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totaldramafan-lauri · 2 years ago

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HEY SOOO UM

I like u-ur crk oc so i made this for youu,,,,,,,,

T a k e💞

OH MY GOSH!?!?!!??!?!? WH-

HUHHHHHHHH!!?!?!? A-another one!?!? R-really!? Really right now!?

AAAAAAAAAA WH-WHY DO I KEEP GETTING-

I-I MEAN, TH-THANK YOU!?!!?!?

U-um.......I-I'm happy you....like her....!? BUT WHY- *cough* S-sorry-

DISCLAIMER: I DID NOT ASK FOR THIS! I WOULD NEVER FORCE ANYONE TO DRAW FOR ME, AND ESPECIALLY TO DRAW HER, O-OK!? TH-THIS JUST KEEPS HAPPENING, AND I J-JUST-

I-I really a-appreciate it, tho......Th-thank you, really.....and s-sorry for flipping out....>/////<; Y-you really surprised me......

#people actually talking to me #crk oc #blondie cookie #cookie run kingdom oc #IT HAPPENED AGAIN H E L P #aaaaaaaa!?!?!?#im happy but #part of me feels so GROSS #even tho i didnt ask for it

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toytulini · 1 year ago

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listen im ace and im pro kink at pride and whatever, but the way some of yall are wording your posts in response to the backlash against it is uh. really taking me back to the ace shitcourse era.

yall know theres nothing wrong with being a "virgin", right? that its not inherently shameful to have not had sex, to never have sex, even if youre not ace, even if you do want to have sex someday, like, its fine that you haven't had sex?

maybe if your problem is that theyre trying to police your behavior and shame you for expressing your sexuality, you can say that? instead of resorting to "haha stupid virgin gets no bitches" like my god. do you not hear how fucking regressive that attitude is? i know, i know, youre "joking".

get a better joke

#toy txt post #god im going to regret this post im gonna regret it so much i can feel it in my bones #let it flop..........pls #internalize my message let it sink in and understand what i am saying and then let the post flop #i say. knowing the ppl who need to see such a message are the ones who will make me regret this post and regrwt not having #1 million bajillion disclaimers #virgin is in quotes bc its a bullshit made up stupid purity culture concept anyway and quite frankly i hate even seeing the word #disclaimer: the previous sentence is not me saying that it is a slur for asexuals. it is me a single individual saying this specific word #grosses me out to read and see everywhere when its a stupid bullshit binary made up or at least historically largely used #to shame largely women and i dont know why we're still using it in 2023 #and ive just been. seeing such an uptick in this whole like. attitude? lately and like #im ace im minorly sex repulsed. mostly about anything sex at me bad. other adults sex at each other consensually? go wild #i like to think im pretty chill about it. i try to be. i think its fine ig to be like 'my meat is huge i fuck so much so good'#like okay not my thing but good for you. love that for you #but then some of yall have started turning it back around back to. 'haha your meat so small and shriveled you get no bitches'#'haha stupid incel virgin' like okay. didnt realize we all went back to fucking. middle school but okay #god im gonna run out of tine to get ready for my thing writing this stupid post UGH evil #but like idk we've kinda circled back to being like haha being a virgin still is stupid and silly and shameful #and if im quite honest. i do think the acecourse played a part in that bc i felt like we were making good progress in like #hey guys is fine to not have sex ever if you dont want to its fine to not want sex its fine #and then aphobes went fucking rabid on us and splintered and destroyed online communities all over but especially on tumblr #and so many aces went back in the closet we stopped talking about it we stopped spreading awareness and now this stupid goddamn like #and now this stupid bullshit attitude is back where its like funny to call someone a virgin as an insult but like no bro trust me its okay #its okay for me to do it bc im a hot queer person with huge meat instead of a cisstraight frat bro with huge meat #? like you know the issue was the behavior right? not the fact that it was straight dudes saying it? its bc the thing being said was shitty?#you know you can dunk on the puritan bitches trying to police your behavior at pride without getting us as collateral damage right #stop making me read that stupid ugly ass word ur not cool or funny #whatever #if you come on to this post to start shit i will not only block you but as many of your mutuals and followers as i can find. i will scroll #i will block this entire fucking website if i need to do not test me. i am exhausted and the acecourse ate up all my tolerance in 2015.

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hooffuloftootsierolls · 9 months ago

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How it started: Haha funny duck-loving twink goes 3 for 3 on the first humans

How it's going: -AND THEY'VE BOTH BEEN HURT BY EACH OTHER, LUCIFER WAS HURT BY THE EXTERMINATIONS AND ADAM WAS HURT BY GETTING HIS WIVES TAKEN, THEY'VE ALSO BOTH BEEN HURT BY HEAVEN AND THEY BOTH NEED TO GROW AND HEAL AND- AND-

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3-aem · 7 months ago

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MY BRAINS NOT WORKING AND THE CUTE BOY I WORK WITH KEEPS CORRECTING MY GRAMMAR THIS IS SO AHAIWIAKSDHDGRRRRHRNE

#dhakaksdjs fuckdwkufeisfjsjajsueei #im using a translator and it keeps outputting 您 instead of 你 and he keeps calling it out like bro ur making it awkward #AND IM LIKE SORRY I CANT ACTUALLY WRITE IN THIS LANGUAGE IM REALLY DU M. BB #also he offered to take over the last part bc i was like hi its almost 9pm here and i literally cannot think anymore #like i am certain its a very easy last part my brain is just finished #i feel so bad bc i wanted to push this proj over the line #this company is so intense i am so baby i am so tired #hugging my cat and rubbing my gross face all over his gross body #me in vc trying to figure out how to say: it was broken earlier idk how it was fixed u saw it was broke tho right #but all that came out was: in the past it was….problematic… *20 yr silence*#before he awkwardly went: um its okay i dont think this is necessary also u have lint issues #and i was just like ya….i know 😭#its ambiguous to some of my teammates if i just dont understand them or if im fking dumb #its probably both im ngl #the blank stare i have on my face is first from trying to comprehend what the actual words they are saying mean #and then to comprehend what technical concept they are trying to convey #using like 50% of the information i managed to parse out #also im used to literally spending 30-40% of the working day talking smack #now i try to crack and joke and everyone is like three this isnt the time #three we are all gonna be hear past 9pm working this isnt the time

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seijorhi · 2 months ago

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Which haikyuu character do you think would be the most slimy, vile, manipulative yandere in a zombie apocalypse AU?

controversial opinion but it's tendo

#okay hear me out #yans like kuroo and oikawa obviously have the manipulation part down #kuroo can easily slide to the gross end of that spectrum #kenma and akaashi are also solid contenders #possibly more so because you don't necessarily see it coming from the quiet unassuming boys #but slimy manipulative AND vile #it's tendo #he's gross #like #there is no other option here #the answer is tendo #he has 0 shame about all the filthy shit he's doing with you #and you'll play right into his hands trying to outwit him #it feels like no matter what you do to try and get away he's always a step ahead #and that goes the same for everyone else #only worse because he's only playing with you #it's a fun little game to wear you down #for everyone else they're an obstacle to eliminate #his games are less fun more deadly #well #they're still fun for him #rhi answers

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bitchthefuck1 · 4 months ago

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you know what, I actually will talk about this because it's bothering me. The issue with focussing so heavily on syd and carmy's potential for a romantic relationship isn't that there's something inherently unintellectual about romance or whatever, it's that a lot of people seem incapable of doing that without immediately flattening the story and ignoring or intentionally misreading any and all nuance for the sake of that romance. Every scene suddenly becomes about how it impacts their relationship, every analysis is done through a romantic lens, every frame or line of dialogue becomes about finding some easter egg or hint that "proves" these people should start dating. Their dynamic is absolutely a fundamental part of this show, but if you can only see it as a will-they-won't-they, you miss so much of what the story is actually trying to say with these two.

There are good versions of this story where their relationship is romantic and there are good versions of this story where it isn't, but as soon as you decide them being together is "the point," you lose the ability to actually judge the story for what it is, not what you want it to be.

#like so much of their dynamic (esp but not exclusively in S3) has been about showing the ways that carmy's trauma and dysfunctional #attitude in the kitchen impacts other people and how even though he cares about syd and wants their partnership to work he keeps self #sabotaging and setting himself and by extension her and the restaurant up to fail and replicating the same toxic environments that #he grew up and trained in and this is very much consistent with his character and a natural continuation of the conflicts they've been #having since S1 but because him being shitty with her runs contrary to them getting together suddenly its 'ruining the story' and #out of character and only happening bc the writers just hate to see this ship winning and like. if you really think that i genuinely don't #know what show you've been watching bc it sure as shit wasn't this one. like it hurts to see him do this because you know #they could do something genuinely great together and that he's ruining a really good thing but this is also the reality of where he is rn #if he was just a good and supporting business partner and not deeply dysfunctional it would be wildly out of character #the problem w S3 wasn't that it 'ruined' their relationship it's that it had no clear focus overemphasized carmy's arc at the expense #of the other leads deprioritized the supporting cast while failing to give them their own arcs gave more screen time to #unecessary and uninteresting new 'comic relief' characters and let conflicts stagnate without resolving them or #letting them evolve over the course of the season.#this isn't exclusive to the bear this is a general trend ive noticed where as soon as the 'shipper' part of people's brains get activated #it's like they lose the ability to read the story any other way and it stops being about what's good for the narrative and starts being #about whether or not these two people kiss and anything that gets in the way of that is bad and anything that brings it closer is good #and it's usually whatever but it's really frustrating when the story ppl are doing that to is this good #it also makes people fundamentally incapable of treating any 'obstacle' to that romance in a way that isn't wildly meanspirited and #gross (esp bc those characters are usually women) which is exhausting. like no claire isn't evil or a 'pick me' or 'bad' for carmy #or a useless addition to the story or whatever other nonsense you guys have decided must be true to feel okay. she's a perfectly normal #character and their relationship is exploring some of the ways that carmy's inability to deal with or actually address his trauma #impacts the various relationships in his life. she doesn't even have to be a monster or a narrative mistake for him and syd to be #'destined' for each other or whatever. this isn't a middle school wattpad fic.#im definitely gonna get killed in the street for this but ive been looking for a good reason to spend less time on here so might as well #the bear #sydcarmy #sydney adamu #carmy berzatto

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rabbits-of-negative-euphoria · 10 months ago

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#I would say some of my peers pushed the cooties narrative but my parents discouraged it #so I never thought of boys as being gross or having transmissible microbes #and I was always raised to value romance so I I don’t think I ever noticed a shift in my attitude towards the male sex #however I was somewhat (okay Very) bitter when suddenly it was inappropriate for me to be alone in a room with my male friend #but that bitterness had nothing to do with my own feelings towards guys #(and I truly think it was unavoidable. it’s part of growing up.#you can’t know why it’s inappropriate unless you also know all the lurid things two teens can get up to alone.)#(perhaps the suddenness of the change can be mitigated but the sadness can’t)#anyways I’ve always wondered about this shift everyone talks about that happens around middle school #because I remember feeling quite glad and natural in it. though I always was an aspiring adult)

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nametakensff · 9 months ago

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Have you guys ever been so disgusted by family snz that you actually start crying

#i don't think my sister thought i was in my room with my headphones off so she didn’t bother being quiet and it made me feel sick #headphones on straight away immediately burst into tears #obviously being autistic and extremely sensitive to sound doesn't help but :///#only con to living with her #i get so pissed off because she doesn't drink enough water all day and then has gross reactions by the evening at which point she's home #it's actually vile #and the worst part is she gets actively offended if i look even a little disgusted which i cannot help #we're about to share a hotel room for 4 nights so i am going to beg her to drink water and take antihistamines #anyway. i'm sure it'll be fine but had to type this out because i'm still actively in a state of physical repulsion #i've blocked someone on here before over telling me to not be mean about my sister but honestly fuck you let me vent #nttalks

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goldkirk · 6 months ago

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#everything’s fine and I’m fine I’m just saying this to say it rn #I don’t know what I would choose to do if he WAS still alive and I COULD still report officially #but a large part of me is really really glad that that mayor is dead. and I don’t ever have to hear him or see him at events or feel his #unusually long weird fingernails and iron grip while telling me to smile for pictures ever again #a part of me would love to confront him #but most of me is just glad he’s gone and can’t scare me or make life hell for my parents ever again #he never should’ve gotten away with all the things he did for so many years. but he did.#now that we’re here in the present. it’s a gift to get to move on from it knowing he’s not still out there at least #he was a gross greedy person with police and government power and never should’ve had those positions for so many decades like he did #but that being said. he can’t ever speak to or touch me again.#I’m not grateful now. I wasn’t grateful then after he stopped pretending either. but I’m glad I get to walk away and never live near #any subdivision or building or anything else with his name or picture #ever again. and he’s never able to touch another child ever. good riddance. you gross greedy poor excuse for a public servant.#now I’m gonna go try to write some of what I’ve learned into a fic to help my future self and others #who do you think came out on top at the end of the day mayor L?#I came out of this with friends and kindness and gentleness and healthy rage. you died just as greedy and fake and paranoid as you lived.#I hope you got better towards the end. for your wife and family’s sake.#I get to protect others from people like you for the rest of my life. and I’ll win.#because I deserve it and every current kid deserves it too.#shh katie

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sunnibits · 9 months ago

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hi this is a psa. if mealtimes are hard for you start sharing some food with your pet. it sounds silly but the caveman monkey brain is very easily fooled. you start passing little pieces of chicken or cucumber to your dog and your sappy human heart is like ‘omg…. connection…’🥺🥺 and instantly makes eating more enjoyable. your animal deserves food and so do you. you are having a little picnic together. some for you some for me. it’s so fun. do it.

#^^thing I have been enjoying lately #idk it may not help everyone but I like doing it #it feels very good #I especially like giving my animals the parts of food I don’t like #like I don’t like the bottoms of cucumbers so I give it to summer instead and she is VERY happy to eat it!!!#now the whole cucumber is being enjoyed and not wasted!!#it’s great #genuinely I think a big part of managing arfid for me is guilt reduction #if I don’t feel bad about wasting it rlly helps to relax and enjoy the meal #this part of the chicken has a bad texture and is grossing me out?? my cat can have a few bites!! he’ll love it!#tw ed mention #gem don’t look

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ghostboyhood · 30 days ago

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no fucking wayyy dude

#so you kick us out of a sever for saying people shouldnt joke about child rape/assault #and say u have evidence me n a friend were talking behind ur back #so you unfriend us n kick us out of yhe group #instead of oh idk talking about it with us like a mature person #you constantlyyyyy say ur trying sooo hard to get better at communicating but thats suchh bullshit u js want people to feel bad for you #oh sorry i think joking about raping a child is disturbing and gross #sorry me n my friend were talking about that together #not spreading “rumors” or even talking to other ppl about it #js airing problems out to eachother #literally go fuck urself youre such an entitled asshole #you use your mental illnesses to make people feel bad for you and get mad when they dont #sorry im not pitying a cis white girl who lives pretty comfortably financially in a safer part of town.#i cant even tell if she realizes how attention seeking she really is #the excuse of saying we were talking shit in a channel or whatever is literally suck bullshit #if i said something about the child rape jokes in a channel and you know its about you Obviously you should take a fucking look at yourself #Also not to mention when we got in a fight you said shit to my Face in “your channel” that made me go into one of the most dissociative #paranoid episodes in my life Ever. making me question my fucking morals and shit #how fucking up your own ass are you #whatever talk to me like a fucking grown up if you think youre so mature asshole #<- sorry this isnt about anyone here but im so fucking mad its like #genuinely disgusting #venting

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ilovefredjones · 1 year ago

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lesbian lesbian lesbian lesbian LESBIAN!!!!!!! IM A LESBIAN!!!!! I LOVE LESBIANS!!!!!! I LOVE LESBIANISM!!!!! LESBIAN!!!!!! i’m a lesbian and i love being a lesbian!!!!!!! LESBIAN!!!!!!!!!!

#lesbian is a beautiful word that describes the beautiful experiences and feelings i am lucky to have #i’m proud to be a lesbian and i CELEBRATE it and it makes me so happy to part of such a beautiful community #i love being a lesbian. i love the word lesbian. i love describing myself as a lesbian #LESBIAN!!!!!!!!!#no one can make me feel bad about it!!!!!!! LESBIANS!!!!!!!!!!#it’s not a gross word!!!! literally shut the fuck up!!!!!!!!

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gayghostrights · 2 months ago

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just got out of the bath, and now I’m sitting by a window listening to the wind and the rain and the waves. I have reached peak coziness. This is core memory levels of cozy.

#It’s sunk in that I am here and that I am here because I wrote some words and a group of people decided my work is worth reading #However the imposter syndrome hasn’t worn off yet and I am fighting against the part of my brain telling me I don’t deserve this #Anyway I wrote a poem about an eye today that was so gross so things are genuinely going so well <3 #Tomorrow Im hoping to write more than I did today but I still feel like I’ve had a successful day even if I only wrote like 7 poems #I’m also hoping the rain dries up because I planned to eat some mushroom chocolate and have a fire tomorrow but I’m here for 2 weeks #So I have time

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prolibytherium · 9 months ago

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I don't know if it's just a me thing but I don't like + cannot relate to so much romantic writing because the typical flowery descriptions of physical intimacy as this beautiful magical transformative experience are so far removed from how it feels for me

Like it's not even that I don't like that stuff but more that I'm always extremely aware of the very mundane physical aspects. I'm like 'damn this tongue is slimy and this tastes weird. Awesome'

#See prev post which I will probably delete at some point here #Honestly part of what makes physical intimacy with someone you really love so meaningful to me is that it's NOT this magical wonderful #thing it's weird and human and vulnerable and kinda gross and still feels good and you like it anyway because You love them and etc #Taking away the kind of mundane 'ugliness' and awkwardness and overly beautifying it cheapens it. For me personally at least #(Speaking in a romantic context here and not just sex as a whole. Which doesn't have to be a big thing or involve romance)

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inkbagel · 3 months ago

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This collab I joined like eight months ago that I didn’t really enjoy being in finally got posted today but for some reason only on twitter and I don’t go there so I can’t even see the whole thing :/

#I had. so many quarrels with it.#first of all instead of staying in mutual groups like it was supposed to the collab somehow blew up and got eighty people participating #and THEN you’d think since so many people were there everyone would have like one part right? like what we originally agreed to do with #seven people?#WRONG!!!! I got three parts plus a background without getting consulted about it #and then when I tried to make friends in the discord with all the other artists #at least seven people online at the time were raging mysoginists #telling me no women in this series can be anything except perfect dainty little princesses #except for one woman who was allowed to do a little evil bc she was associated with a MAN #who ACTUALLY wouldn’t be evil #and when I said that’s not accurate to the actual story everyone started crying and saying I offended them #bc ‘they thought really hard about this!!’ stfu you piece of shit #and then everyone in the discord sexualised the fuck out of my fave character who. also happened to be the one I was drawing.#so I got too grossed out to finish my part and ignored the disc for several months #and the host never thought once to tag everyone for check in until a week before the deadline #so I dropped all but one of my parts (the one I had mostly finished when I got grossed out)#and finished that and didn’t touch the disc again for the sake of my own mental health #but it finally got posted and I can’t even see it I only have my groups picture #but whatever. I didn’t like anyone there anyway at least I can leave the disc without feeling guilty now #inkbagel speaks

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headphonemouse · 3 months ago

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vent post sorry so sorry i'm having a Bad Time

psyched myself up to buy a new bed but when i announced my plans for the weekend my sibling's like 'are you sure you wanna buy a new bed?' like damn killed the hype immediately. i don't wanna buy a bed i don't wanna go anywhere i'll just keep using the bed that we all cycled through growing up that hasn't been replaced in a decade+ with no bedframe and only one sheet that fits.

"are you sure you want-" I need a new bed. This isn't a matter of wanting. i don't want to think about where to get the best deals or which store has a delivery service or the logistics of hauling that thing into my room or where to get rid of the old one i'm sick of sleeping on a mattress on the floor. don't make this ordeal more complicated than it has to be.

#i'm having a really bad day mentally and when it's this bad i have trouble doing anything because it's all too complicated #even going to the bathroom is too much so i just wont. and as the day goes on i start feeling gross and uncomfortable and hungry #but if i use the bathroom i'll be dirty so i'll have to take a shower and showering is a whole other thing so i'll just not eat or drink so #i don't have to go any more badly than i already do #it's not good and i hate it and this is somehow my fault??? fuck off why don't i crawl into a ditch so you don't have to see it #i skipped work today and i couldn't even go downstairs to get my work phone to inform my boss. even though i have enough time off saved up #it's still a tardy because i didn't report in so i'll get written up #they should fire me. i hate that place.#none of the part time jobs i've applied for have replied #i can't get another job if i lose this one #i cant tell if i'm fr mentally ill or if it's just a product of living in pandemic-genocide-capitalist-global warming times. among others.#not that any of that directly affects me because it's all just me overthinking things and blowing it out of proportion and ruining myself #i'm sorry i cant help #myself or others #talking tag

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