#reading whatever shit it is ur into. but i Will judge u if i have that information? bcs? ppl judge each other by their actions? and then i

[kirkwallsquad]

no but it fascinates me so much when ppl make posts like wah wah this tumblr user posted abt how incest is bad and now it's making me feel like i can't jerk off to incest >:( and im like do u hear urself

[miraclecherryblossomsblog]

Just was looking through and saw your transformers stuff recently I just had a thought of Megatron and Optimus prime reaction to darling putting together Gundam model kits

Idk was just a thought

that would be so cute tbh...like I can see them being somewhat curious and fascinated about seeing u create your own lil figure. Ur basically building cybertronian but like itty bitty 👌

IDW/MTMTE MEG: feel like he would sit down beside you and just watch you do ur thing, ask a few questions about it and u asking him if they got something similar back in his planet (which thinking about it they r kinda like the kits themselves but like....big lol)

enjoying seeing u having fun and letting a lil chuckle when u can't find a piece and he passes it to you. Ask him to give ya a hand he would massshift for that but he would be worried about breaking the thing... he would be happy that u let him participate with u cuz honestly ur the only confort this man has ever after all the shit he went thru (most of it caused by him BUT ANYWAY-)

so pls try to include him in whatever u do even if its just him sitting with u, it gives him peace- YOU give him peace.

............................................................................................................................

PRIME SERIES OP: I can see him being mass shifted and him reading the instructions book, also if u got like bad instructions he would def point it out and thats when u know the creators were a SHIT making this.... like him just closing his face to the page and squinting "I do not think those pieces should be connecting like that....." and its just the two of you complaining of the bad structure and stuff hehehe

Other than that its just moments like these with you the optimus enjoys, not worrying about the world or injured just him and you doing ur own silly things together

EXTRA NOTES: just realising that meg would definitely judge if he sees a design choice that serves not fighting purpose other than it kjust makes it pretty, my guy's more of practicality over looks me thinks...

[prettyboykatsuki-moved]

fang i used to never understand queerplatonic relationships (never judged!! just couldnt quite grasp the concept) until i read over your feelings/situation and i think i finally get it now and i realize i was in some sort of queerplatonic (borderline) situationship back in high school 😭😭 i never knew how to explain the relationship me and this dude had but i think that best describes it 🧍🏻🧍🏻🧍🏻crazy

the reason i always defend queer platonic relationships is because they are Not the same as friendship and i dont think its easy to understand why that is unless you have firsthand experience with the feeling.

(and this ask is not to u anon!!! but to other people in general. im so so glad that the term queerplatonic is helping u define ur emotions towards someone!!! )

like. i get it. i get why people equate these things. i get why people see the notion of deep platonic intimacy and associate with the idea with friendship. i get why the instinctual reaction to an unfamiliar relationship dynamic is seeing it as an annoying gen z semantics thing and choosing to invalidate it

but qprs are so very different from friendship and romance - both semantically and logistically no matter what anyone says. they are probably closer to something in the middle.

i think the reason people want these things to be the same so badly is because society at large is obsessed with defining relationships through hierarchy. and in that hierarchy - romance is always at the top of the totem pole so anything outside of that must be either Serious Platonic Friendship or Familial Love. our social view of love is very binary and rigid and a lot of this is proved in fandom culture itself.

on top of that it is also a matter of access. often, when people hear the term queer platonic they assume immediately that it's another - more inaccessible kind of friendship and that it's intentionally trying to put hierarchy on what is actually just best friendship which is not true. the label was never intended for that. it was coined by aroaces looking for life partnership and commitment most similar to romantic relationships but not.

in the first place, invalidating the harmless labeling of a relationship bc you find it annoying is asshole behavior lmao. but refusing to acknowledge that there are people who experience something that you dont and then overall insisting whatever their lived experience may be is false is insane asshole behavior shskjdfjs.

qprs are their own separate Thing. but they are relationships informed by commitment that is simply not normal in our society for friendship no matter how much people insist on it. the only time that kind of friendships is acceptable is usually between cis women which by definition makes that version of intimate platonic friendship inaccessible to everyone else.

and they are like every other relationship in our society in which the nitty gritty details can only be defined by the people within them. they are platonic committed relationships defined as being Queer in how they exist because the behavior and aspects in them would generally be considered unconventional to other, not queer people. and tbh!!!!! even to queer people sometimes fuck!!!!!

i get really defensive about this because its my lived experience several times over. in fact discussing it now just gave me a huge OHHH SHIT moment about my current situation

[floral-sacrifice]

i find it so interesting how my writer friends say things like “if i wrote this, would anyone read it?” like yes bro. i wanna read it. idc if i don’t know the characters. idc if it’s ooc. idc if it’s 20k crack chatfic. it’s YOURS. i want to read !!!!!!!

especially because as a visual artist, i draw whatever the hell i want, and blast it into my friend’s dms even if they don’t gaf (unless it’s like. triggering for them obv)

i have a friend who has requested i send her every sketch of a certain OC ever bc she thinks she’s hot as hell. i have a friend who begs me to shut up about my blorbos (lighthearted) but is always down to see my fanart. when i draw something, my first thought is never “nobody wants to see it.” brother I want to see it, that’s enough for me!!

and i understand writing is totally different in that stories are meant to be seen by others, and that there’s apparently a culture over there of like. people judging ur skill based on ur reader count (meanwhile there’s absolute garbage getting professionally published, and there’s some fics i’ve read that rival classic literature that have few readers bcs it’s so niche) but ahhh if i could free my bros from the idea of “ifs not popular so i suck” i could die happy. genuinely.

y’all need to write more self-indulgent shit, more weird shit, more deranged/problematic/simple/short/long/horny/tropey/etc shit. “the symbolism is too heavy handed!!” good, i can enjoy it without needing to think like i’m in a college class. “it’s too OOC!!” that’s fine, i don’t know the characters anyway. “it’s too dark, people won’t wanna read it…” hello?? whump is the best genre of everything ever. everyone i know LOVES angst or at least hurt/comfort.

y’all gotta stop being creative for others and start being creative for urselves. this applies to everything btw. “ugly” illustrations. “weird” music. “cringe” fics. “unwearable” clothing and textiles. i know a guy who collects sale stickers because he likes how bright the colors are and he puts them all over his sketchbooks. if someone doesn’t want to see your stuff, or they think it’s ugly, then their taste is just different than yours .

lots of people LOVE christian pop music, it’s personally not for me, but i won’t say “i don’t like it so it must be bad/unskilled/uncreative/etc”. i say “it’s not my favorite, but i can send your song to someone i know who likes this stuff.”

there’s been exactly two occasions where i beta read something that i just couldn’t force myself to read through, and instead of saying “this is ass u gotta rewrite it” i say “hey, i have a friend who loves this kind of thing, i think they would be able to offer more constructive feedback.”

you don’t ask a food critic to critique a horror movie, you dont ask a minimalist how you should decorate your maximalist house. it’s kind of the same concept as what im saying

this sounds preachy as hell but i genuinely just wanna see more weird stuff and more cringe stuff, and i want my bros to stop shitting on themselves because someone didn’t like their stuff. if YOU like it, there is at least one other guy who LOVES it, and if you can’t find that guy, it’s ME 🗣️🗣️🗣️

[fwtomura]

Breathe Into Your Hungry Appetite.

(a simon riley x john mactavish fanfic ^_^)

CHAPTER ONE, CHAPTER THREE

cw: ghostsoap (simon riley x john mactavish), modern au, drug dealer au, mentions of weed, smut?, kinda transghost ngl, VERY BAD SPELLING!! that’s abt it.

haii guys i wrote chpt1 earlier and decided that it needs more added to it so here’s chpt2 :3

Simon’s morning started off just how it always did; kicking off the blankets, stretching out his back, and making that same awkward shuffle across the room towards the bathroom to brush his teeth and his hair. He still had that same old ache in his back and his joints as he slowly felt himself come back to the realm of the living. He didn’t bother with putting on a proper pair of pants before heading downstairs to the kitchen. It was a wednesday, he had the house to himself until much later in the evening.

He made himself his usual breakfast, hunching over the kitchen counter to eat as he scrolled through his phone. When he opened it, he realized that he’d forgotten to text Soap the night before. His phone opened up directly to Soap’s contact, which he’d noted down as ‘Johnny’ with a bar of soap emoji, but he hadn’t managed to send a message before he nodded off. Fuck. That’s awkward.

Simon💀: meant to text last just but got sidetracked, sorry

A half-assed apology was better than one, he decided. He didn’t include his name in the message, but judging by how quickly his phone vibrated against the counter, he didn’t necessarily need to add it.

Johnny🧼: all good, sweetheart

Johnny🧼: how’s ur morning going? did you sleep well?

Oddly charming. Not that he’d expected Soap to be turned off from texting him in the slightest. If anything, he was grateful for it to be just business as usual.

Simon💀: bit of a late start, but slept good.

Simon💀: eating breakfast now, how’s your day going?

He finished up his bowl of cereal, giving the bowl a half-asses rinse at the sink so that nothing would harden up before he gathered the willpower to properly load up the dishwasher. Maybe he’d get to it later this evening, maybe he wouldn’t. Wouldn’t seemed much more likely at the present moment.

Johnny🧼: nothin too crazy

Johnny🧼: It’s a slow day. fuckin boooooooooreeedddd >:(

Ghost nearly rolled his eyes as soon as he read the message. Of course he’d been bored. It seemed like that was always the case.

Simon💀: you poor thing, whatever will you do.

Ghost put his phone into his pocket briefly before heading upstairs, shutting the door to his room behind him out of reflex. He didn’t necessarily need to, but it wasn’t the worst habit to have. He opened his stash box and got out his pipe, he really did need to clean it.

As much of a pain in the ass as it was, he walked into the bathroom and got everything he needed. He’d leave the piece soaking overnight and would use a backup one for now. He checked his phone again as soon as he got the pipe settled into a plastic bag.

Johnny🧼: have u tried the new stuff yet?

He’d nearly forgotten about it, in fact. He looked over the baggie as he sat down onto the bean bag chair in his room. He could tell from the smell of the weed alone as he loaded up the grinder that it was potent . incredibly so.

Simon💀: not yet, loading up a bowl rn

Simon💀: smells strong as shit ngl.

The bud was nearly sticking to his fingers as he packed the bowl, the smell filling the room before he’d even sparked his lighter. It wasn’t that Soap always gave him shit weed, but he hadn’t expected this from a random strain that he’d given him to try. For free no less. And who the hell would Ghost be to turn down free weed that seemed to be at least halfway decent?

He flipped on the TV before settling down onto his beanbag chair and sparking up his bowl. The hit was sharp, almost immediately giving him that subtle, burning feeling at the back of his throat. The smoke still grunted slighting on the blowout, but there was a subtle almost citrusy flavour to it that say heavy on his tongue. Fuck. It felt good.

Simon kept taking slow, lazy hits from the pipe, leaning back and watching the smoke swirl and dance above him before it slowly dispersed throughout the room into nothing. The sunlight streaming in through the window made it look almost magical.

Simons phone had gotten tossed onto the bed at some point and he’d long since forgotten about it. He could feel the high slowly creeping in, his head filling with cotton and that euphoric loosening of his limps and muscles. Nothing else mattered in that moment… Aside from cracking a window; he’d finished smoking his bowl and the room was feeling rather stuffy. He opened the window quickly, swaying slighting from standing up too fast, and settled back down into the beanbag chair. He tapped the ash out of his pipe onto his rolling tray, stamping out the still smoldering bits with the bottom of his lighter, before leaning back and staring up at the ceiling. He wasn’t going to be moving from this spot for a minute. He could tell almost immediately. He could faintly hear the TV going in the background and that was the only thing keeping him grounded in the present. He hadn’t gotten a high like this in a minute.

For some reason, he felt durant to his acoustic guitar sitting over in the corner. The guitar was old, probably just as old as Simon was but he didn’t particularly care to do the math on that. He didn’t know the exact type of guitar he had, but it was a Suzuki SG-2S guitar and it was scuffed to hell and back. That guitar had seen him through three different moves that he knew about, the pick guard being coated in hundreds of overlapping scratch marks. The finish of the guitar was worn off in several spots, but Simon still found it beautiful. Tommy had called the color ‘Tobacco Sunburst’ but Simon thought the same was fucking stupid.

(If he remember right, they’d gotten into a spat over it. Tommy has insistent that it wa the proper name for the color, Simon didn’t care regardless. The name was stupid.)

He sat up briefly before slinging the guitar over his lap, not bothering to slide the strap over his shoulders. His fingers quickly slid to pick out from between the strings and the fretboard at the top of the guitar, the calluses on his fingertips lining up perfectly with the strings. He idly picked through a few different scales. Warming up on the guitar was practically second nature to him at this point. He’d been playing guitar for just about as long as he could remember. His mother had taught him as soon as he was big enough to hold a guitar and he’d fallen in love with the instrument as soon as he touched the strings. Some of his fondest memories growing up were of playing guitar with his mum, often accompanied by Tommy singing along to whatever song they were playing, his voice being incredibly loud and off-key.

The guitar belonged to his mother originally, and it had been a birthday gift from her. He’d part with it over his dead body. Though the guitar didn’t look the best, it was absolutely priceless to him. He hummed softly to himself as he slowly worked through different riff that had been giving him trouble. The guitar was tuned perfectly, and Simon felt himself getting lost in the sound of it. The soft squeaks of the strings against his fingers, the gentle thrums from the pick, nearly everything was enchanting.

Playing guitar was always an incredibly therapeutic thing for Simon. At the very least, it was a conversation starter for just something he could bring up for meaningless smalltalk. He’d been asked to play at a few of Gaz’s parties, but the idea of having that many people staring at him while he was playing made him want to gouge his throat out with a fork. He’d rather play alone in his room, and he had no problem with admitting that.

He hadn’t been to many of Gaz’s parties recently, but he appreciated that Gaz didn’t nag him too terribly for not showing up. He didn’t know everyone who was there and his idea of fun didn’t typically consist of sitting off in a corner awkwardly for a few hours before he deemed it acceptable to leave.

Funnily enough, Soap always seemed to be at Gaz’s parties whenever he’d have them. Soap would never outright approach Simon, but he’d always give him a wave and that same, charming smile he always seemed to have primed and ready. Did Soap know how to play guitar? Could he at least sing halfway decent? He’d have to ask next time he saw him. 

Simon decided he was done playing guitar for now once he’d realized he’d been staring at the wall for the past ten minutes, not moving a single muscle. He placed it back onto its stand in the corner before immediately laying back down into bed. The soft breeze coming in through the window made his room cool, but still extremely pleasant for him to be in. He laid on his stomach with one leg lifted up as he started scrolling through his phone to keep his mind occupied. 

Even while being on his phone, his mind couldn’t stop drifting towards thoughts of Johnny. Objectively he was mildly annoying, to put things lightly. He always seemed to gravitate towards Simon like a lost puppy just to make flirty comments towards him. (It had taken Simon an embarrassing amount of time to figure out that he was flirting and not just being nice.) Though he was annoying, Simon couldn’t deny that he was incredibly attractive despite his horrifically outdated mohawk, but it did suit him quite well. 

Simon didn’t consider himself to be very much of a relationship person. Things had a tendency to not work out and he’d much rather save himself the grief than fling himself at anyone who showed him the smallest bit of attention. While this was true, he’d be lying if he said that he didn’t enjoy the attention that Johnny was always all too willing to give him. Johnny made him feel like he was the most important person in the room. He’d be stupid to not enjoy it.

He wanted to get closer to Johnny, nearly feeling shitty for how little he actually knew about him. He didn’t know much about his hobbies, only knowing his taste in music from their drives that they would go on together. Their respective tastes in music had a significant amount of overlap, which Simon greatly appreciated. He found himself always feeling drawn towards Johnny. He wanted to be closer to him, whether that was just as friends or otherwise.

Johnny was undeniably attractive; you could even argue that he was Simon’s type. He had a decent amount of muscle to him, a stunning smile, and those beautiful blue eyes that Simon could easily get lost in for hours. His patchwork tattoos that were more than likely done in someone’s kitchen or basement left something to be desired, but Simon couldn’t say much on the quality or overall design of his tattoos. (He didn’t have much ground to stand on with his overly edgy sleeve he’d gotten the week after he turned 18.) Johnny was cocky and oftentimes overly confident, but Simon liked it, oddly enough. He was charming and always seemed to know exactly what to say to get a laugh or any other reaction out of Simon. He liked Johnny much more than he’d initially expected to.

 Simon wasn’t entirely picky with who he hooked up with, but it wasn’t something that he often sought out. With Johnny, however, he had half a mind to invite him over. The longer he’d thought about him, that low simmer of arousal pooling in his gut had roared into a rolling boil. Sleeping with Johnny wouldn’t be the worst idea he’d ever had. He’d stolen glances at his groin when he would wear gray sweatpants and Simon was more than just pleased with what he’d seen. At the very least, he’d have fun. That would be worth it. It had been a minute.

Simon💀: idk if it’s the strain or what

Simon💀: but i’m fucking horny

Simon💀: did that happen to you when you tried it?

Simon seemed to have an uncanny talent in sending risky text messages when he was stoned. It wasnt recommended at all, but he usually gained something pleasant out of it. He’d never sent a risky message to Johnny, mind, but he doubted anything bad would come from it.

He knew damn well how Johnny looked at him like he was something to be devoured. Any time he needed to lean down to pick something up, he could always be certain that he’d find Johnny’s eyes trained carefully on him. He was never shy about his intentions. Simon was practically waiting for Johnny to make a move, but he’d make it first if Johnny wouldn’t.

Despite Johnny’s track record of responding within five minutes whenever Simon would text him, nearly ten minutes had lapsed since Simon had messaged him. Disappointing. He tossed his phone onto the bed before opening the drawer on his bedside table. He tossed a bottle of lube and a dildo onto the bed near his phone before lying back down. It seemed like closing the door earlier had been a good idea after all.

He checked his phone one again, just to check, and was surprised to see ‘Read 1:23pm.’ He was very neatly thrilled to see the typing bubble pop up on screen. He needed to see this through, a pang of tension cutting through his arousal.

Johnny🧼: u kno..

Johnny🧼: as ur plug in responsible for ur high

Johnny🧼: i could come take care of u

Of course he’d say that. Simon had completely expected for Johnny to jump at the opportunity. Strangely enough, it was endearing.

Simon💀: mhm.

Simon💀: you can barely take care of yourself

Simon💀: I’d like to see you try.

Simon grinned as soon as he saw that Johnny was typing again rolling onto his stomach. He kept his phone held up in his left hand as his right hand slid down beneath himself. He didn’t let it slide fully into his boxers, idly playing with the waistband of his boxers.

Johnny🧼: I can come over n prove it, si’

Johnny🧼: I’d be more thn happy 2

As much as the idea seemed appealing, Simon wanted to guarantee that he’d have the house to himself. He couldn’t risk having Roach coming home in the middle of everything. He truly did want to tell Johnny to come over, particularly with how long it’s been, it wasn’t work the risk of getting interrupted.

Simon💀: maybe you could.

Simon💀: where would you start?

Though he couldn’t have Johnny over right away, playing with his food was always an entertaining pastime for Simon. Particularly with someone like Johnny. He always was incredibly upfront with his intentions. Whether he’d put his money where his mouth is was still up for debate.

Johnny🧼: do u have any idea how crazy uve been driving me??

Johnny🧼: every time i see u it drives me fuckin insane

Johnny🧼: can barely keep my hands to myself when i see u

Cute, but Simon already knew that. The art of subtlety was not something that Johnny was skilled or familiar with. He liked that about him. He couldn’t deny the thrill that rushed down his spine whenever he would turn around and catch Johnny staring at him. He always looked at him like he was starving, his eyes looking nearly dark with desire each time. It almost seemed as if he could call Johnny over to him with a simple tilt of his head and he’d drop to his knees in front of Simon like an obedient dog. He loved that feeling.

Simon 💀: cute… 

Simon 💀: you can do better than that, can’t you? 

Johnny🧼: u have no idea just how badly i want to ruin u

Simon had half a mind to drop the conversation there. He wasn’t in the mood to have to lead the conversation himself. If Johnny wasn’t going to hold his attention, he wasn’t going to keep playing along for the sake of Johnny’s ego. Interestingly enough, he responded before Simon could set his phone down fully. 

Johnny 🧼: if you tell me to i’ll come over rn

Johnny 🧼: i’d push you up against the wall, kiss you breathless with my hand around your neck 

Johnny 🧼: have you riding my thigh while i’m marking what’s mine

Marking what’s his?  

Simon 💀: marking what’s yours? i’m not yours. 

Johnny 🧼: not yet >_<!

Incredibly cocky, yet he didn’t hate it. Johnny was always incredibly forward with his intentions. The current moment was no exception to that. Simon would be lying if he didn’t find the idea of it appealing. He could almost perfectly envision it. 

Johnny’s hand gripping almost uncomfortably tight onto his hips, no doubt leaving bruises where his fingertips had been. The delectably rough scrape of his stubble against his jaw and neck as biting kisses would be placed across his skin, the warm metal of the barbell in Johnny’s tongue tracing across each hickey left across his neck. He could almost hear how Johnny would chuckle against his skin as he pressed his leg up further between Simon’s thighs, the pressure against his cock as he would roll his hips down and be met with an approving hum from Johnny. He wanted to hear just how rushed and heated Johnny’s breaths would get, feel his cock hardening against his hip…

Johnny 🧼: i’d treat you so well if you’d let me

Johnny 🧼: i’ll make an absolute mess out of you just with my tongue and fingers

Johnny 🧼: i’d leave marks all over your body just to make you think of me each time you see them

He would be on his back, bullied up closer to the head of the bed with Johnny between his legs. He’d have his hand in Johnny’s hair, pulling on it just to see how Johnny would react. He could almost feel Johnny’s steely blue eyes watching each expression he’d make. Johnny’s eyes would never leave his face, even when he leans his head back against the pillows. The coil in his stomach winding tighter with each pass of Johnny’s tongue against his cock, his fingers curling up just right inside of him and making him squirm. 

He knew Johnny would wrap his free arm around one of his thighs, pulling him closer and effectively locking him in place. He’d pull back just briefly, his chin nearly dripping wet with Simon’s arousal. 

“Don’t run away from it, sweetheart.”

Johnny 🧼: can’t wait to hear all the pretty little sounds you’ll make 

Simon 💀: hate to disappoint but i’m kind of quiet 

Johnny 🧼: we’ll see about that when i get my hands on you

Simon couldn’t even find it in him to be annoyed by his confidence. Johnny was well aware of the effect that he had on Simon and to his credit, Simon couldn’t remember the last time he’d been this interested in texting someone like this. 

He was on edge, his hand having creeped into his boxers long before Johnny started typing. He could feel his heartbeat racing as he watched the bubble continue, a low curse leaving his throat as he curled his fingers upwards inside of him.

Johnny 🧼: takin a while to respond, sweetheart

Johnny 🧼: what are you up to?

If he wanted to know so badly, Simon had no problems with showing him. He had a mirror at the foot of his bed for a reason. He sat up just slightly, leaning his weight on his left elbow and angling the camera so that his face wasn’t visible. He spread his legs open a little further for the picture. The damp spot on his boxers was just barely visible, but made more apparent by the flash of the camera. 

The image was tasteful, but you could still clearly see that Simon had two fingers buried inside of his cunt. He ground the heel of his palm against his dick as he sent the picture over.

Simon 💀: i think you can guess…

Johnny didn’t immediately start typing and Simon couldn’t deny the slight puff that it gave to his ego. He was well aware of the fact that Johnny found him attractive, but seeing a visual demonstration of him not having an immediate quip back from a risque picture was amusing to him. It was, of course, short lived. 

Johnny 🧼: got you that riled up from a few texts?

Simon 💀: don’t flatter urself 

Simon 💀: i’m home alone. just gotta take care of it myself. 

Johnny 🧼: i could change that

Simon 💀: maybe

The offer was incredibly tempting. Simon knew if he told Johnny to come over, he’d be at his house within the next twenty minutes, if not faster. Best case, the hookup would be pretty decent and he’d have a reason to invite Johnny over more often. Worst case, he’d have some mediocre sex and need to find a new drug dealer. That still didn’t account for running into Johnny at parties, or Roach coming home in the middle of everything. Maybe that wasn’t the best course of action…for now.

Johnny 🧼: can i save that pic?

Johnny 🧼: won’t show it to anyone. i just want that for me

If he’d been standing up, Simon knew that message would have made him dizzy. He could feel the slight rush of adrenaline down his spine at the suggestion. Just wanting to keep that picture for himself? Would he be looking at it later, touching himself thinking about Simon? Would that be the first time he’d done something similar? The mental image of that was all too appealing for Simon to say no.

Simon 💀: you better fucking not

Simon 💀: my face isn’t in it, go ahead

Johnny 🧼: perfect. 

He slid a third finger inside of himself as he waited for Johnny to finish typing, gently chewing on his lower lip in anticipation. Would Johnny be touching himself looking at that picture?

His face dimly illuminated by the light of his phone, sitting up with the hem of his tank top tucked between his teeth. His eyes carefully scanning over the picture as his hand stroked over his cock, his thumb trailing over the head on each upstroke. 

Johnny 🧼: just want to fucking ruin you 

Johnny 🧼: i’d keep you up all night, fill you up until you can’t take any more

Simon 💀: doubt you have the stamina but you can try

Johnny 🧼: cute that you think that

Johnny 🧼: when’s the last time someone properly took care of you? 

In all honesty, Simon could barely even remember the last time he’d hooked up with someone, let alone had a memorable and at least halfway decent hookup. He knew it had been more than a few months, but he didn’t exactly keep track of it either. He didn’t necessarily have people lining up to sleep with him, Johnny being the exception, and didn’t see the point in lying about it just to make him jealous…though it did sound appealing. 

Simon 💀: it’s been a while

Johnny 🧼: poor thing

Johnny 🧼: i could take care of you

Johnny 🧼: have you start on your hands and knees, flip you on your back when you get too tired

Johnny 🧼: push your knees to your chest and watch how you fall apart for me

He’d be on his back, his knees held tight to his chest, Johnny no doubt deeper inside him than anyone had been in a long time. He could hear the slap of skin on skin, harsh pants and soft groans. He was certain he’d be able to see the sweat dripping down Johnny’s temples, messy trails down his neck. How his eyebrows would be knit together tightly, his eyes closed and focusing on the sensations of everything. Open mouthed panting, his muscles flexing and relaxing beneath his skin so perfectly, shoulders begging to be bitten into. He’d make such a pretty picture, wouldn’t he?

Johnny 🧼: show me what you’re up to, doll

He deserved to see a little more, didn’t he? Simon pushed himself up to be sitting fully, tucking his legs beneath him and getting into more of a straddle position. He kept the camera carefully angled to hide his face as he hit the record button. He kept slowly fingering himself as the video ran, being careful to not make much noise. He didn’t need to inflate Johnny’s ego any more than it already would be. He didn’t watch the video back before sending it off. It was only a few seconds long, but it was clear what he was doing.

His eyes lit up as soon as Johnny started typing again, not having the energy to feign disinterest any longer. 

Johnny🧼: I can hardly even see what you’re doing, sweetheart

Simon💀: greedy.

Johnny🧼: you love it.

His next video started the same as the one he’d just sent, this time making more of an effort to grind against the palm of his hand as he worked himself open. This time, he lowered the camera from his face as he pulled his hand out of his boxers. He locked eyes with the camera in the mirror as he raised his hand towards his mouth, slowly trailing his tongue between his fingers and effectively cleaning off all evidence of his own arousal. He immediately sent off the video as soon as he stopped recording.

Simon💀: does this give you any clues?

He couldn’t deny the headrush he got as soon as Johnny didn’t reply for almost a minute, the read receipt being the only evidence he’d seen it. He was nearly giddy as he waited for Johnny to finish typing.

Johnny🧼: i think i’ve got an idea

Johnny🧼: i’d clean off your fingers just like that if i was there

Johnny🧼: dying to find out exactly how you taste

Simon💀: i bet you are

He’d been dancing around inviting Johnny over for too long, and he was starting to wonder if it’d be worth it to invite him over. Johnny hadn’t let up once in texting him. Simon wouldn’t mind the company. It could’ve just been the weed talking, but Simon felt he deserved at least the chance to prove himself. What did he have to lose?

He shifted up on his knees, turning so that his profile could be seen in the mirror. He pressed his chest down towards the bed, forcing his back to arch as his hips stayed high up in the air. He adjusted himself just slightly so that his body was in better view of the mirror to the camera. He sent off the picture as soon as he’d gotten a good shot.

Simon 💀: you gonna come get behind me or what?

Read 1:58pm. 

For a few moments, Simon figured that Johnny was just in shock and didn’t know how to respond. Maybe he hadn’t expected Simon to send that and needed a moment to process. One minute passed, then two, then five, then ten. Simon couldn’t hold in the disappointed sigh as he tossed his phone to the side. He was disappointed, yes, but still not entirely surprised. He’d expected Soap to be all bark and no bite, but had hoped that wouldn’t be the case. 

He rolled back onto his back, reaching for the dildo and lube he’d tossed onto the bed earlier before sliding his boxers off and tossing them onto the floor. He’d hoped for something different, but this would have to do for now.

an: sorry for cockblocking you guys i promise they fuck in the next chapter. but anyways. thank you for reading!!! i hope you enjoyed!! next chapter should be up relatively soonish!!

[johnslittlespoon]

I love your bucky is dog fic so much!!! I reread it all the time it's so heart-warming and funny and just ahhh so good!! refreshing ao3 patiently and excitingly waiting for more<33

(a BIG mix of non–brainrot asks so i don't spam the timeline <33 some of these are from so long ago i'm so sorry. also lil disclaimer at the end about some specific asks i've been getting recently and why i won't be answering them! x)

1) !!?? you REREAD IT?? my heart wtf that's so sweet??? 😭💗 THANK U SM i will do my best to not let u down with future chapters even if shit gets a little bit angstier SDJKG <33

2) LMAO backseat gala–ing from the comfort of a couch 😭 judging the outfits as if they don't show up in plain tuxes half the time <3

3) <3333 thank u omg sjgkdk i'm so happy if my lack of stfu ability brings any bit of joy to anyone LOL

4) ILY THX LEGEND @air-exec u enable me too much <33

5) ALWAYS HAPPY TO INDULGE!! thank u for indulging my constantly rotting brain ur so kind 😭 <333

6) yaurrr i think it's just bc i do Not enjoy being around children LMAO i can't ever get into pregnancy/family dynamic type fics in general, i wish i could tho bc they're so wholesome :') but YEAH exactly ugh. it's like. the action of talking about it, especially when it's unattainable, is so intimate bc it's like an "i love you this much" thing. but it's also so hot bc the possession of it (and possible feminization depending on the pairing) sighhh

also i feel that sooo hard, sometimes you just gotta go where ur writing heart takes u yk? it's hard to write something if ur not fully invested :') and omg stop i WILL cry. 😭💗 wtf. thank YOU!! ofc i would read!! some ideas just /hit/ and urs is one of them <33 but also yes omg it's UP there (if not at the top) on my list of pwps i wanna write once i finish yad(iym) <33 thank you for sharing urs too and sending u good writing vibes regardless of what u write!!

7) GAHH this ones been on my ao3 read later since u sent this ask in!!! i literally have started a doc with links to moots fics i need to read/general fics i've stumbled across that look good and this one is for sure going in it. i do love reading sooo much, i just have the hell combo of adhd and dyslexia but i did start concerta a couple weeks ago which has def made it a bit easier to read lmfao thank fuck.

i think i just get in this headspace where i'm either a reader or a writer when i'm working on smth, idk if anyone else does this? i have a hard time slipping btwn both mindsets, i'm usually locked in on one at a time LOL but i need to get my shit together bc fuck everyone in this fandom writes so damn good and i want to leave long essays on all the fics and hype people up <33 i think once i finish the dog fic i'll take a few days to just consume my reading list to celebrate SJDGK

also omg i can't believe this ask is from before i even posted it that's crazyyy MY BAD. thank u and also that made me giggle JSKDG if that's my legacy in this fandom i'm honestly so happy ab that okay dog coded bucky is everything to me and i will do whatever i can to do him justice <333 and thank u again for the rec!

8) [ X ] UGHHH stop mammal RUINED me. he's soososoo pretty i want to die i think about that barry era as curt in the motaverse so often it makes me sick. i love pretty twinks!! xx (i have a whole motaverse au curtbucky where curt looks like 2012–ish barry and he's ken's age and they're cute lil mechanics together and it's so stupidly elaborate and niche and maybe i'll do smth w it one day who knows)

9) this is very sweet and i do appreciate you respecting my boundaries! thank you <3 i think a lot of people get annoyed at adults asking minors not to interact with nsfw posts on here bc the argument is always "they're gonna look even if you ask them not to" which, yeah, true! i was a teenager growing up online, i sure as hell did not let 18+ warnings stop me ever lmfaoo. i'm not telling minors to stay off my account because ik if people wanna find specific content, they're gonna find it. if teens are learning ab gay sex thru my blog, then at least they're learning ab it from a gay man who tries to keep things realistic in fic and who isn't a creep LOL.

that being said, i more so bar off minors interacting with my nsfw posts/writing bc i personally just feel uncomfortable discussing stuff like that with anyone who isn't an adult, and sometimes i don't have the time to check bios for ages (or sometimes bios don't have ages) before i reply to comments or whatever, so it's just easier to ask that y'all stick to the sfw so i don't accidentally brainrot some cooked shit with a child JSDJKG bc i would feel icky. i hope you understand <3

10) IT MAKES ME SICKKK. not only that, but when i was rewatching it with my irl last week, i realized that in e5 when bucky's smoking in the plane after gale goes down, he's sitting in the right (gale's) seat, which i'm pretty sure he doesn't do at any other time :((( like he was trying to be close to him in anyway he could </3

11) omg i've been meaning to watch that just to get a better inside look at stuff for world building purposes lmaooo but that sounds so wholesome :( i read that a lot of the guys would get real sad/touchy around holidays (obviously), so i could see a oneshot where one of them takes it upon themselves to try and cheer everyone up the best they can under their circumstances. a little found family holiday </33

12) thank u for the rec!! i'm suuuch a slow reader, i'm still working my way thru the actual mota book LOL but i've added this to my reading list <3 i think i might've actually read a couple excerpts from that one in doing research for my fic and it looks really interesting (and heartbreaking) so i'm sure i'll pick up a copy eventually :^)

13) oh 100% agree!! as someone who already isn't super interested in fashion/pop–culture, i find it very hard to look at the men's outfits and be blown away by any of them LOL but the women?? insane. was losing it over lana and zendaya's fits tonight ngl. hunter had me in a chokehold with last year's <3 tangent alright i always say this to my friends but i'm just jealous in general that women have so many more options in terms of clothes like.

okay listen i know i can leave my house in a skirt or crop top or whatever and a lot more guys are def starting to feel comfortable doing so. but i also enjoy not worrying about getting jumped or looked at funny! it's a lot safer than it used to be to do so, even in my small ass conservative town i'll sometimes put on some dangly earrings or a bit of rodrick–liner SJKDG but that doesn't mean it's normalized yet or whatever. point being that i wish it was because men's outfits would be sm more exciting at these fashion events if they had a wider range of options too!

but that aside, absolutely. until that changes, really it's not that hard for the men who are going with women (who don't want to go crazy with their outfits/who are more lowkey like you said) to just. wear something nice and on theme that compliments their partner's outfit and they'll be FINE. anything is better than something boring with no effort; effort doesn't have to equal crazy and fancy and elaborate. like austin's 2022 look has always been a standout to me because it was still a really nice look (even if it was simple) and it also worked so well because of who he had at his side. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ but i also literally don't know shit ab fashion so i rly shouldn't be speaking on it LOL. i just know some things make me go oh no and some make me go YUM

and that's probs the last i'll post about the met bc i rly don't care thaaaat much, i was just happy to see barry since he wasn't at the panel this weekend <3

OKAY THAT WAS SO MUCH I'M SORRY. i just felt really bad bc some of those have been sitting in my inbox for months bc i was waiting to compile them all into a post like this :-) but also one last thing, idk if it's bc of me stepping out of mota to talk ab the emmy stuff/the met this week, but i've had a couple gossip/drama(?) asks and i just wanna say rn that i won't be posting stuff like that, even though they've been worded kindly! one, because i rly only post about fic/brainrot/mota–fandom related stuff here (aside from rare exceptions like today lol). and two, because as much as i adore our boys and try to keep up with the things they're up to, i personally don't vibe with speculating about them (esp if it's in a way that kinda. forgets they are grown men who probably don't think twice ab some of the stuff that people think they do lolol). i have no issue with people who do like to talk ab that stuff, i follow update blogs and think it's totally fine as long as it's done respectfully! i just don't feel like talking about gossip fits the vibe here and frankly i don't care enough about what goes on behind the scenes half the time; i'm just here to create and support and be insane. <33 that's all, just wanted to say that so ppl aren't waiting to have those asks answered/aren't sending more in! x

[yermes]

PAC 🛼:

Its me again unfortunately . This may be a weird flex but I freaking love my friends 🥹 I have some of the sweetest most creative friends ever. May have had to kiss a few frogs on my occult kik/ discord era but I found some really special magical friends out there in the ether. 🩷 As ur step mom I hope you have good friends too and not ones I side eye and be like uhm ya sure abt that one??? Anyways heres a reading for what to look for in a group/ coven/ circle/ whatever the fuck you kids call it these days.

Pick a meme

Pick a card

Queen of cups 🍯

Queen of the thrones of waters, Binah, Heh, watery aspect of water, 20�� Gemini to 20° Cancer

Goddamn is there a lot of emotion up in your squad (not shitting on it just pointing it out) but for the most part it seems to be going well for you. This group seems mostly good natured however with mostly water and lack of everything else make sure what they’re actually talking about is concrete and its not just a flurry of ideas not based in actual practice or theory. They seem to cling on to a big flaw of the magic community and its being a dreamer with no follow through or work do do something actual instead sinking more and more into ones own delusional escape. But hey at least they seem friendly

Disappointment 🫗

Five of cups, Mars 1. Scorpio, Geburah through water

Girl if I see you coming home from school every day with tears in your eyes because your “friends” are causing an emotional crisis. THEY ARE NOT YOUR FRIENDS. This may have been an unconscious fear coming true. Maybe you didn’t know much about magic and the occult so you joined this group thinking it would be great only to cause a lot of hard lessons that didn’t really need to happen but you just kept walking and ignored all the red flags. L status rn. You lost the illusion. What you thought was true was bullshit and you are now in a emotional catastrophe. If you wanna talk just dm me kiddo u are always welcome to talk to me abt shit okay 🩵

Two of wands 🍷

Lord of dominion, Chokmah, Vehooel and Deneyal, Mars in Aries, 1°–10°

You have such a trash vibe. You and your little homies got together and said lets make each other worst forreal. If I was your ACTUAL mom I would look outside in concern clutching my pearls as you lot burned ants with magnifying glasses smh. However, a main drive is to get stronger and better which I am for and however you choose to do it I cannot judge because I was a spiteful piece of shit when I was just learning as well. However, I warn while using emotions and more primal emotions as fuel to get better do not compromise the integrity of who you are for this group it will never turn out well for ya.

Lust 🍫

Venus in leo, Chesed to Geburah, fire, Babalon, power

Usually called power in other decks this card signifies that you are REALLy into yo shit lol. Like okay Jack Parsons. I feel like since this card is very related to a primal aspect your squad mostly hangs out in the low magic category and you all just kind of fuck around and find out. Which is fine. As above so below the primal deserves as much love and the divine but maybe I would research some higher magic just to balance yourself out. I feel like you are not super satisfied with the group and you want it to be something its not but you cannot force change you can only vote w yo feet.

I know how important it is for some people to have a squad but just remember you only need yourself to practice

[disneyanddisneyships]

All ur ocs (yep there's no specifying which one)

Helluva/Hazbin:

Aella-

She does when she's too lazy to do dishes. Which is completely fair and I don't blame her.

Aponi-

She's not known to do it, but if she's in the dark and can't see the kitchen but doesn't wanna wake anyone, she'll drink water from a mug

Becca-

She usually just uses a water bottle but she doesn't care much what people drink water out of.

Cordelia-

Everything has a designated purpose. She saw Chaz drinking sink water from a mug once and scolded him while she dumped out the water, cleaned the mug, put the mug back perfectly in its place, got a normal glass with ice, and used the filtered water in her fridge.

Furcalor-

She doesn't like doing it, but if she finds stolas drunk off his ass and close to passing out she could care less what she uses as long as she gets him water.

Linda "Bunny" Davis-

She's a housewife so she uses regular glasses and doesn't like it very much when someone uses a mug.

Roxxie-

She'll use literally anything if she wants water. There are no shits given.

TPOIF:

Ella-

Uses a normal glass but doesn't judge if you wanna use a mug.

Eli-

Is the one using a mug

Mia-

Doesn't care. She just wants water

Loreley-

Uses a mug and warm water for literally no reason.

Alistar-

He uses a mighty sometimes when he doesn't wanna do too much effort

Rosalyn-

She uses a mug when she's having warm lemon water, but she doesn't use a mug for regular water.

Eve-

All she has in her little shop is mugs because she makes them.

Alruna-

Uses the mugs that eve makes all. The. Time.

Deena-

Why drink water when u can drink the blood of men in a mug?

Clare-

Uses a regular glass but doesn't judge

Carol-

Uses a teacup. Pinky out, little Sips. Just for water.

Jacob-

Uses a mug a lot, especially when reading in the library.

John-

Uses a mug to piss the cooking staff off.

Eathan-

Doesn't care what he uses.

Hope-

Doesn't care much. Just uses whatever she can reach. She's a short child.

Isaac-

Uses a regular glass

Asher-

Does indeed just use a mug

Emily-

Judges Asher as she drinks from a normal glass with ice.

Other:

Avianna-

She does use mugs and only mugs

Frozenverse:

Eirwen-

Tried to use a mug once but her mother was horrified and replaced it immediately with a glass made of ice, and filled it up with water

[foxboythefirst]

Hello, it's me again (if you can remember who I am) But I've had a bit of a weird day and I've been debating with myself wether or not to to and talk about it.

I've decided I am, but not very much. Since I'm still kind of scared that you're not in the mood to listen to me rant.

Warning here, the next few pieces of text will contain:

TW: sa mentions

If you are uncomfortable or triggered by this, please scroll away and do not read!

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I feel sick. I saw him today. And it was horrible. Just looking him in the eye was horrible.

I was picking my sibling up from school, and I saw him.

I was petting a cat and when I stood up, he was staring at me. In the eye, trying to work out who I am.

I had changed since it happened, different haircut, had a little bit of makeup on, taller, ect ect. So the possibility of him not remembering who I am is high.

But the face he had on while trying to find out who I was, the 2 second eye contact it scared me. Like, really scared me.

I panicked and ran down to my siblings school as fast as I could.

Scared he'd try something

I started remembering all the shit he did to me, and it kind of messed me up for the rest of the day.

I said goodnight to my best friend, but I still can't sleep

Sometimes I feel as though I'm not as valid as other people because he was younger than me.

I wish it never happened

:(

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By the way, if you're confused on who I am, I'm the same anon that asked if they could talk to you here :)

first off, it’s perfectly okay to vent to me whenever. Never feel scared to, ever. This is a perfectly safe space and I’ll never judge you, no matter what you say.

Secondly, I’m so sorry you had to go through that at first, and then see that person again. Its a horrible feeling and nobody deserves that, you didn’t deserve that at all. It’s a completely understandable reaction to be scared, especially to someone who’s done those kind of things to you. I get it, and you shouldn’t feel ashamed of being scared. I’m proud of you for managing to get through it and even just coming here to talk to me about it, that takes a lot of bravery to do, and it especially takes a lot of courage to open up about sa. I get the fear, I get how hard it is to deal with.

If it makes you feel better to think of it rationally, you should remember that it’s a school place. Staff, teachers, etc, should be around and would be able to see if anything was going to happen to you. Although I understand if that doesn’t help, because a lot of the time, fear stops you think rationally. Especially when it’s fear that you’re in danger- All that you have to remember now, though, is that person can’t hurt you anymore and you’re safe.

Everything you’re feeling and going through mentally and emotionally because of what the person did to you is valid. It doesn’t matter if they were younger, older, if any of your experience didn’t feel “valid enough”, your experience is valid and you deserve to be heard and comfortable. Everyone’s experience with sa is different, and that’s okay.

Again, I’m sorry that happened to you at all in the first place, and I wish I could help you more. I want you to remember that you’re loved and that people will be here for you and will listen to you when you need it. I’m always gonna be here if you need to rant or need comfort and that’ll never change.

Take care of yourself and try and get some sleep, ok? Do whatever makes you feel best, I’ll be here if you need me. Love u <33 /p (only saying that cause Ik ur secret identity, but that’s ok 💕)

[jenanigans1207]

girl that’s so messed up tht ppl are harassing you ab ur fics. i thought it was becoming common to understand tht fic writers are human beings with lives outside of their stories they create for FREE. shit happens and ppl should be grateful for what you have written. thank you for ur stories and time. theres a ton of us waiting patiently for when you have the time and energy to create. take as much time as you need. i hope life gets easier for you. id rather wait years to read another chapter than for you to feel stressed to make something you’re not happy with and for writing to become a burden rather than a fun outlet for you. keep moving forward and don’t let the negativity influence u <3 godspeed soldier

heyo anon w the long rant before this here: do u have any links where we could tip/donate to u lmao asking for a friend 👀

hope it's okay that I combined both asks into one!

First of all, thank you so much! You are so kind and this really helps me feel a lot better. I really should amend my rant to clarify that most people are being incredibly kind and understanding, just like you are. And to the people who have reached out to check in on me: thank you <3 But I've been through this in other fandoms and I guess I'm going through it in this fandom too. And maybe it's something I should just expect but it did almost get me to quit writing for the previous fandom that did this to me. Because you're totally right-- it took all the joy out of writing for me. And I had such a fear whenever I looked at a blank page about whether this update would live up to the expectation after "so long" of not updating that it paralyzed me.

That won't happen here, I promise I'll finish discriminating taste, just like I finished the fic I was just talking about. But it's just frustrating sometimes because I will sometimes have free time and the fear of it all with cause me to be unable to grab my computer and start writing. But I am very lucky to have a fic that is so well-loved and I am very thankful for the people who care enough about my fic to want more, so I don't want to complain too much. I just want everyone to trust that I won't walk out on you or leave the fic unfinished!

Anyway, that did not need to get so long and I'm sorry for dumping that on you! The short version is, thank you <3 I appreciate the kind words and the understanding and it's people like you who have made it so that I still want to finish this fic. Being cared for as me and not as the author of a fic really helps. So truly, thank you!!

As for links (omg thank you but also nobody is ever obligated)-- I had to dig this up from... i honestly don't even know when. I can't name the last time I looked at this so if you go to it and look at it, don't judge whatever you see there, haha. But I did make a ko-fi once upon a time!

Thank you again, so much, just for being so kind and caring. It really means a lot <3

[wosopatri2]

Hey queen

Yes I would love to see more photos, you can post whatever u like :) Just be careful posting the city u currently live in, idw you to have a repeat of your old situation. The architecture there is beautiful and stunning, I hope to see some of it in person someday.

Babes just a question what about me have off American 😭I mean to be fair you know nothing about me but it genuinely made me giggle that you thought I was American. Not going to say exactly where I’m from but you’ve gone completely in the wrong direction geography wise. There’s no accent? At least I think. I will say I’ve developed an odd way of talking from my friends mixed accent at Uni.

Glad to hear that ur hanging on, maybe try to find new things to do to distract yourself? I remember you said you were interested in basketball, do u follow any of it? Heard the wnba draft just happened maybe u could distract yourself with that. Either way, proud of you for going one step at a time, im sure you’ll get over it.

Omg I’ve actually been so off the grid with football idk what’s going on anymore. How’s Pere’s tactics going? Cause I too am shitting myself over the fact that his tactics have to play Chelsea. Genuinely still remember the tears I shed last year when we lost to them. At least we made a come back? Idk if we will learn this time tho….

I cannot write short messages for the life of me, I just start typing then boom a whole essay appears. Oops. Love you anyways, xoxo

Hey love :)

I’ll definitely keep posting more photos then, thank you for hyping them up like that, seriously. And don’t worry, I’ll be careful about posting anything that gives away where I am now, I learned that lesson the hard way. But yeah, the architecture here is actually super beautiful in its own way. Less flashy than Barça, but old and full of character.

I’m still laughing at this cause I don’t know, your tone, some expressions, and maybe just my brain inventing backstories, it gave me “east coast liberal arts student trying to survive” vibes. Turns out my brain invented lore for you and now I’m being called out. I love that, you’re such a mystery. But I am now reimagining your whole accent and way of speakin cause my brain can't let it go.

Also, you mentioning basketball made me smile, yes I’ve been following women’s basketball for a really long time. I actually used to play pro and don’t get me wrong, it still excites me, especially watching the new talent come up i'm in love with Paige i think she's the perfect player tbh… but I’ve followed it so closely and for so long that the spark just doesn’t hit the same anymore. It’s like seeing something you love from a distance, still beautiful, but it doesn’t set your brain on fire the way it used to. Maybe it’ll come back though.

Football-wise, don’t even get me started. Pere’s tactics are both bold and terrifying, and if they are doing great is not his job but because Barça is the best team in the world, his management of minutes is horrible (this last matches he's been doing that okay but still... I don't like to judge a season until it's over but I don't like what he has done with this team). Facing Chelsea again....I have war flashbacks. I still remember that loss way too vividly. I hope this time we’ve actually grown and won’t collapse under pressure. I believe in the players, but I’m also keeping one eye half-closed just in case it turns into a horror show again. Just really hope they don't score a goal here cause defense this year is being wanky so hoping for a 2-0 Ewa, Aitana, Caro or Alexia please I know they don't like Chelsea (specially Aitana) so I'm hoping for them🙏🏽🙏🏽

And don’t worry about writing long messages, your “essays” are literally a highlight of my day. It feels like catching up with someone over coffee even if we’re both in the middle of a mental breakdown and a pile of things to do. I love reading them, always.

Love you lots ♥️

[postmoderntongues]

Im a true rockstar if im not geeked at the microphone I get vertigo and want to cry for no reason and hate that people can see and perceive me and my fat afab body and once at the nice one I fainted. A few adderall and a Bang! cotton candy flavor and not only do I not simultaneously stutter mumble and whisper but have a little bit of a sense of like basic metronome rhythm when I read and can carry out conversations with other people without the constant looming thought that I'm not just annoying me but potentially that they hate me so bad they want to hurt me but I don't hit the stage without E ice addi or coke also I've been doing so much coke and I hate coke but like I don't turn down free drugs if I think I can safely ingest them bc I wanna show appreciation for the gesture I have not purchased a grain of coke in my life but its motherfucking everywhere and the only thing people really have and when I do a set people have offered me anything from key/card bumps to splitting a half gram tray of lines to talk to me about my piece or even just talk to me because I'm kind of an interesting character and have psychopath charisma and I'm always like oh u don't have to ill chill for free I love friends/company so I've met so many cool people but so many of them like insist so like 3 nights a week I've been doing coke not like DOING it not having nights with it but doing a few bumps or lines because people want to give it to me because a lot of people like my shit and offering drugs is easy effortless social capital even tho like the jig will be up soon enough that I'm an unstable psychotic spaz people seem to if not like me be interested n me right now and last night I met the sweetest gay guy (he had a boyfriend, they were monogomous and homosexual so not into trans guys but no harm no fowl shot shot didn't hit carry on talking about the next thing) but I came out on the porch of the bar (BEFORE I did any coke and only like 2 beers) and like had the ephainy that like why not at this point why not just do it and be happy and stop overthinking everything and just tell the truth about who you are and I came out and all the lesbians I was with cheered, then told the sweet gay guy who was so excited to me and kept feeding me bumps all night and then tonight I smoked up this guy from one of the bands just to be like a friendly member of the community and to be real I was like ur cute wana head to ur car and like bang or whatever and he was like I'm actually married we just have or first baby and I was like omg do u have pics that's adorable and good on you faithfulness is really important in a relationship and told him how pretty his wife looked and how cute his baby was and he was like "yo its cool that not only did u switch gears as soon as I said I had a wife but like didn't bounce just bc I wasn't trying to fuck and like took interest and had a comfo with me and then he took out a mirror poured out and cut up half a gram and split it with me and we just talked all night it was such a nice time but also I need to be railed I need the season 6 robson treatment I need to be fucking disemboweled and I keep getting told by guys stuff like "I actually like u and want tog et to know you and be bros and form an actual closeness bc ur (special/chill) and I don't want to risk one of us panicking and then ghosting the other bc we fucked on the first night and judged the whole potential relationship on their sexual performance" which is very sweet BUT I NEED TO DO THINGS FROM LIVEJOURNAL DANGER DYS KINKMEME FANFCS so instead of getting cock, which I'm looking for, I keep getting lots of coke

[lovinggreeniehours]

i saw u were bored so i send ask. i will get to reading ur fics for arifer in a bit but i wanted to ask if you had a particular fave scene you were excited to write or show off in the arifer wedding fic series? :> (@snowpuffclovers)

lien my savior 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 help im soooo so sleepy right now i almost fell asleep while sitting up wanshi style 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

ah.,,,,,,, that's hard,,,i like all of it hsdjfsg my arifer fics are always my best work for some reason idk why :) it's a hit or miss sometimes but there's always something to be proud of that i can improve on. so i had a lot of fun writing and rewriting these. but still, let me just. infodump jgdhjhdgj (OH GOD IT'S FUTURE ARION I MADE IT REALLY LONG AGAIN IM SORRY 😭🫡)

so i was always. really really excited for the vows. it's not as long and momentous as the other two fics imo, but i felt so excited to get to it hsfjfshj

there's just something really nice about how the vows are never revealed at all, even to the reader. like not to gatekeep ofc but jdjgsdgh everything that's written in the text is everything that the two of them are willing to share to anyone. and that's a really big thing with arifer! their secrets and their reputations are important themes in their story

(literally exemplified by lucifer's ability to sense people looking at him, and how takahara gets to share that ability once they enter a more serious relationship- the pact. i wanted to foreshadow that lightly with the random mentions of the house of lords, and mentioning reactions from the other characters about the wedding, etc etc)

the way these two are perceived by other people has always been so important in their arcs, and their relationship is really like. a place that they get to hide away and exist without being judged by others, for better or worse. so the vows being kept secret is really important. to me :)

a thing i kind of wanted all the fics to have in common is this feeling of the world fading away until it's just the two of them

- less evident in day one, but nonetheless, the way they get kind of goofy towards the end (ie, lucifer being all tough and standoffish with barbatos, but as soon as he leaves he's like SHIT I FORGOT TO TEXT ARION *runs to grab ddd*) i find it really cute hdfjfsfjsgh

- literally. the whole fic. is them sneaking around at 3am to go dance in an empty ballroom because they felt like being silly. they're astonishingly clingy and amorous with each other because that is not how they're expected to act normally. they're alone and they're free to do literally whatever

- "The sound of his voice was a little too loud. Enough for a few people in the front row below them to hear.

But Lucifer was smiling at him, intertwining both their hands together once more. He didn't care. He let himself smile back."

DO YOU SEE THIS SHIT,, ,,,, , ,,,,,,,, , ,

AND and also this part is just really geeky and goofy of me it's so self indulgent jfsfkjadhh 😭 but. lucifer making the sakura bloom as they did the vows. was. a reference. to my favorite books (tfota series) 🥹 he had a bunch of reasons for being so adamant about getting takahara to back off about the venue, but that was one of them hdshjfsg

bonus: in day one there was an exchange that was JUST LIKE THIS AND I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE UNTIL NOW,,, 😭

anyway that's all. class is over thank you lien 🫶 hdafjwdhkgsjkdgjdj🥹

[theuniverseawakens347]

physical into the SPIRTUAL… I’m going to try and keep it on my story… but Halle ya roped in for a past life … Chloe ur a different .. sector from sky… so they say I’m not going to judge it in full just the over lay.. lil Wayne rhythm..

I was being hunted physically and spiritually when Tristan Barton came into my life… Noah ring led back end EAZYIINK Ian McDowell… ya purposely w adults who hate DARNIECE and our parents did the same thing to them to us.. using the kids of the same adults.. elders might have skipped a generation depending on coming to America time frame.. DDG mom..

I’m not giving too much detail cause a lot happening… but I talked to a tarot reader when Tristan and I parted and when MY ANCESTORS PASSED OVER NIPSEY INCLUDED started calling me … I needed a physical understanding …

so I found some online stuff bc Loyalität.. Informant did her part.. in the physical now it was time to go to her SPIRTUAL realm… Howard serving me papers w his death pet “for” Lee … 3 party.. person who handed it to me guilty for HELPING LEE IN THE PAST GET AWAY W CRIME IN WHATEVER LLC EESTAB BISH MENT… they don’t know spiritual law.. that’s another reason pergatory is Russian doll…

this man 2:57 pm just left the library… he’s a fake SPIRTUAL in psychosis for Lee garlington to piss off this library and get it shut down by having the cops come to HARRASS them but see me and call me mentally a bitch to test if I can read their minds… YA GOT MY TWITTER TORRENCE PD FRONT DESK LEARNED THE HARD WAY… NELSON… SINGLE RIDE SQUAD CAR .. CAULIFLOWER EARS STARBUCKS .. THIS MAN DOING BLASPHEMY HE GETTING PSYCHWARD FOR TAKING MEDS TO BE A CRACK HEAD IN SPIRITUAL PSYCHOSIS…

HALLE BAILY AND PUTTING CHLOE ON PAPER … AND HAVENT TOLD HER YOU DID IT SAID IT WAS DDG OR DASHAE OR HIS MOM SIGNATURE AND SOMETHING BOUT HALO ON HER CHESTTHAT VIDEO NIGHT AND WHOO OPS

… anyways I reached out to a physical tarot reader and they asked for photos of my apartment to assest my energy and spirits around me HALLE BE DOING THIS SHIT IN CHLOE NAME OR ASKED CHLOE TOMDO IT TO FRANCESKA AND NOMI… GROWNISH CREW .. YARA SIGN OFF AS ZOE … ORGANIZE IT AND UR CO CAPTAIN HALLE GOT A LITTLE TOO LOOSE.. AND YA JUST LET IT KEEP GOING AND DRINK TO IGNORE IT NOW YA BOTH EVEN MORE RESPONSIBLE… BC DID YOU REPORT IT TO ANYONE!? No. U just drank and told someone who pushed you to the next sector TRACEE to do something dumb ..

Howard took a photo of me receiving this paper and docked who came with him… Ben did that part … I’m posting everything PUBLICALLY and tagging the police and proper ppl.. and I know it’s getting there bc Burbank pd already seen me and Venice ya call me when I’m in the area and tell me come to a crime scene when things are going down and I document it …

I got 18 miles to the gas tank and no dollars for mobility.. except my legs … Jesus not walking more miles thru the desert ya coming to come now or within close range,,

….vivicca WHITSET Angela basset at some point in ur spiritual special mental illness sector you got big footed and I got someone over seeing and reporting evidence,,, it takes time yes… but DIDDY did his part and Cassie did hers w resistance … like Lee and Howard.

DIDDY. EEN TURNED THINGS IN ALL OF IT BEFORE AUG 17th 2021 … again my 27th that yr was suppose to be something special in going home to the stars.., n starting my spiritual journey w PROPER FAMILY… Lee evil team Angela basset got jealous again at lee and used you get back at her and hurt me GOD.. for their pain they cud t understand… well now ur learning IVE BEEN NUMBED OUT MENTALLY MY WHOLE LIFE WITH ALL MY FAMILY FROM OUR SPIRITUAL TRUTHS… MY TRIANGLE N EXTENSION SACRIFICED TAKING BULLETS FOR CERTAIN FAMILY OF THE HOLY LAW OFFICE … WHILE UR PASSED OVER ANCESTORS PROTECTED YOU FROM HARM… BUT AGIN FREE WILL IS URS TO TAKE AND GODS WILL IS ONLY FOR MY 3 … AND OUR ANCESTORS TO AN EXTENT UNTIL I WAKE… THE MORE NUMBING YOU GIVE ME ANGELA ON PURPOSE TO AVOID PUNISHMENT FROM OTHER REALSM THE MORE THE PPL GET MAD AT TRISTAN… HE CANT OVER STEP UNTIL WERE TOGETHER AND YOU KNOW THAT ANGELA.. U TRYNA GET BACK AT LEE FAMILY TREE BC THEIR ANCESTORS ARE THE GROUP OF SLAVE OWNERS SEX TRADE SLAVE TRADE.. U PLAYED BLASPHEMY INSTEAD OF WAITING FOR THE CREATOR AND WORKING THRU UR PAIN LEGITIMATELY… FROM A BLIND HINDSIGHT SPOT YA PROBABLY BEEN DOING IT IN EVERY LIFE TIME.. SAME W HALLE BAILEY OR ENOUGH FOR ME AWAKING TO SAY… NAW IM GOOD ON HER AFTER WE TALK FACE TO FACE.

[rewiredthethirdblog]

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[bisluthq]

Yeah it’s unfortunate that rpf fanfic in particular has been conflated with conspiracy. Like you can get your rocks off to Larry or Kaylor or Flo/harry or Ed/taylor fanfic if that’s what gets you there so long as you don’t think it’s actually happening. I don’t even read fanfic personally but compared to porn it seems much more likely to be ethical.

Celebs deal with weird shit and know people fantasize about them in ways/at a scale most of us normies don’t - as you said, the desire, attraction part of fanfic is not weird or wrong. It’s just people being horny which is all well and good but the conspiracies are not.

exactly. RPF gets a really bad name but idk to me it’s a pearl clutchy thing and also often related to (yes often fellow) women shaming each other or being shamed for sexuality. Many people - of all genders - have celeb fantasies that they think about when masturbating or have sex dreams or whatever. Many people look at (not even necessarily explicit) pictures of celebs for titillation or masturbation purposes. How is that that different to writing out a scenario? Would you be that disgusted if a guy wanked to a hot picture of like idk Scarlett Johansson as Black Widow? Or would you just be like “well boys will be boys”?

Now, obviously if you think your lil fantasy is reflective of real life that’s a lot weirder lol or if you start stalking that’s criminal but if you’re just using ur little (or big) imagination, I fully fail to see the problem.

I’m also not saying everything is gonna get everyone off. There are sooo many weird fanfics lmfao (RPF and otherwise fwiw) and I do laugh about that but on the other hand idk man sexuality is weird and if some really weird scenario is hot for u then idk that it’s for me to judge that. I can lol about it but like go ahead and get off if u want.