#posting this so if it happens ill have called it

[lara4eclipze]

» I Miss Us

sypnosis: lara was never one to be in situationships nor talking stages, she claimed it was stupid and would only end up with ones heart broken or yearning — yet here she was missing you her only situationship

warning: angst, situationship, hurt no comfort, swearing, ghosting, italics for flashbacks, etc

talks: I'm so sorry for those requests i haven't written yet BUT trust i am gonna write some and release them maybe today and tomorrow!, thank you for your patience ^^

taglist: @ohmyhaely @nyssalvr @vrtualstar @c-yerim @jellaaa @nakylvr @chuugetmesohigh

lara stared at her phone, at your conversation to be specific — it's been two months since you two have even chatted, in lara's opinion is the longest two months of her life

lara used to get excited just staying up and chatting with you — sneaking out of the dorms just to have drinks or eat out with you, it didn't matter that she could've been caught by her management — what mattered to her was you

the door to the kats shared house creeks louder than lara would've wanted — her eyes adjust to the dark environment only to make out a figure standing near the kitchen, their leader sophia

"where have you been?!, you know i have been worried sick? i called everyone including your mom!" sophia screams at lara, maybe for the first time in a while — atleast lara wants to pretend like so

in reality lara has been on sophias nerves ever since she started to talking to you — she always left without telling anyone she would be lazy in practices just so that she can chat with you

"go to your room — and whoever it is you are meeting up with, stop it lara you're getting too distracted" sophia mutters trying to keep her calm demeanor "stop telling me what to do" lara snaps back

"do it or ill tell the management team" sophia threatened, it all just stopped from that moment on — lara had to choose between her needs and wants, she walked silently to her shared room fidgeting with her phone

she debated whether to chat you or listen to sophia yet as much as she hated what she was gonna do she did it

she ghosted you.

the first week was confusing to say the least — lara who always chatted with you through every platform was now getting cold?, her usual energetic response to your chats were now replaced with "yeah" or "okay"

the second week was weird, lara had took almost 2 - 3 days just to respond to you, you double texted you had even called her a few times yet it always ended with her giving you a honestly lame excuse

the third to fourth week hurted the most, lara had fully ghosted you, she didn't respond at all, you knew she was active on her socials i mean she posted every week — she always saw your texts she just chose not to open them, you got desperate for even a drop of her attention, it got so bad to the point you tried contacting her other mutual friends

by the second month you had started to accept what had happened — you didn't wait for a notification from her user anymore, you didnt expect a miracle to happen

lara breaths heavily as she back reads on your chats — it took all of her courage not to call you during all of this, she tried and tried making herself believe that you were just a waste of time that you were just a distraction

yet every little thing makes her remember you, late night trips?, your favorite food, even your scent — it all comes back to you

maybe you were meant for eachother just not in this time not in this moment — she sighs massaging her temples, her lips pressed into a thin line as longing creeps into her

she types then deletes again, types and then deletes — maybe it was too long?, too casual? — lara over analyzed her text to you, until she just typed something simple

a notification pops up on your phone, it was 2 am who would be awake in such hour?

my laru♡: hi, how are you?

your heart sinks, everything you've worked so hard for has come down to this moment, moving on, crying even denial that she ghosted you

y/n: I'm good.

lara's mood shifts, you really are gone — the period on the end of the sentence and the proper grammar, screamed over her

my laru♡: I'm sorry, i miss us

you wanted to respond saying you do too, you missed hours and hours of taking with her — laughing at the stupidest things ever, god even that stupid nickname she had in your chats

y/n: me too.

yet as reality dawns on lara, its all a sick cycle — she could never date you, because of her career, she just wanted to pretend that it didnt matter just for a few more minutes

[zain-syscourse]

okay, its a new day (for me), ive slept, im about to eat, im gonna address what happened last night with my fresh eyes now that im more regulated.

the purpose of this post is to sum up why i, personally, am upset for the people who either didnt get it or are just now seeing everything and dont want to dig through a million reblog chains to figure it out.

before anyone comments that i shouldnt talk about it anymore or that im disrespecting the syscourse brackets blog: this isnt about them anymore. this is about me and dia, our reblog chains, and what personally affected me. im allowed to talk about what dia personally said to me that upset me.

trigger warning: i will be showing some screenshots of triggering/upsetting things dia has said, as well as mentions of suicide baiting, death threats, and self harm baiting.

first of all, im sure we've all seen dia's latest post in the tag sui-baiting. ive reported it to tumblr because it breaks TOS. regardless of if it's serious or not, you aren't allowed to post shit like that for obvious reasons. it's upsetting for others to see, and it's putting a burden on others to somehow stop you from attempting over the internet.

second, the death threat dia posted. the "i hope you shits die." i still stand by the fact that it was a death threat, i still dont understand why some people are acting like its "not that bad," it goes against tumblr TOS and was very upsetting to read.

speaking of things dia said that were upsetting to read, these screenshots were direct reblogs to my posts, quite literally directed at me:

these screenshots are what i was referring to when i said dia was blaming me for it's irl actions and what other people were sending it, guilt tripping me because i called out it's behavior, and it was self harm baiting to try and make me too uncomfortable to address it's behavior.

the series of reblog chains that these screenshots are from and still in-full on my profile if anyone wants to read them in full context and draw their own conclusions. the posts i deleted last night were a few of my own standalone ones that were just me rambling while triggered.

this was all very upsetting to read for me. ive been in syscourse here and there over the years, but this was the first time id experienced one of dia's supposedly frequent mental breakdowns in the tag. i wasnt aware that everyone else had some sort of protocol of ignoring it and letting it run it's course, and i have very strong rigid morals, so naturally i addressed the inappropriate behavior as i saw it.

as the interactions escalated, i had both dia and ecos posting negatively at me. dia in a full mental breakdown, and ecos twisting the situation to defend it in any possible way, refusing to acknowledge the way dia's posts were affecting me or the fact that it was violating tumblr's rules.

i dont think this was handled appropriately at all. i was attacked and blamed for dia's actions, i was made to feel gaslit and like i was at fault for addressing the glaringly obvious not-okay behavior in the tag, and im still being blamed for wanting an apology.

i really appreciate the people who have agreed with me and acknowledged that dia's behavior wasnt okay, and that im valid for being triggered by it, because it was saying triggering things directly to me.

in conclusion: i dont think i was in the wrong for initially calling out dia's behavior over the sophie poll, nor do i think im in the wrong for wanting an apology from dia and ecos for how they proceeded to speak to me and treat me. do i think ill get those apologies? probably not. but i believe i am owed them.

everyone is capable of getting better and improving and growing, but from what ive been told, dia has done this frequently and for a long time. if it wasnt me bursting the bubble to call out it's behavior, it would be someone else. this had to be addressed eventually, however messy it turned out, because obviously ignoring dia and letting it have it's public breakdown doesnt change things or help it get better.

- zain & james

[wishing-well-art]

Hi! In all fairness i see where you're coming from, I'm a big disliker of most arcane criticism because they tend to ignore the good stuff about the show, this post was more of like a "damn thats a shame" after the arcane hype/hate died down, but thats on me, i should've tagged my criticism better.

When I mean they never sit down and talk to each other, i mean they never really unpack stuff like why Jinx really saw Silco as a father figure and the good and bad he did for her, and Vi understanding Jinx's mourning. Or the hard times Vi went through in that prison cell and how that affected her mindset when she joined the enforcers or kept trying to push Powder's identity onto Jinx, or Vi feeling like her identity was lost after not being able to protect her family, or Vi admitting why she resented Jinx so much for taking her sister away, stuff like that. Essentially what is the core conflict of season 1.

The verbal fight in the mines was good relief for them, but it only scratched the surface of strictly the enforcer stuff and was kind of just sister-ly name calling (ie chickenshit tricks, ill kick your ass again). The girls are extremely emotionally constipated and a serious (non-lethal this time) verbal fight where they unload their very personal negative feelings from season 1 might have worked for them: Vi calling Jinx her biggest failure, Jinx maybe yelling back that Vi actually failed her, the deep cuts. But because so much has happened and they still inherently need each other they would go lick their wounds and come back together to talk about what they really meant.

Yes Vi saw Jinx's body being taken by Silco and she could've been two and two together after the fact, but it would've been cool to see that conversation where Jinx actually tells Vi what was done to her and her side of the story.

Jinx did realize Marcus took Vi away, but she didn't know that Vi was literally around the corner running back. She didn't know Marcus had to drug her and drag her away right when Silco found Jinx. Vi never told her her reasons for leaving and walking around the corner, which is what I originally meant, she never found out Vi was just trying to cool off. Jinx could've easily thought that Vi walked away and kept walking away until she started doubling back and Marcus jumped her, which isn't the same as 'Vi walked around the corner so she didn't hit Powder again and sat there for a little bit before she saw Powder in danger and came sprinting back and was knocked out."

I wouldn't call demanding a serious drama have a comedic character or demanding an action movie have a 10 minute paint scene a reasonable comparison because the characters in arcane do talk a lot and show emotional moments, the tea party scene was perfect in that regard. I don't think they needed to have all the emotional conversations in the world, they are again, very emotionally constipated and it would have been out of place, but they did had a lot of down time in the commune, and it would've been the perfect arena to have one big heavy conversation. Honestly I think they could've just expanded the conversation about their mom to also include everything else from season 1 they needed to talk about. Those little moments of "you actually want my opinion?" were so good, because it's the girls being vulnerable but not opening up all the way, which is in character for them. And I think handfuls of moments like that, where they're being awkward around each other and trying to quietly accommodate for the other sister until either it all boils over or they just start talking and can't stop; that would've been perfect. But the big thing about the commune conversation ("we could stay here") is that the problems they were working through also needed to be about what went down in season 1.

The core of season 1 is that they didn't understand each other. Time and imprisonment separated them for too long, and with everything else happening around them they miscommunicated, and that had fatal side effects. But season 2 is about them coming back together, but in order for that to happen they needed to talk about what went wrong in season 1, and it would've also made the ending for them hit harder in contrast, because it would mean they did at least get that closure in being able to finally understand each other in some semblance.

The season was also very different, with them leaning into the arcane, magic aspects of the show a lot heavier, with the multiverse travel and Viktor's jesus powers, going over their trauma in a quiet safe environment wouldn't have felt out of place because honestly season 2 isn't really a tragedy anymore. It has tragic moments, but a good amount of endings felt triumphant for the characters, even if it was self destructive. Plus the commune wasn't really safe anyway, so it would make those quiet moments hit harder.

This really is mostly just a list of "man it would've been cool if that happened" stuff though, overall I liked the season

The one thing about Arcane season 2 that I'm still a little bit mad about is that Vi and Jinx never really talked. They had a total of 2 conversations in season 1, one where they got interrupted and Jinx was never able to tell Vi what happened in the 7 years Vi was in prison, and the second where Vi still had no clue what was going on. But that's fine, miscommunication that befalls tragedy, it's intentional, and character-wise Jinx wasn't in that kind of headspace for that to happen. But then season 2 rolls around and at no point in season 2 did they sit down and talk about what went wrong, why they made the decisions they did, and try to understand each other. We never even got a loud fight where they unloaded all the negative feelings they had towards each other, or a quiet painful confession that they felt like failures towards each other. They had so much down time that we should've seen all that, the fight in the mines and the talk in the commune should've been that, but they only barely skimmed the surface. Did Vi even find out about Jinx being injected with shimmer? Did Jinx ever find out why Vi left her that night? No, they didn't, and that's just such a shame.

[ferretteeth]

$5 say they cast Peter Dinklage as Bijaz in Dune part 3

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Hi!! Your Cherik is so good and gorgeous 🤩🤩 If you don't mind wanna try to draw some Fall of X Cherik please?

thank you so much !!

i have a couple of ideas relating to the fall of x period specifically since theres. A Lot i wanna play with, so i hope this lil thing may be a satisfactory start :]]

and the obligatory bonus:

[royaldollybox]

... you know, atleast I didn't hit the picture limit... that's something, right?... like at what point is it just a summary of the episode?

uuhh...anyway... The heart killers text posts part 9 ft. ep 9

Part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 10

[graye]

DAY 2: Romance

Consistency??? Sorry I've never met her, she sounds nice @owl-bones

[livemedown]

Slowly convincing someone to come move to Tumblr is all well and fun but my friend is gonna get blasted by my autism. You wanted to post ocs but behold: that fucking toilet I won't shut up about. This is Tumblr. You cannot mute me. I will taint your dash so help me. Your best choice is to block me now. There is no escape.

[b-blushes]

thursday quest - no physical therapy today - make and eat lunch sooooo early but i can do it!!!!! - get ready for wedding - attend wedding! yay! (: - decompress well when i get home <3

[vomitgulper]

Biggest pet peeve in the fucking world is when some dumbass makes a post being like "this movie is AWFUL AWFUL but also ive never seen it and never will" we just talking about films we havent watched now???? Shut uppppp stop trusting every bit of second hand info you hear

[snekdood]

if ppl telling you "jewish ppl in israel were already kicked out of other countries and have no where else to go" makes you feel compelled to call whoever said that a "zionist", I really just dont think you give af about jewish ppl's lives quite frankly.

if your "free palestine" means "getting rid" of all jewish civilians in israel I think you're probably just a heartless asshole.

[littleporksausage]

Remember how tumblr was full of tips and advice for texas snowstorms and uk and canada heatwaves

And even uk flooding

I remember

[coulsonlives]

I just had to share this video because holy shit, it hits the nail right on the head! So well spoken. This stuff needs to be circulated more, esp with the growing number of people thinking they have this because of misinformation, or just outright faking it.

[arts-i-enjoy]

AHHHHHH

[hegrowth]

unpopular opinion but having to look up info about fcs before I use them is tedious and depressing. I think being informed is important but like. I want to use an fc because they vibe with my character, not because I agree with or relate to or like them, you know ? but one wrong fc pick and I'm being canceled for supporting a shitty person. :x

[tinytimism]

yknow those posts about how grief finds you randomly when you don’t expect it. well today grief found me in a church pew