#really nervous about this one tbh
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It’s almost claustrophobic the way Sydney cages you in, between your school seat and the wall behind you. Back flush to the wall.
She must've been waiting for the opportunity, considering your height difference.
Her face is incredibly close and so different from the usual dreamy smile that’s directed at you.
Dark purple, almost black hair drapes around you like a curtain.
The contrast to her usual self unnerves you a bit. you repress the urge to shiver.
She inches even closer, so slowly you'd think she mistook you for some skittish animal.
An almost predatory smile twitches against her lips again, before she plants a slow kiss to your cheek.
“Hello Beloved, I thought I should visit you after you’ve been so busy avoiding me”.
You keep looking at her, eyebrows furrowed, stony silence. She goes on:
“Just wanted to remind my partner who she belongs to.
We’re promised to each other after all”. She pauses and everything inside you starts to tenses up.
Her languid pace dissipates the moment she rips your shirt open with surprising strength.
The loose buttons you had wanted to mend later, popping right off. You flinch. Not from shock but the conscious effort to stop your reflexes. To keep yourself from instinctively lashing out.
A low chuckle escapes Sydney.
“Awe don't hold yourself back on my account, Dee. Not after you’ve already hit me once. You know I can take it” Her left hand wanders from the desk you sit at, to your thigh.
idly stroking it. playing with the hem of your skirt. you keep your gaze on her as apprehension sneaks into the back of your mind. What the fuck did you do to Sydney? You truly hadn’t expected her to react this way, you thought she would’ve been happier with your suggestion. You coerced her into depravity after all.
You still don’t trust your voice to come out right but right as you are about to speak- something flashes over Sydney's face and she bites down on the crook of your neck.
You successfully squash your instincts once more. It feels weird. You never had to suppress your fight instinct near Sydney before. Hadn't needed them with her in the first place.
The ghost of a smile caresses your skin. Sydney's bite hurts but it's tolerable compared to past injuries you’ve had. You can hold out, it could be worse.
Time seems to slow as she sucks several hickies into your shoulder and cleavage. lovingly punctuated by harsh bites.
You’re glad you decided to buy that spiked choker so many months ago or your throat would probably share the same fate.
it's irritating how easily your body reacts to her. You keep perfectly still, clenching your teeth to ground yourself.
You feel a bit short of breath once Sydney finally shoves off of you to stalk away, with the same warm smile she usually sports around you.
#dol sydney#dol fanart#degrees of lewdity#sydney the fallen#dol pc#dee the defiant#sydney the faithful#dolgl#doldykes#my art#myart#really nervous about this one tbh#I'm not that happy with what i wrote I think its quite repeptitive but I couldnt quite think of a different way to structure it urghghg
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✨he looks heavenly✨
i am so excited to see this man in action for season 4. it's going to be full one tarot card, séance readings, all round witch shit. which is what i've wanted since day one.
the fashion, the vibe, the pose. beautiful. its giving klaus season one or the closest we'll get to season one.
and klaus season one will always be famous. the jewellery. the background, yes it dingy and grimy but im obsessed. i have way too many feelings on how good he looks.
i would prefer he had his curls but im willing to overlook it for this absolutely impeccable picture.
i am so excited to see him hopefully use his powers and maybe even enjoy using them. still worried about the damn tower tarot card but this. this is everything ive wanted in klaus.
when i think about klaus, this is damn near perfect to what i think. add curls and it is perfect.
#the umbrella academy#umbrella academy#tua#the umbrella academy s4#umbrella academy s4#tua s4#klaus hargreeves#he just looks so good#i am actually struggling for words because he looks fancy#the overall aesthetic is just bohemian weirdo#which i think describe klaus and robert sheehan tbh quite perfectly#hes doing some séance stuff but on his own terms which i love and want for him#please give this boy a happy ending#let him be safe and joyful and just let him be okay#he is actually one of those awful tragic characters that if he doesnt get a happy ending it will bother me#i get really deep about klaus because we share a lot of qualities and it makes me nervous how much he goes through#like if he doesnt get better will i ever get better#but thats a lot to put on a fictional character so ill stop#let klaus be happy thank you netflix#umbrella academy klaus#the umbrella academy season 4#tua season 4
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A painting I did of my friend! (Acrylic on wood)
#Traditional art#painting#portriat#i don’t know how to tag art that isn’t from a fandom#Tbh I’m a bit nervous about posting my actual art#I was planning to only use my blog for fanart#But I’m really proud of this one so here goes nothing#Art!#the eyes took so long lol#There is a chance I am a tiny bit gay for this girl
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Okay so I don’t feel the most qualified to talk about this, especially to make any value judgements on how any of this was handled, so I would love other people to add in if they feel like it, but this is eating my brain actually so.
Esther Finch is a funny villain. She’s a joy to watch on screen, even if part of that joy is in hating her. But there’s something that feels very deliberate in the fact that the only two girls (barring in the animated flashback) we see her target are black girls. Becky Aspen and Crystal. I don’t think we’re supposed to infer from this that she only ever targets black girls, but the casting of Becky feels deliberate. While there’s plenty of in universe explanation for why she wants to use Crystal to feed to her snake afterwards and doesn’t ever say, specifically target Niko, it’s still there. And though Niko was just hurt because she got in the way, she’s also another woman of colour we see Esther hurt.
And then at the end Crystal, who many have pointed out has been a voice for women throughout the whole season, stands in front of Lilith, the goddess of wronged women, and screams to her about who gets justice for all the little girls Esther hurt. And then Lilith, played by a black woman, is the one to drag Esther away.
Crystal says to Esther that she knows how anger can poison you. Esther says she learned to be predator instead of prey a long time ago. Do I think that the show literally wants us to think that Esther is a racist who deliberately targets black girls? No. Do I think the casting choices that they made bring up themes of the kind of people who, because they have been hurt or marginalized, want to push others down to have others that they can have power over instead? Whose problems with societal oppression is not that it exists, but that they aren’t the ones who get to benefit from it? I think so.
#little more nervous about posting this one tbh#again I don’t want to really make a value judgement on how well they did this#because not only am I white I’m also a person who can straight up miss problematic stuff even when it’s about me in some way#hello autism#but yeah it was devouring me and I wanted to write it out#anyways Esther finch might not literally be a Karen or a Terf but metaphorically she kind of is#Esther Finch#crystal palace#crystal palace surname von hoverkraft#dbda#dead boy detectives#and also yeah she grabs the boys but that’s because they now have a specific use to her#dbda meta#discussion of racism#also it makes me think thoughts about that scene where she talks to that cop on the street abt how relieved she was Becky was found#the same cop who dismissed Crystal and Niko when they reported the lighthouse leaper they saw#something something white privileged acab something something
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The fact that Vash has to keep reminding himself that he can also be threatening and dangerous probably means something that I am too tired to piece together atm but for now it's just funny to me.
#it's weird because in the monev fight it was kind of how he psyched himself up... which to me implies that despite his skill#he still feels vulnerable... or maybe helpless? since that chapter was the one we get the rem flashback#and the line 'i just watched on helplessly' as the fleet crashed etc#so maybe that's it - like a 'no wait i can do something about this now!'#but also. hdfbvsdhb it reminds me of stampede vash's 'mm. no thanks!' when challenged to a fight#vash gets challenged by assassins and still goes: 'oh... no thank you. that sounds kind of scary...'#ahfbdhfvbj#tbh i really do like that vash is allowed to get nervous and grieve and cry though. and he's still confident and skilled and cool.#he's got the range :D#trigun#trigunbookclub#vash the stampede#storyrambles
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Twenty Years (1790 words) by TheGeekySquirrel Chapters: 1/? Fandom: Trolls (DreamWorks Movies) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Branch & Floyd (Trolls), Branch & Bruce & Clay & Floyd & John Dory (Trolls), Floyd & John Dory (Trolls) Characters: Floyd (Trolls), Grandma Rosiepuff (Trolls), Branch (Trolls), John Dory (Trolls) Additional Tags: Movie: Trolls Band Together (2023), Floyd Needs a Hug (Trolls), Childhood Trauma, Implied/Referenced Character Death, Floyd Goes Gray, Angst, Angst and Feels, Hurt No Comfort, Kismet Mentioned, Backstory Summary: We know what happened to most of the brothers after they walked away. But where did Floyd go? Why didn't he come back? Do we know that he didn't go back? Maybe there's a past yet to be unfurled, a story left to be told.
Hey y'all, I'm gonna start posting this Floyd fic I've been working on for a while. No set schedule at the moment, but I do have the next few chapters ready to go. They should be posted once a week until I run out of material. Okay, thank you, please enjoy!
#Dreamworks Trolls#Trolls#trolls band together#Trolls Floyd#Floyd Trolls#Brozone#Brozone floyd#Trolls Fanfic#trolls fanfiction#I'm genuinely so nervous about posting this fic tbh like it's been four or so years since i've taken on a multi-chapter fic#i'll link the chapters here as i go and give some of my deeper thoughts on each one in the tags#just like so i have a place to get them out of my head really#this first chapter is such a huge exposition drop but i needed to set up the emotional place Floyd's in with all this background#and like this was the least messy way i could think of#cause like it's Floyd alone. he starts out very much isolated in this story and then the rest of the narrative is about him opening up#i'm hoping i can do it right but that's not gonna be an easy narrative to craft sooo we'll see#anyways i'll shut up now lmao
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oooo is td gonna have an IDW situation where it's like Leo's dark Leo split personality by the aftermath? Maye that;d be cool
I'm not going to do that.
I know you have good intentions, but as the host of an OSDD system, I want to tell you that this isn't right.
I have a lot of feelings about IDW's whole Dark Leo situation after the events of City Fall story arc. Though, even regardless of those feelings, there are very few situations where giving a character an evil alter sits right with me (which is to say, I've seen good hypothetical story ideas from other systems, but never one from a notable published work).
In the way you're suggesting, this is not one that sits right.
This is a tired, harmful trope that I do not wish to include in my work.
I am not saying you are a bad person who meant to inflict harm. I simply wish to inform you as someone who has been harmed by the various misconceptions relating to those like us.
#buwan answer#I just wanted to get this ask out of the way before I do anything else#it's a pretty important subject to me#i don't really mention the fact that i'm a host of a system at all#this is one of if not the only post where i feel comfortable enough to mention it#other alters don't come in when using this acc so most if not all posts are me (buwan)— or at the very least im co-fronting so like#don't worry about getting who you're talking to wrong#I was extremely nervous about posting this tbh#but I just needed to say something about this at least#i dont think i should put this under my au tag tbh
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not me curling my laptop charger wire the way you curl band equipment cords HAHAHA god i miss it
#i really said “okay big performance in the city square let's make this work” and i did but absolute fuckery of the manager just made me...#and she also used to complain about being an opening act-- like come on that's a nationally-renowned band and we're not there yet 😭#we used to fight a lot though so ack i really should have taken that as a red flag#but i was 14 and stupid 🤷♂️#being solo way better uM i shouldn't say this yet but i got a commission today audhauagah i don't even have a portfolio#fuck guys i'm so so so nervous from big changes in life because uM god i just came from actual hell with various things working to make me#kms#but uH we're uH not too keen on that anymore atm and uH it's probably going to all fuck up after i share that i have good news in life#but yk what#let's keep challenging god#i know he hates me#but we will not be defeated we will strangle him by the tie#AHHHH help me i want to get into music again pls pls pls pls pls#anyway back to my old band manager#she was known for being a shitwad in the scene anyw but i was young and stupid as i sais#and i defended her and rationalized her behavior because “we're friends right”#i'm starting to get why my mom is wary of people i get to know#i'm tbh a fucking idiot i would never admit that elsewhere (nah i do) uM my brain is bouncing off the walls#i took a bargain with 7pm coffee and look where it got me#i was also getting up there in my 5 days of uni absences agsgshags#DOES ANYONE ACTUALLY READ THESE I KINDA HOPE NOW NO ONE DOES#IM KINDA UHHH MY CHILD THERAPIST SAID UNCONVENTIONAL#I THINK SHE MEANT FUCKING CRAZY#sorry#oh yeah i walked tf out the band after that big performance set up just for us because i couldn't keep working with that kind of environment#other bands started flocking to recruit or proxy after i was let go by my famously fucked-up ex-manager LOL#but um i have issues so i'm not among them and i think they get the message tbh#appears and disappears#that is actually my brand
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Obituary of Our Own ⛧ Chapter One
So. I made another AU. What are you gonna do!
Huge props to @3mutantsinatrenchcoat, @justletmereadmycomics, and @bigmoneysniffler for being my wonderful beta readers and editors! I literally can't thank you enough askdljsdewfe
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In Leo’s humble opinion, the week's villains were getting pretty shelling pathetic.
“Afternoon, boys! Ritual, huh? How’s that working out for you?”
With a grunt, Leo caught the two robed figures he was facing with a kick to the chest, and they fell onto the mostly completed ritual in the shape of a pentagram, with candles adorning the star tips.
Honestly, it was a wonder they could get this organized.
“Sayonara, SUCKERS!”
Across the way, the moron who was the self-appointed leader (as far as Leo could tell) pointed at another duo and shouted, “Finish it, now! Quickly!”
One of the two lit the last candle, and a sizzling portal appeared. Leo had to fight the gut reaction to cover his face against a steel mech's spearing tentacle or sharp hand that would never come.
“Oh, crud!” Mikey exclaimed and held his nunchaku defensively.
“Man, get another gimmick! That’s my thing!” Leo called and launched a sword at the portal, which curved around it in an arc. In the blink of an eye, he was in midair, holding both swords again. Leo created his portal with his other sword, encompassing the red one before they both fizzled out of existence. A small… something tugged at his gut.
“Alright, Mike, say it with me: You’ve been portal-chopped!”
After a moment, he looked at his younger brother. “You didn’t say it.”
“Sorry!”
As Leo called them in his head, one of the Weirdo Wizards healed their hands out and, true to their name, began to presumably cast a spell.
However, they were still a Weirdo Wizard. The “spell” did nothing at all, rather dissappointingly.
“BOO!” Mikey exclaimed. “BAD SHOW!”
Leo’s communicator clicked on, and Donnie’s monotone could be heard over the slight static. “April’s headed your way! She got chucked!”
“Ten-four, good buddy!” Turning up to Mikey, still, at the edge of the small crater Leo was fighting in, Leo cupped a hand around his beak. “MIKE! ANY SIGN OF APRIL?”
Mikey squinted and used his hands to block the light from the streetlamps so he could see better. “YEP! OVER THERE!”
Leo followed Mikey’s pointed finger and spotted April’s tiny frame hurtling through the air.
"Yeesh," He winced. "I got her!" He swung a sword, and a portal nabbed April right out of the sky.
“Done and done,” Leo said into the comm. He thought it odd that she hadn’t reappeared, but who was he to judge his portals? Besides, if Donnie did record everything, they could find her in a pinch.
Someone yelled, and they both turned to the sound. Raph was standing over a robbed figure, their hood down. It was a middle-aged blonde woman with and sharp glasses, the type you’d see in a spy movie.
“DAMN IT! AGENT ONE!” she shouted, and the same guy that had cast the ‘spell’ whipped out a gun, and shot the ground by Raph, who jumped to avoid it with a squeak.
“Diversion!” Leo shouted, cupping his hand around his mouth.
“On it! Bringing the razzmatazz!”
Leo watched with tentative concern as Mikey used his mystic hands as he flipped over ‘Agent One,’ and his orange magic poured into the air.
At least his hands weren’t cracking, Leo reminded himself.
But before he could do much of anything with the aforementioned powers, the blonde sent a sharp kick to Mikey’s shell, and he crumpled forward, his hands going to cover his face on instinct.
A sharp scream reminded Leo with a piercing shock that Mikey’s powers had been activated. He swore, and ran towards his younger brother. He faintly registered Donnie striking the woman down with his staff, and Raph let out a second yell, this one more fearful and angry.
Leo tugged Mikey across the ground, and pried Mikey’s arms away from his face. Yellow-ish orange circles of magic tugged across the right side of his face, where his hands had made contact.
“Okay, this is fine, you’re good! You’re good, you’re fine,” Leo muttered, and dragged his sword through the air as Raph gently lifted Mikey. “We’ll meet you back at the Lair,” he explained, and Raph nodded, giving a reassuring smile as he stepped through the portal and it snapped closed behind him.
Leo turned back to Donnie, and saw his purple brother dodge a blast from a large gun that he would have invented. Leo wondered if he was bitter that these clowns had beaten him to the punch as he dodged a blast of plasma.
“Dude! How come you got to fight the cool guy?”
“You fought him too, if you remember…”
“Yeah, but then he was just waggling his fingers like one of those cosplay wizards April hates!”
“Tch. Skill issue.”
Leo swept under one of them, and used his sword to force the blaster up, and it ricocheted into the air, taking out a street light.
“Would you stay still?!” The man spat, and Leo shrugged.
“Never really been my forte, you know?”
Donnie smacked the gun out of the woman’s hand, and as she pulled out a knife, snarling, the blaster went off, heading straight for a nearby support beam.
“Oh, pecans… LEO!”
“On it!”
Using more effort than he could take comfort in, Leo sliced open two portals: One to catch the blast, and the other to redirect it.
Turning to Donnie, he called: “Time for us to go!”
“See you never!”
As Leo sliced open another portal, Donnie running backwards toward it, the blast touched down, and they were both shot backwards, all four of them letting out a yell.
The last thing Leo saw before the darkness kicked in was the blinding light, and the agents throwing themselves to the side.
A/N: I haven't written fanfic in a hot second, so I'm just getting back into the groove here, I hope it was enjoyed! More chapters are on the way!
#fanfiction#rottmnt#rottmnt leo#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt raph#rottmnt april#vivzieverse#helluva boss agent one#helluva boss agent two#Obituary of our own!AU#OOOO!AU#that's the title rn#I might change it#idrk#tbh I'm really nervous about posting this
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Clown makeup fully applied, if hypothetically byler was endgame and there are a few really incriminating scenes of Mike and Will alone in s5 to be had, leading up to that revelation… the skeleton crew filming with Noah and Finn alone for the first couple weeks of filming does sound like something they could do… Otherwise, if they filmed those scenes sporadically all throughout s5 production, random PA’s leaking it would be likely (end of s4 cabin scene leak teas). However, doing a few of their most incriminating scenes alone before most of the casual production are even there: no leaks…
#byler#i think that more than Noah/Finn will be filming tbh#they could wait for a table read for after or do it before#with the entire cast#it’s just a matter of availability#the table read is the one thing they try to have everyone major present for#it’s rare that all of them are able to be on set simultaneously#so thats like their way of coming together to celebrate at the start and get the ball rolling#but still#if Noah/Finn are available during that time#and maybe most aren’t#why not get them started with some incriminating shit with a skeleton crew… also with the writers strike implications this could also add up#just a theory#for now#i didnt really like fans spreading rumors like it was factual a while back#i was nervous we’d be humiliated and embarrassed once it was debunked#but seeing these sourced double down on a date mid May#and seeing Reddit scramble to insist it’s fake and there’s no way they’re starting before may…#what are yall so scared of?…#if there was no rumors about Finn and Noah filming first by themselves#you know they would be eating this source up and giving it some creedance#instead they’re resorting to insisting people are believing it bc they’re delusional#that may be so#but i’d argue they’re resorting to denying any possibility bc they are terrified#and that entertains me#like they’re acting like both Noah and Finn didn’t say May#theyre making excuses for Noah like HE BACKTRACKED#i wouldn’t count him saying May 3x+ and one of those times adding maybe jume#as him backtracking#and what about Finn? they still can’t think of an excuse to explain his may comment in that interview
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um. tfw your life is about to change massively very very soon and it still doesn't even feel real yet and still feels like somethings gonna pop up and it won't actually happen and also you're scared as fuck that you're too stupid to actually do it and it'll all be for nothing
#like what do you mean full time salaried w benefits and paid vacation just to do. school.#what made you so enthusiastically think i was the perfect one to do this#when the last approx 20something other guys were like ummmm no you cannot do it#tbf like all that other shit up there aside#this did actually come at the perfect time#i look back on who i was during my masters and i legit do not recognize that person#i barely even remember it i have to look at pictures to think back on who i was#in a strange roundabout way being forced home to stay for a while#kind of re centered me and gave me time to come back to myself in a big way. i was really lost before#and chaining something like this directly after my masters would have been disasters#even like this time last year i did not have this level of mental clarity#and i think thats why i didn't get any of the other positions i was just in a fog and i think people could tell#so as much as like im super scared and nervous about this big change and big exit from my comfort zone#and a little sad and mournful that im leaving my family and wont hear my native language all day every day anymore#im the most ready ive ever been#2019 me was NOT ready im scared of her tbh!! idk what wave i was on but it was weirdo shit!#im also proud that i essentially rawdogged and brute forced a lot of introspection and improvement#entirely on my own#like i really can only just describe it as clarity i feel like i matured 10 years in 4 and cleared all the fog#i feel so good about the way i handle things and react to things now vs then#im like 500x more unbothered and actually know how to put myself first now#anyway uh this prob could have been its own post in and of itself#but woteva innit im proud of how much internal repairs i did on myself over the last few years#became a stable genius as it were#whos a lot more clearly defined and present#but fuck man! i am still scared of being 2stupid
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Dr. Wasabi Headcanons
(some of these are gonna be related to romance and relationships because I’m a mega simp)
• When she says she wants to get to know you inside and out, she means it. Her love language is dissection and experimentation, the exception of course being Mustard Cookie
• She’s very observant when studying patterns in behaviors, and sometimes she’ll even make note of things she deems to be extremely important, even if the person in question sees it as something small
•She’s a gamer, her favorite genre being online fighting games. This woman is an absolute MONSTER when it comes to mastering input combinations, a fearsome foe to be certain. I can imagine her and Mustard Cookie duking it out every so often whenever she visits the lab
• She sometimes affectionately nibbles her loved ones’ hand or arm
• Pansexual leaning sapphic (I was originally gonna say she’s a full-on lesbian but actually since she’s so down bad for Roguefort in the manhwa I think this makes more sense for me personally)
• She has a hard time standing still, always rushing around the laboratory and trying to get several things done at once. If she’s in a conversation with someone she might pace around or mess with her gloves
• She’s somewhere on the spectrum. Adding onto that, she has a lot of knowledge about a wide variety of subjects, she could go on Jeopardy and do pretty damn well probably
(I know everyone in the operation survival manhwa talks like this but infodumping fits her personality really well I feel)
• Since she’s a wasabi cookie, she can tolerate very spicy foods. On the rare occasions that she has guests over (she usually prefers to be alone when she’s tinkering with experiments in her lab) she forgets that not everyone likes food that will set their mouth on fire
• When she watches horror movies she picks apart all of the scientific inaccuracies, ie “actually if they were stabbed in that location then this would happen” don’t ask how she knows this information because you can probably take a pretty good guess. Despite this she still thoroughly enjoys them most of the time
• You’d be surprised just how flexible this old woman is, she can move in ways that contortionists can only dream of (I mean you just have to watch her slide in ovenbreak to know that)
• She can literally MacGyver any sorta contraption out of whatever junk is lying around, whatever you’ve got this woman just makes it work somehow
• She views Zombie Cookie as a son, think like if Victor Frankenstein were actually a good parent
• Her handwriting is absolutely atrocious, mainly just a bunch of incomprehension scribbles that she’s somehow miraculously able to read
CONCLUSION
I have many many many many thoughts about this woman, a lot of them pulled from the manhwa but some of them pulled from the games or just from my own brain. Ofc I know the manhwa isn’t canon but I feel like it does a really good job at portraying her personality so I incorporated it into my headcanons because of that. If you guys have any questions or additions I’m always open to hearing about them, I love unique character interpretations it’s just so much fun fr! Anyways if you enjoyed this post then that’s awesome, cause I’ll prolly be making more Wasabi content in the future teehee, absolutely obsessed with her ✨
#cookie run#cookie run ovenbreak#ovenbreak#crob#cr ob#cr ovenbreak#cookie run headcanons#cr headcanons#dr wasabi cookie#jfc so many tags#I’ve been really nervous about posting this one tbh#like it’s been in the drafts for MONTHS#I just don’t usually post stuff that’s THIS in depth ykwim#if I ever find more translations of the manhwa then I might make a part two to this#also if people give me their own headcanons that I really like#anyways yeah that’s all I got ig
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idk about the rest of you but i genuinely don't make decisions high that I wouldn't make sober
#half because i think about things when i do them by either a) no thought instant impulse straight to action OR b) very close overthinking#and drugs dont usually do anything besides make me do more of one or the other#i dont really Do 'back off bc nervous' *except* when under the influence tbh bc i overthink tapping the brakes#so like i'm more likely to be like 'may be i shouldn't get an impulse tattoo from this random person' while high than sober#this is a me problem#other half is just because i will commit to such dumb shit anyway and have enough wrong with me that my sober instincts and desires are#p much totally in line with my influenced ones as far as i've seen#im never sobering up like 'what was i thinking' i always know what i was thinking ans usually im like 'yeah good call' about it#being DRUNK is the only one I don't really feel that way about and is because it's bad for my mental health but like ive never really done#something while drunk i wouldn't do while sober either i just usually feel a little off kilter about it#red rambles
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While endgame Cloud is not outwardly as radically changed as he feels, I do think I can tell that he isn’t much represented in fan works, because they are often omitting his readily-identifiable new trait: he’s EMBARRASSING. Too vulnerable! Too odd! Almost ABJECTLY sincere! He might get less raw as things settle down, but he ain’t going back!!! And that’s so important to me!!!!!
#in my mental file labeled Cloud and Masculinity this is like. paramount#he’s gonna tell you if his tummy hurts!!#he’s gonna say he cares about you out loud!!!#ff7#ff7 spoilers#this is the one thing im nervous about for part 3 of remake tbh. im afraid they’ll chicken out and not make him embarrassing enough#but not too nervous bc the og is not getting erased in any case#I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SEE THE DUDEBRO GAMERS CRINGE AT HIM IN HD OK#in other news this is why i started writing fan fiction again last month after 20 years ✨#with encouragement from my friend who is blocking the spoilers tag bc she might play it :)))#i also gotta really write it bc if she plays the game she says she’ll read it!!!💕💕#also because writing is the most fun I have doing anything! and I would really like to stop stealing that from myself!!
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guys inanimate insanity is updating again and i kinda dgaf because the hyperfixation died years ago but i just got spoiled (??? i think) for something and ngl its making me kinda intruiged.........these days ive moved on to other things and grown up (which is ironic considering i got into II when i was a little bit over the target age in the first place) but like. should i finish it just to finish it since season 2 is finally wrapping up or nah since idk if i feel like going back to it rn
#meow meows#idk because on one hand i AM curious#but on the other hand. watching things takes energy that i could b using 4 more current interests or things my friends have reccomended#im also teeter tottering on if i'm gonna get sucked back into the osc or not#because on one hand. that took up a huge part of my life and going back to it might reawaken the obsession#but on the other hand i fell off keeping up with ii and bfdi because i naturally lost interest#and then it became too much to catch up with at once for smth i barely cared about anymore#like lightbulb and paintbrush are both gone whats even the point /j#but you see the dilemma; i'm on the fence about a lot#but also like. what do you mean theyre doing a movie. what does that Mean in terms of indie animation#most of all im just nervous about getting invested again tbh#i have other stuff i want to focus on more so like. idk maybe i'll wait until my current special interests subside a little#so theres room for new stuff again. or new old stuff?#idk my nostalgia goggles arent really on for object show stuff yet so maybe i'll finish the series whenever that kicks in#i got into the osc around like 2016 sooooo maybe i'll feel like reminiscing in 2026? to mark an even ten years
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Can you imagine if happyele made a whole new game with all the enstars characters but genderbent... they could call it... idk... Ensemble Girls or something?? (Jokes aside I love your art <3)
HKJSDFHGJKH THE ENSEMBLE GIRLS CAST IS SO CUTE!!!! its a shame it was discontinued..... ive heard alot of good things about the story!! tbh tho idk if id be able to get into it............ the cast is a little too. Baby looking at times and it makes me uncomfortable 💔💔💔 STILL LVOE THEM THOUGH AND THEY GENUINELY ARE SO INCREDIBLY ADORABLE 😭💕💕💕
THANK YOU ALSO WAAA!!
#a cast full of daughters.......... luv them#ask#tbh one of the reasons i highly prefer femstars over other girl idol stuff is just bc femstars is like#the community surrounding it Purely persists of women and queer people#so im alot more comfortable here than i would be if i got into say b/andori or whatever#cishet men (particularly weebs) can be really creepy about women at times and it makes me very nervous and upset..........#but OH WELL. not like thats necessarily exclusive to those people either#but you get the idea#i get scared!!!!!!!!
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