#pls support my bad financial decisions

[memoryinpolaroids]

just spent $10 on a toca boca pack at 3am, this is a reflection of my mental health.

it's the sugar pink essentials pack, guys i NEEDED IT!!

[superm4ks]

i really don’t mean this as a gotcha or anything!! but maybe helps add context/daniels reasoning. an espn article basically said (so his team lol) that daniel left renault bc the leadership was terrible and the whole organization was run shockingly poorly (so bad that they didn’t even know if they were gonna continue as a team/their future in f1). so i think the mclaren move was just his best available next step “up”

No pls ty for ur addition.🌷I like having these discussions and context always matters. This is just my opinion on the whole thing yk its perspective u can disagree!!. Ik I'm heavily biased because when started watching danny ric was kicking ass in yellow lmfao. Like u said, alpine, or renault at the time, wasn't exactly a dream come true. Alpine has very good engineers, a lot better than most people realize, but their factory is kind of a fl0p and literally the leadership is run super sloppy. In the danny ric era the car itself seemed to have hit its ceiling early on and it wasn't progressing fast enough ((especially before he announced he was gonna leave after that it was sailing upwards which like ok I get the covid thing and information was difficult hindsight etc etc if u wanted to make that decision u had to sh00t in the dark but ... Why not invest a just lil bit more time in this team that is very clearly investing in u.)). But yk they are A factory team, and they did build a competitive car. Thats not nothing we cant just ignore the car and be like oh but they are a lil icky like no😐 the car is the most important thing. The car had potential. And after Ocon came in the setups were stabilizing and they were having strong weekends and learning a lot. About the 'they didnt even know if they were gonna continue in f1' thing, which its true, cud have had a much bigger impact than I realize, but honestly bro to me its just like French team heritage like Renault was always involved in some type of bs that means they have to leave because they like committed a crime in 1980 or whatvr. Cyril, and Renault, wanted to build around Danny ric and they made that super clear all the time ((cyril literally got booted for failing to do so.)). Now what did mclaren offer that early? What did they promise that wud have materialized in a 'step up'? How did he look at a midfield, customer team, wid a driver like Lando and a boss like Zak, in a grid thats operating under a new cap, and thought that was gonna be 1. a better environment than he had 2. a better car ((the new merc engines were promising but again it’s the same risk regarding how the car is gonna be built)) 3. a garage that wud support him in case the car failed 4. a teammate he cud easily outmaneuver for feedback. Like no. Mclaren had been courting him since rbr because they wanted an experienced vet landito could play wid and, imo. Which is worth what it is. Danny ric picked an easy jump that was financially lucrative and the other aspects just didnt matter sm

[a-spell-a-rebel-yell]

March for the future

hello!!! as always i'm late for the March post because it's already April 3rd! yay! also pls clap for the title/pun i just invented :) originally wanted to use 'March madness' but then realized i used it last year, so :-)

actually nothing much happening this March (see the obvious pattern of my quiet, drama free life?) and i'm really glad to be honest. the reason for the title is just that i'm still on the journey of doing something i can't disclose what yet (the same one i mentioned on Jan post) but it's been good/okay!

highlight for this March is definitely the start of Ramadan! favorite month of the year easily. my workload is lessened, loads of day-offs, and in general just the best time of the year. so glad to be able to spend even more time with my family, especially my mum and dad.

the more i get older the more i realize 'seemingly minuscule' privileges like having my parents as my main support system or coming from a middle to upper class family plays a veeery big role in determining my future. i'm not saying if you have best friends as support system instead or having less than upper income is bad or won't land you in a good place, it's just an observation on the mental/physical health outcomes i've seen from various start points.

i mean, ideally, regardless of other factors, parents should be a person's mast... to support the sails and lets the wind to propel the ship forward. they also should be the ones providing financial aids until the child has finally grown into an adult and can stand on their feet, stable and secure. in reality, it's not always the case, and this is heartbreaking. i salute the people who found solace and anchor still in their friends, or even in themselves.

i think this post might be yet another appreciation post for my parents because without their careful guidance i probably won't be writing this down. they literally shaped and mended my way of thinking and never for once their advice hasn't succeeded in helping me out of tight spots or extracting the life lesson out of every failure i went through. my mum and dad’s neverending supply of comfort. everything i need and it’s given without asking. i can tell absolutely everything and they will try to understand, no judgement whatsoever. it’s the transparency and willing to meet at the common ground between me and my parents that i will make sure i’ll do the same with my children. i’m the very definition of my parent's daughter through and through i guess hehe

my belief is that if you are one of the lucky ones with these privileges and boost, is to humbly acknowledge them and use it to its fullest potential... this is common sense i know but oh well. you've probably seen others do otherwise lol

again another point of reminded to not! sabotage! yourself! by making rushed decision and never settle for less. i think i'm kinda glad i overthink a lot and always take what i deserve for the hard work i did, it saves me 90% of the time! literally don't care whatever people say, if i don't value their presence/opinion then it's 100% possibility their words mean nothing to me.

might sound like a super villain on that last sentence but i genuinely do not care and i'm saying this not with awful intention or menace, but i just can't find time/space for things that do not matter. i have my own life to take care of, so why should i bother with others haha

but yes, as i quote from Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, Dumbledore said, "indifference and neglect often do more damage than outright dislike." and i wholeheartedly agree. when you no longer appreciate and ignore someone's existence, it hurts the most. because when you spew hate, technically you still spent time and breath to do, so it's slightly ‘less painful’ in my opinion haha

so yep. but rest assured i'm not mean! just trying to live a drama free, happy life. it does reduce my stress level, so i suggest you do that too. don't think much of the people who don't deserve your time and headspace. will do you good, trust me.

anyways, happy Ramadan to my Muslim pals! see you in next month's post :)

[myjunkisyuzuruhanyu]

Opinion on people wanting to donate to yuzu to finance his practice live streams?

This is absurd...I thought I heard wrong when I saw this was a discussion...

I don't think Yuzu needs any financial support for his YT channel or his living.

Do ppl really think he is that bad of a business man that he needs his fans to donate to him? We talk about a man that donates millions of dollars to his hometown and homerink...how is financing Yuzu even a discussion?

Yuzu doesn't even take any money for his autobiographies for himself, all is donated to the Sendai rink. And he could monetize his YT stream easily and as fans calculated he already could have earned 50k USD with his current videos and subscribers without any membership just by clicks and views. We don't even know if he has monetized his YT account yet.

A skater of Yuzu's calibre earns 10k+ USD for each ice show he participates in, I could even imagine that he gets more for it as this is a usual salary high level popular skaters get and Yuzu surely tops this in popularity. He also won prize money for every competition he entered. These are just some of his earnings to give you an example of how much money he makes. On top he has sponsors like ANA and Citizen, both very well known companies. (don't take my word on exact numbers, I read them somewhere but don't have the sources atm)

Yuzu is for sure one of the richest skaters on this planet. He doesn't need the money of his fans and most importantly he didn't ask for it.

The discussion came because Yuzu said he would need to pay for the copyright of music and that it's expensive. I don't think he meant he can't afford it, just that he needs to figure out a way and didn't pay for it atm which would make ppl able to sue him and also take the video down. I am sure he only said that because he didn't want his video to be blocked in countries for copyright issues and also "White legend" was a suggestion by ppl around and he may not have thought of using this music beforehand and so decided to play it safe. Who knows what was going on for this decision to be made....it was definitely not a suggestion to pay for his channel. If one day he needs money from his fans, he can activate membership for the channel as long as he doesn't do this I see no need to pay Yuzu directly.

A man that donates this much to others and has sponsors, advertisement deals and is paying managers, security guards, rents a whole rink for himself to use and donates millions is definitely not in need for financial support.

___

There are skaters who really need money to be able to finance their careers, especially many Ukraine skaters have started GoFund me campaigns to train abroad. Pls if you have money to spend give it to them.

I do a separate post for skaters who have GoFund me and maybe you want to help them.

[muffindaddystyles]

Hi, could you pls write something about Y/n finding out she’s pregnant and she decides not to keep the baby. Like, maybe Harry and y/n are not married (not that you have to be married to have a baby, it’s just a suggestion) and maybe Harry gets kind of mad at the beginning but then understands why she doesn’t want the baby. In every fanfiction they always end up keeping the baby, yes it’s cute, but babies take a lot of your time, they are expensive and sometimes annoying. Maybe it’s not the right time for them to be parents!! Make it extra angst pls

A/N: I agree with you, honestly it's okay for women/partner not to want kids in a relationship.

Warning: Mentions of abortion and angst.

//

Y/N just came back from one of the sleepovers of her bestfriend. It was fun, no offence but every food-ly item there made her sick to her core and atlast she ended up throwing. Ofcourse, all her girlie-bestie were there to give her a back rub, hold her hair for her, made her chamomile tea and most importantly did a serious talk to her in their pillow fort while sipping onto their hot bevy.

When Y/N told them she's been feeling like this from goodly two weeks they all gasped making Y/N's nerves jumble furthermore —--- what they advised her next flew over her head as she kept on poking her finger through the loops of her crotched cardigan, "Huh?" She hums innocently tucking her loose hair back.

"You could be pregnant. . ." Feli told her softly grabbing her hand, "Perhaps, could be sick too." Y/N scoffs diverting her eyes somewhere else and all her friends sighed in utter sympathy for her.

Y/N doesn't want to think about it at all. No way! This could happen. It's not right. It wouldn't be fair to anyone. She knows that the worst's been waiting for her as it hits her that her periods are late.

"We can find out, though . . ." Feli slides the offer cautiously to her and when Y/N shook her head in rejection everyone insisted because they care about her. So, they ended up taking the test and it indeed came out as positive now Y/N's a crying mess cuddled with her friends as they assured her that it's gonna be alright.

"I don't wanna go home . . Can't face, Harry." She whimpers. Her heart beating wildly at the cluster of assumptions and thoughts. What she'll do now? What will happen to them? What if their decision wouldn't be same? What if he'll leave her?

"You've to love, Nia will drive you home yeah? Talk to him, I'm super sure he'll understand, he's been so supportive of you since you guys met." They all hugged her warmly before departing her off and Nia told her to call her in the morning walking her to the door.

When she enters the whole house has been dimmed to mellow light just mere instinctive noises of telly buzzing and when she pads inside she's met by the most adorable sight of Harry lounged over the couch one leg dangled over the floor and his neck craned in a bad angle; it seems like he fell asleep waiting for her and Y/N was about to retreat when he stirred up calling for her name.

"Pet?" He tries to open his peepers rubbing them with the back of his hand stretching out like a lazy cat, "You look devastated pet, what happened? Were ye'cryin' baby?" She stays silent taking in large breathers nibbling onto her lower lip. He scoots aside patting the spot beside him to make her sit and grabs her jaw to see her properly.

She looks down lip wobbling as she struggled to utter the sentence, "Harry . . ." She sniffs and he nods caressing the corner of her lip, "'m listening my love –- promise it's not somethin' scary." It is for her.

"I'm pregnant." Time ticks by and it feels like the air has densed to the point her lungs stopped functioning. His thumb, it halts in their loving to her and his breaths hitches in his throat glossing his eyes with lack of oxygen or joy? She can't diminish.

He cackles breathily as if he's hallucinating and then gasps out of the epiphany, her heart shatters into million pieces for giving him fake beacon of happiness when he hugged her tightly to his chest.

"Jesus. 'M so happy darlin'!" He squeaks into the crook of her neck bouncing his knee in excitement and she pushes him away shaking her head, "No, no, no — Harry, I don't want it." Her voice wavered as her eyes held plead for him to understand fisting the hem of his sweater out of anxiousness and Harry feels like someone snatched his grounds, numbness sets into his toes from the distress that's bolting shut his heart chambers.

"Wha –-- what? But we talked 'bout it darlin'." He stammers baffled at her descion. He's too sensitive and all over the place right now, his mindset's isn't capable of doing something that's best for them and maybe it's because of all the images of his own lil baby in all the corners of his home, it would be such a blessing to have one wouldn't it? His conscience screamed at him.

"We did — " She says but he cuts her off, "Then why?" His own voice breaking and she clears her throat to pull some courage. His weakness makes her weak too.

"Let me speak." He nods curtly at her to continue.

"We did. Yes, I want kids with you, Harry nothing will be more beautiful than that but . . . but 'm not ready now, financially, mentally and physically." He stands up at this pacing back and forth massaging the furrowing lines at his temple. At his closed off and cold demeanour Y/N sobs throwing her hands in air.

"Would you speak somethin'!?" He turns in a snap. His eyesblooshot lips quirking up into a bitter frown, he's outraged and been burning from inside but doesn't want to dump it at her knowing it would hurt him more than it would hurt her. He wouldn't be able to forgive himself if he'll break the heart of his most precious human and the person who's been with him through thick n' thin.

He jeers furiously irritated at him and her, "What's there to speak? You've already made up ye'r mind, I've no say in it. Though, you know that 'm enough to raise our baby and could take care of you at the sametime." She grits something under her breath and he squints, "What?" His accent thick and gruff.

"I'm saying you're being a total, asshole!!" She tries not to yell at him groaning into the throw pillow.

She wants to kick him in shin when he just shrugged carelessly, "Okay."

"Trust me Harry not everyone's a rich millionaire like you!! I told you I'm not financially stable to have a kid and you rubbed it in my face, do you have any idea how your words were a jab to me!!" She wants to have an equal share of money in raising her kids, to give them the idea that in this household none of their parents are inferior or superior in bringing them up and she'd love for Harry to take extra care for them but his ruthless words made her feel so small and empty pocket infront of him for the first time.

She didn't notice until now that tears are dripping down his throat. Regret, remorse and guilt evident on his face but he wouldn't apologise and she's well aware of it. Wish she could hug him and kiss him to calm him down but he caused equal damage to her too.

"I'll go to clinic, in the morning." She mutters leaving him pooled into sorrow and the pricking shadow of telly while he cried to himself silently.

If it's the end. Then it should be a better one.

//

His boots click against the hard tiles getting loud hushes from people in waiting. He ducks down panting hopelessly, slamming his fist at the reception counter and looks at the nurse with furious eyes, "You're here to pick someone, sir?" He nods jutting his lips in attempt to take a good breather.

"Miss Y/N – "

She quickly points at the ward, "There, she might be unconscious at the mo'." He quickly shakes his head running towards it despite of all the stares he's getting from women of all ages.

There she was sitting at edge of bed in a gown –- looking small, defeated and devastated clutching the fabric of it from her knees. Her head perks up at the commotion taking in the sight of a disheveled Harry with a sandwich, vanilla moose, a tinsy plushie and sunflowers tucked under his armpit.

His chin quivers and eyes well up with bulky tears, "I'm sorry." He mouthes to her and she shakes her head with equally glossy eyes. He pads towards her carefully and sits beside her forwarding her the vanilla moose with shaky hand.

"Sorry couldn't get the chocolate one." A tiny sob breaks through her smile, "Don't like the vanilla anyways —" Her meeting his gaze was the ending point for him as he bunches his angel in a hug, smushing his face into the crook of her neck with little sniffles.

"It was very shitty of me." He admits tightening his arms around her waist and she calms him by rubbing his back, "We both weren't at our best last night." She whispers and he nods.

"I don't think you're any less than me baby, rather you're more stronger person than me in every way -- didn't —-- didn't wanna hurt you, promise. I love you so much for some different descion to tear us apart." His thumb runs in circles against her shoulders and she cups his face to look at him properly.

"Forgive me, please."

"I did bug —- the moment I realized you're a human being with emotions and feelings that could tipple over at their worsts. You've dreams too and I'm so sorry I wasn't able to fulfil them at the moment."

"You don't have to, yeah? No more apologising. We'll have a family when we both are ready." He kisses her temple, stroking her head affectionately and she bathes in that warmth.

"We could buy the chocolate moose on our way back home." He quips wiping his eyes with the back of his hand.

A teasing smile breaking through his caring persona and she grins, "Shut up." scooping some of it but he takes the tiny spoon from her feeding it to her himself heating her cheeks with shyness.

.

[dobbiamo-capire]

Budget cap gate from italian press

As always, translation under the cut, every mistake is on me, pls share to support my effort in sharing italian press with you all✨

(Picture not related, just an italian meme bc I didn’t want to post a bibitari picture)

“It is not snow in the sun or at least not yet“ the incipit of the Corriere dello Sport article dedicated to the FIA verdict of the complying or not with the 2021 budget cap by the teams registered for the F1 world championship. ‘Red Bull has overdriven, but how much will they pay?’ Is the title of the national sports newspaper based in Rome that emphasizes how the range of seven possible sanctions makes the penalty a mystery that ranges from the simple fine to the reduction of points in the teams or driver classification going through the reduction of the hours to be dedicated to wind tunnel development.

‘The Red Bull in the storm for the counts’ is the title of Corriere della Sera in whose columns it is reported that errors in the counting of canteens and staff diseases were over the budget, even if “indiscretions say that the infraction was larger than the one then actually certified, but was reduced after a long negotiation on the interpretations of some spending chapters. Among these are the salaries of top managers, and in particular that of external consultant Helmut Marko". The Milan-based newspaper regarding the fact that Verstappen's World title won in 2021 can be questioned added that it is “very difficult for the last world championship to be reassigned to Hamilton since it has not emerged bad faith or fraudulent conduct.”

‘Red Bull has gone too far, but will have slight penalties,' headlines Il Resto Del Carlino, which emphasizes the difference between Mercedes and Ferrari in taking an ‘early’ position against the Milton Keynes team that ended up in the eye of the cyclone: "What is left now is understanding what punishment will be imposed on Red Bull (and Aston Martin as well). Since in its statement the FIA recognizes the ‘good faith’ of all competitors, at most a limitation to the developments of the car in 2023 can be assumed. Was it a storm in a glass of water? Almost. Mercedes and Hamilton were wrong to play the ‘scandal’ big box: Toto Wolff proved himself for what he is, a bad loser. Ferrari, on the other hand, comes out better: from Maranello they have always pointed out how the overspending had guaranteed Red Bull a margin of competitiveness perhaps not decisive but significant".

‘Buffetto (little pat) to Red Bull, Formula 1 irritated, the FIA referee whistles’ is the title of Repubblica: “Red Bull guilty but not too much. And there is no certainty of the penalty. The Fia report on team accounts in 2021 comes 10 months after the controversial conclusion of last championship generating only more opacity and inconclusiveness. The Milton Keynes team, last season, has crossed the allowed spending cap, i.e. $145 million, but only in a ‘mild’ way. How mild? It is not known", are the columns of the newspaper based in Rome. ‘If the fine becomes a bargain’ is instead ‘Il Graffio’ by La Stampa that highlights the lack of effectiveness of the regulation in the event of a simple financial fine: “A fine if you pay with expenses? For a Formula 1 team it can be a good deal: I pay what I owe, put it in the budget and find myself with over seven million extra budget caps. A precedent would be created that all other teams could take advantage of. I pay and spend. And the budget cap, after the first year of application, would be filed as a flop budget.”

[nimbus-tatze]

so the lab grown meat post ( https://nimbus-tatze.tumblr.com/post/639887396603920384/ok-so-lab-grown-meat-i-hate-with-a-passion-the ) gained a bit of traction and I decided to adress how to approach agriculture, some of these technologies and how to help out rural communities, thanks goes to @lordofthechips

Mostly I've listed attitudes/mindsets you may want to adopt to a certain degree, depending on your circumstances and beliefs. Anyone can add if they have good advice, but essentially 'get rid of animal ag' ain't it.

Don't generalize and try to look for nuance, especially coming from the locals/experts. Influencers aren't experts. It'd be lovely if more of us try to let rural communities make their own decisions and don't talk over them. That includes online posts.

Instead of always looking for new answers, look for older ones as well. There is a reason many traditions have become traditions. As you lose them through modernization you lose generational knowledge. Not a call for bigotry in case that's not clear.

Agriculture is different in each case. Don't try to make one solution fit every case or judge them if they don't. Hating animal agriculture is one thing, but when you want to get rid of it you include indigenous people, poor people, etc. There is a reason these people continue to do it that way and they know better than you why.

If you have the time/opportunity try to help out on a farm for a while, especially during harvest, feel free to do so. It's a great way to learn, get into conversation with farmers and the community (think about all the people you meet on the way, those working in the small shops you might need to go into to grab a snack etc), and make connections.

Look up CSA farms in your area. Community Supported Agriculture. I don't know how it works elsewhere but where I live we come together as a group, pick a farm, and get into an agreement with them to have an exclusive relationship as consumers with that farm. That means we as a community are their sole customers, but we agree to financially back the farm on a yearly basis (or 6 months and so on, each agreement can be different). So we agree on a price and pay that even if there is no produce/products yet. We don't have to pay every single time we get food, can make requests to grow certain cultures or apply certain practices, and can also frequently visit the farm. If the harvest is extra good that year, we don't have to pay more. In return the farmer is financially insured against stuff like a few years of bad harvest or issues with livestock, can get additional funding for expanding their operation etc. It's oversimplified here, and there are varieties so if you like to learn more about the german model you can look for SoLaWi (Solidarische Landwirtschaft). In my case farmers drive their stuff into the city for us on specific days and in locations close to your neighbourhood and hand you a box with what you want.

Don't talk over people in their own field. Don't go into the field with the intentions of a missionairy. You wouldn't try to teach a virologist about Covid. I hope. Even if you have reason to believe that person is wrong about the point they make, don't try to disprove it, that's the job of other people of the field. And they already make sure to disprove what's wrong.

essentially like the point above but If you decide to quote someone from the field don't do it against someone also from that field. Don't direct indigenous quotes at me to discredit my indigenous experiences for example, especially if you aren't indigenous yourself. That's a conversation for us. Also each tribe/scientific field is different (look Point 1).

Look outside the western world and if you have the means to travel pls visit not just the popular tourist sites. The villages/towns can tell you so much more than I can in a post. Try to have a local host you if it's not too difficult for them.

Don't dismiss rural folks as dumb/naive/racist. Doesn't mean bigotry isn't a problem, but try to pick out what they are saying about rural communities and ag in particular, bc they're still locals and still know more about local circumstances. Stay on topic.

Be suspicious about feel-good-uwu-stuff. It doesn't always have to be bad, but if what you're looking at primarily adresses your emotions you wanna be suspicious. Like cute animal videos, anthropomorphism especially, tech that seems to magically solve an issue, that stuff.

But also, even if you feel suspicious about tech/agriculture/etc keep it mind it might help others out. I highly criticized lab grown meat from an ag engineering perspective, but also mentioned it is probably amazing for healthcare. Some gadgets we might call lazy, but they can be incredibly helpful to disabled people and so on. Let's try to keep a door open with the benefits other people in mind

I'll add constantly seek education to this list BUT I don't recommend specific documentaries or books, bc they can be misleading especially if one misses out on pre-info that those forms of media built on. There can be a lot of emotional manipulation, weird framing, and so on and even with factual statements it's easy to frame smth wrong, check out the entire dehydrogenmonoxid=water project a student tried out.

Not to say there isn't good stuff out there, but pls don't get caught in echo chambers. If you have access to academic sources try to use them, even if they're more 'boring'.

TL;DR: don't get polarized, use nuance and talk to a variety of people and leave the job of 'correcting' experts to other experts.

(Also it's a bit hastily put together, so I hope it answers the question, lemme know if not precisely enough!)

[blacksunscorpio]

Hii darling, how are you doing?🌹I would like your opinion on my 2nd house stellium, I have my moon, mars, venus, neptune, uranus and jupiter my chart ruler in 2nd. I would like your insight and advices on how to deal with it. Furthermore I have sun, pluto and mercury in 1st would you consider it a stellium? Thank you so much for your time, help and effort, I really appreciate it and pls take care of yourself and have a pleasant day and wonderful March full of blessings 💕

2nd House Stelliums

Like 1st house stelliums, 2nd house stelliums are simply a concentration of 3 or more planets/their energy in the house that rules our finances.

The 2nd house is ruled by Taurus/Venus so it is a house very much associated with security, our belongings, and stability.  Here, this energy is all about seeking comfort, creative investment, the need for financial security and powerful use of the voice [Taurus rules the throat]. In addition to that, This house is a deeply personal house. The house that represents the value we give to ourselves and everything we do. In it, we are able to materialize our energy into something we can touch, use, or hold in our hands, as if it was a natural consequence of the energy we carry in our body represented through our first house. Again, this house is ruled by Venus so the themes here are all about the tangible. All about the senses. The second house of our chart is the field of habit, the food we eat, with the purpose to feed our hunger created by the animal we carry in the first house. It is a source of income that nourishes and strengthens our body. Its motto in Latin is lucrum meaning “wealth”. Since most of your planets live here, all of the above will be major theme pervading your life.With that being said, You have

Moon is the 2nd

Moon in the 2nd house worry about money and keeping the security it provides. If money is plentiful, the chart holder might be complacent until the money dwindles, then this will cause a cycle of discomfort and worry. Financial security is necessary for a person with their moon in their second house. This person will be greatly distressed without it. It is truly their greatest need. This placement also indicates the native is emotionally tied to their finances and that they derive their security through their financial well-being.

Venus in the 2nd

Venus finds a perfect home in the second house. No planet appreciates the material world more than Venus, which has immaculate taste and appreciation of the finer things in life. The person with this placement loves to shop/buy things they think are beautiful and then spend the next day telling everyone how wonderful their purchase is. Men with this placement love to pamper their partners. Women with this placement will love to indulge on things that make them look or feel beautiful [clothes, make-up, jewelry, spa treatments]. In general, having Venus in the second house is one of the most positive placements there is. It indicates financial well-being and may bring great wealth. Extravagant spending is indicated as well. [look for supporting aspects]

Mars in the 2nd

2nd house Martians are decisive, outspoken about their values [2nd house]. They know what they want and go after it forcefully. Mars in the second house also values assertiveness and determination. These people are not shy at all regarding asking for what they want. People with this placement are likely to hate working for others and will try to succeed in their own businesses. Mars in the second house is willing to take all kinds of risks to further financial success. Not a bad placement for entrepreneurship. You need that cut-throat martian energy to get ahead in the business world. As a result, those with a second-house Mars’ find risks and challenges exciting. It invigorates them. This placement can also indicate the native holds tightly to their possessions. Remember Mars is god of war so in the unfortunate occasion were to come about where a possession is taken from them or if anything they value is lost or taken, an explosive temper is often encountered as a result. 

Jupiter in the 2nd

Jupiter in the second house is the best placement there is. Personally, I feel it’s even better than Venus, because Venus makes one likely to buy things that they simply don’t need, while Jupiter influences the wealth to expand. Also, Jupiter is the planet of luck, so natives having it located in this house will simply be lucky in this department of life. For example, they may be lazy but they somehow end up earning money regardless They just don’t seem to want for much. At least not for long. There is a faith [Jupiter] that the world will somehow provide all that is needed in life. These people often gain wealth without having it as their focus. It may come to them through a simple windfall. Jupiter Is also the planet of expansion, so natives may accumulate a lot of funds but also be just as generous sharing it or spending it. Be careful for OVER spending. Jupiter can indicate excess of spending accumulated resources. However, since this is still the planet of luck and abundance we’re speaking of, 2nd house Jupiterians are likely to regain their wealth despite it being affected/afflicted in any way.

Uranus in the 2nd

Uranus (which is the most unpredictable planet) in the second house causes sudden and unexpected changes a native’s financial well-being. For example, you might receive unexpected earnings, but also unexpected expenses. Uranus here may lead the native to find creative and unique ways of earning money. This placement also gives the native an ability to make money in some of the most unusual and ingenious ways. Also, even if Uranus causes one to lose money, it also gives resourcefulness and adaptability when it comes to finances and helps the native survive difficult times.

Neptune in the 2nd

This placement is a hazy one-- but of course, we would expect nothing less from Neptune. Typically people with this placement just don’t care about material things, and therefore the topic of money is not important to them. TYPICALLY. It is not uncommon for a situation to occur with a native where, even if they have money, they don’t pay attention to how much of it there is, or how much they spend. They can be absent-minded. Which is why natives here need to take care in regard to their cash. They can be scammed and easy to deceive, especially if one’s Neptune is negatively aspected by Mercury or Mars. 2nd house Neptunians are likely to spend most of their money on entertainment/art/ Sometimes even basic needs are neglected to satisfy the craving for that which is creative and beautiful. This will be further exacerbated if Jupiter and Venus are forming aspects in the same house or aspecting Neptune in hard aspect. A native may spend all his money in such pursuits, and yet not be too much affected by the fact. Instead, they'll start from scratch with their savings. Like nothing ever happened. If forming benefic aspects to Jupiter, the native will simply come across more money “luckily”. Best scenario job-wise or simply life-wise for this placement would have the native making a living doing something artistic and spiritual. Where they can tap into the unknown or abstract and make their bread and butter from it.

[baekwin]

🚨 oversharing alert 🚨 like...really 🚨 

i know a ton of people are feeling a lot of the same feelings as me right now (or some other worse combination of not-great emotions as a direct result of isolation), so i don’t know who to talk to. i haven’t talked to some of my friends in weeks, some in months...i really don’t have the energy to be there for someone else right now, so i don’t reach out to people, because how can i expect someone to be there for me when i can’t reciprocate? that’s like.....selfish and entitled? i guess

i also hate being the bitter person that has a negative outlook on everything. it’s really not like me, i’m always the person who tries to find another way, or tries to put a positive spin on the situation. so not only having a dark cloud over my head but also being the dark cloud over someone else’s head is just not something i want to or like to do. which is reason number two that i haven’t talked to people in weeks/months.

there were a lot of issues with my previous job (health risks, blatant sexism, etc) that were affecting my mental health to such a degree that i decided to quit and move home for a bit (i recognize i’m privileged to even be able to make a decision like that right now, which i’m grateful for). and while i’m glad i did, it’s added another level of anxiety because a lot of my friends who can work from home (i didn’t have that ability) have been putting so much overtime into their jobs and moving up the ranks in quarantine, and meanwhile i feel like i’m back in the same position i was when i graduated college. 

it frustrates me so much that we’ve gotten to the point as a society that a 25 year old feels like a failure for not being like a senior something-or-other manager at google or facebook or whatever and it frustrates me even more that i know that’s such a toxic mindset and yet i still buy into it. like it gets to me so badly that i can’t even think about it, bc i spiral so hard when i think about all the things i need to get done each day to try and get a job. instead of writing it down or trying one thing at a time or doing anything at ALL, i just sit there immobilized by everything and just.....do nothing. for hours. and then days. and now weeks. i’m literally digging myself into so many holes that if i just sucked it up and started backtracking now, they still wouldn’t be that deep, but the thought of doing something about it terrifies me and the thought of letting it get worse terrifies me and then i’m just anxious about every possible course of action and nothing ever happens and i never get anywhere except sitting at my desk with a million thoughts in my head going a million miles per hour and blaming myself for everything that’s ever happened. 

i was in therapy for all this for a while but i had to stop bc i can no longer pay for it, which again is literally my own fault. and it takes a lot of convincing myself that i had valid reasons to quit my job. i was being harassed and taken advantage of and HR was basically doing fuck all about it even after i filed reports with them. i would come home so physically and emotionally drained every single day from being on my feet walking around for hours and dealing with ungrateful customers (side note pls be nice to and appreciate the people who provide u a service) and coworkers who made passes at me and inappropriate comments at me and doubted my intelligence or abilities bc i’m a woman (i’m also not just saying this for shits, it’s been said to my face, AT WORK) and it had been that way for 2 years. my friends literally celebrated when i finally quit bc they’ve been telling me to quit practically since i started bc the issues began on day 1 and hadn’t stopped. but it’s always been more complicated than just quitting bc like......someone needs to pay my living expenses?? and that person has been me since the second i signed my job offer and i don’t want that to change. financial independence is v important to me so living at home is simultaneously nice bc i’m around family, and also another source of anxiety bc if i don’t figure something out soon i’m gonna start having to rely on them again. 

and this is like. unrelated to the rest of the things but my best friend just got into a relationship with a guy who she thinks she’s gonna marry and she got a giant raise and promotion at work and i know the details of her family life and they’re in a ton of hardship and always have been and nobody in the world deserves this happiness more than she does but every time i talk to her about anything her boyfriend comes up and i want to be happy for her but i can’t and i absolutely hate myself for it. not even for any valid reason either. like i just get caught up running in these stupid circles of anxiety and i don’t think about anyone but myself and it’s making me not even be able to muster up a tiny bit of happiness for someone who’s done nothing but love and support me. how shitty is that. it’s not like i want to sit here being sad about everything bc i just don’t know how to NOT be

anyway tl;dr social isolation sucks and my life is not even bad at all but i’m being a little bitch about it. good night

[hadleyfxster]

( DUA LIPA. DEMIFEMALE. SHE/THEY. TWENTY-FIVE. ) Hey, is that HADLEY FOSTER? I heard they’ve been in Salem for TWO YEARS and they’re working as a NURSE. Last I spoke to ‘em they were pretty +SAGACIOUS, but I hear they can be -DEFIANT too. I wonder if they’ve got anything to do with this. ( cal, 23, they/them, est. )

henlo, i am cal and this is my babe hadley. below you’ll find a whole shpeal about them. pls excuse how messy it is, i tend to word vomit when i write!! if ya’ll are interested in plotting pls lmk as i would love to establish some fun connections. i even added some potential ones at the very bottom ~ 

name: hadley mickey foster nickname(s): hads, haddie, mickey job: nurse age: twenty-five gender: demigirl pronouns: she/they sexuality: bisexual / biromantic birthday: april 2nd zodiac: aries personality type: the entertainer | esfp

label: the reveller - a person who is enjoying themselves in a lively and noisy way.

brazen ( adj ) : bold without shame astute ( adj ) : having or showing an ability to accurately assess situations or people and turn this to one's advantage sagacious ( adj ) : having or showing keen mental discernment and good judgment; shrewd. tactless ( adj ) : having or showing a lack of adroitness and sensitivity in dealing with others or with difficult issues. defiant ( adj ) : showing defiance.

then

growing up, hadley didn’t want to be a nurse. no, they wanted to be a police officer and fight the bad guys, just like their father. he was their hero, protecting their mother and them as well as their city. they understood his lack of presence at home was because of his job- they got that. so they often hid their disappointment at missed school events, birthday parties, and good night hugs.

being primarily raised by their mother, hads did their best to keep out of her way. unfortunately, they’d always been a bit on the wild side and trouble would always follow no matter where they went. between climbing things they shouldn’t have, a few boken bones, and getting in trouble at school for speaking out and starting fights in the name of justic, they weren’t a bad kid - just a difficult one. 

at one point, age eleven, they’d broken their leg and was stuck in the house one summer for months on end. this left them with little to do and led them into the great hobby that is art. haddie got so caught up in creating things and, subsequently, ruined so much clothing due to pain and pastels. it was amazing to them that they hadn’t gotten attached to art before this but it certainly resulted in a bit of an obsession. they circled between studying artists paintings and work and creating their own during the months they weren’t able to participate in any of their other extracurricular activities.

haddie’s childhood was pretty good, all in all. their family we well-off financially, their mother, despite them being unruly, loved them endlessly and thier father remained a hero in their eyes. they had some vacations together here and there. hads participated in a handful of different sports ( dance, soccer, swimming ) and kept their hobby of art. 

( murder tw, racism tw ) of course, things were bound to change and it burst their bubble, waking them from their daydream world like a bucket of ice water. their dad having a gun never really bothered them. he’d taught them the danger of it, as well as how to shoot one, and the never really considered the consequences of it. they learned about it on the news. fourteen year old hads had made it a habit to watch cnn to make sure to keep up to date on what was happening in their city of chicago. the video of their father shooting an unarmed black man ( no, boy, he couldn’t be much older than they were ) burned itself into their mind. the subsequent grief of his family weighed heavily on their shoulders as they remained glued to the television. the time it took for the trial against their father and the suspension to wrap up was too short for them to digest it all. he barely got away with a slap on the wrist and that family lost someone important- the whole city did. hadley had to stand by their father during the whole time, their mother’s hands holding them in place, her nails digging into their shoulder to keep them from retreating or reacting. the whole ordeal changed them. this was the point when their entire future path changed and their love for their father, and the police force, crumpled to ashes. 

( alcoholism tw, abuse tw ) the rest of their high school career saw them deeply troubled. they chose to test out of a few grades, jumping ahead in determination to reach their new goal. their mother, struggling with the torn relationship between child and spouse, did her best to support them with this decision. they’d come to appreciate her attempts later on but in the moment they were too stuck in their head. they had a goal and they needed to reach it as soon as they could. they dropped all their extra-curricular activities, stopped creating art, and focused fully on studying. when they weren’t studying, they would break into their parents stash of alcohol and drink their self into a tizzy. their parents didn’t really recognize the signs of their trouble child, too caught up in their own problems and work. it wasn’t until their father caught them with a bottle of rum one evening, curled up on their couch, that things seemed to come to light. he attempted to berate them, scold them, and ground them. his fury was huge but hads easily over powered him. their screaming match drew the attention of their mother, who couldn’t do anything to calm either. the fight came to a head that resulted in their father lashing out physically at them. his ring nicked their cheek, cutting a line along their cheekbone that would later result in a scar. the quiet that had settled over the room after that could be cut with a knife and hadley was the first to break it. the ‘get out’ they had spit out, voice already hoarse from the yelling previously, was strong and unmoving. the expression on their father’s face was twisted, as though he couldn’t believe the child that used to worship him could turn into what was on the ground before them. he left. their mother immediately collapsed, a sobbing mess that they couldn’t try to collect in the moment because their fear finally settled in. fear of a man they realized they never really knew. 

the aftermath was, surprisingly, unexciting. their father returned the next morning and acted as if nothing happened. he seemed to clean up some of his act, however, they were hardly fooled. their mother, though, she seemed to sink into an easy acceptance that things could be fixed- that her spouse would fix them. haddie knew better. there was no going back. ever since that faithful day in front of the t.v., there would be no reconciliation between them. with their mother’s approval, they started university as soon as possible, graduating two years early and finally getting out.

now

8 years later along with another early graduation on their part, hadley settled into a job as a nurse in salem, mass. their time in universty and subsequently med. school changed them quite a bit from how they were in their early and late teens. the freedom away from their parents allowed them to fully settle into their skin and the ease that came with it brightened them up immensely. they seemed to regress to their carefree and energetic nature they held as a child, picking up art again as well as a sport ( kickboxing ). the trauma and toil of their past buried close to their heart as they began their career in the hospital. 

mickey wears their heart on their sleeve and it didn’t take long for them to find love in salem. the two were together for a solid seven months before they ultimately fell apart and hads heart was torn apart. the horror of this particular break up caused some previous issues to emerge in them and they decided to swear off romantic relationships all together. 

they talk to their mother once a week and have yet to talk to their father. 

they’re not at all a fan of authority figures, especially police, and are defiant when faced with them.

they’re a bit of an odd personality to work in the hospital, but they seem to fit in surprisingly well. their character tends to be seen as refreshing and, though they lack tact, they make up for it with their enthusiasm and optimism. 

hadley has a big ol’ cat, a mainecoon, named baloo that they are allergic too but love with all their heart. they found him on the streets and couldn’t find him an owner so they decided to keep him even if they have to take allergy meds all the time and maybe wake up somewhat dying cause baloo decided to flop on their face.

their room is part sleeping space part art studio. they have a bunch of posters of famous paintings as well as some of their own on the walls and there’s definitely a ton of paint stains on the light hardwood floors. 

they’re a bit of a partier and tend to induldge in wine nights on the occasion. they definitely have a lot more control over their drinking then when they were younger and have come to manage their self fairly well. sure, they can sometimes get into trouble ( most of the time without intending too ) but they reached their goal of working in medicine and aren’t about to risk their job over anything. 

they love to give platonic kisses and hold hands and hugs. if you allow them to, they will hang over their friends with great enthusiasm. 

big fan of petnames and using them with everyone. 

wanted

ex-partner : it didn’t end well, in fact, they’re the reason hadley has sworn off any and all romantic relationships. the two don’t talk- mostly because hads refuses to even acknowledge their existence less her more fight-y side emerges.

housemate(s) : haddie has never really wanted to live by herself. she loves people and is really into skinship. somehow, someway she either roped them into living with her or they accepted her ad or she accepted their ad but now they’re housemates and hads couldn’t be happier to come home to a lived in house.

mega crush : even though she’s sworn off romantic relationships, her heart just can’t seem to stop itself from speeding up every time she’s around this individual. she’s doing a pretty good job of being in denial but it’s not the easiest thing to hide seeing as her face is an open book.

best friend : literal ride or die, she’ll do anything for them and vice versa. 

friends with benefits : 

patient : someone hads has had the misfortune of taking care of while on the job, can develop from there 

patient #2 : someone mickey here has, for whatever reason, ended up stitching/fixing up when not at the hospital. due to whatever situation she came to their aid and helped them out ( perhaps more than once ? )

bar buddies : someone haddie always runs into at the bar but has yet to push to be friends or anything further. the two have a pretty steady history of just making small talk together.

skinship buddies : they both love to hang off one another and get along swimmingly. sometimes they’re mistaken as being in a romantic relationship but things are strictly platonic- they just love to be close to one another

[ofdanis-blog]

hello my loves ! better late then never ,,,, am i right ? anywho i’m j, i use she/her pronouns and reside in the est timezone ! below the cut you can find out all the info you need for one of my favorite muses i’m SO happy to bring back miss dani along with some wanted connections ! smash that heart button and i’ll come to you for all the plots !

˗ˏˋ ✧ sofia carson • twenty-three • cisfemale . look ! it’s daniela rojas from apartment 1A ! apparently , she moved into moreau apartments two years ago and is an aspiring model and diner waitress . rumor has it, they can be quite airy — good thing they’re also enigmatic , hey ? i hear they’re known as the aesthete of the building .

history !

daniela grew up in a large and boisterious lower middle class family. she is the youngest of five siblings and the only girl ( that’s right four older brothers ! ) her mom was a prenatal nurse and the local hospital and worked long hours while her dad managed a few different grocery stores in the area, they weren’t necessarily poor but with five kids sometimes they struggled to make ends meet and give them all a comfortable life. 

her parents were always the type to push the value of hard work on their children, they didn’t want them to struggle to make ends meet. so they preached good grades and good work ethic to each of them.

being the youngest and only girl dani was babied most of her life. she was practically raised by her older brother each of which had a certain soft spot for their sister. 

while on the outside she probably came off as the girliest girl growing up always wanting to wear pink and sparkles she knew how to get down and dirty with the best of them. she spent a lot of time watching and playing with her brothers. girl can take hit lbr. 

up to high school dani just kind of floated through life. she had friends, she only tried hard i school to please her parents, etc. but, she was always that girl that saw the beauty in everything and kinda had her head in clouds. 

when graduation came around girl really had no idea what to do. she knew her parents wanted her to go to college and get some kind of financially stable career but for airy dani that just didn’t sound like what she wanted to do. 

but being the people pleaser she was she went off to a local state college and majored in business. 

it was around this time that she started her instagram account and started posting lots of fashion and beauty shots of her along with aesthetic pictures. honestly has the most poppin gram ever. 

it wasn’t long into her freshman year did dani realize how miserable she was in college, she hated her classes and didn’t have much friends. of course, at this time her instagram was booming widely growing larger and larger each day. 

after being approached by a few modeling comapnies in vancover via instagram she made a quick impulsive decision that college wasn’t for her. she dropped out, packed her bags and moved to the city and into the apartment complex. 

her parents know about her choice but do not support her so they refuse to be in contact with her directly electing to send messages through her brothers who she talks to via facetime from time to time. she hates that she hurt her parents like that but she is much happier.

she works at a local diner as a way to supplement her income while she’s still trying to make it big in the modeling world.

personality !

dani is an airhead, let’s put that out their first and foremost. lots of things go right over her head.

honestly sticky sweet when you first meet her and will talk your ear off

can be super impulsive and just drop everything and go on a trip. pretty likely to forget to text back because she got distracted.

she is that person who is ALWAYS in a happy mood and rarely lets anyone see her true emotions, electing to put on the happy and airy face she is known for. 

really love taking photos and aesthetic things like will rearrange her whole apartment probably every day because she’s feeling inspired 

probably won’t talk about her family

call her dani and not daniela, her brothers and parents are the only ones who can call her that 

wanted connections -- all connections open to m/f/nb unless stated !

neighbor / crush ; idk i just see thing being somebody that dani always sees in the halls or lobby and has the biggest stupid crush on them

exes ; we all love a good ex plot, they could be on good or bad terms. they could even have not been in a real relationship and just were fwb and now it’s over.

current hookup / fwb ; idk girl just needs to get some. 

late night confidant ; somebody she meets on the roof, because she lowkey probably has some form of insomnia, and they just talk about anything and everything

girl gang ; clearly only for f/nb but just a bunch of girls who get together and get into crazy shit but also can sit on her couch and talk for hours about anything and everything. 

ride or die ; pls give her a best best best friend who she can tell everything to and trust with everything pls

bad or good influence on her or by her

frenemies

enemies / hateship

honestly give me eVERYTHING !!!

[atlafan]

i want to say this but i really hope you don’t take it the wrong way because that’s not my intention. I just want to share my feelings. but as someone that is a member of your patreon and struggled making the financial decision to join, it felt upsetting to read your recent psa. i get that most of us don’t give you feedback and that can be discouraging but i don’t think that’s because you’re writing isn’t living up to our standard. i know we can do better to share our thoughts and feedback but idk how to even say it but it makes me feel bad that you feel upset with us. i know you said you might be too much in your head and you have a lot going on but pls don’t feel discouraged, we pay to support you and thank you for what your provide for us. and you always release great content!!!

and i might not even be getting out my feelings clearly as I want but I just wanted to say that I do appreciate your work and how much you engage with us and i’m sorry i don’t engage as much as i should. i really hope you don’t take this the wrong way

I don't take it the wrong way at all! I always want to be honest with you guys about how I'm feeling.

When I don't get feedback, it makes me feel like the story wasn't good or something. And I definitely do get in my own head, and the need for instant gratification doesn't help either.

I struggle because there's almost 100 of you on there, and I might get maybe over 10 likes on something and then maybe a comment or 2, so that's when I get in my head about what I'm doing wrong, or if maybe I'm just posting too much content on there so it's too much for yall to process and I'm not giving you enough time to process??? I just want to make sure I'm delivering on my end because I know $5 a month is a lot.

and like I'm just feeling discouraged on the self-publishing end of things because I had dozens of people telling me they'd buy my books if I published, but that hasn't been the case so all around I'm just like????? you know???

[supernoobslovers]

Hey guys, so I dropped out of school a month ago and now I HAD to buy a new laptop and tablet for my new school, I also have to pay my old school back and now I've got a debt of 1400€ thats prob like 1400-1450$ or so. My goal is to raise 800$ cuz then I can pay off the debt from my laptop and tablet and that's what matters the most to me.

I never have asked for financial support before so this is new for me.

Ive got a ko-fi (link is shown) and a coffee costs 1$ and I'd be great full if you could spare me a dollar or just spread the word. People who do big donations will I draw for.

DO NOT donate if you can't afford a lot DO NOT donate a lot to get a drawing cuz my drawings aren't great if ya wanna know how they look go to gravity_falls_draw_edit on Instagram and there you can see my drawings. If you want a drawing I suggest you do commission's by someone else cuz I would feel bad if you'd expect an amazing peace and I can't give it to you.

ANYTHING is welcome pls ONLY donate if you WANT, CAN and ARE ALLOWED TOO!! If you really want a drawing cuz you think I do good then just DM me here on tumblr or on Instagram. I most likely draw you a character for 5$ or so but if you really want a drawing from me then DM me.

I APPRECIATE EVERYONE WHO DONATES AND SPREADS THE WORD SO THANKS IN ADVANCE

This is an Example for what i made for my friend because he donated a lot. I hope this can help you make a decision rather it be worth it or not to give much and if you can't give much but still donate I might still draw something cuz I feel honored that you'd help out

[ksmingyu-blog]

*waves* late to the party is my middle name aight lets get this party started kiddos hihi I'm Koko and ecstatic to be here at last~ do come say hi to my slow ass and my unfortunate child Mingyu -- he's just gone through some rough stuff but hides it behind a confident indifference & smiles & being too into other people’s business etc you’ll see--

anyhoo profile here (wip tbh) & background.. to remain undisclosed cause it's trash you don't need it, live in the suspense ha. take a look at my rules tho thanks I'm working on the rest bear with me, a snail supreme. do proceed forward for some random tidbits of info I guess?? also come plot with me ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

so ye his family is mega rich and he's super spoiled always got what he wanted, mainly because he just asked for it ( nicely mind you he ain't one of those whiny sons of bishes ) and his parents were the worst they set little to no limits and apparently were incapable of denying him anything ever. not that he had to fight for stuff to begin with lmao

buuuut they were also very distant when it came to anything else other than making sure he was dutifully studying, which they put aggressive focus on. keyword 'aggressive'

used to accidentally say insensitive shit to people because he had no sense of tact back then honestly all his parents ever commented was how cute he was and gave him a pat on the head while sneering at the 'lesser beings' like what type of adulting

this all totally flew over his head though he never meant anything bad by the words and he just wanted to be friends with everyone and wished everyone was happy and had all the things he had bless this boy

he shared a lot of his stuff with his lil sis too simply because he wanted to. Mingyu adored her to space and back -- still does

the only loving, genuine, healthy and lasting relationship he's ever truly had is with his sister. would die for her. no hesitation.

literally his childhood as homeschooling started was just STUDYSTUDYSTUDY seven days a week his parents and teachers pretty much ran him to the ground before boy was even eight

he went to private schools for middle & high school. mostly focusing on studying still but as he had more freedom to do as he pleased without having anyone monitoring his every move he started making friends and stuff and wanting more-- it was a ride to say the least, he learned some wanted to befriend him just for his money which was hurtful tbh but also he doesn’t blame them?? much? only thing that really got to him in the long run was that everyone wanted something from him and had ulterior motives so he’s definitely prone to having some trust issues.

fast forward some years and his life is pretty much set for him by his parents and Mingyu has no say in it whatsoever, he will go to the school they picked ( paid their way in because honey you're great but we can't take risks this is very important for your future and interests... ) and major in what they want and get a damn scholarship if it kills him and he's realized there's no way out this is his price for having everything, he's living just to fulfil his parent’s goals and whims

so he acts like the good son and starts college and studies like mad because that's what he's accustomed to but also almost out of spite and sense of justice and wanting to show them-- show everyone who whispers behind his back about how he got into the school that he'll earn the grades by himself thank you very much

but he's so angry?? still?? and he's not the only one okay yeah so this small squad forms of all these justice seeking kids who never wanted this crycry ( i feel the need to point out Mingyu was partially happy to be in such a prestigious school but none of it was him ) and they start plotting all kinds of shit right yeah lets just say it got out of hand fast. real fast. if he learned something from the experience it was that money can buy you a whole lot of things, fun and pleasure, friends, but it doesn't buy you out of trouble. especially when it's made public-- BUT so hey keep in mind tho this was swept under the rug quick so it didn’t really spread anywhere.. save kids telling it forward but anyway you're curious aren't you hA keep guessing

he's humiliated, kicked out of the school right before Christmas, and now his parents are raging and a breath away from actually disowning him -- lbr they would neVER, just to save face. but they give him a last chance to redeem himself months later-- funny that, he's back to where he started, except in a worse school, with less value, less of everything, no friends ( not that he would call the ones from before any such now, fake hoes the lot of them ) and this time he has no support to speak of from anyone, much less parents beside a small fund ( let it be said this 'small fund' is still ridiculous compared to anyone struggling with their income like... his family has such distorted concept about spending money ) and orders on what they expect by the end of this school career at Keisung. namely that he's learned his lesson or some shit honestly Mingyu is over it by now he's just focusing on surviving and pawing way for himself and trying to find some resemblance of reason behind this entire farce

RELEVANT INFO;; throughout the 2 years he's never gone home for holidays, he never gets calls from his parents or anything else, only his sister keeps in contact with him regularly and has even visited ( in secret ). but his mom does text him when there's some important event he's expected to attend because they still expect certain things from him and his future. so he might be gone a random night and be EXREMELY moody/snappy/sensitive the next day...s. ye. it is not spoken of. don't ask. he wont tell anyway. it just fucks him up a lil, being any amount of time in the presence of his parents is like taking three steps back and he needs to bounce back from it. honestly this boy needs therapy. a way out. something. friends.

tbh he's in the way to becoming good in compartmentalizing, instead of dissociating which is.. good? I guess? progress??? like boy is so out of touch with his emotions to begin with don't even get me started-- it's kinda unstable progress all around he gets these pouts of sudden EMOTIONS and then tries to smother them bc he's so used to thinking he's not allowed to feel or express any of it

freshman year was utter hell for him, beside feeling dead exhausted over months of.. abuse, to put it nicely, and focusing more on healing and trying to adapt and keep afloat-- he also quickly learned to keep his mouth shut and stay in his corner and avoid any more trouble than he's been in already because it really did nothing to help his nerves-- the damage was done though and he was a target for a while until the storm calmed and he was more or less forgotten

just to twist the knife in his lungs his parents donated to the school and it was made public :)

by the end of the first year he made a resolution, refusing to step down and act a coward any longer, gaining back lost confidence ( be it fool's kind ) and tried to make himself an actual presence within the Inferiors, a title and group he detested before-- still does but tries to accept now cause there's little else he can do and isolating oneself is less than safe in this school. which is something he did throughout the first year pretty much. I mean a lot of it was also because he didn't have the energy to deal with people, needing space and shit

so yeah now as he's close to his junior year Mingyu has been making a name for himself sorta nothing grand but he's been more involved, more out there, giving less fucks yet still very cautious but that is only healthy in this environment

following that he's now stepping in as a second in command of the inferiors!! fun times I'm sure. also I totally assume the previous one was a senior who graduated? yeah roll with it

basically he tries to steer clear of conflicts while promoting healthy self assurance -- and not caring about what any jealous idiot spits at you-- giving a helping hand to the younger ones cause from own experience he's decided he might as well do something about this crappy social construct ruling the academy that does no good for anyone. but also if you come for him, if you come for ANY of them, he ain't gonna make it that easy

also he's a newly appointed student council treasurer, calling out shitty financial decisions by everyone and anyone cause while he likes to spend and throw his own money around ( old habits die hard ) for simple pleasures he's smart enough to know to do such only because he can afford to

he's totally a justified asshole about it too if you're trying to start beef when before he stayed silent and just took it now he's barking back he's taking none of that shit anymore oh you're a piss poor envious monkey too bad bye. all the while smiling cause he was raised with proper manners >_> but if you're really actually in need of money and ask nicely he might help. just might. not necessarily for free but ya know

joined the taekwondo class halfway through sophomore year. try him bitch. I dare. actually pls don't he's a sensitive soul in need of some lovin ha HA.

anyhoo backtracking to boyhood-- parents made him take piano lessons for no other reason that to boast BUT SIKE he really got into it and once he had that down he was allowed to pick another instrument. Lemme tell you he's basically a pro pianist he's taken lessons and played it for over 14 years-- except he stopped awhile back cause it's so.. bad memories. even tho he loves it?? it's just a mush of conflict ok. another one he's quite handy with is cello with more than 7 years of experience. tried violin for a good 2 years. later on got interested and switched to traditional korean instruments of which he's played the komungo about 6 years, and haegeum since he started at Keisung pretty much.

music is kinda like an escape. not kinda, IT IS.

his music taste is just all over the place too don't even ask me he likes all sorts of glitch hop and chill edm and synthwave and jazz and post-rock and hiphop meets classical and indie plus some kpop groups

speaking of, he's done a handful of piano and cello covers of popular and less so songs that he posted on youtube over some years back honhon

I'm absolutely going to make this a plot in the future someone should nudge him back into playing piano too, or better yet lure him into creating a band or some shit

has a decent singing voice, it's not trained despite having taken a few lessons but he's ridiculously insecure about it lmao you'll never catch him doing anything more than humming and mouthing words.

also his recommendation for any song mixing regardless of genre will deadass be "needs more stringstrument"

did ballet for 5 years could probably dropkick you without a hair out of place. not that he would. unless you give him reason to. that wasn't an invite

likes drinking, doesn't smoke, has tried party drugs here and there but--- as this all is part of what landed him in this mess he's a little more.. careful. 'little' being relative word here

motto might as well be "party hard, live harder" or something.  which isn't as healthy as it might sound

so music acts as a de-stressing tool sometimes but also sex works he's not picky-- I mean yes he is with bed partners if you don't know what you're doing don't even bother. kinda freaky. and mouthy. but very attentive?? I'm just. gonna. leave that as a notion.

a health preacher to a point, will bitch about everyone's unhealthy habits. regularly exercises and eats all his veggies too. but also the kind to forget to eat for hours cause he was "too busy studying".

gets headaches though if he overworks himself, prone to stressing when he's overwhelmed

he's lactose intolerant jsyk

drinks coffee like it's oxygen -- contrary to popular belief he's not a regular at the nearest Starbucks, but instead visits this smaller cafe that makes bomb sea salt cream iced coffee he orders with coconut cream & half coconut sugar half whatever flavored syrup he's craving, with 2 shots of espresso.... yes. pretentious as hell but it's tasty sue him

lovesloveslooooves to play overwatch! tho he's not the best when it comes to technique and stuff but it's just fun ey for those who know anything about the game his fav heroes be d.va ( obviously ) sombra, zenyatta, lucio & symmetra ( more lore wise than playing -- meanwhile mun is all up in her ass in both aspects )

idk this is a damn novel already you get the idea ye just come to me so we can plot uwu I’m totally down and in fact craving for some pre-est too *winkwink*

[emersonism-blog]

hey y’all !! i’m hanna & so so so hyped to be here ?? i’m 16, live in the pst timezone, nd go by she/her pronouns. my hobbies are mainly comprised of taking naps and fighting lily (& occasionally cather). anymeme here’s the love of my life, my son who’s sixteen years older than me, the most cancer cancer you’ll ever meet !! if you want to plot, pls pls pls message me or like this and i will try my best to hit up all of you ~~ 

[ milo ventimiglia, cis male ] - did you know EMERSON BECKETT is back in town ? i’ve heard that the THIRTY TWO year old has been gone for SIX YEARS and used to be known as THE STARRY EYED. now people call them THE RECLUSE but they’re still IDEALISTIC, and ALTRUISTIC as usual. right now they’re busy as a COFFEE SHOP OWNER but i hope we have time to catch up ! 

ok so basically !! emerson grew up as the oldest of four kids & was ur typical golden boy?? he’s always had such a soft lil heart 

he also .,, grew up on a farm it was a lil local fruit farm & his family was deVOTED to it and obviously emerson was expected to do the same !!

from a young age, emerson rly rly loved school strangely?? his family never considered it that much of a priority but emerson genuinely loved it and learned very quickly!! he read things on his own (anything he could get his hands on), lit knew the most useless random facts and would go around sharing them and yea sdjfjfsd he was a nerd since early on

he was always interested in learning nd would hide books in his room bc his family,, although they loved him They made fun of him a lot for it tbh?? they jus didn’T rly get it 

but he didn’t resent them for it or anything!!! he was always just very discreet abt his passion for knowledge but it really didn’t stop him from anything!! he had pals, was sort of ?? popular in school, nd yea !! 

as much as he loved his family though, emerson never planned on staying in aston. he always knew he’d be going somewhere else and didn’t really care where he was going as long as it was somewhere new. growing up in such a small town, he saw such little of the world yet read so much about it and wanted so badly to see it in person

his family disAPPROVED but he made it to university!!! he was Broke as hell, but was so adamant in followin his dreams nd becomin a vet!! he got a scholarship and went to school in new york thx 2 his GOod grades nd got some financial support from his parents

alsO, he moved w his high school sweetheart, laura, and they both went to uni together!! when they were 18, they got married and moved in together but pretty quickly that broke lmao

his family…..seldom supported him so ,, he worked a lot during his classes but managed 2 slip by

so ,, emerson managed to graduate but this was also the yr that his gf left him so he was……pretty heartbroken (keep in mind,, this gal was the love of his life nd he’s so so so easy 2 break when it comes to love) and didn’t really know what to do with himself?? going to new york was his dream but that dream involved laura,, but fun fact: they never actually legally filed for divorce lmao legally they’re still Married oops

he didn’t want 2 stay in new york anymore but to return to aston nd prove to his family that he ended up actually not going thru with his dreams after everything?? nope , 

@ this point he was fdjsjd really lost tbh he’d always been so happy nd certain of himself during high school / up until this point but he was questioning everything nd lost so much of his self esteem?? he just wasn’t sure of what he wanted @ all anymore nd sort of floated for the next few yrs

he sorta began ,, losing contact w his family as he didn’t really have anything to return back to them with anymore ?? for three yrs he sort of Just ,, did random jobs nd probably never stayed in one place for longer than a few months?? i’m still trying to determine the specific details heh

anyway when he was 25 he finally admitted defeat nd returned 2 aston :/ this!! was when he met valerie nd she became pregnant from a one night stand oops ,, long story short they were strangers that were Forced into a situation nd emerson?? found loVE again??? but she didn’t feel the same way nd a year after their kid (thea) was born she peaced out

after tht he was…..devastated again but he dealt w it a lOT better than his marriage bc now he had thea 2 look after and she was/is basically?? his life?? it was the push he needed 2 get his life together and once again, they moved away to seattle where he worked at a research lab for a bit !! it was fun and all but it wasn’t,, his dream?? he never enjoyed being in a lab all day as much as he enjoyed science nd craved more buT he stuck w it for the sake of thea

moved back 2 aston a few weeks ago !! now that thea’s a lil older (she’s 6 yrs old), he figured it’d be a lil better to find something new and start over again. reluctantly, he’s moved back to aston & is slowly ,, tryin to reconnect again (fiLL MY WCS FOR FAMILY MEMBERS) 

nd when he was in aston the last time, he worked @ a cafe whose owner he became very very close w !! recently, they passed away nd so he spent some saved up money 2 purchase the place & make it his own :’) it’s a lil library/cafe kind of thing but basically just an excuse for him 2 read and drink coffee all day for a living ://

personality wise, emerson’s always been so soso idealistic and such a romantic but that’s definitely been worn down a lot in recent yrs. he’s had to become a lot more practical and realistic at how he approaches life hence why emerson’s stopped taking risks the way he’s used to, and has fallen into habits and routines. moving 2 aston was definitely not a decision taken lightly !!

he’s had to settle a lot but :(( he tries 2 remain optimistic ,, he’s not cynical or anything he just .. knows better than to conjure up wild dreams

he’s so sefless like he feels so guilty if he does something for himself?? esp after having a kid and even after living on his own w laura, he’s used to giving up stuff and making sacrifices for other people so ,, he just feels like someone else deserves help more than him?? someone gotta remind him to take care of himself too

tbh emerson has a lot of surface lvl relationships but not a lot of super deep ones just bc he’s so bad at maintaining relationships and unless someone initiates it then he hates making the first move bc he feels awkward and like he’s bein annoying but if he loves u he will stick with u no matter WHAT ,,  he’s so dedicated to the relationships in his life

probs seems annoyed sometimes but rly he’s just in his thoughts too much nd in actuality is very nice !! 

literally carries around snacks everywhere just in case also probs hands out water bottles .. he is everyones dad ok

[emerssn-blog1]

hey fam !!! it me hanna & this is my new son (but more accurately fATHER) emerson !! i’m honestly so hyped to play him so hmu for plots :~~~) pls :~)

i’m not the only one who just saw milo ventimiglia walk by, right ? oh, wait, that was emerson beckett. i don’t know much about them besides that they’re thirty two years old and moved into golden horizons six years ago. everyone calls them the recluse because they’re reticent and solitary, but also altruistic and adroit. i’ve also heard he is currently a coffee shop owner and identifies as cis male.

k so this is emerson!!! he was born in a rly rly small town in georgia into a really big family!! edit: he was born on a farm this is an important detail otherwise none of thise makes sense lmao

im talkin big like .. he had six other siblings & he lived with many of his other relatives as well

he basically grew up in a very small gated neighbourhood - the kind where u go to school with the exact same small group of kids every year, u know all of ur neighbours stories and their parents know u and everyone’s just pals nd practically family

from a young age, emerson rly rly loved school strangely?? his family never considered it that much of a priority but emerson genuinely loved it and learned very quickly!! he read things on his own (anything he could get his hands on), lit knew the most useless random facts and would go around sharing them and yea sdjfjfsd he was a nerd since early on 

he was always interested in learning. for the rest of his family, after high school, it meant they were gonna continue working on the farm & carry on w what their parents do. but emerson wanted to venture out...learn more abt the rest of the world...

emerson finished his schooling quickly & graduated when he was 17 !! he wanted to go to university and move to the city and make his dreams of becoming a vet come true but his parents...disapproved 

so he stayed for another yr and planned on moving out on his own when he was 18!! 

another detail to note tho was that from childhood, he met the Ultimate Love of his Life. her name was savannah !! 

anyways she dreamed of moving to the city too?? it was always a thing of theirs to leave together nd live together it was very hopeful but yanno they didn’t know any better

when he was 18, sav and emerson moved to nyc !! emerson wanted to study biology nd she wanted to become an actress :-) his parents were still very much opposed but they supported him financially in regards to tuition, bc they highly doubted he’d last for very long

they were right , it was hella difficult ?? they didn’t help him out very much w money besides tuition so he was working a lot while studying

it wasn’t an ideal situation but he still got to live in the city, with his gf, and it was hard but he refused to prove his parents right?? so he stayed and worked rly rly hard but slowly his parents stopped financially supporting him as they gradually realized his choice was final

when he was in his 3rd yr of uni tho sav became pregnant .. so emerson naturally came to the conclusion that they can’t afford for him to go to school when he’s gotta work to support them & their baby so he dropped out rip

yea so now he’s working even MORE and it’s stressful and they can barely pay bills or do ... anything really

so even after the baby was born, they lived paycheck to paycheck. emerson never really bothered telling his family about his situation tbh

when their kid ( her name is theadora aka thea !! ) was four years old tho, savannah died after bein involved in a nasty car accident :( it was obviously very hard on both thea and emerson

in need of a fresh start, emerson moved to sf. he was still broke tho lol 

so yea !! he moved into golden horizons w thea and started workin in a coffee shop. over the yrs, he moved up positions & got highkey close w the owner but as the owner passed away 2 yrs ago, he was given the shop nd still runs it today!!

now its lowkey a mix of a coffee shop & a cheap book shop/library?? he collects all his faves heh

in general he’s still .. a pretty upbeat person he’s just a lil worn out bc life was....definitely not everything he ever dreamed of being and he’s sort of had to settle because of what was given to him but !! he isn’t like super emo about it u know he doesn’t like to think about it too much

he loves bein in the city but at heart is still a southern boy?? rly old fashioned bad w technology loves the outdoors loves nature and animals all that good stuff

he’s so sefless like he feels so guilty if he does something for himself?? esp after having a kid and even after living on his own w sav, he’s used to giving up stuff and making sacrifices for other people so ,, he just feels like someone else deserves help more than him?? someone gotta remind him to take care of himself too

tbh emerson has a lot of surface lvl relationships but not a lot of super deep ones just bc he’s so bad at maintaining relationships and unless someone initiates it then he hates making the first move bc he feels awkward and like he’s bein annoying 

but if he loves u he will stick with u no matter WHAT ,, for real

probs seems annoyed sometimes but rly he’s just in his thoughts too much nd in actuality is very nice !! 

literally carries around snacks everywhere just in case also probs hands out water bottles .. he is everyones dad ok

possible connections!!

any ex plot tbh but specifically, ex-fiance or ex- very very serious relationship?? i could see them having gotten into the relationship a few months or so after emerson moved to sf ( or anytime, really ) and things got pretty Real but in the end emerson wasn’t prepared to go all the way and ended things

ride or die - i live for brotps!!!! or any bff plots!!!!! give me all of them!!!!

friends w benefits?? emerson’s never gonna put a label on it and maybe ur muse feels the same way so for now they’re just foolin around ,, havin fun

like a lil sibling sort of?? just someone that emerson’s super protective of bc he’s the ultimate dad friend tbh. let him be ur designated driver for when ur drunk & lecture u on making responsible decisions

if ur neighbours with this boi hit me up

if ur chara lived in ny back in the day then maybe they were also really good pals with his ex gf aka the mother of his child?? that would be interesting bc emerson is still really attached

his bad influence ~~ the one that convinces him 2 take one night for himself, make dumb choices nd wake up the next morning not remembering anything!!

JUST PLOT WITH ME THX