#ryūnosuke akutagawa angst

[awoogayanderes]

WHO DOES MY HEART STAY WITH ?

➪ request : “what would be the last reader's reaction when dazai left the mafia? Would she stay with aku and mourn or would she go with him?” - anonymous

➪ other notes : this is kinda not a request but i loved the idea of it so i’ll give you both options, anon is also talking about “our hearts are never meant to be”

SCENARIO ONE : BETRAYING THE MAFIA AND LEAVING WITH DAZAI

you stared at dazai as he held his hand out, waiting for you to accompany him. he wouldn’t leave you, he wasn’t capable to. he explained what happened and what he planned to do in order to honor oda’s last wish. “are you ready to accept your consequences?” you asked looking at him in his eyes. “yes, i’m ready,” and with that you took his hand, officially leaving the one home you had, the port mafia.

when akutagawa found out that not only his mentor but you also betrayed and fled the mafia, anger and disgust surged through his body. he was angry at you, knowing that you knew you were the first person to show him a dime of kindness. he was disgusted at himself for not being enough for you and dazai, for not being a reason for you to stay. yet he always took any mission against other organizations, hoping that one day he’d see you again.

he does eventually find out that you work for some detective agency along with his old mentor. coincidentally both of you were on a mission against each other yet you can’t help but freeze when you see the young man you previously knew as timid and small. “ryūnosuke,” you say, your voice the same kind of soft as four years ago on that hill. he slowly retracts rashomon when he sees you.

after that, he simply leaves, hatred flowing through his veins as an old feeling starts panging in his heart. he hates you. he hates that you became a better person without a second glimpse at him. he hates how you look at him with pity and sadness in your eyes. the worst part is that there’s nothing he can do to stop craving that kindness you always held. he hates himself for feeling this way towards you.

SCENARIO TWO : STAYING IN THE MAFIA WITH AKUTAGAWA BY YOUR SIDE

you stared at mori frozen as he told you that dazai would no longer be working in the mafia. the older man looked at you condescendingly, your relationship with mori was confusing to say the least, he had warned you about dazai almost immediately after he took you in. yet here you are now, for the first time not smiling in years, dazai actually left..?

you didn’t talk to anyone weeks after that, even the coaxing from chuuya didn’t help. you were in shock, you weren’t sad, you weren’t angry, you were just surprised. you hadn’t seen akutagawa in that while but you wondered how he took it. now sitting on the same hill as the sun rose, blurring out the previous night sky. you felt someone sit next to you on the grass, the same man you sat with months ago.

silence enveloped both of you, but this time it wasn’t comforting, it was suffocating. “i didn’t expect him to leave,” you say breaking the silence. akutagawa stays silent as do you, sharing this quiet moment. betrayal comes easiest from those who you think will stick by you through good and bad. that’s what you learned in the mafia, yet it hurt regardless.

akutagawa keeps to his word, not trying anything on you, but still pining for you, even more now as you rose through ranks. four years later, and you’re still the only person he’s had such feelings for. even if you still look at dazai with admiration the few times you saw him after his betrayal, he won’t hold it against you. he knows he’s only supposed to pine for you, never try anything else. but at least you’re here.

[kyouka-supremacy]

Tbh I think the “Akutagawa is asking Atsushi who he is to snap him out of the breakdown because the Atsushi he knows wouldn't be pathetically sobbing on the ground” interpretation is faulty because... The Atsushi Akutagawa knows would exactly be pathetically sobbing on the ground lmao. Like, Akutagawa has already seen Atsushi cry in front of him, he perfectly knows how miserable and self-deprecating Atsushi can get; because he knows him. Which honestly, is kinda sweet in a way? Dostoyevsky had such a strong reaction to Atsushi crumbling down because he didn't know Atsushi, and it's evident from his words that he expected him to be different; but Akutagawa knows Atsushi, and he wouldn't anticipate any other behavior from him. That is to say, If Akutagawa wanted to snap Atsushi out of spiraling, he'd definitely go on and insult him like he always does, but he'd never insinuate he doesn't know him, because, well– Atsushi and Akutagawa know each other. It's just that it's not Akutagawa anymore.

[bakugokemkatsuki]

Payback

Ryunosuke Akutagawa x (GN) Reader

**Warning(s): Death **Genre: Angst **Word Count: 144

You might just spend your final moments forever wondering what you did to end up here. You allow yourself to get lost in thoughts. Thoughts of a nicer time. All the memories of you and Akutagawa flooded your mind. The long late-night talks, the cute dinner dates, the movie and cuddle sessions. You thought about it all. All the laughs and good times, all the smiles and happiness. So how in the world did you end up here. A gun to your head and it was none other than your “loving” boyfriend who was holding it. After all you two had been through this is how he chose to pay you back… with a gun to the head. You’d never get the chance to ask why or what you did wrong, what you did to deserve this. You were destined to die without answers.

[akutasoda]

BSD men with a self-sacrificial healer s/o? Like, healing others drains them drastically but they push forward and ignore the pain to soothe others.

pain of healing

synopsis - how are they with an s/o who is a 'self-sacrificing' healer

includes - dazai, ranpo, akutagawa, tecchou

warnings - gn!reader, fluff, slight angst, small mentions of injuries, wc - 725

osamu dazai ★↷

↪at first, he thought that having a healing ability was pretty cool, it didn't require much to use and it certainly could come in handy. but he didn't like it all that much when he found out that it hurt you in return.

↪now he preferred you to not use your ability unless absolutely necessary, but he knew that was an unrealistic ask. you used your ability to help your coworkers and friends, he loved that about you but sometimes he wished that you weren't so willing.

↪even if he was injured, he'd prefer you not to use your ability on him. he hated the way you became so tired, practically on the verge of passing out and in pain. he'd rather be in pain than see you in pain because you were trying to help him.

↪whenever he is on a field mission with you and notices you healing someone, he waits an exact amount of time before he walks over and nullifies your ability. he knows exactly when it starts hurting you and he can't bear it.

ranpo edogawa ★↷

↪he despised your ability. ranpo wouldn't say it to your face, he would but he held himself back from doing so, because he knew that it wasn't your fault. you didn't ask for your ability but sometimes he really wished you didn't use it.

↪he didn't exactly join you on field missions or when you were helping yosano, but he knew exactly what happened anytime an injury occurred. he knew that you would push your body to it's limits just to ensure your coworkers safety, put yourself through the pain and fatigue just to heal them.

↪for once he wished you were selfish. that you put your own health above those around you and save yourself that pain. he may never bring it up, but you could tell it bothered him - you weren't too keen on your abilities' drawback but you wanted to help.

↪you'd start noticing that you were put on less missions, immediately you knew that ranpo was purposefully putting a word in and so you quickly confronted him.

↪he hated the fact that you overexerted yourself for others, he worried for you. you'd have to promise to him that you wouldn't put yourself through so much pain.

ryūnosuke akutagawa ★↷

↪he doesn't exactly care what your ability is, but something about the fact that most of the port mafia rely upon your ability for injuries, makes him rather annoyed. not because you're helping others, but because it hurts you.

↪he won't say anything, it's not his place and he doesn't exactly know how to, but you can tell by the obvious look on his face - the one that turns into a scowl, not directed at you, if he's in the vicinity of you healing someone.

↪akutagawa would always find a way to tell you off for overdoing it whenever he catches you afterwards. you always look tired and in so much pain that he hates that you sacrifice your health for the sake of some insignificant people.

↪but he knows that you won't listen, and he can't make you. all he can do is scold you each and every time, making sure that he gets the point across in his own way.

tecchou suehiro ★↷

↪he was quite indifferent about your ability, it was nice that you had one but at the end of the day, it wasn't exactly the most important thing. although when he learnt about the conditions and drawbacks, he didn't like your ability as much as he would like to.

↪tecchou understood that you wanted to help people so he never said anything but he hated how you always seemed drained of all energy and in pain afterwards each time. he knew it wasn't exactly his place but he wished he would actually say something.

↪however, he was content to always be near you if you two were on a mission, he wanted to be able to be near you just in case you needed help. he could be fine with you healing overs but he wouldn't be okay if something major happened to you in the process.

taglist - @little-miss-chaoss, @vi-chan07

[httpskuzuu]

BSD with pets

idk what I did

Fyodor x Reader / Akutagawa x Reader / Nikolai x Reader

I don't speak english, let me cry

summary: cute things about bsd characters and animals, idk

tw: nikolai is kinda oc (it's the first time I write about him, mercy), angst¿ at the nikolai part

Fyodor Dostoyevski

“Fedya.” You called as you knelt down to look under the couches. “Fedya!” you began to despair, you had already searched all over the house and still couldn't find your pet rat. Now, don't ask me how you convinced Fyodor to adopt a rat and give him his nickname, I don't know.

You had looked in every room but one.

You slowly walked through the house until you reached the place where Fyodor was always working. You knew he was there at that moment, you heard from outside the faint sound of keys being pressed, so you were justified in your nervousness, you didn't want to disturb Fyodor.

Anyway, you knocked on the door and stood tensely, waiting until a male voice said, “You can come in.”

“Fyodor, Fedya is lost, I can't find him.” You said the second you opened the door, while looking at him with a sad expression. It had been months since you had adopted the rat and you were already indescribably fond of him, instead Fyodor stayed more distant from him ( maybe because of the chosen name).

He turned to look at you as soon as you finished speaking, to see your expectant face for some answer or help. Expressionless, he removed his white ushanka revealing your beloved lost pet underneath.

“Fedya!” you yelled as you approached with your eyes full of life again. You held the rat between your hands carefully and hugged it. Laughter inevitably came out of your mouth. “What was it doing under your hat?”

“It climbed up me and got underneath.”

“And you left him there?” your smile widened as Fyodor nodded at your question. “I thought you didn't like him.”

“When did I say that?”

“It's just that you never take any notice of him.” You pouted to which the man couldn't help but smile.

“I don't like the name.” He quickly corrected along with a sigh, to which you could only laugh. “He's fine, doesn't bother.”

“I'm glad.” Gently, not wanting to disturb Fyodor or Fedya, you placed the rat back on his head, which curled up comfortably as Fyodor looked at you quizzically. “I think he'll be more comfortable there.”

Ryūnosuke Akutagawa

Your feet hurt as you took out the key to the apartment where you currently lived with your boyfriend. It was a long day of work, although you could quit and be unemployed without any problems, as Akutagawa can provide for you without any problems, you still wanted to have your own money and not be entirely dependent.

You walked in to find the place with all the lights off, you guessed your boyfriend was still out, not unusual considering his job at the Port Mafia. The weird thing was not finding Rashōmon, your cat.

You entered the room shared by both of them and there you saw one of the cutest scenes Akutagawa could be involved in. On the bed, Aku was deeply asleep, breathing peacefully as was Rashōmon, who lay on his stomach in a ball, with the man's hand on his back.

The latter wiggled its ears at the sound of your laughter stifled by your hands, not wanting to wake anyone. Despite your efforts, your pet opened its eyes, which stood out in the darkness. It seemed as if his eyes came out of nowhere, as his black fur was indistinguishable in the dull light.

You quietly approached him and petted his head, making him purr.

You changed your clothes to a much more comfortable one, still trying to keep the quietness of the place. You knew Ryūnosuke should be tired, so you didn't want to wake him up.

Carefully, you lay down next to him, covering them both with the soft sheets. You laid your head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat, while petting the cat with one of your hands.

With the mix of these calming sounds and the whole moment, you couldn't resist falling asleep.

Nikolai Gogol

You think it was a bad idea, adopting a white dove and calling it Kolya sounded funny at first, and Nikolai seemed to have no problem, but over time his behavior changed.

You don't quite understand, you don't know what goes through his head when he just stares at the dove in his cage. You had seen his emotions, those that he takes so much care that they cease to matter to reach freedom, but still you don't know what to do and you can't help but feel immense guilt.

One day you sit next to him, so that both of you can look at the animal for the desired amount of time.

“Do you want to release it?”

“It would surely die, and if it didn't, it would go home because it's not used to and doesn't want freedom.” Despite his somewhat subdued tone of voice, he has a smile on his face. You decide not to press him about it, after all it's only a matter of time and trust that he will tell you about how he feels, you just need to be as understanding with him as possible.

“Oh.” Silence once again imprints itself in the room, until after a couple of minutes you speak again. “And isn't there a way to teach him to be free?”

“Then he wouldn't be truly free. He would act as quoted, not on his own like free-ranging doves.”

“Mmmh, right.” Guilt still fills you, it's obvious you shouldn't have adopted the bird, a dog would have been much better. "But still, I think it's better that it's locked up in there. It wouldn't be free at all, but it would be close, don't you think?”

“Yes, I suppose that's better than nothing.”

Your hands gently intertwine and you drop your head on her shoulder. You'd be here long enough to comfort Nikolai.

I think you can tell which is my favorite

[bsdawgz]

「BSDAWGZ MASTERLIST」

⤏ please do not interact with any of the smut if you are a minor. this should be self-explanatory.

osamu dazai.

☆ part one: selfish | pm! dazai, smut, angst ... ▹despite knowing your relationship is going nowhere, you and dazai can't seem to keep your minds – or your hands – off each other

↳ part two: cruel | pm! dazai, smut, angst ... ▹you've come to terms with the fact that you can’t bring yourself to leave dazai, but he's determined to show you there’s nothing in him worth fighting for

☆ closer | smut ... ▹ in the morning, dazai likes to spoil you in bed

☆ die for you | smut, drabble ... ▹ to die with your hands around his neck would be a perfect death

☆ let the light in | pm! dazai, angst with smut ... ▹any woman who dazai sleeps with is a mere distraction. like dazai, you are just as desperate for a distraction or a relief from the cruel tribulations of life

☆ perverted | pm! dazai, dark content! (*knifeplay) smut

☆ just one more kiss | smut ... ▹after a long day at work, you and dazai just want to indulge in each other a little!

atsushi nakajima.

☆ giving a handjob to atsushi | smut, drabble

☆ yours | smut, angst ... no matter what happens, you'll always run back into the arms of the man who taught you how to love – and he'll run right back to you, too

☆ behave | (soft) dom! atsushi, smut ... ▹it's about time atsushi taught you to follow the rules.

☆ please? | au! camboy! atsushi, smut ... ▹atsushi's always a good boy on camera, esp when he’s thinking about this one girl from his class ♡

chūya nakahara.

☆ waiting for you | smut ... ▹after a tough day at work, there’s nothing you want more than to be dicked down by your boyfriend, chūya

ryūnosuke akutagawa.

☆ quiet nights spent in aku's apartment | fluff, drabble

☆ all to myself | smut with some fluff ... ▹you and aku ponder the meaning of the word safety and wondering if it’s possible to find it in another person

☆ 3 am thoughts | smut ... ▹ akutagawa masturbates while thinking of you

michizō tachihara.

☆ you get me so high... | smut ... ▹you and your best friend, tachihara, share a joint and discover you’re attracted to each other… really attracted to each other

↳ part two: i wanna ruin our friendship | smut ... ▹looks like it's gonna be hard to stay "just friends" after this...

↳ part three: you keep me under your spell | smut ... ▹maybe tachihara is the jealous type, after all

↳ part four: i belong to... | smut ... ▹you and tachihara belong together. that's that.

© BSDAWGZ 2024. Do not steal or repost ANY of my works! That’s plagiarism, and it’s mean. :(( Beautiful dividers by @v6que!

[spiral-writing-stuff]

hi hi! i saw ur requests were open? (sorry if theyre closed)

Can i request a Akutagawa x gender neutral teen reader? (Platonic ofcou) basically reader looks up to Akutagawa and sees him as a older brother figure and akutagawa sees them as a younger sibling :3 can it be angst also? like where one of them is badly hurt and the other is crying and all that jazz

pls and thank you <3

authors note: Don’t worry! If my bio says requests are open then they are! I just take a while to write because there’s a lot of stuff going on in my life, so I’m really sorry this took so long! Im thinking of splitting this into 2-3 parts because I’m still thinking of how to write the rest of the story, I have the plot already in my head but I just need to put it into words. This request is sooo cute big brother akutagawa is just such a great concept:,) Also so sorry if the angst isn’t good lol I’m not very good at writing creative sad stuff! (Please give me feedback!😭) also sorry if it’s too angsty i think I went a little overboard again. I might edit this story later.

Sorry this took so long!

I also couldn’t decide if reader is older or younger than Gin so you guys decide.

I Hope it’s what you wanted!!<3

On a Silver Night

Content/Warnings: angst, gore, blood/injury, abuse/child abuse, death, Dazai being a bastard, lmk if I missed anything

For as long as you can remember, Ryūnosuke was always protecting you and gin, as if you two are the thing he lives for. which you both are at this point He has always tried his hardest to defend you, gin, and the other children from thieves and abusive adults, he didn’t do it to be righteous, nor did he do it to feel better about himself, he just did. At least, that’s what you thought, it was hard deciphering his intent because everything he did, he did with the same, emotionless stare. People would always mention this fact. Even when he was killing, stealing, or when you found some food or someone told a joke, he always had the same blank expression. You thought it was funny sometimes though he never once showed any emotion, that didn’t matter to you, his actions spoke clearer than any words could.

Like when he would sometimes hug you and gin to keep you warm during cold nights, when he found food he would share it with the two of you first. And if anyone dared to threaten or try to hurt any of you they would be dead in an instant by Rashōmon’s sharp fangs. Yes, his facial expressions didn’t matter, he was trying his hardest to keep you and Gin from experiencing the harsh cruelty of the word, but he was still just a boy himself. There wasn’t much a malnourished and frail child could do, yet he persisted, despite how many times he’d fallen. You looked up to him and had a deep respect for him because of this.

Even though it was a horrible situation all of you were living in, you were happy just to be with your older brother, sister and the other children. Among all the other children, You, Gin and Ryūnosuke were the ones you were closest to.

Until that fateful day, when a group of criminals murdered all the other children in cold blood, leaving You and Gin injured, and Ryūnosuke thirsty for blood.

~ ~ ~

Gin had helped Akutagawa escape but you three got separated amidst the chaos and confusion, you held Gin’s hand tightly as you two ran and ran until you two were exhausted, collapsing onto the damp, cold ground. The air was foggy and cold, the night dark while the moon illuminated your surroundings with a silver light. After a few minutes of struggling to catch your breath you got up from the dirty ground and remembered only Gin was with you, Ryūnosuke had ran off in search of the criminals who killed your friends. Fear and panic shot through your body, terrified that Ryū was going to get himself killed.

“G-gin! W-we have to find Ryū!” You said to Gin in a rushed shaky voice. She swiftly nodded.

You two began running, this time slower due to how tired you both were. You were heading in the direction of where the shipment was said to be taking place.

“Gin! I think we’re almost there—“ you stopped when you saw a tall man walking in your direction with a shorter person. The shorter person had a black coat draped over his shoulders, the man seemed to be waking directly to you now, a smile on his face.

“Be careful Gin.. s-stand behind me..” you got in front of Gin just in case, until you realized the shorter person was Ryūnosuke, his eyes were slightly puffy and tearful, he had been crying. your heart dropping at the sight. Immediately you throw yourself at Ryū pulling him away from the mysterious man

“Just who are you and what are you doing with my big brother?!” You frantically yell at the man, hiding Ryū and Gin behind you

The man glares at you with boredom in his face, as if this was all nothing to him, but then he started to smirk slightly “Brother? Oh, I knew Akutagawa had a sister but I didn’t know he had another sibling. What’s your name?” He said with a mischievous face, He reached out his hand to seemingly pat your head but you smacked it away immediately, surprising him a bit “you didn’t answer my question-“ you felt a hand on your shoulder and turned around “Y/n…cough it’s okay..you don’t have to worry..” Ryū weakly said to you. Your heart ached at the sight of his bloodied and bruised face, looking down you can see he has bloody scratches on his knees, arms and legs, his entire body was hurt.

“Hm? Oh, right! Sorry about that! Where are my manners?” He said rather loudly “My name is Dazai Osamu, I just got promoted to a Mafia Executive today, Which means, I now have the authority to do certain things. like taking anyone as my subordinate, and your brother here has accepted my offer.” Dazai said soft-spoken yet somehow overbearing with a kind smile that didn’t reach his eyes. You were confused by the man’s statement, many thoughts ran through your mind;

“Would Ryūnosuke really agree to join the mafia? Especially join through this guy? How would we be guaranteed safety? What if this is just a trap to exploit Ryū’s ability? What if he kills us?”

You were pulled out of your thoughts by a dangerous, slightly condescending soft voice “you don’t have to worry, if i wanted you dead, I would have done so the second I laid eyes on you.” He said to you, it’s as if he read your mind. He was staring into your eyes as you stared back, his eyes void of any emotion, much like your brother’s, except you found a deep cruelness to them, it terrified you.

“Well, it was just gonna be Akutagawa here and his sister, but I can make arrangements, just for you.” His eyes went back to a neutral state “I promise,” he puts his hand on his chest “that the three of you will be fed, clothed, housed and compensated accordingly, as long as you work under me, no one else in the mafia will dare harm you.” Dazai reached his hand out to you, a sweet smile on his face

“so Y/n, do we have a deal?”

~ ~ ~

To be continued.

Notes: it is 5am as I write this, can you believe I’ve been writing and tweaking this since April 7th??!? And this isn’t even that long. What ADHD does to a mf

Honestly I’m not sure if I should continue this, obviously if more people wanna read it than yeah since I have the story already in my head, just need the motivation. So comment and tell me that you want more!!!

Anyways hope y’all enjoyed. Stay hydrated!

[saiintofawe]

after reading the sun and the star my semi-dormant pjo obsession has risen and is infesting my brain side by side with bsd. so.

bsd percy jackson au: a series of self indulgent hcs

skk is the percabeth of the situation. iconic duo. unstoppable. EVERYBODY has heard about them. literal legends among the demigods baby

dazai is a child of athena, chuuya a child of ares

dazai's team beat chuuya's during capture the flag once and chuuya went aight bet. and kicked dazai's ass during the next capture the flag. his team still lost but at least he got an excuse to fight that annoying know-it-all bandaged and beautiful son of athena

the rest is history

the akutagawa sibilings are children of hades. goth mfs

now imagine them having the same storyline as the di angelo sibilings... now in this au you can see why akutagawa talks like he belongs to another age

gin would consider joining the hunters of artemis, but in the end they end up refusing to not leave their brother alone. plus, being immortal would mean seeing him and all of their loved ones die, and gin has had enough of her loved ones dying

if skk is percabeth, shinskk is solangelo

does atsushi fit the standards for a child of apollo? idk but i can't think of another godly parent for him so be it!

unlike will solace, healing is not atsushi's strongest task but he still spends a lot of time helping in the infirmary

and that's where he meets ryūnosuke

unlike solangelo the initial hostility is NOT one sided. ryū behaves like a bitch? atsushi gets bitchy right back.

cue to atsushi looking extremely pissed while bandaging ryū's arm and them muttering insults at each other

ryūnosuke swears he hates that fucking failed doctor and atsushi would almost believe him if it wasn't for the amount of times ryūnosuke has tried sacrificing himself to save him during their quests

also in this au rashomon is a hellhound like mrs. o'learly. she's a sweet doggo that devours space and souls

or she's one of ryū's cocoa puffs? (does this count as a tsats spoiler taken out of context?)

you know that one scene in tsats where nico kisses the back of will's neck and says "i'm proud of you"? now picture that as atsushi to ryūnosuke. yeah.

also atsushi has plague powers bc i say so

yosano is the real will here: overworked healers who feel extremely guilty for every patient that died under their watch to the point of considering themselves murderers

she runs that infirmary like it's the navy

she's also a hell of a fighter, both with bows and arrows and with her own fists

bff with ranpo, who's the oracle!

they gossip abt apollo (boyfail) and complain abt their respective fundamental but hella hard roles at chb

also besties w/ chuuya

also hear me out on kousano in this au... yosano falls helplessly in love with hunter of artemis!kouyou. kouyou tries to convince herself that she's not falling for that bossy and selfless and brave doctor because she has an oath to keep and she couldn't let love knock at her door again. so everytime the hunters come to chb kouyou keeps yosano company and it's all longing looks and painful yearning. yosano wishes she could convince the redhead to break the oath and stay.

but she won't. i <3 kousano angst

moving onto happier lesbians. gin loves wandering by themselves in the forest or by the lake. people know them as the demigod who just fucks off to take a stroll in the woods and disappear there for an indefinite amount of time

and that's how she meets an awkward, stubborn but lovely dryad: you guessed it, it's higuchi!

gin was having a bad day and kicked a tree because they were just so angry— anger turned to guilt when the tree fucking yelped

gin immediately apologized and higuchi asked them what was bothering them. gin never loved to talk, so they were very surprised by themselves when they started rambling about their problems to a dryad they just accidentally hurt

from that day gin began spending even more time in the forest

sometimes they bring higuchi to camp

it isn't unusual for dryads to wander around camp, but higuchi usually kept on her own before meeting gin

higuchi helps gin to open up about their emotions and lower their walls, gin helps higuchi to make friends and to value and love herself

chuuya's fatal flaw is loyalty, dazai's is pride, ryūnosuke's is holding grudges, atushi's is holding too tight onto the past, gin's is also loyalty, yosano's is guilt

tachihara is a child of hermes. parallels between two regretful traitors el oh el

except that luke fucking sucks while tachihara has my heart

OKAY NOW OPEN YOUR EARS. STORMBRINGER ENJOYERS RISE. RIMLAINE AS SILENA AND CLARISSE..... CAN YOU SEE WHAT IS SEE........

lucy is deffff a child of aphrodite but she's so lovely she doesn't even need to use charmspeak to get what she wants. whatever you say beloved princess

idk why but i can picture her throwing an hairbrush at an ancient titant like rachel... her and rachel are acc pretty similiar imo but i will not elaborate

poe is an athena kid! the biggest loser in cabin 6!

lucy and yosano tease him on his crush on ranpo

ranpo is there like damn. is this guy gonna confess or do i have to tell him we are going to date via prophecy

poe is a surprisingly good archer, the apollo kids are almost jealous

nikolai is an hecate kid. a little trickster. a silly magician. he will steal your nose but like in the literal sense and he might not give it back

his best friend is sigma from the aphrodite cabin. sigma cannot fucking stand him

nikolai is actually the reason why sigma has split colored hair. it used to be fully white but one day nikolai went heyyy girlie look at this new hair trick my sibiling taught me :] and sigma ended up actually loving the look? so they kept it

the dryads love sigma and he spends a lot of time with them. they braid flowers in each other's hair and chill

nikolai on the other hand somehow befriended the arpies

fyodor is a child of nemesis. edgelord

jouno is a child of hermes, the eldest in the cabin

half of the camp wants him, the other half wants him gone

teruko is a child of hebe, the goddess of youth!!!!

she's ones of the oldest campers along with jouno, but she prefers to keep her child form for unknown reasons

also i can see her joining the hunters tbh

that's it for now folks i hope someone appreciates my brainrot xoxo

[destinationsorrows]

Masterlist+Request info+About me

Masterlist;

I don't have anything written just yet

Request Information;

When requesting, request a scenario or something of the sort. I am severely uncreative (lie)

No NSFW: 🌑

NSFW allowed: 🌕

Same Gender only: 🌈

Platonic Only: 🫧

Fandoms/Characters I write for,

Omori:

Omori, 🫧

Sunny, 🌑

Aubrey, 🌑

Kel, 🌑

Hero, 🌑

Mari, 🌑

Sweetheart, 🌕

Space boyfriend, 🌕

Omoriboy, 🌕

Toilet Bound Hanako-Kun:

Amane Yugi/Hanako, 🌑

Tsukasa Yugi, 🌑

Nene Yashiro, 🌑

Kou Minamoto, 🌑

Teru Minamoto, 🌕

Aoi Akane, 🌑

Akane Aoi, 🌑

Sakura Nanamine, 🌕

Natsuhiko Hyūga, 🌑

Mitsuba Sousuke, 🌑

Tsuchigomori, 🌕

Sally Face:

Sal Fisher, (🌕 Aged up only)

Ashley Campbell, (🌕 Aged up only)

Larry Johnson, (🌕 Aged up only)

Todd Morrison, 🌈(🌕 Aged up only)

Travis Phelps, 🌈 (🌕 Aged up only)

Ghost Eyes (Webtoon):

Tobias Schneien, 🌑

Mattias Schneien, 🌑

Rudolph Richardson, 🌑

Emilio Murkmere, 🌑

Carmelo DeMonte, 🌑🌈

Will write any other characters if requested, I love you Ghost Eyes fandom

Creepypasta/Marble hornets/Other:

Ben Drowned, 🌑🫧

Jeff the killer, 🌑

Jane the killer, 🌕

Ticci Toby, 🌕 (Hes 19)

Tim Wright/Masky, 🌕

Brian Thomas/Hoodie, 🌕

Eyeless Jack, 🌕

Slenderman, 🌕

Nina the Killer, 🌑

Bloody Painter, 🌕

And tons more, too many to put down just request and I'll write it

Bungo Stray Dogs:

Osamu Dazai, 🌕

Chūya Nakahara, 🌕

Atsushi Nakajima, 🌕

Akiko Yosano, 🌕

Doppo Kunikida, 🌕

Jun'ichirō Tanazaki, 🌕

Kenji Miyazawa, 🌑

Kyōka Izumi, 🌑

Ranpo Edogawa,🌕

Naomi Tanazaki,🌑

Ryūnosuke Akutagawa,🌑

Ichyō Higuchi, 🌕

Gin Akutagawa, 🌑

Kyūsaku Yumeno, 🌑🫧

Motojirō Kajii, 🌕

Sakunosuke Oda, 🌕

Ango Sakaguchi, 🌕

Edgar Allan Poe, 🌕

Lucy Montgomery, 🌕

Fyodor Dostoevsky, 🌕

Bram Stoker, 🌕

Nikolai Gogol, 🌕

Sigma, 🌕?

Saigiku Jūno, 🌕

Tetchō Suehiro, 🌕

Scott Pilgrim (Movie, Comics, and Show):

Wallace Wells, 🌕🌈

Scott Pilgrim, 🌕

Ramona Flowers,🌕

Knives Chau,🌑

Envy Adams,🌕

Kim Pines,🌕

Matthew Patel,🌕

Gideon Graves,🌕

Young Neil!!,🌕

Stephan Stills,🌕

Soul Eater:

Black☆Star, 🌑

Maka Albarn,🌑

Franken Stein ,🌕

Death The Kid,🌑

Crona Gorgon,🌑

Soul Eater Evans,🌑

Tsubaki Nakatsukasa,🌑

What I will write,

Angst, Fluff, NSFW (Includes Gøre), Yandere, Comfort, AUs, anything that isnt in Wont Write.

What I won't write,

Inc3st, p3døphilia, basically anything weird and gross, anything sexual for characters under 18 (If i have to age them up then dont request it unless its Sfw)

About Me!!

Hi my name is Mercy! My birthday is April 1st and I'm currently 15 years old.

I enjoy alot of different fandoms and I really love art and music. If you want to be friends just ask, dms are open to anyone and everyone!!! And don't be shy to request anything, i don't bite! :3

Art Instagram is Mewre44, if you want me to draw anything just dm it's free since my art kinda sucks currently.

Thats it!! Feel free to dm or request!!!! Bye!

[awoogayanderes]

LAST WORDS OF THE WEAK

➪ pairing : ryūnosuke akutagawa x reader

➪ sypnosis : you beg him not to risk his life, but he already has his mind set

➪ other notes : have some angst after the new traumatic episode, probably gonna post more aku later :3

“please don’t do this,” you begged akutagawa, hanging onto him as if it were the last time you’d see him. “you know why i have to do this,” he said, trying to pry you off. “you’re willing to sacrifice your life to prove yourself to a selfish man,” you cried out, not letting go. “don’t you dare call him that,” akutagawa angrily said, dazai was much more than that.

the mafia taught you to always be prepared for death and sacrifice. you never took that seriously until this specific moment. “what if you come across kamui, huh ?! what if you come across one of those hunting dogs, you won’t be able to escape,” you raised your voice, an effort to make your lover stay with you. he knew you were right, you always were.

he froze in your arms, he could feel your tears in the back of his button up shirt. there was no point of wearing his coat when he could be himself with you. he knew the ratios of him dying were high, but if it meant making dazai accept him, he’d be willing to take his chances. “i don’t have much time left, you and i both know that, i need to take advantage of it,”

his lung problem would limit him to a few more years max, a fear you always held. but was it so selfish to hang onto someone you love just for a little longer rather than have them risk their life ? “you’re going to die, and the only remaining thing i’ll have of you will be a tombstone,” you said burying your face into his back as your arms tightened around him.

akutagawa always knew you were weak mentally, having human emotions in the mafia is dangerous yet here you were. though he can’t blame you, especially when he’s the same as you. harboring a love for you that he could never feel for anyone else but you. too bad that the next time you see him, he’ll have a venomous look with sharp fangs.

[kyouka-supremacy]

That fic from Akutagawa's pov that remarked how although Dazai had left a bomb under Chuuya's car, at least that showed he had thought about him before going, while he never cared enough to spare a thought for Akutagawa.

[nightsadness]

Hi! I thought I'd take applications. Call me "Undertaker" (pronouns she/her) I'm 19 years old and I'm not a native English speaker, but I'm slowly learning , so far my level is A2.

I write: angst, fluff, yandere, headcanons, reactions, romance

I might write: smut, NSFW.

I don't write: yaoi, yuri, pedophilia, plots based on real murders, racism, excessive violence, coprophilia, incest.

Mortal Kombat

Bungo stray dogs

That's not my Neighbor

Mortal Kombat:

Sub-Zero (Noob Saibot/Kuai Liang/Bi-Han), Scorpion (Hanzo Hasashi), Erron Black, Kabal, Raiden, Johnny Cage, Liu Kang, Reptile, Shang Tsung, Kung Lao, Smoke, Night wolf, Rain, Fujin

Bungo Stray Dogs

Dazai Osamu, Fyodor Dostoevsky, Ranpo Edogawa, Mori Ogai, Kenji Miyazava, Rando (Arthur Rimbaud), Saigiku Jōno, Edgar Allan Poe, Ryūnosuke Akutagawa, Sigma

That's not my neighbor:

Francis Mosses, Steven Rudboys, Angus Ciprianni, Izaack Gauss.

I also write for absolutely any female characters x fem!readers (any relationship BUT NOT YURI!!!!).

[akutasoda]

I saw your requests are open so here I am! The fandom is BSD and the characters are Fyodor, Akutagawa, Yosano and Jouno (if thats not too many). Reader and them are not offically in a relationship! Reader nonchalantly brings up that their being stalked, not quite realizing the weight of their situation. What are the characters going to do about it?

never alone

synopsis - how would they react when you casually mentioned you might be being stalked

includes - yosano, akutagawa, fyodor, jouno

warnings - gn!reader, reader gets stalked, slight angst, fluff, wc - 1.3k

nowadays you always felt like something was wrong. your nomral everyday routine had an addition to it which made you uncomfortable and made you feel vulnerable. it always felt like a pair of eyes were trained onto your figure at every waking minute of the day.

the figure that you regularly saw was definitely new. it was only a handful of times but there was no way that all the times were pure coincidence? right? and why would the figure stop or turn away when you turned to check they were still following you?

after a very short while it started making you really uncomfortable. it felt like you were being constantly watched and you could no longer focus on anything else as it worried you. but truth be told you didn't know what to do. you felt like you should tell someone but you didn't want them to think you were just being paranoid and you didn't think it was that serious, so you shrugged it to the back of your mind and let it slowly eat away atyour conscience.

eventually you let it spill and you told your most trusted friend about your worries. it was an accident to start with, like you were telling a joke, so you came of very nonchalantly but they didn't take it so lightly.

akiko yosano ★↷

what had started as one of your many friendly catch-ups with yosano had now turned into a very troubling conversation. you and yosano would practically meet everyday if you didn't see eachother throughout and because you both were extremely close you two would often spill secrets or gossip.

when you casually mentioned that you thought you might be being stalked her face dropped immediately. you felt the air tense from the normally friendly atmosphere and you really only registered what you said when she asked you to repeat yourself. that's sort of when you let it all out as you finally felt you had someone to talk to about it.

her face only became visibly more concerned but she would patiently wait for you to finish telling her about every little detail. once you had finished, you felt like a weight had been lifted but immediately replaced as you then realised the situation fully.

yosano noted your current concerns and immediately offered help, help you knew she wouldn't let you refuse. she worked in a detective agency afterall, sure they dealt with more aggressive cases but stalking wouldn't be turned down especially if it was you who was suffering.

she offered to walk you home herself afterwards and that would be the first time in ages you didn't feel those eyes on you. it would also be the last as from the next day you noted that you never felt them again.

ryūnosuke akutagawa ★↷

you often would talk to akutagawa during or after a mission. he wasn't exactly talkative but you never minded and still found his company rather comforting - some may call you crazy for thinking that. and lately being in his presence made you much more comfortable as it no longer felt like you were being watched.

akutagawa may struggle with many things to do with friendships and such but he wasn't entirely dumb to not notice your recent constant discomfort. he could recognise that something was troubling you, especially when he caught your eyes frantically looking around if you were alone, and so he asked what was wrong - you were being rather distant on the current mission.

you nonchalantly mentioned about your growing discomfort and worry about someone following you constantly, you couldn't tell but his face dropped with a certain seriousness. you didn't realise and so you went to act as everything was normally but he stopped you and asked you to repeat yourself. the seriousness is his voice was something you've never heard.

he eventually got you to explain everything to him and while he didn't show anything on his face, you knew he was mad and that's when the weight of the situation dropped on you. from that day forward akutagawa made it a point to walk you anywhere. you're going home? he'll accompany you, you're heading to the shops? he needs to pick some stuff up anyway.

sometimes it felt overbearing but you knew why he was doing it and eventually after a couple of days he stopped. you really didn't have to ask about why you didn't feel watched anymore, you knew the fate akutagawa had given someone.

fyodor dostoevsky ★↷

fyodor had once told you that you were one of few he would properly engage in conversation with. most of the time that meant you telling him about your day while he chimed in with the occasional hum or question while he worked at his desk - he did barely do physical missions.

you had been busy telling him about something that you'd done that day ehile you were out and so your brain immediately went to talk about how uncomfortable you had been feeling when going anywhere. you hadn't noticed at first but fyodor stopped typing when he asked you to elaborate. what you did notice was him turning to look at you fully when you elaborated.

you let out an awkward laugh and asked if something was wrong and he immediately started asking questions. you didn't quite understand but the seriousness soon became emphasised when he offered that you stay with him that night and you really didn't want to say no after seeing how angry he seemed to be.

you would come to wake up the next morning to a nornal fyodor. he'd greet you and he seemed back to his normal self and if you asked about last night he'd justt deny anything. you would note how for the first time in ages you didn't feel like you were being constantly watched.

saigiku jouno ★↷

if time was available, you would often head round to jouno's residence to see him. it was atleast once a week so it served as a catch-up between the two of you, most of the time he was extremely busy and saw your company as a reminder to finally take a break.

you two would often spend ages talking about whatever thing that had occurred that week and it was a real safespace for you. so it was only natural that you casually mentioned how you always felt watched. you had been fiddling with your cup so you hadn't noticed jouno's face sour.

you only noticed when he asked you to elaborate and you did without second thought. jouno didn't like the fact that you had mentioned it so casually. he was a hunting dog, a morally gray one perhaps but still, he protects people and so he would be failing his duties of he couldn't protect you. it shocked you with how fast jouno was to offer you to stay round his residence that night.

you didn't say no as he seemed very dead set on you staying. when you woke and got ready to leave, he accompanied you back to your residence despite your questions about if he had work to get to. the next time you were to see jouno he seemed rather smug but you immediately told him about how you didn't feel followed anymore he only smiled more and told you that he was glad you felt safe again.

[simping-overload]

♡ ʙʟᴏɢ ʀᴜʟᴇꜱ + ʀᴇQᴜᴇꜱᴛ ɪɴꜰᴏ ♤

request are: CLOSED

commissions are: CLOSED

characters that i write for

shows/movies

fate series: cu, gilgamesh, diarmuid, archer(shirou emiya), etc

bungo no stray dogs: yukichi fukuzawa, atsushi nakajima, doppo kunikida, isamu dazai, ranpo edogawa, chūya nakahara, ryūnosuke akutagawa, fyodor dostoevsky, etc

dungeon meshi: laios, chilchuck, marcelle, senshi, kabaru,

bnha: shouta aizawa, keigo takami, mirio togata, mirai sasaki, snipe, taishiro toyomitsu, tamaki amajiki, rumi usagiyama, etc

jujutsu kaisen:

trigun stampede: vash the stampede, nicholas d. wolfwood, knives millions

lego monkie kid: mk, macaque, sun wukong, red son, mayor, tang, huntsmen, syntax

blood of zeus: heron, ares, apollo, hermes,

spiderverse: miguel o'hara, peter b. parker, the spot/jonathan ohnn, spider noir

hazbin hotel: valentino, vox, husk, alastor

helluva boss: blitzø, stoles, asmodeus, frizz, stricker,

transformers bayverse, knightverse, prime, animated, beast wars, wfc show,

bots: optimus prime, ratchet, bulkhead, bumblebee, wheeljack, blurr,

megatron, starscream, knockout, breakdown, dreadwing, skyquake, predaking, soundwave, shockwave,

transformers animated: optimus prime, ratchet, bulkhead, bumblebee, blurr, blitzwing, megatron, shockwave, starscream

transformers bayverse: optimus prime, bumblebee, ironhide, cross hair, drift, megatron, shockwave, soundwave,

transformers earthspark: optimus prime, bumblebee, wheeljack, grimlock, megatron, breakdown, starscream, swindle, hardtop, skywarp, nova storm, soundwave, shockwave, trrantulas, skullcruncher

games

modern warfare: john price, john "soap" mactavish, simon "ghost" riley, kyle "gaz" garrick, phillip graves, nikolai

destiny 2: cayde-6, banshee-44, osiris & saint-14, drifter, missraks, spider, varkis, shaxx, saladin, zavala

genshin impact: diluc, kaeya, kazuha, al haitham, kaveh, cyno, tighnari, zhongli, xiao, albedo, ayato, childe, itto, thoma, gorou, capitano, perrio, dottore

honkai: star rail: sampo, gepard, welt, dan heng, jing yuan, blade, kafka, himeko, natasha

undertale: grillby, gaster, sans, papyrus, ink, error, nightmare

undertale aus: underfell, underswap, swapfell, horrortale, outertale, mobtale, mafiafell

obey me: lucifer, satan, beelzebub, mammon, diavolo, barbatos, siemon

DNI if:

you're racist, homophoic, xenophobic, transphobic, misogynistic, misandrist, islamophobic, anti-semtic, are a pedophile/map/support pedophila/loli con enjoyers, pro-shippers. | under 13 yrs old | female or fem readers

i will write:

headcanons & fics

gn & male reader

fluff, angst, nsfw

tropes and aus

character × character

character x reader

non human reader and characters

omegaverse

polyamory

yan & darker stuff on @luvccm

i will not write

incest/pedophila

cheating

female reader

self harn/suicide

scat

[waterkittywriting]

🎀 Introduction 🎀

Hello!! My name is Lilian, I'm eighteen, and I've very recently gotten into writing. (Still learning, be patient with me!) I thought Tumblr would be a nice place to practice, especially with my favorite shows.

All ages can interact with sfw work, under sixteen please DNI with NSFW writings, I'm comfortable w this age level as I recently turned 18 :)

Request Rules ↓↓↓

🎀 What I will write for 🎀

Bungo Stray Dogs

Danganronpa (V3, UDG, DR5)

The Promised Neverland

Kakegurui

Stranger Things

Toilet Bound Hanako-Kun

🎀 What I will write 🎀

Pretty much everything, I'm comfortable writing proships / darkships (abuser x victim, brother x sister, etc), I will write fluff, smut, angst, hurt/comfort, yandere, and basically every kink, including what most people won't write like ddlg, age play, piss kink, etc

🎀 What I won't write 🎀

Scat

Breeding kink

Feedirsm or food play (only because I'm terrible at writing it)

Parent x daughter / son(due to personal trauma)

Smut of characters under 18

🎀 My favorite characters / people I will write for most. 🎀

Ryūnosuke Akutagawa

Nakajima Atsushi

Chuuya Nakahara

Edogawa Ranpo

Rantaro Amami

Nene Yashiro

Tsukasa Yugi

Kou Minamoto

I will write for other characters these are just my favs!!

[c-h-e-r-r-i-e-s]

Dear reader

{Dear reader

If it feels like a trap, you’re already in one

Dear reader

Get out your map, pick somewhere and just run

Dear reader

Burn all the files, desert all your past lives

And if you don't recognize yourself

That means you did it right}

Chuuya paces his office. Back and forth across the plush rug. It’s been over a week since Dazai left the PM and he’s not worried. Dazai can take care of himself but at the same time… - no no. He’s fine. Anxiety takes hold in strange ways.

What do I do? He wonders.

Feet tripping to the suite where he sleeps most nights now. Into the bathroom, where he hangs his head low over the sink. The hot water steaming up around his face.

{Never take advice from someone who's falling apart}

Chuuya stands in the mirror picking at his skin softly. Splashing water on his face before massaging the foamy cleanser into his cheeks. Dragging his index finger into the crease between his cheek and nose. Massaging between his eyebrows.

Rinsing the foam from his face, his eyes meet the reflection again.

Depersonalization is a weird thing while you’re going through it.

Not recognizing yourself after growing so comfortable in your own skin.

Unsure of the hands touching your own face that feels numb.

{Never take advice from someone who's falling apart}

Chuuya picks up a towel and pats his face dry. Mouth hung agape as he stares into the plush white cloud in his hand.

The white towel reminding him of Dazai’s bandages and how the towels at his house were picked out by Dazai and how every single thing in Chuuyas life has been so heavily influenced by outside forces. Who even is he without others?

{Dear reader

Bend when you can, snap when you have to

Dear reader

You don't have to answer, just 'cause they asked you

Dear reader

The greatest of luxuries is your secrets

Dear reader

When you aim at the devil make sure you don't miss}

“I’m gonna kill that mother fucker” He says into the towel. A groan of frustration leaving his lips, followed by an attempt at a calming breath.

{Never take advice from someone who's falling apart

Never take advice from someone who's falling apart}

Shakily he moves to the liquor cabinet where he keeps his favorite wines.

{So I wander through these nights

I prefer hiding in plain sight

My fourth drink in my hand

These desperate prayers of a cursed man

Spilling out to you for free

But darling, darling, please

You wouldn't take my word for it

If you knew who was talking

If you knew where I was walking

To a house, not a home, all alone 'cause nobody's there}

Chuuya sits slumped in a leather club chair. A bourbon glass full of red wine resting in his fist. Head lolled back and eye lids heavy.

A knock raps at the door.

“Yeah?”

Akutagawa enters tentatively, just barely poking his head through. Clearing his throat before he half steps in the room.

“May I join you?”

Chuuya just looks over and nods, a pout on his face. “Want a drink?”

“You know I do not drink that vile filth.. however I will sit”

Akutagawa sits with his back straight in the chair next to Chuuya.

“Why are you here Ryūnosuke ” chuuya slurs out.

“Your despair” he states plainly.

“It’s that bad?” Chuuya makes no moves to look at him now.

“Mori is concerned” Akutagawa says folding his hands in his lap.

Chuuya cringes and swirls the wine in his cup.

The pair sit in silence for a short time. Neither wanting to confirm how much Dazai’s presence meant to them. Neither wanting to say how affected they are now that he is gone.

But Akutagawa folds, “I miss him” lingers in the heavy tension of the air far too long.

“I know” Chuuya says softly. “Me too”

{Where I pace in my pen and

My friends found friends who care

No one sees when you lose

When you're playing solitaire

You should find another guiding light

But I shine so bright}

Just some Chuuya angst based on a Taylor swift song. This has been plaguing my brain for weeks.

@imafraidoftomorrow