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bxdtime-ceai · 10 months ago

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I truly believe a spirit cursed (or blessed) me with always being different than everyone in my family

#mine #this sounds like a joke but its part of my belief system djdnkdek #pagan #independent pagan #curse #or blessing #whos to say #my family is fundamentalist christian #they only fight about religion #they are anti every good social movement #they all married young and believe its sinful to not marry and that there are 'biological consequences' if a woman doesnt give birth ever #meanwhile i fight about everything and am extremely hot tempered #i will never shut ip about the things i believe regardless of the topic #religion doesnt interest me #but i am very spiritual #i vehemently oppose marriage for myself #im queer #i cant drive #ajdjdjejej

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handweavers · 1 year ago

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when reading scripture or religious texts in my studies from a variety of religions (a not-insignificant part of my education has been religious studies) i can appreciate and understand the beauty and appeal of it and make sense of its internal logic system and worldview and feel that i'm picking up what it's putting down even if i don't necessarily identify with it on a personal level, but i gotta be honest i always feel like i'm missing something or losing my mind when i read christian texts like i don't get it and it doesn't make sense to me and nothing about the trinity makes sense to me and the entire worldview feels so harsh and terrifying and bleak for no reason and every time i've asked anyone in my family (on the christian side) to explain any of it to me like sincerely i just feel more baffled and whenever i've had to read passages of the new testament i dont get it at all like even abstractly i don't understand and it makes me feel crazy like what i'm looking at has to be completely different from what other people are seeing and i don't mean it in a reddit atheist smug asshole way like it's genuinely beyond my comprehension I Don't Get It and i don't think i ever will

#and this is solely looking at texts/scripture/writings like i understand its historical and material context and aesthetics #i appreciate the way thay different ethnic groups have adapted xtianity to their culture and find it fascinating when it is syncretic #with ancient traditions and respect peoples right to practice and understand many xtian minorities have faced persecution etc #but every time i read something from the new testament im like is this really...??? uhhhh #and i dont feel that way at all w any other religions texts i can vibe with it i see what its doing and understand it and appreciate it #i find it so deeply unappealing in every possible way . truly just not for me sorry #it doesnt help the sheer amnt of bad experiences ive had with xtians targeting me for conversion #explicitly even after being told that i am sikh and not interested and continued to be harassed #and a genuinely traumatic incident w christian family counselling ive blocked out lol

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vanweezer · 5 days ago

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very very personal, just insight into where im at w my family and things that bother me/have encouraged me to move out

"i know youre moving out so im just gonna say no ones kicking you out and if you feel like this is something you have to do then ok"

thanks! i know im not being kicked out! but yknow i kinda yet a weird vibe when your out of touch husband takes me to a cemetery to yell at me, tell me im just like my father/dont give my father "the time of day", and that im "mean to people who care about me" in front of his dead mother's grave in a poor attempt at guilting me out of speaking my mind. but no yeah thanks for stating the fucking obvious that im leaving on my own terms

#problems!#people seem to underestimate how quick i am to make moves #the job market is piss. cant believe yall two would blame me for being unemployed when all i do from rise to slumber is hound ppl for jobs #im not going to stay in a house where i will be 'scared straight'. that shit doesnt work on me. in fact it has the opposite effect #i respect yall even LESS now #and youre so so fucking lucky one of my goals for next year is to make things right with you it would be easy to cut you off forever #same way i did with my abusive transphobic dad.#my mom is someone i know can do better and can actually listen to reason instead of being stuck in her generation's mentality of #'x is easy if you just do y. you kids have it so easy the world is at your fingertips' blah blah fucking blah #i am autistic i do not keep jobs easily. i am trans jobs do not want me. i am black and perceived as a woman. every customer at all of my #past jobs thinks i am rude or mean or have an attitude when i do nothing but treat others the exact way i would want to be treated #customers dont like what i say? i stop talking. customers dont like when i dont talk? i talk to them. rinse repeat #like i know im the problem here but all of my problems circle back to my autism and the fact that because im not a supergenius or #someone whose special interest is capitalism i fail at every avenue i try to jam myself in.#but yeah no i need to work harder i need to be taken to a FUCKING CEMETERY and yelled at by YOUR HUSBAND for wanting to go to the bathroom #in front of his mothers grave. god rest her soul and yall know im no christian so i actually mean that shit #because in his mind all i want to do is smoke and party. when i smoke because i have fucking migraines and g to shows #(two out of three of them being free and for the purpose of their willingness to 'get me out of the house')#bc i like music and i like engaging w my scene. but no its all violent noise theres no actual purpose or activism behind moshing. nope #its just one big party right. im just wasting my time right. because i like sleepin on a couch every night with no doors to close. yep ok #anyway heres to me getting my meds getting the fuck out and being somewhat far from my scene now that im moving #hows that for smoking and partying all the time huh?#if any of yall read this i am so so sorry. bitching about my stepdad will become a thing i think #hes one of those bible thumpers that are totally boring and indifferent to differences around them and thinks my mom is just like him #in some ways? she is. but she is a people pleaser and will never take her wants or her feelings seriously #because she had the unfortunate upbringing in being brainwashed into thinking her feelings/wants are sinful #shoutout to my christian or catholic mutuals who are fucking normal and dont let some old fantasy novel control your life. peace #religion mention

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boypussydilf · 1 year ago

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the warriors bond between a dude with religious trauma and media that depicts and examines religion and religious viewpoints

#Not just in like a ‘criticizing christianity’ way #Like in a. Idk. It can just be very interesting to me done certain ways. that i dont know how to describe #like one of the things i love abt ds9!!! is how religion is an important part of the story and how they do it #its fictional alien religions but the ideas stand;#it shows how religion can be used in harmful ways- like winn promoting her own self serving viewpoints #and using it as a tool for manipulation and ladder climbing #or when dukat started an Actual Death Cult #but it doesnt treat religion and religious people as idiotic the way …… scifi tends to do.#the bajoran religion is Respected and Important #an important part of the world and of kiras character that isnt ignored or treated negatively.#anyway idk i just like…… seeing fictional characters do interesting things w religion????#or something ?????#basilposting

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syn4k · 5 months ago

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we could get a degree in theology

#ray's tag #because religious stuff is really interesting to us and honestly it always has been #i like studying how it manifests itself and is organized #its absolutely fascinating to me #im drawn to depictions of devotion and prayer. always have been. probably says something about how we were raised #it also doesnt help that religion and art go hand in hand

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#listen. sometimes. when i get emails pertaining to a specific project i worked on that nearly broke my brain. i just stop what im doing #and start playing Losing My Religion by REM. and i wish the person emailing me could see me face down at a table listening to thay song #mostly its fine. its just when someones trying to manage the data files so i kno im gonna have to go back thru and update my code #for a bunch of tiny stuff and its like: does this sound ok? and i just dont care so much that i want to start screaming #and then at the end of the day i hike up a fucking mountain going over what im gonna tell a therapist when my insurance switches #and im gonna say it in a way thats v calm and agreeable but i want to scream and tear my hair out. or maybe i wont b agreeable. i wasnt #last time i was in a therapist office but that guy deserved it and i wasn't being that bad #ugh. im just mad bc working on my stuff makes me so miserable that when i stop its like wow im no longer in agony. cool #coool. fun times. becoming increasingly apprehensive abt how im gonna try to b more healthy abt working while taking on triple #the responsibility with a phd project and being a student and being a TA. i mean. ill try but its gonna b fucking interesting #ugh. had to bust out the burnout playlist. which like. when u try to look at other ppls burnout playlists they all suck #theyre all like former gifted kid burnout Playlists and im like fuckkk offfff. why do u not have the incredibly specific vibes that im #looking for? i just demand the perfect burnout playlist and somehow nobody puts No Surprises on there #like what??? y not? its a song abt being so totally saturated that youve had enough. a heart thats full up like a landfill. a job that #slowly kills u. bruises that wont heal. how is it not THE burnout song? but whatever. i listen to too much radi0head.#ugh. but now my burnout playlist is becoming too much like my My Brain Doesnt Feel Too Good playlist #listen. i just need to curate playlist so that they can express the feelings for me #unrelated

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sanstropfremir · 1 year ago

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Hello! I was looking through your kpop opinions tag, and I found what you said interesting and insightful. I was wondering what your opinions were on Key's Gasoline :D

i have............complicated thoughts on gasoline. i LOVE the graphic design and album marketing and i like a big chunk of the songs on the album, i think a lot of the styling and the mv are really well done. all those outfits are custom builds and the embroidery work is UNREAL, as garments they are beautiful pieces of work. but i don't really like how the song is just a retooled version of industry baby. and i'm not sure how i feel about all the crosses, to be honest. the use of them is obviously very intentional and undoubtedly they mean something TO key specifically in terms of his faith but it's..........not really a thing i can get behind, personally. something about it feels a little too evangelical to me and i will absolutely admit that i am overly sensitive to that kind of thing bc i've had more than one run in with evangelical attempts to convert me. i don't ACTUALLY think it was meant specifically as a whole dogmatic evangelical thing but i find myself being a bit......uncomfortable with the imagery even now a year later.

#like. crosses appear in SO much kpop styling bc theyre just an accessory to a lot of stylists #but with kibum and his care and affinity for detail in his styling......#idk. something gives me the ?? about the visual idea of claiming/making yourself into a new god.....#using a very established and loaded religious symbol.....#that's. weird for me. it doesnt read as transformative in the same way that taemin's work does #its interesting to play with christian iconography contrasting/in dialogue with its contexts #but how do i put this.......it does not strike me as being outside of its contexts here #idk this is hard to explain but as someone who's not religious the way that evangelicals & catholics make art about religion is v different #text #key w #shinee w #answers #im not talking about random instances with strangers on the steet/coming to the door either. im talking about from people that were friends #i also have a lot of ex christian and ex mormon friends bc queer so yea.#sorry this is not really a very interesting or thoughtful response lmao #loved killer though it was extremely fun and very my vibe (synthpop)

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sug4r-melon · 9 months ago

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ALASTOR IS SUPPOSED TO BE A DEER???????

#i dont go here but #what???#hes also a black man apparently who practiced a closed religion called voodoo #and a radio show host??#and hes got tentacles??#hazbin interests me im ngl but genuinely that characters motifs are all over the place #and he just.... doesnt look like a deer #to me #discourse #neg #kinda? more confusion than anything

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languri · 1 year ago

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Living in a conservative country, I personally find that saying that I am a lesbian to people (that I find to be open minded and safe to come out to) is much much easier than explaining to them that I am aro because I never have to deal with people trying to justify that I like girls when I say I am a lesbian but the moment I say "I'm aro I'm not interested in dating nor romance", the reaction is always, ALWAYS them saying that I haven't find the right person yet and I will change my mind the moment I fall in love 🙄

#the last time I explain to people why I broke up this person was like “aww you'll find a guy soon-”#“you just need to find the person that would give the effort and care like you do”#and thinking about it annoys me so much #like the society here really revolves around us needing to find a partner for life #and i remember back in school the religion study teacher says we go to hell if we dont get married which is honestly so fucked #im just glad at least my parents doesnt push me into looking to date since they never see me as a kind of person to date #and i never tell them if I ever interested in dating they just kinda accepts me as a weirdo that likes cartoon lol #asukablyat

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weirdlizard26 · 1 year ago

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THE CLUE MAKES ME INSANEEEEEEE THIS EPISODE IS KILLING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

#wl26 #sorry. normal again (im not)#sorrysorrysorry #ok listen. hear me out. what if i read the bible GDJKNFGD #thinking abt how i might break this to mom and how im probably gonna be like well im just curious you know religion is an interesting topic #she doesnt know i want more gomens lore #im joking. but i also am genuinely curious #good omens #wait. i just realized. am i clogging up the tag :-(#do i have to retag all my posts again gdkjfgd...

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nomaishuttle · 1 year ago

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its hard being a girl who just likes things that smell nice and shiny things bc its like omg i loveee good smell i heart candles and incense and then i look up incense and see whatever this is

and then im like uhmm.... ok anyways..... Well what if i got shiny rocks i will look at pictures of shiny rocks now and theyre all tagged some shit like vaginal purification women energy witchy vibes aura blah balh blah and its like ok lets all kill ourselves

#its also hard being a girl who does just in general like a lot of like.. witchy imagery #i love moonphases i love cluttered places i love celestial imagery in general as mentioned i love crystals and stuff. and yes i like #mushrooms and i think cauldrons look awesome and tbh i love witch hats but i literally cant bc tiktok and tumblr witches are the most #annoying people on this entire planet god i hate yiu ppl. Not to mention how racist most of them are and judt generally shitty and weird #basically yes i hate 99% of wiccans and pagans And im allowed to say that bc my moms wiccan and i hate her too. mildly joking on that last #part. love my mom but also ambiguous disorder and also the wiccan shit is so annoying . and my dads one of Those atheists #and yas im like Atheist but lord . i dont like t call myself that bc of how shitty ppl who ccall themselves atheists are...#agnostic is ig a better word bc i am like. yk ... i am open to learning about religions theyre very interesting 2 me im open to hearing abt #ppls beliefs yk. it just.. idk i genuinely cannot. believe in it. i just donot have faith FJDJFGNHJ i think of it the same way i think abt #like. sports. like i just wasnt raised with that as a big part of my life and i dont fully understand why its a big part of ppls lives but #i respect it yk. and im glad that it works for them and that they enjoy/take comfort in their interests/beliefs....#idk if thatakes any sense DJFFJF. i was an annoying atheist when i was a kid so now i try 2 be like. Normal LOL.even tho religion just #doesnt click in my mind

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crocodile-carousel · 2 years ago

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pillars of eternity really did spoil me, im so fucking picky about high fantasy now

#poe proves it CAN be REALLY fucking good and women can have cool writing #and lore doesnt have to be two dimensional and there can be political intrigue that even i can be interested in #and religion can be compelling outside of gods physically existing #and that even run of the mill monsters you have to kill a billion of can have compelling origins #its not even that dos rubs me the wrong way it just doesnt rub me at all #smoothly glides right off my brain #maybe ill run into something more interesting in the story later but everything ive seen ive just been like #ok but i wanna go back to running errands for townspeople and getting robbed and reading books

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ah0yh0y · 8 months ago

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i deserve crow time to be real in my life thank you