#remind me who i am

[novelmonger]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💗

Make Me Whole (Captain America chapterfic) - AU of TWS where Steve decides to save the Winter Soldier before discovering his true identity. He helps him leave Hydra, and together with Sam they go into hiding while helping "Winter" reacclimate to normal life and deal with some of his issues resulting from the incredible amount of trauma he's suffered. This was the first time I wrote a story and felt really strongly that I was supposed to write it. Usually it's just a matter of, "No one else is doing this, so I guess I have to." But with Make Me Whole, I realized pretty early on that I didn't care if fifty other people got the exact same idea, I wanted to be the one to tell the story, because no one else would tell it quite the way I wanted to see it done. It has blessed my life and improved my writing in more ways than I can name.

Remind Me Who I Am (Captain America oneshot) - AU of TWS where Bucky doesn't get any of his memories back after the last wipe, but he tracks down Steve anyway because he's intrigued by the way Steve treats him. It's all about identity: Who are you if you can't remember who you were? I'm really proud of the way it turned out, especially because it was a bit of experimentation with second-person POV.

Let This One Remain (Avengers: Endgame oneshot) - A fixit fic for the ending of the movie. I loved the movie, but didn't love Steve's wildly OOC ending. Within the first hour after seeing the movie the first time, this fix presented itself, proving that I and my dear friend @sergeanttomycaptain are better writers than everybody at Marvel - or at least we know this character better :P Basically, the movie just ended about five minutes too soon, and this is my headcanon for what really happened.

of skulls and secrets (FMA oneshot) - Postseries fic about Ed and Al coming back home after a year of traveling separately and seeking out the secrets of alchemy. Most of it deals with Ed's story of a famous alchemist's laboratory he investigated in Creta, and why he's reluctant to tell Al about any of it. I had a lot of fun worldbuilding what Creta might be like, and brought everything back around to the brothers, as it should be. (Also this is the only time I've tried out the pretentious all-lowercase title :P)

The Other Side of the Coin (FMA chapterfic/series of oneshots) - My FMA genderbender, where Ed and Al are girls, and Winry is a guy. This is just a really fun project I dabble in from time to time, exploring what might be different about the story if we're following Elaine and Adelaide Elric instead. How does Elaine navigate joining the military as a twelve-year-old girl? Does she still throw tantrums about her height, or is it something else? What if, just like eating and sleeping for Addie, she also suffers double the share of menstrual cramps? And how does Addie feel about being stuck in a huge scary suit of armor, where no one can even tell that she's a girl, let alone a pretty and nice one? I also indulge myself with exploring how different EdWin (ElWin, in this case) is, when it's the guy who has to wait at home for the girl; and having fun with Parental!RoyEl, because Parental!RoyEd is second only to the Elric brothers in my heart <3

[novelmonger]

I suppose this probably doesn't count, because he's not technically dead, but this is very strongly reminding me of my Captain America fic Remind Me Who I Am, in which Bucky Barnes joins Steve and Sam after TWS, but never recovers his memories. So even though he's technically still alive and still the same person, it's like Bucky Barnes died, but he (whoever he is) has the same body as him, and everyone around him keeps expecting him to be someone he's not. A very angsty situation indeed >:D

I love the "came back wrong" trope but from the opposite side.

Imagine you are dead. And then you are RIPPED from the embrace of decay into the world of the living again. Your memories are hazy and you don't recognize any of these people, but they act like they're close to you? Like they love you? So you try to get your memories back, to act like you belong here, but everybody tries to forget you died. And you can't. It is omnipresent. And just trying to grapple with that fact pushes the people who "love" you away, and they're incapable of understanding, and they're so confused, what's wrong N̶̄̀O̶͛͗T̷̉́ ̷͋͝Y̴̎̌Ȍ̴̈U̸̓R NÄM̴̃͑E̵̾̇? And you just need them to understand, you aren't that person! You aren't! You don't know who that person is! You don't know why any of this is happening, but they're unwilling to bend, they keep insisting you are that person, your memories will come back, everything will be normal again, and you want to scream and cry and claw yourself open to show them you're different. Your existence as a being wholly separate from whoever you "used to be" is a sin unto itself. All you can do is scrabble for life and to them, you're killing whoever they loved to do it.

just. lots of fun in that concept, you know?

[myiliterallyhavenolifegoals]

Learn your history!!!!

[shelivesingalaxies]

And here I read again...

She needed a hero. So that is what she became.

[alatariel-galadriel]

I love Spock so much. I’m constantly thinking about “‘Vulcan’s do not lie,’ Spock lied,” and “one of my ancestors married a human” (his DAD he’s talking about his DAD marrying his MOM, king shit)

He never leaves my head I am rotating him like a rotisserie chicken in the microwave. I love him.

[melasy]

[thedisablednaturalist]

I think when people think of mental illness and what helps, especially with things like anxiety and depression, the treatment involves pushing yourself. Pushing yourself to get out of bed, to exercise, to take a shower, to go out in public, to order your own food from the cashier, etc.

And because the mental health movement has grown so much, people think that's the default of ALL illnesses. That the only way someone will get better is if they push themselves. That practice makes perfect. That you'll become more comfortable or strong over time the more you do something.

But what people need to realize is, with physical disabilities and chronic illnesses, pushing yourself in most cases is DETRIMENTAL. Pushing yourself past your limits can lead to flare ups or further injury. That's why it's important to know your limits, how certain activities may affect your condition, and learn how to either adapt or get help to complete the activity in question.

Also, most of us are already pushing ourselves. Most of us don't have access to the help or equipment we need. Most of us live in places where we frequently encounter inaccessible obstacles. Most of us NEED to rest.

So please don't try to be our physical therapists or doctors. There are people specifically trained to help us navigate our own conditions and limitations. There are people trained to help us strengthen our body's resilience without causing flare-ups or injury. Do not tell us "it'll be good for you" or "you need the exercise" when we say something is too heavy or too far or when we say we need our mobility aid(s). Your friend with depression may need to be encouraged to get out of bed, but your friend with chronic illness definitely doesn't.

Respect our rest.

[griseldabanks]

“I loved the person you used to be,” Steve says, ever so softly. “And I will love whoever you choose to be in the future. So...please believe me when I say...I love who you are now too.” He holds out his hand, just like he did when you were about to jump off the edge. Trying to breach the gap between you. Because he wants you. After everything you've done...after failing him in every possible way...he still wants you. So you raise your hand, trembling, and hesitantly begin to reach for him. He doesn't even wait for you to close the distance, but steps forward, grasps your hand, and pulls you easily to your feet. And he doesn't stop there. Before you know what's happening, his arms are around you in a tight, warm embrace.

- Remind Me Who I Am

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[godbirdart]

i've been so used to the online space where if you like a series or fictional character that someone else hates they will openly berate you and cut you out of their life and tell you to Go Die so when i got into a thing that a friend really didn't like and their only reaction was "i do not like it" and left it at that with no over the top reaction or lecture on Why The Thing They Don't Like Is Bad, honestly i felt like i met god

[ariadne-mouse]

This feels like both a statement of potential obviousness, but also a prediction because hey, we're only 2.5 hrs into Episode 1: I don't think Downfall will reveal either the gods or the Aeorians to somehow be uniquely evil, or that the desire on either part to destroy the other is somehow uniquely more justified or deserved.

Like in Episode 1 here we're getting a very strong dose of the shitty things Aeorians are doing to other mortals in their pursuit of control and power - we already knew they were a warmongering surveillance state, and as things get worse on Exandria it's grimly unsurprising that the people on the ground are increasingly treated as disposable. But Aeor is still a city full of people seeking safety in a land torn open by the gods' battles, desperate to survive by any (increasingly ugly and sinister) means. And the gods in turn are afraid for their survival, and are acting accordingly in seeking Aeor's Downfall (immense collateral damage) - all while and the versions of them in the party here have lived mortal lives & hardships, have families, communities. They have lived in the desolation their own godly battles have created. We don't see them portrayed as lofty divine abstracts, not even necessarily in the intro, where they are confused, afraid, and seeking safety from danger.

For Ludinus to think this "footage" is in his favor against the gods, and the complexity of the lore being what it is and the cast being the storytellers that they are, I think it must be the kind of series of events you can look at and see the humanity (using that word deliberately) for good and ill in all parties involved - and leave again with your biases if they're strong enough. Very curious what we will learn. I expect to weep. I can't wait.

[erinwantstowrite]

hey guys as a reminder to y'all: i literally can not put more tags on LoF. i would have to nuke some tags to put new ones. there is a limit on how many tags to put and i am not gonna panic to add a tag right now and i'll do it when i feel like sitting down and figuring out what to keep and what to throw out. i know i need to put a wally/dick tag (to the nice people that reminded me, this isn't abour you i promise, y'all were very sweet!). that being said. stop leaving homophobic comments on LoF or i will go crazy 💖 while we're at it, stop leaving transphobic or other hateful comments on my fic too. IN GENERAL you should not be leaving hate comments on a fic. i don't delete hate comments unless they're actively being homophobic/transphobic/racist/etc. but it is not chill to tell me you "loved the story until it got gay." or "too woke." honestly? you can kiss my ass. obviously the story wasn't meant for you. move on and do not comment

[todayisafridaynight]

[bread-wizards]

I actually think Dorian and Orym should fight more.

Remember when their slowly building tension over and entire episode (full of passive aggressive remarks and blame throwing) led to threats? And how after, Orym thanked Dorian for handing over the crown sadly because he knew Dorian would be mad at him? And Dorian couldn't even look at him because he was legitimately hurt, thinking Orym was disappointed in him for doing what he thought was right? That was peak.

The fact they went from that to their current closeness and trust is the best part of their entire dynamic. Their relationship was hard fought and still will be. They will fight for it because they respect and care for one another deeply, and their disagreements don't change that, only improve it.

[ricksmarlene]

  I missed you so much. Words can't even say it right.                      You don't have to. I know.

[slime-sandwhich-nom]

The freaky god parents

[territorial-utopia]

Huzzah! It's birthday time! I'm slowly accumulating more and more things I like (latest additions this vest I made and a travel typewriter! Still need to fix the latter one though)

Sure has been a year.