#re-watching this once again

[i-remember-yyou]

[nuderobotbeach]

I was obsessed with this dragon as a child

Not much has changed since then, I guess?

[shannonsketches]

he's so important to me

[locke-esque-monster]

For all that "Criss Angel is a Douche Bag" is not the best episode of Supernatural, it is an interesting one. The bleak moral implications of the ending aside, the juxtaposition between Sam's and Dean's views is so worth digging into.

Because first you have Sam, who now that he's embraced he's a hunter now, doesn't necessarily want to do this forever. And he's got sort of a idealized version of it, that if he can get the worst of the evil taken out (Lilith) maybe he could go back to a more normal life. It's so John-coded. That they both only enter the life because of a tragedy and revenge, when they were perfectly happy living a regular life prior to that. And once their version of the mission is over, they have this dream they could just settle down and be normal. They're either intensely in the life (no friends, no settling anywhere too long like how John passed onto Sam and Sam onto Goul!Adam in 4x19), or intensely not in the life (Stanford!Sam) and there's literally no middle ground. No flexibility. For all that Sam has shades of gray when it comes to people/monsters, it shows how much he's like John with how how he structures his hunting life. And to a degree, how sheltered he is to think in way compared to Dean.

Because Dean isn't so idealized to think that hunting is something you can stop. He's watched revenge tear John and Sam apart. And while he wants revenge, he internalized that if there's evil to fight and people he could save, then they should be out there, more than John or Sam did. (Maybe because of the hurt he experienced as losing Mary and losing OG John, and he never wants anyone else to go through that.) That it's a fairy tale to think that taking out the big bad means that hunting is over. It's unclear if Sam thinks that taking Lilith down will be such a big blow that hunting won't be as necessary (because they'll be few enough monsters per remaining hunters that they could hunt little to not at all). Or if his personal responsibility to hunting will be over, and other hunters are out there to save people, but that's no longer his problem. But Dean is not so naïve to think that he could fully settle down knowing there's people dying that he could save. Or that he is he stays in the life he's not going to be hands on and reckless (or at least with low enough value of his own life over others) that it won't eventually get him killed (again). It's such disconnect between Sam's optimism and Dean's pessimism towards hunting. And it's interesting in the context of how the rest of the series goes with that mindset in mind, even chipping away at it slightly at times. That Dean tries to settle with a woman that knows about hunting so he can keep her safe openly. While Sam does settle down again with Amelia and treats hunting as an old part of his life he'll never address again, like Jess all over again, but goes back when Dean returns without a tragic revenge story. That Dean is willing to settle down in the bunker, because if you're going to hunt you take the joys in life where you can, nice kitchen, having a room full of creature comforts (also not surprising when Dean had to take his joys where he could get them when he never had the childhood Sam had). And Sam does settle in the bunker, but because his dial is stuck on either a hunting/not hunting setting, he never decorates his room, like he can't quite settle in and accept this is home and permanent.

Now a good ending to SPN would have fully contradicted Dean's statement in this episode about expecting to die young because there's no happy future growing old. And contradicted Sam's dread at ending up old and alone like Jay if he stayed in the life (because you can't tell me blurry wife and Dean jr is all the companionship Sam needs). But that's a whole different "tripping at the finish line" kind of conversation about the finale.

[codes-and-stuffs]

every now and then some new mcyt related poll drops and i go wtf how is [x] winning clearly it should be the other option and then i remember that hermitlife is by far the biggest chunk of mcyt atm </3

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Me: Man, I wish I could write detailed and thoughtful character analysis essays like I used to :(

My brain: *Lighting up with inspiration when seeing a specific exchange between Shadow and Sonic in Prime*

Me:

[jimmyspades]

"The concept of a last stand sounds so heroically romantic, doesn’t it, Donald? But there’s a good reason why we didn’t see what happened to Butch and Sundance. Being riddled by bullets and left to rot under a scorching Bolivian sky does not a sequel make. And if you’ve surmised nothing about me by now, know this—I’m gonna be around for the sequel." THE BLACKLIST 1.09 "Anslo Garrick (No. 16)"

[becauseheartsgetbroken-hs]

harry styles' mind is so beautiful and i think we don't talk about it enough.

[angxliquel]

me when I watched "The Long Run" for the first time

[kakusu-shipping]

He's my favorite idiot.

[chaoswillcalmusdown]

i have a lot of unformed thoughts based off one watch but like. all the little things they mention about the food is like. the opposite of what they should be doing.

getting butter shipped in from out of state ?? buying ingredients for one dish to use in one way ??? idk who taught carm that this is the way to go, but it def wasn't chef terry and it wasn't rene redzepi

[piffany666]

Brain: damn it! Were running low on rizzed out, slightly fruity, pirate men!

Me: shit...we gonna re watch space pirates?

Brain: for the 13th time? I don't think so

Me: :(

Brain: god knows we've watched pirates of the Caribbean too many times

Me: yeah we've beaten that dead horse....we could re watch once upon a time-

Brain: NO! IM NOT GOING BACK THERE

Me: ok well...I here simbad is supposed to be good ...?

Brain: YES! That will satisfy our need for rizzed out, slightly fruity, pirate men AND mildly terrifying goth girls!

Me: it's the perfect combo!

[aspecbuddie]

chris really just spent the ep having meals with various parental figures

[chalkrevelations]

Mm, yoinking this out into its own post so that it shows up in the tags. Re the "rescue in the hotel room" scene from Ep 10 of Dangerous Romance:

Kanghan is so, so terrified here, of what could have happened, and he wants to be tender - god, look at the way he touches Sailom as he begs him to please snap out of it - but he can't, quite, because Sailom's lolling around, practically deadweight, and if you're tender with deadweight, you're just going to drop them. All you can do is manhandle them and hope you both don't end up on the floor - because they will take you down with them - and accept that the bruises you're leaving are the price of keeping them safe from worse outcomes. And meanwhile, puppy's emotional quotient is in the basement right now, and he has no idea how to express his fear except through anger, through pushing back, pushing away, the same instinctive way he pushed that creep back and away and out, and he can't manage to turn on a dime and turn that response off, can't short-circuit it through tenderness, and all that adrenaline is still firing, so he's still pushing back and away, saying the worst things he can think of, even when it's Sailom in the line of fire, now.

And poor Sailom is literally drugged into emotional as well as physical lability, he's like a raw open wound, infected by whatever Kanghan splatters all over him and flinching from the pain of the touch, and in no condition to do his usual work of reading 15 layers of Kanghan to get at the truth that Kanghan, himself, doesn't even understand, because his emotional quotient is in the basement. And Sailom doesn't want to be bought by Kanghan, he's never wanted to be bought, has tried to say again and again that he can't be bought - even the escorting is an exchange of money for services, like the tutoring, but the tutoring wasn't the same thing as wearing Kanghan's jersey, wasn't the same thing as letting Kanghan feed him, as allowing Kanghan to sleep in his bed and hold him, as following Kanghan all the way to Korat and feeding him back. Sailom doesn't want to be bought, but that doesn't mean he doesn't want to belong to Kanghan, to a Kanghan who knows how to take care of his things instead of treating them like disposable, replaceable toys and tossing them away when the situation gets hard - like Sailom was tossed away. And he's filterless now, with the drug in his system, so he actually hits back, hard, where he knows it will hurt the most, like he was hurt when the guy who was supposed to be his protector instead let go of his hand and let him fall. He digs out Kanghan's deepest fear and throws it back in his face.

And then they fall apart, completely shattered, in each other's arms. EVERYBODY LOSES and it's a BEAUTIFUL TEARFUL CATHARTIC DISASTER.

I have to tell you, this kind of tastycrunchy is exactly the content I'm here for. Thank you, Show, for loving me so painfully and so much.

[moonchild-in-blue]

If someone has a spare oxygen tank or something I'd very much appreciate it being sent my way. In about half of a day we will get new Espera footage (and Sleep Token as well I guess 🙄😌 /j) and I. AM. NOT. READY.

[strawberryfaced]

I NEED. TO DO. OR MAKE SOMETHING. PLEASE