#ppl cannot help but be like UM ACTUALLY JUST PLAY THE GAME WHAT DOES IT MATTER

[ursifors]

tomorrow (friday) jeremy is playing phasmophobia with matt starting at 4pm est!

during the stream he will be fundraising for a trans charity as it is the release date of shitty antisemitic game made by transphobic witch jkr.

be there! donate! dont be shitty in chat or you will be timed out/banned!

[stressedanime]

15 questions for 15 friends!! thanks for the tag :3 @cordelia---rose

are you named after anyone? first name no, but my middle name is a family name. my parents found my birth name in a baby name book which LIED TO THEM. IT SAID MY NAME MEANS PRINCESS IN SPANISH. IT IN FACT DOES NOT MEAN PRINCESS IN SPANISH lmao it means aunt in spanish. and thats partly why i dont go by it anymore lol

when was the last time you cried? i watched a silent voice a couple nights ago and that movie always DESTROYS me.

do you have kids? i'd rather be put down

what sports do you play/have you played? i danced for 15 years!! did a variety of styles: tap, jazz, ballet, contemporary, and music theatre. i also was on the basketball team in grade 6 lmao.

do you use sarcasm? yes. it gets me into trouble unfortunately

what is the first thing you notice about people? i honestly don't know. probably like, their language? like how they talk, how they hold themselves, how they move. i be analyzing

what's your eye colour? they're supposed to be blue, but ive also been told they have no blue pigment whatsoever and theyre just grey

scary moves or happy endings? BOTH THANKS!!!

any talents? hmm. im really good at ruining the mood. like, "um actually" is my best friend. oh also finding words people are looking for, im really good at helping people finish their sentences when they're stuck. im sure theres more but i cannot think of anything lol

where were you born: canada :D i hate it here but i also love it here

what are your hobbies? i love to cook, i used to play a bunch of video games, but lately ive been doing a lot more writing and reading. i also love to look at my guitar and say "hmm i should play guitar" and then never play guitar

do you have any pets? sadly no

how tall are you? 5'4. which is perfectly average.

favourite subject in school? i honestly do not remember what i liked in elementary school. OH novel studies. reading and analyzing books for sure lol. in high school i loved english and psychology and comp civ, in uni my favourite class was biopolitics or anything forensic.

dream job: realistic dream job is forensic psychologist (experimental not clinical) which i got accepted into masters for!! so i will be studying that in september :3 and like, non-realistic dream job is voice actor, i've always wanted to be one of those people who you recognize their voice and then open their IMDB and they've been in like a million different projects

i dont interact with too many people on here so i won't tag 15 ppl lol but im going to tag @kitkat-tat @sionnaach @hyperfigations. but obvs no pressure :)

have fun, yeehaw

[reilleclan-blog]

I'm like a himbo but I'm not conventionally attractive, and I don't got a penis between my legs.

Sidenote: I never really trust men anymore except maybe my brothers and a couple of my cousins but that's really it. I'm a home care worker but I have stressful days but I try to work through every single day. I never notice when something stresses me out until I'm up at night playing video games and I start crying cause "I can't win". But um I went in today and I was already peeved cause of having to get up, I didn't eat breakfast(I rarely do) and on top of that the place I go to , the elevator is always stuck(and I got stuck in it like a couple weeks ago) and I ask my client if I could leave early b/c his apartment smelled awful idk how else to say it. I tried to tell him as well but he didn't care about what I was saying and he started throwing a tantrum like a man child does. And yes he is old but I try to be respectful to everyone as much as I can. And he tells me I can't leave early and that just felt like a red flag already. Sir u can't tell me to do anything unless it's to help around ur house that's mostly it and accompany u places. And the fact he's telling me "I can't" made me super uncomfortable and genuinely scared for my life. Because this man starts snapping at me that I can't leave. It just creeped me the hell out and that's when I up and left. I don't like to be rude to people but it's a respect thing if u cannot respect me, then I don't feel comfortable. This isn't the first time he "snapped" acting very very strange. He later on called me in an attempt to call the office. And idk I tried but i don't understand why weirdos always end up obsessed over me or claiming me in some weird manner. Women have done this too. When all I be doing is existing. And I just feel so out of place. And just creeped out I just want to work and go home and I can't even do that b/c my client wants to be a fucking weirdo.

After what happened im genuinely having a hard time breathing b/c i feel sick to my stomach from what happened. And the apartment just smelled absolutely terrible. Im not even trying to be funny it really did. And I still wanted to respect him and just be kind aka do my job. But idk why this man wants to stress me out. I already have enough going on and u wanna throw a tantrum b/c I asked to leave b/c I felt unwell from the smells in this apartment. And then the fact he acted so weirdly when I asked that made me want to leave even more. And now I'm sick to my stomach cause idk if he's gonna ask for a replacement and I'm just gonna show up on Monday but he'll tell me to leave. Before Monday I'll just call before I visit. Cause wtf andddd I have to go to the home care office and it's fucking far away from where I live. I'm just stressed. Wish I had someone to care about me. And actually LISTEN to understand me

Yeah but I know ppl only care about others if they can benefit or if it's someone close to them.

[cow3survivor]

Ep. 6: “So Many Ways This Could Backfire” - Jennet

JENNET 

so the plan worked out great except jabari said that “now jake will know the truth” in front of daisy and the other tribemates🥺 i was hoping that i could pin this on lindsay so that once we merged i could lie about it and have lindsay be out next before the merge... this is truly sickening idk what to do

(a little later)

feeling really bad... is it my fault that jake forced me into a f3 with jabari who ive barely spoken with??? idk i feel like not only did i betray her but i betrayed a black woman and that makes me sick to my stomach.... hoping that i made the right choice and this propels me further in the game🥺 i honestly hated having to do that but maybe if ethan and sam have tribal connections left, when we merge, maybe we will be able to stick together and he’ll also help connect me

JESSICA

I GOT THE IDOL! It is good for 4 rounds and I still have my vote. And just in time as we are swapping into 3 tribes of 5 like I thought..... wow my psychic abilities! Jabari got voted out at tribal and I'm sad. I didn't know her but I think she was new to orgs and I really wanted to play with her! Plus she volunteered to do the tiebreaker for her tribe so I thought they'd keep her due to that. Time for a swap lets kick this game into gear!

JENNET

hoping jake isnt on the same tribe as daisy or lindsay

(a little later)

also hoping im on a tribe of winners so i never make it to tribal bc i DEFINITELY was/am the weakest link☠️

MIKEY

so. I FUCKING HATE THIS NEW TRIBE. THEY PICKING OFF ALL THE GOOD ORIGINAL CALUMMA MEMBERS AND MY GIRL JABARI LITERALLY JUST LEFT??? FUCK YOU JENNET. I KNOW THIS IS BECAUSE OF YOU! But anyways, its me and jake vs all OG (insert other tribes name) and i think I'm going next lool fuck ME. this is very sad indeed and idk im upset but ima try my mf hardest

JAKE

https://youtu.be/OzrGekDCG8I xoxo gossip girl

JENNET

jones and ethan on my tribe?? *blushes sm*

(a little later)

nervous about this tribe... ive pulled off three blindsides that ive helped orchestrate so if like if someone really wanted to look deeper into it.... they would be able to make a target out of me bc of it. definitely worried

(after cooking a fish)

this is basically an allstar team. everybody on here is a heavy hitter and that makes me worried bc if i wasnt the weakest link before, i definitely am now. wishing we had gotten rid of lindsay instead of jabari bc we just made another team stronger but it is what it is i guess

JONES

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hbTUvzatQrw

JESSICA

Today's song is "Ribs" by Lorde because I have played it on repeat all morning. Also I forget if I said for my last confessional but that song was "Sober", also by Lorde. Basically I love Lorde and my life is better because of it. This swap worked out super well for me! I really said in my host chat "Could I please be put on a tribe with Shane and Daisy?" and the hosts simply said "Okay". I have my final 3 back together and we also have Lindsay and Lovelis. Lindsay seems really cool so far and Lovelis and I have a good thing going so I feel very confident on this tribe. I really hope we do not lose because honestly? I don't want to vote out Lindsay at all. I like that she is active and she seems like someone who really is putting in effort whereas Lovelis, as much as I like him, just really hasn't been here. I would rather play this game with people who are more active so to me it's like.... Lindsay is absolutely not the obvious vote if we lose. Not even a bit! I'd love to do with her what I did with Mikey and make a separate f2 so that when we merge, she's someone who will keep the target off of me. I didn't tell my alliance about the idol because honestly I just don't anticipate using it at all. It expires so soon and I really only took it so that no one else would end up having it. Also.... I don't know, I didn't tell them right away because I was a bit busy at the moment we swapped and now it feels suspicious if I do tell them? Also who knows, maybe they would not find my story believable and think I have an idol up to final 5 which I just don't want! I'd rather throw the idol into the sea so it causes no problems. This immunity challenge is an interesting one. If I knew what was in the boxes, I would probably bet more, but I bet some of those boxes have bad things or nothing in them and I simply do not want that. If I had to guess, one has the other half to that idol, one probably has an idol clue, another maybe has extra idol searches.... maybe another has an idol nullifier? Or a vote peek? Really none of these are things that I need. They're all cool but I'd rather be immune thanks! As far as how I feel in the game, I really do want the Maples to be f3. I'd rather be at the end with my alliance and lose than flip and be there without them. Ummmm what other thoughts do I have.................... I think that might be it. My mind is empty but I'm still moving forward.

LINDSAY

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1L5Nzch65XLD_njxnIxLKwqUs5vqXcYot/view?usp=drivesdk

JESSICA

Also if we lose this immunity....... I'll be mad because I bet 0 on everything and I am STAYING that way!

JENNET

feeling increasingly bad for voting out jabari /:: idk it doesnt sit right with me in the grand scheme of things. obviously its a game but the fact that i genuinely upset somebody to that extent is so sick. idec that we’re going to tribal, i want to be voted out

ETHAN

3 tribals in a row... I don't for a freaking second believe that Jones and Nicol "made a mistake" with their bidding. This feels like throwing, and if it is, it means that: 1. they feel comfortable enough with Jennet to have a majority 2. they feel comfortable enough with Pete to have a majority 3. it doesn't matter anyway, they now have 2 boxes and potentially an idol or two they could use Either way, this is a freaking sucky situation, and Pete is being super sketchy. People keep making bad play after bad play so honestly, it is hard for me because I keep assuming that they will be doing all of these things to throw the wool over my eyes when they actually aren't doing anything.

JENNET

im annoyed im frustrated and im angry... why were so many points used?

(a little later)

here i am... again... in the middle guys vs girls.... um this sucks bc like me ethan pete didnt use alot of points and nicole and jones did so thats like sucky bc initially i wanted pete gone but like now theres no reason for it to be him

(after soaking in the sun)

nicole says that pippa told her to wait to see whats in the box, so that could mean tribal or that could wait next round. or what if its a comeback power? i literally have no idea what to do

(after making a pillow out of leaves)

okay so the plan is, we get to tribal. me ethan and pete vote for nicole. jones and nicole vote for pete. nicole uses immunity on herself, pete goes home. there are so many ways this could backfire and honestly if it sends me home than im okay with that. i just hate going to tribal so many times in a row

MADISON

I AM FREE FROM MY BROOKESIA PRISON. Current tribe dynamic on Furcifer: me/Sammy have been on the same tribe this whole time, me/Sammy/Jake were just on swap Brookesia, and i know Sam from OG Brookesia so the only person i'm just now meeting is Mikey and that stresses me out so much less than if we had merged or something. My gut is telling me that the idol is long gone and searching might just get me annoyed before it gets me an idol. On the upside, i still have time to find one if it's it out there because i highly doubt I'll be in trouble anytime soon the way my tribe keeps winning everything. ALSO: i only said that i thought Calumma would lose because Shane was on that tribe and i just felt like he would go big or go home but that's an issue to address when our paths cross again. If our tribe ends up going to tribal sometime soon, i would hope it would be the obvious choice to vote Mikey seeing as how i know him the least but idk maybe thats wishful thinking i dont want it to come to that.

SAMMY

Mikey has my heart on this tribe....YUP I really just wanna keep all the fun ppl...im missing daisy:// umm I did not bid on a single thing and I kind of regret it but also??? At least I am safe from tribal...but damn I really should have bid huh? Anyways not much is going on...ready to start playing a more individual game tho hehe

SHANE

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1-WUq5wfYK3Xb1Y-KNZptfyagwvSff4cd

NICOLE

I cannot believe I risked being voted out only to NOT BE ABLE TO PLAY NEXT IMMUNITY!!!!!!! what a round, I'm so sad. But I hope I stay.

DAISY

from f15 https://youtu.be/-_meWPNctO0

PETE

it’s literally... dude.. why can’t i just float to a merge whyyYYYYYYYYyyYyYyyyYyYy does it AAAALWAYS have to be so COMPLICATED like this is it this is the time im mufuckin ouutttiiieeeeeee that challenge was clearly thrown so like ✌🏼 it was fuuuun i hope y’all liked me enough to bring me back for whatever the next chameleon returnees thingy is uwu

(after being attacked by bees)

i know i’m paranoid and every tribal i feel sick to my stomach but nobody has talked to me today, except ethan about how fucked we are, it’s half an hour before tribal and no one really seems like they want to work with me. i still haven’t heard a name

TRIBAL COUNCIL

PETE EXIT INTERVIEW

[sagemoderocklee]

1, 8, &18 for the salty ask meme?

1)What OTPs in your fandom(s) do you just not get?

gods above help me lmao

my biggiest is probably Nar*Gaa. it’s my most hated, most loathed, number one enemy. like when i see any mention of it the Kill Bill sirens start going off. i hate it. i don’t get it. it isn’t feasible politically and it’s just not fair to Gaara to put him with someone who has proven time and time again that the most important person in his life is Sasuke and there isn’t room for anyone else in that role.

like gaara deserves better than being side lined. he deserves someone who will put everything they have into a relationship with him. not someone who can’t even remember they’re friends long enough to be like “hey maybe i should tell him i’m getting married” 🙄🙄🙄 gaara cares about naruto a lot. naruto has proven that he cares about gaara the way you care about the friends you have in fb who you talk to from time to time–sure they’re your friend, sure you want what’s best for them, but you’re not going out of your way to see them or do things for them. they’re background friends. nice ppl you care about but not ppl you rlly need to spend time with….

and that’s not even gettin into the political problems or just the major character issues where they would butt heads and have fights. but anywayyyyyy!!!!

the others would be LeeT*n (like they’re like siblings????? i dont????understand????), all the end game pairings except for ShikaTema which is good and pure and i love them, and of course i rlly rlly do not fucking get KibaK*nku because of all the dudes in naruto these two are the most painfully straight… like they are loud and obnoxious Straights. like the kinda bros who can’t even hug each other kinda straight… and i just… they have no chemistry even as friends or possible fighting partners???? they shared one scene once where kankurou saved kiba and it was… so whatever that i literally didn’t even think it was possible for ppl to ship them when i was young and naive and didn’t understand how fandom worked. but here i am seeing ppl talk about rarepair hell for these two all over the place and i just sit there like ??????????? because how????? why????

like do you. be happy ship them all you want but it’s… they are so straight it hurts so i will never get it and there is nothing in the universe that will make me get it.

edit: i cannot believe i forgot the very first ship i never fucking understood in this forsaken fandom: Kak*Iru. like that was one of the three ships my friends insisted i ship and i just kinda was like "um okay" but then when i actually watched the series i was like "where?????"

8) Have you received anon hate? What about?

fandom wise??? ummm probably??? i’m tryna think. like other than some nasty ass comments on some fics recently i can’t think of anything off the top of my head cause i keep to my own corner of w/e fandoms im involved in because it’s safer that way. i don’t even think i got any hate from LeeGaa shippers when that dA group came to tumblr and had drama with some ppl in the fandom because i just don’t generally engage???? like i’m sure i’ve gotten some bs but it was probably so insignificant that i don’t remember it.

but like i’m sure i have. i’m pretty vocal about my feelings on certain things like ppl shipping nasty shit like children with adults or ppl who write rent boy![x] and plenty of other nasty things ppl in fandom do so i don’t doubt i’ve had some truly ass pained 30-something message me telling me how wrong i am for feeling this way or whatever and “don’t kink shame me” 🙄🙄🙄 i’m also certain i’ve had ppl send me shit for shipping h/d or for thinking draco deserves a redemption arc but like mhmm again it was all very much not worth remembering lol

18) Does not shipping something ‘popular’ mean you’re in denial and/or biased?

I think that is hugely dependent on the ship. like i will be the first to admit that i am biased against NaruGa* but i don’t think that makes my points any less valid. it patently does not work as a ship for a number of reasons. do i hate it with a passion so strong it could fuel the sun for a millennia??? absolutely! is my hatred of it rooted in the fact that it’s more popular than GaaLee? at least like 75% of it is! (the other is because gaara just deserves better) but does that mean that i can’t think critically on why i don’t like it for the non petty and no superficial reasons??? no. i am fully capable of looking at that pairing and sayin “man this shit rlly doesn’t work”

like ultimately i don’t think i’m in denial when it comes to not shipping that pairing because ultimately the popularity of it relies more on two things: their screen time together and the fact that both are at the very least conventionally attractive (gaara is obviously not conventionally attractive there is nothing conventional about him i love him he is my anime husband he is the most beautiful man in this series) whereas lee is… not the lost conventionally attractive ergo less popular to ship ppl with

however i don’t think that applies to everything. ppl who don’t sip sasunaru, for instance, i think have a large bias because of homophobia. and yeah are in denial. like at this point even if you don’t like it you should at least because to say “yes fuck those two rlly do love each other” but a lot of ppl are just plain homophobes and that’s rlly that. is this always the case with popular ships no. sometimes it’s bias 100% of the way and sometimes bias is only a part of why someone doesn’t ship something. but ultimately bias always plays a role. however i don’t think that makes not shipping something less valid.

[tellywoodtrash]

ishqbaaz 25.07.17 lb

plain text version here. 

bhavya just be taking her gal pal along with her on an investigation like it’s a saturday brunch and shopping date. nice. 😊😊😊

hahahahahahaha shivaay using oberoi mansion as an example of a safe place. i honestly cannot stop laughing. 🤣🤣🤣🤣

i honestly love ragini’s transitions once someone leaves the room. when the billu is away, the naagini shall play! 😇😇😇

what kinda jankyass 90s winamp looking program is this that the mumbai police is using to track the sim location? 🤔🤔🤔

the calls are coming from inside the house! 😯😯😯

of course. contrived excuse for not being able to hear. lorddddddddddd. 🙄🙄🙄

why the fuck did he have to come all the way outside the house to make the call anyway? itna bada ghar hai, you’re telling me there’s no silent spot anywhere INSIDE where he can make a call? 😒😒😒

SAMAR. FUCKIN WHY, DUDE?!?!?! HONESTLY. YOU SHOULD BE TALKING YOUR SISTER OUT OF HER CRAZY. OR SECRETLY MEDICATING HER BY LACING HER CUCUMBERS WITH ANTI PSYCHOTICS. NOT PULLING A RAHUL FROM DARR. 😫😫😫

lmao ok suddenly samar found a bike helmet outta nowhere. 😐😐😐 

um.... ok? 😕😕😕

THEY WERE DOWNSTAIRS ON THE GROUND LEVEL. HOW THE F ARE THEY RUNNING DOWN THE STAIRS NOW? HONESTLY, CHUTIYA SAMAJH RAKHA HAI KYA? 😑😑😑

how the f does samar know the layout of oberoi mansion so well? 🤔🤔🤔

also, they’re fucking upstairs again. you gotta be kidding me. what kinda teleporting chase sequence is this? 😣😣😣

whatttttttttttttttttttttt nonsense, lorddddddddddd. 😤😤😤

also, samar is as rich, if not richer than shivaay. why can’t he just hire someone to do this, instead of doing this dirty work himself?? kuch bhi. 😐😐😐

shivaay seems destined to permanently sport that forehead bruise now. 😗😗😗

great. these two are going to argue over this now. 😐😐😐

yuuuuuuuuuuuhp. 😒😒😒

anika, what happened to not bringing this up with shivaay until you had proof???? looks like that theory just swiftlyyyyyyy went out the window. GOD AND I WAS GETTING HAPPY THAT FOR ONCE, ANIKA IS HANDLING THINGS SMARTLY. 😫😫😫

OUFFO OM, THE BABY DOESN’T HAVE FEVER. 🙄🙄🙄

omki is feeling old chulbul waale jhatke? 😏😏😏

ooooooohhhh i like this instrumental saathiya. 😊😊😊

look at him making moon eyes at her. 😍😍😍

god does om has munchausen by proxy or something??? the child is not ill, omkara! 😑😑😑

great. this is going to be an issue. that she isn’t educated enough to get the english names of drugs and thus isn’t good enough for him. 😣😣😣

god pinkyyyyyyy, why are you bhatkofying like a bhoot behind gauri???? THERE’S ZERO REASON FOR YOU TO EVEN INTERACT WITH HER. 😠😠😠

self loathing. that’s why. gauri reminds pinky of herself when younger. 😬😬😬

like... pinky is actually MEANER to gauri than she was to anika. i really don’t get it. 😕😕😕

... uh? rudra and bhavya share the same bed??????? the fuckkk? FUCKING SHIVIKA DIDN’T SHARE THE BED UNTIL LIKE MONTHS AFTER MARRIAGE. THIS IS SOME REAL HORSE SHIT. 😠😠😠

... as usual, not feeling this romance at all. also i’m mad that they wasted one of my fav songs on these two. why do they keep getting the songs i want for my other two otps??????? 😡😡😡 

ok little bit feels at her taking the picture of them. the least amount. 😳😳😳

aaaaaaand... bhavya’s skull just got cracked like an anda. 😐😐😐

shivaay looks painfully young in this tshirt waala combo. 😙😙😙

faraq faraq faraq. 😇😇😇

oh boy, gauri is still trying to remember the name of the medicine. girl, raat se subah ho gayi. just give up. 😶😶😶

why isn’t she using her internet chaachi for help rn? 🤔🤔🤔

also, omki doesn’t even care about the medicine anymore. 😐😐😐

this pinky is such an expert at finding and exploiting ppl’s innermost insecurities. 😔😔😔

oh ho, this is just painful to watch. like genuinely, and not coz of second hand michmichi. her distress and despair is just so heart wrenching. 😭😭😭

man, i just loveeeeeeeeeeeeee rudra + baby together. they’re the bestttttttt. leenesh manages to create such good chemistry with every single cast member, it’s amazing! 😚😚😚

NO DO NOT LEAVE THE BABY ALONE. DO NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😟😟😟

oh ho, these two arguments are happening 3 feet away from each other. 😑😑😑

why are you ppl shutting up rudra when he’s asking about a genuine issue that’s more impt than any of your petty nonsense? 😒😒😒

why is she surprised to see blood from her own wound? 😒😒😒

wow, whoever took bhavya just left her there, in an unsecured car, in the oberoi parking lot. with her phone. worst kidnappers ever. 🙄🙄🙄

as usual, the oberoi security have been bested by a team of fat 40 year old unclejis. 😑😑😑

why is everyone sooooo surprised at power failure? as if the lights don’t go out here on a regular basis. 🙄🙄🙄

haaaaaaaan, leave the front door WIIIIIIIIIDE OPEN. not like that’s a security risk or anything. 😌😌😌

these oberois are just begging to be murdered in their beds at this point. 🙄🙄🙄

“gala phaad ke cheekne chillane ki zaroorat nahi.” 

general life advice to shivaay. applicable in every situation. stop being so fucking shouty. 😒😒😒

meanwhile bhavya made it all the way upstairs. FUCKING HOW!?!?!?!??! 😣😣😣

LMFAO, HAS A GUN POINTED TO HIS FUCKING HEAD, STILL HAS ZERO IMPACT ON SHIVAAY’S TADI AND DIALOGUEBAAZI. 😂😂😂

HAHAHAHAHA OM’S EYE ROLLING AT SHIVAAY’S TADI LIKE “THIS ASSHOLE IS GOING TO GET US KILLED.” 🤣🤣🤣

omg acp anda is the fucking worst at her job. at this point, even ranveer, who doesn’t actually do any policing is better - at least he doesn’t make things WORSE. 😒😒😒

hahahahahaha anikaaaaaaa “bhaisaab ek minute, ek minute haan...” *pushing the guns away dismissively* “AAP DO MINUTE CHUP NAHI REH SAKTE?” 

lmaoooooo bulbul also joining innnnnnnn. 

hahahahah OmRu 😂😂😂😂

"tamancho par aapki tadi nahi chalegi... main baat kar rahi hoon... EK MINUTE!!! MAIN BAAT KAR RAHI HOON!!!!!” 

the wayyyyyy anika keeps slapping the guns away so cavalierly is hilariousssss. 🤣🤣🤣

GOD THESE TWO IDIOTS. 😫😫😫

evennnnnn the kidnappers are sick of these two and their bs. 😑😑😑

the baby looks happier than ever, finally being left alone and in peace for the first time in 4 days. 👶🏽👶🏽👶🏽

shivaay’s aankhon waale ishaare are not understood by either of his idiot brothers. 🙄🙄🙄

you aintttttttttttttt slick omki. idiot. 😒😒😒

lol anika back on her BS. 😆😆😆

the kidnapper is this 👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽 close to fucking shooting them to get them to stfu. 

“kaun hai yaar yeh dono, itna kyun jhagadte hai???”

it’s sexual tension, my dear man. they’re very horny for each other and aren’t able to do the do. and it’s manifesting like this. has been, for over a year. we’re more sick of it than you are. 😔😔😔

shivaay: we’re divorced!!!!!  gunda: yeh toh hona hi tha. 😒😒😒

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOO EVEN THE HOSTAGE TAKER HAS AN OPINION ON THEIR RELATIONSHIP 🤣🤣🤣

... gauri has to be anika’s sister. this kinda crazy runs in families, no? 😗😗😗

are they looking for the locket or the baby? 🤔🤔🤔

snorttttt, shivaay/gauri against omki and om/anika against shivaay. besttttttt. 😊😊😊

hahahaha, OM/SHIVAAY AGAINST ANIKA. 😂😂😂

EVERYYYYYYYYYYYYONE AGAINST RUDRA! 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 

actually, om is the best solution. he’s so calminggggg. i’d listen to him if i was a gunda. such a sweet boy. so obliging. 😚😚😚

BAD MOVE, GUNDA! BAD MOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😡😡😡😡😡😡 *pushes shivaay/rudra aside to kick gunda’s ass myself* 

lol the girls in the bg. 😆😆😆

why are the other gundas just standing around watching their boss being beat up??? 😐😐😐

aaaaaaaaaaaaand there. shivaay just got cracked like the second anda to be put in this oberoi omelette. 😑😑😑

OUFF SHIVAAY CAN YOU DROP THE TADI FOR 3 SECONDS PLEASE?!!?!? YAAR, THIS IS WHY I WAS LIKE THE OLD DEPRESSED AND MILD SHIVAAY WAS BEST. BUT YOU ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO BRING ANIKA BACK AND RESTORE HIS TADI. YOU WOULDN’T BE IN THIS SITUATION RN IF HE WASN’T SO DAMN MOUTHY. 😒😒😒

greaaaaaat. anika ki andar ki biwi # 1 jaaag gayi hai. power of the mangalsutra and sindoor and all that jazz. though she’s wearing neither. just be know, ~~spiritually~~, she’s alwaysssss wearing it. 🙄🙄🙄

even the kidnapper is like “bitch, didn’t you get divorced? DEFINE YOUR RELATIONSHIP FOR FUCKSSAKE.” 

which we’ve been yelling for over a month now. someone tell us the status of that damn divorce. 😫😫😫

“ayeeeeeeeee meri bhaabi ko kuch mat karna, goli maarni hai toh mujhe maar!”

OH MY HEART, RUDRA!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE HIM SO SO SO MUCH. HONESTLY, I DON’T THINK ANYONE IN THE UNIVERSE CAN LOVE ANIKA AS UNCONDITIONALLY AS RUDRA DOES. *crying forever* 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

poooooori ki pooooooooooori family pagal hai, by god. 🙄🙄🙄

of course, shivaay has to overshadow EVERYONE. ugh. alpha male bs. 😑😑😑

anika toh matlab, tuli hui hai goli khaane mein. 😒😒😒

rudra: bhaisaab, mere dono bhai shaadishuda hai. mare hue ko kya maarna? main single hoon, mujhe maaro! 

idiotttttttttttttttttttttt. 🙄🙄🙄

great. sab kar rahe hai toh acp anda peeche kyun rahe. usse bhi chahiye chance to show akad and tadi. 😒😒😒

.... where are all the older oberois? 🤔🤔🤔

didn’t jhanvi return from her joyride with svetlana till now? it’s the next day! tell me they’re holed up somewhere, making a plan on how to ruin tej beyond repair. 😈😈😈

oh finally, they want the baby. 😗😗😗

itneee bade ghar mein it’s gonna take an eternity and half to find the baby. 😐😐😐

you ppl picked the one thing they’re all united on; they’re not gonna give up the baby. 😌😌😌

apparently the gunshot sound doesn’t scare baby at all. she’s still happy as a clam. 😊😊😊

MY GOD THIS ANDA AND HER LEHARAATI HUI ZULFEIN. HOW DOES SHE EVEN SEE WHAT SHE’S DOING???? 😧😧😧

“bohut maarti hai teri waali” 

pffffffffffffft. 😑😑😑😑

lol anika and gauri also getting inspired. YAAAAAAAAAS GIRLS, GO TO TOWN ON THEM. TAKE OUT ALL YOUR ANGER AT MEN ON THESE FUCKERS. 🙃🙃🙃

WHY IS NO ONE THROWING THEMSELVES IN FRONT OF THE GUN FOR RUDRA???? MY POOR BOY! 😖😖😖

oh finally sr. oberois are back. from where ever they were, and like GOD WE CAN’T LEAVE THESE FUCKEN KIDS ALONE FOR 10 MINUTES BEFORE THEY MANAGE TO GET THEMSELVES INTO LIFE THREATENING DANGER. 😩😩😩😩😩😩

pffffffffffft. apparently we’re not playing the faraq games anymore tomorrow. we’re playing happy family. 😌😌😌

[wdfa]

coming back from winter break like HELLO NAUGHTY CHILDREN ITS RELAPSE TIME

warning for... um. lots of stuff. a loooot of self hate/negative self talk. internalized transphobia/cissexism. discussions of sexual experiences (not in detail). menstruation mention. depression and symptoms.

im struggling so hard rn ugh so many Symptoms.. especially with feelings of worthlessness!!!!!!! like i just feel like im annoying ppl with just my existence!!!! UGH like i know it’s irrational bc so many ppl love and care about me and they have voiced these facts as well as affirmed them through actions! and they continue to do so! it kinda has a lot to do with my dysphoria? im not sure how to like. explain it??? because there is Context.

last saturday my frat had a brothers-only party and it was fun and cute and i had Such a Good Time because i love my brothers! some alumni came too like i got to see my grandbig again and my 2 adopted grandbigs LMAO... one is dating my gbig so she’s step-gbig i guess not adopted? but the other one is in my family line, and he has 2 “real” grandlittles but he adopted me and one of my fifth (?) cousins. ANYWAYS it was really tender because that literally happened that night, he said “as far as im concerned, i have 4 grandlittles... plates, kali, billy, and u” and im not kidding i almost cried it touched my salty ass heart. and that was pretty much the theme of the night, just me loving on everyone and everyone loving on me! 

i was kind of worried about that tbh because i was wearing one of those douchey ridiculously large arm-hole tshirts and my scars were pretty visible,,,, but like everyone was really cool about them like i got some compliments actually haha mostly they were just like “aw im so happy for u/proud of u” but one of my older bros (who happens to also be a bass!!) said smth like “yo those are really cool thats so hardcore!” which pleasantly surprised me because he’s a very aloof and sarcastic kind of person, so getting something genuine was really neat. and so much good happened that night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was great!!!!!!!!!! but also like. ugh. i guess more context needed. 

in my pledge class of 7 only 2 of us were virgins and im one of them. like ive literally never had any Sexual experience, and it was always because i was never comfortable enough with my own body due to dysphoria. even when u get past that my high school was fucking tiny so who was going to love my fat trans ass 8^) and my pbro’s situation was a little different, but he’s gay and his high school was similar so he never had the option to explore anything either. and we were like. together on that u know? i had kind of accepted that it wasnt realistic for me to want things like that, and while that realization hurt, i knew that i had someone in the same boat. but then he goes and loses his virginity!!!!! and this is where i get MESSY LMAO IM NOT READY FOR THIS BUT HERE GOES

first of all i want to say that i am 100% happy for him because he’s my friend i will support him until the end of time and he told us it was important for him finally being able to celebrate himself and grow up and operate with sexual/personal autonomy and live his own DAMN LIFE and im so so SO proud of him for that!! and i HATE myself so FUCKING MUCH for being selfish and feeling this way and taking something so important to someone i love and making it about myself, but. now its like im left behind. i hate this feeling so fucking much i hate being left behind/forgotten about/ignored/excluded from anything and everything. and now this is something that everyone has gone through but me. and it fucking sucks even more because i know the main reason that i havent done this is because im trans!!!! like i didnt ask to be this way!!!!!!!! trust me! its so fucking difficult!!!!!!!! i hate being different sometimes, i literally just want to be like everyone else, i want to be fucking normal for once. like i know that ‘normal’ doesn’t actually exist but im tired of having to struggle through things that other people dont. and ive really just been dwelling on this and extrapolating like “welp no one will ever wanna hook up with me or date me or love me and im gonna die alone like the piece of shit i am” and it’s just opened up soooooo many Bad Feels that i either havent thought about before or did a really good job at repressing! literally just shitty Dysphoria garbage!!! 

and now its like. “ok well u dont want to be a virgin anymore then go out and have sex” WELP it doesnt really work that way!!! i’m very masculine in appearance (or at least i try to be) and the people who are attracted to me expect me to be a Cis Male, because unfortunately we assume everyone is cis until proven otherwise. bottom line is theyre gonna expect me to have a dick! but i dont! what happens when im into someone and theyre not aware of this fact? what if we Get Going and start Doing the Do but theyre like EW GROSS DIE??????? i just keep thinking about this!!!!!!!!! its in my head and i cant get it out!!!!!!!!!! like i Did Not go to bed on sunday night because i just keep dwelling!!!! i went to therapy on tuesday and told all this to my psychologist and usually that gets it out of my system but no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she’s usually really helpful because she approaches things logically rather than emotionally but that didnt work in this case i guess!!

i told my pbros about some of these feelings and they said the shit your friends are supposed to say to make u feel better and it was reassuring that they loved me at the time but like. i guess it didnt stick lol because im still convinced that im unlovable even though mccoy sat on my lap half the night and david let me casually touch him (he does not like physicality so that was kind of a Bigger deal) and ben laid on top of us and we were all so tender but i literally cant translate that into permanence i guess!!!!! but also bad things happened at meeting that kind of validated my fears bc me n a few bros were talking, i think it was me and a gay guy and a girl who thought she was straight but shes questioning if shes bi and i cant remember who else because i was Turnt but these two were like the main source of conversation. the guy was like “im definitely gay like i know i dont like girls because vaginas are just gross” and the girl was like “yeah i dont know, im attracted to hot girls but idk if i could ever fuck w/ a girl because ew vagina” LIKE im.... ... standing............ right .... here...................... and i said something! like “thats transphobic not everyone w a vagina is a girl” and i cant remember exactly but they totally like. brushed me off. i initially have all of these doubts, then my bros are like “yooo that’s irrational, everyone loves u” which makes me feel better and kind of makes the doubts get less awful BUT THEN this happens and we’re back to square one SO.

it doesnt help that i fucking started my period on monday. i havent had it in over a year. but i had to skip a dose of T before my surgery and my ADHD ass forgets everything so i ended up skipping like 3 so apparently this is what happens when you stop taking it :) im really hoping that this is the reason im so emo about everything right now UGH.

all of these feelings are just taking such a toll on me its like im weighed down,,, i was supposed to do some studying today and take some notes but instead i stayed in bed and played games on my phone lol!!!!!! i didnt even do anything fun!!!!!!!!!! and now im alone on a friday night doing NOTHING just like i did fucking NOTHING all day today!!

what sucks about this is that im alone because i feel sad.... but being alone makes me feel even MORE sad........... like im happy when im with my friends, im happy when im with my brothers, im happy when im at the house! but for some reason i cant just text a bro at random whenever im feeling down. like if i did, i know that no matter who it was theyd give me the support i need/the support id get at the house with everyone there. but i cant make that move, i cant take that risk, because i must Avoid.... like i know talking to ppl and being around them makes me happier, and i know if i did gather the ‘courage’ or w/e to do that then the odds of getting a positive response would be 99% but i just. Cannot initiate. because that 1% chance of rejection is just too much. im terrified of it. even if i did take that chance i dont even know what i’d say??? “hey lol im kinda craving death because im a worthless abomination haha wyd” ????? im still not comfortable w talking about being trans. like i am a bit but only with certain people. definitely not with the brotherhood. maybe my big? but she just got a new girlfriend so i dont want to bother her. honestly i dont want to bother anybody!!!!!!!!!! which is Wrong because i tell ppl all the time that their emotions are valid and theyre not bothering people who care but HERE WE FUCKING ARE KIDS!

ok i think im done now i just. really had to get that out. replies and likes and asks are welcome but the other thing is not allowed. the thing with two arrows that kind of go in a circle. none of that.

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #8: "The fajitas are truly guiding me" - Matt

OMG i made it to the merge. Im so happy but now let the game begin.

im so sad. dennis was such a king. and to be taken out by nick... like idek what to do with this merge. ppl i want to work with: nathan, maynor, brian, anna?, matt? idek if i wanna work with brian its just i like meeting new ppl NNN i wanna work with sharky too. but like nathan loves nick apparently. like... no ty!!! nicole... keaton? no ty! my preferred boot order is just keaton. nick. nicole. thats it idc!!! i dont wanna work with like og absolem tho bc theyre all tight without me but the other options arent good either EFKJDSAHKJ. i am waiting for redemption island twist pls and ty although my luck jaydne comes back NNn well these are initial thoughts woohoo

PHEWWWWWW I MADE MERGE BITCHES!!!!!! Honestly that tribal was so fucking cracked and all kicked off in 20 mins at the end with nick revealing he had an idol. and YEET i was so close to playing my idol as well. The fajitas are truly guiding me (even tho i am eating them tomorrow for lunch and I am very excited hehehe) Brian, myself and sharky are gonna align (tho not telling about the idol tho) so woooo lets go merge!

I hate my life. a forced self vote? no thanks. UGH TIME TO DIE!

WE FUCKING MERGED! And I got rid of Dennis. Which I do feel slightly bad about it but it was time to make a move. I playing loose this season and I'm going to see how far it takes me. I have alliances with Maynor, Brian, Nathan, Annabelle, Matt, Nick, and sort of Nicole so that puts me in a pretty good spot as long as I don't overplay and show my cards too soon. I've got to walk the line very carefully. And ngl careful is not my strong suit.

Ok now Let's rank my mergemates. 1) Brian- husband. 2) Matt- second husband. 3) Maynor- best man at my double wedding to Matt and Brian. 4) Annabelle- my fave underrated queen. 5) Nathan- I love him but check back in a few rounds ok. 6) Bryce- we barely talked but he loves Chi Chi Devayne so...I love him. 7) Nicole- ...every season needs a purple edit 8) Nick- cool kid but I'm sooo bitter about wanting him gone 3 tribals in a row 9) Keaton- who?

Well, merge is finally here and i get to reunite with Sharky. Which is great because he was my duo from the begining and now i have Keaton as my other duo.i also have Bryce as well. Nathan wants to work with keaton and I so thats good and i believe he’s tight with Annabelle so shell come along as well. Thats already 5 with me is 6. As long as none of them are targeted first vote and others are. Ill be sitting in a good spot. From here the first vote, i wouldnt mind voting out Nicole. Only one to yet to talk to me besides saying hi.

WEELLLLL!!! I merged, ladies (and lads)!  I cannot believe it, but I have made it!!  I think I know what my strong points are right now in my game and I just have to keep playing on them.  I'm a lot stronger socially now and I want that to continue going into the merge.  I have allies in every single little aspect of this game, and I want to ensure the people I'm not working with go first.  So less than half of these hoes better watch their backs!

Now that I've merged and have freedom with who I want to work with, I'm definitely going to try and solidify my quad-some with Sharky, Nathan, and Annabelle as a final 4 alliance and also make sure that my other final alliances (one with Bryce, who I just met up with, and then one with Matt) also are stronger than ever before.

I usually do like cast run-downs and... idk... I haven't yet in this game, but I guess I will now going into the merge!!

Annabelle - A queent!!  I absolutely love her and wish that a trio of Ariana stans (with Marie) could've gone through!!  I can't wait to strengthen my bond with her and for us to slay this game together! Bryce - I may have just met Bryce in game, but I've known him for a little bit!  We have never really had a full-on conversation, but we have talked in passing and in some League games.  I've talked to him for like... 30 minutes so far... and he's already a top person in this game for me.  Love him! Keaton - idk him, but he's already trash talked Marie to me... so .... bye ! Matt - I adore him... he's... an angel!  I see myself working with him for a long time in this game, and I have to hope he feels the same hehe... Maynor - eh!  I like him, but we don't.... click... so if he goes home... he goes home... :S... Nathan - LOVE HIM!  He's so funny and so nice and he says we have a final 2, but girl... if we get to final 2 together it's by sheer luck because I shoreeee as hell know he's going hard or going home.... and I'm not playing that same balls to the walls type of game! Nick - LOL OK??? Idols replace social play and gameplay ig!!! Nicole - I just wish she was more active because I'd love to really put all my trust in her, but I don't really ever talk to her! Sharky - ANGEELLLL!!! Das my game hubby... I adore him so much... I really thought I was going to go into this game wanting to fuck him up with a lawn mower, but here I am putting all my eggs into his basket and trusting him completely... I hope I'm making the right decision!  I know he's a big threat, but I just lahva him a lot! Ugh..

This challenge is very interesting. Im just hoping that I somehow get enough points to get the high amount. Immunity would be great. Still working out who i could work with and who i would target. I know for sure that im going to be with Keaton and Sharky. Still dont know about the others yet.

I do not want this immunity. There's like weird touchy subjects vibes. If I win it means a lot of people wanted me to get immunity so I'm well liked which will translate to "Threat". I told the jock destroyers to give me negative items. So hopefully if my other allies give me positive scores it will even out to a smooth 0 and I can stay relatively under the radar.

So I went idol hunting and I got closer than I had ever gotten before. I could just tell. So I gave Brian the info and told him where I went wrong. And he didn't find the idol but he DID find a steal a vote advantage! So Brian and I are getting a nice little tool belt around our waists. Now we just need to get all these people to do what we want.

Everyone is being really quiet. But thats okay because this gives Maynor and I a great opportunity to strategize. To my surprise he threw out Nicole's name! Which is great. It might be too soon to go for her because I've been talking Dinah strong for a few rounds now (even though I voted Dennis out). But it's still good to know that she's on his radar. Now the goal is just to set up a F5 alliance that Brian and I can ride to F6. Maynor and I still have The Scream Team alliance and I'm loyal to that. So if I can move forward with Maynor and Brian then I can just fill in the others as we go.

Okay SWIFT UPDATE. Maynor brought up Matt's name and I was basically like "Um...I don't want to do that" and then discovered that he doesn't think Nicole has his back at all. Which would undermine any Dinah strong stuff. And I'm not going to stick my neck out to save her over a vote on my side for a few more rounds. Especially if she might flip anyway. Hmm…

Now I'm getting a chance to talk game with Anna! This night is really picking up. Unfortunately she seems to have some animosity towards Matt. Why does everyone hate Matt? I think he's bloody awesome! Oh well. She also isn't a fan of Nicole or Keaton so I can direct her target that way for a few votes and for now we seem to be on the same page minus the Matt thing.

Sharky and I are still up at midnight. We came up with a tribal vote plan which is awesome. The target tonight is going to be Nicole. I feel like shes a threat and needs to go. Sharky and I created an ideal final 5 which is me, Sharky, Brian, Matt, amd Bryce. My side alliance is Keaton and Nathan. On the outs is Nick, Annabelle, and Nicole. We are saying that Keaton said Nicole’s name and that Nicole said Keaton’s name. But main targetbis Nicole. Hopefully this plan works and Nicole goes tonight.

Things are falling into place baby! So Maynor wants Nicole/Keaton/Matt out. He thinks he can get Bryce on board. Annabelle also wants Nicole/Keaton/Matt out. I know from The Jock Destroyers Alliance that she (and I) have Nathan's vote. Anna also says she wants to work with Bryce. And Bryce told her that he feels close to Maynor. (I'm realizing Bryce is a HUGE social threat and I'm not going to be able to keep him around for too long but for now he's a number on my side.) Now, both Maynor and Annabelle also love Brian. They both also know I can bring Nick to the table because Nick trusts me. So right now I perfectly situated in the middle of a 7 person voting block. Am I a mastermind?

CLASSIC ANNABELLE. I set up this whole majority situation and told her to choose Keaton or Nicole and we can make it happen. BUT SHE WON'T CHOOSE. I love her but she always does this. She's so about being quiet that she refuses to ever make a move. Last time we played together she said I was a bully and never asked her what she wanted. Now I'm trying to be a better ally and listen to her moves AND SHE WON'T MAKE ANY. So frustrating.

Having Keatons name out was good cuz now he wants to target Nicole because she is the other name thats been thrown out. My alliance of mkn is helping get the votes for Nicole which is great.

so the names thrown out are keaton or nicole and its looking like nicole is gonna go bc ppl think shes a better player bc she gets far in tumblr games which like i guess is tea but its just sad that meta has a factor :( esp when shes like irrel in this game noah fence KJFADSHKFJAS. and like maynor prob has f2 with keaton.. but idc i guess she ghosts me all the time so w/e. im just hoping next round we can get like someone whos actually a threat out.

I WON IMMUNITY which means I made single digits!  I'm so happy with myself... I didn't really do much to deserve it, but I'm so happy I won because it means I can be a little more ballsy this round with throwing out names and whatever!

I'm thinking of voting Keaton out as a sort of revenge for Marie, but Nicole's name is out there, too, and I just really want to make the right move to launch my game into the next round in an even better spot!  I feel like the top of the world right now, and I want to keep that high.  The immunity challenge showed that even though I think I'm a fucking mess, I'm doing well enough socially.

As for that, I want to quickly add in that I love all my allies so much.  Sharky just helped me find a vote steal power which will be so useful for the long run of this game, and I cannot wait to use it to hopefully slay.  Nathan and Annabelle are angels and are also really nice for me to bounce ideas off of.  Bryce is just amazing to talk to and I really see him in my longterm plan.  Matt's another person I see in my longterm plan.  Ideally, this is probably my top 6... and I've since grown closer to Nick and we are working together "for the sake of Sharky", but I think he's more-so a side piece for me in this game!

So....I’m pretty certain I’m leaving because nobody wants to talk of anything of substance with me. It’s hard because I know I deserve to go, I haven’t been in a place mentally to give everything I need to, to this game. But that doesn’t mean I want to leave. It’s just hard, Dennis was my number one ally and now that he is gone it’s gonna be hard to reform my trust and alliances with everyone. Oof. It’s alright. Hoping that someone can use me as a vote about now but, don’t think that’s a possibility.

So I am keeping VERY quiet about my disadvantage, as I don't want anyone to know about it and jump on a bandwagon to use it against me! Like no thanks I'll pass. It looks like it'll either be Keaton or Nicole, would much rather it be Anna but she's immune smh. As long as my name ain't mentioned I'll be Gucci I hope. REEEE

Now that everyone is awake it's time to put in some work to execute the plan Anna/Maynor/myself made last night. We need to get everyone on board with voting Nicole. But I also need to make sure Nicole feels safe just in case she has an idol. I'm going to talk to Matt and Nick. As long as they vote Nicole we should be solid. I'm also going to start an alliance chat with the OG Dinah members so that we can talk about strategy and make sure Nicole feels safe with us. Then as long as everyone is telling the truth (cause no one ever lies in Survivor) it'll all be good.

Can i say that Sharky making a fake alliance chat with Nicole when we are planning on voting her out is very cold blooded. Like honesty doing it to try and throw off her scent of the vote is perfect.

I’m so glad sharky seems to be much more transparent with me. I’m really excited to see how this goes tbh I feel like we’d make a good pair. We be played together before and I thought he would be made at me for like wanting him out in canadienne but yeah I’m excited for merge!

Okay the alliances just keep piling up. It's definitely going to cause an issue later on. But for now it's good. And the newest one, The FB Bois, is one I actually do plan on staying loyal too. I really trust Matt and Brian. I like them both a lot and I want to work with them. Hopefully they feel the same. F4 with Brian, Matt, Maynor is my goal.

We are coming close to tribal. Its nerve wracking cuz it looks like nicole hasnt scrambled so she might have an idol. Im going to see if my side alliance would vote for Matt (keaton and nathan). Just in case there is an idol played. But as far it looks like Nicole is going.

For once my name hasnt been a top priority! its crazy... I really dont know what to do about it but im loving it so much... lets just wait though until I get out in about 30 mins...

Nicole is voted out 6-3-1.