#pros: people can see me / cons: people can see me. yknow.

[pebblezone]

I think she would collect the minions McDonald’s toys

[trainingdummyrabbit]

[scrolling thru my notes doc] oh girlie we are Not masking this as well as we thought we were

[mantasunray-art]

ok no one cares about what i have to say but im gonna say it anyway. i don't think it took it all with as much force as a lot of people because 1 i've been very much back on my klance era those last 3 months and i'm watching the office and f1 so i have other stuff to care about (which i didn't have back in oct 2022), 2 since i moved to tumblr i've been spending much less time doomscrolling over this community and reading everyone's thoughts about everything which made me more detached from it all and made me see that i'm doing much better now (i feel less anxious over missing stuff and not knowing everything all the time), and 3 i honestly don't think george is that huge monster that some people are making him to be like that was irresponsible and shouldn't have happened at all but it's not like he has a history of stuff like that or even much worse stuff like yknow some actually terrible abusive people around. so yeah i seriously could see me coming back to some extent. but i just don't think i will because holy fuck the fact that i didn't have to take my anxiety meds nor cried over this in comparison to other times in this fandom makes me see that i can be free??? i have to embrace being out of this unstable hellhole because it was taking a toll on me mentally. before i couldn't because the pros oughtweighted the cons and it was pretty much my only interest so not having it made me wanna kind of die lol and that's why i panicked so much. i was overly dependent on it. of course putting a lot of your happiness onto famous people is a terrible idea but i didn't have any other option at the time. but now i finally have something else (for example klance is my roman empire seriously. first fandom and left it for this one) so i'm gonna embrace it !!! or at least try i guess. so yea those are my thoughts and regarding this acc idk what im gonna do yet but i'm not abandoning it i think. twitter though im most definitely not coming back but that has been basically dead for idk 5 months hahahah

tl dr: i like other stuff and that made my mental health pretty stable over this whole thing and now that i have other stuff to make me happy i really don't wanna go back to throwing up with anxiety over famous rich people that don't even know me even if they're very dear to me and made me happy a bunch of other times

[voidshrubsquared]

Ok so Candied Circuits amirite (banger title also I am very proud of it)

(I was talking to emi about it thru tags and I felt like rambling a little about it :3)

So it would have been very much a Scrollon-centric fic, though I've thought of a few iterations that added a character or two for some extra Thought Experimenting. I had two more or less concrete iterations in mind: Either one, a smaller one-shot based completely on the hemoglobin post scene, or two, a 2-3 chapter long fic involving Cinna's story in Scrollon's POV, somewhat.

Short summary on each!

Idea one: Scroll goes out at night to catch an unsuspecting addison, drags them back to his bakery, scraps them, preps and eats them. Pretty self-explanatory, haha.

The idea here though would be that you get to hear him think, plan methodically, ramble about his addi biology knowledge and see him cook! There would have been a recipe section with a list of ingredients, and the reader would be able to follow the whole baking process! The descriptions would be really appealing :)

And when it came to finally eating his bake, the reader would also be able to catch that glimpse of feeling he's been wanting to experience this entire time. Just this super short sense of... euphoria? This THING he keeps trying to reach and can almost grasp but it disappears JUST as he thinks he's finally getting it. Oh well, there's always next time.

This fic would be very descriptive :>

Pros and cons of this idea:

Pros: Someone gets fully scrapped, death cool. Cutesy baking scene with an eerie atmosphere.

Cons: Kinda short? No Cinna :(

Idea two: This one is admittedly a bit more vague for me, but it would follow Scrollon's thoughts during Cinna's disappearance right after he thought he killed her. And some other branching-out thoughts of consecuences if his actions are brought to light, what his next move should be, etc etc. I'm a firm believer that Scrollon planned to kill two birds with one stone by killing Cinna, to both have another addison in his stash for later and also to try throw off suspicion over his department in a 'oh dear! our darling cinna has gone missing too! who could be doing this, I hope everyone gets found soon!' Kind of way, yknow? And it would be really interesting to just have him think while he idly bakes about what he should do now and how to keep things in control.

So anyways Cinna escapes, many thoughts occur, something something about keeping her missing arm as a reminder that she's out there. But then Scrollon finds out Cinna is BACK and she's ALSO eating people and she has a CREW, and so he's kind of irritated, more thoughts, tasteless simulacrum reference.

Things get more vauge as I go, but the idea is that at the end, he finds out that Cinna is out to get him, and that... makes him uneasy.

Pros: Okay so I'm gonna go on a little side-tangent here. So you know that one buks art of Scroll and Everette cuddling and Scroll wonders "Am I prey..." "No..." "I'm poison :3" (which. Btw. Super cool way to see how he interprets love. Or whatever closest he feels to love.) I love that. Because it's a little glimpse of how he sees things, and I think it applies well to the 'takes metaphors literally' thing. Well there would have been more of that in this iteration of the fic, and would have had heavier predator vs. prey theming. At the beginning there would be some stuff along the lines of "Scrollon is predator, Cinnemon is prey." And it would turn around on him in the end with something along the lines of "Cinna has a pack. Cinna hunts. Cinnemon is *predator.*" and a pause, "Scrollon is prey." And you'd just get a little dread... at the very least you'd get the sense that Scrollon has to be very cautious, and careful about what he should do next.

Side-tangent over, this whole thing is the pro. OH and Cinna. Cinna is always a pro.

Cons: Still vague imo? No real scrapping scene... no fun baking a Man scene... :(

Both ideas had stuff I wanted to incorporate, so looking back at both, I think I'd combine them, honestly. It would be something like Cinna disappears -> Scrollon kills, bakes and eats a man -> Scroll finds out about the Rainbow Café (I REMEMBERED THE NAME WOOO) and ofc in between all of that, we'd get all that juicy character exploration mainly on Scrollon :)

I hope none of that was confusing and made Complete Sense my brain is now Air

Anyways if I remember something else about this I'll rb with the additional info, but I think that's it! I wish I got to develop this a little more before the motivation went away, but ey, what can ya do!

(@emiplayzmc @jevajoy tagging ya both cause you two really like the scrollman and I thought you might like this/get something out of it, as small/vauge as it is :3)

[baticeer-sims]

I'd like to hear your soap box about romantic standards! I use ACR at the moment but reading that "unpopular opinions" post got me curious about other options 👀

Hiya! Thanks for asking. I absolutely love Romantic Standards, I could NOT play without it these days. I used to use ACR in the past though, so I tried to make a balanced list of the pros and cons for me. But then it got REALLY LOOOONG because I'm a wordy person sorry, so it's under a cut.

The quick TLDR of it is - I feel like ACR creates romantic chaos that's often unpleasant/nonsensical to me, while I feel like RS creates romantic drama that makes sense and also allows for a lot of variety in how different sims will feel about their relationships.

By the way, I use Midgethetree's edited version of RS because it's modular (you can pick which parts you want) and the documentation is way easier to understand lol. If you have any trouble with mod conflicts or with getting RS set up the way you like, feel free to ask me about it and I can help you out with what exact files you need.

The full soapbox under the cut!!

One thing I want to say is I think a lot of people have been playing with ACR for so long that they don't know what their game will be like without it? And they underestimate how much autonomous romantic interaction will still happen between sims. A key here is that sims can't autonomously interact romantically unless they have compatible gender preferences, and townies or CAS sims always start with 0 preference, so a vanilla hood without ACR will feel low on the random flirtations unless you use something like the Sim Blender (or similar) to randomize everyone's gender preferences! (And ACR gives out random gender preferences automatically, so you might install ACR, see a lot of people interacting romantically for the first time, and assume you can't get that without ACR when all you needed was the gender preference setting, yknow?) But I can assure you that with ACR removed, my sims are definitely still getting into plenty of unexpected romantic entanglements and exciting drama.

To my mind, these are the biggest features of Romantic Standards that I just can't get with ACR:

Random chance of crush/love status: I could never play without this now. As you probably already know, normally two sims automatically get a crush or love when they interact romantically with 70+ shortterm or longterm relationship respectively. It's kinda predictable and boring to me. RS, specifically the "slower feelings" file, makes it so that crush/love flags are added randomly with the chance being based on the sims' chemistry with each other. This also allows for some amazing Drama Potential where you could have 2 sims interacting and one is completely in love with the other but the other has no feelings for them at all! It's otherwise impossible to do that. This makes crush/love flags actually feel meaningful to me, like they represent real human feelings, instead of just being able to know that if I decide one day to smooch my best friend they're guaranteed to fall in love with me.

Simple jealousy system that makes sense: I could never get my head around ACR's jealousy system to make it work the way I wanted. I felt like sims would have their token values changed even when I set them to be static, and stuff like that, and it just was so complicated to figure out what values I wanted... OTOH, this is how jealousy works in Romantic Standards: If a sim is in love or in a committed relationship (steady/engaged/married), and they see their love/partner interact with someone else romantically, they get mad about it! Unless you put a "no jealousy" trait in their inventory (then they won't get jealous over anyone) OR if they also have crush/love flags for that 3rd sim (this, allows for you to have polyamorous relationships). I find that easy to understand and to work well for a majority of situations. There's also an option where they won't get jealous over love, only committed relationships -- but I prefer the also-in-love version because it combines really well with the previous point about crush/love being randomized! You can frequently get situations where A is in love with B but B only has a crush, so B will be willingly flirting with other people and A might get their heart broken over it because they thought this was serious... It really generates a lot of interesting storylines.

Sims don't cheat on their partners if I don't want them to: I know ACR is supposed to have settings that will make sims stay faithful, but I was unable to get it to work consistently, and I feel like I've often heard other people say things too like "I didn't want this sim to cheat but 🤷 ACR just did that". With RS, if a sim is in a committed relationship they can never do autonomous romantic interactions with someone else unless 1) they're Romance aspiration or 2) they already have crush/love for that other sim. You can of course still direct sims to cheat if you think it makes sense, but I don't have to worry about anyone's marriage falling apart if I want them to stay together. (Also, you can override this for specific sims by giving romance sims a "hopeless romantic" trait, or non-romance sims a "commitment issues" trait.)

Midge's version of RS is modular so almost all of the stuff I listed above is separate if you only want part of it.

On the other hand! Here are the things that ACR does that I've missed or that you might miss:

Autonomous woohoo and try for baby: Your sims won't woohoo on their own anymore. I found that I didn't really mind this? The woohoo timer in ACR feels kind of mechanical to me, and a lot of times they'd be starting to do it in situations that were really inappropriate (like other people are in the room and they're stripping naked on the sofa at 9am). And I don't mind the lack of try for baby either because I prefer to decide when my sims have a baby based on if they roll a want for it, or if it just happens from risky woohoo. I've noticed that simler90's original version of RS has an optional plugin that allows for autonomous woohoo but I don't know if it works with Midge's edited RS. I haven't tried it yet bc I don't mind not having auto woohoo. If anyone has, let me know.

Can't woohoo on the sofa and can't woohoo in one menu-click: My god it's so much easier to be able to click "casual...woohoo" than relax on bed, ask other sim to join, wait for them to get there, cuddle, then woohoo. Something to note is that there is a "stripped down" version of ACR which only retains the Casual Woohoo interactions and was made to be compatible with Romantic Standards. However in my experience (and that of a few other people I've talked to) the jealousy aspect of this so-called compatibility... still doesn't quite work correctly? So the "casual woohoo" option, if you have stripped-ACR, I think it will still go off of ACR-jealousy (which is impossible for me to understand lol), instead of RS-jealousy like everything else in the game? It can definitely cause situations with jealousy reactions that aren't working how they're supposed to. So um... the crazy thing that I do, personally, is keep that stripped down ACR in my game but with all the autonomy completely disabled in global overrides, at which point it is doing literally nothing other than letting me tell them to casual woohoo if I want them to woohoo on the sofa. And I just make sure to never use that option in a situation where jealousy is a possible concern, in order to avoid the issue where it doesn't work correctly. It's kind of overly complicated a thing to do just to get sofa woohoo but I'm just saying it's an option 😂

No autonomous First Kiss: This is it! The one thing I truly do miss from ACR and would really love if someone made a mod for it one day! I love when my sims do stuff autonomously and surprise me. But First Kiss is a non-autonomous action, and what's more, sims can't roll the want to "Kiss so-and-so" if they haven't already had a first kiss, so I find it kind of hard to decide when my sims will have their first kiss. I'm always like, why can't you do it for me!

The other major difference is that the "Casual" romantic interactions from ACR have lower thresholds for acceptance than the default Maxis interactions. I personally don't see this as a positive because... well... I've been playing this game for so long, I kind of know how to get sims together at this point, I really don't need to make it even easier 😅 I'd rather have RS making it a little harder for sims to fall in love. I use a lot of other mods for other aspects of the game that make it harder overall because it's more fun for me.

Also! So, I was going to give you a list of other romance-related mods that I use in my game along with RS, but then I realized I could be lazy and just give you a link to my friend @alice-in-strangetown's mods list, because she & I have pretty similar taste in how we like romance to work in this game and I use basically all the same romance mods as her :P because I started using RS after finding out about it from watching her TS2 livestreams.

If you want to try RS on a neighborhood that has ACR but you're not sure if you'd like the playstyle, I recommend temporarily replacing it with the "stripped down" ACR version (and disabling autonomy), because that way your sims will keep their ACR tokens if you decide you don't like RS and want to switch back to using ACR. Of course, it's technically possible to have both of them at the same time, but the key thing about ACR is that all of the "Casual" interactions in it are completely separate from the vanilla maxis interactions so mods that affect default maxis interactions or maxis jealousy (like RS does) won't interface with ACR interactions and vice versa.

I hope all of this was helpful, and that maybe it convinced you to give Romantic Standards a try! Like I said, if you need any help getting it set up I can give you advice or a more detailed guide on how to install it (I think the documentation's pretty straightforward tho).

[candiid-caniine]

Hello lovely! I hope you're doing good!♡ (Sorry if you don't wanna be called that!!)

I was wondering how you vch piercing is healing and all that. I really want to get this piercing but I want to see how it's like for someone who already has it. Yknow? Here's some questions:

Did it hurt really really bad or was it not that bad? For context I have a medium pain tolerance. Have you had any significant problems with it? Would you recommend this piercing to a friend? How much did it cost for you to get? I know price depends place to place ofc. How long do you feel it took to heal? If it has yet! And any pros or cons?

If you're not comfortable with answering I understand! Thank you for your time. I hope you have a beautiful wonderful day♡

(Can I perhaps be " 🎀🍓 " anon??)

awaaa hi yourself, lovely!! (absolutely <3 being called that ty for checking tho!!)

i'm not at all uncomfy with answering!! and ofc that can be your anon signoff <3

talk of piercing + piercing aftermath under the cut!

so, here's the DL on your VCH questions:

pain level: extremely minimal! the thing that hurt the worst was being clamped (which was a bad sign - i've learned since then that people who know their shit piercing VCH will use a receiving tube, not clamps, so ask your piercer about their process during a consultation appointment and then make your decision!) i have my nostril, 2 cartilage, 6 lobe, and a vertical labret piercing on my lip. of those piercings, the vch and lip hurt the least. there's no cartilage to go thru, and even though we think of the clit as a very sensitive area, the hood of it, when it's isolated, isn't super sensitive for most. your anatomy and your pain tolerance will differ, but as a piercing veteran, the vch was the least painful!

problems with it: unfortunately, my vch rejected about two months after it'd healed (y'all can fact check me on this, i'm guesstimating). i *don't* think it was necessarily inherent to the VCH; rejection can happen to anyone for various reasons, but (afaik) is more of a risk when a piercing is more surface-based, like an eyebrow piercing. what i think happened: i think my piercer placed it too low on my clit hood; the top ball should have been higher up. this, combined with a poor jewelry fit and, uh, the fact that that area gets a lot of friction...probably contributed to the rejection. i took it out once i noticed because i didn't want to tear. as i mentioned above, my piercer used a technique that is *not* considered best practice by genital piercing professionals. (she's an excellent piercer otherwise, i love her, but now i know genitals are not her strong suit.)

another problem: due to the friction (not necessarily me rubbing it, more so clothing, my spouse's pelvic bone, etc), the ball was constantly coming loose, prompting a frantic hunt in the bedsheets/my laundry basket for the missing piece...pain in the fucking ass, but i think it also depends on your anatomy!

something that *wasn't* a problem that i expected to be: i don't think it ever once got caught on anything. once or twice, i had a pube get sort of wound around it, but since i was touching it...all the time...soooo much >.> i usually noticed pretty quick lmaoooo

i would recommend this piercing (done well, taken good care of) to a friend wanting a little bling downstairs and a little extra stimulation!

mine cost $100. but it's common to cost more than that from genital-specialty piercers, and for good reasons; i think my piercer priced it reasonably (small town economy + again, she didn't do a *great* job) but expect to pay more. that said, never equate cost with quality: ask your piercer...

where they learned to do a VCH

their process (receiving tube vs. clamps)

if they have any photographs of completed VCHs they've done. to assess all these best practices, check Elaine Angel's website. she basically invented the best practices, and she has plenty of good and bad example piercings for most types of genital piercings!

it took ~2 weeks before i'd say it was fully healed. most piercers caution you to wait 4-6 weeks for full healing; my body (and what i consider "healed"), as well as my new piercing aftercare routine, are specific to me. but for most people, it's <6 weeks. the rejection didn't happen until after healing. as far as healing the piercing *hole*, after taking it out, i don't notice any difference; there's maybe a pock mark sort of thing, or dimple? but it's not a "hole" anymore. just a mark, and there's not any scarring or tissue that irritates my clitoris, given i took it out so fast!

pros!

if you have my specific kinks, you are not gonna want to wait to start touching yourself >.> you can browse through my #kinky mods tag (tagged on this post for easy access) for a play-by-play of how fucked up it got me lmao.

as in, even tho it ached, i touched that shit the second day (gently) and had the craziest ruined orgasm of my life.

there is really something to be said for the tiny, itty bitty piece of stimulation achieved by the barbell under your hood.

also really something to be said about the balls themselves sliding over your clit when you rub with your fingers ;-;

vibrator against the barbell = weirdest overstim in the world.

heals fast; lots of cool jewelry options out there; doesn't hurt very much [compared to my other piercings, ymmv].

cons:

can be expensive to get one that's done properly.

you do eventually stop being as sensitive to the new stimulation. however, most people just switch jewelry to change things up after awhile, so nbd.

that said, jewelry change can be a bitch. it's hard to do that shit on your clitoris. you may find yourself needing to go to your piercer for jewelry changes, but many piercers offer this service at cost of jewelry/even free of charge, depending.

if you lose a piece of your jewelry, you might cry. lol. keep backups on hand. (my piercer, bless her fucking heart, has incredible aftercare services - she will literally drive to the shop at 1 am if your jewelry falls in the toilet. yes, she gives her clients her personal cell number. bless up, J, you can't pierce a clit worth a damn but you love what you do!)

how do i say this,, u know how. a new piercing might sort of get crusty. esp if you don't clean it often (follow ur aftercare instructions! always!!!!!) but uh. my regular aftercare did not prepare me for the crust being *under* the clit hood. it wasn't much, and it came off when i downsized jewelry, but eugh. it should be minimal, anyway, but still, don't be surprised.

the swelling was mainly the thing, in the hours after i got it pierced, but it didn't hurt worse than, say, biting the inside of your cheek really hard when you're chomping down on food - just that sort of ache you get. honestly i've had worse clit pain in the aftermath of being clamped, tho.

hope this helped ;-; i know it was a lot but y'all know me, i tend to go ham on these general/educational/experience questions. you're following an autistic puppy, what'd you expect? <3

[still-a-morosexual-help]

i just hope the original obm isn't forgotten in the process, what with all the new charas coming in and the development and lore of the original LIs itself being forgotten. well yes, this can be a means FOR it to work out but for some reason i can also imagine how it can end badly. guess it's just my pessimistic brain after all the disappointment i've had to experience (yet i still adore this game to pieces).

Me, who has genuinely enjoyed the main storyline so far: 😀

Like I understand people having genuine problems with the game or story or whatever but (and I've said this before) real life is hard and anxiety inducing and I'm just here to have the occassional escape from it. I don't want to be pessimistic and trigger my anxiety about things that haven't happened yet in the place I come to get away from it all.

God I've taken an antihistamine so my brain's fuzzy and groggy and words are really hard and it tooke three tries to be able to spell groggy so this might not make sense

There are actually no parts in the main storyline that I have any big issue with, I liked how season 4 focused more on the side characters while still having the main characters be involved in the story and showing off parts of their personalities as well (Lucifer being protective of Simeon and soft and sympathetic to MC, Mammon being serious about what happened to Simeon and immediately picking out Michael as the one who had done something, Asmo's entire trauma, Satan's entire trauma, Belphie trying to take something seriously and work hard for once - I have long posts about three of these but I'm too out of it to find them sorry) in my opinion they did a good job balancing it out. Though there are some events I didn't care for (the ones that jump from MC spending one chapter with each of the characters without having a real story)

But even if there was something I disliked I don't want to get stuck on it? Like I'm here ti have fun and not think about shit that pisses me off so why would I get pissed off at the game that does that yknow

Whatever happens happens yknow. 's not like you can change it so why get caught up in the details? This is one of those things where you can go with the flow and have fun and not worry about what'll happen in the future because in the end it's a game and fandom's always there to catch ya if the game disappoints

I understand if you have valid concerns or criticisms but that just ain't it for me, that is absolutely not what I'm here for

I don't know how to explain it but I don't mind discussing harder topics or things that annoy me (the whole thing when Thirteen was first introduced or the people who think Mammon steals from MC) because they're sort of outside the game (which said Thirteen is a character whether you like it or not and said as early as in Lesson 4 that Mammon doesn't steal from MC) if that makes sense? Because those things come from fandom and after discussing those things on my blog I can choose not to interact with those parts of fandom

But when it comes to parts of the game that piss me off I can't block it out so;

I'm sure there are huge parts of the fandom that feels seriously let down for valid reasons but if I felt that way I wouldn't be here? If there was a part of the game I genuinely disliked or was disappointed in - something that made me unhappy - I wouldn't be playing it because it's no fun if the place I go to get away from all those negative feelings gives me the very same negative feelings

Also, I can't speculate what the new game will be like at all and what it will do to the original, but I don't see it replicating chat, devilgram or the forward moving main storyline in the same way?

Does any of this make sense or am i just babbling rn?

Basically what I'm trying to say is, everything has pros and cons. Unfortunately I'm not here to focus on any of the cons. I'm pessimistic abojt change/scared of change enough in my real life that if I was the same here regarding things about om! or any game/movie/show/book i was interested in then i'd be miserable and it would defeat the purpose of being interested in om! (or anything else) in the first place

I feel like i repeated the same simple.poing over and over again becaise im not sure which time properly explained what I was trying to say and I couldn"t be bothered to read it all again so sorry and I'm still not sure if I said what I wanted to say? What should have been one paragraph someone became like 5 paragraphs sorry

Sorry anon I have no real insight to what you're saying other than whatever this is im gonna pass out now

[bonesandthebees]

ALSO YOU MENTIONING THE SIRENTWT DURING WF !!!

dude you know . like

okay so wf!wilbur is literally my favourite fic wilbur OF ALL TIME

and it was so painful /lh for me to see that clinic!wilbur was the fan favourite WHEN WF WILBUR WAS RIGHT THERE !!! THE MOST CARING AND SUPPORTIVE BROTHER EVER !!! but noooo people want the one who's whiney and self sacrificiallll

i mean okay tbf . both wilbur's are self sacrificial AND I STILL ADORE CLINIC!WILBUR BUTTTT CMONNN WF!WIL IS CLEARLY THE BETTER BROTHER HERE--

but also i think this is bc im coming from a found family aspect and... people were coming from a simping aspect [sob]

though i WILL SAY the art was hella cool, and it was awesome seeing you get all the deserved /pos recognition !!

lmao that's fair yes wf!wilbur and clinic!wilbur both have their pros and cons. personally while I have a big soft spot for wf!wilbur he's not my favorite wilbur i've written partly bc his characterization was partially based off ghostbur and truth be told I have. mixed feelings on ghostbur as a character in the dsmp. but besides that another issue I had with him ties into my issues with wf as a whole which is just my own dissatisfaction with how i developed and handled certain elements. I feel like I could've done him better yknow?

clinic!wilbur is a bit more interesting bc of the whole, uh, murder aspect but also I feel like he's not that interesting compared to my other wilburs bc he's like. basic I guess? because I was still relatively new to writing for dsmp when I wrote clinic so my characterization of everyone isn't super great to me compared to now.

now stars!wilbur however he is my favorite-

but yeah. you said it yourself we all know the reason why clinic!wilbur got the most popular was largely bc people thought he was hot

it was so cool getting so much fanart though. I have so much of it saved in google folders and on my phone and stuff. ever since sirentwt happened my lockscreen has always been fanart of my fics (any of them not just clinic) which is just amazing that I have so much fanart I can do that with (bc i change my lockscreen roughly ever 2-3 months). it's so so cool to me and means the world fanart makes me so happy

[hesitantvampirealien]

so since powers exist in battery city, just hear me out

party poison but they have like a super empathy, like that girl from the third 'life is strange' game, that girl that went to that minuscule town and shit

like, they LITERALLY can see and hear what you're feeling, it can be controlled but oftentimes it just happens, since i have an autistic party poison headcanon i also think it wpuld probably end up causing them to get overstimulated sometimes

pros: can help people better with their issues, doesn't need to rely too much on talking when someone has a problem, which can be difficult for many people

cons: doubled difficulty in talking about their own feelings, describing them, etc since they don't rely on verbal communication. Oftentimes will try to describe it in pictures; Can see/hear emotions and thoughts they didn't want to by accident sometimes and feel extremely guilty for it

i know it's technically just telepathy but like, i wanted to focus more on emotion than brain yknow, that's why i described it with "empathy" and not "telepathy"

[weirdlyfitting]

Yknow i always feel conflicted when i want to draw digitally, i saw artist who are able to draw "fully shaded cool lineart bombed with beautiful colors" kinds of drawing and i feel like....

I'm not enough with this teeny beety pen tablet, i've learned a lot from people in the internet that "your device does not define your skill"

But.....

What if it is for me?

I saw people who did speedpaint with a pen display, my friend who did animation with a pen display, i remember borrowed it for sum mins and my god using pen display is....really just a cool experience

Plus drawing digitally and traditionally is... different. On paper I am limited with colors, but i can learn about grayscale, but on digital it's like I had ALL COLORS AND BRUSHES IN THE WORLD and i can embrace my artstyle so much more! Both had pros and cons trust me, but i won't lie if making a fully shaded piece is insanely hard for me both with the device i'm using and in paper

I'm actually scared too if i'm actually get a pen display, cause what if i'll have the same feeling and reaction as now? I don't feel enough with my own device and than insecurity to be as good as some other artist's art....

But really, out of all these insecurities. I can only have faith on what it is as being an artist. The joy and spark that just....HAPPENED is an experience, being happy with how far i've come, being happy that i did make not only one but many fully shaded arts with that teeny beety pen tablet, being happy to just create something.....

Doesn't matter how many insecurities i had, to just accept and see that HEY! I MAKE ART! THIS IS MY ART! I think it's pretty cool :>

[milhazel]

TW ED basically diary entry of v intrusive thoughts these may or may not apply to you and if they do I’m truly sorry you also have felt this way before plz take the time to focus on yourself and your mental well being <3

unfortunately my brain has finally become overly saturated with thinspo pics I need real life painful and traumatic encounters w skinny women to finally have the motivation to get where I want to be… I need a real life ed friend who doesn’t know I’m also struggling so I can go undercover n shiii. The thing is I get these everyday but the hate that festers inside me towards them because their standard is so excruciatingly hard to achieve that my ed flips a switch and goes hinge mode on me then I hate myself the next day fall into imposter fasting mode (only eating when no one is around to feel like I didn’t eat or make sure they don’t see me eating out of pure embarrassment) or genuinely fasting for a good max of 12-14 hours only to feel that same hatred again and binge.

like you know what I mean the pictures just don’t help me not binge anymore I always resort to feeling angry towards ppl who look like that and saying fuck them im eating yknow, like there’s a little voice in there fighting for me but it’s not the kind of voice you pity it’s the kind that’s desperate to keep you alive but you just don’t want it to it’s so frustrating I cant turn it off anymore without having someone say something mean to me or seeing other ppl in my life lose weight, I know we’re all supposed to be pro recovery but the only thing recovery has brought me is more pain and more grieving over my ed where I use it to characterize how I was as a person wishing I was that version of myself again with that same mentality, it’s freeing to know that I was once like that so in reality there’s hope that I go back down that direction, all I need is that silly little trigger that’ll eventually kill that voice and keep me from caring about being fed so often I DONT NEED TO SURVIVE LITERALLY CAPITALISM IS MAKING ME THINK SO HARD AN WHEN I EAT AND WHAT TO EAT NEXT WHY CANT I REALIZE THAT THE FOOD ISNT GOING ANYWHERE AND THAT I WONT DIE IF I DONT EAT EVERY HOUR OF EVERY DAY

I basically live w my bf at this point and never have my groceries at his place so I never rly ate around him all the time, but now I recently started bringing my food in preparation for being there for days at a time and it’s almost surprising to him when I eat, as if he has this notion that I shouldn’t be eating with all of this fake worrisome looks when I say I’m not hungry then not doing anything about it. Idk if I’m going crazy if I’m delusional or I’m just overthinking and being naive but I stg he looks at me w disgust and wishes he had someone more attractive, I feel like his friends make comments with all their single asses going out and fucking college whores every other day while they claim that they “like” this one girl they met and like spending time with her, sometimes the people he surrounds himself with disgust me and he doesn’t see a problem, either that or he’s just part of the problem :) irdk what to think anymore and Ik I’ve said this on here before while using this as my private diary but I rly mean it this time I don’t know what to think or how to feel I feel like I’m constantly being tricked and made fun of and judged and have expectations over my head that I simply just cannot reach with the mindset that’s growing in me right now and NOBODY sees this literally NOBODY then I get blamed for my lack of communication when it’s so clear as fucking day that there is no way all of what I endure is going unnoticed I just need to fast and turn my brain off for a while, reclaim the life I’m going for without naive respect for everyone around me to the point where I literally leave myself behind. I told you I suffered from bulimic thoughts and actions over the past summer and cried in your arms told you that I was lacking confidence and always feeling like a convenient option what more can I do to communicate this to you

[yarrowleef]

i know some people criticize warriors allegiances on how they're just ridiculously long lists full of characters who absolutley dont matter at all and its probably just confusing and intimidating to new readers who have no way of knowing who are actually the important characters to remember, and the descriptions dont have any useful information even if they were important. any other book i've read with a cast list definitely doesn't list more then the major characters and plot relevant side characters. ive never seen anyone do it the way erin hunter does it. why in the world would we need to know the names of 2 dozen riverclan warriors who dont even so much as have a single name drop let alone speaking lines in this arc, etc.

and, like, i'm not going to argue that anyone is wrong for feeling that way. it is certainly not something i would personally repeat in non-warrior cat works.

but. i like it!! i like allegiance lists, its one of those things thats just...part of the series yknow? maybe i cant argue that its ~objectively good~ (whatever that means) or that the pros outweigh the cons, but it would feel like something was missing if they shortened it like TPB did, or took it out

maybe it's because unlike other names, warrior cat names can almost act as a writing prompt, like they can potentially suggest something about what the character might be like to have gotten the name they have. With such a long running series that switches protagonists, no not everyone is important, in fact most cats are never important at all, but anyone at any time could become important, and i think thats fun

also, mostly i just like seeing the word combinations. i like reading the names people come up with. i rarely read whole fics but i WILL read allegiance lists just to see the funny names. oc and rewrites alike, i am lurking and reading your allegiance lists.

so if you're ever wondering "who the heck even reads these" the answer is me, i am reading them. and everyone should keep making them for my sake alone

[whentherewerebicycles]

i am still not really here (1-2 weeks left in my tumblr/fandom break), but i need to just process the big decision i’ve made and then i need a bunch of friends on the internet to tell me that i am doing the right thing so i can fully let go of the decision anguish.

i’m moving to seattle this summer

i don’t have a job yet but i am slowly, painstakingly working on it

my sister, brother, and my brother’s wife live there, as does one of my best college friends, as does la who i am going to make write with me and also teach me about the seattle kraken (or whichever niche pair she is extremely into at the moment).

i’m feeling really unsettled and uncertain about leaving a place i’ve lived ten years and kind of half thought i might live at least another decade if not forever. i feel optimistic and excited every morning and then crushed by fear and doubt by evening. it’s the same rollercoaster every day, but i still feel that sickening drop.

but idk. the political situation in this country and in this state just has me so depressed and exhausted and ground-down these days. the dobbs decision is obviously playing a big part in my decision (i want to try to get pregnant in the next 2-3 years and this isn’t a safe/okay place to do it anymore) but i feel like uvalde was really the turning point, just the moment of total clarity where i was like: i think i need to get out of here. gun violence is terrible everywhere in this country but at least i don’t have to live in a state that worships guns. this is a bad place to be politically and climate stuff is just going to get worse.

austin feels so different than it did when i moved here. i’ve only been here ten years and i know i was part of the wave that changed it but it just feels.. i don’t know. it feels too big and too tech-y now and i just... i don’t really love it here anymore. i know that’s all true of seattle too but at least it’ll be a place where it was always that way for me, rather than a place where the culture and demographics of the town changed around me. idk. i love my people here and i loved my time here - my grad cohort is the best, best, best. but i feel like a lot of things are weakening my ties to austin and to texas and i think that means it’s time to go.

i really want to be closer to my family

i want to live in a naturally beautiful place

i want to live in a blue state

god i want to live in a blue state

i just really want to live in a blue state

i feel shitty leaving the south when i think the south needs sane people who give a shit about other human beings. i feel shitty leaving texas when i love the kids i get to work with so much and when i’ve spent so long thinking about how important it is not to abandon the state to these horrible people. but man i can’t live here. can’t raise a family here. i was emailing this week with my boss, whom i love and whose opinion i respect a lot. i was voicing some of these conflicted feelings, wondering if i was cutting and running instead of digging in. and she wrote back three minutes later: “fuck the south is my current mode. we must create our own sustainable communities and cultural worlds.” 

i have a feeling ‘fuck america’ may be my own future mode so i would kinda like to live near canada for a bit and have the chance to scope it out, yknow. see if it’s a place i could take up permanent residence one day. idk man. we are living in end times aren’t we? sorry i meant this to actually be a post about pros and cons of moving and instead i guess i am just spiraling a bit about politics. that’s just being a person in america these days.  

i’m going to miss my familiar places here. my places and my people and my routines and all the little things that have made this home for ten years. but it’s time to go.

it’s time to go. it’s time to go

it’s okay. it’s time to go.

[thotsforvillainrights]

~Working for Re Destro~

(Thanks Re-Destro...)

headcanon|scenario|imagine|match-up

You groaned as your salted fingers poked around in yet another empty bag of your favorite chips. You sighed and let the bag drop to the floor with a sniffle. While you contemplated leaving your couch nest to get another bag from the pantry, the sound of the door unlocking distracted you. Without moving you shifted your eyes from the Tv to the door and watched as Rikiya entered your apartment. He locked the door behind him and his expression shifted to that of concern. His frown curled when he looked at the mess surrounding you from your spot on the couch. “What’s wrong? What happened? Is everything okay, darling?” You sighed, knowing somewhere he must be disappointed to see you like this for the first time. You’ve been together long enough but he had never seen this side of you. You can’t bring yourself to hide the mess of things anymore. Eventually this was going to have to happen, but you grimaced at the fact that it was a direct result of...

“I lost my job today.” You tried to push back the tears threatening to spill over as he tsked at you. Instead of sitting in the recliner next to you, he took a seat on the carpet in front of you (directly blocking your view of the TV). “Y/N we’ve spoke about this on countless occasions in the past. I make enough to support not only us, but at least 12 more people if we look at this logically speaking. There is no need for you to be employed anywhere. If we’re being honest, I can’t see the reasoning behind your emotions in this moment.” He admitted with full honesty and you half-glared at him. “It’s not like I needed the job sure, but I wanted it Rikiya. I like making my own money to spend sometimes yknow? I like the feeling of independence. On top of that, I enjoyed having somewhere to go throughout the week. Plus my coworkers were really wonderful people. I just got to bold and told my piece of shit boss off. She fired me in a heartbeat.” You groaned at the memory from earlier today. He smiled at you and gently reached up to caress the side of your face. “I’m not surprised for the reason you got let go. It sounds like you haha.” He placed a soft kiss onto your forehead before standing up and beginning to tidy up the mess around you. When he returned from the placing the trash in the bin, he moved to help you sit up gently as he took a spot in front of you. He grabbed either side of your face with both hands softly yet firmly, and he stared you directly in the eyes. “If it’s important to you to work, then why not come work for me?” You scoffed and rolled your eyes. “When has that ever worked out for two people before? It’s an awful idea!” You flailed your arms around. He laughed at your dramatics and shook his head. “Oh come on now, it can’t be that bad? You can do as you please when you work under me! Of course if that’s not your taste then I can work you like any other employee. I swear it on my grave. Y/N...please? Come work for me and be the newest employee under Detnerat?” 

You paused for a good long while as you stared at him and weighed the Pros and Cons. Eventually your ‘what the hell’ attitude took over and you shrugged with a sigh. “Fine, what’s the worst that can happen...”

That very next morning you were awoken with a shake and the overwhelming smell of coffee near your nose. You opened your eyes to see Rikiya holding a warm glass up to your face with a smile (of course if you don’t like coffee then you can imagine another beverage of your choice). “Good morning!” He spouted as you took the cup from him and sat up. You groaned at his enthusiasm while he straightened his tie in the bedroom mirror. “It’s...it’s 4 a.m.? Wait a minute, is this when you leave for work in the morning? EVERY MORNING???” You came to the realization as he chuckled at you. “But of course! And now that you work for me, you’ll have to wake up this early as well! That’s right, no more waking up at 10 a.m. like your previous place of employment allowed. If you want to make it to work then you need to wake up with me and ride with me there!” You shook your head in disbelief. “Uhhh... no I do not. I have my own car so can’t I just take it in around 10 or something???” You silently prayed he’d allow it. He frowned and turned to look at you. “But isn’t this what you wanted? No discrimination right? To be treated the same as the other employees?” He tilted his head and waited for your response. “...Yeah...I guess I did want that huh...” He smiled at you and nodded. “Great! You’ll enjoy it I swear. Now hurry and get ready for your first fulfilling day at the Detnerat company!” 

The entire ride to work was filled with Rikiya on the phone with neighboring companies as he sipped his coffee and discussed some other business jargon you weren’t familiar with. In fact, you had started to fall asleep but it was too late for a nap because you arrived at the company. The driver opened the door for you two and you followed behind Rikiya into the building where he was immediately greeted by Curious and Trumpet. They did their little Liberation greeting while your eyes glazed over towards the large fish aquarium. It was only when they greeted you that you were brought back to reality. “Oh hello there.” You quietly spoke to them. Trumpet nodded and started digging around in his suitcase for something while Curious grabbed your wrist and pulled you to the front desk. “I got an email from Destro last night about your employment here at Detnerat. He wanted to put you somewhere higher up in development but I talked him into putting you right here at the front desk. Listen closely to me: You don’t want to get mixed up with development because that’s where Skeptic’s company comes in the line. Just stay here and keep your head leveled. If you do well here then I might clear up a spot for you at my company. Shoowaysha could use a bright smile like yours at the company.” She winked at you and then she was gone. You rolled your eyes and glared at the back of her head as she headed up into the elevator with Destro and Trumpet. “Pshh who does she think she is? I can handle Skeptic, I’ve known him and everyone else for as long as I’ve known Destro! Development is nothing to me. I used to do some of the same at my old job so what’s the difference in doing it here?” You grumbled to yourself as you clicked your pens at the desk. The front door chimed and in walked Skeptic himself. He took one look at you and his expression fell flat. 

Accurate considering you two treated each other like siblings that fought occasionally instead of like friends. 

“Ugh, so you’re genuinely working here then? I had no idea Re Destro was so desperate for new workers like this.” He walked up to the desk and you scoffed. “Oh please. Don’t be upset because you can’t get me to work at shitty Feel Good Inc for you. I know that’s what this is about.” You smirked at him and he grinded his teeth. “Whatever. Just try not to piss this away. My company is tangled up with this one as well as the others. You fuck something up here at Detnerat then you fuck it up at Feel Good too.” He flicked the little desk figurine over and chuckled as he walked away. To anyone else looking in you two seemed like you hated each other but between the two of you, he was a great friend...

When you get past the teasing of course. 

You tried to pass the time as the clock ticked away but aside from checking people in and out (which Destro had sent someone to show you how to do), there was really nothing too fulfilling to do at the company so far. That’s why whenever He paged down from his office to invite you to lunch, you gave him an earful. 

“Rikiya please put me anywhere else than here. I feel like my brain is melting while I sit here. I was so much more at my old company and I swear I can do so much more here. Anything else but this Receptionist spot please?”

“...But didn’t you want to be treated like an employee rather than my lover? I’m not going to just promote you to the top of the company that easily, my darling.”

“Okay I take it back. Please just move me up to somewhere fulfilling like development?”

“Can you weld?”

“No.”

“Okay...then no.”

“Ugh Rikiya, I know there is something I can do in that position. It’s not just building stuff. I can do tech please? Let me just help you a little bit!”

“Address me as Mr. Re Destro considering I’m your boss.”

“If you don’t move me up to development then you’re sleeping on the couch tonight...and for the rest of the week.”

“...Come meet me in my office and I’ll walk you through the position better.”

You smiled and hung up the phone, rather proud of your own haggling skills you developed. You waited for someone to take over your spot at the front desk before heading up the elevator to the top floor CEO office. There Rikiya was waiting on you at his desk with a frown. “I know that look and just let it go right now. I promise after this that I won’t seek anymore special treatment.” He sighed at you and shrugged. “Very well, follow me.” He gave you a full tour of the room where most of the work goes into developing Detnerat products. Then he handed you over the main guy in charge of programming and what not. Things were going rather well...until they weren’t. Details aren’t important because at this very moment, Destro was floored. Literally floored...he was kneeling on the floor as he surveyed the immense damage in front of him. Fires being put on in one corner, other employees being rescued in another corner. Dozens upon dozens of machines being shut down as they’re wheeled out of the company to be disposed of. He just stared...stunned with his mouth open. Finally he slowly turned to look at you as you nervously laughed. “Soooo...I admit the technology here is a lot more different than my old job heh heh.” His expression fell flat and he glared at you. “Hundred upon thousands of dollars in damage from one hour of letting you down here. As a boss, I want you out of this company. As your partner, I can’t seem to do that to you. Here’s what I suggest, you work the front desk until I get all of this cleaned up...now...” The last word was pretty firm. You could see the marks shifting on his face from stress so you decided not to pry and test your luck. You gathered your things and scurried back down to the front desk for the rest of the evening until Destro had everything under control. The ride home was silent but as soon as you got through the front door, he chuckled lightly at you. “Are you going to fire me now, forreal?” 

“No, but I ought to. Instead I can simply offer you this.” He reached out and handed you a letter. You recognized the address on the front as that of your old company. Upon reding the letter you realized he had pulled some strings and go you back in. “Should you choose to accept this offer then you’ll be back at your old job as early as Monday morning.” You smiled at the paper and then placed it on the table before looking up at him kindly. “I appreciate it but to be honest with you, I don’t think I want to work under my old boss anymore. My new boss is far cuter and a lot more understanding of my mistakes.” You moved to hold him close and he smiled, feeling his face heat a tad bit. “Besides, if I stay at my desk job for a little while longer then maybe my boss will promote me higher up?”

“Hmmm, I doubt that will ever happen after today but I think it can be negotiated after a while.” You laughed and pulled him into a closer hug. “Thanks Rikiya.”

[neitherlightnordark]

seam. tell me about them. please. maybe about their eye if you wanna. or just in general. seam good.

i was actually saving this ask for a bit to think on- it it was just very nice! but as i don't want to forget about it, i think it would be appropriate to use this for the "send me a character" thing!!

1. so seam is aromantic and this is very funny to me because like... maybe one day, after the two slashed each other into near-unconsciousness in a sparring session, they're collapsed on the ground and jevil turns to seam with an enormous giddy grin and is like "we could run away together you know, you know" and seam is like "what?" and jevil adds "in a romantic sense!!" and seam weighs all the pros and cons of this and after a moment says "oh yeah sure we totally could :)" to see how it goes. eventually they figure out what's going on and their romance sort of peters out into a very calm and playful sort of thing they remind each other about on tuesdays (they add "divorced" to their extensive catalogue of experiences with each other, which include "roommates for 57 hours, the longest anyone other than jevil has ever stayed in jevil's room" and "unofficial and only coworkers at queen's hell basement supermarket")

2. seam's gender sure is a gender. it is gender. all and nothing. seam, personally, could not care less. seam is also one of the most gender characters in deltarune. these statements can and will always coexist. after the infamous anniversary stream i became really giddy using they/them pronouns for seam, but i am very fond of seam using no pronouns!!

3. i diagnose seam with go outside and sit in some sunlight. a while ago a few of us discussed seam having a spa day, having a nice day to think about things... and productivity!! seam working on the shadow mantle for the lancer fun squad despite outwardly saying they'll fail is just... gosh :) (although seam immediately giving up once the shadow mantle disappears is also really funny to me)

4. *slams hands on table* queen and jevil once being seam's friends oh my GOSH. like the. oh all tragedies need comedy in them don't they? none of them would ever say so to each other because they're just like that but gosh they cared about each other so much back when they were living in card castle... they took refuge in each other's goofiness and resoluteness and bantered with each other and did really elaborate pranks and then queen disappeared and it's like something in the other two quietly... broke? this is a lot of headcanon stuff about three people who have only acknowledged each other in traces yes. Aaaahaaughh

also i'm writing about this- ralsei being mad at seam is so funny and fascinating in concept you guys

5. oh i have nothing for this yo!

6. seam's missing an arm! the left one. it sort of looks like there's a nub on their overworld sprite, and after living and being played with for so long it sort of makes sense yknow? jevil's also missing an arm, queen's body was all wank until she reinstalled her core, seam's perpetually exhausted all the time... Buddies

7. !!! <3333 <3 <3 :D <33333

[abuzd]

Hey Dogwood, first I wanted to clarify this isn't an ask where I'm seeking medical advice, it's more about just changes in general and how to cope. I do mention medicine as an example but I don't mention specific ones, and my ask is more about emotional/mental coping.

How do you mentally prepare yourself for a change (in my case, it's adjusting my med regimen and being nervous about how I'll feel) even if you know you're safe? The logical part of me knows I don't need to be as worried as I am, I've gone through similar changes before and I'm in touch with my prescriber, but it's one of those things where if you overthink, your brain starts to come up with too many what-if scenarios? If I felt less nervous I wouldn't be so intimidated, but because of my anxious thoughts, I'm perceiving the situation as bigger than it actually is and I just feel more scared of changes than compared to the past.

There are some other unrelated situations I'm going through that will potentially result in changes I don't feel ready for. Some that might happen in the near future, others that are more distant. But anyway. It seems like you've dealt with lots of changes and (without giving more detail than you're comfortable sharing) I just wanted to ask if you were okay with giving your thoughts on how you cope with the fear of uncertainty when it comes to things like that. If there's any healthy distractions you find helpful or what your favorite reassuring statements are. Thoughts/reminders that comfort you. Anything.

Thanks for taking the time to read, and also thank you for mentioning Daylio since I've been finding that app super helpful and I see other people have been benefitting from it too. Thank you for your blog and for being amazing, I appreciate following you!

hello!! i'd love to be able to offer more help with this but tbh i'm more eager towards change than most people. especially med changes and stuff, even if i'm unsure if i'm ready for the changes. i have anxiety meds i can take for panic but other than that i don't really require much help or comfort for change, i face things pretty head-on even if they're terrifying, i push pretty hard to get past things without the use of comfort. i know that doesn't help you at all, but i don't want to give you any kind of bullshit answer :( if i did have apprehensions about things though, i'd take them up with my therapist and talk through them for guidance and techniques specifically designed for me in my capacities and limits. the only thing i'd maybe suggest you can do on your own is journalling so that the thoughts aren't just whooshing around your head. putting your concerns down on a list (like pros and cons help) can help you put them down where you can See them so they're not just everywhere and overwhelming in your head, yknow? again i'm sorry i'm not much help but perhaps other followers can reply to this with the advice that i'm unable to give from my own experiences!