#overcome bulimia

[amyhayanora]

KHOC WEEK 2024 Day 2 - Past

the things for my OCs are now the only ones I do, so, off with the annual @khoc-week appointment.😂

The protagonist of this post should have been Aspis, my little Anguis kid, but since Aspis is deeply connected to another character, it's probably better that I start with some headcanons I have about the Foretellers. Between those and the designs, at this point they feel a bit like OCs too. even tried to do a Nomura-esque version for the occasion.

The assumption is that the Foretellers were one of the many attempts on the chessboard of the Master of Masters to face the Darkness. He gathered under his protection a group of lonely and desperate kids, with a tormented past, acting in the grey area more than out of affection. He bet on them. He sought out children who possessed specific flaws of distinct deadly sins, trained them, and made them his apprentices on a journey designed to make them overcome their "sin" and use it as a virtue that will be essential to their future "roles." For example…

Gula, who lived on the streets as a feral child, has known hunger, and food is also how MoM attracted him. Gula suffered from bulimia and nervous hunger for years, before managing to direct his anxiety towards logic and study, becoming an analytical boy "hungry" for knowledge.

Ava, sold away by her once rich family fell in disgrace, wanted EVERYTHING back. everything she had lost, or that she wanted but could no longer afford. Mom was the one who has bought her, she's too young to understand the extent of the family tragedy. that's why she later was the perfect one for the task of choosing any wielder she desires or attracts her eye, without limits, collecting the Dandelion.

Aced has always used his muscles to win easily, alone, without effort and without ever really try to improving himself, until carelessness cost him his tribe and an eye… he is now a loyal follower and uses his strength to defend the group, the arm of the law under Ira.

Ira, balances strength in combat and intelligence, which are also the qualities of his union. stubborn and rebellious, as an angry teenager he ran away from home, losing his path. He was the first one found by Mom, and he owes him his life. He learned to control his anger because of him, obtaining determination, willpower and the courage that made him choose as Leader.

Luxu carried the burden of being an unwanted child, the result of an affair, from an early age he felt cursed by that because of a big birthmark on one eye that vaguely resembles an X. shy, insecure and reserved, people pleaser, until life with his apprentice companions brought out his mischievous and creative personality. His being a people pleaser made him incredibly attentive to the behavior of the people around him and the ideal candidate to infiltrate among people and live their lives, one after the other.

Finally, Invi.

like all the other foretellers, her name is more of a title. Her real name is Nivea, and she was isolated from her village because white hair was considered a bad omen. The resentment of having to survive alone, with a little brother to support, he too with lighter hair than was welcome, soon turned into Envy, gnawing at her insides every time Nivea stopped to observe the normality of other families, lurking and hating everyone but her brother Aspis.

MoM saved both, proposing a deal to Nivea: he would take care of them, they would have a roof over their heads, education, a future, as long as she studied under him.

With no other real choice, the children accept out of desperation.

Nivea and Aspis initially lived together, but as they grow older she is forced to uphold her end of the bargain, spending more and more time at the clocktower. Aspis and Nivea's relationship is ruined irreparably, as Invi begins to enjoy her studies and the company of her peers, spending less and less time with her brother "for a higher purpose".

On the other hand, Aspis, who has always remained silent about a subtle hostility from the inhabitants of Daybreak Town due to his bad temper and sharp tongue, is left almost alone. His only wish was not to be a burden to his sister, who therefore always believed everything was fine and let him go without regrets. Aspis is full of resentment towards Mom, blaming him for brainwashing his sister, now obsessed by Light and darkness, when she clearly only wanted a better life for them.

Aspis and Invi do not hate each other, but the lack of communication makes it difficult to make peace, they will miss their chance before the War.

Aspis eventually made some friends along the way, that made his loneliness bearable. he is in a sort of trio with Lupe and Leonna, and a little girl who for some reason adores him like a big brother, Velcia (she's @alchemist-of-thebes 's oc). he'll never admit it, but he would die for her.😂

concluding this post with some old foretellers art dump xD

[sophisticatedgia]

Change is coming. I can handle it.

I've reached my goal weight of 139-140 lbs. I am 5'7. That is the lowest I'm going to go. Ideally I would love to be 129 but I'm not 25 anymore. In the past, anti psychotics made me gain a lot of weight. I got up to 181 pounds on risperidone. Abilify has helped me lose some of the weight gained on anti psychotics. My beginning weight, before anti psychotics, was 134. That's ok. I don't need to go that low. I am happy. Now, I must maintain this weight. I am ok and positive with being anything under 144. This is my sensation of myself and comfort within my own body. I am not saying one cannot be comfortable or happy with themselves at higher weights.

Lately I've been eating broccoli, copious amounts of protein bars and bananas, once regular Mac and cheese, occasionally sweets but in small portion, and "Amy's" vegan tv dinners.

The foods I've dropped are oatmeal, taco bell, and chips w cheese and sour cream. I used to eat tons of chips cheese n sour cream. And tons of bean and cheesy rice burritos extra jalapeno sauce. My unsafe foods are noodles and chips, burritos and French fries. And Im wondering if oatmeal provides me with too much fiber tho it's incredibly wholesome and comforting.

Lately I've been highly caffeinated. Tomorrow is day one, one caffeinated beverage per day. Tomorrow is going to be day two of me not picking and peeling my hands and fingers. I am looking to God to help me with all this and more, and to maintain my goal weight. Our Heavenly Father can feed my appetite with his loving solace when I want to binge and purge. I am recovering from bulimia and binge eating disorder. Was anorexic in my younger years.

I luckily haven't had an oculogyric crisis in about a month or so. Thank you God for this peace you've bestowed upon me. I know there may be battles yet to come, that I will endure and overcome.

I am wearing my white touch screen gloves in picture. It is polite to do so and soothing for my hands. An anon message told me that I was disgusting for not taking precautions with my hand issues. I am now taking anons advice and doing the best I can.

I walk with my backpack everywhere I go because I'm prescribed Benadryl and hydroxyzine for when I have oculogyric crisis, and never know when one may happen. I keep my sparkly gold wallet in there and a few rose quartz. My sleep schedule is so good, and oculogyric crisis is something I can handle, so I don't believe I will be switching to vraylar(a more expensive new anti psychotic) I don't like change, especially if it includes insomnia.

My boyfriends been very sweet and manning up. What I mean by that is he is doing what he said he would do, giving me a deep tissue massage every other night. He has begun to cease his irritations and behaves more enduring and patient with me. We love each other very much.

I thought to myself , oh October first, it's my chance to escape him! Every beginning of the month is a possible plan to leave him. But I don't want to. The tenderness between us is holy.

I may keep reblogging some quote on here about hands gentle as snow. Because I'm trying to have compassion towards myself and heal my hands. I'm trying to see myself as somebody worth taking care of properly, in a mature and healthy-not scary-manner. Gentle , tender , sacred .

I know it's rude of me to say I may leave him, but if push comes to shove i shall. I don't want to though. I want to be with him forever.

Ok so I saw my parents the other day and brother and dog. It was a good visit. I got the 🦇 bat 🦇 leggings as previously pictured from mom. They are super soft. I helped wash my dad's bedding, did the dishes, took out recycling, threw away trash around the house, swept the kitchen. And spent quality time with my dog, buddy. It was a nice visit tho short.

I wish I could be a good daughter so badly. They think good of me. But if I were truly good I would move back in with them and help them everyday. I chose my mate. Like I said he recently got a Mohawk and that's my fave haircut on men. He looks so sultry. Can sultry be used to describe a man? I mean he's smokin hot!

Ok. I am fearing the change ahead of me, but with faith in my own goodness and Gods love for me, I shall do what Im able.

I want to say if my relationship gets worse, I will try therapy again. If I keep picking my hands, I will try therapy again.

I am going to be a healthy , humble , sophisticated , imperfect woman. I believe I am ADHD autistic. My psychiatrist says that I very well may be autistic. But they don't do tests for that there. Tests are overstimulating or nerve-wracking for me anyway.

Sorry for writing so much but two mutuals seemed to miss my writing.

Today my walk to the vape shop was so nice. The clouds swirling white and blue in tender waves of slow motion. I think my fave colors are truly white and blue. And grey, black, brown. I'm getting a pink neck scarf though. Cus princesses wear pink. 🩷

Thanks for reading or jus looking at da pix. Love yall. You are precious. You are sacred. Never give up on yourself.

[a-strange-inkling]

How did Eddie feel when he realized Chrissy was overcoming her eating issues while watching her become healthier over time?

Oh, he was so proud and amazed by her strength. Watching her grow to a healthier weight, her starved body becoming softer and well taken care of. Seeing her slowly feeling better, body, mind and soul. It’s what anyone would want for the person they love most in the world.

Eddie was with her every step of the way through that long healing process. And it was very hard on both of them. He had heard of bulimia before sure, but didn’t ever really know just how terrible and scary it was until he was with Chrissy… It was difficult for him to understand, to watch her go through so much pain and not be able to do anything. He loved her so much. How she could hurt herself like that? Deprive herself of food? How could her mother put such horrible, deadly thoughts in her head? He spent hours reading books, researching how to help, learning to cook the things that she liked, the she had the least aversions too, the things that would make her feel whole and healthy. After the upside down, he wasn’t going to lose her to something like this.

Chrissy worked hard to get better, she continued to go to counseling, worked through her aversions and mental problems. It took a while, but she finally stopped purging. She regresses occasionally, skips a meal or starts to have self deprecating thoughts, but with the support of her friends and family she’s always able to come out stronger each time

[minimitchell]

okay so this isn’t enough to turn this into a full-blown fic but i was so floored by ben actually seeking help for his ed that my head decided to imagine this and i thought i’d just share it with you.

tw disordered eating

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“Ben, there’s a letter for you.”

Callum is sifting through the stack of papers in his hands, scanning each one over to decide whether he should bin it or open it. They’re not great at sorting through their mail, none of them are, it mostly gets tossed onto the counter in the kitchen to be dealt with later. 

Their bills are automated, as are any other important payments, so there’s no real reason to go through them every day. One of them only ever decides to look through them when the stack on the counter reaches an unacceptable height.

Callum already threw away three advertisements for different home furniture stores and pinned a takeout brochure for that new Greek place on High Street onto the cork board above the sink when he stumbled over the letter addressed to his husband.

Ben is in the bathroom sticking on another load of washing. Lexi managed to cover the only clean uniform skirt she had left in ketchup so an additional round of laundry has to be done. The joys of parenthood. Callum on the other hand decided to tackle the state their kitchen was in so he and Ben could have some guilt-free alone time before Jay fetches Lexi from Honey and Billy’s after work.

“What is it?”

Normally, Callum would have no qualms about opening the letter, they’re married and there’s nothing the other couldn’t or shouldn't know about, but the letter comes from Ben’s therapy place so he doesn’t want to open it for him right now.

Ben crosses the landing into the kitchen, coming to a stop next to Callum. For a moment he leans into Callum’s side; head resting against his husband's biceps. Callum tilts the letter towards him so he can see the sender, glancing at Ben to gage his reaction.

He doesn’t exactly look surprised but he also doesn’t look too enthused about whatever could be hiding inside it. Callum doesn’t want to pry, he wants to give Ben space and privacy, but Ben isn’t moving away from him too far, staying molded against him while he opens the letter. So Callum takes it as permission to discover the contents together with Ben.

His eyes jump ahead over the greetings and well wishes down to the main block of text; to the harsh black letters against the white of the paper. He reads the words ‘opening’,  ‘counseling’ and ‘disordered eating professional’ but his brain is refusing to really take it all in. Ben hasn’t told him he asked for individual counseling. All of this is news to him.

Big news. 

“Individual counseling?”

“I didn’t think they’d refer me so soon.”

Ben sounds far away, staring at the words and seemingly reading them over and over again. As if they’re just a cruel joke and will twist into a let down if he takes his eyes off them for just a second.

He’s deep in thought for another long moment before he looks up at Callum from beside him and his expression makes Callum pause.

There’s a slight film of tears gathering at the base of Ben’s eyes but there’s no sadness in his gaze. He looks more overwhelmed, almost a bit hopeful, and Callum is once again overcome with the onslaught of pride he feels for Ben for the umpteenth time in the last few weeks. 

“You didn’t tell me you spoke about your bulimia.”

“There was this guy in group the other day. He spoke about how he went through the same, he also made himself sick. But it got really bad so he got help and he’s mostly over that now and he feels so much better. And then they explained that it’s pretty common to develop bulimia and stuff. I guess I just wanted to be like him. Better. So I asked Molly about it.”

Callum is following Ben’s explanation with rapt attention, taking in every carefully chosen word. This is a big deal for Ben; he’s acutely aware of that. A few weeks ago Ben confessed to him that he doesn’t know whether he can even beat this and now he has taken all the courage he has to take the first step in beating it. 

He reached out and he sought help, again, and Callum couldn’t be more aware of the feat that is for someone like Ben. 

“That’s amazing, babe.”

“She said they’ll let me know when someone’s available. It says here I just need to call and make an appointment.”

Callum reaches his arm around Ben’s shoulder to pull him tightly against his body again, letting Ben tuck his head into the crook of Callum’s neck. 

“I’m proud of you, you know. For seeking help, for telling Jay. I know how hard that is for you. You’re doing well.”

Ben sets the letter down on the counter where it originally came from and wraps his now empty hands around Callum’s middle, crossing them over Callum’s back and holding on tight. Callum’s own hand wanders to Ben’s back; up and down, rubbing soothing circles over Ben’s shirt.

He still has a long way to go and there will be a lot of ups and downs along the way, they both know that. But for now, Callum silently celebrates another huge step Ben has taken.

They’ll worry about the pressing matters later - about actually making the appointment, about hanging up the washing when their rack is still full of wet clothes from the other wash, about lunches that need to be packed and the shirts that need to be ironed.

This moment is for them. For Ben.

[untitledinstinct]

Due to personal finance reasons, I'll need to basically stop using tumblr.

I'll be fine eating once a day.

But I see a tumblr notification, and then I want to EAT.

I cannot afford to keep having that trigger because I simply cannot afford to eat any more than maybe 2 pb&j sandwiches a day.

I have been in this position before, and it's what started my bulimia and anorexia... I had worked to overcome it, but I simply cannot afford food.

It's to a point where in my budget, I need to start looking at eating every other day instead now.

I rely wholly on mutual aid on Twitter for food and medication, I simply can't do this.

Ontario Disability Support Program doesnt give enough for healthy people to survive, let alone a disabled person.

That's why I haven't been posting as much, or reposting some of my older stuff.

I can't afford to keep ideals with my body in my head. Because if I keep going like this, I'm going to destroy myself.

It's going to turn into self-hate because I can't keep numbers. Then it'll spiral into self-hate about my size getting smaller, after having finally finding comfort in my body after 30 years.

This is going to be a difficult time not having access to food, likely using methods I learned during my Ana days to simply survive, while fighting off the disordered thoughts that will want to come with those habits.

Having the notifications of what I enjoy, what I found comfort in, a community I felt safe in, and the fact I can't have it anymore, pop onto my phone multiple times a day will do nothing but cause more agony.

I have bpd, which means my mind naturally goes to black and white thinking.

This is simply how my brain works. I can't stop it. But I can try and work with it.

There is a good chance I still use this account for porn, but my own posts will be stopped until disabled people can live at the poverty line in Ontario. They currently have us half-way BELOW the poverty line. I can't afford enough food for 1 person. Let alone anyone even thinking of gaining.

[pjunicornart]

How would the au Lewises' first kiss would be with their respective bf/gfs? Tbh I can't really keep up with your aus I guess there's 3? Good work, keep it up!

For reference, here are all of my current important AUs that don't have anything to do with The Playground: - Discovery-Recovery - Little Lambs - The Polyam Ship - Lazy Days - Little Space - Agoraphobic

Discovery-Recovery Cornelius Unfortunately this one is under heavy spoilers so I can't give too much away. Just know he technically had two first kisses.

Little Lamb Lewis His first kiss wasn't until he was able to overcome his trauma. He actually ends up with Gaston in this AU (Franny and Lewis are 10 and Gaston is 12 when this AU takes place). Both of them needed to overcome some shit before they were able to find comfort in each other.

Poly Lewis He had three. With Goob, it was very much the cliche of nerd x jock. Lewis wasn't complaining about someone taller holding him, though. For both LIzzy and Franny it was surreal for him. Two pretty girls want to be with him? He must be dreaming!

Lazy Days Cornelius His first kiss with Franny came months after his initial healing process from bulimia. It was the first time in a while where he felt like how he looked didn't matter.

Little Neil This one is a little harder to pinpoint since his Caretaker, Franny, plants little kissies on him all the time. Outside of Little Space, Neil feels comfortable and accepted by Franny. Their first kiss probably happened before Neil felt that comfort around her, though. When they were young adults still in college for their future professions (Franny - Nurse, Neil - Teacher initially, but becomes an online Little Space educator later on).

Agoraphobic Lewis He's been cooped up in his home for four years after the incident at the science fair (no, it's not the disaster you see in the movie, it's a different incident). Sure, he has some online friends and an online presence via his art blog, but that's about it... It's probably gonna take a while for his first kiss to happen.

I know it's hard to keep up with my creative adventures, but regardless I'm glad you're enjoying them!

[the-real-agatha-harkness]

Arfids awareness!!

Hello! For disability pride month, I wanted to share my experience with Arfids! For those who don't know Arfids stand for

A- Avoidant

R- Restrictive

F- Food

I- Intake

D-Disorder

The general definition is a disorder where someone limits their food intake and variety of foods that they will eat. Unlike Anorexia or Bulimia, Arfids is not based on body image but instead, sensory issues, past traumas or fears, or a general disinterest in food or eating.

My Experience

I was diagnosed with Arfids in the middle of 9th grade and I have been going to a nutritionist since then. My food troubles stems from my sensory issues, my fear of becoming sick, and just a general lack of disinterest in food. I'm almost never hungry and getting myself to eat can be very difficult sometimes. I have alarms set and if I don't eat after they go off, I'll get in trouble. My safe foods are Caesar salad (only the dressing and lettuce), Nutella biscuits and M&Ms, that's not a lottt of food. Whenever I eat I'm overcome with the fear that I'll become sick because it which can lead panic attacks, I share my story on the hopes that Arfids can have more representation in media and in general. Thank you for reading and I'll post more Arfids content in the future!

[vee-46]

Real is RARE!!!

“Chubby people look pretty because thin people exist and thin people look pretty because chubby people exist”

-Anonymous-

You might find the above phrase a little confusing or rather for some a little ridiculous. Okay, imagine if we lived in a society with only thin people or with only chubby people. Yes exactly, that's going to be boring.

But if that's the case why are most of us in society trying to look the same by trying to fit into some beauty standard set by someone neither you nor I even know? Our body is such a beautiful gift to be cherished and treated right.

Everybody is not the same. Not everyone is chubby, thin or average and that's what makes our society a beautiful place. However, beauty standards have a high influence making lots of people insecure about their appearance. Thanks to it, annually many people seek counselling for bulimia nervosa, anorexia nervosa, binge eating disorder…etc. To everyone who doesn't know, bulimia is an eating disorder where a person overeats followed by self-induced vomiting, strict diets, and excessive exercise in order to reduce body weight. Whereas anorexia is when a person refuses the food intake leading once again to reduce weight excessively. And these are more complicated than it seems and hard to overcome.

Now you might ask me, is it bad to try and look pretty? And the answer to that is, no. It's not bad to look pretty. Work out, eat till your cravings are satisfied, get a tattoo, get some piercings, wear makeup and do facelifts. But Don't try to change your features. Instead, try to brighten them. Everyone's got a set of features that's highlighted when you look at them. Discover them and work on them. Don't change them for the sake of attention or fame.

My point is that everyone is beautiful and everyone is worth the beauty they are gifted with. All your scars, stretch marks, pimples, acne, birthmarks, moles… etc are what make you who you are. Every scar in your body has its background story, every pimple is proof of your hard work and dedication and every birthmark makes you special to stand out amongst the crowd.

Shout out to all my beautiful, dazzlingly gorgeous/handsome darlings out there who are insecure; YOU ARE UNIQUE, YOU ARE RARE AND YOU ARE ENOUGH. Don't let anyone else make decisions about you or your appearance. Not everyone needs to love and accept you, a few genuine people will do. Keep your head and standards high because you are worth every bit of your beauty.

[mylevisdontfitanymore]

I just discovered your blog and holy fuck is it normal for me to find it really hot?

tw. below this:

as a person who has struggle with ed most of her life finding this hot is like a relief you know, I used to be so scare of what I’m reading in your blog and now it just… turns me on, coping mechanism I guess

I mean -

I find it very normal, but I also curate the posts for a reason 🫣😳

Trigger warning: more ED discussion below

I feel you, though. I, too, have experienced eating disorders throughout my life.

I've gone through a few different types of them at various intensities (bulimia, bindge eating, orthorexia, and anorexia (which was my longest and worst)), and despite being in recovery nowadays, I don't think I'll really ever fully have the experience of EDs leave my head. Like, there will always be part of me that hears that little voice. I can ignore it and overcome it, but I'll never see food or diet or weight "normally." At least, I don't think I will. It's like being a native speaker versus a non-native speaker of a language. Sure, I can become fluent in the language and functionally use it, but I will never be a native speaker.

With all that said, I, too, wonder about the interaction between eating disorders and weight/food/belly kinks because as far as I am aware, plenty of people with these types of kinks have experienced eating disorders as well. I've seen some people actively choose to try and get into feedism to heal themselves, and I've seen people who've just experienced both without conscious reasons. Either way, it seems to me that there is some connection here. I mean, fetishes and fears are pretty similar, so... maybe it's two sides of the same coin you either have or don't? But, then again, in Western society, eating disorders have a growing prevalence, so perhaps there's no connection, and it just appears as if there is.

(Also, food and weight, outside of more recent history, have been connected to power and sexuality because with more money comes more food, so it was more desirable to be fat. It showed off your status. So, is it really that weird to be attracted to fatter bodies? It makes sense to want a body that shows resources and comfortability.)

I have no idea 🤷🏻‍♂️

Personally, though, from what I remember, before I had eating disorders or disordered eating patterns, I had a fixation around bellies. So, maybe because I already had those "wires crossed," I was more vulnerable to eating disorders. Or, maybe the experience of eating disorders helped elevate a fixation that otherwise would've faded away. Again, I don't know.

Also, in particularly self-reflective moments, I've also wondered if I'm so obsessed with bellies being full in any capacity because I know how purely terrible and shitty the experience of being empty is so I crave for other people to feel the exact opposite. Not terrible, starving emptiness but heavy fullness that equates to happiness and good emotions, as far away from some of the worst times in my life as possible. Fulfillment. Fullness. Fatness. However, that thought kind of falls apart when I think about how I did experience binge eating disorders, too, not just anorexia so...

I don't know.

I'm still untangling it.

I don't think I'll ever be able to go, oh, that! That's why I have a belly kink, but I would like to continue to learn about myself and what makes me tick.

I do agree with your coping mechanism theory, though.

And, also, thanks for being willing to share. Talking more about the connection between kink and disorder is useful. I can't say what the result will be, but it feels big.

[sisterssafespace]

@ the eating disorder anon,

Trigger warning: eating disorder, mental health if you don't feel comfortable reading this please skip.

Assalamualaikum beautiful soul 🤍

Can I first start by sending you a soft comforting hug? I want to let you know that I see you and I feel your pain, because I have been/ still am there and going through it, it is a journey of uphills and lows. That is why I can assure you the following: eating disorders are never about just the food. The issue is deeper than that. It's not about the way we eat or don't, it's not about the fact that we obsess over our weight, it is about the reason why we do so.

Here is what Orlando Recovery Center says about it on their website:

"Our society has become one that prides itself on body image and being thin. Everyday we are bombarded with ads for fad diets, fat burners and “get fit quick” methods, along with models and celebrities to compare ourselves with.

Almost everyone is conscientious of their weight to a degree. However, there are sadly some that take food and weight concerns to the extreme, easily developing eating disorders centered around unhealthy habits.

The most common eating disorders include anorexia, bulimia and binge eating disorder. All three of which occur when a person develops a distorted image of themselves, as well as a dangerous relationship with food. Unfortunately, eating disorders are about more than food and can have major psychological impacts.

The National Institute of Mental Health states that, “Researchers are finding that eating disorders are caused by a complex interaction of genetic, biological, psychological, and social factors.”

Typically, most think that an eating disorder is largely attributable to food and weight obsession. Conversely, those suffering from disorders around food usually begin on that path as a means to control or cope with devastating emotions and events that activate high stress levels. By controlling eating patterns, this can help an individual to feel more in control of his or her life in the short term. In the long term, these patterns can develop into destructive habits that wreak havoc on all areas of well-being.

While most are predisposed to personality traits and psychological dynamics that can contribute to the development of eating disorders, many people with these disorders suffer from low self esteem, feelings of inadequacy or helplessness, depression, anger, anxiety and body image issues."

Now, in your ask you did mention therapy and the fact that you have other issues, let me assure you that they are interrelated. If you were mentally and emotionally okay, there would have been no need for you to skip meals or weigh yourself so often.. Unfortunately though, I can not tell you how to overcome or fix this, because this is bigger than me, and bigger than you. To each one of us their own experience and their own relationship with food. Part of it, can even be genetic. We do carry more than our issues in our DNA. All I can do for you is tell you that I understand and that you are not alone in this. Please make it a priority to seek professional help. If there is a doctor or any medical figure at your school or uni you can talk to, please don't hesitate. If there's a green line you can call, I know a lot of countries have that like hotline available for mental health, please don't hesitate to make the call.

And please try to forgive yourself for whatever it is that's been eating you up, because you didn't know any better then.

Lastly, I would like to stress the point that Allah swt gave us this body as an amanah, something He swt entrusted us with and that we are supposed to take care of until we return it to Him. And He will ask us how good of a care we took. In Islam, we believe that a healthy diet and a healthy lifestyle is a must. Prophet Muhammad ﷺ in his sunnah did promote a lot of healthy ways to consume food. He said, "Nothing is worse than a person who fills his stomach. It should be enough for the son of Adam to have a few bites to satisfy his hunger. If he wishes more, it should be: One-third for his food, one-third for his liquids and one-third for his breath." And I know you're on the opposite end of that, in fact, you are not letting yourself eat but what about you try to apply this rule? Whenever your mind tries to convince you to skip a meal try to remember this Hadith and compromise. Tell your mind that you'll just eat one third of the food instead.

Another inspiration from the Quran that I want you to consider is how when sayyida Maryam (as) was in distress, she was having what she thought was the worst thing ever (when she was giving birth to Issa (as) and wished she would have died, Allah swt asked her to eat! In her worst state ever! He ordered her to eat! He swt said in Surat Maryam "So eat and drink, and put your heart at ease " [19:26]. I genuinely hope you take this verse to heart my dear.

May Allah swt ease your pain, ameen.

- A. Z. 🍃

[noxturnallyevermore]

CW: talk about eating disorders

TW: edtwt

If you have an eating disorder and want help overcoming it, don't go to edtwt, go to r/EatingDisorders.

Edtwt is 99% people encouraging the behavior and ignoring any and all healthy alternatives and solutions, none of them are dietitians or professionals and will reply to any dietary facts you may offer with "the best way to lose weight is to starve". If you point out how unhealthy something is, they will reply with "you're on edtwt" as some form of excuse to their behaviors. There are very few people in that entire community that actually want to help you.

I couldn't block notifications from edtwt. I couldn't stop them. One interaction and it was all over my TL and constantly popping up in my push notifications, even after disabling push notifications. That, of course, applied to all Twitter notifications, but edtwt was consuming my TL, it was like a plague. Edtwt is actually the reason I deleted Twitter because every single notification was fatshaming or otherwise discouraging when bulimia and anorexia aren't the only eating disorders.

The final straw for me was when they fatshamed and blasted a poor girl over a single picture of her watch being too tight on her wrist (I am sorry if this is you and you're seeing this post). All bodies are different and it could happen to anybody if they tighten their watch too tightly.

If you want positive encouragement for overcoming an eating disorder and healthy solutions or alternatives, I recommend r/EatingDisorders because just a glance at it and I could tell it was 10x better than edtwt. People were asking for help and receiving it, sharing their experiences and not being fatshamed. I, of course, recommend getting a therapist and/or a dietitian('s advice) above all else, but if you can't afford that, you can definitely ask for help in the r/EatingDisorders subreddit. I expected this more from Twitter than from Reddit, due to the body positivity, lgbtq+, and mental health avocation sides of Twitter.

I also don't particularly recommend any ed Tumblr tags on here, even though they're seemingly nicer than edtwt. Because they don't seem to encourage getting over eating disorders. But Tumblr is definitely more of a place where you get out how you feel than ask for any help overcoming it and if that's what you're looking for, I think Tumblr is safer than Twitter for that.

Backtracking to body positivity, I am not thinshaming edtwt or anybody with eating disorders. I'm not saying people can't be as thin as they want to. There is just absolutely no body positivity on edtwt and that is what bothers me. There isn't even any positive encouragement to get skinny, it's all negative reinforcement. Eating disorders, to me, should fall under both "body positivity" and "mental health avocation" but in places like edtwt and on here, it doesn't seem to. Which is why I say go to r/EatingDisorders if that's what you're looking for.

[thatbitchsimone]

thank you for speaking up abt that ed follower in a respectful way. i also have an ed and follow u but not bc of skinny model content, just genuine interest in fashion. sometimes i do feel bad when i see the models but that was a kind and realistic way to deal w that person. ill try to get better too, bc ur right, i dont want to lose bodily functions and all my hair. its alreayd happened a bit to me anyways. im finally realizing how bad this affects my health and its awful. love to that anon and to u

wishing u all the love and strength to stay on the right path and overcome ur disordered thoughts <3 i know how it can mess with ur brain. a good friend of mine has struggled with anorexia and then bulimia since she was like 14 and still goes through rough patches even now. just know that even if u do relapse every now and then u can still get back on the right track. its an addiction after all and recovery is a long process and fuck ups and set backs are bound to happen and it doesnt mean ur failing or that ur a lost cause its a natural part of fighting any illness/addiction but u are always capable of getting better u know 2 steps forward one step back and then one step forward again etc etc one day at a time

[newwwwusername]

Ride the Cyclone - Noel/Mischa - Mental Health Awareness Month Prompt 2 : Bulimia

Prompt : Write a fic in which a character has Bulimia (canon or not canon) Headcanon : Bulimic!Orthorexic!Mischa

Now, Mischa had never been necessarily out of shape but, upon arriving in Canada and quickly realizing the social issues he was sure to face because of his immigration status, he became determined to arm himself. Not through weaponry, no, he had no interest in carrying a knife or a firearm. Rather, he figured that the best way to go about this in a way that wouldn't get him in trouble was to become as physically strong as possible.

Or, at least, that's how it started.

See, it started perfectly fine. He changed up his diet a bit to cut down on carbs and bulk up on protein and began going to the gym for an hour every day after school. And it was working. Pretty quickly, he saw this habit begin to pay off as his abs and biceps became more toned and, with this change, people poked fun at him less and less.

Soon enough, though, he started looking at the other men who'd be in the gym with him, at first with mere curiosity but soon with envy. Suddenly, his progress wasn't as impressive in his mind. In fact, there were still parts of his body that he found awkward (either too skinny or too fatty), and therefore still needed to be fixed.

His "good diet" became increasingly restrictive. One hour of gym time turned to two, which turned to three, which turned to five on his worst days. He began calculating his calories and macros excessively, heavily scrutinizing every calorie that came from anything that wasn't protein-packed and completely free of carbs.

The most insidious part of his worsening state is that he didn't realize it was an issue. In his mind, all of this was a good thing. Not only was it a good thing, but it was a show of true strength, being able to keep up with the extreme diet and excessive exercise. The results showed on his body, too, and he was once again becoming content with how he was built, but that nagging voice in the back of his head kept him going.

One day, however, he broke.

Among the many issues that come from these overly restrictive diets is the simple fact that they aren'tsustainable. If you're constantly restricting what you eat to such an extreme degree, you're going to get really hungry really quickly and eventually Mischa found himself sitting on the floor of the damp basement his adoptive parents shoved him into, eating the majority of the food he kept in the mini fridge he had down there.

He did this in an almost trance-like state as he was completely overcome with hunger, so he didn't even fully realize what he was doing until it was pretty much done. Needless to say, he felt horrified, embarrassed, and, more than anything, deeply ashamed. Without missing a beat, he ran to the bathroom to try and purge away what he had done, desperate to get as many sugary and unhealthy calories out of him as possible.

After this first time, these binging sessions came more often, sometimes even once a week during his particularly bad months, and they always ended with a horrified realization and a deeply unpleasant trip to the bathroom. But no one knew. He was so ashamed of the binging that he made a concerted effort to make sure none of his friends found out. This was working, too.

Until Noel showed up for an unexpected visit as he was in the midst of purging.

"Oh, shit" the Ukrainian heard the familiarly flamboyant voice of his boyfriend come from behind him and visibly flinched in alarm, growing only more tense when the tenor pulled his fingers from his throat. "Stop, please, it's okay"

"Not okay" Mischa objected in a rare moment of vulnerability, tears leaking from his eyes because Karnak, this was embarrassing and difficult and completely put to waste all the effort he'd made to hide this from everyone. "Is not okay" he repeated, though he made no effort to fight against Noel's restraints. "I need to be strong. This... Is not strong"

"You don't need to be anything" Noel dismissed. "And you are strong... Mischa, what happened?"

"Ate a lot" Mischa replied, gesturing to countless opened and emptied containers that littered the floor beyond the open door to the small water closet that he had in the basement (something which he found rather convenient since he wouldn't have to risk his adoptive parents hearing him purge). "Making up for it"

"Misch, you don't have to make up for eating a lot" Noel insisted. Mischa didn't seem too convinced. "I didn't comment on it 'cause I didn't realize it was this bad, but your diet is, like, very extreme" he continued. "It makes sense that you'd be hungry and eventually break, for lack of a better term"

"That's not..." Mischa trailed off, too tired and miserable to formulate a defense. Noel just held him tighter.

"I'm sorry you've been going through all this alone, love"

"Not your fault"

"Still" Noel sighed. "Please, just..." he took a deep breath as he thought of what he could say at this point. "I won't tell the others so don't worry about that, but please tell me next time it gets this bad" he pleaded. "I love you and I'm here for you, even if you're going through a rough patch right now"

"Thanks..."

"Now" Noel clapped and stood up, reaching out his hand for Mischa to join him, which he shakily did. "You go lie down. I'm gonna clean all this up" he gestured towards the containers. "And then we're gonna watch a movie"

"Okay..."

Do not repost on other sites! If you want to participate in this month's challenge, there are 15 mental illness prompts that you can find here

[yadavhewrote]

Breaking Free from the Burden: A Journey Through Eating Disorders

Eating disorders are a complex and serious issue that affects millions of individuals around the world. They can take many forms, including anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, and binge eating disorder. Regardless of the type, all eating disorders involve distorted thoughts and behaviors around food, weight, and body image.

The journey through an eating disorder is a difficult one, and it can be especially challenging to break free from the burden and start a path to recovery. However, it is possible to overcome these struggles and reclaim your life.

Here are some steps that may help you or a loved one begin the journey towards recovery from an eating disorder:

Seek professional help: This is one of the most important steps in the journey towards recovery. A mental health professional can provide you with the support, guidance, and tools you need to overcome your eating disorder.

Educate yourself: Understanding the root causes of your eating disorder and how it has affected your life can be empowering. Read books, talk to others in recovery, and attend support groups to gain knowledge and perspective.

Practice self-care: Taking care of your physical and emotional needs is crucial for recovery. This can include engaging in physical activity, getting enough sleep, and finding healthy ways to manage stress.

Challenge negative thoughts: Eating disorders often involve negative and distorted thoughts about food, weight, and body image. It's important to challenge these thoughts and replace them with more positive and realistic ones.

Build a support network: Surrounding yourself with positive and supportive people can help you stay on track and overcome setbacks. This can include family, friends, and support groups.

Find new sources of fulfillment: Eating disorders can often become a source of identity and fulfillment. It's important to find new and healthy ways to feel good about yourself, such as pursuing hobbies or interests.

Breaking free from the burden of an eating disorder is a journey, but with the right support and resources, it is possible to recover and live a fulfilling life. Remember to be kind and patient with yourself, and take it one day at a time.

[medicalhealth10]

Understanding and Addressing Mental Health Problems in Young Adults

Mental health problems among young adults are a pressing concern, reflecting a growing challenge that needs attention and action. As young adults navigate the complexities of transitioning into adulthood, they often face a range of mental health issues that can significantly impact their quality of life. From stress and anxiety to depression and more serious conditions, mental health problems are increasingly prevalent in this demographic. It's crucial to raise awareness and provide support to address these challenges effectively.

Young adulthood is a critical period marked by significant life changes, including higher education, career decisions, and the development of personal relationships. These transitions can be overwhelming and contribute to mental health issues. For many, the pressure to succeed academically, socially, and professionally can lead to chronic stress, anxiety, and depression. The weight of expectations and the fear of failure can create a sense of helplessness, making it essential to recognize and address these mental health struggles early.

One common issue among young adults is anxiety. The demands of modern life, coupled with social media pressures, can exacerbate feelings of inadequacy and stress. Social anxiety, generalized anxiety disorder, and panic attacks are prevalent, often resulting in avoidance behaviors and impacting daily functioning. Understanding that anxiety is a legitimate concern and seeking appropriate help is critical for managing these symptoms effectively.

Depression is another significant mental health problem affecting young adults. The symptoms of depression, such as persistent sadness, loss of interest in activities, and fatigue, can be debilitating. Young adults may struggle with these symptoms silently, fearing stigma or misunderstanding. Encouraging open discussions about mental health and providing access to professional support can make a substantial difference in managing and overcoming depression.

Furthermore, the rise of eating disorders, substance abuse, and self-harm among young adults highlights the urgent need for comprehensive mental health support. Eating disorders like anorexia and bulimia often stem from body image issues and societal pressures. Substance abuse may be a coping mechanism for underlying mental health problems or stressors. Self-harm can be a way to manage emotional pain or express distress. Addressing these issues requires a multi-faceted approach, including education, prevention, and intervention strategies.

Promoting mental health awareness and encouraging young adults to seek help is vital. Education plays a crucial role in reducing stigma and providing information about available resources. Schools, universities, and community organizations can offer workshops, counseling services, and support groups tailored to young adults' needs. Additionally, fostering environments where mental health discussions are normalized and encouraged can help individuals feel more comfortable seeking help.

In my recent article on mental health problems in young adults, I delve into these issues in greater detail, offering insights and practical advice for managing and overcoming mental health challenges. The article emphasizes the importance of early intervention, self-care, and seeking professional support. By raising awareness and providing actionable strategies, we can contribute to a more supportive and informed approach to mental health for young adults.

Addressing mental health problems in young adults is not just a matter of individual well-being but a societal imperative. By acknowledging the challenges and providing robust support systems, we can help young adults lead healthier, more fulfilling lives. For a comprehensive exploration of mental health issues and effective solutions, I invite you to read my full article, which offers valuable insights and guidance for navigating mental health challenges in this critical stage of life.

[numberonecounsellor]

The Eating Disorder: Bulimia Nervosa

Every eating disorder is different from each other such that it can lead towards the factors of:

1. Binge Eating

2. Episodic Eating

3. Compulsive Eating

4. Restrictive Eating….

Read the complete blog with Psychologist Harsh Pandya on:

https://mentoringminds4.wordpress.com/2024/07/30/overcoming-the-eating-disorder/