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hi people who have seen the movie, maybe read the prequel book, do you think bruce would have ever made any attempt on his own life
#i think he would have done anything but try and actually kill himself#he proclaims himself to be pretty fearless so i don't think it would have scared him#or maybe not consciously#but#i'm imagining this would be in his teenage years too at his most vulnerable#going through doctors and medications and words that people don't think he understands#i'm sure the thought would have crossed his mind constantly. it's not like he really had any intention of taking over the company#i doubt he ever opened up to anyone much at all unless he was forced#he didn't have friends and went out of his way to avoid socializing#and the summer he was 17 he would actively seek out danger ie streetracing#i don't know where i was going. i don't think he would have but he probably would have felt it pulling at him#a constant ache ever since the alleyway ever since his family moved into the tower#clinging on for dear life but not in any way that really did anything to help#he was living just because he was supposed to#because that's what you do even if your parents are dead and your home is not a home#i can't splice this down for my notes so i have to put it here. that's all#suicide 182172737#does anybody need that tagged. i'll assume maybe somebody does
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Being a “Fun Fact !” kind of autistic is all fun and games until you get halfway through sharing an interesting tidbit and realize that it probably wasn’t appropriate to share in polite company and now you have to deal with the consequences :(
#autism#neurodivergent#adhd#fun facts#GOD I’m such an idiot#anyways now a 10 year old is out there looking up swear words online and it’s all my fault :(#I got so excited by the fact that I knew a fun fact#that I didn’t stop to think that maybe not everyone knows that fun fact for a reason :(#it’s like explaining how to successfully bury a body at a book club#or explaining the dangers of Scientology to your sister’s boyfriend the first time you meet him#or debating gay sex positions with your best friend in front of your mom#no matter how much I wish to be a beacon of knowledge in this world#sometimes there are things others just don’t want to know#and consciously that’s valid but the autism ? I does not care
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I need to stop drinking coffee, it makes me so sleepy
#wishful thinking#like maybe….maybe this time it will perk me up…#it does help me concentrate though (when it doesn’t turn off my consciousness)
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YOU'VE GOTTA LET IT GLOW ?!
YOU'VE GOTTA LET IT SHINE ?!
(available as stickers on shop)
#I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THEY'RE SCRAPPING THIS ENTIRE GEN#IM DOING A VIDEO ON MY “REWRITE” OR “AU” OR WHATEVER IT IS#very proud of how these came out...ive relearned how to draw ponies#also made my izzy HUGE like she could PUMMEL HITCH if she wasn't consciously nice#all inspo'ed in some way by their concept art...expect maybe pipp and zipp?? these took like over a year to finalize so i dont remember#one thing that mildly iffed me about their designs was...WHY DO ALL OF THEM EXPECT FOR IZZY AND MISTY HAVE THE SAME TAIL???#shumm's art#mlp#mlp g5#mlp make your mark#mlp tell your tale#sunny starscout#izzy moonbow#zipp storm#zephyrina storm#misty brightdawn#hitch trailblazer#pipp petals#sprout cloverleaf#mlp a new generation#artists on tumblr#my little pony#medibang paint#digital art#mlp g5 redesigns#mlp mym#mlp ang#mlp tyt
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puts plushies in a box and ships them to your house
sketch because everyone should know that I suffered while trying to position them
#in stars and time#isat#sifloop#isat sloop#*facepalms*#anyway you know this popular anime art trend where they put two characters in a box?#that's the idea#stream of consciousness but this is the third time i put them in an awkward situation#i don't know how to feel about this except maybe I like seeing them in close proximity#fifty art
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Can you imagine how fucking angry Neil was when he heard Jean say “So Drake’s not a biter then.”
Because I can.
In that one sentence Neil learned 2 things.
1) That Jean was sexually assaulted
2) What he (Jean) went through was something akin to what Andrew went through with Drake.
I also think that reminded him of everything (that he knows) Drake did to Andrew. I think it reminded him of the time when Drake ambushed him and was paid by Riko to do so. I think it reminded Neil that both of those bastards got of way too fucking easily.
I think Neil put a hit on Grayson not only for Jean, but also for Andrew, Kevin, himself and anyone else who was hurt by Riko, Grayson and Drake (that last one might be a stretch but you get my point).
I think Neil felt so angry and helpless at that point and when he was presented with an opportunity to properly get rid of someone’s abuser, he took it.
#do you think after that moment Neil starts thinking maybe he was sexually assaulted during his time at the nest#I do#subconsciously if not consciously#I think he worries about it at least#if he tells Andrew about what Jean said and his situation with Grayson then Andrew would definitely start thinking Neil might have been#aftg#all for the game#nora sakavic#the sunshine court#aftg thoughts#neil josten#jean moreau#andrew minyard
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"A Jester can mock, and the King cannot fight
For the gift of free thought is the jester's one right."
A sweet golden prince who lived up in the sky,
Listened to his families' terrible fights,
The ceiling would rumble, the tile would shake,
The throne room was fragile, and soon it would break.
He'd attempt to speak, but it never went right,
His father would rage, and he'd lose every fight,
As decades passed by, it soon became clear,
The King saw his son as a monster to fear.
The Prince quickly followed every command,
Only to be trapped by his father's cruel hand,
Years of destruction with no end in sight,
This war would not end with a large act of might.
And so the Prince stopped fighting fire with fire,
And instead he pulled out his golden stringed lyre,
Since he had no respect, he would leave the King's cage,
And swap out the throne room for a shining stage.
He taunted with wit and he giggled with guile,
And even his sorrow he shared with a smile,
His father's gaze lessened, his temper was tame,
As his once "Golden Prince" treated life like a game.
The centuries passed and the mirth never ceased,
The sun never set on the first son of Greece,
He danced for his siblings and bit down his pain,
Since each peal of laughter meant there'd be less rain.
There's only one role for which there are no rules,
So who is the jester, and who is the fool?
#trials of apollo#toa apollo#lester papadopoulos#apollart#sunny speaks#pulled out everything I remembered from 11th Grade Lit for this poem hopefully it's not shit#I wanted to play on the idea that has been spoken about in some of my fave ToA meta essays#That being that Apollo consciously (or sub-consciously) makes himself seem weaker and less competent to avoid his father's wrath#it is a very interesting part of his character to me I love exploring it#and you know what maybe I also just wanted to draw Apollo in a jester outfit#y'all should know by now that 90% of my motivation is dressing Apollo/Lester up like a Ken Doll#haha#Lester the Jester#just thought of that#also peep my reference to the “my blorbo was born alongside the birth of Ancient Greece” hc that I posted like over a year ago#I just realized I rhymed right and fight twice in the poem GODDAMMIT#Guys I'm a horrible poet Apollo's gonna smite me :'(
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A lot of cis people may not want to hear this, but here goes:
You are going to have more in common with trans people who have a similar gender identity to you than you think. Trans people are reliable narrators of their own experiences, and whether you like it or not, we will have similar or even identical experiences to yours. Cis people don't have a monopoly over their gender or the experiences people have as a result of their gender.
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#ally advice#like in my experience i have had way more in common with cis men than cis women#and of course it is always more complicated than what a tumblr post can provide. but by and large i have noticed this trend#cis people like to pretend that trans people are a seperate species to them when that can't be further from the truth#cis people don't like to think that their bodies/experiences/lives could be in any way shape or form similar to a trans person's#but they're wrong in that case. there are so many of us with baried experiences. because we are PEOPLE#i feel like i am screaming my personhood into the void sometimes so i hope maybe this reaches somebody#as horrifying as it is (/s) i am as much a person as i am a man#and as horrifying as it is (/s) other trans people are as much their genders as they are PEOPLE#enjoy me posting my stream of consciousness then going back to play skyrim and fo:nv until i pass out or whatever i feel like lol<3
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I feel like a see a lot of speculation about ‘the Sun King and The Lady are the real bad guys of the story’ and ‘maybe Sarcean wasn’t so bad after all’ kind of stuff…
And I think there is definitely more going on between them that makes the story less light vs dark, black vs white. But I also think that the overall story kind of plays with nature vs. nurture (or circumstance) and that in one context someone can do “evil” and in another do “good”. I don’t think it’s bad thing if Sarcean was a bad guy who did bad things, like making and using the collar, like killing all those people. Of course I believe it’s more nuanced than a black and white, light and dark, good and bad. But just because there’s nuance doesn’t mean the rolls flip and that secretly the whole time the light were the real bad guys and the dark was fighting the good fight.
I feel like if that is the case then it might neglect all the inner turmoil the characters have had to go through to try and understand their rolls in this new old world. If Sarcean maybe actually had a point and was doing the right thing, then Will’s battle with himself and his desires doesn’t mean as much because he’s not actually fighting any dark impulses
#all that said#I trust pacat with my life and will follow no matter where they lead#just a kind of stream of consciousness ramble about some stuff I’ve been thing about#not actually a planned out argument or anything#cs pacat#dark heir#dark rise#dark heir spoilers#james st clair#will kempen#dark rise spoilers#maybe it will be a full roll reversal and I’ll have been wrong
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S1 and s2 (but especially s1) feel so intimate and grounded and personal. I am watching these character’s lives.
But s3 and s4 (ESPECIALLY s3) feels fake and removed. I’m watching a tv show.
#and yeah yeah i know i know it IS a tv show and maybe im giving the earlier seasons too much credit#but man :/ you can really feel the switch and its rough to watch sometimes#i think it comes down to colors + cinematography + production design a lot of things#also i think ive stated this before and sorry to repeat myself#but my blog is just a stream of consciousness tbh i just say whatever im feeling atm#and right now its relevant!#robin rambles#stranger things
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I really enjoyed Batman: Caped Crusader. I was worried (like everyone else) that Bruce Timm would push his Bruce/Barbara obsession, but they barely interact when Bruce is out of costume, and he’s all business as Batman. Barbara is (presumably) about the same age as Bruce in this adaptation, she’s a young public defender, who still lives at home with her dad. Commissioner Gordon is mentioned to have 30 years on the Gotham police force at one point. And the series is loosely based on Batman: Year One by Frank Miller, and has Matt Reeves as a producer. It’s definitely an interpretation of the early years of Batman.
The setting is vaguely and aesthetically set in the 1940s, mirroring the original Batman and riffing on DC comic stories and character interpretations from that time. Clayface’s story and appearance is based on the original interpretation of the character, which I really enjoyed - especially as someone’s who’s read the first couple years of the original Detective Comics/Batman stories. (There’s also a lot of great references to the Adam West show, and a couple of its themes are reimagined for this more noir story.)
I could see the series setting up something between Bruce and Barbara potentially, but their interactions are really blink-and-you’ll-miss-it. There’s a moment where Bruce’s is climbing back onto the Iceberg Lounge yacht and he uses a pick up line on her, which she scoffs at, then he proceeds to use the line on two other young women. There’s another moment that you could say is pre-flirting, or is at least setting up a foundation to further a relationship between the two. Where Barbara makes a comment about Batman letting himself into her office unannounced whenever he feels like it, and she tells him she needs a way to contact him, and he gives her the Batphone number. At this point I think you could make more of an argument for a Harleen/Barbara pairing than her and Bruce.
I think the characters would both individually need a lot more development to be in a romantic relationship. I’ll say this even though I know it will be an unpopular opinion: in this interpretation I wouldn’t mind putting Bruce and Barbara together. I know that’s practically sacrilege coming from someone who’s favourite character is Oracle but hear me out.
My main issues with Bruce and Barbara together (especially when it comes to Timm’s work) is the age difference. It’s often debated but Barbara in most iterations (including current comic canon) is around the same age as Dick, usually a couple of years older, 2-3 at most. Bruce is depicted as having at least 15 years on her, if not more. And most stories that have Bruce and Barbara together also fixate on her being batgirl. Then there’s the tendency to make a Nightwing-Batgirl-Batman love triangle which I don’t want to get into but I hate completely.
None of that is happening here. Barbara has her own storylines that are just as prominent as Bruce and Harvey’s. She’s an adult with agency and flaws and is just as fleshed out as any of the other characters are. I wouldn’t be surprised if the show takes a season or two to develop a romantic relationship between the two of them. Bruce is completely focused on being Batman and sees Bruce Wayne as a persona. He’s callous with peoples feelings (Harvey, notably) and is shown to struggle with smaller acts of empathy, opening himself up to people, and honestly, social skills. The last of which doesnt doesn’t affect him too negatively because he’s a rich and well known man in Gotham.
Compared to the Bruce Wayne of BTAS it was a smart choice to show a Bruce/Batman who struggles with people and emotions. It reminded me a lot of Reeves’ the Batman. In wider Batman media you usually see two types of depictions: a compassionate Batman (which is where I would place BTAS) or a more emotionless, be-stoic-and-punch-the-bad-guys-and-look-badass version that is usually just a male power fantasy.
This version of Batman sets up the foundation for a storyline that is relatively unexplored, and I’m sure they’re going to explore it more in the next season (which has already been greenlit).
I was surprised at the lack of adult themes in the show, it was marketed for an adult audience but could easily fit into a PG13 rating, but that was probably on purpose. I was impressed they managed to have so many strong, fleshed out storylines in only 10, 30 minute episodes. But I wouldn’t expect anything less of Bruce Timm, or some of the other names I recognized attached to the project in various ways (Greg Rucka, JJ Abrams, Matt Reeves, and Ed Brubaker).
While there are a lot of critiques of Timm I agree with, I generally enjoy his work and the care he puts into it. I love Greg Rucka and was really excited to see that he wrote the episode that was more Renee Montoya centric. And while I have my issues with Ed Brubaker, I do enjoy his work.
While the series is visually and technologically based around the 1940s, the politics are more modern. Harleen asks Renee out on a date and she talks about it with Barbara openly. I saw one review call the show “race blind” which I would not agree with. Most of the racism is implied through euphemism (the scene with Lucius Fox and Gentleman ghost), but it’s still felt as a point of friction for multiple characters, it affects how they interact with the world around them. There’s also a line spoken by either detective Flass or Bullock that implies no one in the GCPD wants to follow Renee because she’s gay. It’s cut off before the last word, but again, the meaning is implied.
An issue I always had with the Timmverse is its depictions of female characters. They always feel less real than their male counterparts, less important and less visually stylized. All the important (read: desirable) women have the same body shape. They’re thin and extremely, unnaturally curvy. I’m aware that these characters are supposed to evoke that 50s comic pinup imagery but I always thought it was a bit much. Male characters - even before the animation downgrade in BTAS season 4 - were always way more unique from each other than the female characters. That wasn’t something I felt with Caped Crusader. The three most prominent female characters (Barbara, Renee and Harleen) were all different from each other, with different heights, body shapes, hair and clothing styles. They also all had 3 distinct personalities that were built up through the series. I would argue that the show was as much about the “supporting cast” (characters like Harvey, Commissioner Gordon, Renee and Barbara) as it was about Batman.
Overall I was really impressed by the show. I was disappointed with how short it was. I hope that Renee’s personal life gets a focus with the next season, and I hope they bring back Greg Rucka to write it. I love how he wrote her in Gotham Central. I was a little annoyed that they introduced the Joker at the end of the series (as a peak into the next season). I think he’s too over saturated as a character, and sometimes his introduction into a Batman story takes over everything else, and he’s depicted as Batman’s Moriarty. I do have hope that this won’t happen in Caped Crusader, because it seems that villains will be reoccurring, but there’ll be a large cast, just like in BTAS. That aspect did remind me of the way characters were introduced in those early Batman comics, it really has the same vibe. I also really really do not want Harley to be involved with the Joker in any way. Please keep her as a separate character, this new interpretation of her is great as is, he doesn’t need to be involved.
I would also be interested to see if the show develops Barbara’s character into Oracle. I could see that happening with the introduction of the Joker at the end of season one. Maybe they’re going to rework the Killing Joke? I couldn’t see them having her as batgirl, but I would be interested to see how they worked Oracle into a world with 1940s technology. I’m thinking back to her as Oracle in the Doom that Came to Gotham, and how clever that was. I’m sure they could do something just as interesting with her here. Something more supernatural feels like a long shot, because Timm usually sticks to the more “realistic”, street-level versions of Batman, but they did introduce Gentleman Ghost. So it’s a possibility.
One thing I did think could have been better was some of the voice work. Not the voice acting itself, but the design. It felt too polished alongside the score and the animation. I wish the voice acting had been more atmospheric, had more depth. It felt too clean. Hamish Linklater was great as Bruce/Batman. Following Kevin Conroy is no small feat, and Linklater’s performance felt reminiscent of Conroy without sounding like an impression. It was quiet and unassuming, yet strong.
I’m not usually someone who watches things more than once, but I’m definitely going to be rewatching Caped Crusader soon.
#m#my post#dc#batman#batman: caped crusader#batman caped crusader#batman the animated series#this is a bit ramble-y but it’s just stream of consciousness#didn’t even touch on how they introduced dick jason and Stephanie as orphans in the nocturna episode#that was a v cool interpretation of her also#I hope those 3 will be back in some capacity - maybe as recurring characters who help Bruce act more compassionate#he volunteers w Leslie or has to fund/save her orphanage and that starts off either wayne enterprises or his philanthropy#I noticed they didn’t include Tim Cass or Damian#I think they’ll do something special for Tim bc he was such a large part of TNBA#idk for Damian but it would be interesting if they introduced Talia#I wonder if they’ll do a time skip?#I’m still holding out hope that they have cass as batgirl but that’s a bit of a pipe dream#dc comics#barbara gordon#Bruce Wayne#harvey dent#Harley Quinn#renee montoya#jim gordon
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mulder vs. scully and her period
-first off, he 1000% keeps track of her cycle - it's vital to his survival - but he would never ever ever ever tell scully that
-he learned to start keeping track after too many blunders during their first year working together. like, he'd had girlfriends in the past, obviously, but he didn't travel the country constantly with them day in and day out. even diana was rly reserved about her period, preferring to keep that sort of thing to herself. but scully is a medical doctor. while she may take issue with any emotional aspect, and be uncomfortable and embarrassed about that part, she is completely nonplussed by the physical aspect, and talks about it very bluntly and openly, and that took mulder by surprise at first. he wasn't used to being around a woman who wasn't bashful about it, and it made him uncomfortable at first, but eventually he was like "ok, this is going to be part of working with her, i need to get over myself and up my game"
-in their entire time working together, mulder has made one (1) "are you on your period or something?" joke. it was about six months into their partnership, and scully was (rightfully) irritated at him about something and he had tried for some levity. let's just say that he, ah... he has never made that mistake again
-he always has a tampon on hand. like, always. it is more reliable to ask mulder if he has a tampon than it would be to ask another woman in the bathroom if she has one. he started keeping them on him when she got her period on a three hour long flight that had an hour delay on the tarmac, and she'd accidentally forgotten to take a couple tampons out of her checked luggage, so he'd watched her shift around uncomfortably with a makeshift pad made of thin, coarse airplane bathroom toilet paper, and he felt really bad that he couldn't do anything about it, so on the flight back, he bought a travel pack pack of like, six tampons when he went to get sunflower seeds, just in case. then at some point he was like "mb i should keep a couple in my overnight bag for her," and that led to, "she's in my apartment a lot, i should throw a couple under the sink," until eventually he was King of the Tampons
-(he even has different absorbency levels, okay? like, he is on top of his shit)
-he used to buy chocolate for her on long drives when he knew she was on the rag, always saying something like, "it was two for one, don't worry about it," even when it wasn't, until he started to pay closer attention, and he realized she actually tended to crave salty foods instead of sweet ones, so he switched from chocolate to potato chips and pretzels. (he would play it off as though he got them for himself and then would keep offering her some, bc he knew that would help her not sit there and (completely needlessly) dwell over eating junk food)
-she gets really bad cramps the first day and a half or so, and he haaaates it, bc even tho she waves it off, he can see the way she clenches her jaw, and is hunched over whenever she thinks he's not paying attention. if she's over at his place when they're happening - even if they're working - he makes her sit with a heating pad and encourages her to drink the whole glass of water when she takes her midol. he has massaged her lower back on more than one occasion
-she stopped getting her periods regularly when she was going through cancer treatment, her body too sick and weak. about two months after going into remission, she bled through her slacks on some rural highway in arkansas, and although mulder listened to her complain and validated her frustration, he was secretly so relieved, bc he knew it meant that her body was really and truly starting to heal
-her periods become kind of a taboo subject in a way they hadn't ever been before once she learns of her infertility. she doesn't talk as openly about them anymore, but he's still always prepared and after four/five plus years together he doesn't need her to tell him how to make her feel better. he can intuit it. she doesn't say it, but he knows that she's grateful
-her periods become a dark topic when the ivf fails. the period that confirmed it didn't take was hard on both of them, and she spent every night of it at mulder's apartment letting him hold her and allowing him the privilege of caring for her, which she usually resisted
-he actually noticed that she missed a period before he was taken in oregon, but he had no reason to suspect it was anything but just a fluke, so he didn't say anything. when he glanced at his calendar and saw what week it was, though, he did have a fleeting moment where he was like "what if?" not in a serious capacity, but in a wistful way. i mean, they'd been going at it like rabbits and had never once even considered using a condom. like, why would they, right? but in his brief fantasy, he thinks about how she would react seeing a plus sign on a pregnancy test. it would be familiar - that look of disbelief and awe she got whenever they witnessed something unexplainable - and he would be the cause of it, and how amazing would it feel to be able to give that to her? to give that to both of them? but he knows it'll never be anything more than a pipe dream (bitch, you thought!)
-we won't get into sad later stuff, but i'll just say that he really, really resents the fact that he wasn't there to take care of her during her pregnancy. and he would have been fantastic at it. he would have toed the line between supportive but not overbearing perfectly. she would have had a beautiful nine months, like she had more than earned. he'll never totally forgive the universe for taking that from them
-and to conclude, let me just say for the record, mulder is all about period sex. orgasms help cramps, right? he's just being altruistic. ("YOUR orgasm doesn't help my cramps, mulder" "hey, we'll never know for sure unless we try")
-lay down a towel, lay down your woman, and get to it. bro eats crime scene evidence. there's no way he'd let a period stop him from fucking. god bless and amen
-the end
#as always this is just stream of consciousness nonsense#i think i switched tenses in the middle of sentences up there lol#don't take it too seriously#it was just on my mind grapes and i thought i'd share#otp: maybe if it rains sleeping bags#msr#txf#the x-files#diz writes conspiracies#diz spouts conspiracies
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okay. so maybe i did draw mildly MILDLY suggestive content. so WHAT. fuck you guys
idek if this is good but it took ages and im tired so take it
bill using affection as a reward and getting ford addicted to his touch and praise so he works harder. you agree. reblog
#I HAD TO GET IT OUT OF MY SYSTEM OKAY IT'S BEEN PLAGUING MY CONSCIOUSNESS#FOR FAR TOO LONG#if you know me irl. no you don't.#UGHGH ANYWAY!!!#gravity falls#ford pines#bill cipher#billford#cecil's scribbles#suggestive#MAYBE#i am literally fighting demons to post this im#hhh. whatever
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How many times have we done this, Interceptor? You betrayed me at one point.
composition
#pokemon rejuvenation#melia#emma#did i take a screencap of the entire altar incident and pause it frame by frame to transcribe the backwards text?#no#maybe#perhaps#no fr tho i love all of the small touches in 13.5#the replay value is phenomenal#i know i'm not the only one who finds paragon melia off#who even is melia anyway#melanie + maria?#what about emma?#only upon drawing this did I realize how nearly identical Melia's Archetype winx club fit and the Emma “disguise” are#working on a theory about that whole disguise situation and might post something soon#in an actual post tho bc it's probably bad to be abusing tags like this#but the stream of consciousness format is so fun#anyway i had a lot of fun making this. trying to make art for fun and for me again. 2024.#linked the composition inspo in the post body! super dope great study
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there seems to be far too many fans who can't seem to wrap their head around the fact that no relationship in the Vampire Chronicles is healthy. every relationship includes an element of abuse/power imbalance by normal standards. literally every single one.
they are all monsters who are no longer constrained by societal rules. so I don't think it's too crazy to expect them to do mosntorus things. the genre is Gothic HORROR. the show really prioritizes the HORROR element more so than other adaptaions, which i love.
i don't need louis to be a liar to enjoy lestat. if louis lied or misremebered things about the fight in episode 5, i literally do not care because it's never gonna make me hate louis. the baseline of what constitutes "evil" or "bad" is so different in iwtv because of the fact that they are NOT HUMAN. Claudia is literally a serial killer and she's still mother to me. ykwim?
the nature of vampirism is they have to kill to survive. so it would be really cool if people could accept louis, armand, and claudia as complex characters who are fundamentally not good people (because they aren't people!) without being racist about it. THEY ARE ALL KILLERS
im more interested in this exploration of the complexities of memory and seeing how the show integrates the other books into this story in a way that hasn't been done before than I am in discoursing about whether louis is a liar or not. who gives a shit???? grow up and realize that there are no good guys here and that's OKAY
#iwtv#tvc#lestat de lioncourt#louis de pointe du lac#interview with the vampire#amc iwtv#I pretty much cleansed all my feeds so i dont actually see much racism more so than i see people talking about it#just some random thoughts i guess in the wake of the new trailer just because i know things are gonna get weird#it would be nice if audiences could be trusted with complex and morally grey characters of color but idk#but i also think the fact that there are racists is not a reason to NOT make poc characters who are complex#same goes for the people who will interpret the portrayal of a morally grey poc character AS racist#there are certain tropes i think that are always going to have racist implications ofc and im not trying to discount that#but lets all be real here and realize that revisiting ep 5 to add more layers to it is NOT going to exonerate lestat by any means#add more complexity and layers and possibly show that louis was not AS helpless as he showed himself to be? maybe#but they are not going to exonerate the white character to make the black character look evil#idk if any of this made sense im just stream of consciousness rambling
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as much as i have stuck to drawing child tommy, as thats the version all of us are most familiar w and the version we know well, its also really inspiring to imagine him grown up. to imagine what he would look like and which features he would grow into and who he would resemble be it by genetics or choice or both. this character that was never allowed to live, never allowed to die on his own terms, being able to finally grow up like normal. what would he look like? of course when i imagine an older ctommy, i simply can’t divorce him from the image of cwil no matter how much i may want to. they’re brothers, by blood or not depends on your hc but to me it doesn’t matter. they look alike, sometimes almost eeerily so. not that they would ever be indistinguishable, there are a few very visible differences, but it’s the little things. all the little things that make them so painfully like despite the obvious differences. the way ctommy tugs on his curls when he’s upset, the way he paces the room frantically muttering and cursing when he’s stressed. the way he sings while making potions, the way he sometimes lets the dramatics take him and allows his gangly limbs to swing like misweighted pendulums as he waxes not so poetic about something or another. the way he hunches up to make himself look smaller without even thinking and ctubbo always has to remind him not to slouch. and the way he stands up tall and holds himself like their former commander in chief when he’s trying to be a BIG MAN. i started this post thinking of the specific facial features and details ctommy would have as an adult, and how they would relate and differ to his brothers, but now i am lost int he sauce of imagining eve r little mannerism ctommy picked up being raised by cwil and no matter how far away from each other they are these connections will always remind them of each other (because god knows wil has picked up just as many of tommy’s mannerisms over their many codependent years together) and it quickly gets too painful to think about. anyway im normal .
#anyways i’m gonna go draw ctommy#maybe as an adult#20 yo ctommy and 28yo cwil#brothers finally in the same age bracket for a whole two years#cwil is now old enough he’s beginning to get the full philza (old man) treatment#he’s 28#this makes no sense but i think like three people on my side blog would even get what im talkin about so#here it is#unfiltered moriphyte crimeboys ‘meta’ stream of consciousness style#it’s shitty and i don’t care#turns out i’m stupid#sorry
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