#ranblings

[vanmarkus]

what are the chances of gerrard being stung to death? i'm just saying, it could be fun...

[trashrattt]

Its funny how in the code lyoko tag it's half of this semi-alive fandom (aka you reading this) and the other half of people going "Wow, I just remembered this show from my childhood, does anyone remember it 🐱🐱❓️"

Idk but I think I know it at little......

[mei-senpaii]

"What you want to do in the future is up to you.

And when your dreams come true, you will clearly feel how much you are worth.

If my actions can help others, I am sure I can ...... realize my value.

I knew I should have listened to my homeroom teacher and taken the recommended entrance exam.

Walking along the paths of Senba Academy, you may feel an unexpected sense of nostalgia. ......

We left the main gate and lay down on the grass in the sun.

Even this casual blue sky looks very attractive.

I wonder if all graduates are nostalgic like this.

Perhaps because I was deep in thought, I did not notice the discomfort at first.

The area was very quiet.

——！！

Even though it was after school, there was no noise at all; it was eerily quiet.

It was then that I realized that I had to do something about it.

She" is there."

Alone, a white-haired girl looking around the school.

--.

My intuition tells me that she is the person who made a promise to me in a dream. ......

They are very similar.

..

A......

I want to talk to her and ask if we know each other.

I would like to hear her name.

I would like to talk with her about ...... many things.

But why ...... why can't I find my voice?

——！

No.

Who?

[Don't talk to her.

[Unhappy].

There is no one around.

[She will ruin your life].

[So ......]

No.

"Our eyes met.

If the voices in my head are correct, I am .......

......

I walked past her and walked away without looking back."

Kiana:

If you feel pain, it proves that you're troubled.

Don't accept defeat.

She seems to have said something, but when I turn around she is not there.

The moment I heard a sound as if something had shattered in my heart - and it was.

Suddenly the school was noisy.

Who the hell was that girl?

(Is that the ...... illusion?)

Now I am in fear.

It was at this point that I remembered - and I was not the only one.

There is a continuation to that dream.

It was a hopeless, suffocating nightmare.

If you asked me how Kiana and Mei's relationship works, I would say that it is made up of traumas and bad decisions, redemption and, in the end, love. The R13 chapter was a step towards delving deeper into how Kiana and Mei's dynamic worked.

Mei didn't receive much love from her father. Kiana lost both her parents and her family figure [Shigure Kira] after getting into a conflict with her mother's sister. Kiana and Mei are both people who sought comfort after living alone for a long time. At first, Kiana treated Mei as just someone close to her. Overcoming the challenges was difficult as time went on, and soon after, they both found more than just comfort in the presence of another.

Index: Kiana had to deal with a lot of things from the past. Alaya showed Kiana that Kiana's world and the reality she lives in are difficult and that Mei was just something bad in her life. Kiana on the other hand did not trust this, her world was with Mei and Mei was the only person who was willing to fight for her, just as Kiana was willing to do anything for Mei.

Kiana's confirmation deepened even further when Mei was about to die and Kiana finally appeared to save her, claiming that she would not know what to do if she had lost her.

It is shown in the Stigmata world that in every universe that Kiana and Mei meet, they are both doomed to suffer and not have a happy ending, Kiana had the opportunity to choose to live in a reality where she would never meet Mei, thus making her life not so "miserable", but Kiana did not want to, because she did not want to live in a world without her reason to fight.

The white-haired girl fought alone on the battlefield until the end.

The friends who fight with them are dying one after another.

I am not sure how these women died.

However, the girl's eyes had long since lost their luster from the heavy rain.

And .......

Her trembling voice called my name in a weak voice.

Kiana:

Mei Senpai .......

In several realities shown, Kiana died fighting, or trying and failing to save the world from the Houkai, all because in all of these realities Kiana was fighting for Mei.

How did we meet?

I searched through all the memories in my mind, and they were all the same.

No matter what era, what her identity is, or whether there are variables.

Feeling hopeless about life, I reached out my hand.

Then, she caught her.

Even though we have never met before, I don’t feel strange or disgusted at all.

Without even figuring out why, I chose to go with her.

Perhaps the reason is simple.

If I were with this person...

No matter where you go or how the world changes, there will always be good things waiting for you.

I just had this feeling, quite simply.

If we had never met.

Will the predetermined future change?

This rule is broken as long as she gets acquainted with Kiana.

Will the fate be different?

Kiana walked past me.

This time, she left without looking back.

"Ah, you clearly said that you don't want to live in a predetermined future."

"But I still place my hopes on you."

"It's really... a bit self-deceiving."

Only by moving towards our own lives can everyone have a real beginning.

…

With every step she took, Kiana's memory faded a little from my mind.

[Mei~Would you like to come with me? 】

The farther we are from each other, the weaker the connection between us becomes.

[I’m sorry, Mei… I’ve caused you trouble…]

Obviously, it shouldn't be like this...

【Mei~】

【Thank you for all the time. 】

Disgusting feeling.

That's not the case at all!

If this was really arranged, why does the pain feel so real?

Why not just run away from this dangerous place without looking back? Why!

"!?"

I am such an idiot...

——I have a dream that I want to realize, and I want to share this dream with you.

It is not fate that I hate.

It doesn’t matter whether it is arranged or not!

"What I long for is obviously a future with Kiana in it!"

"Don't go! Kiana!"

Kiana

……!

Meiyi...

You still called me.

"Because there is no such destiny or constraint at all."

"If being with Kiana is destiny's guidance."

"Then why would we reject this future that makes us feel happy and blessed?"

"You saved me, stayed with me, and took me away when everyone hated me."

"If this is also false, then prove it to me, MEI!"

Kiana

She would probably enjoy listening to your complaints.

Thank you

I'll be there for you.

Raiden Mei confessed to Kiana twice, proving the importance of the narrative that Mei understands Kiana's feelings enough to go to the ends of the earth to save Kiana twice from losing herself completely.

Back in the days of the Zero Era, Kiana loved Dr. MEI enough to never question her methods as long as Dr. MEI needed her for every situation, and one of those situations led to Kiana's death. Dr. MEI says "Kiana was meant to be different, even though she is a Herrscher, she is kinder than a human being, totally different from me."

Kiana's death led Dr. MEI to sympathize with Kiana, she fell in love with Kiana and recognized how bad she was for her life, and asked Raiden Mei to treat her better.

In each samsara Kiana died every time she met Mei, it was believed that destiny was not for both of them to end up together.

Still, the samsara had a possibility of being shaped, and Kiana didn't care if the world ended as long as she was with Mei, the end of the world wouldn't scare her much.

In the end, both made a promise to protect each other forever, there starting their relationship

[insert-the-4thwall-entity]

Ok, i have this horror series idea

Stay Tuned

It takes place during 2000s and it's told trough the pov of a guy who is really into cartoon/show lost media.

BIG emphasis on cartoon/show, cause it's all based around it and includes a lot of actual cartoons/shows, fictional shows/cartoons ( batim, welcome home ect. ) and more. Batim's the main thing too -

"IRL" segments/episodes and live action shows are animated in the way i mentioned in a previous post -

Mass Inspiration from :

Tv/show/cartoon creepypastas

Analog/web horror

Sinning Eyes by inkst4ns

@vibingleaf

RodrigoJogos

Lukeinspire

The goldman case by yumibestgirl

and probably more -

Idk if could make this into a reality, but maybe i could do some design concepts -

[sidechumster]

I'm in an art collab and realized that I'm the least good artist of the bunch. Talk about humbling. I've got a lot to learn. Thought I was hot shit then people dropped their masterpieces of color. I got a lot to learn about color...

something something, flying is 90% falling. Or some other inspirational bullshit

[ceofcatgirls]

My university is trying soooo hard to make me an active suicide risk

[angelicsera]

“It won’t be like this forever, it’s only temporary” don’t piss me off. Don’t piss me off don’t piss me off don’t piss me off don’t piss me off don’t piss me offf don’t piss me offffffffffff pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee. I was bound to be like this since day ONE. My mother fucking hates me, my dad barely does ANYTHING, my siblings are all just as fucking unwell in their own rights. I have been raped since before I could fully form sentences, I dated a pedophile for years because I fucking wanted someone there for me, I’ve been forced to harm other people and animals, I can’t fucking do this anymore. I’ve had no healthy relationship and then when I finally got into one, we have barely been able to talk. I miss him so much. I wish I could just kill myself. He’s one of the only reasons why I haven’t, because I don’t have the heart to leave him without telling him. That would make me worse of a girlfriend than I already fucking am, and I don’t even know how that’s possible. I feel so many things at once, I don’t understand. I can be fine one minute and spiraling the next. It makes me feel like I’m lying about my emotions. How the fuck could I be doing so bad one minute and then be fine the next. It can’t be that bad then, it just doesn’t make sense. Oh my God and also my little brother. I KNOW he isn’t fucking doing well, it’s so blatantly obvious, but he’s just like me. He will NOT take help. He’s so fucking stuck in his ways, but he insists on trying to help others (occasionally). It’s not going to help him. I think he’s also at the point where he believes it’ll never get better for him. It isn’t TRUE UGHHHHHHHHH. He needs to get better habits and leave what he’s doing rn. I know it’s easy to be attached to those things, but it is no good for him. If I sit down and talk with him about it, it’ll just be ��Okay.” or “I’m fine.” God DAMN, Zero. WHY WON’T YOU LET ME FUCKING HELP YOU. He’s one of the only good things I even have in my life right now, and it’s eating me alive seeing him in a bad state. If it KILLS ME I will help that kid. I don’t even know. I think this post was just me rambling. Oh, and then there is Otto and my brother. I’m happy for them, I don’t know what to say. It’s strange seeing two people who I am (was?) extremely close with also start getting close to each other…I’m not jealous. It wasn’t healthy how I felt about Otto. It was obsessive, and I know that. I didn’t like it, and I still don’t. I think I’m getting better. No I’m not, I threatened to stab him yesterday. OH MY fucking GOD I NEED TO SHUT UP OR JUST KILL MYSELF. Im still better now, I think. It doesn’t hurt as much thinking about him and going long periods not talking with him. #healing!!!!!! But at the same time, it’s like the thought is always nagging me. Maybe this is the schizophrenia…I hallucinate stuff related to him a lot, I’ve attempted multiple times over this. That’s okay though, I’ll always have love for him. His happiness is just as important as mine, and if he’s happy with my brother, then that’s what matters. He’s still in my life that way, yeah….Yeah!!!!! Oh em gee!! So smart, Sera.’so fucking smart. I didn’t do my school work. Oopsie daises. Oh well. Oh well!!!! KODA. HIM HIM HIM. So many things to say!!! So much!!! Koda, sleep with one eye open! Don’t sleep at all actually! I never forget! I don’t EVER forget, actually! Remember that I always remember! Much love!

Moral of the post; it’ll never get better for me.

[fayewoodss]

damn y'all really liked that slushie post

[cat-clawz]

Hilarious how pi day isn't even trending but the ides of March has been trending for the past week. Throw a pie in Julius Caesar's face, today only!

[roonienoonie]

Looking at the LimboLane characters Dr. Habit and Patty is fascinating because on a deeper level they're REALLY similar characters with similar personalities, interests and backgrounds. If either of them had been in slightly different scenarios, they might have come to inverse conclusions about how to get the love and autonomy they desperately have craved from others.

But also what if patty just stole Capochin's teeth. Then whats he gonna do about it huh

[the-one-that-weeps]

As someone who avidly reads wxs sleepover fics I've seen countless of times how wxs reacts to Tsukasa's mansion but. Don't you guys think we can try thinking from his perspective too?

Imagine Tsukasa, age 8, alone for the first time in a house too big to hide himself, playing with some plushies to cover up the fuzzy feeling of loneliness.

Imagine Tsukasa, age 13, plushies discarded and alone again, sitting on the piano stool with no one to hear him play.

And now imagine Tsukasa, age 17, house full of music and friends and life.

How would he explain to his younger self that in some years he won't remember his own house having a clean floor and deafening silence? How can he explain it to himself?

But now Emu is bouncing on 3 beds at the same time and Nene is eating Cheetos under his table and Rui is awkwardly shuffling his feet and preparing an excuse for blowing up half the front wall. Tsukasa hasn't seen his house's floor clean for an entire year. Tsukasa hasn't been alone for an entire year and it's all worth it.

[frongle444]

Take me to church, I'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies.

[alenoah-likerr]

The alenoah appeal to me is the fact that it didn't happen, they never got together and it can only be a passing thought of what could have been.

Their relationship failed before it could even sprout, maybe it is that way on purpose. What might have happened if Alejandro kept Noah around? Sure, he's just a teammate and Alejandro could get rid of him anytime, but maybe he's becoming too fond of the guy lately, and the fact that Alejandro's first instinct on overhearing Noah is to feel hurt rather than... anything else.

Alejandro probably noticed his own behavior, and he'd be terrified. Warm feelings for his competition, for a guy no less. It would be a scandal! Noah has to go, better now than later. Besides he has a thing going on with Heather, a true equal to him. Noah is his acquaintance at best...

He never really had thoughts on Noah, he's just some loser, who doesn't seem to bother doing anything... which pisses him off a little bit but he can't help but respect his attitude, he wished he could care less like Noah. Whenever he looks into Noah's eyes, he only sees boredom but the moment he returns his gaze, Alejandro can feel his skin crawl. Noah's eyes are like pins and poke holes at him, he feels naked. Alejandro might as well be lying on an operating table with Noah dissecting him with his eyes alone.

And a one-liner came out of his mouth. Acceptance.

His words stings a lot for some reason. Betrayal.

[random-gamer1942]

With the year coming to an end, I wanted to make this little post to thank you all for the amazing times. 2024 has gone by faster than any other year, and for good reason. Particularly, because of an interesting combination of you doing more repetative tasks as you age, and each new year taking up a comparatively smaller portion of your life as you age. Psychologically speaking, this-

WAIT FUCK I GOT DISTRACTED OKAY BACK TO THE POST

This year. Yes. It was special. No, but actually. I met so many of you guys in this year alone, and cannot fathom the facts that I might meet this many more people in the coming years. Thank you all for all the art you've made, the stories you written, the blorbos you've created. Thank you all for the picrew and uquiz chains, for the mass reblogs, for the tag games. Thank you all for getting me into new fandoms - from webcomics to shows. Thank you all for interacting with my posts, and for making my own art and writiny feel like they're worth it. Thank you all for being my mutuals. Thank you all for being my friends

And then, to a handful of particular individuals:

@thatoneluckybee

I still remember the terrible puns I made that one day that caused us to meet eachother, lol. And the butterfly effect that caused. Shite. If you hadn't reblogged that post, I probably wouldn't have met about 90% of my current mutuals, and that's not an exaggeration. Thank you for being the 2nd mutual I ever had, for introducing me to sbg, nevermore, and homesick, and for turning me into a mass reblogger lol. No but honestly, I truly am thankful I know you. Here's to another year of me randomly bombarding your asks when reading webcomics or when thinking of theories! (I've started Marionetta btw, be afraid >:D)

@blue-eyed-moon-child

You're genuinly one of the coolest and most interesting people I've ever met, and in only a handful of months have become perhaps the 2nd closest person to me. I've always enjoyed talking to people older than me, since they're actually able to hold conversations on serious/interesting topics, and you especially are someone I feel I'm able to discuss nearly anything with. Thank you for listening to me ramble all those time. Thank you for helping me when I've felt down. Merci d'être ma sœur. Here's to another year of sibling hijinks, highs and lows, and a LOT more rambling :>

And last but not least, @afrogwhocantdraw and @primalmagic

It's a lot more recent, but being part of the benlor trio has genuinly been so much fun. I remember when I originally met frog when I was making some fanart, and how through sheer constantly interacting with Isa's (PHENOMENAL) fics we got her to become friends with us too. We are the 3 musketeers of the sbg community, and none browse the benlor tag without finding our names. To another year of fanart & fanfic. To the benlor trio. To benlor!

Yes I repurposed that drawing shhhhhh

And with all that, to the new year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

@thatoneluckybee @aceiscoool @moonbiine @quintessential-candles @haruu-luv

@kirexa @missrayofsunshine @onlyinitforthefandoms @indianatumbleweedjones @a-being-of-chaossss

@nina-the-ninth @sl33pdepr1ved @niredsw @simply-a-moth @fish-nailed-to-a-cross

@thurio-edau @sprinklina @lee1504 @whatsuplin @piigeonss

@blue-eyed-moon-child @afrogwhocantdraw @azulas-1-fan @primalmagic @ohquail

@floydetheflowerdragon @fly-in-amber @cherie-soup @artcher-artwork @junebug99

@corvid-collective70 @karmaajr @ldeedub @comatosequestionmark

[gerogerigaogaigar]

Phineas and Ferb fascinates me from a structural standpoint. I'll admit I haven't watched the show front to back, but I've caught the odd episode here and there and I certainly get the gist of it.

The first time I saw P&F it seemed charming but unremarkable, the second and probably third time it became obvious that it was a clever but formulaic show. At some point it clicked. Children's shows are usually formulaic, Dee Dee will destroy Dexter's invention, Elmer Fudd will fail to hunt the Wabbit, He-Man will defeat Skeletor, and Sisyphus will roll that boulder up that hill. Phineas and Ferb asks not just that we imagine Sisyphus happy, but that we imagine that he is ecstatic to see that boulder roll down the hill.

Where the status quo is an unspoken rule of older cartoons it is the explicit law of the P&F universe. There is a roadmap to every episode, you probably already know it but I will spell it out regardless. Phineas will say the phrase "I know what we're gonna do today" thus kicking off their project for the episode. Candace will try and fail to get them "busted". There will be a musical number. Meanwhile Doofenshmirtz will have made an -inator that Perry will be called upon to destroy. Perry will get caught, Doofenshmirtz will explain his plan, Perry will escape, destroy the -inator and the ensuing chaos will clean up Phineas and Ferb's backyard shenanigans just in time for their mom to get home. Ferb says something at the very end, often his only line in the whole episode. The end.

There are stock lines that must be said. "I know what we're gonna do today" "I wonder where Perry is" "Busted" "🎵Doofenshmirtz Evil Incorporated🎶". The show doesn't just have a cartoon status quo, the universe operates off of the laws of cartoon status quo to the extent that characters actively notice when the cycle doesn't complete correctly. The characters seemingly know that their world operates on cartoon physics, but to them it's just physics. In P&F a giant whirlwind carrying away a giant backyard amusement park is as natural as gravity.

Candace's place as the character who knows this is all insane must be a tortuous existence considering the whole world is conspired against her. Not out of a cosmic meanness but a deep thematic kindness. Candace is the only character whose intent is to cause purposeful harm and the universe will not let her get away with it.

Truly this is one of the most unerringly kind shows I've ever seen. It is unreal how much faith it puts into wordplay, running jokes, and raw absurdity to carry itself while never stepping into the realm of cartoon cruelty.

You know cartoon cruelty. It's why Tom gets punished for Jerry's actions and why the Trix rabbit can never eat his own damn cereal. At its best cartoon cruelty manifests as Ed, Edd n Eddy or the Looney Tunes short Duck Amok where there is catharsis in seeing the characters hoisted by their own petard. At its worst you get CatDog which is so intensely cruel to the character of Cat that I can't comprehend what the writers were going for.

The confident lack of irony is part of what makes Phineas And Ferb work. The show is a parade of cartoon cliches and dad jokes and it never it never winks at the viewer or lampshades how silly this is. It just has absolute faith that the corniest jokes ever really are that funny. And so they are. I actually laugh out loud every time they do the "Aren't you a little young for this?" "Yes, yes I am" bit. Maybe it's the delivery, maybe it's just the confidence in the bit. Probably a bit of both. I am smiling to myself just thinking of this dumb running joke.

But what this all amounts to is what every bit of fandom wankery amounts to. I am of course talking about shipping. For my money the best bit in the show is the romantic framing of Doofenshmirtz and Perry's rivalry. This is where the show's cartoon logic and unrepentant kindness synthesize perfectly. The homoerotic undertones of the spy/supervillain dynamic are an extremely tired observation and are usually only emphasized in an ironic sense to poke fun at pieces that never intended the gay subtext. P&F flips this joke by not being even a little bit ironic about it, but still adhering to the unspoken nature of the gag.

The end result is that Perry and Doofenshmirtz's status as a romantic couple is tacitly understood to be part of the shows status quo, but never commented on. The world of P&F is too inherently kind to be homophobic (homophobia being a key component of the joke) but it still has a joke shaped hole to fill. So it does the funniest possible thing and fills the hole with nothing. The joke is the lack of a joke. The expectation of a joke that is met with a shrug from the show's own internal logic. And that's really funny. An evil scientist and a platypus are in a loving relationship that happens to also be a hero/villain rivalry. Don't worry about it. It's not the weirdest thing happening in the tri state area I promise.

[x-monochrome-x]

i love you giants with hands too cold to hold tinies comfortably. i love you giants that are terrified of stinky morning breath. i love you giants that cannot sleep anywhere near their tiny(ies) because they snore too loud or roll around. i love you giants that can't make themselves comfortable when they're around creatures smaller than them. i love you giants that have panic attacks when they see something scramble on the floor. i love you giants that think they're too hideous and monstrous to be loved. i love you giants that can't speak for fear of showing their teeth. i love you giants that hate eating in front of tinies. i love you giants that are too self aware. i love you giants