#actual intrusive thoughts

[l0vesickfool]

"I let my intrusive thoughts win"

HA HA OH DID YOU?

So you killed your pets? Had s e x with a family member? Screamed a slur in public transport? Scooped out your eye?

No? then S T F U PLEASE!

[tortuah]

Intrusive thoughts fucking suck I'm probably gonna have to spend today avoiding my family again

[leafyztar]

Yuh

June 27th

6:01 PM

The innerworld

Well, I still have this one that I stole from the kitchen.

I have to give it back at some point... but I can always get more from Robot Flower's store. And people know me - they won't really mind (care at all?) that I'm getting new knives.

It's simple, Leafy. Evie comes back when you get hurt. Evie comes back when you're in danger. Sharp things are dangerous. You need to get her back. Sharp things will get her back.

Danger gets her back. Sharp things are dangerous. She'll come back if you get hurt. So get hurt and she'll come back. Get hurt. Get hurt. Be hurt. You deserve it, anyway. No one will stop you. Get hurt. She'll come back. Get hurt. You'll help everyone. Get hurt. No one cares, anyway. No one will care if you get hurt. You'll help people by getting hurt. Getting hurt helps. Get hurt. Help. Get hurt. Be useful. For once in your god-damned life, be useful. Get hurt. Help bring Evie back.

It stings less this time. Actually, it feels nice. Doesn't it feel nice helping? Doesn't it feel nice getting what you deserve? Doesn't it feel nice knowing no one cares? You can do anything, Leafy. No one cares.

It stings less knowing no one cares. You can get as hurt as you want, and no one will stop you. No one notices. No one cares. Keep getting hurt, Leafy. You're helping everyone by getting hurt. Don't you love helping? Help some more. Get hurt. Get Evie back.

World over one, Leafy.

[wyrm-with-a-why]

A comic about grudges, intrusive thoughts and hatred from hurt

[starry-eyed-lord]

Me: *thinking about how I can move all my toes independently because it's funny*

My brain: Snap them off. Grab the little one, snap it to the side, rip it off, and eat it.

Me: What the fuck

[thecharliechip]

Can we please destigmatize intrusive thoughts?

Intrusive thoughts are not random impulses you get, such as randomly yelling or touching something random, random things you want to do without thinking about the long-term consequences, or actions that you can resist.

Intrusive thoughts are disturbing thoughts that you do not want; they're often thoughts about hurting people or other disturbing subjects. Often, they can be violent, sexual, and possibly illegal. They may not even be thoughts about actions, just a disturbing piece of information. They are called intrusive because they intrude on your regular thought process. You don't want them there but you can't get rid of them.

[slugass]

oh that’s my brain saying horrible bigoted shit again

i did not ask for this

[wolfinlavender]

I wish more people were more educated about OCD. I don't even tell most of my friends I have it, because so many people think it means I like things neat, and how am I meant to tell them

"no, it actually means that my brain convinces me that if I don't place my cup down Just Right, my whole family will die"

or "no, it actually means that when I'm doing the washing up, I look down at the knife I'm cleaning and can't stop imagining pushing it straight into my chest".

People don't really want to talk to you after that, I find, and it's because people have no fucking idea that that is what OCD can actually be, not just being "a little annoyed because things aren't tidy".

[aoeability]

The joke is that I'm afraid of myself

[meimeikyu]

does anyone else get intrusive thoughts like in the form of daydreams? like sometimes ill get the kind most people talk about being like thoughts but a lot of the time what ends up happening is ill get vivid daydreams about doing horrid things and i hate it. im wondering if it manifests like that for anyone else

[beenovel]

Ok I’m having a slight mental breakdown about the sun the last couple days (idk what’s happening but every time the sun touches me I get these horrible intrusive thoughts like “I’m not wearing sunscreen, my skin is going to peel off my body, I’m going to get melanoma and die of sun cancer”) so to reassure myself and spread awareness here are the signs of melanoma and when to get it checked by a doctor:

[webdoiis]

Paralyzing intrusive thoughts

Like bro let me do my dishes

[wyrmvents]

I hope he kills himself.

[leafyztar]

yuh

June 25th

2:52 pm

The innerworld

... it still hurts.

In a way that I don't feel unless I think about it.

The stress toy is gone. Maybe that's for the best.

We have knives right? We brought one back from yoyleland. I remember. Knives are sharper than the toy - maybe they'll be more effective.

It felt kind of nice. Being hurt. It felt righteous. It feels better if I imagine I'm a separate person hurting me. It makes it feel more justified. Not like it wasn't already justified.

...I want to do it again.

Pin would be disappointed in me.

Pin already is disappointed in me. Everyone is. What's one more incident?

But that would be bad. Bad thoughts, Leafy. Stop with the bad thoughts.

But the bad thoughts are helping, right? I love helping. Helping is like my entire thing. If it helps anyone, it's worth it, right? World over one.

World over one. A profit for the world is better than a loss for one.

World over one, Leafy. That's your motto. Prioritize others' health. Happiness. Safety. Then worry about yourself. You don't want to be selfish. Not again.

World over one.

The knives are in the kitchen. No one will notice if I take one.

World over one.

[wyrm-with-a-why]

When the. Memory return so do the instrusive violent thoughts so you gotta start playing as much video game music as possible to shut it out

[fishwanderingforest]

Throwback to that one time where I opened up to a friend about possibly having (actual) OCD and intrusive thoughts and that my thoughts made me do certain actions because if I don't do this very specific action a specific amount of times my entire family will die a cruel death

And the girl I opened up to legitimately went like

"if they actually die then that was God's will and it's his plan"

Like what the actual fuck? It's so so funny to me now but back then I was younger and that sentence fuvking haunted me

Maybe that's why I haven't told anyone about this struggle I have had for YEARS cuz this was the first reaction I got

(I used to think this lil thing I have here will go away , but like I was like 14/15 back then and now I'm 18 so I kinda think it's staying

And I'm not tryna self diagnose but I've really looked into it and I need to give it a name or else I'll go insane)