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owlyjules · 2 years
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Omg I'm so excited to be a ghost and ask questions
So I saw you answered a question about your process recently and I wanted to know more about it, if that's okay! I personally struggle the most with brainstorming a concept and have struggles with finding an inspirational reference because the internet is sooo saturated. So I was wondering, how do you go about brainstorming when starting a piece?
Welcome friendly Ghost!:D hmmm Let me see how I can explain it a bit more clearly! For me a lot come throught as I am drawing. Like I always start with a pose or a drawn element first or I might just end up looking at reference forever! wait let me get an example!
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Paul Lahote head-cannons
[some x reader head-cannons towards the end]
-he welds, this is a job that his family kinda all do. His father, grandfather all weld. HOWEVER he creates art and sculptures in his breaks. His welding is an art form, yet he is too scared to call it art.
-before phasing he hated the forest, he could never remember his way home and it always made him uncomfortable. But since phasing he adores it. He goes on hikes constantly, a personal goal of his is to hike in every national park around the country.
-he has three brothers and lives with his dad, none of them are home for long but they all love each other deeply, even if no one mentions it. His mother sadly passed away in hospital when he was 14.
-he'd never had a relationship before phasing since he was so young, all he remembers from the first shift was just pain and anger.
-he hates the idea of an imprint, unless its on the one person he grew up loving... but he'd never admit to that... (possible fic incoming)
-listens to a mix of classic rock and indie/country
-lives and breathes his leather jacket, it was his grandfathers.
-everyday after school he'd go to his grandparents home, he'd spend hours with them. He now takes his grandfather on hikes with him.
-his favorite snack is his grandmas granola, its amazing.
-on your first date its a small hike to a local river, there are flowers everywhere, the pair of you sit under a willow tree and talk for hours.
-despite this mans love for hiking he doesn't own a pair of hiking boots!! its killing you! he hikes in an old pair of vans, please get this man a pair of hiking boots even if he heals super fast it just can't be comfortable.
-he doesn't get angry at his partner, he was raised in a loving household and idolized both his parents and grandparents loving relationships. He sees his partner as an equal, he just gets protective other his pack brothers, family and significant other.
-has zero physical preference, he used to lie to his friends and make up a type but he genuinely doesn't know. It used to confuse him but he knows now that he loves someone (wonder who) for their kindness, stubbornness and the constant ability to always fight back.
-his grandparents are the only ones in his family who know about his phasing, he wont let his brothers know, as the oldest child he feels responsibility.
paul’s pinterest board
{this is part one in my twilight head-cannons series! Stay tuned, stay safe and love each other, I love you- em x}
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arsonistlullabyee · 7 months
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─•*:。✩ 1x1.
hi everyone! im looking for discord rp partners! its my first time here, not gonna lie. you can call me anya or daisy, im a she/her and im 24 yo! GMT-3
tbh i would love to make ooc friendships as well as finding a partner. id rather find a long-therm discord partner, but i think thats a pretty rare thing to find, lol. once i have a muse and a plot i’ll always be creating playlists, notion pages, pinterest boards, and sharing inspirations... BUT ↴
if you don’t like those kinds of interactions please let me know so i won’t bother you. HOWEVER if you do like doing those kinds of things as well, i will LOVE to see what you’ve got. i’m pretty much always around and i do get invested. i love creating and discussing headcanons and i do enjoy writing smut, but it’s not essential to me, so if you don’t like its super okay. please do let me know tho, once i believe that our plot will only work if we have a honest communication. i only do female muses and usually my ships are f/m.
i love angst, and some potential triggering plots. because of that i won’t be partitioning with 21- players.
just some ideas for what im looking for; all kinds of drama, i want auroras sad prose including:
friends to lovers
enemies to lovers
bandmates/celebrities
young parents or godparents
rich spoiled problematic young adults
troubled young adults
toxic exes
love affairs
found family
toxic relationships
strangers to lovers
fake dating/marriage
fluff/domestic
rn i’m really hyperfixated on:
-drew starkey (op)
-dua lipa / callum turner (op)
about writing: usually i try to write the same way my partner writes. but id rather write in 3rd person, descriptive and narrative. i can write in portuguese, as well as in english. and i do write smuts.
i guess thats it, hit me with a ♡ if you want me to reach out to you.
if you read till this point i really appreciate you. xx. *:。✩─
(this is actually a repost, my og blog was shadowbanned. hopefully it wont happen again)
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likesunsetorange · 2 months
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NOW GIVE MY GREEDY ASS ERENS MOODBOARDS!!!!! I love seeing your visual planning!
DJDJDJDJ I WAS SCARED YALL WOULD ASK FOR EREN ONES I WONT LIE BECAUSE MENS CLOTHES ARE SO MUCH HARDER TO FIND ON PINTEREST 😭😭😭 i swear it’s like all the same stuff BUT my friend had asked to see the eren ones too so i will try to do the eren ones BUT if there’s some overlap don’t shoot me LMFAO BLAME PINTEREST‼️‼️‼️
i will say the one eren i couldn’t envision out of all of them tho the most was dol eren, i wouldn’t know how to describe his style like his style was the only one i genuinely was coming up blank on LOL 😭
but im glad yall enjoy the moodboards omg i have sm fun making them!!!
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smalltragedy · 4 years
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* ryan destiny, cis woman + she/her | you know kira blake, right? they’re twenty four, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, ever? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to babooshka by kate bush like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole lazily stretched out in a ray of light, daisy shaped irises and daisy chain braids, performing an intricate dance to move the ocean's waves thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 31st, so they’re a scorpio, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 22, est, they/them )
hllo ive hd kira in my head fr a bit bt i also know ntohing abt her! this is me winging it even though i hv no right to <3 this is my third character maybe whose birthday is in honor of ella n coincidentally 2/3 of them r in this rp. yea im messy smirks sexily.
DEATH, GRIEF, DRUGS TW
mini playlist.
wuthering heights ;; kate bush / babooskha ;; kate bush / dreams ;; fleetwood mac / california dreamin’ ;; the mamas & the papas / lavender moon ;; haroula rose / time of the season ;; the zombies / after the storm ;; kali uchis / left hand free ;; alt-j / always forever ;; cults / wait a minute! ;; willow / your dog ;; soccer mommy.
statistics.
full name: kira blake
nickname(s): keely.
birthday: october 31st, 1996.
zodiac: scorpio sun, cancer moon, aquarius ascending. 
mbti & temperament: esfp & catalyst / sanguine. 
label: the ebullient.
sexuality: bisexual.
pinterest.
biography.
born to two original hippies which hs pretty much set up who kira is fr the rest of her life <3 the type of ppl who didnt like the boundaries of marriage n held off frm it fr as long as possible until theyd hd a spur of the moment elopement involving a celebrity impersonator at fannie’s <3 yea theyre lesbians lets go <3
nvr rly took things srsly until kira ws like 5 yrs old n then they were like ah gee ah fuck we probably shld probably settle settle. n they job hopped n worked many odd jobs until they found their footing in careers they liked n one of them probably does like. blown glass art. n the other prob fixes old computers n other ~vintage~ mementos of the past fr ppl.
they make a decent living n they live in delpinius heights n they try a few times fr another kid bt it nvr rly works out (raises an eyebrow. adopted siblings anyone?) n fr the most part kira as a child spends her time running around town and tugging on the hem of other’s shirts to ask them small favors (mostly to play a game with her)
often left unsupervised as a kid, bt not in the way tht her parents dnt care (bc her parents love her a lot a lot a lot like she is their world) bt in the way tht they simply raised her the way they were raised. running amuck all day n coming home jst in time fr dinner, front porch light always on, cat always waiting faithfully on their stoop.
pretty evident frm a young age tht kira’s mind saw things differently, in a different light - the world an array of light n mystery n sound n taste n sometimes those collided n created new experiences. prob hs some form of synsthesia bt dnt ask me which one yet. she’s a painting prodigy with an excellent understanding of color theory.
always ws known as a kind of like. rambunctious kid. a well meaning class clown who cld nt keep her mouth shut fr the life of her. grew up constantly with a yellow card beneath her name in school bt ws always well liked by her teachers n classmates alike.
jst a very bright child who did well naturally bt always ws turned more towards art.
feel like her parents very noticeably turned a cheek when she started smoking weed w the cool older kids when she ws 13. the type of person who wnts 2 b liked so bad she’d jump over a hurdle fr it. hs jumped over many hurdles n many fences n many other obstacles to be liked bt does it without breaking a sweat.
(edit: nw tht i think abt it hwevr i dnt think she does tht anymore i think while a bit of a mess atm she. likes herself. n doesnt rly want or need the approval of others anymore she jst does her own little thing. bt when she ws younger? she jst wnted 2 b friends w the entire world.)
nothing bad rly happened fr like. a good bit of her life. got into psychedelics at some point in high school n tht only heightened her artistic abilities. most of her high school art portfolio ws probably done while high bt <3 does it matter.
hd a high school sweetheart n they were pretty serious like. full on in love. a total believer of soulmates kira ws jst like. this is the one. there is nobody else i cn imagine my life with.
death tw
death tw
death tw.
death n grief tw // yea. sometime during their freshmen year of college. car incident. kira ws nvr the same though she’d like to pretend tht nothing’d ever happened. like theyd nvr existed. like she didnt plan out their entire lives together hiking thru hills n valleys n boating across various bodies of water n traveling together until they were old n wrinkly. end of death tw //
cld nt explain 2 u why kira hd bought a van n completely demolished it only to drain all of her savings remodeling it bt nw she lives in it by the beach. hd dreams of travelling the world bt cannot go long distances in a car without feeling sick. sees planes n feels envy. stopped painting fr a long time bt she’s started back up recently. took on surfing. told her parents tht it ws fine n tht she ws fine n theyre concerned bt shes always by the beach, her van rarely leaves. she’s trying her best bt its only been a few yrs n i think ppl cn sense tht shes jst nt the same cheerful girl as they once knew. end of grief tw //
anyways. tugs on my collar. tht’s kira! she lives on the beach n surfs everyday n is obsessed with daisies n is prob growing her own shrooms somewhere. 
personality & facts.
always been very emotional n a little dramatic. nt a drama queen bt is a little messy n does not hv like. many rational thoughts up in there. very cup full or cup empty.
regardless though she hs an. overall reputation fr jst being. enjoyable to be around. her her little moments bt shes also pretty like. laidback. in a way. KDSHFSDLKHGHFLKSD
prob bc she smokes a lot or is often <3 on a trip if u know wht i mean <3
god. got obsessed with the 60s n 70s aesthetic at some point n hs not gone back evr. big fan of psychedelic rock. is a prodigy painter bt her life dream outside of traveling ws always to own her own record label. hs nt happened yet, maybe will never happen? works at a record shop though n does hide the good vinyls tht she wants away frm the customers.
very cheerful n usually uplifting n she doesnt like to b negative around others bt smtms she cnt control it n smtms thinks tht ppl r out 2 get her jst out of. anxiety. hs long bouts where she’ll sit in a still sort of sadness n then shake out of it n hop back into conversation like nothing’s happened bt. its fine we’re fine kira is fine.
shes not gullible or naive bt wants to believe tht everybody hs a heart of gold even if its false. keeps giving ppl second chances bc she hs a savior complex n thinks she cn change ppl.
is very into zodiac n will judge u by ur chart. knows everybody in town’s natal chart. even newcomers. it’s a little scary hw quick she finds this information bt its very important to her.
kind of like. into spirituality bt i wont lie its very surface level n a little superficial. learning tarot cards bt cannot fr the life of her memorize the meanings so smtms she jst makes up things on the spot. hs so many crystals she will not stop buying them.
i think a part of her is desperately trying to cling onto tht like. think positive. self care. msg thts super prevalent online without addressing or actually helping any of her problems. it is her flaw </3
hates to admit when she needs help. wld rather do everything herself.
head is a little in the clouds n her parents r a little concerned fr her bc shes nt rly doing much rn bt like. she jst needs time i think. shes jst doing her little thing.
does not give up on ppl easily she absolutely hates dropping ppl frm her life even if she grows 2 resent them over time which is bad bc she is bad at hiding when she is upset at someone or when she doesnt like someone.
like shes jst passive aggressive abt it n does not properly communicate <3
bt this is rare i think ... negative feelings abt other ppl
self centered bt not selfish if tht makes sense. she will do things fr others without a problem n sometimes trips over herself 2 do it bt at the end of the day i think she cares abt herself the most.
hs only been in love once bt hs hd many infatuations n many like. admirations n very surface level feelings. her body is a temple n she loves 2 b worshipped.
prob does fkn. beach yoga. probably vegan bt also maybe breaks tht every once in a while. almost noncommittal its hard 2 distinguish between her being carefree, not taking care of herself, or jst hving commitment issues? flaky or not? who knows.
feels jst a bit too strongly bt tries to contain it. jst full of multitudes or smth. idk. icon <3
like. cares bt doesnt care. does thinks tht r purposely self destructive n then acts like shes like. cool girl monologue frm gone girl. bt does it while being like peace n luv on earth x
ok thts all i hv goodbye
wanted plots.
a pseudonym 2 fool ‘em... ;; jst hd this idea pop up bt i like the idea of kira going undercover 2 expose cheaters. whether she does this on her own accord or is personally requested by smbdy is up in the air. a plottable point. she h8s cheaters n is chaotic good she prob thinks shes the relationship vigilante testing the strengths of other’s relationships. once again she cld b. specifically going undercover fr smbdy 2 help them out. im sure she wldnt go 2 very. extensive srs measures like actually. sleeping w the assumed-cheaters bt once again. world is our oyster n i lov drama?
crystal visions ... ;; once again. shes super into crystals n astrology n she will base sm of her opinions of others on it. this is nt just abt her being judgmental of others bt also jst. catching her running around in the rain trying sooo hard 2 fkn. charge her crystals in the rainwater bc she forgot 2 charge them under the full moon the night b4. this is her giving wrong tarot readings. she hs no idea wht shes doing at any given time bt acts like she does know. acts like she knows the entire world. she gives crystals as gifts n will do ur natal chart for u bt will also pack her things n leave if ur a capricorn.
time of the season... ;; i dnt knw admittedly. this song’s abt being horny so perhaps? perhaps. kira isnt rly able to keep a grasp on long term relationships rn due to. factors in her life so she hops frm person 2 person often. smtms jst flings smtms its jst a relationship accidentally led on. shes noncommittal n a little flaky atm when she’s usually ride or die fr others. perhaps this is all in the name of some good fun! world? oyster. 
literally anything .dsfskhdkgs ;; god. shes so new i jst dnt know. childhood friends. current friends. friends shes hd frever. enemies n ex lovers n ppl shes constantly pushing away or scorned lovers or both or anything?? she pushed them out of the roller rink to make more room fr herself or maybe they did tht to her. perhaps theyre both constantly pursuing some sort of fkn. meaning in their lives tht they cnt quite grasp. mayb they go on an acid trip together. who knows. 
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5h4rk1zzl3 · 3 years
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mmmm im tryna avoid binging rn and am bored and we know how tht leads to it soooooo im gonna do all 30 days in one post :)
day 1- idk the exact tbh. dont have a weigh scale at my house bc everyone else is naturally skinny but me, im gonna try and buy one soon tho.
day 2- around 5'4 ehhh im not terribly mad about it but i definitely would prefer to be taller.
day 3- a pic of my thinspiration and why:
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i really like how their shoulders are boney & the skinny limbs & the slight abs omg & the collar bones AHHHH
day 4- tbhhh i have quite a few fears:
-i wont look how i wanna look at my ugw
-stretch marks wont fade enough & will still be just as bad when im skinny
-saggy skin :/ im loosing around 60 lbs so i think that might happen idk tho
-people wont even realize i lost weight??? idk i feel like ppl arent even gonna realize for some reason bc i only wear all baggy clothes anyways idk makes no sense cos u can still tell but whtever
-ppl will still view me as the fat sister.... uh idk i just always have been it and i feel like ill still be viewed as it even when im skinny
-ill gain it all back ¿¿ kinda cliche but it already happened to me and i dont wanna let it happen it time.
day 5- yeah im doing it for myself mostly but theres alotta reasons like the main one being i used to be skinny and was so much happier and more comfortable then... but theres alotta smaller reasons like maybe get more (good) attention, get praise from ppl, can wear better clothes, idk not feel so insecure
day 6- yeahhhhhhhhh uhhh i think mostly it happens when i get mad and then i cant help myself :| i gotta work on that but ive been pretty good with it for the past 2 months actually i have binged a fee times but each time i worked out enough to kinda even it out i feel like (if tht even makes sense)
day 7- yeah but they think im doing it healthily because i lie abt my cals
day 8-mostly running on a treadmill
day 9- uhmmm no not rlly besides my parents... actually yeah maybe some of my exes friends :|
day 10- time tbh... the amount of time i spend working out is insane im so behind on all my fkn school work
day 11- idk i dont rlly keep track of blogs i kinda use pinterest for thinspo mostly
day 12-alot of string beans, strawberries & tht 45 calorie toast
day 13- its been pretty healthy because i wanted to avoid going down a spiral again. (eating 1500 working out for 1.5 hours) but im seeing no results and i been doing this for 2 months and now i feel myself starting to slip. ive been eating under 500 for the past week and starting to work out for 2-4 hours a day
day 14- 95, idk i was supposed to reach it by the end of july but now i think it may take alot longer :/
day 15- no
day 16- 2 months ago i used to be pretty skinny march of 2020 and then covid happened and i gained like 40 lbs in a year and now i wanna get back down
day 17- idk?????? sometimes i think i do but no im not diagnosed, like last year i used adderall to loose weight and idk if that counts as one but i wish i could do tht again but cant get my hands on any
day 18- bagels omg. so high in cals. so yummy. like i cant afford it bc ONE is 290 cals and then i always put butter so another 80 (relatively low cal butter)
day 19- its actually been a while so i had to check the door dash app lol. but may 1st i ordered popeyes :,) mostly for my family
day 20- none. i dont diet i just count calories
day 21- idk?????? i wear xlarge hoodies & sweats everyday
day 22-i think around 120, covid and a mix of my bf breaking up wm caused me to be super depressed and i gained sm up to 170
day 23- yeah i wanna look like all the perfect ppl i see
day 24- i dont like it like idk why ppl would be pro why would u wish it upon anyone.
day 25- yeahhhhhhhhh i did before but i learned now not to because it honestly doesnt get rid of all the calories & leaves u hungrier but i did a year ago
day 26- TBHHHHH having sex again LMAOO i havent since i got fat bc im too insecure
day 27- not well :|
day 28- YES. my mom & sister both have it and i want it SO BAD. i didnt even have it a year ago when i was at my lowest weight which is so annoying
day 29- sebastian stan😍😍😍😍😍LMAOOOOOO
day 30- 10 facts ab me
1- im scared of driving a car LMAOO
2- total insomniac
3- can run a 5 min mile (at 0 incline tho)
4- read ALOT
5- obsessed w marvel
6- in love w sebastian stan :,)
7- love jetskiing
8- gonna move to nyc in a year
9- love coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
10- currently am failing 4/6 of my classes
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iinamoratos · 4 years
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yowza
NAME/ALIAS: liv
ANY NICKNAMES?: wiv, koaliv if i’m especially clingy
TIMEZONE: gmt+8
PRONOUNS: she/her
WHAT’S YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?: scorpio
MBTI?: infp
FAVORITE FICTIONAL CHARACTER(S)?:  aroma white (cytus ii), ellie (the last of us), marnie, sonia and hop (pokemon sword/shield), any mean girl in any high school movie/show ever no exceptions
ANY FAVORITE SHOWS?: i barely watch tv NWKNDFK but atm, queen’s gambit!
FAVORITE MOVIES?: barbie movies. don’t boo me. i’m right
FAVORITE VIDEO GAME?: cytus, deemo, pokemon, fire emblem, ace attorney, the last of us, danganronpa, a lot more im sure ksjnnd
FAVORITE MUSIC ARTIST, ALBUM, OR SONG?: perspectives by m2u and nikki simmons, marigold by m2u and nicode (rhythm game music. it’s just rhythm game music)
FAVORITE BOOK?:  i havent read a book in 10 years DJKSDFJ
DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?: a dog named coco!
IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD, WHERE WOULD YOU GO?: my gf’s arms wtf. also japan
WOULD YOU RATHER FIGHT ONE HORSE SIZED DUCK OR 10 DUCK SIZED HORSES?: 10 duck sized horses, except, i would not fight them, but rather, they will b my fwiends :)
FMK ( BARRY BEE BENSON, SHREK, OR THE ONCELER ):  fuck shrek, marry barry, kill the onceler
ANYTHING YOU’D LIKE TO LINK? THINK YOUR PINTEREST, MAIN, W/E: follow me at @espeomite​ tho i wont lie i am barely on there KJDNKJDN
HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN RPING FOR?: since i was 12! good ol’ deviantart
DO YOU HAVE ANY FAVORITE TYPES OF CONNECTIONS? ( THINK FRIENDS, ENEMIES, ETC. ): UNREQUITED LOVE good GOD I CAN GO ON FOREVER
WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE RP EVENTS?: anything related to chrismis,,, crimis,,, chrysler :’)
DO YOU HAVE ANY FAVORITE RP TASKS?:  anything to do w/ CLOTHES!! costumes or just general wardrobe stuff!!!!
ARE YOU OKAY WITH THE MAIN CONTACTING YOU IN THE FUTURE FOR RP PLOTS? WE WON’T DO ANYTHING WITHOUT RUNNING IT PAST YOU FIRST: no <3 gib if ur reading this fight me 😘
ANYTHING ELSE?: i am the absolute worst at plotting im sorry bt i love u guys....
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nako-doodles · 4 years
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wow thank u for the thoughtful response i really appreciate it 🥺 and yeah hes been tested for learning disabilities and they said theres none but he is in ESL classes instead and tbh when u asked where his problems lie in the beginning.. literally all of them he struggles with 😓 but i will try my best. its hard esp now bc all they do is sit in one spot for hrs and i feel bad when i have to extend that for hw time and make it longer. i guess i’ll have to figure how to break it up into small sections like u said so it wont be too much of a burden. again thank u i have somwhere i can start now
oh my god bro i hated ESL growing up they always managed to suck all the fun out of everything. to this day i cant look at those blue writing books without feeling the need to cry
im glad i could somewhat help. the homework part is gonna require you to sit down w him but all the other parts you can try making them into games! theres a lot of resources online and as much as i hate it pinterest will be your best friend
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educxtional · 7 years
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I was really struggling this week. Working way too hard, skipping breaks and meals, not staying hydrated, not showering, not taking my meds. it was bad. even at the busiest times, self-care is so so important. if I needed help, then I'm probably not the only one. all of these lil ideas are small and relatively easy and I highly doing something nice for yourself, even if it’s not on the list. hope you all have a wonderful day/week/year. 
(my personal favourites in bold)
drink some cold water
wash your hands and face with cool water
make some tea
get a blanket and snuggle it around you
snuggle an animal/stuffed animal
buy your favorite candy from the gas station
close your eyes and listen to your fav song on repeat for 10 mins
put on some throwback jams (high school musical, mamma mia, 90s, u do u) and dance around ur room in ur undies 
make a calming playlist
call a friend/relative just to say hi and hear someone else’s voice
rewatch cute/funny/happy clips from ur fav tv show/band/movie on youtube
put on a skirt and twirl (yes boys/agenders/trans u can do this too)
scribble really hard with black pen on a blank page and scream
look at the sky/moon/sunset/sunrise/stars
write
watch kitten/puppy/small animal live streams on youtube
go outside, even if its just by ur front door, and take some deep breaths
eat something - fruit, veggies are best
change ur contacts/clean ur glasses if you wear those
change your underwear
if u can't get urself to shower, wash off w a damp washcloth/baby wipe
put on a cute/comfy outfit that makes you feel good about urself
dont put eye makeup on so you can rub your eyes & they wont feel heavy
stretch, do some yoga or meditate
get a breathing/meditation app and use it (headspace is gr8)
take a nap
go to bed before 11 pm
brush your teeth
turn off bright harsh lights and use smaller, warmer lamps
unplug. give your eyes/brain a break from screens for a half hour
get one of those pet/family apps/games and care for someone else for a change
find cool people on tumblr and send them anonymous compliments (that you actually think are true - spread love)
find a quote, write it/print it nicely and stick it on ur wall
watch a new movie
boil some cinnamon sticks/vanilla bean for 5 mins so ur house smells pretty. if in ur room, use essential oil drops or candles
make your bed
vacuum 
wipe down ur desk w some disinfectant
clean something - a backpack, small area, fluff ur pillow, put away one shirt
do your makeup all pretty and nice just because/dress up just because
research into your dream job/vacation/city/whatever
open up pages/canva/photshop/etc and make something just for fun
build a fort and crawl under it
find an easy diy and do it/ be proud of ur creative genius
make a list of things that make you happy. stick it somewhere you’ll see it all the time
print a picture of someone/thing that’s pissing u off and throw things at it (tape it to a dart board if u have one)
reread a book that makes you happy
clip your nails, clean the dirt from under them
send some good old fashioned snail mail to someone u like just for fun
take some selfies if you’re feelin it (see #40)
fuzzy socks. enough said. 
make yourself a fancy meal/cocktail/coffee/tea latte/drink/whatevs
open ur window or put on a fan/air purifier. get some air circulating
draw, even if u think u suck. 
reach out to kids help phone (canada) or a suicide hotline if you need to talk to someone about more serious matters. you deserve help and care and support. (message me if you need resources)
donate to a local animal shelter (if u have the means obviously)
go for a walk/run/bike ride
put on a face mask
take a bubble path
shave ur legs and moisturize
moisturize 
bake some cookies
go on spotify/youtube and find some new music you love
make a really fun upbeat playlist for next time u get the aux cord
scroll through some wholesome or funny meme accounts. whatever you’re in the mood for. 
take some cool pictures of whatever you want
change up your room in any small ( or big) way that you can
teach urself a new skill on youtube (simple like a hair style, or complicated like an instrument, whatever u want)
sign up to volunteer at a library/homeless shelter/soup kitchen/retirement home/daycare center/etc. help those who need it. be giving. 
put on sad music and cry. let ur mascara run. be dramatic. let it out.
put rock music on and stomp and scream throw (soft) things. let it out. 
teach urself the words to a fast rap song thats cool right now so you can impress ur friends/classmates/family
print off some kid colouring pages and dont stay inside the lines
brush your hair, take it out of a ponytail if its been like that for a while, or put it up if its down and in ur way
diy a hair mask (coconut oil) and do that
exfoliate ur whole body and feel like a whole new person
clear out ur phone/laptop. delete old messages, numbers of people u dont like/hang out with, get rid of photos of shitty friends, apps u dont use, etc
find cards against humanity online (or if u have it use the cards) and play with urself - make funny matches just because
empty a drawer (or multiple) and fold ur stuff neatly
do something that will make u sweat (gym, dance, clean) then take a nice shower
take a second to listen to ur body. unclench muscles that are clenched, fix ur poster, massage/stretch tight areas
move to a different area of the house for a little while. clear ur head. 
go out, anywhere. window shop, go to a coffee shop/library and work. people watch if ur broke. 
update your planner
make Pinterest board/real life vision of things that make you happy for when in this situation again
find a youtuber you like and watch their videos
lie on the floor, listen to music and do nothing for a while
give yourself a pep talk in the mirror and then stand like superman for a few mins. sounds silly but it works. its called powerposing. look it up. 
repeating this bc important: hydrate!!!
start a new tv show
order something online so u have something to look forward to
go sit with a family member and keep them company. u dont have to talk to them. 
the app ‘trump dump’ will make u feel better about the current us political situation
read happy news: find stories of students doing something cool, women kicking ass, men being amazing, whatever. bonus points if this inspires u
sort your garbage from recycling and help the environment
smile at people you see just because. smiling is good and nice. 
look at old pictures of u and ur fav people
go through old yearbooks and take a second to appreciate how far you’ve come
go to a park and watch kids play. remember what it’s like to be young. realize you are still young. go on the swings and go as high as u can
play in a sandbox just because u still can
xo soph
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cassias-corner-blog · 7 years
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92 questions!
This seems fun! Let’s do it!
last
1) drink: ice water (lavish i know)
2) phone call: my mom ;w;
3) text message: my best friends <3
4) song you listened to: uhm... something by bastille, i can’t remember
5) time you cried: not sure, but sometime this week
have you
6) dated someone twice: haha i haven’t even dated someone once
7) kissed someone and regretted it: never kissed s/o before lmao
8) been cheated on: nup
9) lost someone special: yes...
10) been depressed: no, <3′s to those who have... stay strong, y’all are lovely
11) gotten drunk and thrown up: ALCOHOL IS FOR NERDS THE ONLY DRUNK I NEED IS THE INTOXICATING RUSH OF LOVE I GET FROM PETTING MY BELOVED CAT
list three favorite colors
12) aqua blue ~da ba dee da ba di~
13) lavender
14) clover green
in the last year have you
15) made new friends: si!
16) fallen out of love: oui
17) laughed until you cried: ja~
18) found out someone was talking about you: non
19) met someone who changed you: ehm... si
20) found out who your friends are: ?? wdym fam
21) kissed someone on your facebook list: facebook is for angry PTA moms and 2009 kids
general
22) how many of your facebook friends do you know: ^^
23) do you have any pets: of course~
24) do you want to change your name: hell no i love my name
25) what did you do for your last birthday: i watched Fantastic Beasts with my friends!
26) what time did you wake up: 8:30 am c; i had late start for school
27) what were you doing at midnight last night: reading fanfiction, i wont lie
28) name something you can’t wait for: travel the world and seven seas with my amazing friends, go to college, meet my soulmate, and write a book
29) when was the last time you saw your mom: a few hours ago, she went to bed before me!
30) what is the one thing you wish you could change in life: i wish that i could heal my loved ones 
31) what are you listening to right now: the clacking of my keyboard
32) have you ever talked to a person named tom: indeed i have
33) something that is getting on your nerves: pretentious people :c
34) most visited websites: youtube, pinterest (does discord count?)
lost questions
35) mole/s: somewhere in the 40s. i’m a moley person
36) mark/s: as in scars? one on my knee, some in my throat (i had a tonsillectomy), i used to have one on my shoulder
37) childhood dream: being an author and zoologist
38) hair colour: dirty blonde
39) long or short hair: short! (naturally, in fact)
40) do you have a crush on someone: ...yyyyes
41) what do you like about yourself: my sense of humor and the fact that i’m always a shoulder to cry on for my loved ones
42) piercings: on both of my ears!
43) blood type: i can’t remember...you fucking vampires
44) nickname: cassiass, cassiopeia, cassie, cas of milk, assia, CIA ass
45) relationship status: single as a pringle and pathetic af
46) zodiac: scorpio c:<
47) pronouns: she/her/hers
48) favourite tv show: voltron OR dirk gently’s holistic detective agency
49) tattoos: none, i am a smol
50) right or left hand: right-handed!
51) surgery: i got my tonsils and adenoids out last year
52) hair dyed in a different colour: i’m dying my hairtips pink soon!
53) sport: martial arts in the past, swimming, yoga
54) hello, number 54: magst du jazz
55) vacation: school trip maybe??in february
56) pair of trainers: que?
more general
57) eating: nada
58) drinking: agua
59) i’m about to: read fanfiction until im sleepy
get rekt im skipping 60
61) waiting for: my crush to notice me cmon
62) want: to adopt a pet <3
63) get married: with a trusted s/o who will take me on cliche ass dates and love me and flirt with me and have water gun fights with me until we’re old and wrinkly and we’ll never get tired of each other
64) career: i’d LOVE to be an author
which is better
65) hugs or kisses: i don’t know!! i haven’t kissed anybody yet!
66) lips or eyes: eyes~
67) shorter or taller: taller
68) older or younger: idm
aww ye no 69 because it’s too kinky
70) nice arms or nice stomach: honestly i just want somebody with a nice heart
71) sensitive or loud: a swirl~
72) hook up or relationship: relationship, of c
73) troublemaker or hesitant: depends
have you ever
74) kissed a stranger: noo
75) drank hard liquor: ew no
76) lost glasses/contact lenses: yeah in an airplane ;_; found them thankfully
77) turned someone down: yes...yikes
78) sex on the first date: NOT IN MY GOOD CHRISTIAN TUMBLR POST
79) broken someone’s heart: i...yeah
80) had your heart broken: i don’t know? sort of? not really?
81) been arrested: aw hell no
82) cried when someone died: yes.
83) fallen for a friend: yeah gjkfdh
do you believe in
84) yourself: yes c:< I GOT THIS
85) miracles: i believe in luck
86) love at first sight: i don’t know... maybe someday
87) santa claus: maybe somewhere far far away~
88) kiss on the first date: yeah, only if you’ve known them before though
89 doesn’t exist i’m too cool for 89. im a kool cid
other
90) current best friend’s name: i have 5 best friends, actually! 2 sisters from other misters around the globe (met online 3 years ago- we’ll meet someday luvs) and 3 sibs from other cribs near me (one is my childhood bestie, the other two i met six years ago)! not saying names just in case u silly salamis 
91) eye colour: chestnut brown
92) favourite movie: the lost boys (1987) aka a fucking comedic masterpiece go watch it my dudes
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showlexsite · 5 years
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Reasons My Hubby Won’t Have Sexual Intercourse Beside Me!
Reasons My Hubby Won’t Have Sexual Intercourse Beside Me!
This might be an edited type of the original essay.
Whenever I composed a weblog post called “Reasons My Wife Won’t have intercourse With Me” I got a lot of great feedback from this plus it ended up being seen over 300,000 times regarding the very first time alone. But one question we kept hearing afterwards had been: “ Can you compose one for ladies and reveal to me why my hubby won’t have sexual intercourse beside me?“
Sure. Appears effortless.
I inquired a friends that are few responses, & most of us just scratched our minds. Men that don’t want to have intercourse? Overwhelmingly, we heard it was the situation and females wanted responses.
Now, I do not speak from experience with this one. I will be constantly up for sex, and so I seemed for ideas on this subject from some buddies, including Dave Wilson, Adam Palmer, Shaunti Feldhahn, Dave Willis and Jon Kitna.
Similar to my very very first post, this isn’t a definitive list by any means; I’m putting it nowadays to ideally encourage you speak about these items together with your partner. Whenever you can be truthful and open along with your partner regarding your sex life, it is possible to frequently get to the base of this without also looking over this weblog. If you do not learn how to communicate with each other, enlist a therapist that will help you discover ways to communicate.
Me offer a couple of statistics before I hit the list, let:
A survey that is recent of found that people who stated these people were fulfilled intimately had intercourse on average times a week. Every week) so that’s something to think about (especially how you can get that 0..
In accordance with a 200newsweek research, between 1% and 20% of partners you live in a sexless wedding, thought as having intercourse a maximum of 10 times per year. While sex isn’t the be-all, end-all to a marriage, it really is certainly one of the better techniques to keep closeness.
Okay, now let’s go through the listing of reasons your husband will not have sexual intercourse to you:
No guy Really Wants To Have Intercourse With His Mom. This will be all about respect. No guy would like to have intercourse by having a spouse who is constantly mothering him. If you should be constantly on him, critiquing and whining by what he does or does not do, he then’d probably favour sex with himself because he understands you’re not content with their performance when you look at the bed room, either. There is a complete lot more where that came from.
He Does Not Feel Desired. Men wish to be wanted. In Shaunti Feldhahn’s guide For Women Only, 66% of males said it is crucial which they feel wanted by their partner. Getting intercourse was not sufficient by itself — exactly like wives desire to be desired, husbands would also like to be desired. Your desire him have confidence in his daily life for him is a huge foundation that helps. We additionally talked about that when you look at the post that is last bit, the games couples have fun with intercourse about whom initiated final time and all sorts of that. If there has been times before in your wedding where you have turned him down, he then might just not need the guts to start intercourse away from anxiety about rejection. We talked about this week that is last stated that this is his problem in which he has to lead, but ideally it will help you realize why he’s maybe maybe not wanting intercourse also it might be he does not want to have refused once again.
He Is Coping With Health Issues or anxiety. It is rather feasible your spouse has some type of medical problem or despair he simply does not wish to cope with. We males . we are generally pretty terrible about acknowledging our weaknesses, even though they truly are impacting us and making us lose our appetite for sex. This past year as some of you know, I was sick for months. One of several medications I made the decision to just simply take (out from the several that have been recommended) knocked me down at nighttime and left me personally scarcely in a position to get up each morning. I pointed out that if We took this capsule before going to sleep, I experienced no wish to have intercourse and couldn’t even get it up. Yeah. My spouse really laughed if this took place after which I grabbed the container through the restroom and revealed her which was a relative side effectation of the medication. Which was the final day on that medicine. Anyhow, there are lots of various problems your husband might be working with medically that affect his sex-life and drive. It may be time for a vacation into the physician.
Flannel Pajamas Suck. Why don’t we just be honest: dudes are visual and if you’ren’t putting any work into everything you seem like and making the bed room an amazing spot to be, he then may not be switched on. Life happens — aging, maternity, disease, fat gain — you aren’t planning to look the means you did once you two first met. Happily, the much deeper we love some body, the less importance we put on the surface and also the more we concentrate on the inside. Having said that: it generally does not harm to include just a little effort that is extra look good for the hubby. free mobile porn bukkake Often a good change that is small make a large effect, like resisting the desire to put in ratty sweats when you go back home, putting on a lovely outfit in place of frumpy jeans for per night out, or really wearing a few of the “sexy” lingerie you’ve bought. My buddy Shaunti and I are composing a guide called Visual, speaking about the visual nature of males, and she mentions men’s “visual rolodex” (or even upgrade it: “visual disk drive”) in her own book for females just. Spouses must be the standard image on the spouse’s artistic hard disk drive, so make a consignment to take care of your self as well you can work together to get a healthier lifestyle — both physically and emotionally — and make yourselves visually exciting for each other as you can — maybe you’ll inspire your husband and the two of.
(71.3% of males within the U.S are obese or obese when compared with 68% of females. So, dudes you’ve got to the office with this much more than your spouses.)
. You Pay More Attention to Facebook Than to Him. possibly this is certainly simply me personally, nonetheless it may seem like many guys i am aware are finished with Facebook. It will be something else next week but come on, already if it isn’t Facebook. The feedback, the articles, the loves, the stocks . place the thing down for a little and interact with the individual in your sleep. Terms with Friends, Facebook, Pinterest, Instagram, and all sorts of these other activities have crept into our bedrooms and start to become a distraction. Now, dudes are not resistant for this issue — within my home it is ESPN and my “girlfriend” (my partner’s nickname for my laptop computer), therefore make an understanding that, after the young ones retire for the night, you place every thing away and take to and relate to each other.
6. He’s Setting It Up Some Other Place. Tests also show that a lot of (not all the) dudes need sex any three times or less. Then i would have to wonder where else he is getting it — either through an affair or through porn if you aren’t having sex anywhere close to this frequency. Do not get someone that is hiring the tv screen show Cheaters as of this time, but do have frank conversation with him concerning the possibility. Many guys or gals will lie when confronted too, so they are maybe perhaps not just simple conversations to ask as soon as and merely accept it and proceed. Dive into this and progress to an accepted place of sincerity — plus don’t forget to get a reliable therapist for assistance if you’d like it. (of course it’s porn, we could assist. Here are a few resources you’ll consider to point him to this assistance.)
His Walls Are Up. In the way that is same spouses can set up walls, therefore can husbands.
While guys are generally fairly proficient at compartmentalizing their demands, it is nevertheless feasible for problem to develop to the stage where it generates a wall surface. It could be a major problem in your relationship or perhaps in your private life that affects both of you relationally, spiritually, or actually. It might be your very own despair or health that is physical or an alteration in character that features him wondering what’s happening. Whatever it is, search for signals to generally share it, then run toward that conflict and deal along with it. It might be difficult, but it is worth every penny. Talk. Listen. Then listen even more. Own up to whatever you might have to take duty for, and don’t forget you’re in this together.
I hope it will help. I must say I hate to see hitched people perhaps not sex that is having also terrible intercourse is preferable to no sex. Of course your intercourse is terrible, that simply means you are free to practice more!
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* justice smith, demi man + he/they | you know gabriel de leon, right? they’re twenty three, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, six years? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to 1984 (infinite jest) by the used like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole waking up in a body as heavy as the dead, emotions always on the verge of spilling over - you laugh before the punch lands, the belief that every encounter you have will be the last thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 31st, so they’re a scorpio, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 21, est, they/them )
hi im just reposting gabe’s intro bc its been a very long time n im starting a little fresh hehe. yes i do regret the text color bt im not going back.
VIOLENCE TW
mini playlist.
ghosting ;; mother mother / roam the room ;; citizen / art of doubt ;; metric / thnks fr th mmrs ;; fall out boy / heart in a cage ;; the strokes / where is my mind? ;; the pixies / flowers grow out of my grave ;; dead man’s bones / 1984 (infinite jest) ;; the used / blister in the sun ;; the violent femmes.
statistics.
full name: gabriel de leon.
nickname(s): gabe.
birthday: october 31st, 1997.
zodiac: scorpio sun, scorpio moon, gemini ascending.
label: the icarian.
hometown: belleville, new jersey.
sexuality: bisexual (masc-leaning).
pinterest.
biography.
it’s only rly ever been gabe n his mom n the little new jersey suburbs that r always the same no matter where they go. they dn’t speak abt fathers or brothers or spain or anywhere other than the now, and how its constantly changing bt oddly the same.
his mom’s name is sonia n we love her. she worked a lot as a single mom n p much hs done everything on her own ever since leaving spain.
they dn’t talk abt spain bt we cn talk abt spain n hw sonia hd grown up partially there n partially in the states n hw she’d originally planned to live there forever bt the man she’d fallen in love with ws involved in some. high class dangerous shit n it ws safer fr them to part even if tht involved leaving everything she knew n loved <3
bt its like. ok. bc she hd gabe <3 n they dnt talk abt it so it practically nvr happened. n she tries her best as a mom n usually tht is enough.
they moved around a lot just bc sonia is a very. flighty person. anxious bt nvr seems tht way is just always. tense. gabe didnt think she ws capable of relaxing fr. a rly long time.
she wld commute 2 nyc every morning n after school gabe wld climb onto the train n by the time he got 2 her place of work she’d be just getting off n they’d get a slice of pizza n sometimes they’d go somewhere like central park or coney island (just fr the novelty) bt most of the time they just got back on the train home w/ gabe either doing homework or napping on her shoulder.
when gabe got a little older he’d sometimes skip school n take the train after sonia had already gone so he cld spend the day in nyc. he liked learning bt didnt rly like school. he nvr properly fit in bc of the amt of times they’d move so it felt like nowhere ws. right fr him.
got rly involved in. the punk scene as a young unsupervised teenager n tht led 2 a lot of like. shitty stick n pokes bt also a love of. very loud angry music n a sense of justice tht he held tightly in his fists. got mouthy towards bullies whether at school or in the scenes he involved himself in n started getting into a lot of fights bc of it.
during this, sonia ended up dating n marrying gabe’s stepdad who he calls craig sometimes bt i dnt think thats his name i wont lie to u guys. its partially a joke n partially purposeful disrespect bc gabriel does not trust a single man bt like. man. ‘craig’ is just an accountant. he’s fine he’s a good dude. they once bonded over like. the mets.
violence tw // anyways. when gabriel ws 16 he got into a super super bad fight tht ended rly. terribly n like listen. nobody died bt it ws just. it got blown up very out of proportion n gabe might’ve gotten expelled even tho he wsnt even the one who started it bt thts okay. ‘craig’, or paul, suggested tht maybe. a change of scenery wld b good fr gabe n b4 they knew it they were. moving to paul-robert’s hometown of irving, north carolina. violence end of tw //
he wld’ve complained more bt. fr sonia’s sake gabe kept it 2 himself. it made her happy 2 see them all get along anyways n like. idk he cld put forth tht little effort <3
bt honestly like. he didnt rly get into too many fights once they moved down here n even tho sometimes he ws like. ommgg. i hate this town .. its so washed up .. he still made friends n like. the only thing tht changed ws tht it ws a lil harder fr him 2 acquire illegal substances.
anyways. currently he hs a tattoo apprenticeship n is a professional piercer n like. he plays guitar n writes songs bt thts more of a hobby rn than anything else. mostly focused on paying his rent at port apartments bc as much as he. loves his mom he does not want 2 live with her forever <3 n thts okay!
personality & facts.
overall xtremely passionate person like god. feels emotions so intensely. every time he opens his mouth n talks abt an interest of theirs its just very like. u listen n ur like oh. gained 2 inspiration. thanks.
clings onto his friends p tightly bc he like. nvr rly stayed in one place fr super super long in new jersey so he nvr made very long term friends n now hes like. very clingy HLKDSHLKFSHLKDG also hates to b alone. subtle desperation behind interactions with ppl he rly wld like to be friends with.
like dnt get me wrong hes gotten into. sm fights bt thts mostly bc he cannot keep his mouth shut n he also cnt stand douchebags he like. always wants to tear them down prob bc he ws a victim of bullying. n u know what. we support him. otherwise he loves ppl bt esp if they hv similar interests 2 him.
like golden retriever who bites kind of. intensely loyal but at the same time is very skeptical. things tht good things do not last very long even though they’ve been doing already fr the last few years.
also bit of a nerd. they were nvr rly a big fan of school bt theres smth abt a good superhero comic tht draws their attention more than like. any english class evr. bt seven soldiers of victory? classic. big dc fan.
uh. very into like. hardcore music. hardcore rock. punk. if its loud n angry they r into it like so so much. hs sm tattoos is like. super covered in them its partially bc they work at a tattoo shop n partially bc they do not know hw to manage their money well.
ooohh u know what theyre. kinda moody i wont lie to u. very defensive like they dnt evr wna talk abt their past. has experienced Things n they do not wish to discuss them. will usually like. deflect frm conversations he doesnt wna hv.
in tune with nature. loves fkn taking walks. hangs out in the woods by abernathy creek n lilac ridge bc nobody rly goes there n its just. nice
tries not 2 take anything super seriously 2 the point where when he does take smth seriously its a little scary bc theyre super intense abt it. forcibly optimistic even tho on the inside he feels like a total pessimist. lots of. deep down insecurities tht he projects by attaching himself p firmly onto others. >.>
so so so energetic. can never stay still. always hs to be moving around. restless like tht. probably got it frm his mom. overly protective over the ppl he loves. probably got it frm his mom as well.
goes onto Tangents bt also divert frm those tangents n is generally all over the place.
always cold n always looks tired n like he hsnt slept in a thousand years n u know what. sometimes he just does not sleep.
oooohh theyre a vegan. totally into animal rights. devious little demi man beyond that .. loves horror n the paranormal n believes in like. every cryptic. will debate u on it.
erm not. the kindest 2 themself theyre a bit self destructive. impulsive. drives very fast n parties super hard. said i will hv my effy stonem moment. u dont hv to gabe.
bt ya! luvs oranges n reds n is maybe a short king. hs an eyebrow piercing n like. a lip ring i wont fk around here he IS living his best emo life in 2021. a little outdated on the trends bt thats okay. probably will tell u hes frm new jersey. its a personality trait. smokes the shittiest cigarettes ever.
wanted plots.
just ghosting along ,, dnt even exist 2 me ,, ;; god. firstly just the vast amt of ppl tht gabe hs like. spoken to romantically n then dropped suddenly. n then maybe like. one tht actually Hurt bt they cnt avoid each other bt theyre actively pretending each other doesnt exist n its. hurtful bc it ws like. actually smth nice bt <3 ykno FKLFSDHG
hey hey heyy c’maahn i’m just a little guy ;; n this is the vast amt of ppl tht gabe hs probably. pissed off n hs either fought or been on the verge of fighting just. unable 2 resist a good bicker-turned-duel.
just blistering in the sun ;; they cld b close friends bt also they cld also not b bt just ppl who. indulge in bad impulsive decisions with gabe. general bad influences on each other’s health n just. no good! party hard bt at what cost.
n also ;; like ... rly solid good friendships ... flings n maybe an exe or two tht either ended on good terms or just. horrendous, ppl they’ve distanced frm, ppl also frm up north, piercing customers, bt not tattoo customers bc im p sure they’d get fired if they were just tattoo’ing ppl willy nilly, etc.
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smalltragedy · 4 years
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* justice smith, demi man + he/they | you know gabriel de leon, right? they’re twenty three, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, six years? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to 1984 (infinite jest) by the used like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole waking up in a body as heavy as the dead, emotions always on the verge of spilling over - you laugh before the punch lands, the belief that every encounter you have will be the last thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is october 31st, so they’re a scorpio, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 21, est, they/them ) 
hllo this is my second child i think theyre p grand n i love them a lot. as always pls like if u’d like to plot i’d lov to interact with everybody
VIOLENCE TW
mini playlist.
ghosting ;; mother mother / roam the room ;; citizen / art of doubt ;; metric / thnks fr th mmrs ;; fall out boy / heart in a cage ;; the strokes / where is my mind? ;; the pixies / flowers grow out of my grave ;; dead man’s bones / 1984 (infinite jest) ;; the used / blister in the sun ;; the violent femmes.
statistics.
full name: gabriel de leon.
nickname(s): gabe.
birthday: october 31st, 1997.
zodiac: scorpio sun, scorpio moon, gemini ascending.
mbti & temperament: esfp & improvisor / sanguine.
label: the icarian.
hometown: belleville, new jersey.
sexuality: homosexual.
pinterest.
biography.
it’s only rly ever been gabe n his mom n the little new jersey suburbs that r always the same no matter where they go. they dn’t speak abt fathers or brothers or spain or anywhere other than the now, and how its constantly changing bt oddly the same.
his mom’s name is sonia n we love her. she worked a lot as a single mom n p much hs done everything on her own ever since leaving spain.
they dn’t talk abt spain bt we cn talk abt spain n hw sonia hd grown up partially there n partially in the states n hw she’d originally planned to live there forever bt the man she’d fallen in love with ws involved in some. high class dangerous shit n it ws safer fr them to part even if tht involved leaving everything she knew n loved <3
bt its like. ok. bc she hd gabe <3 n they dnt talk abt it so it practically nvr happened. n she tries her best as a mom n usually tht is enough.
they moved around a lot just bc sonia is a very. flighty person. anxious bt nvr seems tht way is just always. tense. gabe didnt think she ws capable of relaxing fr. a rly long time.
she wld commute 2 nyc every morning n after school gabe wld climb onto the train n by the time he got 2 her place of work she’d be just getting off n they’d get a slice of pizza n sometimes they’d go somewhere like central park or coney island (just fr the novelty) bt most of the time they just got back on the train home w/ gabe either doing homework or napping on her shoulder.
when gabe got a little older he’d sometimes skip school n take the train after sonia had already gone so he cld spend the day in nyc. he liked learning bt didnt rly like school. he nvr properly fit in bc of the amt of times they’d move so it felt like nowhere ws. right fr him.
got rly involved in. the punk scene as a young unsupervised teenager n tht led 2 a lot of like. shitty stick n pokes bt also a love of. very loud angry music n a sense of justice tht he held tightly in his fists. got mouthy towards bullies whether at school or in the scenes he involved himself in n started getting into a lot of fights bc of it.
during this, sonia ended up dating n marrying gabe’s stepdad who he calls craig sometimes bt i dnt think thats his name i wont lie to u guys. its partially a joke n partially purposeful disrespect bc gabriel does not trust a single man bt like. man. ‘craig’ is just an accountant. he’s fine he’s a good dude. they once bonded over like. the mets.
violence tw // anyways. when gabriel ws 16 he got into a super super bad fight tht ended rly. terribly n like listen. nobody died bt it ws just. it got blown up very out of proportion n gabe might’ve gotten expelled even tho he wsnt even the one who started it bt thts okay. ‘craig’, or paul, suggested tht maybe. a change of scenery wld b good fr gabe n b4 they knew it they were. moving to paul-robert’s hometown of irving, north carolina. violence end of tw //
he wld’ve complained more bt. fr sonia’s sake gabe kept it 2 himself. it made her happy 2 see them all get along anyways n like. idk he cld put forth tht little effort <3
bt honestly like. he didnt rly get into too many fights once they moved down here n even tho sometimes he ws like. ommgg. i hate this town .. its so washed up .. he still made friends n like. the only thing tht changed ws tht it ws a lil harder fr him 2 acquire illegal substances. 
anyways. currently he hs a tattoo apprenticeship n is a professional piercer n like. he plays guitar n writes songs bt thts more of a hobby rn than anything else. mostly focused on paying his rent at port apartments bc as much as he. loves his mom he does not want 2 live with her forever <3 n thts okay! 
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overall xtremely passionate person like god. feels emotions so intensely. every time he opens his mouth n talks abt an interest of theirs its just very like. u listen n ur like oh. gained 2 inspiration. thanks.
clings onto his friends p tightly bc he like. nvr rly stayed in one place fr super super long in new jersey so he nvr made very long term friends n now hes like. very clingy HLKDSHLKFSHLKDG also hates to b alone. subtle desperation behind interactions with ppl he rly wld like to be friends with.
like dnt get me wrong hes gotten into. sm fights bt thts mostly bc he cannot keep his mouth shut n he also cnt stand douchebags he like. always wants to tear them down prob bc he ws a victim of bullying. n u know what. we support him. otherwise he loves ppl bt esp if they hv similar interests 2 him.
like golden retriever who bites kind of. intensely loyal but at the same time is very skeptical. things tht good things do not last very long even though they’ve been doing already fr the last few years. 
also bit of a nerd. they were nvr rly a big fan of school bt theres smth abt a good superhero comic tht draws their attention more than like. any english class evr. bt seven soldiers of victory? classic. big dc fan.
uh. very into like. hardcore music. hardcore rock. punk. if its loud n angry they r into it like so so much. hs sm tattoos is like. super covered in them its partially bc they work at a tattoo shop n partially bc they do not know hw to manage their money well.
ooohh u know what theyre. kinda moody i wont lie to u. very defensive like they dnt evr wna talk abt their past. has experienced Things n they do not wish to discuss them. will usually like. deflect frm conversations he doesnt wna hv.
in tune with nature. loves fkn taking walks. hangs out in the woods by abernathy creek n lilac ridge bc nobody rly goes there n its just. nice
tries not 2 take anything super seriously 2 the point where when he does take smth seriously its a little scary bc theyre super intense abt it. forcibly optimistic even tho on the inside he feels like a total pessimist. lots of. deep down insecurities tht he projects by attaching himself p firmly onto others. >.>
so so so energetic. can never stay still. always hs to be moving around. restless like tht. probably got it frm his mom. overly protective over the ppl he loves. probably got it frm his mom as well.
goes onto Tangents bt also divert frm those tangents n is generally all over the place.
always cold n always looks tired n like he hsnt slept in a thousand years n u know what. sometimes he just does not sleep.
oooohh theyre a vegan. totally into animal rights. devious little demi man beyond that .. loves horror n the paranormal n believes in like. every cryptic. will debate u on it.
erm not. the kindest 2 themself theyre a bit self destructive. impulsive. drives very fast n parties super hard. said i will hv my effy stonem moment. u dont hv to gabe. 
bt ya! luvs oranges n reds n is maybe a short king. hs an eyebrow piercing n like. a lip ring i wont fk around here he IS living his best emo life in 2021. a little outdated on the trends bt thats okay. probably will tell u hes frm new jersey. its a personality trait. smokes the shittiest cigarettes ever.
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just ghosting along ,, dnt even exist 2 me ,, ;; god. firstly just the vast amt of ppl tht gabe hs like. spoken to romantically n then dropped suddenly. n then maybe like. one tht actually Hurt bt they cnt avoid each other bt theyre actively pretending each other doesnt exist n its. hurtful bc it ws like. actually smth nice bt <3 ykno FKLFSDHG
hey hey heyy c’maahn i’m just a little guy ;; n this is the vast amt of ppl tht gabe hs probably. pissed off n hs either fought or been on the verge of fighting just. unable 2 resist a good bicker-turned-duel.
just blistering in the sun ;; they cld b close friends bt also they cld also not b bt just ppl who. indulge in bad impulsive decisions with gabe. general bad influences on each other’s health n just. no good! party hard bt at what cost. 
n also ;; like ... rly solid good friendships ... flings n maybe an exe or two tht either ended on good terms or just. horrendous, ppl they’ve distanced frm, ppl also frm up north, piercing customers, bt not tattoo customers bc im p sure they’d get fired if they were just tattoo’ing ppl willy nilly, etc. 
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