#atenceladusiaawfytbwb me be saying ๐Ÿค ๐Ÿง
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 2 months ago
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HELL YEAH ๐Ÿ—ฃ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๐ŸŽ™๐Ÿ”Š๐Ÿ“ฃ๐Ÿ“ข๐Ÿ”ˆ๐Ÿ‘„๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ˜พ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿž๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ˜พ
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 12 hours ago
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hi, uhm I FUCKING CAN NOT ๐Ÿ™‚
(After my tags ranting(selfdiscovering)) and I'm proud of how hard I would fight against it and how hard I'd fight against it and how fucking hard I'd fucking fight against it. Fucckkk ittttt ๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•
But also what? Can't you just fucking surrender? (no ๐Ÿ˜) I mean, ahhhhhhhhh I know whtat I'm thinking and what I meaning but it sounds like such a pain and effort to write and ex p lain it. Just know I'm so right and I'm also so interesting and complex.
((Something something, a setting with like idk a kidnapped reader would be less stressing than this ugh blissful ugh romance ugh can't escape your ugh instincts ugh ugh ugh. Because the dark tragic first one is that and is presented and meant and worked through like that, while the second is put like some romance troubling 'ugh this dirty instincts are spilling out my bra oh my! will someone save this naughty naughty girl' teehee(๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ). So yeah yeah yeah. ยกBITE OFF HIS FACE, GIRL! WHAT THE FUCK?!!!!!
๐Ÿ’†โ€โ™€๏ธ I'm so complex and interesting. But also everything in me makes sense and fits right in and flows. Ah, perfect ๐Ÿ‘Œ
#atenceladusiaawfytbwb me be saying ๐Ÿค ๐Ÿง#fuckem and fuckem so hard and i would id fucking will them i fucking would u pathetic piece of shit ๐Ÿคช๐Ÿคช๐Ÿคช#(((soulmates and abo are the worst weakestes pathetickest worstes and i my die in this hill. teehee ๐Ÿ˜)))#hahaha iys also like whaat? coincidence ๐Ÿคจ idfthibkso ๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿคจ#btw btw btw found one abo ff did the mistake of rading it and omg it was so good and so so so beautifully written like#omg unironically poetic unironucally would tead a long book of this so so so good and heartfull#clock yhe next one. still well written but ha๐Ÿ™‚ ha ha ๐Ÿ™‚ you know me ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ˜›๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿคญ#โ€œI cant controll it t-the 'gland' (?) the gland the GLAND call is to strong ow hewp me owie oouchie sowwy ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿ‘ˆ#???? grab a fucking knife and cut it off????? โ€œoh but its on the neckโ€- grab ๐Ÿ‘a๐Ÿ‘knife๐Ÿ‘ and๐Ÿ‘cut๐Ÿ‘it๐Ÿ‘off๐Ÿ‘ like seriousy?????????#this bitches have never had a psychotic break and it fucking shows ๐Ÿฅฑ#owwwir im so cwazy ill end up doing something crazy like blowing that mean alpha (???๐Ÿคฎ???) grrr growl im so inswane#????? yk what'd be insane? bite throuh his neck? like literally- just rip his throat appart- or bitte conpletlg off the dick???#???? or burn down the whole place??? or the classic: ๐Ÿ‘grab๐Ÿ‘a๐Ÿ‘fucking๐Ÿ‘knife๐Ÿ‘and๐Ÿ‘---#YOU REALLY RANTING ABOU- yeah yeah yeah fucking watch me ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„ HEY#HEY HEY LISTEN OMG IMG OMG OFCOURSE OMG my psych told me (diagnostic-ish) that i have a big problem#like a HUGE problem with authority. Aaannnndddd ppreciasely those soulmate abo 'soulmate' crap??? omg omg of course its aaaah all conected#perfect sense listen listen LISTEN: that absolute 'fate' 'meant to be' 'can't help it' 'unstopable' OMG of ducking course id HATE that bs#of course of course of course ahhhhhhhh (I do have a capable psyc(both my psychologist and psychiatrist) ive always been knew ๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿ˜Ž)#it wasn't me randomly disliking a trope. it was FUCK THE POLICE all along (yes it is like that and it is that deep. stfu)#awwww man i feel fucking awesome. chackars have been unlocked. cosmical consciousnes have been aligned. I am so perfect and right ad correc
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 2 days ago
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I had a nice introspective session just now, ((At least half an hour of sharing my reflection in an imaginary theater with an interviewer and audience, all listening and respectful. A long heartfull applause by the end)) idk, I feel less hateful and angry and combative, for now, for now... ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 7 days ago
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BTW block has usually being like 'lol what too much it's not that serious Yada yada'
And it is true โ˜๏ธIt extensively isn't that serious -it's never been like something ideologically, deep rooted thinking, personal taste- it always uuuuh stick to the basic, the 'sides' like of course a writing, a ff can be so important and a reflection of the writers values and a cornerstone or whatever, but, still, what? Lol no, I'll leave, complain ev3n, but just leave. Bit ahhhh it is a middle point, Kay? No, it's not the creators ideology about races, but it can be more waaay more than the 'fun thing I write in 15 min'
So, let's say, it's an abo fic about Brbbsbslohfj the alien stallion and it has toe lactation and oviposition -all rather too outsideish - right? But you know here and there, ( ive thoroughly complained what actually emotionally iiiiirrrrrcccckkkssss mae) the classical 'omgsgg dick so good I'll forgive everything omgomggg' (that is excellent whatever when the pic's point is 'Dick so good reader forgives transgressions', but on passing? On an actual fic with the other actual problems and pull that out of the creators asss? Ha) and it's a no. GOD, NO.
Tfldfr block seemed to exesive, but if I stopped followiong/didn't follow after the content in the writing it was for something, like maybe petty or whatever, but it was for something. I barely, barely retain a memories of a person's pfp, if anything! Barely! And tumblr of course would just oh hey maybe you want to read this now (those 'you might like) and offc I would read the current thing not knowing the previous thing and not remembering the pfp (leave it alone the name) and then, follow?! (Again?!) I mean even the blogs owner (supposing the have literally absolutely nothing (better but anything at all) to do) might see me there and be like 'You heathen!๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿซต' and they'd be right, but of course I didn't mean to, so yeah duh of course blocking it's actually good, necesarey even, and this, sadly, had to be my discovering journey because I tried to be a whimsical 'Oh, no blocking, just bye ๐Ÿงšโ€โ™€๏ธ' but wasn't about being or beingn't nice, it was the utilitarian aspect of it.
Again, tldr
I'll star blocking because girl what I may had been just obliviously refollowing and that's not good. So, may it been the tiniest pettiest (not really, I have an excellent infallible criteria, but I'm also so godamn humongusly humble, so-) most intracendent thing, I'll be blocking. And yes, of course, OF COURSE I had to announce it and I had to announce it like longly, like check all this paragraphs jfc
Again again tldr I'll star blocking like a sport, because tumblr doesn't understand it (help me) the nice way๐Ÿฅต๐Ÿ˜ˆ. Totally 100% personal though, yes.
#atenceladusiaawfytbwb me be saying ๐Ÿค ๐Ÿง#thats on me for like making it speciall or for very standing out situations#like one fic where 3/4 it got god it was so bad no no tagging problem but the whole thing#i I IIIII was like duh her3 comes the grand thing this one thing where it where the characters proced to solve it this way#no no no it surprised me (because of course i had this preconceptions ('youve read one fic youv read them all') but writer tottaly surprised#me in the worst worstes worstes of them allest way wtf was that wtf it should be illigal to he that dumb and yseless and stupid and jfc this#came from someones head not ass and AHHHHH#yes it was that serious and soul crushing ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿค•๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ‘‰๐Ÿ‘ˆ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿฅบ#so of course i in an almost unseen fit blocked them (and no. of course i didnt tell them anything or left a comment or say anithing. No ๐Ÿ™„)#and i processed it as that. block what its against thy beliefs or so unbelivable stupid inside the (fandoms(?)) standars#but no of course not all this time ive should been blocking anything that moves ๐Ÿฅบ like how many times did i re-follow/followed#first time a blog i had chechk and distasted. oh no no no no.#this is also 98 to 99 % tumblrs fault. like bitch yeah iv gotten them on other blogs reblogs like duh#no one else shares not even a sprinkle of my acertive criyical thinking. But bit youve have put them in recomendations. all#around the 'you might like' 'follow this' sections. and that disgusts me. how could you bitch? hope you chocke or something ๐Ÿ˜ 
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 12 days ago
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That's it ๐Ÿ˜  back to mysterious and quiet silent, unreachable, unreadable, misunderstood me ๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ 
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 12 days ago
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Regulate myself instead of oversharinng??? (๐Ÿ™‚โ€โ†”๏ธ) < Yapping till I'm โœจ๏ธ expendโœจ๏ธ(๐Ÿ™‚โ€โ†•๏ธ) TMI
I got a hair collagen that actually and for real works. I yearn for a greasy well seasoned steak๐Ÿฅบ but I'm trying to not eat meat (and so far the horror of thinking about the meat industry is far bigger than my yearn, but still ๐Ÿ˜”๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ) (('hey, how's collagen acquired ๐Ÿค ?)) Ahhhhhhhhhh. Mmmm? Omelas here and there comes to mind (?) (In a good way, fight for justice and a difference way) I want to make my own jewelry, but turns out you need skill and resources? Wtf? ๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ˜  I'm currently hungry but I'm also on a 'distaste' period, so I don't want to disappoint myself that fucking bad (in contrast, I might stuff little ol me later ๐Ÿ˜ (it's not serious or extreme at all, but still ๐Ÿ˜)) Mmmmm greasy well seasoned steack, no rice no anything, just steack mmmmmm๐Ÿคค (๐Ÿ˜ž๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ž๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ž) It's not TMI because I contain multitudes โ˜๏ธ๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿค“) mmm what's this void? Hahaha? Oh it goes deep! Haha? Oh it's deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 12 days ago
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Leonardo da Vinci ๐Ÿค Me
Uncompleted, Unfinished, Abandoned, Half assed, Midway, Partial, Halfdone, Unacomplished, Unconcluded, Homosexual, Fractional, Halfdone, Unpolished, Incomplete, Started and ditched, Bored and done, Halfbaked, 'I'll finish it Monday', 'Starting ten new projects as we speak', 'Will all ten be abandoned as well', 'The rush is gone before the piece is mastered', Left in the lurch, Given up, Godforsaken,
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 12 days ago
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The prospects of IA working to SETI?! Omg omg omg omg omg omg. -yeah yeah nothing new might happen... but what if???? My eyes full of outerspace wonder--> โญ๏ธ๐Ÿ‘ƒโญ๏ธ๐ŸŒŒ๐ŸŒŒ๐ŸŒŒ๐ŸŒ ๐ŸŒ 
(Too introspective as I tag and tag ๐Ÿ˜ž (hopeless-nessly-er)
Never mind, we'll get to Mars and call it a night huh, aren't we aren't we ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ˜ 
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 12 days ago
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And there we fucking go again, oh, feeling like Bart on that Thanksgiving episode, monologuing, and realizing he really hurt Lisa.
But also ๐Ÿ™‚ don't comment or interact at all, you don't exist and you're a coward and wtf you aren't even real you have absolutely no importance nor is your time or effort of Ani value. Read and exit.
Let me write an ambiguous ๐Ÿ˜ฌ then? 'No, that's either too mean or just plain passive agresive, at least be direct or straightforward what's this baby behavior?' And so on and so on. ((((( ๐Ÿงโ˜๏ธ"Say something nice or don't say anything at all" Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)((Are you fuckingseriousyoupatheticcunt?justbefuckingnice AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH))))))
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 12 days ago
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A very important part/reason for me sharing my ff (Abbyxreader) is that vulnerability thing.
You know, the I try to comment, interact (on ff but anything un general) and I do try to do the uh skip, a lot, but sometimes as a bitch but genuinely also as an 'I exist' (๐Ÿ˜ฌ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜ฌ) person, I do comment my displeasure? If you call it that? (Because I fucking feel like it, block me ๐Ÿฅฑ), the classic "lol, what (๐Ÿ˜’)(๐Ÿฅฑ(๐Ÿ˜ฌ)(๐Ÿคจ) vibes, anyway, I got my back exposed with that? You get it, my imaginary friend/enemy? I share this very important (because as casual as I try to make it look, my ff are very very important and dear and precious to me) because I comment on other's works or thought, and it did gave me the 'ugh staring down at the pauperd from my luxurious balcony' when I didn't share anything of my own (my writings, stories, Abby ff in this case). No, it doesn't really change anything at all, not what I do and how I interact, nor my โœจ๏ธcreative/writing processโœจ๏ธ but there it is, just so you know ๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ Maybe it's all round and round trying to deflect the attention, skip the fact, that whatever supercasual story I write has actually my entire heart and I did work really really hard on it and put all my effort on it and want it to be excelent and known and apreciates by others but oh lol I just write this in 15 min
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 16 days ago
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I just broke like 7 eggs. Opened the fridge and the tray they were on flipped to the floor. Eggs that I was gonna give my parents because I've gotten the ick lately (flavour. (but also chickens labor and animal welfare)) "Oh no the poor chickens" *process to throw away several eggs* I kinda hate myself or something idk ๐Ÿ™ƒ dumb bitch ๐Ÿ™ƒ you stupid useless bitch.
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 22 days ago
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JESUS FUCKING CHRIST hahahaha whatthefuckkk???? Ok, sure, whatever ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ
It's like, with everything, reader is raped and chronically abused???? Sure, why the fuck not, fuck yeah you might even say. Because duh, check how she survives, strong or feeble, conscious or totally stockholmed, whatever. โœจ๏ธโœจ๏ธโœจ๏ธโœจ๏ธexploreโœจ๏ธโœจ๏ธโœจ๏ธโœจ๏ธ make it even scarier, more painful, sluttier -the sky is the limit.
Reader is called a whore? Unironically, and they make our and fuck because you see actually they violently desire each other and thats hot??? ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคฎ AHHAHAHAHA yeah sure ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ it'll be even hotter when I LITERALLY ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿคช๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‚ burn him alive.
((It also puts thing in perspec5ive I guess? I've read and even fucking enjoyed stories where reader is a completely tortured cocksleve, crawling herself to freedom, or revenge, or to be at the very least on the good side of her masters/monsters. To a redemption, to a scape, to become an accomplice even, and hurt, whoever- innocents even- just so she doesn't feel that pain. And she still loses, and she's still draw under by her ankles, nothing but a wet hole in a mans world??????? I'd read that every๐Ÿ‘ position๐Ÿ‘ to ๐Ÿ‘Sunday๐Ÿ‘, before another 'ugh he forced himself upon her ugh and it was so erotic and hot and ugh made her ugh realize her true inner desires ugh so hot' literally ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ
(((((That's not dark, or 'immoral' writing. Or hot or problematic or selfindulgemt. It's shit.))))))
(((((((((((OFNFJKDJDOSJ but everyone is free to write whatever they want YES FUCKING YES AVSOLUTELY THATS WHY IM HERE COMPLAINING -AND BLOCKING' NOT SENDIND THREATS OR HATEFUL ANONS OR MESSAGES OR SMOTHERIMG THEM TO DEATH?????? JUST IN CASE JUST IN FUCKING CASE))))))))))))))
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 30 days ago
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Very happy and โœจ๏ธsuperiorโœจ๏ธ because I realized a dream ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ I dreamed I was walking on the treadmill and, for how long, how far? And I just couldn't stare at the number, they just didn't make sense. So I was like, wait a darn minute, where is it that I can't read numbers/words- oh, this is a dream! And bitch! I immediatly I woke up ๐Ÿ˜Œ I'm just that mentally strong, you wouldn't understand ๐Ÿ’†โ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’….
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 1 month ago
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Sometimes I just have to ๐Ÿ˜ž๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฅฑ on some stuff, like when they say "oh he fingered you, and you saw stars, and ๐Ÿคฏ" because lol. No. Just- just no. Did I ever get to experience that, even? I started antidepressants before I could do it good, even by myself, so it's like??? No??? Duh, no. Anyway, some of those reflections of things I've missed in exchange of not killing myself. It's bad, bad bad. Like I don't think I've ever peaked, it's always been more like 'meh, done'.
Well, there was one time, and it was truly amazing, but it happened precisely because I wasn't taking my meds, and halfway -when there's no coming back- I got an horrifying, disgusting thought, intrusive. And lo and behold, my best time is at this point nothing sexual or tender or good, just that disgusting disgusting horrific thought.
"Oh, y/n was so horny and wet she just had tho ride his tight for a minute" And yeah, hot, sure. But deep down, what? No. What???๐Ÿ˜ž๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฅฑ uhum.
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 1 month ago
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Speaking of my actual psychologist, he has several times made feel 'yellow wallpaperish' talk to him about war, current wars and how they make feel, the terrors! 'Oh well don't watch the news'. Talk to him about femicides and how worrying it is and the utter apathy and sadism from men? 'Oh, don't look at that up on social media'. Talk to him about me trying no to eat meat, the horrors of the meat industry Jesus fucking christ? 'Oh, well, you are not supposed to think about that! I never think about that when I eat meat'
Just send me a season to the beach to breath fresh air and find a fair husband already, then ๐Ÿ™‚ you stupid bitch ๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–•๐Ÿ–• He's been really helpful, mostly, but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'll look for new stuff, and, besides looking for a lady/queer psychologist, I will (long due, loooong due i know (but its a proces too, like hes also helped me to be more like me and speak up you know ahh)) stop himโœ‹๏ธ ๐Ÿซธ with those crappy answers
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atenceladusiaawfytbwb ยท 1 month ago
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No, nothing illegal but BRO FUCKING COME ON! COME ON!
Talking to my psychologist, male, about my weight and stuff. So I mention that I exercise, okay sure, but the other side you know food, it's important, and he fucking ask me: and food huh? Tell me, what are we putting into that little mouth of yours
๐Ÿ˜ What. In. The. Everloving. Fuck ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ๐Ÿคข๐Ÿคฎ
Well it was Spanish " Que nos estamos metiendo a la boquita, a ver" or something
And no, absolutely nothing graphic or illegal, ๐Ÿ™ƒ it's just you fucking know, I am an adult woman he is an adult man (old man) and he knows and I know and you all know AND EVERYONE FUCKING KNOWS BUT WHATEVER LOL HAHAH JUST SOMETHING HAHA NO IMPORTANCE I'm so disgusted. I'll tell mom and tell you what she says, I truly hope for a decent: what the fuck, that's the worst way you could phrase that, what the fuck. But truly fear a: stop looking into it, it was just an expresion
He's been my psychologist for like 3 years, we do Not talk like that. Idk maybe he wasn't even paying attention, but I do have every right to be utterly disgusted right? Not actually asking, I do, I know I do, what the fuck. Anyway man ruin everything, they truly do, Yada, Yada... what wouldn't I do for a lady doctor, or a queer doctor, OR BOTH EVEN!!! ๐Ÿ˜ž
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