#pooklet irl
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
pooklet · 1 year ago
Text
People You'd Like to Get to Know Better
Was tagged by @furbyq!
Last song: I Don't Care (Cobra Starship Suave Suarez Remix) by Fall Out Boy
Favorite color: Pink!
Currently watching: Dimension 20: Mentopolis.
Last movie: The Barbie movie. (I didn't like it!)
Last reading: Just finished Lolita: A Screenplay by Vladimir Nabokov, and started A Glossary of Haunting by Eve Tuck and C. Ree.
Sweet/Spicy/Savory: Sweet! A bitch loves to bake.
Last thing I googled: "lol omg fierce canceled" Was looking for any hard sales numbers that might've leaked so as to explain this TRAGEDY.
Current obsession: Good Omens season 2 has been eating away at my brain, and I've gotten back into Amigurmi and making plarn.
Currently working on: Sims? Editing Cakebread pics. But in general, making a new craft desk out of a hollow core door.
Tagging: uhhhh @lilithpleasant @mrs-mquve @horusmenhosetix @kitteninthewindow and @skulldilocks (I think I already know the answers but I always want to know more about my favorite person. 💗)
20 notes · View notes
esotheria-sims · 8 months ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
Happy Easter to all Orthodox Christians out there! 🐣 I bring you a small cc offering in celebration.
A while ago, two anons asked if I'd be willing to add Pooklet textures to this beard. And I'm glad they did, because it's such a cool, fluffy number! This would be @applewatersugar's 3t2 conversion of Vensuprincess-ts3's Zoltan beard, which was engineered to be slider and anim-friendly - how cool is that?? I used a nice, wiry texture base by Digitalangels for the beard, because beards irl aren't perfectly smooth-textured either. I hope the pooklet colors still come through, tho!
INFO: YA-EM, 3,832 polys. The files are properly named, tooltipped, compressorized, but NOT binned, to allow for better mix-and-matching. Comes in all of Pooklet's naturals (except Flashpowder), Io's Ennead (except Isis), Timebomb, and four greys, including a Salt N' Pepper recolor (see swatch!) Mesh included with thanks, but renamed to fit my own organization scheme. Please watch for duplicates!
CREDITS: Venusprincess-ts3, Applewatersugar, Digitalangels, Pooklet, Io, Hat
Turnaround | Swatch
DOWNLOAD: Simfileshare | Mediafire | Box
Enjoy!~
276 notes · View notes
bellakenobi · 8 months ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
Newsea Sweet Psycho Retexture
Thanks @rollo-rolls for the conversion!
Texture by Pooklet, EA control by Anubis.
Available for females, teen - elder.
Not valid for random. 
Polycount: 13k
I did an alpha edit (because like that it looks like my hair irl), you can have both versions at the same time.
Download: Sim File Share | Mediafire
149 notes · View notes
katsurinssims · 10 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
I mentioned in my repost of my old undercut hair retextures that I would probably make more at some point... so here's some for boys! This time though, they're based on my afterglow defaults for BG hairs, so different hair system, and you won't need any extra meshes for these, no matter what version of the game you're running. Details and downloads under the cut!
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
as a small note, I didn't intentionally name these all 's' words aha, it just worked out that way! this time the inspiration comes from various FRUiTS snaps from the ninties and early naughties, if you spot which ones I used for inspiration, props to you! With the exeption of the skull one, which was inspired by this tutorial from a blogger I used to follow back in the day (when blogs were the thing), so if you wanted it irl... you could do it! ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ
All TM-EM, no meshes needed.
Download Kuru Kids
Buy me a coffee? I have a Ko-Fi!
credits: @antoninko for afterglow base textures, Aquilegia and maxis for other bits of the textures, @pooklet for additional colours as I needed more than just the afterglow customs in the end. Find more afterglow via @the-afterglow-archive!
139 notes · View notes
simsludge · 4 months ago
Text
Tumblr media
Trying to come up with color options for non-defaults is hard. I'm not totally happy with some of these.
And like I knew that green eyes often aren't really green green, but trying to make eyes come across as green as they do irl is surprisingly difficult.
Might scrap having the default texture in there... but it rounds out the numbers.
I do also have them done in Pooklet's unnaturals, but I'm unsure how I'm gonna deal with those. Maybe just have them in the contacts option, idk.
6 notes · View notes
withlovefromsimtown · 1 year ago
Text
Get to know you- Sims Style
I got tagged by @12raben & would like to procrastinate cleaning my entire house for Thanksgiving, so here we are.
What’s your favorite Sims death?
Run With Scissors! It was available on the official Sims 2 site wayyy back in the day & is now located Here (link)
Alpha CC or Maxis Match?
Can't it be both? Realistically this is one of those that just doesn't apply to Sims 2, because almost all of the BG hairs are made of alpha panels & so is the lace on the bottom of the BG silk nightgown. But yes to improved & later-EP Maxis textures.
Do you cheat your sims weight?
If I have a specific outfit I want them in, & the outfit doesn't have a fatmorph or has one that breaks through the top/bottom of the outfit, sure. Until the next time I close the game, at least... adding & fixing fatmorphs is stupid easy, resisting the urge to throw out the clothing & create a whole new wardrobe is very hard. Then I'll cheat it back if I remember the next time I load the game.
Do you move objects?
Yes.
Favorite Mod?
ACR (link).
First Expansion/Game Pack/Stuff Pack?
Either Livin' Large or House Party. I wanna say House Party because that was the one that had celebrities come to your house for a good party, right?
Do you pronounce live mode like aLIVE or LIVing?
I've actually never said the words "live mode" out loud. I could see both being accurate. aLIVE. Like "go live" in software terms, they are software that is becoming operational. Or LIVing... Build/Buy/Live, as the actions that you as the player are taking in the game. I would probably swap back & forth if I was ever forced to talk about it using the words "live mode".
Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made?
Oh nooo... I don't often make my own Sims, but use premades or recreations of Sims from different games... so... Goopy Gilscarbo.
Have you made a simself?
Yep! Sim-Me helps facilitate photoshoots in games that I'm playing, since my house is located outside of time in terms of the game. (Any unpaused action while there is another playable Sim on the 111 Lifa Lane lot is not saved lol). I also like to play around in my Sim house to figure out redecorating & rearranging ideas for my IRL house.
Which is your favorite EA hair color?
(sarcasm) Piss Yellow. (/sarcasm) For real though I like Pooklet colors.
Favorite EA hair?
Tumblr media
M&G stupid anime hair lol. Although I also like a few of the store hairs (link)
Favorite life stage?
Everything but Baby. I'm so glad that Baby only lasts a day in the unmodded game, they're little screaming larval annoyances. I love the little mischievous things that the Toddlers can get into, like playing in the toilet, hugging the pets, & stealing bottles from their siblings. I think the Child anims for everyday activities are sooo cute, like when they whip out the step stool to put away dishes or brush their teeth, or sitting on books to play Chess. Teen Wants can be a bit annoying but they're chaotic in a fun way, like sliding down the stair rails & playing on the fridge door. YA is a good age stage even if college is kinda tedious, specifically because they're super resilient & have a ton of freedom & very few responsibilities. Adult, well, that's most of the game, isn't it? If I hated Adults I probably never would've played at all. Elders, even when retired, can be really sweet especially if you have them in close friendships & group homes - it can be pretty chill to hang out in the retirement home lot for an afternoon watching Sims play Myshuno & Mahjong.
Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay?
Both!
Are you a CC creator?
...If I said "no" would literally anyone here believe me? (Yes. Yes I am.)
Do you have any Simblr friends or a Sim Squad?
Sure do!
Do you have any sims merch?
Official merch? No.
Do you have a YouTube for sims?
I've thought about making one, & have been asked to make one... but not currently no.
How has your “Sims style” changed throughout your years of playing?
I'm more into making neutral & basic things now; I used to be VERY Hot Topic type of vibes. I mean, I still am that way, but most of my Sims are normies because for the most part it doesn't make sense to park Grandpa in the goth club in all of the old ClubCrimsyn outfits, ya know?
Who’s your favorite CC creator?
There are so many it would be hard to list them all! Just the fact that everyone who currently creates CC is still around making things for this ancient game is amazing to me.
How long have you had Simblr?
Over 10 years? I think I got on Tumblr in like 2010 or so, & it was specifically to publicly post gameplay pics to a small group of friends.
How do you edit your pictures?
I crop it in Photoshop & then slap text on it. You've seen my CC preview pics, I'm not doing anything fancy.
What expansion/ gamepack is your favorite?
Nightlife! I mean, come on... Spooky haunted house, vampires, cars, bowling, karaoke, restaurants, & ALSO the goth club? Sign me up.
Tagging: No tags just vibes, if you feel up to it you can join in the fun.
17 notes · View notes
niamh-sims · 1 year ago
Text
Get to know you- Sims Style
@clouseplayssims tagged me. I only play TS2 (never played TS1, only briefly played TS3 and only played TS4 for about 5 mins), so all answers pertain to TS2!
What’s your favorite Sims death?
Death by Old age. I live my Sims to live a long and fulfilled life. But, playing medieval, my more common deaths are 'death by childbirth' (mod), 'death by starvation', and 'death by fire'!
Alpha CC or Maxis Match?
In my medieval game, I use alpha CC. All Maxis items are hidden, so my game is pretty much 100% CC.
Do you cheat your sims weight?
No. My sims start off either 'average' or 'overweight', and how they change is up to them in game. (Can weight even be cheated in TS2?)
Do you move objects?
All the time!
Favorite Mod?
So many! But my absolute faves are the @sunmoon-starfactory suite of sets. They add so much to historical game play, and I would never be happy playing without them!
First Expansion/Game Pack/Stuff Pack?
I purchased TS2 discs going back to 2006.... I can't even remember the first EP/SP I purchased. I do remember hanging out for the release of Seasons though, and rushing to the shop to buy it after uni classes finished for the day!
Do you pronounce live mode like aLIVE or LIVing?
Live like aLIVE. However, the arguments for live like LIVing are pretty persuasive. You build in build move, and live in live mode!
Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made?
I love the Sims I'm making for my Elder Scrolls 'hood. Current fave would have to be Wylandriah, a Bosmer elder!
Have you made a simself?
Never. I'm still on the fence about that one. I do find it a little weird putting other Simselves in my game.
Which is your favorite EA hair color?
Red. I'm partial to gingers IRL. I do use Pooklet colours though, and my fave Pooklet reds are Explosive & Pyrotechnic.
Favorite EA hair?
None of them?! They are all hidden in my game and I use CC.
Favorite life stage?
I am really partial to toddlers and children.
Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay?
Both! I love neighborhood decorating, building lots, worldbuilding, and playing. Currently still rebuilding my DL folder, and can't wait to get back to building and then playing my Elder Scrolls neighborhood!
Are you a CC creator?
Not at all. I have done a few basic recolours, and I can edit objects very primitively in SimPE. I would love to learn, but lack the time and patience!
Do you have any Simblr friends or a Sim Squad?
Not really. There are quite a few Simmers I chat to, either via email, Tumblr DM's or Discords.
Do you have any sims merch?
No.
Do you have a YouTube for sims?
No.
How has your “Sims style” changed throughout your years of playing?
I started with a mish-mash of CC I found on the exchange. Then, started on LJ and fell in with An_nas and Penny Sims, and became very Maxis Match. Then, drifted toward grunge (I miss my grungified Baskerville, it was spectacular!). Then, I took a few years away from Simming and came back fully committed to historical gameplay. My Elder Scrolls 'hood is my 'anything goes' hood, with supernaturals. I also plan an Anglo-Saxon 'hood set in the 800's, and an Anglo-Norman 'hood set in the 1300's. They will both be more 'historically accurate' within the confines of the game.
Who’s your favorite CC creator?
@sunmoon-starfactory, followed by Almighty Hat. there are so many others I love though!
How long have you had Simblr?
My first post was on 26th October 2015!
How do you edit your pictures?
I use Photoshop... Crop, unsharp mask, add border, occasionally add lens flare. I might use a filter if I can find one I like.
What expansion/ gamepack is your favorite?
Seasons.
Tagging @helene2troie, @12raben, @simbury (If you want to do it!)
18 notes · View notes
lilithpleasant · 1 year ago
Text
some sims questions!!!!
tagged by @pooklet ty!!
What’s your favorite Sims death?
oh gosh, okay, tbh, in general idk if i have a favorite, i do like a classic death by old age just because it makes me feel accomplished, lol, but specifically i think it'd have to be the time forrest bonnet died of cardiac explosion the literal second i hit play once i finished building his house 😂
Alpha CC/Semi-realism or Maxis Match?
idk why but i am definitely more maxis match for ts4 and semi-realistic for ts2? it just feels RIGHT to me
Do you cheat your sims weight?
only for my story sims, in the spirit of keeping things semi-consistent between chapters, because i swear sim stede gains weight faster than any sim i've ever played, and sim ed often ends up TOO BUFF from all of his energized swimming 😂 other than that, i do not, i just let them do their own thing. i dont really use too many custom body shapes for ts2, but definitely coming back to it after playing with the diversity in ts4 has been a bit jarring, but also custom body shapes are a lot of work so. idk what the solution is!
Do you move objects?
is this a real question?
Favorite Mod?
HMMMMMMMMMM! i'd say ACR, the shiftable everything mod, and for ts4 of course ye olde wickedwhims 🤭
First Expansion/Game Pack/Stuff Pack?
idk whatever the first sims 1 ep was??? i think? my friend had it and we played it at her house in 4th grade (well, she played, i watched because she wouldnt let me actually play it, lol) and then my parents bought it for me that easter and ive been hooked ever since 😂
Do you pronounce live mode like aLIVE or LIVing?
living!!!!!!!!!! absolutely mindfuck to realize that some ppl DONT pronounce it that way 😂
Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made?
ed and stede in ts4, altho i didn't TECHNICALLY make their bases, but i have done sooooo much to them and i am so attached they are like my children
prob val in ts2, lol, i am big on fandom sims i guess!!!!
Have you made a simself?
yeah!!!!! in ts2 and 4!
Tumblr media Tumblr media
Which is your favorite EA hair color?
uhhhhh, like, for ts4? probably a pink, ofc, lol. natural colors??? idk no preference!
Favorite EA hair?
this is so specific idk i mostly use custom hairs tbh
Favorite life stage?
young adult/adult in ts4 and adult in ts2 for sure
Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay?
oh both! i love gameplay but i also have to have it very aesthetically pleasing, if it's not fun for me to look at im not interested
Are you a CC creator?
yeeeeeee @ailuromancys
Do you have any Simblr friends or a Sim Squad?
@angelapleasant @dirk-dreamer @simper-fi are all sim friends who i have formed lasting irl friendships with 🥰 altho i am soooo bad at keeping in touch with ppl anymore and i feel so bad abt that, they are still my favorites
@pooklet is top tier as well!!! 😊
@emperorofthedark i know it's been ages but you also!!!!!!!
Do you have any sims merch?
...no?
Do you have a YouTube for sims?
oh my god, no. the way i alternate between normal speed and triple speed should be outlawed, i cannot imagine it would be any fun to watch AT ALL
How has your “Sims style” changed throughout your years of playing?
i think mostly i've gotten better at taking and editing pics? gos was pretty much my introduction to sims cc (with the exception of some sailor moon skins/heads i had for ts1 that my dad had to help me install 😂) so that had a HUGE influence on my style that i never really strayed from. i think i toned it down a bit in ts4, but at my core, i am still very neon/grunge oriented
Who’s your favorite CC creator?
@pooklet @skulldilocks currantpotpie @angelapleasant @dirk-dreamer @leaf-storm @simmer-until-tender do you see a theme here?
How long have you had Simblr?
2010 i think! holy shit.
How do you edit your pictures?
for tumblr i crop them to 800x500, use the honeycomb psd (with a vibrance layer added) and then use pooklet's sharpening action
What expansion/gamepack is your favorite?
HMMMMMMM. this is a tough one. possibly seasons for ts2? ts4 i cannot even say, because there are so fucking many lmfao it's disgusting 😂
taggin whoever wants to do this!!!!
4 notes · View notes
katsurinssims · 1 year ago
Note
Also as a complimentary soft hime hair cut I did Peggy 2834a a few years ago!
which is notable as being the hairstyle I currently have IRL (thin hair not withstanding)
excited to see what you come up with Goat 💖
hi :), I really like your hairs of the sims 2, and I've been searching for a himecut hair for so long, I would be so glad if you make one, pls<3(if my english sound bad, its cause its not my first language, sorry)
Hello! :) No worries at all - I understand you. I did have to look up what a hime cut was though!
To the best of my knowledge, these would be some options for hair meshes to retexture. Let me know which one is your preference?
Tumblr media
This is Rose's Special Gift 1 Set 2 / Mesh 168-2
Tumblr media
This is Donate 82 / Mesh 146, which is kind of close?
Tumblr media
Raon's F011 could work
I looked at some Peggy hairs, but none seemed to be quite right.
Feel free to take a look around the Sims 2 Hair Database (thanks @krabbysims!) and let me know if you see a mesh that would fit better.
74 notes · View notes
entropy-sims · 5 years ago
Photo
Tumblr media
Today should be my simblr anniversary since one year ago(28.06.2019) I've posted a hair conversion here for the first time(it was anto's karen). I wanted to make a few conversions  by that date but unforeseen troubles IRL have prevented me too much. However I have something for you. This is Cazy's 188 4to2, child-elder, comes in io's edit of pooklet's v3, color palette here. Greys linked to blacks. 20k polys. Original ts4 here.
Turnaround Download - simfileshare (alternate)
224 notes · View notes
simper-fi · 8 years ago
Photo
Tumblr media Tumblr media
sliders y’all
103 notes · View notes
pooklet · 1 year ago
Note
I love your pastel goth references! Do you consider yourself a part of any subculture?
I married into goth.
Serious answer: I think of queerness as a subculture distinct from mainstream LGBT acceptance, and queer is how I most strongly identify. The distinction to me lies in queer's intentional rejection of rigid compartmentalization of sexual and gender identity. It is impossible to sanitize queerness, and things that cannot be sanitized cannot be monetized. Which isn't to say that subcultures can't be monetized (if they couldn't there would be no Hot Topics), but with capitalism being the dominant social structure worldwide, a group with goals and ideals that aren't profitable is inherently a subculture, imo.
Btw, thank you for asking, anon! I hadn't ever rly thought abt this before but it was cool to research different opinions on how subcultures are defined.
29 notes · View notes
enjoyingmypain · 5 years ago
Photo
Tumblr media
Yeah, I kinda disappeared for a while... again :P Too caught up in work and IRL stuffs, but I have some stuff for you in the spirit of giving and all that. This is @tekri‘s Cranberry, converted to TS2, and recoloured in @poppet-sims‘s naturals and @pooklet‘s neons. Neons are binned.  Download here!
133 notes · View notes
nekosayuri · 6 years ago
Text
Sorry for the really long reply!
Tumblr media
@princesspiratecat replied to your photo: So, inevitably, instead of playing Skyrim, I’m...
I used to mod Skyrim. I actually replaced the default hairs to make them like Pooklets. Modding Skyrim is fun, once you get the hang of it. I’m interested to see what you’ll come up with :)
Ohh, did you Pooklet them or replaced the hairs altogether? :O I downloaded extra hairs with this nice, rough texture (in the sense of medieval looking) and all of them are obviously Sims originally XD I like it the way it is though.
Modding Skyrim is kinda fun, but the potential for mod conflicts is huge! And so many other issues you’re not even aware of until they throw themselves in your face out of nowhere?? lol
So far, I got into SSEEDIT and edited out sexist, unnecessary comments from some mods (replaced with bath talk... some people in Skyrim really need to bathe more often) + fixed misspellings. Oh, I also tried my hand at scripting and failed miserably. Then I went ahead and just used some of the default scripts, and managed to make it so that when you eat soup/stew, you get an empty bowl back! + it also takes a bowl to make soup/stew (though I use CACO so it’s actually 4)
Right now, I’m mostly learning the CK through fixing up Navmesh and Landscape conflicts. I don’t think I’ll share any of them cause I... erm... used the original ESPs for many of my edits... xD But I could think about making some into ESL patches if things turn out really well. :D (and if there’s interest, of course + the mods are open permissions.)
Wow I clearly had a need to talk to someone about this! Truth is, I’m not really involved in the Skyrim community (yet?) and I don’t know anyone who plays it IRL, so I had no one to be excited about modding to, so it’s nice to find some people in the Sims community to share this with. I wont make it into a regular thing though (and if I do, I always tag as Skyrim Adventures.)
4 notes · View notes
pooklet · 1 year ago
Note
I see a fellow chronic sleepy bitch disease sufferer. A fellow Narcoleptic Sims 2 player?
Tumblr media
Chronic insomnia/fatigue in my case! Yet may we all find shelter under the Sleepy Bitch Disease umbrella. 🙏
16 notes · View notes
pooklet · 2 years ago
Note
Hey pooklet!!! How did you discover you're non-binary? Did your friends go well with it?
Tumblr media
Hey anon!
Short answer: "Girl" never felt right to me, heard about nonbinary as a concept in my 20s on a random livejournal, exactly one of my close friends was cool about it and she's now my wife, lol.
Much, much longer answer under the cut.
I know it's a trope to say "I always felt wrong in my assigned gender" but in my case it's true. For me it was very confusing because I do like a lot of the femme stuff that kind of gets pushed at you when you're AFAB. Pink and dolls and dresses and long hair, stuff like that. But the idea that those things made me a "girl" just never sat right. I remember being like 13 and asking my first boyfriend "would you still like me if I wasn't a girl" and he was like "ew no" and it made me feel so deeply sad for reasons I couldn't quite explain. There were a lot of little instances like that, but that one really sticks out in my mind.
I first ran across the concept of being nonbinary on a livejournal community that I don't think had anything to do with gender? I don't remember where, it was some fandom or hobby thing. Like, I don't think it was this exactly, but it was something as silly as someone posting pictures of their BJD and being like "I decided this doll is nonbinary!" Something like that. And I was like wtf and immediately went down the rabbit hole. Which was much shorter like 12-13 years ago than it is today, but what I found made me go "oh shit, this is the thing, huh?"
Around that time, I was also starting to make more of an effort to get involved with Native American communities and studying the history of my specific nation (Oneida). I was raised by the white half of my family so it wasn't something I really got to experience growing up. And in doing so I learned about being Two-Spirit, and even though that's not how I identify per se (there's a lot of debate around exactly how you define being Two-Spirit and who has access to the label, etc.) it felt sort of like, idk, permission? Like, "this is part of my cultural heritage, it predates the gender binary, I'm allowed to not be a girl."
But it wasn't an all-at-once coming out sort of thing. I kinda floated it at the people closest to me, like "how would you feel if I wasn't a girl lol wouldn't that be crazy lol."
One of my two best friends at the time was very resistant to me not being a girl, us not being best girl friends, who had the sort of romantic-Victorian platonic-but-intense girl friendship. So we ended up having no friendship at all.
The person that I was dating at the time was outright hostile to the idea. Abusively hostile. And the thing about it was he (pronouns at the time, don't know if he's changed them, not going to look him up to find out) had also just come out as trans. He/him agender. And when I repeated that same question that I asked my 13-year-old boyfriend "would you still love me if I wasn't a girl?" His response was something to the tune of "I guess it's fine as long as you still have a girl's body." Which was a wild thing to hear from someone who was also AFAB. Weren't too long after that we broke up.
My other best friend @skulldilocks, maybe you've heard of her, she was my oasis. She never judged, she was curious and interested and so kind about it. The second I told her "I don't think I'm a girl" she was like "yeah, okay, you would know best" and that was it. She was one of maybe three people in my life (the other two being my cousins) that didn't tell me I was wrong or pushed back at all. She called me by my chosen name, used they/them pronouns, corrected herself when she got it wrong, and that was it. It was just, idk, easy. And it made me feel like maybe this wasn't some forbidden, shameful thing that I knew was true about myself, but I still couldn't tell anyone.
So I started to assert my gender and pronouns in online spaces. I was really clumsy about it at first, and my terrible experiences with the people that I had been closest to had me feeling very defensive, expecting a lot of pushback. Aaaand, I got it!
Some of it was definitely my own doing, like, getting upset with people who misgendered me out of confusion rather than active hostility, but there was a big faction that went right to work on the trolling. Most of it was contained on simsecret at first, with lots of secrets as well as huge threads of people saying that I was lying, calling me slurs, discussing my genitals, claiming to know me personally IRL and to have insider knowledge that I really was a girl and I was just doing all of this for attention.
And then it spilled over from simsecret to GoS, to my livejournal, to every part of the community that I engaged with. I went into lockdown mode. Deleted my livejournal, changed my email, turned off commenting or messaging where possible. I left the community completely for about a year and a half. I still played the game, still shared pics with @skulldilocks but I had no intention of returning.
But then stuff just kinda changed. It didn't have anything to do with me, it was just that more people were starting to identify outside the gender binary, so it stopped being so stigmatized in the community. Forums started cracking down on people being shitty about gender. And some very kind people sent messages to me through @skulldilocks saying that they hoped I came back some day. So I did. I still get the occasional hateful anon message but at this point there's literally nothing left that they can say to me that I haven't already heard a decade ago.
And there is definitely more kindness and love, now. Turns out if someone treats you like shit, you can just leave! Tell her to give you back your Sailor Moon manga and to never call you again! Kick him out of your house and take custody of the cats! Excise the assholes, curate your online space, don't get involved in bad faith "discussions" about parts of yourself that you know to be true. Who you are just ain't up for debate.
Also, if you find someone who is your oasis, who never presumes to know you better than you know yourself, who can answer the question “would you still love me if I wasn’t a girl” with an emphatic “fuck yes,” get your shit together, tell her you love her, and marry her. 10/10, highly recommend.
59 notes · View notes