#otherwise it feels like a slap in the face imo. kind of a 'this is cool but not really.' vibe for me

[doubleddenden]

Today's beta content was heavy on the scrapped pokemon content for XY with some from BW and RS scratch pads.

However, the XY ones are astounding. I think anyone that's seen them on Twitter and keeps up with the beta content like I have will agree that these are literally the highest quality scrapped pokemon we've ever seen. Fully drawn and detailed- dunno about 3d models yet, there's still a lot left to find, but still- there's only a small handful, but they're all of incredible quality. Even concept art of Noibat is easy enough to see repurposed as a Future Paradox, I think.

Literally looking at some of them and all the other scrapped content for XY (they actually planned a rhyhorn racing mini game for example), and looking at how little we actually get for new pokedexes or what came after- we were robbed. Actually robbed.

Like yall there's a flamingo that serves cunt there. I think it's supposed to be beta Aromatise but it can be its own thing- it's what you think of when you think of an actual flamingo Pokemon. In gen 6. And look at fucking Flamigo in gen 9. Flamigo feels like a slap in the face looking at what we almost had. Like there's a downgrade and then there's THIS, man.

The others, especially the cassowary looking guy and peanut dinosaur guy, I need them so bad. Those are friends trapped in an alternative timeline.

Otherwise there's concept art for beta megas of the Kanto starters and Mewtwo. This was probably when they were getting a feel for what Mega Evolution was, during a time when they were considering it just a normal Evolution. Still, they look so ALIEN in such a cool and distinct way. Charizard Y has a gigachad chin, really pronounced bones and a tail that kinda has a furnace inside- it looked bulky, but the tail was sort of a thruster and it was almost more of a wyvern in some art. Venusaur ACTUALLY ALMOST LOOKED LIKE A FROG. Or toad. Whatever, the animal inspiration was actually clear. Blastoise is remarkably the least changed, but it's still a more bad ass take with a mustache sometimes. All 3 kind of resemble elders kf their species or mutations binded with something alien. I like the final results mind you, but god damn this is such a waste that we didn't get these somehow as Paradoxes or Bloodmoon type pokemon yknow? Like yeah Kanto pandering, but still, that's how cool they look to me.

The Mega Mewtwo concept is also really cool and I get why they're referred to as Mewthree and Mewfour in concept. One looks so fucking cool, like Mewtwo as a Xenomorph. The other is much closer go Y. Looking at this, I can certainly see how the alien plot theory could have happened and it would have made sense that Mewtwo went further because of it- yet there's no evidence of any alien plot line like that one theory posted way back. Not yet anyway. Mewtwo X is such a let down in comparison to Xenomorph Mewtwo imo.

Interestingly there does not seem to be any scrapped megas so far other than one who I won't say on the off chance it's added to ZA. Even in ORAS beta. Flygon isn't mentioned at all, which probably means it never even left the drawing table (or GF lied and it was simply never planned). God damn, art block hits like a bitch.

Regardless, this art is really incredible and I love the art style. I know Sugimori art is the series staple, but it would have been neat to try this for a bit imo.

I hope maybe more come up, but they've also started on Switch games, with Legends Arceus concept art and prototypes. For some reason Brock was their beta model, and there's concept art of Rei and Akari with slightly different hats and a slightly different Jubilife village. Otherwise there's not any Hisuian pokemon variants at this point, and it may have been planned to have the DP starters instead. Some pages seem like a pitch for it, and Legends Arceus is now a game far more important than most realize.

LA was pitched from the get go and it seems like they wanted to forgo DP remakes all together. The game was meant to be a foundation for how all future games in the franchise would grow and be a testing ground for a lot of new ideas to implement later on in the series, and to purposely draw in a different crowd than usual. I think that they accomplished that anyway, even if it's a bit unpolished graphics wise. Still, concept art for it's wilderness is incredibly detailed and gorgeous.

It'd be neat to find scrapped Pokemon for it, but I think there might not be much for it considering the type of game it is. There's a few fun mockup doodles of the Hisuian starters that make me laugh- literally ms paint type drawings of an angry bird, sassy hisuian Typhlosion, and an angry quadruped animal. Maybe they did want Hisuian starters, but concepts weren't made until they had a feel for the setting- which was originally envisioned 150 years ago instead of the proposed 200 fans made. Still, very close.

These betas keep giving, man. I don't even want ZA or Gen 10 leaks, I just wanna see more of this behind the scenes stuff. For concepts it's higher quality than most finalized artwork, and there's clearly a lot of detail that we don't ever get to see. It really puts into perspective how much effort goes into world building and Pokemon design behind the scene, and what's dumbed down for marketing.

[gunsatthaphan]

Maybe it's just me then, but besides patpran I actually find akkaye to be horny too? I'm saying this because every time there was tension between them (I mean when they got all up in each other's face, for example the "you punch me, I kiss you" scenes, the judo scene, the shower scene, etc.) in The Eclipse, it was the sexual kind. (it helped that they're enemies-to-lovers because whenever two people start off antagonistic, the tension between them tends to be sexual as opposed to cute or romantic)

Also, the first time akk and aye interact, akk is literally transfixed by ayan's unzipped pants. Sorry but that scene will always read horny to me, akk was definitely physically/sexually attracted to ayan from the get-go and seeing ayan in that school bathroom like that awakened those feelings in him to the point where he had to slap his own face and go "focus" while doing homework because he kept thinking about ayan barely an episode later 💀 Also, "you're thinking about something dirty. If you weren't, what's the problem with me sleeping in your bed?" (ayan nailed it there, akk was totally having dirty thoughts there, you can't convince me otherwise) And imagining a make-out session in his own bed? Pretty horny to me.

Then we have ayan whose flirting with akk was horny so many times, some of his lines were suggestive af, and "her son tastes good too" (after neo said akk's mom's cooking tastes good) still lives rent-free in my head. 💀

Plus, their sex scenes are just fire (especially the one in our skyy), imo they're both very horny for each other 🥵

djkhgdf I mean the seductive lines were kinda aye's brand in the OG show lol but it was in a jokey kind of way? their whole dynamic was aye being 😏 and akk going 😵‍💫 which was used as the comedic base of the show rather than actual sexual context. also it was never mutual. akk imagined that scenario in episode 6 but I wouldn't describe that as horny djkghf. not that that's a bad thing. but the suggestive content stayed one-sided until that finale scene in OS lol so yeah. patpran win the category imo.

xxx

[stay-midnight]

hi hi, part 2 yet again 🤧 (i do not have any kind of writing ability but the dirty thoughts have to be expressed so its long again sorry 😭)

. . .

first of all would like to just mention some ceo seungmin vs sugar daddy jeongin real quick since the seungin rivalry was brought up- thoughts on who reader would eventually choose or would they end up poly? cause months of getting fucked by both-sometimes separately, some times at the same time or getting tortured in one way by one- (seungmin making reader wear a vibrator during working hours and jeongin making gifting reader wear accessories with his initials like a choker or something)

Anyways back to divine amusement hehe

in every gangbang/orgy group session, before any of the doms fuck reader and lord bang-they'll always make the order's fuck eachother first to break em down (it doesn't get any less humiliating or shameful no matter how much it happens....) to remind both of their place in the bedroom. (And they'd only spank, slap, choke, pull, or heck maybe even step on whichever is fucking the other order cause they'd like for them to penetrate eachother first imo, unless if its fingering the cum back in the one who already got fucked.)

And god, the thought of jisung commanding reader to say his prayers to lord bang while lord bang is fucking reader?????

i could imagine reader attempting to say it while his mouth his gagged with minho's underwear-jisung then degrades him for it as minho and seungmin continue to make chan fuck the reader harder -before taking the underwear out as jisung shoves it in reader's face, who's slightly getting addicted to the smell and taste of minho's cum soaked underwear- when the reader starts saying the prayers-jisung's ego soars higher than the group's album sales- ahem anyways, hearing the prayers make lord bang feel even more ashamed and whines, then suddenly-minho orders chan to choke the reader while he's doing the prayer, he tries to protest but a harsh spank from minho and an even harsher slap from seungmin makes him think otherwise- and the second chan wraps his hand around the reader and tightens it- the reader's mind goes blank as they try to finish the prayer, chan thrusting harder is definitely not helping as well.

the whole thing makes the 3 doms ego soar. when the reader actually finishes it, jisung makes the reader open their mouth before spitting in it and making them swallow-a sign of ownership- this is the exact moment the reader cums as well as chan. (imagining this exact part is driving me crazy again, also remember that reader is blindfolded during this-heck. 🤧)

And now they make them switch positions, chan gagged and blindfolded, seungmin in front of him, pulling on his nipple clamps while jisung grips tighly on reader's leash as minho spanks reader this time-ordering reader to fuck chan-when reader inserts his dick in-the shame they feel is 😭😭😭

reader tries to give chan a moment to adjust but that was quickly interrupted when minho says to start thrusting as he spanks the reader yet again-jisung smirks as reader starts thrusting-its not as steady or even precise as chan due to readee already having been stimulated-jisung would degrade that reader is like a desperate and mindless animal rutting away- minho harshly shoves his fingers in reader in order to keep chan's cum in as lube. - jisung gets impatient and asks the reader to fuck chan harder as he tugs on the leash, "put your hands on his pecs as well"- tears are streaming down chan's eyes as seungmin laughs at him. the second readers hand unwillingly squeezes around his lord's chest-chan whines even louder, cumming already from the shame of it all. (both order's can't believe how much of a turn on this actually kind of is-)

the reader cums as he falls on top of chan-ensue the three doms fucking both to the point of passing out and then some-(the pictures have been sent at this point and a certain fox eyed god's interest has been piqued....while the other more wholesome god is certainly very surprised...)

after that whole thing with minho-jisung and seungmin will slightly be more possesive with reader and chan respectively, (the order's are definitely not as stubborn as they were, the brattiness is there cuz pride duh but fucking eachother and then getting fucked until they passed out was a very eye opening experience...especially when they got gagged with the minho's cum soaked boxer omg-)

when the next session happens, two new god's make an appearance.....

to be continued when you reply to this! also, i'd like to ask on what kind of god's do you think hyunjin, changbin, felix and jeongin would be if they make an appearance hehe. (i thought of changbin being minho's right hand man, a servant with the highest possible rank, and an expert in spreading the horny agenda. cause he's changbin sooooo- he'd like to be worshipped like a god though so an interest in reader and chan as well hehe-💕)

IF IT IS ALRITE!

Ceo Seungmin vs Sugar Daddy Jeongin is *chefs kiss* as always I feel like reader wouldn't be able to pick between the two so it may end up poly 😭 Poly with Rivalry maybe cuz ofc we all know Ceo Seung and Sugar Daddy Jeongin cant get along at all 🤧 They have sessions alone with reader and ofc also sessions that has both of them competing again

Its a must at this point 😭 Like they would make them fuck each other first not only to solidify their clear dominance over the two but also because to break them down and humiliate them little by little! Oh and cockstepping is a must too 🤧 like i can just imagine them stepping on the cock of the one who is getting fucked maybe they'll even command the reader or chan to eat their cums from each other's holes ?! 😭

Its so hot please, like reader would definitely be crying at this point as he prays, after Jisung's takes out Minho's cum soaked boxers — he would gag chan this time with it and tell him to listen carefully to his servant's prayers with a grin. So while reader is praying as he gets his ass fucked by chan's Seungmin maybe got a bit too impatient and decided to join in by slowly fingering Chan's leaking hole so eager to fuck his toy at this point and while Chan is choking reader, reader would roll his eyes at back of his head as he comes untouched — Seungmin would command him to clean reader's cum as a thanks for his prayer to his oh so lovely lord.

Oh yeah— defo Seungmin would do that to with Chan maybe even smear his spit on chans teeth with his fingers ?! 😭 Minho would be standing there in the side– while it isnt his place to get jealous he would definitely want to join in.

While reader is already humiliated enough while fucking his own god (cuz its taboo in their city) they would make reader choke Chan as well (nothing a few spanks and slaps cant handle) then while Chan is on the verging of cumming they would make the reader stop moving as reader listens to his god's helpless whines and then while squeezing Chan's pecs for like the 2nd term edging the god, they finally allowed Chan to cum and its so much that it hits reader's face 😭. Also while Minho's taking pictures of their cum stained used bodies he'd also take video recordings of Chan and Reader getting spitroasted by Seung and Ji 👌 and yes Minho's cum soaked boxers will always be one of the best kinks to ever exist 😭

oh for the gods as the other member here made from my imagination:

Jeongin is the god of discord, chaos and war! His city is known to have the highest crime rate out of all of them and in that city survival of the fittest is the motto

THE Changbin idea is so good too and I actually hard to think for Binnie 😭 the first thing that came to my mind is the God of Ambitions and Freedom— maybe his city would be center to all other gods as they come to his city to achieve a higher goal or like leave their own city of worship behind, while he is powered by worship he doesnt crave it!

For good ol' Hyunjin, he'd be the god of purity, beauty and nature, his city would be in a forest like area with a huge tree at the center (think of like a fae type place!)

And last but not the least, Felix would be the god of arts, crafts and creativity! Since Felix gives off soft boy vibes and his love for baking (baking is an art) His city would be the biggest out of all of em cuz like its split into two parts: Technology and Design — it is like the major industry city 🤧.

[icharchivist]

I appreciate your rant about the specifics and nuance of French language and culture and as a person who doesn't speak French, I also think "shut the fuck up" is more appropriate in this context, because that is simply how you're supposed to deal with transphobes :)

aww i'm glad it served a nice insight!

Like, i do think translations are also an interpretative job and everything but. yeah, there's definitely times where the background helps, and in most cases personally i'd say to not hesitate to really translate the swear words as is. French people /also/ consider them vulgar, it's just that vulgarity isn't as big of a deal as in English if that makes sense? So trying to make it less vulgar so it hits correctly feels a like missing the point and would also be a case by case situation if you really want to showcase that "in this context it's not as vulgar so for an english person i should make it less vulgar"

but in this case it's a clear "shut the fuck up". He even specifically says "ohhh, ta gueule", and the "ooh" onomatopoeia here is really used to show your annoyance. It's like almost spitting the way you sigh to show you're genuinely pissed. Like you're charging your insult like a fighting game attack before sending your punch.

Honestly "Ta gueule" is really in this spot where you already don't say it kindly to people, if you do it's meant to be playfully vulgar, like you'd gently punch a friend on the shoulder, but at worst it's still meant to be a punch.

Add this "oooh" and it really shows you really pissed off the person telling you to shut it, and that they're genuinely cutting you out so you don't try to keep your point.

and imo this is what makes this "Ta Gueule" so good because YEAH. this is how you reply to a transphobe. You don't even let them go on with their argument, you genuinely just tell them to shut the fuck up while showing that you're annoyed by their very existence and that they're a waste of breath.

I haven't watched the Groland since i was a kid (i was never a fan so i'd only catch it if my parents were watching it), so when i saw this clip i was genuinely happy that they were using their platform which *would* attract mostly edgy people, and ended up being really serious and sweet on the "and you're happy" part (his voice is extremely gentle there for instance, from what i recall of his way to present the show otherwise), while also making it clear that if you're going to oppose to that happiness you have no place in any type of debate.

The whole point of the skit is "don't debate with bigots" and also, don't be kind to them. they deserve the slap in the face to know that they're wasting everyone's time and are the most annoying person in the room.

France isn't progressive when it comes to trans rights, it's been a uphill battle for the past years (there's also something about how the bigotted debates we get that aren't directly linked to actuality are usually like "American bullshit argument but 5 years later"). A lot of other chanels like Cnews (not to confuse with Canal+) are absolutely vile about it (the equivalent would be Fox News in the US).

So it /is/ nice that this program is actually tackling it like this, and the violence of the "shut the fuck up" is the point. Everything about it is meant to be a slap in the face, it's meant to be kind of humiliating to the person receiving it.

which is what transphobes deserve so, justice to our way to tell people to shut the fuck up!!

[unidentifiedfuckingthing]

actually untrue the animation in earthspark is another thing they did really well. the models are pretty terrible imo like the robots faces look fucking weird like everyone was saying even before the show dropped but i also dislike the stylization of the human characters and how the kids look like theyre from completely different shows because they indicated that the little sister was younger and a girl by giving her huge eyes in an otherwise relatively realistic style. i just think thats cheap. and i dont really love the render style it feels very like 2006 we just learned about 3d lighting. but the animation is SO great they did a really good job doing the like spiderverse style 2d graphics additions to 3d scenes and the action animation is unexpectedly sick. that 1 fight scene someone posted the storyboard/2d animatic for on twitter was genuinely really good. it feels like the 1 part of the show that really knows what it wants to be and everything else was just kind of given the directions "be a good nickelodeon show" and slapped together as many generic elements as it could to meet the prompt.

like im not that betrayed because i dont think it was really supposed to be genre defining or anything and thats already a low bar to hit for the kind of show it is but it is kind of funny like its like the dril candles tweet they put so much of that sweet sweet hasbro money into good storyboarders and expensive voice actors but absolutely nothing into the concept art or the modelers or the voice direction or the plot. i also love that theyre clearly trying to hit as many diversity points in the shortest amount of time possible but still did the "this guys evil BECAUSE HES SCARY VISIBLY DISABLED!!!!!" plotline but tried to redirect criticism by saying that one of the good guys also has a disability. like thats great but you still made a guy want to commit genocide explicitly because hes an amputee and is misdirecting his anger into racism. you didnt even use it as an opportunity to tear down the trope you just Did it. whats the point to all of it then.

like ultimately it seems like theyre making a pretty good show about navigating the world as a mixed race kid and i also think thats a really fun lens to view tf from but i wish they werent trying to do everything with it because i think theyre doing a bad job.

and they couldve maybe not named that transformer hashtag either

[mumblesplash]

wait what's your dick characterization then? in a pervious ask you mentioned you had a pretty concrete perception of dick... do you mind sharing?

oh not at all, although it’s kinda hard for me to figure out how to put stuff like this into words so apologies in advance if this gets a little all over the place

this might be a bit of a weird place to start but given that i’m an artist i have an easier time thinking in terms of visuals, so first off: when i think ‘dick grayson’ i’m almost always referring to nightwing, but i consider ‘used to be robin’ such an integral part of his character that it informs a significant chunk of his design. like i usually draw his hair neatly cropped and parted symmetrically down the middle, reminiscent of but not exactly the same as this kind of hairstyle:

which is kinda funny considering when i do draw him as robin i just have his hair sticking up all over the place, but in my defense i think he’s too young to care about his hair here

it’s not all about surface level looks though, i see even modern nightwing dick as evoking the general vibe of golden age comics, if more in idealism than aesthetics. he’s got kind of a boy scout thing going on, and it feeds into his approach to vigilantism more than anything else. that’s part of why, if you’re prone to noticing these sorts of things, i always draw him as having better posture and more dramatic body language in costume than in civvies

might be as good a time as any to bring up that i think dick is a standout case among all the bats concerning his secret identity — i think nightwing and dick grayson are distinct aspects of his personality, but they are both equally Him. to contrast—there’s an argument to be had as to whether or not batman is the ‘real’ bruce, at the very least his two identities seem starkly separated from each other, i don’t see cass as being meaningfully distinct from black bat/orphan(?) at all, to jason red hood is a symbol and a statement and a threat, to damian robin is a legacy, etc. dick grayson and nightwing are just different genuine pieces of the same person.

as for more specific personality stuff, despite the Classic Superhero streak i think dick is ultimately more devoted to people than any kind of moral code. so like for instance the fact that he follows the no-kill rule has much more to do with loyalty to bruce than his own ideals. i don’t think he *wants* to kill in general (more than anything else i see dick grayson as just a deeply, profoundly Good person. not to say he’s perfect or can’t make mistakes, but in my more melodramatic moments i’d just outright say his real superpower is having the strongest moral compass in the entire dc universe) but his strict adherence to that rule isn’t due to personal conviction or some kind of necessary self-control

on an interpersonal level (and i’m keeping this within the batfam bc 1) limited knowledge and 2) this is already getting long) i’ve mentioned before i think he’s got a serious case of eldest daughter syndrome, but unlike most such cases he’s actually pretty well equipped for dealing with it. to an extent. he takes on responsibility almost automatically, and has an impressive capacity for managing people and anticipating what they need (emotionally or otherwise). combined with his experience leading a team, his training, and being a naturally gifted strategist, he has a hard time justifying looking the other way when his family needs him. unfortunately he’s also one of those people who keeps operating at peak performance right up until the second he falls apart entirely, and he’s much more cognizant of his physical limits than his emotional ones.

(relatedly but kind of a side note, i have a whole Thing about his relationship with damian i’m very in my feelings about it don’t look at me)

imo the fanon idea of him as The Fun One or the emotional one is wildly oversimplified and downplays his competence, but there’s a little bit of truth to it, in that a lot about dick grayson flies directly in the face of the darkness he’s surrounded by. tbh if i had my way he would always be written specifically as a slap in the face to anyone who sees kindness as naive, but i understand that my desire to weaponize fiction in response to things i find mildly irritating is “unsustainable” and “you can’t just do literally everything out of spite” or whatever

but also lowkey i think my joke character summary for him from way back in like january when i knew almost nothing abt dc and was p much just poking fun at the fandom still kinda hits

[28whitepeonies]

Hi bea

Hope you're doing well. Do you have a ranking of all tracks for fitf yet? I am curious to know, if you are comfortable sharing of course. :)

Hello anon

Indeed I do, and if you don't mind I'll commentate my ranking choices because I haven't ever been succinct!

Silver tongues - I think this is potentially my favourite song he's made ever. I think that live experience really comes through on the very best songs

Written all over your face - a very, very close second. I live for the kind of snarky lyrics and early Arctic Monkeys vibe

That's the way love goes - I think this was done a bit dirty by the songs preceding it, I bought the 2 vinyl deluxe and I can only assume it was a deliberate choice to have D side with four quite slow, ballad-y songs but I think it didn't do this justice. Anyway, I love it, it is very reminiscent of the streets to me and I spent a while listening to nothing but a grand don't come for free as a teenager.

Chicago - won't hear any slander, it's a banger to belt out in the car, in the lift, in the shower, literally anywhere

Lucky again - Okay was interested in the changes between the leaked version and this, this version defo fits the album a lot better and the lyrics give me all the feels

Out of my system - wasn't my fave as a single but hearing it on the album I enjoy it more. It's short and punchy and I think the drumbeat will slap live!

The greatest - Great opener, not my fave but think it will be banging for live shows and does a pretty good job at setting the tone of the album.

She is beauty we are world class - the chorus reminds me a lot of The Killers - 'are we one or are we two/are we me or are we you'/'are we human or are we dancer'. It got a lot more interesting after the toilet story because I enjoy how very silly and British that feels, so it has moved up about 5 places as a result.

Holding on to heartache - I think if it was a tiny bit faster or louder I'd bump it up a few spots. Lyrically it's pretty great, the whole 'you say I wear it like a crown' it's just a bit slow and in my humble opinion had it been placed elsewhere on the tracklist I might have been more generous.

All this time - When it comes on I enjoy it, but I am liable to forget it exists otherwise so it gets a mid spot

Face the music - I want to love it for the line 'I don't wanna face the music but I still wanna dance with you' but it feels a wee bit cliche for me personally

Common people - How do you name a song after the banger that is that brit-pop classic and then release what is a lyrically great song but imo just way too slow? I think it could have punched you in the guts but it's more of a wet slap.

Saturdays - Every time I see the title I think of Sam Fender's song Saturday, and they share some similar themes - 'if Saturday don't come soon I'm gonna lose my mind/we used to say Saturdays take the pain away' and I wouldn't be surprised to hear that was part of the influence, it's just that I like Sam's song more.

Headline - We obv got the lyrics way ahead of the songs release and I expected this to go hard and be like noisy, which is obviously a me problem, but it didn't live up to expectations for me. It's fine, I love the way he sounds when he sings the second verse it's just not one I'll play on repeat

Angels fly - I think it's fine, I just don't connect to it a lot

Bigger than me - sorry but I think it's really boring, it's the only song I sometimes skip and in response pls enjoy my favourite scene from Gavin & Stacey

Two things to add overall

First is that I am of course a hater and more likely to comment on stuff I don't like than the opposite so I wanna be really really clear that I do actually really really like this album. There are a couple of things I think will change by LT3 and I am very very excited for tour and for what comes next.

Second, I am really excited to hear the live arrangements and wonder if he'll make any changes - one of my fave songs is Regretamine by Louis Dunford and on it's initial release it was a proper slow one but he really amped it up for live shows and it slaps so much more. Louis can perform his songs however he wishes to, but I am looking forward to hearing his set live because I think it is clear he has really crafted them with that in mind x

[imo-chan-imagines]

hello, imo-chan! can we all have some cockwarming fkbu headcanons? i really love your work ♡

Cockwarming / FKBU headcanons

Characters: fem!reader, Kambe Daisuke, Katou Haru

Tags/warnings: Fugou Keiji Balance: Unlimited (anime),18+, smut, lil' bit of fluff cause I'm so freaking soft for these two 🥺, cockwarming, smidge of daddy kink for Daisuke, hint of a breeding kink for Haru, headcanons, request

A/N: Yes, Anon, you absolutely can!! Thanks so much for requesting these 😇 And that's so sweet of you! I'm glad you like my stuff! I hope this makes a good Valentine's Day present ♡

⚠️ 18+ CONTENT! MINORS: PLEASE DO NOT INTERACT ⚠️

♤ Kambe Daisuke ♤

Daisuke, everyone's fav kinky boy, likes you cockwarming him as a kind of game/initiation for sex. It's a bit of fun for him

He likes to test your limits, tease you, make you behave, etc. hello daddy kink 👀

He'll have you on his cock on the sofa, facing out and watching something on Netflix or whatever, and you won't be allowed to move your hips at all, or you'll get swift slap nothing too hard, but he does like to play rough

He knows it's demanding and that it drives you crazy not being able to move with him inside you but that's the point, babygirl 😇

Be a bad girl and he'll scold you every now and then with a deep thrust or two, just to leave your body aching for it even more than before

But be a good girl for him, and he'll slowly start to draw circles around your clit with his fingers

And if you moan all nice and prettily for him, and take it just like he asked you to, he'll let you cum around his cock ❤

But start to buck your hips and he'll immediately stop, give you another hard smack, and go back to the waiting game and he will continue to edge you like this until you can behave

If you were good, after all this, he'll reward you with some 'proper' sex

He will be so fucking hard and aching for it, he will literally rail you into the sofa/mattress/desk/ground etc. 🥵

A round or two of some hard, fast stuff, or maybe some slow, deep rounds if that's what you want

Speaking of what you want: be good during his little game, and he will give you THE WORLD afterwards. Literally whatever you want, sexually or otherwise

And he will praise the shit out of you too 🥺

"You were so good babygirl, not getting carried away like that, just because daddy asked"

"So pretty and obedient. You've made daddy very happy. Now let daddy make you feel good"

Etc. Stuff like that. You're his little angel 🥺🤧

But if you were really naughty, then he didn't even let you cum, and you're definitely not getting any good dick after, sorry boo 😔

Okay, so one of his favourite times to play this game is when he's at his desk doing work and you're being needy 🤭 if it's at his desk, he'll have you facing him rather than outwards

Not that there aren't times he's more than willing to let his needy, little baby sit on his thigh/cock and get herself off on him while he works. That's just not true. He enjoys that too 🤗

But he likes doing at his desk because, when he rails you after, he can fuck you into the desk, which is one of his favourite things to do 🤪

Daisuke definitely enjoys the addition of cockwarming to the *cough* dynamic that you two have going. It adds a little spice and variety

But it's not just that. I don't know if you'd say he actually has a cockwarming kink because he doesn't fixate on it, but he does like the connection, and the feeling of you being around him for extended periods of time

It's also very comforting and stress-relieving

It's because of this that it's not the only time he'll do it

Sometimes, he'll stay inside you for a little while after having sex, hold you close and breathe in your scent it's very relaxing 🥺🤧

But that's only every now and then

Y'all, I'm tearing up, like 🥲😭

Would he secretly do it in front of other people? (like under a blanket or something)

Probably 🤤 as long as you were okay with it. Consent, y'all 🙌

Okay, but like, imagine: him whispering dirty little things in your ear, deep and rasping, his breath ghosting over your neck as his hands grip your hips and ever so slightly gyrate our hips around his cock. And all the while you're trying not to make a noise in front of everyone. I- 😳

And now I'm being taken away to horny jail. I shall take my leave💀

♡ Katou Haru ♡

For Haru, cockwarming is much more of a personal, romantic thing than a kinky thing, if you get me

Staying inside you while you curl up together after sex is basically his favourite thing to do 🥺

He loves the feeling of being so close to you – literally inside you – but this time in a non-sexual way

Physical and emotional connection is so important to him 🥺🥰

Catch him wrapping his hands around you, burying his head in your neck, playing with your hair, and peppering your back, neck and shoulders with kisses and love bites

Not that cockwarming is completely non-sexual for him. He definitely gets sexual gratification from staying inside you especially if he came inside you 🤫😏

It just sort of completes the experience 😚

If you wanted to try a game-type punishment/reward scenario with him, he wouldn't be outright opposed to it, but he might be a bit bashful and need some convincing

He'll probably be the one struggling not to move, though. Just saying 🤭

I can definitely see Haru as the kind to like casual cockwarming, without much of a sexual thing going on, once he gets introduced to it

Just, like, having you sitting on his cock while he finishes up some paperwork, or sitting watching TV, maybe even doing it discreetly while being on a video call with someone oop 🙊🙈

He might be a bit embarrassed about it at first, but the more you do it, the less it bothers him

It's like a cute bonding experience???

Like, fuck yes 😩 just spending quality time with him inside you like that

Not that it never turns sexual. You might have been sitting with him inside your for close to an hour while he's busy, but the desire has just been building in him non stop, and before you know it, he's bucking up into you, his hands pulling at your clothes and his work forgotten, because he neEDS TO FUCK YOU, LIKE RIGHT NOW

Needy Haru is my weakness 😩 Like, YES. Satisfy yourself in my pussy 🥺 Cum inside me in me as much as you want, Detective 🤤

*cough* enough about me...

I guess you could say Haru has more of a cockwarming kink than Daisuke does, but it's...less 'kinky' in a sexual way??

Does this even make any sense anymore??? Does anyone get what I mean?? Because it makes sense to me 😭

The times it does get more sexual is normally just after he's first inside you during sex

Sometimes he'll pause after easing all the way in and just ask for you to both stop for while, so he can feel you around him, the anticipation and sensations eating away at him

The first time he tried that, he literally came from nothing else, he found it so arousing 🤫

When he does that, you can lowkey maybe hiGHKEY feel him getting bigger and harder inside you LIKE–

He probably didn't even realise he was into this kind of thing

It was just that, one time he forgot to actually pull out before falling asleep. And then he woke up the next morning, you in his arms, looking like an angel sent from heaven basking in the light streaming through the windows, feeling the most rested he's ever felt, his heart swelling in his chest, and tears of bliss pricking at his eyes, and he just–

He was in love if he somehow wasn't before

I'm LITERALLY bawling over here 😭😭 Why do I do this to myself? 🤡

Haru is pretty shy about all this, though. He would literally NEVER tell anyone else about it because he just knows they won't understand he's taking it to the GRAVE 💀😂

Earlier on when you first started getting into it, he used to get all flushed and embarrassed about having the verbalise asking if you wanted to sit on his cock, or if he could stay inside you after sex so freaking cute 🥺

He really went >//<

Which is why, as you two got more used to the concept and each other's wants and needs, and less talking was needed, he settled into it way more

But he really just loves spending this quality time with you, whether or not it ends up in sex

Catch me casually sitting on my man Haru's dick while we read the newspaper together or something 🥺

Can you tell I'm alone this Valentine's Day? 🤡

Okay, that's it from me. Peace out, my bambinos✌😋

© imo-chan-imagines 2021

[pumpkinpaix]

Hello! Feel free not to answer this question if it is in any way too much, but I've been wondering about something concerning the "western" mdzs fandom. Lately, i have seen multiple pieces of fanart that use what is clearly Christian symbolism and sometimes downright iconography in depicting the characters. I'm a european fan, but it still makes me vaguely uneasy. I know that these things are rarely easy to judge. I'm definitely not qualified to do so and was wondering if you have an opinion

Hi there! thank you for your patience and for the interesting question! I’ve been thinking about this since i received this ask because it?? idk, it’s difficult to answer, but it also touches on a a few things that I find really interesting.

the short answer: it’s complicated, and I also don’t know what I feel!

the longer answer:

i think that this question is particularly difficult to answer because of how deeply christianity is tied to the western art and literary canon. so much of what is considered great european art is christian art! If you just take a quick glance at wiki’s page on european art, you can see how inextricable christianity is, and how integral christian iconography has been in the history of european art. If you study western art history, you must study christian imagery and christian canon because it’s just impossible to engage with a lot of the work in a meaningful way without it. that’s just the reality of it.

Christianity, of course, also has a strong presence in european colonial and imperialist history and has been used as a tool of oppression against many peoples and nations, including China. I would be lying if I said I had a good relationship with Christianity--I have always faced it with a deep suspicion because I think it did some very, very real damage, not just to chinese people, but to many cultures and peoples around the world, and that’s not a trauma that can be easily brushed aside or reconciled with.

here is what is also true: my maternal grandmother was devoutly christian. my aunt is devoutly christian. my uncle’s family is devoutly christian. my favorite cousin is devoutly christian. when I attended my cousin’s wedding, he had both a traditional chinese ceremony (tea-serving, bride-fetching, ABSURDLY long reception), and also a christian ceremony in a church. christianity is a really important part of his life, just as it’s important to my uncle’s family, and as it was important to my grandmother. I don’t think it’s my right or place to label them as simply victims of a colonialist past--they’re real people with real agency and choice and beliefs. I think it would be disrespectful to act otherwise.

that doesn’t negate the harm that christianity has done--but it does complicate things. is it inherently a bad thing that they’re christian, due to the political history of the religion and their heritage? that’s... not a question I’m really interested in debating. the fact remains that they are christian, that they are chinese, and that they chose their religion.

so! now here we are with mdzs, a chinese piece of media that is clearly Not christian, but is quickly gaining popularity in euroamerican spaces. people are making fanart! people are making A LOT of fanart! and art is, by nature, intertextual. a lot of the most interesting art (imo) makes deliberate use of that! for example (cyan art nerdery time let’s go), Nikolai Ge’s What is Truth?

I love this painting! it’s notable for its unusual depiction of christ: shabby, unkempt, slouched, in shadow. if you look for other paintings of this scene, christ is usually dignified, elegant, beautiful, melancholy -- there’s something very humanizing and humbling about this depiction, specifically because of the way it contrasts the standard. it’s powerful because we as the audience are expected to be familiar with the iconography of this scene, the story behind it, and its place in the christian canon.

you can make similar comments about Gentileschi’s Judith vs Caravaggio’s, or Manet’s Olympia vs Ingres’ Grande Odalisque -- all of these paintings exist in relation to one another and also to the larger canon (i’m simplifying: you can’t just compare one to another directly in isolation etc etc.) Gauguin’s Jacob Wrestling the Angel is also especially interesting because of how its portrayal of its content contrasts to its predecessors!

or! because i’m really In It now, one of my favorite paintings in the world, Joan of Arc by Bastien-Lepage:

I just!!! gosh, idk, what’s most interesting to me in this painting is the way it seems to hover between movements: the hyperrealistic, neoclassical-esque take on the figure, but the impressionistic brushstrokes of the background AAA gosh i love it so much. it’s really beautiful if you ever get a chance to see it in person at the Met. i’m putting this here both because i personally just really like it and also as an example of how intertextuality isn’t just about content, but also about visual elements.

anyways, sorry most of this is 19thc, that was what i studied the most lol.

(a final note: if you want to read about a really interesting painting that sits in the midst of just a Lot of different works, check out the wiki page on Géricault’s Raft of the Medusa, specifically under “Interpretation and Legacy”)

this is all a really long-winded way of getting to this point: if you want to make allusory fanart of mdzs with regards to western art canon, you kind of have to go out of your way to avoid christian imagery/iconography, especially when that’s the lens through which a lot of really intensely emotional art was created. many of my favorite paintings are christian: Vrubel’s Demon, Seated, Perov’s Christ in the Garden of Gethsemane, Ge’s Conscience, Judas, Bastien-Lepage’s Joan of Arc, as shown above. that’s not to say there ISN’T plenty of non-christian art -- but christian art is very prominent and impossible to ignore.

so here are a few pieces of fanwork that I’ve seen that are very clearly making allusions to christian imagery:

1. this beautiful pietà nielan by tinynarwhals on twitter

2. a lovely jiang yanli as our lady of tears by @satuwilhelmiina

3. my second gif in this set here, which I will also show below:

i’m only going to talk about mine in depth because well, i know exactly what i was thinking when I put this gif together while I can’t speak for anyone else.

first: the two lines of the song that I wanted to use for lan xichen were “baby, I’m a fighter//in the robes of a saint” because i felt that they fit him very well. of course, just the word “saint” evokes catholicism, even if it’s become so entwined in the english language that it’s taken on a secular meaning as well.

second: when I saw this scene, my immediate thought was just “PIETÀ!!” because LOOK at that composition! lan xichen’s lap! nie mingjue lying perpendicular to it! the light blue/white/silver of lan xichen in contrast to the darker robes of both nie mingjue and meng yao! not just that, but the very cool triangular structure of the image is intensely striking, and Yes, i Do love that it simultaneously ALSO evokes deposition of christ vibes. (baxia as the cross.... god..... is that not the Tightest Shit) does this make meng yao joseph of arimathea? does it make him john the evangelist? both options are equally interesting, I think when viewed in relation to his roles in the story: as a spy in qishan and as nmj’s deputy. maybe he’s both.

anyways, did I do this intentionally? yes, though a lot of it is happy accident/discovered after the fact since I’m relying on CQL to have provided the image. i wanted to draw attention to all of that by superimposing that line over that image! (to be clear: I didn’t expect it to all come through because like. that’s ridiculous. the layers you’d have to go through to get from “pretty lxc gifset” --> “if we cast nie mingjue as a christ figure, what is the interesting commentary we could do on meng yao by casting him as either joseph of arimathea or john the evangelist” are like. ok ur gonna need to work a little harder than slapping a song lyric over an image to achieve an effect like that.)

the point of this is: yes, it’s intentionally christian, yes I did this, yes I am casting these very much non-christian characters into christian roles for this specific visual work -- is this okay?

I obviously thought it was because I made it. but would I feel the same about a work that was written doing something similar? probably not. I think that would make me quite uncomfortable in most situations. but there’s something about visual art that makes it slightly different that I have trouble articulating -- something about how the visual often seeks to illustrate parallels or ideas, whereas writing characters as a different religion can fundamentally change who those characters are, the world they inhabit, etc. in a more... invasive?? way. that’s still not quite right, but I genuinely am not sure how to explain what i mean! I hope the general idea comes across. ><

something else to think about is like, what are pieces I find acceptable and why?

what makes the pieces above that reference christian imagery different than this stunning nieyao piece by @cyandemise after klimt’s kiss? (warnings for like, dead bodies and vague body horror) like i ADORE this piece (PLEASE click for fullview it’s worth it for the quality). it’s incredibly beautiful and evocative and very obviously references a piece of european art. I have no problem with it. why? because it isn’t explicitly christian? it’s still deeply entrenched in western canon. klimt certainly made other pieces that were explicit christian references.

another piece I’d like to invite you all to consider is this incredible naruto fanart of sakura and ino beheading sasuke after caravaggio’s judith. (warnings for beheading, blood, etc. you know.) i also adore this piece! i think it’s very good both technically and conceptually. the reference that it makes has a real power when viewed in relation to the roles of the characters in their original story -- seeing the women that sasuke fucked over and treated so disrespectfully collaborating in his demise Says Something. this is also!! an explicitly christian reference made with non-christian japanese characters. is this okay? does it evoke the same discomfort as seeing mdzs characters being drawn with christian iconography? why or why not?

the point is, I don’t think there’s a neat answer, but I do think there are a lot of interesting issues surrounding cultural erasure/hegemony that are raised by this question. i don’t think there are easy resolutions to any of them either, but I think that it’s a good opportunity to reexamine our own discomfort and try and see where it comes from. all emotions are valid but not all are justified etc. so I try to ask, is it fair? do i apply my criticisms and standards equally? why or why not? does it do real harm, or do i just not like it? what makes one work okay and another not?

i’ve felt that there’s a real danger with the kind of like, deep moral scrutiny of recent years in quashing interesting work in the name of fear. this morality tends to be expressed in black and white, good and bad dichotomies that i really do think stymies meaningful conversation and progress. you’ll often see angry takes that boil down to things like, “POC good, queer people good, white people bad, christianity bad” etc. without a serious critical examination of the actual issues at hand. I feel that these are extraordinarily harmful simplifications that can lead to an increased insularity that isn’t necessarily good for anyone. there’s a fine line between asking people to stay in their lane and cultural gatekeeping sometimes, and I think that it’s something we should be mindful of when we’re engaging in conversations about cultural erasure, appropriation etc.

PERHAPS IT IS OBVIOUS that I have no idea where that line falls LMAO since after all that rambling I have given you basically nothing. but! I hope that you found it interesting at least, and that it gives you a bit more material to think on while you figure out where you stand ahaha.

was this just an excuse to show off cool (fan)art i like? maybe ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

(ko-fi)

[bopbopstyles]

hey! can you write something about a kink of asking harry to hit you in the face? just asking him to slap your face and then he calls you a whore i know i'm weird. thank you so much :)

u are not weird!!! this is a common kink that when done consensually is 100% okay imo :) kinksame, bruh. i have not personally done this tho, so my response to this is going to based entirely off of my imagination. enjoy!

also i was mid-way through writing this and saw this gif which i’ve incorporated so enjoy.

warning: face slapping, slight degradation (consensual)

You couldn’t stop thinking about it. 

The idea had started when you were at a girl’s night with your best friends and someone brought up fantasies. One of your other friends mentions face slapping, and suddenly the thought wouldn’t leave your mind. 

It wasn’t like your sex life with Harry wasn’t good, either. You two experimented a bit in the bedroom, but your boyfriend was such a softie that anything too harsh had him hesitating. When he’d slapped your ass for the first time, he’d asked you three times if you were okay before doing it again. So you knew if it wasn’t going to happen (which you desperately wanted it to) if would have to be on your suggestion. 

You had been horny all fucking day. Harry had been in conference call after conference call, but you had a day off (a “skeleton day” you boss called it, where work was optional, and you never worked if you didn’t have to). Usually on days like these you took advantage of Harry being less busy than you, and would end up in and out of bed all day. But today, he paid you very little attention and you were about to go into your bedroom and take care of it yourself. 

When the clock struck five o’clock you decided enough was enough. You knew how to make Harry pay attention to you, how to press all of his buttons, how to get him horny in under ten seconds. So, you went into your shared bedroom and stripped off all your clothes and replaced you regular bra and underwear with a lacy black set he’d bought you that left very little to the imagination. Then, you went into the closet and picked through the shirts on his side, before settling on a light blue silk button down that would bring out the blue in your eyes. You pulled it on, leaving it unbuttoned except for one in the middle of your stomach and tugged your hair from its bun.

You wanted to have some fun tonight, and Harry was going to give it to you. 

He was still in his office, but you didn’t hear the sound of his voice, instead just the click of computer keys. You pushed open the door which was ajar, and stepped into the room, drawing Harry’s eyes up to you. 

His Adam’s apple bobbed--you could see it from where you stood--as he took in your appearance. Then, in a gravely voice he said, “’s that my shirt?”

“It is.” You took steps towards him, keeping his eyes on yours while you moved. “Was hoping you could take it off.”

“Fuck,” he breathed as you rounded the corner of his desk, stopping a pace away from him. “Yeah, I can do that, love.”

His hands reached out and you closed the distance, so they rested on the skin of your hips. His fingers pressed in a bit harshly, the cold of his rings singing your flushed skin and you loved it. He crept up your torso, the callused pads of his fingers brushing over you as he reached the button. When he popped it, the shirt fell open, the lace over your breasts coming into to full view. 

A low groan left Harry’s mouth as he took in the sight in front of him. “Didn’t pay any attention to you today, ‘s that it? That why I’m gettin’ such a treat?”

You brushed at his jaw, looking down at the harsh lines of his face. “I’ve been waiting all day,” you whispered and Harry gulped at your words. “Nearly soaked through my underwear at the thought of you.”

That had Harry standing up and pulling you up, your legs fitting around his waist as he carried you out of his office. Your lips pulled and prodded at the tender skin of his neck, nipping and drawing moans from him as you worked a bruise onto the side of neck, the one on the side you slept on so you could wake up in the morning and it be the first thing you saw. He was holding your hips so tightly you wondered if there’d be an imprint of his hand afterwards, but you didn’t mind. 

Kind of liked it, actually. 

He kicked open the door to your room and dropped you to the bed, the duvet puffing up around you. “You,” he said between harsh kisses to your lips, “are going to be,” you moaned when his fingers pushed at your bra strap, “the death of me.”

His shirt was pooling at your wrists, and your chest was rising and falling under his touch. You knew this is when you had to mention what you wanted, otherwise you would be far too gone to have this conversation with him. “H,” you said, drawing his eyes from your chest to your face. “I want to try something.”

His eyebrows quirked. “Okay.”

“I want you to slap me.”

“Your ass? Already do that.” He leaned back in to kiss you, but you pressed a hand to his chest, stopping him.

“My face.”

Your words fell like bricks in the quiet room. His eyes widened and you could see his body still at the prospect of what you wanted. “What?”

“I want you to slap my face,” you said and each time you said it you were more sure it was what you wanted. 

But Harry was conflicted, you could see it written all over his face. “Y/N, I don’t know...”

“Want you to,” you said again, brushing at his chest delicately. “But if you don’t feel comfortable with it, we don’t have to. I know it’s a lot.”

Harry’s eyes flickered across your face, considering the idea. “I just don’t want to hurt you.”

You softened, a small smile forming on your lips. “You won’t. And I’ll tell you if it’s too much--promise.”

His fingers brushed across the smooth skin of your cheek, a loving touch you leaned into. “Okay,” he finally said. “But I need you to communicate with me? Tell me if you want more or less, all that.”

You nodded. But there was one more thing, one more thing that had been floating around in your head. “There’s one more thing.” Harry’s chin dipped, encouraging you to speak. “Can you call me names?”

His head quirked to the side. “Names?”

“Like...mean names.”

That same sharp exhale as before fell between you. "Mean names? Like what?”

He was going to make you spell it out, wasn’t he? “Whore.” You could feel a blush rising on your cheeks as the word left your mouth. 

You watched as Harry gnawed on his bottom lip, considering the request. But then, he nodded, ever so slightly. “I’ll do it,” he said, “but I want you to know that I don’t mean it outside of this scenario. Okay? You hear me?” You nodded, and Harry brushed at your cheeks again. “Any other requests?”

“You’ve got too many clothes on.”

That had Harry laughing, breaking the tension between you. “Well, I can take care of that.” He tugged at the buttons that secured his long-sleeved button down around his wrists, unfastening them. You watched and honestly, it was really fucking hot. When he slipped the shirt off, your hands were on him immediately, running over his exposed skin. Then he pushed off his pants, leaving him in just his underwear in front of him. “Better?”

“Much.” You crawled back on the bed, leaving the shirt of his you were wearing on the floor next to his pile of clothes. Harry followed you, tugging at your ankle when you got too far away, a yelp drawing from your chest that had you both laughing. You adored this part about sex with Harry--it was filled with moments like these that made you love him even more. 

He pushed your legs up and fit his hips between then, his dick resting innocently against your clothed center, and let your legs fall to either side of him. He was resting on his ankles, lips pink from kissing you, eyes blown out in desire as he took in the sight of you, barely clothed, sprawled out in front of him. Fucking goddess, you were, and he told you. “You want me to tell you before I do it?” He asked, fingers running circles over your thighs. 

You considered his words. “No, surprise me.”

Harry nodded, and then he was bending at the waist, licking over your nipples, the wet of his saliva soaking through the lace on your chest. Your breath heaved in your chest, desperate for more, anything more he would give you. “H, please.” He peeked up at you and knew what you wanted immediately. 

He reached behind your chest, hands smushed between your back and the bed, and unclasped your bra, tossing the material to the side without a care in the world. Then, he tugged your underwear and you lifted your legs up so he could pull them off. When he shifted, his dick nudged against you, the only thing between you being his boxers. And it was torture. You moaned wantonly, unable to contain yourself, and pulled at his arms wanting him closer. 

He met your lips with passion, drawing and pulling at your lips as he ground his hips into yours. You could feel him rock hard and you knew your wetness was all over his boxers. But all you could think was when was he going to do it? The anticipation was killing you. 

“Dripping for me,” he mumbled into your skin, his voice dropping an octave as he nipped at your bottom lip. “Feel that, baby? Goin’ to make me cum in my boxers.”

“H,” you panted, gripping his torso. You needed more, anything he could give you. 

He pulled away, and you had only met his eyes with yours when you felt the impact on your cheek. You realized he hadn’t taken off his rings, and you could feel the cut of them on your skin, the impact of metal on your face sending shock waves through you. 

And then, his words dripped into the space between you. “Squirming like a little whore underneath me, hmm? Want me to fuck you?” 

Your mind was a mess. Your breath was coming in pants, trying to absorb everything that was happening, the pain that had softened on your skin that had you pushing your face into his hand, desperate for more. His words made you buck your hips up, as if to say, Yes, please, yes. 

He bent towards you, and whispered in your ear, “’s that okay, angel?”

Checking in on you. Your sweet, sweet love. “Yeah,” you said, “felt good.”

“Want another?”

“Please.”

Harry wasted no time, delivered another sharp smack to your cheek. It wasn’t hard, not too intense where your head snapped to the side or anything. But it was enough to leave a sting, enough for you to moan his name and pull at his neck, reconnecting your lips. You wondered what your skin looked like, if it was red, if you could see the outlines of his rings. Kind of liked the idea, if you were being honest. 

“Fuck me,” you begged when he licked at your neck. “Please.”

He sucked at the juncture of your jaw and neck and you gasped, putty in his hands. “Yeah? My little whore wants me to fuck her?” You nodded, hands clenching in his hair. With a searing kiss to your lips, he pulled away. “Okay, baby.”

He turned, pushing his boxer briefs down and off his legs, before returning to you on the bed. Your legs moved to rest on etiher side of his hips, finding a home hooked around his beck. He didn’t waste any time--he pushed straight into you, burying himself to the hilt inside of you.

You both groaned from the feeling, your wetness making the slide easy. Harry’s head hung as he tried to hold himself together, and you couldn’t help yourself--you swiveled your hips up, wanting more. “Uh-huh,” he said though, holding your hips to the bed with his hand. “None of that. Goin’ to take what I give you, yeah?”

Your chin dipped, nodding fervently. You would do anything for him. And then he pulled out and back in, your walls gripping him tightly. Fingernails dug into his shoulders as you panted his name, curses falling from your lips without abandon. That’s when he let go, snapping his hips to yours in a fast rhythm, letting both of you chase your releases. You were close already, the foreplay leaving you squirming on the bed. 

Sweat dripped down both of your bodies as Harry pushed in and out of you, your legs shaking on his hips. His hand that wasn’t holding your hips down rested at the side of your head to hold his body up, and you watched in fascination as his muscles rippled under his skin, his biceps and shoulders tense and release with the movement of his hips. 

All you could hear were the noises between you, his hips hitting yours, the bed creaking, your wetness squelching between you, but you didn’t care in the slightest. It was the sound of you, the sound of him loving you in every way. “H,” you mumbled, hooking your arms around his neck. “Want you to come with me.”

As much as you were putty for him, he was wrapped around your finger in every shape and form. The foreplay you’d requested was surprisingly something he enjoyed, but it was all for you--he would do anything you asked. So when you requested him to come with you, it was a dream he didn’t want to wake up from.  “You goin’ to come for me, baby?”

The roughness of his words from before were gone, but you didn’t mind. You loved his tender petnames, the way his head sagged and he kissed at your breasts, leaving marks you’d prod at tomorrow and remember with a smile. 

“Come for me,” he begged, pistoning in and out of you with a a fervor. “Need it. I want to come with you, but need to feel you. Can you do that for me?” He was mumbling words without even processing what they were, his mind on fire. “Can you come for me? Promise I’ll come too. Fuck, I promise. love.” 

He fell to his elbow, chest pressed against yours as he kissed you. The closeness is what pushed you over the edge, the. desperation in his voice. You were clawing at his back, gasping his name, walls clenching tight around him as you came. The feeling of you around him had his hips stuttering, with one more push and then he was coming inside of you, shaking as he collapsed fully onto your body. 

Both of you gasped for breath, pulling in air as you fell from your highs. He stayed inside of you, both loving the feeling of closeness it provided. You scratched at his scalp and then down his spine, calming him and he did the same to your arms. You were both touch-starved people and needed the same thing after sex--soft brushes of skin, simple kisses, just a minute or two to gather yourselves. 

When you had, his head lifted to look at you. “How was that?” 

He was checking in, making sure he had done what you asked and not too much. His eyes were warm, full of adoration. “Perfect,” you told him, pushing at a curl on his forehead. “Did you like it?”

His elbows pushed him up so he could hover over your face. “Yeah, actually.” 

You smiled. “Guess we’ll have to do it every once and a while, then.”

He nudged at your jaw and pressed an open mouthed kiss there, smacking against your skin. “Good thing you’re so damn demanding, huh?”

You laughed, pushing at his head, and he quirked at smile at you, eyes as wild as yours. You two were made for each, you thought as you looked at him. Perfectly designed. 

wow this became long really fast

hope you liked it, anon!!!!!

[slugtranslation-hypmic]

Your thoughts on the anime made me smile like an idiot bc i can relate to it sm ToT

I watched the first episode with subtitles (and a friend - it’s always more fun with a buddy) so I am back with MORE thoughts: Subtitle Edition. Idk if they will be interesting to anyone, but here’s a sampling from the notes I took.

The Hypnosis Mics are not treated as proper nouns. They’re also called solely “mics”, never microphones. I thought this was a really unusual choice (and fwiw, although you can’t usually tell because of the fonts we use, the Hypmics are proper nouns in the manga).

It turns out an “act” and a “law” are not perfect synonyms of each other, so “H Law” (Funimation) is technically more correct than “H Act” (me). Oops.

Not sure how I feel about “Brother Ichi”. It certainly works for “Ichinii” and is pretty cute, but I do really dislike having siblings call one another “Brother” or “Sister”. While this is not always the case (especially in Asian-American households), it’s atypical for Americans to call their siblings that. I know there’s no exact reason Japan has to stick exactly to American English (and I’d REALLY like to talk sometime about some thoughts I’ve had in regards to removing my natural regiolect (regional dialect) from translation and/or creating a “new regiolect” purely for J -> E translation), but it does stick out like a sore thumb in otherwise American English.

Speaking of Brother Ichi, “Brother Ichi’d never lose” made me make this exact face:

I was surprised by how much characters in the MTC sequence used the word “fuck”. I’ve been learning (slowly - I have a natural potty mouth) that excessive swearing can very easily lead to your translation sounding quite childish, even if it would fly quite naturally in real life. This certainly didn’t sound childish, but I kept going, “Oh my god. Can they get away with that?” Loved the “fucking maggots” from Samatoki.

Juuto has a catchphrase in Japanese (やれやれ) that I’ve been using as either “Good grief” or “Good lord”. He didn’t say it in Japanese as far as I heard, but I did see the translation use “Oh my” for him at one point. I wonder if they’ll continue to use that going forward.

I take character voice very seriously for Hypmic, which means I will occasionally make some fairly arbitrary decisions in order to have each character sound unique and not simply various different shades of “me” speaking. (For instance, Sasara uses “man” rather excessively in English mostly because I started writing him that way due to a casual tone of voice and then it stuck. There’s nothing really in Japanese that suggests he should use that more frequently, but it’s there because it served me a purpose in English.) It’s veeeeery interesting for me to see someone else approach these characters and create their own voices for them, especially because the voices we’re writing match up a lot. Ramuda’s use of “pretty please” made me think of this, but other characters kind of surprised me too. Their Jakurai sounds a lot like mine (albeit a bit more forceful, which is a bit closer to the original imo) too, so much that I was kind of surprised when he said something I normally think of as a Gentarou line. I had to remind myself, “Duh, it’s not me writing this.” Still, it’s fascinating to me to watch someone else start out on their own and end up with relatively similar conclusions.

That being said. The elephant in the room. Gentarou. I’m kind of on the fence on whether or not I liked those choices. Gentarou speaks in Japanese with occasionally archaic language and (almost always) formal language. The archaic language he uses is called bungo, aka literary Japanese, which hasn’t been widely spoken or used since the early 20th century. Gentarou uses it because he’s - ding ding, you guessed it! - an author. Now, I know that I’m just biased... because I translate for another series which is written in a much more obnoxious hybridization of bungo and modern Japanese... but I don’t think Gentarou is that heavy of a bungo user to really necessitate the entire “thee” and “thou” thing. I also don’t particularly enjoy using these excessive archaisms for bungo because 19th - 20th century English literature doesn’t sound like this. It sounds more like extremely formal and verbose modern English, so I prefer to use that and throw in some outdated words from time and time again for similar effect. Of course, one could argue that 19th/20th century Japanese literature isn’t necessarily an exact approximation of 19th/20th century English literature, but bah, humbug. I don’t think anyone but me gives a damn about this anyway. Overall, I liked his speech style quite a bit besides that.

Also really enjoyed the use of “wee bit leery of lending more”. The “wee” almost suggests a British accent, and I will be the biggest advocate of British English Gentarou until the day I die. The choice of dialect can make or break a translation (would love to talk about this sometime too), and using British English for him among an otherwise American English-speaking cast would be STELLAR and BRILLIANT.

I was not at all fond of the use of “D’oh!” as one of the little “Gh!” or “Urp!” noises. Sound effects don’t tend to make, but they can absolutely break a translation. (Also know that I criminally awful at sound effects, so this is the pot calling the kettle black.) “D’oh!” brings to mind Homer Simpson, which is okay for Dice, but not... not good at all for Hifumi. Funimation subber, if you are reading this... I’m sorry... I don’t... I don’t like it...

slaps the table with both hands GOD, “COFFEE AND CHILL” IN THE FLING POSSE RAP IS SUCH A BRILLIANT LINE. (Original was “珈琲タイム” iirc - lit. coffee time) (Also while I’m here, I love the fact that “coffee” is written in Gentarou’s bungo whereas “time” is written in the style of Ramuda’s English loan words. Even the way the lyrics appear onscreen is a mixture of FP’s various styles.) This is such a quick and easy way to provide background about Ramuda’s flirtatious nature and put in a bit of harmless innuendo that often appears in Ramuda songs. This also handily explains the entire “Want to go grab a bite to eat?/How about we get a cup of tea?” thing that appears often in Japanese but is less natural in English. Who thought of this? You’re a genius. You deserve a medal.

I have Jakurai use phrases containing the word “I” a lot (in phrases like “I suppose that x”, “I’m afraid that y”, etc) as a way of softening his speech and making it sound like he’s more ... personally responsible for the words coming out of his mouth, I guess. The translator used quite a bit of those similar phrases, as I mentioned previously, which surprised me a good bit. They also used the phrase “I assure you” which is AN AMAZING line for Jakurai. It gives him a much firmer tone than I normally write him with but also suggests by way of similar sounds “reassuring” the listener and overall making him sound more confident and capable. This is so good. I’m going to steal it.

Overall, I thought it was a really solid translation with a lot of thought clearly put into it. I’m excited to see more work from this subber. Mr. Josh Cole, you are killing it. Huge shoutout as well to Kotonoha Consulting and Sarah Alys Lindholm for their work with the lyrics. Incredibly strong effort. Loved it.

On the other hand, it was a bit affirming to me to see that the quality wasn’t vastly different from some of my latest efforts. There were none of the awkward lines which are still prone to crop up in my work, and it was a good bit more creative than what I can normally produce. Additionally, Hypmic is, relatively speaking, fairly easy to translate if you ignore the god damn raps. All that being said... of course I won’t have the same experience as someone who has quite literally been working in Japanese teaching or translation for as long as I’ve been alive, but it’s enough to make me think that I can, conceivably, start selling my work for money in a couple more years. Whoo. Have to celebrate the little victories.

I’m so sorry to anyone who started reading this in the hopes that it would get interesting. It didn’t.

[woogurl]

It's so annoying going to woosan ship videos and seeing people constantly say, "I love their friendship" or "Don't ship them it could make them uncomfortable." But if you go to a taekook video the comments are like. "They're definitely real, you can't deny it." Even though woosan has so much more proof and evidence yet people in that comment section get mad because you ship woosan romantically. I swear this only happens with woosan.

here we go again with a rant/mini analysis of mines:

i think the problem here as that woosan constantly says that they’re friends. amicus ad aras means a friend till the end. so the fans feel that that is confirmation that their relationship is one between friends only. therefore they think it’s rude to think otherwise because they see that as woosan confirming that their ‘just friends’. but imo body language speaks volumes that’s pretty much why i made this blog. and to me it’s pretty obvious that they’ve been intimate and there’s a high possibility they still are. there’s plenty of popular couples who hide behind friendships because they don’t want people in their business. i’m not sure why people are expecting them to say or hint that they’re anything besides friends. lol. that would never and will never happen with boyxboy pairings in kpop. that would literally ruin their careers. so, i don’t really care for those who constantly feel the need to express that woosan are ‘just friends’ just because they said they were. like do you expect them to tell you they’re in a relationship? even if idols were in a relationship with girls they’re not gonna tell u.

there’s also been subtle moments i’ve been thinking about when woo or san mentions that they’re just friends. for example. 

we could talk about this moment where a fan was introducing their dog as their best friend and woo suddenly showed san and san was clearly annoyed. people thought san was mad at woo for some odd reason, but this is a very cause and effect type of thing imo. meaning something happened or something was said and that reaction from san was created. so in that EXACT moment he was reacting to what woo said. i just don’t see why san would react this way for no reason. i’ve said this before but san, he’s very transparent.

(wooyoung whispered that he wasn’t san’s friend and this was the members reactions in case u’re confused.)

of course i see this as woo teasing san again, i feel that there’s more to this but the reason i think san gets visibly annoyed and slaps woo’s butt is because woo is teasing him in front of the camera. kind of like, ‘pfft, this guy is not my friend’. but the moment before the one above, he sounded more serious so take that as u will.

these are just specific recent moments where i see them bring up the term ‘friend’ and it turns to a very minor point of contention. ‘cause i do feel like they discuss how much they want to share in front of the camera. and agree and disagree on certain things. 

the reason i wrote all of this is to console those who feel discouraged from some shippers only seeing their relationsip dynamics as just friends which is completely fine. but i also think it’s fine to see their relationship as more than just friends especially when u see a significant amount of moments that point towards them being more than just friends. people tend to see and take things at face value, what they see and get is simply what they believe. if woosan says their friends then they’re friends. they don’t see any reason to see or analyze it any deeper and that’s completely fine but as someone like me who likes to analyze body language etc, i tend to pick out subtle moments and gestures that reveal to me what their relationship might be like off camera. 

analyzing body language is NOT a delulu thing. lmfao. but to analyze to a degree where things just come from your imagination and not the evidence in front of u can def become a problem. 

i actually think it’s a good thing for people not to suspect them being in an actual relationship. the less attention drawn to them actually being in one the better.

in the end neither of us can 100% say that they’re dating or not. lol.

[clarz-cc-archive]

answered April 29, 2020

Q: You know how Jin said he made the conscious decision to be less “respectable” so that Namjoon wouldn’t feel as pressured as the leader and so the others could be closer to him? Just has this thought that maybe Yoongi did something similar? How he allows the other members to manhandle him around and slap his bubble butt and basically play around with him and he doesn’t even bat an eye? I’m not that well versed in sk culture or that into other groups so I don’t have much comparison to go on, but I feel like for some “elders” that might not fly, but Yoongs is just like: “I’m happy that you’re happy :]” and that’s just???? So sweet to me? What are your thoughts on this? :D (in response to)

A: i think that when they were all much younger yoongi used to take on some of the Eldest Hyung stuff that jin might otherwise have been expected to do, just bc they used to all say if one of the maknaes was misbehaving in the dorm or something yoongi was sort of the designated one to scold them because he was the only one who could remain stern about it. but i also think that yoongi was in sort of a different position than jin was coming in and so it might have felt more comfortable for everyone for him to take on some of that stuff, since even though namjoon was the leader he and yoongi were the two members who'd been together the longest. this is totally me guessing but i think yoongi probably had fewer fears about stepping on namjoon's toes as the leader with the age hierarchy than jin might have, since they'd already spent so long living together and learning to communicate with each other before that! i've also always had the impression that yoongi might be less bothered with the other members of rapline over the age stuff off camera since i've seen people say that both namjoon and hobi will occasionally slip up on camera and use ban mal (informal speech) with yoongi; like i do think he still acts very hyung-like toward them, and hobi especially still treats him a lot like a hyung (hobi's attitudes toward members changes SO much based on where they are in the age hierarchy imo it's very fascinating), but i think that rapline already had a more stable and negotiated relationship put in place by the time the other members joined since they'd all been together for so long and also had this equal footing with each other as musical collaborators. i do think yoongi lets the other members play with him and stuff, but i don't think i see him performing the same kind of purposeful abdication of his own authority that i see jin doing. in my view, the younger members seem to know very well what they can and can't get away with with yoongi and there are definitely moments where one of them will realize that they've crossed a line and kind of back off quickly (like that one bomb where they're shoving a camera in yoongi's face while he's sleeping on the floor and he wakes up and curses at them lol!) i think they like to poke at his boundaries and see what will or won't get a reaction out of them, and he lets them when he's in the mood for it, but i also get the impression that everyone understands when yoongi needs his space and that the other members are willing to give it to him.

asks in response to this one: #1

[brickercupmasterx3]

“Confessions in the Darkened Room”-

AN: I’m NOT exactly too proud of this fic and I’m still going back and forth on it, but I shared it with a friend (you know who you are) and she said it was fine... So I’ve decided to post it anyway? (I’m going to log off for the rest of the day so I don’t feel tempted to delete this minutes after I posted it. However when tomorrow comes, don’t be surprised if I do delete this post.)

And no, this was NOT the second fic I had in mind that I mentioned on my Lukanette blog.

These deal with my own headcanons dealing with Feloe (Felix x Chloe pairing). This ship has little to no content, and I’ve been kinda into it lately. So yeah... Here’s my (terrible, imo) contribution. (If I do end up drawing them eventually, that’s why. They’re a fun pair and I have a few story lines prepared for them. I’m NOT planning to write them out though.)

(I would also like to apologize in advance if anything seems out of place or rushed? I tried my best to make things organic, but anymore and I probably would have screwed this up further.)

Anyways, I’m done talking. So here. Enjoy?

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First thing Chloe knew, she was arguing with the most insufferable guy she’s ever known and the next, the two were shoved inside a closet. She had no doubt about who pushed them, considering there was only one other person in the room, aside from herself, that knew about her feelings for the boy. 

It had been around half an hour since the two blondes were locked inside the closet, neither having said a word since then. Chloe knew she’d have to say something sooner or later, but when? There was never a right time to admit to someone who had brought you down and made you feel inferior all your life that you’ve grown feelings for them, could there? 

Felix sighed, clearly annoyed at the situation they were forced into. While it wasn’t in the most pleasing of circumstances, at least this provided him the space to get some closure with the girl. She may have those infuriating moments when all she can talk about is Adrien, but lately, throughout their whole “fake dating” scene… He’d found himself falling for her more than he thought possible. 

He enjoyed the closeness and getting to know her more, in and out of character. He’d memorized her facial expressions, the sound of her laughter, her touches… Basically everything… Not that he’d admit it aloud to the blonde girl at all. Otherwise, he wouldn’t hear the end of it. 

“So… What’d you want to talk about?” Chloe asked, trying to speed things along so that she wouldn’t have to be trapped with him any longer than necessary. “I don’t know about you, but I’d rather get out of here as soon as possible. Don’t exactly find it thrilling to spend too much time with you.” 

He rolled his eyes at her usual antics. “Not like spending time with you is any picnic either.”

“If I’m that revolting to you, then why ask me to play the role of your fake girlfriend?” She asked, awaiting for whatever response he’d be willing to give her. His responses were always the same, and she knew she shouldn’t have hoped for anything different, but she could dream. 

“I needed a favor, Chloe. You fit the bill and that was it.” He responded, keeping it short.

"That's all you ever say." She said, crossing her arms. "Sometimes, it just feels like you're this emotionless robot with the same practiced lines. Is there really nothing else on your mind?" 

"Why does it even matter to you? The only person you ever cared about was Adrien!" He shouted, just about done with her. 

"I can't believe you…" Chloe started, anger evident in her eyes. "That's honestly what you think? Even tracking back to our childhood where I tried so hard to be your friend? Need I remind you that you rejected me?"  

"Did you really expect me to take your friendship?" He looked over to her, returning her glare. "And watch you become another one of those annoying fangirls of Adrien's?"

"Did you really think so lowly of me then that you couldn't find a single ounce of genuineness in my eyes then?" She looked away from him, trying so hard to conceal all those horrible childhood memories. "Of course you did. After all, I played my part perfectly well… The bratty, spoiled rich kid who wanted nothing but to be part of the Agreste family. No matter the cost…" 

“Are you seriously trying to get me to buy into that?” Felix looked at her as if she was crazy. “Would you stop trying to make up excuses to justify your petty behavior from back then? And just take responsibility for what you really are.”

“Responsibility? For what exactly?" Chloe shouted, more than fed up with his attitude. "Do you really think that this is what I wanted for myself? You don't know me! You never tried to get to know me, even with the several chances offered to you!" 

"Why exactly would I want to? You've shown your true colors and by the way you're acting right now, you're not making yourself look any better." He said matter of factly. 

"Ugh!" She groaned. "Fine! Think whatever you want about me! I'm done trying with you… Done with this stupid arrangement of ours altogether!" 

“We had a deal… You can’t just back out of it now.” “Why not? You’re insufferable, Felix! You constantly treat me like trash, bring me down all the time with your pathetic insults and just expect me to sit there and take it like I’m inferior to you!” The blonde girl knew she couldn’t normally act out like this in public, but considering Sabrina locked them inside to talk feelings, that’s precisely what she was going for. “Well… You’re not any better than I am. These petty feelings you say I have, well, you have the same ones towards Adrien. Neither of us get why, because you refuse to tell us anything.”

“That’s hardly any of your business.” came his simple reply. “I didn’t ask you to help me out with this in order for us to get to know one another better. I could care less about your opinion on any matter. I simply just needed someone around to get that annoying Bridgette out of my life. You just fit the part.” “So… You’re just using me?” Chloe laughed, of course it was moreso a fake one, not that he’d know the difference. She needed to save her pride, not give him the satisfaction that he’d gotten to her yet again. It was just as she’d feared, wasn’t it? He never cared about her, no matter what she did. “Of course, you are… It never mattered how well I played the doting girlfriend part… Nothing can ever satisfy you.” 

He just stared blankly at her, rolling his eyes at her usual dramatics. “Are you done yet?”

“As done as I am with you…” She responded, rolling her eyes at him. 

How she fell for him over his nicer, denser cousin, Adrien, she wouldn’t understand. In ways, Adrien was everything she should have desired. He had the status, the cash, the looks… Those were the things she was supposed to chase after for the sake of her mother’s approval. Chloe was a Bourgeois. And Bourgeois’ don’t settle for anything less than the best. 

But that wasn’t what she wanted for herself… Adrien just wasn’t it for her.

While he was kinder, sweeter, most endearing and at times a bit more understanding than his jerk of a cousin… Adrien couldn’t understand most social cues, which was indeed beyond frustrating. Nor could he tell the difference between liking someone as a “friend” or more. The boy had been sheltered from the real world for the majority of his life, she knew that and she couldn’t fault him for those things… And she didn’t… but she knew he’d never be more to her than just that childhood friend she adores… 

And it hurts, because loving him would’ve been easier… Adrien wouldn’t reject her out of malice, unlike Felix. He’d do his best to let her down easy, if he came to figure out her feelings, because first and foremost, the two were friends. And the Agreste boy obviously treasured the Bourgeois girl as family, just as she did him.

Chloe then resigned to sit down at the farthest corner from Felix, quietly mumbling something under her breath as she finally registered her thoughts. 

 “If you have something to say, come out with it.” The boy said. He was a no-nonsense kind of guy and mumbling just wasn’t his style. 

“Why would you care so suddenly? I’m of no interest to you.” She said softly, hiding her face between her legs… If she’d said anymore, her feelings would probably be out in the open and he’d know. 

Felix had been witness to many of Chloe’s outbursts… but this? This wasn’t one of them. 

She was never this quiet or reserved around him. She always had something to say and that's how he liked it. Chloe may be loud, annoying, spoiled and all-around self centered from what he'd seen, but he wouldn't have it any other way… So why the sudden change in attitude? 

He tried to reach out to the other blonde, but his attempt was met by a slap. She clearly was in no mood to entertain him, much too lost in her thoughts to do much else. It didn't help matters that she was shaking either. 

Had he really upset her that much? 

"Chlo, come on. Just come out with it." He insisted. 

She didn't budge, just kept her head down and ignored his words. If he wasn't going to listen to her at all, then she wouldn't either. It was a two-way street after all. 

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Within the next fifteen minutes or so, her breathing had finally evened out again. Chloe couldn’t even bother herself to give him the time of day at all anymore. She’d finally raised her head and stood up silently, making her way back to the door. 

“Sabrina... Whatever it is you thought was going to be resolved here isn’t going to happen… So just open the door, will you?” She spoke, still pretty soft, but a little louder than the response she'd given Felix just minutes ago. Chloe couldn't be bothered to yell out as angrily as she’d had done when she and Felix were both thrown inside. 

Unluckily for her, there was no response from her redheaded friend on the other side of the door. Though she supposed it was to be expected, not that she could blame her. 

The blonde girl then sighed again. Not only was she stuck with the guy she liked, but she wasn't even close to being in control of her own emotions either. So she decided to keep the silent treatment intact, and have her back turned to him for as long as she could. 

"You're seriously going to keep this act up?" Was the blonde boy's interjection in this silence. "You can't stay silent forever." 

Why he was still even trying to get to her is something she wouldn't understand, but knowing him, he probably wouldn't stop until she gave in. 

"Fine… What do you want from me?" Chloe asked, obviously annoyed by him. "To tell me how much it is you hate me? Because if you haven't figured it out by now, I know that already." 

"I just want to know what's wrong with you. You normally have more bite to your words." He said, because she did. She wouldn't let him get away with what he normally said. 

"What's wrong with me?" She finally turned and glared over at him. "What's wrong with me is you… You, Felix. You'll always be the problem!" 

"What?" He raised a brow, confused. 

"Seriously? You don't even see it? You ask me for a favor and you're in no way, shape or form, grateful for any of it! I play this role I hate perfectly, but you're NOT man enough to admit it!" She yelled out beyond frustrated with him. 

She hated that she gave in to her emotions so easily, but how else was she going to get those feelings out in the open? She hated him for making her feel the way she did and she wasn't going to let him off easy until she was done.

"Do you think any of this is easy for me? Do you even try to act like a boyfriend, fake or otherwise, would to someone he's dating? No! Because it seems you're incapable of showing any emotion to me other than one of hatred or indifference, all depending on your mood!" She continued. "If you hate me this much, just end it! This isn't going well for either of us and… and I'm tired of it… I'm tired of growing angrier than I've ever been. Exhausted from everything that's going on between us…" 

“There’s nothin-” Felix started, but couldn’t finish because the female blonde wouldn’t let him.

“Don’t you think I know that?” She asked, nearing her breaking point. It was unbelievable how he couldn’t get what she meant. “That’s precisely why this has to end... You hate me as it is, and I just can’t deal with this anymore!” 

Chloe wasn’t one to just break down without reason. Having always had to bottle up her emotions and fake others, wasn’t an easy task and it’s started to take more of a toll on her since this dumb “fake dating” favor started. What was she supposed to do? Continue this when it wasn’t doing her heart any good? No. That wouldn’t have been healthy and she knew that well enough already. 

“... I… I wish I did have actual feelings for Adrien, you know?” She started, pretty much having to hold back from shedding any tear at this point. “Things would have been easier… He wouldn’t have done anything to hurt me. And I would have been perfectly content just being his friend.”

“Are you ever going to stop denying such an obvious fact? You’ve been into him literally all your life!” 

"That's not true! He was never the one I fell for…" She responded, hugging herself, because she was sure that after this there would be no going back. "Even back when we were younger, loving him never crossed my mind. I didn't have many friends… And I still don't, but I wanted to try…" 

“Try what? Befriending someone with no interest in you whatsoever?” He asked, still extremely annoyed at how hard she tried to prove him wrong. “Becoming friends with just another girl who claims to be in love with my cousin isn’t something I’d ever want.”

“Well, good then! Since that’s NOT even the reason I tried so hard anyway!” She yelled back in frustration. “It was never my intention to make you feel like second best… but you wouldn’t know that since you rejected me every chance you got!”

“As if I’d believe anything you’d have to say… There’s nothing you could say that could sway me to believe you in the least.” He rolled his eyes. Who did she think she was anyway?

“O-Of course not… You’re heartless, Felix…” Chloe said, looking straight into his eyes. The girl never wanted to believe such a thing, but he’d proven it, especially with the way he normally treated her. “It’s sad how nothing could ever make its way through that cold and tough exterior of yours… You’re so unwilling to let anyone in, that I can see now that nothing’s ever going to change.”

The tears became harder to contain with every word she spoke. Chloe was very self conscious and she hated that it had come to this. She was stronger than this. 

"... You never made it easy, you know?" The blonde girl continued, closing her eyes shut, as if that would have been enough to keep the water in. "At first, I thought that was just you playing around… but the more time went by, the more I realized that was just you… You hated everyone and everything around you… And I still don't understand why I tried so hard to change it… because you're never going to see me that same way…" 

He just stared at her. Was she trying to tell him the one thing he always wanted to hear? She wasn't completely clear, so he wouldn't know. 

“It was never even about Adrien… He wasn’t the one who’d stolen my heart.” She’d looked down upset, tears on the verge of slipping away. “But then again, why would you care? I’m nothing but an inconvenience to you.”

Not being able to hold back much longer, the girl just let her tears flow freely. What else could she do now that things were out in the open? She wasn't sure anymore. 

"I… I hope you're proud of yourself…" Chloe said in between sniffles, all the while wiping away whatever tears she could with her hands. "J-jerk…" 

Before she could utter another word, she found herself enveloped in warmth. She wasn't sure how or when it occurred, since her main focus was ridding herself of the tears in her eyes. And when she looked up, she'd found herself staring at those same hues belonging to the one person who had stolen her heart. 

"W-What are you-?"

"Look, I'm not too good at this "comforting" thing… I just know I don't ever want you feeling this way, okay?" He said. "Especially if it's because of me." 

"Why the sudden change of heart?" She asked, curiously. 

"Because if I'm honest, I never actually hated you, Chloe. I was just under the impression that that's how guys would act around girls to show them that they were interested in them." He responded. 

"That explains a lot actually… Sabrina thought as much, but I just couldn't believe her." Chloe commented, in between sniffles. "Though an easier way to let a girl know you're interested is to just ask them out." 

"And would you do me the honor of going on a date with me?" He asked her straight out. Not at all planning to waste another second, as he'd had the last few years. "A real one this time." 

"Hmmm…" She hummed, as if deep in thought. "Maybe… if you can handle high maintenance and clingy?" 

"Only if it's you." 

"Damn right." She said, with a little soft smile on her lips, before it turned to a serious thin line. "I still expect you to make it up to me though. For making me so angry and upset in the past." 

"Demanding as always, are you?" He said, a little playfully. "Alright… Whatever you want." 

"We'll talk about the details later. Just hold me close for now, okay?" The girl requested, just enjoying being near him.

"Okay." He agreed, not at all minding her request. Felix could get used to this. 

He just hoped that the next time they hugged or had an intimate moment, it wouldn’t be under these circumstances.

[luparaneo]

so because it’s Pride Month I feel like I should talk about my own sort of small (compared to others) but weird journey, but it’s my journey

long post and ultra personal talk under the cut, you have been warned

I’ve always known I was asexual of some kind, I’d never felt any sexual attraction to others or hell never even felt a need to date. Those kinds of desires everyone else I met seemed to have but all I have is one great big black hole for both. Even well into my teens I found sex scenes in media gross and unnecessary, and I’d often feel repulsed and look away for romantic scenes in movies even if all they were doing was making out. I still do this though I try not to make it as obvious as I used to.

Growing up I was repeatedly slapped in the face by media with the message of “you MUST have a relationship and it MUST be a man and you MUST have sex with him on a regular basis or something is WRONG with you” and because of that I felt like I was broken, though nobody ever told me this to my face I just eventually internalized there was a problem with me. Like I was a child that never completely grew up, or I was afraid I was going to grow up a serial killer because I couldn’t emphasize with those kinds of relationships (I still wonder if I’m neurodivergent other than ADD, but that’s a topic for another day). To be completely honest it still kinda fucks with me on bad days. But then I started seeing others in the same boat, that maybe I’m not broken or maybe they're broken like me but we’re all free because it has a Name now and names are powerful. Something with a name can be grasped, understood. I didn’t fully understand the term, I might have even mocked it a little (I’m pretty sure I used the “lol like a plant?” joke at some point), but eventually the term “asexual” settled in my little brain and like with many things this shy little bean does I quietly embraced it and hid it away. And that’s how I discovered asexuality!

But, here’s where I recently fell down another rabbithole.

The ace banner is good and all, but I realized at some things just didn’t add up for me. I do actually enjoy adult games, read dirty fics, insert myself into fantasy situations when I’m not using an OC, and uh, “solo act” as it were because I still have a need to scratch that itch too. But like, real people? In meatspace? No, absolutely not, the mere thought makes all that shrivel up and recoil in horror. Buut then I found the term “aegosexual” and everything makes even more sense now.

I know there’s a lot of debate whether aegosexual is just another term for grey-ace, or even if it’s under the ace umbrella at all, but we’re just gonna wave that away for the moment. How my brain works is the more specific something is, the better I can wrap my brain around and understand or relate to it; otherwise I actually panic. Asexual and greysexual are not specific enough for me so I started worrying if I was wrong about being ace all this time, but then stumbled onto this term. Aegosexual in a nutshell as I understand it is “functioning libido but not with another/irl” and fantasies can be detached and/or extremely unrealistic. It still falls under the asexual banner since there’s a distinct lack of sexual desire with others. Kinda helps explain my monsterfuckery/furryism because you really can’t get more unrealistic than those lmao. I suppose I’m also some flavor of fictosexual because when there is attraction it’s 110% going to be a fictional character, but I legit feel like if that character ever somehow became real my ace brain would kick in and go “NO, NO SMASH, ONLY FRIEND >:C” fhdjklsjfs. I literally have no interest in meatspace shenanigans, at all. But aegosexual sounds much less childish imo so if anyone asks, I’ll tell them I’m ace or aego. Funny enough I don’t feel that I’m aegoromantic though I’m probably somewhere under the aro umbrella, but I think I’d be down for trying a QPR someday.

holy shit this turned out longer than I thought, my bad

anyway thanks for coming to my Ted Talk, if you feel I’m talking out my ass about anything feel free to DM me here or wherever your local friendly Lupa can be found

if you felt this was TMI, well, too bad fuck you there was a warning for a raisin

On a much shorter note, sometimes I also wonder about my gender because I’m not sure where it falls anymore. I’m a cis female, I’m perfectly fine with being referred by female pronouns, but some days my brain is like “wow imagine if you didn’t have those awful sacks of fat called tits?” because I have never liked having female physical features for some reason. I want to bind, I want to dress up in fancy suits over flowing dresses, it’s like my brain is going “imagine, androgyny” or something but I’ve never been too sure what I should call this. I blame growing up a massive tomboy for this confusion, lmao.

ok that’s it go home, I have nothing else for you, shoo

[alastairsqueen]

I just finished season 4 of 13 Reasons Why and I have a few things I need to get off my chest.

First of all, the lock down episode was beyond ridiculous. I could understand having a drill at a school for an active shooter situation, but to the extent this school went to? Absolutely not. I don’t think I’ve ever heard of a school doing such a thing, and if they have, I can’t imagine parents taking it lightly. Look what happened to Clay. Those students were traumatized. And the bleeding dummies in an earlier episode? Wtf? 

Winston seemed kind of pointless. I get he wanted the truth to come out about Bryce because it would clear Monty’s name, but he barely knew Monty, the same guy who beat the living shit out of him at one point. Having sex with someone a couple of times doesn’t equal love. Honestly, I think that whole plot would have been better if Winston and Alex had stayed together, Alex started to trust Winston, and then Alex told him the truth. They already loved one another, basically, so it could have worked out. Learning the truth but also being in love with Alex, I feel like he would have let it go. Both outcomes are the same, but the story progression would have been a lot better. Hate to say it, but I also feel like Alex had a lot better chemistry with Winston in those first few episodes than he did with Charlie. Charlie was super sweet and nice, but I didn’t feel like he meshed well with Alex as much. It was cute how they won prom king and queen, but Charlie had to try way too hard. I guess he figured he had to prove Alex was worth it, but Winston never had to try that hard. That’s why I feel like the chemistry was better and it didn’t feel forced on us.

Also a small shout out to the Zalex kiss. I want to point out that it was obvious for awhile Alex was really gay. Hannah and Jessica joked about it back in season 1, which okay, was just a joke, but in season 2, he said a lot of really inappropriate things to Zach that I don’t feel like most guys would tell their friends, like about how he finally had an erection, and all these other things. We were all shipping Alex and Zach for awhile now because of their close connection, so the kiss did seem like they were baiting us with absolutely no follow through. However, I guess I can’t be terribly upset about it. Zach was weirded out when Alex said inappropriate things in the past, but he let it slide because they were friends. As much as I would have preferred these two to be endgame, I’m still alright with them being really good friends who love one another. And I’m glad that Alex got a happy ending with someone, at least.

Totally glad Ani and Clay did not end up together in the end. From what I saw of comments after last season, most people disliked Ani immensely. Her screen time was even limited this season so I feel like that was kind of their way of pushing her more to the back burner. However, I do appreciate the conversation she had with Clay at prom, how both of them said they don’t know what love is, and that they don’t know how to be in relationships. I think that is probably one of the most accurate, grown up depictions in this entire show. 

I sadly think this is one of those seasons that actually would have benefited from the 13 episode length season. With all the stuff we had going on with Clay, especially, and then everything else, I think things needed to be drawn out a little bit more. I still think Clay’s mental illness could have been handled a lot better. I’m glad he finally got therapy, but if someone was at risk of hurting themselves, they hold that person for at least 24-48 hours. When he escaped, he would have been brought right back. And even then, when his therapist said he wasn’t at risk for hurting himself anymore, I didn’t buy it for a second. And some of the things Clay did and didn’t remember seemed kind of strange, imo. I could see the spraypaint as he helped cover up the Monty thing, or even the email, but some of it like the video cameras and torturing his own friends in the woods? I know sometimes things don’t make sense when mental illness is concerned, but it just seemed very poorly written, like they wanted us to think everything was being done by someone else, even though most of it was Clay. Also hated the throw away line in the last eppie when he says that he doesn’t actually see people, that he just imagines conversations he would have with them in his head. What a total cop out. On more than one occasion people caught him talking out loud like someone was there, and they made that such a huge focus after Hannah died. Ugh. It kind of felt like a slap in the face to fans who commented on it.

A longer season would have also given us some really sweet moments and interactions between more of the characters. One of the biggest problems with this show is the personal moments. I felt like this season they were stretched thin, and it just felt like drama, drama, drama and doom and gloom the whole time. Every time these kids have even the happiest of moments, it’s ruined by something. 

We get a really sweet prom episode and then it’s just ruined by the ending. The final episode also should have been two separate ones. Having a major death, a graduation, and burying the tapes seemed like a bit much to put in one episode. I get they want to drive home the point that high school is hell, but really?

And as far as Justin goes, the whole back and forth with him getting better, then relapsing makes sense as he’s an addict and it will always be a struggle, but then he gets AIDS and dies? Also, they said he likely contracted it when he was homeless and sold himself, but typically it can take HIV 8 to 10 years before it turns into AIDS, so unless I’m missing something, it progressed really quick? In the show he was homeless at the end of the first season when he ran off and then into the start of season 2, so that’s only a couple of years at the most. Did they mean from another time he was homeless? Like it just didn’t add up. I know everyone is different, and he continued to use drugs, but they could have just had him overdose. I think they wanted to go for more tragic though, really make the audience feel it with all the sad goodbyes. To me it felt more like one of those things they toss in to try and bring ‘awareness’ to a topic, but failed miserably.

Also, the part that got me thinking was how Clay had pot in his system. He lost track of time frequently, but like......Charlie had those cookies on the camping trip, and no one really seemed high, but what if Clay ate one because we later see Charlie with the pot cookies at the party with Alex. Otherwise, they never really explained how he had pot in his system. We just saw him smoke it at the party later on.

The last thing I want to comment on is a couple of moments in the show that really made me go wtf. The first time was with Clay and the passed out girl at the frat house. He goes into the room and the excuse he gives to Bryce in his head is just.........wtf? And he later tells his therapist he was thinking about sex and he was hard. We know that he went in there because he thought the guy was going to rape her and then he saw Bryce, but like.........when he made that comment to his therapist I was just like nope. Later it happens again with Zach and the female escort he brought to prom in the bathroom. These are two characters who have been known to stick up for women, so it’s just like really? I feel like I kind of get what they were trying to go for with the show, like this concept that if you’re fucked up and not in your right frame of mind, on drugs, etc, people are capable of anything, even something terrible, but it just doesn’t work. It was beyond creepy, and I hated it. 

I will say I’m glad they actually did a Prom and Graduation episode though. One of the things that annoyed me most about Teen Wolf was we never got any glimpses of them being happy either. It was always plot and drama, never them being teens, so yeah. I’m glad they buried Hannah’s tapes, but like, I really didn’t care about Courtney or Ryan coming back to help bury them as they hadn’t even been apart of most of what happened in later seasons since they apparently graduated. I noticed Sheri wasn’t there either. 

I’m sure I could add more, but this is already really long. Basically I have a lot of mixed feelings about the final season.