#possibly schizo

[meowticta]

just so you know,

i love you people who are in remission of their psychotic disorder/symptoms.

i love you people who don't have a diagnosis yet

i love you people who are psychotic and loud, and have no filter while talking and ranting.

i love you people who dont suffer from any shame when they're psychotic and say ''weird'' shit that only them understand

those who do not care if people think they're weird, annoying, ''dangerous''

those who are violent, who get restrained, those who are in psych wards, the so called ''crazy and insane''

those who have more delusions than hallucinations, or the other way around.

those who, will never recover, those who dont take meds nor therapy

the schizoaffectives, the schizophrenics, the schizophreniform, the brief psychotic disorder ones, those delusionals, to anyone who had or has a psychotic episode because of drugs or other reasons

i love you, you're not a bad person, you have 0 control of what your mind thinks or does, your condition is stigmatized, but i love you, you can take up space, you can talk about your experiences, and that will be valid, and cherished, i know people are afraid of you, of what the mind can do, of what they don't experience, but never believe that you are a bad person because of your psychosis,

be loud, be scary, be dirty, be ''embarrasing'' be ''gross'' be everything, or nothing at all, be proudly mad.

let people know about you, you have a voice, you have stories to tell, and your stories? will always be accepted by the right people, you won't be judged by the right people

this one is for the schizos, for the psychotics, the delusionals.

shoutout to you

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

men are so disappointing in so many ways i know i shouldn't expect most of them to be dignified humans but it's crazy. i need to get over this guy he's making my sense of self crumble even faster than it usually does. like he's just so unlike my usual type and i'm pretty convinced he's stupid and slutty and not discerning whatsoever. not to mention boring like i know even if i did have a chance with him he wouldn't Get Me at all so it's a bigger waste of time that usual and i'm actually pretty tired of men in general and definitely tired of parasocial relationships because they drive me insane for months typically. thankfully it's only been like 2 weeks if that at this point. idk. sigh. i know literally virtually nothing abt him as a person and ofc liking any public figure who you know nothing about is only setting yourself for heartbreak and disappointment to begin with bc you already know nothing is gonna come from it but. in a way it's almost addictive to become obsessed with someone and not be looked at with the same level of scrutiny. i don't think anyone in real life would ever try to get to know me as much as i try to get to know people who i'll never even meet. lmao! but that's the thing... idk... i have a lot of love in my heart and it consumes me and i reject my pride usually when i'm into someone. i want to know more... like VORACIOUSLY consuming anything with information about them involved simply because i think knowing someone is a very deep form of love but of course you can never truly know anyone. not completely. and that scares me i think which is why it's always probably been easier for me to never really TRY to be with anyone or have anything real. idk. this turned into me psychoanalyzing myself real quick but SOMEONE needs to bc i need to understand what the fuck is wrong w me.

[schizospec-culture-is]

schizospec culture is wondering if there's anything to the idea of seasonal psychosis because all of your symptoms get 1000x worse in autumn and winter, and significantly improve over spring and summer. like, they're never gone per se, but when it gets to that time of year... it's bad.

and yet you can't find anything about it anywhere! only a single thread on an obscure website where people talked about their symptoms getting worse during certain seasons, and that's it.

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[queer-pagan-witch]

One day I will learn, that just because the bottle is low, does not mean I need to finish off the bottle.

[cartoonscientist]

I didn’t personally vibe with any of the current schizo pride flags, so here’s a schizophrenia/general schizo spectrum flag I made just using the colors in the word “schizophrenia” (mainly from the “sch” “ren” and “a” since they were the brightest) according to my synesthesia; anyone can use or reproduce it without credit, just try to remember this post as a source in case someone asks where it’s from

feel free to edit the color values too because I realize it’s very... intense but I just wanted to be accurate to the hues

[shouts-into-the-void]

Really wishing that every time I went to therapy the therapist didn't just focus on my family problems and actually did literally anything about the visual/auditory hallucinations and inability to leave my house

[kittyobsessionn]

Insane/unstable wife/gf type images in my phone rn

[llamasgotoheaven]

People have this weird tendency due to social media recommending fear mongering content lately, to assume that anybody who's an asshole or engages in toxic or abusive behavior is some sort of an intentional evil mastermind. Bruh, most pathological behaviors are literally just people being asinine donkey fools or ignorant.

Example: gaslighting can be sort of reminiscent of lying due to shame in a sort of panic, but lying due to shame over a mistake you made because you can't own up to your fuckups is not gaslighting.... It's lying.

Gaslighting is a pre-meditated, or malign decision to disable someone and confuse them, making them less able to trust their own decision making and perception, leaving them vulnerable to control, abuse and exploitation. It's rooted in evil, it's a way to humiliate, dominate, control and subdue someone.

this is literally not how it works at ALL this is what i mean when i say words are supposed to mean things

[obsessivelooter]

I feel the need to say some deranged shit,let me just think of somthing

We should stop growing aubergines(eggplants (if you wanna spit in the face of perfectly good food by association)) entirely. They're icky, ruin any dish chair a part of, and smell like ass. At this point, I'm convinced that their continued existence is only due to that fucking emoji, and people being psyopted into liking them by big farma. They should all rot in hell and if hell doesn't exist we should make one

[schizospec-culture-is]

questioning schizospec culture is, i am 15 and have been experiencing mild psychosis for over a year now but as of the last 6 months i have been almost completely isolated and after spending the week with my friend i realised how bad my psychosis has gotten (i hallucinated an entire conversation with my friend on the last day and didnt realise until they asked me what i was responding to) and when i did research i realised i have every single negative symptom of schizophrenia and every positive one to varying degrees. could anyone with schizophrenia give their input? is it possible i am developing early onset schizophrenia?

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[dgaftilwedie]

i used to be friends with this one guy who got kinda famous in a specific fandom for a (super unfunny) joke and when i tell u he was one of the most off putting individuals i've ever talked to?? h

e wasn't trans but he made a bunch of really weird jokes about trans people, like he couldn't get trans people out of his brain. he also claimed he wasn't racist because he "ate black pussy" before WHICH IS SO WILD BECAUSE LIKE?? WHAT?? THAT'S LIKE SAYING UR NOT RACIST BECAUSE U HAVE BLACK FRIENDS BUT WEIRDER 😭😭 he was also really fatphobic and claimed it was bc he's fat, but i've seen him before and he very much was not. super weird guy.

he also made a bunch of goofy allegations about people. like he would call people groomers all the time. but in my personal experience, he would bring up nsfw topics all the time?? i just know if i'd turned 18 before i stopped being friends with him he'd try to say some whack ass shit about me when he was the one being a freak in the first place 😭😭 like he claimed some girl groomed him because HE ASKED HER ABOUT A SEXUAL TOPIC AND SHE EXPLAINED IT TO HIM??? LIKE BRO WHAT THAT ISN'T GROOMING THAT'S EDUCATION WHY WOULD YOU ASK IF YOU DIDN'T WANNA KNOWWWWWWW

[cartoonscientist]

[zamusvstheworld]

funnily enough guys, conspiracy theoriest are not your fucking enemy.

[trans-axolotl]

idk i think a lot of people sort of build up schizo-spec diagnoses in their head as this example of a "clearly biomedical disease that is the scariest possible example of mental illness that is always a crisis no matter what." and i'm not going to sit here and say that schizoaffective is always pleasant to live with, or pretend that it's something that I can manage perfectly-it does cause me distress a lot of the time, and makes some things very difficult. but for me, psychosis is by far not the most difficult symptom i have to deal with, compared to some of the other things that have brought me distress. And yet it's always the symptom that is reacted to with the most fear, confusion, and disgust by other people. I hate it when people generalize psychosis as always and inherently and forever a crisis, and ignore the fact that everyone who experiences psychosis is going to have their own experiences, perspectives on how it impacts them, and that treating psychosis as a super scary, inherently dangerous symptom is incredibly stigmatizing and prevents us from receiving support and care from our communities.

idk. i just really wish people would realize that for some people, psychosis can sometimes be a neutral or even positive experience (i've had some incredibly lovely psychosis experiences), and that by positioning psychosis as a "super scary disease that has no quality of life" and only offering carceral solutions, it perpetuates a pattern where we get continually pushed into harmful treatments. Instead of a situation where our autonomy is respected, where we're offered a wide variety of treatments from meds to therapies to peer support like Hearing Voices Network to material community based support and where we're allowed to define our own experience of psychosis based on how it actually affects us. like, i don't want to deny that psychosis is often distressing for many of us--but I do think we have the responsibility to evaluate where we've learned about psychosis, what societal messages we've internalized about psychosis, what kinds of knowledge about psychosis do we not have access to, and just actually think in depth about how our biases impact how we communicate about psychosis.

[lixzwithapen]

[boydyke]

when people respond to trans women who have something to say about what they've experienced or witnessed as a trans woman with "haha what do any of these words mean. anyone in this thread smoke weed. none of these words are in the Bible. wow sometimes I stumble across a corner of the internet I never thought possible. op go touch grass" it is 100% coming from a position of privilege rather than whatever holier than thou high IQ normalperson stance they think it is. you haven't seen this shit before because you have the privilege to not be targeted by lolcow forums or called a paraphile for being into bdsm. trans women, women of color, autists & schizos etc--especially if many of these intersect--often don't have the luxury to be ignorant to transmisogyny and racism and ableism, or to not be targeted by neonazis for simply having a blog, their ""neet status"" is irrelevant to these things actually. this shit isn't exclusively online for them! many irl queer groups end up dominated by privileged white transmisogynists maybe because that's the status fucking quo. maybe be fucking nice for once and listen to things women have to say. the amount of meanspirited replies I've seen towards women talking about shit they've personally experienced recently is grating. it costs nothing to be nice and mind your own business. you don't have to act like underprivileged groups are hysterical psychotic freaks who care too much.