#our roommate because some of us are triggered by her

[osddid-i-do-that]

“One of your alters doesn’t like me!”

My dude some of my alters don’t like ME. You ain’t special.

[adascore]

Captain Obvious

pairings: lionesses x lioness!reader

warnings: sarina scaring the hell out of us. fluff.

author’s note: I know this isn’t how captaincy is announced, but all of this is fictional anyway so it doesn’t even matter :)

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''Is everyone in?'' Sarina asked, scanning the room to ensure the complete attendance of the squad and necessary staff.

A few heads nodded at the manager. ''Good.'' The Dutchwoman concluded.

''Before we talk about the upcoming game against North Macedonia, I would like to say something else.'' Sarina began the team meeting, her gaze lingering on Y/N.

The player curiously turned her head to Mary, who was sitting next to her. The goalkeeper merely shrugged in response.

''I didn't want to do it like this, but I think this is the only way to get my message across… Y/N, can you please come stand next to me?'' Sarina's invitation sounded more like a demand, leaving the striker slightly confused at the stern tone.

Y/N hesitated for a moment but stood up, making her way to the front of the room as requested by Sarina.

Glancing at her teammates, she found it challenging to read their expressions. Some were nervously biting their nails, while others were avoiding eye contact altogether.

Strange, the striker thought.

Sarina maintained her serious tone, making Y/N's heart race with anticipation. ''We have noticed some issues lately…'' The room fell silent, everyone's eyes fixed on the player, who was growing more bewildered and scared by the second. She tried to recall any recent incidents that might have triggered this discussion.

''The communication on the pitch, the communication off the pitch, the passes, the attacks… it is all anyone has been talking about on this team.'' The coach's vague explanation was making her worried, because it implied people had been speaking about her to Sarina.

''It forced us to reassess your position in this team.'' The Dutchwoman continued, maintaining her stoic stone.

It was a difficult task to make the Lyon captain nervous, but Sarina was doing an amazing job so far. ''My… position… on the team?'' Y/N spoke slowly, not quite knowing what to make of all of this.

''Yes, we're sorry to tell you this,'' she turned towards Arjan, their assistant coach, who handed her something the player wasn't able to see, ''but you are our new, official captain.'' Sarina's expression did a complete 180, a big grin on her face.

The room erupted into cheers, her teammates bursting out laughing at the player staring at their coach in stunned disbelief.

''Wait, what?'' Y/N mumbled as Sarina handed her the captain's band.

''Did you really think I was going to kick you off the team?'' The older woman exclaimed, surprised her player actually fell for it.

Y/N awkwardly chuckled. ''I mean- you sounded super serious! You should become an actress or something.''

''Congratulations, captain!'' Her team engulfed her in a group hug, feeling pats all over her head.

''I was wondering why none of you were looking at me.'' The newly appointed captain said, everything making sense now.

''I was having such a hard time,'' Ella sighed, before glancing over at Mary, ''you were awful!''

''What? Tooney!'' The goalkeeper exclaimed, clearly offended.

Alessia chimed in. ''You kept hiding your face cause you couldn't contain your smile.''

''I'm just happy for my friend!'' Mary defended herself, trapping Y/N in her arms.

Some of the girls made ‘Awh'-noises, dramatically swooning over the striker-goalkeeper duo.

''Took you long enough to figure it out.'' Mary teased, a mischievous grin playing on her lips.

Y/N scoffed, slightly offended. ''How was I supposed to know?''

''I'm roomies with the captain.'' Alex proudly stated, her eyes sparkled with pride as she side hugged her roommate.

''That's not fair! Alex already has an advantage over everyone!'' Georgia interjected, loudly.

Y/N frowned. ''I've been captain for like 2 seconds, what are you talking about, G?'' She chuckled, befuddled by everyone's enthusiasm.

''You'll understand what I mean when she's suddenly being a lot nicer to you.'' Georgia explained, making wary eyes at the blond defender.

Lucy approached her and grabbed the captain's band from her hand. ''Come on, put it on.'' She held it open for her so Y/N could easily slide her arm through.

As soon as it was tightly attached to her arm, the entire room broke into cheers again.

''You wear it well, Skipper.'' Lucy teased with a playful grin.

She felt someone hugging her from behind. ''Congratulations, darling.''

''Thanks, Jill.'' The new captain smiled, glad her older teammate was happy for her.

Girls like Jill, Ellen, Alex, Lucy and Jordan had been there since she first joined the England team- it was a special moment for them as well to see their younger teammate take over the reins of the team.

''Congrats, sweetheart. You deserve this so much.'' Ellen embraced her, her fellow striker grinning from ear to ear.

''Thanks, El.''

''Speech! Speech! Speech!'' A couple of the girls (Ella, Georgia, Keira and Leah, to be specific) started chanting.

Y/N chuckled at the impromptu request for a speech, feeling the weight of the moment. She raised her hands, signaling for a moment of quiet amidst the cheers.

''Okay, okay!'' She began, a genuine smile on her lips. ''First of all, I want to thank Sarina, and whoever decided this, for giving me this huge honour, and for trusting me to lead this incredible team. I know to some people it's just a band, but I do feel a responsibility to lead by example and for me this means so much more.''

She paused, letting her words sink in. ''I joined this team when I was 18 years-old, and I've experienced so much already. I just want to thank all of you, and also the teammates that aren't here today, for making this such a beautiful group of people and for making this genuinely fun to do. I'm lucky to have you guys as my teammates.''

Her gaze swept across the faces of her teammates, feeling herself getting emotional. ''I will continue to do my best. This isn't just about me, it's about all of us. We're here to support one another and to enjoy all of this together.''

''I'm looking forward to the rest of the year, and it might be to early to say this, but fuck it,'' she chuckled, resulting in laughter from the entire room, ''this summer is ours!''

The meeting room echoed with applause, and somehow she ended up in the middle of a group hug.

Sarina and Arjan watched on as their team celebrated together, content smiled on their faces.

''This is the team.'' He told his boss, a confident tone.

The Dutchwoman nodded. ''This is the team.''

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for refusing to do anything to help my roommate's baby?

More of a "was I an asshole" rather than "am I an asshole?"

I (21F) am a college student living in an apartment with two roommates, Anna (22F) and Mica (23NB). I've lived with Anna for two years now and Mica for one, and we've all always gotten along great with no major issues apart from the fact that Anna's boyfriend of several years is emotionally manipulative and incredibly insecure and jealous, but that's an issue for another time, except that I don't like him and make no secret of it. I also don't like children, never want children, and crying babies is one of the biggest overload/meltdown triggers I have because it stresses me out and also triggers some violent intrusive thoughts (I have autism and OCD, which both of my roommates know about, but never cause any significant issues and I don't act on those thoughts.) That is to say, I should not and do not want to be around children.

Anna and I live far enough apart over the summer that we only see each other during the school year, and this year I'm a junior and she's a senior. I showed up at the beginning of this school year and lo and behold, Anna is about five months pregnant. Turns out it happened toward the end of last school year, she didn't tell anyone at first, and didn't bother to mention it over the summer (which I'm pissed about). I was NOT expecting one of my closest college friends to be about to have a baby, let alone one that I'm living with.

For the next few months, I helped her out, drove her to doctor appointments, etc, because of course the shitbag boyfriend lives like three hours away (where Anna lives when she's not at college) and refuses to drive over to help her out himself. However, I made it clear that I wanted nothing to do with the baby once it's born. I wouldn't be helping her with diapers, wouldn't babysit, don't want her to put formula bottles on my shelf in the fridge, won't play with the baby or anything. I don't have the patience for that, I don't want the baby in my shit, I work 20 hours a week on top of my classes and homework and do not have time or desire to deal with a tiny human.

Fast forward to when the baby is born, Anna keeps saying she's looking for somewhere else to move, wants to move back full time to live with her shitbag boyfriend, have him help with the baby. Our other roommate Mica helps occasionally with the baby and is willing to do basic stuff and occasionally rocks him to sleep when they're sitting on the couch and stuff, but I refuse. Several months later Anna still hasn't moved out and has barely made the effort she says she will, she talks about the boyfriend a lot but I have literally NEVER seen him in person since the baby was born (he was there for the birth and that's it, drove her to our apartment afterwards since I didn't want to be there, then left again).

If there's ever a time when I'd be the only one home at the apartment and Anna asks me to babysit for a little while, I change plans and always leave so I'm not there even if it just means doing homework at the campus library instead of my room. Anna is exhausted and literally does nothing around the house anymore, never comes grocery shopping with Mica and I because she refuses to leave the baby home alone but doesn't want to take him to the store, I'm doing all of her dishes cause apparently she can't do that either, she asks us to do her laundry and cook dinner and everything for her now and I feel like we're being treated/put into the role of the baby's father.

I cannot stand children, I don't think Anna has any excuse for trying to make us care for her child, she seems to expect us to take care of him while she's in class and she can barely even afford her own share of rent and groceries and stuff let alone a baby (or hiring childcare), and I made it clear even before the baby was born that I wanted nothing to do with him and will not engage with him or do anything for him, and I think my "it's your fault you had a baby, sucks for you, now deal with the consequences" attitude is what might make me an asshole here but I'm so exhausted and my mental energy is always drained from the damn kid screaming and crying and making a mess of the house.

Mica talked to me privately recently and mentioned that they understand that I don't like children and that they're also upset with the fact that Anna can't take care of a child herself when she's a full time college student without a job and a shitty boyfriend who's barely in the picture, but they want me to try to engage more and have a bit of sympathy for Anna and not leave her completely stranded with an infant. I don't want children, I don't want to live with one, and don't want to have to care for one.

It's now April as of writing this and I have since moved out of the apartment (Anna and Mica still live together), I left in January at the start of spring semester when on-campus dorm housing was available and live with another friend whose roommate transferred the prior semester. I still see Anna around campus but I feel like the baby completely ruined our friendship but I still hang out with Mica a lot and occasionally get updates that way. I'm much happier, my mental health is better, and I'm not living constantly stressed and on edge because of the baby, and Anna still hasn't moved in with her boyfriend despite saying she's trying to for months now.

Was I an asshole for refusing to support my roommate and her baby, and essentially giving the ultimatum of "either the baby goes or I do?"

[doiliedaze]

Apple of my Eye: part one

Butch Farm hand! Abby x Farmer! reader

Warnings: none in this part, however this series will have mentions and discussion of SA so if that makes you uncomfortable please don’t read

Genre: fluff, subtle foreshadowing of angst

A/N: Like I’ve stated in the warning this story will contain mentions and discussions of SA that the reader experienced and how it has effected her life so if that makes you uncomfortable or triggers you please don’t read. I make up my stories bit by bit so as of right now there shouldn’t be any other warnings. Both reader and Abby are southern. I’ve never written someone as butch so please be nice as I want this to reflect a femme4butch relationship (because I desperately want it). I hope you all can enjoy.

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The sun stretches into the room as the curtains lay still. The breeze outside wispy and sharp, pushing summer leaves in its wake. Pumpkin my cat mewls at me as she stretches. Her orange fur soft and short.

“Good morning” I say as I nuzzle into her fur. Pumpkin has been my closet companion since I left Atlanta. We found each other when we both needed it most. She was so small then, scared too. Pumpkin thought the whole world was out to get her and so did I.

Texas was our do-over in more ways than one. This land isn’t new to me and I’m not new to it but owning it is. This property was my grandpas, my pops and now mine. He was over running it and sprung it on me. My momma said, “opportunities don’t knock twice so decide if your door needs to open.” I know it’s mumbo jumbo but she has her point, this all fell in my lap when I needed it who’s to say I’d get a chance at solitude again. Speaking of solitude who’s taking me out of mine?

I haven’t even had a chance to take my bonnet off yet or change into some decent clothes before there was a rapping on my front door. Hurriedly I reach for my pink robe and shot gun. Peeping through the window I got a glimpse of a very tired looking woman.

She’s like nothing I’ve ever seen before. Her hair was long, braided back. The golden locks compliment her pale skin. “Who are you?” I say through the door. “The farm hand your father hired.” The drawl on her voice damn near made me melt and place the gun to the side.

I open the door but don’t take off the chains, “you gonna let me in little missy?”

“Yes sorry!” I take off the chains and fully open the door.

My pops mentioned that he was gonna hire a farm hand till I was more comfortable on the farm by myself but he never mentioned how beautiful she was gonna be!

“Abigail Anderson ma’am, but you can call me Abby.” She says softly like she’s afraid to raise her voice. “Hello Abby…well you know who I am so let’s sort out house rules I supposed.”

House rules:

Always knock

Be mindful of the other

Feed Pumpkin if you see her bowl is empty at 8 am and/or 8 pm

These three rules have kept us at bay for the last three months. I love new people truly just not when I find them attractive, so I haven’t given myself a chance to know her and been quite the cold roommate. Our farm is quite expansive. We home cows, sheeps, goats and horses. However we don’t sell them so we are a dairy farm!

Abby has a liking to the cows. I often catch her feeding them honeydew or reading to them, even falling asleep in the fields. It was one of those days.

I feel my heart thump as I approach her sleeping figure. Her hat tilted over her face, her button nose peeking out. Hair spilling from a loose ponytail. Her shirt open showing off her toned chest and wife pleasure. Boots thrown to the side I assume so she could be more comfortable.

“Hey roomie” she says slow and quiet. “Sorry!” I say realizing I was staring. “Y’know you’ve probably said two words to me and I think both have been sorry.” She chuckles.

“I’m sorry.” I whisper

“What for?” Clearing her throat as she fixes her hat, “do you even know what your sorry for mhm?”

“Sorry for saying sorry.”

The only sound after that was the winding breaking our tension. Until she pat the spot next to her. Nervously I sat down.

“Why don’t you like me? Have I offended you or-”

“Please stop I don’t dislike you and I’m sorry to cut you off but I truly don’t dislike you I’m just nervous. Not just with you I mean with people. Like have you seen me bring a friend up here? Nope! Well I cut mine off but that’s neither here nor there, I feel like I’m sharing too much now so to make sure I answered your question I don’t dislike you, you make me nervous but people make me nervous.” I can feel heat settle into my cheeks and embarrassment weigh on me. I hate when I start to just ramble I probably sound so stupid to her…

Her blue eyes study my dark brown ones before saying “I get anxious too.”

I nod, wanting this moment to end. I meant it when I said I cut my friends off. I couldn’t handle people especially in a bustling city anymore.

“How about we finish our chores and have dinner on the porch and talk?” She said moving her face into my wandering gaze.

“Sorry I mean yes we can…sorry for-” her squeezing my hand was enough to shut me up.

The day seemed to fly by even when we cooked together. We sat on the porch swing, facing the moonlight. For comfort I wrap myself in the fuzzy knitted blanket my grandma made for me when I was a little girl. I wonder if she’s brought anything like that with her?

“Abigail…Abby may I go first?” I clear my voice as I speak and twiddle with my fork. She gives me a silent yes with that damned gaze of hers.

“Where did you live before you lived here?” Her freckled hand slightly tightened around her fork but she kept a calm expression. “Seattle, Washington…it was beautiful especially when it rained. Which was always so I guess it was always beautiful. The rains actually not as bad as everyone thinks. It’s like a constant drizzle.”

I take leisure sips and bites as I listen. Her eyes lighting up as she tells me a bit about what she’d do over especially with her big friend group.

“So how are you adjusting here then? Seattle is different from Texas.”

“I was born here I just moved up there for personal reasons for a while is all.” I nod sensing a weight to what she was trying not to say.

“So why are you taking over the farm? Your father mentioned you use to live in Atlanta most people wouldn’t make that switch.”

I laugh lightly…my dad would gossip about me to a stranger.

“Well my dad was ready to just say fuck it and let the farm get bought out but I couldn’t let that happen. My sister lives in Chicago and she is married with children so she wouldn’t shift her life understandably so. I was ready to change…I always am so I took it. I mean I helped when I was a little girl and it’s been mostly the same!”

I rocked myself a bit faster on the porch swing and she matched my tempo.

“I am not a cat person.” She says trying to break the silence I think I created. “Do you hate Pumpkin?” I gasp causing her to snort a little and shake her head.

“Never been much of a cat person. Use to have dog named Alice.”

“Do you miss her?”

“Everyday…” she says looking at me a little.

I scoot a little closer, “we can get a dog. Not to replace her or anything but I’d like you to be as comfortable as possible so if you want a dog we can get a dog.”

“You don’t think it’ll be too much?” She turns to me, “we are on a farm I think a dog is fitting.” I laugh.

The rest of the night was filled with laughter and conversation I only remembered having. I forgot how nice it was to talk to someone. Abby is a total enigma; she is sweet and inviting but she’s also closed off. I guess we’re similar in that way.

We wrapped ourselves into the blanket until sunrise, me falling asleep first. I could tell she was watching over me. She’s so warm, and smells like cider. Her musk lulling me to sleep almost as quickly as her voice is.

She’s caught my eye and I’ve caught hers let’s see who’ll make the first move.

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A/N: im quite nervous about how you guys will like this one but I hope you guys will like it because it’s near and dead to my heart. I’m tryna write a slow burn and I hope it’s working lol. I want to start a tag list so comment if you want to be on it!! I’m in love the idea of butch Abby so I can’t wait to really write out her character and I am inspired by @bambiesfics so I’ll be making a moodboard for certain fics and I definitely am making one for this one!!

Taglist: @manfuckthisimout

(Dividers- @dollywons)

[mintwithchoco]

[CYMX-461] "My Roommates And I Were Playing Monopoly And Suddenly, One Of Them Lets Me Fuck Her Ass To Pay The Rent! Will My Other Roommate Be Okay With Us Fucking Right In Front Of Her?"

LOOΠΔ/ARTMS/ODD EYE CIRCLE Choerry x LOOΠΔ/ARTMS/ODD EYE CIRCLE Jinsoul x Male Reader

Word Count: 5424 words

Categories: smut, anal, masturbation, oral, more anal, threesome, squirting (?), just pure anal, commission

Commission Details: a big-sized of mint choco ice cream (2k-4k words)

Trigger Warning: mentions of alcohol

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"Come ooooon, oppa! It'll be quick, I promise!" Yerim said while dragging you to the photo booth.

"With this much stuff?" you said while holding up three plastic bags containing food and drinks for dinner tonight. 

"Don't worry about it! Just a few pictures and then we'll be on our way home alright? Please, oppa? Pretty pleeeeease?" Yerim insisted, showing her puppy eyes while holding onto your right arm. 

Goodness, she's so cute!

You sighed. "Last stop, then we're heading home." 

Yerim squealed with delight. You both then entered the photo booth, her hands dragging you along by your arm. Yerim's impatience caught up with you before you could even put the plastic bags down. She quickly inserted some coins into the machine and pressed the shutter button.

"Get ready to take your photo!"

"Woah hold on—" 

"Say cheese!"

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Yerim's heartful laughter resonated across the quiet street. It's been about ten minutes and still, she couldn't stop busting a gut over your face in the pictures you both took earlier at the photo booth.

"Are you done Yerim?" you asked, blatantly annoyed by her playfulness.

The dark brown-haired girl who was holding her belly began to calm down, before bursting out in another series of giggles once again.

"Sorry, sorry, I just can't get over how funny you looked in these photos oppa!" Yerim reminded you of the photos you both took just a little while ago. 

They turned out great in her eyes, but not in yours. Yerim had different expressions and poses, while you looked silly in a few photos due to the sudden rush. One picture that cracks Yerim up was where you were just a blurry thing behind her.

"Well, if someone cared to wait for a little bit, then the pictures would turn out good!" you exclaimed.

"Hehehe, sorry oppa! I just wanted to make it quick. Besides, Jinsol unnie's probably waiting for us at home."

You looked at your wristwatch. "Oof, yeah, it's already ten. Let's hurry then, we don't want the tiger to show its fangs again!" 

Yerim giggled. "That was unnie's fault! She didn't tell me about waking her up for class yesterday! You see, I-"

As Yerim continued defending herself about what happened the morning before, you both eventually arrived at your shared apartment after a few turns. Inside the apartment, Yerim then cheekily hopped on each staircase, leading up to the third floor. You tried catching up to her, but you're not taking the risk of potentially dropping the dinner for tonight — it was all on you as well.

The doorbell rang a couple of times, startling Jinsol who was watching a variety show on the TV. After clumsily falling off the couch because of the shock, Jinsol rushed towards the door to open it.

"Unnie!" Yerim shrieked out like she hadn't seen Jinsol for days.

“Jeez, you're so loud! You were only out for two hours!” 

“And that’s enough for me to miss you!" Yerim instantly hugged Jinsol who had a mix of concerned and disgusted looks on her face.

"Bro, that's cringe," Jinsol answered, but quickly returned the hug.

You went inside the apartment quietly, unnoticed by the two lovebirds. You gave a low sigh after seeing the mess in the living room caused by the woman who was still stuck in Yerim's embrace. Jinsol loves building and playing around with Gundam figurines, but you're not a big fan of how many of the small parts are scattered around the house after she's done with them. Even after you have countlessly stepped onto them and screamed out in pain, you never really complained about it to Jinsol since you knew that she wouldn't listen.

That is the truth of living in this apartment with these two — Choi Yerim and Jung Jinsol. One is an enthusiastic and extremely extroverted girl with no shame, and another one is a quiet, dorky, and yet chaotic girl who was possibly a man in her past life. At the very least, your apartment doesn't feel too quiet with these two hanging around.

After cleaning a bit of Jinsol's work on the table, you put down the plastic bags and got out the four boxes of food, three canned beer, and a box of two strawberry cake slices. 

"Stop getting onto my back, you're heavy!" Jinsol exclaimed. 

Yerim whined, "Ah, you're so mean unnie!" 

Both of them made their way to the living room with Yerim clinging onto Jinsol like glue, hugging her by the waist. Once you opened a box with tteokbokki inside, the smell disseminated into the air, making everyone in the living room drool. Jinsol didn’t waste anymore time as she jumped over the couch and sat down on the floor. Yerim joined in soon after, sitting beside Jinsol and grabbed a drink.

“Sheeeesh, this is a lot!” Jinsol exclaimed. “Can we even finish this? And cakes? Seriously?” 

“What’s wrong with them, unnie?” Yerim asked. “I’ve been craving a cake for days! They’re also perfect for desserts!” 

“Well, you better finish it! The fridge is already full from your yogurts and jellies. Can’t even store that beef tripe that I got from my mom yesterday.” Jinsol complained.

“You could just have a few to make more space, I don't mind! I can buy more!” 

“I could, if the yogurts weren’t coconut flavor-” 

You stopped the argument by letting Jinsol smell the box that you held in front of her face, the smell that she knew all too well — chicken feet. “Will this shut you up?” 

Jinsol gasped and grabbed the box off of your hand. “For me?! You actually got it?!” 

“As a thank you for helping me with my thesis the other day.” 

"Bro, I said it was nothing, really. Thanks anyways!"

As everybody has their own set of meals, the three of you — mainly Yerim and Jinsol, enjoy the late dinner. It doesn't hurt to treat them once in a while, so you feel just as happy as they are. Not to mention, it's been a while too since all of you spent some time together in the house. Balancing work and study is already hard enough, and as cold as you were, you definitely don't want to add social life to the list. 

"Oh yeah, can I borrow your notes from account class oppa? I forgot to jot down a few things." Yerim said in a muffled voice — her mouth was filled with food inside.

"Later, I haven't finished filtering it." 

Jinsol looked confused. "The fuck? You filter your notes?" she asked, emphasizing the word 'filter' with her fingers.

"It means making the notes more readable for me."

"Mhm, that's why I like borrowing his notes! It's soooo much easier to read than Professor Haseul's slides!" Yerim butted in the conversation, her mouth still full with food.

"Wow, dude. I really gotta learn some stuff from you. Can I have a bit of yours?" Jinsol points to your food with her chopsticks.

"Help yourself, noona. I already ate a bit before this." Jinsol already took half of your kimbap before you even finished talking.

"With a certain… professor perhaps?" Yerim teased you and took a sip of her drink, grinning from ear to ear.

"Hey, I thought we were done with that!" you groaned.

"Doesn't help when you're the only male student that has ever been asked out by the hot and gorgeous Ms. Saerom herself!" 

Jinsol was baffled once again with Yerim's statement, clearly showing her boomer attitude. She then asked,  "How come that I don't know about this?"

"What the— you didn't know unnie?! It was hot shit in our class! It's like this…" Yerim then continued to ramble all about the embarrassing incident you had with the aforementioned professor with Jinsol who was weirdly interested. 

Please, just end me now. 

An hour has passed. Your ears were traumatized with Yerim's story and Jinsol laughter. What an eventful dinner, you thought to yourself. The three of you were finishing up on your dinner, mainly Yerim having to finish her cakes. 

"Ooh ooh, do you both have anything to do after this?" Yerim excitedly asked.

You and Jinsol looked at each other before answering, "No, not really. Jinx!"

Yerim's eyes brightened up. "How about we do something together tonight? It's been a while you know!"

"What do you have in mind?" you asked.

Yerim thought to herself for a while, before her ears perked. She then quickly ran to her room. 

"I still can't believe you rejected Ms. Saerom." Jinsol said, giggling quietly right after. You just shook your head in response.

Not long after, Yerim jumped out of her room and hopped towards the living room with a box in hand. "How about a game… of Monopoly?!"

You and Jinsol stared blankly at the box that Yerim held up in the air. 

"I've got notes to filter." you said, and at the same time, Jinsol answered, "I gotta clean the toilet."

"Hey! You guys are no fun!" Yerim pouted, making both of you laugh out loud. "Come on now, both of you! Do you guys wanna play or not?"

You patted on the floor, signaling Yerim to sit down. "Alright alright, let's play. Sorry about that." 

Yerim smiled and sat down beside you. You cleaned up the table, threw away all the food packages and cans while Yerim and Jinsol prepared the board game. Once you got back to the living room, Yerim and Jinsol were already counting the game's money.

"Oppa, which one do you want?" Yerim asked you to choose between the five tokens. With no thought in mind, you just picked one that resembles a hat. Jinsol then gave you the money for the game.

"Let's do rock paper scissors to decide our turn!" Yerim suggested.

"No no no, let's go by age." Jinsol declined Yerim's suggestion, in which she replied back with a head shake.

"Not fair, because you get to go first!" 

"It doesn't change how the game plays!"

"The first player usually has a higher advantage to win!"

"And the first few Monopoly players went by age to play!" 

"So then what? I'm not falling for your tricks again, unnie!" Before Yerim could press Jinsol further, your expression caught her eyes. The "I'm so done" expression on your face said it all — it's the girl's battleground and you have no right to speak. She immediately ended the argument as she doesn't want you to feel left out. "Y-You know what, oppa, you go first."

"Eh? So suddenly?" Yerim nods her head.

"Well, if you say so. I'm still gonna win though!" Jinsol surrendered as well. A bit odd this time since it usually ended up with either one of them winning, but you couldn't care any less. You started off the game as Yerim gave you the two dices, and it marked the starting point to an endless night.

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Yerim was sweating. Not because it was hot, and not because of the beer she drank. It's because of her current situation. Two hours have passed, and her roommate has been on the road to taking the win for the game. Almost all the entire property on the board was owned by him, and it is clearly shown by how much money he has on hand. 

"It's your turn noona." he said after buying a hotel on one of his properties. 

"Man, this sucks." Jinsol whined and rolled the dice. Both of the dice showed a three — she landed on her own property! A silent "Yes!" was heard from her lips before she made her move on the board.

"That won't last for long." he teased Jinsol who just gave a sigh out of relief.

"You mean my luck? The one that won't last that long is your money! Your turn Yerim!" Jinsol fought back and took a sip of her can of beer, her words are as striking as an anime protagonist.

Throughout all of this, Yerim was lost in thought. Two things were running around her mind — her game and her crush. On the board, she was at the worst place, where any move she made was guaranteed to land on his property. Unless she rolls an exact number of 11 on the dice, she would have to pull a Chance Card. Her money was also running out, so if she got unlucky, the only option for her was to declare bankruptcy and lose, or plan B. 

"Yah, what's taking you so long?" Jinsol snapped Yerim out of her trance. She was shaking up the dice inside her hands for almost a minute.

"Oh, sorry! H-Here goes nothing!" Yerim released the dice and it rolled to a number of five— 

Come on, come on, come onnnn! 

—and a four, totalling up for a nine. 

Yerim was stunned. Amidst the laughter from Jinsol, she needed to think and act quickly. Is she about to lose to this board game that gives her no benefit, or take a chance that she'll probably regret in a long time if it goes wrong? 

Fuck it, it's plan B!

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"Come on Yerimie, make your move~" you teased Yerim. Finally, this game is gonna end soon. I really need to sleep.

You noticed that Yerim's eyes were calm and her lips had a bittersweet smile — an expression that you knew very well. You and Jinsol call it the "I accept my fate" look and because of its rarity, you were a bit weirded out by her behavior. Especially that she had a bit of alcohol too. Typically at this point, she would whine about going to lose.

Yerim moved her token while counting down, "One, two, three, four,-" she stopped for a while, and continued, "-five, six, seven, eight, and nine." 

"Well, well, well, looks like it's gonna be between the two of us now, noon—"

"Hold on!" Yerim cuts you off, the loudness of it shocked Jinsol.

"Ow, my goddamn ear— you've lost Yerim! What else can you do?" Jinsol groaned.

"There's… something that I can do." 

"Like what, taking a loan—" Jinsol's eyes widened at the scene unfolding in front of her.

Without any hesitation, Yerim placed a hand on your shoulder, got closer to your face and connected both of your lips together. Jinsol's "Ehh?!'' was useless to Yerim's ear as she deepened the kiss. Meanwhile, you just eased into the kiss, instead of freaking out. Possibly because the beer has seeped into your brain, immobilizing you from denying her sudden action.

"Fuck my ass."

“Wha—“

The simple kiss then elevated to a make out, with Yerim acting as the guide to both of your tongues, twirling against one another. Your consciousness returns after a few seconds, realizing the state that you were in. As Yerim was pulling you in by the waist, sliding her hands under your shirt and feeling your body with her fingers, you begin to resist the fall into temptation— she's your roommate for heaven's sake!

Curse you, alcohol!

Yerim noticed how you were flinching around, obviously denying her actions. Putting a halt to the slightly forced make out, she smirked and whispered softly into your ear, "Don't worry oppa, I'm not drunk. I just wanna pay my rent."

"B-But Yerim, don't you think we should uhh…" Look beside you, and Jinsol was still there, with an annoyi— Wait, she's smiling?

"Don't mind me, just go on ahead." Jinsol said while getting up. "Don't go too rough on my Yerim, you hear me?" You nod slightly in response.

Jinsol then quickly made her way to the toilet, leaving both you and Yerim alone in the living room with your mouths open. 

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Jinsol closed the toilet door behind her and leaned against it. She bit her lips desperately — it has been a while since she'd seen a view so hot, especially when it's her two hot roommates. 

Jinsol once mentioned that she doesn't like both of her roommates in a romantic manner. In fact, she has taken an interest in someone else and made a lot of progress with them. However, when it comes to her sexual desires, no one truly knows how much Jinsol craves to get a good fucking, and she's not really picky about the details.

Fuck, how she just pulled him into it is so hot! Where did Yerim learn how to do that?

Jinsol lets her intrusive thoughts win as her hands slipped under her shorts and underwear, reaching towards her already warm pussy. A gulp down her throat, and she was half naked in an instant. 

This is so wrong. What if they found out that I'm touching myself to them fucking?

Her denial was thrown out of the window as Jinsol's ear caught Yerim's low moans, letting her imagination run wild. It can't be helped that she has seen both her roommates in only their underwear once, so she only has to fill in the missing details. Hesitation was evident in her eyes but as Yerim’s moans become more vocal, it breaks her out of the shell of anxiety.

A quick one wouldn't hurt.

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"I'm paying with my ass, oppa. Fuck my ass until you're satisfied."

Once the toilet door was heard closing, you both wasted no time making out once again. Being the fuel of this fire, Yerim tugged onto your shirt and moved herself to sit on your lap. You didn't back down however, as lust has taken over you, by grabbing her plump ass. The shorts that she's wearing were tantalizing at best. Her milky thighs were wrapped around your waist, evidently driving you nuts with a tent already forming in your pants.

"I've been waiting for this moment, oppa. You don't know how many times I've touched myself to you." Yerim words sent shivers down your spine, and more of it came right after as she pressed her lower body onto yours, letting you feel the warmth of her core. It seemed that Yerim did her research properly beforehand as she got out a small bottle of lube from the pocket of her shorts and placed it aside.

"Holy fuck, Yerim." Your head fell onto Yerim's right shoulder, enjoying the constant dopamine. You guide her hips by her ass, creating delicious frictions on each other's crotch. Whimpers and moans filled the room quickly, body temperatures were rising rapidly, and your undergarments were getting wet.

Yerim bit her lips, and with it came her anticipation. “Mmm, I knew that you were big after all oppa.” 

Your hands did a quick work of taking away Yerim's shorts. Her moans grew louder as you were now free to fondle her bare ass. Your fingers slipped under her thin panties and were met with heat and slick, which further enthralled Yerim. The tip of your middle finger trailed down in between her ass and grazed over her pussy.

"Mmfh, that's it oppa! Touch me more!" 

While Yerim undid your pants and underwear, you rubbed her vagina in circles, making sure she stayed wet and warm. Your cock plopped out, and throbbed with each sway of Yerim's hips. She then squeezed some lube on her hands and spread it all along your length to prepare you. Yerim begged and whimpered for you to put it in her ass as soon as you guided the tip of your cock so she could feel you fully.

“Please oppa, put that big fucking cock inside me! Please please please please ple— Ngh!" Yerim yelped as you smacked her butt hard.

"Shut up."

You rubbed your cock on her dripping pussy for a while, making sure that it was fully lubed up before penetrating the tight hole. Only the tip was inside her, but it gave such an intense reaction that both of your bodies jerked. Your hips lifted itself upwards slowly, and with it came a loud groan and your shaft getting deeper into Yerim.

When you successfully conquered her asshole’s resistance, Yerim wailed, immediately pulling you in for a hug with her face buried into the crook of your neck. Worriness seeped in as you felt a sudden wetness on your neck and Yerim breathing in and out profusely.

"You okay?" 

“Sorry… this is… my first time.” Yerim said in between breaths.

“Why didn’t you tell me sooner? Uhh, okay, I’ll pull out—”

Yerim suddenly sank her hips deeper into you, making you both moan and jerk once again. “Oppa, please… I’m okay. I like it.” She bit her lips again, her body reacting to each throb of you inside her, before reassuring you, “I’m yours for the— mmh! For the night. Treat me however you— fuuuuck~! Treat me however you want, please!” 

Though you were hesitant, your body said the exact opposite as your hips began thrusting upwards. Both of your hands were on Yerim's sinful waist to guide the rhythm of your thrusts. There's too much for you to focus on — Yerim's lustful sounds, the tightness of her asshole, the delicious jiggles of her thighs, the alluring scent of her soothing fragrance, the way her frame perfectly fits with yours — it was all too perfect.

"Oh, fuck, Yerim-ah, Yerim-ah!" 

"Ahhh, oppa! You like my ass oppa? You like fucking this tight little hole?" 

Never have you nodded so quickly to a statement so true. The pressure that has been boiling up inside you was too much for you to handle already. But it looks like your playmate is already close to her peak, given by the mix of extreme pleasure that you're giving her.

Her body began trembling violently, followed by some incoherent curse words from her mouth and the spreading wetness on both of your crotches. Not caring how she is still induced in her orgasm, you pulled Yerim closer to your embrace as you chased your own as well. Enhanced by the feeling of her ample breasts covered by only her shirt on your chest, it was easier said than done.

"Fuck! Fuck! Yerim-ah! Yerim-ah!"

Yerim gained a sense of herself and screamed,"Yes! Yes! Cum inside me! Drain your balls inside this fucking ass oppa!"

The thrusting stopped after a while. One last scream of Yerim's name triggers the first burst of semen inside her. The second one fired deep inside her and it went along with her own orgasm once again. When the third and final shot was done, your cum seeped out of the tight hole, showing you how much you have filled your renter. 

As your cock softened and freed itself, both of your bodies fell to the ground, drained by how intense you were. Together panting heavily and catching your breath, you both giggled after finally waking up to the euphoric high. 

"Sooo, did I pay my rent oppa?" Yerim asked with an endearing smile.

You chuckled, swooning on the inside because of how cute she is, even in a messy state. "Yes, yes you did." 

"Hehe, great! Oh yeah, Jinsol unnie is still in the toil— " Yerim was then interrupted by a loud scream coming from the bathroom. 

You both got up quickly and looked at each other, confused by the sudden noise. Upon closer inspection with your ears, the scream turned itself into a desperate moan.

A devious smirk was painted on Yerim's face. "Oppa, you're thinking what I'm thinking?"

You nodded. Yerim stood up and handed out her hand to help you get up on your foot. Now in front of the door to the toilet, Yerim slowly opened it a little until a view was clear to her eyes.

"Ahh, fuck! Oh my god! I'm 'bout to cum! Ahh!" 

Sitting inside the spacious bathtub was none other than Jinsol — bottomless, moaning away without a care to the world and furiously fingering herself to climax. Her eyes were closed as well, so it gave you and Yerim the advantage to sneak inside without her noticing. The mischievous girl then carefully stepped inside the bathtub and sat on the other end. Simultaneously, you were getting hard again by the sight of Jinsol masturbating and Yerim taking off her clothes.

Yerim began drawing near towards the opposite end, fully naked and ready to surprise her horny unnie. She bit her lips and grabbed onto Jinsol’s hand, “Aww, poor Jinsol unnie, touching herself alone in the washroom.”

Jinsol’s eyes were wide open in an instant. Her face flushed with embarrassment, froze upon seeing Yerim in front of her and you who was casually stroking your cock. “Y-Yerim?! It’s not what it looks lik—”

Yerim shuts Jinsol up with a forceful deep kiss. The forced one was resisting at first, but eventually fell into this trap of temptation laid down by Yerim. As they got up on their knees, Yerim removed Jinsol’s top, revealing her slim yet toned figure. Your excess cum from earlier begins collecting itself on your tip as you witness the two girls desperately touching each other while locking their lips together.

A gulp down your throat and soon enough, you took off your own shirt and left it on the tile floor. Yerim noticed how entranced you were and suddenly thought of an idea to spark things up. “Don’t just stand there, oppa. Join us."

It needed only two steps for you to be right in front of your two roommates, your cock flaunting itself hard and proud, close to Jinsol’s face. After exchanging a few more kisses, Yerim switched her focus towards you by stroking you gently, making Jinsol watch in awe as you throbbed under her touch. She then brought the tip close to Jinsol’s lips, letting your cum stain them. 

“Go on, noona. Seems like he’s begging for you to suck it.” Yerim took the words right out of your mouth. 

Before you know it, Jinsol’s tongue swirled around your shaft, gathering the sweet nectar flowing out of your slit. You threw your head back as she then engulfed your cockhead, sucking on it to taste more. At the same time, Yerim continued her gentle handjob and started to fondle your balls as well, stimulating it once again close to orgasm.

“Deeper, unnie. Yes, that’s it.” Yerim praised and patted Jinsol on the head.

You can feel Jinsol getting further down as her tongue slides against the underside of your cock, until the tip of it reaches your balls. Both of you moan audibly with both desires finally being fulfilled. You summarized that Jinsol definitely had some experience, judging by how steady and rhythmic her blowjob is. Her cheeks then hollowed, giving your cock a powerful vacuum suck.

After a few more bobs, Jinsol took her time to breathe and jerked you off. Yerim also gave some support to Jinsol’s handiwork by spitting some saliva onto your shaft, letting it spread all over. She gave quick licks on your slit and beamed over the taste of you. Meanwhile, on your side, your eyes were just glued to the two working for your pleasure. To this day, you never even foresaw this sight to ever happen in real life. 

Jinsol then spoke out of the blue. “Get inside. I.. I need you.”

So fucking needy.

At last, the bathtub was filled as you positioned yourself behind Jinsol, making sure your shaft was almost in between her thighs. Jinsol moaned into Yerim’s mouth as you fondled her cute tits and tweaked her erect nipples. 

“You’re so cute, noona. Whimper for us more.” you whispered into her ear and planted a few kisses on her shoulders.

Jinsol was pinned by the two of you playing around with her body, diffusing pheromones all over. Her hips squirmed as Yerim picked up where she left off earlier, teasing her wet pussy and you rubbing your tip on her asshole. 

"Put it inside, oppa. Unnie must be dying to feel you." 

With Yerim's guidance, you break Jinsol even more, entering her back door. Thankfully, the lube on your cock hasn't dried up too much, so it wasn't really painful, given by how tight Jinsol was. She was on par with Yerim in terms of tightness, but hers felt more warmer. 

"Ahh! Yerim, he's so big!" Jinsol exclaimed, holding onto Yerim in desperation. She basically melted in Yerim's arms when you began thrusting from tip to hilt, which made Yerim smile. She loved seeing her unnie in full ecstasy as it turned her on a lot. 

"Take it all in unnie. Don't resist." Yerim whispered into Jinsol's ear. She then grabbed the back of Jinsol's head and slowly guided it down her crotch while she laid down on the bathtub. Jinsol knew immediately what to do after seeing Yerim's glistening pussy. 

A few licks in, and Yerim began squirming already. Her sensitivity heightened by the clear sight in front of her — her two older roommates having sex. Jinsol moved on to finger Yerim after having a taste of her core to release her expression being fucked.

"Fuck fuck fuck, harder!" 

You obliged, increasing the pace of your thrusts into Jinsol. Her body wobbles deliciously when your crotch hits hers, signifying how hard you're messing her up. It gets even more intense when you're witnessing the two pretty girls making out and pleasuring one another right in front of you.

The three of you were full of sweat, exhaustion finally seeped into your bodies. A game night that turned into a wild sex night surely wasn't in your agenda, but you were glad now that it was. 

"Ahh, ahh, ahh, fuuuuuck!!!!" 

Jinsol let out a loud scream, her back arched and her legs trembled violently. The oldest one in the room orgasms before the two of you could even reach your own, given by how she's receiving double the pleasure. Her slick leaked out of her empty pussy, staining your crotch and Yerim's midriff. 

Not long after, the knot inside your stomach grew tighter, your balls pressuring itself to release the tension. You then release yourself from Jinsol's confines and stroke yourself into your climax. A loud groan left your mouth, and alongside it came spurts after spurts of your semen. Two shots landed onto Jinsol's ass, while the last three covered Yerim's vagina.

Yerim was the only one who had yet to reach her own peak. As the first person who noticed it, you grab onto Yerim's waist and plunge yourself deep into her slit while your cock is still hard. Under Jinsol's body who was calming down after her high, Yerim replied to your action with a deafening scream and continued to do so as you thrust deep into her womb. 

"Fuuuuuuuck oppa! I'm cumming! I'm fucking cumming!"

The first thrust. Yerim's body shook violently. The second thrust. Her legs gave out. The final thrust. Yerim's eyes rolled back. The plugged hole was leaking out with Yerim's juices and eventually, squirting so hard that it pushed your cock out by itself. A series of pleasure cries left Yerim's lips, not caring how she's deafening Jinsol who was still on top of her. 

You laid your back on the other side of the bathtub, gasping for air due to the lack of breath. Tonight's events were exhausting to the body, yet pleasuring at the same time. You then got out of the bathtub slowly and sat on the tile floor, close to the two girls who were basically cuddling each other, not caring how sweaty they were.

"You both okay?" you asked. Jinsol then gets off of Yerim and rests her arms by the edge of the bathtub, facing towards you. Putting her hand on your shoulder, she replied with a thumbs up. 

"I'm fucking drained bro. Thanks for that." Jinsol said, and both of you giggled.

"T-Thanks oppa. It was amazing." Yerim said weakly. 

"Can you get up?" you asked Yerim. Meanwhile, Jinsol was already out of the bathtub and finding her pile of clothes. 

"No. I just wanna.. lay down here… just for a while…"

"Alright. I'll be here until you're okay."

"Okay, thanks oppa…" Yerim then drifts off to sleep almost instantly.

Both you and Jinsol smiled, looking at how cute Yerim was sleeping in the bathtub. Jinsol then left the toilet to sleep in her own room after wearing her clothes and wishing you a good night. You can't stand looking at poor Yerim sleeping uncomfortably inside the cold bathtub, so you carried her all the way to her own room and let her rest on her bed. After covering her with a blanket, you left the room silently.

"Nighty night, Yerim."

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note; thank you so much for the commission fellow anon! i spent waaaaay too long on this (seriously, it took almost a whole goddamn year 💀💀) so again, i would like to apologize for that. and because of that, i decided to make the fic a little longer than what they have requested as a lil bonus for the wait. oh, i also hopped onto the jav title trend with this but honestly, i think i failed LMAO

it was a rough process due to my hectic schedule, but i'm glad that i made it through. after all, this is my first commission so i'm still learning as i go through. i just really hope that you're satisfied with the end product as i have poured a lot of time and effort into writing this to make it worth your money. :)

talking about commissions, i will be opening them again soon once i'm ready so be sure to be on the lookout! as always, big thanks to my bros Byakko and @sinswithpleasure for the beta read help!

thank you for reading and have a good nu- i mean day! ♥

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ep 7 is petplay :)

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some fun facts about Bitter Cacao Cookie (Aka, Fallen-hero!Dark Cacao Cookie)

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Providing you both some more of the goods

His outfit is a reference to Our Lady of Sorrow, a catholic devotion and popular religious theme (Kinda fitting since Bitter Cacao is the beast of sorrow)

He has never actually done anything to harm his kingdom directly, but rather chooses to do so indirectly in order to not draw attention to himself (And yes, this has failed), one these methods of attacking his kingdom includes sending out vines covered with purple flowers that, if you made the mistake of smelling them, you too would feel an endless need to mourn

See that crescent-shaped beauty mark on Bitter Cacao's cheek? This is actually based off a headcanon I have that he had been connected to Moonlight Cookie back when he was known as Dark Cacao Cookie (And yes, Moonlight Cookie is aware of what happened to Dark Cacao, and even to this day, she is hellbent on bringing him out of his anguish-induced stupor)

His senses are sharper than usual (His hearing in particular to be more specific), so even a sudden loud noise is enough to trigger a crying jab in the king

His sense of self-care? Besides showering, his sense of self care is basically non-existent

BONUS: The statuses of the other dark cacaoians (And those who are aware of the situation)

Snowberry Cookie (Oc of mine): Yes, she still loves him, even after he made (multiple) attempts to plunge the kingdom into a literal version of the Great Depression. She tries to find normalcy in her and her husband's usual routine, even if it does mean having to be given stares of concern from the kingdom's citizens. She’s also the one who always reminds Bitter Cacao to take care of himself since he tends to forget about his own health psychically and mentally even before he became a beast

Licorice Cookie (I’m just gonna assume he lives there): Keeps an eye on the kingdom's walls (Along with calming the Licorice Monsters down if they start getting too restless as Bitter Cacao is incredibly sensitive to loud noises). Keep in mind that he’s doing this mostly out of pity for the king, as well as the fact that he had left the Cookies of Darkness alongside Affagato after hearing about the status of the kingdom (Spoiler alert: It’s not good, AT ALL)

Affagato Cookie: As per mentioned, he too had left the cookies of darkness to return to the Dark Cacao Kingdom because again, kingdom wasn’t exactly in good spirits. He’s not liked AT ALL by the other citizens, given how he had attempted to take over the kingdom, as well as nearly screwing the Creme republic over. He does at least manage to keep in contact with Cream Unicorn Cookie, so at least he’s not totally alone. He also tries to help out the kingdom by attempting to cheer the king up, and though his attempts rarely succeed, when they do, he swears that he can see the tiniest smile appear on Bitter Cacao's face

Milk Cookie (His tribe lives near the Dark Cacao kingdom territory, so it technically counts): He tries to be optimistic, but with the fact that Bitter Cacao had plunged the entire Dark Cacao Kingdom into a literal Great Depression, alongside the so-called "disappearance" of Dark Choco Cookie, he's not exactly in good spirits, though he wouldn’t ever admit so

Espresso Cookie (They’re an ancestor to the coffee tribe, so again, it counts): She had initially trekked to the dark cacao kingdom to see their ancestors (Aka, the coffee tribe), but decided to stay in the kingdom in order to find a way to bring Bitter Cacao out of his anguish-induced stupor. They stay with Affagato cookie (They’re basically roommates)

Also, if anyone asks, I hc that Espresso is a transwoman who uses she/they

Cocoa Cookie (She’s technically a cacaoian): She actually wasn’t aware about what was going on until a relative who lived in the kingdom gave her the news, and to put it mildly, she’s a nervous wreck about the ordeal

Mint Choco Cookie: He tries not to let the stress of the situation in his home kingdom get the better of him, but that’s easier said than done

Caramel Arrow Cookie: She's often quoted as the mom of the royal family, as she, alongside Snowberry Cookid, are often the ones who constantly pesters Bitter Cacao to take care of himself, with C. Arrow even resorting to dragging him to bed or the dinner table if she has to

Crunchy Chip Cookie: …he doesn’t like to talk about it

Stormbringer Cookie: She honestly didn’t even know about the situation in the dark cacao kingdom at first until she smelled one of the sorrow flowers by accident and wouldn’t stop crying for DAYS. She often tries to help the kingdom by giving travelers a stern warning about the sorrow flowers, as well as often trying to cheer up Bitter Cacao anytime he visits the Chococake tower by offering him Cotten candy clouds

Dark Choco Cookie: ………lets just say you don’t want to know

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Dear Diary, - Kim Seungmin Fanfic - Chapter 3

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Chapter 3

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25th of September Dear Diary, Sorry for not writing anything in the past 5 days, but it’s been chaotic to say the least. I got to meet my roommate, Yuna. She is… a lot. Like, seriously. She can be a lot, but even if I don’t know much about her, she seems like a really sweet girl deep down. She’s really keen on being my friend, too, and she wants us to go out everyday and grab coffee, ice cream or food, which kinda made a dent through my savings, haha. SUFFERING When I told my mom, though, she was really happy that I made a good friend so quickly, and she even sent me more to spend, which made me feel really bad. I know how hard they’re working to keep me in this big city, and my dad’s getting old – it’s not like they can keep working all day everyday in the bakery forever – so I was thinking of getting a job. Maybe something part-time, since I’m still not sure what my schedule will look like. We only get it next week. Ugh. But whatever, before boring you with details about my potential future plans, there’s something more exciting going on. I’m going to a party today! Yes, you heard that right. I. I!!! I also can’t believe it, but Yuna has friends everywhere and why not? I mean, it sounds fun, and I’m gonna meet some of my future classmates. It’s a win-win situation. And please don’t tell me about how I can’t hold my alcohol. I’ll just stick to Yuna, and I’ll be fine! And I promise I won’t drink at all. Well… we both know that’s a lie. But I’ll just have a liiiitlle sip. Promise! I have to go get ready now, Yuna wants to do my make-up so we’re starting to get ready 5 hours early. Byee~ Love, Phoebe.

“Oh my God, Bibi, you’re so gorgeous! Ughhhhhh, I’d ask you to be my date if I didn’t have one already!” Yuna squirms, squeezing my cheeks together.

“It’s all thanks to your efforts, Yuyu. Look how pretty this eyeshadow looks.”

“Lilac just suits you like a glove.”

“Thanks for the clothes. I certainly don’t have anything as beautiful.” I chuckle.

“Well, we need to do some shopping then.”

“Yeah, let me find a part-time job first and we’ll see.”

A knock at the door interrupts our conversation, and Yuna rushes to open it, a large smile adorning her face.

Her outfit is also gorgeous, she wears a short leather skirt and a white top, and multiple bracelets and rings, just as when I’ve first met her. Her black hair is styled beautifully, and as soon as she opens the door, I understand her choice of clothes, because her boyfriend is wearing the same colours. They look like a match made in heaven.

“Hello, my princess. You’re so beautiful!” Jeongin smiles and kisses Yuna affectionately, and the way he looks at her makes my heart beat faster. He has the same tender eyes as my dad, whenever he’s looking at my mother, even after 25 years of marriage.

“Aww, you guys are so cute!” I exclaim and watch them with a genuine smile. They really are.

“Thank you!” Yuna rushes back towards me and grabs my hand, dragging me out of the room.

“You look pretty too, Bibi.” Jeongin compliments, and I nod with a smile.

“Where’s Minmin, by the way?” Yuna asks.

“Oh, Seungmin? He had something to do, so he said he might drop by later in the evening if he’s in the mood.” Jeongin shrugs.

“His loss.” Yuna shrugs. “Anyway, let’s go!”

~

The frat house is full to the brim by the time we get there, the music is so loud, it’s deafening and there’s alcohol and people dancing everywhere.

It’s not too hard to get in the mood to party when people hand you drinks left and right, and especially when you are with Yuna, who is, apparently, a party monster.

She drinks a lot and drags me to the dance floor while Jeongin greets some people around, and I wonder how they both know so many students if they are also freshmen.

We both dance for a while and my feet grow tired, but I have to keep up with Yuna. I know I’m done for when she takes me to the kitchen and pours a couple of tequila shots, handing me a lemon slice and pouring salt on the back of my hand.

“You know what to do, right?” She asks with a mischievous grin, and I grin right back.

“Of course. Let’s!”

“3, 2, 1…” and we both throw the glasses back. I make sure to quickly swallow the strong liquid, and I involuntarily shiver as I feel it burn down my throat. I immediately eat the salt and the lemon, and the combo is good enough to convince me to take two more shots.

We go back to the dance ring and Yuna strategically places her hands on my hips to make sure no stranger dares to approach us, but she is quick to let go once Jeongin comes over and kisses her passionately.

She grins against his lips and wraps her arms around his neck, and someone else approaches us, a man with dark hair, a bit shorter and on the muscly side.

“Hey!” He shouts in my ear, but even so, he’s hard to hear with how loud the music it. “I’m Changbin!”

“Hi Changbin!” I shout back. “Phoebe!”

“Cute name!”

“Thanks!” I give him a thumbs up.

“Wanna dance?” He shouts again, and I look back at Yuna and Jeongin, who are now grinding against each other, in their own world. I know it’s pointless to keep waiting for her to come back, as she seems long gone in her boyfriend’s arms.

“Sure!” I nod and let Changbin take my hands in his, and he twirls me around a few times.

I like that he’s respectful. His hands mostly stay on mine; they sometimes wonder on my waist and on the small of my back, pulling me closer, but he makes no attempt to touch me inappropriately or take things any further.

After dancing with Changbin for a little while longer, I start feeling my head get heavy, and the room starts spinning.

“Ugh, I think I have to sit down for a moment.” I say, and he nods sympathetically and guides me to a sofa in the living room, asking some people to move over.

“You okay? Do you want me to bring you something to drink?”

“Uhm, water?” I try to think of what might be good when you’re getting drunk, and I curse myself a little for drinking literally no water after the two beer glasses and 3 shots I downed with Yuna earlier.

I knew my tolerance was shit from previous experiences, so this is simply irresponsible.

“Sure, wait here!”

I nod and roll my head back on the sofa, closing my eyes. Everything is spinning and I start feeling sick but try not to focus on the nausea. It always sucks when you’re done riding your high.

The music is too loud.

Ugh…

“Hey.” Someone plops down next to me, and I open my eyes and am glad to notice a familiar face. “Has Yuna abandoned you?”

“Mhm, I think she disappeared with Jeongin upstairs.” I close my eyes back, as keeping them open makes my head spin even more.

Seungmin touches my arm tenderly, as if to show me that he’s still there.

“You okay?”

“Never been better.” I grin, then start chuckling like an idiot, and I let my head fall to the side to his shoulder, instead of resting it against the sofa. “I’m joking, I’m sick as fuck.”

“Did you try throwing up?”

“Ugh…”

“Might help.”

“Here, water.” Another voice that I hardly recognise as Changbin’s says over the music.

“Thanks, Bin.” Seungmin probably grabs the glass, as I feel it pressed to my lips a moment later.

“You two know each other?”

“Yeah, she’s Yuna’s roommate.”

“Oh, so you live in the same dorm. Are you taking care of her then?”

“Sure, go have fun, Bin.”

“Phoebe, it was nice meeting you, feel better and let’s go on a date when you’re sober!” Changbin shouts again, and I start chuckling the moment the glass leaves my mouth.

“Do you wanna go home?” Seungmin asks.

“I do, but… shit, I can’t walk anywhere.” I say, then start laughing again.

Drunk me is simply unbelievable.

“No worries.” Seungmin chuckles as well, and I open my eyes briefly to look at him.

He’s really handsome, and his smile is beautiful.

“You should smile more often.” I say, closing my eyes.

“Yeah? Why?” He asks right in my ear, and I feel him moving my right hand over his shoulder. A few seconds later, my body is lifted off the sofa.

“You’re pretty when you smile, Minmin.” I chuckle and hear Seungmin tut.

“Don’t call me that. It sucks.”

“It’s a cute nickname.”

“Eh, I prefer Min.”

“Okay, Minnie.”

“You’re so drunk, Bee.”

“You think?” I laugh again and rest my head on his shoulder comfortably as the loud music suddenly becomes distant. My heart swells at the nickname, as it’s the same one used by my father, and I feel my eyes get teary. I miss home already.

“No, I’m sure. You seemed more reserved when we first met each other last week.”

Out of nowhere, I start bawling.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” Seungmin stops walking and looks at me concerned.

“I miss my family so bad! And now I’m ruining the make-up Yuna did for me, and I’ll be ugly!” I whine, crying louder.

“Oh, God.” Seungmin laughs. “How much did you drink, Bee?”

“Just a few shots, but I have 0 tolerance! Whyyyyyy, Minnie?!”

“You’re funny.” He continues laughing. “But you’re not allowed to drink again.”

“Maybe I need supervision.”

“Oh, surely.”

“Aren’t you tired?”

“Nope.”

“But I’m pretty heavy.”

“You’re not heavier than Changbin, and I always carry him around.”

“Do you know each other well?”

“Yeah, we’re childhood friends. He’s a second year. Oh, and just friendly advice – he is dating material, but he’s a gym rat. If you’re not as passionate as him, it’d be hard to keep up.”

“Oh, no. I hate going to the gym.” I whisper to myself.

“Me too. But I like sports. Baseball is my favourite.”

“I like writing nonsense in my diary.”

“Me too.” Seungmin chuckles.

“Really? Do you have one?”

“Yeah, I try to write every day.”

“Me too, but I’m failing miserably.” I reply, defeated.

“Okay, Phoebe. Seems like we’re here.” He says, and I open my eyes and see that we’re in front of my door, room 143. The walk back seemed way shorter than when Yuna and I left a couple hours ago.

“The keys are at Yuna.”

“No.”

“Yes.”

“Gosh, why are you so irresponsible?”

“I don’t knowwwww.” I whine again, and Seungmin shakes his head.

“I should just drop your ass here in front of the door until tomorrow morning when Yuna decides to come back.”

“You would never.”

“Oh, yeah?” Seungmin tilts his head and throws me in the air, and it’s scary enough that I hang onto his shoulders with all my might.

“Noooo, don’t be mean to me!”

“What should I do with you?” He sighs, then starts walking towards the staircase.

“I don’t knowwwwwwwww.”

“Be quiet, people are sleeping.”

“Who? Everyone is at that party. Speaking of, why were you late?”

“Oh, I had to help my dad out with something, so I went back home.”

“Do you live far away?”

“No, my family lives here too, a 30-40 minutes drive away.”

“Lucky you. Mine lives like 6 hours away.”

“Please don’t start crying again.”

“Mm…” I muffle my sounds to the best of my abilities, but it’s hard to not start bawling at the thought of my family that’s so far away.

“Sheesh.”

“Sorry.”

“Nah, you’re fine. Hey, do you think you can stand? I need to search for my own keys.”

“Of couuuurseee. Or at least I can try.”

“Okay.” He chuckles, and as soon as my feet touch the floor, I lose my balance and fall right back onto him.

“I’m so sorry!” I say, trying to straighten myself. “This is so embarrassing.”

“Yeah, it is.” He laughs again. “Drink less.”

“Fine, dad. I will. God! What’s taking you so long to open the door? Give me that!” I grab the keys from his hands, and he watches amused how I struggle to find the keylock.

This is very annoying.

“Ugh… Oh! Finally! See? I’m a pro.”

“Well done, pro, now go lay down on the bed and sleep.” He pushes me inside, but I turn around and start pushing back.

“I need to pee.”

“Okay, I’ll come with you.”

“Ew, gross.”

“Don’t say that like it brings me any pleasure, idiot. But with how drunk you are, there’s no way you’d find the bathroom, and you can’t even walk straight.”

“Yes, I can!” I shove past him and manage to hit my shoulder against the doorframe, and I immediately start whining about it.

“See? Point proven.”

“But I don’t want you to hear me pee!” I whine again and he lets out a sigh.

“I don’t want that either, Phoebe. But what choice do I have? What if you pass out? God, you’re such a kid!”

“No, you’re a kid!”

“No way, I am-”

“Shut up, let’s go, I really need to peeeeeeee!” I cut him off, urgency clearly audible in my tone.

Seungmin grabs my wrist and starts dragging me towards the bathroom in the hall, and thankfully he decides to wait outside in the hall instead of coming into the bathroom.

At least that.

By the time we’re back in the room, I feel like annoying him a bit more, and we end up laughing about nothing for God knows how many minutes before I start feeling sick again and eventually follow Seungmin’s advice of drinking a lot of water and then lying in bed.

“So, when do you think Yuna will come back?” I ask, closing my eyes, trying to get rid of the nausea.

“Hopefully tomorrow, so I’m not stuck here with you for 2 whole days.”

“Damn.” I start chuckling. “Which one’s your bed, by the way?”

“The one you’re in right now.”

“Oh, Jeongin wanted to top bunk?”

“Yeah.” He starts chuckling. “He didn’t know when else he’s gonna have the chance to sleep in a bunk bed, so he wanted to take advantage of it to the fullest.”

“Well, he has at least 3 years, doesn’t he?”

“Depends. If Yuna gets bored of room sharing next week, they’d move out next week.”

“Really?” I gasp. “Must be nice.”

“Mhm.”

“What about you?”

“What about me?”

“Like… this makes me sound a bit materialistic, but,” I chuckle, “you three seem like you could afford renting an apartment or something, so why the dorms?”

“Jeongin really didn’t want to share with someone he didn’t know, so he convinced me, although I regret this decision more and more every day.” He replies, squinting his eyes at me and making me stick out my tongue at him.

“Aw, so you’re not that mean after all. Not when it comes to Jeongin.” I reply, and he flicks my forehead. “Ouch! What was that for?”

“Punishment for occupying my bed.”

“What the fuck!” I exclaim, rubbing the sore spot on my forehead. “I can move in the top one if you want!”

“No, you’ll fall while climbing the stairs and break something and it would be my fault.”

Annoyed, I decide to stand up and flick his forehead back, but he easily overpowers me by grabbing my wrists and pushing me back on the bed.

“Not so fast!” I exclaim, grabbing onto him again and managing to make him fall on the bed as well. The bed is way too small for the both of us, so he somehow ends up on top of me while I’m doing my best to cause as much damage as possible, and after struggling for a few more seconds, I finally manage to flick his forehead back.

The happiness is short lived when he starts tickling me, and both of us start laughing uncontrollably as I try to shove him off me.

When I manage to squeeze from under him, I want to sit up, but, unaware of how little the space between the bottom and the top beds is, I hit my head against the top bed – or so I thought, but the bed’s metal frame is suspiciously tender.

“Hey, be careful.”

“Hm?” I turn my head and see why the impact didn’t hurt.

He used his hand to shield my head from hitting the bed’s frame, and in the process, his hand got squished against the metal.

“Oh, I’m really sorry, Seungmin. Does it hurt badly?” I frown, instantly grabbing his hand and examining it for any injuries.

“No. It’s all right. Don’t worry.” He smiles, taking his hand away from my grasp. “Are you feeling any better?”

“Yeah, I no longer feel as dizzy. Thanks.”

“Great. Let’s try to get some sleep.” He sits up and turns off the light, climbing into the top bunk.

I lay down and close my eyes, thinking over this evening, and an involuntary smile creeps onto my face. I hope that University will be just as fun.

~

Chapter 2 | Chapter 4

[caffeinatedopossum]

I need some advice- if you've been on my blog the past week, you've probably seen some stuff about me and my girlfriends. I'm gonna kind of word vomit about it because it's still not properly sorted out into a cohesive narrative in my head so please bare with me

After typing some of it out, I decided to make it into 2 parts. Idk I understand if none of you want to take the time to read something this long though.

Also tw, mentions of SA

On February 14th, one of my girlfriends and I were hanging out over call- I had two because my first girlfriend and I were trying polyamory. I'm gonna call the first girlfriend mimi- and I've been dating her for over 2 years now. The other I'm gonna call fish- mimi and I had been dating her for only a few months but I'd known her quite a while and we were very good friends.

Fish lived with their parents still, in what seemed like a very abusive and unhealthy environment, so mimi and I were arranging for them to come live with us. They had come to visit us in late November-early December and a few days into their visit was when we started officially dating them.

Skip forward to February 14th and fish suddenly starts telling me horrible things about mimi- that she's been using me, manipulating me. That she was doing the same things to fish and that she SA'd them while they were here. I started having a horrible panic attack- like heart pounding so hard you could easily see it through my shirt like a cartoon character. I thought I was going to die. Fish guided me through what I should do, though at this point I couldn't talk because I was too shaken, so they were talking and I was typing.

I ended up leaving my house, in the middle of the night, in the cold, by myself, with a few essential belongings. I went to a nearby gas station and hid in the bathroom, hoping to get one of my roommates to meet me there and idk, get me a hotel or something, at least for the night. I could tell I wasn't thinking clearly and I needed some space away from both fish and mimi for a bit- but that didn't end up happening.

Mimi came to find me at the gas station and I was terrified- I thought she would hurt me. Fish didn't lead me to believe mimi would hurt me (at least not directly) but you have to understand the situation triggered my ptsd, in which I was in this situation in the past and the other person very much would have hurt me. Me and mimi eventually went on a very long and talked about things.

She told me that her and fish had slept together while they were here and apologized and said she felt ashamed of it- I'm a sex repulsed asexual and had asked sex stay out of our relationship. That may seem like a weird boundary to have but they both agreed to this boundary of mine with no problem- and then broke it. Mimi also told me they slept together the first night fish was over at our house, before we had even started dating. We'd talked about it lots but we still hadn't made any decisive moves or invitations at that point.

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

Jenna And we got a lot of mail about it, Angela. We had a fan question from Saundra C in Georgia and many others who said, In this episode, we see a life size cutout of Chuck, played by Zachary Levi, displaying his love of the Pyramid phone. This is not addressed in the episode and is never explained. Was Zachary Levi in on this? Did he have to give permission? Well, first of all, just for anyone who doesn't know, Chuck was a very popular television show running during this time. It was created by Josh Schwartz. 

Angela It was also on NBC. 

Jenna It was. The plot was, Computer geek Chuck Bartowski opens an email that has been encoded subliminally with vital government secrets, triggering a massive download of critical information into his brain, prompting both the CIA and NSA to assign an agent to protect him so that no one can exploit this downloaded information in his brain. 

Angela Yeah, like his old college roommate emailed it to him and somehow he got all this information in his brain. 

Jenna Kind of a la The Matrix.  

Angela Kind of. 

Jenna Without the spigot thing, you know, without going without the poky thing that goes in the back of his- you have to plug in.

Angela Oh, yeah, yeah. Not plugged in. Yeah.

Jenna Right. To download it. This was a wireless download. 

Angela Yeah. 

Jenna Well, when this episode aired, the series finale of Chuck had just aired. It was a big event. 

Angela The whole series? 

Jenna The whole series had just ended. 

Angela Oh. 

Jenna But in order to get and use this cut out of Zachary Levi, Steve Burgess said we had to ask Warner Brothers because they own the character of Chuck. And they said yes, but we had to pay them in order to use their character. And then we contacted Zachary Levi to see if we could take some photos of him for our cut out, but he wasn't available. So Warner Brothers let us use like a publicity photo that they had for the TV show. And Warner Brothers said that their only stipulation was that we had to give them credit and we could not use Chuck in any derogatory way, which we did not. 

Angela We did not. There was an extended scene when everyone is arriving for the day to come work in the new Sabre store. 

Jenna Mm hmm. 

Angela Each Dunder-Mifflin Sabre employee walks past the Chuck poster, and they all do, like, you know, the two fingers where you kiss the two fingers, and then you pat it on something. 

Jenna Like a good luck thing? 

Angela Yeah. They all go (KISS NOISE) and they, like, kind of pat his forehead. Everyone does it except Erin, who hugs him, and Stanley just walks by him indifferently. 

Jenna Brent shared that Mindy was very fond of this cardboard cutout. 

Angela She was. I remember it. 

Jenna Yes. Because after the episode was over, do you remember she put it in her office? 

Angela Yeah. In the corner. 

Jenna Yes. And she would hang things on it, like she'd put her hat on it or a hoodie. 

Angela Her coat. Yeah. 

Jenna Yeah. So you could go in there and it would be sort of like a dress up cut out. 

Angela Yeah. And if her door was open, if you were walking down the hallway, you always saw it. It's really funny. 

Jenna Yes! And sometimes you'd forget and think a person was in there. Or that Zachary Levi was in there.

[yourimagines]

Project Partner

* Engine is not my first language I apologise

* Triggers: Sad, Fluff

Y/N POV

I was walking through the hallways of school, trying to get to the next class. "Hey Y/n!" Josh waved at me with a big goofy smile on his face as he saw me passing him by. I gave him a quick wave and walked quickly further to my class. "Not today josh..."

The bell rang and I arrived just on time in class. "Just on time miss Y/L/N." The teacher said as he was about to close the door behind me. "Hey, watch out!" Drake pushed the door open again and walked in. "You on the other hand mr Parker, you are too late." He shook his head and smiled. "No I'm not to late, I was here the whole time, just ask her." He pointed at me. "Is that so, miss Y/L/N?" They both looked at me and I just nodded. "Yeah he was here the whole time sir." He hummed and looked back at Drake. "You're luckly that they like you mr Parker." With that he went to his desk. I looked at Drake who gave me a pat on my shoulder as he past by. "Thanks Y/L/N."

"Everyone listen up, I want you to choose a partner for this new project, It's going to be about your hobbies and inspirations. So choose someone who has the same interests as yourself." Everyone started to move around, to their best friend. I sighed and looked around who hasn’t had a partner yet. I saw Drake sitting alone at his desk, his head in his hands. 'Great...' I walked over to him and threw my bagpack on the table next to him. He looked up and groans. "Great...."

Drake POV

I came home from a dreadful day at school and jumped into my bed. "What’s up with you, no hello Josh." I groaned and throw a pillow to him. "Hey! no pillow throwing, remember what happend the last time." He said and made a hand movement in the air. "But tell me brother, what’s going on." I turned around to look at him and sighed deeply. "I have a project with Y/L/N." His face lit up as I said her name. "Y/N Y/L/N?" I nodded and stood up, strechting my back. "Yep, worst day ever." I jumped down and sat down on the couch, grabbing a game controller. "Why?" I rolled my eyes at him and started a game. "She's not very populair Josh, people talk very fast in school and I don't want to lose my reputation." He laughed at me and I turned around to face him. "what's so funny?" He shrugged and went further with his homework. "Nothing, just wait when you find out who she really is." I snorted and turned back to the tv. "Yeah right, what in the world would make me want to hang out with her.”

——— few days later———

I invited her over to my place as I didn’t want to be seen with her out in public because people talk. “We can do our project in here.” I said to her as she followed me into my shared bedroom. Josh was lying on his stomach in bed, making his homework. “Hi Y/N.” He waved at her and she waved back at him. “Hi Josh.” She plops down on the couch and took out her notebook. I gave Josh an obvious look and grabbed my guitar. “Okay so I was thinking that you make the project and I will play some music for us.” She shrugs and starts to write in her notebook. ‘Okay that was easy.’

Y/n POV

Drake was playing some good tunes on his guitar as I was trying to figure out what we should do for our project. I groaned and rubbed my eyes. “Are you okay?” Josh asks as he took a seat next to me, grabbing the game controller. “I don’t know what to do for our project and your brother is not the best partner to have.” Josh looks at his brother and nods. “Tell me about it, he’s my roommate.” I shook my head and closed my notebook. “I’m done, I’m going home.” I grabbed my bag and stood up.

“Woah, you’re already done with our project?” Drake asks surprised. “No, I’m not even started yet.” He looks at Josh and raises his eyebrows. “Wait and see huh?” He says sarcastically to his brother. “You think you can do better than me?” I crossed my arms and raised my eyebrows. “Of course I can, simple as it gets, we make a video clip for my band.” I laughed and shook my head. “No we are not, drake the project is to make something you like to do, I don’t think I like to watch you playing with your band.” He threw his hands up. “You probably don’t even like music at all.” He groans out. “Well you’re wrong, I do like music.” He rolled his eyes at me. “Yeah right.” I nodded and walked to his drum set. “Can I?” He shrugged and I sat down, I grabbed the drum sticks and started to drum.

Drake POV

I was surprised that she knew how to play. “I told you.” Josh said to me as I was looking at her, something changed my mind about her but I still didn’t really wanted to know her. “Well everyone can play some drums.” I said as she stopped and looked at me. “I thought it was pretty good.” Josh said and I shook my head at him. “You think everyone is pretty good.” She stood up and brushed her hands against her jeans. “Okay, you win. Music video it is.” She looked a bit upset and quickly grabbed her bag and left. “See what you just done?” I nodded. “Yeah, I’ve got a new music video for my band.” He hit my forehead with his hand and shook his head. “No….you made her upset. Idiot.” I nodded slowly but shrugged my shoulders afterwards. “Yeah….well sucks for her.” I sat down and grabbed the controller. “Come let’s play some games together.” Josh didn’t answerd back and I looked around the room, to find out he also left me alone. “Oh…okay.” I shrugged and played my game.

——— school day ———

I went to class and saw she was already sitting down by my desk. A few books on the desk and a camera. “Hello Y/L/N.” I sat down and smiled at her. “Hey.” She says without looking at me. “Okay, not in the mood I see.” She didn’t say anything, just her head in the books. “What is this even?” I pointed at the books. “Well since you want a music video for your band and I don’t know anything about making a music video, so I’m studying for it.” I hummed and picked one of the books up, looking through it if it had some pictures in it. “Cool, so you don’t need my help?” She looked up and sighed. “I do need some help, who said i didn’t?” I smiled and pointed at myself. “Me?” She rolled her eyes and went back to her books. “Never mind, you are just like what they say about you.”

Y/N POV

“Like what?” He asks as he moves a bit closer to me. “That you only care about yourself.” “That’s not true,I care about others….like Josh, I care about him.” I turned my head to look at him. “Only when you need him to have your back.” He huffed and sat back in his seat again. “That’s not true and besides I care about this project.” I raised my eyebrows at him and he grabbed a book. “I show you I care.” “Sure..” I shook my head and went back what I was reading about. ‘He doesn’t care, so don’t start to like him now, he only will break your heart.’

Drake and I went to his place after school, to shoot the first part of the music video. "Do you already know which song your going to play?" I asked as I follwed him to the garage. "Yeahh...I just wrote it last night." I nodded at him and greeted his bandmates as they were already waiting for him. "Hey Drake, who's this?" He smiled and grabbed his guitar. "Y/L/N, my project partner." They nodded and smiled at me. "Cool....Let's make that video then."

Drake POV

She was doing a great job with the camera but something wasn't feeling right to me. "I think we have it." She turned the camera off and lay it on the table. "Yeah..." I rubbed the back of my neck and smiled at her. "I will finish this one up and I make sure we have our project done by friday." She looked surprised and giggled. "Are you sure? You can't forget about it." I nodded and grabbed the camera. "I'm sure, trust me." She slowly nods and grabs her bag. "Okay, don't make me regrets this Parker." "I promise you won't regrets this."

——— Friday ———

She's going to lose her mind, I forgot about the music video and now I’m losing my mind. "You're an idiot!" Josh yells as I just told him why I was losing my mind. "She's going to hate you...How can you forget about this." I sighed and shook my head. "I'm so dead...."

I sat down in my chair and held my head low, hoping she would be sick or something. "Hey Parker." I looked up carefully and saw her smiling at me as she sat down next to me. "Hi Y/L/N" She was looking at me as I didn't know what to do. "Did you bring it with you?" I nodded and patted on my bag. "It's in here." "Really?" I nodded and she laughs. "Okay, You suprised me Parker. I have to admit that I wasn't expeting this so I made a backup for us by myself.....I'm sorry for judging you without really knowing you." My heart sank to the floor as she looked so happy about it. “Can't wait to see what you made, maybe we have the same vision about this one." I slowly nodded and looked at the teacher as he was about to start the class.

Y/N POV

"Okay miss Y/L/N and Mr Parker, it's your turn now." i stood up and walked to the front, Drake was ruffing through his bag. "Can't find it mr Parker?" Our teacher joked. I was getting worried and walked back to him. "What's wrong?" He looked at me with panic in his eyes. "It's gone...." I know right away that, that was a lie and nodded. "okay then we use mine...." I grabbed my bag and took my version out of my bag. "we found it." I said to the teacher and gave it to him. "Good, let's start shall we."

We paased our project and I was a bit hurt by his lies so i tried to leave the class as quick as possible when the bell rang but he was very fast as well. "Y/N please wait." He says as he ran after me. "Why? Why should I, To hear you lie again?" I crossed my arms and just looked at him, He looked guilty at me, his hand went up to his hair and combed through it. "Listen I want to apolosise. I forgot about it and I'm sorry for not being honest about it to you." I slowly nodded and looked down at my feet. "I'm really sorry but I'm not what they say about me and I hope you can still give me chance to prove it to you." I looked up and shrugged. "I don't know to be honest, you really showed it about what they say about you." He moved a bit closer to me and looked me in my eyes. "Let's start over, forget what they said about me and let's start over." I started to smile as he was really trying. "you want to make a whole new project?" he nods. "Yes and now It's your turn to show what your hobbies are." he held his hand out to me and smiles. "So...do you want to be my partner again?" I smiled and grabbed his hand. "Okay but don't mess this one up Parker." "I promise i won't."

[hellfirecvnt]

Y'know, I Knew a Guy Like You.

Pt. 1: "Meeting"

Eddie x Y/N (but Y/N talks like Theo Von)

Author's note: I have no idea where this will go. I don't plan on making it smutty, but I've never been opposed to it. I'm going to reference Theo Von's stand up and also just general odd goings ons I've witnessed, caused, or been a part of as a borderline-trailer-trash woman of the deep south. Not everything I mention is true, but most of it is. 💀

I kinda want this story to be interactive, so feel free to submit suggestions and shit for them to get into.

Trigger Warnings: Drug Use!!! Drinking, General Bafoonery, Crime!

(The thing about Tom Cruise and the crack is true. I was in 5th grade with her, but it wasn't Tom Cruise, it was the Jonas Brothers. 💀)

It's been about a week since you up and left your small hometown in the furthest corner of the bible belt you could stand to live in. You weren't really made for big cities, so you decide to cut halfway across the country and plant some new roots in Indiana.

You're not some fuckin' high roller, you didn't come out here with a job, let alone the ability to live somewhere by yourself. You met your now-roommate over two years ago at a Heart concert. Her name is Robin. The two of you made plans to move in together last spring and after a few failed attempts, Robin finally found a small house off to itself with two large bedrooms. She's been giving you time to get settled in, but now she's starting to pester you about coming out with her friends.

"Come on, you have to meet Steve at least," she clings to your arm, ever-comfortable after the years of sending letters back and forth as often as possible.

"Steve the one with the hair like a uh, like a fuckin' mess?"

"Yeah, that one."

"I don't about, Rob. It sounds like I might bully him probably." You shrug as if you feel genuinely sympathetic at the fact that you'll be mean to this person you've never met.

"That's all I do. Come out with us tonight, pleaseeeee!" Robin releases a pleading wail and much to her satisfaction, it works.

"Oh my god, fine! Lower your voice, dude. You're gonna get up both killed."

"What?" Robin furrows her brow.

"The not deer."

"Okay, I'm not doing this with you again." She stands and makes her way over to her room. "I'm gonna shower and get ready, don't bail on me."

"Like you bailed on me when I sent that turtle in the mail?"

"Y/N, it did not arrive alive. It was dead and wet." Robin's eyebrows upturn as she recalls opening the rancid package.

"Yeah, I didn't uh, didn't think of that..." Your voice trails off as you remember the day you placed a turtle into a box and mailed it to Robin. It was never alive, you found it dead. It never occurred to you that she believed it was supposed to be alive. "They told us in grade school that the police had to open incriminating packages and to not try to send our parent's methamphetamines in the mail to Tom Cruise because a girl in my town did that and her dad went to jail."

She stares at you in silence for a second.

"You thought the cops were gonna intercept your turtle?" Robin sighs.

"Yeah, thought the pigs would have to deal with it." You still don't plan to explain the full story to her.

Robin disappears to get ready and you finally decide to rise from the couch and get dressed. A few moments of staring into the mirror and you finally start to feel like your face belongs there. A new place and such a big move seem to have you a bit more on edge than usual. You make your way back to the living room you share with your friend and she emerges from her room just seconds later.

"You look great!" She beams.

"I fixed the stains in this shirt with a tie dye." You point to the spots that now blend into the grey and black dyes swirling your shirt.

"You fixed the stains with more stains."

"You're a smart lady, Rob. I like it." Your words make Robin blush. Though her feelings for you are platonic, she had a pretty big crush on you when you first met. The distance and meeting Vickie simmered it down into a casual friendship.

The two of you get into your car and she gives you directions to Steve's parent's house. Robin tells you about the pool and the huge living room. She mentions some friends from California are coming to visit and how you'll really like them.

"You said it was just the whore."

"He is not- well... okay, look. Please don't say that when we get here."

"It's not a bad thing to be a whore. Everybody got something, he got that."

"I think I regret doing this," She jokes.

"Me too," you smirk as you swing the door open and step out of the car.

The two of you walk into the large, well-kept abode and Steve meets you both in the foyer.

"Y/N, Steve." Robin introduces the two of you before running off to find the others.

"Hey! You're Robin's friend from-"

"Yeah, that one." You cut him off in the name of regional ambiguity.

"Well, everyone's this way." Steve starts through the foyer and into the living room that connects to the backyard via two large sliding glass doors. You look around for a moment, taking in the luxurious home. You're more used to a double wide on a dirt road at a dead end, but this was nice.

You become distracted by something hanging on the wall. Nancy and Robin are deep in conversation while Steve disappears into the kitchen. There are people outside, but you're not sure who they are, so you don't go exploring. You continue to stare intently at the frame on the wall.

"They're my grandad's war medals." Steve appears behind you suddenly, causing you to jump.

"I knew a guy back home that had some of these all over his wife beater. He'd pick up, like with his arms, any kid he could catch and threaten to chew on 'em."

"What?" Steve looks down at the beer in his hand he brought to offer you and wonders if you even need it.

"It was fine, he didn't have teeth anyway. Dunno what the fucker was on about, most days."

"What are you saying?" Steve squints his eyes as if it'll help him hear or understand you better.

"You promised you wouldn't do this!" Robin scolds you playfully from the couch. Nancy, who has yet to speak to you at all, stares with a certain hint of distaste.

"His name was Clayman. You think we'd call him Clay, but we all called him Man." You finish your story quickly and turn to face Robin. You notice a new person standing in the sliding doorway, though you aren't sure how long he's been there.

"Uh, Rob, are you smoking with us?" The curly-haired man gestures over his shoulder to the other strangers outside. Robin springs up from the couch, but quickly turns an apologetic look to Nancy.

"I'm sorry, Nance. Give me 20 minutes," she grins stupidly and turns to you. "Y/N, come on!" You don't hesitate to go where the drugs go, a gift and a curse. Or whatever.

"Whoa, man. Who's this?" A brightly dressed man with long, straight hair smiles and waves at you after asking.

"Guys, this is Y/N. We met at that concert in-"

"It was a good show- a really good one. A feature, if you will." You smile brightly, interrupting for continuity's sake. Hey, that's just the same joke as last time. You nod as you're listening to them introduce themselves. The brightly dressed man is Argyle, Johnathan is the quiet one, and the curly-haired guy is Eddie.

"We were just talking about if Bigfoot is real or not. What do you two think?" Argyle, less awkward than Johnathan and louder than Eddie, takes the floor.

"I'm not convinced." Robin states, flat out.

"Hell yeah, he's real. I knew a guy back home that used to disappear for weeks on end and when he came back he had an entire Hefty bag of hair. It was all the same hair. It all came from one guy."

"What if it came from a bunch of the same kind of animal?" Johnathan promptly pokes a hole in the theory.

"Man, you find an alpaca with that curl pattern, you call me."

"Well, what about when everyone was claiming they saw the ghost of that kid that god stomped to death by a deer?" Eddie asks, a little too casually.

"Hey dude, what the fuck?" You ask with a shocked smile, in disbelief at the blase manner he's mentioning this grisly death.

"He really did. They kept telling him to leave it alone," he explains.

"That definitely was not a deer." You straighten your posture as if something is about to happen.

"No!" Robin demands, but her yells fall on deaf ears.

"Then what was it?"

"A not deer."

"Don't get her started!" Robin.

"What's a 'not deer'?" Eddie squints.

"It's not a fuckin' deer, I'll tell you that right now."

"You are. You are telling us right now." Argyle nods as if he's taking in important information.

The group takes turns hitting and passing the large, skillfully rolled joint. You notice that the only person with a tolerance like yours is Eddie. Even Argyle and Johnathan tap out before it's over. Robin had gone back to chat with Nancy a while ago.

You and Eddie are so deep in conversation, you don't notice Argyle and Johnathan wander inside to take shots with Steve.

"I had a grandma once that did a whole spoonful of heroin and then backflipped in place. God rest her soul." You recall the events like it was yesterday. "Yeah, she died like, an hour later."

"Oh." Eddie is stunned silent by the last sentence.

"Happens to everybody, I guess." You say, causing Eddie to think you mean doing heroin and a back flip. "But it's fine because the trash fire that afternoon turned blue for five whole minutes and uncle David swore it was Granny. Y'know? And that's God."

"You don't really strike me as the religious type." Eddie's struggling with the urge to laugh and genuine concern for where you came from.

"Oh, buddy. I'm not. It's just ingrained in my mannerisms now. You don't hold that many rattle snakes and deny Christ. Except I do because I got bit several times. They swore I was the Devil, but I think I just shook them snakes too hard."

Eddie, though wildly confused by you and this "culture" you seem to be from, is infatuated. Every story, every anecdote. He likes to try to imagine where the story is going before you finish, because anything he imagines couldn't ever be off the wall enough to compare to what you actually say.

"Y/N, you ready to head out?" Robin appears in the sliding glass doorway and smiles. It's only now that you and Eddie realize you've been sitting here talking for a few hours. You say your goodbyes, careful to linger a little longer on Eddie as you walk out with Robin. The moment you're both in the car, she glances at you knowingly.

"Eddie looks like he enjoyed getting to know you." She smirks.

"Yeah, I like him. You're friends are really nice. He didn't even flinch when I told him about Granny."

"... You should.... You should stop telling people about your Granny."

"Nope."

"So, the whole metal head thing is doing it for ya, huh?" Robin beams as she returns the conversation to Eddie.

"Yeah, I like my men kinda ugly. Like I like a dude that looks like a balled up napkin. I want the skrunkliest motherfucker I can find."

"Wow, incredible. And Eddie reads that way to you?" Robin can't wait to relay your description back to Steve and Eddie.

"A real dime, I thought." You smile pleasantly. "When are we all getting together again?"

"As soon as you stop telling people about 'not deer.'"

"You have got to stop dimming my light, Robin. I swear to God."

[ambrossart]

I’m so sorry to clog up your notifications, but for some reason, Tumblr is refusing to let me comment 🙄 Think of this as a continuation of my comment from a few minutes ago 🤦‍♀️

About the boxes: right?! I’ve donated/given away/thrown away way too many things for there to still be this much stuff.

By the way, you should be so proud of yourself for going through all this moving with agoraphobia. I’ve only moved once and it’s caused a major strain. Going from Rhode Island to Tennessee is not an easy feat. If it helps to write out what’s going on, please keep us updated! Again, I’m sending soooo much rest your way!

I'm writing this from Tennessee!

Oh my god, that was the most stressful move of my life. My husband accidentally went through a moving broker and we 100% got scammed. They severely underquoted us (a common tactic), so when the movers showed up, the cost was more than double what was quoted. We were backed into a corner. Our options were to pay the extra cost or throw away all of our furniture. Thankfully, my parents loaned us some money, so we got our furniture loaded onto the truck (minus our dining room table, which we had already sacrificed), but now we have no idea when we're getting our furniture delivered—or if we're getting our furniture delivered. I hate moving so much. I wanna cry, but I'm too exhausted.

But my new apartment is gorgeous. Apart from the leaky sink (which should be fixed today) and the lack of furniture, it's incredible. Everything is brand new. There's so much space. The community is up in the hills, so it's got this quiet, woodsy vibe. Once we're settled, I know I'm gonna be really happy here.

And yeah, my mental health has definitely taken a hit with all this moving. My agoraphobia is triggered by major changes in environment. Actually, even minor changes will trigger it. During the drive here, for example, I was having mini panic attacks at every rest stop because I was scared I was gonna get lost on my way to the restroom (I know that sounds silly, but 🤷‍♀️). I have to Google every new place I visit so that I can see pictures of the inside and outside. If I could download a map, I would.

But you wouldn't know I'm struggling if you saw me. I go through great effort to hide it.

My lowest point was in college. My freshman year was fine because I had a roommate and would go out with her, but my sophomore year I was by myself, and I didn't leave my dorm for months, except to go to class (and I barely ever went to class either, but luckily I had very understanding professors who made accommodations for me). I also developed a slight ED during this time. I was too scared to go get food, so I wouldn't eat, except for like a candy bar out of the vending machine or something. I was like a little gremlin. I would come out at night, raid the vending machine, and then scurry back into my room before anyone could see me. That’s really embarrassing to admit, but it’s true. And I was losing weight! I was losing so much weight, and I was happy because I had always struggled with my weight, so… win-win, right? I didn’t have to face the terrifying world and I was finally skinny. What could possibly go wrong?

Well, one night I fainted in the shower, fell hard, slammed my head on the bathroom floor, lost conciousness, came to, saw my RA hovering over me, and finally realized I had a major problem.

Yeah, I was a hot mess in my late teens/early twenties.

I’m still a hot mess, but I’m doing a lot better. 😂

[xx-satoranogerocs-xx]

Nova Light - Prolgue

TRIGGER WARNINGS

Memory loss, blood, death, deletion, angst, amnesia, body alternation, kidnapping mention, threatening, violence, bullying, torture, control, possession, tragic backstories, abuse, sh (allusions), etc. etc. etc.

Age rsting: 15+

I fiddled with the tie on my uniform. Sitting on the bumpy road, I held onto my suitcase. Staring out into the waters falling down the sides of the floating islands. The government had asked me where I wanted to go. I never gave them a response. So they told me to pack my things and take this train. To school. Dragon Wand Academy.

I approached the steps of the school, fiddling with my tie once more. Taking a deep breath, I opened the doors, and went inside.

Thank goodness for the fact it was the start of the school year. Otherwise, I'd have to be the awkward new kid. Though, no part of that statement would be a lie.

I held onto the Nova crystal hanging by my neck, fiddling with it, and using it as a way to calm myself down and distract myself.

I approached the group of student volunteers, helping new students get settled in.

"Nova Stellar." I told them my name.

They crinkled a brow trying to repeat my name back at me. I usually just went by Astra. But I was too scared to tell her.

"This has all your info. So keep it safe. It has your student id, dorm room number, and your schedule and classes. You're signed up for the Trial Classes, right?" She looked at my uniform.

I looked at the other uniforms. I and a handful of others had a Nova Crystal shaped gold badge and black ribbons attached to it.

"I... guess I am?" I chuckled, trying to not make it awkward. But laughing only made me feel more panicked about the conversation. It was NOT going well. Anyone could see thet

"Your Homeroom teacher is Hakucho." She smiled at me.

I decided to shut up because me talking was only making it more awkward. I nodded in response to her.

She handed me a card. "This is your student ID. It's very important that you don't loose it. It is your pass into any building and room on campus. You use it to get lunch, go to your dorm. Open your locker."

I nodded, slipping it into my uniform's card pocket.

"If it ever gets lost, there's a fee." She warned.

I nodded again.

Afterwards, I headed upstairs, climbing up the long, winding stairwell. It was better than getting shoved into a small space with a bunch of people I didn't know.

Approaching the dorm, I scanned my ID at the door. I creaked open the door.

There was a small dining space, a tiny kitchen, and a communal bathroom.

One door had a sign stuck on it. In big bold letters "STAY. OUT." Dorms were split into pairs. And if this was the kind of the guy I had, it could either be absolutely amazing and we'd never ever have to interact. Or it'll be an absolute disaster and I'll wish I was never here.

I went to the other side, where the other room was. These smaller rooms were for sleep.

By the door, was a small shoe rack and a trash can. There was a small closet for your clothes. But the window, was a little sun bed. There was a loft bed, with curtains coming off of them. Under the bed, was a beanbag, a chair, a desh, and some bookshelves.

The ladders were on the side of the bed. Climbing up onto the bed, there were little shelves placed into the wall. There was an alarm clock. Other than that, it was pretty empty.

I packed what little I had from my suitcases, into their respective places.

All roommates shared a homeroom teacher. I walked down to meet up with our group before the opening ceremony.

"Aether?" I muttered his name, recognizing one of the boys in my class. He was my childhood friend. "Stellis?"

The three of us were inseparable when we were young. But somewhere along the lines of our past we.... stopped talking.

His gaze met mine, and I saw his eyes narrow and watched his turn away. I glanced away, turning to Stellis. Stellis looked so much older and more grown up.

She was the loud one. And frankly, the one that was never afraid of getting hurt. She couldn't care about her appearance. She'd return home scratched up. Her hair was always tangled. Now her hair was in a half-up space bun. With little stars decorated in her hair. She was a it more like a goddess of some sort.

I wanted to walk up to her and make conversation. Reconnect. See if she still... wanted to talk to me.

She noticed me first. She ran to me.

"Nova!" She exclaimed. "It's so nice to see you!"

I was stunned by the sudden conversation. "S-same."

"It's been so many years!" She seemed really excited. Same high energy as she had always been.

She talked about how things had gone for her.

"What about Aether? He seems... mad at me." I asked her worringly.

"He... after you left, shoved everyone else out of his life. I don't really know much." She shook her head. "I've heard rumors. But it's not my place to be spreading rumors about other people."

"I see." Whispered. Somewhere along the lines, it was probably disappointment and false hope.

"I've... been wanting for the three of us to be reunited. For years. I tried to talk to Aether. And he kept shoving me out of his life. It was in that time I was getting bullied a lot worse at school.."

"Stellis..." I wanted to reach out and hug her. But I stopped myself. I didn't know why I stopped.

"Did you guys enjoy the opening ceremony?" The white haired woman asked.

The rest of the crowd exploded in cheers.

"Our whole homeroom class is a Trial Class." She pointed out.

I nodded. "I noticed that too."

"Well then, let's go eat dinner."

I listened to Stellis talk for ages. And I didn't mind. I enjoyed it. After such a long time without company, she could talk to me nonstop for thr next decade.

"What room are you?" She asked.

"I'm room 314."

She grew silent. "That's Aether's room too."

I found myself in an aw crap moment.

"The homeroom's sure got a lot of younger people there, huh?" She pointed out. "I always wanted to be a pokemon trainer. But my parents said it wasn't for girls. Being strong weren't for girls. Wearing dresses was. I really don't know why pokemon trainer was the final straw for them. Or why I listened. I regret mot starting sooner."

We were 15, on the older side. And embarrassingly... all at black ribbons. The ribbons signified how many island trials you had passed.

"Tomorrow is the pokemon partner naming ceremony for the new trainers. Are you excited?" She beamed.

I nodded. "I am."

"Aether Mynelys." They called out.

Aether approached the stage. And they presented a pokeball to him. A pokemon leapt out of the pokeball.

"Lunapup." Hakucho smiled.

And down the line they went. In no particular order.

"Stellis Avias!" They called out.

I watched her bounce up to the front. She received her pokeball, and watched the pokemon leave their ball.

"Dracosea."

"Nova Stellar!" She called out next.

"Back to back! Sweet!" Stellis smiled.

I grabbed the pokeball. And out came a pokemon. A small yellow and grey bird.

"Ashfeather." She nodded. "Shiny too."

[equalperson]

I swear, everything is so complicated and difficult for no good reason. I was thinking about meeting more people, but the more I think about it, the more I remember why I've lived so long with the sense that people are poisonous to Me.

it's like everytime I get to know someone, I so genuinely believe that they're improving My life tenfold, just to realize weeks or months down the line that everything has gotten so much worse.

this happened with My first, only, and now ex-safe person in 2023/2024: we met, she praised Me constantly, and I just knew that after years of loneliness and fear, I had found a platonic soulmate of sorts.

I idealized her so much, she was everything to Me: kind, accepting, emotionally available, and interpersonally compatible.

damn, I contemplated on multiple occasions living with her once we moved out from our parents', especially since she said she'd want to live with a friend and I didn't realize at the time that I'd absolutely hate having a roommate of any kind.

having a sleepover with her triggered My first narcissistic high, and then silence. ghosted Me for months. I think back on the relationship and, although I don't believe she's a bad person, I realize she was nowhere near as great as I thought she was.

she hardly ever went out of her way to talk about My interests, despite Me always doing the same for her. she never initiated even a single conversation with Me either, aside from the one that kickstarted our friendship in the first place.

the only reason she even slept over with Me--despite our friendship being long-distance and her being in town--was because she wasn't able to tolerate her grandparents' infestation that night.

afterwards, she'd keep giving different excuses as to why she ghosted Me. for instance, her phone wasn't working, and yet she was able to reply to an earlier text asking if she was okay.

sometimes I wonder if she just stopped liking Me at some point along the way, especially since she'd previously stated that she's prone to cutting people off suddenly and over minor conflicts.

regardless, I enjoyed talking to her, but she was ultimately nothing like this accommodating, perfect person I idealized her as. far from it, she proved herself incredibly unreliable, oblivious at best and quietly unaffectionate at worst.

and now there are these people on discord. I long gave up on seeking out My own friends, so it was the same deal: person comes to Me wanting to get closer (in this case, inviting Me to their private friend group), they (everyone) welcomes and hypes Me up, I have fun for a while, then things go downhill from there.

so many red flags I would've left over if I weren't so afraid of burning bridges or acting out of the ordinary: the flagrant R-slur and schizophrenia jokes, the mixed reception when the initial friend found out I was uncomfortable and requested everyone stop, the regular mocking of autistics and demonization of narcissists (Myself included).

that initial friend isn't even around anymore; she's taking a break from the internet for mental health and career reasons. now it's just Me, the couple of people I also get along well with, and the rest.

like with My ex-SP, I'm happier in some ways, but suffering in others: I don't believe these are good people, I recognize that their acceptance of Me is conditional on My behavior as a "competent autistic"/"good narcissist"/"quiet schizophrenic," and My sleep schedule is so fucking thrown off!!

I went to bed at 12pm the other day! because they used to chat most actively between 6am and 5pm My time, so I'd stay up late to catch the first half of it all (I was already staying up till ~7am, which was obviously abnormal but still manageable).

I've been in My bedroom all day today because I woke up at 6pm, just to realize that My mom mentioned redoing My hair AND taking Me clothes-shopping today. My hair is unwashed (I needed to do that) and the mall is already closed.

it's humiliating and disgusting and shameful. at best I'll feel a bit awkward and at worst I'll face more maltreatment from My mom for My delayed sleep phase.

and I just don't know if I even want to meet more people anymore. I wasn't thinking about anything this intensive though, more like a once-a-week support group or volunteer thing or something.

but still. I know it's just My avoidant personality talking, but it's like I'm just not meant to engage with other people.

at the very best, I'm so unstable that even the highest points of My relationships bring out splitting, jealousy, and a disregard for My own needs to please others.

and then the worst ends up leading into either abandonment or relationships that I'm trapped in through further people-pleasing and a deep fear of regret for leaving.

sure, other people entertain Me, they admire Me, they expand My worldview and arguably enrich My life, but is it even worth it when it comes at the expense of My larger physical and mental health?

[evwuniverse]

You know, life can get pretty damn messy sometimes. I've noticed my outfit choices can sometimes reflect my moods. It's very hard for me to vocalize what I'm trying to say so writing is my preferred method of explaining things. I've had quite the night tonight and the first thing I did when I "went through it" was log into IMVU and create this avatar. I decided to become a VIP for $20 for one month just because I missed creating content on IMVU. This blog after all is Second Life AND...IMVU based.

I hate when drama enters my life, I've stayed away from it for 2 years and it just knocked on my doorstep tonight for no reason. If you would like to read up on a summarized version of what happened please continue below. I had to vent and I thought why not let me make an IMVU post mixed with the situation I just went through kind of like "AITA posts on Reddit."

** Disclaimer: this is something that happened in my real life, there is drama and it is important to note that it may trigger some individuals who are prone to narcissism and other manipulative tactics from others. As an empath, I can sympathize with you on this. If you read below please let me know if I'm the asshole or if it is the other person who is in the wrong. Please be respectful while reading and responding to this post, thank you. **

My mom always told me that you should never do business with friends or family. In any sense by the way, whether it's through virtual worlds and virtual families or real life. This is the one thing I must say she was right about.

How it all started:

I had an old co-worker/friend whom I always commented on her FB posts when I could and always liked or hearted what she had to say. It wasn't like I disappeared completely from her life but just as everyone else last year struggled in 2024 in general primarily emotionally but in other ways as well. It was hard for me to keep in contact with a lot of people and fell out of contact with many as well. This individual was one of them that I "fell out of contact" with but continued to still try to keep a friendship with her. She reached out to me first and asked why I didn't reach out sooner. I questioned this and proceeded and explain I had attempted to stay in contact and show I was still around by interacting with her posts, I explained what was going on in my life, and she seemed well understanding at the time. Fast forward a few days later and she wanted to voice chat and catch up. It was an amazing connection, we picked up right where we left off.

After the Conversation:

We rekindled our friendship one that never truly disappeared and I was so thankful. Then one day she brought up that she was trying to move out of her parent's house because she got knocked up from a one-night stand and didn't want her parents knowing she was having a child. Understandably, a lot of women who live under their parent's roof feel this way. They try to find a way to hide that they are pregnant whether it be to stay where they are at, not be judged by their parents, etc. So I completely understood. She sounded like she was out of options and I have a 3 bedroom 2 1/2 bathroom home with one room and bathroom that rarely get used. Being who I am (kind of a pushover but wanting to be there to help) I offered for her to move into the extra bedroom and we could talk about a monthly rent that would be beneficial for both of us. She was grateful and loved the idea and so was I, I was so excited because I've never had a roommate before and always wanted to have the experience at some point.

Fast Forward 3 Days Later:

3 days later, my cousin, who had roommates who were his friends (keep in mind he's a lawyer) provided me with the Rental Agreement he provided to his friends and I changed the numbers. My friend and I agreed to an $850 rent for her. Most of you know in today's economy you can't find almost anything for that much, especially in a nice neighborhood with amenities and I was giving a lot of what I'm used to for example I was providing her with my numbered spot because I knew she was potentially pregnant and has other medical issues similar to myself. I was giving her the pool pass so she didn't have to pay $50 for one. I was providing her with one of my parking passes and I only have two. I was also providing a bed frame for her bed so she could sell the one she had because that's what she was planning. I was also giving her free reign of the bottom floor, her bedroom, and the guest restroom all I asked is that she stay out of the office space and master bedroom. I was basically giving her a house to live in for $850 a month and then add on that I'm barely there she is always going to be there.

She loves animals she's a vet tech so she has 7 cats 2 dogs a snake 10 lizards, 52 fish, and a hamster named Hamtaro. She was housing 6 out of the 7 cats, wanted to keep the two dogs, and was planning on housing the reptiles and I caved in on the fish. So I allowed her to bring 12 out of the 52 fish the 12 were beta fish which all need to be in separate fish tanks by the way so I knew my house was going to be filled with them. It's important to note I only have 2 dogs and that's it... Also not to backtrack here but I'm going on a Cruise in April with my family and she offered to watch my pups while she lived here. Which would've been great and would let my boyfriend off the hook this time around.

It all sounded great and she and I talked about what was allowed pet-wise. We agreed upon her bringing 2 dogs and three fish that's it. But when she reached out to me and said a lot of the other people she would leave the pets with backed out I told her I would compromise. Later it came up to 3 cats (which my family is allergic to so I couldn't have them over to visit anymore), 2 dogs, and three fish. I wanted to help her get out of the situation she was in so I was willing to compromise further to help while keeping the price point at $850.

Fast Forward Again To Today:

She read over the Rental Agreement, maybe it got too REAL for her... I don't know. But she asked where the reptiles were in the rental agreement and I responded back remember in our last conversation you stated someone would be taking care of the snakes and the lizards. She said oh yeah! Then she stated, "I don't think this is going to work out the person who was going to take the snake backed out because she is afraid of snakes and lizards..." I know how hard she was trying to get out of a bad situation and I knew her situation so I again was willing to compromise. I said to her "Well, the pets seem to be adding up and my HOA really only allows two dogs which I have two but if we can work around it the two dogs are fine, and the 3 cats I can make work but a snake, I don't like snakes and if it's going to slithering around the house and on the walls I'm going to need to ask for a pet deposit similar to an apartment. We went from 2 dogs to three fish and I feel this is fair considering the amount of animals that are going to be in the house at this time. Would you be willing to compromise on a higher rent to keep the reptiles?" She then retorted at this point which I'm not sure why I was working with her to make things work, at this point my house was turning into a zoo and this was not what was agreed upon previously. She said something along the lines of;

She stated she wasn't even at work... Keep in mind I didn't even know she was away from her work but apparently is getting disability while going through some of the medical issues but this wasn't discussed prior so I had no idea.

"It went from you wanting to move me in for free, to striking a business transaction, where I pay more to live in your home as your roommate on either the top or bottom floor" -- Keep in mind everything was agreed upon in the very beginning she agreed to the $850. She wanted to move in with me. Again remember, it all began at $850 with 3 fish and 2 dogs and went up in pets from there. That is when I felt it would be fair due to all the pets to charge a pet fee and explained why I was charging it I was only asking for $50 more in case there were any damages caused by her pets. I work very hard to keep the house clean.

Then explained that what I was doing was extortion - honestly I had to look up the word not going to lie I had no idea what it was. But the cost was agreed upon in the very beginning and the number of pets was placed in the rental agreement before this conversation. She then stated she could no longer trust me because she "can't trust my intentions." What? my intentions were nothing but helpful and kind, I wanted to help her with her situation and she turned it on me and kept adding pets...

I reached out to my boyfriend to get his thoughts. He told me that it wasn't me and that she was then gaslighting me and manipulating me to live in my house for free at this point. I wanted to get others' thoughts...

Am I the asshole for charging a pet fee and for attempting to compromise and bend over backward to get a friend out of a bad situation or a situation she didn't want to be in? Do you think the amount of money I charged was unreasonable?

Thank you for reading and I hope to gain a little more insight from an outside perspective as this is currently eating me up alive haha.

[ryuichirou]

Replies

Also shorter ones today… mostly related to our previous replies and posts!

Anonymous asked:

After seeing Eel Floyd with Riddle

AND THOSE BITE MARKS 👀👀👀👀

I gotta know -

Did Floyd slip and slide in Riddle?

Or

Also

Did Riddle magically goldfish form and the two had merman sex???

Honestly I wasn’t thinking about Riddle also becoming a merman, but they absolutely have to have merman sex at some point, otherwise it just isn’t fair (to me) lol

And to answer your first question, yes, there might have been some slipping and sliding in Riddle involved~

Anonymous asked:

re: the gaslighting Jade ask. I randomly stumbled on your blog from other ones, and I literally blocked you because shroudcest triggers me. Ultimately, we are responsible for our own safety. As long as it’s properly marked for (which yours clearly is since I blocked you the second I made a tumblr), really all we can do is filter the things that hurt us out.

(im agreeing with you btw. draw what you want i cant stop you. just feel like i in particular make a point worth mentioning from seeing that. you can answer this or not bc obviously i probably wont see it anyway)

Anon! Whether you see this reply or not, thank you very much for writing this despite having us blocked lol

You really are making a good point, and I am glad that you are taking care of yourself and avoiding uncomfortable stuff. I really encourage it. Thank you for understanding and for approaching this issue with respect.

Have a good day.

Anonymous asked:

Gaslighting IS Jade’s love language. Also mushrooms.

Facts, Anon <3 He doesn’t waste his gaslighting and mushrooms on those he doesn’t find entertaining love!

Anonymous asked:

Honestly I can totally see Cater as the kind of guy that now and then buys a random manga just because the cover looks aesthetically pleasing, although if they are BL they are probably more oriented towards shonen-ai than explicit content. But also he wouldn't really read them because he finds the stories and characters a bit ridiculous (is he a bitter anti-romantic? or maybe his sisters used to collect shojo manga and he associates the love story genre with them?). I bet when he had roommates he had fun leaving one of his manga lying around, just to see people's reaction and go "aw, shoot, you saw it? that's sooo embarassing..." or something like that

To be honest, I can see that too. Cater seems like someone who isn’t all that into anime and manga, but is aware of it enough to recognise that the cover is pretty and that there is something gay inside (he might figure out the latter thing later as he looks inside the book lol). His sisters really could be into it though, so I can see him having certain associations.

lol Cater’s roommates “finding” his manga though… Don’t act so coy, Cater 😭

Anonymous asked:

Goddammit! Idia, you cannot escape me for long, one way or another, your chest will be licked! *shakes fist at the sky*

I love how this is turning into a Looney Tunes cartoon…

Anonymous asked:

Idia doesn’t have nipples. He accidentally shaved them off. Tragic 😔 L in the chat for his nipples.

Damn. I’m afraid I have bad news for the previous Anon.

Anonymous asked:

Do you have any HCs for Neige and/or Chenya?

We do have HCs about Neige/Vil and Chenya/Riddle (1,2)!

Anonymous asked:

It is I, 🐩 anon,

So I got a friend into twst and tell me why her favorite character is goddamn Crowley? I'm currently trying to convert her to Divus supremacy. Enough about this. Let me ask my silly little question.

Is there anything about TWST's story plot that you dislike or wished it was worked on more? Or character you wish were more fleshed out? 

Your friend has quite the taste… She is probably a genius of sorts 😔🙏

I feel like I was pretty vocal about it, so I am sorry for talking about it again, but I really didn’t enjoy how Ch2 was handled and Leona in general, to be honest. I wrote a post about my grievances a whole year ago, but my stance didn’t really change. We’ve rewatched the majority of the main story since then, and I thought that maybe with fresh minds and fresh eyes we would enjoy Leona at least to some degree, but unfortunately it didn’t really help. The events don’t really help either…

There might be some other things, but this is the one I think about every time when we talk about the flaws of TWST writing.

Anonymous asked:

what is your notp?

A bunch of Leona ships come to mind, i.e. Leona/Malleus, Leona/Vil, Leona/Idia 🤔 But also a bunch of Trey ships, like Trey/Jade or Rook/Trey…

Anonymous asked:

if you had to go on a date with one of the twst boys who are you picking? i'm picking idia

Idia is a great option, Anon; he would be so uncomfortable and awkward, getting nervous about the smallest inconveniences and whispering “thank god” every time you don’t force him to do something… I would pick him to, but my second option would be Jamil. I think he’s pretty chill.

Katsu would've picked Jade because of course, this is the best pick.

Anonymous asked:

any old fandoms that you feel out of love with?

Can’t think of any, Anon… I feel like we never fall completely out of love with anything, just move on, but there is always an opportunity that we’ll come back at some point. Things like Homestuck are still on our minds constantly lol

There are some titles that we kind of started watching, but then stopped because it wasn’t fully out yet, and since then we kind of lost interest for this thing. And with some of these titles it’s very unlikely that we’ll ever go back, but it’s never 1000% impossible. But then again, it’s not like we loved these titles…

Anonymous asked:

Funfact: The crowley that crowley is named after used to perform sex based magic with men

Damn I hope this is what our Crowley also does. This is his dark secret that is very poorly hidden

Anonymous asked:

I think Riddle would be a really good teacher's pet

Oh he would <3 He is a teacher’s pet.

Ironically, I feel like this makes him a bit boring for Crewel…although it depends…🤔

Anonymous asked:

What is a ship you rarely draw but you love

I don’t draw any of them enough, I love them all! Waaaaah :(

I feel like I don’t draw Sebek/Silver nearly enough for how much we love them, Rook/Epel is also a rare one but we love it, Sebek/Idia could use more love, anything with Jamil too…

Anonymous asked:

Please share with us a full list of the preference of the TWST boys? Top or bottom? I typed up a list for you to use!

Anon, we have a list in our pinned post! But since you’ve typed up a list, I’ll go through the list again :) We also have a post in which we explain our reasoning for each choice, so you can read it too if you’re interested.

Oh! And if you meant some other types of preferences, please let me know. In that case though, we have a list of the boys’ kinks, which isn’t the same thing, but pretty close; so you can read this one too if you want <3

Riddle – bottom

Ace – top

Deuce – bottom

Trey – top

Cater – top

Leona – bottom

Ruggie – top

Jack  - top

Azul – top

Floyd – top

Jade – top

Kalim – top

Jamil – bottom

Vil – bottom

Rook – top

Epel – bottom

Idia – bottom

Ortho  – top

Malleus– bottom

Sebek  – top

Lilia  – top

Silver– bottom