I think people underestimate the idea of a safe space.
For people who have a troubled home life and a stressful job, there seems to be no escape.
And if you are battling emotional trauma or illness, one of the main ways to heal is to let yourself be vulnerable and relieve/feel that pain.
And if you don’t have a safe place at home and if you don’t have a safe place with friends, you will try to carry that pain for as long as possible before the burden gets too heavy and you have to unload some of emotions/vulnerability onto whoever.
And this is where I’ve seen so many people fall into a cycle, where they trust the wrong people who only traumatize them more. Which makes everything worse and causing unhealthy coping mechanisms and defense strategies that pushes everyone else away. And one of the types of people who aren’t pushed away are people who don’t care about boundaries and are seeking out vulnerable people, who will just traumatize and abuse you more until they can break you down.
And this is such an awful cycle to go through.
And the fear of being in that situation (or being in that situation again) causes you not to trust people. And this is where people either stay in isolation, or they try and find a way to move forward.
One of the key things to learn is how to discern against people you can trust and people you can’t. And that takes having boundaries. If someone lies or manipulated or puts you down or is just flat out self serving that should be a massive red flag. And sure you can try and give people second chances, sometimes trauma responses trigger when there really is not actual danger or threat.
But this is also why it’s important to take things slow.
As much as you want to find a quick solution, and seeing everyone else quickly jumping into relationships, you have to give yourself time to clearly see the situation.
One major red flag is when someone will try to rush the process along.
Entering a new relationship can trigger all sorts of fears and insecurities and vulnerability. And this can make you fragile and a little unsure of yourself. And this is where bad people can rush you before you can really grasp what’s going on and sink their teeth into you and get you attached before you really realize what’s going on.
And that’s scary.
Some people will stay in denial, some people can’t handle the extra trauma so they avoid it and ignore what’s going on, which leads to them going back because they are in denial about what’s wrong.
And part of the problem is since childhood they’ve been taught to ignore that feeling of everything being wrong (parents will argue and fight and maybe even be abusive, and then deny anything is wrong and claim they have a happy home life).
So they ignore that feeling of something being wrong and stay. And then get to a point where it’s just too tough to leave so they stay longer.
And yes this is tragic.
But it’s also never too late to break the cycle and more importantly for a lot of people it’s not too late to avoid that cycle.
There are people out there you can trust.
And you don’t have to treat everything like a ticking time bomb, you can learn to trust people slowly and have a wide social support net.
Really the key is unlearning.
People mimic their relationships around what they know, and their family, family friends, some of their own friends from childhood, toxic situations they’ve been in or see from social media.
And it’s just so difficult for people to tell something is wrong when they’ve never been taught.
They carry a deep shame within them so refuse to open up to people, and have abandonment issues and insecurities, so they see rejection when there is none.
And that mental trap they’ve built for themselves is so strong.
And when they sense rejection they pull away or have defense mechanisms, which push most people looking for healthy relationships away since all they see is someone pulling away or acting out.
But it’s also important to realize that most people are understanding.
If you can tell them what’s going on and communicate that. Tell them you need time but you want to make things work. A lot of people will work with you.
And the ones that don’t, well that’s okay, you want to open up to someone safe and that’s someone who will be understanding.
And that takes personal work.
Learning how to communicate your feelings and needs really isn’t easy, especially when you yourself are unsure of what those even are.
And quite frankly there will be people out there that just aren’t for you.
And you will have to work on your abandonment response because you will have to be okay with that if you ever are going to find the right person for you.
And you will have to believe that there is someone out there for you during this time of pain and insecurity.
But there’s always hope.
And there’s always good people out there.
It just may take work to get there and to do so safely for you.
And that’s okay
Take things slowly and one step at a time.
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Respectfully, do you think the English FA will do anything different to the RFEF? I think it’s very easy for people to throw stones at the RFEF, and justifiably so, however I’d say 90% of football federations prioritise the men over the women currently. Given how quickly women’s football is growing though, over time things will improve like we saw with Denmark.
There's a difference between prioritizing the men's team and actively hindering the growth of the women's team, which is what the RFEF has done. Not only that, but they are an extremely corrupt organization, only recently did they clean house a bit due to the how publicized the assault was.
So no, the English FA has shown that they will not stoop as low as RFEF in the present day. And really, I find it hard to believe any of the federations from the top teams in the world right now (minus Spain) would stoop that low either.
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