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tfw you think you’re writing a cute little romcom but have to add tags like “have your therapist on speed dial for this one” and “masterclass in manipulation” on the next two chapters
#really truly sorry for what the next chapter is about to rain down on y’all#midori sour#fic writer#i guess my core of sweetness and light has been compromised#probably by childhood trauma#just like loki
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pediatricians are hard to find.
you aren't broken and other important things a triangle needs to hear
#gravity falls#book of bill#non euclidean geometry au#bill cipher#pyramid steve#billford#parent au#rip doc mc buggins#you won't be missed#ableism#pyramid steve is too young to really understand what's going on here which is Good#ford would be here for the checkup but bill simply has more inter-dimensional contacts on his side#also far far FAR more medical trauma to work with#not that ford doesn't#but i think his problems were always rooted in more SOCIAL problems#while bill got the fun cocktail of childhood bullying AND medical abuse AND parents couldn't/wouldn't help him#he should not be a parent#he IS trying#he is trying so hard#he will not share these worries of course#why worry ford? bill's a GOD clearly he's got this#...bill is deep down terrified he ALREADY screwed up pyramid steve#he probably had more to do with him existing as the power half of the couple-#anything wrong IS probably his fault-#he doesn't know what he's doing! did?! how does his own body even work let alone-#whatif-what if he put him together wrong. what if whatifwhatif#thoughts he will never EVER say outloud#pyramid steve is a perfect little angle#anyone who says otherwise is dead wrong#my art
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Ah, childhood memories (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#Handplates#Sans#Gaster#Having such clear external-view memories of what happened when they were young would probably give Sans a lot of ammunition lol#Not that they'd know any different - their poor memories honestly :( - but having such clear memories in places would have to be weird#Most people have childhood amnesia to an extent! Tho it's hard to say when that would've applied to them anyway with their sped-up growth#Not to mention the trauma#And it's possible that doesn't apply to Monsters to begin with lol - but it's all a moot point anyway since these are their only memories!#It's sad to think of how much of themselves are missing forever since Gaster didn't experience them :(#This is what happens when you get behind on your work >:0#I really wonder what their lack of memories/restoration of memories would do for their like/dislike of certain things!#Like how Papyrus says that sitting with Sans in his lap makes a lot of sense as to why it was so familiar and comforting#But also that knowing makes it sad as well :( Knowing recolours their understanding and interpretation!#Knowing Why makes things make sense but does it actually Help? It's a tough question - certainly it hurts in the moment#The little things Gaster has infected for them and for himself ♥ Like taking notes! Like chess and sweets and spaghetti and lab coats#And dark sweaters and cigarette smoke and hugs and intelligence - how many pieces of all of them have A Feeling attached#How many more have A Memory - and even more than that A Memory Lost and unrecoverable ughhh ♥#But the little things they can hold on to hehe <3 Like pinging Gaster for what they all know and remember#Why does he even keep coming over if he knows the reception he'll get? Lol#Feels particularly self-loathing and goes to get bullied as penance pfft
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stavrovensky childhood meeting
#during the one time stepan met w his own son during his childhood bc lord knows stepan was always following varvara around#petenka being the most anxious terrified little child ever makes me so insane what happened#and the way hes SO DIFFERENT from how he was described as being a sweet and scared kid#to being like. gaslight gatekeep girlboss manwhore manipulate manslaughter extraordinaire#its the trauma response#stavrovensky#pyotr stepanovich verkhovensky#nikolai vsevolodovich stavrogin#demons dostoevsky#the possessed#devils dostoevksy#бесы#my art#it also makes me so crazy every day to think about how stepan literally helped raise nikolai#when like. completely ignored his own son LOL#and probably only helped w nikolai anyways bc he was varvaras#hate his ass so much jfc
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shoutout to people who didn't always know actually. shoutout to those that didn't have dysphoria since childhood or know something was different about them or act different or be noticeably queer. i can't be the only one and i love you
i love you <3
#i only found out being something other than cishet was a thing about three years ago! of my own volition! reading fanfic and being a kid!#that being said i dont remember a lot of my childhood [probably due to trauma]#but even now...i feel a little invalid for not being able to say ive always felt different#so hi hello i love you lets hold hands and watch the sun rise#transgender#queer#trans positivity#queer positivity#pansexual#< because i am and this is about that#i hope these are the right tags i am so aa...
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"Does it hurt?"
"I'll be okay."
"That isn't what I asked."
#prompt#prompts#writing prompt#writing prompts#short prompt#story prompt#dialogue prompt#fic prompt#dialogue#writing ideas#writing dialogue#creative writing#writing#excerpt from a story i'll never write#excerpt from a book i'll never write#character a wants to make sure character b is ok#but character b doesn't want to burden character a#you could probably unpack some sort of trauma there#maybe some sort of childhood trauma#childhood trauma#i'll be okay#(but not really)#overprotective vibes#overprotective
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whenever wolfstar fights, remus keeps his hands shoved in his back pockets because no matter how bad the argument gets he would never lay a hand on sirius out of anger and doesn't want them to worry even for a second that he would
#wolfstar#remus lupin#sirius black#wolfstar hc#wolfstar headcanon#remus lupin hc#remus lupin headcanon#sirius black hc#sirius black headcanon#marauders#marauders era#marauders headcanon#marauders hc#dead gay wizards#dead gay wizards from the 70s#enby sirius black#nonbinary sirius black#and remus knows how utterly ridiculous he looks with his hands behind his back and standing nearly bent at the waist as he bickers-#-over something probably silly with his like 5'6-5'9 partner but he doesn't care bc he'd rather jump from the astronomy tower than to-#-trigger sirius's childhood trauma#and sirius can't help it when- even mid screaming match- their eyes subtly soften at the edges bc they realize how much they-#-love this boy even if he drives them up the bloody wall several times a week
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I wonder if it ever drove Rimmer mad that he couldn’t eat while he was a soft-light hologram.
Cus back in his childhood, he couldn’t have food unless he answered astro-navigation questions correctly. So I wonder if he went bonkers with insecurity because since he didn’t fix the drive plate correctly, he was then being punished with no food nearly permanently.
Yes, Rimmer can have hologram food, but is it the same? Plus we barely see him eat any food in soft-light mode except for one sandwich.
Or the other explanation is that when Rimmer was alive since he’s not used to having food unless he’s actively hungry so he doesn’t eat at all. So when he died, there is no hunger therefore no excuse to eat really.
But even though he doesn’t need to eat himself, he bears in mind that others do. Like in Marooned when Rimmer listed out available foods for Lister to eat and told him to pace himself. Also in Tikka to Ride, when the crew had to set up camp for the night in Dallas and he told Kryten to get food (even though he did cook a dead man they found on the street).
Whenever Rimmer gets a body temporarily, the first thing he does is eat something. Maybe because of the pent up hunger over the years or something I dunno. So I think when he finally got a hard-light body, he probably thought his probation was released and was no longer getting punished.
The man probably has a complicated relationship with food all his life leading to eating disorders and such. But I don’t think we see him eat at all after becoming hard-light after Legion except for sipping tea and that’s it.
#red dwarf#arnold rimmer#dave lister#kryten#cat red dwarf#do you think he’s constantly hungry as a hologram since he’s dead and all#its another aspect in soft-light that he’s dead and can’t eat to feel human#course then adding on childhood trauma#it then doubles as something that will drive him near mad#and gazpacho soup probably adds onto his complicated relationship with food as well#he has a lifelong battle with food doesn’t he
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Dr. doofenshmirtz 🤝 Malleus Draconia
#memes#twst spoilers#twst book 7#twst book 7 spoilers#has this been done yet#probably but idc#when you are in a trauma by childhood trauma competition and your competition are twst boys and some german crazy scientist ☠️#baby Malleus has no right looking that silly#some funky little guy giving autistic vibes fr#anyway I've decided I'll put my homemade memes and edits here since this blog is collecting dusk
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heartbroken yet deeply entertained by julian's repeating pattern of 'all I want is to be close to someone and for them to truly know me :(' and then whenever it threatens to actually happen he goes 'oh that's too close to knowing me actually I uh. need to skip town/planet/galaxy/dimension right now immediately very sorry about all that my bad goodbye'
#the mortifying ordeal of being known is a game of dodgeball and man does this boy have superhuman reaction time#star trek#star trek ds9#ds9#julian bashir#partially brought to you by the carrington award debacle and just how well it works with the later retcon#'*cautiously pleased behind his trepidation* oh. recognition? :) *dawning cold sweat* oh. recognition'#jadzia it's very sweet that you did this but you. probably should have talked to him about this first huh#even aside from the genetically engineered skeletons in his closet lol#she said if you don't have gifted kid trauma from your childhood (little does she know) I'll give you some before you get to thirty
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"i hate harper mclean"
you hate the girl with c-ptsd?
you hate the girl that was kidnapped?
you hate the girl that was sa'd?
you hate the girl that was almost raped?
you hate the girl with the abusive dad who is violent to her?
you hate the girl who was only used by the boy she was with?
you hate the girl that was abandoned by her best friend?
you hate the girl that is stuck in fight or flight?
you hate her because she isn't the perfect victim.
but you hate harper because of what she did to malakai?
VALID!
malakai deserves an apology and the show brushed over what happened to him too easily.
#“she was a bad friend to amerie” yeah bc she had the perception that her CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND had abandoned her#i would be pissed too#and probably would have done worse#her viewpoint and trauma response is valid#☆ my posts#harper mclean#heartbreak high#hbh#hbh s2
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Destiny sinks her claws into all those she sees.
Do you think Ninjago has its own equivalent of biblical imagery, like do you think there's a lot of snake, Dragon and Oni imagery in ancient literature and art? I think that'd be really interesting.
I always wonder what living in the world of Ninjago is like for normal citizens, like imagine if God's son literally lived in the apartment next to yours and his grandson was your window washer at one point? Like Garmadon seemingly just kinda lives in the city and that's gotta be weird as fuck as a normal citizen, like damn the fucking anti-christ is just up and walking around the city! This is a joke obviously though it's really funny to put into perspective lol
#ninjago#spinjitzu#ninjago secrets of the forbidden spinjitzu#nya ninjago#garmadon ninjago#lloyd ninjago#lloyd fanart#lloyd needs therapy#nya needs therapy#I feel like some of Nya's trauma sometimes goes a little unadressed like her and Kai literally raised themselves because they thought their#parents were dead like that's really intense#I really love the Ninjago characters cause they're all so interesting in different ways#Even Jay who low key probably had it the best out of everyone when it came to childhoods since he had two parents who loved him
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Cranky villagers my beloved <3
This is totally not supposed to be relatable-
Don't look at me like that-
#dimple speaks#art#digital art#my art#cartoon#animal crossing#animal crossing fanart#acnh#acnh villagers#animal crossing rocco#animal crossing apollo#animal crossing marlo#acnh rocco#acnh Apollo#acnh marlo#I've been in Animal Crossing hyperfixation hell for two weeks please help#animal crossing new horizons#acnh fanart#comic#funny#i have so much art of Marlo and my oc-#im going to die cringe#i kinda want to post them but i don't know if i should#me when a fictional old cranky hamster calls me kiddo: *sobs in childhood trauma accent*#i have do many headcanons for my villagers I'm not ok-#ALSO- IDK WHY TF MY FAVORITE IS EVEN MARLO#I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN THE GODFATHER LMAO#I'm too afraid to ask what the plot is at this point#Let me know if you want to see my human ac designs#And if you dont; I'll probably end up posting them anyway-
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I see WAY too much of myself in Evan
#I've healed a lot since I was younger#but 17-20 y/o me?#that's Evan baby#a lot of it is probably from the tism and the touch-starved-ness and trauma from my childhood#Brennan is just depicting my life when I was younger#oopsie#I do still see a lot of myself in him tho and they're parts I don't know what to do with#but they're part of me so I just try to be gentle and take care of those parts of myself until I figure out a better way#magpie beeps#dimension 20#mismag#mismag 2#misfits and magic
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I know everyone loves talking about Katniss and Peeta being affectionate in everyday life and mirroring her parents, but I also go crazy about them being affectionate and Peeta realizing he has a safe home filled with love unlike his parents. I just imagine him remembering his parents just tensely being with each other and contrasting that with him and Katniss who are always touching in some way and greet each other with kisses and hugs.
no because throughout the first two books he’s so physically affectionate to her (even though i’d assume this isn’t learned behaviour from his home) can you IMAGINE what it’s like when they’re safe and living together and in an established relationship? when he realises that she enjoys and takes comfort from his affections??
#anon you sent this ask TIME ago so i hope you’re still around#i’ve been having some thoughts recently about peeta healing from his childhood pain which i think a lot of the time is overlooked#more so because of the hijacking and that kind of takes over as. yknow. trauma numero uno. #and i also had an idea for a story like this but i’ve never written before so that will probably never come to be#even though the urge is there#but 1000 times yes to them having a home filled with love and affection#everlark headcanons#asks#you know he kisses her goodbye every time they have to part and greets her again with a kiss too.
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i want to be considered attractive but i don't want to attract anyone
#idk what that's called#probably childhood trauma with bullying and intimacy issues but let's not go there shall we#ramblings
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