#ppl can think im pathetic bc i am

[bpdbunnyy4ngel]

i feel absolutely awful and idk how to do this

[ichigosoju]

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[gaystardykeco]

not ready to go back to work tomorrow but luckily im so not ready that my brain isn't letting it fully process and so im just kind of numb except for little moments when the panic breaks through again

[phagodyke]

I love to talk but I rly do feel like we have to be talking for a minimum of 8 hours straight before I feel like I can even begin to rly broach things on my mind or that have been bothering me a lot that I actually want to talk abt without being vague or deflecting or omitting or lying and if the conversation takes a break at any point it resets back to 0 and its still nice regardless but.

[omanu]

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[bruiisedpetals-a]

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[prosciuttoon]

Toshiro/Shuro is overhated

(mirror of my thread on twitter)

ever wanted to talk abt something so bad but u have so many thoughts so u cant even begin to organize a sentence. thats me abt shuro and its why i cant give my thoughts on him. i NEED to get this out of my system bc its takign up so much memory in my brain i need that space for thinking.

so i was really surprised to find so much hate for him even tho he seems pretty normal and rational out of the whole cast. ive deducted that its mostly abt his laios fight and that the ppl who hate him probably had bad experiences w social cues and relationships w neurotypicals bc of that. theres no way to avoid it bc its pretty much Right In Your Face that laios is ND. but thats not the only factor in why their relationship is rocky. its also the culture barrier. u have to understand toshiro was raised as JAPANESE NOBILITY ofc he would be a little conservative

also culture shock. idk if u know this but jp culture is very Mind Your Own Business like a lot of other asian cultures . ofc hes gonna be weirded out by a stranger invading his space. also his names not even Shuro. its just yt ppl not pronouncing his name right and settling for whats easiest.

img src: fan translation by savaralyn2 , i think its from the adventurers bible Complete Edition bc i dont remember it in the old one

ok you get the gist of the culture aspect of it. lets go into the ND/NT clash aspect of it. yes i understand its pretty hurtful to never be told when youre acting inappropriately. i am autistic too lmao. but you have to understand that shiro is one guy and he even does realize that repressing things is one of his fatal flaws. again. asian culture. non confrontational. that sorta thing. but these are genuine frustrations. if i were him id be annoyed too but id speak out about it. set boundaries. bc im blunt. shiros not. he was taught crazy strict manners (hierarchies, respect, politeness, etc).

his problem isnt ableism its a culmination of culture barriers, how he was raised to behave, and terrible lack of communication as thing caused by "all of the above" plus he just generally keeps to himself a lot which means repressing frustrations that will explode leading to a pathetic fistfight while hes starved, exhausted, and dehydrated. also. if he was ableist he would hate laios. he doesnt hate laios. at the end of the day, they are friends. NT and ND ppl can be friends u know. there will be rifts (like their fight) but you just have to communicate misunderstandings. theyre gonna be fine lol

anyways that was my whole spiel abt it. i think i got everything out that i wanted to? my head still feels a little full so i may add more later when i remember something

also i think its a little unfair to rule out the possibility of laios and him just being 2 very different kinds of ND bc its very common for misunderstandings to occur even then. EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT BUT WE NEED TO COMMUNICATE TO UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER! but for the sake of interpreting the Fight as a commentary on NT social rules and ND frustration, ill say toshiros NT. will we ever know? hes so far in the sidelines... youd really have to dig in the extra content to see the intricacies of his character.... please give him a chance

[cconfusedkat]

My last wip ill share i prommy- it just motivates me to share stuff lkskfkskdjs

lesbian spider thinks about their crush for one second and gets their hands tangled in silk 💔 , Loser!I

infodump below bc it feels fitting on this postt wwww

Smth i find slightly humorous is that shamura was the pathetic one for the first few months nd then allure was absurdly even more pathetic and shamura was like "this is the most pathetic lamb i have ever seen. I must take them before anyone else does" (lies. Deception)

^cuz they were scared of relationships as a concept for years on end- allure was the one who initiated everything for years too Jskdkskdskdm they often had a guilty pleasure of reading shamuras thoughts and they found out how much they liked hxm and thats when hx realized Oh my gosh i can be so normal about this (chasing after them metaphorically and somewhat literally) (present: i was made for loving you and shamura darting their eyes away from this chasing lamb who is the gayest fucker they ever met /silly Allures gayness was too intimidating for that spider . Local lesbian spider meets pathetic lamb lesbian)

Grrrrr thats why i made never ever getting rid of me for them both , because Shamura is afraid of rejection thus never gave relationships a try ,, whereas Allure is the most clingy and lovebombing person in a relationship-

Resulting in shamura being often overwhelmed (in early stages at least) with how allure would frequently chase after them and make random ammends to talking to shamura any chance they got ,,,

"Wherever you go i wont be far to follow" and "im gonna love you so, youll learn what i already know: i love you means youre never ever getting rid of me"

Its sorta like how in waitress anyways- dawn being such a girlfail and ogie being the autistic he is and not knowing how to express his love for dawn <3 they r both so autistic to me anywaysss

Sooo applying that to shamura and allure ,, shamura is afraid of relationships because they never been in a proper one- but neither has allure!! Allure would chase after shamura in the goofiest ways possible , being the one to greet them each morning after sermons or little things like secret gift giving placed under muras door ,, <3 grrrgrgrgrr Sorry i am in love with the dynamic i gave them after building them up slowly 🥺🥺🤲🤲❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

However shamura grown used to allures funny yapping ,, they humor that cute lamb becaaause hx looks so happy to be there next to them in their prescence being acknowledged,, they like to fluster hxm any chance they get and catch hxm off guard because they!! find hxm cute!! Frankly thats a lot of their reasoning but of course they value other things in allure , they already admire the mask hx puts on for hxs followers for example- they just like that they can be the very few ppl who see allure in their real unmasked self <3 radhshdjrdhshrhhdrhshdh❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹☹️☹️☹️

[djpachipikachu]

guy whos thinking rly hard about aroace leo and his issues with intimacy/vulnerability which in turn gives him trouble on how to approach any relationship that isnt familial ,,, bc with surrogate father figures he can blindly hope and believe and stay loyal to them in hopes for a specific kind of attention he never got enough of from splinter but like? any other kind of relationship ? Regular ass friendships? dude doesnt know how to make friends have you seen him … he can be charismatic and charming in a pathetic way but like what fucking friends his age does this guy even have (april , casey, and cj dont count bc theyre all family) (sunita is april’s friend and only his by proxy)

smth smth hes so ready to spill his shit to a father figure who might listen but its sooo much harder with someone his age … dude puts up a strong barrier that makes it hard for anyone to be close with him unless they’re his family

and Then the whole conflict of “am i aroace or do i just have problems” and “do i have these problems Because im aroace and afraid of a friend taking my trust and affection as something romantic” and “i am aroace and i value platonic and familial love as smth just as powerful as romantic love is portrayed but Boy Oh Boy i dont know how to navigate loving ppl casually bc i will literally die for ppl i love”

tldr ive been listening to a song on repeat and gettinf emotional over aroace leo again which is nothing new

[liverpool-enjoyer]

hey yall forewarning this is easily the most embarrassing post ive ever made on here. like im not talking normal levels of tumblr cringe/oversharing, i mean youre probly gonna judge me and think somethings genuinely wrong with me. but i really need to get it off my chest so. yolo.

also tldr at the end in case you wanna spare yourself lmao.

mkay so recently i havent been online, because ive been really sad. and the reason im sad is that gavi got a girlfriend. which i realize is probly the stupidest and most juvenile thing to be sad over but hear me out (or dont lmao its a free country do whatever you want).

its not like i ever thought i had a chance with him or anything, im not stupid. but ive known for a very long time that, due to my asexuality (and other things but mostly that), i am never going to have love in my life. so for me, daydreaming and fantasizing about being gavis girlfriend was like,,, how i coped, i guess. it was a form of escapism for me. and now i cant do that anymore bc hes someones boyfriend and fantasizing abt another girls boyfriend just feels wrong. and pathetic.

it doesnt help that all my social medias have algorithmed so that hes all over all my feeds. and to be honest, looking at him just makes me think of his beautiful girlfriend who has everything i could ever want and i feel this horrible awful nauseating feeling in my stomach and i feel envious and sad and a slew of other things. it sucks that someone who once unknowingly made me so happy now does the exact opposite but hey what can you do.

i know it sounds stupid, but i dont think i'll ever feel for someone the way i feel about him. hes the most beautiful person ive ever laid eyes on and oh God i was right this does sound stupid ok lets continue

oh and let me be clear (you hafta read that in obamas voice) im aware that feeling this way toward a complete stranger (or anyone for that matter, but like especially a complete stranger) is EXTREMELY UNHEALTHY. unfortunately, knowing that my feelings and thoughts are unhealthy doesnt stop me from having them.

so yeah. now that ive lost my form of escapism, all i can think about at any given moment is how lonely im going to be. its hard to enjoy much of anything these days when all im thinking about is how im never going to receive romantic love, and now i cant even daydream about dating gavi to cope with it. because all i can think about when i try to is how hard his girlfriend would laugh if she found out some pathetic worm halfway across the world was fantasizing about her man.

so yeah thats it. i know that every time i angst abt my asexuality (which is a LOT like holy shit why do ppl still follow me), my friends tell me that its ok because im going to find someone someday. and i appreciate it, i really do. it means the world. but my friends saying that i'll find love doesnt make it true. plenty of people have died alone and unloved before, and i am going to be one of them.

tldr: a guy ive never met got a girlfriend n im having a depressive episode abt it LMAOOOO

[zmbiesvape]

people are lying about me, harassing me, stalking me (how are you getting a bunch of screenshots of my acc when I have you star, chirssy, and evb else that I know is close with you blocked.) and sending their friends to harass me & and innocent ppl. I made this blog because people were sending me anons threatening to rape my friends, not because I "didn't want to take accountability" I still stand by everything I said, moreso now actually. I just don't want to talk about a situation that happened TWO months ago just because an insane narcissist wants to drag it out. I haven't posted about it in MONTHS, but you keep posting abt it and unblocking me to dm me. also I don't remember ever even finding your TT acc, idk ur username on there, not that I care enough that I'd stalk you either way. I'm not sure what that was abt, I'm pretty sure one of my mutual reposted one of ur videos or smth. sorry abt that. I also never called you a rapist. I said you roleplayed rape, because you did. the thing I said about me being an sa advocate wasn't even about that situation. you just refused to acknowledge it and got mad that I didn't name drop. obviously you didn't fucking rape me holy shit. Im also an sa survivor myself, so u can stop saying "real sa victims" because I am. and not bc of you. not everything is about you jazz. also nobody that I talk to is sending you anons, so u can stop saying that thanks.

literally all I wanted was to be left alone, and the main reason I even got upset in the first place was because you wouldn't leave me alone. (I said that to you multiple times, not that I exaggerated the situation. cuz I didn't.) I've realized you're not gonna stop harrassing me, you're not gonna stop lying about me, and you're gonna continue to stalk me because youre so self centered you have to see what I'm saying about you even though I've said nothing for months.

calling me pathetic and saying I'm dragging it on when you've unblocked me MULTIPLE times to say some random bullshit and you continue to post about me is insane. you've also talked to my friends and lied about me, I've only talked to one person who wasn't involved in the situation, because they asked. everybody else that blocked you made that decision on their own based on what they saw. the ONLY times I've posted about this on this blog was when I told the anons to stop, unblocking star to tell them to stop posting about me (that's not a post but I felt like I should include it), and today.

I'm making a new blog again. stop unblocking me to spew your unmedicated bullshit, don't look for my new blog cuz you're already blocked, stop sending people to my page to harrass me (ik u r bc u admitted it. also one of the anons (they admitted to being an anon) was harrassing my Instagram and gave you the joke post I made that you've been using as "proof". unless you did somehow find my Instagram.) just stop talking about the situation. the only ppl that care atp are you and ur 2 friends. I wasn't the one who brought it here like you keep saying, you got mad over a private conversation (that happened after I'd already blocked you bc you don't know how to leave people alone) and took it to Tumblr! I made ONE vague post that I deleted like 2 mins later and you ran with it.

I'm also extremely sorry to anyone and everyone who got caught in the crossfire, nobody who was sent those gross insane anons or dmed deserved it. I'm also sorry to my ex mutuals who genuinely think I'm a horrible person bc jazz is so obsessed with this situation that she won't stop lying! love you all so much ^3^ dm me if u want my new handle!

[wildcatfourteen]

how do you come up with such interesting composition? your pieces are always so captivating 💗

thank youuuuuuuuuu <33 and the truth is. idk. i am kinda just winging it and making a lot of adjustments as i go.... im not very orderly about it and have my thoughts kinda all over the place. heres some examples under the cut w what process pics i could find

direction process goes >>>

first did a pencil sketch for big shapes. was just placing stuff down. i wanted to make ref sheets for an art trade but didnt want to make a traditional type bc i hate drawing ppl standing full body (bc im bad at it 👍) also i did not have specific outfits in mind and was going more for a reference of the general vibe of the characters, so i just wanted a full body pose + face close up. to avoid having to show specific details. bc i was cheating. was originally going to have multiple text bubbles around for the character facts

did like two sketches digitally. messed around a LOT with placement. the little emote heads came out of me feeling like it was empty and boring on its own and they are fun to draw so why not include them. the multiple text bubbles seemed like a bad idea now so i took them out and just did one text wall.

i actually dont like the text wall now and think breaking it up wouldve been more fun visually but that would've required effort i didnt wanna put in LOL

^ i lost the pencil sketch for this one (i always do a pencil sketch) but it was actually just the two half body drawings at first with none of that shit at the bottom or the close ups until i was like fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk i gotta add smth around to make this look like theres stuff happening..... the idea was to draw the two main characters of the labb novel in some kinda comic format w panels around and i then. kept adding things until it seemed like i was getting somewhere. thats kind of my process for everything TT i think it helps to stay in a workshopping stage for longer if needed to get somewhere but i often get impatient LOL

im putting a stupid note abt this here bc im still annoyed at myself but in this novel, there was a bit about a crossword puzzle related to a murder case and i only thought of it afterwards that it would be kinda cool to put the sugar cubes in like a crossword puzzle formation....... why didnt i do that......

^ and heres some of the process for this one, but i lost a LOT of the steps for this. the beginning was totally different. the character wasnt as pathetic and scared looking at first but then i was like uhhhhh lets draw him that way :)

the first pencil draft was from a different perspective and it was gonna have a mirror composition to it kinda? but i wasn't able to make that look appealing so i deleted it. it still had the curtains tho but then i also included stuff with framed mirrors + other frames around

i decided to instead make the curtains be the focus of the whole piece to not make it so cluttered. character's pose was so different at first it was so bad i dont even wanna remember it. i took out the frames entirely bc i didnt think they added much to the piece in terms of the atmosphere. since like. the more i worked on it w the character's + the goat's expressions the more it gave a 'being hunted' feeling to it and portrait frames dont fit that vibe. which feels funny bc u look at it and thats all u can think abt but i wasnt even gunning for that when starting out. BE FLEXIBLE. TRUST THE PROCESS.

[gaystardykeco]

need to sleep but the Dread is consuming me

[j0jorocity]

THE CHRONICALLY ONLINE ROME FAN’S BLOG

HELLO! WELCOME TO MY LITTLE CORNER OF THE INTERNET!

I’m Iosephus! Here’s some stuff you should know about me before deciding to interact (byi list):

I AM UNDER 18! Under 12 and over 28 I would prefer not to interact with (unless I know you otherwise I really don’t care)

I use she/her pronouns and feminine terms but I guess I don’t mind masc and neutral pronouns and terms (link to my pronouns page which has some of my other links)

I’m Hispanic (🇨🇺🇵🇪 RAHHHH) and I can speak English and Spanish just fine, though my Spanish isn’t the best 😞

I LOVE ROME SOKSSOSOOSOSSOSOSOS MUCH HES MY FAVOURITE EVER!!!!!!!! AND THE ANCIENTS!!!!!! And the rest yeah whatever

Hetalia is my main hyperfixation but I also like C*untryhumans. Please don’t block me I SWEAR IM COOL I LITERALLY DONT INTERACT WITH THE FANDOM AT ALL

IF WE’RE CLOSE I WILL USE MILDLY SEXUAL HUMOUR AND KMS JOKES (never kys). IF YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH WHAT I SAY PLEASE LET ME KNOW

I tend to be very straightforward with people who suddenly dm me, but I promise I’m not trying to be mean! :(

NOW, FOR SOME OF MY INTERESTS, FAVOURITE CHARACTERS AND ETC!

(In order from most hyperfixed to least, will also include my fave characters from each fandom and other thoughts)

HETALIA

Rome and literally all the ancients. I’m sorry I don’t care for the main cast but I like PruHun too

C*UNTRYHUMANS

IM SORRY OK IVE BEEN IN THIS FANDOM FOR FOUR YEARS I CAN’T

Anyways I like ch America but only in my head. Please don’t block me please please please I want friends

COOKIE RUN KINGDOM

I started playing around Pumpkin Pie’s banner and then quit for like two years. Picked it back up during wind archer’s banner and I’m OBSESSED

I can’t choose my absolute favourite but I show more love towards dark cacao, latte and almond (as a ship mostly), advenberry, financier (my WIFE!!!), burning spice (recently developed a new obsession w him). Characters I wouldn’t call my favourites but I think are super cool are cream ferret, mystic flour, wind archer, smoked cheese, golden cheese, pure vanilla, lilac, dark choco, and peach blossom!! I don’t play Ovenbreak but I’d love to learn more abt fire spirit, millennial tree, and yogurt cream…… user is sanestaphromefan on dark cacao server

SONIC

TBH. I got into sonic bc of the movies. Now I think about it every single day as I write this im trying not to have a mental breakdown over gay hedgehogs

Shadow is my fave I love my emo hedgehog!!! Very big sonadow and stobotnik enjoyer, I also like tails, rouge, and knuckles,, and ofc stone :333

SPY X FAMILY

I forgot how cute and wholesome this anime was!!! I haven’t watched the movie but I will soon enough. Idk this anime is just so genuinely funny, but it doesn’t rely too much on comedy and has a really good plot and well written characters

I love Loid Forger he’s literally my husband (tho I love all of the cast tbh. Except for Nightfall kinda. She’s funny to me in a pathetic way but not in the pathetic I like 😭)

Less intense interests (that I might repost but not talk about) include:

Octonauts

Wild Kratts

Carmen Sandiego (2019 Netflix ver)

JJK

JJBA

Epic: The Musical

This list may change

IF YOU CAN’T TELL I LOVE TALKING. BUT THERE’S SOME PEOPLE THAT LIKE CERTAIN THINGS THAT I DON’T WANT TO TALK TO!

My DNI list:

General criteria

BIGOTS. HOMOPHOBES, TRANSPHOBES, RACISTS, MISOGYNISTS, TRUMP SUPPORTERS, ETC, DNI.

PROSHIPPERS AND JUST PPL WHO LIKE PROBLEMATIC SHIT I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH 😭😭😭😭

(This includes, but not limited to: USUK, Itacest, Germancest, SPAMANO, CANAME/FRANADA/CANUK, SovReich, AND BURNINGCHEESE/SHADOWVANILLA/MYSTICCACAO, ANY BEAST X ANCIENT SHIPS. To be completely honest I GUESS I can talk with proshitters BUT DON’T FUCKING BRING THIS SHIT UP AROUND ME I HATE IT SO MUCH I DONT WANT TO HEAR PEOPLE DEFEND THESE SHIPS)

People who use brainrot humour 24/7 and are generally just annoying. Get a life.

PEOPLE WHO DON’T RESPECT OTHERS OPINION, KEYBOARD WARRIORS, ETC.

Artists who twinkify Poland more than he is 😭

If you don’t seem to care abt our conversations and instantly try to move onto a new topic every time we speak. Super annoying in general and it affects me a lot

May add more to this later since I’m forgetting a few things

YAY! You’ve almost made it through my intro post! Here’s just a last few tidbits about myself and then I can shut up 🫶

I HAVE A BAJILLION ANCIENTS HETALIA OCS (like less than 15 💀) AND I LOVE LOVE LOVE TALKING ABOUT THEM PLEASE ASK ME ABT THEM AND I ALSO WOULD LOVE TO HEAR ABT UR ANCIENTLIA OCS IF U HAVE ANY!!!

I have another blog for said ocs, @rometalia ,,, it’s a bit dead rn bc I’ve been busy with school :(

I’m open to all asks!!! But please nothing inappropriate I am a minor AND NO POLITICS 😭😭

My favourite hetalia ships are gerrome (OTP but it’s different in a way in my head. Talk to me about them I dare you), PruHun, SwissAus and amepan! I also like spaus and FrUK. Some ships I’m kind of on the fence about are rusame, rochu, generally any russia ship and most America ships but I consume and repost fanart of these ships just because I like the art!

My favourite YouTubers are Uncle Roger, Nick DiGiovanni and Guga. I love food and I kinda wanna become a chef in the future ☺️

Trying to beat the art block allegations day 37273627

MY BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD IS @fertaine !!!! I LOVE YOU MY POOKIE WOOKIE BEAR!!!!! FERTAINE HATERS DNI DNI DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT APPROACHING ME I AM THEIR NO.1 FAN AND DEFENDER

My gerrome side blog is @j0jorocityisntokay

If you see me reblogging from a proshipper (USUK and Spamano especially in this case), please let me know! I most likely didn’t know they supported these ships.

Almost forgot to mention, but here are my tags!

#jojo reblogs -> self explanatory

#jojo rambles -> me yapping or answering to asks, idk

#aph jojo rambles -> anything related to hetalia, so probably headcanons or whatever lol

#rome posting -> self explanatory

#flippity fart farmland posting tag -> me talking to Fern ☺️

#jojo’s art -> updated once in a blue moon I hate my art

Will add more as I see fit

THAT IS ALL, MY FRIENDS! I HOPE TO HAVE A WONDERFUL TIME ON THIS WEBSITE! 🫶

(The dividers that aren’t red roses belong to @kostevysen )

[cursedbunniii]

having my old account termed literally messed w my mental state so fkn bad. and i feel absolutely ridiculous and cant talk abt it w anyone bc they think im overreacting and i dont wanna write abt it on my main blog in case those weird ppl are lurking and write mean anons im too weak to take it. but it messed w me so fkn bad. it was my only coping mechanism. and it was actually healthy. ppl were actually genuinely nice to me. told me i was worth respect. several ppl over several years told me that continiously. now all of that was taken from me. and i feel all alone and like im freefalling and spiraling and yeah this sounds ridiculous but having my vent edit blog where i had sm followers meant that there were always ppl there who understood and related to my feelings and didnt judge me. now i barely even get acknowledged. and i realize how pathetic that sounds but its so hard. my unhealed inner child wants attention. and now im back to sexualizing myself and desperately seeking attwntion and validation from men bc that is ALWAYS there. that will NEVER be taken away. it is the only thing i can rely on. but it makes me feel awful and gross and i hate sex. but the space i was humanized and respected and understood was taken from me and i just dont know what to do without it. i justw anna cry idk what to do. the fact that some stranger decided to hate me and rprt my blog makes me so fkn tired. a stranger doesnt give a fuck abt ruining my mental health and fking w me and i had no power in stopping it. and they enjoy that i am spirling and breaking down. im too weak for life i just dont wanna do it. i hate sex and it hurts but maybe being fucked by men is all i'll ever get to have.

[noxiatoxia]

ok i do think ive talked abt this here before maybe ? either way here i go again. i actually do really like hinanami. my top 5 hajime ships (dont make me order them ill kill myself) are hinamiki, komahina, hinanami, kazuhina, and hinadam and i like em all for very very different reasons. and in different ways. but im soooo ngl hinanami is the hardest one for me to explain bc the way i enjoy that ship (and by proxy komahinanami) so soo complicated n nobody i think shares my very weirdly specific idea.

to me. chiaki has aspd. and i wouldnt say is asexual just sex with other ppl is not on her top 20 most important things list. she is aromantic tho. ok this is where the noxia projection stops but to me hinanami is like....hajime maybe gets a crush on her. ok. hes attracted to her bluntness and bc shes an emotionally stunted woman and if youve read up on the hajime lore its clear hajime has some psychosexual freudian thing happening where he is exclusively into women who express the desire/ability to harm or abuse him. so chiaki's being ASPD queen is like. hajime mental illness fetishizer number uno 🇧🇷 and chiaki likes hajime fine enough. hes kind of pathetic to her but its in a cute puppy way. hes easy 2 talk 2 and hang with. and idk i wanr her to dominate him leave me alone. but also i think like longterm this shit would not work out bc hajime would realize oh my god i am turning my trauma into fetishes and chiaki would honestly i think get irritated with hajime at a point like.........hes very emotional and empathetic..........only so mucy of dat she can handle..........so shes like i think we should just be Friends and hajime is hurt but accepts it we move. but in komahinanami chiaki is the friends w/benefits slash cuckchair fujoshi except she doesnt even care abt hajime and komaeda fuckijg she would be playing resident evil in the background. but shes like their support animal they keep around bc she keeps them in fucking check. and sometimes hajime wants to get freaky (WHO CAN BLAME HIM !??!) and komaeda idk he's chill im sure they kiss sometimes maybe if they're bothered enough to. idkkk..........also dr3 isnt canon 2 me for Reasons (froths at mouth) so im just saying this is all based off of sdr2 lads. weesnaw