#reminder that my shop is open rn also

[callmelyc]

[jichanxo]

haul under the cut 👍 (this is gonna get long because i want to link to as many artists as possible)

kseichu (beatrice, oc stuff) (linktree) crmsnmsk (arakawa family pin) (etsy) kirvia (carrd), qosic (bio site), naroym (tw, ig) -- they boothed together, but i think the sigma is from qosic, and the zine from kirvia+naroym. naroym drew the little tomi! dearmiini (bunny stickers) (store, ig) anime abbotsford (cardcaptor sakura x sanrio figure) (website) kr3amroll (yagami keychain, shishido keychain) (linktree) jarofjamm (ichi+tanimura print) (website, tumblr) pastel aggressive (glitter heart stickers) (facebook) alli ens (photocard holder) (website, tumblr) marinewaltz (ffxiv and vocaloid stickers) (website, tumblr)

and of course, the magazine i mentioned in this post. grabbed it secondhand from hondarake! was recommended to me by someone (and my sister insisted on going) and yeah. good spot tbh i enjoyed it very much and i will be back (or perhaps lurking their site now that i know it exists...)

probably going to be less active for about a week or so cause i'm going to sydney (and attending smashcon).

[satellitespinner]

dogtooth ; roommate!ellabs

˗ˏˋcollab with my beautiful angel @williamssgirl ´ˎ˗

- inspired by @beforeimdeceased “chaotic roomates” series ! please go support theirs!

reminder !! do not support neil or any of his work !

wc: 2.1k | her ver

⁃ roomate!ellabs who were bsfs w u before and when you needed a place to stay they happily invited you to join them on their lease !

⁃ cooking with them is... chaotic. but some days it was good!

⁃ bumping ur hip with ellie because she sucks and she gets all blushy and flustered

⁃ abby gently grabbing ur hips to get around you

⁃ taking .5s of them ALL THE TIME!! they hate it but you love it

⁃ they have no idea how to use the ring camera you installed, one day they've locked themselves out and are begging you to let them in

⁃ "open the door it's cold out ©" "let us in.... babeeee

⁃ falling asleep while watching a movie like a literal dogpile

⁃ while beforehand yall were arguing for twenty minutes on what movie to watch because you and abby wanted to watch scream and ellie can't handle horror for the LIFE of her

⁃ (so you eventually settle on a romcom)

⁃ abby and ellie playing video games and ur sorta just sitting there staring at their hands watching them play

⁃ "did u win?" "no i died."

⁃ when you do end up playing a game with them it's usually fortnite

⁃ abby is so gentle with you and helping you through the game

⁃ "good job babe!" "show me those bike skills" "want the sniper? i know you said you like those"

⁃ however with ellie....

⁃ "BABE BABE BABE KILL HIM SHOOT HIM SHOOT SHOOT SHOOT" "FUCK HE HAS TO BE A FUCKING
BOT THERES NO WAY" "FUCK YEAH I GOT HIM TAKE THAT"

⁃ ellie putting her hands on urs on the controller when their first teaching you how to play and whenever she gets touchy <3

⁃ sitting on their laps while they play...

⁃ sleepover with them go NUTS

⁃ ellie buys SO MUCH SOUR CANDY

⁃ abby fucking HATES sour candy and you and ellie are trying to trick her into having a warhead

⁃ "no im not putting that vile shit in my mouth" "abby it's literally so sweet trust me" "no eat it it's just candy" "just try!

⁃ pouting to get ur way and she gives in (and immediately spits it out)

⁃ pouting to get ur way works with her no matter what

⁃ abby would be a personal trainer and also work somewhere in analytics

⁃ ellie would be a mechanic and livestream for a living (she acts like it's no big deal but she's gained a surprisingly large following)

⁃ reader owns a bakery that's also a flower shop and always brings in spare treats for them to have!

⁃ "guys i got doughnuts for you!"

⁃ you buy them flowers all !! the !! time !! and you assign really specific meanings to them

⁃ "so the poppy means... and the tulip with the poppy means..."

⁃ they're pretending to listen... (they are listening so intently)

⁃ them ganging up to tickle u at least once a day (you act like you despise it but in reality your devouring it)

⁃ FORCING THEM TO MAKE TIKTOKS WITH YOU

⁃ abby's texting you "Babe wdym I have to take a quiz on what aura I have." "can u just do it?"

⁃ omfg and forcing abby to get tiktok because she refused to get it for so long only for her to be on it more than you

⁃ getting into an argument with one of them is certainly something!

⁃ ur refusing to talk to ellie and ur communicating to her through abby (ellie is speaking to you directly and you are staring at abby "abby tell ellie im not speaking to her rn" and ur being DEAD serious... they're laughing their asses off

⁃ kissing abby in front of ellie to make her jealous when ur fighting

⁃ and whenever ellie and abby are fighting you straight up ignore them until they come to their senses and apologise

⁃ matching tattoos! you have a sun, abby has a moon and ellie has the stars V

⁃ uno and they both have extra cards under the table

⁃ "are you guys cheating" "OH MY GOD NO OF COURSE NOT-" "HOW COULD YOU EVEN SUGGEST THAT?!" "WHAT DO YOU MEAN?" "WE WOULD NEVER DO THAT TO YOU A GAMES A GAME"

⁃ ellie standing up to get water and you yell at her

⁃ abby and ellie pull pranks on eachother all the time!

⁃ and you are constantly getting caught in the middle of it

⁃ and one time you contribute and both of them are arguing on who did what prank having zero clue it was you

⁃ and ur just giggling off to the side

⁃ the two would have such bad jealousy issues

⁃ like they see u GLANCE at another girl and they're dragging you home

⁃ and then they go "we aren't even jealous people! she was practically eye fucking you. that's why we left!"

⁃ like girl she had a whole bf

⁃ imagine covering them in lipstick kissed and taking a picture...

⁃ making them do the lipstick trend

⁃ OR the nail polish eye colour trend!

⁃ u having a hard day and they're RUSHING to comfort you

⁃ girls were STRESSEDDDD like ellie's holding you while abby's rushing to get the bath filled up

⁃ "stupid fucking bathtub isn't filling up!!! hurry up!!!!!" and now they're more stressed than you fo

⁃ the nicknames.

⁃ ellie's pretty basic with it. calling you babe, baby, honey, pretty girl, etc.

⁃ but with abby she likes to be unique with it. calling you princess, darling, etc.

⁃ and u reversing the nicknames on them...

⁃ talking to abby and she's helping u w something and u go "thanks princess!" then kiss her on the cheek like nothing happened

⁃ "she's like "tf??"

⁃ but with ellie she's chasing you around the house and pinning you down till you say she's daddy

⁃ how rewardina it is for them when ther see u aet allblushy and stuff

⁃ they would feel so cocky and proud of the themselves

⁃ abby sending you playlists and ellie showing you drawings

⁃ and the gifts they would get u ! like gift giving isn't their love language but they wanna spoil you

⁃ "oo i like that shirt" abby's already ordered it. in every colour.

⁃ like you sneak a peek at a bracelet and now it's ellie's job to keep you distracted while abby runs in and buys it

⁃ sleeping w a stuffy and being so tired and giving it a kiss on the cheek and bestfriend!ellie is all like

⁃ "where's mine"

⁃ she gets jealous with the amount of plushies u sleep with
"she's the typa girl to joke "hey mamas where's my kiss" after u get home from work and ur just staring at her like
with flour all over you from a failed
recipe

⁃ "no? okay sorry babe"

⁃ goodcop!abby badcop!ellie when u do something bad!

⁃ "babe.... just tell me where u hid my keys and all will be good" "ALL RIGHT LISTEN UP WOMAN..."

⁃ then they end up finding the keys under the couch

⁃ but u lowk hid them there cause you didn't want them to leave..

⁃ abby had a snapchat hey mamas phase and ellie was there to see it

⁃ AND ellie uses it as blackmail in the go

⁃ abby: "Ellie you're so dumb how could you get the directions wrong." "wanna see a magic trick."

⁃ abby backtracks so fast in hopes it'll save her from her fate (it doesn't).

⁃ "and that's the end of my magic show! thank u and goodnight "then ellie disappears because she knows abby will beat her ass

⁃ they have pictures of you in a gallery and you don't know about it

⁃ "is this me sleeping?" "gimme my fuckin phone back-" "you ain't seen NOTHING"

⁃ you would take so many pics of urself on their phones!

⁃ like at dinner and you've managed to sneak one of their phone's under the table and are taking silly selfies

⁃ and you take videos of them snatching their phones back

⁃ the screen is all black and all you can hear is rustling and the faint sound of ellie whining "babe my storageeee" and abby's just laughing

⁃ flipping them off by accident in a photo (both me and aria are victims to this)

⁃ you mean to do 🤘 or 👍 but instead do 🖕

⁃ ellie's feigning hurt and abby's laughing so hard

⁃ abby uses "🤣" and "LOL" but then ellie uses "😭" and "LMAO"

⁃ abby is so literal with her texting

⁃ She types like this. Always uses proper grammar no matter what.

⁃ and ellie... ELLEI TWXTS LIKE THIS

⁃ "babky were is tje Irnon" "ALL CAPS NO PUNCTUSLYIK PJNCTISNTILN"

⁃ ur the only person who can translate ellie's awful texting so you'll occasionally get texts from joel saying stuff like "Kiddo do you know what she was tryna say here?"

⁃ ellie is dyslexic

⁃ and a professional yapper which is why she likes streaming so much

⁃ abby fights the urge to tell her to shut the fuck up

⁃ and sometimes after like a really hard day at work all you wanna do is relax and they just let you

⁃ sending them paragraphs about how much you love them just out of the blue

⁃ ellie's like "??? ru gonna kys"

⁃ abby leaves you on read and smothers you when she's home

⁃ abby chronically leaves people on read

⁃ ellie greets you by slapping or pinching ur ass and abby greets you by giving you a kiss on the side of your face ellie also pretends to fuck you from the back whenever you bend down to pick something up

⁃ the amount of facetimes when you didn't live with them! and the amount you get when your on some sort of work trip

⁃ falling asleep on call and them taking secret screenshots and texting eachother in fear of waking you up

⁃ facetiming you on abby's macbook

⁃ abby uses apple and ellie uses a microsoft laptop

⁃ when ur on a work trip and they're harassing you to call

⁃ "i'm in a meeting" "answer facetime"

⁃ "gimme 5" "5...4...3.2.."

⁃ nobody's home except you and you burn yourself cooking

⁃ they are be RUSHINGGG home

⁃ "guys it's fine i literally barley did anything" "YOUR GONNA DIE"

⁃ "ARE TOU OKAY?!?" "i am literally fine"

⁃ omg the day they actually pay attention to work and your at home and they don’t have a lot of time for you is the day you die

⁃ "i'm in a meeting what's up" "im dynggg.... come back......... zhellipppppp....

⁃ and then you get all bratty and needy

⁃ "come home or i'm gonna fall ill' "YOURE GONNS

⁃ FALL ILL??"

⁃ sitting in abby's lap while she's working from home

⁃ <3

⁃ she's sitting on her chair and ur straddling her with ur face in her shoulder

⁃ biting her arm randomly and she's like "ow wtf?!"

⁃ " biting her for the first time and she's like "?!" girl was alarmed... "are you going feral what is up with you"

⁃ eventually she just gets used to it at some point

⁃ zero reaction to you biting her now

⁃ they go to the gym without you and send gym selfies

⁃ abby LOVESSS to flex

⁃ she'll never admit it but this girl is trying so hard to excentuate her muscles around u

⁃ throws you over her shoulder effortlessly

⁃ annoying her and going "watcha gonna do abby? kidnap me?" and she, in fact, does.

⁃ "let me go!" and she just pats ur ass

⁃ and ellie's always wearing shirts that show her arms off

⁃ making them kiss LOOOLLL

⁃ "awh i think we need a ship name now!" "SHUT UP"

⁃ forcing them to talk to eachother by ignoring them and then they have to talk to eachother on wether or not ur pissed at them or if ur just not in the mood to talk

⁃ them fighting over everything including you

⁃ but or not official with either of them and could go flirt around if u wanted

⁃ them showing up at whatever place u have a date at or something and trolling the poor girl ur out with and then angry dragging u home

⁃ they get SO possessive

⁃ ellie listens to boygenius and you had to beg abby to listen to them and now she loves them

⁃ ellie's got 21 savage, the weeknd, drake, tyler the creator, the neighborhood, chase atlantic, etc on her playlists

⁃ her and abby have similar music tastes with distinct differences

⁃ like abby listens to tyler the creator as well, chase atlantic, HOZIER, frank sinantra, frank ocean.

⁃ all of you love phoebe, mac miller, lorde and childish gambino!

⁃ and you LOVE kali uchis. ur the lalalala to their okokok

⁃ you discovered her when she released telapatia and have been obsessed ever since

⁃ both abby and ellie had a girl in red phase...

⁃ sleeping together in abby's bed bc hers is the biggest

⁃ ur favourite mornings are ones when you can't even get up and out of bed because abby's spooning you and ellie's arm is hung loosely over ur waist

⁃ your situated in the middle with abby on ur right and ellie on ur left

⁃ waking them up with breakfast!
"abby waking up to smelling some delicious food and hugging you from behind with her eyes closed and neck shoved into ur shoulder "smells s' good baby... wanted to spoil us even more after last night huh?" in their raspy morning voice

⁃ all ur in is an oversized tee and some white bow cotton panties (it's one of abby's post workout shirts)

⁃ the only dirt abby has on ellie is the amount of foul photos she has of her sleeping

⁃ ellie drools AND snores

⁃ latching on to you for dear life

⁃ ur shoving the pillow over ur ears in hopes she'll stfu

⁃ and she NEVER does

⁃ sleeping skin to skin with them :)

⁃ "take of your clothes" "why? you wanna..?" "no i just wanna feel u... is that okay?"

⁃ abby has soft skin and ellie has a bunch of random bruises and scars

⁃ abby and ellie are genuinely head over heels for u in all seriousness

⁃ even if they don't like eachother they cope with it for you!

⁃ smooching one of them really hard and like forcing the "MMMMWAH" sound

⁃ ellie has a main insta with zero posts and a spam with 827

⁃ abby has three accounts, one for gains, her main & her stalker (for ur safety obviously)

⁃ meanwhile u just have a main which u post on all the time and a private that nobody knows about for stalking

⁃ ellie shit posts "lol" and it's a photo of a rat smoking a cigarette

⁃ and those stupid memes

⁃ (image)

⁃ sent to abby cause you made a joke about her being breedable in bed 😭

⁃ nsfw!

⁃ ANGRY MAKEUP SEX.

⁃ ellie kisses ur tummy before she eats it

⁃ and abby puts her forearm on ur lower stomach and applies pressure

⁃ abby calls u good girl

⁃ abby comforting you when ellie's going just a little bit too aggressively and manhandling you

[musingmanor]

Just a reminder i got a bunch of adopts on my shop rn for anyone to get theyre hands on! Also i used a shit ton of tags

[earlysunshines]

my life with you is truly wonderful

kim dahyun x fem!reader ; fluff

summary: spending a hundred dollars on eight boxes of chocolate for the love of your life is 100 percent worth it.

wc: 2k

warnings: not proofread :-(, just checked for silly grammar issues

♫⋆｡♪ ₊˚♬ : beautiful by paul partohap

a/n: fluff overload bc i cannot push myself to write anything other than silly little drabbles rn after that 7k word fic.

also i love dahyun my love my light my everything

-

you anxiously tap at the steering wheel, fingertips cold and your left leg is moving up and down anxiously.

two hours late. you were supposed to be home at five; it's seven.

the familiar figure walks out the door in her black t-shirt, sweatpants, and a small bag slung across her—your wife looks effortlessly beautiful—just as she always had these past ten years.

ten years with dahyun, and today marks that day.

your lovely wife opens the door and slips in, smiling at you; it calms your nerves slightly. you're still in your work clothes, it almost makes you chuckle at how comfy dahyun looks when you take a glance at how you look. 

"hi love." you grin, easing into your seat.

"hi sweetheart." dahyun responds. 

you breathe in and prepare yourself to let out all the stress you've been holding inside your body, looking your wife in the eye. "i'm really sorry for being late, everything was just so last minute and yuta made me finish his-"

"honey," dahyun starts, "it's okay, really. i get it."

"i know I just feel really-"

"don't worry about it." she assures—knowing how annoying your coworkers can be. "if you want to make up for it, you could start by showing me your surprise?" dahyun asks, moving herself so that she lingers near your face. 

you smile and put your hand on hers, and you feel the faint touch of her ring on your finger.

"mhm," you respond. 

dahyun pecks your lips.

-

you find yourself at the park. 

it's not too crowded; a couple of older ladies walk together and gossip while they get their daily cardio in, kids and their parents start to walk back to their cars as the sun sets, and some people are biking on the bike path. 

you open the trunk of your car and snatch the basket that sits in it. there's a spot that's empty and away from where most people are that catches your eye, so you slip your hand into dahyun's hand and lead her there.

the basket is set down and you open it up to find the blanket you had packed earlier. it's a blanket you found at some store from when you went grocery shopping, and you made sure to purchase it for this special occasion. 

you set the rest of what was in the basket onto the blanket nicely—except for the small gift you had bought for your girlfriend.

dahyun sits down on the blanket and smiles when you hand her a glass cup. you grab the bottle that contained your specialty tea (it's just green tea and honey, but dahyun calls it your 'specialty' due to you always making it for her when she had felt off or sick. it's special to her, that's all that matters).

"some tea for my lovely lady," you say, placing your hand on her knuckles to prevent her hand from shaking while you pour the tea in. dahyun laughs at you softly, and that grin on her face reminds you how lucky you are.

you pour a cup of tea for yourself and clink it with hers. you both drink it at the same time.

-

an hour passes by and you two enjoy tea as the sun sets, talking about each other's day and catching up, whether it's about family, friends, or anything like that.

when the sun had completely set, you pull out a small, LED candle and flip the switch to turn it on, making dahyun laugh at your "romantic" gesture.

"you're so cheesy." dahyun jokes.

"you love it." (dahyun does).

you take off your work jacket—the gray blazer that fitted dahyun loosely, and you put it on her yourself. 

dahyuns cheeks burn and you can see how bashful she becomes from the faint hint of pink on her cheeks that's visible from the small light that illuminates her face—a similar memory flashes in her mind from when you two were in high school.

-

"it's cold dahyun, here." you say, practically forcing her to take the jacket.

"are you sure? i don't want you to be cold."

"i'd rather be cold than have you cold, so just take it." you mutter shyly. "you're shivering—and i tolerate the cold better." you assure. 

the two of you sit in the library, and you make the bold move to give the class president you had been crushing on your varsity jacket after seeing the way she rubs at her thighs for warmth. 

dahyun looks at you and shoots a smile that almost has you on the floor. 

"are you hitting on me?" she chuckles. you almost fall out of your seat.

"i- no, what? no." your attempt at being all composed and nonchalant fails miserably. dahyun laughs at you, and she leans against her palm.

"you're bold for asking someone with such a high rank out."

"i'm not asking you out!" you practically shout, your response makes your cheeks burn and dahyun finds it amusing. 

"i wouldn't be opposed to the idea l/n y/n."

you halt.

"what?"

dahyun giggles at how flustered you are.

-

"remember when you gave me that jacket when we were second years?" dahyun says, "i remember how much you stuttered when i asked if you were going to take me out." 

"stop that." you sigh, cheeks flushing at the embarrassing moment (which, in the end, landed a date with the girl you had been eyeing since you were a first year).

"you were so cute y/n~, it was bold of you to ask your class president out." dahyun jokes, "when i said i'd go out with you, gosh that was priceless."

"stop it." you groan, putting your hand in her face. "at least we got this far." you mumble under your breath, smiling to yourself.

you recompose yourself and shake your head. your gaze lands on the empty bottle, the tea had been finished within minutes. there's a lightbulb above your head when you remember what you had saved for the end of the night and you make your way to grab something from the basket beside the blanket.

dahyun watches you, curiosity piquing when you pull out a small, cardboard box and you hand it to her with two hands, smiling with anticipation—waiting to see her reaction.

your wife opens the small box in her hand—it's chocolate.

and it's not the cheap kind.

dahyun covers her mouth with her hand, eyes widening as she looks at the milk chocolate, which is cut up in a five-by-four grid, dusted by cocoa powder. she looks back up to see you with a proud grin on your face, hugging your knees close to your chest as you gaze at her with hearts in your eyes.

"y/n, you're actually insane."

"what, i can't get my lovely wife some chocolate?"

"y/n," dahyun marvels, "you're crazy- there's eight boxes?"

you nod.

"isn't that collection the expensive-"

"shhh, don't worry about the money. i've been eyeing it and i can afford even more boxes, so shut up about the money." you sigh lightheartedly, "now try it." you speak, pulling out (cheap) golden-colored forks from the basket and handing her one.

dahyun stops herself from bickering with you anymore, she'll do it later.

she pokes at a piece of the chocolate, the fork plunges into the soft, fudgy texture perfectly—her mouth waters slightly. dahyun brings the piece of chocolate to her mouth and takes a bite, she melts once the flavour sinks into her taste buds. 

the chocolate is perfect, it's everything she's wanted and more. it's soft and creamy in her mouth, and the flavour has the same notes of any other chocolate but it's richer and it's from you, so of course it tastes much better. 

"i could marry you again." dahyun sighs. her shoulders shrug up and she closes her eyes as if she's taken a shot of alcohol—your wife is so strange—you love it.

"i love you too." you mumble, rolling your eyes at the beauty in front of you.

"honey," she starts, still finishing on her second piece, "try some."

dahyun quickly finishes the piece she had been consuming, then places a piece in between her top and bottom front teeth. she leans forward and your cheeks flush from her gesture.

"god, you're so cheesy." you say, leaning in and giving into her stupidly cute antics.

your front teeth sink into the piece that sticks out, and you bite it, savoring the incredible flavors.

"shit, this is good." you say, astonished. dahyun laughs and leans closer to kiss your lips, tasting the faint flavor of chocolate that coats your lips. your hand moves over to tuck a strand of hair behind her ear, then you cup her cheek and kiss her again, smiling into the kiss like you always do.

"thank you, y/n." dahyun mumbles against your cheek before pressing a soft peck, "i love you."

"happy anniversary." you respond.

"happy ten years." dahyun beams.

-

it's ten now, and you've gone through two and a half boxes of chocolate together, you had to force yourselves not to finish the rest.

dahyun leans her head against your shoulder, letting her body relax against you as she watches the now completely dark sky.

"y/n," 

"yes?"

"i got you something too." she speaks in a low voice, "here."

it's almost as if dahyun had pulled out the paper from thin air. you turn to look at her with a puzzled expression while you retrieve the paper with your slender fingers.

"what's this?"

"a surprise." dahyun responds playfully, making you chuckle lowly.

your fingers work away at the folded paper—it looks old and just the tiniest bit discolored—you're even more curious. the LED candle on the blanket is picked up and held over the paper as you hunch over to read it with squinted eyes,

that y/n... 

she's something different, i didn't like her at first, basketball players are so... 

i joked about her hitting on me, somehow i landed a date with her!

today we got back from our first date.

l/n y/n is so cute, gosh... will this be bad for my position? are class presidents allowed to have girlfriends? 

i think my heart is doing flips... i feel like I'm in a movie.

she took me to a park and her cheeks were so red, how cute.

she gave me a bar of chocolate, it was from the convenience store nearby, i don't know why, but it tasted better than usual.

how did she know i liked chocolate?

ah... i like this y/n. 

i've never felt like this...

i hope we can go on more dates.

i like her a lot,

maybe we'll be together in ten years, will we get married? have a house? a dog?? 

maybe im getting ahead of myself... i would love that though

dahyun l/n doesn't sound bad...

your heart almost explodes while you read it, your smile growing wider as you go down the page in your hands—some old, lined notebook paper. you don't know why, but your eyes are watery and a tear or two is on the verge of rolling down your cheek.

"dahyun..." you say, your mouth is slightly agape and you're at a loss of words. the words are so pure, genuine, ridiculous, stupid, and so dahyun. your eyes scan the page again and they read the date at the top corner of the paper which you had missed earlier; this note is from ten years ago. 

dahyun smiles at your reaction, her cheeks flushed from how embarrassing the paper is, but you don't seem to think like her with the way you kiss her right after.

your lips are pressed against hers harshly and she's down on the blanket now, back against the ground as you shower her with kisses. 

"you're so fucking," you mutter against her, unable to finish your sentence due to the invisible string that's pulling your lips towards hers. "i love you."

"i also made you jelly dessert."

"i hate to break it to you, but there's nothing that's going to top this." you say in between pecks, "god, i would've used this against you sooner class president."

dahyun giggles as you pamper her with rushed pecks against her face, neck, and lips. 

ten years and you think—no,—you know you can spend the rest of your life with this woman.

[retrowasp]

Important! Tw: surgery mention

So I will probably have to have my reproductive organs removed, im ftm.

I have a massive cyst growing and it’s causing a lot of issues, so I’ve relased a bunch of sprite adopts and a donate tab on my kofi

I’m honestly in a lot of pain and don’t like to talk about my personal life much

As a reminder I have these ones up rn (three new ones) and more !

I also have coms open

[gemini-sensei]

i am having the worst day ever, gemini.

do you have any new miguel fluff hcs in mind? i could use it rn, a lot.

– flare

@miguelnation this is a little specific and idk why my mind went here, but-

Miguel having a crush on an alt/punk Reader?

Him trying to get her attention through gifting her flowers at first and realizing she's really not that into it, so he switches tactics and just asks her our and let's her pick a place.

They end up at some hole in the wall music shop that he's never heard of and he feels like he's walked into the musical version of Hot Topic. He's never heard of half the bands they have in there but he's open to it. She finds some vintage band tees and he buys them for her.

She may not know it, but he's hanging off of every word she says whenever they're just talking. Especially when she's talking about the things she's passionate about. She doesn't show it easily, but he can't tell by the way she speaks and the look she gets in her eyes.

He goes home and spends time listening to bands she's mentioned, new and old. He familiarizes himself with the music and the people and the culture. He ends up making a Playlist of songs that remind him of her, including her favorite punk rock songs and a few she's never mentioned to him before.

If Reader finds this Playlist, it's literally chalk full of every artist she's ever mentioned and she realizes like "holy shit, he is paying attention." 😳

What if she's in her own band? And he comes to rehearsals in her garage to watch her practice. After every song, he applauds her and her band mates, thinking they're so talented and amazing. He's literally just 😍😍😍

Making out on couches at parties like no one else is around.

Saving up to take her to concerts for her favorite bands and taking tons of pictures of them there. He has tons of videos of her screaming the lyrics at the tops of her lungs while rocking out with the crowd.

Also taking her to local music festivals to check out new artists OR to help get her name/her band out there. Cheering the loudest when they perform, singing along because you know he knows the lyrics to her songs.

I could do more of this, but it literally is just the first thing thay came to mind. I hope it's okay

[cyberwonu]

Hello! I saw your requests were open, and I was wondering if I could request what seventeen would be like with a diabetic s/o? If this makes you uncomfortable, please ignore this ask. I don't want to make anyone feel uncomfortable.

seventeen with a diabetic s/o

paring : svt x gn! reader

genre : fluff 

wc : 1030

notes: Hi anon!! I'm very sorry if anything I wrote is inaccurate as im not diabetic myself so please correct me if i am and i'll fix it immediately! i hope you like it <3

Seungcheol

super cautious of foods when eating together

always asking you how you feel and if you need anything

would carry small juice boxes and some snacks with him everywhere just incase you needed it

if you prick your finger to check blood sugar he would be a little bit squeamish at first but eventually get used to it and ask to help you with it

same with insulin! he would be scared but would ask you to walk him through it and eventually would become a pro

if you have an electronic way to check he would always be checking it for you

jeonghan

would bully you if you couldn't eat smth with him

but it's affectionate

“do you want some?... oh you can't rn? haha loser all for myself then >:)”

would get you the same treat when you could have it

he's genuinely very caring and always making sure you're okay!

joshua

another one to constantly check in

asking how you feel and if you think you would need anything soon

great to be in public with, the second you mention your blood sugar going down he would find the nearest shop and get you your favourite drinks and snacks and bring you to a bench and sit with you

he's very worried give him a hug

jun

he would ask lots of questions

about how diabetes works, what's it like for you being diabetic etc etc

generally very curious

would go to any doctors appointments you had with you

personal cheerleader during harder days <3

hoshi

another super curious one

always asking questions about how it works, foods you can and cannot eat, when you can eat and how you know how much or when

would challenge himself to eat the same way you did to see what it would be like

if you prick your finger he would get you tiger band-aids

wonwoo

super understanding

it's a bad day and you don't wanna do anything extravagant or have to cancel plans? no worries wonu is on his way with some snacks and will play games or watch movies with you instead

would carry snacks or a drink for you but wouldn't admit it

“oh you're not feeling good? i have this drink i put in my bag earlier but i didn't drink it so you can have it if you want”

super sweet mwah mwah mwah

woozi

would ask if you could have coke zero

dependent on your answer he would still be happy, rather you both get to share or more for him!

would remind you to check your vitals if you're forgetful or you're busy

like id you're hanging out in his studio and it's been a while he'll turn to you and remind you to check

has a stash of snacks and some drinks for you in his studio that only you are allowed to have

will hit any of the other members if they try to steal a snack

minghao

knew generally about diabetes before he met you but when you two met and got closer he realized there was still a lot he didn't know

did some research on his own and likes to ask questions or fact check with you when he's not sure about something

would make sure his home is stocked with various diabetic safe food and drinks and let you know you never have to ask to take anything

mingyu

hes a little confused and kinda forgets sometimes but he's also very cautious of everything

will offer you some of his drinks or food and go “wait… can you have this?”

“aren't you allergic to that?” as you're having a drink on the couch and you just look at him like ??? then explain its not an allergy

immediately understands

watches you check your vitals cuz he thinks it's interesting and cool

bonus: explain to him how things work and different meanings to things and he will stare at you with big puppy eyes listening intently he's so interested!!

dk

if you had to prick your finger he may be scared and squeamish but he WILL sit there and hold you and tell you he's proud of you

doesn't matter if you tell him you've been doing this everyday for years he will still be your little cheerleader and comfort you

would be the best to be around during a bad day

he's always checking on you and is super sweet

you have the THOUGHT of wanting a snack? he's there with the snack and a kiss to your forehead

always making you laugh and lifting your mood

seungkwan

you're having a rough day? not if seungkwan could help it

he may not be able to fix everything right away but he's gonna do everything in his power to sure as hell try

always at your side, you need anything? he's getting it! don't even move a muscle,

need water? he's already gotten you matching water bottles to be extra cute

will check your blood sugar and give you insulin for you if you let him

vernon

also has snacks on him all the time

some for him, some for you, it's great

if you're having a rough day he would be so down to just go chill with you, he doesn't feel the need to always be doing big things with you. he lives for simple domestic things

may not understand much about what you go through on the daily but would be very open to learning from you

dino

super loving and knowledgeable about your needs

you know your body doesn't agree with certain foods and he's making sure that it's never around you

if you're about to eat something will always ask if you've checked it's okay first

if you're at a restaurant he will call ahead of time and ask about the menu or ask during the dinner to make sure you're safe

makes sure you pack any medicine you need if you're going out or on a trip

you mention you're not feeling the best and he's doing everything he can to make sure you're alright and get you what you need <3

[lunarhobbits]

misc sweeney hcs

(disclaimer. i am new-ish here and have no idea how popular/prevalent any of these are go easy on me ok. also a lot of these are dadben related wh o o p s)

i've seen some variance of if this is canon in fics and stuff but i really do like the idea of the barkers also living above the pie shop in addition to the barbershop being there. similar situation w the pie shop/lovett living quarters. ig it's just easier to picture in my head then????

(p sure the b*rton film confirms smth like this but i'm ignoring it bc i don't like that guy. this idea is mine now)

part of the reason i like this so much is it means that benjamin barker had all the more time to have lovely moments with lucy and johanna when he wasn't busy with clients

(this also makes sweeney returning there without them all the more painful. if he sits and doesn't do anything then he's flooded by memories of the life he had in those same walls fifteen years ago. like no wonder sweeney's so bent out of shape by being forced to wait for the judge and the beadle to come to him)

johanna had only JUST started walking when ben was transported. he was so excited and happy and loved to try and assist her, encouraging her to take steps holding his hands. chattering away about her with any customer that would listen, perhaps even showing her off ("look at my jo! she's such a fine girl!" "i'm sure she is, mr. barker, but could you please finish shaving me?")

he bought johanna a little lacy bonnet when she was a week old. she didn't need something so fancy at such a young age, and lucy had already sewn her a few bonnets months prior. it wasn't the most sound financial decision he ever made. but oh, his girl just had to have it, and it's a little big, she could grow into it! (lucy admits she looks very cute with it on, even though she says johanna doesn't need it)

(the bonnet is left forgotten in a drawer somewhere for years, until sweeney opens that particular drawer and finds it gathering dust upon his return. he feels sick seeing it, reminding him again how much he missed. then he puts it back and refuses to give it any mind.)

nellie lovett was infuriated by lucy barker in that way that you can't quite pinpoint why you're mad other than they're "too perfect" or "too pretty" or something. ofc there was the fact she was married to ben, but i think there was a little "get out of my school" energy going on there too

idk exactly how lucy ended up on the street (or in bedlam, as lovett says in the finale) but i do think that nellie was, sadly, at least complicit in inaction to stop this from happening (if not having thrown her out herself)

anthony is the sweetest dude around and genuinely loves johanna. doesn't matter that he barely knows her when he says he'd marry her, he knows that he's going to be happy as long as she is

johanna loves him too, and she's surprised by it. not because of anything to do with anthony, but because she's felt so little real love in her life (that she can remember). it's a wonderful and frightening rush looking at him, sometimes, but then he squeezes her hand, or does something silly, or even just sneezes or clears his throat and she's brought back down to reality, in a good way. that anthony is real, and human like her. she doesn't have to "earn" his love by being utterly perfect.

they get out of london basically as soon as they can, just wanting to leave it all behind, at least for a while

it took a little time and arguing but anthony did end up getting a good sum of money from the judge's death, through johanna's inheritance going to her husband (him). they immediately used this money to finance travel. they both love to travel, anthony promising to show her the beauty of the world that, still, cannot rival her in his eyes

this is all i got that's coherent rn really lol. anyway here you go sweeney todd fans who liked/reblogged my post haha @demonbarberofbeepbeep @captains-clever-goose @little-lovett @fabulousairpirate @funnygirlthatbelle

[storywood]

Hey! I just discovered your art and fell in love! I noticed you’ve done a lot of coastal scenery but I couldn’t seem to find where they’re from.

I’m a environmental educator, specializing in coastal areas like salt marshes and beaches, and I love collecting art from the places I’ve lived.

By any chance are any of your pieces from the North Carolina, Chesapeake Bay, or Maine areas? I know it’s probably a bit of a long shot since you work in LA rn but I’d love to buy a print or few if you have any from those locations!

Hi there! Great question, thank you! This reminded me that I actually haven’t posted some of these on tumblr so I’ll put them all in a post here. Most of the water/beach studies I’ve done are from Lake Michigan since I lived in Michigan a long time. But I actually have visited North Carolina and Maine and done a handful of studies there!  These recent sketches were from North Carolina in the Surf City area:

Then these ones were also from North Carolina in the Nag’s Head area:

And these were from Maine around Bar Harbor, I think?

I put all these into my Scenic Routes artbook, and the little NC one with the seagull I made into a print recently during my shop opening. The shop is closed at the moment but I’m hoping to open it again sometime in the new year! 💚

[popstarqueen]

AKNK In IKEA

(Modern AU feat. 2nd Floor Butlers)

*Mainly Boschi x Aruji since I’m being self-indulgent rn lol. Also in this AU, I’m making it possible for Aruji to bring the butlers into their world and back, so yeah ^^

Our story begins when the second-floor butlers of the Devil’s Palace insisted on accompanying their Master to a furniture store in their world called ‘IKEA’. Their Master wished to look around for furniture and decor to add to their room, and also gifts to get their butlers as a token for all of their work protecting their world from Angels and other dangers.

What the butlers didn’t know was that their Arujisama also had another idea that they wanted to try while there…

-IKEA Parking Lot, Morning-

(The second-floor butlers and I made it to IKEA just after breakfast back at the Manor.)

(Perhaps was also time to share my idea while I tried to find gifts for them here, as we made our way toward the entrance.)

Haures: Hmm? Arujisama? Is something on your mind?

Aruji: Eh?

(My sudden reaction had the other butlers stop and look over in my direction, curiously.)

(Yet Haures leaned closer to me and spoke in a low enough voice, since saying ‘Arujisama’ in such a public place would raise some questions from the people around us. Kind of brings back memories of the ‘Black Tea Party’.)

Boschi: Oi! What are you two whispering about over there?

Fennesz: Now, now Boschi…

Ammon: I mean, if it’s about our Master, I’d like to know too.

Aruji: I want to play hide and seek here!

Boschi: Oh? Hide and seek? In here?

Ammon: Sounds like fun.

Haures: But we’re here to accompany Aruji- *ahem* I mean (Name) while they do their shopping.

Fennessz: Well surely we can do both. After all, I’m curious to try this as well.

Boschi: Why not? No need to be so strict Haures…

Haures: Boschi…

Fennesz: You two…

Ammon: Come on Haures~ We can’t refuse them, can we? Besides, I wanna play with (Name) too.

Haures: *sighs* Of course not… Alright then (Name), we’ll play.

Aruji: It’ll be fun, I promise.

(Once we were inside the building, I pulled out my phone to set a timer for exactly 1 minute, then handed it to them.)

Fennesz: (Name), are you sure about this? What if something happens and we can’t contact you?

Aruji: I’ll be careful. Now let’s start!

(I started the timer and made my getaway, looking for a perfect hiding place.)

-IKEA, Wardrobes & Storage-

-Sometime Later-

(I managed to find a hiding spot inside one of the wardrobes and had to keep as quiet as possible. However, I also was still pondering on gifts for the butlers during my adrenaline rush to find my perfect hiding spot.)

(That’s also not mentioning the thoughts of other people finding me here while the butlers worked themselves into a frenzy while playing this game.)

(Still, I couldn’t help but be proud of my spot-)

Boschi: Found ya (Name)~

(I was caught off guard by Boschi, who casually opened the closet doors with a smug expression.)

Aruji: B-Boschi- How did you even find me?

Boschi: Heh, it was pretty easy actually… I was just walking by when I noticed ya…

(His words and face made me feel a little embarrassed, so I turned my head away all flustered…)

Aruji: …. No fair…

Boschi: Heh… Alright, my turn.

(I looked up at Boschi when-)

*PWOSH*

(I was immediately caught off guard by a shark plushie that Boschi threw at my face. Shaking my head from the sudden action, I took time to look down at the plush shark I held onto. I certainly could admit how adorable it was. Its blue colour even kind of reminded me of Boschi.)

(Wait… Where DID Boschi go?...)

-IKEA, ???-

-Sometime later-

(Holding onto the shark plushie, I searched all over for Boschi, going back and forth between the different sections of the store. I couldn’t even find where Haures, Fennesz and Ammon were. I didn’t have my phone on me since I gave it to them…)

Aruji: Boschi? Boschi?!

(My distress didn’t go unnoticed by the people around me. Is this how the butlers feel when trying to protect me?)

???: Excuse me?

Aruji: Eh?

(I turned around to see an older couple looking at me as they were waiting in line at the restaurant.)

Man: Are you looking for someone?

Aruji: Y-Yes, I am… He’s my…

(Did I dare tell them that Boschi was technically one of my butlers? That might only raise more questions…)

Aruji: … He’s my… partner.

(The older couple looked at each other in contemplation before refocusing on me. Meanwhile, my mind was racing. Why did I say Boschi was my partner?!)

(Though, saying it aloud did give me a lighter feeling in my chest… A sense of pride and security even…)

Woman: I see. Well unfortunately we haven’t seen him around. But we can surely let you know if we see him for you…

Aruji: Thank you…

(I nodded to the couple and carried on my way, but not without glancing at the menu above. It certainly feels like a long time since we got here and I was a bit hungry from my desperate seeking…)

(Surely a small break couldn’t hurt-)

???: ‘Partners’, huh?

(I suddenly felt arms wrapped around me from behind and their breath tickling my ear. But I recognize that voice. I glance up and see…)

Boschi: Hey (Name).

(Boschi, once again looking at me with a smug face. But I could also sense some relief and regret in his eyes, perhaps from thinking he truly lost me…)

Aruji: Boschi…

(I quickly turned around, holding onto Boschi tightly, my face pressed into his chest. Taken by surprise himself, Boschi slowly reciprocated the motion and held me tight.)

Boschi: (Name)... I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you worry for me…

(I shook my head. I never liked making the butlers believe that I was worrying them. They already have a lot to bear.)

Aruji: N-no, it’s okay… I’m just glad that we found each other again.

Boschi: … I’m glad too, my ‘partner’.

(Boschi’s smug expression made me remember what just happened earlier, saying he was my partner so casually, despite our statuses. My face felt hot as I hid it behind my shark plush, unsure of how else to react.)

Boschi: Hmm, you still have that plushie, huh?

(I peeked over the plush to look into Boschi’s eyes, nodding.)

Aruji: He reminds me of you…

Boschi: Hmm…? You think I’m a shark?

(I couldn’t help but smile shyly)

Aruji: I just think that you’re both cute~

Boschi: … Oh?

Aruji: You’re also both blue, see?

(I held up the shark plushie to Boschi, proving my point.)

Aruji: And I can hug both of you too~

(Boschi looked at the shark plushie for a bit, then snatched it from my hands.)

Aruji: H-Huh?

(Confused, I tried to take it back from him, but he held it up above me, just out of reach.)

Boschi: Now you only have one to hug~

(Boschi then took off and I went after him.)

-IKEA, Bedroom Area-

-Sometime later-

(I managed to chase after and keep up with Boschi towards the bedroom area of IKEA. Only to get pinned under him on top of one of the beds.)

(Looking into each other’s eyes, we couldn’t help but laugh. Despite some of the day’s hiccups, it was still a lot of fun playing hide and seek in an IKEA with the butlers. Perhaps next time, we can do this again.)

Boschi: Hmm? Something on your mind (Name)?

Aruji: Just imagining coming back here with you.

Boschi: Oh?

(I nodded as Boschi smiled. I then had an idea, flinging a pillow at Boschi’s head. We ended up having a bit of a pillow fight after that and also made a small pillow fort.)

Boschi: *yawns* This has been a good day…

Aruji: Are you tired Boschi?...

Boschi: Yeah, it’s been a long day. But it’s been a great one with you.

(I smiled, before letting Boschi cuddle closer to me and I stroked his hair as he drifted off. Not too long after, so did I…)

-IKEA, Bedroom Area-

-Evening-

It was now IKEA’s closing time and Haures and Ammon managed to find Boschi and their Master fast asleep and in each other’s embrace within a pillow fort, along with a blue shark plush.

Haures: Here they are… Oi Boschi, get up. We need to go now.

Boschi: Zzz…

Aruji: Zzz…

Ammon: Boschi~ It’s time to go home~

Boschi: Zzz…

Aruji: Zzz…

Haures: *sighs* It’s no use, Ammon. They’re both fast asleep… Come on, give me a hand.

Ammon: Okay~

With some effort, Haures managed to carry Boschi and their Master out of the store while Ammon handled the lil shark plush. Fennesz was in their car waiting for them, watching as Haures and Ammon helped to buckle the sleepy butler and Master in. Ammon even manages to place the shark plush in Aruji’s arms.

The car ride back home was mainly quiet, as the three awake butlers occasionally glanced at their sleeping group members, unconsciously leaning into each other as they rode along.

Even if their Master didn’t manage to find the decor or gifts they wanted to get, as long as they had more fun trips like this, there was always another opportunity to get it done.

THE END

[fllagellant]

Me reminding myself this is my blog and I can say whatever anyways bc I opened c2077 and my brain is hot wired to mass effect rn . Who wants to hear some loose ideas . You do I am making this choice for you .. under the cut bc long post thumbsup

Wrex is a fixer 1000% . Specifically a fixer out in the badlands working with the nomads bc the Urdnots are a nomad clan so he Has that connection + he’ s just setting up shop outside night city to make life a bit easier . He ends up adopting Grunt at some point when he’ s like . 5ish . Grunt still chooses the name Grunt when he hits like 18 and jumps into organized fighting . Wrex sponsors him in these fights . Bakara is Grunt’ s mother figure and runs the little Fixer Business in tandem with Wrex . She also keeps constant check on the Urdnot clan’ s status and such . She also organizes drag races . Grunt cannot compete in these he crashes any car he drives to pieces . She’ s busy half the day , either doing work on her own car , taking time for prayer , or she’ s just gone into night city for some Reason

Ashley is a rocker who took up the mantle after loosing her grandfather and father in corporate wars . She did join militech for a few years but was discharged later from disorder + she was going down the same path as her granddad + dad and she realized she really didn’ t deserve that fate . She still has her old military upgrades and constantly keeps them checked so they don’ t malfunction badly since they are Old models . She likes them and she knows removal would just be harder than the upkeep at that point . She lives in North Oak . I like to think she does both heavier rock and acoustic , depending on her mood

Kasumi is like . One of The Best people to get on your team for a job . Equipped with top of the line cybernetics , some of them definitely stolen from secure government data , she can easily make any job an infiltration job and can keep casualties to the Minimum . Yes she has the behavioural faceplate and yes she does use it to screw with her friends and contacts often it is good for her. She prefers to stay off grid , but has her own little network she jacks into at the end of the day for her own little joys . She probably lives in Dog Town , to keep herself separate from the rest of night city . She’ s a collector of rare technology too , and will do Anything to get her hands on it . If it’ s still in working condition ? She’ s taking it nothing can stop her

Thane and Samara r also fixers , Thane in Heywood and Samara in Westbrook .. I like to think they share gigs with each other often . They are also often on the look out for newer people to night city to try and see if they Need help or if they Can help and try to set them up from there .. Kolyat runs with a gang in Heywood and Thane keeps up with making sure he stays safe + making sure he keeps up with prayer and whatnot . Morinth is another rocker and braindance actor who tries to make her bds as dangerous as possible . Samara doesn’ t approve of the BDs part of her livelihood but will try to set her up with jobs to keep her busy and keep her out of trouble Samara doesn’ t quite approve of ..

Jack does gigs only related to cyberpsychosis . She’ s a survivor herself and she knows better than anyone how to handle someone during an episode . She crashes around night city and doesn’ t really stay in one place for long . She’ s always checking police scanners to see if another incident has been reported Or if they’ re on her ass again . She has a Doberman she rescued that accompanies her around night city , he’ s very good at protecting her bike from being hijacked . She does have a little side car for him to curl up in during rides

Joker and EDI are a “ team “ of fixers . Technically . They both operate under the name Joker and never show their face during any form of communication . EDI is an AI that hasn’ t been claimed by the Blackwall and Joker is in the process of building her a body that can pass as human just with a Lot of cybernetics . They’ re both netrunners and are terrifying at what they do . Joker is ex corporate and survived a zeroing attempt so he is very . Well . He isn’ t the nicest guy ever .. EDI was a project he managed to save before having to go into hiding for a bit . Joker’ s skills let him have near perfect control of vehicles while EDI is better with security measures . People keep trying to guess which voice of the two of them is real and which one is a cover up voice . Since it’ s not like they want people to figure out what is actually going on

[hahaalaine]

Listening to this book too rn and its wild to see how parenting culture seemed to change overnight with paranoia about how theres basically a murderer, kidnapper, rapist at every turn ready to snatch a kid.

It reminds me of my own mom and how she seemingly went from "normal" to overprotective. When i was a kid i lived a mile and change from our school on the southside of Chicago so when the weather wasn't atrocious my mom made us walk to school. This was such a regular thing that i never thought anything of it. also we lived right off pulaski and no one ever gave a fuck that the 6 year old would walk up and down it to go to the costume shop and other places. i used to walk to the library, my grandma's house, the taco place, and just fuck around by myself without a cell phone or anything all the time as a kid. then i learned how to ride the bus and that opened up my world even more! the five of us siblings all did this. my brother started going on cross country trips with his friends at like 16 to go skiing and shit too. yet when i tell my mom now that i let my kid play outside on the front deck where we have retractable gates installed by himself she screams thinking that someone is going to snatch a random ass 3 year old off their own front porch. like no one wants a child they don't know - and they would certainly give my kid back as soon as they realize he sleeps when he's bored not because he needs it. statistically most of the bad things that happens to kids are done by people they know and that violent crime and other rates have dropped so low yet the culture acts like if you don't watch your child every second then you deserve the bad things that happen.

[lokislittlestar]

Hi! I’m not sure if you’ve answered something like this before but I was wondering how you first realised that Loki was there for you. I’m currently trying to connect with a deity (I’m not doing a great job at the moment because executive dysfunction) but I’ve been struggling quite a bit and I’ve only had one experience a while back that might be considered a brief interaction so I was wondering what your experience in this sort of area might have been like and how you managed to grow closer to Loki.

Omg hi hi hi my first Anonymous question 

This is so fun !

Well I started worshiping Loki maybe two and a half months ago and I’m still pretty new

Even being a a Lokean for years there’s still new stuff to learn

Never feel like a deity isn’t listening or isn’t there

They are ! I promise!

For me I found Loki when I was in a very low low spot in my life . I randomly one day started to love marvel loki (I didn’t like marvel at all had no intentions on ever liking it) then I sorta had that whole phase ..then I found out it was all based in norse mythology

So I read up on it and honestly I felt to drawn to loki and I just had to learn more . I began reading about people’s stories with him and realizing most of the symbols (animals ,food, sounds , elements) that he was associated with are all things that were in my life constantly.

So I then made a huge decision to break from my horrible religious trauma (my family strongly believes in god and hates gays and stuff like that’s soooo…being bisexual and genderfluid and lokean.. they didn’t like that)

and I can say that’s probably the best thing I’ve every done - like I feel like I can breathe and be my authentic self.

I realized he was there mostly because I keep fucking getting one fly that won’t fucking leave me alone (it’s actually bothering me rn and I have no fucking clue where it came from when this house is clean so I’m gonna say this is definitely Lokis silly ass)

Also I had such a huge love for red foxes out of nowhere like I just adore them and that’s also another animal associated with him

And sometimes I’ll just be drawn to things in stores or anywhere really and it almost always has something to do with his mischievous lil ass

But other then that I’ve downloaded an app for norse runes and stuff and I’ve started a journey there .

I try my best to be open to not only Loki but the ones that he surrounded himself with- like his children or odin thor etc..

Loki is a funny lil shit and really will be protective

I’ve found that out the hard way when

I came out to my family and told them I felt very misunderstood and depressed and unloveable talked out my abuser and stuff like that

And they all sorta called me crazy and yknow stupid shit like that

But I went out side to bawl my eyes out and my mom was texting me and it was sorta overwhelming and my phone was at 60% I chatted with my pal Roman and that thing shut down…literally turned off and I just sat there in the dark scared and anxious and then there was this bizzare calm like it was ok ..like a parents hug would fix whatever was going on and just as I thought about how I suddenly felt better the wind started to sort blow a cool breeze on my face and when I tell you that was like the best feeling after sobbing and ur eyes burn and face stings ..

But I look back and think ..yeah that was Loki

I try to get closer to him by learning about him more .

try traditional meals that they might like

Or listen to music that is associated with them or reminded u of them

Even a simple “hey thanks for always being there you’re really great !”

Or

“Good morning !” “Goodnight!”

Write poetry for them and draw for them

Wear something that reminds you of them

Or even a pendant or something of that sort

I just recently bought a bunch of lokean stuff

Candle

Necklace

Books

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I can even leave some good Etsy shops I shop from that u might enjoy if u happen to worship loki they have good stuff

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It’s a pretty good song

[justanamesstuff]

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I don't know how you're feeling about Matty rn so if you want ignore this

but this video https://twitter.com/trumanblackblog/status/1672966887527923712?t=PhhzYw4qFMjgfepFdbrlHA&s=19 is doing something to me and I can't stop thinking about some husband!matty like maybe they're in some trip ou a honeymoon (all I need verse maybe?)

Hellooo, I'm getting upset because i'm reading a lot of fans being really hurt by him and it suckss

but,

i think we all need a distraction too!! and hate him a little but husband is looking so good during golden hour 😩

If I'm honest, I haven't thought about their honeymoon...i was writing the proposal and wedding, someday when uni let me breathe I'll post it. ANYWAY.....

First, I believe both of them would be so upset leaving the kids at home (picture that baba 3 is 1 year old, Arthur is 5 and Mel is 7...they're all babies). So, i can see Grace, Denise, and even George kicking them out of the house 😂😂

About the honeymoon, I imagine them choosing somewhere warm. Probably Greece or Italy during the spring/summer (around that time they get married). They rent a typical house not too far from a small town, but far enough to be alone 😏😏

I can see a lot of sleeping late, laying under the sun, having sex in every single corner of the house or even the beach they can...drinking sweet wine and enjoying their time together. Also, exploring the little town...walking around fairs of artisans and little shops, Matty wanting to buy EVERYTHING that reminds him of the kids and reader like we have only two suitcases and they're spoiled enough already (lol).

A LOT OF FACETIMING WITH THE BABAS...because they love their children so much!!

But what the video brings to my mind is this scene of them:

It's late in the evening, they're in the patio of the house where they can sit and admire the view. The mountains mixed with the sea view, a wonderful view that captivates Y/n's eyes. Although, Matty's view is other: his beautiful wife.

He admires how the golden light rays illuminate her factions. She has a glass of wine, sipping from time to time. Matty is seated not too far from her on a steel chair, staring at her with his head titled to a side. He sights loud, gaining her attention.

"What?"

Matty smiles at her and says nothing.

"Baby?" Y/n inists.

Matty leans forward, touching the side of her face. "I love you."

"Aww, baby..." Y/n whispers before kissing him. The mix of wine, cheese and her makes everything better.

Y/n moves backwards, admiring how the sun lighten the colour of his eyes, makes them look ethereal. His stubble is showing even more, and she has to bite her lower lip to repress saying what she wants.

"My wife?" he asks, mocking her a little because he notices the effect he has over her body and loves it. He touches her neck softly, making her shiver. "Something inside your mind you want to share with your dear husband?"

Y/n moan, feeling his fingers trail around the column of her neck.

"Mrs. Healy?"

"Stop."

"Why?" Matty approaches his mouth to kiss her skin, she gives him more access, moving her head to the side. "I'm not doing anything...you don't want, right?"

"Baby, please."

"Aren't you a needy thing, my sweet wife? Haven't I fucked you like an hour ago?"

"Matty."

"Yes, my love..."

"Please." she tries again.

Matty smirks wide, standing up, making Y/n open her eyes wide feeling he's going to leave her horny out there. Even though he extends his hand for her. Y/n doesn't hesitate and let him drag her to their bedroom.

HOPE YOU LIKE ITTTT ANON

[kaddyssammlung]

ED-related Sleep Token lyrics Part - One

I felt like collecting some lyrics that seem ED-related / eating related (biting, swallowing...)

Obvious triggerwarning for ED stuff; I have a tendency to get unhinged and graphic since I know what I'm talking about.

And also SH is also in there.

Nazareth:

“Drippin' from the open mouth”

Reminds me of how much we can want things. And also when you don't eat enough you start thinking about food all the time and maybe looking at it. There are so many accounts that have photos of food on the internet #foodp*rn. You know what I mean. It reminds me of this.

“Make her eat the tape in the bathroom mirror”

I put this in here because the word “eat” but he also says mirror. When I think about this in an ED way it makes me think about the strange relationship that I still have towards mirrors. Not just mirrors but also shop windows for example. I still constantly check what I look like. Not that I stand there for hours and compulsively check every angle but I look into them.

Jericho:

“Until I wake I dine on old encounters”

It's just weird. I mean I kind of get what he means. He means meeting Sleep, I guess but why say “I dine”. It's just weird. And also until I wake. It makes me think about other humans with ED s who only eat at nighttime. We all have our strange rhythms and doing things the same way every day gives us a sense of safety. Such eating at the exact same time of the day.

“You taste like new flesh”

Okay...I'm a vegetarian.

“Like I swallow, years beneath this bed”

Hiding with your food? I still prefer eating alone over eating with someone else. I don't feel watched anymore but I used to. As if they were watching exactly how much I ate.

I can relate to wanting to eat alone. Especially when you have “save food” that seem strange to others.

The Offering:

“You've got diamonds for teeth, my love”

Reminds me about obsessing over food and eating in general. I feel like when you don't eat much and then you do eat something you are hyper-aware of what you are doing.

“Take a bite”

Reminds me of someone trying to talk into eating something....”come on just take a bite”. That's something that never happened to me. I was very good in hiding everything.

“But I know you've got a taste”

Yes, Vessel I do. I still prefer certain foods over other foods. I have a problem with high sugary foods because when I just “take a bite” from them I loose my impulse control and have to binge on them. So no, Vessel. It's easier to “try not eat” those foods at all.

Dark Signs:

“And I hate who I have become Every time I wake up”

Waking up after having eaten way too much the day before feels horrible. Idk why that is. Maybe you don't sleep that well when your body is busy digesting so much food. And also this can cause stomach problems and everything that comes along with it. I spear you the details.

Eating the right amount of food is just so much better. I sleep well and I feel like I have a lot of energy.

Take Aim:

“And you make hate myself Make me tear my body Make me yearn for your embrace”

Please die Ana! For as long as you're here were not! You make the sound of laughter, sharpen nails seem softer – Ana's song by Silverchair.

It has the same vibes.

The ED makes me hate myself and makes me tear my body (cut not tear; at least in my case) but I still have trouble to let the ED fully go.

And yes I have cut myself out of nothing but pure self-hatred. Looking at me body, pinching the fatty parts and just hating them. I also used cut because I felt I had too much to eat.

But still I could not let go of my ED.

Give:

“I am the intake of breath so sharp and I know you better”

Just because “intake”. He could have chosen another word. He wants everything to have multiple layers. I get that.

“I wanna taste you better”

I think he means he wants to get to know someone better? It's just a weird one.

And also it makes me think about different things taste when you have not eaten them in a while.

Last year while I was kind of revisited by BED I had an allergic reaction towards chocolate. I never had something like that. I don't have allergies. It scared me so I stopped having chocolate for a long time. I feel like when you don't eat that stuff for a long time when you do eat it again, it tastes so weird. It does not even taste good. Most chocolate just tastes sweat and and also a little like cardboard for some reason. It's not good.

Gods:

“No more teeth to bite with”

Want to know what happens when you throw up a lot? Your teeth fall out and it can get so bad that you need dentures.

No I'm not there. I'm someone who never threw up that much because of my ED but rather because of my alcohol addiction. The state of my teeth? Kind of okay.