#rahhh your brain is so BIG

[noodles-and-tea]

what if Ford and bill but Arthur and John?

I’ve only listened to a few episodes so far but this is a really cool idea….

[minimomoe]

Where Your Heart Lies

Summary: You thought if you let the past behind you can finally move on. Of course, nothing is ever that easy. wct: 4.2k

Song inspo: Moth to a Flame- Swedish Mafia House, The Weeknd

MDNI: 19+, warnings: rough sex, oral sex (m receiving), fingering, pet names (pretty, baby), degradation, cheating, a bit of edging, angst, no happy ending rahhh

Preview: “It’s like you’re trying to eat me alive, pretty,” Toji groaned when you decided to sink your teeth in his shoulder. It’s true, that’s all you wanted to do when you were around him, but he was acting as though his fingers weren’t petting the wetness that soaked your panties....

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“The number you are trying to reach is unavailable at this time. Please leave a messa—”

You groaned into your phone. For once you tried to come home early and make a nice dinner for your boyfriend, no, your fiancé, but since it was a surprise he was still working. Supposedly. Hopefully.

You hung up then sighed. You felt pathetic. Staring down at the stupid plates you set out, the stupid expensive wine that you got at your engagement party, the stupid, cheesy candles you lit, it was like it was all a big charade and they would all come to life and start laughing at you. Your phone lets out a low vibration on the table and you lunge to pick it up, only for it to be an unknown number calling you. You stared at the string of numbers in confusion. You didn’t save it so it must’ve been a wrong caller, and you watched it ring through until you were staring at your reflection in the dark screen. 

You sighed and picked up the empty wine glasses to place them back in the cabinet, but went back to pour yourself a drink because you deserved it. You swirled the drink around in the cup, watching the whirlpool form in the center of your cup before your phone started to buzz again. You looked down at it curiously, and it was the same unknown number that had called you earlier. In fact, the longer that you looked at it, you remembered that this number has called you multiple times before over the month. You didn’t have it memorized, but the last four did look familiar. 

You stared at your phone ringing and picked it up on the final ring, slowly bringing it up to your ear. 

“Hello?”

“I thought you would never pick up,” drawled a voice. His voice was itching a part of your brain but the tunnel of time was shrouding its familiarity.

“Who is this?”

“Don’t say you forgot me already, pretty girl.”

Pretty girl. There was only one person who ever called you that, and the floodgates in your mind unlocked and the memories started pouring in. Years ago when you were a totally different person who held little to no morals. You worked hard to forget that part of your life, to completely change your image, but the devil himself couldn’t seem to let you go. Your grip on the wine glass stem tightened as your voice strained. 

“How did you get my number, Toji?”

He scoffed on the other line. “It wasn’t that hard. You seemed to forget everything you learned once you left the group. How’d you manage to do that anyways?”

“Why? You finally got tired of them?”

“No, but I miss my partner.”

“What do you want?” You cut straight to the point, not wanting to play around with him anymore. Your phone buzzed again and it was a text from none other than your fiancé, telling you that he went out with his friends. You remembered when your friends told you how perfect he was for you but the text only made you frown. 

“You see, I need a place to sleep tonight. I—“

“Toji.”

“Don’t be like that. It’ll be just like old times.”

“We used to sleep together in old times.”

“I can keep my hands to myself,” he said, but you could hear him smiling. “And you can’t really say no. I’m at the front door.”

In the same moment you heard a succinct knock at the foyer. You looked back at the phone but he already hung up, leaving you no other choice but to meet him there. 

You approached the door cautiously, peeking through the looking hole and gasping once you saw that his frame was really there. The pale moonlight couldn’t soften the sharp lines of his body, a body that you knew all too well. 

You opened the door but left the glass storm door closed to see all of Toji without letting him inside. 

“Hey pretty, got anything to eat?” He grinned at you, the scar on his lip stretching wide. “Gonna let me in?”

“How did you find out where I live?”

“You might have forgotten the group but they keep tabs on everyone. Even ex-members,” he said tiredly, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. It brought goosebumps to your skin knowing that you were never really free. You just found a larger cage. 

“It’s kinda cold out here,” he said and shook your door handle. Against your better judgment you unlocked it to let him in. His heavy boots echoed on the tile floor, his frame filled the door before fully stepping inside. He whistled once he was shelled from the nipping wind outside. “Nice place,” he picked up a porcelain pumpkin that you had sitting on a decorative table you had. He carefully put it back down and gave you a wolfish smile. “I’m starving.” 

“I might have something,” you mumbled and pushed past him to the dining area. He followed close behind and you were suddenly aware of how many times you were blinking. When you reached the table Toji saw the food that was still left out there and cocked his head to the side. 

“All this for me? You shouldn’t have.”

“Do you want to eat or not?”

“Seems like you were waiting for somebody else. Was it that boyfriend of yours?”

You felt your heart quicken in your chest. You were standing on the other side of the table, gripping the chair so hard you knuckles were devoid of color. 

“You know about him?”

“I know that you could do better,” he opened the covered plate that was meant for your fiance and picked at a potato wedge. “This is good. He’s really missing out.”

“Would that better be you?” You dared a glance at him and Toji stopped chewing. You saw his neck move as he swallowed the food in his mouth as he slowly made his way towards you. Your feet were cemented into the floor, blood rushing in your ears. 

“Do you think I’m better? I know that I can fuck you just how you like it,” Toji smirked. He pulled you closer to his body by your waist and you saw his face up close. He looked the same after all this time, even though it has only been five years since you decided to up and leave. Your eyes carefully traced his features. The deep eyes, his thick eyebrows, his full lips. They were forever etched into your mind.

Toji brushed a stray hair strand out of your face and frowned. “What happened to the curls? You swore that you would never straighten your hair.”

“I wanted to try something new,” you murmured. You tried to push his hand away but he just held your chin instead, forcing you to look up at him. You held his gaze but couldn’t name what emotion swam in his eyes. His hands were like hot brands searing through your clothes and you weren’t sure how much more of it you could take.

“Why’d you leave?”

It was the question that has plagued him for years. You left him, and he was so sure that it would be the other way around. He felt blindsided by your disappearance, and it bothered him more than he thought it would.

“I found someone,” you started, looking everywhere but Toji. “He made me feel good. Normal. Like I could start over,” you said quietly. The only other sound that could be heard were the ticks of your clock deep inside the house. 

“Is that so?” He murmured. You gave a slight nod but still avoided his eyes. “Is this the house you two share?”

“Yes...”

“But he’s not here. Where is he, baby?”

That was the million dollar question wasn’t it. You had no idea where your fiancé was, and he could walk in at any moment, but you couldn’t push Toji away. 

“I’ve seen the both of you together, you know? He looks like he’s got a stick up his ass, but any dumbass with eyes can tell that he cares for you, which only makes me fucking sick.” 

He leaned into your face, the hold on your chin growing tighter, and you forced yourself to look at his eyebrows instead of his intense eyes.

“Did you really move on from me that quickly? After everything we’ve been through?”

You thought about how you called Toji’s number hundreds of times during the first year. You all used burner phones in the group, and you knew the rotation. You knew that it would be a deadline but it was one of the few things you still had of his, and you clung to it for as long as you could. 

“I needed to. You should leave. We- We can’t do this,” you whispered. 

“Do you even mean that?” 

Toji held your waist tight and leaned down to kiss you. Your body froze up as he pressed his lips against yours, but he didn’t push it any further. He rested them on top of yours, waiting for you to push him away but you never did. Like a moth to a flame his soft touch only drew you in closer. You clutched the fabric on his chest like a lifeline and returned the kiss, gingerly wiping your tongue into his mouth.

You realized in that moment that the time spent away was fruitless. His lips were never forgotten and you moaned into his mouth. Toji took it as a good sign, tipping your head back to deepen the kiss. His large hand rested on the base of your neck, wrapping his fingers around your throat and slowly inching up until your heart was rapidly pulsing against his palm. You grabbed his shirt in your fist. If you were a better person you would push him away. You would push him away and tell him that you weren’t going to do this to your fiance, because you loved him very much, because you were going to get married in a few weeks, and you would tell him to leave.

That was the plan in your head, but Toji’s tongue explored your mouth and  everything in your head melted. You felt drunk off the kiss, sliding your other hand into the back of his head and kissing him harder. Then it was Toji’s turn to moan, pushing you back until you hit the dining table. Your hand shot out behind you to catch yourself, breaking the kiss for only a second, but he used that time to attack your neck. Heavy gasps left your lips while he sucked on the junction of your neck, and he eased you to sit on the table, spreading your legs so that they would wrap around his waist. You busied your hands with the task of pushing off his jacket, then warmed your fingers over his chest, searching for an opening to take off his clothes. You felt feral, an aching hunger for this man that you can’t shake off no matter how hard you try. 

“It’s like you’re trying to eat me alive, pretty,” Toji groaned when you decided to sink your teeth in his shoulder. It’s true, that’s all you wanted to do when you were around him, but he was acting as though his fingers weren’t petting the wetness that soaked your panties. He was teasing you, applying pressure to everywhere except where it mattered, and you looked up at him with watery eyes. He loved that look on you, so needy. On the verge of tears. He took your lips again, shoving your dress up at your waist and slipping your underwear off in one fluid movement that made you gasp. He pocketed the undergarment instead of throwing it across the room. You mumbled something on his lips to scold him but it was lost as soon as his fingers plunged inside of you, singeing all coherent thoughts in your mind up in smoke. 

Toji’s mouth never left your skin. If they weren’t on your lips, he was nibbled at your ear, or sucked on your collarbone, or kissed your shoulder, all while keeping a steady pace of fucking you with his hand. With only two fingers in your pussy he was on the fast track to making you come on his fingers. Labored breaths heaved out of your mouth as he continued to scissor his fingers in your sex and circle your clit with his thumb. He crooned into your ear, saying words that you have been dying to hear because you were too embarrassed to tell your fiancé what you really wanted, making your first orgasm sugary sweet despite his filthy words. 

“You’re gonna make a mess all over the table,” he chuckled, pulling his hand out for a moment to see your essence webbing in between your fingers. He brought it up to his mouth, salaciously licking his hand clean all while keeping eye contact with you. “I’m not saying your cooking isn’t good but nothing’s beating this.” 

You shifted uncomfortably on the table, your sex missing his fingers as it clenched around nothing. He stuffed the fingers he just cleaned into your mouth, surprising you for a moment but you knew what to do. You could still taste yourself on his skin. Sucking his fingers made you want more, and you moaned as he slightly thrusted them deeper into your mouth. 

“You’ve been needing me this bad? Looks like I don’t even have to fuck you,” he smirked. “Are you going to get off from a couple of fingers in your mouth?” You wished that you had some pride left in you, but you didn’t, not when it came to Toji, so you nodded and groaned just like he expected you to. Heat bloomed from your core and you grind your hips on the table. He pulled his fingers out of your mouth with a pop, then grabbed your throat and smashed his lips against yours. Blindly following suit, you held him as tight as you possibly could, your head getting lightheaded from the lack of air. With his hand still on your neck he slid you off of the table to stand up straight. It was almost too hard of a task for you to do. Your sex ached almost painfully, just hoping that he would give you anything. When he parted from your mouth, you stared at his spit covered lips and felt hazy. 

“On your knees, pretty,” he whispered, and like there were magnets on the floor you dropped down to the cool tile. Toji’s bulge was eye level, and you carefully tugged on his zipper to try to free him. When you pulled his length out of his pants, the tip was a raging pink with a bead of precome sitting on top. You pumped your hand around him, looking up with reverent eyes as his eyelashes fluttered from your touch. There was no preamble with your mouth as you took him in as far back as you could. Unlike Toji, you weren’t one for teasing. Not in this state. You filled your mouth with him, not stopping until your nose was tickeled by the hair on his pelvis. Toji watched you in awe as you gagged on his cock. Your hands tightened around his thighs, clenching him tighter when you were having a hard time breathing. 

Toji couldn’t resist himself when he took his hand and pushed you down his length. He was so overwhelmed with the feeling of your tongue on the underside of his cock and how you were still gently massaging his balls that he got a little angry. Angry at the fact that you’ve probably done the same thing with your so-called fiancé. He got to see your tear stained face at this angle too and it pissed Toji off the more he thought about it. 

“I could fuck any hole of yours and you’d be happy with that,” he sneered when he held you flush against his pelvis. Your nails dug into his skin but you didn’t tap him, letting him know that he’s going too far. He watched your eyes blow wide and pulled your mouth off of his cock. Only enough to let you breathe, a line of spit still attached to the tip, before sliding you right back down. He did that over and over again until your lips were swollen and drool ran down your chin. Toji felt himself on the precipice of an orgasm and dragged you off and up to his face again, wanting to come somewhere much better than your mouth. Who knows, if you let him stay the night he would give you a pearl necklace for all of your troubles. His hand found your neck again when he melded his lips to yours. From the waist down you were making an embarrassing mess between your legs, one that grew more and more apparent when Toji petted through your drenched folds. 

“Toji, if you’re going to fuck me do it now,” you nearly growled. He roughly turned your around to suck on the junction of your neck. You reached back to hold him close to your body, panting when his hand roamed over the fabric of your dress and kneaded your breast. The heat of his cock seared your lower back and you slipped back into incomprehensible, amorous need for him. You wanted to spread your legs wide for him, but he bent you over the table and bracketed his legs around yours. 

“I need you to understand…” he started, rubbing his length between your ass. You hissed at the movement but tears started to gather in your eyes. The tablecloth bunched tightly in your hands from frustration. You needed him to just ram inside but he wanted to fuck with your first. “…that you were never his. This pretty little pussy was always mine, right?” 

The reason why Toji didn’t let you open your legs just yet was to fuck the inside of your thighs. The tip of his cock rubbed against your aching clit when he slid between you. Your cunt covered him with slick, making it easy for him to slip in between, but the more he thrusted the more of your dignity began to chip away. 

“I bet you still have the pictures we took together. How many times have I fucked you dumb till you cried, baby?” 

“So many times, Toji,” you whined, wiggling your hips to match his hips. “I missed you so much just do something.”

A sharp sting surprised you from behind. Toji smacked your ass hard, then pulled the crown of your scalp to deepen the arch in your back. The table clattered beneath you, and you whimpered at his voice now deep in your ear. 

“Does he know how much of a slut you can be? Begging for another man to fuck you in the home you share together.”

“You haven’t fucked me yet so maybe I’m not that bad,” you spat out. A deep chuckle escaped Toji’s mouth, one that ran down your spine and settled in your tiptoes. You attempted to look back to him but he shoved his cock deep inside of your walls and you froze. It was familiar and new, too much but not enough, all at the same time. Your head dropped and you once again tugged at the table cloth to try to steady yourself but it was futile. Toji barely gave you anytime to adjust from his size before pulling out and slamming back into you. He was longer and thicker than your fiancé, and your future husband never fucked you with such vigor. 

Toji’s hand bruises your hips with his hands, driving his cock deeper than anything that has been inside of you since you’ve been with him last. Staccato sobs rise from your throat and echo around the house. Toji fucks you with reckless abandon, barely holding on since you had used your mouth on him first. He missed this view of you. The curve of your back that had dimples for his thumbs made it impossible for him to control himself. Watching your pussy swallow him was a beautiful sight. He would make sure that you would never forget this night, or dare try to forget about him ever again. 

“Did he ever fuck you, pretty? You’re about to snap my dick in half.”

“D-don’t talk about h-him right now,” you struggled to speak when Toji was churning your insides. 

“You’re right. It doesn’t matter what he did because I did it first and I’m doing it better,” he laughed. Toji was laughing while you squeezed your eyes shut and tried to focus on your breathing. As if he wasn’t reaching the end of you well enough, he lifted one of your legs to rest on the table and crowded over you. His palms stretched out on the table near yours, caging you in and filling your senses with him. Toji was encompassing your whole being and you failed at holding yourself up when he rubbed the spot deep inside of you just right. A violent orgasm threatened to rip through you and Toji could tell. He knew your body so well that he snaked his hand down to you with your clit once again. Stars burst in your vision and you hunched over. 

“I’m about to come,” you rushed out, like that meant anything to him. It was scary how well your body took him, but it was going to end as quickly as it started because Toji needed you to come first. Your swollen clit was going to be the death of you since he focused on it so intently while you begged nonsensical things from him. It all fell on deaf ears because the rhythmic sound of his hips slappingyour ass fueled him to go harder. 

“I’m going to fuck you so good you’ll feel be for days,” he grunted, nearing the end himself. He felt a tightness in his lower back that couldn’t be ignored. He slowed his strokes to focus on precision, aiming to curve right against your g spot and felt triumphant when your legs quivered even harder. 

“Toji fuck fuck fuck—“ You begged for him to slow down but he wouldn’t do that, not when he was so close to a mind blowing orgasm himself. You were shaking and sucking him in when your orgasm took you that he wildly fucked you with all he had left and then some until his legs felt sore. His hips pistoled into yours, emptying his come deep inside and he stood over you for a moment. Toji’s cock filling you up nearly sent you over again. Nothing he could do would ever be enough, but when your breathing and his slowed down the weight of what you did came down on you with a suffocating gravity. 

Toji carefully pulled out of you and stared at the mess he made. Your ass and thighs had a slight red undertone, your sex dripping from both of your orgasms. He wanted to take a picture of it, something that he has done before, but from the way you got off the table he knew that you were putting your walls back up. He tucked himself back in his pants and tried to take your arm to help you steadily sit in a chair but you swatted his help away. 

“Get out,” you said quietly. He thought he misheard you since your face was covered by your hair but you repeated yourself louder. 

“You’re kicking me out?” He asked incredulously. 

“God, Toji don’t you understand? I left you for a reason. I can’t— we can never do that again.” You adjusted your dress on the chair and tried to ignore the way you could feel his come making the fabric wet. 

“Are you mad that we did it or are you mad that you liked it?” Toji stood in front of you with sharp eyes. You couldn’t look at him because he would drag the truth out of you, and the answer was both. You couldn’t believe you gave in so easy and you were mad at how good it felt to be with him again. How pathetically you gave into his whims. You still had an unreasonably soft spot for him despite all of your efforts and you hated it. 

“If you know what’s best for you you’d leave,” you said dully. Toji ran his hand through his hair and paced shortly in front of you. You weren’t budging on your stance. You stared through him, past him like he wasn’t even there anymore. He scoffed, heading towards the door behind you and grabbing the handle. Before he left, you heard him say one last thing to you. 

“We will always take you back. The organization needs someone like you.”

“They have you.”

“I need you.” Those three words nearly broke your resolve. You almost turned around and left with him, leaving everything here behind. But you didn’t. You stayed at the dining table until you heard the front door open and shut. After sitting in silence for what seemed like ages you cleaned up the mess you made feverishly. A gnawing guilt started to eat you from the inside and you called your fiancé one last time. 

“The number you are trying to reach is unavailable at this time. Please leave a message at the tone.”

“I did something that you should never forgive me for , so the wedding’s off. I’ll put the ring on the dresser. I’m leaving. I’m sorry.” 

[h3115er]

Arriba (not a fic)

Just finished watching the ateez live for cochella. And I can't tell you how happy this makes me feel. Having a specifically Mexican saying (one that I've heard a lot of) made me so happy.

I had to take a moment after watching it cuz it made me so happy. I usually don't relate to many Mexican things in media cuz it's not common or a thing from where I'm from. But this one, this one I actually have heard and have yet to do and it just makes me so happy.

The pure joy and representation I felt. It is hard to as a Latin kid to find things that represent what you grew up with. Especially since Latin is such a wide spand of Spanish speaking. To find one that relates to your roots specifically. Even if it is something silly as the drinking culture, it's a big thing from where I lived so it hits hard. (In a good way. I wanna live the joy my family had when drinking out)

I'm so excited for the next tour (which jongho teased will be in the summer) and just rahhh. I'm so happy. This whole performance was so good too.

Thanks for comeing to another tedtalk.

Side note: yeosang would look so pretty doing some salsa, especially dancing with a taller woman. Omg him dancing jarabe tapatio. Ooo oooo my brain is running. I'm having thoughts.

[plumadot]

Rahhh!!! I'm so happy you like the songs I picked! I'm gonna keep curating it and adding (and maybe removing) songs.

A lot of the songs I added because I just liked imaging him sing on stage (like Pike Trickfoot) some that I thought just FIT for him (everything I ever thought I knew) and songs that fit both (Burn Butcher Burn). And then I had to throw some romantic songs in there too -v-

I LOVE your interpretations so much!!! Thank you thank you thank you for giving it a listen and then talking about the songs!! Made me feel so happy and seen :D

i saved the playlist so i can keep checking it out hehe!!! :D

you are SO right kgfdjkgjf i feel like he'd absolutely write little songs about people they meet on their journeys... he'd find the things about them that make them special and make sure they'll be remembered through his songs!!!!!!!!!!

gfdkgjkfdg i love music and i love big brain ideas so receiving a combination of those is really fun :D :D :D i love that you think about my au or my art at all it makes me feel seen too :D

[inconsideratekidney]

10/17/24

hey gamers,

i wanna be a gamer, i wanna be up in here gaming on a thursday afternoon, double-monitored up, hella snacks.

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yoohoo big summa blowout. it's fall and it's amazing. loving my sweater moments because i exist in sweater weather. it is a time for seasonal depression, but also for cute and bulky sweaters! my favorite accessory. I consider them accessories because they are very much a part of my outfit. i am my outfit. i am the main attraction. just kidding...the sweater is the main attraction, i'm not that egotistical...

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anyway....i don't have much to say to be honest. i have talked to people and had my fill of spill-ing out my brain. i am content with my state of mind right now (i have no big assignments due tonight or tomorrow night). i am stressed about next week with 2 midterms and more big work coming in.

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the adhd brain is such an interesting thing--how can one be so distracted and yet not be able to distract oneself when necessary? trauma is one thing, but intrusive thoughts are so dumb and stupid. why have a brain if it can't function well enough to do what you tell it to do?

figures, i have so much on my plate and so much death in mind. my uncle's, my friend from high schools--which makes me think of the students last year who died and all others, and liam payne from one direction???? like what???? that's crazy. i can't strip that down for him the same anymore. wtf. like i can't take death in general, but this one is so different. it's like when cameron boyce died. so young and so out of the blue. i was shocked when i heard the news and it's just so terrible. fucking TMZ, ofc they posted a partial picture of his body, like wtf. no composure/demeanor like my interpreting gang knows. just odd behavior.

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i am into watching House MD and honestly it's so interesting. my mom was on general hospital and dr. quinn medicine woman, which i'm sure no one knows about and probably one other show i can't remember, but i am into House right now. i like the dynamic, for now, and might get sick of it soon, though, cause i've been watching it a lot lately and might be overindulging. it's whatever. the show is witty and informative. i enjoy seeing the ways that the doctors develop their personalities and i wish there was a bit more drama relating to each of the doctors, but it's mainly about house and his group of doctors. oh shwell. maybe i am more into drama hospital shows than i thought. my youtube shorts feed sure thinks i am (and i keep liking them). i hate algorithms sometimes.

i have been instagram-free for a couple of years now! and tik tok free for some handful of months! but i am terribly addicted to youtube shorts.....

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rock, paper, scissors, says shoot! i picked scissors what did you pick

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give me good recommendations for a laptop. i will bother everyone about this. i want a good computer that runs windows. pretty pls. my computer is giving me such a headache and i hate it. just anything with windows and that is somewhat light and somewhat cheap pretty pls. :prayer hands:

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rawr. i am the evil tiger of the wicked west. i will be taking all of your cookies. mwhahahhhahhaahhaha. om nom nom. they're mine now and in my belly. mmmm mmmmm. yummy.

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i need a brain break. rahhh hiyaa.

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tips on how to go insane?

step one: exist

step two: do life

step three: repeat.

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td:lr?

um, not much folks.

not much this time

gamer

(sweat)er

talking and death

house md and addiction

lappytoppy

mushy brain

sanity

need a break, goodnight

kD :3

[lazyauthor9000]

HELLOOO JAIII <33 HOPE YOUR HAVING A GREAT DAY/NIGHT WHEREEVER YOU ARE 💗 SINCE REQUESTS ARE OPEN (and CJ's @tempons) last request gave me an idea!!

how about a GN!readee who's April's sister? what would the rise boys (platonic) relationship be with them?

- jay !! 🫀

A/N: THIS IS SUCH A CUTE IDEA RAHHH!! I hope you have a swell day as well wherever you are!! 🧡

Pairing: Rise!Turtles x GN!Sibling!Reader

Genre: Platonic, lots of Fluff

Type: Headcanon

Warnings: Turtle brothers being turtles

Reader: Gender-neutral

| April's sister and the Rise boys |

Raphael:

Your relationship with Raph is really good to say the least

You liked watching him train, you thought he looked really cool and so you looked up to him

You couldn't participate in training because of the dangers of it, so you'd secretly reference the snapping turtle at home

You and Raph like to show off your stuffed toys

It makes Raph glad he isn't the only one who finds comfort in these small pillow animals

You climb on his back every now and then because of how tall he is

He freaks out because he doesn't want his spikes to hurt you

You reassure him and after a while, he got used to it and just lets you do it whenever

He tries not to crush you when he hugs you

You told him that head pats were just fine since it didn't require him to use much strength

He was still afraid but after a while, showing affection like this was acceptable to him

He was like your big brother now, taking care of you just like he does to his brothers

He invites you over with April to watch Lou Jitsu since he wants you to be an even bigger fan than all of them

(And so they can decide which movie is better)

Leonardo:

The both of you got along well

TOO well

The two of you were just as chaotic to say the least

Pulling pranks, throwing jokes here and there just to annoy everyone

Leo was just glad he can share this energy with someone else

The both of you would have movie marathons almost everyday when you could

Lou Jitsu and Jupiter Jim movies were a must

If you recommended a movie, he would watch it and give you his feedback on how awesome it was

It's rare, but he lets you take some of his most valuable comic books so you can read them in your free time to catch up so he can rant all about it to you

The both of you were inseparable

It sometimes even made April rant about how Leo was taking you away from her, and that you might even replace her with him someday

Leo would boast about it and would even ask if you can watch him skateboard just so he can show off how cool he is

Leo's notifications at 4 AM would wake you up and you wouldn't be able to fall back asleep

You'd both end up sending each other memes or videos that you thought were funny

He'd eventually start calling you "Little sis" just to annoy April, and it worked!

Donatello:

He's too smart

His brain is far too complicated to get along with

But of course, you found your way around and actually became good friends with the boy

When you couldn't get something on your homework, you'd ask him for help

He doesn't mind of course, he actually enjoys his time spent with you even if he never shows it

Since he does not like what he calls "Togetherness", he usually pats you on the head with his hook he created to say "Good job" when you got something correct

You'd sometimes sneak into his lab to watch him make his new inventions

He doesn't seem to mind as long as you don't interrupt him

He'd sometimes even go on a rant on how he makes them

He's actually really glad someone appreciates his work seeing as you never judged or looked bored with how much he talked about his inventions

Even if you don't get what he's saying most of the time, you're really trying

He actually appreciates your help with taking care of Sheldon when he can't

You're like the little assistant he never knew he needed

Michelangelo:

This guy absolutely adores you

Mikey loves giving surprise hugs every time you're over

He invites you over almost everyday to draw or paint with you

And even if you didn't draw, he'd teach you or tell you whatever you create is art

He likes cooking with you since it's his hobby

Running around and having fun in the kitchen is definitely something he enjoys when spending time with you

He of course cleans up the mess afterwards with your help

He absolutely loves teaching you how to cook so you can make it for yourself later on

When you get permission to stay over, he'd make a pillow fort with you and grab his tablet to watch Stock Boy's new scary videos

You'd both go into the arcade room to beat each other's scores

He'd go easy on you, but that was only sometimes since he's just too nice

He is the therapist of the family, so if you need to talk, he's there

You'll receive Dr. Feelings, or Dr. Positive depending on the situation

Seeing Dr. Delicate touch was rare, he doesn't want to scare you away with the truth

He likes to draw you stickers and make you pins, so please do put them on your phone case or backpack so it's visible to the eye

He really likes sharing his creations with you <3

| A/N: I'll need to look this over later, my brain is sizzled with no more brain cells. Please point out any mistakes I made cause I'm sure there's some |

[sugar-omi]

RAHHH IM THE ANON WHO SENT THE REJECTION ASK THANK YOU I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!! i dont think it was ooc at all!!! i absolutely love some good ol angst that was so perfect agsjdf mc and baxter who like each other but won't get together bc its only temporary but they meet again years later and finally can actually be with each other <33

IM GLAD YOU DIDNT THINK IT WAS OOC LOL i was wrapping it up at like 5am n i felt like smth was off but i think that was just my sleep deprived brain BUT YES YES YES

and baxter is very clingy when you're finally together

"we need to make up for lost time"

omg he takes you on dates to those same places again so you "experience it as a couple"

he's very sweet too, he'll make you breakfast n bed and i think he's a very big cuddler in public though the most he'll do is hold your hand, wrap an arm around you, or his favorite: lock arms with you.

but in moments of excitement or tenderness he'll kiss your cheek and he might even steal a quick kiss <3333

[bonesandthebees]

IM STILL EXCITED ABOUT ROSE DJDJDJD

and maybe even more now that im reading priory (look at me finally noticing its not priority after all this time lol) im just really in the royalty vibes yk and would love to read more of rose

but at the same time im reading priory so, ive got over 700 pages still to go (and a whole sequel/prequel thing that I believe is longer) so I dont mind waiting at all

(also finding out priory is shorter than stars is fucking with my brain like its THAT long???)

and about priory, thats a big book with big words and im struggling ngl, definitely the hardest thing ive read in english (and ive read the iliad and odyssey)

but its so cool, im enjoying all the court things and the hierarchy and religions and just about everything, also DRAGONS

this book talks about periods and now I have undying respect for the author

anyway, good luck with any writing (original work is cool af so write whatever you feel like), but dont stress about constantly putting something out

sending love to yall <3

part of the reason I read priory in the first place was because I wanted to read more royalty fantasy stories as research for writing rose. then I fell in love with samantha shannon's world so that was a bonus but yeah I just love royalty vibes I love reading them and I love writing them it's just so good rahhh

god. finding out stars was longer than priory also broke my brain. wdym I wrote that much. what's wrong with me.

I can imagine priory would be really difficult to read if english isn't your first language. there were a few words in it I didn't even know and I'm a native english speaker. I hope it's not too difficult that you can't enjoy it though because it's such an incredible story. I absolutely adore the exploration of religion and differences in religious myths and how myths like that can get distorted over time it's such an interesting subject

YES IT ALSO TALKS ABOUT PERIODS!! samantha shannon never shies away from mentioning things like periods and how the women in her stories deal with them and it's so refreshing. also, in a day of fallen night, one of our POV characters is a woman in her 50s and very early on there's a mention of how she's dealt with menopause which was also incredibly refreshing like yes these are real things women deal with that are just never talked about it's so nice to see them just casually mentioned!

thank youuu I'm trying not to put stress on myself but I feel bad :((( it's ok I'm taking my time

[sqtorux]

🫁 hello friend! i only have one (1) thing due tonight so i fully caught up on your works as a means of procrastinating <3 this ask is only about your two most recent posts for the sake of brevity + not spending too much time since i promised myself to get back on the grind after sending this lmao

‘fuzzy menace’ … my favourite thing is asking you to guess my fav parts even though 1) you’re never given an opportunity to guess and 2) it’s always the same characters. anyways it’s nanami and toji. 

“what’s this gentleman doing on my side of the bed i wonder?” fdkshfds ,,, great start tbh and it’s SO NANAMI. nanami tends to be (understandably!) portrayed very seriously, so seeing a more playful (albeit still stoic) side of him here was a pleasure <3 he sounds a little teasing too ?? my lord. the first line is obvi my fav but “absolutely. how outrageous.” is a close second !! short but sweet, and his voice is so strong through out it <3 look at my man watch him go!

toji is the complete opposite in energy and i fw it so much. reader and toji are always giving each other soo much shit (even if on this occasion it’s predominantly him). the switch from toji to bald toji is so … it’s so him but it was truly awful to witness. i have 1 (many) fear(s) and it’s my fav character getting hit with the jason todd special (ugly haircuts. usually a buzzcut.) toji is realising my worst nightmare rn.”fuck does he think he is smirking like that on your bed” he’s so dumb LMAO. look at that little hypocrite go.

‘look at you go’. guess my fav parts. one day i’m going to make you guess and not tell you and comment on every individual piece. it’s suguru and toji.

now is it any surprise i’m in love with suguru … “can you dance again for me princess?” i’m not even big on pet names but lordy lord hello saviour. fun fact but i LOVE dancing even though i haven’t taken lessons since i was 13 (i’ve been considering picking it back up ?? i’m not sure though, i feel like since i’m an adult it’s too late to get back into old hobbies i’ve fallen out of and take lessons, yk? plus it's so expensive ...) having that shit recorded would be mortifying i don’t blame reader in these pieces at all. “you’ll keep asking if i give in just once” to “then you can give in again and again yeah?” kill me RIGHT NOW. oh my lord. i would give in too.

sorry i would write on toji but !! ugh my brain is fried. you can probably tell since there’s a lot of personal interjections this time ,,, also suguru has been haunting my brain the past week. i want to write something for him so bad but i’ve had no ideas ?? it’s so annoying. also i’ve been too busy with schoolwork to sit down and write anything

looking back. god this ask is so long.

RAHHH ITS LUNG ANON

you're ... reading,, my shit.. during a break... THATS A HUGE HONOUR GR breaks are for only the most enjoyable stuff bc it's limited and the impeding doom of working awaits but you chose to read the stuff here omfg i will scream at your face (lovingly).

if you made me guess your faves id always go with the big three (suguru, nanami and toji) bc i know you like wdym anon we've known each other since our uterus debutation obviously.

ALSO YOU DANCE let's gooo!!! i do too and just like you, i haven't danced in a while but im broke as fuck so im self taught filming covers back in those days ah. hobbies as an adult are so hard for real, adulting is hard where is the return ticket i would like to be a tween again i know what to do this time. i think.

maybe when your workload becomes a little lighter you could type out the suguru thoughts plaguing your mind ;)

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[godslino]

Hey thereee

So girl who decided to intricately tell you what she thinks about your writing is back RAHHH IT'S EVEN BETTER THIS TIME!?

what the hell was piece by piece.

I had an exam like a couple of hours ago (😧 changed the trajectory of my life fr) and after I finished studying for it yesterday, I wanted to take some time off and relax, decided to go through your work and god am I happy that I did so.

I asked you this the last time as well, but I'll ask you again.

How.

Do.

You.

Write.

So.

Well.

Like Minho Stan or not, this was such a giggly, leg kicking, blushing little story that has been presented so freaking well. Every one has been written so well like the way you decided to do the little 'dude is that the good pizza from down the street' like RAHH THE WAY I STARTED CACKLING.

You presented the characters so well, their relationships so well and what I love love LOVEEEE are the little details authors add to stories. Some that I noticed in piece by piece:

"No fornicating on the furniture" LIKE A HSVSHSHHAHSAHA STOP.

"princess" 😋😋🫶

"A man after my heart" I'm GIGGLING HEHEHE

Word like 'saccharine' and 'rabbiting' like mwahh your vocab is so sexy dude.

The way Minho is so shyyyyy like this is the first little fic I think I've seen in which Minho gets THIS SHY. (I'm whipped for shy Minho stfu)

And now the drumroll please *🥁🥁*

THE STORY.

😋😋😋

Me throughout the plotline:

I wanna eat this shit up, like this fic is so me, so what I want to read after lots of stress, so I just fried my brain up but this makes it a hundred times better, so BEAUTIFUL.

So all over, I just wanna say a BIG thankyou for bringing a smile to my face even when I was sitting in the exam hall, still thinking about this sweet baby of a story.

MWAHH THANKYOU LOOVEEE

would you think i was crazy if i said this review made me cry?? BECAUSE IT DID.

first, i’m honored that you chose to read my work as a reward for studying like oh my god. that’s one of the most rewarding things FOR ME as a writer it gives me all the warm fuzzies in my little author heart.

second, i LOOOOVE piece by piece. there is a very soft spot that i have for shy boy minho, mostly because i don’t really see him written that way. if you ask me, i think he’s the most shy out of all the skz members when it comes to anything related to dating. soft, gentle, etc. so please expect him to be written like that 9/10 times when you read my stuff bc i’m one of his biggest advocators.

and third, one of my favorite parts about writing is making it personal not only to the reader but also to the characters. i LOVE adding bits and pieces that serve as some sort of a call-back to something that happened earlier on or just better portray their humanity because i find that it’s easier to create a connection with the story and have it create a lasting effect. and i’m SO HAPPY that was the case here.

i seriously can’t thank you enough for your feedback, it helps me be not only a better writer but a better person. you are an amazing human and i bet you ROCKED that exam. i remember how much i dreaded tests in college so this is me sending you all the good vibes for a kick ass score 🫶

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOUUUU FOR EVERYTHING!!

all the love, ina 🤍

[cluepoke-archive]

Not an ask, but tell me more about your princess bride au with magica and gladstone please 👀, anything you want (lore, characters, wacky shenanigans you thought of, etc)

RAHHH I think it deviates from the og plot quite a bit,,, magica is the dread witch despell of course and so I think theirll be more of a wizard of oz witchy thibg going on their rather than pirates! The only other bit of info I amde up about it before it ejected itself from my brain is that jose and panchito are inigo and fezzik and they were hired by glomgold to kidnapp gladstone for his luck hehe. I don't think the arranged marriage deal would be a big thing idk how that would work since I feel like scrooge should be the king guy? So theirs no evil prince just an angry uncle because his nephew went an ran off with some witch and is beating up his arch enemy dbsksk

[0-dear-rose-0]

OMG what got you into your favourite ships? I love asking people that are newer that get into smaller ships, because it's a lot easier to get into the bigger ones I think x)

Back like in 2018 I was a big style shipper, and I still like it BUT RAH k2 will still always be FAVORITE ship

I agree getting into bigger ship is a lot easier because there's a lot more content made for that ship (im dying over here oughh)

Tbh I cannot remember for the life of me how I first got into K2 but now they've taken over my life. I think their dynamic is really interesting because they are opposites while also still having many similarities and you can do SO much with it. ( also can be like a Romeo and juliet situation WHICH UNFORTUNATELY I am a complete sucker for)

Especially Kysterion, I like to imagine it a lot like Mary Jane and Spiderman because Arghh idk it just scratches my brain so good.

Stendy and Creek are the standards so uh I don't have much to say about them

I ship sooo many rarepairs it's actually insane but I just think 😭 THYED BE CUTE RAHHH

Ever since that cupid ye ep came out I was thinking wow, tolkien and kyle could work LIKE I think they'd be compatible. They're similar in like their ambitions so I'd think they'd get along really well 😭 ans then I think that maybe they should kiss IDK lmao

[fairyhaos]

squeeee helu im back (>᎑<๑)/♡ good morning when u see this yena ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)

so shua being rosy pink. u r the only correct person actually. i never rly thought about him being pink but it fits him so well 'm gonna cry ! ! n i was so looking forward to this post bcs remember when u told me that shua’s n hannie’s colours (silver n pastel pink) rly align w the colours you have for the both of them ? it didn't make a lot of sense then but wahh this is so beautiful n i can't even begin to tell u how u hit the mark w joshua. especially here: "he's rosy pink, like new love, like young love, like precious love" like first of all my gosh that was so sweet ! ! it made me smile so big (＾▽＾) so so cute !

to me shua is someone who is impossible not to fall in luv with,,, n i think he's truly made for the (childhood) friends to lovers trope so i love how u focused on warmth, tenderness, n youthful love. it's so fitting n he rly is the embodiment of rosy pink ! ! n the rest of ur piece too rahhh 'm obsessed w ur writing i wish i could eat it ૮₍ ˃ ⤙ ˂ ₎ა also i think it was 🍒 anon that was like shua's rly lucky to have someone thinks about him like you do n wahh i couldn't agree more,,, i felt the luv bleed thru all ur words <3

this post ended up being one of my faves (along w cheol, hannie and hansol's,,, maybe even hao and dokyeom bwesjehsj) but has anyone requested for jun or jihoon ? ? 'm so curious about what colours they're going to be heh >:3 ooo also lmk if you wanna read my silver piece ? it's a lil goofy rip but i would luv to hear ur thoughts on it (∩˃o˂∩)★

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aaa hellooo my lovely wind chime anon i hope your day is going well ^^

hehe oh my god you're the sweetest pls thanku sm !! haha yeah i was kinda talking about the fact that the colours you wrote for them were switched with what i thought 😭 so for me hannie was silver/diamond and shua was the pink one!

joshua is a very... a very light person to me? it sounds weird when i put it like that but he's just kind of floaty, kind of like youth and with a spring in his step and all those bright, youthful phrases and all. he def feels very friends to lovers :(( or even lovely stranger to friends to lovers omg !! the childhood f2l is reserved in my brain for junhui haha but you are very very right that it can fit him soooo well <3

wind chime anon i am So sad can you hear me crying oml both you and cherry anon are just. just so so sweet 💔 that seriously touches me to hear because i do just cherish that man so much (sigh)(sometimes i wonder why 🙄/j) and that just makes me so happy to hear :(

shu is just vv rosy pink to me and his, mingyu's, cheol's and hao's are the ones i can see most clearly but honestly,,, same jhdhhd im also just particularly in love w the ones you picked out!! i probably told you already haha but jeonghan was so hard for me to see but then it just CLICKED and his became one of my favorites

someone requested jun about a week ago i think? so i have his written and woozi's has just been requested the other day so ill get to writing that soon ^^

and duh is that even a question OFC ID LOVE TO READ IT GIMMEEEEE haha i hope you're doing well lovely!! <33

[fostopia]

Bear I’m going INSANE YOUR BRAIN IS SO BIG

the one time they r separated otherwise these goobers absolutely trail together; maybe Gabriel gets them split up?? their initial goal was to find each other again but then they’re forced to focus on just trying to survive ( idea where you can find the other victims— Mark, Cesar, Eve— and if you manage to help them get out you’ll get a secret ending‼️)

eve not being able to escape tho ough,,,,,I love her she’s silly. I have so many designs in mind to make RAHHh

resident Dave’s eyes r gone but he’s got super good hearing n shit?? SIX COMES OUT OF TECH (mostly TVs) N TRIES TO GRAB YOU??

I PROMISE I AM SANE <- LYING

like like like first there's The Beach, then The Town, and they have to traverse The Police Station and The Radio Shack and then the fricken Church all in between houses with their own dangers, and there's an added mechanic where food must be found and passed around or else the kids will get slower and weaker and ARHGHGH

johnny is a good kitty and can help distract enemies but jonah doesnt like it when he does that bc he wants the kitty kat to be safe aouugihgjf.........

i am normal. i am a normal bear. AUUUHGHG /POS

You are NOT about to make me brainrot my own designs/au istg /lh

Jonah would absolutely not want Jonny being a distraction he loves that little goober and he will keep him safe with every fiber of his being— then there’s Adam who’s fine with the distraction,,, ohhhh I should make Cesar n Mark designs.

OH OH AND THE ALTERNATES AS RESIDENTS?? GABRIEL AS A BOSS ENEMY?

[ngalu]

@silly-lil-scribbles

what if Ford and bill but Arthur and John?

I’ve only listened to a few episodes so far but this is a really cool idea….