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you guys⌠izzy calls stede things like âponceâ and âfopâ* because those are class-based insults. stede is a rich fuck who decided on a whim to pirate and absorbed ed into his dangerous little play fantasy. izzy doesnât hate stede for being âeffeminateâ. he hates him for doing this job that they all have to do to survive simply for fun when he didnât need to, and pull ed into the whimsy that will likely get him killed or get stede killed and ed depressed.
stede, to izzy, comes across as a man playing a fun game and using poor (and not very competent) ppl as his pawns in it because he wants a good time, whereas ed and izzy didnât choose to become pirates because it seemed like a good laugh, but moreso because it was that, or starve and die, and then made the best of it. they put in the work and carved out a legend as protection, us vs the world and then stede shows up and ed doesnât care about them anymore and stede didnt do anything to âearnâ his place as a captain, which izzy probably wouldnât care about if it wasnât directly affecting ed.
*revisiting this and izzy doesnât call stede this, it was calico jack who did that, izzy in the show has insulted stede on his competence and his intelligence and his class status, but not anything to my knowledge that is coded as queerphobic or homophobic. the op of the post iâm referencing said izzy said it but i dont think he did.
#idk#rambling maybe#izzy hands#ofmd#the izcourse#ish#adding this after: this is based on a post that says izzy calls stede those things#looking back on it im not sure if izzy calls stede a âfopâ i think thats cj that does that#sighs i guess i gotta rewatch every izzy sceneâŚ.
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hey did you know??? that if you stop stretching and maintaining mobility in your body then it goes away?? things get tight and you can't move the way that you used to??? and when you decide to try getting a stretch routine going that the first week fucking sucks because you keep going 'damn i used to be able to do this no problem' and then you have to switch gears and be kind to yourself and just focus on getting better from here instead of berating yourself for dropping the good habits in the first place??? and your body never stops aging so you gotta keep taking care of it and sometimes you gotta take care of it extra in certain areas because of things that happened when you were younger and it's boring and sometimes hurts but it's so necessary???
i am yelling this at myself right now i am going through An Experience (trying to get into a routine of body maintenance again for my physical and mental health)
#rambling#and idk but like if this incentivises you to do some stretches too then that's great! remember to be kind to yourself#but im mostly directing this at myself because i was thinkng about these things while doing a 15 min stretch routine and i feel silly#but silly is okay as long as i keep going#edit: haha wow this post blew up. im gonna tag it with a few things to maybe help me find it later if necessary#sisyphus#body maintenance#popular post
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I don't think I'm exempt from forming parasocial relationships, I think maybe I have a few. But then I hear other people talk about parasocial relationships, specifically researchers, and I think... maybe I don't have those?
I definitely feel some attachment to some people, mostly authors I really like and follow on social media.
But I never feel like I'm "breaking up" with a public figure if they do something I morally disagree with and decide I don't want to follow their work anymore.
The last "real" parasocial relationship I had was probably with SHINee and I'm still recovering from that one, oof. Which might explain why I hold people I don't actually know that well at a distance, I don't want to be hurt like that again.
Idk I'm just trying to figure out where I stand in relation to this stuff. I think parasocial relationships are one of those things where we throw a word or phrase around so much that we forget the actual meaning. So with the loose definition of parasocial relationships, I may have them but with the strict definition, I don't think I do.
Nothing against people who do experience parasocial relationships, btw.
I just think my unique experiences and trauma have made it very easy to cut ties with anyone who has wronged me or another person. I'm not immune to feeling some type of way when I do sever those ties, but I'm very well practiced in doing it by now and it just doesn't hurt as bad as it used to.
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I'm literally so scared of death
my brain just told me that death is like eternal nostalgia, wanting the past so bad, viewing the past sweetly, viewing parts of it and being glad. Told me death was like a scent that brought you back for a moment. In the memories that make us who we are. A little bit of death in all of it. When we die all those memories go so far away, you long, lost in the expanse of space, but your so far away you can never see it again. Forgetfulness is like that death taking over a good memory, that decay in everything. That death is a long trip with no destination, but a home. A place of longing they come from. We fade away from it, we move on, become something new, but in every life we feel nostalgia. We feel loss. We feel death. The complexities of a smear, a color of rainbow, that's what we are. We are the difference and the same, like a living static, moving through, along. Making discoveries, accepting death, preventing it, prolonging it. Forgetfulness is what scares me. The fact that it's forgotten forever.
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#anyways so i think samus has major survivors guilt and is a super perfectionist. The type of girl who reimagines scenarios in her mind#And thinks about how she could have done better. like âif i had woken up sooner maybe i could have saved everyone in prime 3â#so i think she says she doesnt know anything about herself because shes so hypercritical of her actions she doesnt see herself as a person#while also her hyper critical-ness shows how she says she wants to ignore herself but she literally cant because she has so many criticisms#oh i wanted to include the ppl from the prime 2 manga in that one shot but was like âi dont think ppl will recognize themâ.#also lol the existence of dark samus would fuck her up SOOOO bad like it only exists bc she exists & its responsible for the gangâs deaths#okay im done rambling tldr MENTAL ILLNESS.#metroid#samus aran#loneart#metroid dread#metroid prime#super metroid#metroid series#i dont wanna tag all the games. There just those games is enough#hall of fame#gray voice
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#i actually dont think that song fits billford#i love you for psychological reasons is more fiddauthor#which i will draw them to.. maybe#billford is more eat your heart by steam powered giraffe#im not even a billford fan just felt obligated to draw them#what am i doing. ramblings of a madman#gravity falls#ford pines#bill cipher#pacifica northwest#wendy corduroy#mabel pines#dipper pines#fiddleford mcgucket#billford
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actually, ykw? imagine if simon had a civilian s/o and bc heâs constantly away and the partner is there most of the time anyways, he lets them decorate the place.
they make it so cozy with a million lamps with stained glass lampshades and tapestries on the walls and an unexpected number of stuffed animals on the bed.
one time, simon invites tf 141 to his flat and their jaws dropped, bc ofc simon didnât warn them about the absolute pinterest board that his place was.
in fact, he hadnât mentioned a partner at all, or to you that his team would be coming over so youâre still in one of simonâs raggedy old t-shirts with a handful of dry cereal halfway to your mouth.
itâs generally a shock for both parties, simon excluded, who seems to settle himself right in, kissing the top of your head, eyes crinkling slightly as he grins, looking rather like a cat showing off the bird he dragged in.
you had some choice words for him later, but for now, you brushed the crumbs off your face and wiped your hands off on your shirt before sticking your hand out to the team to introduce yourself.
surprisingly, it goes rather well. all things considered. the team is charmed by you and your ability to make ghost blush and smile endlessly. and youâre absolutely enamored with the fact that they keep complimenting your decor.
#and yeah#thatâs it#went longer than i thought#maybe i should write an actual fic for this#so do with that what you will#simon ghost riley x reader#also this is wholly unedited and the ramblings of woman at 2am#simon riley x reader#ghost x gn!reader#ghost x reader#john price#captain johnathan price#johnny soap mactavish#soap mactavish#john soap mactavish#kyle gaz garrick#gaz garrick#gaz cod#as it turns out#i have completely blanked on how to tag platonic relationships#but oh well
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for anyone too young to know this: watching The Truman Show is a vastly different experience now, compared to how it was before youtube and social media influencers became normal
before it was like, "what a horrifying thing to do to a human being! to take away their autonomy and privacy, all for the sake of profits! to create fake scenarios for them to react to, just to retain viewership! to ruin their happiness just so some corporate entity could harvest money from their very humanity! how could anyone do something so evil?"
and now it's like, "ah, yeah. this is still deeply fucked up, but it's pretty much what every influencer has been doing to their kids for a decade now. probably bad that we've normalized this experience"
#the truman show#sbs rambles#I keep thinking about how children on popular youtube channels should probably have laws to protect them#social workers assigned to them maybe#I dunno#they did not sign up to have their lives sold for profit#but here we are#tho#I guess none of us signed up for it#and our data is harvested more than ever#god#high-tech capitalism sucks turns out#OH WAIT because tumblr is bad at getting context sometimes#let me specify:#I am not saying that the movie The Truman Show is bad or that it normalizes this#like all good sci-fi (because it is kind of sci-fi) it's there to warn us of what the future could hold#and it did that in a very good way - it's a beautiful movie#I could see someone with a bad faith take assuming I meant that it was part of the problem#it absolutely wasn't. it didn't normalize this; we did#youtube did and social media#it's us that's the problem#or more specifically: big corporations and a lack of regulation#that's the origin of most modern problems
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Is this my best comic ever?? Nope. Do I think I characterized either of these two particularly well in this comic?? Not really. Did I spend an unreasonable amount of time on it to the point that it would be a waste to not post it?? Yes, yes I did.
I really committed to this one, spent a lot of time on those backgrounds and treated myself to ample suffering with the perspective, which is not my strong suit but I am happy with how it ultimately looks. Yay perspective and background practice!!
(Tbh I shouldn't talk like I think this one sucks, I think I've just been staring at it for so long that my brain has decided it's not good and it's actually way better than I think it is, and honestly I am quite happy with it. The artistic process really is something, isn't it?)
The inspiration was basically me reminding... myself... to take breaks sometimes... by drawing for several hour stints during my only little bits of free time. Which totally tracks. Probably. But I've been rolling around in my brain this idea that Lambert is a very uptight people pleaser and anxious workaholic, but Narinder, at least since adjusting himself to the circumstances (which probably took at least a century, maybe two) has discovered the joys of self care, and has made an active effort to chill tf out. This has not made him any less terrifying to the cultists (save for Lambert's closest disciples), nor has it made him friendlier to really anyone but Lambert (and maybe his siblings), but he sure has found some serious peace of mind. That said, I can't place what his motivations are here. Perhaps he is secretly concerned about Lambert's sanity, because he doesn't want them to turn into what he was, or maybe he's just trying to steal away some quality time with his one and only friend, but regardless of the reason, I spent too much time on this for nobody to see it, dang it.
That said. Enjoy this silly little comic that I spent way too much time on, and I hope this silly comic brings you some joy today.
#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb fanart#cotl#cotl fanart#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#cotl narilamb#narilamb#(like honestly narilamb is a qpr to me specifically and i intend this as such but this can easily be read as romantic as well tbh)#also we get some bonus jalala and rinor in this one!! and some bonus... implied leshycat. technically#not gonna tag those individually cuz there's just like. not enough of it for me to feel like those tags have any meaning#but they're here as a bonus. also jalala and rinor are fun to draw maybe i should make a mini comic just about them sometime#rambles aside pls enjoy this ridiculous comic that i spent an unreasonable amount of time on it was a joy to work on#and even tho its not my best comic ever i do love how it turned out it was such a good time#the yet untitled qpr narilamb au
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thinking about a Damian who was raised his entire life hearing how much he looks like his Father, how he's the blood son, how he's better than any other child Bruce Wayne has taken in, starting to buy into it like a kid does, only to hit puberty and turn out looking like 80% Talia.
#you know how some kids look like one parent until adulthood?#that's what i hc for damian#he looks like bruce until puberty#as an adult he looks like talia#bruce wayne#batman#damian wayne#talia al ghul#dc#batfamily#thoughts#something something social currency but only within the batfamily#it's a sore subject#and they roll their eyes when damian says dumb shit like this#because they know ra's and talia fed it to him since infancy#but then he grows up and slowly stops saying it#and they have to wonder if damian is disappointed#or if he's grown past caring#maybe this is a wild hc idk#i'm just rambling in between meetings#i KNOW he looks like bruce in canon as an adult#but like#i want him to be 5'8 and look like talia#I find it such a satisfying book end to the emphasis placed on him as the blood son#and I think he deserves to be more than just a bruce clone you know#even if the transition stings
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I'm think so hard about Stanley Pines I'm gonna fucking cry. Have you guys ever noticed how he talks to Ford even before he got him back. In Carpet Diem he scolds Ford and says his carpet is ugly. He asks the wax lookalike if he wants anything from the kitchen. He tells Ford to shut up when he's reading his journal. He tells the kids he talked to his reflection while fishing alone. He needed his brother so fucking much and I'm
#i fully believe that he ran down to the lab after he ran away from the wax funeral#he was so overwhelmed he had to give it another shot and repeatedly tell himself that ford was alive#god he didn't even fucking know if ford was alive#thirty fucking years and he held onto hope#imagine he turned on the portal and nothing came out#no one came back#maybe fords glasses fell out#but thats it#im gonna cry so hard#conan rambles#gravity falls#stanley pines#stanford pines#stan twins#sea grunks
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I think I made some of you guys a little sad with my last post, so you can have some happy aftermath twins before part 2, as a treat â¤ď¸
#my art#gravity falls#gravity falls au#HWINEBHABWNAJCAHOWEEATOWEUB AU#gravity falls fanart#stan pines#stanley pines#grunkle stan#stanford pines#ford pines#grunkle ford#stan twins#i need to find a gravity falls discord or smth- it's basically a ritual for me with every fandom#i tried to find some on the internet but they're so... rude?? maybe it's just me but i dont think#openly cussing people out and insulting the people who want to leave the server is a very âpositive and openâ server they claimed to be#which was so crazy because Ive never seen a discord server be like that?? like usually they're pretty chill but these ones like actively#called people bitches and lame assholes after they left the server like CHILL my man- they're allowed to Not stay#it wasnt even just one- I had to go through like 4 to 5 different GF servers and they were all like that- it was CRAZY#anyways!! that was just me rambling it was just such a weird experience for me#GOD I am PLAGUED by thoughts of this AU
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i honestly want to know what's so addicting about today's rap music đ it isn't even rap music it's just some dude mumbling into the mic with the shittiest auto tune ive ever heard and all the instrumental is is just quarter notes looping (i want to rip my ears out every time i hear it on the radio)
idk about you guys i grew up with old school music like R&B and hip hop so
shrugs
there's some modern instrumental songs i like too (cough rh ost) but yk
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y'know every time i feel guilty about bothering someone by singing along when i'm listening to music, i just remember that i have to tolerate my dirtbag brother screaming at his ps5 for hours every day so listening to muffled off-key fall out boy is probably preferable
#ramble#it's not loud btw it's just like. singing along in the car volume#not to get on my soapbox but there's a literal dent in his wall from his controller. and we're in the uk you CANNOT punch through walls#idk about anyone else but i've NEVER yelled at a video game?? like i'm absolute dogshit at 80% of them#and i've never had a PHYSICAL reaction beyond maybe 'ughh' then turning it off#if you're getting that angry maybe you just need to play different games because you're clearly not having fun#also added bonus that i didn't realise until adulthood. as a former daughter#cis son privileges are CRAZY#i don't even swear in front of my parents and my dude is just screaming actual slurs next door with NO consequences#like you wouldn't do that in public why is it ok to do it here#i think i've said fuck in front of my mum ONCE and i literally couldn't look at her the entire day#this is a box i am not ready to unpack yet akdhdh#is this just a my family thing or is this common
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Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest
Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here
Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store đ
It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony
#the final confrontation was basically his first death again#and YES he Does want the Joker dead#and it would've been really really nice if Batman was the one who did it#but when batman made it clear he wouldn't kill the joker. Jason easily switched to saying âLET me kill the jokerâ to accommodate#because he Wanted batman to pass his test#he gave a test to dick too. and technically tim but it wasnt the family test it was a different one so it doesnt rly count#AFTER utrh and the reveal and the batarang you can go hog wild about it. i care less about it then#granted i do believe they make jason more scared of the joker after it at some point#i guess because hes a bit too willing to kill the joker and ive heard jason wasnt meant to live after utrh#my watsonian explain for that is he was so fixated on his plan he cpuld override his fear. or maybe the pit. either work#i prefer the fixation bc i dont like the explanation that the pit was the /only/ reason he could get all plan together and done#BUT THATS UNRELATED!!!#dc stop putting the joker in jason stories im begging you please please please. lock him in a vault for the next 20 years or something#it Cpuld be good and i understand. but also. after so long of people that dont know or go for jasons need for family and parents#that love him and he can trust#the joker starts to feel like?? hm. words. a cop out? oh haha its that guy that killed him woagh hes here#i bet you dont even know that jaybin got beat until unconsciousness by an angry mob#while asking batman to save him only for batman to have to walk away#anwya. where was i going with this#i think i got off topic#jason todd#dc comics#batman#ADDED AN EDIT. SORRY. this post has been haunting me it keeps me awake. what if people misunderstand#they cant read my tags where i ramble more depth. thisbis the only option#EDIT EDIT: hiii#removed the sentence abt jason having the joker for several days bc i misremembered some things#go read its-your-mind 's addition instead also#ok no more i wont edit this post anymore i promise
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Spring's Harvest!
#a more elaborate piece and this time it's stardew!#would you still call this animation if it only consists of 2 keyposes? hm#I thought about it and didn't want to make inbetweens in the end so here you go#found motivation to finally realise this idea I had for months since the release date of the 1.6 update got announced!#can you maybe spot the O/ne Piece details? hehe#I'm rambling again#stardew valley#stardew fanart#stardew farmer#sdv#sdv fanart#junimo#fanimation#o0kawaii0o
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