#really happy w it/ hope ill make more in a bit and wanna make a full album purchase set

[gigglecoffin]

first ingredient -debut album

[donaviolet]

Friendship is the most special thing in the world because no award could be give me bigger happiness than jumping around in my room and smiling because my pookie asked me if I wanted to match pfps

[whomturgled]

i have so many feelings and i hate it

[unlovablelover]

is it okay to ask for a gn reader w a specific body type? i'm sorry if it's against your rules, i may have forgotten.. i got that fog in me.

i wanna request a reader, who is very skinny.. like.. where are your organs babe. their organs are there, they're just built like that for some reason. just some general headcans of Mr. Crawling's, Mr. Silvair's and Mr. Gap's reactions to finding that out.

(do you think Mr. Gap could appear in-between their thigh gap when they're sitting down?)

i hope you're doing well! also, happy early christmas :3

ans: hello, thanks for asking. u're good to go, don't worry. the only rule i have is i won't be writing nsfw no matter what, not even a little bit. im js not interested - sorry in advance for anyone who wants those kinda stuff :{

this was fun. i made the reader have something like an almost skeletal form...is that fine? anyway let's get started, shall we?

SKINNY READER

Homicipher men: Crawling, Silvair, Gap

Part1(?)

(i was reminded of Skinny by rebzyyx when i saw this request, haha)

Mr. Crawling

-when you first appeared in the building, he was very surprised to see you

-you looked so small, frail and possibly weak (not)

-his first thought is definitely him thinking you're weak but not in the degrading way, just his assumption

-because of that, he's determined to help you, he thinks you're in need of protection and possibly some food

-cmon, he'll definitely try to feed you things, i think he'll think you've been starved

-might take him a while to fully accept that you're js built like that

-i think what'll make him accept is if he saw you fighting off a monster w ease, he is shocked, but not surprised, at least he doesn't have to worry about you getting hurt by others since you've shown him you're perfectly capable of protecting yourself

-when it's time to relax in bed after a long day of walking around, he'll definitely take his time to observe your body more closely (not in a perverted way, he's a gentleman!)

-might trace his fingers on parts of your body, maybe your arms, your hands

-might compare the difference with his

-i think he'll feel "ehehehe'" about it for some reason

-definitely appreciates the way your slender fingers run through his loooooong hair

-will be careful if he gets on the bed with you tho

-he's afraid he's gonna crush you if he makes one wrong move

-avoids being on your arms because he thinks he'll snap them in half

-yes, he still has doubts about how strong you (or i think your bones) are

Mr. Silvair

-not a hint of surprise at the first sight of you

-just a mild sense of curiosity

-i don't think he'll really care about your wellbeing unless you're injured with an open wound, i think he only cares for those who r close/spent some time w him

-definitely wants to know how you're so skinny

-his theories are up and going

-maybe you're starved? maybe you have an illness? can it be cured? can he cure it?

-cue his creepy smile at the thought of experimenting

-not hesitant to ask you directly about it

-will be disappointed to know you're just built like that and there's nothing to solve or cure

-i think he'll take your measurements and stuff to see just how small/skinny you are compared to the average human

-in the name of science, he'll try to find a way to see your body under your shirt (again, not sexually - i don't think they need/crave sex...sorry?)

-wants to see the way your ribs are visible as they bulge against your skin, or the deep dip of your stomach

-revels at the sight, so intriguing....

-how easy it would be to chop you up, right?

-might secretly wait for you to get injured so he can have an excuse to chop a part of your body off

-js so he can see how much faster it takes u to heal

Mr. Gap

-i don't think he reacts/cares much about your appearance

-all he sees is someone to demand things from

-although i think he'd be surprised by how easy it is to take your (reluctantly offered) arm/leg/finger

-just like snapping a stick

-might ask a couple of questions after y'all get to know each other for a bit, but his curiosity isn't as much as mr silvair's

-i think he just doesn't care, not in a bad way tho

-js think of it as him seeing past appearances and only caring for what's inside (which is your heart)

-can he appear in the thigh gap?

-it's in his name, if there's a gap then there's mr gap

-i don't think he realizes the gaps he inhabits tho

-not that he cares, i think he's pretty carefree like that

-so whenever u want to see him, js sit down and wait for him to appear

-so convenient!

[mylahrins]

"prologue" money moochers

rags & riches;

Y/N L/N

➤ millionaire!!! (she comes from a wealthy family) ➤ roomates w/ akaashi ➤ pays the rent (akaashi offered to help but she insists!!!) ➤ bffs w/ kenma (they went to uni together!) ➤ became friends w/ kuroo and bokuto through mutual friendships! ➤ was super into photography in high school (@ inarizaki) ➤ bought a really nice car but cannot drive

KENMA KOZUME

➤ also a millionaire (CEO + streamer) ➤ roommates w/ kuroo ➤ cares too little about what he posts on twitter ➤ used to get cancelled over all sorts of stupid shit until people gave up ➤ tries to keep his personal life as private as possible ➤ y/n and kuroo come on stream sometimes though ➤ has his license and a car but refuses to drive

TETSURO KUROO

➤ business man, works in sport promotion ➤ roommates w/ kenma!! ➤ always has y/n's back when she needs him! :( ➤ a bit popular at work since bc of kenma!! ➤ he's been in a couple of streams ➤ certified driver of the group

KEIJI AKAASHI

➤ he hates his job(s) ➤ he's a journalist for tyo sports just so he can interview bokuto ➤ he wants to quit so bad ➤ roommates w/ y/n (feels bad that he's dependent on her) ➤ gets nervous whenever kenma asks if he wants to join a stream so he never does

KOTARO BOKUTO

➤ bokuto lives on his own! ➤ he used to live with y/n and akaashi ➤ but he adopted and rescued a pup (mimi!) and moved out since the building they live at doesn't allow pets on property ➤ he still crashes and the y/n/akaashi residence every once in a while ➤ he actually travels a lot for vb so mimi is often "dogsat" by kuroo

MIMI BOKUTO

➤ mimi was rescused by bokuto!! he found her sad, alone, and on the streets :( ➤ she's a maltese!!! still a very young pup ➤ bokuto is OBSESSED with her, he loves her so much ➤ he literally posts about her more than volleyball ➤ he was very nervous when he first got her because he's never had a pet before ➤ she HATES kuroo but loves kenma?!! so whenever kuroo dogsits her, kenma's forced to help

3lifers;

ATSUMU MIYA

➤ always posts whatsever on his mind... and gets in trouble with his PR team ➤ dated y/n back in high school but they broke up once they graduated ➤ they tried to make it work but he had big dreams and y/n didn't want to hold him back ➤ once he saw her at a game (she came to watch bokuto) but was too nervous to talk to her ➤ often asks rinatro how she's doing

OSAMU MIYA

➤ was good friends w/ y/n before graduation but hasn't really been in contact since graduation ➤ they sometimes see each other at MSBY games and have small talk ➤ very satisfied and happy with his success but sometimes misses how things used to be ➤ visits home very often

RINTARO SUNA

➤ was y/n's bff back in high school ➤ still in touch with her but they don't talk as much anymore ➤ still talks to osamu and atsumu a lot ➤ has been trying to help atsumu get over the break up (its been YEARS)

notes;

➤ the "3lifers" gc used to be called "4lifers" because y/n was in it too, but after she moved and atsumu and her broke up she left it ➤ atsumu is the one who changed the name but the others argued that it was a stupid change ➤ atsumu is pathetic for y/n ➤ y/n has technically gotten over him, but she also hasn't dated anyone since him ➤ everytime she goes to bokuto's game, she actively avoids atsumu ➤ bokuto knows EVERYTHING since he's the mutual friend ➤ he wants to help but he doesn't know what to do! :(

masterlist | next, 01. road trip? road trip!

author note: i know this technically isn't a prologue but i didn't want to make a whole introductions thing so i combined them... d1 laziness.... but yk!!! im very very excited to start this??? renovated series hehe :D ill be posting the first couple chapters soon. ALSO i wanna say sorry!!!! i seriously meant to make/post this sooner but its been such a hectic week (one of my teachers decided to give us our final 2 weeks early... he's EVIL) but i hope to get things in order and post more!!!

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[miowritings]

HIHI, this is my first request ever so i hope im doing it right- could i have a reader who’s really impulsive when their tired or sleepy, like their too tired to care about what they say. then their laying on their crush’s lap and they suddenly cup their face and start complimenting and admiring them then confess and swhhrcbjsscc preferably written with akito, minori and whoever u like!!! (sorry if this was too detailed.) TY <3

A/N: omgg, this is soo cute😭🩷‼️ im actually like that irl but instead of compliments i say random sht? Anywayzz here ya go and i hope you like em🫶

Sudden confession

Gn! Reader x akito shinonome & minori hanasato (akito might be ooc...)

Minori Hanasato

You were laying in minori's lap after a hard day, you could finally visit your best friend and feel relaxed. Minori brushes your hair with her fingers and proceeds to talk about her day

"We had lots of fun today! Airi is teaching me this choreography of this one song i like! We're planning on-"

Minori pauses herself, wondering why you suddenly out a strand of her hair behind her hair

"Hm? You know i could do that myself right?" She says playfully, you smiled at her playfulness and began telling her how you feel, you werent sure why, you just did..

"Minori, i love you, more than friends.. hehe" y/n says playfully before falling asleep, leaving minori in a state of shock, confusion and happiness

"W-WHAAAT?! Y/N! WAKE UP! DONT J-JUST FALL ASLEEP!" Minori screams, shaking you to hopefully wake you up, she also wants to tell you that she feels the same way

Akito Shinonome

You just got home after school and the sun was begining to set, you sat on your bed playing your phone and doing nothing, you then decided to do your homework.

Once you opened your bag you see that your notebook was nowhere to be found, you panicked a bit, the deadline was tomorrow and the notebook was nowhere to be seen, you suddenly remembered that a certain close friend of yours borrowed it to take some notes, you then proceed to call him.

"Hey, kito.. where's my notebook? Do not tell me you left it at school..." You asked, you could hear akito groaning "chill i accidentally put it on my bag, ill just.. return it tomorow" he shruggs, you sighed in annoyance and began to tell him that you needed that notebook to finish some assigments.

"If you want that notebook then just, come to my place.. i mean.. we live pretty close right? Youre just.. right around the corner.." he suggested "what?! No way! Im not walking, you brought my notebook with you, you should be the one to return it.!" You fought back, making sure to emphasize your words.

"Well.. then im not giving it to you, bye" akito says in a sing-song voice "w-wait! Ugh.. fine ill get it.. dont copy my homework tomorow kay?" You added, akito groaned "fine, finee.."

After minutes of walking you knocked the door of the shinonome household, you were greeted with akito, wearing pajamas and carrying a bag of chips, he coughed when seeing you "o-oh you actually came.. yeah uh.. the notebooks right in my bag.. ill go get it" he responded when he left, you could see the tv playing, it was your favorite movie! When akito came back he saw you staring at the television.

"Hm? You know this show too? Hm.. wanna watch it with me?" He asks, before he knows it you were already inside his house watching the television. You wondered.. why werent his parents home? and where was his sister?

"Hey akito, wheres your dad? Or your sis?" You ask, akito simply shrugged and replied nonchalantly "my sister doing something at her room...probably drawing or talking to her friends.. my mom's out with her friends and my dad is staying late for work" you simply nodded and continued watching the movie, soon enough you found yourself falling asleep, akito doesnt notice this but begins to notice when it suddenly got too quiet..

"Hm.? Y/n you alright- oh hell no.." he mutters, you were sleeping peacefully, akito wants to wake you up.. but at the same time.. he doesnt afterall he did drag you out in the middle of the night just for you to get the notebook that he stole, akito sighs and puts a pillow below your head, he sighs and whispers ".. what did i get myself into.." you shuffle around and mutter quietly "mm.. like... You too... Kito.." you mutter, akito overhears this and instantly turns red.

"Y-YOU WHAT?!" He screams and instantly covers his mouth, you groaned a bit and continued sleeping, akito was surely thankful that you were a heavy sleeper. "Oh thank god..." He sighs with relief ".. i like you too dumbass.. took you long enough.." he says quietly with a tone of playfulness. He arranges your sleeping position so that your comfortable.

Bonus:

Akito sneakily took your phone and then took a pic of your sleeping face and sets it as your wallpaper "theyre gonna love it.." he grins mischievously, after hours you finally wake up, you grabbed your notebook and quietly leave the house, when you checked what time it is you went red with embarrassment it was a pic of yourself sleeping! You'll surely get him next time.!

[violetwitch12087]

Could you do the evans reacting to finding out that your pregnant with their child 🤭🤭

UH OF COURSE I CAN THIS IS ACTUALLY A REALLY GOOD IDEA I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS I DID MY BEST

The evans reaction to finding out you're pregnant and its theres

Evan Peters

*you tell him*

IMMEDIATE happiness

Hes shocked and then when you tell him fr a big smile comes across his face and he engulfs you into a hug

Would prob shed some tears or a lot

Kisses you so passionately

Holds you in his arms for HOURS

Tells his parents how happy he is

"evan uhm im pregnant" "wait youre serious?" *Nod* "OMG baby im so happy"

Tate Langdon

Straight panic

Scared he made the anti christ again

Sad because it killed you

You have to comfort him but he just cries and tells you how sorry he is

Honestly maybe would avoid you for a bit bc he hates himself and when he sees you he remembers what he did

After a while when you die and stuff he'll be there for you while you die holding your hand crying and kissing your knuckles

Yall would be fine after but until the apocalypse happens👍

"tate im- im pregnant" "w-what? I- im so sorry its all my fault"

Kit Walka (ik its walker i jst love the way he says it)

Would look down at the test and smile and hug you

"we're gonna have a third little baby here?"

Honestly really, really happy

Kisses you and hugs you swaying side to side

Later on would listen to his favorite music and dance with you before kissing you and putting his hands on your belly

"kit im pregnant" "what?" *Sees test* *big ole smile* "we're gonna have a third little one running around here?" *Nod*

Kyle Spencer (pre death)

Honestly a little concerned/considering it because hes in college and still lives with his mom

Would make it your choice if you want to keep it but if you do we would be there every single step and moment of the way

Honestly after a while of thinking would be so happy to have a little you guys running around

After thinking and accepting it and loving it he would apologize for even considering it and would kiss you and hold you

"kyle i know we're young but i- im pregnant" "wait really?" *Sees test* "i- i dont know what to say i mean i love you i really do and you know that but we're young but if you want to keep it ill be here no matter what baby"

*later on after thinking* "baby im so sorry for everything i said i wanna have a baby with you ive never been happier please forgive me, im so excited to have this journey with you"

How could you say no

Jimmy Darlin (yes ik its darling)

Very very happy

Then his smile starts to fade

Sad because he doesnt want your guy's kid to have his condition

Also sad because his kid is gonna grow up the way he did

You comfort him and tell him its all okay and that you guys wont let anything happen to the kid

Apologies for how he couldnt take you guys out of the freak show and all that jazz

You comfort him and lets jst say like at the end of freak show you and Jimmy live a normal life with your big ole belly and jimmy by your side all the steps of the way

"jimmy omg im pregnant" "really?" *His beautiful smile*

After a bit "im so sorry i couldnt give you and our only kid a normal life i really am" "jimmy i love you we will figure it out and you know we will"

James Patrick March

Genuinely shocked

Didnt even know you and him could have kids since well hes a ghost

But 'miracles' happen

Honestly surprisingly happy to have a little you guy's running around the hotel

"if you need anything i will have someone get it for you my love" he says that and also means that he will have someone that can go outside get you stuff as well

"james im pregnant" "i can procreate?" *Nods* "well, i could never be happier dear"

Kai Anderson

Honestly would probably be nice to you for once like with ally

Happy because there is now a 'messiah'

Wants the kid to lead the cult when he dies

Would be so happy i mean did you see him with ally and their damn kid?

He would start being more gently like he would look at your belly and smile putting his big hand on top of it

I mean he would probably even kiss your head and give you cuddles here and there

I mean how could he not? You're holding the next most precious and important thing in his life or probably the kid is his most precious and important thing

"kai dont get mad but im pregnant, and its yours" *a small smile would come across his face* "really? I honor you as the most loyal in this cult you're holding the next messiah"

Peter Maximoff (wanda vision age)

Honestly shocked

Would be so happy tbh

Would be happy because he would have another probably immature kid that was fast like him

Would probably pull you into a hug and kiss you and would hold you like forever while you guys slept every night

Would go into a frenzy about you needing rest and him stealing your favorite snacks a stuff just to make you happy i mean hes a kleptomaniac

"peter im pregnant" "YES omg were gonna have another speedster here"

[4thenookie]

Hi hi i heard you wanted some headcanons!! As always this is /lh, not meant to be taken that seriously, agree to disagree, yada yada all that good jazz lmao. Most of them are pretty crack-y in nature as well, they're just meant for fun lol. And with that, I'll compile my miles long headcanon list into (mostly) sorted by character for everyone's convenience lmao

- starting off strong with trans EJ! Idk why but do headcanons really need a reason? (I do know why) (i like to make my blorbos suffer 💖) (and also [diverges your neuros] [transes your genders] [homos your sexuals]). Also biromantic asexual king

- more EJ because he's THE blorbo. Boy is british asf and he knows BSL and is learning ASL. Touch averse as well. I feel like EJ would actually be a decent if not great cook.

- EJ purring like a cat when he's content/happy? I think yes! Also has a tail with one of those tail tuft thingies? Kinda like lions if you know what i mean. And the pointy ears (peak character design yaknow)

- moving on. I feel like Jeff knows how to play an instrument. Probably electric guitar. He also has like a bajillion band t-shirts. Jeff also likes to take long, hot showers but hates to comb his hair lol

- while Brian cooks food so bad/raw it could as well just still be alive, Toby is either a great cook or a disaster in the kitchen with seemingly no indicator for which one it's going to be on any given day. I'm talking managing to burn a pot of water one day and cooking a michelen star worthy meal the next.

- Kagekao is actually fluent in English and speaks and understands it perfectly, he just refuses to speak it. He takes great amusement in watching other people lose their minds over this

- speaking of languages, i feel like Toby would be bilingual if not multilingual. He speaks English and German, maybe even Spanish if we're going the multilingual route

- also. Oh my god. The generational difference between BEN "memelord who quotes vines like there's no tomorrow" Drowned and Slenderman is just. I cant stop laughing thinking about it. Any given conversation between these two is just a gamble on who is going to lose it first

- BRVR is kinds Lost Silver's pet but also not really? Like he just kinda goes wherever but Lost Silver mainly takes care of him

- LJ he/it truther

- Me and a friend came up with this which probably explains why it is cracky as fuck but hear me out. Jeff as a makeup artist. He made Slender look like Beyonce once. No one knows how he did it and how he's not dead (the answer, as my friend said, is "no one can hate Beyonce")

- i feel like Toby, BEN, and Jeff would be like. The chaos trio. God knows what will happen when you put the three of then alone in a room together

- i also feel like Brian sunburns really easily.

- Tim is one of those dads that wants to leave in the middle of the night for road trips / holidays to avoid the traffic jams

Hope this makes even a bit of sense and i hope you enjoyed whatever my brain spewed at me lol if u ever wanna share more headcanons or talk about blorbos or share character slander (looking at Brian and LJ (affectionate)) feel free to dm me!! (I dont mind i promise lol /lh)

hi!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg these are so so so real thank you for sharing them with me!!!! ill go into some more detail under the cut :)

to be honest, i can kinda see trans ej being real now that you mention it, ill definitely think about that a lot!! and i also hc him as asexual!!!! :)

im british and i claim ej as one of us lmaooo

i absolutely agree w the purring thing!!! i think ej does a lot of cat things idk :)))) i love all of your ej headcanons!!!

tbh i can see jeff either playing electric guitar like you said or maybe drums?? just any instrument he can go ham on when hes mad lmao

in my hc he has the worst case of chronic greasy hair and he doesnt want to do anything about it

cooking hcs are so real brian can NOT cook!!!!!!! toby will either serve you some 5 star gourmet shit or some rotten takeout he found during a dumpster dive

omg omg omg I hardly see anybody talk about kagekao!!!!!! i totally agree he would do that lmaooo

idk if its canon or not but i read somewhere that tobys German so i totally agree that hed be bilingual!!!

oh my god BEN whos native language is memes meets grandpa slendy that would be so funny

in 4 words youve converted me into a fellow he/it LJ truther!!!! could we consider he/it ej too? maybe??

ik you said it was a cracky hc but i can actually kinda see jeff being good at makeup??? like one of those things where he tries it once and it's the most drop dead gorgeous makeup look you've EVER seen and everyones like how did you do that

toby BEN and jeff are an absolute riot when rheyre together lmao

omg i never thought about it but brian sunburning super easy is so real!! and in summer he always wears sunglasses so he has like an unburnt patch on his face where his sunglasses were yk??

OMG YES LMAOOOOO "guys get up our flights in 10 hours WE'RE GONNA BE LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" he would 100% have a checklist or 3

thank you so much for sharing these with me!! i hope you dont mind me adding my own thoughts lol but theyre so much fun to think about!!!! if you ever wanna slander lj and brian with someone feel free to dm me lmao!!!!!! take care <33333

[hazbinhappy]

hii!! I was wondering if you could match me up with someone!! My name is Jamila(its arabic) and im a lesbian she/her hobbies: i sing(soprano),play piano,draw,figure skate,sew,bake, and crochet. Personality: im a very social person!! Im usually nice but i can be somewhat bratty sometimes(as in if we dont do what i wanna i kinda shut down),i can be bitchy sometimes but thats usually when im overstimulated or about to have a meltdown(im autistic), im also really hyper!! My love language is physical touch(im a very clingy person usually. I do have kinda bad communication skills bc of how i was raised so i usually start crying when im mad or sad abt something. I apologize alot sometimes. Im mentally ill(idk if i should mention that😭) abt me!!: I have a cool scar on my hand(it covers the side w the thumb on it) from a 2nd degree burn. I have a few more scars all over! My favorite colors are pink and red. Im mexican!!! I LOVE musicals(especially mean girla and heathers). My favorite actor is Avantika,winona ryder or renee rapp. My style is mcbling(fav color combo for outfits is black and pink) i love shoping. My parents own a restaurant so im usually hanging around there and bake things! I live in Miami(basically live at the beach tbh) i LOVE juicy coutore i own lots of vintage juicy and vintage Victoria secret pink things! Im a cat person! Im a picky eater(😭) and i have insomnia (its horrible.) IM TERRIFIED of bugs and i LOVE flowers i hope this was enough info abt me..😖. My demon has pink hair (like verosika),pale white skin(basically fur shes a bunny),she has bruise marks and cut marks in pink on her fur (kinda like birth marks for hell?) because when she died she was beaten to death. She has bunny ears that are usually flopped down and a bunny tail:3 she wears a red leather mini skirt w a red tank top that has lace on it. She wears juicy coutore jewlery and has red thigh highs w black boots(therye platform)

i hope that was enough info!!! Have a good day thank you:))

Your Matchup is....

Velvette!

I think this one was obvious, but still :D

I think that initially she’d own your soul as a fashion designer, but over time you guys forget that she owns your soul

She likes that you have multiple hobbies because in the beginning that means you would’ve been a content farm for her, but as she started to care for you saw that you have a limit she made a schedule that worked for her and you so that you were comfortable

She doesn’t mind the physical touch even if it’s not really her love language, but don’t touch when she’s mad or busy! She is sensitive to that kind of thing so just ask first and you’re in the clear!

Her love language is quality time so spend time with her as she talks shit and she’ll be all smiles

Velvette is like the 2nd bitch out of the V’s so don’t worry about that (though you seem sweet so it balances out a bit)

You’d be surprised that the V’s have pretty decent communication skills (look at the media empire they run in all of Hell) so if yours is bad she’d either ask for clarification so just try to figure it out on her own (not in a bad way, but more so in a time efficiency way)

Crying when mad or sad is just a stress reliever! I don’t think she’d make fun of people for crying, but she usually doesn’t care unless it is you crying because she’s with you not the those other people

Why shop when she can poof it up or have someone make it? Jk she’d also love to shop with you and show off her designs in stores too, but if it’s like trinket shopping she wouldn’t mind as well

She wouldn’t mind having a cat… just keep it out of her studio.

Velvette is probably a picky eater too so don’t worry y’all are there together

Velvette has a shit sleep schedule due to managing their social media and apps and designing so she’s happy to have another person be up with her

Sadly nice flowers aren’t in hell, but hey she can make flowers out of fabric!

“Velv…? You up?” You open your eyes to see Velvette laying on her back, her own eyes closed.

“Yeah, Sweetie… Can’t sleep?” She lets out a deep breath before turning to you.

“No… Wanna cuddle?”

“Yeah, I’ll hold you for a bit.”

 She pulls you closer and you guys curl around each other.

“You’re tense. Wanna talk about your day?”

“Fuck yes. Tell me why this bitch Vox wants to be all modern and shit, doesn’t understand the fact that not everything can have a 1950s filter or theme to it? Have you seen his posters in the lobby? Horrendous! I’m so close to burning them.”

A/N: twinnn where have you been jk jk but i’m cuban and i grew up/visit florida a lot i miss it so much :( i also crochet :)

[sword-symphonia]

non persona post?? My word she's gone mad (SPIRITFARER REVIEW WAOW!!!!) (Very long, I'm sorry) (But not really)

This review discusses themes of death, loss and terminal illness, as well as containing language. I swear a fair bit. Sorry, I typed everything as I thought of it, bad words 'n all.

Good afternoon,(it is 9PM in Ireland) fellas! Welcome to: SPIRITFARER- REVIEWED BY A TEENAGE GIRL WHO IS VERY NORMAL ABOUT HER INTERESTS!! Move over, IGN- it's the weird little guy in the corner (me)'s time to shine! I simply word-vomited this so unfortunately this review is very unprofessionally worded- however, I have faith it will be a fun read. I hope. Also, it's mostly spoiler free! ...I hope! I'm sorry!

So! Hi. I'm Luca. I have crippling thanatophobia. What's that? A phobia of death. And what's Spiritfarer about? Oh, baby. You aren't gonna fuckin' believe this! And, would you believe it, this game... actually helped me with that fear!

Currently, I'm only nine hours in, but. Well basically the damage is irreparable and I fear I shall never be the same again. Now, luckily, I have not cried. Yet. But I will! Oh, BABY I will!!! I have gotten five spirits so far (I'm coming for you, Gustav/threat) and have already had my first trip through the Everdoor. I wasn't ready. Come back, my dear. Please.

Spiritfarer is a game I've wanted to play for quite a long time, so to have been able to buy it about a month ago was one of the most exciting parts of my year so far. No, really! I was HYPED! HELL YEAH, THIS HAS BEEN ON MY WISHLIST FOR AGES! That kind of feeling. And then I started playing, and... hooooly shit. Guys. Dudes. Bros. What the hell. The VISUALS. WOW. W-O-W WOW!!! HOLY BALLS!!!

Look at this. Witness it with your eyes.

Bloody breathtakin'. I'm in tears. The game is absolutely chock-full of colourful (and not so colourful) locations, characters, landscapes... god, I'm so unwell about the visuals. And the ANIMATION!! AUGH! Every character has unique animations that just... oh they illustrate their characters so well. Augh...

Atul is nearly always happy, bouncy and smiley in his animations- a reflection of who he is!! One of his happiness perks is playing joyful music! He is literally just a guy! And Alice! Alice is a kindly old lady, and this is reflected in her design and personality- one of her animations involves dusting herself off, and I just think it gives the perfect image of a sweet elderly woman simply making herself more presentable. Also, she calls you dearie. What if I started bawling? What if I threw myself on the ground roaring and wailing?

Another favourite of mine is Astrid. She's also a kindly old lady- but with sass. Alice is an absolute sweetheart, but Astrid? Astrid won't say no to a cheeky bit of gossip now and then...but shh don't tell anyone gossip is bad shhh HEY WANNA KNOW ASTRID'S NICKNAME FOR STELLA??? Munchkin. What the hell. I love that nickname. Wish I had an adoptive granny that would call me Munchkin. Astrid, my most dearest darling, how I adore you. AND she's pro worker's rights- damn, what a woman. Also, her eating animation is funny. Absolutely DECIMATES a sandwich, so she does.

Tragically I will shut my yap about the characters now as there are quite a few of them and unfortunately I cannot put anyone through that (but know that Gustav and Daria also make me insane), so let's move on, eh? Who fancies a bitta tunes? I sure as hell know I do! LISTEN TO THAT! RAAAAAGHHH!!!! The music isn't a massive part of the game, per se- but it doesn't have to be! The music, of course, adds a pleasant ambience as you play- but it's not in your face! It's a nice, calm, beautifully composed soundtrack, with a special, unique little tune for every minigame. While I have no musical bone in my body personally, I am something of a- how do you say eloquently- whore for a good soundtrack. I love music, I love creativity!! Hooray!!

I actually don't have much to say on the music, but know that I do love it! But, I really really really want to talk about the themes of Spiritfarer... like, really bad.

Okay, so... I'm actually going to get into personal territory here, and it's going to get a bit heavy. If you'd prefer to skip over that, then please, by all means, feel free to skip down until you see red text.

So, there's another reason this game is so dear to me. And that reason is the fact that Spiritfarer actually helps me to process my own grief. While it didn't come out until four years after the loss of my older brother... it helps. And if nine-year-old me had had Spiritfarer at that age, I feel like she would have been able to cope better. I was unlucky- my brother passed away at 1AM, while I was asleep. To this day, I regret not being able to say goodbye... but Spiritfarer illustrates this in a poignant way- sometimes, we won't be able to say goodbye, wether due to extraordinary circumstances or simply... not realising how little time you really have left with someone. This brings me to the spirit I actually look forward to the least- not for any fault of his character, but simply what he symbolises to me.

I find myself dreading meeting Stanley later on in the game. Stanley, the youngest spirit you can meet within the game, is a lovely little boy of eight, taking on the appearance of a little mushroom creature. Nothing is wrong with Stanley, but... it's important to remember that every spirit is... well, a spirit. Someone who's died. And given Stanley is only a small child, it hits that bit closer to home. He is younger than my brother was upon his death, but he was still a child. While it isn't specified what illness it was that Stanley died from, I still see a lot of my brother in him. Spiritfarer does help me and bring me comfort, but at the same time, I'm not sure I'm ready to meet a character so close to my own experiences. The fact Stanley always seems so chipper and smiley despite his difficulties... does not help. Bit too similar, you know?

My relationship with Stanley is an odd one. I don't dislike him- absolutely not, far from it- I dislike the fact his character, a little boy, has to exist. I dislike that children like him exist in real life, and the fact I've met so many of them. It's a hard truth to swallow, and not one I'm fully prepared to deal with.

OVERALL:

I think this game can be enjoyed by everyone, even if you've never experienced grief. It's a beautiful story, and its gorgeous visual charm and cozy mechanics have something for everyone. You can fish, mine, cook, craft, and basically everything in between! Also, there is a hug button. You can hug people. Game of the decade. I love hugs! It's so... god. I just... really like the hug button, man. Oh, and did I mention you can play co-op?! If you have a friend you'd like to play with, they can join the fun as Daffodil, Stella's beloved pet cat! Look at him, isn't he gorgeous!!

So, would I reccomend Spiritfarer? Short answer:

Yes.

Long answer: Yes, absolutely. It's an absolutely wonderful cozy game, with tons to do. There's no voice acting, but I don't think this game needs it- it tells an absolutely wonderful tale without it. Each character has a distinct personality and quirks- Summer is vegan and will adjust her diet as such, while Atul will quite literally eat anything you throw at him. Giovanni is brash, confident, and enjoys the finer things in life, whereas Astrid likes things plain and simple. And Daria? Daria just really likes fruit.

If you have an interest in Spiritfarer, I highly encourage you to check it out. It's available on a number of platforms (Playstation, Steam, even on mobile- although that's through Netflix, and also not very good. In my opinion, anyway.) I highly, highly, highly reccomend it to all cosy gams enjoyers, or even just people who like games in general. There's even little bits of platforming here and there, if you're into that! Do you yearn for the mines? How about becoming a woodcutter? Or maybe you just really like smelting. Well, excellent news- you can do all those things in Spiritfarer! The gameplay, music, visuals and most importantly of all, the story, make this game a highly worthwhile purchase in the long run. Chances are, if you like Stardew Valley, you'll like Spiritfarer.

Thunder Lotus Games has shattered my soul in ways I may never recover from- however, I am not upset about it. God, I bloody love Spiritfarer. This review took two and a half hours to type, I shit you not. God bless.

[sugar-omi]

i don't understand as why took off his wedding band? On your hurt/Comfort drabble, could you explain that part a lil bit ? please

I think cove got really stressed, n when he gets a bit overwhelmed he takes it off, really taking his time to feel the shape of it. the grooves of the diamonds if there are any.

I think your wedding bands would also be engraved on the inside w something like your wedding date or your initials.

also I think he takes it off while washing up so that's part of it, bc he's scared of it falling down the drain while he's in the shower lol

it's just a tick of his though. like when he's getting anxious he twists it on his finger, and when he gets really stressed I think sometimes the feeling overwhelms him but having it off makes it worse

idk, it was just smth I wrote in the moment but now that you ask I think that's something cove would do.

I think he'd even do it when he's happy, like he's laying there thinking abt you n he takes it off to look at it, touch the engraving on the inside and just admire it

partially though I think he's also a bit scared you don't wanna be married anymore eince you ran off so weirdly, n he's worried you don't wanna tell him but he can't bring himself to ask. and in the moment he took it off, thinking abt if there'd ever be a time where he won't have to wear it anymore...

maybe ill use this n talk abt his thoughts on this more since someone asked abt cove having a nightmare of you cheating on him as well, and now I'm thinking abt why he did it since I didnt really have a reason other than cove felt very overwhelmed n scared n a bit angry that you just ran off n came back with little contact inbetween the days you were gone...

anyway I hope that answers your question <3

[james-fun-in-the-sunderland]

all main 4:

16, 35, 39, 44, 54, 62, 64, 69

for party q’s, u can either do just main 4 to answer or like full rebellion or like . main 4 pcs and npcs.. up 2 u!

omg hi zee 👋 obligatory link back to tha ask game post

16. What keeps them going?

Swords: not to be corny but hope and love :) she has hope that everything will work out in the end and is also very driven by the people around her!! helping them out, giving them hope in hopes that theyll give her the hope she needs in return almost... w2 moments

Wiz: WHAT DOES KEEP THIS GUY GOING????? LACK OF DEATH MAINLY I GUESS. and moreso honestly... its because of his inability to really genuinely step away from any self imposed duty that he has. if he has obligation, even if he REALLY doesnt want to do it, he will do his best to see it through to the end. sometimes these obligations are self made tho and thats where some issues crop up bc people are like u dont have to . and hes like I HAVE TO. but i will complain the entire time bc god i wanna just chill instead.

Daggers: the belief that one day she will figure everything out, things will make sense to her, she will get the love that she deserves, and she will be happy... even if she does get this though theres not much holding her back from not believing it and keeping going... shes a bit selfish but thats ok thats fun hehe. I think one day she will get it and be satisfied and then what will keep her going is ... keeping that up. u kno? gotta hold up appearances

Hook: justice. genuinely and truely, they want justice for the world and for themselves and for their brother. previously before the pcs got their brother back to them it would have been u kno, getting their brother back but now theyre like ok revenge time. i want everyone who made me suffer to suffer now thanks . they will not rest until the rebellion is successful and them and their brother can get nice little cottages out in the mountains and live happily :) no fear of anything ...

aaaand im putting the rest under the cut bc otherwise this post WILL be a million miles long

35. Do they consider themselves childish/mature for their age?

Swords: mature! she thinks shes more mature than most people she meets, the only exception would be any mentor figures in her life, like you know, henrietta, her grandmother, etc. but generally if she meets someone shes like i know more and am more mature than u. this especially applies to those in the rebellion

Wiz: he likes to think mature, or even just like on equal footing w people around his age, but he knows hes childish for his age :( really the only person he really genuinely thinks hes more mature than is his brother and even with him hes like 'ok but thats mainly bc i literally am older than him'. wiz has issues ✌

Daggers: mature, she puts on a front that seems more childish and naive but inside shes like all you bitches are so childish i care about REAL iissues. like . how i am soso mentally ill and have issues. and the govt and the world. sooooo im more mature.

Hook: TBH, hook doesnt rly think theyre childish OR mature for their age, they find themself on pretty equal footing no matter who theyre talking to bc theyre like pretty casual and prefer to like have equality between ppl theyre talking to and like dont care at all about filling in roles, like being more of a mentor figure OR being someone who is menteed you know? but theyre mature for their age, especially when they were a child, growing up on the streets with no parents and a little brother will do that to you ✌

39. What does your character believe their party lacks?

Swords: For the rebellion well . its a little obvious, theres no real direction to it still!! most of the other things the rebellion lacks though has recently been fulfilled since the pcs came back and picked out a lil hq location :) theres also a part of her that thinks the rebellion without henrietta will always be lacking something and all of that but shes !! working on it !!

Wiz: also thinks the rebellion lacks a clear direction, and that it lacks people who genuinely care about the cause and arent just doing this to puppet the old rebellions corpse to get it to success. hes WORKING on the direction part. being the leader and all . but its still hard since there is no real unified vision of the rebellion anymore, just anecdotes of the old one. Wiz would rather the rebellion either not exist at all or that people forgot about the old one. too bad its almost a requirement that the old rebellion be brought up and people from it to join for the success of this one <3

Daggers: being that she hasnt ever had experience being in a group like this before, idk if she has much of a thought on what it lacks! maybe people that focus more on details instead of the big picture, which is how it feels rn, everthings kind of vague and depersonalized, which worked back when it was small but now its getting bigger and people might get lost in all of this bustle... u kno?

Hook: basically a conglomerate opinion of all the previous ones. Hook honestly doesnt care too too much about the rebellion as a whole, and mainly just hopes that it never lacks the ability for the to have some independence, that they can do what they need to do and nobody will hold them back.

44. How do they hold onto people?

this is such an interesting q... many ways to interpret this...

Swords: GUILT!!!! swords is pretty openly a manipulator honestly when it comes down to this. its not even conscious honestly. she doesnt want people to ever leave her bc it makes her feel a bit worthless and stuff so she just tries her best to make sure people stick around :) in whatever ways she possibly can ! this all only really happens if she can tell people are like distancing themselves from her tho btw.. otherwise its business as usual!

Wiz: honestly. by being dependable. wiz only really knows how to exist when its deferential to another person. its partially why him being the leader has sucked but this also means that should he be shoved, he will get stuff done. and he knows that people need people who can get stuff done, thus making him kinda indispensable. kinda manipulative but ummmm u guyys dont even know he . is . a little bit lmao . (btw this is also why he was a terrible brother <3) (also regardless of whether wiz likes someone or not, he tends to try and hold onto them... kinda cringe)

Daggers: by trying her best to be loveable. trying to mold herself into someone desireable that people will see as attractive and worthy of their time and attention. this model is mostly based on her sister who managed to hold the entirety of her family but its . not successful at all <3 but that doesnt mean she wont stop trying to be her inauthentic self until her identity is purely based on what she thinks others enjoy. though, if she doesnt like someone, she wont try too hard to hold onto them

Hook: by taking care of them, chilling with them... being a good friend :) you can usually tell if they like you because theyll chill around u like a cat... and also like bring u thngs... again like a cat... theyre not too dissimilar from how wiz does but in a less like... deferential way and more of a parental way almost? it can ofc become deferential tho, and in most times if hook wants someone to like them, they will become very sort of... not subserviant but like... very obviously only doing things that will make them liked by that person and not caring much about themself? more selfless than selfish ! much like daggers, but going even farther, if hook knows someone doesnt like.. want to be held onto then they will let them go...

54. What is something they currently look forward to? What is something they dread?

Swords: shes looking forward to having the PCs back around and also getting this rebellion together!! shes excite to see where everything gets taken and their future victories, of course that also comes with the absolute dread of failure, of death and destruction happening to those she loves... so :)

Wiz: YOU GUYS ALREADY KNOW WHAT HES DREADING!! but for people who arent in this dnd game, wiz is soooososoo anxious abt his recent sudden multiclass into cleric bc he hates divinity and gods and everything and is like if i got possessed by a god its all over . and right when i was actually trying to be a good leader too 😭 I will say tho.. he is looking forward to the rebellion... maybe working out and having more people around... new people to meet and chat with... the pcs to be around and be silly... also he missed daggers <3

Daggers: She is looking forward to having more people around that she is much more familiar with, being able to chill after a long hard two missions in a row, and to be able to like... process everything in a more healthy way and like... u kno, having a support system instead of people she barely knows and who she knows dont like her very much... i think she is dreading a little bit like... actually moving past this all though? like who is she going to be when she actually moves past her grief and her fear of death and feeling like genuinely yes she is not a bad person for having accidentally killed someone... who will she be... shes a bit unsure and a bit nervous of that...

Hook: hook WAS looking forward to seeing their brother finally for the first time in like 10 years but then it happened and it was great!!! so now theyre looking forward to the past... looking forward to the rebellion being put together like it was before and being able to help people, fix things, be useful and not only to their siblings or to their friends! theres more people around, more things to do, more stuff to just get into... its gonna be fun ^-^ but i do think they dread losing people, probably are going to be very on people about like .. fortifying the hq so theres no chance they could lose their brother or anyone they care about ever again !!

62. Who does your character think is the most put together in the party?

Swords: in the rebellion? herself. She thinks shes mature, prepared, experienced, etc etc... the only thing is that if shes ever like... prodded on this or have to actually SHOW that shes most put together she will crumple <3 in the PCs party..... rushi probably! reminds her of her grandmother who was a big mentor figure in her life and so shes like :) she has it all under control :)

Wiz: in the rebellion........ probably nobody. in the pcs party ALSO NOBODY 🥳 he 1- has trust issues and 2- is very cynical and pessmistic, so not only is he like nah i dont think anyone really has it together, but he doesnt TRUST that anyone does. If you stretch . maybe at most he thinks jacques and talfryn both have something, but even then wiz is like theyre YOUNG theyll make dumb mistakes that show they have NOTHING together... but yea

Daggers: in the rebellion, wiz! shes very much like... hes the leader... ofc he has everything toegther... plus u know, hes a paternal figure to her and that makes her VERY biased in who she thinks to go to for anything or even just like... thinking about whos got it together. in the PCs party, probably talfryn. he reminds her of her older brother whos probably one of the most successful people in her family, plus hes got some like very good self assurance that really show her that hes got things under control.

Hook: in the rebellion....... themselves. and in the PCs party, nobody probably? I think that much like wiz, hook is a bit cynical, plus although they dont really show it, they are a bit self assured, they know what they can deal with, what they can do, and dont really trust that other people know that of themselves and that theyll easily overextend themselves u kno?

64. What is one thing they want each party member to know?

Swords: in the rebellion.... 🤔 probably she desperately wants daggers to know that she doesnt hate her, that she doesnt have any ill will towards her and in fact, would like her and hang out w her if she wasnt soooo touchy about things. in the PCs.... probably wants all them to really know that she wants to b closer to them and like appreciates them... i think swords really doesnt think people GET how much she apprecates them... or like enjoys their presence...

Wiz: in the rebellion..... you know what, i think both in the rebellion and in the PCs he wants people to know that he . is so sorry for being a lil shit <3 he doesnt really like ... talk in an earnest way so really any earnest feelings he has he would like people to know about and i think right now hes just like man. this could have been happening way earlier if i just had chilled out. like he doesnt recognize his mistakes in the moment and will often defend them but god forbid he actually apologize after the fact, he wishes he could just BEAM the knowledge of these apologies and everything into peoples minds.

Daggers: I think for both the pcs and the rebellion she probably would want them to know about her... to understand her in some kind of way so theres no real confusion when talking to them, and so maybe theyll be able to fully point her in the right direction when it comes to advice and stuff, bc she feels like ppl dont really truely KNOW her... or know HER u kno?

Hook: honestly . hook wishes that people would just . know how to communicate with them. im sure its probably really frustrating dealing with the PCs bc they have to do a less direct way of talking to them (through typing on their phone) bc like while theyre fast at typing they find it easier to just SIGN. and as far as the rebellion, they want wiz and probably swords too to know that theyre not like . going anywhere... even tho they have their brother back, theyre still there for wiz and swords... still able to be friends with them u kno?

69. Journey or Destination?

Swords: Journey! a very big believer in the whole dont cry because its over smile because it happened person, this isnt to say that she DOESNT cry because its over of course, she gets sad about the idea of the rebellion ending but is excited about it being successful! but ... of course she still does enjoy the thrills of victories and having people to support her through losses... etc... so she likes the journey more ^-^

Wiz: Journey, wiz dreads the destination always. the journey is more fun and everything is somewhat more stable somehow, but the destination is when everything ends, everyone goes home and the show is over.

Daggers: Destination, she values results more than what gets those results. plus most of the time she just finds journeys to be tedious and wants for any suffering to be over with immediately!! shes sick of it!! but also shes addicted to it so <3 even tho she desires the destination she may never get it bc she will always look for the destination u kno?

Hook: Destination, they just want to chill . please . plus journeys are dangerous and people do bad things and they do bad things and its just BAD. can we get to the part where we're all drinking margaritas with little umbrellas on the beach now? pls?

[geekbarprincess]

outside of the weird connection i have to my online ex boyfriend that i never even met irl, i have a boy i’ve been hanging out w. we met on hinge 😺 not the first boy i’ve met on hinge, but the first one ive met while i was on hinge as a legal adult. and the first one ive liked this much. he’s genuinely lowkey someone i could see myself falling in love w, or at least sticking around. with the last hinge boy, and the only one that lasted more than one meeting until now* , he wasn’t really super mean but he was just subtly mean and but he was lowkey nice too.. idek how to describe that because it feels so weird to think abt that point in my life because it doesn’t feel like it’s my own memory, even tho it was literally only february of this year. well anyways, the new boy. he’s so sweet to me. he seems that he’s actually putting effort into understanding me as somebody who’s terminally mentally ill. he’s more patient with me than most people and i feel just so bad that he has to put up with me.

we met like right after my ex broke up w me.. i wasted no time. i mean we met on hinge like the next day and then i met him irl pretty soon after that. he picked me up and we sat in his car and talked for like 6 or 7 hours. it was one of the best times of my life and tbh my underwear were really wet but it’s okay. anyways, we fucked the first time he came to my house (idk how many meetings in that was or what day), and we’ve been fucking a lot since then yayyy. he’s got a nice penis tbh at least bigger than my ex’s (which i only ever saw on a screen anyway but it looked pretty small compared to new boy, which is crazy bc ex had the ability to use whatever specific angle to make it look big but i see new boy’s irl and its fr just big without him having to use specific angles).

well… new boy. i’ll call him bf. he’s a sweetheart. idk if we are dating fr or not but idc bc it’s not like im gonna go fuck anyone else or something because i don’t want to. i’d rather just spend all my time with him. he spends the night a lot. he just makes me really happy. he puts up with my crazy mood changes and emotional regulation issues. we went bowling together and i wasted being so annoying at the start and he seemed to get a bit fed up, but he didn’t take it out on me and we both just talked and calmed down. it made me feel so much better to see the way he reacted to that because him not getting angry at me for not being able to handle my emotions made me feel better to be able to try to calm down. but for some reason my brain tells me he’s pranking me so i guess i’ll update yall when he kidnaps my cats and makes me wanna kill myself again. jk i don’t see him personally doing that because he himself seems like a sweet person, i just don’t have faith in men as a whole at all because of my ex telling me so often that he could handle my mental problems but still get upset and bitchy and rude whenever i would act like i have mental problems. and im not saying i was completely not at all in the wrong in our relationship, but im saying with him knowing me for 3 years and me being mentally ill and insecure throughout the whole time of knowing me, he could’ve responded better than saying that he doesn’t wanna have “talks like this” when im just bringing up an insecurity. new boy actually tries to reassure me and make me feel worthy of being cared for and loved by my ex just made me want to hurt myself.. literally i attempted to kms and went to the psych ward in june literally only because i thought he stopped loving me. and then just a few months later he told me he loved me less. and then a few days later, left me.

idek what i’m saying fr but i hope my ex boyfriend dies and im really glad i met new boy and he lowkey makes my heart feel like its actually growing. he’s such a sweetie

* (there’s been 3, one we met up once and never talked again, one we ‘dated’ for a month and were saying i love you but i didn’t love him and he prob didn’t love me either, i mean we hardly knew each other, and i ended up telling him i couldn’t do it and i went back to the same ex i’ve been posting about, so not a successful past)

[rianafying]

hinge is so fucking stupid. dating apps are stupid. people on there are great sure but like i hate online dating. it’s so stupid. idk why im so angry about this. oh yeah it’s cause it gets so overwhelming to reply to everyone. like i don’t wanna reply to anyone. i feel like im being trampled on in a crowd. it’s too loud and it’s too many noises. i just wanna go on a walk and not be scared of running into my crush. mff was fucking amazing, but i’m still recovering from my hangover after the open bar at the stupid VIP lounge. like idk how i got so drunk so fast off of 4 tiny glasses of prosecco. other people had 9 drinks and were still fine, and i was stumbling. at some point in the night it got so fucking sweaty and dense w people, my glass slipped from my hand, cause of the condensation and sweat, it didn’t break but the drink spilled onto the floor. i tried cleaning it up but felt so bad for doing that. like i don’t usually get drunk drunk. maybe cause i haven’t had drinks in a while? idk man. i’m still recovering from the long weeks at mff and all the people i met and it was wonderful and exhausting and i have turned my assignments in amidst all the chaos. i should be happy but i am weirdly super miserable. like i even have money in my bank account now. a decent amount. which is so rare, because normally i have between 10 and 20 dollars to survive the week till my next payment. anyway, things are good. i’m just annoyed. i don’t feel too good. a bunch of things triggered a lot of my childhood trauma recently and i was bawling my eyes out like a child for the full 45 minutes i was in therapy yesterday. maybe i’m annoyed because i have a crush. and they kinda seemed interested in me too? which was surprising. but i’m not gonna see this person probably ever again. because in this city you don’t get to meet the same people twice. and i’m a dumbass. and i flipped a coin. anyway. today i ate a bit more than i should have. but it’s cause i was super hungry all day. and confused and overwhelmed. it’s crazy how much work and studying i do for someone who is so mentally ill. god i’m just limping my way through life but i’m actually catching up? this is success. this is how i had hoped things would turn out. this is what i prayed to god would happen. it’s happening. and yet for some reason i’m still not happy. maybe it’s cause my room is still really messy and that’s a big source of shame and guilt for me, along with it physically making life harder for me because i lose things and trip over the clutter and can’t have friends over. at least the bugs are gone. i didn’t even do anything, they just left. by themselves. how polite. anyway yeah so my messy room. and some of my loved ones are sad. and it’s just a little complicated with some people in my life at the moment. but it’s one of those things that naturally get resolved in time. there’s an inspection at my house in 2 days time. i know it’s going to be a stressful process for me but im going to do my best to clean up my room earlier so that i dont lose sleep and have a full on panic attack the morning of.

i feel like i’d be a lot calmer once my room situation is dealt with. one step at a time. for example, i don’t struggle with laundry anymore since i figured out a system that works for me. same with taking out the trash. and i assume it will be the same for cleaning. it’s just a matter of doing it well enough times so that i believe i can do it again, and that it doesn’t have to be so unpleasant and stressful if i don’t leave it all for one day and spread it out over a few days. this is going to be okay. i am going to be okay. and my health is looking better even though i haven’t taken care of my body in the last one week due not having the time, but i can easily go back. i’m not at square one, ill be restarting at a decent state this time so it’ll be easier and faster to get to health now. i should make a proper to do list. time to ease back into life and everyday chores. it’s all every difficult while it’s happening but it’s much better when it’s done. also with the difficulty starting, cause of the lack of dopamine and serotonin in my brain. but i can make it work. things are going to be fine. i am actually fine. the angels were right. i DO know how to figure it out.

costar says “Don’t start the fight. Whatever you have to say, write it down, crumple it up, and burn it. Today, anger is as clarifying as it is destructive. Your limbic system responds to an accumulation from a lifetime of conflict. Don’t give this one that kind of power.” - while anger can provide clarity by highlighting underlying issues, it also has destructive potential. the limbic system, the part of the brain associated with emotions, reacts to accumulated unresolved conflicts that can trigger intense emotional responses. the advice is not to let anger have too much power over me, implying the importance of managing emotions constructively.

Your desire to change this month depends on your ability to get in touch with your body. This is no small feat for a person who can let their need for stability stunt relationship growth. Cultivate your attraction to relationships that feed you. You have a desire for indulgence in your romantic or creative life. There will be a chance opportunity that affects your natural drive for action. Try to be more adaptable than you usually are right now. Pursue the things you want.

This opportunity will see its beginnings in significant relationships where they meet with the ways you find joy. Keep an eye on projects you share with your partner, an affair, or a casual relationship becoming more serious.

Whether it’s fate or chance, now is the time to take advantage of anything that seems too good to be true.

okay maybe this is good advice. i’m more open to getting rejected as long as i’ve put myself out there. you know when they say you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take. it’s true. i’ve been so much happier since i started taking risks. life is not about being as safe as possible. gotta put myself out there, gotta believe in good change. gotta accept that if i want to be happier i have to accept happiness when it comes my way. when im scared i only want stability and smooth sailing, but i realise im happier when i’m trying to step outside of my comfort zone and grow. i am capable of more but i can’t do more if i stay stuck at home from fear of the unknown. this is all getting a little too vague for anyone who doesn’t live inside my head. i’m gonna go take a walk soon. i deserve a good walk.

[dokiyeom]

THE TAG IS SO SO CUTE ILL END IT 💥💥 u should send me more asks & ill give u an emoji hihi 🫶🫶 IM EXCITED TOO YAY i have so many fic & smau ideas so im glad i can work on them then! (maybe i should tell u a few of them 🤭 ....)

that sounds so nice!! i think i recently ate sukiyaki (?) && it was so so good! baking and mahjong 💔💔💔 im glad u had so much fun because i also completely get what u mean?? i don't have any family here nor do i have any cousins/family members of my age + the distance is just 👎 so im not in contact with any yk

im still . flabbergasted like i want to go 2 japan too hello 😭 tbh at first i thought u lived in maybe japan or IDK but then u said u would show ur friends ur motherlands? so i was like ??? and also I WANNA KNOW UR TIMEZONE PLSPLS pleaseee yes im dutch & french but was born in the netherlands and lived there for 10ish years before moving to France!!

OK I WILL WATCH AN EPISODE SOON THEN!! pls this is so funny YES ik jay + me = twins hihi i hope so too!! that would be really cool but im just waiting impatiently for the official announcement rn so that i can mark it on my calendar, BOOM! ill also go to a big city just before my bday so maybe MAYBE if I have some pocket money i could buy myself a cute dress for the party and or an album teehee YA I HOPE U FIND IT IN JAPAN OMG im curious do u alr have some albums or like merch

i LOVE sudoku omg ,, it's so cool that ur using photoshop like u made ur carrd thingy with that right? it's so pretty i will never not say that. im sure ur gonna do v well hihi 🫶

i will !!! try to drop by ur ask box more frequently !!! unfortunately i’m,, a tiny bit awful at coming up w ideas on what to say but i will try !!!! and hello yes ??? u should 100% tell me abt ur smau ideas !!! or fic ideas in general && in return,, i’ll share some of my horribly messy notes app full of fic ideas w u <3

aagg i’m so happy u enjoyed sukiyaki !! if u get the chance,, i highly rec kansai style sukiyaki unless eating a bit of semi raw egg feels unnatural or intimidating !! i feel like i should b more loyal to kanto style bc i’m from the kanto area,, but kansai sukiyaki is just. wow. && aagg yea i feel u :(( i think it allows for u to b a lot closer a family friends bc they end up sorta being a proxy,, but it does kinda suck not being close or in contact w extended family <//3

i hope ur able to go someday !!! && my time zone is pacific standard time !! or pacific time atm bc of daylight savings,, but i did live in japan for a while &’& am considering moving back there after uni !! and woa hello u live in france ?? that is so cool omg,, i def want to visit france at some point for the fashion museums and exhibitions wraaaa :0 also fun fact,,, i took a plants/human welfare course last yr && the only thing i really rmbr from that was tulip’s apparently caused an economic recession in the netherlands during the early 1600s :D

EXCITED FOR U TO WATCH !! and omg what if the cb announcement is after woozis done posting all the album pics on his instagram :00 but oo what sort of dress would u get ? lw i’m so insanely picky w dresses that for prom i’ve just decided to get a lower costing plain dress && alter it + sew on an egregious amount of accessories

&& yes i have albums !! for merch i have a candy bong && moa bong that i got for the twice n txt concert i went to,, but unfortunately i stood in like for like an hr and a half at the svt concert mercy line only to reach sort of the front area && hear a staff member at the truck yell that carat bongs were completely sold out <//3 i do have. a pc binder that both brings me sm joy && shame for realizing how much money i’ve spent on. silly little pieces of paper w people taking silly little selfies tho. what abt u :0

RIGHT SUDOKU IS SO <3 but it’s also caused me like. sm headaches omg. and thank uu <3 i did make it on photoshop !! but i’m considering making a new one w more of a powerpuff girls/ diff take on a retro cyber theme :D

[cantdanceflynn]

OK I GOT ASKED ABOUT MY REASONING AND ALSO PERMISSION FOR THE DEITY AU PART SO......

TURNING POINT JUST SCREAMS CARTOON FRIEND GROUP AS IS, AND THE GENERAL THEME OF IT FEELS MORE MML THAN ANYTHING AS IS, SO IT JUST MADE SENSE IN THAT REGARD

ATLANTA IS SO FUCKING MILO, BUT NOT IN THE SAME WAY THAT ITS PHINEAS OR KIWI, ITS TAKING THE MOST OF EVERY OPPORTUNITY AND APPRECIATING ALL OF LIFE, EVEN WHEN ITS CRASHING DOWN AROUND YOU. MILO CONSIDERING HIMSELF SO LUCKY TO BE WHERE HE IS, BEING SO HAPPY THROUGH EVERYTHING BECAUSE IT JUST MAKES SENSE, HES ALIVE AND HAPPY AND THATS REASON ENOUGH TO CELEBRATE, ESPECIALLY FOR HIM. AT THE SAME TIME, ITS GOT LITTLE BITS OF THOSE IDENTITY ISSUES AND SLIGHT CRACKS ITS IMPOSSIBLE FOR HIM NOT TO EXPERIENCE. ITS JUST SO PERFECTLY MILO

THRESHOLD AS MELISSA MAKES SENSE AS MUCH AS ATLANTA FOR MILO BUT IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION. SHES NOT EXACTLY UNSTABLE BUT SHES MOST LIKELY TO JUSTIFY SOMETHING WRONG. EVEN WHEN SHE KNOWS HOW MUCH THEY CARE ABOUT HER AND HOW MUCH SHES LOVED, SHES MOST LIKELY TO BE SELF DESTRUCTIVE. THERES ALWAYS THAT BIT OF HER NOT BUILT FOR MURPHYS LAW THAT HAS TO ALWAYS BE CAREFUL, BUT SHE STILL SETS UP BETS AND PUSHES IT A LITTLE TOO FAR. SHES NEVER BEEN IN THAT CONTEXT IN CANON, BUT IF SHE WAS? THREADING A VERY DANGEROUS THRESHOLD IS CERTAINLY A GOOD WAY TO PUT IT

ROAD FELT SO ZACK IN A WAY I CAN BARELY DESCRIBE. THE UNCERTAINTY, SEEMING LACK OF STABLE CONNECTIONS, BUT THE FACT THAT AS SOON AS HE GETS INTO THE HANG OF EVERYTHING WITH MILO AND DANVILLE AS A WHOLE, HE CLICKS SO HARD?!?!?!?!?! IDK, IT JUST FEELS RIGHT. HE DOESNT KNOW DANVILLE IS HOME BUT IT FEELS RIGHT REGARDLESS. ALSO FUN FACT I ALMOST CHOOSE MONSTER TOWN INSTEAD BC IT FEELS GOOD FOR HIM ANYWAYS AND I HAVE LIKE 20 AUS WHERE A MAIN POINT IS "EVERYONE ENDS UP/IS INHUMAN IN SOME WAY EXCEPT FOR ZACH", BUT I DECIDED TO LEAVE BIAS AS FAR OUT OF THIS AS POSSIBLE EARLY ON

WORRY FOR NAUGHT. LEMME JUST.

THESE ALONE R PEAK MILO AND MELISSAS FRIENDSHIP HONESTLY

DEADLOCK KINDA JUST. IT RLY JUST MAKES ME THINK ABOUT MILO INSPIRING ZACH AT FIRST, ONLY FOR EVERYTHING TO CHANGE IN THE LONG TERM AND ZACH EVENTUALLY INSPIRING MILO AND IT JUST. RLY REMINDS ME OF THEM THE EVENTUAL CHANGES AND MENTAL PROCESSES, IT JUST WORKS

GOOD MORNING WAS THE HARDEST ONE TO PICK. I FEEL LIKE IT REALLY. FEELS THE UNCERTAINTY ZACH AND MELISSA HAVE. NOT LIKE, IN A "WILL THEY WONT THEY" WAY, BUT BECAUSE THEY HAVE SUCH DRASTICALLY DIFFERENT EXPERINCES AND WAYS OF DEALING WITH MURPHYS LAW AND EVERYTHING, AND I FEEL LIKE IT BRINGS ON THIS UNCERTAINTY WITH THEIR FRIENDSHIP, WHICH I CAN THINK OF IN A FEW INSTANCES OF, BUT IT USUALLY GETS HELPED BY MILO. YOU CAN ALSO JUST TAKE THIS IN THE "DOESNT WANNA RUIN FRIENDSHIP, CANT DWELL ON HOPEFUL OR HATEFUL IDEAS" WAY

ALSO FOR THE DEITY AU THING ALL GO!CHILD SONGS ARE DEITY AU BUT IM PICKING THE ONES I HAVENT ALREADY PUT IN FOR CHARACTERS(LIKE, THRESHOLD IS PEAK DEITY AU MELISSA BC SHE IS PUT IN THOSE SITUATIONS, WORRY FOR NAUGHT BEING FAR MORE LITERAL, ECT) ALSO THERES A LOTTA ALICE GANG ONES WHICH. PROBABLY LUCKILY ONLY MELISSA AND LYDIA COUNT AS PART OF SO ILL ONLY BE ADDING THE ONES THAT RLY FIT THE TWO BUT STILL

THE MOST ALICE GANG SONG ACTUALLY.

MAN. THINKS BOUT SET MELISSA AND LYDIA

SECOND CHOICE FOR MILO AND MELISSAS FRIENDSHIP HONESTLY AND ESPECIALLY SO IN THE DEITY AU. MAN <3

SHOUTOUT TO THE PIXEL HORROR GAME ABOUT THE MML SIDE OF THE PLOT POST MAIN SITUATION I WILL PROBABLY NEVER GET AROUND TO MAKING. YOU WILL BE SO GOOD. REAL FAITH THE UNHOLY TRINITY VIBES.

THE OTHER HALF OF THE MML POST MAIN SITUATION STUFF. FUTURE IS FUCKED UP BUT THEY CAN FIX IT

THIS ONES MORE OF THE SIDE CAST ACTUALLY. LIKE LYDIAS THE OBVIOUS, BUT OUGHHHH *THINKS BOUT BRADLEY AND AMANDA AND SAVANNAH AND MORT AND CHAD AND-* I CANT ACTUALLY EXPLAIN THIS ONE

AND FINISHING IT OFF W MY FAVORITE SONG EVER, SPECIFICALLY MILO BOTH LOOKING TO THE GODS AND COPING WITH THE SELF-DESTRUCTION OF HIS FRIEND(S) FOR THIS CONTEXT

@pyxehastoomanyinterests

feel free to ignore this, but. you’re a go!child expert and a dwampyverse expert so.

any go!child songs that you think really fit the trust trio? Either them as a group or any of them singly?

thanks :)

I TOOK A LONG TIME TO THINK ABOUT THIS BC I WANTED TO DO THIS FUCKING RIGHT GD IT AND I BELIEVE IVE PICKED OUT A SONG FOR THE GROUP, EACH CHARACTER, AND INDIVIDUAL DYNAMICS

GROUP

MILO

MELISSA

ZACH

MILO AND MELISSA

MILO AND ZACH

MELISSA AND ZACH

YOU COULD ARGUE ME ABOUT ANY OF THESE BUT I WILL REFUSE ANY ARGUEMENTS AGAINST WORRY FOR NAUGHT BEING MELISSA AND MILOS FRIENDSHIP SRY