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“You, Always.”- Danny Ramirez
Warnings: Slowburn, Friends to lovers, RPF fic, Fluff, Multi-part series
(In case you missed the first four chapters, click here)
Part Two
Where we begin again
Fifth Chapter
Three months after NYC. A summer in Miami. No time like the present.
Danny was back in his hometown for two weeks, a short but much-needed break before diving back into work and a massive new project that awaited him. The first few days were spent with family, relaxing and recharging. But as his second and final week approached, he couldn’t shake the thought of (Y/N), who now lived in Miami as well. He hadn’t heard from her since he’d texted her his number, and since both of them were over-thinkers, they hadn’t managed to spark a real conversation over text.
That night, lying in bed, Danny couldn’t help but reach out, sending her a text message before he regretted it for good.
"Hey (Initial)! Hope you're doing well. I’m in town for a couple of weeks and thought it’d be nice to catch up if you're up for it. Let me know what you think. See you soon! :)"
When (Y/N) saw his message, she froze for a moment. It had been a while since they last spoke, and she hadn’t expected him to reach out after sometime. She’d wanted to respond right away, but her schedule was packed. Hours passed, and though she saw the ‘read’ status on her phone, she couldn’t find the right words or moment to just do it.
Danny, after noticing hours had passed, began to doubt himself. Maybe he had misread the whole scenario. Perhaps she really wasn’t as interested in reconnecting as he’d hoped.
In reality, it wasnt that she wasn’t interested. She was just busy and, honestly, a little overwhelmed by it all. The next evening, after mentally editing her response a few times, she hit ‘send.’
"Hey! Sorry for the late reply. I’ve been caught up this weekend, but let’s plan something for the week. What are you in the mood for?"
Thursday of that same week, (Y/N) hurried through the streets of Miami, trying to get to the ice cream shop on time. Of course, today of all days, everyone at the office had needed something from her, pushing her lunch break nearly twenty minutes late. Now, someone was already waiting for her.
As she neared the shop, she slowed her pace, taking a deep breath to regain her composure. Outside, Danny sat at a table, focused on his phone, his posture relaxed. (Y/N) adjusted her purse and walked toward him, catching his attention as she approached.
“Oh hey! You made it.” A smile spread across his face as he stood, greeting her with a side hug and a quick kiss on the cheek.
“I’m so, so sorry. Work’s been crazy today—I hope you don’t mind the change of plans.”
Danny laughed, shaking his head. “Not at all. I’m chill with whatever. It’s good to see you.”
(Y/N) smiled as they headed inside, scanning the array of ice cream flavors.
“You eat anything yet?” Danny asked after a beat.
She shook her head, still focused on the options in front of her.
“Want to grab something else first?”
“What? No, no. I’m good. Ice cream’s better than real food anyway.”
Danny shot her a half-smile, clearly unconvinced. She caught the look and glanced back at him.
“I like your hair,” she said, changing the subject. “It looks longer than the last time I saw you. Actually, I think this is the longest I’ve ever seen it on you.”
“Oh, yeah.” He ran a hand through it absently. “I have to shave it all off for a project, so I figured I’d just let it do its thing for now.”
“Are you serious? What a waste of good lucious hair.”
Danny laughed, shaking his head as they paused to place their orders.
Outside the day felt warm and with a thick scent of freshly baked waffle cones wafting from the shop behind them. (Y/N) and Danny sat down on a bench and entertained themselves in a casual conversation while the occasional murmur of passing conversations mixed with the distant hum of traffic.
“So, I’m kind of curious… Where do you work again? I don’t think we ever talked about that.”
(Y/N) pulled the spoon from her mouth, tilting her head as she considered the question. “I work at a marketing agency as a Content Production Assistant. I handle all the audio editing for their productions and stuff like that.”
Danny hummed, nodding as he swirled his spoon through the melting edges of his ice cream. “That sounds cool. Do you like it?”
She hesitated. “I guess… yeah. It’s not exactly where I want to be, but I don’t mind it. It pays the bills, I’m getting real-world experience, and I’ve gotten more comfortable with my work. I just wish I had more time for my own projects.”
Danny took a slow breath, his gaze drifting toward her, resting his elbows on his knees. “You’ll get there,” he said. “When I got out of college, I struggled bad. At one point, I was juggling three jobs while still trying to stay on top of auditions and callbacks. I was desperate for anything.” He chuckled, shaking his head. “It took me a long time to get to where I am now, and honestly? I still feel like I’m barely getting by.”
“Shut up.” (Y/N) rolled her eyes with a smile. “You’re doing amazing.”
Danny turned to her with a smirk, tapping his spoon against his cup. “Yeah? So that means you’ve seen me on TV?”
Her posture stiffened. She licked her lips, suddenly more focused on her ice cream as she stole a quick glance at him.
“Ohhh, so you have!” His grin widened.
“Uhh…” She stayed quiet, gauging his reaction. “Actually… I haven’t. Like… at all.”
Danny’s smile faltered. “Wait, are you serious?”
(Y/N) bit her lip, suppressing a laugh when she noticed the slight flush creeping onto his cheeks.
“This is embarrassing… Why would you say I’m good if you’ve never seen me?!”
“Because!” She laughed, nudging him with her elbow. “I’ve seen you in your element. I know you’re good.”
Danny exhaled dramatically, slouching back against the bench. “Okay. I’m done with this conversation.”
“No, no! Wait.” She nudged him again, her grin playful. “I actually do want to know what you’re working on. Are you gonna tell me about your next project?”
Danny turned his head slightly, giving her an exaggerated, unimpressed look before shaking his head.
“Oh, come on. Don’t be such a baby, Danny. I said I’m sorry.” She playfully punched his arm, and though he said nothing, a small smile crept onto his face.
“Well, it’s good that you’re sorry… but I really can’t say anything for legal reasons.”
“Oh.” She blinked at him.
Danny smirked, barely holding back a laugh.
“Guess you’ll just have to wait until it’s out in theaters.”
(Y/N) was about to fire back a playful remark, entertained by the easy rhythm of their conversation, when her phone started to ring. She ignored it at first, hoping it would stop on its own. It did—only for a series of text messages to pop up on her screen.
Her eyes scanned the messages quickly, and as she reached the last one, her expression shifted.
“Are you serious?” she muttered, exhaling sharply as she read it again.
Danny, catching the change in her demeanor, leaned slightly toward her. “You have to go?”
She nodded with a frown. “Yeah… Apparently, my lunch break was supposed to be shorter today whether I wanted to or not. We have a last-minute client meeting, and I have to be there.” The disappointment was clear in her voice. “I’m really sorry, Danny.”
“Don’t apologize. It’s not your fault.” He smiled, already standing up and taking the empty cup from her hands to toss it in the trash. “At least we got to hang out for a bit. We’ll plan something next time I’m in Miami.”
“Right… Sure.” She tried to return his smile, though it came out a little sheepish. Leaning in, the girl gave him a small hug. “Thanks for reaching out. We’ll stay in touch, alright?”
“Sounds good to me. Now go before they call you again.”
(Y/N) nodded, waving once before hurrying back toward her job. Danny stood there for a beat, hands in his pockets, watching her go before turning in the opposite direction.
But as she walked, something nagged at her. It had all felt too short and too fast. Even more-so when she had taken her sweet time to actually plan something decent with him. And now, the reality settled in—she probably wouldn’t see him again for months. Maybe longer.
Before she could overthink it, she pulled out her phone and dialed his number.
Danny glanced at his screen, momentarily confused. Had she called by mistake? Still, he answered.
“You butt-dialed me or something?” His laughter was the first thing she heard.
“No, not really.” She hesitated only for a second. “When exactly are you leaving Miami?”
“In two days.” His tone shifted slightly, curiosity creeping in. “Why?”
“Are you busy tomorrow afternoon?”
“Uh, no, not really. I was just gonna spend the day with my mom. Why?”
“Would she hate me if I stole you for a couple of hours?”
Danny let out a chuckle. “I doubt she’d hate you for any reason in the world, to be honest.”
(Y/N) smiled, knowing damn well he was right about that.
“Then I’ll see you tomorrow after five. I’ll send you the details later, okay?”
“Sounds perfect. I’ll see you tomorrow, Miss (Initial).”
“See you tomorrow. Bye.”
As she hung up, a smile tugged at her lips, her chest suddenly feeling lighter. What she didn’t know was that on the other end of the call, Danny felt the exact same way. After all, maybe going back to being friends wasn’t going to be as hard as it seemed.
The next day rolled in, and thankfully, (Y/N) was on time and much more relaxed than the day before. She waited at the park, casually snacking as she watched people stroll by, some walking, others riding bikes along the path. The sun was beginning to set, casting a golden hue over the scene, and the usual Miami heat had softened under the evening breeze.
Just as a new playlist started playing in her earphones, she felt a tap on her shoulder. She pulled out one earbud and glanced over her shoulder.
“Hey,” Danny greeted her with an easy smile.
“Oh, hi!” Her own smile mirrored his as she took a quick look at him from head to toe, checking if he was dressed for the occasion. He was—comfortable athletic wear, a hat, and, as always, the same chain resting on his chest.
“Let’s go. We’ve got places to be!” she announced, already starting to walk.
Danny chuckled, shaking his head at how naturally she spoke to him, as if they had just seen each other minutes ago. He followed her lead, still unsure of their destination, until they stopped in front of a rollerblade rental shop.
“You’re kidding.” He looked from the skates to her, eyebrows raised. “Are we roller skating?”
(Y/N) nodded nonchalantly.
He let out a laugh. “Did it even cross your mind that I might not know how to do that?”
“You don’t?” She tilted her head, though she didn’t seem all that concerned.
“I do,” he admitted. “But you didn’t know that.”
“I guessed.” She simply shrugged. “ I don’t, by the way. Figured it would be a good time to try it out.”
Danny stared at her, half amused, half baffled. “Bro, what? Are you crazy?” He laughed again, shaking his head. “I cannot wait to see how this ends. You’re unbelievable.”
(Y/N) finally laughed, not bothering to argue as she went ahead with the rental process. Before he could protest further, she handed him a pair of skates and dragged him back toward the park, just steps away from Miami Beach.
They sat on a bench, helping each other lace up their skates. Danny stood first, testing his balance before extending both hands toward her.
“Alright, come on,” he said, steady and sure. “Let’s see if you survive this.”
(Y/N) took his hands, already laughing as she wobbled to her feet.
The moment (Y/N) was fully standing, she realized she had made a mistake.
Her feet wobbled dangerously beneath her, rolling in opposite directions as she clung onto Danny’s hands for dear life.
“Oh—oh no, wait—” she stammered, trying to steady herself.
Danny, already grinning, barely held back a laugh.
“Oh, this is bad” he said dramatically, his grip tightening to keep her upright. “I thought I was gonna have to help you a little but you might actually die.”
“Shut up!” she whined, struggling to find her balance. “This is harder than it looks!”
Danny, completely at ease on his skates, skated backward while still holding onto her, making it look effortless.”
“See, the key is—”
Before he could finish his sentence, (Y/N) yelped as her foot slid forward too fast, and just like that—bam—she hit the pavement.
For a split second, there was silence.
Then, Danny lost it
“Oh my god—” He doubled over, laughing so hard he had to brace himself against his knees. “That was amazing. I wish I had my phone out.”
(Y/N) groaned from the ground. “ Can you please not?! “
“No, no, I’m motivating you,” he said between chuckles, offering her a hand. “Come on, get up. Let’s try this again.”
She took his hand and, with his help, got back on her feet. This time, she lasted about ten seconds before her legs betrayed her again.
Thud.
Danny clutched his stomach, laughing even harder.
“I swear—” (Y/N) glared at him from the ground. “If you laugh one more time—”
“Sorry, sorry!” He wiped a fake tear from his eye. “I’m done, I swear. Come on champ. Get up.”
He held out a hand again, and after a second, she narrowed her eyes at him but took it anyway.
“Alright,” This time Danny pulled her closer so she had no choice but to hold onto his shoulders for support. “We’re gonna take this slow. No sudden movements.”
(Y/N) nodded seriously, gripping onto him like her life depended on it.
“Good.” He smirked. “Now… say ‘Wheee!’”
She blinked. “What?”
He suddenly pushed off, skating forward with her clinging onto him.
“Danny, NO!”
Her scream echoed through the park as he burst out laughing all over again.
Two very long hours passed—and after an embarrassing number of falls—(Y/N) finally started to get the hang of it. She still wasn’t graceful, and Danny never missed an opportunity to have fun with it, but at least she could move without immediately wiping out.
By the time they returned their skates, both of them were starving. So, without much thought, they walked to a nearby burger spot, grabbed their food, and made their way to the now-dark beach.
The sound of the waves filled the quiet space as they sat down on the sand, shoes off, letting the night breeze cool them down. Danny took a big bite of his burger, chewing thoughtfully before turning to (Y/N).
"Alright, I’ll admit it," he said, stretching his legs out in front of him. "That was way more fun than I expected. Even if you’re all bruised up and traumatized after it.
(Y/N) scoffed, nudging his arm. "You know what? You’re actually a hater. There’s no need to mention that stuff.”
Danny laughed, shaking his head. "Yeah, yeah. But seriously, this was great. We need to do it again."
(Y/N) smiled, resting her chin on her knee as she looked out at the water. "I’d love to. Just gotta figure out when we’ll actually be in the same city again."
Danny hummed in agreement. "Yeah… schedules are a pain. But we’ll make it work. Even if it takes months, we’ll plan something.”
"Deal," (Y/N) said, holding out her pinky.
Danny grinned and locked his pinky with hers without hesitation. "Deal."
For a moment, neither of them said anything, just enjoying the cool breeze and the comfortable ease between them.
However long it took, they both knew this wouldn’t be the last time.
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what about you whats ur yj character rankings?
okayyy so this is gonna be an interesting one just a friendly reminder i love ALL of them and they went through so so so much and they all deserve so much better <333 no hate pls !! (spoilers for s3e4 btw)
im gonna do in description stuff for the top three only because i have to go :<
jackie, my babygirlie, my wet pathetic meow meow comphet lesbian. idk what to say. shes so tragic and i miss her sm. i think what kills me the most about her is how optimistic she was from the start that everything would be okay and that they'd all make it and how by the end she just lost all of her motivation. she started off with the most life in her, and left with the least. all she ever really wanted was to be loved, yet she left the earth thinking everybody hated her. also anyone who says shes a mean girl square up cause she was just oblivious, okay? she wasnt purposely bossy!!! leave her alone!!! but yeah shes my baby i miss her
misty. look, i know a lot of ppl dislike her for obvious reasons but i dont care shes my shayla!!! she just wanted attention, okay??? similar to jackie, she truly just had the best intentions but kinda ended up screwing people over. tbh i cant explain why i love misty sm but i just do. she makes me cry so much, like, she tried so so hard and while yes she is insanely offputting and concerning and scary, she was just a kid, okay?? also, when shauna was yelling at misty in the car in adult timeline saying how something fucked her up as a kid (paraphrasing) i know she said it to be mean, but i think its true. i think maybe she has some sorta disorder or her parents were absent or smth. idk, but my shyala deserves better idc
lottie. my babys dead!!!! yall killed her!!!! i just sat there in shock when she died for a good five mins then started crying cause fym shes dead??? sure, she technically caused travis' death and probably akilah's too if she dies but she never had any bad intentions!!! she just wanted to help
this is really interesting actually cause my top three are basically all girls who wanted to help so much that they ended up fucking people over.
4. nat. my shayla did nothing wrong she was so god and so pure to the point where it makes me sick. its not her fault she was stuck in a bad situation she deserved the whole world idc
5. taissa. tbh at first i was kinda anti-taissa just cause of when she was getting all pissy about shauna playing w jackies corpse but i was sooo wrong!!! tai is SUCH a good friend and genuinely just such a good person i love her
6. van. look im not anti van i mean sometimes she pisses me off lowk but im more nuetral than anything when it comes to her like sorry i dont have any real opinions on her lmao but she is funny ill give her that
7. shauna. look i really really wanna love shauna sm because my girl went thru soooo so much and she really is such a kind soul but just. she pisses me off and i wish she didnt. but as much as i love her i just cannot support her 90% of the time. like girl needs to stfu (but i love her still)
#yellowjackets#jackie taylor#misty quigley#lottie matthews#natalie scatorccio#taissa turner#van palmer#shauna shipman#yellowjackets showtime#yj
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i keep saying I think Van could be the reason they almost died in the cabin fire and i realise that I haven't explained why I think that. i know it seems obvious that it should be tai because of her alter ego and of all the fire imagery around her this season but i think theres another explanation for it. after all, fire has always been van's thing. every time she almost dies she rises from it. and i think for van's teen and adult storylines to mirror each other this season, it has to have been van.
i dont necessarily think it was deliberately set, perhaps it rly was just bad chimney upkeep, or if it was deliberate it was very much on impulse and not planned. however, whats important is van just sat there and watched it happen. like i dont think the vision she had in the cave was as much of a metaphor as we're imagining it to be. and ofc she cant tell the others that it wasnt coach, even tai, because then she'd have to admit why she knows - that she sat there and let it happen. she'd have to admit that she gambled with their survival because she was too paralysed by guilt to move.
this season with adult taivan we're seeing tai so ready to sacrifice innocent people to extend vans life, and van pushing back against it. she doest think she wants to live if thats the cost of it. deep down its just not who she is. shes not the type of ruthless tai, shauna, and misty are. after letting javi die to feed themselves, maybe she saw that fire catch and thought for a moment they deserved to burn. and so she did nothing. this is far more interesting to me than "other tai burned the cabin for ??? some reason"
it also plays into the tais fascination with fire this season. fire is always what signals vans survival - she emerges last from both the crash site and the cabin. she even woke up on her own funeral pyre. tai is the fire this season, shes whats sustaining van. shes both vans reason for living and the person willing to kill to keep van alive. the problem is vans not going to be able to live with that, especially with the way its changing tai. on some level vans going to be back in that burning cabin again wondering if her life was worth someone elses death and this time maybe she doesnt kick down the door to get everyone out. maybe she just lets the place burn. in trying to save van, tai would end up destroying her and honestly that makes perfect sense because thats what everyone in this show ends up doing. killing their best friend
#van palmer#this make any sense at all#?#taivan#taissa turner#yellowjackets#yj theories#yj meta#yj spoilers
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found this super interesting. this person below is an acting coach and scriptwriter that's worked on/working on: kinnporsche (2022), only friends (2023), playboyy (2023) and mansruang (2023):





#this is so interesting to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!#only friends#playboyy#kinnporsche#mansruang#faiza talks#like obvs gmmtv can only take it so far and push certain boundaries. but in playboyy all the boundaries have been pushed.#so yeah playboyy gives me so much hope now that its going to be SO SO SO good and maybe very controversial but its a topic that needs#discussing.#god i LOVE how asian queer media is out there PUSHING boundaries now. we've come a long long way.#and i mean not that we havent had these themes explored in thai/asian queer media before - we have.#but that was in a time when social media wasnt so prominent and instant as opposed to now. so yeah.#drawing attention and sharing content about it makes it a lot more easier to raise awareness about it.
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im not saying all of my posts are bangers, but its hard not to notice that posts i make about other companions easily break 100 notes no sweat, with the upper limit breaching 1k, to outliers of well over 4k, but whenever it's about wyll, it's crickets. i dunno, youre allowed to interact with anything you want to, and this isnt a call to reblog from me, specifically, this is the same for a lot of wyll orientated posts ive seen, but its just odd. and by odd i mean racist.
#the tomes#bg3#bg3 wyll#wyll ravengard#wyll bg3#baldurs gate wyll#baldur's gate 3#baldurs gate 3#ive went back and forth on whether or not to post abt this bc i dont want it to come off like WHY is nobody REBLOGGING from ME#but i want to emphasize thats not what im saying#im saying when i see my other posts take off when theyre about white people you notice when they dont for the black character#and like yeah i dont have a TON of wyll posts#theyre mostly about gale -looks at url- obviously#but i dont have a ton for halsin or astarion either and yet they have no trouble#and to a lesser extent this kinda happens with the female characters too#i dont see a lot of fan content for them#also i wasnt sure if my wyll stuff just maybe isnt as good as my other stuff#but when im consistently seeing positive feedback for everyone BUT wyll it does make u wonder#my wyll stuff does about the same as my solo tav stuff#which is fine irt to the solo tav stuff as much as i obviously want ppl to take interest and im not going to pretend i dont#its not like theyre a canon character to anyone but me so i honestly dont take offence to that#but its weird that wyll - a canon character - does about the same as my ocs when nobody really KNOWS my ocs#its not that my wyll posts get NO engagement#but my wyll posts and my tav posts normally sit at around 50ish notes#which i think is perfectly respectable for an oc post#but WYLL??
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i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed
#like we have so many ways of doing things that could help us in the long run but because we're told it requires more work we just cant#its too resource intensive. or maybe its too much to maintain. we have to overlook benefits so money can go into more important things#we teach each other to do things a certain way so it works for everyone but who was it convenient for first? what abt who it might hurt?#i have to wonder if the rules our current system uses is worth listening to or following if it doesnt have our best interests in mind. u an#me and the ppl around us.. would we be better off if i ate my meals knowing the person who grew it wanted to feed others the way they could#feed themselves? and that isnt to say we're going to be happy doing it but i guess satisfied that its helping someone instead of quietly#accepting that itll eventually go in the dumpster behind a grocery store because it stopped looking appetizing or it wasnt on sale anymore#what about building homes so we can shelter each other? what if we were satisfied with what we did because we knew it would be paid back#with kindness? isnt that what we evolved to do?? heal each others bones and tell stories and help each other??#why dont houses come with solar panels or generators unless we find a way to make people pay to use the sun? why is our pooled money used#to fund genocides instead of education and hospitals? whose interests and convenience came first when we started this??#i wont pretend to know the answer because i dont. but we all know we're miserable and im sorry to say that i cant see myself fighting#for a world that wont fight for me too. why do we work if we cant live from it?? why did they stop us from plucking more teeth from our#bosses until they could build more walls around themselves and then go back to underpaying us??#im so tired. i cant even imagine making it to age 70#yapping#vent
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scribblezone again testing out brushes, early grey oru, and ace attorney-style psychelocks
#witch hat tag#orufrey#doodly. i like one of the brushes tho.#oh and i was thinking how the girls have qifrey's hat design but oru's (current) tassel and how that makes me feel#ppl will surely be thinking umm WHY do they have a different tassel to him unlike every other atelier ever. the whole tassel thing is just.#whatever. *keeps the rest to myself as i fall down a zelda-style chasm of emotion*#i JUST wanna know if tassel swapping is a cultural witch sign of commitment OR if it's something they just made up. JUST TELL ME. NAAOOOOWW#the girls are too young to hear about it because oru has the inbuilt belief that kids will mercilessly tease ppl#ok what is going on someone said the psychelocks art made them laugh and someone else said it made them smile#sometimes when i try to get out depressing ideas ppl are like hehe aww and then for those pink clothes i got surprisingly much sad response#it wasnt THAT sad........maybe. anyway genuinely interesting . this world is a mystery#i think its bc i mix humour & tragedy more than i ever imagined i would. i mean witch hat is like that so thats why im doing it. well anywa
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Im super charmed whenever they include tsukasas corpse inside the freezer its so funny to me ... that man is not in cryostasis he is straight up dead
#Dr stone#i think its interesting actually that senku proposed cryonics because everyone knows its bullshit ... like i turn a blind eye to the scienc#in this series a lot but i think that was the most open use of pseudoscience without any sort of clarification whatsoever... i recall at th#end they might have said something like senku was mostly just preserving the body because he already theorised that de-petrification could#bring dead people to life as long as the body is intact <- or maybe i dreamt this up because i like the show so much that i fill in plot#holes by myself but you know... like on one hand senku did say he was going to kill tsukasa by freezing him but did he actually know to wha#extent... no he MUST have known !!!! He must have known this is one thing i wont budge on he literally must have known that resurrection wa#possible as long as they acquired the petrification tech because otherwise the whole point of that trip was null thats why he wasnt too#surprised when tsukasa told him that hyoga died and came back to life when he got petrified too ... like when he literally got torn to#shreds by a machine gun and stopped breathing and went cold and tsukasa was like oh shittt..... fingers crossed lol#but it would have been nice for senku to be like -_- i already knew .#anyway thats not the point look at tsukasa in the fridge o o
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im very normal about fuuta in general but i dont think im ever going to emotionally recover from his fire motif and what it represents for his character and how he reflects the greater theme of justice so that means i must rant about it
(more under the cut because this got longer than i expected whoopsies)
so anyway fire is pretty obviously supposed to be symbolic of his passion for justice right? that fire is all over the place in bring it on. he's wielding it to take down enemies, his signature weapon is a flaming sword. it's what he uses to lead the campaign against the people he's after, the people he's deemed in the wrong.

it's a fucking flaming sword, it's badass as hell!!!! it's what a hero of justice, a knight, would use!!!! it's cool as shit, it's his symbol of justice.
that's how he sees his justice in trial 1.

he's righteous, he wants so badly to believe he was a hero, he was doing it all for a good cause, for justice. his passion for justice was a tool he used to meet those ends, to be a hero, to wave it valiantly in the face of enemies.
the fire, however, is conspicuously absent once he's noticed the blood on his hands

interestingly, despite backdraft as a song title being much more related to his fire motif than bring it on, fire is actually surprisingly absent from the mv's visuals. fire, as in actual orange burning fire, doesn't show up much at all in backdraft except for when both fuuta and his victim begin turning to ashes, and a short bit near the end right after the last chorus when the spraycan explodes in fuuta's face. you know what the mv does show a lot of though?


smoke. and ash. the byproducts of a fire, the byproducts of fuuta's passion for justice.
bringing it back to firefighting for a moment: as many people have already pointed out, backdraft as a firefighting term refers to when a fire that has consumed all available oxygen suddenly explodes when more oxygen is made available, such as when a window or door breaks. the thing about fire hazards, though, is if the fire and the heat don't do someone in, usually it's the smoke. the smoke inhalation causes breathing difficulties and suffocation, making it even more difficult for a person to escape the fire.

in backdraft, instead of fire itself, what we're shown is these byproducts of a fire. the smoke is damaging to human health, and the ash shows that the fire has burned things up and caused destruction, in this case killing someone. all we're shown is the negative results of a fire, in sharp contrast to its badass, positive portrayal in bring it on.


hell, even fuuta himself starts turning to ashes and the spraycan explodes in his face, showing how even he is experiencing the negative results of a fire that has gotten out of his control, how even he has gotten burned by his passion for justice. or, is it es' desire for justice?

translation of fuuta's t2 vd by onigiriico
Me, too! I was like that, too! I also didn't think it'd turn out that way!
You and I are exactly the same breed! The only difference between us is the clothes we're wearing.
fuuta's justice and es' justice, it's all the same in his head now, he directly tells es that they're the same, that we're the same. it's all the same hunger for justice that ends up causing harm even if that wasn't the intention.
you know that saying that fire is a good servant but a bad master? i think that's pretty applicable to fuuta's situation. his passion for the pursuit of justice was great when it was still a tool, a sword he could wield, after all he did manage to shed light on some people's wrongs and bring them to justice. but once it exploded, when it became a backdraft that even he could no longer control, it did more damage than he intended.

it burned even him, it killed a middle schooler. and he recognizes that in backdraft. he only shows us the ways fire that becomes a hazard can go wrong.
translation of fuuta's t2 vd by onigiriico
What did I do? All I did was say that what's wrong is wrong! I was just going off at a bad person online!
I didn't think they would die! I just thought that wrong things are wrong, and that a crime is a crime! You get that, don't you? See? Aren't we the same?
it's just. fire is such a good metaphor for the message of fuuta's character and his arc. it's an amazing illustration of how dangerous it is when you feed a desire for justice too much, when you forget to put a boundary on how you handle that fire. eventually the fire spreads just like how passion for justice becomes zealotry, until more and more things fall under what you consider to be 'punishable' by your standards and goes out of control to hurt people that probably didn't deserve it. it's a warning to set proper boundaries on our own definition and desire for justice and what's 'right' so the good intentions doesn't spiral into harm. it's a reflection of our attitudes towards milgram as the audience responsible for their justice and forgiveness. it's amazing i love it i love fuuta's fire symbolism i love fuuta's character arc and i love milgram's writing so so so much
#milgram#fuuta kajiyama#im sure someone has already gone through every point in this post before but i was having fuuta thoughts and they needed to go somewhere#this might be super disorganized this is essentially the first draft and i kinda just word vomited lol#anyways i love milgram i love picking it apart for its themes#tangentially i might do another whole thing comparing fuuta to kotoko but hm not sure if i can add much to that discussion#maybe after deep cover comes out#i actually really like kotoko for similar reasons to fuuta actually she's an interesting case study of a desire for justice that corrupts#anyways sorry this wasnt that deep an analysis or anything i mean i didnt even pull up images it's a glorified rant more than anything lol#hm might edit this post to add images tomorrow ill see if i remember
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everyone on earth probably has a hypothetical farming sim in their mind's eye that they daydream about on occasion because of the unfortunate situation that despite there being like a thousand farming games released every minute only like 4 of them are any good. and i think this is fun, i think its good to keep the imagination alive. if i made a farming sim i would bring back rival marriages from the old friends of mineral town. i want to steal someones wife.
#jk jk you dont steal anyones wife or husband. but it wasnt a popular feature because people felt like they were stealing someones spouse#plus the fact that characters married eachother after a certain amount of time made them unavailable for player marriage adding a timelimit#if the player wants to get married. but thats why i want it BACK i think its 1) hilarious and 2) interesting and makes the world feel alive#NOW part of the reason (outside of it being an unpopular feature to begin with) its not in like any modern games is probably because#devs don't know how to deal with non-gender-locked marriage candidates with this#i think its easy. everyone is bisexual. not just playersexual. textually bisexual#it'll be interesting if they always have a set pairup regardless of player gender but it could also be interesting if there was like#a little algorithm to give a couple non-player pairups as options. maybe make it random#or if a dev was tooooo ambitious they could add a matchmaking system that the player could be involved with if they wanted to play cupid LO#but that seems too much for a farming game. thats usually a whole other game in itself#but yeah i think its easy. its not like farming sim marriage candidates are all that deep characters to begin with#i think itd be fine if you had a couple randomized rival marriages...... i think itd be neat#my other farming sim daydream is NO fucking combat for the love of god FREE ME from combat#that is why i like story of seasons just a bit more than stardew#stardew has so much good farming mechanics but god i hate the mines. i think its so soso sososososososo boring#i also dont really like the turn based battles in atelier games and most atelierlikes either#(well i liked it in mana khemia but that was more turn based focused than alchemy focused)#i came here to farm. i came here to make potions. i came here to micromanage numbers. do not make me battle#but that is purely a personal preference thing LOL a lot of people really love farming game combat. i dont tho <3#MY DAYDREAM FARMING SIM HAS NO COMBAT... AND YES CUCKHOLDRY#(jk jk thats not what rival marriages are. but thats how people talk about them. which is fascinating)#(unfortunately it makes me laugh so thats why i keep making jokes about it. sowwy <3 )
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Sometimes I just look at Isabeau and just know that if isat came out and I got into it when I was like 16 he would be my favorite character and I would've gone absolutely buck wild over this man and feel like he was laser targeting me. But alas Odile has a grip of steel on me rn due to her virtue of being a middle aged woman
#rat rambles#stars posting#I feel like the biggest change in my taste in characters as the years have gone by is Im now far more biased towards old ppl lol#although tbf I was also the one person in 2016 who actually liked asgore so maybe Ive always liked parhetic old ppl#but yeah the reason isa is past me bait is because hes an exploration and subversion of the sort of tropes I Hated as a kid#and I still dont like them so isa still appeals to me its just not as much as he would have to a younger me#I do genuinely love all the party very dearly tho theyre all soooo good#I think my favorite part of isabeau is how like. of everyone we get to see the least facets of him but like in a very good way#this is a man who hides and bottles shit hes so fun to rotate#his self image is so carefully controlled compared to everyone else which makes him an incredibly interesting character to analyze#and I love that despite him seeming like the most emotionally stable person here on the surface he still clearly has like. hashtag issues.#like he's in that beautiful zone where its so so fun imagining what it would look like to truly break him#<- normal things that normal ppl say. like me.#I may have my very light beef with alt looping aus as a concept but hes probably the most interesting alternate looper to me#also my light beef exclusively relates to king quest stuff which is why Im a big fan of duo looper aus with sif#but honestly. isa might be the only one that I genuinely think works better as a solo looper even with taking king quest into account#although bonnie comes close. I <3 looper bonnie I <3 seeing fictional children go through the horrors#I think theres a lot of fun to be had with any alt looper au tho I just am a huge king quest fan so I like it when my favorite elements of#it dont have to be handwaved#but yeah the real question is how would younger me feel about mirabelle#because on the one hand: acearo character#but on the other hand: I have always been a little hater abt romance so idk if younger me would rly be able to follow her character well#I wasnt exactly good at character analysis back then lol#except for the instances in which I was but I dont have that sort of faith in my younger self#yknow Im thinking abt my history of favorite characters now and I think me being one of few 2016 alphys enjoyers might have been a prophecy#she was my quote unquote third favorite but in reality she was second#I think she chara and peridot su teamed up to define my taste in fictional characters for the next several years#and somehow that lead to olivia becoming one of my favorite fictional characters of all time#I say somehow as if that isnt a very natural conclusion
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lately ive been trying to get into the mindset that its okay to not watch/play/read every new sonic thing the second it comes out and that i also dont have to speed through stuff as quickly as possible. but im still kinda mad that sonic x shadow generations is coming out at a very inconvenient time for me and i might have to wait a few days to play it
#the difference here is the stuff that made me want to change my mindset#is stuff that i wasnt particularly interested in but made myself play/watch anyway#while sonic x shadow generations is something im actively looking forward to and cant wait to play#unlike. sonic superstars for example. sorry people who really liked that game but i just wasnt super into it. and it costs too much#or maybe its not that i wasnt interested its that i wasnt having as much fun as i could have been because i was rushing it#but also a big part of the reason i feel the need to rush things is because i dont wanna get spoiled on the story .........#which is kinda hard to avoid if you Dont rush it sadly#anywya as for sxs gens . i probably could play it on release day if i like. pre ordered it at a gamestop near where im going#but . do i really wanna go through all that trouble when i could just have a friend pick it up for me at home or something
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Sometimes I want to yell at you to update your fics but I remember you’re a whole ass lawyer and have a life.
also writers block dont forget the writers block
#not to mention juggling all my interests#i actually write a lot of fics in my free time! but atm my total drama fics have all hit a wall#ill cycle back once ive had some time to shake off the cobwebs as it were#for now ill keep re-reading and being like 'who wrote this how do i coax her out again'#also anon i know this wasnt your intent so this is more of a general announcement#but no one is obligated to update their fics regardless of whether theyre employed or married or have kids or whatever#not that im abandoning my wips (i would NEVER. well. maybe#not atm) but if i wanted to? even if for no reason? thats something i could do#one thing about me: if im not enjoying doing something in my free time? im not doin it#as much as i love sharing my work with yall and hearing your always kind and wonderful feedback (i love yall thanks for reading)#that doesnt mean i owe you more of it#i feel very lucky to be able to share my writing and have people love it but at the end of the day its a hobby#a hobby i love and enjoy the shit out of but a hobby all the same#im entitled to pick it up and put it down as much as i like#and even. as crazy as it sounds. walk away.
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hmm thinking about the idea of love songs. i think the idea of what a love song is that we have in our culture is inherently a little bit flawed because we have the idea that any song written about romantic feelings is a love song and im thinking thats not exactly true because there is a difference between "romance" and "love". what i'm saying is not that love is a broader category and applies to things that are not romantic in nature. this is in fact true, but it's not what makes the important distinction here. the true distinction between "romance" and "love" is that romance is a societally defined type of interest in another person, whereas love is, essentially, a promise that you make when you build a relationship.
as such, what i call "love" here might be better defined as "care", as that implies more time and effort, but that's a different suitcase to unpack and largely unimportant to my point here, which is more about the societal conventions of what we call love songs. the point is, relationships can be built with other people, yes, but also animals, places, organizations, ideas, so on and so on, whereas romance requires another person, hence the difference between the ideas of "romance" and "love".
with that in mind, there are two types of songs we in western, english speaking, society call "love songs":
1) songs that are about a person's romantic interest in someone that is either definitively known to be unrequited (existing monogamous relationship, sexuality that doesn't align, etc) or simply not requited (aka romantic interest being unknown); and
2) songs about an existing relationship (keeping in mind my points about relationships not just being with people, but also places, things, etcetera) as is.
(some examples of the latter category: mountaintop by relient k, which defines the relationship in question as non-romantic; or i miss my mum by cavetown, which is - as the title implies - a song about the singer missing their mother.)
now, the thing that makes distinguishing these two difficult is the fact that songs about an existing relationship CAN be about wanting certain aspects of that relationship to change. in these cases, determining that a song is one or the other will hinge either on a) authorial intent or b) whether the song is more about what the singer wants (thereby implying #1) or the lack thereof in that relationship (which would imply #2).
to get back to the subject at hand: the term "love song", as we think of it, is an umbrella term that include both of these two categories, and i think that perhaps it is reductive to do so. with that in mind, i think perhaps it would be more appropriate for "love song" to mean only the latter, whereas the former is a category of its own. WHICH is not to say that the two can't overlap — just that if a song is about a person with whom the singer has no relationship, it cannot be considered a love song due to the fact that it is a song about infatuation, not love.
(another interesting wrinkle this provides is the fact that a song might start out in the first category and, as the writer develops a relationship with a person, might move into the second category as they write more.)
#anyway. just some of my thoughts on this as an aromantic songwriter#ari opinion hour#this goes a good deal to reconcile my constant writing of love songs with the fact that none of them are romantic#which im fine with as long as im keeping them to myself but it DOES feel dishonest when i hide that theyre love songs.#however this did also go some way to convince me that maybe care songs is an alternative that i SHOULD use because it is more applicable to#me than the concept of love which MOST people do not have the same perspective on as i do and having different definitions of the same word#is an important barrier to consider in communication#i will admit i do think im clinging to my care songs being love songs due to my relationship with an organization to which love is very#important as i dont want to go back on my promises to that organization as it IS very important to me#anyway. can you tell ive been reading house of leaves by the fact that this appeared fully fledged in my head in fully academic language#but for real like thinking about it now and even my old love songs like most would probably think to see them that they would go in the#first category and they just. DO NOT. at least not the ones that were written after i was like Yeah im aro again#its interesting the ones i wrote in the brief period where i thought i WASNT aro in like mid hs those i WOULD put in the first category#even though like i do NOT think i was right about it being romantic#but the ones after i was like Yea im aro again are like. Thats definitely the latter#part of it is i did find a voice that was like genuinely Mine and wasnt just writing sort of generic love songs#love songs in the typical usage i mean so they were really more infatuation songs#but like i was still with the last person irl who i wrote these about divorced from like... my aroness because of how much i liked him#and i would still put those in the second category#so part of it is awareness as well#so. yeah. its interesting#i probably should just suck it up and start calling them care songs. even if people dont know what i mean to say that
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i ship inhun in a way that differwnt and more swagful than anyone else btw.
#TBFHHHHH i know i know i knowwww i say a lot. but i dont even ship in in the traditional sense#i dont think it will b canon and i dont rlly WANT it to b canon. its just insane like ZAMNNNNN why r u looking at each other like thatatttt#i dont think that if (IF) inho reveals his identity gihun is gonna magically b like Oh my god… okay well i like u now. more the opposite#and i dont think inho genuinely likes gihun all that much. i think hes obsessed w him in a way that borders on it but. u know#to inho gihun mostly just represents the parts of himself hes locked away. hes like the person inho used to be or cld have been#i think he DOES want whats best for gihun but like. just in his own opinion#to him whats best is to just.. pretend these issues dont exist and move on.#i think being wrapped up in the games is sickening no mattter what side ur on and he knows this. and just wants gihun to forget#i also do think he sees Something special in gihun. but its not like Ahhhh come and rule by my side 😈 LOL#yeah like i said. the recognition of the self. DONT GO DOWN THIS PATH MAN FUCK OFFFFFF#um. also yeah gihun i dont think wld have such a thrn around to like date himmmm oh my god lol#i think its likely hell end up Not killing inho for various reasons and possibly even leaving room for redemption#but yeah i dont think he wld ever trust him even. i dont think he wld let all that slide 😭😭😭#gihun x youngil is bantssss. but not real at all sadly#rhe best fic i read of them was a pre series fic where inho wasnt the front man yet. and he met gihun by chance#and kinda used him to convince himself that what he was doing was right. For The Greater Good etc#i cant remember what it was called but it was sooo good i need to find it sometime#sniff….. living in a sad world where every body mischaracterises them sooooo bad and evil.#THE BEST INHUN CONTENT was the animation of them over the megamind breakup scene. MY GOD#ill be honest. igaf abt their dynamic soooo hard but htemain reaosn i ‘ship’ them is bc theyre both INSANELY FINE. AND I NEED THEM BADLY#and. im obsessed w them separately. so of course they are making out sloppy style in my mind#ill b honest as well i dont think gihun is in the right state of mind for aany of That AT ALLLL rn either.#and as well w inho not being intersted in that way. and also he shot his brother bc it was aconflict of interests. btw.#whatever tho lol the memes and shit r funny as fuckkkkk so idc. keep fucking#anyways sangihun 🔛🔝 for fucking everrrrrer in terms of an actual ship#tho i dont think they wld ever be canon either. well i mean. for obvious reasons#but also bc i dont PERSONALLY think sangwoo wld ever allow himself that. BYE#idk idk idk maybe i am wrong and i know nothing.#SORRY. ik i am fighting invsisible demons again i just saw a post abt Sickos who know Nothing abt the Themes…. NO GUYS.. PROMMY THATS NOT ME
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didnt even touch on the sandra lynn stuff int he tags of the last post bcos if i talk about her im liable to explode. get behind me, middle-aged divorced woman proficient in archery
#wasnt around for sy as it aired but ive seen the remnants of the liveblogging and its so foul#the genuine misogyny....#saw someone claim gilear was a better parent than her and i had to turn off my computer#i know we all love gilear and hes been tbh redeemed by comedy where sandra lynn doesnt get that#but like. be serious.#that tonal shift in difference of how gilear and sandra lynn are received is wicked interesting to me#and like pre-emptive disclaimer this isnt Gilear Problematic I Want Discourse. im just thinkin thoughts here#the way fy episode 1 gilear actively left his wife n daughter and calls her a demon even if he doesnt mean it that way#but then fig/emily takes an interest in him and from there hes a radically different character whos just kind of. pathetic.#im hesitant to call it flanderization because initial gilear only got like 10 minutes of screentime before wet cat gilear took the stage#but like. in ep1 both faeth parents are shown as equally flawed and on an even narrative playing field#which is then upset as fig latches onto gilear as a comedic force and hes not as much 'dad with tense relationship to daughter he disowned'#as 'guy the pcs do bits with'. esp in fy he doesnt do much but let fig live in his apartment sometimes#(and if u rlly wanna analyse u could say something abt her basically taking care of him instead of the other way around)#this then rlly impacts sandra lynn! bcos now fig has One tense parental relationship to rest all her angst on#and where gilear gets bits. sandra lynn really doesnt get much spotlight until the prison sequence#and the lack of focus on sandra lynn Is lampshaded in-universe and i like the resolution#and then u get to sy where sandra lynn gets as much spotlight as gilear but she doesnt have his comedic shield#so instead she has the dramatic spotlight and both the story and the characters are weirdly obsessed w her sex life#and yeah i know im an aro autist maybe i take cheating a bit lightly. but its in the same category as the 'zelda is mad at gorgug' shit#shes made a spectacle but because shes not gilear and society has notions about sex she gets judged for it#like something abt gilear disowning fig getting dropped while sandra lynn is scrutinised so much rlly rubs me the wrong way#she is FLAWED that is what THE JAIL EP WAS ABOUT!!!#she is TRYING arguably more than GILEAR but she doesnt have the absolution of rule of funny to fall back on#i go insane. i go insane#post not mentioning jy bcos i havent seen it. once again middle-aged divorced women proficient in archery get behind me ill protect u
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