#random tumblr

[weirdlyinsaneasss]

[snapeysister]

You know that feeling?..

Being so overwhelmed with thoughts and emotions concerning a specific fandom or a performer you are hyperfixated at at this particular time, you cannot seem to find a free minute to devote yourself to random everyday life and tasks. Feeling wholly incapable of disconnecting yourself from the imaginary world you have gotten caught in. Experiencing a raw desire, as if bursting out of your chest, to express your love or admiration or interest or whatever your hyperfixation generates within you, in any possible way - though eventually finding no adequate outlet and ending up semi-paralysed on the couch or floor, replaying or rereading again and again the same sequence and phrase and episode, trying to suck in as much of it as you can.

This feeling of drowning in an irrational emotional concoction and yearning for more of what you love, despite realising that you cannot possibly just break out of the framework and make your imagination real. It's like a bittersweet punch to the gut. Like a sip of a drink which is supposed to get you going but only glues you to the chair. A shoe that hurts but looks so attractive on your foot... Like a person so pretty you feel like crying. Like a pain in the chest you fear to let go so you won't feel empty. A debilitating obsession you do not want to end. It's falling in love, but of the ridiculous kind, which later will seem incomprehensible to yourself, but still be remembered fondly, unless you choose to deny your very self.

Not easy, being a fan, it seems.

[herelies-j]

For the heart is a coward

It shall seek the solitude

Far beyond the altitude

Oh brave monstrous walls it has towered

For the heart is a coward

For the heart is a coward

—Jkalra

[spelled-like-pajamas]

Geez, my calendar app doesn’t seem to be working anymore, does anyone remember what night is tonight?

[violet-phoenix-nebula]

Please reblog for more votes!

[the-septic-maniac]

This fucking gave me criminal case vibes for some reason.

[roygeeh-art]

A big question...

Is it a karen personality if they started to poke you hard in the head with their finger in rage, when you didn't mean to hit their table with a beverage in a jug (accidentally hooked on a back pack) they're selling which is placed at a narrow side walk, but actually saved it from spilling and falling and apologised for it in a calm and polite way? Asking for a friend.

[smileydork]

Dear Tumblr,

I’m not even sure what I’m meaning to write here. I doubt anyone will even see this. I really don’t know how tumblr works, even tho I’ve been using it for years now. I’ve always been the reblogging and lurking type. I wasn’t here during Tumblr’s heyday, so I sort of feel like maybe I missed my opportunity. But writing is my passion. I would love to eventually have a career that uses my creativity.

I don’t know if I’m alone in this, but I’m fascinated by how normal people blowup on social media everyday and how their lives just completely change. I don’t think I could ever be an influencer (I’ll admit I’m way too easily influenced) but I would be lying if I said becoming a youtuber hasn’t been tempting me over the years. I really don’t think I have the right presence for a camera. But then again, is there really a “right” presence? It’s interesting to think about how I’ve made YouTube videos and blog posts over the years but never took either completely seriously. Has anyone else experienced this? Is it just something everyone goes through? I truly admire people who have a lot of ambition and a strong sense of what they want and are capable of. I know I’m sort of rambling at this point. This isn’t even really a letter to tumblr or its users. I just needed someone to direct this post to so it doesn’t feel like I’m talking into an empty void. But maybe that’s what social media is.

If you read this, I apologize. But also, thank you. I hope you’re doing ok. It’s tough out there.

Compassionately yours,

Smileydork.

[jackyjackdraws]

I got this idea at 3am.

No, I won't elaborate further

[weirdlyinsaneasss]

MOOD:

[bob-artist]

I had an upsetting dream last night.

[spelled-like-pajamas]

I ain’t missing my chance to post this (also I’m almost at a hundred posts, so damn, only took like a year or more)

[haveyouever-polls]

Have you ever listened to a song parody that permanently affected how you listen to the original?