#probably the only ending I'm really happy about
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suiana · 24 hours ago
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yandere! childhood friend who still reminisces about your childhood together. yeah, the two of you may be grown now but he's been your day 1 and he just can't help but think about how you used to cling to him and adore him so much! he wishes you'd still do that but it is what it is. no matter how much he wishes otherwise.
yandere! childhood friend who did everything with you. yeah, that also includes practicing kisses. he's your first kiss, and he's never gonna let you forget that. you said you wanted to get better and who is he to refuse? he can't pass up such a prime opportunity! and it's not like he wants anyone else to take it. god no. that would be a tragedy.
"yeah, remember our kissing practices? hah, we were such kids back then!" he watches as you snicker, feeling a warm flush creep up his spine. god, of course he remembers. young and immature as you both were, you both learned together. that's all that really matters to him. "thanks to you, i can now makeout with my partners with ease. you're the best man." and has he told you how muchit infuriates him that you're using your experience to get with others? to please them with the mouth that once touched his? nah, he really can't stand for it. but he isn't allowed to say anything. he's just a childhood friend after all. not for long though.
yandere! childhood friend who wishes he would've accepted your offer to learn how to fuck as well. but no, he just had to be way too delusional back then and tell you to wait for the right one. he must've thought that you'd feel the same and confess then he'd court you slowly before getting to that stage... that never happened unfortunately. not yet at least. he'll make it happen.
yandere! childhood friend who's still a hopeless romantic at heart. a delusional one but a romantic nonetheless. he brings you out on "platonic dates" or whatever the fuck you like to call it, comfort you after your shitty excuse of a partner dumps you, and treats you like the deity that you are. you only deserve the best and he'll be there to provide. none of these losers can't treat you well. he can. he really hopes it'll help you see him as a potential boyfriend!
"i just," you blow your nose, tears streaming down your cheeks as your childhood friend rubs at your back tenderly. "don't know why he'd want to dumo me! we've been going strong for a year already! it's so out of the blue!" yeah, out of the blue huh... not really out of the blue for someone who's been actively theeatening that poor excuse of a man. that menas him, obviously. why he's been threatening him, you ask? because he's not treating you the way you should be treated, duh! sure you look happy but are you really? probably not, he's sure of it. "hey hey, don't worry... I'm here now, aren't i?" he always is, and he always will. you just need to understand that fact and you'll start seeing him in a different light too. don't worry, he has lots of patience. just... don't go sleeping with other people again.
yandere! childhood friend who may or may not be totally super duper mega in love with you. yeah, definitely not in love with you. that would be weird, right? come on, he's your childhood friend! sure you two might've kissed when you were kids and promised to marry one another but those were kiddy promises! that's all they are! he... totally doesn't believe you actually wanna marry him and be his forever and ever.
"so have you started thinking about your future?" he pauses at your question, rubbing at his empty ring finger. future, huh? funny how you ask that when you two are destined to be together at the end of it all. i mean, the two of your promised it as kids, didn't you? sure you're exploring now but at the end if the day, it's him that you come back to, don't you? even if just as a friend. but that's the present, not the future. "nah, not really. just wanna focus on the current moment, y'know?" bullshit, and he knows it. but he doesn't wanna scare you away. not yet at least. you're still out lookign for others which means you haven't come round to the idea of you two together. not to worry, he'll give you a little more time to see how good he is. how good things could be between you two if you just gave him the chance. "i mean, you're here with me." he chuckles, taking your hand in his before placing it on his cheek. you're warm. he likes your warmth, it's so soothing. "that's more than enough for me." half lidded eyes gaze at you, full of emotion and hidden longing before he hums softly. the teo fo you sit in the park in silence, enjoying each other's presence. in the moonlight, everything seems to slow and engulf the two of you in a quiet embrace. he only wishes you would just love him back already. "yeah, I'm glad to be by your side too, best friend." ...he really hates those words. don't worry, good things come to those who wait. and you will be his in due time. you've already had his heart, now all he needs is yours.
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blunderpuff · 20 hours ago
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I'm gonna add onto this and you can't stop me! :)
So MASH was a protest show. It was protesting the Vietnam War. (Everyone laughs that the Korean War lasted 2 years, but MASH lasted for 11-- that's because it wasn't actually about Korea. It was about Vietnam, and the Vietnam War lasted longer than MASH-- 19.5 years. It's conceivable that an 18yo soldier could have fathered a child... and that that child could have grown up to fight in the same ongoing war as his father had.)
Henry Blake, the somewhat bumbling but always good-hearted Midwest dad who didn't give a shit about politics... he was an audience stand-in. He was a surrogate character for middle-aged American men who weren't at risk of being drafted, who perhaps already fought in a war (or were just in the right age bracket to avoid it), for men who thought that the young people protesting the war were spitting on America. He was a character for men who weren't going to watch MASH on their own, but might grumble through it because their families liked it.
Henry's politics boiled down to "I want to do a good job as a surgeon, (because that's my job) but I really want to go home and enjoy time with my wife and children." He didn't have a calling to be a surgeon; he picked the profession for the money. He loves his wife, but he does have a nurse girlfriend (actually, he keeps the same girlfriend throughout). He didn't go on anti-war crusades like Hawkeye, but he did think the army bureaucracy was stupid (but only because he himself didn't understand the system-- he was still more than willing to go along with it.)
So Henry Blake was incredibly relatable on purpose. He was just an extremely normal guy living in a crazy situation and doing his best. And we saw highs and lows and zany escapades with him for 3 long seasons, and then he was killed on his way home. It was unfair, it was heartbreaking, and it was necessary: all those men watching at home, all those men who probably hated hippies and hated Alan Alda but kept watching for their-- excuse the term-- Blorbo... all those men were suddenly angry and heartbroken. How could MASH take away their guy's happy ending like that? And the characters are in surgery when they receive the news-- they get no time to mourn; they have to suck it up and keep operating. So the fans at home could mourn (and they did). But Henry Blake's death did more to make (white) middle-aged American men hate the Vietnam War than any protest or opinion article or celebrity plea ever did.
(And MASH lasted another 8 seasons, and got more explicitly anti-war as it did.)
I've seen the take floating around that Henry's death at the end of season three was unnecessary, so now I'm feeling the need to ramble a bit about why it had to happen that way.
We all know that the vibes of MASH gradually shift over the run of the show, and that the first three seasons are a lot more lighthearted overall than the later ones. More Requiem for a Lightweight, less Death Takes a Holiday. While the show is never exactly "hijinks at the front" and does have some early episodes that lean into darker themes (such as, famously, Sometimes You Hear the Bullet), it's still more comedic than dramatic in the early years.
Because of this tone, the audience is set up to expect things to be a little angsty here and there but still turn out alright overall. Sure, soldiers die all the time (even named ones like Tommy), but all the main characters were supposed to get out okay. From a Doylist perspective, they need to survive because they're leads on a show and they're getting paid to come back regularly. Not Henry though. McLean Stevenson chose to leave after season three, and the writers had to give Henry a proper sendoff.
I'm not feeling the need to go on a tangent right now about how great Henry is, but rest assured that I love his character. The show makes it clear that he's the one with the most waiting for him back home. Sure, Trapper and Frank have wives and kids too, but Henry gets multiple episodes about how much he loves Lorraine and even home videos of his happy domestic life. Plus, he's got a baby son born while he was overseas, someone he desperately wants to meet. Out of all the characters, he's got the most American dream and apple pie life waiting for him across the ocean.
All of that makes Henry a great person to send home, and it's why he could never make it there.
Once Stevenson decided to leave MASH, Henry was fated to leave as well. He got the discharge letter and the celebrations; everything all the characters had been dreaming off since their deployment. It would have been so easy to just let him return to his family. He's off the show either way, why couldn't the writers let him be happy? Because it's a fucking war, and even a plane home doesn't guarantee anyone's safety. The show needed to kill Henry off to remind the audience that they are watching a tragedy dragged across dozens of countries and millions of people. The closer they let him get to home, the more pointless his death was in the grand scheme of things; the more important it became.
Killing Henry is how MASH fully lived up to it's own expectations. The show is full of little tragedies and people with rich lives who never returned to live them, but we never really felt that loss as more than a concept. Sure, Tommy is instantly likeable and his death his deeply impactful, but we the audience only get the implication of Hawkeye's deep friendship with him. Henry is someone we've come to love on our own. All these deaths are pointless and cruel, none of them had to happen. Because we've spent three seasons getting to know and care for Henry (and are aware that the writers could have easily let him live), we finally feel that pointlessness.
Going forward after Henry's death, nothing is quite the same. Death is suddenly a true option, and no one is entirely safe from needless tragedy. When Trapper goes home and Hawkeye doesn't get to say goodbye it isn't just sad because he can't throw his friend a party or give him a hug, it's heartbreaking because he doesn't know that Trapper will even make it back to Boston.
Going home will always be the ultimate goal of all the characters, but it can never be a simple "get out of trauma free" card. The war will always follow them.
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slaaverin · 2 days ago
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JIMIN CAME HOME!!!!!!!
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Hello ARMY, this is Jimin. I enlisted in December two years ago, and now, two years have already passed. I've been serving in the military for about a year and two months now, and honestly… time seems to flow differently here. It’s not always easy, but because there are things I’m learning and experiencing, I’m looking forward to the days when I can talk with you all and share fun stories about everything that’s happened. Hmm… my daily life hasn’t changed much. Since it’s the military, I go through training, work, exercise, and before I know it, the day is over, and it's time to sleep. I’m living through a routine that repeats itself every day. But one thing that has changed since the new year is the conversations Jungkook and I have before going to bed. Since the days until we meet ARMY again are getting closer, we've been talking a lot about what we need to prepare before that moment arrives, what kind of image we want to show, and what kind of lives we will live moving forward. To be honest, there is also a bit of fear. It’s been quite a long time since we last performed together, and it’s been a while since we fully dedicated our time to the stage and music. So yes, there is a little fear, but one thing that hasn’t changed is our determination to give you the best performance when we return. We’ll prepare diligently—really. We’ll work hard and come back in our best form. To our ARMY, whom I miss and am endlessly grateful for, Until the day we meet again, please stay healthy and may every day be filled with happiness. Wishing you lots of luck in the new year, ARMY. I love you. Truly.
GUYS THE WAY I SCREAMED I AM NOT OK I'M ACTUALLY TREMBLING
Ok so when Jimin comes home, it might not be often, but when he does, it's HUGE!
This letter is honestly a lot and I'm not going to be very coherent.
So basically he's going through the day, doing what he must do, like a routine (as expected) but my takeaway is that the one constant is Jimin & Jungkook talking when the day ends.
Oh, boy.
So you're telling me our boys are having deep conversations at night about their future now 😭 omg what do I do with that information.
I don't know about you but Jimin articulated his letter so well I instantly felt the irrevocable WEIGHT of his statements.
Like, what they talk about is serious, it's deliberate, it will probably change how they handle things when they come out. We're talking big life questions, expectations, dreams & desires, public image.
Like how do we go from here? After everything. Who do we want to be? As individuals, & as a couple?
I know I shouldn't be shocked, it was bound to happen, but even then I'm still 😭 not ok he's saying it this plainly.
"What kind of life we want to live moving forward"
This phrase shook me to my fucking core. I let out an inhumane scream. What kind of life? WHAT KIND OF LIFE?
Fucking hell. It's exhilirating and scary just thinking about it.
Anticipation grows through the roof.
He said he's going to tell us things when he comes out so I'm glad.
Because I only need to know, to see, with their words, and their bodies, what is their state of mind. I'm so fucking curious to know what they are thinking about. I'm dying inside, I don't want to wait. This is killing me.
I think I'm waiting for the tiniest sign that they are ok, that they will be, that they feel good, that we don't need to worry. I DON'T KNOW??? The unknown is so very scary and unpredictable. Not knowing is what's worse.
But they are together and they talk together of their future, a future that I'm sure will also include the other in some type or form.
I'm now more than ever positive on a jikook subunit next. Might be small, but I'm sure they thought of something.
& They thought of AYS, too. I know it.
Maybe also about how they will move in together? One can only hope.
This letter fills me with joy.
Jimin is such a wonderful person & his words always hit right.
Having fear is a normal thing. The future is always worst in our head than in reality, and projecting things too much onto it can only create anxiety. But I'm not worried - about that. They will manage to give us amazing performances I have no doubt. I just hope they don't put too many expectations on themselves, because they don't need to. I trust them to do their best and it's already enough.
What kind of image will they be showing moving forward? They were ready to already risk it all before with AYS. How things will change?
What kind of person will they show?
This is all so very exciting guys 😭
So many possibilities.
When they come out I will be clinging to my seat holding my breath with my fingers crossed 😭
Ahhh, we need to be patient. This is hard.
I'm so glad Jimin seems to be well. That they are both well.
I need to let everything sink in. And reflect on it.
I think soon a lot will be happening, and I want to be here for ALL of it. I'll continue to write silly posts about it.
But I'm positive, the future will be bright, and I think everything will be ok.
They are writing it as we speak, and I believe it is meant to be, as always, together.
Wishing them good luck 💜
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thisbuildinghasfeelings · 3 days ago
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Favorite Fandom Memories
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I have so many amazing fandom memories from my past 3 years in this fandom, but I'll just give 4:
1.Season 3 Finale Night--Watching that proposal live was INCREDIBLE. I was still somewhat new to the fandom having only started watching the show about 12 weeks before so I didn't have any actual fandom friends at that point, but it was still so much fun liveblogging that episode. Leading up to the episode airing, I felt about 95% sure that the proposal was going to happen and then...IT DID! I remember crying and feeling like I was almost blacking out from joy! I don't think any live viewing moment ever topped that one for excitement! After the episode, I stayed up way too late but then after only a couple hours of sleep, I woke up in the middle of the night. I had two choices: try to go back to sleep or watch the proposal scene 10 times. I think you can probably guess which one I chose! The next day at work was ROUGH.
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2. Theorizing with Kaitlyn--in the lead up to episode 4x04, my tumblr account got terminated for absolutely no reason. I was horrified! I quickly made a new account to lament what had happened as I tried to get it back. Luckily, I did get it back about 30 hours later, but in the meantime, @she-walked-away came off anon to dm me on my temporary account. We have been theorizing together EVER SINCE. We've had some amazing moments, like the time we (mostly Kaitlyn) figured out the Huntington's storyline before it aired and the time we guessed a whole lot of what was going to happen in season 5 but also got a whole lot wrong. Our theorizing conversations have absolutely enhanced my fandom experience these past couple years!
3. The first Lone Star cross stitch I posted--Back in March 2023, I had the idea to combine my cross stitching hobby with my love for 911 Lone Star. I got to work and, on April 5, 2023, I posted my first ever finished Lone Star cross stitch:
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The response was really nice and it inspired me to keep going. Now, making Lone Star cross stitch is one of my favorite things to do.
4. Talking to fandom friends on discord--I was always pretty intimidated by discord, I don't even know why. But in early 2024, I broke down and made an account and I'm incredibly happy that I did! It has allowed me to get closer to so many fandom friends, from the ones I talk to occasionally to the ones I talk to every single day! I even got the amazing experience of meeting one of said friends in person in AUSTIN, TX of all places 🥰 I would not have gotten through the long hiatus before season 5 without all of you and I'll certainly be counting on you to help get me through the sadness after the show ends!
Ok, I'm not going to tag anyone specifically since I already tagged a lot of people on the initial post, but consider this an OPEN TAG! Tell me some of your favorite fandom memories!!
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putschki1969 · 3 days ago
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Hi Puts, as always thank you for giving timely updates on everything. Absolutely disappointed by the news of Keiko being excluded. I'm curious if you know what the Japanese fans think as I believe they are usually unforgiving in most circumstances. Does Keiko have their support?
Hi there!! You are very welcome. It's been one hell of a week so far and it's only Tuesday. I feel totally drained XD
As for your question, well...
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For the sake of my mental health, I generally try not to read too many social media posts about stuff like this. It's so easy to end up in a rabbit hole of negativity if you get exposed to all sorts of weird opinions. So yeah, my observations are probably not particularly conclusive, please keep that in mind.
By and large, people have tried their best to stay level-headed and respectful. However, I would say a majority of them are siding with Yuki on this. Despite being sad to see Keiko excluded, they seem to understand Yuki's decision and are planning to attend her lives as if nothing happened. I feel like in an attempt to delude themselves, they are desperately clinging to Yuki and her music, unwilling to question Yuki's actions.
Everyone has of course been very quick to put all the blame on Space Craft, I don't think I have seen a single person who is considering that Yuki herself might be at fault here. According to some followers of mine, there are also a handful of people who dare to insinuate that Keiko brought this "punishment" on herself by "betraying" Yuki but thank God I have personally not come across such nasty claims and I am beyond glad they are in the minority. I vividly remember how Wakana was treated very badly back in the day for associating with Space Craft with many people going as far as to refuse to support her. The good thing is that most fans are still willing and determined to support Keiko's solo activities despite some controversies. I guess it's because Keiko has a bigger and stronger core fanbase, their loyalty may lie with Yuki Kajiura but they would not just drop Keiko like a hot potato over something like this.
I have also seen an interesting phenomenon of self-flagellation among certain fans. They are blaming themselves for being too vocal about wanting a Kalafina reunion. According to their weird logic, the girls wouldn't have been "forced" to make a deal with Space Craft if the fans hadn't been so greedy with their demands. I do not agree with this at all. Of course there have always been some inconsiderate fans who kept pushing and pushing to a point where they became a huge nuisance. But most of us have just been silently hoping for a Kalafina comeback and I really don't think there's anything wrong with that. The girls themselves were hoping for the exact same thing. I wholeheartedly believe that they wanted to hold this concert, they weren't pressured into anything. Did they have our happiness in mind when they made the decision? I am sure it was an important factor! But that doesn't somehow make it our fault that all of this happened.
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maxdibert · 2 days ago
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I probably wouldn’t survive having a relationship with Severus, I'm sensitive as hell and need an emotional stabilizer, but I still find him very appealing. I feel if he loved someone he would be kind of obsessed with them, in a devoted quiet sort of way and I think that's very sweet. I think he would want to please his partner and want to meet their standards so he would be a "people-pleaser" but still like to do it because it makes his partner happy. I think he would also never turn down any request you have of him, even if he is snarky about it. I think he is very romantic but his words hurt like hell so it's a pass for me. His insecurities make him so difficult and hurtful, he would probably he a dick only to push his partner away because he's scared they're gonna leave anyway or some bullshit like that. I don’t think he is boyfriend material because he has so much baggage to work on, but if he ever toned down his dickish behavior, and took a breather before speaking, I do think he would make a good partner. I would just not survive cuz his cold and avoidant behavior would make me think he doesn’t really care about me.
Well, it's what I've said on other occasions: Severus is a person who is very messed up and carries a heavy backpack full of unresolved traumas and problems. And that comes out in a relationship. People who struggle to manage their emotions in a healthy way tend to have disruptive behaviors in their daily lives, but even more so in relationships, because relationships require constant adaptation to another person and also accepting one's own vulnerability.
As I said before, I think Severus wouldn’t be someone easy to deal with or handle in general. He would probably be someone with a deep fear of rejection, which would manifest as being constantly on guard, always looking out for signs that his partner might leave him or abandon him. That would keep him in a perpetual state of defensiveness. He’s also someone who would rather push people away at the slightest sign that they might hurt him or affect him emotionally more than he’s comfortable with. He’s the kind of person who distances himself from others, and his “complete asshole” personality is, in large part, a way of protecting himself from the world and keeping people at bay. That’s not something that would change just because he’s in a relationship. Loving someone wouldn’t make him stop being who he is.
Severus had an excessive attachment to Lily, and even for her, he didn’t change—he only changed because he felt guilty about what happened to her, not because Lily loved him and asked him to. He’s incredibly stubborn, clear about his goals, and we’re also talking about an adult who has spent many years with certain habits, routines, quirks, and attitudes. Changing that is extremely difficult. That’s why I think it’s not that Severus is incapable of having a partner or a functional relationship, but rather that he’s not someone who can be with just anyone. For him to have a relationship, there would first need to be a lot of trust, and second, his partner would have to have a very specific kind of personality—not only to handle him but also to call him out when necessary. Because no matter how much sympathy we have for his life and no matter how much we want to hug him, Severus is also the type of person who needs to be told things straight and be put in his place when he goes too far. He doesn’t need a mother; he needs a partner.
That said, despite his difficult personality and the likelihood that he would—probably often—throw fits when something overwhelms him, I also think he would be a very devoted partner. Severus has a strong sense of loyalty, and above all, he is deeply grateful to those who show him affection, care, or trust. We can see through the few positive relationships he has had that if someone shows him kindness or acceptance, he will stand by them to the end. But I don’t think he’s the type to express it in words, nor do I think his displays of affection would be very obvious. I see him as the kind of person who shows that he cares in subtle ways, but not so subtle that you wouldn’t notice. You can’t expect him to suddenly be the most affectionate and sweet guy in the world because that’s just not who he is—well, maybe drunk, because when he’s drunk, anything is possible, really. You have to be prepared for him to be a bit prickly. But he would burn the whole world down if that’s what it took to help the people he loves, and in the end, that’s more important than a bouquet of flowers, for example.
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firstkanaphans · 18 hours ago
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Hi! I've recently seen a TikTok video that's kinda like "we listen and don't judge." It was about what BL couples would realistically break up after their happy end in their serials. I'm really curious. Who do you think will be together for a long time from a realistic point of view from FK's characters?
AkkAye are at a pretty steep disadvantage here because I’m a cynic at heart and tend to find it unrealistic for high school couples to stay together long-term. My realistic headcanon for AkkAye has always been that they would probably break up sometime during college and then get back together later. There’s only one high school BL couple I think will realistically stand the test of time and that is TinnGun from My School President. Feel free to argue with me about AkkAye, but I am right about TinnGun.
I can see SandRay being a bit volatile in practice. They will probably fight more than any of the rest of them, but Ray would never break up with Sand unless he was trying to punish himself for something and Sand would never let him do that. KantBison and AlanGaipa both seem pretty solid and all four of them are actively ready to settle down in canon, which helps. There’s a path to victory here for all of them but in general my opinion is always that the older the characters are when they get together, the better the chance that they’ll actually last.
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astridsastroids · 3 days ago
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𝑩𝑳𝑨𝑪𝑲 𝑻𝑰𝑬
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summary : Charles comes back from an even looking a bit too good or is it the fact that he looked dishevelled and had his suit open
paring : charles leclerc x fem!reader
note : this is the first story part of the 'a good girl's guide to die' series I'm doing also sorry for any errors
warning : mirror sex,unprotected sex (wrap it up before you stuff it up),clit stimulation/tapping,light hair pulling,fingering lmk if I forgot anything
happy reading, love from Astrid -💋
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I'm starting to think this house has never been cleaned. I've been sick for a few days now; there's enough dust everywhere to fill a plant pot, and the place is just untidy. But maybe I'm just being dramatic.
"I should have just let Charles clean like he asked, but no, I had to be a genius, didn't I?" I sigh, dusting off the last shelf before grabbing the broom to sweep up anything else on the floor.
As I move to sweep under the couch, out of the corner of my eye, I see Leo rolling around on the couch. "No, no, Leo! Oh my goodness!" I pick up the puppy. "You're lucky you're cute enough for me not to be angry. Come on, baby, let me put you in your puppy pen while I clean. I'll come brush you afterwards." I leave him in the puppy pen and clean up the little fur where he rolled around.
If I get all the cleaning done now, I can go back to bed. Even though I feel better, I still feel dizzy from time to time. I carried on cleaning, making sure I did so thoroughly. Though the place is clean, I started to feel grimy. "I should go shower before getting back into bed," I said to myself as I packed all the cleaning supplies.
Leo barked, and I remembered I had to brush him. "Can I brush you tomorrow?" I picked him up. "I'll brush you tomorrow, baby. I'm tired." I reached for my phone to text Charles that I'd probably be asleep by the time he gets back from the premiere he and Carlos had to attend on behalf of Ferrari, but the message only went through on my end.
"Maybe Dad's busy," I said to Leo, putting him on the bed. "Stay. If anyone comes in, bark at your loudest." I gave him a kiss as I went into the bathroom and turned on the shower.
I got into the shower, and the hot water warmed my skin as I grabbed the cinnamon-scented body wash and washed my body. All the grime and tiredness fell away by the second. I took more time to wash my hair, scrubbing deep into my scalp.
After a while of fixing up my hair, I tied it and wrapped myself in a towel before stepping out of the bathroom, only to get startled by Charles. "Fucking hell, Leo! Really, what happened to barking?" He turned, taking off his tie. "He won't because he knows me, ma chérie." He picked Leo up, putting him near the door before the puppy ran off.
"Regardless" I said as Charles shut the door. I looked at him: his disheveled hair, his half-buttoned shirt, and the blazer with the Ferrari pin long forgotten. I watched him take his belt off, and I bit my lip, my eyes remaining on his hands.
I watched his— "See something you like, darling?" he came up to me. "Huh?" I asked as his thumb ran over my bottom lip. "You're biting your lip, so do you see something you like?" I looked at him. Definitely, I definitely see something I like, but I'm not going to admit that. Hell, I just got better from being sick.
"Um, no. I'm, um, I'm gonna get dressed for bed." I walked to the closet to take out pajamas. As I reached a bit over my head for socks, I felt his presence behind me before he pulled me back into him. "You're not gonna ask about the premiere?" He kissed my shoulder.
"I mean, I already saw all the photos and videos. I have an idea. Plus, I bet you're exhausted—" He turned me to face him. "I didn't say I was, though, chérie." His finger brushed my hand. "Is there something you want?" I shook my head. "Not really." I'm not gonna admit I want him.
"You know pridefulness will be your downfall because you know eyes don't lie. So, I'm either going to finish changing and get into bed, or you can tell me what's behind those beautiful eyes of yours." I let out a soft breath; my fault for being as transparent as glass.
"You," I look at him. "I want you, Charles." He grabbed my hand, placing it on his chest. "I'm going to go shower. You stay here. It's up to you if you want to put your pajamas on, but you'll be patient and wait for me, okay?" I nod as his thumb brushes over my jaw. "I'll be back." He disappeared into the bathroom.
I listen to the shower run. This is so stupid; he's probably tired. I don't care if he already told me he wasn't. He's been out all day, from the race to the premiere. He needs rest, though I'd hate to ignore that. I wouldn't hate it if he did indulge, even just a little bit.
What was I doing? Right, pajamas. Should I even—I know what's going to happen, but do I want to wear them now? I reach for a nightdress, putting it on. "Damn it, I forgot to lotion—" The bathroom door opened. He emerged, towel around his waist, hair still a mess. Did he shower faster than usual, or was I just not paying attention to time?
"Charlie..." I trail off as he moves to sit on the bed bench. He looks at me and holds his hand out. "Come here." I walk to him, taking his hand as he sits me in his lap, my back to his front. My eyes meet my own in the mirror of the vanity. I definitely should brush my hair again. "You look like an angel, you know."
He places a kiss on my shoulder. "How are you feeling?" His hands trace over my sides and up to my chest, kneading my breasts. "I'm okay; I still get dizzy sometimes." I close my eyes, focusing on the sensation. "No, no, no! I want you to see yourself—how pretty you are." Is he serious? I open my eyes and look at my reflection in the mirror. I watched his hands squeezing my chest, why is watching him touch me so arousing? "You're my pretty girl."
His legs spread slightly as mine followed because I was on his lap. His hands lifted my nightdress. "I'm going to take this off, then I'm going to touch you bare, okay?" I nodded, looking at him through the mirror. He lifted the nightdress over my head and placed it on the bed. "So beautiful." His hands kneaded my breasts, the sensation feeling so good. I whined a little.
He pulled his hands back before sucking his fingers, and then I felt his slick hands play with my nipples. "Charles," he kissed my back, continuing his motions. "You're so soft," he whispered. "So fucking soft."
One of his hands dropped to my slick cunt; he pressed his fingers down and played with my clit. My head leaned back. "No, if you take your eyes off the mirror, I'm going to stop, angel." I put my gaze back at the reflection.
"Just like that." His fingers moved lower to tease my whole. "Do you want me to play with your pussy?" I nodded. "Yes, please, Charles," I begged. "Such good manners." His two fingers slid in and out of my pussy, the rhythm making me bite my lip. "Charles, mhm." His other hand left my breasts and played with my clit.
I moan out, "Fuck!" Him playing with me felt so good, but watching him do it felt so erotic. I can't find the words—"mhm, mmmh." He nips my ear as he continues his motions. "You sound so good; that cunt sounds so beautiful."
He groaned, pulling his hands away and licking his fingers clean. "I'm gonna fuck you." I felt his towel get pulled from under me as his hard cock rubbed against me. Without wasting time, he slowly pushed inside my soaked cunt. Easily, his hands found my hips as he guided me to move up and down.
I moaned out, watching his cock disappear inside of me through the mirror; it felt divine. His one hand tugged me back by my hair. "Stay close to me, baby. Oh, fuck." We moaned in tandem, the wet noises feeling and sounding so pornographic. It felt amazing. "Fuck, Charles." He looked at me through the mirror. "Keep going; you can do it." His words fell roughly from his lips. "Because we both need this."
"I need this so bad," he said between moans. "It's been a long day." He moved me faster as I yelped and grabbed his arm. "Yes, please, please, mhh." I really don't want him to stop, not now. "My angel, my beautiful angel, mhh."
"Mhm, mh-hm, just a perfect little angel for me," he thrust up into me, "taking me so well." The desperation laced his voice. "You feel so goo—mh." He moaned into my ear as my mouth hung open, and I moaned out, my eyes struggling to keep focus on the mirror. My eyes eventually gave out as I threw my head back into his shoulder.
He grips my hips tightly, bouncing me off him, thrusting deeply. I moaned through a bit lip as my hands secured themselves to my chest so I wouldn't scratch the flesh off his arm. My breathing quickened as I continued to feel him thrusting into me.
My stomach clenched. "I'm gonna need you to come, angel," his breathing erratic. "I can feel you're close; you're squeezing me so good."
"I can't, please—" his voice strained. "Come with me, baby." His hand found its way to my clit, rapidly rubbing it. "Charl—mhh, mh-hm." My body twitched. "Now, fucking now, come for me. I can't hold back long." We came together; I felt myself twitch around his cock, his hand showing no stop. "Charles, s-stop, please." My words fell on deaf ears.
"You deserve it, though." He kissed my temple just as I was about to come again; he just stopped. "Maybe later, mh?" I licked my dry lips, then he tapped my still spasming pussy. "Yeah... later." He shifted, but I stopped him. "Wait, can we stay like this, please, just a bit longer?" His hands roamed my skin. "Okay, anything for you."
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I'll get better at this I swear😭😭
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heretherebedork · 17 hours ago
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You might want to not tag this one, but I gotta get it out for TH/K writing.
For me, personally, I think the contrast of having such well written characters against not so rounded ones is what undersells them more.
Both Style and Fadel are really well thought, written, and consistent through and throughout, but Kant and Bison? They have their moments, but there's something within them that feels a bit empty. They're compelling characters but only in theory, in practice... I'm not sure what is exactly what they're lacking, but it feels as if they're just written for moments, for scenes between them, but they're just not well developed by themselves.
I'm finding myself enjoying much more the interpretations and afterthoughts the fandom has about them than they themselves, especially with Kant, who's peak of interest for me was at the water boat bit and then it just went nowhere. Well
Ah, welcome to the no tags zone, anon! I will keep this in that area and I respect you for it because I agree.
Kant is, for me, the bigger problem. He feels hollow. His 'fake' love feels the same as his real love and that really removes a lot of the... feelings... in the relationship. We saw Style change as he started to care for Fadel and we saw his momentary fear and then how he got over it and saw every aspect of his love for him as well as how he regained his trust after the betrayal.
But with Kant it's just all been... words. Words, words, words and none of them actually deep or meaningful. None of them feel meaningful. He's just... also there.
I think they made Kant too perfect.
He was a car thief but only for his brother!!! And he was a snitch but only to save his brother!!! The guy who calls him an asshole? Lying!!! He was really the NICEST GUY EVER. And then that just leaves with Kant the Actual Angel who only did anything wrong because he just loved his baby brother SO MUCH that he also said he was gonna abandon him the instant he got out of high school but, you know, that's... that's okay I guess?
He just doesn't feel like a whole, entire character. He feels like someone wrote out the parts of a character they thought mattered to the romance and then just... stopped. He's a really cool tattoo artist who used to steal cars because he had to take care of his little brother and now he's gonna snitch on this hitman and pretend to love him but OOOOO turns out not to be fake!
But there's no depth to any of it. It's all so shallow. The depth is what we give it but the show isn't giving us any of it. The show is as deep as the water Kant reached when he was still experiencing his phobia while we're trying to make it as deep as he reached thirty seconds later when he was suddenly and inexplicably cured of it.
AND because Kant is a Perfect Character who can Do No Wrong he brings down the people around him. And Bison is more complex and multi-faceted but because he has to be played entirely with Kant his depth ends up unable to actually be explored in the relationship because Kant doesn't have the same depth.
It's why, frankly, I found his scene with Fadel and forgiveness to never quite go as far as I needed it to go.
Then again, I still don't trust Kant. I know I have and the show doesn't care but he still feels like he's lying to me. Like, he doesn't feel sincere to me because I feel like he never changed from the part of the story where he was supposedly 'faking' his love.
(Also, fuck the idea that bringing back the safeword in the kidnapping is actually bringing back the BDSM or a good callback because it wasn't, it wasn't deep, it was a callback that didn't make a lot of sense in context and didn't go anywhere in the actual story and apparently that was also all it took to make no more BDSM for Bison, I guess?!?!?!)
Anyway, I love Fadel and Style and they make me very happy and Kant and Bison are also there. I'm more invested in Keen and Nont at this point and Nont is probably, like, tied up under the place Fadel was crying.
But yes, anon. I fully agree that Kant is underdeveloped and I think that underdevelopment has spread to Bison and I think it's weakened them as characters to the point that they cannot carry the plot or the romance... at least for me.
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anonymouscheeses · 2 days ago
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No cuz in the snowgrave route SOMETHING gay had to have happened between susie and noelle when susie went in her room to save her, yall CANNOT tell me otherwise 😭🙏 like maybe a PECK a lil kiss or somthn
It would fit SO well with Noelle's new "i have to take control" mindset. And since she thinks it's a dream she gotta be like "eh who tf cares" and str8 up kiss the real susie on accident 💔 that would also explain why Susie goes back to chekc up on Noelle, which is pretty small and COULD be read as platonic... but thats a little suspicious. Since it's the most and probably only time Susie has ever shown interest in Noelle in the snowgrave route, so why would she care so much as to even see her again right before they close the fountain? HMM. almost like she's worried Noelle may not remember their little time together and wants to salvage what they have! HMM..
And on the spot im on right now uh Noelle is a bit too happy to have had an entirely horrible dream(which is even MORE evidence)? And cuz of that, Susie asks with a zesty ass smirk "did u have a good dream?" Of course Noelle says it was a nightmare cuz yknow we hurt our poor deer girl 😭 but i feel like Susie was a bit hurt by what she said cuz she doesn't reply after that and goes back into her little mean girl mask she puts on.
Thankfully Noelle says the end part was pretty nice and Susie gets all excited and giddy like damn lesbian 💔 and to top it all off Noelle gets SUPER nervous by that and rushes to get out of the room.
Idk this is my interpretation (whcih is basically canon cuz im always right trust guys 🙏) go with ur own headcanons or somthn i really dont care- but it also like, makes the most sense?! With the way they're acting, the character implications, and of course, since we can't see what did happen, I don't think Toby fox would want us to see them together so soon, or atleast not let us know about it yet. (Plus this would definitely be a wee bit toxic imo, because of Noelle's need for control. Or she'll get alot of character development! Maybe- i love toxic yuri but its gonna hurtt if its my babiess noo ☹️)
Another thing to add, later in the same scene, after Noelle leaves. Susie says "kinda sucks Noelle has to forget too..." that was NOT said in the normal route. Guys. Guys i think im gna 🥺 so yeah take it with a grain of salt, but something definitely happened in that room and imopo i'm taking it as suselle confirmation 😈
Anyways im ranting i just love deltarune sm and these two especially noelle rot my brain so im forcing my interests onto u 😼
Yes im playing snowgrave, yes it hurts to see my comfort character go thru hell why? 😭
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jjaehyunnxie · 3 days ago
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hide and seek
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reader x perv!jisung
! MDNI, jisung is a slight pervert, voyeurism, haechan catches them
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"Alright, everybody! Cheers!!" Haechan's loud voice fills the room as the clinking of the glasses ring, before everybody takes a big gulp out of their drinks.
A random act of kindness sparked Chenle when he offered to throw a party at his house. Everybody could swear there was something wrong with him but he insisted on it. And now here you all were. 8 people, all gathered up at one long table covered in food prepared diligently by Chenle and Jaemin (although, everybody offered to help them out). It was a rather wholesome scene. Something about everyone being gathered in one place, sharing conversations and enjoying the same food was so heart warming.
Looking at it carefully, Chenle's house really was huge. Marble flooring, tall pillars with neat designs on them, a ceiling that seemed to go way too high and large windows with a stunning view. Everything was big and expensive-looking. Weirdly enough, it fit Chenle's vibe perfectly.
You sat beside Jisung who was extra talkative today. He kept showing you things he's been into lately, ranting passionately to him. Jisung always mentioned that talking to you about these things made him happy and you knew there was probably no one else willing to listen to his rants so you gave in and offered him your full attention for most of the night, up until food was served and he got silent.
"Attention!" Haechan's voice makes everyone turn their head towards him, clinking his teaspoon on his almost empty glass of beer. "I say...how about, we play a game? A game that can only be played in such a large and beautiful house."
"What are you hinting at? Do you wanna burn my house down or something?" Chenle asks with a slight chuckle, expecting Haechan's response to be entertaining as always.
"Hide and Seek", Haechan says with a smile.
Everyone turns to eachother in confusion. Why such a childish game? You were all full grown adults so why bother with these things?
Donghyuck could feel the frustration growing from the members so he chooses to add something else. "Guys, come on! What's wrong with playing a fun children's game once in a while? Plus, it's not everyday you get to be in a mansion like this! We gotta use it to our heart's content!!"
"I'm in." Chenle says, his smile intrigued. So, once the host agreed to it, obviously everybody else agreed to it as well.
Spinning his empty soju bottle, the cap landed on Haechan. He tried to hide his excitement but it was too obvious he was enjoying this.
Thus, he ends up covering his eyes and counting 'till 20, while everyone else rushed to find a spot to hide. Secretly, everybody tried to make it so that Haechan doesn't succeed in finding anyone, just to see his pout as he swears for the nth time that he'll never play games with "you traitors". But to everybody's surprise, finding a spot to hide was harder than imagined.
At this point, everyone had already hidden. All the good areas you thought of were occupied and Haechan was already reaching the last 10 numbers. Suddenly, as if sent by the heavens, you see a closet in what seemed to be Chenle's room. You dash to it, opening it slowly while you take a second to pray that nobody was inside already. Your prayers were left to scatter as you see Jisung, standing cramped and uncomfortable.
There was just no way you could be this unlucky. Just as you were about to close the door to the closet, thinking about just giving up and turning yourself in - maybe help haechan find everyone else - Jisung grabs your wrist.
"Come in, there's still some space left." he whispers.
This sounded like a bad idea. I mean, you? Cramped up in a tight closet with Jisung? The guy that seemed to always stick to you like glue and that always stares at you with an oddly loving look from afar? Still, as you hear Haechan say "19...18...20!" you give in, quickly entering the closet, trying to take up as little space as the door closes, cutting off any source of light that was there.
Chenle's clothes were stacked on the right side of the closet, while the other side was left empty for any jackets to hang. Despite there being no coats hanging, your back was still pressed against Jisung's chest, cramped up in the tiny space that somehow seemed to be much larger.
For a long while you just hear Haechan's frustrated groans and complaints, "Just where did you guys hide!! Come on!!!" mixed with his confident cheers "Found you! See? I told you I'm good at this! Now help me find the rest...". Of course, all of this on top of Jisung's breathing that kept getting heavier and more uneven. His hands were ghosting over your figure, as if he was trying to shut up every voice in his head that told him to grab your waist or hips - just to touch you.
The limited space for movement was making your body numb. As you try to stretch your limbs, you suddenly feel something hard poke your ass. Jisung is quick to apologise, saying he didn't mean it, that it's just the situation - all the while, his hands were found secured on your hips, gripping them with little shame.
"Jie, what are you-?"
"Shhh...please. I'm sorry, okay? I can't help it..." he whines in a whisper. His apologises are a terrible contrast from his actions which slowly rub your hips on his bulge.
This was so wrong. Yet, why was he so cute? His soft pleads, his painfully desperate voice brushing over your ears as he tries his hardest to beg for you while also staying quiet. His crush on you being so obvious was already adorable in the first place, just how much cuter can this guy even get?
"Please, y/n. Just the tip...I'll be quick-fuck, I'll cum right away, I promise."
You just had to give in.
"Okay, okay. Be quiet, though. Hyuck shouldn't catch us..."
He nods rapidly. "I'll do anything. He won't catch us. I promise you." Jisung rambles empty promises as you can hear the soft clinking of his belt being unbuckled and his zipper quickly pulled down in a swift motion. His hand slides under your skirt, fingers tugging at your panties before pushing them aside. He groans at how wet you already are. You're just as perfect as he always imagined. Plush pussy, glossed and ready for his dick.
He wastes no time, slipping his tip in with ease, earning a shaky exhale from him. He pushes in and out of you, slipping his tip in and out. But with every slide, it feels as if he tries to go deeper.
"Shit, baby. I'm sooo sorry, I need your pussy so bad." he whines as he shoves his whole length in you, finding a steady pace as he thrusts deep. His left hand slithers to your chest, squeezing your breast tightly, while his right hand goes under your skirt, rubbing your clit.
"Y-You said only the-fuck" your moans became more and more difficult to keep quiet, desperate whines that were impossible to not hear from outside.
His hand rushes to your mouth, muffling your moans as his thrusting picks up speed. "It's okay, I'm almost done. Just a little more, okay?" he pleads with a shaky voice, large hands wrapped around your body as the wet sounds of skin slapping filled the small, cramped up area.
"Oh, shiiit, y/n. I'm gonna cum. I'm gonna cum in this tight pussy...'s all yours..."
Unable to warn him about your orgasm approaching as well, it takes you over, cunt clamping down hard on his length as he lets out desperate cries and pleads, continuing to fuck into you silly.
He doesn't last long before his cock shoots its ropes of hot cum in you with stuttering hips, his body left trembling and struggling to keep you up on your feet.
He rushes to stuff his softened dick back in his pants, trying as hard as he can to hide any evidence of his doings but is only startled when Haechan opens the door to Jisung zipping his pants up and you, struggling to stand up and a fucked out expression on your face.
"You guys are seriously unbelievable. If you hadn't finished then, I would've come in myself to finish it off." He scoffs, shaking his head in disbelief. "Searched the whole villa for you two, only to find you having your own 7 minutes in heaven."
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ruershrimo · 1 day ago
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an update on ‘take me back (take me with you)’
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hi guys! first of all, I’m so sorry chapter 9 is taking a long time. I’ve actually finished writing the events in chapter 9, but I’ll need to tweak it a little bit first. I’m worried if it’s going to be a disappointment, because a lot of what makes chapter 9 important only comes up in chapter 10 or in the previous chapters. despite writing and rewriting the parts over and over, I’m not sure if chapter 9 is going to make people feel as I intended it to, especially with chapter 10 still incomplete. for now, it’s also kind of short (pretty sure it’s going to be shortest or the second shortest chapter?) and I do worry about it being underwhelming 😓.
the second matter I wanted to talk about was that as I was (very slowly) writing this chapter, I heard about the events happening at the end of jjk. the thing is, I really intend for this story to continue on until the end of the series, and a little bit more than that. that was my plan from the start.
the problem is, I’ve realised that this series will have to actually be very long for that to be true. there will probably be some parts of the story where reader doesn’t play a big role/is somewhere else so that the story is spared from being one big rewrite of jjk with her just inserted into. jjk as a whole and this series I’m writing is very important to me, and there’s no problem with other people writing fics that way (fanfiction is supposed to be fun!) but I have a passion for this and they’re very beloved to me, so I want to take it a bit more seriously. [name] is a part of me, and a part of the people I know and experiences I’ve lived or heard others living through. I made her for myself and for other people to relate to her.
which brings me to my point: the series as a whole will be broken into several parts (kind of like a show with several seasons). I’m still not sure how to go about naming it all— whether to keep ‘take me back (take me with you)’ as the name for the series as a whole, or whether to keep it as the title for only the first part of the series. but, I’ve decided that the end of the first part will most likely be chapter 10.
with that said, I also know that I have a very small audience, so please let me know what you think about the titling of the series and its parts, or anything you’d like to see in the story! I can only expect to get busier as time goes on, so I’ll probably start to write small snippets in [name]’s universe or make extra content just so it doesn’t seem as if I’ve abandoned it or the people reading it.
lastly, I’d also like to thank you all for accepting the shortcomings of both this series and my writing. I say this a lot, but I'm very sorry if there are any parts that disappoint you. to tell you the truth, this is the first time I’ve had to craft a story spanning such a long period of time. I’ve loved writing since I was little, but in many regards I’m still a novice, and I often worry about how that may show in the quality (or lack thereof) in my work. so I just feel very thankful to you all, especially those who are still following the story despite it last being updated more than half a year ago!
so, thank you so much for everything! I’ve met some very wonderful people through this story and realised lots of things about myself and the people around me just by having to put myself in [name]’s shoes, and for that I feel extremely blessed and grateful for all of you.
thank you so much, and happy lunar new year! 新年快乐,恭喜发财,万事如意!
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ordinaryschmuck · 2 days ago
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Full Family AU Part 44
Camila paced nervously in the kitchen while Eda got to work on the dining table. She had inks, pens, different stamps, and even a quill, just in case, laid out in front of her as she got to work on forging a birth certificate. With Luz's birth certificate as a resource, Eda got to work forging an official document on a blank sheet of paper. So far, Eda seemed to perfectly match the design of a certificate, adding in the blue squiggles that surround its border and adding the lines and text that match the official standard.
"What last name do you want the kid to have?" Eda eventually asked, shaking Camila out of her panicked pacing for a bit.
"H-Huh?"
"Well, she can't be called 'Vee Noceda,'" Eda explained. "What would Vee stand for? Better yet, how could she have your last name?"
"I...didn't think of that...Should I have?"
"Only if you want this forgery to be perfect."
Camila whined, continuing her pacing some more. "I don't know, I don't know! What's a good fake name?"
"One that's believable?"
"Come on, help me out here, bruja! I'm not good at this type of thing! With the lying and the forgery and the--Oh, no, I'm going to be sick..."
"Okay, fine, I'll think of one myself. Hm..." Eda tapped the end of her pen against her chin in thought. "How about...Velma Valina?"
"...What?"
"I mean, Vee's clearly gonna be a nickname, right? What would you call someone who's initials are basically V and V?"
"...Vee?"
"Bingo." Eda got to writing 'Velma Valina" on the document, matching the cursive that spelled Luz's name on her certificate. "Now, how old is the kid?"
"I think...no older than Luz is?"
"That's not giving me a lot to work with."
"Well, I don't...really know. I don't think she does either." Camila rubbed the back of her head. "How do you ask a child how old they were forced into existence?"
Eda blinked at that response and then put her pen aside for the moment to give Camila a confused stare. "Come again."
"Well, it's what she said," Camila explained. "She was...created by these weird men who forced her to grow up in a cage, do these...things that they wanted, and eat rats or something. It was horrific to hear and...And the poor baby probably doesn't even know how long she's been doing this for."
"...Where did you say this kid came from?"
"Your world, apparently."
"Wow..." Eda looked down at the document, running a hand through her hair. "And I thought I had issues..."
"Being a criminal isn't all it's cracked up to be?"
"Eh, it's more than that. Still, poor kid...How about I say she's two months younger than that Luz girl? That should be fine, right?"
"I guess? I don't know..." Camila finally sits in a chair across from Eda, leaning forward and pressing her palms against her temples out of stress. "I just want to give her a good home. Why can't that be easy? Why can't I just say, 'This is my daughter now,' and be done with it? Just skip this legal nonsense altogether and get right to the happy ending..."
"Well, doing the right thing always seems hard," Eda told her, going back to her forgery. "You want to do right by others you care about, but also know that doing it means making sacrifices. Whether it's not getting in their way or...staying away from them so they don't get hurt..."
"...Sounds like you do have issues."
Eda huffs out a laugh. "A few..."
"...Thank you," Camila said. "For...all of this."
"Thank me for giving me a couch to sleep on. And not killing me for doing something annoying."
"Don't know if I can promise that last part."
Eda let out a louder chortle, getting herself under control to finish up the rest of the certificate."
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guillemelgat · 1 hour ago
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I'm only a month late but here's the yearly review! These goals were actually quite reasonable, and though I didn't hit most of them, they were good guides to have.
For Catalan, I did manage to find a Catalan speaker in this city (WILD story but we don't have time for that), who confirmed my suspicions that there just are no Catalans here by the fact that they know exactly two other Catalans. But I also might have an in on two professors who might be Catalan, and could also talk to, which would be exciting. Meanwhile my Catalan is quickly atrophying, but I did at least find people, which I'm very happy about. In terms of reading, I had a feeling I would read way less than 30 books, and I was right about that: I read 7 (I would have read way more if I was capable of finishing a book; alas, that skill is escaping me at this moment). But I still think that the challenge was absolutely worth it, and I'd like to do it next year, too. I'll write up a longer post about that, though.
In terms of Welsh and Basque, I wouldn't say that I followed these goals at all. But for both of them, I think I did put in a lot more effort and kind of got a reality check on how I should go about studying them. For Welsh, I started listening to a whole bunch more music. For Basque, I got to go to the Basque Country for a weekend and stay with a friend and speak in Basque the whole time, which was a huge challenge, but also really made me understand what I need to work on (comprehension/vocabulary/more advanced grammar). I didn't end up watching much Rownd a Rownd or Eskamak kentzen, but I think that I've had a lot of problems with attention span (and also realistic expectations) this year, and I'm slowly starting to figure out how to create a language routine that works with what I've got.
For Malayalam, I did start taking classes, and this is one of the few goals that has really worked out. Malayalam has gone from being something really frustrating and emotionally taxing for me to a language I feel like I'm starting to have a grasp on. The class has been very intensive (we learned the alphabet and all the noun cases in the first semester, and were reading simple texts by the end), but it's been good for pushing my limits. Unfortunately the time is a little rough, especially with a full class load and TAship, but it's so rewarding that I think I'm going to stick through this semester as well.
Alas, I didn't get to try Russian immersion. I still think this would be really funny, though.
As for Anki, I tried pretty hard at the beginning of last year to get into it, but unfortunately it takes so much time to make your own cards (if you're silly like me - I could probably put them together in a less complicated way) and eventually I just decided to stick with Memrise for now. We'll see, though. Maybe I can simplify my template or something - I just need a quicker way to set up large amounts of cards.
This year was a long and very heavy year for me personally, but also a very meaningful year in some ways, and I think it taught me to think much more about what matters to me, and to clear away what doesn't. I've been studying all four of these languages for a significant amount of time now, and I want them to continue be a part of my life and my world. Hopefully 2025 will be yet another year in which I continue to grow into them, and them into me.
Language Goals 2024
Another year, another set of goals! This year, in the actual spirit of my very reasonable 2022 language goals, here are my plans for language study.
Catalan
First and foremost, my goal is to find Catalan friends in my new hometown, because I really need to speak Catalan with people at minimum once a week or I get very sad, and currently I’m not speaking it with anyone at all. This goal is pretty chill though—I just have to actually sit down and put in the time to find people.
My main goal is to read 30 books in Catalan. I’ll make a proper post about it with a list of books that I’m thinking of and how the challenge itself is going to work, but overall I’m trying to pick a mix of styles and genres, so expect anything from medieval literature to YA novels to academic texts. I have a lot of books that I’ve been meaning to read for a while, so hopefully this will give me a chance to chip into some of them. 30 books is less than other versions of this challenge that I’ve seen, but it’s also many more books than I’ve read in Catalan possibly ever and I think it’s more reasonable in conjunction with a full class load. Hopefully it ends up being just the right amount!
Welsh & Basque
This year I really want to work hard to actually get these two to an upper intermediate level, because I’m so close if I put in the work. For both of them, I have two main goals: (1) go through the textbooks/workbooks that I started going through casually last semester (Basic Welsh: A Grammar and Workbook by Gareth King and Standard Basque: A Progressive Grammar by Rudolf P.G. de Rijk) so that I can continue to review and learn new grammatical structures, and (2) watch one episode of a TV series each week in each language. For the TV series, I’m going to be watching Rownd a Rownd on S4C (which is available outside Wales/the UK! Huge win!) and Eskamak kentzen on EITB. If I have time, I’ll try to go through episodes more thoroughly and note down new vocabulary and such, but the main goal is to make a routine of it and watch consistently so I’m trying to keep it simple. I’d also like to use both languages with other people more often if I can, but I think finding a consistent language partner will perhaps be a goal for another year.
Malayalam
I’m planning to focus the first half of the year on Welsh and Basque, and then next fall, I’m hoping to be able to take the Malayalam classes offered by my university and to get into studying my home dialect (or rather, my extended family’s home dialect, since I didn’t speak it at home) as well. Since this will be later and also classroom learning rather than self-study, I’m not going to go into details, but overall, after my trip to Kerala (which I have stuff about, it’s on the docket!), I’m generally feeling much less alienated and much more motivated to study the language. I’m also looking forward to being able to take real classes, which I think will help keep me focused and on track.
Russian
This is a minor goal, but at my friend’s house over the summer, her mom was joking that if they just spoke to me in Russian while I stayed at their house, I’d probably be able to understand it by the end. That led us to concoct a plan where I study a bit of Russian vocab, then go there and do intensive Russian immersion for a weekend or so. This is more of a silly goal, but I’d like to try it because I think it could be fun.
Anki
This isn’t a language goal per se, but rather a general resolution to spend this year learning to use (and tweaking and configuring) Anki. Anki has a notoriously high barrier to entry, and from everything I’ve seen it should be treated as a long-term, intensive project—I’ll hopefully reap the rewards later if I take my time and set up everything right in the early stages. With that in mind, I’m hoping that by the end of the year I’ve figure out a set up for my decks and cards that really works for getting me to remember and be able to use vocab and grammar. I’ll focus on the languages here for the start, but I’m hoping that with habit and time, if I get a good system going I can use it with other languages too.
And that’s it! It’s been a bit since I was systematic about studying languages, but I’ve found that I really miss it and want to go back. I feel like I’m at a really good place with all of these, and I’d like to continue to make progress, so I’m really trying to focus on consistency and hitting the sweet spot of just challenging enough to get myself out of my comfort zone while not burning out. Hopefully I’ve set this up in a way to build habits and make me excited to keep immersing myself with these languages in the coming years, which is really the key to learning any language in the long term—I've realized that I speak Catalan so well because it's fully integrated into my life, and I'd like all these others to be as well. Here’s to a good 2024, and I wish all of you luck with your own goals as well!
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will80sbyers · 1 year ago
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Murphy found his home with Emori and in a way they had their happy ending
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sysig · 4 months ago
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For Requestober, Req.1
Scri dressed as an angel, Edgar dressed as a demon. It would be fun to see the roles swaped regarding costumes!
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Day 3 - Angel and Devil('s Advocate)
#My art#Requestober#Vargas#Scriabin#Edgar#Man! I tried not to shade this! And then my hand and eye mutinied against me and it ended up like this#It does look really nice like I'm really happy with it but hweh#I'd say I was trying to simplify so I can knock multiple out at once but a) I completely changed the poses during the sketch#Which I mean it's already a little on the complex side with them in costumes lol#And b) I ended up knocking another out the same day anyway so uhhhh it's fine I guess lol#Their couch really only comes in Loveseat and Extra Wide flavours depending on the day lol#Continuing the trend of them getting ready at home rather than actually being out during Trick or Treat#Even that one kid Trick or Treat was in the dreamscape! Will they ever leave the apartment! Lol#Another one of Scriabin's couple costume ideas again as well when will he stop complaining about his own choices lol#Never! He loves it! Haha#The halo is tucked into the braid in his hair - I've seen the headband version but they're ugly :P Lol#So basketball hoop design it is lol at least it's not a shower curtain haha#His wings' elastic arm bands are under his shawl - Edgar's helping him cover everything seamlessly#Not so lucky with his own costume! Hehe ''I'm not cutting holes in a perfectly good jacket for a costume'' ''Boooo'' lol#At least the tail is hooked to his belt so that's hidden! He gets the headband horns tho lol - they'd be cute as barrettes too hehe <3#Scriabin's going to be asking to switch halfway through the night after he trips on his gown for the fifth time haha#Did Edgar have the forethought to pack a change of clothes for him into his briefcase??#Probably has an emergency health kit and lets Todd (and Scriabin) borrow it for extra candy space haha#He gets to carry candy too <3 Involved ♪
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