#rly until the end.. and i think it does a lot more stuff with the elle and vivian relationship

[connormoving]

its so embarassing likee. going to talk abt a feeling you have but you already know ppl will be like Oh that sounds like depression lol and its like. well yes . i know . trust me i am so aware i am depressed . but its still like a thing ive been thinking abt and wanting to talk abt but ik itll just be like Ok hun 👍. idk idk what response i would want tho ig FNFNFNF

[piistaciio]

The “Home Care Attendant” ™️ DCA AU

(all subject to change as i expand on this au)

Fazbear gets into some legal trouble that nearly puts them out of business, forcing them to lie low for a while and shut the plex's doors to visitors while things are sorted.

In an attempt not to lose money, Fazbear had the idea to use their daycare attendant as a ‘home care’ attendant. Considering it was already reprogrammed once to look after small children, Fazbear thought, 'Why not?' A caregiver wasn't that much farther off, right? :)

Rebranded as the "Home Care Attendant"(™️)

…

Takes place after Security Breach, Gregory does not mutilate the other animatronics to be able to escape the plex/stay safe until morning.

This AU uses the idea of Vanny being the one to infect Moon with a virus that makes him hostile in the night. 

But as Fazbear lies low, Moon finds he’s.. in control of himself again? And it stays that way as they are reprogrammed and fitted for their new job. 

Sun and Moon got to coexist with each other without fear, catch up, and grow close again in the couple of weeks it took for Fazbear to get them all sorted.

…

Cut to one of Cio’s (my insert/sona) online friends seeing this ad for an in-home caregiver robot, ‘for any age!’

They know their friend has been struggling lately, even though she doesn't think so.

So one day there's a knock on Cio's front door and there's a truck unloading this giant ass box???

She tries to make her friend take it back cause ‘omg wtf how expensive was this???’ 

Friend said too bad, the company they bought it from was adamant about no refunds, and they didn't need an in-home robot caregiver.

“If you rly don't need it, just resell it.”

…

Cio eventually accepts, at the end of the day, when is she ever going to be able to see a robot in person ever again, let alone own one? In this economy???

Especially as a former retail worker on unemployment, using art as a secondary income.

Has to sign a thick pamphlet of liability forms to be able to use it.

Cio skims and signs (we all hate reading terms, but girlie pls)

Comes with a concerningly thinner user guide, as if it was hastily put together or written with the bare minimum legal content needed to ‘sell’ the DCA to the public and generate extra money for Fazbear.

As well as only a singular, fine print, Fazbear branding in an inconspicuous spot on their packaging.

Shit feels sketchy but there are also no refunds/returns.

“The HCA comes fully charged and ready to help you in your day-to-day life!”

That was a damn lie.

…

[Mini drabble for their beginnings below]

Cio squinting at the vague ass instructions of this, intimidatingly larger than she thought, robot is sat in the middle of her living room floor.

“So I just…” squints at the pages, “Wait, why do I have to plug it in if it's supposed to be charged?? Ugh, this is feeling more and more scammy by the second..” 

She looks closely at the robot again, its blank sun and moon-themed face and well-built body.

“But it is like an actual fully made robot or- whatever, so maybe not?” Shrugs as she opens the back panel and connects its cord to the extension cord she had plugged into the wall to be able to reach it.

Lights flicker but don't quite trip the breaker

“Oooo boy.. you take a lot of power. I better go unplug some stuff;;”

Comes back and looks the bot over, wondering and checking with the bare minimum instructions on how long this “fully charged” robot was going to take to turn on.

“Bro.. They shouldn't have even included these instructions if they were gonna be this vague about them-” eyes widen as she reads down, “ ‘charging can take anywhere between 5 and 15 hours???’ Ughhhh…”

Cio sighs, looking around, then looking at the bot, “You better be worth it,” she huffed, booping its flat nose.

…

It takes halfway into the night for Sun and Moon to be fully charged. And by that time, in the dark/very dim ‘candlelight’, it's Moon who comes out first, Sun's rays tucking in and his hat popping out.

They hadn't been turned on since Fazbear tweaked them to be what they are now. Why waste the power of a currently closed plex on charging animatronics waiting to be bought?

Moon groaned, body's joints stiff from lack of motion for who knows how long, Fazbear left them uncharged.

[[🌙: Ugh.. Sunny..? ☀️: I'm here.. are we.. 🌙: Yeah.. I think so.. Oh- huh ☀️: what?? What is it?? 🌙: I think I just met our charge. ☀️: Really?? Oh I wanna meet them too!! Do they look nice?? 🌙: That'll have to wait, they're asleep ☀️: Asleep?? Aww…]]

Moon looks down at the sleeping form on the floor in front of him. Hair tousled, cheek smeared with graphite from their sketchbook, as they breathed quietly.

Moon huffed. 

They had no knowledge about the person in front of them or what they were like, but it wasn't in his programming to leave someone uncomfortable as they slept.

He unplugged himself from the extension cord and closed their panel. His metal strained as he stretched, flexing his fingers and such before gently and carefully picking up the short human, taking care not to disturb them.

In such a small home, it didn't take him long to find their bedroom. If he had a working nose it would have wrinkled at the messy state of the room.

[[🌙: it's a good thing you're aren't out right now, Sunny ☀️: what, why?? 🌙: messy.. ☀️: Mmmmm- 😣]]

Moon snickers quietly as he lays the human down in their bed, covering them with their blanket. Cio shifts a bit to get comfortable but doesn't stir beyond that.

On a full charge, Moon takes the time to poke around the home, while getting scolded by Sun about privacy and such.

And after tidying a little bit, takes a seat on the bay window in their new charge’s room, looking up at the night sky. A bit in awe, they'd never really gotten a good look at the outside, having been in the 'Plex their entire lives.

...

Unsure if I will make an actual fic about this AU, but this is the world any art of my sona and the boys will be based in!

Thank you for giving it a read! ♥

And feel free to hop into my asks with any questions you may have!

[squirmfesting]

There's a thing I noticed regarding majorbeans and well you post a lot of majorbeans so I thought I share my thoughts with you. In retrospective it is extremely funny how similar scott and joel pov of their respective wins are with Scott being more passive and tactical about everything, staying with the same allies (Pearl, Cleo) until quite literally it would be against the rules for him to stay, getting harassed (traps, destroying his house.) by others but not getting revenge etc. and Joel deciding to ignore Etho continues backstabbing, playing tactical with wildcard, ignoring everyone destroying and laughing at his car (not rly ignoring more like deciding to not do anything about aka get revenge), staying with the same allies and not backstabbing them (Gem, Grian) etc etc. also funny how both of their second allies (Cleo, Grian) joined them after they had issues with their team (betrayed, dead) Getting to the interesting part Scott is known by the community as someone who gets people to hunt him and very often that results to his hunters getting killed (very often that happens to be Joel). BUT this time Scott has decided in finale of wildlife to hunt Joel since he was the last yellow. I find it incredibly interesting that at least in finale of wildlife they switched places Scott being the hunter and Joel being hunted and also the fact that bringing Joel to red life meant the end of Scott wildlife. If I were smarter and less half asleep I could probably write something about how lastlife and wildlife winners parallel each other and how playing similar to Scott lead Joel to victory but I think you get the point anyway

sorry for mistakes english isn't my first language also yes this could've been simply a post in majorbeans tag but I am a coward when it comes to posting online for some reason. also I would love to hear your thoughts about this those stupid bugs have plagued my mind for a while now... it would be sooo funny if they teamed up next season.

oh my god i knew they mirrored each other but u pointing out the switchup in wildlife makes me insane .... i didnt even notice at first AUGH !!! also i feel u anon im a bit fearful posting my interpretation of the two and how i see them bc this fandom can be rly toxic for having ur own point of view for different characters 💔 but ill indulge just for u :3

i kinda see scott as this guy who has expectations set up for himself . he has to stick to his morals even in the most intense situations , he has built trust w others and tries his best to lookout for those on his team . however there are bits and pieces that slip out where hes like "maybe i can be the drama . as a treat" but most of the time he doesnt unless its at a point where all hell has broken loose . what more harm could be done? overall hes got a moral code . he has to live up to that and keep up this facade despite sometimes fighting the urge to become insane like the rest . its a killing game after all . with joel i see him like you said a wildcard . he gives into his emotions when hes panicking or when hes enraged and just throws out all logic out the window . of course he has his moments but for the most part his bloodlust is his downfall . one of the aspects i like abt majorbeans is i see scott being tempted by joel , despite joel always going after him and trying to kill him . he sees joel behave the way he does , his power and his freedom and despite it being an utterly wreckless display , he just sees him having fun and giving into the desire to just Kill . and joel absolutely hates that scott is as observant and strategic about his way of survival . hates the fact that he can keep a level head through all of this , hates that even though he isnt as strong as him , keeps getting away with living ! there r more stuff in my head and i cant rly word this properly im in the middle of a fortnite match w a friend so its all off the top off my head but if anyone would like something more coherent i can write out a draft for my full thoughts . but to wrap it up .. those aspects i think keep pulling them back to each other .. they both want a taste of what they have .. but their rivalry (mostly one sided if im being honest dont throw tomatoes at me) is what stops them from being an unstoppable force lol . the day they team up for a season is the day i can peacefully pass away . I NEED TO SEE THEM TEAM UP !!!!! these two have been plaguing my mind for months .. but yea those r my thoughts not super coherent but i hope it gets the idea across .

[thedeepgreensea]

A while ago I made this post to motivate myself to work on my AUs... so far this hasn't really worked out in the way I'd like BUT!! I'm gonna share a part of the rant I initially sent my friend. It's terribly rant-like in character even though I went through it and capitalized names, added punctuation and tried to make it a little more readable. I have more stuff about this AU written down (Tuggoffelees, but also even more Skimblestrap), but I want to concentrate on picking a scene from what's posted below the cut and writing it out nicely in my usual writing style for now. I think I'll post the rest in a linked post soon, but for now, enjoy almost 3k words of brain juice.

AU under the cut, enjoy and scream at me about them!!

(CW: Non-graphic domestic violence and descriptions of mental illness, also note that I intended this to take place in the UK but somehow ended up writing high school and college all the time so excuse the mash-up.)

The Deutoronomy brothers:

Macavity (oldest)

Munkustrap (middle child)

Tugger (youngest)

Age gaps of about 2 years between all of them, although maybe Macavity is even older (maybe like 2 years between Munk and Tugger, and 3 between Munk and Macavity?).

Growing up, Tugger used to absolutely ADMIRE Macavity: Wanted nothing more than to be like his oldest brother (Munk was so busy with school and extracurriculars but Macavity used to skip school to take little Tugger out to like cheap fast food dinners and to hang out with the older, rowdy kids (obviously a terrible influence but what will you do yk, Tugger was DELIGHTED)).

But Macavitys mental health rapidly declined, he was irritable and mean and violent towards almost everyone except his family throughout his late teens and early twenties until, in Tuggers first year of high school or something, Macavity had like an absolute psychotic break (maybe at home even? Like old D. was like 'hey kiddo is everything like alright… like mentally') and he just. Snapped yk, maybe attacked his old dad and Munk went between them and they rly hurt each other (Munk, glasses-wearing, theatre-loving wimp absolutely didn't look it but was able to gain the upper hand and call an ambulance while keeping Macavity down) and Tugger comes home from band practice or whatever to a living room in chaos, Munk absolutely NOT doing well but trying to keep it together, old D. getting patched up by paramedics and Macavity gone.

And he Does Not Deal with it well?? Like Munk tries to calm him and tell him what happened, Macavity is getting help now, hes gonna get the treatment he needs, it's gonna be okay and you need to calm down, but Tugger is like SO overwhelmed with the situation that he starts arguing with Munk and they say some Evil Things to each other. Tugger just CANNOT believe his beloved older brother (that he still sees through the eyes of an excited 10 year old whose older brother took him to the cinema to see movies in secret) would do that, and in his despair he instead accuses Munk of making things up because 'you can't stand to be the boring middle child!' or something.

And Munk (who, lets be honest, he's been through a lot and he deserves to snap too) gets so fucking angry (because ok, maybe it's a bit true but hed NEVER do that) and tells him THEN FUCKING GO VISIT HIM OR SOME SHIT IDEK which. Bad idea cuz tugger does just that. And almost the exact moment he leaves the house Munk is like fuuuuck hes never gonna get over that (neither are you baby dw).

And honestly Macavity has such mood switches, especially when Tugger visits, and he gets so manipulative like "they've taken me away from my baby brother and oh i love you so much how could they seperate us" and so he turns Tugger against Munk and their dad to a point where Tugger has the BIGGEST trust issues and packs his bags and leaves.

Old D., at this point, really is very old, and Munk finds himself suddenly needing to do EVERYTHING. Throws himself head first into responsibility, tries to make everything right and stuff and tries to get Tugger to come home (and Tugger agrees, on the condition that they give Macavity another chance, and he promises he's been to visit him SO much and he's certain he's on his way to perfect health, and at this point Munk needs someone else to be the big brother and also some fucking peace and normalcy and a happy family SO BAD that he agrees).

So Tugger (as mentioned, homeless for a while, something he tries to forget and something Munk will never forgive himself for) and Macavity come home, and they all pretend its fine, although it can't be denied that old D. is so wary of his oldest son and Macavity has grown from an irritable 20 year old to a downright evil grown ass man. But they try to make it work, they play happy family until Tugger brings home a girl (Demeter??) and Things Go Wrong (ft. a now traumatized demeter, a back-in-the-psych-ward Macavity and an angry and depressed Tugger who finally sees that Munk was right and only ever tried to make everything work for all of them but he'd NEVER apologize, so instead he really pushes through his final year of highschool and tries to shoulder some of the burden but Munk lowkey won't let him. He's just fully accepted his fate at this point: He had dreams for his future, he had friends, he had hobbies, but now hes working day and night to support his brother(s? Who tf pays the psych ward bills) and his old father.

And Tugger is finished with school so Munk sits him down (and god, Tugger notices, he looks ten years older than he is, he's fucking GRAYING) and asks him about college and his plans and whatever.

And Tugger is not entirely convinced and tells him so, to which Munk gets really worked up and tells him "you HAVE to go to college" like at least one of us needs to get to have a future!

And Tugger feels babied honestly, and is like 'well why didn't you go to college then?'

To which Munk scoffs, 'you know why.'

'No, Munk, I don't know why. Nobody told you you couldn't go to college, nobody told you you had to replace both dad and- and Macavity, you just think you're smarter than everyone else and that we can't take care of ourselves!'

'Well what would you have me do? Abandon you and dad? You know we wouldn't be sitting here like this if I hadn't stepped up to the task.'

'But things can be different now, you fucking idiot! Look, I've talked to Dad about this. We should sell the house.'

'Excuse me'

'Listen to me, dad's moving in with aunt Isabella (Grizabella, yk.). Hes talked to me about this, he doesn't want you to give up your entire life for him. Or for us, on that matter. I'll take a full time job like you have right now, you'll get to go to college, we'll have the money from the house to keep us over water for a good while.'

'I- and have you become some nobody flipping burgers for the rest of your life? I forbid it.'

'Well it's too bad you don't get a fucking say in it', Tugger seethes.

And so they fight and old D. comes in and makes his two remaining sons sit down and HES SO OLD AND SAD GODDAMN

But he's also such a sweetie pie and he's like 'Munk, you're a good kid. The way we were able to keep living would not have been possible without you, but your brother is right. You can't spend your life cleaning up other peoples messes, you need to live your own life. You're going to college, whether you want to or not' (and fuck Munk DOES want to but he cant just DO that)

And Tugger looks so smug until old D. is like 'the same goes for you, young man.'

'What??'

'You heard me. Starting next summer, you're both going to a college of your choice. Neither of you will be working full time as long as I have a say in it, and you'll let yourselves be young and do what you enjoy.' And its so clear that that last part is directed at Munk and he's so thankful but he feels so babied and lowkey angry that the two teamed up against him, so he just angrily leaves the table and broods in his room over night.

Eventually, he decides alright, if I'm going to college I need to get a proper degree. Fucking engineering or some shit, or law or medicine or SOMETHING HE HAS THE GRADES FOR (SMART KID) BUT LOWKEY HAS NO INTEREST IN

And in the early morning hours there's a tentative knock on his door and Tugger pokes his head in (and it feels like they're 6 and 8 years old again) and it's clear he also spent the night thinking about his options. So he sits down beside Munk on his bed and they talk about what they plan to do (same college since theres not many around in the area) and Tugger honestly gets pretty enthusiastic about studying and talks about the different things he's interested in and finally asks Munk abt his choices-

And Munk tells him.

And Tugger is like what.

I didn't think you were interested in that at all.

And Munk's like 'I… Im sure it will be interesting enough once I get into it' and Tugger's like bitch!!

We just went through all that, had a huge fight that even got DAD involved and we finally get you to do your thing and you just dont?? Why don't you study something you're actually passionate about dude

And they argue AGAIN (Munk gets so snappy and Tugger just gets disappointed and dejected but also ANGRY because dude you're so STUPID)

'You really wanna know what I'd study if I could?', Munk whisper-growls at Tugger, careful not to get too loud as to not wake their dad up.

'Of fucking course I do you dense-'

'Theatre! Okay? Jesus.'

And Tugger's like.

'Okay… then why don't you do that?'

'Pff, why dont I- because it's ridiculous, Tugger, it's a child's dream and I can't afford that.'

And idk they argue and argue but finally!! Tugger gets Munk to agree that 'okay, FINE. I'm gonna try to get into theatre, alright? You happy?'

'Yes!'

'Fine.'

'Fine.'

And they stay pissed at each other for a few months until the semester starts and Munk is like 'oh fuck im enjoying my life oh jesus my little brother was right'

And he has a bit of an existential crisis that ends up with him half drunk and crying in front of tuggers dorm BUT they finally have a heart to heart and kind of make up!

Also in like his second or third year of college, Munk gets a job at a theatre where he teaches childrens courses (similar vibes to the battle of the Pekes and the Pollicles, exasperated burnt out theatre dude tries to no avail to get kids to stand in a row type shit)

(And at some point they try to do like a little musical number and Munk has to ask Misto for help on some dancing stuff (Misto would NEVER work with kids, it's exhausting enough to perform for them, but happily teaches Munk some stuff (I write this solely because I see Munk just extremely fucking tired in the dance studio at night in a lil dance outfit with leg warmers while misto corrects the position of his feet for the 100th time))

Enter Skimble!!

Skimble is the single dad of one of the kids in Munks's kids' theatre group… and he ALWAYS picks his kid up late and Munk fucking hates him for it, he cannot STAND when people treat him as a sort of daycare, so he always throws the most exasperated looks and eyerolls at Skimble everytime and comments on it and Skimble just smiles apologetically and throws an 'aye, sorry laddie' at him.

And then one day, Munk and Skimble's kid (Jemima? I'm open for suggestions) are waiting for longer than usual, and Munk already has to close up the studio so he waits outside with the kid and hes ITCHING to give Skimble a good talking to.

But while they're waiting he tells the kid 'you've gotta talk to your parents about this, they need to figure out a way to pick you up on time'

And the kids like 'you already told my dad though'

And he's like 'well yes maybe your mum can pick you up if your dad can't get off work at the same time everyday?'

'I don't have a mum. Dad takes care of me.'

And Munk is like FUCKKKKK

Because he was that kid once who had to explain to teachers why no, his mum couldn't come to parents' day because, well, she was dead.

And he internally panicks so bad but tries to keep his cool, and when Skimble arrives and looks all disheveled and tired but happy to see his kid he just blurts out some stupid shit abt maybe talking to try and figure something out so they exchange numbers!!

And Munk definetely doesn't find himself staring at Skimble's profile picture while he's waiting for a reply and oh god fuck he's crushing on this man.

And they kind of text a bit and the very few times Skimble picks his kid up on time he sticks around a bit to talk to Munk and brings him coffee or something. And ohh lordie they're both catching feelings but Munk Does Not Deal. He tells himself GOD no that would be so unprofessional of me and so weird for the kid, imagine your dad is suddenly dating your theatre teacher, plus we have a weird age gap (you dont, Munk, you just started college late and Skimble has a mustache.) pLUS I dont even have TIME for a relationship anyways!!

So he tries to encourage Skimble's advances less and stuff, which obviously doesn't work and they end up heavily making out in the teachers dressing room, but both agree that yeaaaa nooo they don't have time for a 'proper' relationship so they kind of decide to become friends with benefits (they're both pining so bad good lord but they're also both convinced they can't put enough time into a relationship to make it work and to make the other happy AND they also both think the other is happier being friends with benefits)

So this has been going on for a few weeks to months and they usually meet up pretty early on days where Skimble works late and his kid is already in school, and Munk is getting ready to leave and he's like in the midst of gathering his stuff and getting dressed when Skimble gathers all his courage and is like 'do you.. wanna go out for lunch?'

And Munk like

Freezes

No

Jesus, no, he does not have the mental capacities to deal with this right now, so he stammers out some lie about exam season and then proceeds to completely avoid Skimble for a week or two.

And skimble is like, okay.. give him space I guess, but they still see each other after the kids theatre lessons obviosly and it's so painfully akward that Munk is considering recommending Skimble's kid to the advanced group just to get out of the embarassment of seeing him all the time and having to spend time alone with the kid as they're waiting for Skimble.

But one day, Skimble's kid doesn't arrive by themselves as usual but gets dropped off really early by Skimble, who then makes his way to the teachers dressing room where he waits for Munk (without the flowers he picked up earlier - he felt like an idiot and like he was imposing some expectation so he got rid of them before coming in) and FUCK he's so sweet and gentle with Munk…

And they try to talk about it normally but honestly… would I be writing this if they just had a normal conversation about it, NOO.

So Skimble's like (imagine a heavy scottish accent here btw) 'listen, laddie- Munk, we're both busy men, and I understand if I caught you off guard but don't you think we should give it a try?' (Or something along those lines.)

And Munk feels a little helpless because he kind of really wants to give it a try but also jesus the walls are closing in on him and he can't breathe-

So he just starts the most panicked ramble and kind of loses his point and just starts talking nonsense about his fears and shit and basically ends in 'and I'm not ready to be a dad'

(And fuck, did he really just say that?)

But Skimble just blinks at him and tentatively puts a hand on his shoulder and is like 'hey, that's quite alright. Nobody is asking you to be a dad yet. Or ever, if you don't want that.'

Munk feels so relieved and scared at the same time he could cry because he never before noticed the toll that spending his entire late teens and early twenties replacing both his older brother and playing a sort of father figure to Tugger took on him this much.

Now that that's out of the way he's so shaky and he wants to talk about it with Skimble but he really has to get changed for class and 'can we talk about this over dinner?' he blurts out and skimble LIGHTS UP

YES

WE CAN

[swordfright]

What do you think is your most controversial dsmp take?

I got this ask a while ago and I've been wracking my brains trying to come up with something, but honestly...I don't think I really have many hot takes? At least, not ones that I'd consider controversial. Most of my controversial takes are about fanon/how the fandom interacts with the source material, which I assume isn't what you're looking for (but BOY DO I HAVE A LOT OF THOSE.) I also have likes and dislikes when it comes to duos and shipping stuff, but that's subjective obviously and more opinion than lore interpretation.

I guess if you put a gun to my head, I might say these are my most controversial Actual Lore Takes, but they're not all that interesting imo:

The experiments in the revival lab happened AFTER c!Dream's incarceration, not before it. My understanding is that most people interpret that sequence as occurring prior to the incarceration because...why would c!Dream let himself be locked up, relying on his knowledge of the book to be his life insurance, if he hadn't tested the damn thing out yet?! This logic tracks, but I think you could also flip it to argue the opposite: that he also could have conceivably waited to fully test the book until after escaping. During the run-up to the Disc Finale, c!Dream was incredibly busy with the fallout from Dethronement + Exile + Manburg related stuff etc, as well as busy preparing for the confrontation with c!Clingys, plus arranging the staged finale with Punz. The guy was busy as hell and he was also like...still kinda in the midst of a manic episode. Also, keep in mind that while the book was his life insurance for the finale and its immediate aftermath, he had no idea that c!Sam was going to betray him. Considering all that, I don't think it's inconceivable that c!Dream may not have had time to thoroughly test the limits of the revive book beforehand, and he likely didn't realize quite how vital his knowledge of revival would become during his incarceration period. So yeah. I'm open to either interpretation, but I am partial to the possibility that the Vikk and Lazar necromancy montage happened after the prison era. And the exact date/location of the lab are never specified either, which makes me even more open to the post-prison necromancy option. Not a hill I'd be willing to die on, but a hill I like to sit on and admire the view from.

End of Las Nevadas is the weakest stream of the Las Nevadas series. I found it narratively unsatisfying, and not in a clever way. I don't hate that stream, I think it had some really interesting moments, but overall I'd say its messaging was convoluted and the tension was pretty poorly mismanaged. I'd be willing to go on about this if you want, but I think a lot of other folks have probably already articulated it better than I can. Oh, I'll add that I also have complicated thoughts about c!Slime as a character. Don't hate him, don't love him...but I am puzzled about the role he was presumably meant to play in the story vs. the role he actually ends up playing. I could go on about this in detail but it's late and I'm sleepy.

c!Quackity has very simple goals and motives, but his pursuit of those goals is oftentimes way more convoluted than necessary, which ends up making him read as a more complex and dynamic character than he really is (I like this btw!) Another way to put it would be that Q is not a terribly complex character in terms of motivations and ambitions (dr3 has rly good meta on this btw), but he does tend to needlessly complicate his own life and the lives of the people around him in pursuit of simple goals. I think one of his big failings is that he sees violence as an easy solution to his problems but in reality it just creates more problems for him. It's like he keeps failing some sort of foresight check, over and over again. Take the formation of Las Nevadas, for instance. Most of the country's members were intimidated/threatened into joining, not because they're people Q particularly wants to hang around with, but because they're people Q sees as either strong (i.e. they are capable of contributing to LN) or directionless (i.e. they're in need of an owner a leader.) Quackity doesn't really forge alliances, he just...buys people, basically? And then he's shocked when this backfires. His relationship with Purpled is the most obvious example of this, but also LN as a whole: in LN5 (?), Quackity's angry and offended and hurt that only a tiny handful of people show up to the opening ceremony, even though by all accounts the reason the turn-out isn't bigger is because the server has by this point become a chaotic and violent place where anything can happen to anyone for any reason and most inhabitants feel safer sticking to their own turf...and that atmosphere of chaos and violence is something Q has ostensibly contributed to, even before Pandora. c!Quackity creates a country that no one is truly loyal to, inhabited by people who are closer to employees than allies...and then his solution, when he realizes nobody really gives a shit, isn't to try recruiting people in a more equitable way, it's to bioengineer a slime army. That is insane. That is an insane way to solve your problems. In no way is bioengineering a slime army a normal or well-adjusted solution to any conceivable problem. This is what I mean when I say he's a relatively uncomplicated character who complicates everything - he's constantly jumping through hoops of fire to avoid changing his behavior and taking any kind of accountability whatsoever.

I have tons more takes but they're mostly about silly subjective stuff and/or fanon, so I'll leave that for another day if anyone's interested.

[musicalmoritz]

I'm writing an AU that centers on Aoinene, but I'm worried about keeping Aoi and Nene in character 😿😿 Do you have any tips for writing them accurately even though the story's separate from canon ?? 🙁🙁🙁

Oooooh okay I love to yap abt writing. Here are some of the things I try to keep in mind while writing Aoi and Nene:

• Aoi is very emotional, but she doesn’t let it show outwardly until she’s pushed to a breaking point. Keep in mind, that breaking point for her is usually something very small and petty (like Nene asking her if she can go out with Akane). It takes a lot for her to fully break down though, because she keeps so much bottled up

• She also doesn’t get along with many people. She’s kind to them but if they linger too long, things get awkward. She’s very close with Nene and Akane but that’s about it (you could say Teru has grown on her recently tho)

• Arrogance is a major character flaw of Aoi’s, when she notices Akane and Nene have been acting weird it never crosses her mind to worry about them as people, but rather how their behavior impacts her. Despite this she is shown to care about them and look out for them, she can get pretty defensive over Nene. But when conflict arises she’s mostly thinking about herself (edit: I was wrong about this, Aoi worries over Nene a lot, although that initial worry is blown up by her own fear of abandonment)

• Nene has a similar flaw, she’s very self-centered. But she’s self-centered in the way a lot of teenagers are, she’s consumed by her own problems and has a very romanticized view of the world. She puts her friends into boxes and gets confused when they act differently from how she expects. Despite this, she shows a strong desire to want to save them- and when she truly falls in love with someone, she makes an active effort to learn more about them (even if she’s sometimes misguided with it)

• Nene is also a very impulsive character, she makes decisions fast and wants solutions to her problems fast. She tends to jump into conflict without giving it much thought, which is why she usually relies on more level-headed characters for guidance. However, she can most certainly take care of herself when she’s left to her own devices

• Aoi avoids good things because she doesn’t feel that she deserves them, whereas Nene fights tooth and nail to get a happy ending. This could create a push and pull between them, Nene wants to give Aoi all her love but Aoi needs time

• Aoi is very affectionate and forward with Nene; holding her hands, complimenting her, confronting her when she wants to talk, etc. She can also be majorly passive-aggressive tho lol

(I know I’m focusing on their flaws a lot, I don’t want to to seem like I have a negative view on either of their characters, it’s just that these are the elements I see forgotten most often)

• Nene shows her love to her friends by bullying them. This doesn’t apply to her dynamic with Aoi, she’s actually Aoi’s biggest fan girl, but it’s worth keeping in mind if you’re going to have her interacting with Hanako or Kou

• Personality-wise, Aoi is more of an introvert while Nene is an extrovert

• They’re both hopeless romantics, Aoi is just less willing to admit it

• Contrary to popular belief, Nene does notice that Aoi doesn’t talk about herself much and presumably wants to know more about her. Aoi’s attention also makes her feel special (that one’s not rly related to characterization it’s just cute lol)

• Nene’s arc centers around her becoming more mature and less attached to her fantasy world, Aoi’s arc centers around her learning to be her true self and accept good things

I know this was a lot, I wanted to be helpful so I tried to cover everything I could think of😭 Don’t feel pressured to include EVERYTHING I listed here, it’s just good stuff to keep in mind. I hope this was useful!! Happy writing <3

[maxiemcsoda]

Hand over some Teruya/Kinji headcanons‼️

hihi! sorry for takin so long on this!! i was doing splatoons grand festival all weekend!!

but yes i can give u some of my thoughts on these guys >:)

adding a read more bc it got a little long whoopsie

ok so first off! my sexuality + gender hcs for them;

- kinji is transmasc and nonbinary (they/he) and he's gay (mlm, nblm, nblnb), his identity causes him some distress due to his role in the church and his father being generally unaccepting of queer identities (he also hides his true identity when at home, hopes peak is the first time hes publicly himself)

- teruya is agender (he/him) and gay as well, he does not struggle with his identity, but he did take a while to realize he only liked boys/non-women. he rly thought his dad wanted him to marry a woman, but it turns out his dad is very pan and doesnt care who he dates as long as hes happy :)

ive got a couple different scenarios that i have different scenarios based on what happens in them and ill just list some stuff from all of em

firstly the general stuff that happens no matter what !

- teruya is initially appealing to kinji simply because he's loud but not in your face about it (usually), kinji also really respects that teruya stands very firm on his beliefs

- teruya also has a really good memory, so he remembers gifts and things that kinji likes, he just gives him stuff he likes every now and then, and kinji finds it really sweet

- teruya also makes silly accessories for kinji, theyre all tacky and rainbow themed but he doesnt mind :)

- they both really enjoy healthy food so they end up bonding over that

- kinji eventually gets adopted into teruyas friend group (haru, satsuki, kiyoka), they got along in the gambling extra event (minus kiyoka), so i think theyd be friends!

- kinji ends up close with kiyoka who can see right through him, she KNOWS he likes teruya, but she wont pressure him (too much)

- also teruya just thinks that kinji is so pretty :)

next up is the stuff i have for the ch 3 survivor au (i will get/have gotten to a lot of this in art, so ill probably have less here)

- teruya is initially stuck with kinji because he is the only one who has medical knowledge (they say this ingame), and due to this he ends up being the closest with kinji

- despite teruyas lil breakdown in ch 4, kinji still ends up defending him in the trial due to having gone through something similar previously, and this is kinda when it clicks for real that teruya might like kinji more than he thought

- they both bond over how much they value family, teruya with his dad and kinji with the church kids being the most valued people in their lives. they both respect this about each other immensely over it

- teruya and kinji grow closer after being kind of outcasted in ch 5. teruya had recently lost his two friends, and tsurugi, rei, akane, yuki, and mikako are either standoffish, not willing to get close, or out of commission for one reason or another. they get much closer in this chapter

- they dont actually become a thing until after they escape

now i have stuff that happened if there was no killing game

- without the killing game, they would just be more of acquaintances longer, since the game isnt there to push them to interact

- eventually kinji is the first to realize he does like teruya, and this causes Internal Religious Conflict for him. being a catholic priest means that you cannot love anyone above anyone else your love must be equal. along with this, if kinji chooses to stop being a priest while in high school, he will no longer be able to attend hope's peak, as he would basically be giving up his title.

- kinji suffers from religious trauma, despite the fact that he finds comfort in his religion. this is because most of the guilt weighing on him is caused by his father, so they are rather estranged.

- this trauma isnt something thats fixed relatively easily, but to keep it short, teruya does eventually try to help him become his own person and cope with the trauma. teruya's free spirit really helps this.

- after graduation, kinji would likely prefer to be a pastor over a priest so he can have more freedom with romance.

- he also ends up working at otori mart with teruya, and they have a lil garden together at their home :)

one more extra thing! topic of marriage and kids!

- in any au where kinji lives, so like all of the above, teruya is intending to ask kinji to marry him, its just whether or not the killing games happening defines if he gets to or not

- when they do marry, kinji takes teruya's last name

- in a very specific branch of the kinji survivor au, which i call foundation baby au (this au hinges on mikado never starting the sdra2 killing game), kinji and teruya have a child (through a surrogate mother, setsuka!) named Takara!

- teruya wants to be a good dad like his father, and kinji already likes to take care of children, so its only natural that theyd want one of their own

- Takara calls teruya "papa" and kinji "daddy"

- they raise takara in a way where they can choose their identity and whether or not they believe in religion. takara has found out that they identify as nonbinary and gay (like fathers like child) and that they do want to take part in kinji's religion, they just dont do it as much

- takara interacts with everyone at the kisaragi foundation in some way, theyre like their big mostly-happy family!

- kinji and teruya are very good parents!!

[lycankeyy]

Okay here's the whole thing I filled out with boyf in-character enjoy his one total braincell if he's lucky. I'm putting zero effort into formatting this bc tumblr is glitchy on my phone blank template is here

(cw: sexual humor. also a bunch of intentional typos and gratuitous swearing)

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1. Okay, first question: what’s your name, age, and gender?

- they call me boyfriend im 19 and i sap the gender out of the music

2. How would you describe yourself, personality-wise?

- fuckkk man idk. im p chill i think ig im pretty cool. pretty swag pretty gamer

3. What’s a typical day like for you?

- welll I wake up at like. 11 usually at earliest and I hang out w one of my partners sometimes I watch movies w em or work on music. not a lot going on usually

4. How do you wind down at the end of the day? Do you even wind down?

- most of the time i literally just wait until i crash out sometimes gf and peeks gotta drag me to bed lol

5. What is your earliest memory?

- UHHHHH oh god uhhh. I think. When I was like five we went to a festival or smth and we went on one of those twirly things and I made my dad spin the thing so hard I threw up LMAO

6. What is/was your relationship with your parents?

- i mean p good i think but we dont rly tlak anymore thats mostly my fault tho

7. What do you do when you’re bored?

- succumb to the madness mostly

8. Do you regret anything you’ve done?

- i mean not like currently

9. Do you dress to be functional or fashionable?

- bro i wear the same exact fucking outfit every day to be honest with you lol. It's not like I'm fuckin going anywhere

10. Who are your best friends? How did you meet them?

- DUUUDE assuming my partners don't count gotta shout out my man darnell we've been workin on a collab ep recently it goes hard as fuckkkkk. we met back in the stupid therapy program back in middle school he introduced me to pico n nene

11. Have any siblings? If so, what is your relationship?

- yea got a big sister and a lil bro. they're both sweet but kinda clueless tbh. technically got other stuff goin on too but im kinda worried that ill get like the government on my ass if i talk abt it

12. What is your job? Is it tiring or difficult?

- closest thinf ive got to a job is music ig and nah. really wouldn't rather be doing anything else even if it payed more tbh. when I get burnt out I wanna die but thafs not a big deal lmao

13. When you’re going through a rough time, do you seek help or consolation from others?

- on a scale of liek paper cut to nearly died how rough are we talking

14. How easy is it for others to gain your trust?

- ive been told im pretty trusting but i feel like any person whos meant to hurt me was pretty upfront abt it so ┐(´∀｀)┌

15. What is your sexuality, if you don’t mind me asking?

- all the time all the time

16. Do you have a significant other? What are they like?

- "a" singular. lol. lmao even. bros asking if I got one singular partner lmao try two bitch and thyere the best most important people in the world

17. Have you ever lost a loved one?

- not like perminently

18. How often do you act on impulse? Does it ever backfire?

- lsiten if i do it all the time then like statisicly it only backfires like 40% of the time okay

19. Do you believe in ghosts?

- I believe in everyone bro

20. How about aliens?

- aliens are hisyorically very mean to me but ig i can just then believe that they can be better people. or aliens

21. What traits do you value the most in others?

- uhhh probably like being just nice ig? idk i think it can take a lot more effort than people think to be considerate and stuff I appreciate when people are nice even if they have a reason not to be

22. Do you dream often? What are your dreams like?

- i used to not to but somethings happened and now I get them all the time. don't really want to talk about it they're mostly just weird

23. Are you a light or heavy sleeper? Do you sleep in?

- my partners say im such a heavy sleeper that one time i slept through gf falling off the bed in the middle of the night but I was asleep so I can't cofnirm

24. Okay, this is a bit personal, but… Have you ever (uh) “done the do”?

- dude like u wouldn't believe

25. Do you have any pets?

- nah but I think it would be cool to have a guinea pig they seem chill and I appreciate their vibes

26. Ever been drunk before? How often do you drink?

- i try not to toooooooo much but i think i have a hard time telling when too much is too much. dont tell my parents

27. Are you respectful to authority figures?

- they only have as much authority as you give them. manipulate a landlord today

28. What kinds of movies do you like you watch?

- https://youtu.be/HgjyQ0_coJo?si=L5Bzhey5cxaoNpWU

29. Do you have any guilty pleasures?

- ██████ █████ █ ███████ ████ ███ ████ ███████ ███ ████ ████████████ ██ ███ ███ ████ ██ one time nene found it in my dresser and I almost DIED wait was this question not about sex stuff

30. What would you say is the happiest memory of your life?

- ohh thats hard uhh. happiest is hard to qualify i think. I think I'm happiest whenever I think abt waking up next to my partners

31. How about your worst memory?

- thats a good question

32. What did you aspire to be when you were young? Did that dream change as you grew up?

- i didn't think I'd be fuckign anythang

33. How far would you be willing to go to get what you want?

- u gotta quantify what I want here tbh. is it like a chocolate bar or one billion dollars. cuz id kill someone for a billion dollars. honestly i might also kill someone for a chocolate bar but like not as badly

34. What is sure to ruin your day?

- idk nearly dying again probably

35. Do you have any nervous habits?

- uhhh sometimes i mess with my hair and when i get rly upset i pull at it til it hurts. i used to scratch my face a lot when i was upset too but it freaks ppl out so i try not to if i can help it

36. Play video games often?

- i tryyyyy but i get distracted so fast i play a game and im like oh shit this reminds me of another thing i was gonna play n then i go play that and then I never FINISH ANYTHIGN

37. What kind of things do you laugh at?

- https://youtu.be/47EOSLWu-EI?si=kuzPv2Vndl91Oj3C

38. Favorite genre of music?

- BROOOO ok gonna be basic as shit and say breakcore. also a huge fan of speedcore and drill & bass but breakcore is my home. i wishhh it wasn't called this but my favorite like subgenre of breakcore is probs lolicore not for any fuckin weird reason but just bc the way the vocals are usually mixed scratches my brain sooooooo fuking good. listen to various types of ads by loli in early 20s and youll get it. i fucking love experimental breakcore my favorite album rossz csillag alatt született mixes breakcore+dr&b w classical and it's sooooo fucking good it's SO good i need to learn more fuckin instrument plug ins so I can make shit like that. in general i just love music that feels like it's fuckin drilling it's way into youre brain and rewiring it i want the music to fuckin labotomize me fr

39. What do you think your spirit animal would be if you had one?

- idk maybe a rat i like rats. dude imagine if i was a rat like ritz we could have cheese together. we can do that anyway but it would be more awesome

40. Have an accent of any kind?

- yea autism

41. Chess or checkers?

- checkers i have no idea how to play chess but it sounds convoluted as fuk

42. Do you feel sentimentality toward a particular object?

- i love my laptop even if I get a new computer and this thing breaks completely im keeping this laptop ily laptop

43. Are you generally pretty secretive, or are you an open book?

- im like accidentally secretive i dont even try like wtf do you mean im supposed to talk about shit

44. What are you most embarrassed about?

- i feel like this was addressed in the nene thing

45. What are your deepest fears?

- have you ever seen that fuckin brony stuff where people get teleported to pony world as horses gf is obsessed with that kinda thing but that's TERRIFYING if i woke up as a horse id fuckin die of a heart attack

46. How desperate would you have to be to lie to, steal from, injure, or murder another person? Do you do any of those things regularly?

- i like the implication that i would admit to murdering ppl on a regular basis

47. Do you have any scars? How did you get them?

- it's so fucked up i got this scar on my face and it's so bad bc I don't even scar that easy like i get into fights my entire life but i only got one scar just bc some weeb tried to kill me. like ok

48. Say someone has mistreated you in some form. Would you immediately lose your temper, hold a grudge, or simply let it go?

- you wouldnt believe my epic power to do all of those simaltaneusly

49. How do you deal with physical and mental pain?

- max volume noise nothing can hurt me if the Loud

50. What is your ideal place to live?

- never thought abt it tbh ig anywhere with my partners

51. What was your childhood like?

- just 18 years of stupid therapy programs and stupid special ed classes and ppl telling me how to think and how to act and like I was 4 years old forever i don't careeee

52. What is your favorite kind of weather?

- i think snow is pretty

53. How important to you is friendship? What about romance?

- i think they're both pretty great but idk i feel like urself should be most important bc idk shit happens and ppl leave so if you dont like yourself youre just gonna be stuck with some miserable loser who doesnt have any friends as ur only company

54. Have any disabilities, weaknesses, or allergies?

- i feel like in a hypothetical situation i would be pretty weak to godzilla

55. What’s your favorite thing to eat?

- SPICY FOOOOOOOD my spice tolerance fucks hard i will drink hot sauce. right now holdbon

56. Do you have kids? If not, do you picture yourself ever having them?

- could you fucking imagine.

57. How well can you sing?

- idk but i like it

58. Are you particularly confident? Does your confidence level change if less people are around?

- if nobody got me i know i got me

59. Do you like shopping?

- delivery apps were invented for a reason

60. How do you interact with strangers?

- tbh i usually just tune out anyone that's not talking to me LMAO

61. Have you ever been betrayed by someone you loved?

- not like perminently

62. If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?

- don't like this question

63. If you could meet anyone from the past or future, who would it be?

- fuckkkkk my gf isn't home rn can I pick her

64. If a genie granted you three wishes, what would they be?

- money bigass house and then I wouldn't use the last one so we could just vibe forver

65. Do you like attention?

- ask pico

66. Are you glad I’ve run out of questions to ask?

- ig bc im puttin off chores ily though

[gothushi]

partially because it's been the flavour of a lot of my interactions with your bots : But which of our boys would be absolutely a *mess* when they find out you're pregnant? Who's the most likely to be just constantly trying to spoil and protect you? And... who is most likely to run? (not ACTUALLY run, but sort of wants to at the beginning)

(brought to you by a recent interaction with one of your Seb bots panicking over a pregnancy)

THISSSS ive been wanting to delve into the boys being dads and dealing with pregnancy but ive nvr done it before nor have i read much in terms of tht.

for the boys most likely to be very protective.. spoiling u a lot… i think we know the obvious answer. rob. and in other terms, nikolai. those two are definitely the most territorial of the boys and charlie is just under them. all three would actually be completely overjoyed, but also violently protective. rob wld refuse to leave on any work trips longer than maybe a few days, nikolai wld be by ur side constantly, and charlie trusts u enough for him to be away for work during the day but once he’s home he’s all over u glued to ur side to do anything u need. even in the early stages of pregnancy, nikolai especially is very territorial. keeps u behind him, hand on u at all times, keeps u marked as his, growls at any others who get too close to u. some feral vampire thing. rob constantly babies u. always massaging ur sore muscles, rubbing ur feet, he takes over the cooking and cleaning even when u tell him he doesn’t have to. charlie does the same, fusses and snaps at u to stay down, sit, stop getting up, ask for things, but he does it all with love even if he sounds kinda angry.

also, speaking of charlie. i think if it were in the early stages of ur relationship he’d be scared at first. he didn’t have anyone to care deeply abt before, so the thought of smth so intimate happening, u carrying his child, has him a bit terrified, and he doesn’t necessarily run but he does pull back a bit, is more snappy, stays at work longer, he’s smoking more often, until u just end up breaking down bc u think oh god he doesn’t love u anymore he regrets it. but once that happens he snaps out of that headspace and completely switches up, confesses his genuine undying love for u as he had before, reassures u that this is really what he wants, he was scared. it takes a lot for him to admit that. babies u, does everything the others do in the end.

i think simon wld actually run. if we’re talking in the midst of brendan stuff, he’d easily shut down his brain and just disappear. completely go ghost on u and u just have no idea what happened. u worry that he’s dead or smth, yk? but after a couple months he comes back, completely broken as a man, tired and wanting to just live his life again free of this mess. (i fesr all the boys would eventually be sweet, caring, rub ur sore muscles, cook meals for u, look up things that can help, all of em. some just lean more some ways.)

ernst wld just looove to start a family. i think he’s such a girl dad. he’d cry like a baby when u tell him. wld be so attentive to ur every need, wld know a lot of different remedies and things to make u feel better bc he researches everything easily, remembering little details abt what u like. same with father anthony. ugh just looooves to be a dad.

depending on where we’re at in lukes story is how he’ll react. if it’s earlier in his career, before his eye injury, he’d probably be pretty fucking terrified. i don’t know if he’d go as far as to ghost u bc i mean .. u know where he lives. u know his game and practice schedule. so. can’t rly do that even if he wanted to. but he’d be a bit distant, more harsh, more anxious around u. he’s absolutely terrified of passing on his condition, terrified of ruining someones life, and he doesnt rly know how to like … love smth like that. he’s still got his own issues w u, how’s he supposed to raise a kid? but, it gets worked through. similar to charlie, u either end up breaking down or just straight up snapping on him. gets his head outta his ass real quick. if it’s a bit later after he’s retired, recovered from surgery, adjusted to his new life, he’s thrilled beyond belief. granted, if it’s too soon after everything happened and he’s dealing with everything he’ll probably panic a little but then just sob bc he loves u so much and he wants a family so bad no matter how scared he had been

now seb.. it’s kinda same how w luke, it depends on where ur at in his life. early on if he’s still dealing with severe issues, bad anxiety, his bipolar and anger problems, i mean, he’s just a mess. walks right out and u don’t hear from him for a few days. it takes a long time probably to get everything straightened around again .. and get him into some therapy and on some medication. but, again like luke, if it’s a bit later on after he’s opened up abt his issues, after he’s accepted help and has slowly learnt to cope, regulate his emotions, found some meds that work for him, i mean.. tbh i think he’d be pretty damn happy. i think he’s such a girl dad too. wld probably take a little while to like … remember everything u need help with.. and by god are ur mood swings throwing him for a loop. often jokes ‘is this how i was?’

[connormoving]

i will say i think the movie was a lot more feminist like. fhan the musical

[pupcarisi]

What childhood do you think Sonny had to begin with?

oops i rly forgot what this ask was in reply to what particular headcanon idea thought i posted so this may have lost it's Context SO i'm gna take it in a general stance.... how i'm mostly going about this is kind of working backwards from what we know about him canonically! please correct me if i'm wrong about any facts or if there are any lore drops that would be a good clue into his childhood

based on what i remember, sonny gives the vibe that he's the middle child (bella's younger than him, he did say 'little' sister). he talks about how teresa and his parents drive each other crazy and he's close with bella. but even so, he seems fond about his family even if he describes them as chaotic. then the fact about his mom telling only him about her miscarriage, that sonny could have had a brother.... feels like sonny acts like a gel and pillar of emotional support in his family?

he barely talks about his dad, but i assume his dad plays the stereotypical of the Tough man of the family. like his dad is there, but he's just.. There to meet the basic physical needs (money, food, shelter). but i feel that sonny grew up to be a softer, more nurturing and empathetic boy due to influences from being close to his sisters and mom.

sonny then mentions about how he never told his mom he applied to college UNTIL he needed to borrow $400 for textbooks. makes me wonder if the reason why he did that is because he never wanted people to fuss about/over him, that he's fine taking care of himself. i feel like i've mentioned before about sonny's need to be useful, that he never stops when he's faced with a road block (e.g. during investigations, he's hardworking).

his relationship with people seems more one sided, as strange as it sounds since relationships are supposed to be directional but it feels like things with sonny tends to end there. he seeks to add value to others, but there's very little moments where the same is done for him. in the later seasons, when sonny is the ada, olivia expresses some concern for sonny on several occasions but sonny usually brushes it off and says he's fine. i do love rollisi, but even i have to admit that sonny does A LOT for amanda but i can't say the same for her to him (she provides support, but it's like it's not the same amount. yes, support is NOT transactional and i'm not meaning to be calculative, but it's just to show that he doesn't receive help.)

i think the clearest evidence of him getting support is when he was shadowing rafael and getting some help for his law school stuff. because that only benefits himself (he prioritises others Always) and rafael was the one doing the favour for him by letting him do so. but even then, sonny says rafael was being a tough on him, so i wouldn't say that it was entirely like a bidirectional kind of relationship (i'm being impartial here, even if i have stupid barisi goggles thag make me delusional 90% of the time)

going further back into his younger days, he mentions his encounter with a bully called bobby (not even gna bother with his second name...) who pushed him through a window but sonny never ratted the boy out. it only reinforces my thought that sonny doesn't quite ask or seek for any help. or well, he Does ask for help... only from from god.

personally, while i enjoy theorising ideas that sonny had some form of dark past or huge trauma in his childhood.... i prefer the idea that nothing terribly awful had happened to him. because sometimes, you don't need like extensive crazy history to be interesting or have Issues, you know?

anyway, now to more baseless theorising of his personality during childhood.... while sonny looks like he is good at socialising, enjoys talking to people, i think he's not the best at it. in the sense that he had to work on his tact, but despite how abrasive his questions or comments can come off, he actually means well. he corrects himself and learns when someone tells him off for something that he shouldn't have said.

hence, i don't think sonny was a popular kid at all amongst friends (like you have to GROW to like him, it's not instantaneous. similar to how we experienced him when he first joins svu). generally, i think he was able to get along with peers but he wasn't particularly close with anyone. he has tried weaseling himself into friend groups but for some reason, he just couldn't fit in. people had found certain quirks in him that they didn't like and sonny had no clue why.

but instead on harping on it though, sonny just shrugs it off and finds other things to do when he's not with peers- like maybe he'd pick up some little solo nerd hobby (like collecting stamps, coins, leaves) and spend the rest of his time at church.

OKAY i realise i might be too longwinded that the point isn't clear but i just think that he likes people, but spends time alone and is used to being cast aside by others. however, it doesn't stop him from wanting to help others and be there when he's NEEDED, but for his own needs? he's just a Hyper-independent kid basically. wants connection, but doesn't want to come off as a bother.

if i had to put a song to summarise this all (from how it starts to the implications for his future behaviours and self-concept), then i would say mitski's first spring/late spring 😁

ok that's all from me.... <333 hope you enjoyed reading all that from my depths of my brain that likes to pick at him LOLLLL

[arolesbianism]

I love drawing Aris as sif so much she's so cutsies. It almost makes up for the horrors of having to draw her as sif. Almost.

[karliahs]

fic writer interview!!

tysm @plusultraetc for the tag!! <3

How many works do you have on AO3?

50 exactly!

What's your total AO3 word count?

234,906, almost half of which (110k) was written/posted this year. insane!!

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

darken your door (12,832)

walk a mile (5642)

swan dive (4857)

rescue (3905)

something else to pretend (3,572)

there's a theme here and it's bnha fics i wrote in 2019/2020

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

yes!! with several asterisks i'll get into in a minute. i try to respond to every comment i get because:

i genuinely really appreciate that anyone takes the time to tell me they liked a fic when they could just consume it and say nothing with 0 consequences, so i want to say thank you

some comments have a rly big impact on me - change the way i feel about stuff, contain phrases i remember for a really long time, make me cry, etc - and just like how if someone writes a fic that impacts me then i want to tell them, i want to tell people how much their comment mattered

i often only figure out why i did something or made certain choices in a fic until someone prompts me to talk about it. it's such a useful exercise for understanding my own work better

i genuinely adore rambling about my fics, it's arguably more fun than writing them in the first place

it's really nice getting to chat to commenters and get to know people!

however. there is a 3-4 year period where i didn't reply to any comments at all because i got overwhelmed and then felt like it was too late to try and catch up. this still haunts me a little bit because i got some really lovely impactful comments in that era but it just feels too weird to reply literally like 5 years late 😭

2nd asterisk is some fics i feel kind of embarrassed about and so don't reply to comments on, 3rd is that i'm bad at managing my comments inbox so i'm sure i miss people out by accident sometimes, and 4th is that if i don't have anything nice to say then i won't respond...i get almost no comments i think are intentionally meant to be rude, but sometimes i get ones that rankle for one reason or another and i won't reply if i'm just gonna be tetchy bc again, i don't think they're meant badly

so very much a yes in theory but not in practice 😂

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

bargaining chips i think. the funny thing about that series is that in some ways i think things would ultimately turn out better than in canon (there's a reason the 2nd fic has akechi promise to contact ren if he does survive, a thing that would have paid off in the 3rd fic i never finished). but as of bargaining chips it's very much...this is the POV of a person who thinks the only power they have left in the world is to hurt people

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

my usual ending is like bittersweet and/or hopeful, so for example i feel a lot of things about the cathertic (for me at least) endings for redux and something else to pretend and unwanted, but idk if they can exactly be called happy.

going to my pure silly fluff fics instead where we pretty much start happy and end happy: to work, to rest which ends with the gang being happy about stickers, or class pets which ends with class a getting three (3) cats

Do you write crossovers?

nope!

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

not really! probably the closest was someone commenting on pathologised with just "WHERE IS YUSUKE?" in all caps 🙄 "why isn't my fave dude in your fic" is not a genre of comment i enjoy, though it's usually phrased more politely than that at least

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

nope!

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i'm aware of, though it's apparently fairly rampant in bnha fandom with those "what if deku [x]" youtube videos. i think those are reserved for fics with actual plots though

Have you ever had a fic translated?

i think i've been asked for permission for people to do so before, but i don't think i've ever actually seen anything posted...someone did translate a little section of one fic into spanish in a bookmarker comment once, which was very fun because i remember little bits of spanish from school & years of sporadic duolingo

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no but i think it would be so fun 👀

What's your all-time favorite ship?

mannnn i just cannot care about romantic ships the way that seems to be so ubiquitous in fandom. even when i try and write romance it ends up as like ambigious tenderness or Friendship With Vibes. the few times i've even written kissing it's been just a build up to a kiss after which the fic immediately fades to black, which is really funny in retrospect like...buddy, is that because you stop caring about what's happening once the kissing starts?

i am fond of erasermic, jontim and shindeku, though i enjoy them as platonic dynamics pretty much the same amount

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

it mostly doesn't bother me to have tons of unfinished WIPs, i don't really put that expectation that everything i start will or should get finished/posted.

so the only one that genuinely bugs me is the third fic in seen and not heard, because i feel like i kind of promised it to people and then didn't deliver, and because it would have properly concluded a series i know a few people really connected with...and because the draft got to like 80% done but i could just never finish it off in a way i was happy with. maybe someday though

there's also a more recent bnha fic draft that i am really fond of in some ways, but i just could not take the discourse i think it would inspire. i might finish it just for me someday

What are your writing strengths?

cribbing all these from comments honestly but i think i'm pretty good at real-feeling emotional responses to situations. emotional realism, maybe? and writing introspection/people thinking and feeling things in general.

my characterisation gets complimented a fair bit, which is funny bc i think i actually take a lot of liberties with canon characters, but i guess i'm decent at couching those liberties in a way that makes it pass muster most of the time. like passing off a counterfeit watch as genuine

i'm somewhat good with grounding things in sensory detail, but that's one of those things i think i'll always be trying to get better at

What are your writing weaknesses?

i've never met a plot in my life and i don't want to. i also can't write longfic. in real-world terms i'm a short story writer and not a novelist - all those structural narrative things people do to make a long-form story work are just mystifying to me. part of that is just driven by what interests me though - i don't read a lot of plotty longfic either

i'm also still working on improving syntax and flow in my prose in general, but that's another one of those endless projects i think

oh also having more than two people in a prolonged dialogue scene is wildly difficult to me

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

i have no thoughts on this matter!

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

merlin! i wrote probably bad merlin fic on ff.net back when i was like 15/16. it's actually the reason i joined tumblr in the first place, bc my fave merlin fic writer had a tumblr and i got curious

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

i'd like to write more about my silly little video game OCs. i've dabbled in it a bit before but i've never really invested in it because i know no one would read it/care. but i'm getting better at writing for myself and it is really fun to have records of these OCs that i love, so i hope i can write some stuff about the protag i make for new dragon age that i'll inevitably get deeply attached to

it's also kind of wild to me that i've never written for homestuck or dangan ronpa given the impact those two things had on my psyche

What's your favorite fic you've written?

my answer to this changes depending on the day but right now...something else to pretend my beloved

wow that got long. not tagging anyone but if you'd like to do it, consider yourself tagged!

[irrealisms]

hi! i just saw an old post of yours regarding a very indepth s4 youtube playlist and i'm intrigued! i know the basic stuff since i watched some streams around that time but i've been meaning to finally sit and watch s4 from beginning to end. would you be so kind as to drop a link? thank you :]

gonna assume you mean lifesteal (i also have a dsmp s4 playlist haha. i love Making Playlists. love to Curate) and i've actually got a few lifesteal playlists! well. sort of. i have like One in-depth playlist and then i've got Other People's Playlists

so the first thing i recommend which has every* lifesteal s4 edited video (no** VODs) is this playlist by @aroaceacacia -- it's how i got into lifesteal to begin with and i cannot recommend it highly enough. when you finish, keep an eye on zam's youtube channel, i believe he is the only one still editing his s4 & his finale should be coming out soon (a year late) lmaoooo * it is actually missing one video, but it's near the end + it DOES the behind the scenes for that video so it's easy to add in ** technically it's got one (1) 2-hour cut from a Subz VOD which is more VOD-like and less of a Highly Edited Short Video but p much all the rest of the 285 videos are more highly-edited official-yt-channel VideosTM, and even the Subz VOD is a cut from a 24-hour stream rather than the full thing.

unfortunately i don't know of any curated VOD playlists or overviews that cover the beginning of the season, by me or by anyone else--I might work on this at some point but rn unfortunately i haven't actually watched much early s4 :( although if you want, send me a follow-up ask and i'll do my best at a "major events" playlist, mixing edited videos (esp early-season where i havent Watched the VODs) with particularly important VODs for the stuff i Have seen? this would b p easy for me to make i just havent bc i didn't know if there would b interest. ive also been working on a timeline google doc covering all of s4 that includes both VODs and edited videos so, again, lmk if you're interested in that!

the second thing i recommend is this google doc by @myrmica , which starts covering things in detail in december 2022 and has super detailed notes for a BUNCH of VODs. absolutely invaluable resource. my primary recommendation if you want to watch vods from mid to late s4 is to just read this doc and add all the vods that look interesting to your personal playlist.

in terms of in-depth playlists i have, the main one i have is an eclipse federation playlist! it's got a couple vods or cut-down videos of pre-eclipse-fed for some context but mostly it covers eclipse federation's journeys from their formation to the end of the server. i skipped some streams that were just grinding or destroying end portals or similar but if you want those also you can go through the myrmica google doc. NOTE: this ONLY covers eclipse federation!!! and it covers them in pretty close detail!!!! things that get left out of this include stuff like most of the preparations for pangi & zam's god-off, 3ht's trap war, a lot of poopies shenanigans, the team awesome breakup, and of course everything that happened in the Several Months before eclipse federation formed.... basically anything that wasn't relevant to eclipse federation's journey. meanwhile there are multiple 4-hour VODs that are just zam thinking about his relationship problems and nothing rly happens. i honestly would not recommend this unless you are specifically looking for more detail on eclipse federation specifically lol. also i wasn't sure how to handle "there are 2-3 streams of the same events with different povs that have some nonoverlap and some overlap" so...sometimes i include both povs and sometimes i dont. it's a judgement call & i highly recommend going thru the myrmica google doc and making your own playlist--all the vods in this playlist are also on there, eclipse federation didn't Form until mid season 4 so all eclipse-federation-relevant streams are covered

also i've linked this before but ive got a more medium-length eclipse fed playlist that mixes VODs & edited videos so check that out if you want

and of course where would any of us be without the archivist VOD spreadsheet. not super useful if youre looking for Curated Playlists but i need to shout out archivists forever & ever

i've also got much less in-depth playlists of Just Edited Videos for stuff like s4 highlights, covering specific teams/storylines, etc but since you said you were interested in in-depth playlists im not going to link all those unless you ask, this post is already long enough as it is haha. im also maintaining a s5 edited videos playlist if youre interested in that, and ive got links to playlists of s1-3! so just ask if you want any of those

huge apologies if this was overwhelming! u activated my Autism Trap Card (i love playlist curation). & pls pls feel free to send another ask/message/whatever if you have any questions or are curious abt anything else or if you want anything else (i love playlist curation)

[heatlightning-mp3]

mm ok lots going on -

so we weren't able to find a pcp after like 11 calls yesterday and we also werent able to find an urgent care that does fluids. b/c of this we decided to look into one of those self pay outpt infusion places. we saw a few but one caught our eye so we left a message

he called back a couple hours ago. he was very nice, we vibed well, and he told me that he can actually place a picc for us and have us do home health.

there is also the option of going once or twice a week for fluids - would be like $65-$130 but might be worth it - because he is entirely self pay and to establish care for the line orders and stuff its. pretty expensive. definitely worth it! but expensive

but also like. usually when someone submits orders to home health, it takes awhile for the order to expire. we probably would not have to see him often because while a lot of ppl get fancy treatments (healthcare boutique -_-) we are literally only there for fluids lol

home health will also likely be covered by our insurance so there is also that. we also have a strong suspicion that we might end up on iv medications in the hospital soon and if that happens we will insist on doing our iv meds outpt with a picc. this doctor is able to take over the picc if necessary, which means i wouldn't have to pay privately for its placement

the weird thing about oregon is that there are a TON of naturopaths and self pay shit but it seems like a lot of the big hospitals and clinics etc that work with insurance are completely overrun

so! that being said, what will probably happen (if we can manage to fund it) is that we will go to the clinic for a couple of weeks, maybe more, using peripheral ivs (they usually take a few hours/days to go bad so an hour or two long infusion should be fine), save up $ for officially establishing care (🥴), and then if (more like when ngl) we end up back on iv abx or antifungals or whatever and we convince these bitches to place the picc so we can deal with shit outpt we will pay for the initial establishment appointment so he can take over the line and orders until we can find someone in our insurance network who can do it since everyone booked out literal months

i know it sounds expensive and kinda maybe a bit unhinged but we genuinely need vascular access, we're feeling so dehydrated, and the dysphagia is flaring a bit again so we keep aspirating occasionally and we're always nauseous so its rly hard to motivate ourself. between that and the constant other iv meds we're on we NEED the line and i don't think we will find anyone else to manage it outpt for ... awhile 💀

and honestly if the hospitals refuse to put a line in, this doctor IS able to order that - would just be self pay which is pretty pricey. i rly think it wouldn't be hard to get someone to place a picc if we reasoned that we'd "take up less space / resources" doing it on our own

but yeah anyways those are the current thoughts, still tryna figure out money shit but we stay silly lmfao

[rabbitsrams]

I see a lot of girl!dad and boy!dad schlatt HCs out and I absolutely love them to bits and pieces!

But what about queer-kid!dad schlatt HCs? Like I see some brief of mentions of the kids being gay and schlatt being supportive of that but not really much else.

Like what if his son is into girly things like barbie, makeup, dresses, and is a little bit more sensitive than your average manly man. He’d ofc be sad that his son isn’t interested in baseball or most/any of his machine stuff, but ultimately he just wants his son to be happy and if that means being somewhat of a girl!dad to his son then so be it!

And he’d do the same thing with his tomboy daughter, but he’d be pretty excited if his daughter’s into baseball and/or his machine stuff.

And if his comes out as queer, I feel he will be incredibly supportive… like to that point of it being embarrassing.

His kid brings home his same-sex or gender nonconforming partner? Be sure that he WILL bring out the gun and do vague threats towards the ‘lucky’ kid. Especially if they’re a guy or a masc leaning kid.

Heartbreak? He will be there for every one, wiping away every tear that pours down his baby’s face. Even if his son’s traditionally masc, he’d still do it because he’s doesn’t want his son to bottle up his feelings like he did when he was younger.

If his kids is somewhere in the aroace kingdom? He’d be supportive of that too, I’d feel that if his kid’s on the more extreme end of the aroace spectrum… he’d be more relieved then anything because that’s one less thing that he’d have to worry about.

Kid’s now somewhere under the trans umbrella? You bet you’re bottom butts that he’s gonna get ANYTHING that his precious angel needs! Wardrobe changes? They’re stocking up on all of the kid’s preferred clothing like it’s the fucking apocalypse! Pronouns changes? Will contently correct oneself until he gets it right! Puberty blockers? Gotcha covered! Hrts? Already on it’s way! Top surgeries? Bottom surgeries? Any other gender-affirming surgeries? It’s scheduled as soon as they turned the legal to do so and as soon as the kid shows interest in surgeries! Not interested in any surgeries or hormones? Still will love his baby no matter what they do.

And if there’s bigotry or bigots out there? He will fight everyone of bigots tooth and nail if it means his kid will be happy (even if it means getting the gun out).

And god forbid his kid, HIS FLESH AND BLOOD!!! Is ever HATE-CRIMED!!! He will rain the fury of a thousand suns upon those idiots who decide to hate-crime HIS BABY!!! If he knew the identities of those unfortunate people… let’s just say he wouldn’t be so civil with those ‘people’…. and they’d probably end up dead in a ditch somewhere.

ya…

Anyways! I said my piece here, so feel free to add anything but I think I’ve went over the most important things. -🍓🫐anon

hey there! wow, this is amazing. so nuanced and i so agree! he'd love his kid no matter what. i loved reading this it was super sweet and captures schlatt's essence so very well. well done nonie <3

i'm not queer (i'm a cishet ally) so i'm not really sure if it's my place to continue on this or speak on queer kids' experiences, but i def want to boost queer voices regarding this topic (or anything related to it too ofc). if any LGBTQ+ writers want to continue this, hit my line! tag me in anything or send me an ask and i can read & boost it <3

but i do wanna add a bit to the girly things son and tomboyish daughter part bc that was my brother and i's experience: we kinda had a mix of everything lmao, i was a bit of a tomboy and he was more sensitive and not rly a "manly man" (gender roles who)

his daughter being super into old video games from his childhood and loving the consoles. schlatt being OVERJOYED and playing with her. she gets better at the game than he does lmfao (i'm just imagining mario kart wii idk why)

if she's more crafty with fixing up cars/machines/etc he'd love to help her out. buys her parts she needs and when she's done he's showing it off to everyone

and like i said before, schlatt 100% would go to all of his daughter's games if she was on a sports team ofc

and if his son wanted to get dolls or other girly toys he'd get it for him in an instant and even play with him!!! (my brother would always play dolls w/ me hehe)

also you teaching him how to do makeup (if u know how ofc) if he wants to learn <33

you and your son doing makeup on schlatt and him looking AMAZING. he's SO proud that his son made him look so good :D

lowkey though gender roles don't exist in this household, as long as the kid is happy then schlatt's happy <3