#atenceladusiaawfytbwb me be saying 🤠🧐

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Very very unserious rambling, it's just This babygirl has lowered her dosage and is angry as fuck. Very personal and like individual, my very own experience that, obviously shouldn't and must not affect anyone else, but then again we just pixels on the waeb and just wanted to state that, you know, you know. You don't obviously uhhhh so jokingly let's say that ihmnm

Jaja, but seriously, I'm so enraged omg haha help I need to commit a crime :D haha no, but, for example, I feel like I could jump and bite off the entire face of the next m*n that catcalls me in the street, or something idk. I'm going, you know, haha ye knaowww, in a diy way, oopsies, but next appointment with the psychs I'll tell him and check what or what. I've always been very pro medication and all that, but God have I missed feeling this much, specially anger, bitch I'll break someone in half! Anyway anyway, I'll see how it goes, if thing turn too unmanageable or something I'll go back and all that, whatevs, it's just it is awesome to be this??? Crispy??? My parents are aware of it all today I told them, it was more like a you know, pay me attention, but!!! also don't you dare take too serious my upcoming outbursts or ramblers or all that. Off, idk idk.

Tmi: warningssss tmi: Cantwaittorubitlikeiusedtoandsoitactuallyfeelstoecurlinglikeinfanfictionandnotjustlikeamehrelease 😁 (no seriously, I miss coming, like, coming, like I'm alive, and is not just like sneezing and oh well thats it lets go to sleep (yeah yeah tmi, everything personal and in my tag is tmi me bad. Not really))

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Read a fic so bad I had to like ooofff for a second. Great writing and story and all but like JFC IF THE READER DOESNT BIT OFF SOMEONES NOSENIMNGONNA AAAA. Not even very dark things get me like that like iooiiffff the bar was underground, and still ooooffff like, reader doesn't have selrespect or a spine or personality or anything, and idk. I can read things that bother me or hurt me or get me angry and that's it, life moves on. This one was so infuriating it wasn't enough with me leaving, I had to block the blog. No reason at all, I have no idea what kind of person the writer is or what else the blog had to offer or the super high chance I never ever even encounter it again, I had to block. As self care. And it was you know, agonizing, but whatever I also was hoping for some slap moment, some character development, some 'huh actually you know what' some tears, but it all just got???????? Oh they had make up sex, bland, mid, make up sex. Until the very end. Who cares? No one. Everything else was nice and omg fandoms and creators it's amazing and free and omg. Still I had to make this rant. Why? No one cares, well I do, my head could exploded with how stupid stupid stupid reader was idk I took it personal. Like okay, maybe not go so out of the fic style and put rat poison on the food or set the house on fire, nor even a good ol unharmful fist fight- but girl for the love of fucking God wtf. Yeah yeah, it's on me. I mean no, how could I know? I was waiting for the climax, thoirstily. And it came as mid sex. ((((((NEEDLES TO SAY OF CCOURS3 I DIDNT COMPLAINT OR LEFT COMENTS OR ANYTHIBG- OBVIOUSLY)))))))))) it did ruined my mood like I was on a binge reading of that character, and now I want to do ketamines or amthng idk. My point is, and remember kids, when you write something, remember that you can literally do it I whatever way you want, you can and should write/draw/ create anything you want and literally no one should hav3 a say in it. If they have a problem, they can rant like this, or chocke to death, wathever, life goes on. 👍😱😝😝😝

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🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣Unflowologing a lot of creators that turned out, I despised them, and or slightly inconvenience me, but mostly that, you know omg🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣🗣 🎤🎤🎤🎤🎤🔈🔊🔉🔉🔉🔉🔉🔊🔊🔊🔊And I share this because I'm currently hot angry,

and right, ironically and as joke sure, but also seriously, heartfully, I'll share what I think

I myself create a little, somewhere else, and is small, tiny, but I do like what I do and treasure it. Still can't imagine the level of disgust some get to feel against those who don't experience/enjoy/interact a certain way with it. Maybe I've just havent done something myself that I love so much, and put so much work into, that I turn into "ugh you don't have the right - block me if you don't like it not my problem- if you like but don't reblog you are literal thrash - some of you are so entitled to my work - didnt ask for you opinionnsonyou can go f urself and i may have reacted completely different to other interactions like yours positively with the only diference that what was told appealed to my very own perspective but that has nothing to do with the way im being mean and smug to you because the problem is that what you just said is objectively dumb and I cant believe you hadnt guessef id react negatively and that doubles my disgust towards you and i better never hear you enjoy anything made by me because I, a pixel on the web, condemn thy, another pixel on the web to never have acsses to my works publiced here, publicly and freely, on the internet. And you better do as I say, or what? Are that much more of a disgusting person-" Que finding other unrelated stuff (truk6 unrelated like wtf) to add on to why this one (person b/anon/fan/anyone) is very wrong and therefore this other one (person a/creator/anyone) is right, superior even, Que too that if public other people (unrelated too) have to show that much despise towards B or they are disgusting enablers supporters idk

And it is quite specific, I know, but it has happened enough times with different people/situations to be a thing.

Like an anon hey could I (something. Not mean or entitled (no, not related to ai use at all (obviously?))) And oh boy the answer. Oh boy, like: oh so you think that you can (a bunch of awful stuff the one asked got out of their ass bc was nowhere on the ask/comment) the audacity, omg wtf, the nerve- and the revlogs are of other people tagging stuff like ph yeah I can't believe it like the mental problems this annon must have'

I have a decent social understanding, I think? No, there wasn't condescending undertones or something to read between lines, unless you want to, because then you can do that about anything. Giiiirl like ioiiffffffoooofff I got ooooofff wtf fuck is so wrong with them bitch just called them stupid or dumb and move on? A paragraph on why bdjshdhdhdhfhd I can't write anymore idk fucking fuck fuck FUCHCFUCKFU K SGU K SHIT BITCH FUCK

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Thats what we need to do. Exactly the same thing over over. So uhm, hehe, join me in my wonderful adventure of keep doing the exact same thing ivbeen doing for years and that has proven time and time again it doesn't help me. Want to fucking cry, may cry, whatever. I'm so so tired, and tired of fighting that I'm tired. Whatever

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Guys hmgiysguys im in the waiting room for the exams omg 😱

🤨😏 if "everything turns out right and normal," I'm committing a felony 😋

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This Barbie on her way to stop caring, I guess. (About some stuff, getting extra cautious and conscious about some other stuff (balance 🤺))

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Llevaba enfemita tres días, pero ya hoy estoy mejorando 🥺 I'm literally god's strongest soldier

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Gooorrrllsss!! Trying to plan to schedule my neuro psychology tests thingy- to see?????? I've read a lot of people with them chronic tiredness where what fi ally worker was adhd medication 👀👀👀👀👀 So like

AHHHHH 🤯😭🤨😱😫 A WORLD WHERE IM NOT 24/7 TIRED AND OVERWHELMED???? WHAAAT

Whatever, idk autistic spectrum, hyperactivity, thyroid(?) Whatever just ahhhh

What we know? Tried whatever blood/iron/supplements and no improvement at all

Anxiety, depression and ocd (and a decent amount of no eye-contact 💋🫦💅( like any hottie) So uhhh let's see 🥸🤓🧐👀👁👄👁🗣👓🕶🥽🔎🔍🔦💡

👏 I'm queer👏 I'm here 👏 I'm medicated 👩‍⚕️🧑‍🍳☄️💊🩸💉🥛🧊 I've already gone through "No nO 🤓 iTs beCauSe YoUr PeRIOd haha" diagnosis 🔎🔎(( -->🧠 ??)🤷‍♀️ ❌️0️⃣⛔️)🤓😫🙄🙄 I'm so tired all the time 🤣🤣

👏👏 Anyway, the last one was some IV carboxyaamaltose, huge expectation, nothing improved, so ugh omg God I'm so ready for anything whatever it is that works 😫😫😫 Thyroid? Adhd? Tumor? Hot hit hot whatever just AHHHH you get it

If I get as much as a whisper, a hint, a sprinkle

Of some condescending

1)it's yer period

2)it's side-effects of the antidepriss

3)u lazy

Or any of the like, I'll be

Doing something, at minimum, inconvenient, for all parties involved.

Now, I am currently the one in charge of calling the doctor, so, things may be happening between next week and the next 6 years 🫦💄💋💅 A girl can get so busy existing 🥺

Doi that will, at the very leas

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I baked a chocletey cake and it turned out noice 👀 (also baked some very old bread dough -the frozen, ready to- and I almost lost my life, but anyway) tastes excelent 😚🤌👌 I feel so smart and skilful and competent, and housewifey ughhh 😩

*It was an instant mix, sure, but I, myself, cracked like an egg, and sprinkled some sugar and salt (not on the instructions 🤯🖐) so who did the actual work? 🤨 hmm?? The real craf of the bake 🤨🤨 hmm? hmm?

👩‍🎓👩‍🍳👩‍🎨👩‍🔬🤼‍♀️

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Like a week walking 3km daily. It aint much but I've been steady and thats impressive- This barbie getting in shape 🥺

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1)Got that widgety thing so I can post easier and stuff so u mayhear more about me

2) 🤏 this close to buy a weighted blankie and I know it will be awesome 😠

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Fricking love peanuts with raisins 😠