#probably by childhood trauma

[primewritessmut]

tfw you think you’re writing a cute little romcom but have to add tags like “have your therapist on speed dial for this one” and “masterclass in manipulation” on the next two chapters

[sysig]

Ah, childhood memories (Patreon)

[mechacringekitty]

shoutout to people who didn't always know actually. shoutout to those that didn't have dysphoria since childhood or know something was different about them or act different or be noticeably queer. i can't be the only one and i love you

i love you <3

[deimosatellite]

stavrovensky childhood meeting

[adastraetretro]

"Does it hurt?"

"I'll be okay."

"That isn't what I asked."

[twoheadedfather]

anytime i think about my parents comforting me it actually makes me physically ill

[nonokoko-draws]

Dr. doofenshmirtz 🤝 Malleus Draconia

[vaguely-concerned]

heartbroken yet deeply entertained by julian's repeating pattern of 'all I want is to be close to someone and for them to truly know me :(' and then whenever it threatens to actually happen he goes 'oh that's too close to knowing me actually I uh. need to skip town/planet/galaxy/dimension right now immediately very sorry about all that my bad goodbye'

[messyscarletdreams]

"i hate harper mclean"

you hate the girl with c-ptsd?

you hate the girl that was kidnapped?

you hate the girl that was sa'd?

you hate the girl that was almost raped?

you hate the girl with the abusive dad who is violent to her?

you hate the girl who was only used by the boy she was with?

you hate the girl that was abandoned by her best friend?

you hate the girl that is stuck in fight or flight?

you hate her because she isn't the perfect victim.

but you hate harper because of what she did to malakai?

VALID!

malakai deserves an apology and the show brushed over what happened to him too easily.

[paintedpeeta]

I know everyone loves talking about Katniss and Peeta being affectionate in everyday life and mirroring her parents, but I also go crazy about them being affectionate and Peeta realizing he has a safe home filled with love unlike his parents. I just imagine him remembering his parents just tensely being with each other and contrasting that with him and Katniss who are always touching in some way and greet each other with kisses and hugs.

no because throughout the first two books he’s so physically affectionate to her (even though i’d assume this isn’t learned behaviour from his home) can you IMAGINE what it’s like when they’re safe and living together and in an established relationship? when he realises that she enjoys and takes comfort from his affections??

[sciderman]

Sci ngl i assumed you were a cis gay dude back when i was obsessively reading your spiderpool stuff as a teenager. I’m a gay trans man and your comics always felt like a warm hug, truly my comfort doom scrolling — so it’s kinda nice to find out we’re more similar than id thought

bless you anon!! it's a pleasure having you, and i'm so, so glad my comics can be a cozy comfort for you!! kissing you so sweetly

you know, it's kind of funny, i've had an overwhelming response of people who've said they've just assumed i was male by the vibes i radiate and i'm not entirely sure what it means. i'm know you all mean it very reaffirmingly but it leaves me with a lot of questions. like, questions that i want to do further research into.

is there a masculine dialect? like how there are regional dialects? is that a thing? i kind of want to study this now. can you tell someone's gender by the way they talk like you can tell where they're from? that is so cool if it's true. how do you type like a man. what should i look for? i don't know if i've ever assumed someone's gender by the way they type. i just look at their bio and it usually says. and i kind of don't think about it when i type. i type like me. but – i think maybe i pick up the way that i talk from the media i consume (comic books) which is kind of overpoweringly male. overpoweringly populated by male characters, and written by men, y'know.

i think the way i type here on @sciderman is probably softer and more femme than the way i write on the ask-blog. on the blog when i'm answering things as Mod i kind of intentionally mimic the tone-of-voice that marvel editors use. that's an intentional choice. so - when you read what i write here it's closer to my real voice, but over on ask-spiderpool i'm putting on an act. i try to sound like a marvel editor. i call you all True Believers! it's all a persona. i think one of the things that's my strength in writing is falling into voices - i think i could be an excellent ghostwriter, if i needed to be. so very crafty at mimicry.

as a kid i always, always always would mimic the characters i liked from the movies we watched whenever i came out of the cinema. i remember doing that all the time. and it was always boys. (except frenchie from grease. she was my one female gender icon. god everyone hated me for that one. i loved doing the voice. wanted to be her so bad. wanted the pink hair. everything.)

you know,, even now The Very First thing anyone asks me when they meet me is where my accent is from, because nobody believes i'm native to london. it happened today (twice). the way i talk is a little weird. my response,, off the bat,, it's because i watched too many cartoons growing up. so,, i guess maybe i idolised too many masculine role models, and probably didn't have enough female role models. i liked the boy movies better than the girl ones. i spent more time with my dad than i did with my mom. my mom wasn't a good role model. dad says that's probably why i didn't want to be a woman. i didn't have a good role model. (sorry mom). (he's right). all kinds of variables here. i kind of want to do research into it. also i should talk to a therapist.

[hoofpeet]

Had some thoughts abt them last night :] (incomprehensible notes below)

[gerrydelano]

it's been like 10 hours and i am still thinking about gerry child experimentation canon. fuck my entire life

[spicylove4ever]

"Who's that"

"Oh, her? That's just Loona. What a nightmare. Serious attitude problems. She'll be out of our hair next month when she ages out."

"Good riddance if you ask me. She'll never amount to anything much."

[relaxxattack]

i feel like fatherhood is a really big theme in homestuck in general actually. i mean the first additional character in the entire comic is a dad. but we don't really have time to unpack all that

[twoheadedfather]

resisting the urge to run away every single day