#possibly schizo

[meowticta]

just so you know,

i love you people who are in remission of their psychotic disorder/symptoms.

i love you people who don't have a diagnosis yet

i love you people who are psychotic and loud, and have no filter while talking and ranting.

i love you people who dont suffer from any shame when they're psychotic and say ''weird'' shit that only them understand

those who do not care if people think they're weird, annoying, ''dangerous''

those who are violent, who get restrained, those who are in psych wards, the so called ''crazy and insane''

those who have more delusions than hallucinations, or the other way around.

those who, will never recover, those who dont take meds nor therapy

the schizoaffectives, the schizophrenics, the schizophreniform, the brief psychotic disorder ones, those delusionals, to anyone who had or has a psychotic episode because of drugs or other reasons

i love you, you're not a bad person, you have 0 control of what your mind thinks or does, your condition is stigmatized, but i love you, you can take up space, you can talk about your experiences, and that will be valid, and cherished, i know people are afraid of you, of what the mind can do, of what they don't experience, but never believe that you are a bad person because of your psychosis,

be loud, be scary, be dirty, be ''embarrasing'' be ''gross'' be everything, or nothing at all, be proudly mad.

let people know about you, you have a voice, you have stories to tell, and your stories? will always be accepted by the right people, you won't be judged by the right people

this one is for the schizos, for the psychotics, the delusionals.

shoutout to you

[schizospec-culture-is]

schizospec culture is wondering if there's anything to the idea of seasonal psychosis because all of your symptoms get 1000x worse in autumn and winter, and significantly improve over spring and summer. like, they're never gone per se, but when it gets to that time of year... it's bad.

and yet you can't find anything about it anywhere! only a single thread on an obscure website where people talked about their symptoms getting worse during certain seasons, and that's it.

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[queer-pagan-witch]

One day I will learn, that just because the bottle is low, does not mean I need to finish off the bottle.

[cartoonscientist]

I didn’t personally vibe with any of the current schizo pride flags, so here’s a schizophrenia/general schizo spectrum flag I made just using the colors in the word “schizophrenia” (mainly from the “sch” “ren” and “a” since they were the brightest) according to my synesthesia; anyone can use or reproduce it without credit, just try to remember this post as a source in case someone asks where it’s from

feel free to edit the color values too because I realize it’s very... intense but I just wanted to be accurate to the hues

[shouts-into-the-void]

Really wishing that every time I went to therapy the therapist didn't just focus on my family problems and actually did literally anything about the visual/auditory hallucinations and inability to leave my house

[naggingatlas]

you dont think its possible to feel like youre having a heart attack from a deltarune animation set to living fucking tombstone wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong

[kittyobsessionn]

Insane/unstable wife/gf type images in my phone rn

[obsessivelooter]

I feel the need to say some deranged shit,let me just think of somthing

We should stop growing aubergines(eggplants (if you wanna spit in the face of perfectly good food by association)) entirely. They're icky, ruin any dish chair a part of, and smell like ass. At this point, I'm convinced that their continued existence is only due to that fucking emoji, and people being psyopted into liking them by big farma. They should all rot in hell and if hell doesn't exist we should make one

[dgaftilwedie]

i used to be friends with this one guy who got kinda famous in a specific fandom for a (super unfunny) joke and when i tell u he was one of the most off putting individuals i've ever talked to?? h

e wasn't trans but he made a bunch of really weird jokes about trans people, like he couldn't get trans people out of his brain. he also claimed he wasn't racist because he "ate black pussy" before WHICH IS SO WILD BECAUSE LIKE?? WHAT?? THAT'S LIKE SAYING UR NOT RACIST BECAUSE U HAVE BLACK FRIENDS BUT WEIRDER 😭😭 he was also really fatphobic and claimed it was bc he's fat, but i've seen him before and he very much was not. super weird guy.

he also made a bunch of goofy allegations about people. like he would call people groomers all the time. but in my personal experience, he would bring up nsfw topics all the time?? i just know if i'd turned 18 before i stopped being friends with him he'd try to say some whack ass shit about me when he was the one being a freak in the first place 😭😭 like he claimed some girl groomed him because HE ASKED HER ABOUT A SEXUAL TOPIC AND SHE EXPLAINED IT TO HIM??? LIKE BRO WHAT THAT ISN'T GROOMING THAT'S EDUCATION WHY WOULD YOU ASK IF YOU DIDN'T WANNA KNOWWWWWWW

[zamusvstheworld]

funnily enough guys, conspiracy theoriest are not your fucking enemy.

[cartoonscientist]

[trans-axolotl]

idk i think a lot of people sort of build up schizo-spec diagnoses in their head as this example of a "clearly biomedical disease that is the scariest possible example of mental illness that is always a crisis no matter what." and i'm not going to sit here and say that schizoaffective is always pleasant to live with, or pretend that it's something that I can manage perfectly-it does cause me distress a lot of the time, and makes some things very difficult. but for me, psychosis is by far not the most difficult symptom i have to deal with, compared to some of the other things that have brought me distress. And yet it's always the symptom that is reacted to with the most fear, confusion, and disgust by other people. I hate it when people generalize psychosis as always and inherently and forever a crisis, and ignore the fact that everyone who experiences psychosis is going to have their own experiences, perspectives on how it impacts them, and that treating psychosis as a super scary, inherently dangerous symptom is incredibly stigmatizing and prevents us from receiving support and care from our communities.

idk. i just really wish people would realize that for some people, psychosis can sometimes be a neutral or even positive experience (i've had some incredibly lovely psychosis experiences), and that by positioning psychosis as a "super scary disease that has no quality of life" and only offering carceral solutions, it perpetuates a pattern where we get continually pushed into harmful treatments. Instead of a situation where our autonomy is respected, where we're offered a wide variety of treatments from meds to therapies to peer support like Hearing Voices Network to material community based support and where we're allowed to define our own experience of psychosis based on how it actually affects us. like, i don't want to deny that psychosis is often distressing for many of us--but I do think we have the responsibility to evaluate where we've learned about psychosis, what societal messages we've internalized about psychosis, what kinds of knowledge about psychosis do we not have access to, and just actually think in depth about how our biases impact how we communicate about psychosis.

[lixzwithapen]

[leptonyx-constellate]

btw if you think "fakers" in plural communities are a legitimate pressing problem that needs to be fixed and is actively harming plural communities at large, i really think you should step back and find some perspective. coming from a collective with DID that has been fakeclaimed on many occasions for various reasons, we need you to ask yourself these questions:

(A) who are you accusing of being fakers? what characteristics are you looking for to determine if someone is faking? (B) do you know for a fact that they're faking, or are you just assuming they are because they don't act "plural enough" in your eyes? (C) is there anything similar between you and these (apparent, so-called) fakers that others might use against you? (for example, having too many introjects, having introjects of a particular type/source, having too large or too small of a system, having too much or too little communication between your sysmates, having too much or especially too little amnesia/dissociation (especially if you have a CDD), having certain comorbid mental illnesses (personality disorders, schizo-spec disorders, psychosis in general, etc), having or not having certain kinds of trauma (especially if your system is traumagenic in any way), etc) (D) do you think people theoretically faking plurality themselves are leading to people not believing plurality exists or believing its so rare, or do you think it's more likely that the pervasiveness of fakeclaiming others and choosing not to provide benefit of the doubt is what's leading to people dismissing plurality as something fake or too rare for them to ever be concerned with it?

and finally:

(E) do you think people who are actually faking plurality (who are most likely doing it to get attention or find a sense of community/friendship) will suddenly stop faking because you chose to be cruel to them, or could it be possible that it's more likely that they'll be more willing to listen and change if you're kind and respectful and offer compassion to any true struggles they might have?

[schizopositivity]

Warning to anyone who posts about having a schizo-spec disorder, psychosis or psychotic symptoms openly online:

• it's possible that people will be sanist to you

• it's possible people will claim you are lying

• it's possible people will try to trigger you and make you paranoid

These have all happened to me, so here's some advice on how I deal with that:

• only check that platform when you are in a good headspace

• know that people are doing this to get a reaction out of you because they are sanist and want to see a "crazy" reaction, try not to feed into it, don't reply, ignore it, you don't even have to read the whole thing

• turn off anons if you need to (they tend to hide behind anons)

• block people right away

• delete asks right away so you don't have to see it again

• try not to take any of it personally, some people online don't see us as people, they see us as a label that they want to discredit, trigger or laugh at, they are either ignorant or hateful and don't deserve your time

It's important that we have our voices heard, don't let assholes on the Internet stop you from doing that.

[schizotypal-culture-is]

im a DID system with STPD and it's really disappointing you believe in non-traumagenic origins

if it's not rooted in trauma it is not systemhood. hearing voices isn't the same as having distinct personalities.

‼️ This Is A StPD Blog, Not A System Discourse Blog. Do Not Send Any More Asks About This Or You Will Be Blocked ‼️

Firstly, I’m a DID system with StPD, and I run a blog where I provide information that’s sourced from scientific and medical literature, and I’m disappointed that you refuse to acknowledge that scientifically and medically speaking, non-traumagenic origins for systems are possible, because it doesn’t confirm your personal bias. This blog exists to A.) help form a community around the experience of having StPD (via the concept of “StPD culture”, and what that means for a pwStPD) and B.) educate people on StPD either by providing links to study journals and medical essays, or to explain study journals and medical essays as best I can.

Secondly, what a gross oversimplification of DID and StPD.

A.) I understand that you believe the only way to be a system is through trauma, and due to that belief you’re comfortable stating something as misleading as “DID = distinct personalities”, but, like or not and agree with it or not, it’s possible to have alternate identity states without having DID, and insisting that the only way to have differing and distinct identity states is through DID will leads those who do not have DID to diagnose themselves with a disorder they do no have, because they know they’re a system.

B.) DID isn’t the only way to be a traumagenic system. There’s also: OSDD, UDD and P-DID. And according to the diagnostic criteria, under OSDD 1a, distinct personalities is NOT part of the diagnostic criteria, and that’s what separates it from DID. So your insistence that DID is the only possible way to be a system is already gatekeeping other disorders on the dissociative disorder spectrum.

C.) Implying that DID is the Distinct Personalities Disorder does a horrible disservice to the parts of DID experience that are actually distressing. DID is largely considered a trauma response. It’s part of the Structural Dissociative Disorders, along with PTSD and C-PTSD, both of which have symptoms overlapping with DID (flashbacks, nightmares and night terrors, trauma triggers, dissociation). This trauma response combined with the systemhood of DID also results in symptoms like: negative front triggers, being unable to control who’s in front, fragmented memory, etc. THAT is what DID is. DID is NOT just “distinct personalities”, it’s a trauma response in which the distinct personalities exist to cope with trauma.

1.) Similarly, schizo-spec disorders are NOT just the “Hearing Voices Disorders”. In fact, excluding the other schizotaxic personality disorders, pwStPD are the least likely to hear distinct, separate, individualized voices consistently compared to schizophreniform, schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorders. PwStPD are more likely to hallucinate what sounds like conversions being had in the room over, the sounds or a radio or tv playing, and other “background” noises. I know when I do hallucinate a single voice, it usually speaks a single word (often my name being called) or a sound (coughing or v*m*ting). I have never once been able to have a conversation with my hallucinated voices. They just don’t work like that for me. This isn’t to say that pwStPD can’t hallucinate voices the way the other schizo-spec disorders do, as we can experience brief reactive psychotic episodes, we’re just not as likely.

2.) StPD is known for odd, strange and eccentric behavior more than it is Hearing Voices. Our quasi-psychotic way of thinking paired with ipseity disturbance means the way we perceive and experience life around us Isn’t Fully Rooted In Reality. That may include reacting to auditory hallucinations, but StPD isn’t solely defined by auditory hallucinations. Magical thinking and ideas of reference inform our every day behavior way more than auditory hallucinations do (for the most part, generally speaking, with the exceptions of brief reactive psychotic episodes).

Thirdly, schizo-spec disorders and DID both experience dissociation and altered identity states. Psychotic states are very much an altered identity state that is also marked by dissociation and DP/DR. The psychotic identity state vs non-psychotic identity state may present more as OSDD 1a, with the psychotic identity state not necessarily having its own identity (but may). Also, the Theory Of Ipseity Disturbance states that schizo-spec disorders have a disturbance of the minimal self, while DID, like the other Structural Dissociative Disorders, are disorders of the narrative self, and the minimal self is the foundation in which the narrative self is formed. I’ll not rehash that, since you’re obviously not interested in the scientific literature anyways.

And finally, StPD plurality is going to be different than DID plurality. You’re right, hearing voices isn’t the same as having distinct separate alternate identity or ego states. That doesn’t make one experience any more or less plural. Just because StPD plurality may not align with the DID experience in a 1:1 way doesn’t make it any less real or plural. Not everyone who claims to be a system is claiming to have DID.

You’d think someone with StPD would understand the world is so much weirder than it seems, and not everything fits into nice, neat, easy-to-understand boxes.