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[luvether]

Time to be the most annoying person on the planet (sorry moots and followers) cee, save me cee..an albedo fic from you?? my hands are on my head and I’m falling to me knees it’s 6:20am I can’t do this.

Also you mentioned how terrified you were with this, personally, the way you worded everything is so well and it’s cute—I wanted to add, I never knew about the word blasé until I saw you use it in this fic and now I’m gonna use it (I love that word, better than deadpan and staccato expression)

You often didn't think of yourself as high pride, you're quiet when the world was loud, loud when there was nothing but silence, but with Albedo it was constant silence, a sort of silence that was loud in its own convoluted way. It was comforting almost, the way you both can sit in each other's orbit and simply be contented with each other's existence, body heat, and soft breathing.

HEAD ON MY HANDS ONCE AGAIN, domestic albedo >> somebody play so high school by ts also my fave paragraph among my other fave paragraphs in this fic. Round of applause everyone i’m so unwell, somebody give me a breather.

All is fair when it comes to love, paintings, and a blonde sun-kissed boy and his kaleidoscope eyes.

Another banger of a statement, oh cee you cooked with this one, absolutely stunning, loved it sm. ALBEDO MY BELOVED, nobody loves and understand him like I do (but mostly this is me to you)

! CALL IT WHAT YOU WANT (to) ౨ৎ

—In which your relationship with Albedo gets broken down into three paradigms accompanied by overarching assumptions, overthinking and sweet memories.

Pairings: Albedo x gn!Reader

Dedicated to my very Albedo-coded spouse @luvether 𐙚 Dare I say these are my marriage vows to you /lh but in all seriousness, I wrote this with you in mind (because I think the silence between us need no words + all the little silly conversations are worth everything to me)! You mean so much to me and I adore every little thing you do. Guys if you spot any mistakes pls for my honor ignore it.

wc: 1.3k || lovely art by: @/jotto75 on twt !

Painter!Albedo is often described by his peers as closed off, detached from this plane of reality, a brilliant mind with a pair of watercolour eyes muddied with powder blue and hazel hues.

To put it bluntly, you didn't care about the hearsay that surrounded the artist.

To put it bluntly, you can't help the small endeared feeling you'd get when you see how dedicated he was to his craft and how he would go for days without end in his studio whenever he’d paint, how his mind worked like a self-tuning piano—functioning properly without the need for human interference. But what good is a self-tuning piano without a pianist's calloused hands to play it?

You cannot really put a label as to what exactly you are to Albedo, no that would be far too restrictive for whatever type of relationship said or unsaid.

During those days where he'd locked himself in his studio, you were the only one permitted to enter, the only one permitted to stay, the only one he’d allow to make idle chatter whilst he painted the next Renaissance masterpiece (though he hates it when you describe his works as so.)

The best label you could assume would be that your relationship with him were like his often unfinished paintings:

It is chaotic—a flurry of colour, the smear of paint brush strokes, a collage of hues—Like when you and him snuck into the Louvre to admire their newest impressionist collection without the bothersome crowds and flash photography.

That had been the best night of your life, the adrenaline coursing through your veins making your skin prickle in excitement, your heart pumped rapidly and till this day you convince yourself that it was because of the thought of getting caught and not the way his gloved hand had expertly held onto yours as he guided you through the timeless halls of the museum.

Like the mess of his milky blonde locks when he had asked you to cut it, you were terrified, no, mortified, to say the least when your bewildered look was met with his signature blasé expression, the press of the cool metal scissors against the palm of your hand a small request wrapped with ribbons of unwavering faith.

You thought you did a pretty good job despite your only experience being cutting your own bangs during the 7th grade. Whether he liked it or not you could not quite figure out but considering that up until now he’d approached you whenever he felt like his hair was getting in the way of his work, you’d count it as a win.

It is abstract— like his gaze, those irises of his that shifted hues depending on the light of day (if you could chart eye colours under the sunlight Albedo would definitely be the first candidate on your list).

It was abstract like the way he’d stare as you kneaded the dough, like you were an enigmatic puzzle he was trying to solve or take apart piece by piece.

His gaze as intense as it was confusing.

Those times when he presumed you were preoccupied with the novel perched between your delicate hands or the rom-com you were rewatching for the nth time, those times when he’d stare at you as if you were one of the most bewitching pieces of art to ever have caught his fancy, one he'd like to steal away from the world and keep in the alcoves of his person for him and him only.

His stare had a feeling of its own, you could almost feel the caress of his hands against the curve of your cheeks and the soft brush of fingers against the furrow of your brow, his stare felt like an artist memorizing every tendon and every muscle under your skin, piecing together how they worked.

Then you’d turn to catch him in the act only for him to give you the faintest smile, a small quirk of his lips all innocent and beguiling like he hadn't just stolen your breath, soul, and heart with all but one rouge glance.

Oftentimes you wonder how he thought of you; if you were just one of the meddlers in his daily routine who didn't cause him much ire, if you were just another warm body for him to keep as a means to ward off the cold.

But then he’d press tender kisses against your knuckles whenever you’d bake him something sweet, kisses that felt like honeydew and intricate snowflakes falling upon flesh, it had the ability to render your heart to something weak, something soft and plush-like, and make you feel guilty for ever having such thoughts cross your mind.

Him and his soft melodic voice calling you his muse just to see the incipient flush of your cheeks, he smiles at that because he knows how to unlock that small part of your heart you desperately want no one to find.

Him and his habit of sketching you first as an absent-minded practice before starting yet another painting.

Him and his undying love tracing the lines of your figure whenever he has the chance. It’s him and him and him.

It is enchanting—you can’t look away, you can’t stop listening, you can't stop your heart from quickening its pulse whenever he gets closer, from the way your head would tilt in his direction ever so slightly, your movements purely muscle memory when it came to him.

You can't stop from pulling at the seams of the relationship and wishing for it to simply unravel. You often didn't think of yourself as high pride, you're quiet when the world was loud, loud when there was nothing but silence, but with Albedo it was constant silence, a sort of silence that was loud in its own convoluted way.

It was comforting almost, the way you both can sit in each other's orbit and simply be contented with each other's existence, body heat, and soft breathing.

The artist was a silent man in nature but when you'd prod endlessly at him to teach you about the different types of butterfly wings, he'd go on and on without ceasing and you'd let him.

There was something about the way those watercolour eyes turned a little less muddled, a little less murky, more clear and bright whenever he shared his latest fascination with you.

You could feel it, how much he liked to talk despite being classified as quiet all the time. It was one time during autumn with its warm patchwork of colours and cool breezes when you realized, just as he finished explaining the fascinating facts he had learned about honey bees that Albedo liked to speak when he had something to say when he knew that his words had some sort of weight when they meant something to someone.

So you made it a point to ask him about anything and everything because to you hearing him speak was akin to listening to the most well-practised symphony, the way he articulated his words, the brief pauses whenever he had to remember something, listening to him was like entering his world that he had expertly shut everyone out of.

There were times when he'd quiet down and you'd think he had finally had enough of talking but then he'd turn to you eyes sincere as he asks for your own thoughts about the topic. It wasn't that he was done talking, it was that he had wanted to listen, listen to you.

Albedo was an enigma to you.

You understand so much yet know so little at the same time. The blonde had mastered the art of withdrawing specific bits and pieces of himself to keep you on your toes, toeing that invisible line between you two that neither wanted to cross just yet. Call it self-preservation, call it cowardice. All is fair when it comes to love, paintings, and a blonde sun-kissed boy and his kaleidoscope eyes.

Small AN: WOAH A X READER FIC? FROM ME? this is the first one that I've posted and in all honesty I'm bloody terrified hehe~ Actually critiques are super welcomed (in DMS ofc) I swear idk if half of what I write makes sense and connects properly (I struggle with that even in school essays smh.) OH AND SPACING. WHY DO I ALWAYS STRUGGLE WITH THAT. reblogs, likes and comments are much appreciated ♡

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‘If you only do what you can do, you will never be more than what you are now.’

‘I don’t wanna be more! I like who I am.’

‘You don’t even know who you are.’

‘What do you— Of course I do; I’m the Dragon Warrior!’

‘And what exactly does that mean—Dragon Warrior?’

—  Po and Shifu’s conversation from Kung Fu Panda 3

SONG: Pure Imagination by Gene Wilder

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A hard Life is not always a divine punishment of sort⛈More often than not, the Universe’s most advanced Souls choose to be born—as Humans—into much sorrow and a perceived sense of limitation just for the joy of experiencing a personal breakthrough out of a cycle of—both—good and bad Karma🍄

Seen from a Soul’s perspective, all events in this mortal world are just drama. drama. drama~🎭It’s so exciting to co-Create massive stories with other Souls in this theatre of the Universe🎪This Play in itself, a spiritual evolution of sort for all beings of Love and Light🩰

This world is at best the dream of a Butterfly🦋Have fun; and have faith that in time all things bloom magnificently like a Sacred Lotus emerging from the mud🪷Ultimately, all of us, we bring with us only memories of our lifetimes when we are done playing our roles in this Grand Experiment of a Cosmic Drama💫

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Pile 1 – Peace Maker

VIBE: Master Shifu asking Po to teach him inner peace

seeds of beauty in you – 10 of Pentacles Rx

Encoded in your DNA is the very gift of healing itself. You were born into this world of stupid carrying seeds of peace-making. Yup, you were the kid who was always able to tell when a grownup was lying. Like, OMG, so disrespectful…they think I can’t see through such obvious lies? In fact, too many things were obvious to you because you are gifted with a keen ability of observation. We’re talking superhuman-level observation, baby~

With that, the world around you was often terribly dull. You’re definitely the type that wants to travel and see the world for yourself. Wanting to see what other people of different nations and races, customs and cultures, even religions, have to share about what this Life is all about~ You had A LOT of questions!

Alas… You soon realised that most people’s perceptions, priorities, and overall ways of life are low-quality at best. Your interactions with people, your observations of them, gave you almost nothing but disdain. People…are not intelligent enough. But more disturbing still…people are not noble enough in their pursuits of a good Life.

In your eye, most of the time, people don’t have enough integrity, character, or personality🤷🏻‍♀️

blooming in spite of muddy water – 7 of Pentacles Rx

If you’re often distressed by the state of Humanity, it is because you possess this divine ability to pierce through bullshit and reveal the true essence of all things. You’re a deep diver. You truly are a scholar. You’re the type that seeks to bridge between differences and clashes, so that people find a common ground upon which they could build a harmonious society. You most likely have a significant placement in the 7th House or blessed with a strong Libra/Venus aenergy~⚖️

Essentially, you’ve come into this world with an almost specific purpose of bridging differences between generations. All because your Oversoul was sick of watching Humans being fools amongst themselves. So you plunged into this world of illusions in the hopes of elevating people’s spiritual intelligence. Your unique gift of observation is piercing and high-vibrational and the reason it can bridge generations is that the wisdom you will develop as a person is both universal and timeless💎

You are an Ascended Master, you know. Like Po returning to the mortal world after defeating Kai. Like Gandalf the Grey returning as Gandalf the White after defeating the Balrog. All because you’ve got shit to do in this world of stupid—your wisdom is gravely needed! I’m not teaching you to be conceited or anything, but by means of technicality, you’re not here to learn anymore; you’re here to…teach🤣

tulips of happiness – Knight of Cups

No matter your age or their age, you’re here to teach the infantile Humans about inner peace and true, everlasting, sustainable, manageable, actually reasonable sense of Harmony🌷You do that by setting an example; by first bridging confusions and calming down chaos within yourself; then you talk about the walk to anybody interested enough to listen to you🌾

In this lifetime, as an Ascended Master playing Human, there’s probably a lot of heartache you’ve needed to learn to forgive. If you’re in your early or mid-20s when reading this, you’re most likely just beginning to learn it. You don’t have to act perfectly though. Healing and forgiveness are not about being or doing perfect. It’s perfectly OK, too, not to forgive—certain cruelties in this world are simply beyond absolution, ya know?🤬

What does truly matter is that you forgive yourself. Just yourself. You can forgive the situation. You can forgive the fact you fucked your way into this or that mess. Where applicable, you can give thanks to the experience and then move on to the next thing. Be glad about the fact that you’re still alive after all of the fuckery, and that you’ve enough self-awareness, and how that self-awareness has grown you as a person. It is such a beautiful thing to have grown up in the mental and spiritual~🦉

ESSENCE OF BEING HUMAN🔻💜

the script you chose – Silver Alchemist (Ramon Llull)

path of self-transcendence – Priestess of Healing

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Pile 2 – Pink Radiance

VIBE: Master Oogway sending universe mail to Li Shan

seeds of beauty in you – III The Empress Rx

Oooh~ You’re pretty~ That much I can tell🙊You probably are blessed with some significant Aries, Aquarius, or any Cardinal aenergy in your birth chart; could also have Venus/Moon in the 1st or 11th House~ And do you know why you’re bestowed with an outer appearance that’s easily considered attractive in this realm? Because you’re meant to have an audience🎙

You’re meant to be heard; to have a platform and be some sort of a leader. And since being pretty in this world brings a lot of privileges, your Soul chose to be born with this specific setting in your birth chart wHoA~ A pretty face gets attention more effortlessly and that’s just how it is with this world~🙈

So, you see that there’s meaning in having some forms of privilege whether it’s your face or your family/economic background, or even heritage or some special lineage thing going on in your Life🎰And yet, it seems you could’ve been blind to all this ‘upper hand’ and not see much value in your existence.

None of this has felt all that special…well, because you were born with it. It’s not special; it’s normal to you; and you definitely want to feel special…not really grasping others would kill to have what you were born with…🐞

blooming in spite of muddy water – XVI The Tower

In spite of all of the privileges that seem obvious and enviable to others, you yourself have not felt all that blessed most of your Life. There is this thing that people don’t understand about you: EXPECTAFUCKINTION. Expectation could kill, depending on situation, and depending on where you are in Life. In many ways, you haven’t really ever felt FREE in your beingness. You don’t really know how FREE truly would feel like. You can imagine it, but you don’t really know if that’s even real🤷🏻‍♀️

Whether it’s status, prestige, or simply beauty, sometimes you’ve felt victimised by the very things other people wish they had. They literally don’t know how suffocating it is to be wearing your crown~ You often feel like you don’t have autonomy over your own Life. In some instances, you may even have experienced your autonomy getting violated. And it’s so heartbreaking.

At some point in Life, you will suddenly and gradually lose access to all of these beauties and privileges, maybe even some of your talents, babe. All these things that came ever so naturally to you, once you’ve lost ‘em, you will die in spirit, and be reborn with a renewed sense of appreciation for the fact you have always, ALWAYS, been extraordinary👿

tulips of happiness – King of Swords

Whether you are a girl or a boy or straight or gay or whatever, you are an ally of the world’s Divine Feminine aenergy. Do not worry about losing your glory; it will aaalll come back stronger and sparklier once you’ve graduated the University of Hell a.k.a Saturn Return🪐

It is part of your Soul’s Blueprint to experience losing privileges, perhaps money, talents, friends, freedom, hair, weight, and everything else, momentarily. This period of your Life—whether it’s your first or second Saturn Return—can be likened to a pregnant woman who’s now restricted from drinking, eating, doing, or even being near certain things. She’s not so free, but for all the right reasons; she’s protecting her foetus.

This Saturn Return period of your Life where you’re experiencing losing yourself is like a pregnancy where you’re gestating a newer, stronger, clearer, more confident version of yourself. The restrictions put around you are meant to suffocate you further, enough for you to want a breakthrough. All so you can become a pure Pink Radiance of a miracle this miserable world needs, for that is your purpose for being born🌷

Shine on, Pink Diamond~

ESSENCE OF BEING HUMAN🔻💗

the script you chose – Green Historian (Herodotus)

path of self-transcendence – Priestess of Prosperity

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Pile 3 – Magic Worker

VIBE: Po teaching the tribe to be THEMSELVES

seeds of beauty in you – 9 of Cups Rx

Within you are seeds of a luxurious lifestyle that you ought to nurture slowly throughout the course of your Life. You may have come from a background of lack just to make this whole scenario more exciting (to us as Souls contrasts are exceedingly attractive when thinking of a spiritual breakthrough). With that, you could’ve grown up with lots of daydreaming about feeling fulfilled—emotionally fulfilled.

Though you may have daydreamed about luxurious environments and things and situations, at the core of everything, all you yearn for is a feeling of safety; stability; of having just enough…of being enough, in fact…all because you weren’t emotionally nurtured as a child. You were the kid who were neglected by everybody, both the adults and your peers.

You felt unseen most of your Life. But even those who acted like they saw you, somehow the view was inaccurate. You felt this way because you didn’t understand yourself either. Children learn about themselves through the feedback of their environment; so the ones who were mostly neglected…how could such children even begin to learn to comprehend their identity?

Because you didn’t really understand yourself, it was difficult to manifest properly. In your psyche, there are way too many threads of wishes that are tangled up, causing you to manifest clashing Realities…and then disappoint you…

blooming in spite of muddy water – XXI The World

The reason for this difficulty is that you needed to learn and discover for yourself the true Essence of being alive. You are essentially God’s messenger to help Humans overcome their addiction to material possessions. Omaigosh if you know how TikTok shopping culture is making people poorer and more miserable in the emotional, I’m sure this will ring a bell in your Soul Memory.

People who grew up poor are the main target of evil marketing because they crave that feeling of ‘having’. Sometimes, it’s a feeling of having things—trendy things; some other times, it’s a feeling of having friends—cool friends; and some tragical times, of having someone to love—which usually only translates to ONS or casual hookups without any real emotional connection.

Anyway, back to talking about material possessions though, there’s this:

‘Trying to be happy by accumulating possessions is like trying to satisfy hunger by taping sandwiches all over your body.’ – George Carlin

This, is a concept, a Reality, you’ve needed to learn and fully comprehend, and then unravel by means of your personal spiritual transformation. That way you can be an example and a guide to others. Reminiscent of Uncle George himself, you’re somebody who holds an Elder Archetype aenergy about you. You’re ‘worldly’ in the sense that you’re based, well-thinking, and most of all, you can embrace perspectives that are UNIQUE. You’re able to hold a knowledge that encompasses the whole of the Universe itself.

tulips of happiness – 4 of Pentacles

In a sense, know that you are a born leader. Though I sense, you may be more interested in being a thought leader🧠You don’t seem that interested in leading an envoy or a movement of any sort hahaha You’re a loner; you like being in your own company. After all, people are stupid and it’s exhausting to have to interact with them. And that’s all fine~

In the future, when everything’s said and done, you’ll meet your Soul Tribe—people who are just as weird, misunderstood, deep, sombre (probably), wholesome, complex, and loyal such as yourself🫀Your Spirit Guides are really saying: it’s perfectly fine for you not to extend too much compassion for those who aren’t worth your while; hoping you’d calm down some clashing ideas about your personality.

It sounds cruel? No, really; not everybody is worth paying attention to or share affection with. If you do that you’re only going to be sucked dry of Life Force. It’s a similar principal with money spending. Just because you see a lot of items being displayed with attractive, persuasive DISCOUNT signs, doesn’t mean you have to give your attention, or money least of all, to ALL of that. Got it?🤪

‘Even if something is on discount, if you don’t need it, it’s too expensive.’ – Love Marie Escudero’s husband, Govt. Chiz

ESSENCE OF BEING HUMAN🔻🧡

the script you chose – Green Physician (Paracelsus)

path of self-transcendence – Priestess of Intuition

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[pyr0man1c]

How would Obey Me characters react to me touching them for the first time?

This is platonic because I am using the persona that I call my “irl persona” because it’s most similar to me age and personality wise.

I will include the reason I don’t like being touched or touching at the end for context but it may be triggering for some so I will add a warning before it!

The short version is that I’m scared of touching people because I’m scared my touch will hurt people because of how I was hurt and scared of touch because I think they’ll hurt me.

Persona: Scott 14 (he/him)

Lucifer

He probably is one of the people most likely to respect the boundaries without accidentally breaking them.

he’d probably break it on accident by putting a hand on my shoulder or upper back.

The way I’d first touch him would probably be to hold his hand honestly and then after that I’m never letting go. He’s stuck with me.

I doubt he’d be the bragging “look what Scott did? I’m amazing” but definitely feel a sense of pride over the fact I felt comfortable enough.

He’d probably say “you seem comfortable.” And then I’d get insecure and stop touching him even though he’s just like that.

Mammon

He’d probably break it immediately, im sorry but day one when he meets me, he’s putting an arm on my shoulder and doesn’t get a chance to try and scam me before I’m freaking out and pulling away.

He’d accidentally break it a couple times but overall never on purpose.

I cant really think of a way I’d touch him but I think it would be one of the times he puts and arm on my shoulder and I don’t react much.

He’d brag about the “first man” thing. Gonna be honest he probably wasn’t the first

“Of course you’re okay with the great mammon touching ya!” Well not anymore! (He’s too cocky about it)

Leviathan

Well, he’s definitely not breaking it anytime soon…we probably aren’t even in the same room long enough for that to happen.

In the case he does accidentally touch me it’s probably when he gets excited over an anime or game and excitedly holding my shoulders and shaking me and when he stops I’m just sitting there, blankly, and very tense.

I would probably touch him when he’s shaking me excitedly and I put my hands on him to shake him back with the same excitement would being scared and tense. He’d get so excited over this he’s be like “omg I’m surprised you wanna touch a gross otaku like me” in true leviathan fashion.

He’d brag to Mammon about it to specifically make him feel bad and happily text everyone in the group chat so much he can’t type properly and annoys everyone.

Satan

He’s probably 3rd least likely to accidentally touch me Lucifer right under him. (haha)

I think he’d read up on it and ask me so many questions about it to try and understand, I actually enjoy stuff like that because it shows me they care.

I think the only way he’d touch me on accident is trying to grab something and accidentally grabbing me or touching me instead but he’d probably apologize right after.

I’d probably touch him when he’s sitting on the couch reading and I sit down next to him (which is a feat in its own) and lean my head on his shoulder.

Rubs it in Lucifer’s face.

Asmodeus

He’d break it so many times and immediately first meeting honestly, he’d feel terrible every time but he’s trying, guys, he’s trying.

He’d hug me so many times causing me to panic, especially from behind touching me from behind is 50/50 chance of me punching you.

The first time I let him touch me is when I let him paint my nails for the first time, I’m very sensitive about my hands so letting him touch them is a huge step.

He’d get so giddy and excited happily telling everyone, less in a bragging way but more of a “I’m so proud” way.

Beelzebub

He doesn’t have a reason to touch me so he probably won’t, 10/10 very nice.

He’d probably only do it on accident trying to get my attention by tapping on my shoulder resulting in me freaking and punching at him, he doesn’t flinch, just stares at me very concerned.

I’d probably touch him by hugging him he just looks so huggable, or holding his hand. After that it’s piggyback rides and hand holding constantly.

I don’t think he’d brag, just be like “yeah Scott’s holding me hand a lot” not understanding how big that it and wondering why everyone is so shocked.

Belphegor

He’s asleep half the time when the fuck would he ever have that chance.

I think I’d have one of the worst experiences with him honestly, he’d probably grab me as he’s sleeping and pull me close to him and I would start freaking out and the only way I’d get out is when is brothers come rushing in because of me yelling and they have Beel pry me away from him.

Traumatizing -10/10.

I think I’d touch him when he’s sleeping and I go over to him and lay with him, probably for comfort.

Also rubs it in Lucifer’s face and happily talks to Beel about it.

Diavolo

I think he’d try to help me up when I’m on the ground after getting sent to Devildom or holding his hand out for a hand shake and I’d just stare at his hand but when I reach out out of nervousness to say no he’s like “you don’t have to.”

He’d probably touch me on accident in a similar manner to Lucifer with a hand on the shoulder and I almost punch him to but luckily he managed to stop it. (I’d hide in my room under the bed for a week out of pure embarrassment and regret)

I’d probably touch him when we are hanging out or something and im thinking about how I’ve never given him a proper handshake and I finally (very hesitantly) give one. That or a hug, probably the hug, he also looks so huggable like AHHHHHH-

He’d get so excited and talk to Lucifer and Barbatos about in in their group chat just going “OMG THEY TOUCBEF ME” “that’s great my lord now please do your work.”

Barbatos

He’d know immediately not to touch me he’s awesome I love barbatos so mu

I cant really think of an incident he’d accidentally touch me tbh…idk maybe when he’s stopping me from freak out punching Diavolo. maybe when he’s handing me a drink or food he accidentally touches my hand making me scratch at that spot repeatedly.

I actually think I’d have like touch therapy session with him, like he puts his hands on my arms and I put mine on his to show I’m not hurting him and he’s not hurting me.

(I actually have a drawing like that but of me with Hannibal)

He’s not a bragger or even much of a teller, he’d probably tell Lucifer and Diavolo, the end, that’s it.

Simeon

He’s amazing at respecting boundaries with only the occasional slip up about them, overall great.

I think he’d try to gently put a hand on my shoulder to signal for me to move over or something and I accidentally scare him with me getting scared. (Sorry Simeon)

I think the first time I touch him is a hug, or leaning on him in some way like a head on the shoulder.

He’d be so excited and would spam Luke and the Purgatory Hall chat about it, crashing his phone.

Luke

I’m not scared of him hurting me I’m scared of hurting him. I don’t want to do something to make him uncomfortable.

He’d probably try to tap my shoulder to get my attention and I’d scare him on accident, luckily I’d probably catch myself before hitting him but I’d have to sit him down and very calmly explain he can’t do that and I won’t take any touch well and I don’t wanna hurt him, and some better alternatives are saying my name or tapping the table in front of me.

I’d probably touch him first by rubbing his hair like an annoying older brother or when he’s upset and I hesitantly (and very awkwardly) hug him

So giddy about it, he’d happily tell Simeon, Barbatos, and Solomon about it like “He finally touched me! He isn’t scared of me anymore!” And then Simeon would have to explain I’m scared of myself not Luke. (Luke was very sad about how I felt and baked for me)

Solomon

Accidental Cunttm I honestly think he’d accidentally be a bitch. He doesn’t mean wrong he’s just a fucking idiot.

He’d probably try to gently elbow me as a joke, like when someone’s laughing and elbows you? Ya know? Anyways I’d push him over and immediately apologize.

I think the first time I’d touch him would be a high five I’m not kidding a high five is probably the first thing I do.

He doesn’t seem like a bragger, he’d probably be like “nice haha” and then we go along normally.

Why I don’t like touch

TW SA, COCSA

I’m not going into detail because I like my privacy but I was assaulted when I was 4 or 6, 9, and I think 12-13 and I’m scared of being touched but also scared of hurting people, especially those younger than me even though I know I’m not going to hurt someone on purpose.

Anyways that was silly of me haha😝

[aldieb]

nano for babies mini writing torture experiment complete at 14,025/9,000 words. i am proud of myself. analysis:

before this year, i hadn’t written anything coherent or finished a story since 2020. getting fiction writing back at all was a huge win, but i was curious about whether i could turn it into more of a habit and less of an exciting occasional spark.

i aimed low at 300 words/day (with the most important aspect being writing each day no matter what—no making up words on other days), but it was still a real stretch. it took 16 days before getting started went from a major effort to something i was able to slide into after being out doing things all day, and there was a serious dip at around day 10 where i considered giving up. this is actually pretty similar to how habit-forming for workouts functions for me.

i don’t think the words i produced were very good, overall—i liked about 1/3 of them. i seem to have 2 settings: 1) every few months, randomly sit down and write a scene i’m incredibly happy with craft-wise or 2) grind for a consistent output that is just mid. the second is preferable if i ever want to get anything done, but it doesn’t feel anywhere near as nice as the first.

the cat fic was an outlier in that it was part of the grinding exercise but hit me with the urgency of the random inspiration and did exactly what i wanted it to (it’s my least-read fic by far which is how you know you’re cooking with gas). i need more of that—i have a list in progress of things my brain finds very crunchy in this way that i want to integrate into original fiction. working on dust is kind of complicated rn (a lot of the core emotions that make the story run are things i feel differently about nowadays just bc it’s been quite a while since i generated the idea. also did you know that the original iteration of one of the protags was a trans guy who was closeted for the entire story? girl help) so i’m considering starting a new long-form thing.

i can’t keep up with writing every day. the main barriers are freelance work (which i didn’t have any of this month. but doing it is essential to my well-being not merely on a financial level but rather on a “my soul will shrivel until it is the size of an atom if i am not involved in the trade book business in some way” level) and weekly dnd (which required writing on the full-time-job clock because i don’t have a single spare moment on mondays. the amount of potential creative time dnd takes up is actually kind of insane considering 2 hrs travel round trip + 4 hrs gameplay… but it’s pretty fun…). i do need to stick with the habit, though. 1k weekly word count probably?

i whined a lot during this process. marsh and the roommates may be entitled to financial compensation.

[btsbs]

With all due respect, I'm starting to think kpop fans were actually born yesterday. Even western celebrities and influencers acknowledge fanfic. I remember back in the 2000's, two members of tvxq talked about fanfic and one jokingly complained that they were always the "woman" in the stories. Singular fanfics aren't necessarily indicative of anything, but fanfic across the board is actually a pretty good indicator of how members of a group are viewed by the fandom, and it'd be insane to think celebrities or their companies wouldn't monitor that. For example, if a member is routinely villainized in stories where a certain pair is the focus of the fanfic, that might indicate bigger issue brewing in that group of shippers.

As an aside, that list of ships is made up. I read the actual hybe report and the only mentioned "ships" were nct and maybe one other group, nowhere did they provide any extensive list about ships they monitor. Pretty sure that list is just the popular ship list from postype (korean ao3).

So I’ve addressed the list already, but I’m going to take this opportunity to address your other point about companies monitoring fan fic overall. Regardless of whatever specific ship list we do or do not have proof of Hybe monitoring.

I mostly agree with you, celebrities have been aware of fan fic for decades, but most of the conversation about it has been more of a casual acknowledgement that it exists without going much deeper. Perhaps it was always a bit different within kpop, I haven’t been here that long but if you were following tvxq in the 2000’s it seems like you have been. The concept of the fourth wall has been eroding as social media has changed the way both fandom and every day life exists on the internet. The fourth wall is basically the imaginary wall that separates performers from an audience. As a fan you are aware you are watching a show, with music it’s a bit different than theatre as some interaction is expected at a concert, but the encore ends and fans share their excitement with each other and the band goes home and the wall is fully back up. In kpop maybe the wall was never quite as high, but I think my general discomfort with the idea of Hybe execs reading and discussing fan fics has to do with this blurring of lines in fandom culture. Which is also much bigger than just fan fic.

When I was younger and in the BSB fandom at their peak, fandom had only been online for a handful of years. We lived in message boards, ezines, random angelfire and geocities pages that functioned similar to a tumblr blog but without the connection. Search engines were not great, and you had to HUNT for fics. Things were starting to move over to livejournal as I stepped away from fandoms in general for over a decade- but there was no ao3, a perfect categorized library where you can find the most random specific fic you want in no time at all. Because it is so well organized, it makes it so much easier to track metrics. It wasn’t being done before because it was impossible to do, but the impossibility of it let the fourth wall carry over from the physical space (like a concert) to the internet. It was like that for a long time, until maybe 5-10 years ago.

The fourth wall is important because not every fan wants everything they say, do, or create to actually get back to the artist. We behave differently when we think they might be watching. Weverse has proved that there is some demand for a space like this, but I also think it’s just as important for fandom to have spaces that aren’t. Where we can be a little unhinged at times, share art or writing where the target audience is other fans and not the actual artist. Maybe you’re trying to teach yourself to draw or graphic design using your fav idol and you don’t really want your first attempts actually getting in front of their gaze. Maybe it’s just nice to have a space where you can say your fav wore an ugly sweater and *know* they’re not looking at that platform to ever see it.

To me, fan fic is in that domain. Fans write it for other fans to enjoy, and it feels like a fourth wall break for a company to be mining in there for market research and song inspiration. As much as I very much understand your point about why it’s done, I think it’s fair for us to ask if it should be done. Do we want it to be done. What if people start posting empty fics with their fav ship tags so their favs can have the best numbers, like people do now with streaming bragging rights. Does every aspect of fandom culture have to be a metric, a data point, a tool for more competition and consumerism?

I also think that if I was a famous person, the existence of fic wouldn’t bother me. If fans are writing it, reading it, staying on their side of the wall- it doesn’t impact the life of the celebrity much if at all. I listened to a podcast once, where they discussed hockey fandom drama over certain hockey fans screaming at the players about ships and fics from the sidelines at games and it made the players and their partners uncomfortable- which is fair, fans are climbing over the fourth wall. In this instance, it feels like Hybe may be crossing over the wall from the other side. Knowing it exists and having to confront it in your day to day life are two different things. The artists themselves also deserve to use the internet and live life with some protection from our wildest thoughts getting delivered directly into their laps as well. The fourth wall protects everyone, and Hybe potentially mining fan fic data is just another chip away at it.

[angstywaifu]

hi friend!! I wanna be the first to send a director’s cut ask hehe. I’m so excited that you’re doing these, they’re so fun. I adore Ophelia and Dahlia and I’m very excited to see more of them ❤️🖤

I don’t have a specific chapter to pick out for Ophelia, since there’s a too many to choose from, but can you tell us a little bit about Garrick and Ophelia pre-Basgiath? what was their relationship like? was she part of the gang with G/X/Bo, or regarded as a tag-along who they “had to take trick or treating with them”? when did Garrick fall for her, or start to; before she “died”, or when they reunited at Basgiath? he was clearly affected by the sight of her with her natural hair, so I’m thinking before hehe

also, did Xaden ever give Garrick the “shovel talk” about this whole thing off-screen, or does he trust gare enough not to have to threaten him? how does G&O being a couple affect their friendship? is Xaden glad that it’s Garrick of all people who loves and protects his sister, or is that outweighed by him being (only a little) grossed out by this whole thing?

if you’ve answered these already I’m sorry, I think I may have missed a few parts and I need to do a whole re-read sometime in one sitting. and don’t feel pressured to answer all of these. I know it’s a lot of questions, and some of them you might want to keep secret for now.

okay that’s it for now hehe love ya!! here’s a bouquet of flowers for you and some strawberries from my garden too since I can’t deliver them to you in person 💐🍓🍓

💗 Liz @callsign-rogueone

I was having so much fun reading yours, and it made me want to do my own. And thank you for being the first one! Ophelia & Garrick Pre Basgiath. She is definitely part of the gang from day one. Her and Xaden have always gotten along and she was attached to his hip from the moment she could walk. So she just naturally became apart of their group. I've gone into this a lot with @fw-gt in terms of Garrick and Ophelia's relationship. But her and Garrick have always been close. Whenever Garrick's family was in Aretia/Riorson House, she would always be over at his place and his mum loved her. Garrick's mum would spoil the hell out of her. She'd constantly be getting O to stay for dinner, stay the night etc. In my head I've had these scenarios of these two attempting to cook in the kitchen and getting into mischief (throwing flour and things at each other etc), her sitting on the counter while he does something for his mum. Or them sitting in his room late at night talking and them both falling asleep, only to be found by his mum the next morning asleep in each others arms. Garrick's mum has always been their biggest supporter, secretly hoping when they got older they would get together (she of course sadly never sees this happen). But Garrick fell for her well before Basgiath. I'd probably say early teens he started realising his feelings were changing for her and developing into something more. Which then lead to some not so subtle comments from Xaden and Bodhi. There is something you'll find out in Part 40 to do with his feelings towards her Pre Basgiath as well. Xaden & Garrick's Relationship (in regards to Ophelia) They do have a talk off-screen. This gets referenced in Part 10 and 12 when Xaden talks to Ophelia and before Garrick and Ophelia get together in Part 13. I am actually tempted to do a Garrick POV Bonus Part of one of these moments..... But Xaden very much trusts Garrick with her. There would be some jokes about him threatening Garrick, but overall he knows Garrick would do anything for her. And he is very glad it's Garrick. He's been there since day one of them knowing each other, so he's watched their entire friendship form and develop into something more. So even though we get a few moments of him being grossed out (Part 20 - "what did I say about the silencing wards!"), he is very happy for the two of them. Though after they find out she is alive there are a few moments between Garrick and Xaden of "pull it together and go tell her how you feel" and Xaden being done with them avoiding each other. And don't be sorry, I love going into this kind of thing. So if there is anything else, please don't hesitate to ask! My brain is full of behind the scenes details.

[sopiao]

Imagine price with a reader thats a metalhead and one day price js saw readers old photos wayback when reader was a kid and the reader had braces and glasses. Price's reaction is in shock and he wont stop teasing the reader about it

EHEHEHHEE THIS IS SO CUTE TO IMAGINE.

a hundo percent something he’d do. (i assume their a couple in this, i’m terribly sorry if i misinterpreted it :,( )

It’d be when you first officially move in together. You would live pretty far from your family so you two visited for the weekend! There were no guest rooms so there was no choice but to sleep in your room. So, naturally, he was curious about your childhood and your teenage room.

“We might have to leave early tomorrow to be there on time—” You begin to unwind for bed, brushing your hair, and doing your overall routine for bed.

“Bascom High Yearbook?” Price reads out the title of your freshmen yearbook. Making your stomach drop, along with your brush. You immediately whip your head to see Price with a leather yearbook on his hands, a smug smile targeted towards you. Judging by your reaction he already knows he’s gonna get a good time out of this.

“Oh! That must be my sister’s!” You lie, although it was quick and sorta convincing, he already knew by your tone and reaction that you were lying. You quickly walk over to him and reach for the book in his hands. Chuckling at how desperate you were to hide this part of your life from him, snatching it from your reach before you can get too close.

“No, no. I saw that look in your face” He caught you. You took no attempt to lie or even hide that you didn’t want him to see it. Climbing over him and reaching to get it away. Laughing at your nervousness as he had you pinned on the bed, him laying on his side on top of you.

“Oh. My. God” You went limp in defeat, already knowing he saw your embarrassing photo. Your Freshman year wasn’t your best, maybe your Junior or Senior, but not Freshmen. It doesn’t help that the photographer never got your flattering side. No one ever looks good in yearbook photos, and if you are, you’re either lying or God’s favorite.

You had big oversized glasses that barely fit your face, braces on full display from your excited smile to be a high schooler, and a hairstyle that you were sure made you look cool. Price started laughing even harder, his head resting on his cheek as his other hand held his side.

“Shut up” You grumble, slipping away from him to snatch the horrid book away from him.

“No- no. Wait” He took the yearbook away from you once again and laid on his stomach with the open book in front of him. He flipped through the other pages, you sitting on his back, giving up and letting him search. Every so often you’d point out someone you’re still friends with or someone you didn’t like.

“Aww, weren’t you adorable?” He laughs out of pure adoration when he sees a photo of you in a cow inside for halloween. Another photo of you in an oversized jersey, probably your dad’s. With each photo he spotted you out, he fell in love more with how similar yet different you are now, and the more you wanted to die out of embarrassment.

“Christ. You look like you were being tortured” He chuckled again at a photo of you at your worst phase of your braces, having to wear 10 rubber bands on the brackets. “Brace face” He whispered, a teasing smile on his face, making it easier for you to smack him on the bicep.

“I guess that’s when it all started, hm?” He chuckled, turning the book to show you yet another photo, in this one you had your hair down and partially covering your face with a dark blue streak, pulling out a rock hand sign with a Rammstein shirt on, horrible black eyeliner, the studded cuff, and worst of all, the undercut, standing with a group that looked similar to how you looked.

“UGH—” You turned away, jump-scared by your own self. Cringing to yourself. Making him laugh even more. Immediately shooting up with an excuse to try and save yourself.

“To be fair, that was my friend’s idea. She wanted to do that” Price nodded, over exaggerating like he was convinced.

“Ahh, yes. I get it now. It was this friends idea” He teased and taunted even more. Causing you to roll your eyes at him and playfully land a punch on his shoulder. After a while of more silence and an occasional hum chuckle you heard the book clap shut and felt the bed shift to turn to you.

“Got any more?” He asks so casually. What else do you have to lose? After a minute you sigh and go under the bed to pull up a box of old polaroids and flip phones. Filled with photos of things you find cool and selfies of you and your friends together.

“At first I was kinda intimidated to approach you. Seeing this just makes you softer” He commented under his breath, not really intending you to hear him. Even though you were beyond embarrassed, this little comment made you melt with how he really saw you.

[amethyst-ghoul-backup]

Hello ! How are you ? 🖤 Do you think you could write headcanons for the Ghouls going to karaoke (pleaaaase) ? I just had this thought of them absolutely having a blast while singing Bohemian Rhapsody (don’t ask me why 💀😭)

omg your brain is *chef’s kiss* i love this idea!!

also i got a little carried away so i do apologize for that y’all 😭😭

- The ghouls are allowed one sort of fun outing to town per week

- Copia is required to chaperone but he’ll let them pick what they want to do and where they want to go, he just goes along to supervise

- To keep everything fair, the ghouls get to write down one idea each for what they want to do, they put the ideas in a hat, and draw one each week until they’ve done everyone’s idea

- On Friday night the pack gathers around the hat and Cirrus pulls a slip with the words “Karaoke bar” on it

- So karaoke it is

- On Saturday night all 8 of them and Copia pile into one of the ministry’s van and off they go

- They enter a mostly empty little karaoke bar and get a private room for singing

- They also order a bunch of drinks

- Swiss insists on going first and gives a very unique rendition of No Hands

- Dew and Sunshine cheer him on of course

- Cirrus and Aether absolutely kill their choice of Ain’t No Mountain High Enough

- The others can’t help but give Mountain an amused glance every time his name comes up in the song

- He is very much not amused

- Cumulus goes next and sings Halo by Beyoncé so beautifully that Copia rethinks her being an Air Ghoul because she HAS to be part siren

- “Show off” Dew jokingly mutters when she’s done but Rain slaps him on the arm anyway

- Sunshine decides she wants to sing I Won’t Say I’m In Love from the Hercules soundtrack and gets Swiss and Aether to be the muses

- They do the little dances and everything

- Like i’m talking full on movie accurate choreography

- Rain and Mountain seem sort of reluctant at first but once they realize Disney songs are an option they are all for it

- They do Under The Sea from The Little Mermaid, Hakuna Matata from The Lion King, I’ll Make A Man Outta You from Mulan, and more

- Aether cuts them off after they sing The Bare Necessities for the second time

- After Dew has one too many margaritas (he drank 6) he BODIES Rap God by Eminem and Tap In by Saweetie

- When he starts singing CPR by Cupcakke Copia knows it’s time to go

- “But youuu haven’t sung anything yet Cardi!” Sunshine drunkenly points out from the couch where she’s leaning all of her body weight on a fast asleep Cirrus

- All the ghouls turn to Copia with nods of agreement

- “I— eh, eh-heh. That is true. I suppose one more song wouldn’t hurt.” Copia agrees

- He wanted to do Piano Man by Billy Joel but that wasn’t an option

- So he goes with Bohemian Rhapsody

- And boy was that a choice

- As soon as the ghouls hear the intro they get so hyped up

- Copia sings the intro and verse 1 and 2 by himself

- Dew and Aether vocalize the guitar solo but it’s really off pitch

- The ghouls join in verse 3 and they all do the high pitched voice

- They do the little call and response with Copia

- Sunshine, Rain, and Cumulus song the “Let me go” part and the other five ghouls sing the “We will not let you go” part

- When it’s all over they end up super giggly and in high spirits

- Then they got kicked out because Dew got too excited and lit a couch on fire

- But it was an overall 10/10 experience

If you read all of this to the end, you’re a real one! Also does anyone know of that tiktok with that group of boys wearing like navy blue bedsheets as togas and lip syncing to I Won’t Say I’m In Love cause that’s exactly what I imagine Swiss and Aether doing while Sunshine sings. Someone please know what I’m talking about 😭😭

[punkpandapatrixkdailyread]

自分の世界観、強い。私、すごい！ jibun no sekaikan, tsuyoi. watashi, sugoi!／My conviction is strong. I’m awesome the way that I am.

Moon Day 15 in Aqua→ Pisces／Full Blue Moon

day’s V I B E – 2 of Swords Rx

We have an 11-hour VOC today. The Moon is void of course from—Seoul time—12:04am until 10:56pm. Literally half a day! And looking at the 2 of Swords in reverse, practically today is a time to take it easy, calm down, wind down, listen to your heart, also listen to your body because it often knows better than your heart LOL

I know it’s a Wednesday and a lot of people have jobs or school to attend to, but since you’re a spiritual being anyway, and you’re that much more sensitive to energy and emotions anyway, be kind to yourself and try to stand your ground when obligations seem/feel like they’re trying to override your autonomy. Even when you have goals to meet, duties to perform, you as an individual deserve to prioritise working/studying at a pace that feels gentle to your mental health. OK?

Doing your best doesn’t mean pushing yourself to a point of a burnout.

This is especially important to keep in mind since a lot of people can often feel a bit disorientated when the Moon is void of course. Some people could feel floaty because the Moon has not landed on a particular sign yet. During these very long hours of VOC, it is best to relax. Cook, eat, indulge in something sweet, take a bubble bath, pamper yourself and watch your favourite movie or anime, read a book, paint your nails, etc. SLEEP if you need that.

If any of that is somehow not possible, perhaps you have deadlines to meet and all that busy people jazz—still, again—be gentle with yourself. Be patient if you find yourself malfunctioning or a little big lagging for some reason. Take care of yourself throughout the VOC because when the Moon finally enters Pisces, depending on how kindly you’ve been to yourself, there’s a possibility you could feel extra sad and melancholy. On this day, try not to get provoked.

Standing your ground doesn’t mean you have to yell at someone😅But! If you find yourself face to face with someone who simply wouldn’t listen unless you raise your voice, make it today that you realise that that toxic asshole ain’t worth your goddamn energy nomo.

Overall, this Full Blue Moon is a powerful time of soul cleansing. Remain strong in your conviction. Know thyself. Know what’s good for yourself. And know it’s a collective thing that people across the globe are learning to prioritise their peace of mind over cruel obligations, even if those pay the bills. After all, the possibilities of ‘jobs’ in the future are evolving wildly right now. Have faith that things are only gonna get more exciting, more soul-fulfilling🪄🦄🌈

Priestess of Integrity

m o o n a v i g a t i o n ♥︎

‘Within me are stored seeds of dreams. My dreams are, for the most part, kind and loving, first and foremost to myself. I have the best intentions for myself. I dream so many wonderful scenarios and in a world of my own I am happy, peaceful, provided for. My Life is exciting; my work is fulfilling. I am strong in my conviction and I bring forth physical manifestations of a world that I know is paradise on Earth. My paradise on Earth. My Neo Shangri-La.’

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[alyjojo]

Past Life 🪡 Karmic Spread January 2024 - Libra

Gender I’m Picking Up On (in the past life): Male

Who You Were: 9 Cups

What You Did: Page of Swords

How It Ended: 2 Swords & The Hermit

What Karma Was Brought With You: Page of Wands

Who You Brought With You: Knight of Wands rev

Additional energy: 10 Pentacles rev

Character Card (for this life): The Assassin

Past Life Oracle: Greco-Roman & Unicorn (past)

Dreaming Way: Man & Anchor (current) Key (past)

Charms:

Key 🔑 on Unicorn

Squid 🦑 on Assassin

Butterfly 🦋 on 10 Pentacles rev

Axe 🪓 on Man

TW: abuse, violence, cruelty, disabilities

Need I say more? I was shocked, I was hearing Spirit eagerly with this one, message after message, just shuffling everything before I even pulled any cards. I have a list in my notepad to keep track, it’s like they’re eager to tell this story, but even they said “it’s a dark story” and it is. I was excited and giddy initially, I always am with these readings, and I’m getting that was your energy overall, you were a joy & a light to others - even having gone through extreme cruelty. When I pulled Greco-Roman I heard “Switzerland”, and I keep going back and forth between 1700 and 1800 so probably at the turn of the century over your lifetime, which doesn’t feel very old. Mid to late 30’s max. You were a twin, two boys, you were “the runt”, the weaker of the two, and your brother was a brutish asshole. I’m seeing a big guy, while you were always smaller, weaker, less healthy to an extent, you got sick often. But you were mama’s baby because of that, and though I don’t see her yet I can feel her around you. Still. She’s not here, but she could be one of your guides. A warm motherly presence, I’m getting you can feel her sometimes too but don’t know where it comes from. At some point there was a massive “accident” but I get it was no accident, it was your brother, bullying, and your legs were crushed. I heard paraplegic, waist down. There was no remorse from the brother, only shame he might get caught, but he wasn’t. Jealousy 💯 was very strong in him, because you were the favorite, you got more attention, and later, you were the much smarter as well. Big dumb brute, kinda psycho, that’s his energy. I get you being in the dark about much of this, you were probably much too young to understand what was even going on, 2-5 years old, and to you later - this life was what was always normal.

This reading starts much later, when you’re older. I get you being an absolute joy to be around, someone that loved meeting with and talking with anyone, from anywhere. You loved to tell stories, even other people’s stories (gossiping/conversation), and an excellent listener, you liked to be somewhere there were always people traveling through, I’m seeing a chair outside of your house or something. Maybe it’s a house, could be a business, right by a traveling path of some kind, there were always people on it to chat with. Could be outside a shop, a bar, idk but it’s outside not inside, that’s where you liked to be, and I’m seeing a hat made of straw 👒 but it’s not like any hat I’ve seen before. I get zero mention of parents in this reading, after childhood. I have no idea how you get to the chair every day. 9 Cups describes your spirit, and I get one that’s jovial, kind, always very chatty and in good spirits. Unicorn being here nods to a magical quality about you. You know when you meet someone who is just genuine in every way, and so sweet, that was who you were to a lot of local people, and some just passing through, which I get being a regular thing. A tourist stop maybe. There’s much more space between you and the brother when older, but he can’t stand you, and you assume he’s off doing whatever he does. No judgement at all. You avoided Justice, even knowing the kind of person he was, I get you were mostly unassuming and optimistic, you didn’t delve too deeply into him and just knew him as “troubled”, scary even, and yet you protected him on any occasion he might act out. I keep getting a jail reference, so I asked if he went to jail in the past, and got no, he died. Pissed someone off & it was Justice. He’s who you brought, and I asked if jail applies to this life - it could, but you may have no idea, the two of you are estranged, I don’t get any deep emotional connection there. He’s still male, and still very similar to his past personality. Less physically abusive, still troubled.

In the past, there was a particular person you were madly in love with, they were the most beautiful creature that walked the earth. You spent a long time talking to this person, probably years, and I get a very deep bond with them. Eventually, they met someone, a business owner or someone with a lot of money/status, and this person left you behind, devastated. It was the only time of your life you really hated your circumstances, but you were powerless and hated that feeling most of all. You have two Keys here, one card and the Key charm on the Unicorn which I now notice says “wisdom”, and you were very wise. For not having gone many places or “lived” the way other people do, you were a wonderful confidant, people could trust you with their deepest secrets (although some were fair game to gossip about). Others enjoyed helping you with anything, because somehow you were always helping them with something too. You were searched out by others, sometimes just for directions, sometimes for critical life advice, because you always knew what to do, and you really cared about people’s well-being. Anyone. The end makes me sad, it feels like a heavy weight on my chest. Someone didn’t know you were alone, or no one knew you were alone, this could’ve been a crisis situation, you couldn’t call for help and no one knew you were there or in trouble, wherever that was. You were there for a long time, trapped in, several days, under, behind, something, and you were very sad at the end. I want to cry.

Your energy in this life is divided. You’ve got The Assassin here with Squid, that’s no joke, you aren’t someone anyone is dumb enough to fk with this time around 💯 You’re extremely quiet, vengeful, not afraid of doing what you have to do, even if that would be considered “wrong”. Versatile, changeable, adaptable, quick as hell literally & mentally. Again I keep seeing jail, and one of those teardrop tattoos…which means you’ve killed someone? Idk. There’s an Axe on the Man here too. Whew. I hope not 🙏 This could just be showing me you’re ruthless, Assassin even says ruthless. But inside…you have an exciting, sensual, even romantic spirit, you still crave love, passion, excitement, steamy affairs & adventures. Libras gonna Libra 😍 If you haven’t killed anyone (I hope), lasting love may not be for you. This Man desires what he looks at, which is the Anchor, long term stability, a lasting relationship, true love even, but the Axe indicates you cut it off before it can get there…and you’re focused on the NEW. Ace of Cups. That initial excitement & passion of being obsessed with someone, can’t keep your hands off each other. But long term? You want it but you don’t, in some cases a painful divorce may be attached to this, but probably more painful for the other person. If you’re a felon, then it’s more about money, and the lack of a solid foundation in that sense. You also have a major travel bug, you want to MOVE, which makes sense considering this past life being connected, you couldn’t really. Money may stop you a lot, if you had it your way, you’d probably never stop moving. Cars & transportation may be an area of healthy obsession for you, literally traveling or even working on them, as a job or a hobby.

You’ve brought your twin, I don’t see them being related, at least not as a sibling. Could be a cousin, best friend, neighbor, they have some ties with your family, “a friend of the family” is what I’m hearing. They’re very similar to how they were in the past, but less cruel. Still crazy though 💯 You probably get flack from lovers or family about this person, they’re unreliable and always getting into trouble, a bad influence so to speak, you’re still the more logical. 10 Pentacles rev shows a lack of any solid foundation in your life, love, work, home, any of the stuff most people consider goals, I don’t get that you do. It’s a nice idea, you’re like “maybe someday”. Butterfly here with the clarifiers show you feel like if you could just escape, things would be better for you. There’s a daydreamy energy regarding this - you need some perspective on the long term, I get you don’t really think about long term, just today, tomorrow, the next. Drugs or mind altering substances could keep you distanced from family. Doesn’t have to be you either, could be them. There is a transformative energy here, I am getting this is karmic, but it doesn’t have to be this way. You could end up breaking generational curses, changing your life around, or maybe other people do, there’s a long stagnant energy but it’s for a much deeper divine purpose. If this is a family torn apart by tragedy, murder, whatever crime you may have going on - that could be the thing that has or will change you forever. Substances could be involved in that too. It’s a mix of personal tragedy and rising like a Phoenix from the ashes, something good could come out of something terrible, or it’s meant to make this change happen. Sending you lots of love Libra, this is a tough one, both lives 🩷

[arabriddler]

(I hope i'm not too late for the Philophobia ask thingy)

And by the way, this is a question more so about your overall process when writing than the story itself.

So, l know you’ve mentioned in the past about how Philophobia became much more than what it was originally intended to be. I was wondering, I guess, how it felt to have it be that way? Like, I’m in the process of writing the first multi chapter fic I’ve ever made. My original outline for part one of two was 10 chapters long. I’m currently writing chapter 9, but the outline has changed to part one being 20 chapters. And I’m sure it will continue to become longer as I really figure out what I want to do with this story. And sometimes for me it’s like “Oh my god! This fic is so much more than what I planned! Yay!” and sometimes it’s “Oh my god. This fic is too much more than what I planned.  Oh no.” So I just wonder what writing Philophobia was like once it became more than what you intended. I can only assume you enjoyed writing it since it continued to grow and change from the original plan. Were you happy when you realized it was so much more than what was expected? Or did it feel, like, stressful? Personally, I’m so glad you did, I love Philophobia and started reading it just days after I finished binge watching Gotham and was still emotionally wrecked by that, and Philophobia was everything I wished Gotham could have given us, and so much more. You’re a seriously talented writer and artist, and I’m so happy you’re a creator in one of my favorite fandoms.

Before I go I want to say thank you so much for all the art and stories you share with us and I hope you have a wonderful morning/evening/whatever. :) <3

hello! Thank you so much you’re so sweet.

To answer your question, my mother once told me that when you feel like the characters are writing themselves, you know you’re doing a good job. So I keep remembering that. note on that, I think even throughly planned stories do that. Like you’d outline something but when you write a scene it’ll go a little different but it still follows the outline. Some people write on the go, some people follow an outline. Some people do a bit of both. moreover, it gets exciting. It’s sort of like you’re the reader yourself, and figuring out plots and all can be a fun riddle to work with.

admittedly it does get frustrating sometimes, and sometimes you wish you could’ve foreshadowed something earlier. To combat this, usually I’d write a good chunk or the whole thing before publishing it ( for Philophobia I wrote quite a bit before publishing it and then took breaks whenever I got too close. We can say I’d keep at least 5 chapters in my rough draft if you know what I mean?)

it can get overwhelming, yes, but it’s more often very fun. also ! Your first multi chapter? That’s awesome! I’d love to read it if you publish it you can tag me if I miss it.

Philophobia Q&A

[recurring-polynya]

Hello polynya! Hope you don’t mind but I’d like to ask you about your writing process. You’re really one of the best fic writers I’ve seen so I’d like to pick your brain a little. :) How long do you spend outlining something before writing it down? What do you do when you get stuck on something? How do you make sure you’re getting characters right? I’m very concerned about that last one since I haven’t seen Bleach in years and if I ever started writing something, I’m worried I’d make everyone OOC.

Hi! Sorry for delay on this. I wanted to take the time to write out a nice and thoughtful answer and then I got swamped by stuff. I really do like sharing writing advice, though, so thank you for asking!

Just gonna do a little cut for length:

How long do you spend outlining something before writing it down? So, I want to start with the caveat that I hate outlining. I am very much that dog-with-a-frisbee meme, only it's "No decide what happens! Only write!" I think that, in general, it's best to do as much outlining as you can stand at the beginning of a project, but there is a minimum amount that I force myself to do, but what that minimum is will depend on the fanfic I am trying to write.

Sometimes a fanfic will spring into my head, fully formed, beginning to middle to end. Just go for it. No outline. Fuck it, we ball. Generally, this is going to be a shorter fanfic, like <10k, but I ran all of Portions for Foxes with no net. There is like the Touch of God, though, there is no way to guarantee this process.

Usually, with the stories in my Heart is a Muscle series, I declare that I am Writing This Thing, and it has a broad concept and, like, 5 scenes I really want to write. In this case, I will make an iterative outline. I really, really didn't feel like outlining the one I am working on now, and for a significant amount of time, my "Ductwork Notes" documents just said: "Outline: lol". However, as I actually started to work on it, and completed some scenes, I put them in the outline. Also, any time I thought of a scene I wanted to do, or a scene I would need to do, I added it to the outline. At some point, I was able to feel my way around the shape of the thing. It takes place over ~2 weeks, and I wrote out when the big events happened, which made it more obvious where and what I needed to add. I just continue to refine and add detail. I'm maybe 10 or 15% of my way into this thing (by progress, not by word count). As I go, I continue to update the outline. Eventually, I will break it into chapters, with word count. Going back and forth between the zoomed-way-in activity of writing and the big picture exercise of thinking about my story as a whole is the best way for me to work (it's also the way I code, swapping back and forth between writing and testing individual functions with how they fit into the overall software framework.) I feel like this is not a thing that would work for everyone, but it works for me.

Plot bunnies. We all get them. I generally do not get gripped by them, the way some people do, but every so often, I have a bit of a wild idea (often an AU), where I get excited over an idea, and I need to decide how much energy I am willing to devote to it. In this case, an outline is a tool for that. The thing that separates a plot bunny, imo, from a "fic idea" is that plot bunnies are usually open ended hooks: What if so-and-so died? Oh, I love this splash page where they're all in a band. That's not a story, it's just a concept. So, if I am considering making a story, I force myself to make an outline. It must have a beginning, middle and end. It must contain a number of Big Scenes I am excited about writing and that I think people will be excited about reading. Sometimes, this process very clearly informs me that this is not a story that I want to take the time to write, and that maybe I'd rather just do a fanart or write a 1k throwaway scene or maybe just make a Tumblr post about. But if the process of making the outline isn't a huge turnoff, well, now I've got an outline, which is a significant part of the work done, and I can feel free to go for it.

What do you do when you get stuck on something?

If I am stuck on a specific thing, the best thing for me is to go do a chore that requires my hands and leaves my brain free. Washing dishes, folding laundry, weeding, are all excellent candidates for this. It can be enormously frustrating to get stuck, because I am very impatient, so I have a litany of things I tell myself at these times, like "this is what writing is. just let your brain chew on it." I often try to let my brain run down little possibilities, even when I know they won't work, just to see where they lead. I try to remind myself to have fun and enjoy the process.

If I am stuck in the sense that I have writer's block or just generally don't feel like writing, I try to do other things. If I catch up on my ao3 comments and my volunteer job, then, when the inspiration comes back, I'll have a clear schedule. I believe that there are cycles of writing, where sometimes you are in creative mode, but sometimes you are in rest mode, and sometimes you are ingest mode, so it's good to go read a book or watch a new show. It's also cool to go revisit the source material.

How do you make sure you’re getting characters right? I’m very concerned about that last one since I haven’t seen Bleach in years and if I ever started writing something, I’m worried I’d make everyone OOC.

I mean, why not do a rewatch, or even better, read the manga? You don't have to go through the whole thing, just the parts relevant to the story you are trying to tell, or the character you are trying to get write. I do this all the time, even though I already have a pretty encyclopedic knowledge of the parts of Bleach I care about. The Bleach wiki is very helpful for figuring out what happened in particular episodes.

I think this ties back to the previous questions, but a big part of writing is that you have to sit with your writing in your head and figure out what you are doing and why and if you are accomplishing that. There are different ways of doing this that you may find you enjoy more or less. I don't like outlining, but I do like looking up little bits of canon and overanalyzing minor details and making esoteric Tumblr posts about them.

Once you are actually writing, I try to have a very clear idea for my major players of:

What is their tendency?

What is their goal?

Their tendency is what they do naturally, how they act when they aren't thinking about it. Usually, you are shooting for your character to have some growth or change, and that's what I mean by goal. How do they act when they are being intentional? Then, in any writing situation, you can decide, "are they being natural or are they being intentional?" and decide their actions based on that. I think the most basic conflict you can write about is the tension between who someone is and who they would like to be!

A very basic example of this is that Renji is usually a pretty casual guy. He uses informal speech and probably jokes around with his subordinates. On the other hand, when Byakuya's around, he straightens his spine and puts on his best officer voice, because he wants to impress his boss.

This is going to vary based on the story you want to tell. The "tendency" category is also going to include what your characters do when they are scared or angry or other circumstances where things move from "unthinking" into "involuntary." A nice thing about this is that if you write one million stories about the same characters, you can really show their growth over time.

I hate YouTube analysis videos, but I watched one that really rewired my brain, about how, in a panic situation, Renji freezes up and Rukia runs. Hihiou Zabimaru, as an incomplete bankai, often acts a protective wall around Renji, allowing him to act while standing still. Conversely, So-oh Zabimaru is a close-combat bankai and prominently features a grabby arm. Rukia's bankai, on the other hand, is all about standing her ground (and forcing everyone else to, too). And on one hand, this is a powers analysis, but I use this as a touchstone a lot when I write about their conflict resolution styles at various stages of their maturity.

Here's a bit of advice that may be controversial, but I am going to say it: I think that even if you prefer AUs (and I mean, like, coffee shop AUs, not twist-on-canon AUs) you should write canon-compliant fic once in a while, even just as an exercise. You don't have to show it to anyone, it doesn't need to be a complete story. You can even just take a canon scene and try to write it from the POV of one of your characters. I just people really underestimate the amount of character work it takes to write a good AU. It's super hard to keep the characters feeling correct when you've taken away all the character beats that have informed them as people! In fact, I think it's good for any writer to try out different kinds of writing once in a while, even kinds you think you won't like. It really builds your writerly muscles and forces your to think about things in new and potentially mind-blowing ways.

Anyway, I hope that was helpful! I hope you do give writing a shot and I wish you the best of luck!

[the-tortured-poets-dpt]

my honest 1989 tv first impressions

welcome to new york – first listen was strange, sounded kinda “wrong” but the second time was better. still think the og slaps more bc she sounds more excited, also the intro is so different??

blank space – not really sure about it too, the way she sings “weekend” sounds a bit off, i hope it grows on me

style – i was very nervous about this song and now i’m too sad about it to comment

out of the woods – first listen was okay, second listen convinced me, still hits the way it should!! sounds so crisp

all you had to do was stay – i love EVERYTHING except the way she tone in which she sings that certain “all you had to do was stay” after the “well it could’ve been easy”, she sings it the way the last “ayhtdws” in the chorus is sung and it kind of takes some tension away?? i hope it’s understandable (i don’t think so lol it’s hard to explain)

shake it off – SLAPS 10/10 i love it, you hear differences (ofc) but it’s still as energetic as the original and it actually makes me want to listen to the song again after being tired of it for quite a few years

i wish you would – nothing to criticize here, still slaps, very similar to the og but much clearer aka rest in peace “stand back wasted” lmao

bad blood – the “if you’re coming my way, just don’t” sounds SO much more fed up lol i love it, very well done

wildest dreams – (already known)

how you get the girl – another GREAT rerecord, actually one of the best on this one i think!!

this love – (same here)

i know places – i was SO afraid of this but omg it still has the same power and still gives me goosebumps i’m hooked

clean – also well done, nothing to criticize, will def grow on me

wonderland – ANOTHER FAV it’s so good

you are in love – the echoes in the chorus are a bit too low key imo but overall still good, guess i have to listen to it a few more times though

new romantics – also not sure, didn’t quite hit the way i hoped it would at the first listen but i’ll give it time

i’m excited to read what others have to say about this awesome new rerecord and i hope i don’t sound too harsh, i know how difficult it must be to try to recreate the instrumentals and vocals from 10 years ago and overall it’s VERY similar which is absolutely respectable and amazing. also i’ll definitely get used to those differences i pointed out (except for style probably which is the only track that hurt me)

and now finally ON TO THE VAULT TRACKS

[btscontentenjoyer]

Rereading this brought me back to when I started reading bts fanfic on tumblr a year ago :') So many moments from this story have stayed with me this whole time and it was also a great read after a day at the beach, just a 10/10 experience.

"It belongs to a blooming, floating island, pleasant and hot. Wildlife chirps hidden behind trees, calm and welcoming. There are waterfalls that must be somewhere in the middle of the island – you’re not quite certain anymore, since your memory of the place has weakened over time." These descriptions feel so magical! Exactly the way remembering an important place from your childhood feels. Because back then everything looked a lot more whimsical, and even if you don't remember the specifics, you remember all the emotions it stirred in you and the atmosphere overall.

"And this heart – it was bigger than the universe, too big to fit into that small body. Because he enjoyed your smile; made sure to keep it plastered to your face. One time, he pointed to the horizon and told you that there’d come a summer when he’d be big, old and strong enough to wade through the waves. Arrive at the edge, the big Behind of the ocean, and that he would dive back to you and bring you a handful of stars." Well, I'm already going 🥺🥺🥺 and it's only the beginning, it's probably a good indication of how I'm going to be the whole time. Probably with some teary eyes thrown in too.

"That place… you don’t recognise it anymore." The way that the island's changed just like Jungkook and OC's relationship has. But yet they still find familiarity in some of the places they used to frequent, just like they do in each other's presence 😭😭😭

"On the way to your hotel, you spot a pathway leading to the forest that you seem to recognise. Even the tree looks somewhat familiar to you – and when you step closer, you realise why. It has your name eternalised on it – you think Jungkook did it back when you suggested carving your existence on this island." Reminders of them everywhere 🥺

"In your slight tipsiness, you roll your eyes, wish her a good railing and walk on." Lmaoooo

"What?” she wonders, eyes wide, but then her expressions relax as she adds, “I’m fucking gloriously, thank you!" Lmaoooooooooooo

"Maybe he heard your voice… or the utterance of your name. Maybe he knew to step out just now – because when you meet Jeon Jungkook’s gaze after more than half a decade, he doesn’t freeze the way you do." The way I still held my breath at this even though I knew it was coming. All of the build up is even more exciting when you know what will happen, honestly.

"You still recognise all the moles you used to count. The pout of his lips and the dark hair, longer now. His strong arms, tattooed today; the same slow blinks of his eyelids as when he listened attentively." Descriptions like this of Jungkook will always get me, no matter what. I just love looking at him and admiring him and reading descriptions like these is second best to that. Also THE MOLES YOU USED TO COUNT????? 😭😭😭😭😭😭

“At the tide pool today,” he explained, so eternally proud and thrilled, “I put it out of the clam, because clams are overrated. It looks cooler on a leaf.” Waaaaay too cute.

"I would have. I just chose to seek refuge in your presence.” I am meltinggggg 🥺🥺🥺

"And then, a summer tumbled in when he became a snarky teenager, rolling his eyes at you, flicking your forehead before pulling you into a suffocatingly tight bear hug. Jungkook liked to hold you, and he held you closest before you lost his affection that year. After that, it was your heart that became the bleeding wound." 😔😔😔

"I got scared?” Jungkook bites his lip, looks at you with remorse and questions in his eyes. “After knowing you for years, I shouldn’t have been, though. And if you want to know what it is… I can totally take you out for a drink once we’re back in town. And show it to you.” I remember being sooo invested in what the gift was!!!

"There was a particular way Jungkook looked at you. He knew you knew – or at least, he assumed you knew. Spring doesn’t just let flowers bloom… he thought you noticed. And he thought he saw something in the shimmer behind your eyes, too." This is why assuming you know someone's thoughts on something without actually talking about it gets you nowhere 😭😭😭

“That must have been the most beautiful thing I’ve ever done.” Man, teenage years are really different, because how do you hear that and not try anything afterward? It's a confusing and uncertain time for sure, has you questioning even what's right in front of you 😔😔😔

“Hmmm,” he hums, “everything else around me kept changing. If I’d changed too, I wouldn’t have recognised the world anymore.” Hmmm I feel like that's what makes growing up the most confusing, the changes happening within yourself. But one thing that didn't seem to change within them is their love for each other 🥺🥺🥺

“I really missed you,” he reveals in a half-whisper. Your heart breaks through your lungs and ribs and falls into your stomach. “I know you don’t believe me, because you think I abandoned you, but I missed you.” I feel like nobody is to blame for the fact that they drifted apart, right? If they were going to keep holding their feelings back the whole time, I feel like it was bound to burden their friendship at one point. And we also all know the painful way life has of getting in the way of old friendships and relationships once you get into adulthood too... :((

"A plate of cookies; your favourite snacks. And Kookie. Your Kookie." 🥺💕🥺💕🥺💕🥺

“I was so in fucking love with you and… part of you never fucking left me.” He lifts his hands to rub his face; the colour of his skin has changed to a light red. He’s holding back tears, unlike you. “And I just… I fucking hate you for it." Ah the confusion that comes with young love… it can really turn it into a bittersweet thing that sometimes feels more bitter than sweet. The feelings of wasted opportunity and the constant thoughts of what if can be really haunting honestly.

"Whispering your name, he murmurs, “I’ve lived half a life without you and… never stopped missing your lips.” He still reads his novels… you can tell. Still picks out metaphors and things people might not say in real life. But this is real life – and he’s saying it to you. So many people in this world, and he’s saying it to you." This is all so 🥺🥺🥺

"Jungkook and you aren’t just fucking. And he’s not just indulging in the general feeling sex consists of. He’s adoring you. Making love to you, worshipping every piece of your skin as he thinks you deserve. Always, always set out to make you feel good… happy" Such a gentle and caring smut scene. You can really feel the years of history between them, the years of tenderness and feelings pent up and overflowing.

“I’ve always been in love with you,” he interrupts. Stops your heartbeat, sends a spark of electricity through your blood vessels. His pupils flicker, jabbing your soul deep behind your eyes. “You know that, right?” 😭😭😭😭😭😭

“Yeah!” he responded, nodding wildly, almost as energetic as you. Somehow, you always found the most power to wade through the day when you left the island. “And I’ll show you my new pencil case.” “Okay. But it can’t be cooler than my bag.” “I know.” The cutest!!!

"You trap your lips between your teeth, keeping your chin from quivering as you listen on, “When we came back, I asked a jeweller to clean it up for me. Bought a golden chain to go with it and then wanted to give it to you. I even had it all planned out. Like, I wanted you to close your eyes, and then place it around your neck. I was gonna kiss you and—” I love him and his little romantic heart </3

"Everything about this moment feels like the adult version of the pearl and tide pool incident. The waterlife… the scolding… the white twinkle on a leaf – not in a clam. Like the dozen gifts that’d put a smile on your face as a kid, he’s brought you another shining piece of his heart." He had been bringing her pieces of his heart with every gift and now she's ready to accept them fully, ready to see them for what they are 🥺🥺🥺

"And you also think that… if Jungkook stays with you this time… if he keeps looking at you like that… You’ll never have to swim to the horizon to keep the stars close." This truly is such a sweet melancholic story. As I said before, so much of it has stayed with me and I constantly think of it on summer nights and it makes me smile fondly 💕💕

stars behind waves | jjk (m)

Summary: With a decade’s distance between Jungkook and you, your paths cross on the same island you deemed your second home years ago. And you realise once again – the ocean can never compare to the twinkle in his starry eyes.

➳ pairing: Jungkook x reader ➳ rating: 18+ ➳ genre: estranged best friends to lovers, vacation/beach!au; angst, fluff, smut ➳ warnings: so so much yearning and pining, gentle fuckboy jk cos i’ve no control over myself, a bit of jealousy, the first kiss, arguments/fighting, unresolved issues, heartbreak, angry confessions; explicit sexual content: making out, asking for permission, dom & big dick jk, handjob in the shower, oral (m. & f. receiving), some clit slapping, some biting, squirting, jk loves her tits… and her ass even more, fingering, protected sex, soft and rough sex, body worship !!, jk is SUCHHH a goner, he comes on her ass, aftercare, praises; so many emotions; lmk if i forgot smth! ➳ wc: 22.7k ➳ a/n: here we gooo !! @missgeniality​​ & @voiceswithoutlips​​ my angel betas, as usual, i’d be lost without you 😔  i’m really happy with how this one came out, so i hope you guys enjoy it as much as i did writing it !! as always, don’t forget to drop a message in my inbox – it makes my day <33 ➳ yaila’s beach art 💙 

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There is a long lost beach somewhere at the end of the world.

It belongs to a blooming, floating island, pleasant and hot. Wildlife chirps hidden behind trees, calm and welcoming. There are waterfalls that must be somewhere in the middle of the island – you’re not quite certain anymore, since your memory of the place has weakened over time.

You do remember the sun that descended there, though – you always used to say it wasn’t the same as the one you admired at home, watching from your garden.

Jungkook would always reprimand you, tut at you, throw tiny little shells at your bare thighs until you, furied and irritated, abandoned him at the beach. He would stay there until the moon rose from the east, and you would watch him from afar.

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what i listened to in september 2024!

total albums: 8 top 3 favs: conversation piece (a lot like birds), frailty (jane remover), foxing (foxing) click read more for full reviews ^-^

Happiness - Dance Gavin Dance (2009)

Fav song: Happiness

This album has such a strange aura around it and it’s mostly thanks to Jon’s absence. However, I think Will does a great job filling in for Jon’s screaming, and the addition of Will rapping gives him a lot more to do here when he already does so much. It’s kind of difficult for me to nail down the vibe this album gives me. It’s almost like you’re throwing a party to distract yourself from how miserable you are. The album length adds to that feeling, with it being less than 40 minutes. I don’t love how short this album is, especially since only two songs break 5 minutes. But those two songs, Carl Barker and Powder to the People, are my favorites. I will say I do thoroughly enjoy the grooviness in this album and it adds a fun twist to the Dgd sound that they were clearly still figuring out. Overall, I have mixed feelings on this album but still like it a lot.

Rating: 7/10

Frailty - Jane Remover (2021)

Fav song: Pretender

This album is a beautiful encapsulation of the weird nostalgia of growing up in the 2010s and being unhappy but not being able to tell why. The way Goldfish is a slow opener leading directly into the louder, upbeat Your Clothes reflects that period of time to me. The bright, fast-paced teenage youth with those moments of sadness that you can’t quite place. The lyrics for most of these songs aren’t happy, and explore those complex emotions that you feel as a teen but don’t fully understand until after years of thinking them over. Besides the emotion of this album, it’s just very well made. I love how electronic it is, with the noise and static varying from a low background hum to loud and in your face. Overall, I think this is a great album and see how it set up Jane to make Census Designated.

Rating: 8/10

On Letting Go - Circa Survive (2006)

Fav song: The Difference Between Medicine and Poison Is In The Dose

This album is a victim of my procrastination, but I’m very happy I finally got around to it. To be honest, I don’t think it’s as strong as other Circa albums I’ve heard. BUT! I still really enjoyed it. It’s the same Circa sound that I love and will never get tired of. I think with repeat listens, I could pick out things to like about each song. But on a first listen they all blended into each other a bit. I will say, I fucking loved the instrumental in Your Friends Are Gone and how it sort of called back to The Difference Between… (I’m not typing all that out again). This album honestly just makes me want to listen to more Circa, and perhaps I will.

Rating: 7/10

The Light Age - Many Eyes (2024)

Fav song: Future Proof

This album doesn’t feel very much like an album, rather a collection of songs. I’m the type of person who likes albums to have some sort of flow or cohesiveness tying the songs together. The Light Age, meanwhile, feels like it’s a playlist of Many Eyes’ songs. That doesn’t mean I hate it, matter of fact I like a good chunk of the songs off this album. I think Revelation is a great opener and really liked it as a single. Keith’s vocals, both the singing and screaming, are incredible and very enjoyable for me to listen to. I also think the drums are great in the majority of the songs. But I don’t think I'm ever gonna reach for this album again, and definitely not listen to any of the songs that I didn’t really vibe with.

Rating: 5/10

Shed - Title Fight (2011)

Fav song: Safe In Your Skin

I honestly was pretty excited to listen to this album since I really like Safe In Your Skin, but I was really thrown off guard by how different the rest of the album sounds. It’s very hard and fast compared to the soft and slow of that song. It was kind of jarring. But, in the context of the album it serves as a kind of interlude which I do like. My other thing is that I’m not the biggest fan of albums, or songs for that matter, that are mainly screaming. There have been times where it’s worked for me, but the stars have to align for that to happen. I do however think this album is well made and understand the audience that loves it. I also think that I’ll probably enjoy Title Fight’s following albums more and will listen to them either later this month or in the next 1 to 2 years.

Rating: 6/10

Foxing - Foxing (2024)

Fav song: Hell 99

This album sounds like the band went through a metamorphosis and it's beautiful. It's so packed full of emotion it feels like the music is bursting at the seams. This sounds so mature and like the band knows exactly how to experiment the way they want to. And the noise! It's fucking crazy. The flow of this album is crazy going back and forth from heavy and loud to atmospheric and contemplative. It’s spacey, it's static, it's like laying in bed at night with one of those sleep projectors on. I don't know why but this album makes me feel nostalgic in a way that fills my chest up with emotion. Connor’s vocals are so good throughout the album. I think overall this is a very strong album!

Rating: 7/10

What’s Wrong With New York? - The Dare (2024)

Fav song: Movement

This is a pretty solid dance album. It sounds similar to some Gorillaz I’ve heard, as well as Mindless Self Indulgence but without the stuff that makes MSI suck. I’m not the type of person to go clubbing but I can see why The Dare is a big club dj and how he got to produce songs for Charli xcx. Overall, this album was a fun time for my ears and I’ll definitely dance whenever a song from it comes on.

Rating: 6/10

Conversation Piece - A Lot Like Birds (2011)

Fav song: Truly Random Code

This album feels filled to the brim with sounds it’s almost overwhelming. It feels like each instrument is trying to convey a different string of thoughts leading to a look inside a jumbled up mess of a brain. The small electronic bits on songs like Properties of Friction add an extra layer of texture to the near chaos. The way Kurt and Cory go back and forth with each other throughout is so captivating to me. Seeing a handful of these songs performed live (with Andy Cizek instead of Cory) helped me appreciate the way the vocals are structured even more. Speaking of structure, the way this album is structured feels almost as if a story is being told through the beats of emotion that happen during it. I really enjoy Abbr serving as an interlude after the crescendo at the end of Truly Random Code and leading into The Blowtorch Is Applied To The Sugar which has its own crazy climax. Overall I’ve really become obsessed with this album and am very happy to have listened to it.

Rating: 9/10