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I have inspiration for writing: Koko, Mitsuya and Ran having a s/o who can't have children because of endometriosis.
#what do you think about it?#it's some weeks i'm thinking about it#they're the only ones i can see to accept this situation#pass by my inbox#tokyo revengers#tokyo revengerd dads#hajime kokonoi#ran haitani#mitsuya takashi
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If Timmy struggled with adjusting to magic because he was raised on earth, does that mean this is the reason Peri also struggles? Since in his early years he grew up on earth with his parents?
Yup! There's a multitude of reasons why Peri struggles so much, but they all lie in his origins. Peri was born from a wish! And Wishes, well. They're not meant to last long. Most wishes become unstable as the years go by, but Peri's persisted because he's an entire living being!
CosWan initially feared Peri wouldn't grow up properly, but he turned out nearly as fine as any other Fairy would! Probably!!
Growing up on Earth, being related to the VonStrangles, born from a 10 year old's wish, living past the lifespan of wishes, beyond that of humans... Each part is rather small, but when added together, it culminates into a very... very unstable baby.
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
Instability: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop cosmo#cosmo#fop peri#peri#fop jorgen vonstrangle#fop jorgen#jorgen vonstrangle#fop wanda#wanda#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#asks#itty bitties fop au#ill have you know timmy held onto his consciousness until the moment jorgen bubbled peri and the baby boy fell asleep#timmy passed the FUCK out so fast afterwords haha. a bit too much of a blood loss that one.#ALSO YIPPIE END OF THIS SECOND BATCH#THERES 4 PARTS LEFT!!!#and then i can remove the 8 asks in my inbox about this aauhahehehe#man.#ough. slowly but surely im getting through them all guys!!!!#once all asks are cleared imma do a BIG celebration thingy when it opens up again !!!#ALSO ALSO#THE FORESHADOWS ARE SHADOWING#if you can pick up what im putting down
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pouty
#me#selfie#hehehe#i’ve had this one saved for a little bit#so now i pass it on to you#only slightly cheeky#because someone asked in my inbox and i haven’t been even a little bold lately#anyways#i’m going to bed#goodnight
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Un dibujo tuyo de Springtrap x Ballora, wows. Por favor.<3 (me encantan tus dibujos, sobre todo tu diseño del apestoso Willy. Épico, dibujas épico)
ahh muchas gracias qwq
perdón por tardarme en responder sobs, me tomé mucho tiempo pensando en cómo hacer el dibujo y pues termino siendo una ilustración completa pft
ella era bella, frágil como una rosa
él era una bestia, esclavo de sus impulsos
hahah
#inbox#anon#my art#fnaf#springtrap x ballora#springtrap#ballora#dancing with a ghost#…dancing with a memory of her#despite how twisted and convoluted it seems#while being locked behind a wall#sigh#i mean#he’s gotta pass the time somehow :)#this is also my first time drawing ballora :0
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Mayhaps something with (transfem) Kujou Sara fucking a bratty reader who (intentionally) pisses her off to the point where she goes all out with her full inhuman strength, ultimately knocking them up completely by accident because she was so caught up in the moment she forgot to pull out?
I bet nobody expected her to be first out of her siblings to become a parent, least of all herself, but she ain’t complaining!
{☆} characters kujou sara {☆} notes drabble, implied fem reader, sub reader, transfem kujou sara {☆} warnings 18+ content, breeding kink
Kujou Sara was not one to allow herself to lose her ironclad control– she was a general, above all else, a servant of the Almighty Shogun.
Yet try as she might, you..you had a way of getting under her skin in a way that had her patience and will tested. Maybe it was the bratty, teasing demeanor that had her jaw clenched so hard it creaked, or maybe it was the provocative words you'd whisper in her ear while she was trying to focus.
It was irrelevant in the face of her dragging you back to her quarters, her brows furrowed and her lips pursed into a thin line– she tried to be gentle, but her grip was firm on her arm as she pulled you into the delicately managed room, her composure cracking like shattering glass. She wanted to wipe that smug grin off your face when she slammed her hands against the door, the wall nearly splintering beneath barely restrained strength, her expression..less than amused.
"Just what are you trying to accomplish?" She ground out, her teeth aching from how hard she was clenching her jaw– and, though she refused to outwardly admit it, your little..distraction was working far better then she wanted to admit to even herself. "I told you not to..to do such things while I'm working. Do you ever listen?"
She nearly growled– like some common beast, she thinks, and she is glad for her tempered control that she did not embarrass herself in such a way. She still had her dignity. But Archons, you were testing that control even still– the way your tongue poked out like a child, mocking and teasing, as if you wanted her to snap.
She almost considered it, but..you were human, she had to remind herself. Archons knows she's never forgive herself if she actually hurt you.
"What? Can the General not handle a little playful banter?" Sara opened her mouth to snarl back a reply, but she closed it but a sharp click just as quickly, a grimace gracing her features instead. "Is that all it takes to rile you up?"
She wants to deny it, keep her sense of control, but damn it– the way your hands glide across her skin, your nails just barely ghosting across the flexing muscles of her back..she feels her control slipping faster then she can maintain it, her lip quivering.
"You.." She croaks out in reply, trying to subdue the uneasy urge that lingers in the back of her mind with every glance down at you, every touch of your hands, every word that drips from your lips like honey. The silence is broken by a low growl, her hands tugging you off your feet and practically shoving you onto the bed.
"What? Are you going to shut me up? Or are you going to admit you enjoy it?"
Fine, she thinks, fine! If this is what you want so badly, she's going to shut you up the only way she knows she can.
She wastes little time between shoving you onto the bed and climbing on it herself, one of her hands reaching up to tangle in your hair as she shoves your face into the mattress, her other hand fumbling with your clothes– just enough to expose your dripping cunt to her, nostrils flaring at the sharp tang of your arousal, her teeth bared in a snarl.
She can't help the raspy groan that tumbles from her lips at the sight– you looked perfect like that. Quiet, your face forcibly held down, your thighs soaked in your own arousal. She absentmindedly wonders if you'd been so wet the entire time– if you'd just been waiting, no, practically begging for her to just..she can't even finish the thought, her hands trembling and her control slipping even further.
Her free hand fumbles with the hem of her own shorts, freeing her straining, twitching cock, pre cum beading at the tip. Her fist tightens in your hair as she leans over you, pressing her chest against your back and aligning her aching cock to your entrance. She almost snaps out of the fog clouding her rationality, but it returns in full force when she snaps her hips forward, sinking into your cunt with a sharp hiss.
"Fuck," Sara curses beneath her breath, groaning at the tight heat enveloping her– Archons, she'd never get used to it. It only drove her further over the edge, rolling her hips to force more of her cock into you. "Not..not going to talk back?" She growled, huffing and releasing her hold on your hair to instead slip her fingers past your lips. The muffled, garbled response was..far more enjoyable than she expected, the hazy eyed look as she sunk fully into you.
It made her feel lightheaded, to be honest. She was getting a bit too carried away, but the way your walls squeezed against her..her teeth ached for an entirely different reason, tongue swiping over the sharp points before she leaned down to sink them into your shoulder, pulling out and slamming back in with a muffled groan. Her pace was frantic after that, dragging moans and whimpers from your throat like a chorus of broken notes.
She hated how easily you got under her skin, but damn it, she couldn't deny how good it felt to put you in your place. You couldn't even get away if you tried– you were human, and while it made you fragile it also made you weak. Easier to handle.
Even if your tongue was far sharper than your appearance would make one believe.
Archons, she was so close, though. She pulled her fingers from your mouth, nearly crumbling at the moan that tumbled openly from your lips immediately after– she may have chastised you for your attitude, but she still thoroughly enjoyed hearing you. Just knowing you were unable to form anything more complex then senseless babbling was a special kind of high.
She wants to speak, but even her own words fail her beyond a low groan, the absence filled with the slick sound of her wild thrusts, caring little about the stinging ache in her thighs as she pounds you into the mattress without a shred of hesitation or rationality beyond fucking you into silence.
A small part of her, the rational part, tried to remind her to pull out– but your cunt felt so fucking good she just kept going despite the sirens blaring in her head. Even as your limbs tensed and your voice grew hoarse from screaming, she kept you beneath her, nipping at your throat to leave her mark against your skin. She was so close, just..just a little more. Just a little longer. Archons, she doesn't ever want to leave– doesn't ever want to pull out.
Her hands grasp your hips tightly as she nears her own climax, slamming back into you with a broken moan– she barely registered the fact she had cum inside you beyond the thrill of it dribbling down your thighs, not even her cock enough to keep you plugged up as she tried to gain some semblance of control through the haze.
..Fuck. She was going to regret this. She was, every so slowly, coming back to her senses– the first thing she felt was embarrassment, then panic, and then resignation.
At the very least she hadn't accidentally fucked you into unconsciousness on accident.
She was much gentler as she sat up, her cock still half hard as she pulled out, inhaling sharply at the way her cum dripped down onto the sheets. She hated how arousing it was. No– no. She needed to get a hold of herself.
But then again..you didn't seem to be complaining, at least not yet. She hesitantly lifted her eyes to see your expression, her throat suddenly feeling dry at the smug satisfaction on your face.
#genshin impact smut#genshin smut#genshin x reader#genshin impact x reader#minors dni#writing tag#kujou sara smut#kujou sara x reader#do you understand what this felt like to open my inbox and see this#it felt like a shotgun blast pointblank to the chest /pos#i am a weak man at heart i see breeding kink mention and my brain turns off#respectfully. lovingly. i am going to suplex you.#my weakness being used against me ohhh its over for me. if it isnt obvious by the word count idk man#quick hack into getting me to write for you. breeding kink. passes out#AND KUJOU SARA TOO??? lord have mercy#i am an electro women enjoyer this felt extremely personal#if this fic isnt coherent thats bc it isnt. i blacked out writing this. dont ask
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Good mornin~~ Have some Gulper art I made referenced off of some contortionist poses online! In addition, a practice animation.
I have some more- just random gulper doodles under the cut. Check em out if you wanna.
#gonna go back to answering inboxes again soon#time passed me before I even realized DAMM#cookie run#cookie run kingdom#crk#cookie run oc#crk oc#cookie run fanart#my art#crk fanart#gulper eel cookie#animation
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Don't you hate it when Arab women get plastic surgery to look white. Bruh they be Changing their whole face I just saw a pic of bella hadid before surgery and i threw up in my mouth. What's with arab women's obsession with looking white
”what’s with Arab women’s obsession with looking white” what’s with your racist generalization of Arab women? Also—Arab people are incredibly diverse and don’t fit the stereotypical print you probably think of. Pale skinned blonde Arabs exist (my mom is one of them, and was just born this way. Are you gonna castrate her for looking stereotypically white??? Lmao).
Bella Hadid is a strange example considering she’s half Dutch to begin with. Everyone in Hollywood gets plastic surgery. I’d argue all surgeries she got (fox eye surgery, full lips etc) are not stereotypically white features. They are just what’s in right now. And basing all Arab women off Bella Hadid is also ???????. The anti Arab racism and misogyny reeking off this r genuinely so sad
#Person who is shocked that Bella Hadid (who is half white) has white passing features#And plenty of Arabs do without having white ancestry I’m sorry to break it to u#This ask pissed me off more than it should because ik you were in my inbox before w this bs but I ignored it#The way racism easily comes to some of u gives me such an ick
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Who do you think Hunter will stay with at the end of the show? Or who do you want him to stay with
tbh out of all the possible future caretakers of hunter, my primary hope for who will adopt him rn rly is camila. y'know, loved all the different possibilities too but…. camila ❤️❤️❤️ like, just. like. that's his MOMMMM
the vision of him living with camila (and luz and vee), going to hexside (cuz obv there's gonna a portal), and having a woodcarving mentorship under the clawthornes' and some mentorship under darius. and then once in a while occassionally staying over at the owl house.... Y'KNOW? so real.
camila's just too perfect of an option, LIKE. he spent months under her care already, he doesn't have even one bad experience with her that could possibly make him doubt and feel bad abt their relationship (no feeling like he needs to prove himself to gain her respect, no complicated past that'd have to be dealt with, no wondering if the care he's shown is genuine, no previous authority issues, no previous hostility etc etc) like camila's been extremely sweet and caring towards him and nothing else since the very start. it makes me sOO... 🤲😔❤️
the very first MOMENT they interact and hunter kneels in front of her out of respect she warmly tells him to never do it again; makes it clear that he doesn't have to be overly formal with her. just offers her kindness, expecting nothing in return. right away.
camila is probably the first adult ever that hunter associates with only warmth and goodness and whom he feels comfortable with from the start, with whom he doesn't have any past grudges or things they'd need to work out, just.. unconditional love. and justttt just just oughhhghh she called him baby. she's been basically treating him like her son already, and she's SUCH a good and supportive mom, to luz, to vee, to hexsquad. she taught him how to sew. she DIVED into FREEZING WATER at an OLD ABANDONED CEMETERY without a second thought in order to save him. JUST!!!!
him wanting to impress her with the spanish. her touching his shoulder and him showing not even an OUNCE of fear, just smiling and knowing she's not going to hurt him. him taking up interest in camila's and manny's old hobby. camila having experience with dealing with grief.. oof. him being happy living in the human realm (wanting to do things in the demon realm as well but having ties to BOTH worlds). even the fact that the entire noceda family is clearly neurodivergent, just like him. even him being an animal enjoyer and camila having a vet clinic, which- he WOULD LOVE to volunteer there in his free time, like?? COME ON.
AND THIS???? okay......
and we KNOW he WANTS to have a permanent family. it's established at the beginning of the episode when he looks sad as others hang up their family drawings. he wants ppl to care abt him, he wants to have a place to call home, wants to feel safe. he cries (from happiness) when luz calls him family.
and camila cares abt all of these kids so much. she was willing to take vee and hexsquad in JUST LIKE THAT. we can even assume her and manny wanted more kids, like just OUGHHGH she wouldn't even have to think twice before taking hunter in permanently. and she most likely knows hunter doesn't have anyone. she's not going to let him just….. go away on his own after everything is over, or make him move out or sth 💀 she'll want to help him, she'll want him to be safe and cared for.
like the only other possibilities for who else hunter could stay with after the show were: darius, eda/the clawthornes, or joint custody. but imo after... he lived under camila's roof for MONTHS, found a place that he feels safe in.. nocedas are just the best and healthiest option for him. after he'd spent MONTHS feeling happy with camila, i don't think it'd be good for him to be thrust into a completely new environment, and.. there's simply no time for his connection with other adults to be properly fleshed out, or to establish that he'd prefer anyone over nocedas.
like, i feel like sth has to happen with darius as well cuz their arc is unfinished, esp since it's been hinted they've grown closer since ASiAS, and there's a lot they could talk abt now re: grief + darius' mentor... so they HAVE to reunite at least. however, in my opinion at this point of the show there'd be just no time to conclude it as a parent-child bond in a satisfactory way. especially because there would be a LOT they'd have to work through first, considering their very complicated past.
like, all these years in the coven, their relationship pre-ASiaS, how darius treated hunter all these years... we know their relationship has progressed positively since ASiAS (even though mostly in the background/subtext) but still, i feel like it'd definitely take a while until hunter felt truly comfortable while living at darius'. he'd probably worry that it's conditional, could even easily fall back into his old coven mentality/habits, would try to make darius proud no matter what, etc. etc. it wouldn't be the healthiest for him. although eventually he would get comfortable, and that concept also had sm potential, but like the journey to that wouldn't be quick, and it'd have to be an arc on its own too. and, again, there is no time for that. rly cheering for a reunion and a talk, maybe even a mentorship of sorts, but considering hunter already has a place he feels fully comfortable in and ppl who consider him family right now, i feel like him ending in a completely new place after all that wouldn't be his #1 preferred option.
same with eda/the clawthornes tbh; it had sooo much potential and he is technically related to them AND is going to find that out soon, so some kinda interaction/development HAS to happen, and he did say he wants to learn how to carve palismen, so a mentorship may also happen... but as for actual adoption mm i don't think anything can come close to how safe and happy and Good he's felt for those months while under camila's care. again, in the future things COULD develop in such way, but considering we have two episodes until we get a conclusion... mmyeah
so................ yeah.
i just have so so so many thoughts abt hunter finding a family and getting to be a teenager and feeling loved and feeling like he has his own place in the world and being safe and allowed to explore his interests and to be himself........ hunter nocedaaaaa oughhghhh 🤲❤️
#not to mention zeno (hunter's va) choosing 'hunter noceda' as his twitter display name after thanks to them premiered 😭😭 so iconic of him#nicole answers#my toh talk#hunter toh#the owl house#toh analysis#*passes away*#hunter noceda#i'm biting and jumping on walls#made this thread on twitter and ran here when i remembered i have this ask sitting in my inbox#Anonymous
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How u feel abt ratchet from robots homie I gotta know
Ohhhhhhh...
I've watched this movie years ago and have forgotten it almost entirely. I'll- I'll put it on my list.
#commentary#i've been thinking about it recently and glanced at this char in passing so you coming into my inbox is like the stars aligning#asks
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I cant stoo thinking of how, whike Leo would've become more tech-y, he wouldn't know ANY of the technical terms. That gap would probably really hilarious because Leo seems like the kind of person to name everything in a super explanitory but funny way (since I doubt he had much else for comedy in the pd except for his thoughts)
Donnie will hammer the proper tech terms into him... eventually... maybe
#you're absolutely right tho#Donnie and Leo working together in the lab would be utter chaos#Leo: pass me the pin smacker#Donnie: the what.#Leo: y'know the nail hitter#Donnie (after a long pause): a... a hammer??#post ktech ig#rottmnt leo#doodle#rottmnt donnie#so sorry anon this has been in my inbox since august ;-;#anonymous
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Tips from a trans masc that passes pretty damn well even though I haven’t started transitioning and can’t bind.
1. Walk like you carry your manhood between your legs! If you pretend like you got a “package” while you walk (if you don’t have a packer which I don’t) it’ll make your stride look way more masc. it’s the shuttle things people.(don’t overdo it though)
2. Looking for Jeans? Levi’s 505 pant cut. I personally think this cut is great for people who don’t want their wide hips to be so obvious. Thigh room and baggy legs. I should be a 32x33 but I always go for 34x34 for the best baggy effect. Got like three pairs of these.
3. Tired of wearing huge shirts? Sometimes smaller is better. When buying a shirt make sure it’s cropped above your hips so it doesn’t hug your figure, the shirt must fall straight from the pit (make sure it’s lose around the torso to hide the waist), keep sleeves of shirt short and tight (makes arms look bigger and muscular)
4. I know putting weight on one leg is much more comfortable but sacrifices need to be made. Keep weight equal on both feet, and keep them apart by about a foot in distance (Evens out the curve of your hips and makes it a little less noticeable). To be more comfortable I like to sway back and forth if I get tired of standing like that for too long.
5. DARK CLOTHES CREATE LESS SHADOWS, BETTER AT HIDING THE CURVES!
6. I know you want to slouch. Don’t do it. It’s not worth the terrible posture. We men got to stand up straight and maximize our height.
I could keep going but I’ll cut it short at the MOST achievable stuff.
you’re forgetting one vital step and that’s to listen to this song every morning at breakfast
youtube
you can skip all the other steps if you can’t remember them it’s fine (I’ll forgive you, king)
#this all seems like far too much for someone brainless and silly like me to remember#and I like frolicking and skipping in my cute little fruity pink sneakers far too much#and I like strutting in my sexy big pink boots too much also.#but posting this for all the trans boys out there who care about passing.#me I listen to britney’s ‘work bitch’ every morning at breakfast#because my desired gender happens to be ‘bitch (he/him)’#my pronouns are he/bitch/him#yeah.#sci speaks#blowing kisses to the trans king in my inbox. keep that metaphysical dick swinging king
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to my fellow creatives: never stop making art. art is an act of protest.
#i know that this is outside of what i normally post but a few days have passed and i've had time to think#the results of the US elections are hitting me really hard. i feel so gutted and betrayed and have no idea who the hell to trust anymore#so with that being said#I just want it to be abundantly clear that I am anti-Tr*ump and if you voted or support him in any way just unfollow me#actually do me a favor and block me#you do not deserve to read and enjoy art made by me if you think i don't deserve the right to fucking exist.#support black lives#free palestine#very fucking pro-choice#queer lives matter#disabled lives matter#i dislike the performative act of providing a list like this is a menu at a restaurant but i want there to be NO DOUBT where i stand.#there are many others who are more qualified and smarter than me to speak but i want to make it very clear to my followers where i stand.#and before someone says 'keep politics out of art' shut the actual fuck up. art and consuming art is and always will be political#and the only art worth anything is made by people like me and people who I love and support#and don't think it's only the US. the issues we have here are just as present in canada europe and asia and everywhere else.#there's so much more that i could say but that's all for now. my inbox is open.
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So uhh hi. I love love love your cherik art. Every single one of them is amazing, cool and just gorgeous. Also love your pfp, Charles looks guilty (caught red-handed) but Erik looks like he doesn't care lol. That's his husband and he'll kiss him anywhere, anytime, doesn't matter who's looking.
Again, have I mentioned I love your art? Let me say it again. I love your cherik art. Love Erik with his glasses, chibi cherik, Charles and his adorable bald head. Everything. I wanna scream about cherik with you.
*grabs your cherik arts into one folder titled LOVE IT*
*puts your cherik art on a frame and hangs it on my wall*
OHHHH you’re so incredibly sweet my friend: thank you so much for the love you have for my work, it means so much ;; !!! I really do love drawin all flavors of cherik (and charles and erik in general ofc), so im so happy all them flavors get appreciated as much as they do :’]
An im always happy to talk bout cherik !!! I fear theyre going to be livin in my brain for a long while and im gonna be subjected to Many thoughts about them For A Long While …..
#fave#snap chats#this truly super sweet …. tysm :’]]]#it like 1AM and i am sleepy and i gota wake up Extra early but i couldnt Not answer once i caught’a glimpse a this#onea them deals where i wanna say thank you but i also wanna hoard this in my inbox so i can always look at it. the struggle !!!!#truuuulllyy thank you i look forward to making more art for you to enjoy !!!#like. i cannot wait. i wish i didnt have to. //gutteral screamin//#THATS OK as more time passes the more ideas i can add to my over growing list …..#anyways Very Real And True erik is POISED to smooch charles at any given moment#this is real and true marvel sent me a letter saying so …… Mutant And Proud emphasis on the Proud bit ……
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The pumpkins have been lit and the lights are on! 🎃 Welcome trick-or-treaters! 🎃
Just ring the bell (send an ask) and I'll fish something out of the Mystery Treat Box for you! What's inside? Nobody knows! And no worries if you follow me or not. All are welcome to a little treat!
#loaf art#inbox trick or treating#halloween#later today I will be putting on my costume and heading out for a bit of inbox trick-or-treating myself#so maybe you'll see my 'sona out there in the wild#I will try my best to pass out treats as quickly as possible!#but it might take me until the next day or so depending on how many trick-or-treaters stop by#update: in the spirit of the holiday I think I'll leave the inbox open to trick-or-treaters for an extra day or so
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trick or treat :>
- armadilloradio
:D
random wip that I haven’t finished because I’m lazy and stressed bc of school 😔
“What do you mean I can’t play quidditch?” Oliver demanded, shaking his broomstick in front of him. “I have every right as any student to play.
“Ollie, you’re a first year, Slytherin is in the middle of practice, which I’m pretty sure they will kick your butt if you try and interrupt. But most importantly, we have 3 essays due and a quiz tomorrow in class. I don’t think you can afford to play at the moment,” Percy said pushing his glasses up his nose, before scribbling somethjng down in the margins of his notes.
“It shows I have initiative and dedication to quidditch by showing up,” Oliver shot back. “Besides why do I need good grades to play quidditch?”
“They’ll probably kick you off the team,” Percy pointed out.
“They can do that?” Oliver gasped in horror.
#percy weasley#oliver wood#hp#Harry potter#baby first years Oliver and Percy#I like to think Percy calls him Ollie even then#also of of course Percy would worry about grades#while Oliver is like quidditch !!!!#trick or treat!#inbox trick or treating#fanfic ask game#also idk can they kick you off the team if your grades slip?#my school did that like you have to have at least a passing grade to play sports#wynn speaks#ask box
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i believe we all are unspectacular, though
this feeling - it's yours, through and through. your experience is yours and you have earned every emotion you hold on to. in writing this, i don't mean to try to explain away how you're feeling; i only want to attempt to show you the inverse, the hidden light that shadows beyond every darkness.
sometimes there are moments where it all becomes too much and we fall into it, that long dark, and it takes us from ourselves, from some part of us that lives close to whatever we hold to the light of things. the hard part of this was never finding that awe, that spectacular beauty, but keeping it close enough to guide us out of the dark. it slips so easy through our fingers.
when that becomes so big it swallows all else: what if you think of the softest thing? of similarity, and kindness, and how it seems to be rooted down to the marrow of us.
we have existed for so long, so little. we are like giants, on our pebble of a celestial grain of sand. our lives are short and memories far shorter. and yet look at all that we do with it: look at how far it goes - each shining piece.
how could it be just unspectacular? couldn't it always, always have the possibility for more? i implore you to read through ada limón's full piece that this is pulled from, titled dead stars:
Out here, there’s a bowing even the trees are doing. Winter’s icy hand at the back of all of us. Black bark, slick yellow leaves, a kind of stillness that feels so mute it’s almost in another year. I am a hearth of spiders these days: a nest of trying. We point out the stars that make Orion as we take out the trash, the rolling containers a song of suburban thunder. It’s almost romantic as we adjust the waxy blue recycling bin until you say, Man, we should really learn some new constellations. And it’s true. We keep forgetting about Antlia, Centaurus, Draco, Lacerta, Hydra, Lyra, Lynx. But mostly we’re forgetting we’re dead stars too, my mouth is full of dust and I wish to reclaim the rising— to lean in the spotlight of streetlight with you, toward what’s larger within us, toward how we were born. Look, we are not unspectacular things. We’ve come this far, survived this much. What would happen if we decided to survive more? To love harder? What if we stood up with our synapses and flesh and said, No. No, to the rising tides. Stood for the many mute mouths of the sea, of the land? What would happen if we used our bodies to bargain for the safety of others, for earth, if we declared a clean night, if we stopped being terrified, if we launched our demands into the sky, made ourselves so big people could point to us with the arrows they make in their minds, rolling their trash bins out, after all of this is over?
poetry is lovely for so many reasons, but a personal favourite is that it can mean different things to different readers. this one, to me, means there is more here. as in: you are not the first, you are not alone in this ache, this heavy weight of life. the ground has shook with dance since before our feet, the wind has carried stories beyond our voice. it says there has been more here.
and that, in turn, says everything without so many words, doesn't it?
we try, and try, and give everything we have. we have been doing it since before language, since before breath. it is a history that says i need you to know that i tried. that i made it out, into the light of things.
nothing lasts forever. there is no such thing as permanence. everything washes away. there is rot and things collapse, forests fall, seasons change, and time moves on. but the same time – there is no such thing as separation. we are not exempt. we all share this changing.
yes, loving the world is difficult. finding pieces of living, of being alive, that make it worth living is one of the most difficult of searches, but it's one of the most rewarding, as well as the only things truly worth anything. you need to find things to keep going for. you need to recognize your own spectacular things specific to you, because who else is going to do it?
there is something strong in teaching yourself to hone that perspective. to hold everything else in rays of scattered sunlight through canopies - momentary joys so profound: a violin melody, art that breaks you alive, poetry you want to hold behind your teeth, the smell of cinnamon bread in the oven, because at the end of it: wouldn’t you want hope? wouldn’t you choose hope?
and poems like this, they ask: if you could, even just once more, dare to dream, dream anything, dream it all, each and every piece of light that could await you - wouldn't you?
and wouldn't you? wouldn't you.
#q&a.#birdsong.#digs myself out of a months long inspiration depression to try and write both of us something of a path out.#you've finally made it out into the sun. haven't we?#it's been a while since this has been in my inbox. i hope you're well & that things are easier these days.#lately i have been thinking of things like this: right now; right here? it won't last for any longer than we are in it.#time will pass on regardless. and so the question at the end of it (of everything) is just this: time will move on without us –#will we go on with it?
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