#pocd awareness

[demonized-ocd-culture-is]

Undiagnosed ocd culture is believing your faking because your looking for an excuse for the constant unwanted pedophilic thoughts (that have made want to kill myself for over 4 years). And that your just a creep.

I have no access to healthcare, and haven't for over a decade :)

you’re not faking for experiencing this anon ^^ i experience it too (if i’m understanding this correctly) ^^

[werethropy]

"mental health" advocates when they see someone with Z-OCD or P-OCD (suddenly they don't care about mental health anymore and just want to jump to conclusions to hurt the people they swore to help)

This also goes for psychotic people who have "scary"/"disturbing" reactions to certain things (screaming, rocking back and forth while holding their head, mumbling about seemingly "crazy" or "inane" things, defecating themselves, scratching their skin, lashing out, wetting themselves, etc.)

Everyone wants to be on the right side of history until they realize mental health advocacy includes everyone and not just the 'prettier' disorders that they oh-so-love to cherrypick and romanticize.

Everyone loves the idea of disorders being less stigmatized than they are today, but will, in the same vein, clutch their pearls when they hear a person with POCD sob about how they feel like a disgusting human being about having uncontrollable, EGO-DYSTONIC, INTRUSIVE thoughts/images about children. They will call a morally incorrect person psychotic, they will say things very reminiscent of "I'm scared that the EVIL PSYCHOTICS are able to roam freely 😰😰😰😰" with a helluva lot of padding, they will make "schizo" jokes whose whole purpose was to trigger psychotic people because it's funny.

It's disgusting how your beliefs stop at the people who's disorders don't fit into your perfect little box of what's acceptable for a fucking illness or not, as if they have any damn control over it.

[demonized-ocd-culture-is]

this is a prime example of how misunderstood POCD is. It’s fucking disgusting that people will see the word “pedophile” and refuse to learn anything else about it.

i am NOT a pedophile. pwPOCD are NOT pedophiles. thank you to my friend who fully supports me and posted this response i drafted up.

should make your following list private so people don't see you follow a pocd account so you don't get attacked. unless you're into that. then by all means, go ahead

dear anon,

begging you to actually do research before you ASSUME what POCD is just because of what the acronym stands for.

pwPOCD are NOT pedophiles, and you would know that if you even tried to learn what it is. It’s having extreme, repeating, and TRAUMATIZING intrusive thoughts about the fear of being a pedophile. Stop being an ableist douche and do your research.

sincerely,

the owner of said blog. @pocd-culture

[mr-bl00sky]

To everyone out there struggling with ocd, whether it be pure-o, relationship ocd, iocd, pocd, zocd, harm ocd sexually taboo ocd, otherwise taboo ocd, ocd surrounding numbers, checking ocd, or any other form of ocd I forgot to mention, I LOVE YOU. Please don’t forget that. You aren’t alone in your struggles. Everything is going to be okay, nothing is going to end in catastrophe. You are going to be okay. I love you all so much, you’re all so strong just for being here.

[regretfulrain]

If you compare POCD to Pedophilia I hate you.

If you compare ZOCD to Zoophilia I hate you.

If you compare IOCD to liking incest I hate you.

If you think that intrusive thoughts are desires then I hate you.

[ur-fav-has-ocd]

kaede akamatsu has p-OCD

- req by anon . . posted by angel mod 🪽

read pinned/rentry before interacting ^^

[starfishinthedistance]

tw // suicide mention and HOCD/POCD/etc mention

Saw someone say "if you have HOCD or POCD, or OCD about racism/sexism/etc you should never share that publically!!! There's no reason to!!! It's disgusting and triggering for victims/POC/women!!!"

So all the people with taboo OCD themes who kill themselves because they think they're the only person in the world who has ever experienced those thoughts and it must mean they're a terrible person aren't a good enough reason?

You're allowed to be uncomfortable during those discussions, you're allowed to not want to be around for them, especially if the topic concerns you directly (for example CSA survivors with POCD, women with misogyny OCD). But you DO NOT get to tell a group of mentally ill people with a high rate of suicide that they're not allowed to spread awareness about their disorder.

Discussions about POCD does not encourage people to harm children. Discussions about sexism/racism/homophobia OCD does not encourage sexism/racism/homophobia. But they shit y'all are saying encourages ableism against OCD, and it's fucking deadly.

People die from the shit you spread about OCD, and you don't want people with OCD to correct that information? Do you want us dead or something?

Your comfort does not come above people's lives. OCD awareness is suicide prevention.

[cannifreak]

PZI-OCD

- : a combo flag for pw POCD, ZOCD, & IOCD . . .

- : flags and term made by me . . . give credit if reposted . . .

- : transabled/transID people fuck off, this is not for you.

[pocdventz]

Yo. Just call me M. My pronouns are he/him.

This is an introduction post. I suffer from OCD. My obsessions are primarily sexual in nature and mostly center around incest, sexual abuse/rape and p3dophilia. I occasionally also have murderous intrusive thoughts and, very rarely, thoughts about hurting myself by accident. I made this account to bring awareness to this struggle. Many people don’t understand what POCD is, and the tags are mostly filled with shipping discourse from what I can see. I have no interest in participating in this.

I’ll provide a list of my compulsions/rituals to make questions easier:

-avoiding children and family members out of fear that I’ll be attracted to them or act inappropriately

-avoiding women in real life out of fear that I’ll snap and commit a rape

-punishing myself for my intrusive thoughts

-checking multiple times to make sure I’m not aroused from my intrusive thoughts (and occasionally tricking myself into thinking that I am)

-avoiding sex entirely

-replacing “bad” thoughts with “good” thoughts (ex, trying to replace an intrusive thought involving children with a thought involving an adult, trying to replace an intrusive thought about rape with a thought of consensual sex)

-repeatedly bathing myself after having intrusive thoughts

-breathing and blinking certain ways

-refusing to help my child family members (ie, diaper changes, potty training, getting dressed)

-ritualistic self harm to distract myself from intrusive thoughts, to punish myself for having them, or to “stop myself from hurting somebody”

There are a lot more, but these are the main ones. I tend to obsess over accidentally abusing somebody, forgetting that I abused somebody, my experience with CSA turning me into a pedo/rapist, if I’m sexually attracted to my family members/children, having an inappropriate interaction without realizing it, or that I don’t actually have OCD and am just in denial.

Please remember that this is just my personal experience and not the end all be all of OCD. Please feel free to ask me questions about it. Like I said, I’m trying to bring awareness and help people understand what it’s like since a lot of people don’t understand. I will also be venting on this account. The vent tag will be my username. If you only want information on OCD, feel free to block the tag. I’ll add to this later but for right now, welcome to my account. Remember that your intrusive thoughts do not make you a bad person and that POCD =/= p3dophilia. I will try to tag my posts with tws when I can. Peace.

[serial-unaliver]

the worst and saddest reaction to pocd I see is if a mother with a baby or young child talks about it. because people are DISGUSTED. except this is a situation where awareness is very important, because mothers with pocd may isolate themselves from their children due to (false) belief they are a threat. it's a really fucking sad situation for someone to be in and the last thing you'd need is someone confirming your disgust towards yourself...and I think the association with 'woman/mother' with 'kind/nurturing' only worsens the stigma because it appears that you're a disgrace to women and mothers if you have mental health issues that appear to contradict the traditional narrative. there was one mother who discussed pocd on tiktok and the hate comments were mostly from other mothers saying she shouldn't be able to call herself a mother or whatever. anyway I guess this post turned into a rant about gender roles and gendering of mental illness lol but overall shoutout to anyone who does openly discuss this stuff regardless of backlash because there will always be people with the same experience who can quietly feel less alone

[demonized-ocd-culture-is]

POCD is the most hellish thing. I stay away from children because I am terrified of hurting people. I’ve gotten used to the thoughts and that scares me even more so. I hate them so much I don’t want to do anything that’s in my head but it won’t leave me alone. I just want my head to be quiet.

your thoughts aren’t you , you’re stronger than that <3

[purrfectdollie]

I hate it when ppl r surprised I have

INTRUSIVE

Thoughts about p*dophilia and stuff like that. Apparently violent intrusive thoughts are fine but when it’s anything remotely s#xual people piss themselves over it 😐 it’s so fucking annoying

ok so p-ocd is pedophilia ocd , it's when you have intrusive UNWANTED thoughts , about being a pedophile , this does not make you a pedophile , having UNWANTED thoughts about pedophilia does not make you a pedophile

those thoughts are UNWANTED . you can not control them , and you don't want them .

[the-goya-jerker]

have you considered going to fucking therapy?

You know I'm a real person, right? Like I'm not just A Funny Blog. I'm a real freak with a real life. I go to the grocery store. I spent a lot of time outside with my dog today just enjoying the sunshine. I made myself a quesadilla for lunch. I'm looking forward to an upcoming show premiere.

My life doesn't actually revolve around sex or erotic art.

Also, you're aware that sexual proclivities are not something any therapist worth their salt would discourage? I've taken classes of sexual psychology. What I do is not sexual dysfunction and therefore requires no clinical treatment.

I'm only even bothering with you for the sake of my followers so I have an excuse to say this: it doesn't matter what you get off on.

Sexual dysfunction requires the harm of someone else or distress caused to yourself. People who get off on LiveLeak videos, people who get off on rubber duckie collections, people who enjoy get off on white women buying wonderbread do not need therapy for this.

No matter what you get off on, it truly doesn't matter unless there is harm done to someone. If you have sexual thoughts that distress you, I encourage you to seek help. Whether this is POCD, or a conflict between your religious values and your porn habit. A good therapist can offer you the support you need.

But, genuinely, this idea that I'd need therapy for rubbin' one out to Goya is ridiculous. It is a symptom of a sex negative society, and it's pointless.

I hope you can learn to get over your fixation on what others get off on, anon. Maybe consider therapy. <3

[regretfulrain]

OCD is One of the Scariest Conditions I Can Think Of.

Even as far as I've come I feel ashamed to talk about certain intrusive thoughts since I worry that people will see me as something disgusting, I've had it happen in the past where someone thought I was a pedophile because I opened up about my POCD and fear of pedophilia. It still has me shaken up all these years later even after she apologized.

I worry talking about my OCD to the point that I use VPNs and incognito in order to search up OCD topics. I worry constantly about my friends suddenly posting about me and trying to say my intrusive thoughts are hidden desires.

I reassurance seek constantly to the point I annoy others but I can't help it a lot of the time. I need to make sure they don't see me as a monster.

An added layer to it is my trauma, I fear turning into my abusers often. I fear that I'll lose control and assault someone, I fear that I have and just don't remember it. It's a terrifying way to live.

OCD is genuinely so scary just because of the intrusive thoughts but then in come compulsions. I have to make sure numbers go up by fives, I have to be sure my door is locked, I have to scrub my hands if I feel gross, I have to google reassurance, I have to check myself to make sure I didn't do something horrible. I have to do these things or something bad will happen.

[crippleculture]

POCD Awareness Flag

A flag I designed for people with POCD. The yellow represents happiness, something we all want in our lives and will be able to achieve despite our POCD, the white represents being untainted by our thoughts, even if we may think we are, the green represents hope in our future and our recovery, and the blue represents truth and knowing that our true selves are not defined by our thoughts.

I included a blank version as well as a version with the hourglass symbol from here

[anachronistic-falsehood]

Ok before I answer any more asks, I feel like I need to get my full thoughts out there. This might be a bit long, but I have a lot to say.

First off: I am very impressionable. I always have been and I always will be. I am well aware of this. When people tell me things, I often believe them at face value. I’m trying to get better at that, which is why I tried to stay neutral this time around when everything first came out. Then I removed myself from the situation for a couple days, came back to it today, forgot to beat my hyper empathy into submission for ten minutes, and found myself almost believing him one hundred percent. I almost forgot about his first response, where he lashed out and threatened to sue people over this. I also tend not to focus on situations like this often because it’s really bad for my POCD. I am bad at this. I need to preface this post by saying that.

I don’t support Forever anymore. I can’t, not after everything that’s happened over the past few days, especially after seeing his original reaction, which was to get mad and threaten to sue and to brush it all off as just twitter drama. And he still brushed it all off as twitter drama in this most recent stream. He didn’t even acknowledge how old the alleged victim was, which means a lot of people who only knew of this through his streams don’t know that he flirted with multiple girls as young as 13. He said it was just jokes, but he did privately message at least one of these girls and meet her in real life, even if it was within a group of people. Things can happen even within a crowd.

There had to have been more things that happened behind the scenes for all of his friends to suddenly drop him. Whether it was some kind of proof that he was aware this was wrong as he did it, or if he lashed out at the other ccs for initially unfollowing him when this all came out, I don’t know. But he handled this very immaturely in his first response without even looking into the issue, and I don’t feel right supporting him anymore.

Still, and hate me for this if you want, I can’t help but sympathize with him a little bit. I know, I know, but I was a shitty person when I was a teenager, and I’m constantly paranoid that things I’ve done or said will stick with me forever or come back around to bite me in the ass. Hell, I have done and said things when I was 17 that would get me dogpiled on twitter if I was a cc. I do understand why he was upset. Knowing that he has mental health issues because of repeated twitter hate mobs does make me feel sorry for him in that regard. Just because being exposed for past actions may have been deserved this time doesn’t mean that excessive hate was deserved every single time, nor is it deserved for every cc who has fucked up in the past.

However, he was very immature with his initial response, and him pushing this off as just a twitter cancellation is enough to tell me that he does not quite see that he was in the wrong. He keeps saying that he’s matured and that he’s better now, as if that alone is supposed to absolve him of any kind of responsibility. I think he handled this wrong, and I don’t want to support him anymore.

As for q!Forever, I know he has a lot of similarities to the cc. That will be too hard to look past for a lot of people, and if you don’t want to engage in content that includes him anymore, that’s well within your rights. I still love q!Forever despite that, and I personally will still consume content that includes him, and I don’t want to write him out of the story of the smp. We can do the same thing we did for c!Dream and basically adopt him as our own oc. q!Forever can be our character now if we want him to be, and we can still acknowledge that Forever put a lot of work and thought into his character and appreciate what he did for the smp while not supporting him as a creator anymore.

And finally, I also don’t like the way that this entire situation was handled in general by the fanbase. The person who did this (as far as I’m aware) was dedicated to going after ccs for generally trivial things. If they wanted justice for this, why not bring it up before now? Why not before he joined the smp? And the victim didn’t want any part in this as far as I know, and yet people went after her demanding comments on the situation. Twitter kept celebrating the ccs dropping Forever like it was some fun party, just like people have been doing for the whole Dream situation. Twitter hasn’t handled this with any sort of tact whatsoever, and many of us here on tumblr (myself included) have been more invested in arguing and over correcting our own actions and phrasing when some biased people bring up invalid points to actually step back and take a break.

We’ve all been on the defence from each other. People on here have criticized each other’s views, invalidated other people’s experiences, and thrown insults and names at each other like this is a playground fight instead of a serious situation. The situation is over. Let’s just breathe.