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전역 축하해 아빠 🫶 @/jin

Congratulations on being discharged, dad 🫶 @/jin

(T/N: A possible reason that RM calls Jin 'dad' is that in the military, you are considered an '아들군번/military son' to someone who enlisted one year before you. RM enlisted almost exactly one year after Jin, making him the 'son', and Jin the 'dad'.)

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Summary: You're an author giving a talk for your newest published work, when you're asked a question about your recent engagement to Kim Namjoon. The question gives you an opportunity to relive the chance meeting and the sweet moments that made you fall for your fiancé. Genre: Fluff, Smut (softdom! and idol!Namjoon x reader) Rating/Warnings: Adults Only (Strong language, oral [male and female receiving], riding and missionary sex, unprotected sex, multiple orgasms) Word Count: ~5.6k words

“Our conversation is about to wrap, and I know that we have questions from the audience, but there is one more thing I’d like to mention.” The interviewer, Ji-ah, said with a bright, white smile. “Your recent engagement to Kim Namjoon. I just wanted to say congratulations.” 

“Thank you.” You blushed, not expecting your fiancé to come up in the interview. The audience clapped, with smiles, clearly happy to see you happy. 

“I just wanted to ask, what is that story?” Ji-ah asked. “How did the two of you get together?” 

“Well,” You laughed, thinking back to past moments, like flipping pages in your memory book. You look out into the audience, speaking to everyone there with sparkling eyes. “We met in this beautiful city, actually. It was during my first trip here, to Seoul.” 

You stood in your hotel room, slipping on a newly purchased pair of black patent leather heels, perfect for your planned night out. It was something you were looking forward to, after working all day, signing Korean-language copies of your most recent best seller. Ever since landing in Seoul, you had wanted to explore the city, particularly its art scene, as art has always been a love of yours, wherever you traveled. 

After you slipped on the heels, you did a quick check in the mirror, making sure your makeup, hair and dress were to your liking. You threw on a beige coat for the cold, winter winds outside, and made your way down the hall of the hotel, to meet your driver outside. 

Seoul was beautiful at night, especially when the snow was light and fluffy. Flakes collected on the glass of the backseat window, where you watched the buildings pass by. The streets were illuminated by the soft glow of street lights, and, despite the cold temperatures, people were bracing the weather, still out and about. You sent a quick text to your literary agent, to thank her for getting you into this exhibition opening, barely being able to press send before you had arrived. 

The gallery was small and intimate, with bright white walls and dark, black floors, giving it a modern yet still warm feel. When you entered, a polite employee took your coat for you, and offered you a glass of red wine. You accepted with a smile and a ‘thank you’ in your best Korean, before heading off into the crowd. 

If there were anyone there that you knew, you wouldn’t have noticed with the way your eyes latched to the work of Agnes Martin. Beautiful, minimalist works graced the white walls, etches of grids with a human touch. You stood in front of one, its color a deep blue, and allowed yourself to get lost in the work. 

A man, who had been walking the circumference of the room opposite of you, had met you in the middle, at this deep blue piece. He stood next to you, towering over you with his rather tall height and toned body. He raised his own glass of wine to his lips, and caught glimpses of you out of the corner of his eye, noticing you were doing the same. 

“This one is gorgeous, isn't it?” You finally spoke, being the first to break the ice. 

“Yeah.” He nodded, taking another short sip. “It’s so easy to just get lost in her work.” 

“Mhm.” You hummed in agreement. “Like you’re melting into it.” 

The man turned to face you directly, making the size difference even more pronounced. He had sparkling dark eyes, and thick black hair, styled well. He was more casually dressed than many of the people there, and like yourself, one of the younger attendees, though you felt he was a couple years older than you. 

“I’m Namjoon.” He introduced himself with a smile. It was infectious, you noted, as you mimicked with your own smile. Your eyes flashed to his deep dimples on his cheeks. 

“It’s nice to meet you. I’m Y/N.” 

“Y/N… Y/L/N?” Namjoon asked, his eyes widening. “You just published a book here, didn't you?” 

“I did.” You smiled warmly. “I wasn’t expecting anyone to know me here.” 

“Actually, I had read it only like, a day or two after it came out.” Namjoon explained. “Hidden Places, right? Yeah I um, to be honest, I don’t usually read essay collections but your book may have changed my mind.” 

“I’m glad you enjoyed it.” You said. “And also, you’re Kim Namjoon, right? The musician?” 

“Yeah.” He flashed his dimples. “It’s hard to be a stranger sometimes, right?” 

“Definitely.” You laughed. “But, it’s ok. I suppose you get used to it. So, you collect her work?” You asked, your head motioning towards the work. 

“Not yet.” Namjoon said. “That’s why I came tonight, seeing if anything stuck out to me.” 

“And?” You asked. “Did it?” 

“Maybe.” He said, looking back at you. You smiled under his gaze, and there was a moment of pause, as Namjoon’s eyes lingered on you for just a bit. “Do you, uh… Do you collect her work?” 

“Not really.” You shook your head. “But I’m a fan. Just haven’t sold that many books yet, you know?” 

“Right.” He nodded. 

“I read Olivia Laing’s essay about her, and I really became a fan of hers through that.” You mentioned, walking to the next piece together. 

“Yeah?” Namjoon said, his brows raised. “Why?” 

“Because it’s amazing to me how a woman with such a complicated and chaotic life, could create work that’s so… still.” You said, as though talking to yourself. “It’s peaceful. Y’know, sometimes, we say that we try to see ourselves in art, but I don’t think that’s true. I think we try to see our ideal version of ourselves in art. So if we live messy, chaotic lives, we’re drawn to something like this. Peaceful. Simple. Because that’s what we’d like our lives to be.” 

Namjoon listened intensely, his focus on your lips, as if he were reading the words you were speaking directly. 

“Is that what you’d like your life to be?” He asked, with another sip of his wine. 

“Maybe.” You shrugged, before realizing how long you’ve talked. “I’m babbling, sorry.” You blushed.

“No, it’s great.” He confessed. “I think you’re right. Maybe that’s why I like her work, too.. I think I’d like my life to be more simple.” 

“Same.” You laughed together, and sipped your wine. 

You continued chatting throughout the night, content to meet a friend in a new city. Namjoon carried himself with a warmth to him that was so genuine, and it radiated throughout the whole room. Many people came up to speak to him, and you couldn’t tell if he knew each one or not, because he spoke to each person as though they had been friends for years. It was nice, you thought, to meet someone so personable in a world that seems so isolated. 

The night was coming to a close, and tipsy patrons were making their way out of the gallery. Namjoon walked out with you, both of you with your hands in your coat pockets. You could see your breath in the cold air, and your driver parked parallel on the street. 

“It was lovely meeting you. Thanks for keeping me company tonight.” You smiled. 

“Any time.” He responded. “Hey, um… How long are you in the city for?” 

“About a week or so,” You said. “I’m here for work, but my nights are free. Next weekend, I’m leaving for some events in Busan.” 

“While you’re here, I was thinking I could show you around.” Namjoon said. “If you’d like to.” 

“Yeah, for sure.” You nodded. “That would be great.” 

You exchanged numbers, and Namjoon gave a promise to call you. He stood on the sidewalk, and watched you run through the falling snow to the black SUV that was waiting for you. When you closed the door, you could see that he was still there, smiling at you and waving you goodbye. 

“Wow.” Ji-ah smiled. “What a chance meeting, right?” 

“It was.” You said gently. “To be honest, I assumed we’d both be too busy and forget to call each other, or I just thought, ‘Hey, I have a new friend in a new city. Sure, he’s cute, but whatever. It’s fine.’” You laughed, and the audience laughed too. 

“But, he obviously did call.” Ji-ah said with a grin. 

“He did.” You nodded. “Just like he said he would, the very next day. And me, being as oblivious as I am, didn’t realize we weren’t just making plans to ‘hang out.’ I never even considered he had more in mind.” 

“You didn’t realize it could’ve been a date?” Ji-ah laughed, alongside you and the audience. 

“No!” You giggled. “I seriously thought he was just my new friend.” 

“So… What happened?” Ji-ah asked. 

Namjoon glanced at the time on his phone, knowing he was early. The reservations weren’t for another fifteen minutes, and as he watched his own breath escape his lips, he cursed his own excitement for bringing him here this early. But, he wanted to make sure you weren’t waiting for him so, here he was, alone and cold in front of the restaurant. 

He watched as people went about their evening, trying to take his mind off the chills he had. Kids across the street laughed as they played in front of the convenience store, where two men in suits ate instant ramen from cheap to-go bowls, seated in front of the window. Namjoon noted their loose ties, and wondered if they worked together, getting food to decompress after a hard day, or if they just found each other in the same place, at the same time. 

“Hey!” You yelled with a wave, snapping Namjoon out of his daze. You were on the other side of the street, waiting for the traffic light to change. He smiled and waved back, and watched how your hair bounced with every fast step you took across the crosswalk. 

“Hey.” He greeted. “How was your day?” 

“Busy.” You smiled. “Yours?” 

“The same.” He said. “I think it’s almost time for our table to be ready. Let’s get you in from the cold.” 

Namjoon opened the door for you, motioning you in with a playfully exaggerated wave of his arm. You giggled at his antics, and entered the warm, dimly lit restaurant. The building was beautiful, clearly upscale, and not a casual “hang out” spot, like you had assumed. 

“Table for Kim Namjoon.” The host smiled politely, gathering a set of menus in his hands. “Right this way, please.” 

Namjoon followed behind you as the two of you made your way to your table; an intimate, private table near the back of the restaurant. Namjoon politely helped you into your seat, before sitting down across from you. You thanked the host, and then began looking over the pages of the menu. Namjoon, however, was looking at you; the woman who had occupied his mind for the last twenty-four hours. 

“I thought about what you said,” Namjoon finally spoke, causing you to glance at him. “About our lives, and if they’re messy and chaotic, we seek out the opposite.” 

“Yeah? You remember my babbling?” You chuckled. 

“I agree with your babbling.” Namjoon corrected with a dimpled smile. “I think, with my own life, I search for peaceful things to try to balance out the chaos.” 

“And are you successful?” You ask. 

Namjoon just smiled warmly, staring at you, wondering how it’s possible for a woman to be that beautiful. “I’m trying.”  He finally answered. 

Throughout the dinner, you were lost in conversation with Namjoon, and Namjoon was struck by just how easy it felt to be with you. The two of you laughed, enjoyed wine and food, and Namjoon knew with his best instincts that you were someone special. Intelligent, personable, beautiful. The ingredients of the girl of his dreams. He knew you were barely an acquaintance, and he cursed himself for always jumping the gun when it came to love. But he also knew how he felt with you, and he couldn’t ignore it. He wanted to get closer. 

“…So, yeah, I have to go to Busan soon.” You said. “I’m sure it’s lovely there, but I have to admit, I just love Seoul so much.” 

“You could come back.” Namjoon suggested, trying to play it off as a nonchalant thought. “When you’re done with work, just come back and spend some more time here.” 

“Maybe.” You smiled at the thought. “I’ll think about it.” 

“And did you think about it?” Ji-ah questioned, leaning in to hear your answer. 

“I did.” You nodded with a laugh. “But, Namjoon isn’t known for his patience, and came to visit me in Busan instead.” 

“Are you serious?” Ji-ah laughed alongside you. “He went all the way there just to see you again?” 

“He really did. I thought he was out of his mind.” You joked, making the crowd laugh too. “But, in all honesty, it was maybe the most romantic gesture I’ve ever had, and it sealed the deal for a first real date.” 

“Excuse me, Ms. Y/L/N, could you sign my book please? I’m a big fan.” 

“Of course!” You said, not looking up at the man in front of the book signing table as you took his paperback copy. “Who can I make it out to?” 

“Did you really forget me that quickly?” 

You furrowed your brows and looked up, to see Namjoon standing at your table with a goofy, shy grin on his face, and a bouquet of flowers in his hand. Your own smile grew and your eyes widened in surprise as you took him in. 

“Oh my God, seriously? What are you doing here?” You laughed. 

“I wanted you to sign my book.” Namjoon playfully answered. “I…um, I wanted to surprise you, too.” 

“You really made a trip down here, and stood in line to surprise me? It definitely worked, I’m surprised.” You giggled. “And… you have flowers?” 

“For you.” He said, his nerves showing. “For um… It’s to congratulate you, on your book and everything.” 

“Thank you.” You said softly, standing up to take the flowers. “I don’t know what to say, that’s so sweet of you.”  

“We can chat in a minute?” He suggested. “I think I’ve taken up my time in line, some women behind me are getting upset.” 

“Ok.” You giggled. “Let me sign your book though, you came all this way.” 

Namjoon watched with complete adoration in his brown eyes as you scribbled a note onto the page of the book. 

“I’ll meet you in a little bit, ok?” 

“Ok.” He nodded, and walked to the side of the bookstore to look at your note. 

“To Joonie, the sweetest man I know. Love, Y/N.”  

Namjoon grinned ear to ear like a schoolboy with a crush. He was nervous to come to Busan, worried that it was too much, and that you wouldn’t like the gesture. But with the validation little note and a soft laugh, he knew he did the right thing. He watched as you signed the books of the rest of the people in line, and listened to each of them compliment your work. You handled yourself so gracefully, he let his mind drift into places it rarely goes with anyone. Could he let you into his world? The public, the paparazzi… Could you handle it? He can only protect you from so much, with so many things out of his control. It was a long way to that point, but he thought just maybe, you would be the right one for him.  

When you were finished, you went over to him with a wave, just as you had the night of your dinner together. 

“What did you want to chat about?” You asked with a sweet tone. 

“I know this might be a lot but,” He paused, looking into your eyes as you looked up at him. “I’d really like to take you out. If you want to.” 

Your smile slowly creeped on your face, and blush painted the apples of your cheeks. 

“Yeah.” You nodded. “I’d like that.” 

“So yeah, I went out with him.” You smiled, recalling the story. “That first date turned into the two of us going out every night that I was in Busan. We would just meet at places in the city, and spend as much time together as we could.” 

“That’s so cute.” Ji-ah cooed. “I still can’t get over that he went all that way just to see you.” 

“Me either.” You laughed. “But I’m thankful every day that he did.”

“So then, how did the two of you finally become a couple?” Ji-ah asked. “You’re running around Busan together, having fun, getting to know each other… and then what?” 

“Well…” You said, blushing brightly at the memories of that night. 

“I think you’ll love this wine.” Namjoon smiled, walking over to you with a bottle in hand while you sat on the sofa. His hotel suite was more like an apartment, with a spacious living room. He asked you to stay over for the night, after you extended your business trip into a personal vacation, just to stay with Namjoon. You knew it would sound crazy to your friends back home, but being with him just felt right to you. It came so naturally. 

“Yeah?” You answered, watching him sit down next to you and pour a glass. “I really love white wines like this.” 

“I know.” He smiled. Namjoon knew so much about you now. Your favorite foods and drinks, the books you liked and the ones you didn’t. He knew details about your family, and the funny stories of your friends. He told you about himself, too, opening up in a way that usually never comes easy to him outside of his music. 

You snuggled into him with a throw blanket tossed across your legs. Namjoon rested his arm on the back of the couch, allowing you easier access to rest on his shoulder. He smiled when you did, and when you looked up at him, he gave you a soft, slow kiss on the lips. 

You had only kissed Namjoon a couple of times. Your first kiss was at the end of your first date, when he walked you back to your room, and asked permission before moving in a little closer. Ever since, he’s stolen kisses from you whenever he could. He was obsessed with your lips, and how he felt connecting them to his own. His heart raced, and every part of him was begging to get closer. 

“Joonie…” You hummed into the kiss. “I’m happy I’m here tonight.” 

“Me too.” He smiled, deepening the kiss. You gently placed your wine glass down on the coffee table in front of you, so that you could rest your hands on his strong chest, over the soft fabric of his sweatshirt. Namjoon reacted to the touch by placing his own hands on your waist, daring to hold you where your shirt raised up just enough where he could directly feel your skin. 

The kiss never broke. But you found yourself growing braver, moving in closer, wrapping your arms around his neck and letting him position you onto his lap to straddle him. You had never felt so close to him, and both of your bodies were pleading for more…more…more…

“Y/N,” He murmured in the kiss. “I hope you know, I’m not expecting anything tonight.” 

“I know.” You said, kissing him again. “But, do you want to?” 

“I do.” He whispered onto your lips. “But only if you’re ready for it. We don’t have to rush.” 

“But I want to.” You whispered back. “I want you. So, why wait?” 

Namjoon responded with a deep breath for his nerves, followed by a passionate kiss. Deeper and stronger than the ones you’ve felt him give you before. He lifted you off the couch, allowing your legs to wrap around his waist as your arms stayed draped around his shoulders. He carried you through the hotel room, into the bedroom, where he laid you down delicately.

He stared down at you, smiling up at him from the bed. Namjoon quickly tossed his sweatshirt off and onto the floor, revealing his toned body, before helping you out of your own shirt. He swooped down and began kissing down your neck and onto the top of your breasts, his large hands cupped them through your bra. “Can I see a little more of you, honey?” 

“Please.” You answered. Namjoon wasted no time unhooking the back of your bra as you raised yourself for him to do so, and pulled the straps from your arms to show your chest. Before you had time to react, Namjoon’s lips were back on your body, licking and kissing your soft breasts, excited to have them to himself. 

“Baby, you’re so fucking beautiful.” He whispered, in between taking a perky nipple in between his lips. “So… Fucking… Beautiful…” 

“Joonie.” You whimpered. His trail of wet kisses moved down your stomach, until he reached the cotton fabric of your lounge shorts. 

“Can I?” He asked, a finger impatiently on the waistband. You nodded and hummed a ‘mhm’ in consent, lifting your hips to help him reveal just your panties. 

“You’re already so wet for me, honey.” He teased, showing his dimples. Namjoon kissed up your thighs, building anticipation with each soft, wet, slow kiss to your skin. You whined, needing him at your core. He wrapped a strong arm around each thigh, keeping you held down for him. “A little wet mark on your pretty panties, and I’ve barely done anything.” 

“Please.” You whined, and Namjoon pushed the wet fabric to the side, locking eyes with you as he slowly began applying long licks to your opening, before adding pressure and quickening movements of his tongue. You threw your head back onto the bed and let out a gasp, responding to the expert flicks of his tongue by grabbing onto the dark locks of his hair. 

“Joonie… Joonie… Please, baby…” 

He slipped a finger into your opening, breeching you for the first time, as his tongue focused on your clit. Namjoon felt your legs shake, encouraging him to add another finger, listening to the pretty noises leaving your lips. His own length was hard and pressed against the fabric of his sweatpants, aching to be released, but he ignored his own needs. This was about you; the way you gripped the sheets, chanted his name, and tasted so, incredibly sweet. The way you squeezed your eyes shut so tightly when his fingers massaged the places you needed him most, and the way you held his head in place as he gave your sensitive bud loving rolls of his tongue. Namjoon could both feel and hear your orgasm; the heaviness of your breath, the tightening of your opening, the way you dripped on his tongue. 

“That’s my girl.” He praised, nibbling your still trembling legs. He slowly pulled out his long fingers, making you shudder. 

You watched as he stood up to remove his own pants, but before he was able to, you rolled on your tummy to be eye-level with his erection, looking up at his face innocently. Your hands were already at his waistband. 

“Honey, you don’t have to.” 

“But I told you, Joonie. I want you.” You responded, slowly helping him lower his pants, letting them fall to his ankles, followed by his underwear. He kicked them to the side, watching with anticipation as your lips were level with his length. 

You started slow, just content to tease him, and to really feel the size of him. He was large, and you knew he’d fill you well. You began to kiss his sensitive, leaking head, tasting the drops on your tongue. Your lips pressed to him, working a trail down the shaft, then back up again. Namjoon’s large hand was now on your head, not forcing, but gently encouraging you to touch him. His breath was heavy, deep inhales and exhales that were audible as he grew more aroused with how you seemingly worshipped his cock. You looked up at him as you took your time working him into your mouth, your tongue caressing his most sensitive areas. 

“Babygirl… Fuck…” Namjoon’s deep voice groaned, and his hand guiding your movements. A steady back and forth, with your fingers wrapped around his balls, giving him just enough pressure to be pleasurable. “Just like that, baby… Can you go a little further for me?… Good girl.” 

Namjoon had never felt so turned on by a woman before. The way you made eye contact with him, and enthusiastically worked to please him the way that he had you, made him feel so wanted and equally aroused. His eyes flickered back and forth from your lips, watching the way his cock disappeared and reappeared, wet and throbbing, to then looking at your curves. Naked on the bed, he could see the dip of your waist, your hips and soft skin of your bottom. Every inch of you, he wanted to kiss. As he let his thoughts drift, he could feel himself go closer to the edge. 

“Wait, hold on honey.” He stopped you.“You’re gonna make me cum, baby.” 

Namjoon leaned down and gave you a quick kiss before finally meeting you on the bed. He laid down, resting his head on the pillow, and letting you straddle him and touch your lips to his. You could feel his cock pushing up against your opening, and Namjoon sighed feeling your skin on his. 

Keeping your lips close to his, but not quite touching, creating a heavy tension, you gently slid his tip into you, causing both of you to let out a quiet noise at the feeling. You sank down on him, working yourself to his length, and Namjoon held your hips, allowing you to take control and be comfortable. You felt so full, every inch of him filling you perfectly. It was as though your body was made just for him to touch, taste and fuck. 

“Fuck, Y/N…” He breathed out. You raised yourself up, and began moving on his length, switching from bouncing to grinding. Namjoon kept one hand on your hip, and place another between your thighs to touch your clit. 

“Joonie… Oh my God, Joonie… Don’t fucking stop.” You whined loudly, throwing your head back. Your hands rested on his chest to keep yourself steady, but you were coming undone again. Your pace quickened as you unraveled, your hips snapping fast as his cock reached right where you needed him most. As sensitive as you were, you both knew it wouldn’t take long for you to hit another high. 

“Cum for me, angel.” Namjoon’s deep voice dripped with arousal. “I’ve got you, baby. Just let go.” 

Your eyes shut tightly and your lips parted in pleasure, and Namjoon throbbed as you came again. He watched as your breasts bounced with every movement, and took in the feeling of your soft skin on his. As soon as you came down, he gently wrapped you in his arms, and laid you down on the bed, knowing you were almost at your limit. 

“Wanna love you just like this.” He whispered, kissing your neck as he took his place on top, resting in between your legs. His tip brushing against your entrance. “Are you too sensitive, honey? Can you take a little more?” 

“I can take it.” You whispered back, smiling as he continued painting your neck with kisses. 

“That’s my pretty girl.” He praised, sliding himself into you gently, listening for noises of discomfort. But none came, and as he bottomed out into you, he groaned and tucked his face into your neck to mark your skin and whisper in your ear. “Your pussy’s so good, babygirl. So fucking beautiful… so tight and wet just for me, aren’t you?” 

Namjoon learned that night that your neck was particularly sensitive, and you loved being kissed there. As he thrusted into you, he littered your skin with nibbles, licks, kisses and love marks. Each deep, hard hit and mark on your skin was proof that he felt something for you. Was it love? Not quite…at least, not yet. But he was falling, and he was prepared to make love to you throughout the night if that’s what it took to make you understand. You were meant to be his, that much was sure. The way you held him, kissed him, touched him, spoke to him, pleasured him was everything he’s ever wanted in a partner and a lover. 

“So close, angel.” His voice said softly, giving you a gentle kiss. 

“Cum inside me.” You whispered against his lips, deepening the kiss. “Fill me up, Joonie. Don’t fucking stop, want you to cum deep-” 

“Oh… Oh…” He groaned, his length throbbing against your walls. “Y/N…. Y/N, baby…. OH, FUCK… I… Ah…” 

You held his body close to yours as he buried his face in your neck, coming down from his high. His tanned skin was sweaty, his heart pounding and his breath heavy, as was yours. Namjoon couldn’t remember the last time, or any time, he had made love that intensely to anyone. He couldn’t remember any time he had chanted a woman’s name, or felt so desired, or was held so lovingly. It was beyond sex; it was intimacy. 

Afterwards, laying next to you, he pulled you in and the two of you drifted off to sleep as he held you in his arms, as though protective over you. As if, if he were to let go, you’d slip away. So he kept you close, and kept you safe. 

The next morning, sunlight peeked through the drawn curtains of the bedroom, illuminating everything in warmth. Namjoon had woken up before you, choosing to hold you as you slept, playing gently with your hair and occasionally caressing your bare back as you rested on his chest. Namjoon realized he could easily wake up like this, nude under the  covers with you in his arms, forever. 

After a little while, your eyelids fluttered awake. Namjoon pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead, and snuggled you closer. 

“Hi.” He whispered delicately. “How do you feel?” 

“Amazing.” You replied in a hushed tone, still coming out of sleep. “Last night was… yeah.” 

“Yeah.” He smiled, his hand absentmindedly tracing your skin. “I’m really happy right now. With you.” 

“I’m happy with you too.” 

You looked up at him, still resting on his chest. Namjoon raised a hand to your face, running a thumb along the outline of your jaw, appreciating how lucky he felt in that moment. Your hair was tousled, you wore no clothes or makeup, and this was the most beautiful he had ever seen you; well rested and happy, after a night of love making. 

“Be with me.” He whispered, the words leaving his lips before he could catch them. 

“Be with you?” You repeated with sparkling eyes, making sure you heard his request correctly. 

“Yeah.” He confirmed. “I think we should be together. What do you think?” 

“Yeah.” You smiled. “I think so, too.” 

Namjoon smiled wide, showing his dimples that you’ve grown to adore so much. He sealed the deal with a soft kiss, hoping it was the first of many together. 

“…So, I spent some time at his hotel, and when we woke up the next morning, we just knew.” You explained, not giving too much information about what happened behind closed doors that night. 

“You just knew.” Ji-ah smiled, clearly giddy with the fairytale love story.

After the interview ended, and the audience had dispersed, the only person waiting for you was Namjoon. He stood in the empty auditorium by the stage where you had spoken just minutes ago, waiting to take you back home. 

“You ready?” You asked, making your way to him. 

“Yeah.” He replied. Namjoon’s eyes were sparkling and warm, filled to the brim with love for you. “Come here.” 

“What?” You smiled, before giggling as he picked you up and gently sat you down on the edge of the stage, where he could stand between your legs and look up at you. “Why’d you do that, Joonie?” You laughed. 

“I just wanted to look at you.” He said softly. You blushed under his adoring gaze. 

Namjoon had been in the audience tonight. It was your first event after the publishing of your most recent book, a essay collection on falling in love. It revealed your relationship to Namjoon to the world, after several years of dating in private. When he proposed to you one night in total surprise, during a private dinner party with all of your friends and his in attendance, that was when you both decided to go public; when you knew for sure that you both were in love for the long haul. 

Listening to you publicly describe the beginnings of your relationship, brought a flood of memories back to his mind. He wouldn’t change anything, and he was so thankful that somehow, he managed to have you for himself. He felt like he wanted to say a million things, but only one sentence seemed to come out. 

“I love you, Y/N.” 

“I love you too, Joonie.” You replied, meeting him halfway to kiss his lips. 

[cits-cookie-brainrot]

BIG BRAIN TIME!!

The WHOLE red dragon crew is now parents/family to lil baby Snapdragon. The little rascals was just born and is already collecting their found family like Pokémon cards.

Pitaya is their dragon parent.

Hollyberry is the cool mom.

Tarte Tatin is the cooler mom.

Royal Margarine is the funny uncle.

Wildberry is their big brother.

And Buttercream? Well…

[solitunedanddespair]

[violetharmonsblade]

Have no clue where to post this so here you go

[eruherdiriel]

“Are we really never gonna talk about it?” Arya snaps. “We’re all gonna pretend everything is normal and happy when Sansa just got divorced?” “Statistically, it is normal,” Bran says. “The divorce rate is something like—” “It’s not normal! Not for this family, and not for Sansa. True love, forever and always, that’s Sansa.”

Sansa and Jon get divorced, but fully untangling their lives is impossible.

Read You tend the ash, and I’ll tend the pine on AO3.

[aniesvision]

𝑩𝒓𝒖𝒊𝒔𝒆𝒔

𝚃𝚆!

⚠︎ 𝙳𝚒𝚜𝚌𝚕𝚊𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚛: 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚒𝚜 𝚋𝚊𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚘�� 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚢 𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏-𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝 𝚖𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚋𝚎 𝚊 𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚛. 𝙸𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚐𝚐𝚕𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚕 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚝𝚑 𝙸 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚝. 𝙱𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚏𝚎 ♥︎

𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜: 𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒔𝒕, 𝒔𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒍𝒚 𝒔𝒖𝒈𝒈𝒆𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒗𝒆, 𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇-𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒎, 𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒍 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒕𝒉 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒈𝒈𝒍𝒆𝒔, 𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒍𝒆𝒆𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒑𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒔, 𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒐𝒅, 𝒓𝒆𝒈𝒓𝒆𝒕, 𝒑𝒆𝒕 𝒏𝒂𝒎𝒆𝒔 (𝒃𝒂𝒃𝒚), 𝒇𝒍𝒖𝒇𝒇 𝒂𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒏𝒅.

𝚊/𝚗: 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒐𝒏𝒆'𝒔 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒂 𝒗𝒆𝒏𝒕, 𝑰'𝒎 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒔𝒂𝒅. 𝒂𝒍𝒔𝒐: 𝑰'𝒎 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒆 𝒏𝒐𝒘, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒉𝒐𝒑𝒆 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒐𝒏𝒆'𝒔 𝒐𝒌𝒂𝒚, 𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒂𝒍 𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔 𝒔𝒖𝒄𝒌𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆'𝒔 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅! 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒕 𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒎𝒂𝒕𝒕 𝒔𝒕𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒐𝒍𝒐 𝒆𝒙𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒔. 𝒆𝒏𝒈𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒊𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒎𝒚 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒖𝒂𝒈𝒆 ☕︎

𝚜𝚞𝚖𝚖𝚊𝚛𝚢: 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒃𝒐𝒚𝒇𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒎𝒂𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂 𝒃𝒂𝒅 𝒄𝒉𝒐𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒆 𝒈𝒐𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒐𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒂 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌-𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔 𝒈𝒆𝒕 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍

It was finally the weekend. You and your boyfriend haven't seen each other in almost three weeks now with how busy you were with work and college, and how busy he was with filming his 7 million video.

Matt was excited to see you, but although you love him with all your heart you weren't. It's not because of him, it's because of something you did and that now you regret, but you can't undo it.

You were finishing getting ready and preparing an overnight bag when he texted you asking if you were already on your way. It was obvious he was dying to see you again, and you knew he would be the sweetest person ever whenever it was time to tell him what you did, but you didn't want to worry him.

You drove to his house, slowly and carefully, and not even half an hour later you were under him, both of you without your shirts and your breasts on full display. He was so good at making you forget all your problems, to make you feel cared for and seen.

Unfortunately, those last weeks were difficult, to say the least. You always had your own struggles, and it was getting harder to do things when you couldn't stop overthinking every little step. You didn't know what you wanted to do with your life, your work gave you nothing but stress and barely enough to pay your bills, college was tiring and you couldn't focus, nothing made sense anymore.

The amount of anxiety building in your chest was growing by the day and one of them you snapped. Not even the pills you took to sleep were making you any sleepy, although your body and mind were equally tired, so without thinking too much you stood from your bed and sat on the corner of your bathroom.

It wasn't a pleasant scene, an eyebrow shave in your hand and your phone in the other, tears falling nonstop from your eyes and the sobs filling the room. Your pain was visible. As you tried to lean your phone on your bathroom counter, your best friend talked you through it. Your mind was blank and there was nothing but build up stress in your being.

"Grab a towel, damp it with water, clean it gently, talk to me, it's okay."

It was killing you inside, all the mess you made. Two towels, the tiles, the counter, your clothes, all painted in red. And you didn't feel a thing, probably because of the pills, but that meant you kept going without noticing how far you went, you only stopped when your pet scratched the bathroom door and you had to open it for him.

You immediately called your friend, telling her all about what happened, it was late at night and you couldn't stop hating yourself for letting it go too far again.

Matt's kisses reached your stomach and the memories from last night echoed in your mind, making you push him away and sit upright with glossy eyes.

-I'm sorry, I can't. -You whispered, turning your head to the side and covering your bare chest with your arms.

Your boyfriend looked incredibly confused, you never really pushed him away before, normally you'd pull him closer. He sat in front of you, reaching for your eyes.

-Why? What's wrong? -He asked, in a soft tone, brushing a strand of your hair behind your ear to show more of your face.

-Nothing. -Your voice barely came out, sounding like a painful whisper, and it made Matt even more concerned.

-Hey, hey, talk to me, what's going on? -He gently turns your body so you're facing him again, noticing the tears in your eyes.

You don't say anything, but when you wince and grab his wrist when he touches your thigh, it is enough for him to realize.

You did it a few times before, just once since you met him. He knew you were the type of person to let everything happen, anyone run over you with a smile on your face, and then you'd build all this pain and let it go in the unhealthiest way possible. He tried to help you release this stress in other things and ways, but even taking care of yourself and your mental health, sometimes it was too much and you couldn't help it.

His face immediately falts, his eyes dropping to your covered legs. You felt like the worst person ever. How could you do such a thing? How could you be so selfish? It was so clear that he was upset, that it also affected him and not only you. Just like it also affected your friend. Your tears continued to roll, hoping he'd let go and not question it, but he wouldn't do that, he loves you.

-Show me. -He whispers, capturing your eyes once more.

You shake your head no, scared to see his reaction, to upset him too much, to make him leave.

-Show me. -He repeats with a firmer voice, but that still carries a lot of emotions.

You slowly sigh, standing up and sliding your sweatpants down gently so as not to make any more bruises. The sight of his face broke your heart. His eyes tearing up, his head turning to the side and his lips folding. You never saw him so upset before. He sighs silently, scooting to the edge of the bed and gently placing his hands on the back of your legs.

-What happened? -He asks, caressing your skin carefully, looking between the bruises you made and your eyes.

-I'm sorry. -You said.

You repeated it like a mantra, covering your face and sobbing. You were so scared, so vulnerable, so sad, so disappointed with yourself.

He shakes his head, pulling you closer and kissing your stomach.

-No, don't apologize, it's not your fault, alright?

You hug him, using all your strength to keep him close like he'd leave any second.

-I love you, I love you so much, you're so beautiful, I'm right here with you, please don't be scared to reach out, I'm not going anywhere, you hear me? -His words were all the assurance you needed and the tone of his voice only added to your trust in him.

-I love you. -You whisper between breaths, your voice muffled by his hair, your crying taking over the room like a sad reminder of your choice.

-It's okay, baby, it's okay. You know what? I'll run you a bath to make sure it's all cleaned up and I'll order us food. Sounds good? -Matt looks up at you, and you look back with hope, nodding.

The cute smile on his face made your heart swell and before standing up he gently pressed his lips against your marks. He then kisses your lips and helps you get dressed again, pulling you with him to his bathroom, starting a warm shower, his arms wrapping you in an embrace and his lips prepping kisses all along your body. Just like that, all the stress was gone.

𝒕𝒂𝒈𝒔 ✍︎

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[tomorrowxtogether]

230502 rkive Instagram Story (BTS RM)

[looserslore]

My soul in my body is a punishment enough.

[rdashkoo]

precious <3

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240802 RM’s Instagram Story

필승

Salute

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[seokiescans]

[SCANS] BTS Original Soundtrack ’BTS World’ - Another Story Photobook

[gorentaya]

✞༒︎✞ (:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞☓✞(:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞༒︎✞ (:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞☓✞

Patient Zero is a developing indie comic, representing the journey to recovery and healing of illness and trauma. Meant to disturb the comforted and comfort the disturbed. The story is based off the creators own life experiences and struggles with mental and physical health. Using metaphors and symbolism to tell the tale of their life

⚠️Story contains adult and mature themes, content/trigger warnings are the following…⚠️

Existentialism. Sexual, physical, mental, and animal abuse. Sexual/physical assault. Violence. Gr00ming. Mental illnes. Chronic illness. Disabilities. Eating disorders. Self harm. Suicide. Sex. Nudity. Drug use. Alcoholism. Addiction. Death. Murder. Gore. Religion and religious trauma. Hospital trauma. School trauma. Bullying. Infertility

These themes will be handled with love and care. My intentions is to raise awareness as well comfort those who has gone through these things. Make them feel heard and understood. To give them hope that you are able to heal and recover from whatever pain they are going through.

You are not alone. You deserve to heal. You deserve to live. You are enough. And you are worthy of being happy.

Toyhouse link for more information https://toyhou.se/Gorentaya/characters/folder:4499676

✞༒︎✞ (:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞☓✞(:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞༒︎✞ (:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) ✞☓✞

~ Main Cast ~

Yamimiki Mimi - Protagonist

Gorentaya - Deuteragonist

Morrigan - Support Character

Bugs - Support Character

Angel - Antagonist

[obey-my-twisted-logic]

Soothing what Remains : after avoiding the Pomefiore Dormleader like the plague since you learned of him, you can avoid him no longer. Vil Schoenheit, the most beautiful man you'd met or seen in the entirety of your life, had you alone in a room in Ramshackle Dorm. Platonic!Vil Schoenheit x GN!Reader

Synopsis : He had you take him personally to his guest room during his stay while he leads the training camp for the SDC. As their manager, he needs a word with you. The Fairest of them All is very aware that you've been avoiding him.

Warnings : eating disorder mentioned briefly. There is self harm mentioned and discovery. A lot of hidden scars are revealed. Gentle platonic touching. Difficult confession and a softer side unknown to the reader. Mild cursing and self degradation. Comfort but not coddling. General spoilers of the game up to the beginning to the middle of Book 5 in the game Twisted Wonderland, but the focus is not on the game. Everyone involved is over 21 years of age. Anything in italics is from Vil's point of view.

Author's Note : Vil has a special place in my heart. While beauty and self confidence are extraordinarily important, he's not incessantly cruel or heartless. At least not in my head canons, and based on what I've read and understood from the game. Very personal piece to myself, as someone who has struggled desperately with self harm. Edit - this really got away and personal for me, I hope you enjoy it

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You escort Vil to his room. His confiscation of the treats from his troupe of dancers fresh in your mind. There was sympathy but despite it all, he hadn't been overly cruel about it and wasn't exactly wrong about why he did so. Still it was a shame you couldn't share the treats Trey had sent. Thankfully he wasn't forcing this new "lifestyle" on you or Grim. Your struggle with food was dark enough, and dealing with Grim would have been infinitely worse.

"So this will be your room specifically-" your explanation cut off by the harsh shutting of the room's door. "What was that about?" You asked, trying to hide you annoyance, despite it being evident in your look.

He did bow his head apologetically. "I closed the door a touch harder than intended, however I do require a bit of a ... chat with you." He said as he took a seat on the bed, poised and legs crossed elegantly. "Tell me little potato, why do you avoid me so much?" His gaze caught your own, seeming to just see straight through you.

"If I was avoiding you I wouldn't allow you to stay in my home." You replied, however it was evident that you were avoiding his gaze.

"I may be pretty Sweet Potato, but that doesn't make me dumb." He cut your excuses off with a click of his tongue, smoothing his forehead as the annoyance crossed his delicate features once again.

"Of course I didn't notice in the beginning. You a trouble making first year, and magicless to boot, and I the Housewarden of Pomefoire. We were not two people who would join face to face often, or really at all." He paused, eyes tracing over your form, an unexplainable look on his face, like he was lost in your form and how you became a part of his life.

"With each 'incident' " Vil resumed, referring to the Overblots. "You became more interesting. Even began to hear professors sincerely sing your praises. Despite your lack of magic, you excelled elsewhere."

"I can't be lazy or lax, headmaster made it quite clear he'll be happy to kick me out." You interrupt. How long had he had an interest in you? Why did it not just fade away? You'd done your best to not stand out otherwise. How did he realize your were actually avoiding him?

"Rook." Vil replied, answering the question you dare not speak out loud. "His interest was different from my own, but he has a habit of... hunting those who catch his eye. And he would cheerfully admit defeat as you used your comrades as a smoke screen to avoid his intrigue." Vil laughed lightly. "Very brave to try and out maneuver Rook. That little trick was your downfall. That's when I knew, yes, the Prefect of Ramshackle Dorm was indeed avoiding me, without a doubt."

"My only question is why?" The Fairest of them All firmly kept your gaze as he questioned your reasoning.

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You look so very uncomfortable with his gaze. Vil couldn't fathom why, he had never done a thing to hurt you, never approached you. You weren't on bad terms with anyone in his dorm. Why did you tremble like a leaf when he his eyes rested on you?

"Your very being terrifies me. You're beautiful, confident, and you take matters into your own hands." You begin, actually trembling. "You've never hurt me, you've never bullied me, but I've been burnt before and you were too beautiful to trust."

Vil absorbs this in and lets you talk. He's not mad, still confused, but you did have real fear, that much he could tell. His eyes widened when you took off your jacket, revealing a dark secret that most wouldn't notice. "Wait-" he began, reaching a hand out and retracting it when you flinched.

Before him you were exposing something deeply personal and dark. To most, it wouldn't stand out much. To a man with a morning, noon and night skin routine, he could see all the faded scars.

"I'm broken and tired, and that was long before I got here." You began, soft voice still trembling slightly, hands running up and down your arms gently, as if reminding yourself of each self inflicted mark, the history of each one and the ragged reminders that marred your pale skin.

"I knew you'd be able to tell right away. Someone as strict as you with appearances? There's no way you wouldn't be able to tell that these were self inflicted." You laughed bitterly. "And this is just what is visible to the polite eye. The thought of anyone but myself knowing terrified me." Fat tears slowly began to slip and your lip trembled as you continued. "The judgment from someone as put together and confident as you would send me back to that dark space, and I'm all ready desperately trying to survive as is." You smiled sadly.

"So yes, thankfully for me, I noticed Rook's strange interest," you laughed quietly. "Call it experience of being hunted back home. Only this time I had friends. I could blend in with my Heartlabyul boys and Grimm. Azul was easy to use as an excuse, working for the lounge, so I always had 3 or more pairs of eyes, especially when I told the Tweels how uncomfortable Rook made me." You paused with a soft smile. "Floyd especially did not take that well, offering to 'squeeze' him. Of course I declined, Rook wasn't cruel or mean, I was just scared."

"Then there was of course Leona. As lazy as he appears, he takes my comfort very seriously, making sure to be around me whenever I needed 'alone time', using it as an excuse to nap either with or near me. So when Rook did show up, he'd be distracted by the sleepy lion, and Ruggie would help me slip away." You were proud to have found such comforting and genuine friends.

"And despite it all, you're here. I couldn't refuse you or Rook. Everyone is so excited about the SDC, how could I ruin that for them when they've done so much for me?" You used both hands and rubbed always the tears trying to regain control of your own emotions.

"Please Vil, please just leave me alone and I'll do my very best for your comfort and for the SDC. Even beyond the SDC, I'll run myself ragged for you. Please I'm begging you, please just leave me alone." You begged, starting to pull the jacket back on.

"Fuck." Was all that escaped Vil's pursed lips as he pulled you into an embrace, gently rubbing circles on your back with his left palm. "No. I refuse. I won't let you keep carrying your burden alone. I won't STOP bothering you until you see how strong and beautiful you are." He felt your flinch, but what he felt more were your tears as you pressed your face against his chest gently sobbing.

"You won't be alone with your thoughts anymore. I cannot share or bare your burden, but I can ease the affect it has on you. I can be here, I can pamper you, I can listen," he listed off everything he could think of, wanting to assure your comfort. "Sweet Potato, you're more beautiful then you know." He gently ran his hand over a still exposed scar, near invisible with time, but he knew skin better than most. "Each one is a sad story, with a beautiful ending. You survived Sweet Potato. Each is a badge of survival, and you deserved to survive." He assure you as he brushed away tears that he could.

"But you'll never need to hurt yourself again. I will make sure of it." He finished, closing his eyes and resting his cheek on the top of your head, gently humming a gentle soft sound as you both stood there embracing, letting this new feeling and friendship sink in.

[jung-koook]

230711 - eaeon on threads

[yakuly]

Monarchy!

Príncipe Namjoon X Princesa Leitora

Palavras: 2.955

Avisos: Friends to enemies to talvez lovers (🫂); câncer ( um personagem tem adoença, mas não se tem descrições, nem de qual câncer é); nesse universo só se existe a monarquia (aterrorizante!); Geograficamente falando, mantive os países, mas com momes fantasia (mas aqui só cito um, na verdade); Mantive também os grupos raciais (é relevante pro futuro disso aqui, confiem pfr 🙏); álcool, menção à drogas; Namjoon é levemente humilhado, mas sobrevive!

N.a: É aquilo, né me deixei levar por Bridgerton e Polin, mas não é só, além do fato de originalmente ver só umo fic de uma parte, que claramente, não vai rolar... lembrei que tinha um cenário bem fofo que se encaixaria... pena que a história saiu completamente diferente. mas mesmo assim, até que gostei. Espero que gostem ❣️

Sinopse: S/n é uma princesa dedicada à seu trabalho e estudos, desde sempre ávida para assumir o trono, se esquecendo apenas do modo como a coroa lhe é passada... mas quando o destino bate à sua porta, a princesa se vê obrigada a enfrentar sombras do seu passado.

Parte 2 |

Ser uma princesa significa ter muitos deveres, fato inegável para qualquer um, principalmente para você. Se dedicar à monarquia, se dedicar aos seus súditos, se dedicar às relações reais com outras monarquias… nada que não tivesse sido preparada sua vida toda. Mas nem a reduza está imune às brincadeiras da vida.

A notícia que seu pai, rei em atividade, estava com câncer avançado foi um soco no estômago de todos na família. Muito se foi conversado entre vocês, e entre os médicos, ele tinha chances de sobrevivência mas mesmo com as quimioterapias elas ainda eram baixas, houve também a sugestão de buscar ajuda em outro país, mas de acordo com o Secretário de Segredos Reais, seria uma péssima ideia pois segundo suas palavras, seria "expor demais o rei, e não é o que a monarquia precisa agora”. Argumento que foi bem rebatido por suas palavras ferozes:

— O que a monarquia precisa agora é achar um jeito de manter seu rei, meu pai, vivo!

Mas infelizmente seu pai concordava com o tal Secretário, pedindo à sua mãe que pelo menos no início, que mantivessem segredo, ao passo que ela concordou. Não foi uma tarefa fácil, primeiro para garantir que o segredo não sairia do castelo contratos de sigilo foram redigidos e emitidos para todos os funcionários; encontrar um modo de levar e trazer médicos e os remédios; tentar explicar porque quem agora participa de reuniões, encontros, e compromissos reais agora era você (mesmo que acompanhada por toda a comitiva do rei), sem levantar suspeitas de que algo estava de fato acontecendo. Felizmente para o Sr. Secretário dos Segredos, você sempre foi excelente coma mídia, sendo a queridinha de todos.

Você estava preparada… melhor, está preparada para assumir o trono, e isso acalma o peito dos seus pais, mas seu pai ainda tinha um desejo.

— Casar? — sua indignação faz com que seu tom de voz aumente no quarto. — Por que? Já existe tanta monarquia que permite seus príncipes assumirem sem casar! — você tenta argumentar com o casal.

Seus pais, que já esperavam resistência da sua parte, tinha um sorrisinho no rosto. Seu pai, um homem caucasiano, de cabelos negros e agora muito pálido estava deitado em sua cama, coberto por cobertores pesados e roxos, e sua mãe, uma mulher asiática estava do seu lado, mas em cima dos cobertores, com um livro grosso apoiado no colo, e seus óculos em cima da capa dura.

— Não é para assumir o trono…— Sua mãe responde. Seu cérebro corre rapidamente para tentar encontrar outra justificativa, e quando encontra, surpresa os acusa:

— É porque sou mulher? — dessa vez os dois soltam risadas altas, e antes que você diga alguma outra teoria, seu pai pede que você se aproxime, e segura suas mãos, olhando em seus olhos.

— My sweetheart você sabe que eu não tenho muito tempo…e te ver casando sempre foi meu sonho… sei que estou sendo injusto com você, e pedindo alguma coisa que pode ser demais pra você — é possível ver a sinceridade e dor, nos seus olhos castanhos — mas eu sei também que ser alguém no comando de um país pode ser demais para alguém, e ter um parceiro pode ajudar a tirar um pouco desse fardo…

— Então você está me chantageando? — Sua voz trazia certo tom de brincadeira, mas seu pai viu que você o entendia, e isso o acalmou. Suspirando você pisca as lágrimas que molhavam seu olho — Tudo bem, mas tenho pena do homem que aceitar esse casamento.

— Nós também!

Acontece que seus pais já tinham um pretendente em mente: Kim Namjoon. Herdeiro da família Kim, amigos de longa data de seus pais, e até certa cidade, seu amigo. Você se lembra de como eram quase inseparáveis, sempre brincando juntos quando suas famílias se visitavam, em eventos excepcionais da monarquia… sempre! Mas então quando chegaram a adolescência ele seguiu seu caminho repleto de problemas e outros amigos, te deixando completamente de lado por muito tempo sendo o principal problema das famílias reais. Mas para seus pais, ele era perfeito, ambas as famílias já se conheciam, vocês estavam familiarizados um com o outro, e não precisam inventar desculpas para o casamento.

A comitiva da família Kim já era bastante conhecida não só para os moradores do castelo, mas para todos seus súditos. Todos já sabiam da dinâmica de visita real da família, mas dessa vez com algumas alterações, como a recepção sendo feita dentro do castelo, não no jardim frontal. Assim, além de se esconder da mídia, os reis podiam abandonar as cordialidades. Isso não impediu que seu primeiro encontro com Kim Namjoon não fosse estranho, após abraçar seu pai e mãe, optou por uma semi reverência ao príncipe.

Será que ele já sabe que é meu noivo? O que será que ele achou disso? Ele se lembro de como éramos? Ele lembro que me abandonou?

Se o rei e a rainha Kim ainda não sabiam da situação de seu pai, não comentaram sua figura já frágil, apenas sorriram, e seguiram com as saudações e brincadeiras de amigos e amigas. Não ter a presença da mídia no castelo facilitou a interação, assim como facilitou conforme você se esquivava de qualquer interação com Namjoon. As tentativas do moreno eram todas frustradas por suas respostas monossilábicas que ele mal ouvia:

“ Faz muito tempo…” “Aham.”

“Você está bem?” "Aham"

“ Alguma novidade?” " Uhum.”

Você sabia que ele estava tentando, mas você simplesmente não conseguia apagar toda a mágoa que sentiu durante anos, só porque ele perguntou se tinha alguma novidade (Se não tivesse me descartado como uma folha de papel, saberia que meu pai está morrendo, e teria sido o amigo que eu precisava e não tive), então se manteve quieta até a hora que seus pais decidissem conversar com os Kim.

Recepção, almoço, sobremesa, café pós sobremesa… foi um longo caminho, mas você sabia que eles tinham muitas coisas para colocar em dia. Quando sua mãe percebeu seu silêncio eterno, e sua máscara de tédio para reuniões, ela chama pelo nome do rei, e com sua incrível comunicação por olhar, ele entende.

— Jihoon… preciso confessar algo, e pedir uma coisa também.

A conversa foi bem direta, característica do tipo de rei que seu pai era, e a monarquia Kim recebeu a notícia com silêncio, e então todos ofereceram algum tipo de ajuda, o que trouxe um sorriso brincalhão e um brilho de criança para os olhos de seu pai, e o comentário “você não sabe o que está oferecendo!”

Namjoon nunca parou de pensar em você. Ele não entendia como, nem porque vocês se afastaram, mas ele sentia que era o único culpado, uma vez que teve um fim de adolescência um tanto quanto perturbado.

Ele se lembra de como eram inseparáveis, sempre brincando juntos, indo para eventos juntos, conversando como amigos, os únicos que seu estilo de vida os permitia, sendo os únicos que se entendiam.

— Pedi para minha filha, um favor que jamais poderei retribuir… — Namjoon observou como seu pai tentava encontrar as palavras certas, sempre segurando a mão de sua mãe, enquanto você ficava ali parada.

Talvez vocês não se vejam a certo tempo, mas Namjoon te conhecia o suficiente para saber que quando olha para um ponto cego no chão, longe o suficiente para parecer que está de fato na conversa, uma mão segurando a outra em seu colo, tudo o que mais quer é fugir.

— Nam, saiba que pode negar, mas… nós realmente gostaríamos que se case com S/n.

Ninguém da família Kim esperava por essas palavras, e o silêncio ensurdecedor do sala entregava a situação. Namjoon observa o modo como você engole em seco, evitando a todo custo, o olhar. O coração do rapaz se aperta em seu peito, sentindo falta de como você o olhava com tanto carinho e admiração.

— Eu aceito. — Sua voz se propaga pela sala silenciosa, e pela primeira vez desde que ele e sua família chegaram ao seu castelo, que você o vê de fato. Ele não queria deixar de te olhar, mas a dor que ele viu escondida nas suas órbitas era demais para ele, então ele se vira para seu pai, o rei — Sei que não fui um príncipe exemplar, mas posso garantir que mudei, e garanto trabalhar duro para ser o marido que sua filha merece, e o rei que sua nação precisa.

As palavras de Namjoon te pegaram de surpresa. A última vez que o viu Kim era um idiota bêbado que só sabia te ofender. Esse kim Namjoon parecia ser um príncipe decente. como alguém que definitivamente estava ouvindo atrás da porta, Sr. Segredos Reais surge com um sorriso sinistro, seu celular e uma agenda praticamente explodindo em suas mãos. Ele informa que já que o casamento acontecerá, será necessário que você e Namjoon o encontre no escritório "real” ( o escritório usados para assuntos da coroa, mas que geralmente só você e seu pai entram, e que o Sr. Segredos, estava louco para usar).

Felizmente você consegue se esgueirar para seu quarto, onde se esconde até o jantar, que infelizmente tem sua presença requisitada. Os reis e rainhas continuam com sua sessão de saudosismos, incluindo de vez em quando você e Namjoon na conversa “Se lembram daquela vez que Namjoon derrubou chá no vestido da S/n?” “Não foi nesse dia que ela derrubou a rainha da Portidozia?” Não pôde segurar o riso ao se lembrar de algumas situações – até porque quando derrubou a rainha de Portidozia, só porque pensou que abelha de brinquedo que jogava, era real, e ia a atacar, e sua feição enquanto caia para trás era hilária de mais para ser esquecida.

Após agradecer a todos pela noite, inventou uma dor de cabeça e se escondeu em seus aposentos, apenas esperando o sono chegar, o cansaço a dominar, ou o novo dia chegar, qualquer coisa que acontecesse primeiro. Mas sua mente não parava de rodar, memórias se misturavam com incertezas do futuro, felicidades que não retornarão, preocupações e medos que parecem intermináveis. Três batidas leves em sua porta te tiram de seus devaneios, e da sua cama.

Seu visitante noturno é ao mesmo tempo muito e nada surpreendente. Kim Namjoon. Ou será que agora precisa o chamar de noivo? Cedo demais? Talvez, mas estranho? Indubitavelmente.

— O que faz aqui? — pergunta abrindo a porta e colocando apenas a cabeça pra fora, procurando por alguém. Namjoon usava uma camiseta enorme e preta , e calças de flanela vermelha, e sua proximidade física a permitiu ver como o corpo do rapaz se desenvolveu, aquilo definitivamente eram músculos.

— Podemos conversar? — ele pede, sussurrando.

— Não é de bom grado um rapaz fazer visitas noturnas à uma dama — você argumenta rapidamente tentando fechar a porta, mas Kim te impede, segurando a madeira com sua mão.

— Não estamos mais no século dezoito, e nos conhecemos desde crianças! — Nam retruca, mas sua resposta rápida o pega de surpresa “Será?”, efeito que quase a permite fechar a porta nele, mas os reflexos masculinos foram ainda mais velozes, a impedindo mais uma vez. Você suspira tentando guardar sua raiva dentro de si e não gritar em pleno corredor vazio — Eu só quero conversar…por favor!

Você não queria abrir a porta e o deixar entrar, mas sabia que de certa forma devia pelo menos cinco segundos de conversa, uma vez que o rapaz praticamente já é seu noivo. Quase que ele não percebe quando você o deixa entrar sem mais nenhum empecilho.

Namjoon esperava ver seu quarto de antigamente. Metade de uma parede vermelha, repleta de posters, quadros e fotos. Mas agora ele só viu paredes bebês, matérias de jornais com suas fotos e de outros membros da monarquia, algumas coroas diferentes. Ele sempre amou como seu quarto parecia alegre e expressivo como você era…agora ele reflete essa mulher pronta para assumir a coroa.

— Como você está? — é a primeira coisa que ele pergunta, e assim que as palavras saem de sua boca, ele se martiriza percebendo o quão ridículo foi. Você ri incrédula com a pergunta dele.

— Meu pai está morrendo de câncer, e vou casar com você pra ele morrer feliz… eu tô nas nuvens, Namjoon!

— Tudo bem, eu mereço isso…— o moreno suspirou se recostando na sua cabeceira, enquanto você o observa, de cruzados esperando por alguma coisa a mais, umas desculpas, talvez. Mas Namjoon tinha um questionamento, que ele tinha certeza que a deixaria ainda mais raivosa, mas era necessário. — Você esqueceu da nossa promessa? “Nunca abandonar o outro?”

Se Namjoon sentiu seu erro quando perguntou como estava, agora ele sabia que estava prestes a sentir anos de fúria guardados, e como um homem criado com mulheres que precisam guardar sua raiva, ele estava ciente que quando se abre essa porta, seus piores demônios são soltos.

E você estava pronta para o fazer se sentir da pior maneira por tudo o que te fez, mas o olhar do moreno o denuncia, que ele de fato não sabe o que fez, e isso a irritou e machucou ainda mais.

— Você não lembra…— não foi uma pergunta, Kim notou. Ele percebeu também a decepção na sua voz — Não, é claro que não lembra, você tinha álcool suficiente na sua bunda para esquecer tudo o que você fez!

Ele não sabia o que dizer. Claro que ele sentia que tinha algum nível de responsabilidade no seu afastamento, mas ter certeza, ainda mais com o modo que falou com ele, o atordoou.

— Você por algum acaso se lembra da última vez que nos falamos? — você pergunta pronta, esperando que ele dissesse não, por que assim, você teria uma oportunidade de ouro que aguardou por muitos e longos anos.

— N-não… eu… — Nam gagueja se sentindo pequeno com seu olhar e raiva que começava a emanar do seu corpo, a fazendo parecer muito maior do que realmente era — por favor, por que?

— Sem problemas eu refresco sua memória…

“... Nós tínhamos acabado de fazer 20 anos, e finalmente nossos pais nos deixaram participar dos seus eventos políticos, como a reunião da ONU… a questão é que eu estive lá do começo ao fim, mas e você? Sabe onde estava?

Você achou que seria uma excelente ideia, ir pra balada qualquer, cercado de bebidas, problemas e garotas que como você, não tinham idade suficiente pra estar lá!”

Sua voz começa a crescer no quarto, mas Kim não ousa falar nada, ele apenas fica lá observando como seus olhos brilhavam, e uma pequena veia a esquerda do seu pescoço começava a se levantar, e ele estava maravilhado com sua beleza naquele momento. Com medo, mas ainda sim, maravilhado.

— E como sei que não se lembra nenhum um pouco, o tema de debate da ONU era sobre adolescentes fora da escola, e em lugares que definitivamente não deveriam estar!

“A mídia caiu matando, nos comparando, fazendo manchete atrás de manchete… seu pai te deu a maior bronca do mundo, e você pouco se importou, mas eu achei que ia me ouvir, que ia entender como seu país precisava de você…mas não… a Coroa se tornou pesada demais pra sua cabeça fraca!...”

Isso não era novidade, e ele se lembra bem não só do sentimento de estar perdido, de não saber pra onde ir quando só se tinha um caminho, mas também da inveja que ele sentia de ver como você era perfeita para a monarquia.

— Mas eu entendia, e quis te deixar claro isso, mas você achou que seria uma boa ideia me destratar, como uma qualquer! E mesmo com isso, e a sua família sendo obrigada a fugir daqui, eu te mandei mensagens. Por meses, Namjoon! Eu me humilhei em nome de uma promessa infantil! Sabe quando parei?...

“... Quando eu só sabia de você por conta da mídia e em como você não se importava mais com o trono, e pior! Quando durante eventos, eu via seus novos amigos, mas não você… quando eles eram ‘dignos’ o suficiente pra beber e cheirar nos banheiros sujos durante a noite, mas ainda sim participavam da política. Você me bloqueou, me esqueceu, e eu segui em frente. Eu percebi que não queria laços com alguém fraco como você!”

O silêncio no quarto foi ensurdecedor. Você encarou o rapaz à sua frente. Ele estava boquiaberto e de olhos arregalados, e só então percebeu que você estava respirando forte, tremendo, com o coração batendo a mil, repleta de raiva e até alívio.

— Me desculpa, eu sei que fui um idiota, e que machuquei muitas pessoas que amava. Você sempre foi animada para assumir o trono, mas eu nunca fui um líder, quem dirá um rei!

— Eu percebi

— Posso contar a parte que não sabe? — o moreno pede, e seu silêncio é a resposta que ele precisava, seguindo em frente, ele coça a garganta antes de falar — quando voltei meu pai foi incrivelmente sincero, disse que não podia me afastar do trono, e que eu sempre seria o príncipe, próximo na linha de sucessão… mas ele podia me mandar pra algum lugar onde eu poderia pensar melhor. Fui pro exército. Fui pisado, jogado e mal tratado…

— É pra eu sentir pena? — você indaga, e ele solta um riso fraco nasal. Ele estava gostando de descobrir como você se tornou feroz.

— Não, só queria preencher as lacunas… — se desencostando, Kim se desculpa mais uma vez por tudo e está prestes a sair, quando outra dúvida surge — você está com raiva de se casar comigo?

— Sabe, se me dissesse quando eu tinha 7 anos, que ia casar com você, eu seria a criança mais feliz do mundo! Certa que ia viver meu próprio conto de fadas perfeito! Se me dissesse quando tinha 21, eu provavelmente vomitaria de nojo de alguém como você, mas agora… é como casar com um estranho qualquer. — Sua careta dizia tudo o que sentia.