#re last post i forgot i never published this

[martyrbat]

for context someone commented theyre appreciative that a youtuber has an epilepsy warning for violently flashing lights & an audio cue for when theyre over

[namikawa]

— [the perfect host]

featuring: s. geto, s. gojo

cw: smut, implied threesome, cunnulingus, implied m/m, phone sex (?), daddy kink (ofc), established relationship (reader & gojo), fingering, fem reader, chubby reader, getting “caught” masturbating, use of the word cunt (sorry lol), aftercare, not proofread fr, anything else i forgot lolz, pet names (mama, baby, pretty, sweetheart, love). wc: n/a.

notes: this is actually a fic my friend wrote (never published) & i re did it with two diff characters & finished it for her cause she never did… so if yall like it GO TO HER BLOG ILL TAG HER. this wasn’t my og idea i just wrote the smut and tweaked & added. but enjoy pls, sorry i haven’t posted in so long life has beat me up. @nvmjccnluv !!!

“so explain to me why i’m watching her again, she seems completely capable of staying in your apartment alone yknow.” suguru questions over the phone. it’s not that he hates you, but what if he was busy? he wasn’t, but gojo didn’t need to know that, he didn’t even ask to be fair. quickly dropping you off after handing the long haired man a small bag of your things.

on the other end of the phone gojo lets out a huff of laughter. “had a few things to finish up, she gets too lonely when i leave her at home so i didn’t want her getting into things. you know how it is.”

“i actually don’t, but okay man.”

“anyway, she doesn’t like many people but she didn’t seem to mind you the last time we hung out, you seemed like a safe option.” gojo continues, sounding a bit strained.

“okay, whatever, fine.”

“where’s she at anyways? if she was with you she would’ve jumped your bones to get to the phone.”

walking toward the the closed door in the hallway, geto chuckles before reassuring his friend. “relax dude, she’s in the room taking a na- holy shit.”

-

“what happened??”

the dark haired man places his ear on the door to make sure he’s not hallucinating, not saying that he’s hoping to be.

muffled moans greet his ears, but not muffled enough evidently. no, you wanted him to hear. he would have to pass by your room anyways, given that you two would be sharing a wall for the night. but him being on the phone with your boyfriend was just a coincidence, an extremely embarrassing one.

he listens to your soft whines and high pitched whimpers for what feels like days, though its hasn’t even been half a minute, paying no mind to the man yelling at him on the phone.

“SUGURU? ANSWER ME! IS SHE OKAY? I SWEAR IF SOMETHING HAPPE-” at this point geto tries to think as hard as possible to come up with a lie that won’t get him killed by his friend.

snapping out of his daze, he finally gets enough courage to respond, “yeah um i’m pretty sure, maybe i’m wrong, i think she’s uh masturbating.”

“oh, oh okay” suguru can basically hear a smirk he knows all to well forming on gojos mouth. “don’t be a rude host, go help her out man.”

what the fuck is he talking about help you out? he can’t be understanding that this is his girlfriend he’s talking about, right? on top of that, shouldn’t he be asking you for consent as well.

“are you insane man? i know you’re into all that weird shit, but her? she’d probably kill me before i even got close to the bed and throw my dead body out of my own apartment.” as nice as it sounds he didn’t know if you’d be okay with any of this. he wasn’t going to just walk straight in, right?

there’s a loud howl that comes directly from the other end of the phone. “are you really being this much of a pussy right now? i’m giving you full permission to go help my girl out, and you wanna whine about how she might kill y-”

“shut the hell up man, i didn’t say anything about being a pussy.”

“alright, then there shouldn’t be an issue with you helping her out. don’t sit up on your high horse and act like you haven’t thought about it before, i know just how those perverted thoughts of yours work, don’t you rememb-”

“okay okay shut up satoru, im going.”

pushing open the door, the first thing geto notices is your hand rubbing lightly between your soft thighs and how your wetness soaks the bed, clear evidence of how needy you were. how long have you been at it?

gojo can hear you so clearly over the phone, he might as well be in the room with you, “shit, is that her pussy i’m hearing? whats it look like?” he questions, but unfortunately for him he receives no answer.

suguru is too busy enjoying the view and listening to the pathetic little sounds coming from your cunt. his sweatpants are slowly starting to fit a little tighter than before, but he doesn’t make any movements yet, just in case you don’t wanna play this little game.

almost immediately your soft eyes flutter open and lock into his, and he swears he just came in his pants.

“sugi, please, it hurts so much,” you whine out to him, desperate for his veiny hands on you. your own hand never seems to falter though, only moving in more erratic circles around your sensitive clit; while your other hand is busy touching your nipples, trying to get the most stimulation possible.

knowing that you were just as needy for him as he was for you made the man’s confidence peak. he gives you a light smile as he walks closer to the bed, softly sitting down next to you. he leans over you a bit, close enough to where you can smell the minty, almost overpowering, scent of his shampoo. half his hair loosely tied up in a bun, the other half falling past his shoulders as he looks down at you.

“something wrong, pretty? those fingers not doing enough for you, right? don’t ‘cha wanna wait for your boyfriend to come back so he can help you out, he’s on the phone you know.”

his soft hands begin to work at your thighs, but it seems like it’ll never be any more than that. continuing for a little longer, he presses the speaker button on his phone, handing it over to you as you pull away from your core.

“can you hear me, sweetheart?” gojo asks, now finally getting some time to speak to you after being ignored for so long. “i gave sugi permission to help you out, okay? does that sound alright to you?” he utilizes the small nickname you’d given his friend, innocently coercing you to be good.

you give a small “mmm” in agreement. then, opening your legs, you grab at suguru’s hand and place it between your thighs, just barely touching your cunt.

gojo continues, smiling to himself on the other side of the device. “‘kay. i’m gonna talk you through it, just so i know you’re treating my girl right. take two of your fingers and stuff it inside of her, she’ll clench up at first but just keep working at it and she’ll open up, okay? maybe if you do good, you can have something too.”

geto lets out an annoyed breath, short, but just long enough for gojo to catch it. he knows what that means. what’s even stopping him from fucking you in first place? it’s not like gojo would know. but as he looks into your pleading eyes he realizes he’d do anything to make sure you’re content and happy.. even if that means listening to satoru’s perverted requests.

his fingers slide down to rub at your clit just a bit, before burying his pointer and ring finger deep into your cunt, you clench so tight around him, it makes him feel like he’s dreaming the way your teeth suck at your bottom lip attempting to hide your whines.

“cmon pretty, open up for me. promise i’ll make you feel good, okay?”

a throaty whimper slides from between your lips as geto’s fingers work you open. “‘s good sugi, please like that more.” you scoot down a little more, chasing his fingers to get even just a little more stimulation.

“next you’re gonna press on her clit, just a little though she’s a sensitive little thing.” gojo groans out, it’s obvious he’s taken a break from his work to focus on… other things.

“yeah yeah, i know how to use my fingers, asshole.” suguru voices, clearly annoyed. although, he still abides by the instructions and moves his thumb to press on your clit just a tiny bit. your back arches away from his fingers almost immediately, like a natural instinct, he grabs your plush hips with his other hand, pulling you back down. “nuh uh, c’mere sweet girl, you wanted my help you’re gonna get it.”

his delicate fingers curve upward into you and you feel as if you’re floating on cloud nine, the way he flicks them at just the right speed while managing to hold you down and deepen his movements. it’s all too much for him you.

the sound of gojo’s voice breaks geto out of his daze, “fuck, i gotta go suguru. i know you’ll take care of her. i’m gonna have to cut this shit short, i’ll try to come back later tonight instead of tomorrow morning. love you guys, love you baby, be good for sugi okay?” geto’s eyes immediately flicker to yours, and you see just a little bit of what you think could be fear, or excitement, in his eyes.

“bye daddy, love you too.” you whine out, hearing a quick click before the call ends.

“daddy?” he questions. “knew he was into some shit, didn’t know you were too, sweet girl. you’re too pretty and innocent, or at least you put up a good act.” his fingers slide out of you as he snickers, not ignoring the way you pout at the loss of stimuli.

“nah, not gonna leave you here all needy don’t worry mama, just gonna do it my way, that sound good to you?” geto grabs you by your hips as you choke out a small “yea”, pushing you closer to the headboard of the bed. he fully removes his hair tie and throws all of it up into a bun, swiftly grabbing your underwear and pulling it off.

you look down at him as he crawls closer to you on his stomach, wrapping his arms around your thighs and closing them around his head. you feel his fingers spread your cunt apart, licking a long stripe onto you. your body tenses up, and on instinct your hand finds its way into suguru’s hair, tugging lightly. his head perks up at you, smiling, but eventually just deciding to leave you be.

his tongue swipes over your clit, taking small breaths occasionally as he tastes your cunt. neither one of you know who this is really for at this point. he’s supposed to be ‘helping you’ but with the tent growing in his sweats he might as well be doing this for his own pleasure instead. you continue to take harsh pulls at his dark strands, so unfamiliar to you. mostly with satoru you opted for scratching at his shoulders or gripping at the sheets due to the length he kept his hair, but this, this was something you could get used to.

“sugi please, m so close, want it so bad, need you to make me cum.” you cry out, loving the way his nose rubs against your clit as he licks.

he doesn’t say anything, he can’t really, but you know he understands. he grips your thighs tighter, licking the same way as before, occasionally sucking at your clit, and before you know it you’re squirming all over his face as that familiar feeling rushes over you.

the only thing that suguru could make out of your cries were “thank you”, “so good”, and “daddy”? he wasn’t sure if you were calling him daddy or if you wanted gojo, but at this point it didn’t really matter to him. he pleased you and that’s all he needed to make him feel better.

as he lifted his head up from your pussy he could already tell how tired you were getting, he immediately grabbed you a change of clothes that gojo had packed and cleaned you up with a wet washcloth. “everything okay, mama? need anything?” your eyes strain open and you smile at the man standing above you, “i’m okay, thank you for your help. will you stay?” you could tell that he genuinely cared for you, and was worried he had done something wrong by the tone in his voice. him staying was more for him rather than yourself, not that you were complaining.

he pulled off his shirt as he crawled into bed next to you. grabbing his phone from the bedside table he saw that gojo had sent him a message.

“i’ll take care of you both when i’m back, cause i’m betting you didn’t take anything for yourself. see you both soon ;)”

suguru chuckled to himself at the message from his friend, looking down at you peacefully sleeping on his chest. maybe he could get used to something like this? but for now, he’s content.

[kykyonthemoon]

Floral Tales • #03

The day Caleb put that ring on Lunaire's hand.

── .✦ This story is a part of my mini-series called "Floral Tales" (Caleb x OC). It's not published in English yet, but I decided to post this piece here to celebrate the couple rings from Caleb in game.

── .✦ Lunaire is my MC/ OC. Her profile will be updated soon as well.

Through the open window, the wind brought the welcome of summer into Elysium Flower Shop. Lunaire was standing by the window, but instead of focusing on arranging flowers into a bouquet, she was staring at her right hand, where a ring was resting on her middle finger, fitting her perfectly.

She moved her hand, tilting it slightly to the left, then to the right. The tiny plane engraved on the ring seemed to be taking flight, gently gliding over the flower bed below with the kiss of the afternoon sun. Lunaire’s mind had been flying as well all day since that morning.

Caleb asked her to meet him at their secret base. He said that he wanted her input on a new aircraft. Lunaire was surprised, not so much by the fact that he wanted to show her his new aircraft (whether it was a model or a real one); it was how nervous he seemed. Having known him most of her life, Lunaire had never seen him so tense; his hands clenched into fists and pressed to his sides as if he were still at the Fleet.

But Lunaire did not ask any questions. She followed Caleb inside the room, which had aged with time and contained many of their shared memories.  It was a safe place they had discovered together so many years ago. He asked her to sit down at the small tea table, where he had carefully selected each flower to set up. 

“Are you okay, Caleb?” she said at last. She touched Caleb’s hand lightly and in secrecy, used her Evol to search for any wounds or discomfort on his body. Knowing that he was fine, she was relieved.

Caleb’s fingers wrapped around hers, in a gentle gesture. He grinned and leaned down until his vision was lower than hers, one knee on the floor. Caleb gave Lunaire’s fingertips tender kisses, then looked up at her. 

“C-Caleb?” Lunaire’s cheeks were as rosy as the flowers that had bloomed that morning.

“You think I’m acting weird, right?” he said. “I’m fine. I just forgot everything I rehearsed saying to you before I came here.”

Lunaire’s eyes widened. What could be so important and secretive?

“So maybe I should stop beating around the bush…”

Caleb lifted Lunaire’s hand, his eyes lingering on her fingers for a long moment. Before she could say anything, the cool touch of metal reached her hand. A sparkling ring had just been slipped onto the middle finger of her right hand.

Caleb’s deep eyes looked at Lunaire, then focused on the ring. He twisted the band gently, until the tiny airplane appeared. He twisted again, and it vanished. Lunaire held her breath as she watched the airplane circle her finger.

At last, Caleb came to a stop. He glanced at her hand with his ring and remarked:

“This plane is called Caleb. It will forever trace its one hidden, unchanging flight path."

Lunaire was not sure how to respond. The emotion and tears blurred her vision. She couldn’t see how all the flowers in the room were blooming in response to her. Yet, she could definitely feel Caleb's dazzling smile, and the little airplane that held the world in her hand.

It was a good thing he let her sit down first; since her legs would fail to stand up at this moment. She quickly wiped away the warm tear that had just rolled down her cheek, but no matter how hard she tried to keep herself calm, all her efforts crumbled as Caleb drew her into his arms.

Lunaire burst into tears, because that was the only way for her myriad emotions to flow out naturally. She could not contain her sincere feelings for him any longer. It was so tremendous, that little Lunaire shivered before it, in his arms.

For countless times, they had expressed their affections to each other, in their own silly ways. They had been together, then fell apart, eventually reunited. None of them could quite name it what it was. This ring appeared to obliterate all the lines that separated them, and it was not until it was on Lunaire's finger that she realized this thing between them was genuine.

“Caleb, you're such a meanie…” She whispered in his ear.

Caleb let her go for a moment, then gently wiped away the tears on her beautiful face with his hands.

“Yeah, I’m a big meanie. I made you cry again. Would you let me make it up to you?"

Caleb rubbed his face on Lunaire’s palm, giving it a gentle kiss. Then he took out a small jewelry box from the pocket of his coat. He opened it.

“Your ring won't be lonely in this world.”

His words referred to the other ring inside the box. But when Lunaire peeked inside, she found nothing but dark velvet. As if she realised something at last, she smiled.

“Of course, but you’re holding it upside down.”

Caleb’s eyes were filled with bewilderment. He looked at the jewelry box and laughed, then adjusted it to its proper position. The ring, made to match Lunaire's, was displayed before her. And she took it out of the box.

“You’re a meanie and a dummy…” Lunaire grasped his hand. “I have to hold on to you tight, or else you’ll wander off somewhere…”

Lunaire held her breath as she slipped the ring onto Caleb’s finger. His gaze never left her face during that moment. Gently, he turned her hand so that it rested on his own, then kissed the ring there.

“No matter where this plane, Caleb, soars, Lu’s fingers will always be its harbor.”

The plane in Caleb’s hand was pointing towards the other one in Lunaire’s. They reunited, and would never be apart again.

Summer had just begun, and so had their new journey.

[houseofbrat]

I saw on reddit (forgot to take screenshot) that there are rumours of Cathy is selling her old clothes/jewelry for money or loan them out to her mother/sister. I wonder whether you have heard of this? It made notice that at the Knights Garter Ceremony she was re-wearing the dress, heels and pearl earrings and necklace from VE day event a month ago. She also seemed to be wearing the same Bahrain pearl drop earrings over and over again. Then, there is the big blue which is only to be seen on “approved” occasions, as you have pointed out in this blog. Thoughts??

I think those people on reddit are just trying to rationalize the very obvious change in how Kate has been dressing in public for the first six months of the year. BIG BLUE seems to be a slightly different issue as Kate tried to go without wearing it, but too many articles got published about its absence. Hence, she's worn it in most of her last five outings.

Rewind to the beginning of the year, Kate had a new (previously unseen) handbag in late January when she went shopping. She had no problem getting papped with an expensive handbag. She still has plenty of expensive stuff that we've never seen.

Kate decided to change the way she was going to dress in public after people like me started to refer to her as The UK's Marie Antoinette. I started that on Kate's 43rd birthday after all the insipid articles tiptoeing around Kate's reclusiveness. Then cue all the other people online who make snarky comments about Kate when it's not a designated hater zone.

Kate did her first public appearance on 14 January, with a new handbag and a bespoke blazer. She then dressed like the new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher at Hogwarts on 04 February and avoided having a new handbag.

Then on 07 February, Jan Moir of the Daily Mail tried to pin the "Marie Antoinette" label on Meghan. I have NO DOUBT that the headline for that column was inspired by me referring to Kate as THE UK'S MARIE ANTOINETTE multiple times in the previous weeks. Plus an article in the Daily Mail regarding Kate "get[ting] value for money from her wardrobe" on 08 February. That was also clapback about Kate's alleged frugality around clothes and accessories.

Then we had Kate repeating that bespoke blazer from 14 January a few weeks later on 11 February. That happened around the same time that KP was telling the press that they will no longer release Kate's outfit details.

Yeah, the Kensington Palace comms team--and whatever PR agency or agencies they contract out with--reads my blog and probably a bunch of other blogs & forums to measure what it is they're up against in the realm of public opinion. (That pinned post at the top of my blog isn't the deterrent for the KP comms team that so many people like to think it is.)

I started suspecting "they" read my blog back in January, when Kate was making lovey dovey comments about "her port" to a person actually getting a chemo infusion at The Royal Marsden. I harped on about Kate's port placement a couple of times last year, which is why the "cancer" timeline that came out of Kensington Palace last March has never made sense.

So guess what? Kate rewearing a bunch of her old clothes is a PR strategy. THE KP TITANIC knows the shit is going to hit the fan and when it does they need to have mitigated Kate's reputation to reduce the flames as much as they can. Having Kate wear the same ensemble to the 80th VE Day concert and the Order of the Garter ceremony is part of the plan.

Mitigation.

They're not getting ahead of their bad facts publicly. They're waiting for it to hit first. But before those bad facts come to light, they're trying to reduce all of their potential PR problems in advance. It's a similar plan with William and all their constant reminding people via multiple outlets that William is going to be the bestest king EVAH! The clothing-repeats strategy isn't as off-putting as William's all-talk-no-action fantasy of being the bestest king EVAH!

The people on reddit don't know or understand that THE KP TITANIC and Will & Kate have been prepping for their Hindenburg-level, public relations disaster for months. Jason Knauf's interview on 60 Minutes Australia didn't schedule itself!

Oh, and for THE KP TITANIC's comms team and whatever PR agencies they've hired to read through my blog? I have some words for you:

[conartisthaiji]

20 Questions For Fic Writers

thanks for tagging me @reineyday! (sorry it's late i almost forgot to post lmao)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

94! my goal is to hit 100 works on ao3 this year

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

343,335 total!

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

5. i never get bored looking at you (because every time i see something new) (bokuaka)

4. i'm in your bed, why are you in your twitch chat? (kuroken)

3. all's well that ends well to end up with you (scarian shotgun wedding au)

2. scar's magical emporium for lost grians (scarian but like normal)

how to get over heartbreak (hq captains road trip au)

4. What fandoms do you write for?

a lot! my current top five fandoms on ao3 are haikyuu, traffic (third life/last life etc) series, dream smp, danganronpa, and assassination classroom. these days i've been writing yellowjackets fic

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

almost always! they make me happy and i like being able to ramble about my thought processes. occasionally i get a comment that makes me go "???" though...those ones i'll ignore

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

paved with good intentions (lottielee angel/demon au) probably has the most tragic ending...also need something newer than new (karlnapity) is pretty fucking sad at the end

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

that's a hard one cuz i typically write fluff...most of my haikyuu and the popular life series fics have happy endings though

8. Do you get hate on fics?

nope! and let's pray it stays that way

9. Do you write smut?

once

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

not anymore, but my first fandom was the whole frozen/rotg/tangled/brave/httyd shebang so

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

as far as i know, nope! fingers crossed it stays that way too

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

yes! me and @huiplash worked on an omega x fic together but we never finished it :,) rip

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

this is really really hard but...probably bokuaka

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

recently i was going through my wips and "oikawa and the quest for suga's number (aka krsn and the who the fuck is mr refreshing dilemma)" is probably never ever getting finished which really sucks because i re-read it and it made me laugh. i posted some of it on runayachi here though

16. What are your writing strengths?

i write good dialogue i think!

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

it's hard for me to stick with one project and see it though...i write a lot of one-shots because those are easiest for me to actually finish lmao. and i can't really write anything longer than 5k! that's about the point where i start losing interest in writing the story T_T

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

i think...it depends. because honestly some authors do it so so badly and some do it really well. sometimes it feels natural and sometimes it doesn't. i'm not inherently against it though

19. First fandom you wrote for?

first ever fandom was frozen, but on ao3 the first thing i ever published was actually for toradora! just a fun fact for u

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

you're getting the top three: and i'll never go home again (oikita), the pissever hs yuri au (technically it's three fics, but it counts as one. also. it's exactly what it sounds like), and paved with good intentions (lottielee).

tagging @luminouschaotic @verytendou @ghostpot and anyone else who wants to! no pressure to do this ofc <3

[wings-of-ink]

First Devlog?

Hello everyone...boy, there are a lot of you already, still trying to digest that...

So, I gather that I should do these logs on occasion. I do not know how often, perhaps just when I have a few things to say. I will try not to ramble too much, but my fingies like to talk.

Anyway, I am working on chapter 3 right now. There’s some fun moments so far in it that I hope you’ll like, and we’ll get to meet Zahn, Duri'naan, and then Rundis. I’m trying not to rush because there are some exciting scenes that I’m eager to get to. I’ve outlined them to tide myself over until I get that far. There’s some quiet moments you’ll get to have as well, and right now I feel like that’s what I’m struggling with. Those areas of my story are like bridges to the next, more exciting, parts and sometimes I feel like they fall a little flat. But, I’m trying to keep in mind this is my first draft. I’ll go through it another time or two to perk things up. Those moments are still important for letting the MC get to know each RO.

My mind has been in a million directions lately too, and I’ve had a lot of ‘duh’ moments. I’ve done so much world building since I started this last year (around August/September I think), that I have pockets of important details that I kinda just forgot! So, I plan to re-read all the notes I’ve made and try to also put them into one place. I have some in my phone, in a notebook, and in no less than three folders on my laptop. It’s a wonder I have survived this many years…

What you can expect for coming updates…

-A couple fixes, of course – thank you to those who found some of those pesky buggy bois for me.

-A nicer front page, instead of being slapped with my ramblings, I’d like to actually have a nice start page. I’ll figure it out eventually, lol.

-I’ll be adding a name bank to the MC’s Nameday scene that will also show you what each name means, so if that is important to you, it’ll save you the internet search. If it tickles your fancy, the name selection will correspond in some way to the marks (names meaning "night" or "storm," etc.) so you can theme your MC a bit.

-Extra coding in case you decide to shorten MC’s given name to just “Ravi.” I did not once consider that anyone would do this, and my first play-tester – my own spouse – did….He told me about it since it made some dialog with Oswin make zero sense, and then I published the story without fixing it because I completely forgot about it.

-Different contrast color for dark mode links. I feel like I have drastically improved this with a new gold color. In retrospect, I don’t know why I didn’t use the gold before. I love it as an accent, I use it all over! The blue never felt 100% right, but my brain shut down after thinking about it too long. Here’s a sample and a (M) Zahn tease:

When can you expect an update?

I’d like to make my next update during the Amare Games Festival, ideally containing both chapters 3 and 4 since they go pretty tightly together. This will also insure that you meet the rest of the posse. It’s a tall order for both chapters to be submitted on time, and I don’t want to rush them either, but I’m going to try really really hard, lol. I will focus first on polishing chapter 3, so that no matter what, I can at least get it out in time.

Here’s a link to the post about it:

And this is the submission time frame: open from March 31st 2024 at 11:00 PM to May 1st 2024 at 12:00 AM

As a side message, should you want to read on…

I also wanted to give you all a big, like really big, heartfelt thank you. I have received so many kind messages and comments that I just can’t believe it. I am so happy (and honestly, genuinely shocked) that you’re enjoying my IF, and I’m motivated to work hard so you also enjoy each new chapter of your journey. There’s so many secrets I want to share with you about the world, and I am struggling to be patient myself, lol.

I am not usually a very open or social person, and I was scared for a long time to share anything I wrote. I reached a point in my personal life in the last few years where I just needed to embrace what I loved to do and share it with a community that shares in that love. I encourage you to do the same whether there is a story in your heart, music on your lips, or a paintbrush in your hands. Life is NOT about your 8-5. We may not be able to survive without it, but whatever moment you can, do what you actually love. Put away the those things that don’t matter, the things that stress you - including people, and make time for who you are.

Thank you all and take care!

~Lunan

[annabelle1901]

Lost Frank Castle x Karen Page fic

Hi! So I don't really interact with anyone on Tumblr but I don't really know what else to do, so here we go. I'm back on my Kastle bullshit <3 and I've been trying to find this old fan fiction on AO3 that I started reading years ago. Stopped reading after a certain point but had the tab open on my phone and I thought I'd continue reading eventually.. And then my phone got stolen, and I forgot the title & author name. Not great. I've dedicated the past few days to looking for it and so far I got nothing.

So what I'm gonna do is write down everything I remember like a mad woman in the hope that this jogs someones memory. Please help me this fic haunts me. ANY sort of reference or whatever could potentially help (Tumblr posts, links, screenshots, Google history, etc)

Fandom: Daredevil/ the Punisher obv

Pairing: Frank Castle/ Karen Page

Rating: probably explicit (canon typical violence and eventual smut)

Published: 2016-2017 (started post s2 Daredevil but pre The Punisher s1 because I don't remember any of the plot or characters from that show showing up) might have been deleted in 2020ish

Length: has to be +10 chapters (long chapters as well, don't know if it was finished)

Characters: Matt Murdock/ Daredevil, Foggy Nelson, Claire Temple, Elektra Natchios (I vividly remember them making some sort of appearance)

now let's get really unhinged...

Plot:

Pretty sure the story starts on Karen's birthday but her mood is meh.. She's on her way home or something, gets in her car and Shining Star starts playing which let's her know that Frank was recently there. Something else must have alarmed her because she goes looking for him and finds him in like an alley around her building. He's in really bad shape, bloody practically dying. She carries him to her apartment and either helps him herself or calls Claire Temple.*

*Don't think it was in this part of the story but she helps Frank and makes a joke about him not being healthy enough to be sleeping with Karen anytime soon which makes them blush. Don't think they were intimate yet but tensions were rising.

For the next couple of chapters I remember it was mainly beautifully written angst between them in this contained space while he's healing. Karen doesn't want Frank to get killed while being the Punisher, he resists her care and tries to hurt her by saying "You aren't Maria and could never be" or something.

I also vividly remember a scene where he's grieving and keeps like tugging on this necklace Karen has on while he cries in her arms. She leaves her necklace at his family's graves and the groundskeeper or something tells her not to do that because it'll get stolen but she knows that but does it anyway as a sign of respect.

They sort admit their feelings eventually but don't sleep together yet because they know they can't go back after that. For some reason Frank needs to leave the city for a little while to re-home a dog I believe he found while on a "mission" and the idea is that the time apart will help them decide whether or not they want to be together. They reunite on a sunny, lovely day in the city and go back to her apartment and lots of smut ensues. Daredevil shows up at midnight/ morning to get Frank. Something's going down he needs his help. It doesn't end well somehow Karen gets involved and they both go to the same hospital. Frank is in a coma and Karen visits him when she's allowed and urges him to live sort of mirroring when he first got shot in the head at the carousel. He wakes up but needs to go back to prison. Everything is really bad. The press somehow knows about their relationship as well. Last scene I remember is Karen and Foggy talking about all this and a newspaper printing a picture of Karen's legs with the caption Keys to the Castle? or something. Gross everything sucks and that's where I stopped reading.

So that's about all I can remember, feels like a fever dream. If anyone could help me out I'd really appreciate it. Thx!!

[girl-bateman]

I was tagged by @fre3zerbride @myheartisahouseonfire @choicesthot @godspetdog for the nine people you wanna know better thingy! Thank you guys for tagging me and sorry for taking forever to do this lmaoo. Much love xxx

There was some slight variations in the different posts I was tagged in so to make this one a single post instead of 4, I made sure all questions were included. Hope that was oki <33

Last Song: PRIDE. - Kendrick Lamar

Favourite Colour: Turquoise maybe? Like a very pale, light turquoise.

Last Movie: Happy Ending - An awful romantic comedy about a dutch couple on their thruple-journey. The guy cant communicate and the girl cant orgasm and thus she convinces her boyfriend to try out a threesome. It's the straightest movie I've watched and yet it manages to have several puss-eating scenes. Netflix never ceases to disappoint me, godbless.

Last TV Show: I'm (re)watching The Mentalist in the background as I'm writing this lmao. I'm also watching Outer Banks, Suits, Dark and Drag Race Holland.

Sweet/Spicy/Savoury: All of it, preferably in some sort of combo.

Relationship Staus: Single

Last Thing I Googled: "word for when you love inflicting pain" ; I forgot which one is sadism and which one is masochism.

Current Obsession: No idea honestly. Love and peace on planet earth? Self improvement? Accomplishing my dreams? The art of girlbossing perhaps ?

Looking Forward To: Traveling to India and (possibly) the US this spring and going to study for a semester in the Netherlands this fall !! <33 Also getting to read my own words printed !!! in a real magazine !!! Being a published author !!!

Currently reading: The God of Small Things (audiobook), The Shards (I recently got it signed <33!) and My Sister's Keeper (found it at the thrift and died of happiness)

Song stuck in head: Hey Ya! - Outcast

Favourite food: Ohhh there is too much good stuff to choose from. Maybe ramen, sushi or the vegetarian feijoada my mom makes <3

Dream trip: Solo-trip to Florence <3 I'd spend each day sitting at different cafes writing :)

Im tagging: @emmenai-kalliston, @infinite-of-sky, @matineaux, @nightmimedreams, @realbeefman, @olliecoded, @emiliosandozsequence  and anyone else who feels up for it <333

[akajustmerry]

this post is for people who have been following me for like. 7+ years from back in my fic writing days? anyway, last night i had the sads so bad i couldn't sleep so to distract myself from Being Silly i re-read my unfinished (bbc) sherlock holmes fanfic on Ao3 because i've been scared to do that for a long time and my gawd i am so sorry that i left ppl hanging with that!! but if it makes anyone feel better: the psychotic break i had a few weeks after publishing the last chapter back in 2015 was so bad that i also forgot where i was going with it. which is why i never finished. even re-reading it YEARS later i can only rlly rmr what i wanted the last scene to be and i cannot rmr how i was getting there. anyway, it was kinda fun reading it just as a reader like "ooooh wow whats goin on!!!" and also lowkey proud of how much my writing style has improved. i feel like even if i miraculously remembered what was going to happen in that fic, i'd pick it back up and my writing style would be drastically different. but yeah...idk what i wanna say here i guess i am just sad in a way that i can't finish that story because i know i really wanted to and it meant a lot to me at some point and having holes in your memory is so scary. least of all because you can't remember your own damn story </3

[idontwanttospoiltheparty]

Hi I’m sorry to bug you (pun intended) but do you mind explaining everything you listed in the 2023 tumblr bug poll. I’ve been here all year but I don’t think I understand all of the options. You have been really fun to follow this year I appreciate your presence in our community :)

thank you Anon 1 that is very kind of you to say!!!! :)

All right, buckle up folks:

Get Back day-by-day re-watch (January): In January some people on decided to rewatch the bits of Get Back from that specific date, some also went through the nagra tapes of that day. They'd make cool compilation posts with moments that stuck out to them. I just remembered it was actually called Get Backuary :) I didn't really participate though because January is a busy time for me, in general.

Beatles poll wars (around February-April): once the poll feature reached bug tumblr we started having a LOT of polls and it caused a not insignificant amount of discourse and accusations of "bootlicking" or whatever lol. Interestingly, we discovered that Paul and George have roughly the same amount of fans (taking ~35% each) and John and Ringo also have about the same amount of and only about half as many fans (~15% each).

McLennon Conspiracy Blogger Disappearance Event (April): I explained this here, though I forgot to mention that in mid-April this blogger went scorched earth and dropped off tumblr completely. One time they made a post insinuating that no one's ever bothered wondering why John was depressed in 65/66 (and implied it was because THEY knew McLennon had broken up for a while or something)… Sir, this is the John Lennon Psychoanalysis Website.

Eyes of the Storm (June): Paul published a book and held an exhibition at the National Portrait Gallery featuring tons of never before seen pictures from late 1963 to early 1964. Very fun time though people randomly claimed the majority of the pics were John when that wasn't really true lol there was just a general bias in which pictures from the gallery got shared.

Now And Then announcement + initial discourse (June): in a radio interview to promote said gallery, Paul offhand mentioned he had used Peter Jackson's AI technology to isolate John's vocal and "the last Beatles song" would be released later this year. There was a first wave of discourse from people thinking Paul was gonna use an AI-generated John vocal, rather than use AI to isolate an existing vocal (this was so frustrating because it was so clear in context what Paul meant but online news just ran with it). Then, there was a second wave of discourse (which was revived upon the songs release) over the extent of George's involvement and how much he would have wanted this.

Beatles song tournament (July–August): A sideblog was created to do a Beatles song poll battle. It got a bit intense lol. Everyone started hatejerking about Hey Jude beating A Day In The Life in the semi-finals.

Top Worm™ (August): Literally One Of The Greatest Moments On This Site. Also, let no one tell you John wasn't Top Worm. It is law.

Now And Then song + video (November): think this one's self-explanatory but basically Now And Then came out, we all reacted to it, the video came out the next day and was kinda hilariously bad but in the funniest way possible, George Discourse Part 2 and also How Much Is Paul Allowed To Change John's Song Discourse which I found puzzling lol. Someone said him removing a verse was "Paul Rewriting History". fantastic. no notes. what a time to be alive.

[magicalmischel]

Hiiii!! For the WIP game: please tell me about Layers of Dusk and also obviously Suddenly Flames Everywhere 👀👀 And also the trans!Merlin fic if you're up for it because I know you've been working on that one lately and I'm VERY curious about it 👀👀👀😘

hiiii! 💖 thanks for asking about all of them!! 😂💖 I'll give you the summaries and snippets!

Layers of Dusk

this one is so "old" that I even made a fic cover for it to post on fanfiction.net but obviously that never happened 😂 also my draft included very bad fanart so maybe when i get back to this wip I could make better art now that I have more practice <3

summary:

Desperate times call for desperate measures. Arthur is dying and Merlin is left with no choice but to take his soul into his body and hope that they both last long enough to perform a necromancy spell. This requires sacrifices, and Merlin will have to learn that sometimes, going too far is not worth it.

I remember I stopped bc I got stuck on a scene with Gaius (or was it Gwen??) one day and I just never continued. I also wasn't sure about the fic's message, bc I felt like it should have a sad ending so that Merlin learns a lesson but also at the same time I really wanted to write a happy ending and I just didn't know what to do basically 😂

snippet:

“O drakon! E male so ftengometta! Tesd’hup’anankes!” The words echo through the silent woods and through Merlin’s mind like a steady, painful reminder of what had happened. He keeps holding onto Arthur -- both his body and his consciousness -- and he finds himself almost unaware of his surroundings, as if trapped in a daze of realization that he was indeed holding Arthur’s dead body. He didn’t dare look down at him. He couldn’t. But he took Arthur’s hand and entwined their fingers, willing himself to believe that the dragon would have a solution. Something difficult, no doubt, but very possible that would fix all this. Merlin didn’t care about the consequences. Oh god. Oh. Arthur’s hand was cold.

oh look a classic case of switching tenses halfway through a scene lmao

Suddenly Flames Everywhere

ajksfljals this fic 😭 the idea was born in summer of 2022, and I wrote the first scene then. Then it lay forgotten until I picked it up for acbb 2023 and I spent the entire summer working on it every single day, I wrote the first draft in a month, then started rewriting the whole thing and that's where I got stuck ;-; I'm "working" now on scene 18 out of 33, so I'm around in the middle of it.

summary:

It all starts with a deal. Arthur will capture the last of the dragons, and in exchange, Uther will give him more time to search for his soulmate. He won’t have to marry princess Elena when she arrives in a few days. Little does Arthur know that the dragon he shoots down is actually a young dragon-man called Merlin, and more importantly — his soulmate. It only gets more complicated from there.

and a snippet:

Only it wasn’t a dragon at all. It looked like a man. Arthur’s eyes widened, his grip on the crossbow faltering. The creature had two large, featherless, dark grey wings, and a long tail. No doubt that it wasn’t human. But it also had a human head. And human hair. Human legs, arms, even human clothes. “That’s no dragon,” he hissed. “It’s Dragonfolk,” Sir Kay whispered back, his crossbow still aimed firmly upwards. “They serve the dragons. Live like animals in small groups. Just as dangerous as the foul beasts themselves, I assure you.”

trans!merlin fic

yep this is the one I'm working on now 💖 Honestly it wasn't going to be published at first, I just had a dream where I was trans!merlin three months ago and woke up inspired and bc I was in the middle of a writer's block, I was very excited about it and wrote the whole first draft in one day. Then I forgot about it for several weeks, then I edited it, hated it, left it alone again, and I re-edited it about three weeks ago and decided I should maybe try to post it, so I reached out and found a few sensitivity readers who gave me some notes and now I'm adding scenes and editing the whole thing again 💖

it doesn't really have a big plot or anything unlike my other wips, the summary basically is just this:

In the medieval world where there are no lgbt resources or language to talk about lgbt topics, this fic depicts Merlin’s journey from realising he’s trans, to coming out to Arthur, and transitioning with the help of magic.

not gonna provide a snippet for this one just yet, but hopefully it should be posted within like . . . a month or two? Depending on how much I procrastinate lmao

thanks so much for asking again! 🥰 and sorry for replying with so much text, you know I talk a lot 😂

[illegalmushrooms]

shrooooms, the kids miss uu where art thou 😭

... hey!

(incoming yap session, beware)

This is a little awkward. I haven't touched my Tumblr in like, apparently three years. There's some questions in my inbox, but they're so old it feels a bit strange to answer them now, right? 😭

Anyway. It's nice to see you! Whoever you may be! (Are the kids OK?)

Last week, for god knows what reason, I re-donned my mushroom hat (humor me for a moment and imagine a Mario Toad-style monstrosity) and published a new (old) chapter of Don't Leave! (y'all remember that? Does anyone reading this right now remember or know who I am??).

Laying off the parentheses now--I explained in the chapter a bit of the future of the story and what was happening with me. Oh my gosh, is that a conveniently-placed link to the chapter down below?

As I mentioned somewhere in that conveniently-placed link, I'm mostly fine, and there's nothing else I have written for Don't Leave! so far.

Well...

Okay, so that's a complete and utter lie. I do have something written. But I'm afraid it's not very useful.

I actually wrote... a complete, very dramatic ending to the story. It's an interesting ending, to say the least, but of course, the story is nowhere near that point. I'd have to write another thirty-forty-who knows more chapters or something to even reach this supposed ending, and by then I might not even like the idea I have there.

I guess that's not relevant. I suppose the point I'm trying to make is that I never, ever, forgot about Don't Leave! I've thought about it a lot, even when I haven't been writing a single word. I've been reading every comment and message I received across the different platforms, and you know, smiling stupidly at my phone every time. I've totally missed the world of fanfiction! I've missed Bella, the ridiculous character I conjured up within the depths of pandemic-era isolation! I've missed sitting down at my laptop and tap-tapping away and sinking into this wonderful world Togashi made!

So here's what I'm going to say about the story. (This post just gets longer and longer, doesn't it? Sorry!)

As of right now, there is no next chapter.

I can't say when there might be a next chapter.

I can say that maybe, life-permitting, I'll post something in the fall, if I can squeeze in some time to rewatch HxH. I've just... forgotten a lot of the go story's intricacies that an author has to keep in mind to write a comprehensible fic.

That's what I have to say about Don't Leave! .

(and, to anyone who might be thinking of those other fics I wrote, which I highly doubt anyone is... I actually have a few chapters of them simmering in my docs somewhere. But I'm a bit embarrassed about it, so let's consider them dead for the moment, alright?)

Now that I've cleared that up, and some of my conscience along with it, I suppose I'll drop in a tiny life update for any curious souls. I've never disclosed much about myself and I'd like to consider myself awful cool and mysterious, but can I speed run certain vague life events from my past three years?

I... survived a car crash, travelled to new countries and places, moved, wrote a ton (fanfic and general fiction, all of it kind of ass), survived a fire, worked and toiled to the capitalist machine, had a couple mental breakdowns, conquered the mental health, lost it again, conquered again...

...and so on...

What's next for me?

I am hesitant of publishing anything else at the moment. I have a lot of fics I'd written just sitting in my files; everything from miscellaneous anime stuff to Harry Potter to this one reallllly odd story about isekai-ing into Minecraft, of all things. (I actually kind of like that one. Don't know if there's an audience for that kind of thing, though). My writing has absolutely improved since those admittedly rough early chapters of DL (I am ASTOUNDED it ever gained the little audience that it did) but there's still an anxiety I have about sharing my work. Silly, yes, but that's that.

For right now, I have the new DL chapter, I have this long-ass update post, and I have my genuine appreciation.

Much love to anyone who might still care. <3

Until next time?

Illegal Mushrooms

[addictedtostorytelling]

Okay…that may just be one of my favorite chapters of “An Opposite of Echoes” to date - the sweet conversation between Sara & Grissom in the car, Sara’s conversation with Greg, and poor Grissom - I forgot he had the budget report to do too.

But now I’m suddenly becoming very aware that this series is just getting started as Sara mentions when her next therapy appointment is & when the ultrasound is (and the ever present hint about twins…in my mind I’ve already decided - she’s having twins).

I know you’re a busy person, but tell me that next installment in the Accidents universe isn’t going to be a year away once this story wraps to…please?

hi, @chelsshearman!

aw, shucks! i'm glad you enjoyed this week's installment so much! after putting sara through the ringer in the previous chapter, i thought it would only be fair to give her some quality time with her boys so she could recuperate a bit in this one.

though grissom definitely doesn't get the same kind of reprieve, poor guy! 😂

i'm happy to know you liked reading those conversations. i always have fun getting to "peel back the curtain" and show some of the between-the-action interpersonal moments with the team we so seldom get to see in canon.

it's wild to think there are only three updates left to go before this fic is completely posted—literally just a few more hours' worth of time within the universe of the story!

i will tease: the next chapter contains a couple of my personal favorite scenes, and i'm excited to share them with you and hear your thoughts, if you care to tell them.

as for when you might expect the next installment of the accidentsverse once "an opposite of echoes" wraps up, i honestly can't promise anything in terms of a timeline.

i have three to four more multichapter fics (tentatively) planned to span the rest of the pregnancy and the baby's or babies' birth. the first one would cover the events of christmas and its aftermath (i.e., the next few weeks in the story world immediately after "an opposite of echoes"), including the skype call with betty, sara's therapy appointment, and the 8-week ultrasound. the next one (or two, depending on how i ultimately split things) would cover some major events later in the pregnancy, and the last one would bring us through to the delivery day and the first little while postpartum.

though i know what these stories will cover content-wise, i can't tell you when to expect them.

i am a notoriously slow writer for a variety of reasons both process- and circumstance-related, and i learned long ago that whenever i try to predict when i'll be ready to publish something, i inevitably end up being wrong (and, unfortunately, never in a good "oh! i finished this story much sooner than anticipated!" kind of way).

i do intend to devote myself to "something in you i believe in" for the foreseeable future after "an opposite of echoes," and that fic will be my priority until it's completed, so i'm not likely to publish another big accidentsverse multichapter fic any time soon.

of course, since the accidentsverse is my happy place and still very much where i am currently living in my imagination, i'll say: though i can't state exactly when it might happen, since i always have little scenes and vignettes from this 'verse playing through my mind, there is a good chance i'll end up posting some fill-in-the-gaps-between-the-big-planned-multichapter-fics one-shots sometime before 2024 is out!

i just can't stay away from this geeky little family for long!

anyway, in the meantime, i hope you enjoy the end of the story. thank you so much for reading and for taking the time to share your thoughts and encouragement! 💙

p.s., re: the possibility it's twins: we'll have to see. sara will definitely be holding her breath until that ultrasound, for sure!

[again-please]

writing pattern game

Rules: Share the first line of your last ten published works or as many as you are able and see if there are any patterns! (from most recent to least recent, starting from the top)

@septemberskye tagged me in this! fun!! exposing a lot of my abandoned story shame here lol BUT we are accepting our flaws in this chili's tonight. I haven't revisited some of these older ones in a looooong time so it's kind of nice to blow the dust off of them and take a peek!

Dancing With My Demons (Baldur's Gate 3, posted, WIP)

He’d meant only to get her out of his system, at first.

A Little Further (Baldur's Gate 3, posted, complete)

It starts the next morning, after it all comes out in the light of a new day: a vampire in their midst.

survival season (Star Wars: The Last Jedi [reylo], posted, unfinished probably forever sorry the last movie really took the wind out of my sails)

Rey disembarks to find a planet in autumn.

find a thread to pull, and we can watch it unravel (Star Wars: The Force Awakens [reylo], posted, complete)

Forty-eight hours.

Ego Eris (Star Wars: The Force Awakens [reylo], posted, unfinished yeah sorry really don't bother with this one unless you want to be mad at me lmao)

As always, no day in the desert is complete without a poorly disguised scam.

and since my ao3 is just barely scraping 5, a little bonus throwback of one on ff.net that I straight up forgot existed until I resurrected this blog:

Connections (Star Wars: The Force Awakens [reylo], posted, unfinished?? I guess?? I think I intended to write more but this was more of a dual character study so it's a little less obviously unfinished than the others lol)

What most people don't realize is just how subjective memory actually is.

Patterns:

I don't know, honestly! for the most part the thing these most have in common to my eye is an attempt at a hook - lines that are meant to be like "wait WHAT is happening?" without quite being in media res. I also like starting inside a character's head since exploring the inner voice is usually mostly what gets me writing in the first place (plots?? never heard of them. we are here to brood and get slammed down big style). first lines usually kind of pop into my head fully formed out of nowhere and then once I excitedly deposit them into a document I'm like "oh shit now I have to think of some other shit to go below this"

oh gosh who to tag when you're an antisocial hermit... @howlsmovinglibrary, @novarunestone, and @eelqueen if you want! and also YOU also if you would like to!

[loveution]

OMG I GET WHAT YOU MEAN I WASN'T EVEN ON TUMBLR BUT I USED TO KEEPING SEARCHING FOR UPDATES (IT WAS THE TIME WHEN I DIDN'T HAVE MY OWN EMAIL ID SO I LURKED PN TJE KOTLC AND SGE TAGS)

omg so true boiling point! is amazing, my favourites were burn and the never!tedros au

the fic you're talking about seems to be recent so I'll get to it when I reach the year 2025 on the tag🫡 the reason I'm still stuck on 2020/21 is because of this 4 part fic which is a rewrite of sge if agatha was raised by vanessa and it's soo good, it is also very long! each part has 60k+ words lol, here's the link:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/35487289/chapters/88459267

this one is soo sad :(

https://archiveofourown.org/works/37427635

not so sad one!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/23272183

I'll make a bigger list with more recs and then send it to you after posting your gift!

I haven't heard of those books but you're so real for being attached to them because you read it when you were 14

OH MY GOD YOU'VE READ LAND OF STORIES AS WELL???? THAT SERIES WAS ONE OF MY FAVOURITES BACK IN TJE LOCKDOWN AND I STILL RE READ IT ALL TJE TIME (along with a bunch of riordanverse books) some of my favourite books are six of crows, anything by jennifer lynn barnes and holly jackson, and then there were none by agatha christie, and the seven husbands of evelyn hugo

ofc pjo, kotlc, sge, tlos as well but those are more of childhood favourites from when I was 12 lol. does it count as childhood though, I think it's more adolescent favourites? because my real childhood favourites are enid blyton books

wait idk what to ask you today I was more focused on the sge fics thing💀

nvm thought of one. what are your favourite colours?

ily too you're so sweet <33 bye💖💖

THATS SO REAL LMAOOOO I MADE MY ACCOUNT LITERALLY JUST TO TALK ABT SGE. I READ KOTLC I THINK DECEMBER OF '22 SOOO IT WAS MOSTLY JUST FOR SGE

omg i was obsessed w both of those ive read them all thrice at least omg never!tedros fic awakened something in me, i think tedros joined my list of favourite characters when i read it for the first time. and BURN oh my god !!! i was obsessed w them in that fic. and yea the fic im talking abt HAS been updated in 2025 but the author actually published it in like 2021??? and wrote seven chaoters and then went on hiatus for three years and has returned to feed us the ending. im soo in love w that fic.

thank u for these links i will be treating myself to these fics once my term tests are over so in like,, 4 weeks?? and omg that does sound interesting as fuck, the fic im talking abt is a rewrite if callis raised agatha in bloodbrook instead of beyond the woods. and UGSJSBDKF youre the absolute best ilyy

i wasnt even fourteen 💔 i was only 12 these made me sob at the back of my class i had to go hunting for the titles last year after i was hit w INTENSE nostalgia for somehow the worst time in my life

ANDKANDKS OH MY GOD YOURE JUST LIKE ME FR. I READ IT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN LIKE???? PRIMARY 2?? MY SISTER HAD BORROWED THE FIRST BOOK FROM HER SCHOOL LIBRARY wait ill stop talking in caps. she needed to return them the day i was on like the LAST chapter so i made her wait at the door of our house while i finished it and then gave it to her. i was doing a reread in 2023 and liveposted it but i forgot all abt it i think i tagged it #ez rereads land of stories or smth idk

i LOVE holly jackson (actually ive only read the agggtm series + the prequel soo..) and is jennifer lynn barnes the inheritance games author? agatha christie is so real ive read murder on the orient express and it was so banger. AND SEVEN HUSBANDS OH MY GOD OBSESSED. anon i cant wait for valentines day i need to know your identity ASAPPPPP

CHILDHOOD ENID BLYTON IS SOOOO REAL i have the entire secret seven series, the first book of adventure series, like four books from malory towers, entire st clares series, i read like four books of the naughtiest girl series, and sooo many of the five find outers. somehow i havent touched her most famous series (famous five) but ive dabbled in most of everything else. and thats not even MENTIONING the short story hardcover compilations oh my god enid blyton has and will ALWAYS be my inspiration i want to write as much as she did and have as much of an impact that she did.

my favourite colour is purple!! has been since the age of five 💗 also you totally dont have to ask a question if u cant think of one LOL youre already talking to me so much you brightened my whole day 💕💕

[merlions]

The mundane everyday reality that never fails to totally fucking floor me is how much the world has changed over the last ~15 years, specifically re: the bleed of (formerly) niche internet into irl culture.

Like it's so fucking weird seeing these obscure and unpopular little interests I had during middle and high school - ones I couldn't talk about to my irl friends because I was weird for even knowing they existed, much less acknowledge that they were all I interacted with during any moment I wasn't at school - become so well known in the years since that they're just thoroughly and casually embedded in everyday culture now.

Like to the point where NOW it would be weird to talk about how into them I used to be, in the same way it would come across really weird to say "I used to be obsessed with textbooks, I would spend at least 8 hours a day reading them, I met the guy who owns MacMillan, I used to be caught up with literally everything they published."

(I know that doesn't come across as THAT strange of a statement on the AuDHD website, but trust me that if I said any of this to a classmate they wouldn't even be able to respond out of fear my weird freak nerd behavior might be contagious. In retrospect that's pretty specifically ironic given the rest of this. I guess we really didn't DFTBA huh)

Anyways my old grumpy terminally-not-online bio professor posts a link on Canvas to a supplemental video on DNA and genetic inheritance in advance of our next class. I click on it, not really paying attention, expecting a boring grainy 00's video with the worst CGI youve ever seen, narrated by someone with a Jersey accent so thick you can barely understand it. Like usual. Instead, Hank fucking Green's voice (circa 2012!) starts blasting out of my computer saying, "So, I have this brother John. You may have heard of him."

Honestly it fucking jumpscared me, I forgot is Crash Course like the new Bill Nye for teachers now. Because that information won't put itself into my brain. Because "Nerdfighteria Island" still occasionally pops into my head when I'm not paying attention.

Tbh I'm just thinking about how I'm gonna sit quietly in class while he talks about this video and pretend that this is a totally neutral medium of information transfer to me, one which illicits no emotional reaction whatsoever. As if one of the top three best days of my little nerd 16yo self's life wasn't freaking it silly style to Hank playing nerd songs on his acoustic ukulele to a dance floor of like 40 people at midnight when I went to vidcon. TWICE.

Plus, like, I probably watched this video the day it was posted. And it's extra weird that THAT would be extra weird to my classmates, most of whom were around 7 years old at that time. Christ

It's not that weird but it's WEIRD to me. Like if I was saying earlier that to everyone else, telling them how crazy I was about the vlogbrothers in 2011 would be like saying I was obsessed with textbooks; then to ME, casually discussing a 2012 Crash Course video with my bio classmates is like traveling halfway across the world and running into someone who has a picture of your favorite stuffed animal from your childhood, taken from inside your personal house, as their phone background. Haha why do you have that photo? You ask. How do have that? And they're like what do you mean this is the standard phone background that comes with all phones now