#personal and touchy subject

[perfektblau]

tw: trauma talk, mental illness, child abuse talk

sometimes I just think about all those times where an adult could have helped me

or confronted them of what they were doing to me and

there were so many chances but adults around me turned blind eye from it

he should have been arrested after all

or I don't know, call the CPS because there were so many chances where I could have been "saved" but God fucking knows what would have happened if CPS was invovled.

but this is what happens often when you live in a poor neighborhood full of people who are afraid of the police because they're illegal immigrants or they don't speak English or their culture tells them not to meddle with other people' s business.

i get it but it sometimes makes me so frustrated that people just let that happen to me..

could it have been worse because i may have been taken to foster care? I don't know. maybe. maybe I would have been taken to some other family members care. but what's the point of even ruminating about it when I'm 29 now

i just wished I had an adult I was able to trust when I was young

[gxldencity]

I think someone has mentioned this before as seeing as the veilguard is in the Fade, their rooms are most likely their own construction or at the very least, they did some manipulation to make the existing rooms their own.

bc no way does Solas have a POOL in the lighthouse that Harding could chill in or near replica of the statues in the grand necropolis that could feel like home for Emmrich and seeing as Solas still has noodle arms, the gym set up is definitely Taash's imagination.

With that in mind, Lucanis's uhh...situation feels very much like a person who has the freedom to choose whatever he wants for the first time but because he absolutely doesn't know how to, he just goes with whatever is comfortable. And what's comfortable to him is a secluded room that's filled to the brim with food and a cot that is comfortable enough for him to sleep in but not too comfortable that he'll sleep through the night if someone attacks him in his sleep. Like i bet he just camped in the pantry and did little modifications to it besides imagining a sleeping space bc he doesn't know How.

[solargeist]

What you said about Grian keeping his modesty even after leaving the Watchers.... Hmmmm.... Grian in Hijab.... Yes that's the shit...

i think hijabs are just for women ! i'm unsure what the male equivalent is

But ! The Watchers i write are inspired by Catholicism, his mum is a nun who veils. This is also just for women, but if he wereeee to veil then it'd be something like that--i mean not the full extent of a nun, but there are head scarves that allow hair and neck to be shown

headscarves are very pretty regardless tho <3

[nocofamilyau]

Does Mike still has DID in this AU?

yep, but only Chester, Svetlana and Manitoba are in his system

(not trying to ignore/dismiss Vito and Mal here, its just I believe that some Very Fucked Up things had to happen to Mike for them to exist, I also believe that said things would have had to happened a little later in his life, say like late childhood/early teens, and keep in mind in this au Mike was only four when he got adopted, and most likely developed only those three alters from constantly going through foster homes)

[prince-liest]

I love the 666 series! It doesn’t matter if it’s explicit or not, your characterizations and plot are what makes it amazing to read. I’m sorry you’ve been apprehensive about posting more due to all the attention on it (most of them are in the top 2 pages of the ship on AO3, congrats). I know I for one will be THRILLED to read any addition, just becuase it’s from you and about the characters you’ve fleshed out for us. - 🐈‍⬛

Aw, thank you! Honestly I really appreciate everybody's positive responses! The apprehension was mostly at the sheer volume of response to the last installment, with that specific and unfortunate combination of a lot of lamenting that it was winding down (however well-meaning those comments were) + the folks that got really weird about the CNC. One person who left such a comment even ended up deleting it, I think probably after realizing that it wasn't a reasonable thing to critique when they admitted they hadn't actually read any of the other installments.

I generally try to write primarily for myself and what I want to see in fics, so I think that's where I got a little overwhelmed was the feeling that I was disappointing people by not continuing the series, which is also where now the awkwardness comes from, of, "Well, it's been a while and now I have some more ideas..."

At any rate, I'm going to keep writing for myself. Whenever I do feel this way, the trick to get past it tends to be telling myself that I'll write it, I can just keep it in my drive if I feel like it. I never do, in the end, but it leverages away that sensation of feeling like I'm writing to other people's expectations rather than my own, ehehe.

Anyway, thank you again! <3 Very excited for digging open these character's headcases some more! >:)

[dykedvonte]

I beg people in the MW to think very carefully when they talk about mental illness and physical disability cause it’s not as straight forward and easy to diagnose/depict as you think…

[cosmic-ships]

Hey if you gloat about "stealing" f/o's from a person who doesn't like to share, I'm gonna need you to grow up and respect people's boundaries and also get the fuck away from me.

[saph-yells-into-the-void]

the amount of DISDAIN I get from some ppl saying that blue flag is written for the straights.

girl I did not stay up til 6am reading this manga, tearing up and crying bc of how much I saw myself in characters like touma and masumi and how painfully relatable their pain/struggles were just for you to say that blue flag is for the straights

be so fr rn

[meownotgood]

spacing out during finals, and imagined a scenario where childhood s/o and aki are in elementary school- a kid trips little s/o in the mud and little aki gets them back by sticking gum in their hair (╥﹏╥) cause bro really be doing that fr 💀

anon... don't get me started... my heart has been yearning so much for childhood friends with aki these days.......

and he would totally do that too, young aki would pick a fight with anyone who bullies you or makes you cry. when he gets a little older, he's actually quite intimidating to the rest of the students, so just sticking with him is enough to ensure no-one tries to mess with you. he'll always make an effort to include you even when everyone else isn't; you're practically stuck together like glue, and even though any rumors about the two of you barely ever reach your ears, you're sure they've noticed how you and aki are rarely seen apart from one another.

[dix-rose]

anticipatory grief is actually one of the worst things in the world I hope nobody ever has to deal with it

[cloveroctobers]

Had a little cry sesh (for the first time actually) after delivering some flowers to my grandpop’s gravesite today for his birthday but then made myself laugh at how he would probably make fun of me for doing so.

[lanshappycorner]

Sometimes I look outside my scope of mutuals and I'm like.....I'm glad I'm not them (whole essay in the tags)

[dalkyeom]

I finally read the full translation of Shua’s ment and I really wish wherever he goes, love and happiness follows him. It must’ve been a burden for him to cry the way he did and I wish the world would love him back ten times as much as he does. I admire him so much for his work ethic, his skills, and most importantly for how he treats everyone with so much kindness. for him to continue to treat the world with kindness after all that, he’s really brave

We always wish our idols happiness but I find it so cruel how some people would take it back the moment this supposed happiness does not include them. They’re people like us at the end of the day, who also get hurt by mean comments and baseless allegations

[thatonebabybat]

Hello! I was wondering if putting a white base on my face would be whitewashing? I'm brown and tried did a white base and got told by a friend that I'm white washing. And my friend is getting me a goth palette since I am not allowed makeup, I want to know if I should get a lighter base or continue with the white base

Hi, I'm not really the best person to ask about this because I'm white??? but like man idk do what feels right

Think about why you want a lighter base (if it's just for artistic reasons, or because of a standard you feel you need to conform to) and make a decision from there. You don't need pale skin to be goth, but if you want to do pale makeup, I'm not really in a position to say that you can't or shouldn't? Find out what makes YOU happy in your alternative expression and don't stress too hard about what other people think. Do some reflecting, maybe talk to your friend to get an understanding of where they're coming from if you'd like, idk. Best of luck to you

[aidanhargis]

My gym crush is a trainer at the gym, Ive just discovered

I shall use this as an excuse to continue being a wimp

[messinwitheddie]

How long to the tallest get to stay at the long table and what do they get to do afterwards?

The tallest's long table is more or less a version of Hell for Irken tallests, or a pocket realm in Hell or however you might care to define it. The spirits of deceased tallests are forced to suffer and/or and reflect there. (Not a burning torment kind of suffering, but a taste of their own medicine kind of suffering... )

How long an individual tallest's spirit sits on the long table depends on how many wrongs they committed throughout their life, the severity of set wrongs, and if the tallest is willing to acknowledge/ take responsibility for the wrongs they committed and how determined they are to search for ways to attone for those wrongs or at least make apologies where and when possible.

It's a case by case basis. It could take centuries. It could take an eternity.

When the food and drinks at the table starts to have taste or start to taste fresh and the background music heard sounds enjoyable, that's a good sign a tallests seated at the table is ready/ allowed to stand up and drift through the rest of afterlife.

Where the spirit drifts and what they decide to do after they leave the table is up to them.

(Excuse the lack of illustration here. Catching up on stuff today.)