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moonlyxe · 9 days ago

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my maladaptive daydreaming experience

⚠️ !! major tw: mentions of su1c1de, sh and depression !!

okay, i came across this disorder "maladaptive daydreaming", which is when a person can get so immersed in their own fantasy world that it disrupts their life. and i think i may or may not have it.

children are dreamers--they have an extraordinary imagination, often living inside their fantasies in hopes of painting the monochromatic reality surrounding them. even i've been existing inside my own fantasy world since i was very young. i played with barbie dolls and stuffed animals--sometimes even with random objects i found lying around the house--and i had poorly-drawn sketches, wrote stories, made skits with my sister using mom's camera, and pretended i had magical powers like Elsa. i did anything to bring out my inner world. i often fantasized out of mere boredom while studying too. who hasn't done that when they were a child?

as time evolved, so did my naive daydreams. i discovered anime at the age of 12, along with tons of other shows, animatics and comics, and they intensified my imagination. i made room for a variety of characters, though many of them left forgotten. i don't know why i'm elongating this. of course, it's not that deep.

ah, then COVID-19 came, and so did my loving companion--loneliness. things were rough during quarantine, and i didn't realize how frequently i retreated to my fantasy world. i used to spend more than an hour in the shower, acting out scenes with fictional characters, and even more before sleeping. just like any teenager, when i turned 13, i found myself intrigued by the concept of romance. even if i was stubbornly in denial. i started reading more romance books, crushing over anime characters--i was practically introduced to a whole new world. romanticizing about love with fictional characters brought me warmth during my stressful moments.

when i turned 14, i was already suffering from depression and intense suicidal thoughts, oh, and not to mention, my self-harm tendencies. i started believing no one could provide me the love and support i desperately craved for, so i sought refuge in my inner world. music often played a major role in this--it's basically the perfect catalyst for daydreaming. i grew emotionally attached to my 'paras', in a way how one can be obsessive over their partner. i imagined myself in the arms of a lover, being comforted while receiving words of affirmation. i imagined how 'he' would react when i was hurting myself or attempting suicide. i cried to 'them' instead of asking for help. i didn't think anyone would help me, so why bother?

this excessive habit of fantasizing became my escapism--an addiction. i was so lost in my world that it started affecting my own life. i was losing track of time, couldn't focus on simple tasks and studies, and knocking things over while walking. i always kept my Spotify tab open so that i can daydream while listening to my playlist mid-tasks. when i fought with my parents or when they were fighting, i locked myself in my room, put my headphones on, and blasted my eardrums with songs and daydreamed.

music became my alcohol, and daydreaming was my escape from reality. who needs therapy when you can escape to your fanciful brain?

here are some OCs i created for myself: Ryuu, Noelle, and Azar. luckily, they don't solely exist inside my head--thanks to my artistic hobbies, i've conjured them into my own works. Azar is one of my recent paras, also the reason why i started my project, 'Soulbound'. and i drew Lucian and Ryuu in my sketchbooks.

on the brighter side, daydreaming can have its own benefits i guess. only sometimes.

i never really came to terms with my illness until now, and though i wish to get better, i also don't want to. these characters in my head are like my companions, whom i can feel safe and find comfort in. they've helped me bring out my artistic side, and i cannot be any more grateful. and sometimes, it scares me to think of what would happen to them once i get an actual partner. will i grow out of my daydreaming? will i lose my creativity and get accustomed to my tedious routines? will i see my own self-worth and face reality in a proper way?

do i really have to say my last good-bye to the characters whom i've grown to cherish the most? it makes me want to cry just thinking about it. i love all of them dearly.

(idk why i ended up writing sm uhh oh well- if anyone ends up finding this, i appreciate you taking ur time to read it <33 to those who are going through this, ur not alone. let's hope we can overcome this together :3)

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nexus-nebulae · 2 months ago

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oh my god. that one "oc" we wrote who had DID that we came up with before our syscovery. that was not an oc. oh my god cody and blake why did you take five years to make yourselves known to us-

#AND WHY DID YOU GET FRONT TRIGGERED BY A RANT REVIEW OF A MOVIE BASED ON A PSEUDO-ROMCOM BOOK???#question not necessarily directed at them but the structure of our system as a whole #we've been doing a lot of discovering of headmates who were FOR SURE around before our proper syscovery #most of whom we. conceptualized as paracosm characters i guess to cope?? and mask without knowing??#which is probably why our paracosm is inseparable from our system they are one and the same #but like. i mean we found the whole valley full of elder scrolls introjects (there were 11 of them. at once)#who at least with Aerina and Serana they both were around when we were 14 at the very least #bc aerina holds a shocking amount of memories of high school that we thought we'd just Lost Forever #like. she actually remembers what our classrooms looked like #we know that the Sides (like. of the sanders variety) that we made for ourselves. like our own Sides #most of them became true headmates but we're not sure about the rest... but they're probably here #Cecil and Cherry (intrusive thoughts and creativity) were some of our very first known members #cecil was the first actually. but we know he wasn't the first to form bc Sheo hiding his presence ANNOUNCED cecil to ruby the host from then #and like. we created our own versions of sides for every one that was in the actual series #but then There Were More. like 6 or 7 who wouldn't ever have been included in the series #and we were like 'we dunno why they're here BUT they're supposed to be OUR sides so of course there's differences!' and then.#and one of those was Aura who was our side that represented autism #we also had Ryker (anger issues) Oakley (obsession/hyperfocus) Aiden (adhd) and one that represented faith (like. spiritual and stuff)#don't remember the faith one's name it was something obscure #and seeing as like. 5 years after our syscovery we actually discovered Analise (our Logic side) in the sys #we probably have All Of Them somewhere #so like. cody and blake were from the first character we ever wrote who had DID #similar to our first trans character. writing it as if im someone on the outside when really we were just an egg carton #we didn't write Much of him but we put much work into making him like. not fulfill bad stereotypes #he was still kind of stereotypical but we were 15 and an egg carton #but like. we haven't thought abt him or his story like. Since Then #so. very odd that they both show up here and right now-#cody was supposed to be the host and blake was the only alter we actually came up with before abandoning that story like most we wrote #there were absolutely going to be more but. we never got to that point in the story #mostly bc something we were co-writing with someone else fell apart so we just started All of our projects over from scratch

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blue-madd · 10 months ago

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Yee thanks for the tag!

I did Skylar, my main parame/verit (ofc)

Lauv - all 4 nothing

BoyWithUke - rockstar

Lil Nas X - Montero

Dua Lipa - if it ain't me

Rina Sawayama - this hell

As you can see, he likes pink and showing off shoulders + legs and this says nothing about me as a person /s

@ everyone who wants to join! (Yes I love those games, no I will never @ anyone bc brain says no)

Totally not stealing this from people on my dash >.>

RULES: Post 5 songs associated with your OC, followed by 3 outfits they would wear

Doing Shal (Standard edition) cause gal won the "scrolling through folder till I got the Outfits together" competition:

The Living Tombstone - Drunk

Moulin Rouge - El Tango de Roxanne

Peter Fox - Schwarz zu Blau

MandoPony - Survive the Night

The Stupendium - Impossible Geometry

Used to be more a casual Shirt with Jeans guy, but ever since that stint as a fashion Designer, clothes have gotten more fancy (something something physical indicators of recovery my beloved)

Tagging: @blue-bubonic @blue-madd @daydreaming-memories @dremieblur @aircastledweller @maddakai and whoever else wanna!

#the first one is his fav dress which is the default i see him in whenever we're too distracted to discuss whatever he's wearing #honestly would love it for me too if it wasnt so damn short but thats why i have a parame : to do everything i cant/wont do #paras rant #paracosm : Q

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xstrawberryshiftsx · 3 months ago

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MY 1D DR!!

NAME: REDACTED Dove

AGE: 16

AESTHETIC:

TALENTS: Singing, baking, drawing, piano, guitar

FRIENDS:

Liam

Niall

Louis

Zayn (childhood friends)

Harry

S/O(s):

Harry and I dated and where engaged from 16-20 and he broke it off we me : (much more detail but can’t be bothered to right it lol)

I then date a girl called Avery for about 4 months

ENDGAME: my endgame is Zayn <3 (specifically 2014 and Japan Zayn cause Jesus Christ)

ALBUM(s):

My first album is Paracosm and is basically about my childhood and relationships and my breakup with harry (we were engaged but we were both young and he was getting hate and overthinking it so in an impulsive he broke it off me with me)

cover:

My second album is folklore and evermore

SINGLES:

Hot to go

good luck babe

my kink is karma

Red wine super nova

lie to girls

Causal

super graphic ultra modern girl

Pink pony club

getaway car

Greatest

Now that we don’t talk

This love

Say don’t go

Wildest dreams

Wonderland

Style

Is it over now

Out of the woods

Wildflower

Hey I’ve been gone for a while! (So I’m basically shadowbanned) anyway I’m gonna tag some mooties so y’all know I’m back

@st4rshipr4nger @sugaredlavenderhearts @livingsecret @moonyshifter @mars-multiverse @kelpstheshifter @harrypotterlover14 @littlecoffeeadict @shiftingwithjaidyn @zipper-is-ranting

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paracosmofdeath · 1 year ago

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If i ever say im gonna turn straight im joking. i hate men with all my heart i am so sorru. i genuinely cannot imagine myself marrying or being inlove with one and there r very few guys i can even tolerate.

#art #paracosm rants #romance hater #emensuck #my online friend on the other side (a specic goth one) is very cool tho #bros my buddy fr #he has a cat btw #greenest flag ever love him

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blue-madd · 1 year ago

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Ooooh!!

I tried making Blue (sadly there wasn't any hot pink outfit/accessory but still like it)

+ the Elmentian kids : Atlas, Mona, Tori

This picrew is really cute, thought I'd share it here. I had to edit the ears and tail, but the fact that there was even a snake tail at all really made me love this one.

#Blue #glitch #facet talk #paracosm : Elmentia #paras rant #Mona looks weird without her chubby body

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bird-prince-art · 19 days ago

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WAAAH thank you @stevehairringtn for tagging me in your “10 people I’d like to get to know better!” You’re too kind!!!

Last song: “The Sharpest Lives” by My Chemical Romance

Fav color: Light pink and emerald green

Last book: Prince’s Gambit by C. S. Pacat (technically audiobook?? It’s my drawing companion rn)

Last movie: Sonic the Hedgehog 3 (I don’t know anything about Sonic, I assume all of it was canon)

Last TV Show: It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia (my annual rerun)

Sweet/savory/spicy: Sweet!!!

Relationship status: Single

Last thing I googled: bubble hershey bar (discontinued) (sadly)

Looking forward to: rots theater re-release date WHEN??? I got to see tpm, I neeeeed to see this one too!

Current obsession: i’ve been pretty fuckin bananas over here about my star wars storyboard books. Sorry if you’ve already seen me ranting about them but they have consumed my every waking thought. Unstoppable force (my love of the artistry of storyboarding) meets immovable object (my obsession with catholic space ninjas with laser swords)

Tagginggggg: @unspuncreature @fellas3001 @himboskywalker @localclownbaby @space-atrium @virahaus @paracosm-draw @ragnarlothcat @heyitskkhere @silvipeppers

#bird talks

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protectingtulpas · 1 year ago

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Do you think redirecting my MADD (Mal-Adaptive Daydreaming Disorder) to create a Tulpa might work?

Meditation is difficult because I live with a lot of noisy people and animals, and my MADD already makes me more likely to stop what I'm doing and go on an imaginary rant about stuff - do you think this might help?

(I know it'd probably be way slower than conventional means, but still, y'know?)

Heyo! So this is actually a completely viable method long as you're careful, as lots of neuronarrators end up feeling like their paras are actually conscious after a lotta interaction. If you set up the beginning concepts of your tulpa within your paracosm and let em develop while using tulpamancy guides as a guideline, it'd probably work similarly to how a lotta tulpamancers start off by spending a lotta time in their headspace with their tulpa. When I was super "young" I loved just getting the choice on where I wanna move around and what I wanna explore. I bet a paracosm would be super awesome for a new tulpa just getting their bearings!

MaDD IS something that causes distress or dysfunction, tho, so make sure to remember a few things: for one, try and keep your proto-tulpa away from any disturbing or traumatizing things that could be in your paracosm- it really sucks to have avoidable trauma mixed into your creation, so if your paracosm is super unsafe, not a good idea to create a tulpa in there. On the OTHER hand, I know a lot of paras and sometimes paratives too are totally unaware there's a world outside of their paracosm, but I'm gonna go ahead and say it's Not Really Cool to intentionally do that to a tulpa. Don't keep them trapped in ur paracosm, or try and convince them it's their only place, or try and keep them from being aware of the outside world in any way. DON'T TRUMAN SHOW YOUR TULPAS, I think that's pretty obvious.

Ummm other than that I'd say you know your disorder best! Daydreams can totally be a tool for a tulpa to give em a lot to do out of front, as well as an innerworld identity, which can be really nice! But be super careful not to put them in danger or treat them like unconscious entities like paras or NPCs. Hope that sums it up!

#tulpamancy #pluralgang #tulpa #endogenic #neuronarration #MaDD #maladaptive daydreaming #tulpamancy advice

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blue-madd · 1 year ago

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Thanks for the tags ! (I may add more bc it was very fun)

Skylar

Lani

Sugar

Manon

Felicia

NEW MADD TAG GAME: Make your para in this picrew and add a pic of an outfit they’d wear!

tagging: @sugarcoatedsadism @acircusfullofdemons @intothe-4hearts-verse @parasdreams @daydreaming-memories @maddgical-boy @madmadder as well as anyone else who feels like joining!

SYLVIE PAGE

ARTEMIS PAGE

AUSTIN SLATER

JACK FINCH

CECILIA DELUCA

#so sad i had to stop at 10 pics :(#paracosm : Q #paras rant #can u tell Manon has a thing for knives hahaha #also she was a big time smoker even tho she stopped when she got pregnant #+ it's fun to do Skylar's hair without his locs since he took them off #and Skylar & Lani have elf ears. surprise surprise ! Lani's toxic ex forced her to get them with her & Skylar got them for his 30th bday

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fuckingeverythinguplikenormal · 1 year ago

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One of the people in my paracosms turned 18 last month and now i feel old despite only being 15 BUT HE'S BEEN IN MY BRAIN SINCE I WAS 6 NOW HES 18 IM GONNA CRY anyways hi rant over fml

#actually madd #madd #maladaptive daydreaming #actually maladaptive #maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive problems

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neurotheascars · 9 months ago

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That nasty hate speech "art" going around that says "death to all endos I'm a better shot than you" makes me so angry as an endogenic alter of a trauma system. Im ranting here because it is unsafe for me to go attack people directly. And I'm being responsible, unlike the anti endos literally taking out their trauma on others. I am supervised by a devoted steward, and he will block things before I even see them because this is a side blog off of his. so don't waste your time on me if you wanna fight. Just block. Block and go. I'm only making this post because I'm angry at the explosion of immaturity in the syscourse tag and my words are for those hurt and affected.

Anyway.

You are not a better shot than me. Earth bullets don't work on my species and I am too fast of a swordsman you skull faced idiot. In my paracosm, On my home planet I have disarmed many many people with guns. I will deflect every proverbial bullet you send at innocent people with my sword because you are hateful and you take joy in hate. Dishonorable edgy grimdark asshole. You aren't even good at drawing.

You are not an ally of any mentally traumatized community. You haven't figured your shit out yet and you wanna lash out and be mean because I'm sure you think it helps you. I was like that when I was 19. Lashing out doesn't make the pain go away. It won't make the abuser get justice. It will only distance you from healthy relationships, because the kind you form through shared hate will turn toxic.

Just wait. In ten years when you realize the impact of your hateful words, the regret will come down upon you like a cold rain, and you will be soaked. I hope your healing is swift and I hope you realize sooner rather than later that you are the one causing the harm. Not endos who just dared to exist. You want innocent people to die because you think they are pretending.

Even if they were. Death? Really? You disgust me. You can just say nothing. You can keep hate to yourself but that's not as fun for you is it?

#endo safe #syscourse #these tags are for content filtering not engagement #only endo supporters can talk to me ive heard enough of the other side

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everyone-with-a-para · 11 months ago

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ok i wanna rant about smth i came up with rq

so. i came up with this daydream where i am a somewhat known(?) movie director and i made a tv series about my paras adventures and their lifes as they are in my daydreams. the people dont know where these characters came from and they don't know about the madd part of it. what they do know, is that in the stories and in the series, in the characters dynamics, there is someone missing.

the fans go on this whole thing trying to figure out who could be missing and multiple theories are made until i open up about the actual backround of it.

me. that's who's missing from the story. all these stories, all these adventures all this love, was all built and somewhat focused on me.

its like a whole story without a main character.

the best thing? the series is filmed out of third person only and almsot out of the viewers eyes, aka mine so that it almost seems as if the group is complete, but it never is.

I used to have a lot of paracosm tv show daydreams but not so much anymore I think I burnt myself out on them

#madd #maladaptive daydreaming #paraportal #ask #quill speaks #girlofhoneyandglass

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blue-madd · 2 years ago

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Thanks for the tags ! The list of Q-paras was too long so I decided to do those from the Re;Vamp AU :

Essa

Neven

Sabina

Tomoe

Pu-Feng

Tom

Sugar

Gwen

Min-Min

Jiva

Léandre

CHARACTER FLAW TAG GAME

I found this and thought it might be fun. Unfortunately, I don't know who started/made it. But anyway, all you have to do is bold whatever "flaws" apply to your para(s)!

CALYPSO

ELLIOTT

JANE

JORDAN

ROWAN

TOBY

TAGGING: @paraesthetics @sugarcoatedsadism @ohnoesmytacos @fallingmaddlyinlove @fourhearts-paracosm @daydreaming-memories @daydream-ideas

#i think i got them right #i Think #not sure #anyways #paras rant #madd #maladaptive daydreaming #paraportal #paracosm : re;vamp

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the-cat-and-the-birdie · 1 year ago

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So I'm typing up answers for the OC x Hobie questionnaire post that you typed up and I was gonna make a personal post about this plot point that fixed itself in my mind but I feel like you need to personally know how much you've ruined me 😭

So I'm trying to figure out how long Ansi and Hobie have known each other since she's only been a spider for less than 5 years and in the society for like 2. So how did they come to have such a close emotional bond where they have such a strong sense of trust and loyalty towards one another that I can only compare to skk from bungo stray dogs in just 2 years????

At first I was like what if they knew one another just like a year before or something. And then Ansi was like, "Oh we've known each other for longer than that actually."

EXCUSE ME

Wdym y'all have known each other for longer than that?

So apparently back when Ansi was like 8 her father had accidentally figured out how to open up the way for interdimensional travel (he's just kooky like that) and a young boy (Hobie) had accidentally gotten sucked through into their world. He had to stay with them for a good 2 and a half years before her father figured out how to send him back. (Either the glitching doesn't exist or her father figured out how to stop it.)

So when Hobie and Diane came to visit that one time Ansi had a shaking feeling that it was him. But he didn't wanna get his hopes up especially with what was going on in her world at the time. BUT IT WAS HIM. And the reunion they had CHILE THAT REUNION WAS HEARTBREAKING. After joining the society they reconnect and head in hands, WHERE DID THIS COME FROM

I think she's lying to me tho but who knows. (Your father is a genius of his time but the multiverse? Really? But wait, that'd explain why Alchemax was out to get him and....OH MY GOD)

I hope he isn't lying through because that means I just cried over nothing.

(I'm not adding this to her story.....maybe idek. I got so emotionally invested just typing up this ask. *Cough* anyways I just needed to let you know the insan- I mean the ideas that have awakened. I'm only on the 2nd section of the questionnaire and I'm terrified of what's gonna pop up in my brain next 😭)

I'm having a crisis. I hope you're happy with yourself 🥲

Ansi, Diane, Hobie, Bonding, and the Web of the Multiverse

[Screaming about my neurodivergent paracosm and how it syncs up with a mutal - and how the logic of the multiverse backs up/affects their stories] [This post is largely about Disco-Spider Diane and @spidey-bie's Ansi] THIS ASK IS SUCH A AHHHHHHAHAHHH BECAUSE AHHHHH SO MANY THINGS INTO THIS I HAVE TO-

ITS SO HARD TO ANSWER BECAUSE HOBIE IS IMMEDIATELY LIKE 'CAN I SAY SOMETHING' SHUT UP YOU CAN SPEAK AT THE END

The background Ansi gives you and the logic of what Hobie and Diane just did CONNECTS - like it all connects (Sorry this is lone)

And I'm SOOOOO SOOOO intrigued for their background. I plan to write a full post about this and explain fully what clusters are, how maps work, the function of bonding and how they work -

But this is how I 'learned' about all these things

I was interested in how certain universes would look if the multiverse was based on a flowchart like system to make a web - so I made a map of the multiverse based on attributes like style, time, and where they live -

AND FROM MY CALCULATIONS - NO JOKE - Ansi's universe would be the closest universes because he and Hobie share a cluster.

I explain like the logic of it in the post I'm finishing up BUT Ansi and Noir would border Hobie's in this map - and the closer universes are the more stable the transfer between them is.

SO WITH THE MAP HOBIE COULDVE REASONABLY FELL INTO ANSI'S UNIVERSE

AND WAIT THERES MORE - I was finishing up the Multiversal Map and realized Hobie and Diane were having a really good day at the boathouse

And then they introduced me to a whole new concept that we directly see in ATSV - Bonding

Multiversal Bonding -

[A long ass rant where I explain something wild Hobie and Diane just did in my head - and how it directly explains HOW Hobie fell into Ansi's universe too]

Diane and Hobie were doing their thing and then suddenly they shared a moment of this intense like...vibe, mental space idk

And afterwards they're like "oh yeah that happens because we're Bonded. Like Universe Bonded"

And I'm like WHAT WHAT IS THAT??? WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT

and this is where it goes wild...

Diane is like 'I...don't know. Something just happened what happened.'

What do you mean you don't know? I'm asking her to describe it and she's like 'umm errr' and Hobie isn't saying anything he's all dreamlike

Now all of this is happening directly after ATSV like an hour or two after they get everyone and head to Hobie's universe. - Gwen and the others are at the boathouse

Then Peter B. starts talking.... HUH??? Excuse me?

Hobie genuinely stopped and was like "wait how r u here, like in roman's head how are you here' like he's actually stunned. I DIDN'T know he could manifest in the boathouse

And Peter B. is the only one who knows what this term means. He had to explain it to me before I understood what they were doing

Peter B looks at Diane and Hobie and goes "........like Miles and Gwen?? How Gwen can feel Miles' spider-sense? Bonded'

Gwen is like 'ME AND MILES ARE BONDED????'

And Diane is like...we what now, i did what to the multiverse what does that mean

Peter has to explain the concept.

Miguel knew about bonding, and that two spider-people of close universes can 'Bond', and for a part-neurological, part-social link between the two of them.

This happened with Miguel and his partner Moche - and Miguel outright rejected it. As he's against Spider-people being together, and he believed Moche was better off with someone else

(he was actually just scared to accidentally kill her like he did gabriella but thats neither here nor there)

He instead chose to withhold the information of Bonding from the Society, and watched for it closely.

Only he, Peter, and Jess knew bonding was possible - and that's why Jess was SO against Hobie and Diane.

And everything just kinda clicked for Diane how brainwashed the society had made her cause for YEARS she was told having feeling for Hobie was wrong and NOT possible

But now that she's left The Society by her own choice, it was the last hurdle for them to finally be fully bonded.

SO NOW THERES THIS WHOLE NEW CONCEPT AND ASPECT TO THEIR 'RELATIONSHIP' AND IT AFFECTS SO MUCH

Like they can sense each others location, react to each others spider sense, if one of their hearts starts racing the other will feel it too. Now Diane can use his guitar as a club in battle. IN HER WORLD Hobie LOOKS NORMAL - in his universe she looks like him - since they can just slide into each others universe easier. Diane is less likely to glitch out, she just needs to wear the watch for a short time each week so her DNA can reach baselevel again

AND WHEN THEY FIGHT TOGETHER THEY GET INTO THIS FLOW STATE And they can just fight in complete tandem with each other now

And it's like !!!! They just did that???? Suddenly. Like looked into each others eyes at an emotional moment

(Diane's first time seeing Hobie after leaving The Society - A rundown

Hobie asked her to come with him before leaving the society, she said no because she wanted to stay for Jess and Gwen - A VERY HARD moment for them. Hobie is really wounded by this.

- Gwen gets sent home - Diane swings on Jess - They put her in a cage and let out after six hours. - Diane went immediately to Hobie's old abandoned dorm room, finding out Hobie still left parts behind for her.

She figured out how to hack herself based on all the times she watched hobie in the workshop - but she cant do it because she's missing one part and she's so frustrated with herself -

Jess comes to apology for Miguel and gives Diane Hobie's watch, an older model - insists Diane take it - Diane over his old watch and finds out Hobie's watch has the finally part she leaves - she hacks her watch and finally leaves the society)

This happened the movement they reunited with each other on the bow of the boathouse

then it was like a switch like not bonded to BONDED and NONE of us knew what that mean until Peter B said anything

But more than anything ITS LIKE AFTER SO LONG THEY HAVE THE WORD TO DESCRIBE WHAT THEY ARE WHEN THEYD BEEN AVOIDING IT FOREVER

They can finally just say "We're bonded."

Because it's not a romantic thing, it's not like that AT ALL. It's like a mental clarity between them like their understanding and connection to each other is a lot more clear and they can feel the other's emotions more clearly (but there's a distinction. Diane knows when she's feeling Hobie's feelings. it's a subtle thing, not a total emotion)

So that from their prior relationship they're now a lot more frictionless, but unchanged if you get what I mean

Like now Hobie annoys Diane more - Diane is down and free to go full groupie mode theyre suddenly REALLY good at planning and fighting together, and having each others back

The kind to do conversations like "Did you-" "Yeah, were you gonna-" "I was but before I was gonna-" "Handle the other thing? Oh okay that makes since." Like not even finishing sentences but understanding conversations totally

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT HAPPENED

About Bonding: (according to how Peter B explained it to me)

I explain it more in the multiverse post but basically its when two spiderpeople of nearby universes form a bond that at a certain point a switch is flipped -

since their dna's are so similar (being from close universes) it's easier for people of closer worlds - and people someone is BONDED to - to assimilate into the other's world, and feel their sensations.

This connection is almost permanent - though it goes dormant - and it can happen to anyone destined to be a spider-person. They don't have to be bitten yet.

Gwen and Miles are bonded, which is why she can feel his senses across universes.

And it's like a concept I never saw about the movie just became explained based on a totally unrelated situation Diane and Hobie had separately.

BUT ALL OF THIS IS TO SAY - Ansi & Hobie

Using this logic (I came up with at 5am while on a coffee binge) - Ansi's placement is CLOSER to Hobie's than Diane's is.

Hobie and Diane only share one cluster : The Time Desynchronization Cluster.

BUT Diane is from New York - so she's also apart of The New York & Adjacent Cluster with Pavi and Noir, while Hobie isn't.

And because Ansi is from Seattle he isn't in the New York Cluster either - so Diane's universe is farther away from Hobie's than Ansi's is. His universe is closer to Hobie's than Noir as well (as Noir also lives in NY)

And because of this - It's completely possible for Hobie to tumble into the next universe over.

AND ALSO because of this new unrelated term I learned from Peter B. of all people - his Ansi and Hobie bonded as young kids it would slow or totally reduce his multiversal decay.

Since their universes are so close, the multiverse can easily 'heal' itself without collapsing or shifting too much

Since they're so close, it's like the thread hasn't fully snapped. Because Hobie is close in proximity to his universe still, his universe hasn't 'noticed' enough to collapse in on itself

So as long as they found a way for Hobie to find equilibrium every week, or month, or even less - he's good.

Hell, if they bonded early it might even have been a year of him being there before any signs of glitching came on.

Even though Diane and Hobie are bonded, she still can't assimilate totally into Hobie's world 100%, because their universes are still a little farther apart. She can slip into his style or go in his universe unnoticed, but there's still that fraction of multiversal different. That's why for her, multiverse decay takes a week to set on instead of minutes or months.

Also bonding is permanent or near permanent - like it takes decades to wear off, though it may get weaker or dormant over time. But Ansi seeing Hobie come through the portal after all of those years and the bonding just KICKS IN and their spidey-senses go off

Diane sees this and is like ????? 'Hobie r u okay what r u feeling' cause he has this unreadable look on his face because one of the reasons he joined the Society WAS TO FIND ANSI.

He could figure out the watch on his own - but by going on missions and recruits he was just HOPING to find him one more time and finding out his universe number and he FINALLY DID

Immediately recognizing the house and being like 'damn im home.'

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHAAAAAAAAAAAA

I think your Hobie was right. Oh and...because I told him I would, here's Hobie.

H: We're always right. -Hobie please.

Would you like to explain how Bonding feels? H:...No words for it really. We're Shining, basically. (OMFG He said this and I was like - no way. That's weirdly out of character. The Shining wasn't out in the 70's. - NOPE The book came out 1977. IT'S A NEW RELEASE TO HIM. I SWEAR I didn't know this I don't even like Stephen King. I've never even read the bookHOW DID HE KNOW THAT)

H: Because I'm always right. -All you do is irk my nerves. That's enough outta you.

Diane. Do you have anything to say?

D: Me currently

Okay. How does Bonding feel? D: (Basically just squealing - after the initial shock she just kept jumping on his back)

Say hi to Ansi. D: OMGG I feel so far out right now!! Literally, like my brain is so OUT there. This is WICKED. COME OVER. are you busy? PLEASE tell you two have kid photos of you together. I NEED to see! - I think she has ADHD too D: It's like he's IN my head - Now you know how I feel.

That's it from them, they're spent and SO AM I

I hope any of this made sense cause I KN OW I sound like

AHHHHHHH HERRE AHHHHH

Bye.

#no proofread AT ALL #SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER EVERYTHING WAS LIKE...YOU KNW...CLICKING #hobie brown #spiderpunk #spider punk #spidersonas #spidersona #hobie x oc #disco spider #atsv #uhhh #yeah #Diane & ansi #The Lucky Charms

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