a human in general. you won't forget that day when he offered you to live in his big big house because your work is nearer from his place than yours. so that you can walk everyday and save up more money to give to your parents.
little did you know, he also feel very grateful to have you as his people. you know who he is and never be judgmental about it even though you never understand a bit. he is the reserved type of person yet so many burden on his shoulder and you never hesitate to lend yours whenever he needed without adding more pressure to him.
both of you just so thankful to have each other and always keep things below the limit so the relationship is stable to say at least.
living in his house is such a grace because the amount of working maid here is enough to make you only minding your own business. and that time when his friends visiting is the only time you were out of your room because the maids won't complain when you're helping at this particular moment. at least, you have to serve the guests, right?
the more you socialize with them, the more they feel like a friend to you too. especially that one friend, who visit more frequent lately, yuken. like you know him enough to say that he is a good guy although his cocky attitude often inviting an eye roll from you. but seriously though, they usually come in a horde, but why this odajima yuken come by himself for two weeks in a row now?
“is there a problem?” you ask bluntly as you put a welcome drink on to the table.
yuken staring at you for a few seconds before taking the drink calmly. the eye contact lingers.
“yes.”
“really? but sachio haven't home since yesterday. is that something serious?”
“you sounds like his mom.” he chuckled.
“no, i'm not.”
“yes, you are.”
you frowned. his tone shouldn't be sounds so playful in such a precarious situation, right?
“you better call him, yuken.”
“i can take care myself.”
“huh? then go? why are you still here?”
“did you just throw me out? this isn't even your house tho?”
ouch.
he is always like this. annoying, cocky, even flirty, and overall a menace. you still trying to get used to it as his attractiveness keep making you forgetting it. you do admit he is damn attractive—like, annoyingly attractive.
you inhaled deeply before got up. “just call sachio. i'm sorry i can't be here with you now, need to take care a couple thing,”
he rests his back on the sofa. heart thumping like crazy contrary with his demeanor and smirk on his lips.
“the problem is here, sweetheart.”
oh, you wonder does he always did this to other people? this is not the first time you heard this from him but you aren't familiar with pet names so it is always make you feel something.
“what do you mean? am i the problem?”
“you are.”
huh?
“i heard you doing an amazing job at work,” he scoffs. “but why not this one?”
you came back to the sofa and sat closer to him this time. confusion and anger etched across your forehead. “what are you trying to say?”
“did you receive the daisies? the coffees? the bento? the—”
“wait what?”
yuken let out a soft giggle seeing your face processing everything these past few weeks.
“so those were for me?”
“who else?”
“and—FROM YOU?”
“who else?”
“oh.”
shame on you, girl. really. you thought it was for the company by using your name as the receiver. so you gave most of them to your co-worker.
“is it enough for me to call you stupid?” yuken grins while take your chin up to met his eye.
you really want to punch the shit out of him but that is just your cheap way to get away from this embarrassing situation and that's not nice at all.
you sighed and trying to back away but his fingers was faster to catch you up, no other option for you except to move closer, making his face is just inches away from yours.
“yuken—”
“shhh. i don't think you got the point, blossom.” his thumb caresses your cheek like it's the only thing they do. feels so familiar and comforting.
but shit. what is he talking about?
“huh?” you murmur while your eyes wandering his face like the answer is hidden there. the second your eyes laid on his forehead, you catch a small dried leaf hanging on his hair, causing your hand to reach for it in a blink.
“where were you—why is it so dirty?” you said absentmindedly.
yuken stared intently before laugh it off to hide the racing blood inside him. he put his head on your shoulder while still laughing and now your blood turn to race to your cheeks while feeling his warm breath fanning your neck.
your body freeze as realizing this is the closest distance you ever get with yuken—even a guy. you do lend each other shoulder with sachio sometimes. but not in this face-to-face position even after he grabbed your chin twice. this is too intimate and you can barely breath.
“w-why are you laughing?”
“are you always this oblivious? like are you trapped into a spell or something?”
“i'm not—”
“i think i know why,” he adjust his position and take your hand in his. “i only do this to you, stupid. do you think it's such a habit for me to send everyone those things at work? no, right? do you see me as someone like that?”
you shook your head.
“that's right. so what is the reason?” he waits to let you think, to stop denying the thoughts you have in mind since almost two months ago, to stop feeling afraid of affection you may receive, to stop arguing with the voice in your head.
your grip in his hand got tighter as you found honesty and sincerity in his eyes that don't usually sparkling.
you nod twice. “i just stopped denying.” you say innocently and yuken can't help but ruffled your hair.
“ah, how cute.” he chuckling.
“but is it true—i mean, why? how?”
he clears his throat shakily. “it is true. i just can't resist everything i feel for you these past few months. the more i see you whenever i'm here makes it harder everytime to go without stealing you with me. you're just
 i don't know. i like everything in you.”
you watch his lips move effortlessly for every word he said. he was just being spontaneous and you can see that. it was still genuine though, you can feel it. it is the first time you see him on his nerves while shaking subtly.
“thank you.” you say.
his eyebrow rise in unison. “what do you mean by thank you?”
“for everything you feel about me and everything you gave? it's more—”
“and?” he cuts, impatient.
“you don't accept rejection, do you?” you laugh.
“you're right, i don't. it's the first time i feel this kind of feeling and emotion—i even let those bald jerks making fun of me when i come—”
you decided to shut his ramble with your own mouth. it was just a peck but then his hand placed on your nape to pull you closer. he tilt his head for a better access and his lips hugging yours just perfect. your hands squeezing his shoulder as the heat escalated in your body. a knot forming in your stomach when he refused to pull away.
“i-i can't breath.” you say when you finally manage to broke the kiss and both of your forehead still stick together.
he’s breathing heavily, eyes still glued on you. “does that mean we are
?”
“yes.” you say confidently. succeed to let your first guard down. “we're dating.” you cringed a bit.
a mischievous smile appear in his lips. “oh? i was about to ask you are we going to get married?”
“huh?”
“huh?”
“yuken, are you serious?”
“no.” he grins. you were ready to throw hands but he held it back first then closing the gap between you again. he even take off his glasses this time.
“you know why sachio not here since yesterday?”
“no.”
“because i told him not to.”
you gasp. “how dare you?”
“he even advised his sister to stay at her friend's house today.” oh, that cocky tone again. “guess i'm the boss now. thanks to you.”
“god, so they know?”
“everyone are already know about my feelings, silly. you were the only one who oblivious.”
“oh? i'm sorry. let me make it up.”
“how?”
“is this enough?” you kiss him again and pull away a few second later, deciding to let your mischief side arise since you were also wanting to do that for a long time now.
“no.” he kisses you, deeper this time.
“yuken, that's enough.” sachio's low voice echoed causing you to push away your-new-boyfriend and his back meet the end of the sofa roughly.
yuken squeaks loudly. “fuck you sachio. i just got abused in the first ten minutes of my relationship.”
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simpforchuchu · 2 years ago
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POV : You are dating Sachio
Your Insta 🌟
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Y/n Oh, caught me :)
|| sachio This is your account, you should be posting yourself babe ♄
--》y/n No you are more beautiful.
--》sachio 

|| fujio Sacchi really looks good
--》y/n back off home-wrecker, he is mine.
--》fujio @/sachio your girl is scary
--》sachio please dont start again
--》fujio she started :(
--》y/n shut up 😊
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Y/n đŸ«¶đŸ»
|| sachio đŸ«¶đŸ»
--》y/n 😘
|| yuken It is nice to see that Sachio is really happy
--》y/n he is always happy ?
--》shidaken ive never seen him happy like this
--》y/n yeah cause he doesnt like you guys
--》sachio y/n
--》yuken you are dating a bully bro 🙂
--》y/n 🙃
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Y/n PLEASE HAVE MERCY LORD
|| todoroki Where did you even find this photo ?
--》y/n i took it 😌
--》todoroki this is from the fight ?
--》sachio Y/N ???
--》y/n was just passing by 😁
|| yuken good photo
--》y/n i know
--》yuken why are you so mean to me ?
--》y/n I AM NOT MEAN
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Y/n family pic đŸ„ș❀
|| odajima ❀
|| shidaken who let you to share this one ?
--》y/n your leader ;)
|| jinkawa this is the first time you ever say us smth nice
--》y/n im always saying nice things
--》sawamura yeah sure :D
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Y/n Love his smile so much ❀ #/1year
|| sachio Your smile is the prettiest one angel ❀
--》y/n đŸ˜­â€ïž
|| binzo @/magoroku you owe me 50 dolars bro
--》y/n Huh ?
--》binzo He owes me
--》y/n Yeah but why ?
--》magoroku i said you would break up in max 8 months

--》y/n Did you bet on me? 😀
--》mercy yes they did

--》y/n i want 20 dolars too
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Y/n My brother/sister loves him more than me 😔
|| magoroku even Raoh loves Sachio more than you
--》y/n shut up
|| yuken Is Sachio still with you ?
--》y/n yeah why
--》yuken our poor leader
--》y/n 😃😃
 
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Y/n Coolest photo ever
|| sachio đŸ˜„đŸ˜„â€ïž
--》fujio where did you find it ?? I want to see too!!
--》y/n at the zoo
--》fujio yeah but which one
--》y/n find it yourself
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Y/n “Let me carry your bag baby” 😚😭
|| shidaken đŸ€ąđŸ€ąđŸ€ą
--》y/n dont be jealous đŸ€§
 
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Y/n gorgeous.
|| sachio ❀
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Y/n My moon and stars. ❀
|| sachio My sun ❀
--》y/n We are cringy but cute đŸ€§
--》jinkawa yes you are

|| fujio I never thought that sacchi will find a girl before me
--》y/n You are blind fujio, really

--》fujio what the hell does this mean??
HnL taglist : @straysugzhpe @tiddly-winx  @satraninalane @thatpoindexterpixy
Not sure about this one, maybe l can try another one://
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airbendertendou · 2 years ago
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self care with your love! ♡
synopsis : various!HiGH&LOW boys allowing you to dote on them. [+ a special guest at the end!]
no pronouns used / gender neutral, though there is tons of talk abt makeup!!
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smacking your lips together and MURAYAMA saying he likes your lipgloss color but before you can put it on him he smooches it away until it fades.
giggles hitting the room around you as FUJIO says the eyeliner you’re putting on him tickles.
convincing YUKEN that the hand lotion you always carry will help his scarred and rough knuckles. [it’s only a small bonus that it smells like you.]
at every sleepover you force ask him to have, SACHIO will allow you to put this slimey n cold sheet mask on him.
while sitting on his lap, HYUGA says the eyelash glue you’re using to put rhinestone freckles on him stinks.
P giggling as he hovers over you as you lay flat on your back, messily appling your eyeshadow.
you n KIZZY ambushing KAITO to put glitter all on his face, his cheeks heated n warm as he sits between the two of you.
bonus!
suzuran watching on as their tough n badass leader GENJI curses, threatening people even w the multi-colored nail polish you applied to his fingies bc you couldn’t decide what color to do yours.
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jaehyunsprincesspeach2 · 2 years ago
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hi my love <3
PLS FEED THE SACHIO STANS I BEG WE ARE SO HUNGRY!! STARVING!!
THE SACHIO STANS NEED TO BE FED AND IM HERE FOR IT
I hope you enjoy darling, ily!!
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Sachio as a Boyfriend
Two words
HUSBAND. MATERIAL.
Man’s would treat you like royalty no doubt
Refuses to let you go anywhere alone
It’s a good thing you’re close with all of Housen, cause if he can’t be there, hes sending one of the others to be with you
Gets so worried when you are walking home
Always texts reminders for you to let him know that you got home safely
The literal cutest good morning and good night messages
Sends daily reminders to eat and drink lots of water, honestly just to take care of yourself in general
Very traditional when it comes to showing affection in public
He’s not against PDA, but its also not his most favorite thing
Always holding your hand at least, might leave a little kiss on your forehead while walking
He is so unbelievably in love with you
His eyes are for you and you only
And he makes that known to everyone around him
He could have someone else try to talk to him and he won't even look in their direction
Especially if he is already looking at you
Nothing could take his eyes off of you
Well, unless it’s something that is a threat to you, then he will calmly take care of what or whoever is making you uncomfortable and return with a small smile
If someone is making you uncomfortable, they don't stand a chance
Sachio wants you to be comfortable wherever you are, and he will do anything he can to make that happen
He isn’t the most talkative when others are around, but when it's just the two of you, he really lets his guard down
He shows a side of him that nobody else has seen
Everyone knows him as the serious leader of Housen, but for you he's a teddy bear
Slightly clingy, more so late at night or after a fight
He just wants to feel you close to him
When he cuddles you he holds you as close to him as he can
It keeps him grounded, and lets him know that you are safe
It also makes him feel like he can protect you from the harshness of the world
There is nothing he hates more than to see you upset
Whether its mad, or sad, it breaks his heart to see tears in your eyes
In those moments, he wants to go find whoever hurt you and punch their teeth out
But he also knows that those moments are when he needs to be by your side
He knows that sometimes you prefer space, but even in those times, he is waiting patiently for you to come to him, and will embrace you with open arms
He’s very rational and level headed, so I don't think there would be too much fighting between the two of you
Never fails to bring a smile to your face
So so so soft and gentle with you
Always wanting to take care of you, and take away your stress and worries
Not that he feels like he’s walking on egg shells around you, he just wants you to feel how much he loves you
He’s literally the man everyone dreams of being with
Nobody will love you as deeply as Sachio does
Little gifts here and there, but he prefers quality time
Just wants to be with you in the purest way
Sachio is a whole ass husband and I will stand by that forever
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sollattes · 1 year ago
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Jealous HnL boys
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note: the bold dialogues are the boys, and you're the italics
Hanaoka Fujio
-gets jealous but does not realise it
-gets really pouty and sulky when your attention is taken away from him
-follows you around like a lost puppy until he gets your attention back
-keeps the 'friendly' facade around the guy until the guy leaves and his smile just immediately drops
"I don't like him at all, and i couldn't care to know his name, so therefore, I would not be giving him a nickname. Hmph!" "Fujio I-"
Tsukasa takajo
-literally glares at anyone who goes near you within 5 feet
-already hates everyone's guts, so just imagine the hatred that he has for the guy who is flirting with you
-though he gets really jealous easily he tends to hide it all and act cool when in the inside he is already screaming for the guy to get lost or punch the guy when he tried to initiate physical contact with you
-acts all salty and needs to be persuaded after the whole incident
"I don't like this guy at all." "tsukasa, he is literally 6 ft away from me . What are you on?"
Todoroki yosuke
-doesnt really get jealous since he is secure in your relationship, and he is too proud to be jealous
-though he still can't help but feel possessive every time a guys would approach with romantic intentions
-doesnt wanna be too close, though still close enough to keep an eye on the guy if he tried anything
-if he can't take the jealousy anymore, he would just take you away without saying anything and distract you so you won't go back to the guy(not like you wanted to anyway)
"I wonder how many punches he can take?" "Yosu, I swear to god-"
Ueda sachio
-gets jealous easily, and everyone knows ot except you
-literally all smiles towards you, but once you look away, the leader of the housen killer corps appears
-makes sure to stay close to you in case the guy tries anything
-just has this terrifying and intimidating aura around him while he's behind you until the guy goes away, and when the guy does leave, it's all sunshine, rainbows, and daisies for sachio
*mumbling*"I'm gonna fucking kill this guy if he doesn't leave anytime soon" "chio? You said something?" "Nothing baby^^"
Odajima yuken
-like tsukasa, gets jealous really easily but hides it under his smartass facade
-since he is showing his smart ass facade, so expect a lot of back-handed compliments towards the guy
-makes you wear his sweater so everyone knows who they're messing with if they ever flirt with you
-is literally draped in you like sloth on a tree 24/7
"You know you're really good looking with this lighting." "But isn't it dark?" "Yu omg-"
Shida kenzo:
-gets jealous easily, but unlike tsukasa and yuken, he is not afraid to tell you that he's jealous
-momma's boy, so he basically knows what you might feel if he doesn't communicate his feelings (SHIDAKEN GREEN FLAG FR)
-you are his no.1 priority, so your comfort and emotions will always come first before his
-no filter at all. If he sees something wrong with the guy, he'll immediately point it out
"I'm sorry, but your breath really stinks." "kenzo, stop omfg-"
Shoji sameoka
-another momma's boy(it's my hc idfc) that is not afraid to tell you how he feels
-he will be gorilla glued to your side the whole time, and this is rare since shoji is not one for pda
-literally just side eyeing the guy the whole while occasionally letting out an annoying scoff
-his hands are just on your waist the whole time with the occasional rubs and squeezes to assure you that he is still there and can take you away any time you want
-is not afraid to tell the guy to fuck off if he had enough tolerating his shit
"Fuck off, go find someone else to bother with your bullshit" "shoji atleast let him finish-"
Misaki Mario(roah)
-now I don't why anyone would even try and flirt with you if they already saw roah with you but ig let's just say some dumbass really tried for the sake of the hc
-now roah would get jealous but not to the point that he'll get bothered by the feeling since he trusts you and knows you won't flirt back
-if he sees the guy being more and more eager to flirt he just uses his big figure to tower over the guys and intimidate him
-now if that doesn't work, which is rare, he won't hesitate to pull into his (ginormous)chest, keeping ou there until the guy gets a hint
"Honey, cmon, the kids are waiting." "roah, ssshhhh oml"
Mashii takehiko(mercy)
-mashi does gets jealous but won't tell instead he shows you
-he would also pull into his chest while talking 'friendly' threats to the guy
-he would puff smoke into the guy's face if the guy won't shut the fuck up
-he would puff smoke into your mouth while making out with you infront of the guy
"Cmon, let's make out in front of him." "And here I thought you didn't like pda, takehiko"
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strxwberrychocolate · 2 years ago
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˗ˏˋ bittersweet àżàŸ‚ Fujio and the girl who’s been in love with him since middle school
notes: based off the boy I've loved since 6th grade who I know will never like me back and resembles fujio's personality a little too much. It's going to be 8 years as of 2023 October and I'm still not over him but it's okay, I'm alright with pining. the oc is literally just a self-insert so it's a mirror of myself and this is written in first-pov. long story short, this is my life story put into a short fic
warnings: canon-typical violence, recreational drug use, underage drinking, alcohol abuse, smoking, mentions of abusive relationships, implied physical abuse, mentioned eating issues, weight-related talk, shotgun kisses, blood, mentions of periods, references to depression, victim blaming, unhealthy coping mechanisms, mild gore, this is basically a trauma dump in the form of a fic so plz be aware, not edited
pairing: fujio x oc (one-sided), sachio x oc (one-sided)
word count: 6309
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❝how did love become love?❞
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I don’t really remember life before Fujio Hanaoka. But then again, who genuinely remembers life before middle school? I met Fujio in middle school, 6th grade to be exact. Fujio came to my middle school around a month after it started because he was visiting his grandfather in the countryside and his mother decided to prolong their stay. One thing I noticed was that Fujio was popular. Very very popular among all the kids in class. It was then I realized that I was the outsider in this classroom. Everyone had gone to the same elementary school in this classroom and they all already knew each other. But I didn’t feel like an outsider for too long because the teacher had Fujio sit next to me since it was the only empty seat left. I had always been a pretty shy kid so making conversation was always hard but it seems that Fujio knew that so he talked to me first. We talked about the elementary schools we went to, the area we lived in, what we wanted to be when we grew up, and the annoying people in the class. Fujio talked and talked and talked to me and all I did was listen. 
It wasn’t long till I fell in love. 
Fujio knew everything about me. He’d been there at almost every major stage of my life.
Fujio was the one that taught me how to ride a bike, he was the one that listened when I felt insecure about the way I looked, he listened to me talk about my dreams and aspirations, we celebrated when I got her first period with cake(It was more like comforting but it was still a core memory). We’ve been with each other for really most of the important parts of our lives. But I wasn’t his best friend nor was I the one he loved. He loved me but not in the way I wanted him to. 
Middle school ends quicker than I wanted and high school starts. We don’t go to the same high schools but at least it’s in the same area. Fujio goes to Oya High and I go to Meiwa Girls School. It’s like a 5-minute distance from each other. Fujio stays at Oya High for a week until he has to go to the countryside to help his mom take care of his grandfather. I was absolutely devastated but there isn’t anything I could do. I became friends with Tsukasa Takajo during Fujio’s year-long absence. It seemed the blonde boy misses Fujio too. Things happen in SWORD but that isn’t too important. Nothing was really important to me while Fujio was gone. It sounds stupid I know but I was a bit of a hopeless romantic. It was horrible, I know. I waited and waited and waited. 
Things happen during Fujio’s absence other than that whole shit show that is SWORD’s politics. I meet a guy. He’s sweet. He goes to Shutoku Boys High School. We got together too fast. I used to say it was love at first sight. I think I was wrong. No, I definitely was wrong. I don’t really remember how we met— they say the brain blocks out things that were traumatic and too much for it to handle. Was that how it was for me? Things were sweet at first, we’d text and call each other all the time. He was sweet. I think I loved him at one point, at some point. But none of that matters. None of it matters after everything he’d done. We’d talk to each other all the time, eventually, my sleep was gone trying to comfort him about the breakup he had 3 years ago, going out with my friends after school stopped and so did so many other things. I used to really like swimming, I don’t remember the last time I went. I guess I lost all the motivation to do anything. 
I thought it was fine. I thought this was love. I was wrong. 
It was a conversation with Tsukasa I had during my 6th month with him that made me realize what was wrong. “Sweetie, you do know you’re getting abused right?” Tsukasa said with his signature blank face, using the pet name akin to an insult
I laughed awkwardly because I in fact did not know that. It took all night for me to convince Tsukasa not to go beat the shit out of my boyfriend. I think if Tsukasa hadn’t been all burnt out since Fujio’s departure he definitely would have gone to Shutoku and beat the shit out of the guy.
Breaking up with him had been the hardest part. It took 4 months, and 4 tries. Todoroki had been helpful in that. The last try was where Todoroki came in. I won’t go into detail but jealousy and me having to stand my ground was involved. The breakup wasn’t pretty but I was free. Surprisingly I didn’t cry. The breakup happened at 6 am, the morning before a major math test. I’m pretty sure I failed but it was okay, I was free and it was all that mattered. I went to Oya High that day and skipped the rest of my afternoon classes, I wanted to tell Tsukasa and Todoroki about it in person. Turns out, everyone knew about my little problem. Maybe it was because of my very obvious physically deteriorating health and the depression I think I had that made me lose so much motivation that my curly hair was now straight and frizzy. It was nice to have all the support. 
Mostly everyone was supportive and I think I may have talked about it too much, my past relationship I mean. But I just wanted the validation that I wasn’t wrong, that I wasn’t going crazy and all the things he did to me were in fact wrong and disgusting. But some people said it was my fault. Some said I should have left earlier. It made me feel worse. Tsukasa says they’ll never know what I went through unless they’ve experienced the same thing. No one will know about the nights I stayed up crying, not eating and— ah~ I’m rambling again. 
This guy had been a huge factor as to why I changed so much. When I was young, I had issues with eating, I didn’t eat that much and it bothered my mom. But when I did eat she’d encourage me to keep eating so I didn’t fucking die of starvation or something. My ex had been the first to ever tell me to stop eating. I guess it messed me up a lot. Even after I broke up with him, getting back into my usual more healthy habits was hard. Really hard.
My confidence had already been non-existent before but after the breakup, fucking hell I felt terrible. 
It was 3rd year and my grades were horrible, my skin, my teeth, my hair. I just really wasn’t having a good time. I used to drink before. For fun. Now it was just to forget. I wasn’t sad about the breakup itself, I wanted to forget about all that he’d done to me, everything I went through. I was angry. It made me angry that I went through that. How could I let myself go through it? Why didn’t I leave? I think all the anger I was feeling just drowned out all of my sadness. 
I let go of the chance of ever falling in love again. I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to feel that way, this way ever again. 
But I guess one part of me knew that if Fujio ever came back and asked for my heart, I’d tear through my skin and muscles and pry open my ribs to give it to him.
—
❝I’m hiding in the rain, always smiling❞
—
It was like the universe finally had pity on me and one day finally, Fujio comes back. I see him outside the gates of Meiwa. Girls are staring at him of course, watching from afar, giggling. I don’t blame them. Fujio was handsome. He had a nice smile and nice features. He was really really good-looking, even more than the last time I saw him. “Fujio” I said walking over, a huge smile on my face
Fujio smiles right back at me. “Hey, long time no see! Miss me?”
“Definitely didn’t” That was a lie, I did, I missed him a lot
We stayed out that night, catching up. I patched up Fujio’s knuckles as I usually did and now we were sitting at an empty park just on the border between Oya and Sannoh. We were sitting on the swings, Fujio right next to me. The sun is setting, lighting up our surroundings in a warm orange and pink. Fujio looks pretty. His tanned skin it lit up in gold. He looks gold. For all I know, Fuijo was spun from pure gold thread. “Tsukasa told me about it
 You and that guy” He says
I already knew Tsukasa was going to tell him. I was always a bit scared of that, telling Fujio. Would he be one of the people that supported me and comforted me or would he be one of the people that blamed me for what happened? “Yeah
” I say hesitantly “It was
 a lot”
I close my eyes silently waiting for some kind of belittlement or blame but instead, I feel someone stand in front of me. “Hey” Fujio says
I open my eyes. He’s standing in front of me looking down at me while I stay sitting on the swing. “You haven’t been taking care of yourself have you?” Fujio asks, hand coming up to take a strand of my hair between my
I flinch. That was a huge mistake. Anger flashes through Fujio’s eyes as does pity. I feel terrible. Fujio looks like he wants to ask me something but he doesn’t. What he does instead is crouch down in front of me. “Hey” He says, his voice is a little quieter now
I’ve never heard his voice sound like that. It’s new and for some weird reason, I feel guilty. Fujio is looking up at me from where he’s crouched down. The swings are pretty low to the ground so he isn’t tilted his head too far back and I’m not tilting my head too far down either. “You didn’t deserve that” Fujio says
He takes my hand. I know this was supposed to be something heartwarming but my heart was just beating so fast and I started imagining us getting married and having kids and having grandkids and— yeah I got carried away. “And I mean it” Fujio continues “I know whatever I say isn’t going to make it better or change anything that happened but you didn’t deserve that no matter what other people have been telling you”
Figures. Fujio knew what people were saying. He always did. “What if they’re right?” I ask
There always has been this voice in my head telling me that what happened was my fault, that I deserved it. I know I didn’t but, your mind tends to be your own enemy. Fujio scoffs. “Be fucking for real! You
” He tugs a little at my hand and takes the other one as well “...You are the nicest person in this shit hole that I know. You’re so nice to everyone, you may not be the smartest and you are a little stupid and slow but
 You’re so sweet. Don’t fucking let anyone tell you it was your fault because no one except you knows what happened. Never, never in your life will you ever deserve to be treated like that.”
Not only did it make my heart feel like it was doing an Olympic-level gymnastics routine in my chest but, I think I finally got the validation I needed after everything that happened. Fujio did just call me stupid in the middle of it but that didn’t matter. Not now. “I’m so so proud of you for getting out of that relationship” Fujio’s thumbs rub along my knuckles, I think he felt me shaking “It doesn’t matter how long it took you, it matters that you did it. You’re okay or
 You’re going to be okay. I promise I’ll help you and I’ll make sure that fucking piece of shit will never hurt you again”
Finally, finally I was comforted the way I wanted. I finally got to hear everything I wanted someone to tell me in the first place. Being told you weren’t too broken and you could still be healed felt good. 
Hearing it from Fujio was really just a plus point.
—
❝Eyes meeting but hearts apart, it’s so sweet yet so bitter❞ 
—
Fujio was
 Friendly. He was charismatic and very handsome so of course he’s had a bunch of girlfriends and talking stages and friends with benefits. A lot of girls liked him as well, many asking me to set them up with him. I guess in the end I’ll always be that one rare girl best friend that actually isn’t something to worry about. I’m not too sure how to feel about it. Sometimes it feels like Fujio has kissed everyone but me. Am I jealous? Of course, I am. Even now as he shows me a picture of the new girl he’s dating. “She’s pretty” I gush and nudge him, because if I don’t nudge him I might just kiss him
I think I’m a pretty good actor. I’m good at pretending that my heart isn’t tearing itself to shreds every time he talks about another girl. I should definitely win an Oscar award for these performances. I’ve never tried to make Fujio like me. Because I know he doesn’t and no matter what I do, it is no use. I’m not his type nor the one he will ever love. Love can happen eventually, I know that but Fujio will never love me, I’ve already come to terms with that. But even if I have, that doesn’t mean I’m over him. “You think so?” Fujio says with a grin looking right at me
I nod. It’s really all I can do.  
One thing Fujio likes doing is try to set me up with his friends. Today, it was Sachio. Don’t get me wrong. I like Sachio, but not the same way he likes me. 
Sometimes I think my unrequited feelings for Fujio is just karma for all of Fujio’s friends I have rejected. 
Fujio tells me Sachio really likes me. I think at one point I did like Sachio. He’s sweet. Really nice and respectful and would definitely be a better boyfriend than Fujio ever would be. But maybe it’s just me holding on so tightly to my first love, only ever having my eyes on Fujio that I’m not ever able to look at anyone else. I want to. I really do. But at the end of the day I always come back to him. I don’t expect for Fujio to return my feelings I just
 I don’t know. 
Maybe one day I’ll get over Fujio, move on. But I don’t think so it’ll happen soon. 
I hope it does. Soon I mean. 
Because my hands are starting to burn from the rope called first love I’ve been holding on so tight to. 
—
❝Ruinous imagination consumes me, makes me dream sweeter dreams❞ 
—
“You really wanna meet Sachio?” Fujio asks me
“I’ve already met him Fujio” I tell him
Sachio was nice. I wasn’t over Fujio but I could stay stuck up on him either. It wasn’t healthy and I knew it. I should get over it, I should try. Not only to get over Fujio but also what my asshole ex did to me. Fujio aside, I was tired of feeling so angry all the time. I didn’t tell anyone that I felt angry rather than sad. What if I tell them and everyone that was supportive of me starts calling me crazy too, or stop supporting me through it? I think my emotions were always something I kept to myself. I didn’t want to tell anyone about it. It didn’t matter to me who stopped supporting me just not Fujio, never Fujio. I might actually go crazy if he does. Honestly speaking, I think I already am crazy. I won’t be surprised if I go for some psychiatric test and the results come out with a diagnosis telling me I’m crazy. After everything that’s happened paired with my weird dependency on Fujio, I think I am crazy. “Yeah but, no you know he likes you” Fujio says “Are you gonna give him a chance”
We’re inside a convenience store. Fujio wanted to get something to drink. He’s standing in front of the fridge trying to figure out what he wants while I’m standing in front of one of the glass doors of the fridge staring at my favourite drink. I want it. But I don’t really have the energy to bring my arm up and open the glass door. It’s weird. I don’t have the motivation to even do the things I like. I want to stop feeling like this. I thought being here with Fujio would distract me from the feeling but I guess not. I thought my heart was only filled with Fujio but that void after my breakup is getting bigger and it hurts. “Maybe
” I say, staring at my blurry reflection in the glass
I look tired. I’ve always had eyebags due to having low iron and a shitty sleep schedule but now they were darker. My skin thankfully looks the same and isn’t dull. I think I should thank myself for being so strict about my skincare routine and eating habits. But the glow in my skin doesn’t matter when the look in my eyes just shows how fucking exhausted I am. It’s not really my eyes that I’m worried about. It’s my hair. I’ve always loved my hair. Everyone has. It was curly and long and Fujio really liked it. It wasn’t curly-curly with ringlets but more wavy-curly. Now it was kinda straight and a little frizzy at the ends. Oh. It feels like I was seeing my own reflection after years. I look like this? This is what Sachio likes? I don’t think I’ve ever felt more ugly in my life. To make things even worse, there’s an annoying pain in lower belly. I’m on my fucking period. “...Hello?” Fujio nudges me
I look at him then look away. I can feel Fujio looking at me. I want him to stop. I feel gross. Fujio opens the door and I watch him take the drink I was staring at. “You were just staring at it” Fujio says
Before I could tell him I don’t want it, Fujio’s already heading for the counter and he pays. Oh. I think I’m going crazy. “Come on” Fujio calls
I follow his words and go outside. Fujio’s already sitting outside the convenience store on the curb. I sit down next to him. “You didn’t have to get that for me” I say
Fujio shakes his head. “You were just staring at it
 So I got it for you” He says and opens up the drink before handing it to me
I take it. “Why were you staring at it?” He asks
I know I shouldn’t be admitting it out loud, but I tell him anyways. “I don’t know
 I wanted to get it but like
 I don’t know. It felt like too much work”
Had I been making any other expression, Fujio would have laughed at me and called me lazy. But no. Instead he gives me a sad look. “You’re fucking depressed” he says
Wow. I definitely wasn’t expecting that. “H-huh?”
“Don’t h-huh me!” He says, mimicking my words
Fujio grabs the drink he just gave me and aggressively puts the cap back on. “You need help” He grabs me by my shoulders and shakes me “Why didn’t you tell me before”
I feel weirdly ashamed right now. Tears well up in my eyes. “I told you that I’m here for you. If you’re feeling like fucking shit then you should tell me” Fujio says
He takes his hands off my shoulders and now he’s holding my face. Something wet touches my cheek and Fujio’s eyes soften. Oh. I’m crying. This was more embarrassing than it needed to be. “You don’t need to pretend to be happy or a certain way around me. I’ve already seen you being weird and fucking embarrassing! So please” Fujio says, his thumbs wiping away the tears running down my cheeks “Please just tell me what you feel. Tell me when you don’t feel okay, tell me when you’re sad, tell me if someone is hurting you, tell me if you’re scared. Just tell me”
I’m shaking. Fujio just keeps telling me everything is okay, that he’ll make everything okay. It’s unrealistic for him to say so, even I know that but any kind of comfort, even the unrealistic kind sounds nice when you’re hurting. “I promise
 I promise, everything will be okay” He tells me and presses his forehead against mine
I guess there was a reason I was never able to fall out of love with Fujio. When he does things like this, how could I ever get over him?
—
❝I close my eyes but thoughts of you bring turmoil to my nights❞ 
—
“Has anyone ever told you how obvious you are?” Tsukasa says to me
I stare at him in confusion. We were on the top of the temple. Yes, the temple whose stairs Fujio falls down on a daily basis. We were meeting his new girlfriend. This sounds horrible but I’ve already forgotten her name. “Huh? Obvious about what?” I ask
Tsukasa nudges me. “You like him”
My hands tremble. I didn’t expect him to say that. “What? No” I deny it immediately 
The blonde boy next to me on the bench only laughs. “You think I’m an idiot? You’re really really obvious. You like him, everyone knows”
Um. What? Tsukasa sees my reaction and sighs. I’m not sure what face I’m making but I think it might be the same one where Tsukasa told me I was getting abused. Fun right? “No one has told Fujio about it but he does know”
This just keeps getting even worse. “What?”
I want Tsukasa to stop talking. I don’t want to hear anymore but I have to. “Fujio knows you like him. He’s known all along. But Fujio also knows you’ll never confess to him because you know he doesn’t like you back. That’s why he keeps you here with him unlike the other girls who have confessed and then got rejected” Tsukasa explains
I’m not to sure how to feel about this. I look over toward Fujio. He’s with his girlfriend further away. It looks like she’s arguing with him but he’s only smiling. I watch him reach over and he grabs her waist. Instantly she stops and her cheeks flush red. Or I think they do. I can’t really see far away and I don’t want to wear my glasses. You know anxiety and stuff. Seeing the world clear just doesn’t help and I think the 480-720-pixel resolution that is my eyesight really helps with calming my nerves. But right now it feels like I can see everything clearly. Fujio’s lovestruck look, his girlfriend’s shy smile. I can see it all. I wish I couldn’t. “He
 Knows?”
“I won’t tell him that I told you. But yeah he does know. That’s why he’s always been trying to set you up with someone else because Fujio thinks you don’t deserve him”
I frown and look away from the two lovebirds. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
Tsukasa scoffs. “Oh please, we all know how much of a shitty boyfriend Fujio would be. I’m his best friend, I know. Fujio is to friendly and you’re still healing
” Tsukasa tells me “But okay, let’s say all that with that motherfucker from Shutoku didn’t happen. Being with him would make you so fucking insecure. He’s talking to new girls every day. He’s so fucking affectionate with everyone, you’d be wondering if he was cheating every other day”
Tsukasa was right. I knew he was. I thought about this before. Fujio wouldn’t be a good boyfriend. If there was ever a day that he maybe did like me back, it would be painful being with him. But still, I was still so fucking in love with him. I hated myself for it. “I know” I mutter quietly “I just can’t get over him”
Tsukasa next to me sighs and he rests a hand on my shoulder, lightly squeezing. “Try talking to Sachio more. I know him, we all do. Sachio’s nice. I’m telling you to use Sachio to get over that idiot over there but
 Maybe you should try looking for other guys. You’re not gonna get over Fujio without actually looking” He tells me
He was right. Ugh fuck. Maybe I should talk to Sachio. 
Why not?
—
❝Don’t wanna let go so I let go❞
—
Today was one of the rare days I was wearing my glasses. Fujio insisted on some bonding time with resulted in Sachio Ueda, Yuken Odajima, Tsukasa and Fujio’s girlfriend and me going to the movies. Now Fujio and I were waiting outside the bathrooms on the bench, waiting for all of them. I had sat next to Sachio during the movie, sharing popcorn with him. Fujio told he didn’t tell Sachio that I know he likes me. I guess now that I do know, things are pretty clear. I don’t know why I haven’t noticed it before. Maybe it was because I was too focused on Fujio. “Why does he like me?” I ask Fujio “I’m not pretty or like
 Smart. There isn’t really any redeeming quality about me”
Fujio is fiddling with the movie tickets, his and his girlfriend’s. He looks at me, giving me a weird look. “You don’t think you’re pretty?”
I push my glasses up my nose and shake my head. “No. I’m not. I mean come on Fujio, look at me” I tell him
I guess I’ve always been pretty insecure about myself growing up. Especially when middle school started. My parents and relatives have always told me I’m pretty, backstabbing cousins and aunts say things to me out of apparent jealously. I pretended to think I was pretty when I was at home. I don’t think I’d ever be able to tell my mother how I actually felt about myself when she was always so proud of the way I looked, that I was so pretty. I think it would break her if I told her I hated myself— that I hated my face, my body, my own skin. I could never tell her. It was with my friends I could really spill out all my feelings. “Yeah I am” Fujio says “You’re not ugly”
I roll my eyes. “Uh-huh”
Fujio nudges me in the ribs. “I mean it. You’re definitely not ugly”
He leans over and brings his hand up. He’s so so close to me right now, I can feel his breath, see every pore and blemish on his skin— he’s still so beautiful. Fujio pulls my glasses off my face. I have told him many times not to do that. Taking my glasses off for me always felt so unnecessarily sexual. I didn’t tell Fujio it was like that though so he still continued doing it whenever I wore them anyways. “You’re very pretty, that’s one of the reasons Sachio likes you. But Sachio aside, you’re not at all ugly. You’re pretty” Fujio tells me and his other hand brushes a piece of my hair behind my ear “I’d never be friends with an ugly person”
My cheeks are no doubt red. But I play it off by punching his arm. “Fuck off” I mutter “Let me wallow in my misery in peace”
Fujio laughs softly. I want to kiss him so bad. “You are stupid though” he says
I hit him again and suppress the urge to kiss him. Fujio isn’t mine so I can’t kiss him. 
—
❝will our eyes ever meet each others again?❞
—
I often wonder what kind of a person I would have been if I never met Fujio, if I hadn’t fallen in love with him. It sounds like a nightmare. I can’t imagine my life without Fujio. Maybe I’m just that much in love with him. Sometimes I wish I wasn’t. Sometimes I wish I was in love with Sachio instead. But now, sometimes has turned into an almost every day wishing as I watch Fujio and his girlfriend play around in the park while I sit alone on the bench. It’s 12:30 am. I should be going home. I’m not even allowed to be staying out this late. But I haven’t gotten any calls from my mom, maybe she’s already asleep. I say and lean back into the bench. There is something painful watching the person you love fall in love and be in love with someone else. Even more painful watching them receive it back. “Hey” Sachio sits down next to me
I look at him and smile. After the movies Yuken insisted on going to get some stuff because he hadn’t smoked in so long. Stuff meaning weed and next to me Sachio is smoking some as well, the spliff between his fingers as he leans back against the bench next to me. Yuken and Tsukasa are off to the side talking quietly amongst themselves while smoking and Fujio’s still with his girlfriend, pushing her on the swings. “You feeling okay?” Sachio asks me, taking a drag before slowly exhaling “I heard about what happened with the guy”
Sachio has always been the kind of guy everyone went to when they had some kind of problem. He was nice and gave really good advice. “Yeah
 I mean
 It’s taking a lot longer than I expected for things to get better” I say quietly
I started taking a lot of painkillers after my breakup, not just alcohol. Thankfully Fujio seemed to catch on and stopped before things could get serious but I still feel like absolute shit during random times of the day. “Well you can’t expect to get better overnight. Your relationship was 9 months
 That’s a long time. So you can take your time getting better too” Sachio says
I turn my attention to his lips, watching them wrap around the spliff and slowly exhale. Sachio sees and grins. That’s kinda hot. “Wanna try?” He asks
I stare for a moment at the drug wrapped in brown paper. “I don’t know how”
Sachio’s red-rimmed eyes are saying so much but so little at the same time. I don’t know what he’s thinking. But whatever he is thinking is making him hesitant to do whatever he wants to do next. It’s a short moment before he speaks again. “Come closer” he says
I obey without thinking, the sides of our thighs pressing together. Sachio takes my glasses off my face. Haha fuck. He brings the spliff up to his lips and then pauses, still looking a little hesitant. “Inhale okay” he says before taking a drag
Sachio leans over and I don’t move. He takes my chin between his thumb and forefinger. He leans in closer, closer, closer. I can see his pore, the blemish, the moles, I can see all his skin up close. I think he’s going to kiss me but Sachio hasn’t closed his eyes. I realize he hasn’t exhaled yet so I have an idea of what he’s doing. Sachio’s lips press to mine but not to kiss. Well kind of. He exhales smoke into my mouth and I inhale. His lips feel soft. It feels nice. Sachio pulls away not too long after but I can still feel his lips on mine. I exhale, coughing a little bit. My throat burns but it’s not as bad as I thought it’d be. “Didn’t know you knew how to do that” Sachio says with a little laugh
My face is probably red right now. “Uh
 I saw Odajima teach a girl how some weeks ago” I mutter
Sachio laughs. “Of course you did” he says
He’s smiling hard. I wonder why he he likes me. I wish he didn’t. Sachio shows me how to properly smoke after that. He doesn’t let me smoke to much though. It’s not too bad but he says he knew I probably didn’t each much so I shouldn’t else I’d feel nauseous. It feels weird being high. I’ve drank but smoking was a new territory for me. I feel a little lazy. But not the bad kind. This doesn’t feel too bad. I have a feeling I’ll get an earful from Fujio later, he’s been giving me looks. Fujio doesn’t smoke, Tsukasa does. Tsukasa gets scolded by Fujio on a daily basis when he comes back smelling like weed. I probably won’t do this again. I look at Sachio who’s already looking at me. Maybe it’s the weed that is making me lose lipped but the next words leave my mouth like vomit. “Why do you like me?” I ask and regret it immediately
Sachio smiles. “Why? Do I need an exact reason?” He asks
Something twists in my chest. It hurts. I don’t want him to like me. Not because I like Fujio, but because I don’t deserve to be liked by someone as nice as him. I’m a horrible person. “You deserve someone better,” I tell him “I’m not fishing for compliments here but I’m not exactly the most extraordinary”
Sachio sighs. The spliff is finished and now all we’re left with is uncomfortable questions. Thank god I’m high or I probably would have ran into the middle of the street and got myself hit by a bus on purpose. “I don’t care if you’re not anything extraordinary” He tells me shaking his head “I like you and you don’t get to decide who I deserve
 That’s for me to decide”
I want to cry. I want to so badly feel better again or maybe at least get over Fujio. “But I
 I’m not okay. I probably won’t be for a while. And no matter how hard I try I
 I don’t want you to wait for me forever Sachio. What if I can’t ever fall in love again?” I tell him, almost whispering at the end
Sachio turns his entire body and is facing me. “I don’t mind waiting” He says with a smile “But me and my feelings aside, you can take as long as you want to feel better. It doesn’t matter who’s waiting for you. Me or Fujio or anyone. You need to feel better for yourself”
I fumble with my hands while staring right into his eyes. Does being high make you emotional? I don’t know. But fuck I felt like crying. “How do I know if I’m better
 It feels like I never will” 
Sachio is smiling so softly at me. It makes my heart hurt. His hand comes up and he takes a stand of my hair between his fingers. “Your hair. Maybe when your hair is back to how it used to be is when you’ll be better” He tells me
It’s 1 am. I should be at home. But here I am, with Sachio— the boy that loves me the way I wished Fujio loved me. I wish I loved him back. There are so many things I want to ask Sachio right now but I don’t. How do you get over someone who was never yours, to begin with? Who do you blame when you’ve broken your own heart? I don’t say anything but Sachio keeps talking. “I’m not forcing you to love—like me back
 Right now I’m just telling you to take your time and maybe love yourself first” He says
Stop loving him goes unsaid but I know he wanted to say it. At that moment in Sachio’s eyes I see something of myself. He looks at me the same way I look at Fujio. It hurts. I wonder if this hurts him as much as it hurts me. But here’s the thing, I could get over Fujio and maybe I could even one day love Sachio back. But I’d never be able to forget the feeling of hurt nor the thought that I may only be loving Sachio back because I don’t want him to feel the same way I feel right now. I look toward Fujio who’s wrapping his girlfriend up in his arms and kissing her forehead. It feels like pieces of glass are tearing into my heart. 
Had someone told me being in with would be so painful I would have never fallen for Fujio in the first place. I look at Sachio and feel almost a little better. 
Does he wish I get over Fujio?
Does he pray at night for me to love him back?
I’m not sure I want to know. Maybe my problem is that I love Fujio way more than I love myself. Maybe the day I start loving myself again will be the day I get over Fujio. Sachio’s hand comes up and he brushes a strand of my hair behind my ear. 
It’s 1:35 am, I’m supposed to be at home sleeping but instead here I am; high in front of a boy that doesn’t love me back and sitting next to one that does. I feel ungrateful and cruel.
I hope I never break Sachio's heart like I broke my own.
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