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#qnd i just feel like im being a person i dont fucking like
nicodaws · 2 years
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. hi irls dont read this pls thanks . honestly no1 read this is so incoherent i just wanna put it somewhere bc im too in my head .
#tw whatever idk#tag later#or delete later idk#anyway hahahahha im feeling so fuckin . suicidal . again .#but like#at least im lowkey scared of it this tiem#idk ive been doin way mor drugs recently and ots kinda freaking me out when im sober bc i dont wanna be that person?#qnd i just feel like im being a person i dont fucking like#like im being mean when im high n tryna fix it sober and also being mean sober n tryna fix it and tryna not make my friend group fall apart#but also kinda the split btween ppl doin drugs n not doin em is half the reason its fallin apart#and my closest friends dont do a lot and im still closest w them but ik theres this split and#i just feel like im causin sm problems and#comedowns keep makin me miserable#oml tanent but had The Worst comedown from ket . and i had a homeless friend crashin w me(theyrehoused now nw) but they were there#and i was having the worst sensory overload misery . and was just sobbing and tellun them 2 fuck off#and it was SO HORRIBLE and i cant BELIEVE i put my friend through that like what the fuck was i thinking#and idk#im just rambling but im scared of addiction and i dont think im there yet but#i wanna be high coz i spenf all my time sober upset w myself#and its all makin my depression so bad and im broke as shit and im just#idk#sorry if u read this#dont worry abt me or anything ill be fine#cant fuck up too bad my mum n sibs will notice and im spending a lot of time worrying about what they would think of me rn#im just really really upset w myself rn i know i did bad on some coursework ik i couldve done well on#and ik im messing things up and ik im worrying my bf and my friends and i#just . idk. im just upset#anyway . yeah . sorry abt this rant
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watch-out-it-bites · 6 months
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he said he would stop bothering us since I apologized then like days after he goes on an alt and bothers, or what happened a week ago or so I HATE HIM HFHBBNNJhhrvrvrhhrrrjjjjjjj
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#don't let them see this!#i feel very hypocrite because i'm bad and disgusting and i shouldn't like#i shouldn't be mad at him for that because we're. so very alike.#and i hate that he influenced me and i influenced him and everytime i think of him i feel awful and dirty and bad#i feel like im the bad person and he was right#he hurt himself because of me and i feel. awful for it.#i want him to get better but he terrifies me still#i dont want him to hurt me because i know he could#and then theres the fact that i know it's my fault any of this happened or#just being. very disgusting about it all because fear responses#i hate how i know we both care about eachother in very different weird ways i#i am still very grossed out by some of his messages it makes me feel so ill whenever i read stuff from him#and i hate how hes right about so much and he only is because hes projecting#and because we're alike its judt#ashhghhhgj#i really fucking hate jude#scout speaks#i cant even say he ruined me regardless of how i feel because i was probably always like this#i wish i was a jellyfish#twins in paradise music has been very comforting and today has been very guilty and awful#guilty / shameful ?#why do i linger on this stuff why do i feel so scared hes going to get me why do i??? pluh..#its best not to linger on this qnd i do anyway because i think I'll be safer if i do and all it does is make me feel bad#the actual worst thing is thinking anyone i get close to is him or friends with him and secretly trying to get info on me or hurt me and!!#agh
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ah the bathtub scene, akin to what the shower scene is to slashers
#we love a bathtub scene#also i miss my haunted old house but im VERY glad i never faced that#the thing running across the dinning room at me was just not a favourite moments#but i miss my old house so so so much and i wish we could move back#but if my mum and i are leaving then why cant we live one of those ghost stories where the somewhat downtrodden mother and child move into#the ancient and shoddy home that has more than a few tragic secrets#or just the movie practical magic#GOD DAMN. ID LOVE TO LIVE ON LAND THAT HAS A BOAT HOUSE#FUCK#i just want a big old house again even if its haunted especially if its haunted#i love ghost stories but my god why do i feel the same loss of a woman in a gothic novel whos husband died at war#she haunts the house she wants him to haunt the house she wants what he never gave her the life they never got to have#i miss being around the spirits so much they soemtimes eased my heart better than any living person could#so why do i feel like the love of my life is already dead before i ever met him#im haunting the earth and i cant even find a home to haunt instead and i dont want to be dead anymore#i want the man who should love me but its hard to have faith he even stull exists when i fee the sorrow of losing him in a previous life#qnd the god awful pain of his funeral happening before mine#the sheer injustice of that orange sunset when they buried him and having to live without hin#for however short it was before i died too#ill never know if it was sickness or a cut on the wrist but i couldn't live without him and i still cant#i shouldn't have watched this episode#gothic horror destroys me usually in a good way but not this one this one just hurts#im more dead than alive i miss my ghosts#cabinet of curiosities#the murmuring#that was a perfect episode to end with and i want a series of stories just like that one
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wonderchesters · 2 years
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2haetls · 2 months
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could we get nsfw/kink hcs for jolyne and hermes with a dom!male s/o? please and thank you!!!
RAAAAHHH YEAAAHH!!!! im not that good with this so sorry
get you, jolymes
SMUT UNDER READ MORE MDNI🐺
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sketch info : jolymes seperate w male reader, smut hcs obvi, dom male reader, reader gets switchy in hermes' part, nsfw hcs.
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JOLYNE KUJO is kinda freaky, shes into whatever you're into unless you arent a fuckin creepo! oral is one of her fav things, esp receiving it. but she does a pretty good job giving it too. shes very vocal during sex too, praise and degradation go both ways, giving and receiving, and shes definitelygoing to let you know what she likes and doesnt like. another one of her kinks is shibari/bondage.. ahah, this almost has nothing to do with stone free. Public sex is a no, semi public is ehh cause i think shes very romantic and loving.
breeding is 100% her favorite thing. After spending so much time with emporio, she changes everything about her, and when shes around babies she just goes nuts. overstimulation is good too, but she doesnt like going too far. somnophilia is great too, especially when shes feeling too tired from playing and working, when you put it in it just drives her mad. she falls asleep so quickly with your soft voice and slow thrusts. and when youre both feeling pent up, makes it even better. she lasts very long and likes it rough, shell make sure its enjoyable for the both of you.
jolynes nipples are extremely sensitive, even more during sex. speaking of nipples, i think she would lactate not alot, but if its a day when shes leaking, shes gonna let you do the job for her. "fuck.. too much.." her moans are so cute too.
hair pulling is a yes, and so is body praise. again, she has a size kink, and her body is pretty small too. her slightly musculare frame makes it much better, if youre a big guy, hell yeah. belly bulge is insane, and she just breaks if you press on it softly. spit in her mouth and pull her hair, she again, is a freak. i think she would like being spanked, personally. but i dont know, knife play might be a better choice for her.
got no more ideas for girlie, sorry!
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(H)ERMES COSTELLO is not as freaky as jolyne, but shes still freaky.. fym youll give him your panties? Anyways
ermes' chest is most definitely sensitive, shes got them surgically altered, so be nice! she likes to get pretty risky too, doing it in public settings like the bathroom, by windows and changing stalls are a good way to get steam off. quickies will happen very very often, its not suprising either. i believe she has a very high libido, and its kinda hard for her to control it.
she likes riding you at first, making her seem dominant. but further in your relationship, she likes being more submissive cause its a struggle to be a bad bitch and be dominant at the same time. overstimulation goes hard, both giving and receiving, and shes good at giving head too. its the best, literally. kissing, no pun intended, is also really needed, she likes being taken care of no matter who you are.
Personally, personally me. i think she has like, big mouth space and no gag reflex, so have fun with that.
UGH IM SORRY I DONT WRITE FOR GIRLS IDK HOW
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wow this was an emotional rollercoaster i cried twice while writing it cause i didnt like how i wrote for them, sorry rqstr! im not good at writing girls qnd hcs
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obitv · 2 years
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OOOOO YOU WANNA SHARE UR WILLOW OUTFIT IDEASSO BAD (HYPNOTIZING YOU
HIII okok but feel free to ask for clarification because 90% of my doodles were Bad and also on the backs of my exam papers so i do not have them anyway so this is all just going to be words
her skirt is my fave thing.... obviously her only options for clothes that arent williams are whatever rosemary has so they look fairly similar on that front (qnd rosemary si the only other person willow can talk to right now and shed rather mimic her than william etc etc). she has a really long loose skirt that trails on the floor <3 it originally had a slit up the leg because 90% of rosemarys skirts have those but willow added a sortof mesh/fishnet covering so the slit is still There but you can't actually see thriugh it. the whole skirt is black and its like. silk i guess? something along those lines. theres also like... a sash type belt??? at the top? i dont know if it actually holds the skirt up or not but its there and it ties at on hip and the ends hang down and its cute
her top. is. ok hang on im getting a reference up because i want you to understand the visual here
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^ first ikage to show ehat it actually looks like and second image to show that you can put images on it . so yeah its the one of the left but instead of a sailor moon print its those fucking. 3 wolves in front of the moon print. you know the one. the sash is highwasited enough that it makes up for thr shirt being cropped. HOWEVERRRRR its not a tanktop like those ones its an off the shoulders top that connects to full length LONG AS FUCK SLEEVES!!!!! my girl has the most stupid inconvenientdraed sleeves of all time and i love them. she cant pick things up half yhe time ANYWAY so its not like she really needs her hands all the time so the excess fabric doesnt get in the eay all the time
also last part this ties into my william hcs but she has his piercings obvi but!! she swaps out the jewellery :3 she dyes the white streak red so to match that she swaps the snakbites out for red gems instead of the silver studs william wears
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psykoz · 2 years
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ok so some things that have happened at my job
- coworker said the r slur in front of me, a few others, and one of the front end managers. manager says nothing to stop it and in fact jusf laughs and agree w the overall statement (halloween costumes looked [r-slur]ed). this is significantly worse as not only am i (not openly at work for fear but pretty obviously) autistic, but the field we are working in is specifically with seniors with a specific type of mental and intellectual disability
- person who hired and trained me and is an assistant, also higher position not a manager technically but on the management team, learns i dont celebrate xmas thru an email i willingly send, totally fine. but days later, unprompted and unrelated, she str8 up asks why i dont celebrate and i feel the need to reveal some inkling of religious beliefs which i really do not want to do
- literally wont tell me half of the things i need to do/not do until after i fucked up anr get reprimanded. they never told me what the callout policy was, until after i recieved a write up for breaking it. they didnt tell me a security feature for someone had been updated, until i almost messed up SECURITY and a coworker had to tell me it had been changed. theres more but pointing out every time would get tedious and repetitive
- already blamed me once for having "too many missed calls" despite every one of those missed calls having been before my start time or after i am meant to clock out, some even having come past midnight or before 6am when im still hours away from even needing to be getting ready to clock in, outright admitting that it was more likely because their phone system isnt patching back to the after hour line, or after hours people are just not picking up the phone. and still called me in for a full 8 hour "training" shift where i spent well over 75% of the day sitting, not working OR training and thinking abt how much shit i needed to get done in my personal life and how wasteful this was, because of something out of MY control when im not even fucking clocked in.
- my bosses have all been on at least one vacation in the 3 months ive been here. despite being called, verbatim, "the last line of defense" and being in charge of peoples lives, having to potentially de escalate an angry senior if i tell them they arent allowed outside, and having to be around people that are dying at least one person every week or 2, i get no benefits and no chance to even accrue vacation or sick time. i would have never accepted a job with not benefits or sick or leave if they had explained to me the full scope of the stressors i have dealt with. i know for a fact my ptsd has gotten more severe after this job and i went thru a traumatic experience that i wont talk abt bc it was out of the hands of my job tbf, they couldnt have stopped it from happening, but i have still been exposed to multiple deaths and one event ive been unable to stop thinking about and fearing. they have never suggested grief counseling is available to any employee
- sometimes they put up fliers for mandatory meetings/trainings without sending any text/email about it. this sucks for so many reasons. i just may not see them, i have multiple disorders that give me memory issues so having a reminder on my phone would be helpful, qnd the worst of all: they have put up fliers on a day i wasnt working for a mandatory meeting, on a day i wasnt working, and i did not have another shift until 2 days AFTER the meeting that i didnt even know happened bc they didnt bother to let me know despite me being physically unable to see fliers if im NOT THERE.
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eissibee · 2 years
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I think I'm just especially fucked up tonight
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possum-tooth · 3 years
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being almost 21 and listening to 30.. kinda hate it here folks!
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liathgray · 4 years
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yes hi its me 💜💜💜 writnon 💜💜💜 which is still the cutest nickname and im glad you gave it to mee akdhsgsh
im never gonna say no if you ask if i want an example i love you and trust you and admire you So Much pls lemme see the Illegal Planning Spreadsheet
also a bitch is nonbinary (agender or voidgender but im still ??? about which cuz 🌟 voidgender 🌟 but also 🎊 agender 🎊 yknow???? i think voi/void pronouns are The Shit which honestly makes me feel like im leaning towards voidgender but who knows ill figure it out eventually qkdhdgk) anyway the point is im currently going by they/them pronouns if you dont mind!!!
p sure thats everything i wanted to say? im still: chugging along with that spreadsheet outline but its really helped me keep track of everything yhat goes everywhere!!! 🤩🤩🤩 so thats good
as always theres no pressure to qmswer i hope youre doing well oMG i just remembered: i got accepted into the uni i applied to!!!! so ill hopefully be transferring there in the fall if all goes well 😃😃😃😃
qldjdhsk alright Now i think its everything akdhdjdld
stay safe i love you
- writing anon
ik i said voi/void but also like(its writnon again hi),,,,,, the idea of being referred to as galaxyself or starself is making me *vibrates at a speed unknown to man* wish there was a non clunky way to use black holes as a neopronoun but its chill ig
no one:
not anyone:
not a single person:
me: ik im writnon but im gonna be So Goddamn Nonbinary in ceces inbox today akdbdbdk
(its writnon again sorry) but then again pronouns arent indicative of gender identity and i am p comfy in the agender, yknow? its nice every time i say it to myself any and all dysphoria gets thanos snapped, i think i just think void pronouns are v v pretty like galaxy pronouns are,,,, like bruh,,,, imagine being referred to as a galaxy like,,,, multitudes??? bro i contain a universe inside me how about that nebulas, black holes, stars thatre born and grow and die only to be pulled back together like arent we all made of stardust??? the iron in my veins is the same iron that burns in the heart of stars and holds them together like its so pretty and powerful
akdhsks sorry its just someone asked me during class yesterday about my pronouns (i have them set to they/them on the website i use for college) qnd they wanted to know if they were using my preferred name i 🥺🥺🥺🥺 im still on the gender high yknow????? -writnon
LMAO dude its chill I’m also mega superhell nb so I don’t mind the rambles!
So.. okay should I go with they/void? I mean I’m probably not gonna be referring to y'all too often with pronouns BUT you did give me a lot go options! I just wanna be sure on which are chill to use!
Sidebar wow I... don’t think I’ve ever really viewed it like that. I’m glad you’re able to find some part of yourself in this idea of galaxies and something universal.. something with multitudes.... something thats still in and a part of you. That’s just. I’ve never framed it like that to myself before! And I just love that for you sm! It makes me so happy and excited to see the ways people connect with gender cause its so abstract and personal... wow..
Also I TOTALLY get the Gender Euphoria!! Like, okay recently I decided fuck it im bored and wanna take a class. First day the TA asked for names and pronouns and everyone has been using they/them for me since!! hearing people say it out loud really just Hits Different and im not out to ppl I see irl so... I maybe had to turn off my cam and cry lmao.
gender euphoria pt 2 electric boogaloo: I got my first binder recently!!! I put it on and Oh My God the?? the FEELING??? I was smiling so hard all day and jumping around cause I didn't know this is what being in your own body was supposed to feel like!!!! aaannddd now im rambling too lmao 
tl;dr: I love that for u and 100000% get the gender high MWAH
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starlight-fires · 5 years
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ok first thank you a lot and second i just started my junior year of high school and im really really stressed and i dont know what to do, like i have a ton of work already but i feel like im not doing enough bc there's people who are taking more college credit classes than me and theyre all learning to drive and getting jobs and i did nothing all summer and im sorry this probably wasn't what you were expecting (1)
(2) and i also feel just a lot of pressure bc idk what im gonna do in college or later, and i just feel kind of mad and upset bc my parents acted like they'd support me no matter what i did and then my dad told me straight to my face to stop w all that bc it was dumb and like, they think im just a lazy piece of nothing but i can't really blame them bc i don't feel comfortable talking to them about anything ik this got angsty you don't have to respond if u don't want to
Okay im not sure im necessarily the best person to give out advice but darling we all do things at our own pace,we all do things at the best of our abilities and we shouldnt compare ourselves to other people,which is hard af i know it,like im the queen of comparing myself to others but this is also why i know it amounts to nothing,we can never be that other person,there will always be someone thats better than us,there will always be someone thats worse than us and we just gotta focus on being our personal best. Second, doing good in highschool is really not that good of a prediction of how you are gonna do in the future,when I was in hs i was on the best 5% of my school ,im the person who got the highest score on the university admission test we have in my country out of my whole family and also friends and then i got into college and one i relaized that what i wanted to study at first wasnt what i really wanted to study and then when i got into whate i really wanted i failed two classes on my first year ,which was sad and devastating and damn i survives and did much better the second time around and the world didnt end like i felt it would,i felt so dumb but i just went ahead and did things again and it was better i understood more,i learnt more and i discovered some things about myself too. The driving thing i dont even know what to tell you about cause im gonna be 22 in like two weeks and i dont know how to drive and everyone ia pressuring me to do it but i honestly dont feel ready so i just wont do it cause i know it wouldnt go well,qnd thats okay we all have our own times and tahts super valid dont let anyone tell you otherwise.
About not knowing what you want to do,you have time you honestly do, theres still some time and yiu can just explore options, see what comes,i was sooo sure for most of my life what i wanted and then i just realized that it wasnt for me,that it wasnt what i really wanted to do with my life and now im in smth i enjoy studying but i dont really know what i wanna do when i have to work and thats cool,all my profs tell me that theres a world of possibilities out there and we will find what we need and want eventually you dont really gotta pressure yourself for this , you can go and find some vocational advice,you can ask yourseld what you really like to do,what you picture yourself doing and eventually you'll get there I have faith in this.
I'm sorry about your parents,I'm very soret they arent supportive you deserve better than this and all of the support. I hope things get better in that aspect ans maybe there xan be better communication bc for what you tell me it doesnt seem like they are open for it.
Well this is long af and im sorry for everyone else but idk how to put a read more on mobile so fuck it. I just hope you feel better soon and remember that its okay really to not know sometimes and that you shouldnt compare yourself to others cause that never goes to nice places and i very hope i helped even the smallest bit,you can come here whenever you feel like it really.
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machiavelliankaiser · 5 years
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Im so glad i changed my name, im so glad that im able to slowly shrug off peices of who I dont want to be. Slowly but, its progress. I look at my 16 year old self with such jealousy, old me had so much energy. I was annoying but I was almost always finding ways to be happy. I was outgoing, i loved to go out and meet people and cosplay and laugh. Nowadays, ethier due to age, lupus, or maybe the depression I let fester for top long Im so..
Tired?
Everything feels kinda fake, like a haze, i feel like im trapped in the shell of my body. I want to do things and break out. Make memories and yell. I feel like i was able to gain SOME of that back at cce. when i was with all my friends. Somehow, I didnt let the anxiety consume me. I walked around alone. I hate admitting it but sometimes my favorite parts of cons are when I just, go. I sneak off when everyones asleep. I CASUALLY run an errand to grab food. Then I just smile, im alone waiting in some con line and Im so happy. I got that happy back finally.
I crashed after, i felt like a stupid kid again. "Post con depression" had never been worst. I felt like I was loosing my mind. I didnt want to go back to work, back to stress, back in my head. I wanted one more day to sit and bury a new friend in mulch. Chase down a kiddie train screaming. Drink. Smoke. Anythng. But it was over. I was sad. I was scared.
I think talking about suicide is so serious and perminate. I could never take my own life, I have times where I understand it on and off. I have times where i wish I could poof away into a void. But death is my biggest fear. Its the end, qnd even if my life is mundane and im unhappy Id never want it to end i dont think.
This post became so long, maybe because I havent let myself post. I tried writing on paper. Taking walks. But nothing feels quite as nice as writing a ranty wall of text I might delete later. Its just word vomit im getting out.
This all started today because I was talking to riley. Its the anniversary of when he went to the psyche ward. I remeber being so so so upset. I was so upset my best friend had wanted to die. Maybe i wasnt enough? But being here now, I realize it isnt like that. Ethier way Im glad riley is around.
Whenever I talk to him i feel my shell break a little, I feel like kira and not like some empty container. Im so happy we reconnected, it makes everything.. easier? I can't talk to anyone how I can talk to riley. What we talk about can be so sad but I always feel so happy and uplifted to just.. talk. Say anything. Any sad or happy thing it doesnt matter with your best friend. One day I hope we are both better.
Im turning 21 this year. I cant believe that, Im going to be *21*. Ive been drinking since 16, so its not to special other then "oldnow!". I still cant drive, I still dont have my GED, fuck i still havent even changed my address after a year of living here or gotten insurance. I need to see a doctor, but secretly I put it off because im scared. Im scared to go in a learnive gotten worst. I know im going to get worst its fucki g lupus. I dont want to keep hearing about how long I've got, or how i should quit my job due to health, or any other stupid limitations because of a body and sickness i didnt ask for!
Im so angry about that. Im angry about being sick. Im angry about all the bad things that happened to me. Im angry because I didnt ask for that, I tried to be a good person my whole life, so why did I have to be so sick and sad? I dont want to cry every day anymore im scared.
Half my ffriends feel disconnected from me, maybe because im not the person i used to be. Or maybe they changed. Or maybe anything. I wish I had moore people that it felt like they WANTED to talk to me like Riley and Mitchell. To everyone else Im kinda annoying you know? I keep writing. I didnt except this. I didnt know i felt so much.
Im glad I have dnd, one piece, homestuck. I wish I never learned that shit about my dad though, I thought he was the "good" parent you know? I guess its easy to think that way whrn the other one just screamed at you and used to whack you with hair brushes.
I wonder if my mom knows I still hit myself in the head with a hair brush when i fully breakdown for whatever reason. I wonder if anyone whos hurt me ever thinks about how long ive been hurt and effected by it.
I need to stop talking.
I keep saying ill learn to drive or go back to school, but i think truthfully I need another year to ju as t fix my head. This got sad at the end but i think im finally slowly piecing stuff together. I feel so ashmed of that but i need to let that go.
Today im going to go on a date, and feel better. Thats my goal. My goal is just ro be happy.
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h1ghtechl0wlife · 3 years
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it's cool how an appointment you scheduled 5 months out can be reminded only 2 days prior, causing you to flip your entire sleeping schedule in 36 hours, then when you show up in person the receptionist cancelled it 2 days prior with absolutely no warning. she supposedly called the same day i got the CONFIRMATION call, but gee, i guess im the one that's fucking stupid here, despite there being hard evidence for only 1 of those eventualities in my voicemail. she had no problem acting like i was being slow anyway.
then she shrugs it off after i tell her i had to take off work to be here and she says "well unfortunately we're booking into july, but i can put you in the cancellation list." she couldve spit in my face and took a shit on my snow boots and it wouldve been less of an insult. like they should try and fucking squeeze me in after cancelling with no fucking notice
like. i know abled people run the world and dont give a shit about cripples, but they have no idea what this ordeal entailed. i had to change my medication schedule, meaning i skipped a lot of them for a day, including psych and pain meds which is going to make me hurt and feel loopy for a few days. i had to shower, which instantly raises my pain level 2-3 points for a few days. and the worst is that i changed my sleep schedule. for unknown reasons this sends the pain receptors in my body into a fit that causes every inch of my skin to burn like im having a lactic acid reaction, my muscles to ache like ive been working out, and my back to hurt another 3 points up and, for a bonus, the way my back will hurt cant be helped by resting, icing, heating, or, funnily enough, my rx pain meds. literally signed up to eat shit and want to curl up and die for the next 7-10 days and i didnt even get my fucking appointment handled for my efforts. then i was mad the schedule changed qnd the order the day was in was wrong and the receptionist was snotty to me even though i was good i didnt freak out or anything and as far as i knew i did everything right and i didnt earn coffee being good in the appointment so i just drove home and now my new bedtime is fucking noon which will be awesome on the mental health when i never see anyone in the house again
anyway after she said july i said i dont trust their organization style after this so forget it and left. and threw the forms i stayed up meticulously filling out in the trash. it was like 7 pages and wanted a stupid amount of detail. she said they cancelled it because they didnt have my forms, but the person who gave me the forms just said bring them to my appointment. then she said shouldve been in my welcome packet letter, explaining when they needed shit, and i was like what packet??? someone just handed me all these papers and bring them with me is all. there wasnt a letter or packet just forms. and she said well she doesnt know every receptionist there, like that excused the like apparently incorrect info i got.
it's a sign. the universe says i dont need to worry about this appointment anyway so im just gonna forget about it
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writers-shitshop · 6 years
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better ideas n shit
Ideas for rps
https://savages-like-cabbages.tumblr.com/post/169708703381/soulmate-aus
💚Another soul animal au or animal related au
💚Another cafe au bc those bitches cute
💚Another writing sm au
💚alex strangelove/love, simon/the way he looks au
💚one night stand
💚Another house trapped where there’s no power
💚Another superhero au and maybe twist it so A and B work together but are so annoyed with each other
💚strippy au: bonus if A is the confident performer and has to give B a private show since their friends dragged them there for their birthday
💚You have your soulmates words written on your skin, except they aren’t their first words. They’re the first words they say after you have fallen in love them.
💚aphrodisiac au
💫Another domestic klance living together qnd wisdom teeth can grow in anywhere from teens to adults so wHoOp either Keith or Lance get them removed and fall in Love all over again
💫SOTS au with selkies n shit uwu
💫artist lance and photographer kEith(or the opposite again??)
💫 some dumb horn horn boys where lance and keith are friends with benefits or just sex buddies and go to parties and do dumbstuff and don’t understand pining, lipstick/catholic school ah
💫another kind of boarding school au where they just get there and absolutely everything is monitored at all times all the time and there are even people outside of the dorms listening but when the bo y s decide it should be fine to experiment, so they can woo the girls or something once they get back home they realize they lo v e
💫a klance au I read on tumblr where lance is a feminine innocent virgin and Keith is a badass biker edgy tattoo piercing boy and lance doesn’t even know how to be in a relationship let alone have a crush on someone but oops what is this weird feeling I always have when I’m around the edgy kid am I sick?
💫okay but imagine mega reverse godtier hs au where keith is the partygoer and lance is this virgin dork who’s just “whomst be care about parties im only here bc my headass friend wanted me to come” and he sees keith at one and instantly becomes gay
💫bbbbbiiiitttchhh,,, A has a disease that is unstable and finds out the day they might die while b is suffering and very sad and they only have a week left together and im aaAaaaaAAAA
💫klance masquerade ball
💫 risky business au
💫 long distance au with angst/phone sex??? idk??
💫but a being Altean but pretending to be galran since like idk they had to survive or smth and b realizing something just doesn’t seem right and oof they get into a relationship or smth and b wakes up next to a but instead of seeing them galran they see them as altean cause they fell asleep and whoops power went whoosh
💫neko keith where maybe it makes more logic based of some klancetober post where lance kisses the cat and poof it become gay boy
💫another thing because i opened up my notes after forever to update the lists: keith going to stargaze at a lake/bay and suddenly whoop theres this hot water spirit/mermaid and keith is AAAAA
💫Modern day klance where a is a nurse or doctor or smth and b is a vampire who tries to break in to steal blood but whoops why did a stay late after work that was a mistake
💫rich boy lance with a mansion or whatever becoming infatuated with this stupid punk kid from school
💫 lance is a witch and goes into an abandoned church and oh shit theres a hottie vampire there
💫 Tattoo artist au
💫CouGh Klance au where a is a naïve explorer and b is a siren who has killer toNs of people by luring them in but for some reason as they hypnotize a they can’t bring themselves to kill them so they hide them in their room instead because their family thinks they killed them
💫an au where keith owns a simple bakery or shop or something and wears cute dresses and aprons and the town enigma lance stops in for like two seconds but instantly becomes gay for keith, ok but an addition: keith being secretly a witch and going out into the woods at night and stuff to practice magic but lance follows him and oHjKskamaAAAA
💫college klance where Lance is a grade B douche cause he’s my Taylor level but you know what I mean and he’s strictly straight but Keith is out and is his roommate so Lance always teases him about it and Keith is so pissed cause he wants to punch that mofo in the face but he also wants to kiss him gently and have him hold him close- so Keith gets so fed up one night when Lance is being extra teasing and annoying with the iM StrAgith biTches thing so Keith acts all sexy to prove him wrong and is shocked because what the fuck Wait thAT WORKED
💚ONE SIDED SOULMATE AU WHERE YOU DONT KNOW IF YOU HAVE THE GENE OR NOT SOMCE ONLY ONE (1) OF THE PEOPLE DO. So only one person out of the two soulmates can see the others light, the other one can’t. So if your soulmate never finds you you don’t know if you’re the light or if you just haven’t found the light of your life yet. A light only appears in the seeker chest once they find their soulmate o o f
💫ok but klance taking a trip to the snow and renting a cabin and drinking hot chocolate and and making really ugly snowmen together and UWUWUSKSMAK
💚(???)) sksksjs jack and the cuckoo clock heart??
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otterplusharchive · 6 years
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I'm in love with my friend, I told them and they said that they were fine with it, infact they liked that I was giving them that kind of attention, but they have a boyfriend and it's just a really weird situation cause the friend wants the attention and sometimes return it, and they say that they're not sure how they feel about me, it fucking destroys me cause I really like this person but I want them to be happy with their boyfriend but! Shit what do I do, do I just keep going like this andWait
mmmm fuck im really sorry this is a really messy situation to be in but honestly i dont think its very kind, responsible, or healthy for your friend who you have feelings for to be wanting that attention from you and returning it while still being with another partner without like??? talking about or agreeing upon being polyamorous because then you would be agreeing to date your friend while they also date their boyfriend and everyones communicating qnd understanding and youre all on the same level but with this it feels really... unbalanced if that makes sense? like your friend is still with their boyfriend but they arent respecting you enough to give you a firm yes or no and just dragging you along. im really sorry i know how upsetting and heartbreaking situations like this can be, please know that you are worthy of happiness love and respect and you deserve to be treated well. in this case i think you should try to talk to the friend you have feelings for and just ask them in general how they feel towards you and if theyd want to also date you along with their boyfriend or just asking about what the situation in general is.. i know thats scary to ask but you deserve some answers!!
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hxrryspotter · 7 years
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well, if you don`t agree with julie so much and you don`t like the way she`s telling sana`s story you can stop watching skam, you know, like do what makes you happy, no one is forcing you to watch, i`m just saying, i`m not here to get an actual answer of you because i don`t want you to start insulting me, but if it`s making you angry just get away from it
why dont you shut your fucking mouth hey? i know exactly who you are. you’ve blocked me but you’re so bitter you still come on my blog @ggirl-almighty, you come to send me shitty asks and make fun of my personal posts. maybe dont have some signature way of sending asks and people wont know it’s you. i even went on your blog to double check and wow “lol maybe if you tried being nice to people not everyone would hate you, have you thought about that.” you’re a cruel fucking bitch and idc how you or anyone else feel abt me saying that.
im having the worst fucking time right now, im feeling really really suicidal these past few days and i want to do the worst kinds of things to myself and i dont need you sending me shitty asks trying to make me feel worse?? its clear you sent that just to make me feel bad bc i havent even talked abt skam today. you act like you know me and you really dont. i only started being rude back to people on this hellsite in april. ive been too nice and let people walk over me all the time tbh. i put everyone above myself in my own life but hey, you dont actually know that, you see me get pissed at a tv show and you think that’s the be all end all of me being a person. i havent even complained abt skam today lmao, bc i really don’t care much anymore. i dont appreciate you making fun of my problems, i dont appreciate your unnecessary comments qnd condescending attitude. you blocked me why arent you fucking done??? what’s your obsession with sending me stuff?? with sending my own friends asks abt how they’re so nice unlike the some who talk rudely to you. why do you give a fuckin goddamn fuck about me???
im on mobile so i cant block you but just leave me alone???? you dont even fucking care that im a person and you kno what? i dont care that you’re a person if you act like that towards me, so get lost you fucking asshole.
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