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I guess I’ll disappear from here for some days cuz I finally managed to make my mind calm down, and it is by stopping creating. Weird, yes, but I was living too much in my fictional worlds and then getting overwhelmed when back to the real world, and this is not healthy. So I’m taking a break from my own creative brain 🤙🏽

Or if I think about creating something, it will be so silly and senseless that I probably won’t be physically able to create it cuz I despise doing things without a meaning or significance haha—

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ARGH SOMEBODY PLEASE SHUT UP MY MIND FOR SOME MINUTES, I AM GETTING GENUINELY SCARED OF METAPHYSICAL CONCEPTS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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Ghost

It’s a dream I had. I was killed and transformed into a ghost, so nobody could interact with me—except this baby. This baby could see and touch me, so I was carrying him everywhere to make him communicate for me.

And when I talked, it was like they could hear something, somewhere, but they couldn’t see it was me right in front of them, no matter what I did.

It’s tiring to be a ghost.

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Had you ever felt as if the world is too big, a lot beyond your comprehension, and your life is so small and senseless, weird and changeable and ephemeral, and your worries should mean nothing at all but they mean to you because you’re as small as your life is and even if you realize you can’t do anything about it because it is just how life is?

Or had you ever wondered if this is all a simulation, a game, a bad show, somebody’s imagination, your own mind from another dimension, and this world only started existing when you started existing, and all the past is just a backstory somebody wrote for your world, and we are doomed to live in this world until we die, then we will wake up back into our original bodies or maybe cease existing or maybe restarting it from the beginning?

Don’t mind me, today I woke up and felt like reflecting about everything. I was with my mum when she said “oh, did you see that boy staring at you???”, and I was like “no, mum, I was wondering why life couldn’t be like a sitcom where we don’t grow old, where people don’t die, where everything is a comedy, where problems are solved in the same day, where everything is easy.”

I SWEAR I AM FINE, I guess.

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if i die feel free to never move on and let it haunt you forever. it's what i would have wanted

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ALTER EGO

Another game! I honestly thought Es was a man, but then I went to look fanarts and I realized she was a woman. Anyway, the drawing is mine, I do it as I wish.

I’m also playing other game besides this, and why are they always black-and-white with minor colorful details? Is it easier to paint?

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Uma - Oxen King Queen

She’s from The God of High School, I love her personality. I drew her kinda fat cuz I head-canon it. Also, they were too big, wouldn’t she get some problem on her spine?

And, yes, I can easily flow between drawing a masterpiece and drawing a simple webtoon style. This depends on my mood and also on what I’m drawing :)

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Death Palette

What an awesome game. It's been a while since I played it, but I suddenly got the urge to draw the girl.

I tried following the game’s vibes, so I used a charcoal-like brush.

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What’s your impression of me?

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My new hobby in tumblr is getting obsessed with fandoms I have never heard about. I never watched/played/read the canon story—and I will not—, but I really appreciate the passion the artists have :)

(You have no idea how disappointed I got when I found out Mouthwashing wasn’t a movie/series, but a game. And artists makes it looks so beautiful, while the game’s graphics is so 😟 anyway, I love them)

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My Kids (wut?)

I’m supposed to be working, but then I stopped to doodle my future children. Why? Because the name Yulian is beautiful and I imagined the boy, then I felt that it was unfair, so I got my names list and drew Gisele as well.

(P.s., I’m terrified of having children because pregnancy is a horror story, and traumatizing kids is too easy) (it doesn’t stop me from thinking, tho)

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Stuck - Outfits

I’m planning in making a short film about my three “personalities”. It’s not that dramatic in real life, but it’s really exhausting to deal with three different opinions about one thing at the same time. It goes like:

Me: I’m not doing enough…

Mi: You’re trying, at least.

Mit: Stop trying then, do what you want.

Mi: For God’s sake, shut up.

So, Me is the good, naive one, Mi is the control-freak one, and Mit is the crazy who does whatever it wants.

I’m not sure if it will work, cuz it will be hard to edit myself in different outfits, sometimes at the same place, but this video means a lot to me and I really want to record it.

Wish me luck 🙏

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Agent Mit

I decided to draw myself, but cool (it must be Saiki Kusuo influence). Dunno if it’s exactly cool, but it’s a “me” that does radical things from some kind of movie.

First, I thought about giving myself powers, but I don’t think I’d be someone to have a visible power, it’d be something psychological, so not fun to draw.

Second, mystical creatures. The one that kinda matches my vibe is werewolf, but it’s hard to draw and they’re not pretty (excuse me, I like to draw myself pretty).

Then I thought about fights. I’m not someone who likes to move a lot, so swords are off. I probably should have draw a sniper, but again, it’s hard to draw (❤️) and when I thought about the sniper, I already had drew the pose, so I wasn’t redoing it.

I dunno how someone lazy like me manages to be productive. (I recorded my video and it’s nice💞)

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I realized I didn’t make that much drawings related to my book, they’re all side stories………..

OH CRUEL LIFE, why can’t I make Kenyan the protagonist 😭😭😭

But it’s okay, Ethan is also a fine man. It’s just hard to write the story following his pov because I gotta pretend I know nothing because he knows nothing.

Behínji Sume Sohiel

Ad Xinie Maivtre — Ad Auvana Odabrani — Ad Mizae Iskatram

Translated, it means “Blessed be Sohiel. The Pure Maivtre, The Wise Odabrani, The Loving Iskatram.”

As I said some posts ago, Sohiel is the holy family of Martra. They are both religious figures and royalty as well. It’s something determined many ages ago, a culture deeply enrooted in the citizens.

The current lineage is Kenyan as Maivtre and Sylris as Odabrani; they're married.

Sylris is so handsome, gosh. Look at those lashes and hands.

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As I said, reblogging arts cuz I’m still tired (I’m trying to learn how to film things 😧)

And I’ll reblog only what I consider important/cool about my story. So if you didn’t know me since the start, you just need to check these ones that I’m reblogging!

Maivtre,

lukai ínan. Sov panemo vonako fare.

Translated from Martrakoji (my fictional language), it means: “Maivtre, protect us. Don’t bring your wrath.”

As said in some posts ago, Maivtre is the goddess and queen of Martra. “Maivtre” isn’t exactly a name, but a title passed down generation.

The current Maivtre isn’t on her sanest moment of her life, lol. It’s not entirely her fault, tho…

The style was inspired by @astrono77153462, I don’t know what social media cuz I found their drawings on Pinterest.

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I MADE PINTEREST BOARDS FOR THEM WOAH

My baby Ethan Yaneh:

Behati Nearu, The Big Sister:

Cool Kid Yuno Nearu:

Kenyan “I’m trying” Yaneh:

Sly Snake, Sylris Kem Yaneh:

Hiélo Garoh, The Loyal Dog: