#rip mum

[deermanic]

“Your body is away from me

but there is a window open

from my heart to yours.”

Rumi

[beejsdevilishsoulmate]

A photo of my Mum circa 1990s

It was 5 years ago on the 6th when my Mum passed away.

I've been thinking about her a lot, this time of the year is always hard for me and I've been looking at the few photos I have of her.

This one is one of my favourites, she's not posing, probably didn't even know it was taken until the flash went off.

She looked like she was in her own world, zoned out, with thoughts rushing through her mind.

I miss her so much! We were so close, I shared everything with her and we picked each other up when we were down.

Right now I'm split between taking care of my Nan and also helping to take care of my Uncle, while dealing with my own health problems.

I'm being worn down, but I've got too many people relying on me, I can't take a break!

At the moment I want to stay locked away in my dark room, hiding from all the responsibilities, but I can't!

If she was here, she would take charge and make thing bearable, but she's not and I feel alone even in a crowded room.

Do you remember when we thought being an adult would be better than being a child? How wrong we were!

[stealingpotatoes]

Skywalkers apart au where is the character that was behind everything the person that everyone believed was a clumsy idiot but was actually waiting and biding his time.

Where is Jar Jar Binks.

he tripped on a landmine and was killed to death xoxo rip

[verityblack]

Thinking The Underworld couldn’t get sadder after Polities

“Waiting”

[twisting-in-wonderland]

I do like the colours during overblots,,

(wip stuff under read-more)

Nothing too fancyy

[themintman]

Fit check 😝✌️

[darth-sonny]

Who's the...Baroness? How'd Goatman get the turtle kids?

i was originally going to say that they were adopted, but with a bit more research, i decided to opt out of that choice. adopted kids in the regency era were a complicated lot, and inheritance becomes rather muddy with them

SO!!! let's just say that Draxum is their stepfather who married their mom (another turtle) and badabing badaboom!!: dad

also, the correct term is Countess!!

[raccoon3241]

MY MUM IS SO FUCKING SMART (ily mother 🫶🏻)

We're watching Season 4 Episode 8 and it's at the part where Max is talking to Lucus about how she is going to stay away from Vecna by finding one of her happiest memories.

Lucus asks "am I in it?" To which Max says "that's presumptuous of you" this implies that Max's happiest memory has Lucus in it - which we all know because in the next episode she's at the 1984 Hawkins Middle Snow Ball

But this isn't Max's happiest memory. Because Vecna finds her incredibly easily, which then causes Max to be caught by Vecna.

Going back to before, Max said he happiest memory is somewhere Vecna wouldn't find her. And when El went into Max's mind to find where she was, she couldn't find anything.

Why?

Because El wasn't there for that happy memory. Maybe Lucus wasn't even there.

So my theory is that Max's happiest memory is either when she was back in California with her mother and father, or some point during season 2 or between season 2 and 3.

This was such a spur of the moment theory that my mum just said randomly but IT SOUNDS SO PLAUSIBLE 😭😭

Please tell me if you think this is a good theory though, cause I think it has some pretty good evidence? :/

[evocatiio]

if chibnall was the one writing this season you lot would be talking VERY differently

[pushing500]

Okay, I feel like such an idiot because I accidentally deleted the ask haven't cried about it yet though so that's a win, but someone asked me if I thought Mechi and Kwahu's long hair, coffee-fueled all-nighters, and work surrounding complex machinery would ever result in disasters or terrible, embarrassing haircuts.

The answer is yes! I think these two dumbasses get their hair caught in everything all the time, but they're too proud to cut it, so they just take the machines apart and then painstakingly put them back together again every time there's an accident.

For your viewing pleasure, other places where Mechi's utter disregard for shop safety and OSHA regulations is discussed: here and here

[theladyofbloodshed]

some feyre stans: nesta said feyre smells which is abusive actually

me and my siblings for no reason:

[beejsdevilishsoulmate]

Friday will be the 5th anniversary of my Mum's passing.

In some ways it feels like the times passed in the blink of an eye, in other ways it feel like it's been an eternity.

I'm still haunted by it, I don't think that will ever change.

I know that I'm not the same person I was before it happened! I don't think I'll ever be able to return to who I was...

But thankfully I'm in a much better place than I was, I'm on meds that actually work for me and haven't had a manic episode for just over a year.

(YAY ME!!! 🎉🎉)

The only problem I have at the moment are the PTSD nightmares, they suck!

But I have more good days, than bad at the moment, which is great, even with the shit going on with my family.

But when the bad days come, before I go to sleep I say out loud, "tomorrow is a brand new day!" It's my way of saying - 'OK, today was shitty, but the good days will return!'

[kheyys-worms]

Plucking away at your happiness.

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Another fic fanart, this time it's inspired by another @merakiui's masterpiece: His Blueberry Eyes 💙💙 Go check the fic out! But do read the warnings first cause, boy... ngl, this one's heavy--

[storytellerofuntoldlegends]

flower husbands fans I don't think we're losing our shit enough over Scott’s "if you had said I love you, I would've given you the 30 minutes" like hello are we really just glossing over that

[barbieyaga]

ok question for my friends who don't live near the ocean or actually also people who do

*things like how to identify a rip, don't swim where these heaps of dark spots and swim between the flags etc

[ineedfairypee]

Wait what